#we just gotta lije

[quasarkisses]

yknow i gotta say i think you're reading way too far into the human meat poll. Its not about human meat becoming buyable its about if in a hypothetical simulation world you were given the chance to eat human meat would you. No consequences no societal implications. You dont have to want to but lije the queston is not should cannibalism become acceptable its would you, if given the chance, eat no consequence human meat.

I realize you might be trying to be helpful in a way I'm not understanding, but to me this reads as: "You engaged in the hypothetical in a way that I don't like, stop it and play by the fake rules." My apologies if this reply is needlessly brisk.

Also no shame to anyone who answers yes or prefers the simple answers to the poll, I just don't work like that.

The question phrasing to get the kind of answer you think is "correct" for the offered scenario is not the question posed. "If I lived in a vacuum where commerce and human suffering didn't exist, and a plate of nameless manmeat appeared magically before me, would I eat it?"

The answer then is yes, probably, because I live in a world where human flesh appears before me and that's all there is. Just instant cells with human DNA that I could eat or not eat, if choices still matter at all in that vacuum.

"Would I eat ethically sourced human?" No, I wouldn't. No one could. That is my answer. No amount of "but it's all okay because..." works because it remains within the bounds of human existence.

Because there is no ethical source. We have not seen a world that is close enough to ethically sourced animal meat OR ethical treatment of human beings to venture a decent guess.

[g1gglee-rxccoon]

I dare you to infodump about your favorite topic

Infodump:

IT (2017 ver)

First. The gang.

PATRICK HOCKSTETTER. HOT, HOT AND MEAN VERY HOT VERY MEAN

HENRY BOWERS. acts like my oldest brother also bitch and also very upsetti

IT

This clown bitch is so interesting yet so boring at the same time

Like dude you live in a sewer with kids you eat???

Losers!!

Bill- HES A LITTLE GUY ALSO HE'S LIKE A LITLE KID LIKE HES SO PLANNED OUT AND COOL AND LIKE NOOOO GEORGIE!! WE GOTTA FIND HIM GUYS :((

Beverly- HOT. pretty. aAaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAA

Ben- hes so smart wtf

Eddie- FAVOURITE GERMAPHOBE EVER

Mike- he's a little guy :)

Richie- annoying chaotic little shit ishfh

Stanley- HIS FATHER SUCKS BALLS.

(Same applies to beverly's father)

AND TO SUMMARISE IT BASICALLY GEORGIE AKA BILLS BROTHER GETS EATEN BY PENNYWISE AND BILL IS LIKE HES IN THE BARRENS!!! AND THE OTHERS ARE LIKE ITS NOT WORTH IT BUT THEY PLAY IN PISS AND SHIT SEWER WATER AND OUT COMES BEN, "THIS GUY'S LEAKING HAMBURGER HELPER!" RICHIE SAID AND THEN HES LIJE GET IN THERE DOCTOR K😼

AND THEN THEY STEAL STUFF AND YEAH AND LIKE OH SHIT AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA SHIT GETS FUCKED UO AND THERES A ROCK FIGHT

"GO BLOW YOUR DAD YOU MULLET WEARING ASSHOLE"

ITS JUST SO GOOD AND FUNNY AND ALSO A LITTLE SCARY AT THE SAME TJME AND THEN LIKE IT GETS REVEALED IN THE SECOND MOVIE BUT RICHIE IS IN FUCKING LOVE WOTH EDDIE AND ITS JUST. AAAAAAAAAA

[solardick]

Happy BS day. Its valentines. I’m not allowed knowing love. Because god’s an asshole. And enjoys fucken with me. And it’s always ever going to be just me. And know that in dying. I dont care anymore. That stupid girl they always talking about is going to be there. Today, yay! My lung hurts. Smoke another ciggarette.

Wonder whys the dovstor arw going to say when i ask to be euthanized. Just send me a guy already so i can spend the rest of my short life being fucked. Like i have been since my first memory. And Since im never going to add anything to life. And for the first tome this year theres the semblance of winter. Its only ten degrees warmer than it should be today and not 20.

Oh and the girl is gone. Wonder who’s gonna replace her.

Yay for being punished all fucken day. Get the fuck out of my way.

And fuck tarot im done. All y’all fo id give me the oppositre of what i create and my intent. Fuck this rapist culture. Soend tbe rest of my short life gaming and hetting drunk. An dmy dragon image in now trash.

