#we love lotl on this blog

[krakaslaug]

I'm so confused... why do people like lotl and think we're getting any points with this band? The lyrics don't make any sense or have any meaning, they sing with a terrible german accent (just sing german at that point) and they don't really commit to the metal genre. The only thing they got going for them is their vibe/look. I mean, please enlighten me, maybe I got it wrong since so many germans seem to like them lol

I should probably preface this by saying that they've been a long time favourite band of mine so I'm super biased and can only give you my subjective opinion so yeahhh...

I genuinely think they make great music and I think none of your arguments actually are arguments. For one, I don't think the accent is that bad. It's way worse when they're just talking instead of singing lol, and it doesn't impact the overall quality of the music at all. There's worse things than having an accent. Personally I find Chris Harms' voice very soothing actually, at times operatic and strong when he does scream vocals. I think they're all good with their instruments too.

Them not committing to the metal genre is also not a real critique imo? They're very self-aware of where they stand in the scene, there's plenty of instances where they make jokes about it themselves (even in the esc bewerbungsgespräch video itself) and they've said themselves that they just want to do what they want, that they want to be their most authentic and that had them happen to fall somewhere into glam metal. Idk if you just mean Blood and Glitter in particular but there's a lot of variety in their songs from way heavier stuff to songs like See You Soon. Blood and Glitter, I would say, is a lot more "mainstream" even, so it just rides that line.

The song itself is about life btw. Chris Harms said himself that the Blood part is nothing negative. It's about life that flows through you. The glitter, the beauty of life and experiences. The up and down of life.

And yeah. Of course their looks play a part in it.

I guess overall - and I mean no disrespect to any of the other contestants. I found positive things about all of them (except maybe Ikke Hüftgold...) - but we had the choice between not one but two Sad Boy Ballads and other songs that were pretty generic within their own genres. And with LotL Germany would send something interesting again. Something that is not pop, that's a little heavier, flashier and sticks out with both visuals and sound. Especially after the whole thing around Electric Callboy last year where the critique was that the other six songs were all the same with little to no variety at all. So even if LotL hadn't won this, I think, personally, that this year was a huge improvement to last year. But as a fan I'm incredibly happy!

I'll stop here because I feel like I'm justifying myself when I don't have to, and I happened to see that I'm not the only one who got this exact ask, so yeeeeah. I'm love them sorry not sorry. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to ramble for a bit hehe

[ask-the-lotl-sisters]

HELLO!

Hi guys! We decided to make our own blog!!

Yup! We thought it would be fun to talk to more people. Feel free to ask us anything! Just please, keep it appropriate..

Here’s everything about us!!!

LORE

Names: Lore, Loremaster3, Lore the silly, Lorreta

Gender: Female

Pronouns: She/Her

Text Color: Pink

Sexuality: Asexual

Personality: A carefree airhead on the surface, she was severely neglected as a child, which led her to believe nobody truly cares about her. Axa is her sister, and since she passed her parents hated her. She tried to repress her pain for years, acting silly to hide it. She loves Girl Scouts, fairy tales, and musical theatre.

ANSLEY

Names: Ansley, Clone Lore, C.L,

Gender: Female

Pronouns: She/They

Text Color: Orange

Sexuality: Lesbian

Personality: Levelheaded and sweet, she always tries to be the voice of reason. She has severe anxiety, leading her to have many anxiety attacks. She feels that she’s just a lesser version of Lore. She has social anxiety and depression because of this. After her girlfriend, Ruby, (temporarily) died, she started cutting herself to ease the pain. She tries to stay calm most of the time, but they make it hard.

AXA

Names: Axa, Axa Lotl, Mirror Demon

Gender: Female

Pronouns: She/It

Text Color: Blue

Sexuality: Aroace

Personality: Confined to mirrors, she acts like Lore’s dead sister. In reality, she’s a manifestation of Lore’s jealousy and guilt for her sister after she passed. She acts very egocentric, and loves messing with people, especially Lore.

