#we got simple plan WITH mayday parade [past]

[somethingsgottasaveyou]

My concert line-up so far this year is so wild, 16 year old me is screaming

[i-am-grell]

Here’s My Top 100 For 2018 From Spotify

And me trying to justify them! (Look, some are WIP-related, others are jams, some I really can’t explain I just got back into Glee for like a month at one point this year...) Here’s the playlist

1. From a Mountain In The Middle Of The Cabins - Panic! At The Disco

Look, I just love the bouncy piano and the tuba. You can never have a bad tuba.

2. The End. - My Chemical Romance

Goes along with Chapter 8 of my WIP, Interlude, because I’m mean

3. Blank Space - I Prevail

This also goes along with Interlude from Chapter 1 - 5

4. If It Means A Lot To You - A Day To Remember

This one goes with my WIP Blood Bound (This one isn’t posted anywhere) (specifically, book 5)

5. Disloyal Order of Water Buffaloes - Fall Out Boy

Another Blood Bound one (Book 7)

6. This Could Be Anywhere In The World - Alexisonfire

Interlude

7. The Curse of Curves - Cute is What We Aim For

This was going to be Interlude-related but got replaced. Still a banger

8. Disturbia - The Cab

The theme song of Dreavyn from my WIP Aaron Being Normal and if anyone has any tips on how to control a chaotic bisexual OC please let me know

9. Jumpsuit - Twenty One Pilots

Funky bass

10. MakeDamnSure - Taking Back Sunday

A theme for Trace from Aaron Being Normal (Won’t be extremely relevant until book 3 (also this was supposed to be a standalone...))

11. Miss Murder - AFI

Funky bass part 2

12. Fences - Paramore

Interlude again - A Selena Walton Theme Song.

13. The Sharpest Lives - My Chemical Romance

Interlude - A Morgan/Selena/Mostly Selena Theme. (Also, a banger)

14. Camisado - Panic! At The Disco

Interlude - How many hospital scenes can I fit into 1 WIP about depressed teens? (Turns out three; maybe four, technically)

15. My Heart I Surrender - I Prevail

Cole’s character song (Interlude) (Also romantic AF)

16. I Don’t Care - Fall Out Boy

Interlude. Also a Mood

17. Holiday/Boulevard of Broken Dreams - Green Day

Partially Interlude, partially because Holiday fucking slaps and BoBD is a classic

18. Ocean Avenue - Yellowcard

1/2 Interlude, 1/2 a Mood

19. I Don’t Wanna Be In Love (Dance Floor Anthem) - Good Charlotte

Dare I say, an aro-ace mood?

20. Check Yes, Juliet - We The Kings

I feel like half this playlist is just gonna be songs from the Interlude playlist...

21. Problematique - Hot Chelle Rae

Some funky bass, call and response, and fast rhyming - an ultimate jam

22. Postcards - Amber Pacific

Interlude playlist

23. Nico and The Niners - Twenty One Pilots

Look, I just really like Trench; it’s a good album

24. Demolition Lovers - My Chemical Romance

This is on the Interlude playlist but there’s such a Bonnie and Clyde feel to it, man...

25. Do You Know What I’m Seeing? - Panic! At The Disco

No. I don’t. Good song to dissociate to, though. I’m not good at instruments but good guitar/ukulele/whatever it is. Pleasant mood.

26. Rough Hands - Alexisonfire

Look, I’m trying to learn how to properly sing unclean parts (screamo parts) which will be absolutely shocking coming from a 5′2″ blonde girl; I need songs to practice to...

27. The Irony of Choking on a Lifesaver - All Time Low

Theme song to the Netflix adaptation of Interlude that plays in my head on repeat. Now if only I could actually finish writing the goddamn book...

28. Fat Lip - Sum 41

Interlude playlist, also listen to it and tell me you don’t hate everybody and this town

29. Say Anything (Else) - Cartel

I like singing the intro/chorus as sort of a vocal warm up...

30. Oh Well, Oh Well - Mayday Parade

Just a fucking MOOD my dudes

31. Whatever Happened To Saturday Night? - Glee Cast Version

No offense to Meat Loaf....but John Stamos... (Also Interlude (Travis) inspo) (Also I was really into Glee again earlier this year... Still haven’t actually watched past season 3...)