Not allowed being healthy others control my life. Wonder what having independance from malicious influences. Something id like to experiemce before i die. Ive never been. Maybe one day. Ill go. Lol.

I nailed it in that dragon image though. My perfect reflection. And the tower crumbles. Everytime.

Mmmnn i can feel it. Serpent. Its stirring. And after fetting hit in the face with a box. Fuck this. Im done. Fuck all of you. Go sit in the corner and wait.

Souffy, fuck off pls.

And… uh, maybe she realized she was in love with me. And could no longer stay. It was a nice two step dance we did though. Was fun. Bye luv. Maybe one day.

It’s always sexual. I have a very lovable image. I just be me. I always get fucked over. But circumstances won’t allow. Im locked down. Man. And they won’t leave me be. I left my family what eight years ago now. Haven’t had any peace pressence has always been there. … born in hell. I dint know what else to say.

Well you know what they say. Gotta poor your sexuality into something else. Like making love to god. Or jesus. Or blogging indiscriminately, unfiltered. It has to be raw. Or. Not at all. When uou have nothign good to say you sys nothing at all. Maybe in. Fairy tail ‘bout being saved by thee glorious father.

Maybe her boifriend, will show up and beat me up. Because she flirted to spite. Spite. Yeah, yeah. That word, works well. Think im being framed up again? Probably.

Hahah. Ugh. I mean. Im pretty celibate. So its usually from the opposing parties. Thats how it started. Even down near 6-8 yr’old. If its coming from women, its either a good desire that would play out right if present corcumstnaves werent treating me lije a marionnette or there wasn’t amole amounts of violent carnage preventing any act forward. Or its a dirty desire. And im turned off. And do the morally good thing. Ethically may be skitchy. The couple times it did. Treatment and marionnette and all that. Not in a healthy state of being. And thats beside the while line up of scripted ones. There to be serpents. Other people serpents. The white ones with the crow.

Where do you want me to step? Here?

Uh, ok. The added script. Strength from mother to the “king” the child as self. Mother to child. Leo. And death. A parental bond with mother. One showing trust and support. Missing piece to the script. My own, fuck her. Man. I cant do it. There’s nothing there. And for as long as im nothing but tred, i couldn’t afford to care even if i wanted to.

Now to see of i camt find something to watch that isnt predomiantly gay, or gradually drawn into being. Risky stuff. I live dangerously.

Like tomorrow war, where the threat is actually the russians. With there symbolic connection to man and the machine vs. Women and temptation. Gotta fight the good fight. It had monsters and russians in it. I should have known better. In godzilla it was what the Chinese? God sake. Gotta keep my uranus in sag occupied. Uh?

I soent what 20 years in a hole. Not being a part of the system. And then as soon as i do. “Covid”happens. Yeah, ok? Where the real world? I dont think ive met it yet.

Anyway. Crazy bs aside. Im grateful she left. Better pay, closer to home. Can’t go wrong. Even though she hurt me in two ways. Knowing that she wasn’t there to get in my way today. Was awesome. And the good feeling remains. The Dove and the Dragon. The dove, a portent to positive experience. This land is populates by too many crows though. The most dominate species here. Only in the spring and summer are they mostly chased away. Creating a loop of conditional experience. That of using the the functioning increases of solar energy to overcoming the negative association to growth. Its not at all different that the tv. Of fighting monsters and such. Except that there’s not an overlaying fabricated script over nature. And this function is towards the means of reproduction and establishing a suitable nesting home.

In high populated city zones, the natural is all but lacking. Amd the mass lives within a bubble of conditioning. Which cost millions of lives to make possible. While claiming peace on earth. Though millions of lives doesn’t seem so consequential considering the what now, eight billion?

Twisted metal does seem promising. Thanks justin.

No, it’s just sneaky. It hook punches you.

Well guess im goving up media. And going back to the wind.

Well y’all could give some hearts if your going to stock me anonymously. But no. Only the bad stuff.

[multitudecontainer420]

instead of this can u tha t? instead of tone inflection direction u habitually také when taking movies can.u sny other ones? oh hey i can! instead if fixing ur mind on the response or quality u would enjoy getting in a specific interaction can u approach with curiosity and interest in what u do find there rather than judgment and resentmen? r u shrivelled from hábit can y unshrivel?

fairy tales cabinet des fées

exec function doing stuff is difficult bc if theres a step undont know initimately havent done exactly that thing thousands of times ur lije we gotta put everything we have into getting this perfect and thats an exhausting drain on energy and attention would b so much better to just do it sloppy n learn as u go

like kicking a leg bluntly n disconnectedly exploring things u can do and feel vs getting 2 understand them as part of an interconnected system?