Mod here: hi besties!!! Got everything ready! Just please STAY APPROPRIATE, MOD IS A MINOR. Feel free to pretty please send asks? Thanks!

[andordean]

Intro Post Is Here

I promised myself I would make an intro post with my fic list when I hit a followers milestone, and lo and behold, the time has come to make good on that promise. 

(Breathe in. You got this, Dor. Ok, here we go.)

Welcome, friends. If you followed me sometime in the last year and a half, here’s a funny story for you: I used to write Witcher fics (a lot even, at one point) (and I pray I will write again, though at the moment brain be words what no speaky English). (But I digress.)

What you can find on my blog: shitposting, sarcasm, salt—and Ciri. A lot of Ciri. (Often tagged as: "brat <3". No reason.) Also, many Ciri pairings. We support most Ciri pairings in this house.

What you can find on my AO3: Also a lot of Ciri in different pairings, or sometimes in multiple pairings, as (a) I am a multishipper and (b) Ciri is bi and can do no wrong and (c) has two hands and a hatred for cages and also (d) poly/open relationships are the new love triangles and we need more of them, actually.

Specifically:

"Blood Ties" verse, aka Queen of Cintra verse (aka mammoth), or a 100k words novel in three parts about what happens if neither witchering nor ruling the empire (nor dying, I guess) fully satisfies our girl's ambitions. (Answer: let’s go and shake up the geopolitical landscape of the post-TW3 Continent, reclaim your throne, piss off Dijkstra in the process, make new allies and enemies both, grow and heal, get what you wanted, find indulgence, and also love. Ships aplenty, including some nobody else thought of. Just saying.)

"Broken Pieces" verse, or what happens if Cahir survives, but somewhat fails to move on (he tries), and Ciri fails to be indifferent (she also tries). (Answer: witchering shenanigans, but also some family reunions, Ceallach being a Smart Cookie, Geralt being the Daddest Dad, Ciri being a brat, but also right, but also needing a reality check and to get her head out of her ass. Spoiler alert: happy/bittersweet ending. It’s Witcher-verse, after all.)

"Splinters" verse, or what happens when the author develops a brainrot. (Answer: modern!AU with the main theme being: everyone is thirsty for Cahir/Eamon’s hands. Banter, pinning, thirst, smut, and more banter. Past that comes back to bite everyone in the ass, heartbreak, and a happy ending. Always a happy ending. And Angouleme being the Best Gremlin.)

“The Ghost of You”, or what happens when Ciri gets Ideas, and tries to use Cahir to get what she wants. (Formerly known as the Cancel WIP. Mind the tags with this one; set during LotL, unhealthy coping mechanisms aplenty, trauma and PTSD galore, leading to the first steps of healing. It’s always, always about healing with these two.)

“Sing To Me In The Dark”, or what happens if Cahir finds himself in Kaer Morhen to help defend it from the Hunt. (Answer: the author wants to know too. Although the author mostly knows, but brain no speaky English, see above.)

“Hunter’s Moon”, or what happened in Beauclair during the hansa stay there, from the point of view of a certain succubus. (Answer: a certain vampire attempting to be a smartass, not always succeeding; smut and banter, and more smut. Also, a heartbreak.)

If you like any of the above and tell me about it, chances are I’ll be making you a birthday gift the following year.

In the meantime, enjoy the shitposting, the salt, the sarcasm—and Ciri.

[borisbubbles]

Eurovision 2023: #23

23. GERMANY Lord of the Lost - "Blood and glitter" 26th place

Decade ranking: 66/116 [Above Hurricane, below Fyr og Flamme]

Well, we've arrived in the zone of Mild Like, also known as the "I like them, buuuuut". There's eleven of these motherfuckers in this vaguely positive purgatory, so let's do some but-kicking for Goodness.