32. The Anthem - Good Charlotte

What I listen to when I consider dropping out and becoming a bog witch, but, like, a punk bog witch

33. Thunder - Boys Like Girls

Aaron Being Normal Inspo. The band’s name is ironic considering how Gay I make it...

34. Don’t You Know Who I Think I Am? - Fall Out Boy

I like singing this one when I’m drunk

35. I Don’t Love You - My Chemical Romance

Blood Bound (Book 2)

36. This Is Gospel - Panic! At The Disco

Blood Bound (Book 3)

37. Silver Bullet - Hawthorne Heights

Interlude Playlist

38. Weightless - All Time Low

MAYBE IT’S NOT MY WEEKEND BUT IT’S GONNA BE MY YEAR I scream to myself on a Tuesday

39. Who Do You Love - Marianas Trench

Have you ever looked up an a capella version of this one? Cuz yeah

40. Let The Flames Begin - Paramore

Anti-Depression, yet still Depressed Mood

41. Red Sam - Flyleaf

Depression Mood - also Interlude playlist

42. Jamie All Over - Mayday Parade

Interlude Playlist, and I think the Dreavyn playlist too... Look, it’s just a jam

43. Savior - Rise Against

Interlude Theme

44. Kiss Me, Kill Me - Mest

Another Interlude thing also a really good Selena x Morgan song

45. Hot To The Touch, Cold On The Inside - Fall Out Boy

Aaron Being Normal song also it’s about a hot pocket

46. Newport Living - Cute is What We Aim For

Interlude song that causes drama

47. Meant To Live - Switchfoot

Selena song - Interlude

48. Kill All Your Friends - My Chemical Romance

This is on the Interlude playlist purely because I’m Evil

49. You’re Gonna Go Far, Kid - The Offspring

On the Interlude playlist, also highly recommend blaring this through the hallways of your Catholic High School during lunch

50. Lights And Sounds - Yellowcard

Interlude Playlist also a banger

51. Angel With A Shotgun - The Cab

If this ain’t romantic as shit... Also it will make you wanna declare war on God Himself what a Mood

52. Somebody Told Me - The Killers

I’m not justifying why The Killer’s is on here I’m just shocked and appalled that Mr. Brightside has yet to make an appearance Spotify

53. Alright - Hot Chelle Rae

The English major inside of me wants to correct it to “all right” also Interlude epilogue Mood.

54. Changing - Saosin

Interlude Playlist

55. Bring Me To Life (Synthesis) - Evanescence

The Synthesis version is far superior and allows me to Properly showcase my Amy Lee impression

56. Headfirst Slide Into Cooperstown On A Bad Bed - Fall Out Boy

Along with J. Michael Tatum, Patrick Stump’s voice is My Religion - the first 23 seconds > The Beatles

57. Pas De Cheval - Panic! At The Disco

Sounds gallop-y

58. Be My Escape - Relient K

Interlude Mood/Theme

59. Science Fiction Double Feature - Glee Cast

Look, all Rocky Horror versions are great, even the Glee one...

60. Dear Maria, Count Me In - All Time Low

I like to sing this one when drunk

61. Stand - Flyleaf

Blood Bound (Final Book. End. Roll credits.)

62. I’d Do Anything - Simple Plan

A jam

63. Sweetness - Jimmy Eat World

The call-response, the spastic drums, damn boi, they’ve got it all

64. Say You Like Me - We The Kings

Catchy song, little fuckboi-ish if you really listen to the lyrics, but it’s not Baby It’s Cold Outside-bad???

65. AMBULANCE - My Chemical Romance

*Choir Ah-ing*, also an Interlude mood considering there are like 2 separate confirmed ambulance parts anyway...

66. crushcrushcrush - Paramore

Look me dead in the eye and tell me Hayley Williams didn’t put everything into her lyrics/singing here

67. Stay - Mayday Parade

Songs for when you’re heartbroken but to the point of dissociating while it rains outside, starting to storm, it starts out with just the grey pattering of a sheet of raindrops and soon the thunder starts to rumble with growing intensity and lightning splits the sky

68. There’s A Good Reason These Tables Are Numbered Honey, You Just Haven’t Thought Of It Yet - Panic! At The Disco

I am the victim of Dreavyn Hawthorne from my WIP Aaron Being Normal seriously if anyone can help me control a chaotic theatre bisexual...