[hectic-pride]

I just wanna have a job i like and a decent apartment with my partner and not have to worry about food or healthcare or student loans or affording basic goods/services or racism or sexism or homophobia or transphobia or paying for top surgery or global warming or mass extinction or plastic or guns or mental health crises or mass shootings or abortion or trump or war or genocide or loan sharks or private prisons or the death penalty or torture or terrorism or genocide or female genital mutilation or access to education or the school-to-prison pipeline or infant mortality rates or maternal mortality rates or gendered division of labor or the wage gap or urban outfitters or walmart or amazon or the minimum wage or drilling or fracking or oil pipelines or lead in the water or super bugs or alex jones or the muller report or the red pill or video game representation or online harrasment or doxxing or people hacking credit card companies and releasing everyones information or the opioid epidemic or the war on drugs or false imprisonment or people not being able to pay bail or child abuse or the foster care system or the violence in rowanda iran pakistan saudia arabia armenia palestine mexico brazil venezuela. I dont want to worry about brexit or islamophobia or the kkk or the alt right or white supremacy or gang violence or authoritarianism or the police state or the student debt crisis or brett kavanaugh or facebook privacy or ad targeting or voting rights or vaccinations or measles or malaria nets or affirmitive action or trade deals or whatever the fuck china is up to or north korea or russia or prescription drug prices or sexual harassment or immigration courts or refugees or asylum seekers or child seperation or water shortages or pesticides or factory farms or food shortages or famine or droughts or desertification or notre damn burning down or bees or the other 1M animals on the verge of extinction or the amazon rain forest or paper or plastic or whether compostable products are 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 as compostable as they claim or staws or the great pacific garbage patch or the other garbage patches or space junk or elon musk or coral reef bleaching or algae blooms or russia hacking the election or the iran deal or the paris accord or school segregation or property tax funding for schools or standardized testing or common core or crisis pregnancy centers or gay conversion therapy or the cost of therapy or the nra or lobbiests or super pacs or floods or confederate statues or evolution or sex ed or neuclear waste or concentration camps or isis or the electoral college or automation or the morality of self driving cars or gerrymandering or transgender people in the military or the government just deciding to shut down or the affordable care act or medicare or medicaid or disability or snap or sick leave or maternaty leave or paternity leave or charter schools or teachers having guns or 911 not being able to locate people accurately or wage theft or workers rights or unions or the border wall or white washing or pedophilia or teen suicide rates or pennies or manditory minimums or food waste or that thing where we give poor people too much rice or shoes or whatever and it hurts the economy putting people further into poverty or microloans or how difficult it is to recycle fabrics or microplastics or chemical dumping or air pollution or mercury in fish or overfishing or farming fish or shark fin soup or feral cats harmin bird populations or propaganda filled textbooks or whether or not you can technically indict a sitting president or the overton window or drug patenting or daylight savings time or us territory rights or christopher columbus or native american reservations or food labels or that weird thing where alcohol isnt regulated by the fda so they dont have to list any of the ingredients or ayn rand or the miss america pagent or corporate consolidation or water treatment or “flushable” things not actually being flushable or migrant workers or the working conditions of factory workers in developing nations

Or literally any of the hundreds of thousands of terrible things that i know a lot about and yet am mostly incredibly powerless to stop, or even lessen a tiny, tiny bit.

[itsallavengers]

Oh I finished my next peter&tony fic! Huzzah

[sparklypunk]

15 days need to go by quick please and thank u

[finnstansonly]

finally getting this sleep study is so crazy bc my relationship w sleep has always been very…much:

- I had nightmares every day in middle school to the point that now my perception of what is scary is completely different to me now than when I was a kid lije stuff that would count as a nightmare to a lot of ppl really does not even phase me anymore unless my family is in danger or or something completely hideous and awful happens. Also super mega insomnia that continues to this day.

- extremely vivid and detailed dreams. I almost always remember between 1-3 of them when I wake up.