As you know, I didn't like the 2023 contest much, so a lot of these entries are either mixed with slightly more good than evil, or kinda bad but i enjoyed them anyways. Bringing up the rear of that crop is Lord of the Lost, who are kind of both?

Honestly, kind of a similar deal to Latvia. It seemed Germany would finally be getting televote points courtesy of a non-embarrassing entry that wasn't also dead on arrival, and it also looked like the televote score would be a sufficient enough amount to avoid dead last for a year... but then they only scored 15 televotes and finished last anyway.

The problem is two-fold. The first one is that Voyager exist, jesus talk about an outclass. "Promise" is several magnitudes better than "Blood and glitter" both as a song and an act, the literal centrepiece of the Grand Final's ironclad Estonia-Moldova streak. (expect several of songs from that streak to rank ABSURDLY high). By the time Germany were up, only a short while after Australia, you instinctively compare the two and realize LotL doesn't pack the same impact (issue #2)

Why though? Well, I hypothesize "Blood and glitter" doesn't quite know what to do with itself. The start is great, though. I love the first minute or so of "Blood and Glitter", a camp unapologetic fiesta of body horror (in part because Chris forgot to un-untuck himself oop), grindhouse metal and LGBT allyness. We ALL like a bit of "Blood and glitter, Sweden bitter".

At least, i hope you did, because you're going to hear that line all the time during the remaining two minutes.

See, once "Blood and Glitter" hits that second minute mark, it succumbs to its own inane repetitions and rapidly turns into a non-event. THIS IS AN UNACCEPTABLE RECOURSE FOR A GLAM ROCK SONG. NO amount of Danny Voyager absense can amend that. Is it that difficult to just... provide different words for the bridge and final chorus? More aggro camera cuts? A wider colour pallette near the end? (yeah i know Blood, but WHERE IS THE GLITTER?!) A dress change? Some form of growth, some form of evo? When even the folks that know no English pick up on the persistent rehashing because the bag of tricks has been EMPTIED by the halfway mark.

So like Latvia, I don't think Germany deserved another bad result, but once it happened, yeah of course it did. Would not skip on the playlist though. And hey, nobody can take away from them that they are King Charles's favourites. 😊 (lol i'm like 85% sure Charles had no idea who they were and walked into them by chance but who am i to shatter dreams?)

THE RANKING

also for the first time since I started blogging, a mid-ranking placement REVISION!

Nature is healing. 😇

[cherriepop]

helllloooo!!!! you can call me Vi! (or jesse or any other name as long as it’s funny) — im 17 and i make up fun little characters in my head (oc blog here!) we’re still learning the tumblr ropes and have a hard time interacting w/ others but we love love love to talk and make friends so pls don’t be scared to interact w/ us !!! we just need some time to warm up c:

medias in progress (help us lh) :: house md, magnus archives, trigun, shiki, isat, tbhk, ace attorney trilogy, replaying yttd, OK K.O., utena, mlp, rereading pjo, rereading lotl, tftp & faz frights, cowboy bebop, ever after high

carrd for legal reasons ::

gist of it though is endos & proship dni, as well as nsfw accounts. we also aren’t here to debate on anything, so leave us alone if thats what youre here for!!!!!

usual fronters are eden/emeline/air fryer🪞, phantom🕸️, genesis💾, and chara❤️‍🩹 !! questions about them or about our system are welcome as long as it’s genuine curiosity and not to be mean

[gayregis]

btv, I'm the same anon that once asked you why you don't like any ship of regis with women. like a succubus or vampire. you answered in a kind of mocking way. I don't know, if you were offended by my question, I apologize. but I was really interested why you don't like these ships and I thought maybe you could explain it as well as ship with detlaff?