69. Lyrical Lies - Cute is What We Aim For

This band’s lyrics are so fucking poetic it is Shakespeare to a guitar, y’all

70. Wilson (Expensive Mistakes) - Fall Out Boy

I always get like a falling slowly down one of those psychedelic tubes greenscreened into the background feeling at the intro but just like totally at peace falling, like kinda like listening to Ride by 21P type mood but then the chorus comes and it’s a jam

71. Backseat Serenade - All Time Low

Just a banger

72. My Own Worst Enemy - Lit

Look I don’t party too hard but when I do we go hard I was at a party on a Thursday night that didn’t end until the next morning no shit one guy I know did a kegstand before going to his English class

73. Come As You Are - Nirvana

Damn Kurt we miss you but you turned out some jams that no one can match

74. Traitor - Flyleaf

Blood Bound (Book 3)

75. Sadie Hawkins Dance - Relient K

The lyrics are so stupid but damn I love it

76. Poetically Pathetic - Amber Pacific

Did you mean literally 90% of my male OCs?

77. Saviour - LIGHTS

The first LIGHTS song I ever heard and I will defend my favourite singer until the day I die she’s Canadian like me, her family is ADORABLE, SHE is ADORABLE and I love her the end

78. Jersey - Mayday Parade

This goes with every WIP I’ve ever conceived and literally none of them are set in Jersey

79. The Middle - Jimmy Eat World

I feel like this song is just a universal mood but no one can explain exactly why

80. C’mon - Panic! At The Disco

Wholesome(TM)

81. Sunshine Riptide - Fall Out Boy

Interlude Playlist - I imagine Morgan singing it and that might end up happening in canon but idk yet...

82. Sweet Caroline - Neil Diamond

Easily in the top 3 Neil Diamond songs if not the top, fight me.

83. First Date - blink-182

Literally just such an adorable song, blink-182 is the best

84. Last Hope - Paramore

Mostly a Selena song (Interlude) but idk I’ve destroyed many OCs wills to live so

85. Black Sheep - Metric

@spotify please put the Brie Larson version from Scott Pilgrim vs. The World on your streaming service I’m begging you - a very gay

86. When You Were Young - The Killers

Good song, real jam, where’s Mr. Brightside, spotify, where is it????

87. Broken Hearts Parade - Good Charlotte

A certified bop

88. All I Want - A Day To Remember

A song for my greedier OCs who just want to stop being tortured but yknow what children life aint fair

89. The Kids From Yesterday - My Chemical Romance

Put this in any of my WIPs really...

90. Threshold - Sex Bob-Omb

Try to tell me the Scott Pilgrim vs. The World soundtrack isn’t lit

91. Sorrow - Flyleaf

Blood Bound (Book 3)

92. Stay Frosty Royal Milk Tea - Fall Out Boy

You know when you’re writing intense battles or going to get a tattoo and need a playlist of War Songs? This is like the first one on my War Songs playlist

93. Jesus Of Suburbia - Green Day

A staple in the punk rock genre

94. Neon Gravestones - Twenty One Pilots

Ngl I sobbed when I first heard this one so

95. Pressure - Paramore

Very vocal on the Interlude playlist

96. Starlight - Muse

I first got into Muse because it fueled Twilight but yknow what they’re still a damn good group and Supermassive Black Hole carried the baseball scene which was an astounding piece of cinema so

97. Sleepless in Phoenix - blessthefall

It’s literally just my favourite blessthefall song, fight me

98. Kids In The Dark - All Time Low

My mood for when my dad tells me “you’re 20 you should be able to figure it out” like excuse me for not learning how the entire world works the second I turned 18...

99. Don’t Threaten Me With A Good Time - Panic! At The Disco

Refer to My Own Worst Enemy. Add drugs. I’ve never done drugs but..

100. Feeling This - blink-182

*screams I’m Feeling This at regular intervals* (I have no explanation it’s just a BOP)

[btshodown]

Terrible Things (Seokjin x Reader)

I’m a horrible human being. That’s all I can really say about this. I got inspiration at 3 am and finished it right now…it is now 6 am. Excuse me while I go to sleep in fetal position. 