- a lot of realizing I’m dreaming when I’m dreaming which lead to me waking myself up when I realized it wasn’t real OR the increase in likelihood that I’d have a false awakening with a very realistic start like my brain was trying to trick me into staying asleep by trying to keep it as normal as possible

- 3 or 4 or however many years ago I started having what I’ve been calling sleep paralysis even tho I can move before it happens and also sometimes happens while I’m literally in the middle of a dream and I just have to put it on pause for 10 seconds as I wait for the ability to move and breathe again

- December 2019 when I first realized I was REALLY tired all the time and I thought it was just overwork from school and that I’d just take winter break to rest and go back to normal but I was still tired as shit and was taking naps before and after class

- spring 2020 when we went in lockdown and I was still waking up at regular times but I was exhausted tired every waking moment if I wasn’t focusing on something like zoom class or chores and sleeping so much I was doing homework at 1am

- summer 2020 thinking I was just sleeping a lot bc I didn’t have school and not realizing that I was still tired every second bc I just slept whenever I got tired since I didn’t have any obligations. also started kicking myself awake from defending myself in dreams and knocking shit off my bed or flinging my arm or foot into my window

- fall 2020 in which I started hallucinating when I woke up which most of the time was more confusing than scary bc it looked like the figure of my family members just staring at me or something else that I could easily tell was not real but sometimes it’s just some shadowy person I gotta convince myself is not a demon or the 2 times it really just looked like a ghost so I wasn’t even phased really

- this spring in which none of that changed but I sometimes walk around very groggy and sleep drunk which isn’t great since I’m already a clumsy person which may or may not have contributed to the incident in which I fell in my face and gave myself a concussion while trotting to the bathroom 🤪

- this summer in which every time I come upstairs looking tired my dad asks if I’m just waking up or just going to bed no matter what time of day it is and a lot of times I’m actually just in the middle of being attacked by sleepiness trying to kickstart my body with food and water as if that has ever actually kept me awake for longer than 45 mins

- (oh yeah also mayhaps my chronic migraines could be related to the complete dookie sleep I get but that is a GUESS so it’s in parenthesis)

all of that continuing really to this day and spending the last 8 months trying to find out what exact condition I have and insurance playing in my face to make sure it takes as long as humanly possible. and the lady at the neurologist saying it sounds like narcolepsy but I gotta do the sleep apnea test first. (If I have sleep apnea then I must have super mega uber apnea bc my parents and brother have it and they do NOT be going through what I’m going through at all. I’m really out here asking for confirmation that conversations happened in real life and not in a dream and sleeping through alarms and texts and sometimes calls, which is not typical for me, a very light sleeper (like waking up by the nearly inaudible vibrations of relatively small earthquakes like 10 seconds before any actual shaking happens kind of light sleeper–yes this still happens to this day when I’m not randomly heavy sleeping)

Like ma’am what is going ON with me bc the girls (my family) are NAWT relating to my parasomnias outside of insomnia and they are not even on my level. like if this is just sleep apnea someone should put me in a lab this is not regular

[mc-slowwalker]

MULLET MULLET MULLET YES

philza being 100000 years old is something I can get behind tbh. my least favourite age hc, which I think I actually hate with a burning passion, is the tommy and tubbo were 9 during the first l’manberg wartime actually ignites a visceral rage in me

yeah!! I managed to make it to pink’s bedwars stream the other day and it was great. yeah lol I was lowkey upset too when foolish was added cause I had no idea who he was but he’s super fun so that’s cool! I like high energy stream more too cause I zone out super easily. unless it’s dream, he can stream anything and I’ll try my hardest to pay attention the whole time

ooooh vet that’s cool. oh my god c!dream going into the dentist after months in prison😭😭😭 I’m imagining c!techno as a beefy pig sitting in the kind of small couch/seats we have in the waiting room. Tommy would 100% bite and then get really mad about getting a toy that we give to little kids after their treatment lol

omg the pet wars 😔😔😔 so sad. everyone in the dsmp is emotionally attached to their animals than anything else and what can I say, I’m the same

oh yeah I also tend to take c!dream criticism to heart more idk why. I’m definitely way more defensive of c!dream apologists than any other they get so much unnecessary shit. though from your other anons it looks like c!sam apologists are getting more shit too which sucks but solidarity ig. oh man I get you I have to tell myself to like take a step back and not take everything so personally. another thing on twitter is that people who vehemently hate c!dream will sometimes just refuse to use /dsmp /roleplay tags like it’s not that hard, tweets without that have already been misinterpreted to hate on cc!dream which just pisses me off like you can have your shit opinion just tag it properly. and like when people tell them to include it they’ll be like “ohh the dream apologists harassed me.” and yeah people genuinely go around calling c!dream apologists abuse apologists and it’s terrible. like I don’t care if you have your bad takes and aren’t willing to discuss them, just tag it properly and don’t shit on c!dream apologists it’s not that hard. though it’s funny the other day, the first time I replied to some shut take on twitter, in a lighthearted manner too, I got instantly blocked and there’s this on person on twt, they’re also on tumblr, that blocks anyone that even slightly disagrees with them. oh well ig

also did you see about that lore that foolish did? it was certainly something

sorry for the late and shorter reply I got halfway through writing this then went to do something then just fell asleep and I just got a notification that ponk is live! and I’m awake so Imma go watch them