i’m sorry i answered in a spiteful way, the likely reason for it is that when i started this blog (because my url is... gayregis...) i got a lot of hate and harassment, a lot of asks hounding me and asking why i don’t think regis dates women. i apologize, i accidentally assumed your ask was another one of those that was coming from a place of aggression instead of one of like, actual curiosity and wanting to know my thoughts. i appreciate your genuine interest, it’s refreshing as well as flattering, thank you!

why i dislike regis x dettlaff is a really long post which can be found here, i feel like i pretty much said everything there

as for regis and women... hm... well, i think it can be hard to describe why a character feels gay to you, sometimes. it’s easier with characters like dandelion, he dresses very colorfully. i think as for regis, he is gentle and kind but comes from a background of being in turmoil, not knowing himself, trying to be someone he’s not for social approval. i think that this is what initially struck me as something similar to “a gay experience,” or at least something like my experience was, where i tried to be someone i wasn’t to gain social approval, and it made me miserable.

i’ll basically be explaining here why i think sapkowski wrote in some things (most likely, not meaning to, lol) that feel like this gay experience i describe, but only wanted to show him having relations with women because, well. the sexuality of sapkowski’s characters is an entirely different post which would take years to write, i think. but from the text, we can see that regis struggled with identity in baptism of fire, and when he speaks of his backstory he describes being so uncomfortable and nervous when trying to speak to girls that he would need to drink before doing so, to alter how he acted. this feels to me (obviously, a non-canon interpretation that one can disagree with, but since this ask has asked, i’m just going to give my opinion) like he initially approached love in a pretty unhealthy way, forcing himself to see women as desirable and forcing himself to flirt, instead of just allowing love to happen naturally. this feels like compulsory heterosexuality to me, and is a relatable experience from a gay perspective.

on the other hand, in the present, we see him forming very good friendship with geralt in a natural manner. they slip easily in and out of conversation, they have multiple “asides” away from the group where they discuss things privately, regis becomes his sort of confidant and advisor and almost “second in command” of the hansa (referencing: in baptism of fire, when geralt tells regis if the plan doesn’t work out the two of them can press on together alone, him swimming across the yaruga and regis flying across as a bat... and in ttos, when geralt tells angouleme to tell regis, “regis will know what to do”). i feel like this demonstrates trust, care, companionship, etc, that has been created naturally, without any substance use to numb the senses or anxieties, and when regis is in a place of knowing himself, knowing peace and not forcing himself to rush into anything. it’s healing.

we can see that regis’ past relationship with a woman (the only one he mentions from his past, before he died) did not turn out well in the end. he drank too much, she left him, he was upset and used this as an excuse to drink more. obviously, very unhealthy behavior. while i actually think that regis and queen of the night* had a good relationship while it was still good, as she canonically stabilized him a little and was a steady force in his life, i feel like there’s no real exploration of this romance and it’s rather coming from the general perspective of “she helped me out.” it’s not so much an argument for regis finding women attractive as it is for regis needing someone to help him realize there’s something more to life than just partying. this relationship can be interesting though and i have thought about it, but it’s important to remember that also, this was a long time ago (a couple of centuries) in regis’s life, pretty much right before he went off the deep end and “died.” so it kind of represents the “past” him that he used to be, rather than the “present” him, in my opinion.

as for natanis** the succubus in toussaint, i feel that that also was a very “throwaway” romance for regis that sapkowski threw in. the point of toussaint is that everyone in the company gets distracted and finds it difficult to leave because it’s such a perfect, dreamlike, fairytale land -- and of course, in sapkowski’s vision, this means all characters enter into a heterosexual romance -- geralt and fringilla, dandelion and anna henrietta, milva and the baron de trastamara, cahir and the baroness nique (and also dandelion and the baroness nique... yeah. okay), regis and the succubus, angouleme and the young knights... it’s all very cliche and fun because it’s intended to be. but it really means nothing for regis’s character or his attraction to women asides from being a throwaway joke of irony that regis (a know-it-all who speaks for so long your eyes glaze over) kept a succubus satisfied. it also only affects his character when fringilla uses this information against him as blackmail, and again, when it’s stated that everyone has kind of grown attached to toussaint. so, there is no actual real romance between regis and the succubus, it’s more of a narrative thing and a joke than an actual argument for him liking women, and this is why i don’t really see it as such.