Genre: …..Why

Word Count: 2,253

Song recommendation: Terrible Things by Mayday Parade …..lol Good luck.

“Appa, when did you first fall in love?”

 The question caught him off guard as Seokjin turned to look at his only son, still young and wide-eyed with innocence at the tender age of 15. They had been eating breakfast before his question startled the man out of his thoughts; it was a lazy Sunday morning filled with a delicious breakfast he made. Sunday’s were his only true days off and he took advantage of such days to spend time with his son to uphold the Sunday tradition they had of spending the day together. Although, he suddenly lost his appetite at the conversation he had been dreading to have.

 Was it already time to answer such questions? He had hoped he had more time before having to go through this conversation. His son was still young after all.

 Seokjin lets out a soft sigh and lets a small smile grace his lips as he puts down his chopsticks, easing himself forward on his seat. His son eagerly pushes his food away from him to rest his arms on the table, too easily forgetting about the food in front of him, as he gives his father his undivided attention. The older man softly runs a large hand over his sons black tresses, staring into his wide amber eyes to give him the courage to continue.

 “By the time I was your age I’d give anything to fall in love. It was all I could really think about as I kept seeing it in every movie trailer and in couples walking down the street,” he pauses as he swipes his tongue over his lips and smiles softly. “That’s when I met your mother, the girl of my dreams.”

 His son’s eyes widen in curiosity as he folds his arms over the table, placing his chin on them; it wasn’t often he heard about how his parents met. “Was eomma pretty?”

 At this, a true genuine smile graces Seokjin’s lips as his eyes focus on something beyond the table in front of them. “She was the most beautiful woman that I’d ever seen.”

“Can I tell you a wonderful thing, Seokjin-ah?”

 Said boy finally focuses on his surroundings and with a rapid blush reaching his ears, he realizes the one who spoke to him was none other than the reason for him being distracted. His classmate turned in her seat and was now staring at him with a small smile, a certain mischievous glint in her amber eyes.

 “S-Sure, y/n-ah.”

 There was warmth in her eyes as she leaned over to gently touch his shaking hand. “I can’t help, but notice you staring at me.”

 He could of sworn that steam was coming out of his ears at her bold statement as incoherent stuttering fell from his lips; trying his best to deny her accurate observations. It was no surprise to anyone that Jin had a crush on his neighboring classmate, as he often stole glances her way and always became an awkward mess around her. He just didn’t think that she would ever approach him about it and he began steeling himself for her rejection.

 “I know I shouldn’t say this, but,” her voice turns soft as she removes her hand from him, shyly tucking a strand behind her ear. “I can see in your eyes that you like me and I have to admit that I really like you too.”

 Now he was sure that his ears were blowing steam as his eyes widen comically, the stubborn blush on his cheeks spreading to cover his entire face. It only made the young girl giggle into her hand as she stared at him with fondness in her eyes. This just had to be too good to be true right? Had he heard wrong? He wasn’t ugly by no means, still a bit awkward as he grew into his adult body, but there were other upper classmen who he had seen talking to her outside of school more than once. Yet, here she was in all her lovely beauty, confessing that she liked him too.

 “Do you mean that y/n-ah?”

 A soft smile comes to her lips as she nods her head, once more tucking the stubborn strand of hair behind her ear. “I do.”

 It might be clichéd for him to claim that that was when his life truly began, but there was no other way to describe the event. Something so innocent and simple had snowballed into something even bigger that gave him happiness for years to come. But yet…

 “Now son, I’m only telling you this because life can do terrible things,” he breathes out in a soft whisper as he looks over to his son’s puzzled expression. Despite knowing that by the end of this his son would lose that innocence, he continues on; not able to stop himself from telling the story if he tried.

Soon enough, Seokjin had graduated from high school and went off to university with his girlfriend of 4 years right beside him. Despite the countless adults and classmates telling them that they wouldn’t last past their high school romance, they proved them wrong. Continued to do so as they pursued their careers and moved in together at the tender age of 20. Both of them worked full-time and attended classes, only truly spending their nights together; with the occasional lazy Sunday they both had off.