Jack Mulletfold I’m on my jack manifold mullet truther arc

The 9 year old thing was bad and I also hated the c!dream was 13 during the l’manburg war thing too like no this is all so much funnier if they are the ages that they are now. And like father like son fundy tried to set a timeline up too (his it’s been a year comment) like no dude stop time doesn’t exist unless it’s real world

With watching streams I’m the exact same way but I usually tune into quackity and tommy’s chill streams as well. I think it’s because I know them enough to care about what they’re saying so the lack of mental stimulation is made up for by my want to care

Wait fuck with the dentist thing would c!techno actually have to go to a vet instead because of anatomy stuff or-

C!Dream is probably missing a few teeth and after not brushing so long ugh

I would joke that c!sapnap’s done nothing wrong but I haven’t forgiven him for henry

I simply don’t user twitter I tried to post a shit post but I don’t understand the tagging system so it flopped. Stopped using it there and then. say what you want about me but you guys gotta know that I’m a petty bitch first and foremost. With the “harassment” stuff I’ve had my fair share of sending anons asking people to tag stuff right and half the time they just say why and then don’t do it. You wanna know why? Please thats why. I have a real issue with the abuse apologist stuff because like bro that’s a serious accusation and it’s overall just seems super inappropriate. It usually doesn’t get to me but if I’m in the wrong mood it can really fuck me up. When cc!wilbur said that every character was morally gray and that c!dream apologists were right & wrong about somethings I was kinda like “oh thank god a streamer I like doesn’t hate me for liking c!dream” and was hella embarrassed that I even let it get me that far skdhfk. Oh yeah about people blocking you there are so many people who have me blocked on here and while I totally encourage using your block button liberally and often I still notice and its like aw man… creeper…… so we back in the mines…….

You’re gonna have to be a little more specific I feel lije foolish has done a lot of lore, though I think I’ve missed most of it. Are you talking about truing to break into the prison? Hilarious that every character despite their opinion on c!dream has at one point attempted to break into the prison. If only c!dream knew that the only common enemy the server needed was a building they were supposed to stay out of

dont say sorry that’s illegal (/j) also the thing I like about anon is that you can come back and respond when ever is best for you? Makes me feel like an old western bar tender who is just vibing. That’s the dream social interaction tbh

[tumblunni]

Also in the time of complete random kh headcanon thoughts, i was trying to think up a new 'beginning town' type area for my khux oc, or maybe just a set of actual npcs for the default daybreak town. Like how traverse town got mostly ff7 people + squall and twilight town got the other ff8 people but theyre all kids for some reason and also the ff10-2 protagonists are pocket sized fairies?? I just lije the idea that all the finak fantasy cameos happen in the hometown places and its a fun chance to reinterpret what if different games's heroes all grew up together as friends.

So anyway i was thinking maybe ff9? Cos i still think its criminal that we've had multiple from other games but only ONE ff9 character, and one in a mostky nonspeaking role that showed none of his personality cos he was possessed immediately after being introduced. Also like seriously they wasted all the potential plot resonance of Vivi?? I mean he's just a normal kid npc?? Despite looking like a heartless and literally actually being a monster boy. And specifically an artificial human who struggles with identity issues, which is so relevant to every damn protagonist! But i mean seriously they literally based the heartless on the black mages and theres a literal black mage class of heartless thats named after the black waltz supersoliders specifically from ff9. How in the FUCK did we not get a plot where this alternate universe vivi is a heartless? I mean maybe it could be a plot about the twilight town crew being haunted by this heartless form of their dead friend that they couldnt protect? Or like vivi could still be a totally innocent nice monster who just wants to live a hapoy human life. He could be like one step below Xehanort's heartless in terms of self awareness and stuff? Like he's sentient but he isnt able to remember his old life or hold together a humanlike appearance. And i dunno maybe its a tragic story of him always trying to befriend this older mentor figure person who's always super cold and like 'i cant trust heartless, this thing is just trying to trick me!' But then it turns out this is because vivi was actually their lil brother and theyre like.. 'gotta come to terms with the fact tmhe isnt coming back' but then he did come back and he doesnt recognise them :( i think vivi would work really well for this cos he already had a bunch of strong siblingy relationships in canon and itd be real cool to see other people in that role instead. Im leaning towards maybe squall? Cos his canonical plot involves losing a sibling being the cause of his gruff personality. (Tho an older sis instead of a lil bro) And all we know about kh Squall's past is that SOMETHING MYSTERIOUS happened to make him change his name to Leon and act all even more self hatey than usual...