these are how i feel about these two main regis x female characters ships, and so i headcanon that he’s gay when the saga takes place because he’s found this sort of inner peace and is happy with himself. and because he has fulfilling and kind of intimate relationship with geralt developed over the books (which can be headcanoned as romantic)

--- footnotes

* as cdpr has named her queen of the night, for she has no other name than “very special vampire girl” in baptism of fire, so i’ll accept cdpr’s naming, and for quick reference, i call her “queenie,” because 1) it’s cute 2) ‘regis’ means king, so ... king and queen, of course.

** as cdpr has named her, again, she has no canon name in lotl asides from “the succubus”, so i’ll accept that, i feel it’s only decent to refer to female characters by names instead of vague titles.

[speciated]

😳😑❤️😌🥀💕*stars one idont wanna find it*🥰🤯👌🙈🎊 im allowed to send a lot its ok. idr what half these were

😳 dgdg that's very very general and you'll know by the end of the rest of these but! i think you have a really good heart and i think you shld be really proud of yourself, you're doing great right now and youll definitely deserve a good sweet life when u get one! knowing u feels like there's just always sun shining directly on my brain cells, there's just something so great about you that makes me happy n i don't see in many people at all. i think you're doing a great job taking care of the clown motel and your rats, you're really an asset 2 the world and everyone is lucky you're here! also i think your sexy

😑 bro you could never annoy me i think it's physically impossible. you could try n do the most annoying thing you could think of and i think id be like 'okayyy 😘😘🥰🥰🥰😘😌😌'

❤️ yes!! easily #1 ever can't wait to go from mutuals to friends maybe 😳

😌 you are super funny ik i just said this but calling with you is so great bc u r incredibly funny i couldn't stop giggling when u were making fun of me for being weak to the cold

🥀 one of my serious favourite things about you is that you want the same nice simple life as i do!! naturally i think it makes u an objectively sweet n great person because u agree with me but also means we get to talk abt the future and it makes me happy

💕 more than anything bro 🥺 (sorry for using emoji it's gonna get confusing)

*stars one idont wanna find it* do you count as my best friend if im in love w you? i mean of course you are but it seems like ur cheating bc nobody can beat you . the best friends council will look into this matter

🥰 your blog rating out of 10... it says here... 🧐 69??😳

🤯 secrets... god kinda the same as yours, but the first selfies i saw of you i may have saved one bc i thought you looked really good n got a crush on you 😳 idr if we had even talked much or at all at that point but also definitely already had a crush on u first time we talked

👌i think you are very pretty! think that's a good word but maybe it's not strong enough, you look really really pretty in dresses

🙈 i... hmm.. I'm vibing with you and having never seen you at all i think you look like an axy lotl! the one on my keychain

🎊 I Would Marry You If You Asked.

[that-rad-trash]

Blog O’ love

I find it somewhat hard for me to talk to my friends, I made it so 2019 I can try to connect to them once again but found it hard. Also, another thing is that I try to find out what I am or what I’m going to be.

So here are /some/ people that I want to try to talk to again, but it’ll be hard cause I’m heading to become antisocial at times. @wolflobalove <3 I remember you, you were the very 1st person I met on Tumblr which was YEARS ago and you somehow still stuck with me and passed our cringy stage. (Pretty sure we’re still in it.) @thisisonlyoneword / other accounts they use is a close friend, we talk almost every day and sometimes doodle together when we have nothing to do. They’re forgiving even if I make the same mistake and the same vice versa. Also a person I can actually be myself around.  @reborn-again-universe Someone I trust, we don’t talk a whole lot but I see them liking my blogs and talking to me in dm if I ever wanted to chat. 