 It soon became tradition for them to spend every Sunday with one another, going out on dates and truly give each other the attention they sorely missed during the week. At times they had too much to drink in their shared apartment and spent the whole day exchanging sloppy kisses, fevered touches and loud moans. While other times they’d drive out into the night and lay on top of the hood of the car, watching the stars and sharing laughter about stories that happened at work or at school.

 It was in those moments that Seokjin continued to fall in love with the young woman beside him, staring at her as she’d tell a story and gesture with her hands. Her amber eyes lighting up under the light of the moon and stars; her voice carrying the happiness he felt as he’d fondly play with her hair. It was in one of those peaceful moments that he had made his second life changing decision – his first had been asking her to move in with him as they graduated high school. And so, when the next Sunday rolled by, Seokjin drove her out to where they held their first date.

 Back then, they were just kids with no money to really spend on anything, so they had commuted to one of their local parks and scrounged up their allowances to buy one ice cream to share. Which is what he had them doing today and he didn’t fail to miss how her smile never once faltered throughout the day. Of course she would remember their first date, he didn’t doubt she wouldn’t, but watching her look at him with such emotion in her eyes only made his courage strengthen. He knew he would never regret his decision.

 And so, on that day he had gotten down on one knee; watching as tears freely spilled from her eyes and soft laughter coming from her lips at the familiar question. “Can I tell you a wonderful thing?”

 “Sure, Seokjin-ah,” she teased a bit breathless as she watches him pull out a small white box with a cute string wrapped in a haphazard bow on top; no doubt his doing.

 “I can’t imagine my life with any other person by my side, and I’d rather lose my life before ever letting what we have fade away. You know that I love you…will you marry me?”

 “Oh, Jin…yes! Yes!”

Too young to notice and too dumb to care; love was a story that couldn’t compare to anything else in his life. He was high on the sensation and he never wanted to come down from that high. The girl of his dreams had accepted his proposal and soon enough, they were running down the aisle with laughter bubbling in their chests as rice was thrown at them.

 Even as the years passed and they had their first child – a beautiful boy with black hair and amber eyes just like the mother – their love never once faded. Their lives had changed as they settled into a bigger house and began planning the rest of their lives together; even speaking of expanding their tiny family. Seokjin had everything he could ever want and dream of.

 “Appa?”

 At his son’s concerned tone, Seokjin realizes that tears began to gather and fall down his cheeks. With a sadness that he always tried his best to hide, he gazes at his son and firmly plants a hand on his head. Trying his best to gather the courage to continue the happy story that much too quickly turned pained. It broke him to see his son – his only child – slowly come to the realization that this story answered so many questions he had growing up.

 Questions revolving around the woman missing from both of their lives.

 “I’m only telling you this because life can do terrible things, but you’ll learn one day,” his breath hitches as more tears begin to stream down his face. “And I’ll hope, and I’ll pray that god shows you differently.”

“Can I tell you a terrible thing?”

 It had happened so quick and so unexpectedly. Jin had known that there was something wrong with his wife after she had come back from the doctor’s this morning. All throughout the evening she had remained quiet and hardly spoke a word at dinner, letting their three-year old son fill the silence with his cooing. Only now did she speak, in the comfortable darkness of their room.

 It had all started a few months ago as they tried for their second child, deeming it an appropriate age gap between the first; but try as they may, it just never happened. It became a concern as Jin visibly saw his love grow paler and thinner, but he had assumed it was the depression at considering the possibility she might have gone infertile. During it all he had shown her support and love, even having her take time off of work and taking extra shifts to have her rest at home.

 He should have known better.

 “It seems that I’m sick and I’ve only got weeks.”

 Her voice was soft and broken, but it felt like he had just been stabbed through his heart. The silence stretched out so thin until the soft sound of sobbing and the sound of clothes rustling broke through it. Seokjin held onto his wife for dear life as his sobs overlapped hers and asked her to tell him it was a lie, desperately wanting it to be a horrible nightmare.

 It just had to be a cruel, sick joke that the doctors wanted them to believe because he refused to believe that life could be so unmerciful as to take his wife away. His happiness and soul.