ALSO! CONSIDER! Steiner and beatrix as guards at holliw bastion. I mean geez steiner is the most disney lookin character in the whole series!

Oh and maybe Quina could just be a general nice npc that runs a restaurant in the starting area? They'd be cool cos they have a really big and unusual personality for just a small shopkeeper role. And i can imagine them totally being like a parental figure to daybreak town and always bakin cakes for the new keyblade recruits, but at the same time being a goofy mess who always gets into stupid situations. Like guildmaster wigglytuff in pmd!

And im not exactky sure how but somehow find a way to include underloved characters who didnt get enough development in their original game. Like maybe Freya is the cool batman esque protector of the town? And i really have no idea what to do with amarant but please give amarant a bit of screentime for once please.

Oh and cool npcs!! Like what if Ragtime Mouse appeared again and did his quiz show minigame in KH too? Im still sad he didnt become a regular in every FF game.

And i dunno maybe COMPLETELY RANDOMEST IDEA, have the final fantasy tactics advance crew appear in the toy story world in kh3? Cos their plot was all about 'is this world real or not' it could be funny to spoof that and have them as literal toys, going thru movie 1 buzz's story arc

[princephil]

hey tysm for the last post i sent u msjdjfnfndj but like cn i rant again h so its abt ny relatiobship,,, ok so ik y gf loves me n all and i love her but i dont thibk i wna date anynire byt i stull want to be friends byt i thought i liked her like that but after a while ive started to not feel like it as much and when shes away i feel sorta more relaxed ?? idk but i kinda feel like im doing this more for her than ne and i dont thinj i cant deal with an online relatiobship ?? i sant an irl +

+ i want an irl relatiobship and i want to be frienda again like how we were b4 bc it was chill and she us so hopefil for everything and she wants to meet irl lije soon bht ive only told 2 people about her an its jot even my best friend and i am so bad ay commitment ,,, i feel v bad and i dont know how to word this but i dont know !!!!!!! i dont want anything to ve awkward and i wany to be friends still and be able to sc and styff but liek shes also extremely sensitive and i dony want to hurt ++ her and idk what to so bc sometimss i want to have a relagionship and sometimes i dont wany to and idk . i have more to say but i have no ifea how to word this im si sorry -💕

hey!!  first of all, it’s completely valid and normal for you to feel like this. I had the same thing happen to me in a relationship (except not long distance) and you just gotta listen to and trust your feelings. The best thing you can do is tell her exactly what you told me (about how you want to be friends and commitment and long distance is hard for you and) as soon as possible because waiting too long might make things worse! Let her know that there’s no rush for her to talk to you and be your friend again and give her time and space. It’s normal if she’s not ready to be friends just yet and honestly, she might not want to for a while. Giving her space (unless she doesn’t actually want it) is the best way for her to heal. Good luck and I hope everything goes well

[inthewordsofahalfgoddes]

I felt like giving up today cause I woke up fucked up buy after wasgijh my face and seeing how much effort I've been putting it sh9eijg I can't turn my back on it. My weight gain is looking good on my body 😭 I just w8sh my camera could accurately show it buy until then I'm gonna keep at it . Maybe lije 10 pounds more then I'll be happy. I gotta go harder with the lower body workouts so my add can sit better buy do far the results look good 😭 I been feeling blah cause of the distance between me and Jesus but only 8 months to go (😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭) until I see him. Fuck I wish we could do more than just watch shit and play league especially cause I'm not the type to usually like to do that stuff all the time. I wanna go out and do shuy and explore and experience new things but I can't right now. The money I've been saving up ik gonna use to make my move to Syracuse. When we go down in may I'm gonna talk to my uncle and really make this a reality. I can't be in this city for another tear I'll literally tear out my own eyes if I have to.