@it-be-james James talks to me at times and I notice that he’s online most of the time, thanks for being around knowing that I can chat with you, also sorry, I don’t know how to start a chat. 

@axie-lotl Reee, someone I love talking to, we drew together, or did whatever. Thank you for being a friend and hopefully still being a friend to me. Sorry for the sudden ‘not talking’ I find it hard for me to talk. I also see a bunch of your reblogs/blogs <3 ily  @edgykoalagod A Minecraft lover, smh, ily broski. Keep up your creativity! 

@fewy Father fish, busy boy, we don’t talk a lot but I spam his dm with memes. @mommageode You too buddy, never give up on me when I didn’t talk in 2 years. Feel free to dm me on discord/Tumblr!

[gayregis]

Hi, just wanted to ask, how did you get into the witcher franchise (did you read the books before you played the games or vice versa?). Love your blog, byeeee :)

ty for the ask!! i hope you dont mind if i go too in-depth because i was legit thinking about this earlier today... 

tldr: i played tw3 and liked it, then read the books

i got into the witcher because one of my favorite gaming youtubers was doing a playthrough of tw3 on youtube in around i think september 2017. i liked this specific gaming youtuber for being shit at games and not caring about it... but tw3 was a different game. it felt like the decisions mattered, that there was an actual story here, that when this youtuber made shitty decisions and didn’t really care about the characters involved, i got frustrated because this game seemed really good... so i picked up the game myself and played it though, it was magnificent. not to r/witcher “the witcher 3 is literally the best game created in this history of ever” but it was sincerely good... not only does it have a great story, characters, and graphics, but it is genuinely comfortable to play as a game, even if you’re not great at games (i like playing video games but i’m not good at them when it comes to combat, i literally just would prefer to hack and slash through). so, i played through tw3 and the fact that it made me cry multiple times i found to be really interesting... but it was still just a game to me, it wasn’t something i thought about when i have time to daydream headcanons. i had read i think the witcher (short story) halfway through playing, just to get a feel of what tw3 came from, but from that, i realized the books and the games were incredibly different entitities, and i decided to not read the books until i had finished the game, or at least until i had more free time on my hands (mind i was in high school and was a senior, and during this time was when i was submitting college applications... exceptionally stressful, and the reading/writing part of my brain was absolutely fried from essay writing and reviewing). i was particularly struck by geralt and ciri’s relationship and the isle of mists quests fucked me up pretty bad. 

then around later 2017, i was really enjoying tw3, and had finished tw3′s base game and hearts of stone, and was now making my way into blood & wine. i was just playing it like normal, then came the part when geralt met regis. at first i wasn’t too interested (i mean, i was, but in the story of blood & wine, not in the books) until the little journal text pop-up appeared on my screen. you know, the one about quests you just received, or characters you just met. it was going through the motions of saying i finished this quest, picked up this new one, i was all like fine, fine, okay, alright, and then it just fucking puts regis’ long-ass name on the screen taking up a good amount of my FOV and i am immediately like, what? what the fuck? who the fuck? that’s the name? of the guy we just met? that guy??? he didn’t seem like someone with a name like that? who the fuck IS this guy.

so i head over to the wiki page for regis. i thumb through the basic information, i’m pretty interested, this quest stuff to find ciri sounds interesting. i decide to give the witcher books another try, because i have more free time now and am way more invested as everyone here as characters. also, i want to find out more about yennefer, because she was being badmouthed by everyone i saw online, and i wanted to read more about her and see if she was really so bad (spoilers: she’s not at all, the internet is just misogynistic).