 Her hands had cupped his face as she whispered brokenly to him, “Please don’t be sad now, I really believe you were the greatest thing that ever happened to me.”

Sobs openly overtook the once quiet kitchen as Jin could no longer hold back his anguish; recalling those painful memories he had shoved away made him realize the wound never healed. Despite nearly 12 years passing since the day the love of his life left him on this world to take care of their only son on his own. His son was too young to remember the beautiful woman who held him in her arms and sung him to sleep for those three years she was with them.

 It was only about time that he wondered about her and would no longer be sated with the repeated answer of “She’s gone. She’s not with us anymore.” He just never realized that it wasn’t because she found another life and love, but because an illness had claimed her life.

 It wasn’t only Seokjin who cried for his lost wife, but his son had moved over to hug his father as he silently cried for the mother he had no idea he’d never get back. It was in this broken moment that the usually composed Kim Seokjin had finally lost the battle with his shattered heart.

 “So don’t fall in love, there’s just too much to lose. If you’re given a choice, then I’m begging you choose to walk away,” his voice held desperation and a fragmented sadness that made his son clutch onto him tighter, in hopes to piece back together his broken father. “Don’t let her get you because I can’t bear to see the same thing happen to you.”

 “Appa…,” was his only pained response as his hold tightens on the weeping man. What was one to say in a situation such as this?

 With one shuddering breath, Seokjin holds onto his son’s shoulders, whether to give the young boy comfort or himself, he wasn’t sure. At this point, only his agony was speaking as he tried his best to make his son understand that as beautiful as love was; it was also something that could shatter your world in a matter of seconds.

 “Now son, I’m only telling you this because life can do terrible things.”

[leeeovitate]

It is truly difficult to go back. I am no longer the kid who can’t stand ignoring people. I DO THAT NOW. It is because they did that to me, too. It is true what they say, we end up becoming the people we vowed to never be. In dinning table conversation, whenever I pop a question, he ignores me. At first, I though he was just deaf but he does that on purpose. It pissed me off at first until the time I dont talk anymore. I give answers at a minimun, 2 words at most. Slowly I had lost my respect. Then, I get called names. The one you were not supposed to learn at home. The kind you hear from uneducated people. Those out on the streets. At first, it stung. It really did and I would cry about it. Like asking myself what I did in my past life to deserve this. That was when bands saved me, starting with Simple Plan and Avril Lavigne, then came All Time Low and Mayday Parade. The rest followed. I bought cheap CDs to listen to their music until I got an mp4 and eventually, my uncle bought me Ipod shuffle for my birthday. There is a television set and dvd player in my bedroom that I’ve had since grade school and it works until now. I have resorted to speaker connected to my tablet/phone/ipad but it is still there when I’m feeling ancient. Numb by Linkin Park and No Love by Simple Plan were my favorite to blast after getting scolded, for reasons I never understood. If you become parents someday, before you hit your children, make sure they understand why and just talk to them. Don’t make them feel like they have to be perfect even at home. School does that enough. already. When I get sick, I have to cough to a pillow to mask the sound or go inside the bathroom while running the water because I will be dead meat if they hear. Then I get hit, at first it hurt so bad but the physical pain, it is easy to get used to. It is the emotional scar that is the hardest to heal. They hated some of friends, they did not want me hanging out with boys, I always have to be home before dark... all these are fine with me. I obeyed like the good kid I always was. The four walls of my bedroom became my sanctuary. When I look back on it now, I feel tough surviving. I am sick of the I-fear-no-one attitude, or the you won’t like me when I’m mad or the don’t make me introduce my self to you. FUCK YOU. I don’t give a damn about what you can do. THERE ARE SO MANY THINGS YOU CAN’T DO, asshole. You make me want to find out if I could kill you with my bare hands. It has gotten worse these days. He hates everyone, including his family and that is plain bullshit. Maybe that is why I never get along. If you want to destroy everything that is good left here, I won’t join you. You fucking make us feel inadequate and I have no idea how she put up with that all these years. I pray to God I won’t marry someone like you. Like we are always supposed to yield to you. Hell no!

[yelir-atsirk]

1.Name Krista 2. Age 23 3. City that you live in Kansas City 4. What do most people not know about you? I have terrible stage fright 5. What do most people know you for? I hope people know me for my kindness, my sillyness and genuine nature. 6. Hobbies I love to sing and paint. 7. What are your passions? People, Love, Joy, Travel, God, Family and Service in pursuit of those things. 8. What do you search for in a significant other? Intellect, kindness, a humble nature, generous, goofy and gentle. Deep, soft, eyes and a hearty smile. 7. What are you most proud of? My ability to stick to my guns and do the right thing when it really matters. 8. When was the last time you had a significant conversation with someone you love? My mother and I often have those. Outside of that, it has been quite some time that I've had a real milestone conversation with a love of mine own. 9. Have you ever collected anything? What was it? Not really? Coffee mugs are abundant, I keep little memorabilia from all over and can never seem to quit collecting pens. 10. List 10 things off of your bucket list. Visit Ireland Cross country road trip Ride in a Hot Air Balloon Cooking Class Take Piano Lessons Preform Live on stage Death Cab for Cutie live Grand Canyon Graduate College Attend a Murder Mystery Party 11. What was the last thing you learned? My Mom was teaching me how to make an omelet. 12. How many relationships have you been in? I count 3 legitimate one. 13. Turn ons Make me laugh, play with my hair and shut my mind up. Good kissers, strong arms, steady hands. 14. Turn offs Bad breath, insecurity, tough lips and try hards. It's meant to be fun, don't take it all too seriously. 15. Favorite food Pizza, melty cheese. 16. Favorite drink I love dr.pepper, sweet tea, blue moon and ice cold water. 17. What is the best birthday gift you have ever received? Chicago Trip was pretty awesome, Gambino trip was equally awesome. 18. Are you optimistic or pessimistic? Optimistic, no doubt. 19. Do you sleep during class? Not intentionally. 20. What is the most expensive thing you own? Do student loans count? 21. What is the cheapest yet most useful thing you own? Key rings and Carribeaners 22. How many times a day on average do you check your phone? Yikes, lots. 23. Text or call? I love phone calls. 24. Opinion on long distance? It just doesn't work long term, plain and simple. It's like having half of a relationship. 25. What is your definition of success? Happiness. A balanced life. Simplicity. 26. Favorite song? Impossible to say. 27. Favorite artist? Death cab for Cutie, Alt-J, Mayday Parade and Kelsey Wild. 28. Celebrity crush/crushes? Ben McKenzie, Kit Harrington, Chris Evans and I lady crush on pretty much all of the Emmas. 29. When was the last time you read for fun? Last summer, working on that now. 30. Favorite flower? I love Gerbera Daisies, Sunflowers and Dahlias. 31. What is the best gift you could receive right now? Time off and some far away destination to travel to or someone to kiss on the regular. 32. Any guilty pleasures? Plenty. 33. What is one thing you would like to change about yourself? Two words, Lazy Heart. 34. What do you search for in a friend? Real, honest, down to earth, supportive, silly and slightly crazy. Must not envy, manipulate or play stupid. 35. How many times have you said "I love you" in the past month? Oh lots, I'm sure. To a significant other? Zilch. 36. Where did you last go other than your room/home? Walgreens. 37. Why do bad things happen to good people? Not all bad things are bad. There's a lesson to learn in all that we experience. 38. In your opinion, what hurts more: Being left out or being stabbed in the eye? Eye stabs, like no fucking question. 39. How many green shirts do you own? Roughly 4. Not my color. 40. Do you like anime? Nope. 41. What do you invest the most time in? Work. TV. Sleep. Family and Friends. In that order. 42. What was the name of the last book you read? "The Testing" 43. What's the difference between loving and liking someone? Loving someone implies a vulnerability, wether voluntary and mutual or not. 44. Where are you most productive? Where ever I feel most inspired. 45. List 3 things you enjoy doing with friends. Drinking. Eating. Talking. 46. List 3 things you enjoy doing alone. Painting. Planning. Listening. 47. Do you believe world peace will ever exist? I don't. Humanity is far too fragile and fallible. 48. Do you have any allergies? I think not, but I will knock on wood anyway. 49. When was the last time you cussed at someone? Tonight's playoff game. 50. What was the last promise you made? I'm sure I promised a table I'd make something happen for them. 51. What was your last dream about? TEETH FALLING OUT. 52. If you won a trip to Hawaii and you could take 5 people with you, who would those 5 people be? My Mom, Riley, Brooke, Kristin and Gabby. 