i don’t think that i’m going to actually really care about these books, i just want more flavor and explanation about how in hell a witcher met a vampire and these two somehow became friends. so, i don’t care about reading them in order. i go online and find fan translations of every book, i open baptism of fire and i just start reading the bit about the fish soup. i’m suddenly just laughing my ass off, really interested in who these other characters are, milva and cahir, and how dandelion seems to actually be the best friend to geralt that he was said to be in tw3. i also notice immediately that geralt... oh my god, geralt’s such a cranky bitch. i’m SHOCKED at how annoying geralt is. i realize that this is probably what geralt’s been like, this whole time, and tw3 just gave me a sterilized version of him. i’m trying to decide if i like this change or not, at first i HATED it... but then realized it actually gave him a character, where in tw3 he feels a little more... empty, waiting for the player to project a personality onto him.

so, i just read all of the hansa bits of baptism of fire, skipping over anything i don’t understand. i am saddened when i can’t find any more, so i move onto tower of the swallow. and then lady of the lake. “oh, so that’s why geralt was surprised to see regis in blood & wine...” feeling at a loss after reading stygga, i start at the beginning and make my way through the books chronologically, like they should be read. i soon realize that this series really isn’t about killing monsters at all, and i’m thrilled. i thought the series was just going to be about geralt killing things in a swamp and reporting back to whoever hired him, like in tw3... and i was wrong. this series is about personal connections! relationships! ... and fatherhood. [see read more for personal junk]

i can’t remember when i started disliking tw3. it must have been around the time that i finished the books (im using the word finished loosely... i still havent finished some scenes because theyre too violent to read and continue with my day in peace, and i also read tos/lotl by skipping around, so i never got the full experience of reading them as full novels).

i just distinctly remember returning to my tw3 new game+ save after rereading the fish soup scene, and thinking about how lonely the game felt... i just felt so dispairingly alone, this loneliness that i hadn’t felt while playing before, that i had to put the game down. i returned to the game again, but i had just reread edge of the world... and i felt so alone again. 

so reading the books ruined tw3 for me, not out of malicious intent, but just because i think i realized geralt isn’t meant to be the lone wolf. the novels center around him and his family and friends, and i just genuinely missed that when replaying tw3. plus, i began to realize a bunch of things, like ciri’s scar is supposed to be bigger, geralt’s supposed to wear his hair in a headband, yennefer’s hair is actually curly, dandelion’s supposed to actually be in the game. there were so many inconsistencies with the characters i had imagined while reading the books that eventually i just stopped playing tw3 (i already played it once, so nbd) and got really into the books. 

sometime later i saved up like $80 to buy the paperback versions of the books (UK versions including season of storms) because i knew i was in really deep lol and i wanted the official translations super badly, also we were doing an assignment in class that allowed us to do something with our favorite book, but we needed to have it in-person and not as an e-book, so it was the perfect excuse. much time spent on hansa headcanons later and... here we are today.

a read-more, because this is more personal. 

the witcher series picked me up at an eerily appropriate time. two things in it stood out to me: 1) geralt’s relationship with ciri 2) regis’s alcoholism. 

i distinctly remember an event where i started crying in front of my parents because my dad was being so absent in my life or maybe it was because they were arguing, something like this... and i remember referencing tw3 isle of mists quest actually by saying “i shouldn’t have to learn it (good parenting) from a video game” ... lol. it wasn’t an epic burn from a 17 yo, but it was just a painful remark made in anger. i still think back to it because of how first watching geralt hug ciri made me feel and how i was actually really bitter because i was jealous of ciri for about a week after completing the quest. then i kind of pushed it out of my mind and didn’t think so much about it, until the night i mentioned it.

in late march of 2018, something very bad happened in my family. that’s probably the best way to describe it. the situation ended in my parents finally separating. my mom and i were pretty afraid and lost after that. after i had collected my thoughts and everything and went back to as “normal” as i could, about a month later, when the creative part of my brain finally began to function again and wasn’t inhibited due to fear, i clung to the witcher more than i did before... and this time, actually particularly to regis, because guess who has a whole redemption arc relating to not being alcoholic and being a genuinely good person who speaks gently and heals the vulnerable?