53. How many countries have you visited? One. 54. What is your favorite medium of art? (Music, dance, painting, etc.) Music without a doubt. 56. When was the last time somebody complimented you? I got a hair compliment today. 56. If you switched bodies with someone, how would you recognize yourself? By my hair. 57. Do you consider yourself mature? I do, but perhaps that's naive and immature of me. 58. How many days in your life do you think you have wasted on tumblr? Meh, a week possibly. 59. What is your favorite quote? "Our limited understanding of the truth has no bearing on whether or not the truth exists." 60. If you started a new religion and you had to create 3 rules or commandments for your new followers to live by, what would those 3 rules be? I won't. 61. What is your greatest accomplishment? I've yet to feel as though I've had one of those. 62. Do you believe in the death penalty? I do not. 63. What are your goals for life? Live a life that follows God. Have a family, see the world, spread love and joy and know it deeply myself. 64. What do you think your soulmate is doing right now? Sleeping. 65. If you could live anywhere, where would you live? The place can be in an imaginary, fantasy, or the real world. Somewhere sunny and green. 66. What were you like in 2013? I was 20, broke, and having a boatload of fun being both. 67. Do you have a job? Always. 68. Tell us a story about your childhood best friend. She's still my best friend, and will always be. 69. If you could change one thing about society, what would it be? It's hostility towards its own ignorance. The numb nature of education and the aggressive stifling of creativity and critical thinking. 70. How many all-nighters have you pulled before? Plenty. I'm a bit messed up. 71. Is tumblr your favorite website? If not, then what is your favorite website? It's all about that buzzfeed life. 72. What is the craziest thing you would do for a million dollars? Play a series of mini games and answer trivia questions on live Tv. 73. Does money equal happiness? In the right hands. 74. How many times have you experienced true happiness in your lifetime? Oh plenty, but it's always fleeting and reserved simply for that moment only. 75. How many times have you experienced true sadness in your lifetime? Lots more. I feel a constant state of grief for time and youth and change. 76. What is the funniest joke you have ever been told? Your mom. 77. When was the last time you looked at the news? Facebook counts, right? 78. If you could say one thing to the world, what would you say? You are only temporary, but you are breathtaking. 79. What is your favorite animal? I love sea turtles, whales, humming birds and elephants. 80. If you could earn a million dollars by pretending to be dead for 3 years, would you do it? Like lie still and be buried dead or disappear for 3 years dead? The first I could not, and the second would be so hard to do without friends or family let alone to them. 81. What is one thing that everyone is bad at? Self discipline, accountability, consistency and honesty. 82. What time do you normally sleep? How many hours of sleep do you usually get? 3am average bed time, 8-9 hours average length. 83. Does age necessarily equal maturity? Fuck no. 84. What is your favorite clothing store? Rue 21, Target and Gordmans. 85. In the winter- beanies or gloves? Gloves. I got a weird shaped head. 86. Would you rather have wings or a fish tail? Wings, duh. 87. If you had the power to erase one person from the world so that nobody remembered him or her except you, would you do it? All life has value, doesn't it? 88. What do you fear the most? Failure. Never taking any risks because of my fear of failure. 89. How many digits of pi can you recite? 3.14. 90. If you could travel back to one year and relive it again, which year would it be? 21-22 was a damn good year. 91. Describe yourself in one word. Real. 92. Describe your last victory. Scheduled close all weekend, didn't close once. 93. What is the weirdest thing you have ever seen? I'm sure it was something I've found in the fridge. My family is bat shit insane. 94. What is something you will never forget? Apartment 508. 95. Would you rather forget all of the past or remember everything in vivid detail? Vivid detail. 96. Have you ever broken a bone before? Knock on wood, no. 97. Is it harder to love or to hate somebody? Hate, by far. 98. Coffee or tea? Coffee. 99. What are some little things that you do that have changed your life in a positive way? Positivity, church, planning, self care. 100. How many hours have you spend on tumblr today? Just the time to take this.