#we dont know much about sam so for now theres only these main 4 of the stellaron hunter i mention

[sleepyminty]

Welcome to honkai sussy group of the multiverse we have

1. The purple sussy lady who makes everyone question their sexuality

2. Brooding, emotional-constipated asian with sword

3. Bronie

4. [REDACTED]-leader of the group

[daaziscoolbesties]

[REPOST] MY 2K WORD COMMENTARY/ANALYSIS OF RANBOO’S LORE STREAM

‼️‼️This post contains lore spoilers from Ranboo’s 4/23 stream, “The Enderwalk Saga. Chapter 1: The Lessons”. If you haven’t seen that stream don’t read ahead unless you want spoilers‼️‼️

disclaimer: this isnt really an analysis as much as a bunch of commentary and half-baked theories.

-on the way to the mansion he was sort of talking to himself saying stuff like "i'm good i'm good" which m a y be a normal thing but also maybe it's not and it flew over our heads cause he talks to chats and donos like that so often

-again, this one may just be a normal thing but when he was climbing up the stairs in the mansion looking for foolish, he repeats some of his words like down to the exact same tone of voice and everything. 12:42,  "this mansion is way too big actually. this mansion is way too big actually." (why the repeated actually? seems odd to me but again it might just be a normal thing that i haven't picked up on). (right after) "okay okay lemme find him lemme find him" again repeated words in the e x a c t same tone.

-does everyone know about ranboo's silk touch hands ability thing? or was that just a techno and ranboo main character moment. bc if it was, how would foolish know that ranboo could pick up the full cake after it'd been partially eaten. unless everyone on the sever knows about that in which case this means nothing. but if they d o n t know... how would foolish know? ranboo wrote about it in the do not read book so maybe if it's not a publicly known thing maybe foolish got his hands on the book and read it??

-14:53-ish, they're talking about the war room and how it was for tubbo or whatever and ranboo says, and i quote "he prepares for lore but he's never gonna do it." now funny thing is at first i couldn't tell if he said "war" like in reference to the war room or "lore". but after playing the clip over and over i can say with ALMOST 100% certainty that he said lore. there is a definite L sound at the beginning of the word. which either means a) this was a slip up (doubtful bc he said later that there were no mistakes), b) he broke the fourth wall because they were supposed to be rping at that point, or c) i'm completely wrong and he said "war" which leads down an entire other road of possibilities

-15:17 "are you a book reader?" "*checks inventory for do not read book* uh yeah i'd say i'm a book reader-" dunno how i didn't catch this the first time I HATE THAT DAMN BOOK

-15:18 there's blue in his hotbar. where did he get the blue.

-16:40 "it's like a metaphor- i have two minds: i have my normal self, my normal little shift-dancing self, and then the builder one. the builder one is demanding. it's a very demanding mind." ranboo then lets out a weird sigh after this. i feel like what foolish was talking about was an indirect(?) parallel to ranboo in and out of enderwalk, there's how he normally is, trying to do best for others, and then there's enderwalk, meeting up with bad guys and "demanding" things (its very late as i write this i really don't know what i'm talking about)

-17:11 "you have your panic closet" i'm sorry his what now 😀 no but seriously how the hell did i miss some of these

-18:04 "you're asking me if i remember?" very funny ranboo thank you for making jokes in these trying times

-18:25 WHY DID HE GET OUT THE AXE WHEN STARING AT THE BEE

-19:38 why did foolish hold the grass block- most of these observations probably mean nothing but- h u h - is that- i'm too tired for this

-19:54 "i never properly thanked you for the deal you made with me" so foolish got something out of this deal, we're not sure if ranboo did. "the green cardboard box" again do you mean dream's house- but seriously the only people i can think of on the server that are associated with green are dream and sam. and i have no idea what cardboard box could be referring to.  foolish got a lime colored shulker from drista

-20:30 "we're supposed to only talk about it at a certain location" hmm now where would that be? panic room maybe? cause like usually after doing a big thing in the enderwalk state ranboo wakes up in the panic room so maybe?  the deal was that they only talk about it in his house

-21:52 how does ranboo receive(?) the lessons? like are they whispered to him in his mind or is he seeing them as words in front of him like we see? hmm

-"Lesson 14: If you have the opportunity to gain a favor, take it." "gain a favor" don't you usually ask people for favors though? how does one "gain a favor"? anyways i'm pretty sure lesson 14 has to do with the deal foolish was talking about. (the deal explained because i now have info: at some point a bit ago foolish met up with ranboo and asked to make a deal, he'd gotten a shulker box from drista. the deal was that ranboo would have ownership of the box, it would be under his name but foolish rents/borrows it indefinitely. ranboo negotiated that if he took ownership of the box he would get a "war favor"  from foolish where if something happens that creates sides, ranboo can ask him a favor that could change his side. but why would foolish want ranboo to have ownership of the shulker you may ask? well i have an answer for you. a theory actually but still. basically since drista technically isn't supposed to give out shit on the server if someone where to have that stuff then they may get in trouble. foolish wants to be able to use the shulker but if it gets found he doesn't want to get in trouble, so he can blame it on ranboo seeing as it's under his name.)

-22:16-ish "i still have this from when you *can't understand whats said here*" well i guess that sort of explains why he had the grass block? idk man (info update: he had the grass block from when ranboo threw it at him telling him to calm down like what ghostbur does with blue)

-31:35 "i figured out how to cause it" how to cause the enderwalk state

-38:30 "ninety three lessons" I STILL DONT KNOW WHY HE KEPT SAYING NINETY THREE AND NOT NINETY FOUR AND ITS DRIVING ME CRAZY LMAO

-39:01 "it's all for the greater good" okay well when are you gonna start thinking about yourself and not everyone else for once huh. self care bitch.

-40:31 he started holding the axe when he was looking at sam- gonna say it i really don't like that axe ahahah- WAIT A DAMN MINUTE THE AXE IS NAMED "axe of ender" I DONT LIKE THAT I DONT LIKE THAT AT ALL

-41:53 is there something?? physically keeping him from telling sam??? or maybe it's sort of like his enderwalk state taking control to make him shut the fuck up??? so many questions and approximately zero answers

-43:18 ranboo raising his voice legitimately scares me 😀👍

-"Lesson 27: Do not reminisce on what you have lost for it will weigh you down." showed up when he was thinking about and REMINISCING about the community house 👀👀

-"Lesson 53: Never fully trust anyone." showed up literally after he said that he thinks he can trust the other people on the server enough to tell them about what he did

-"Lesson 67: Leave no evidence of what you have helped with." this is different from the others because there doesn't seem to be at least a semi-direct connection to it? unless maybe at the time ranboo was near something he may have "helped with"? not sure about this one

-"Lesson 94: DO NOT LET THEM KNOW WHAT YOU HAVE DONE" yeah yeah i get it i get it he's fucked up some shit in enderwalk i don't feel like analyzing this thanks

-OH OH NOTICE HOW HE SAYS "REMEMBERING" WHEN THE LESSONS SHOW UP. IMPLYING THAT THIS ISNT A NEW THING, ITS HAPPENED BEFORE AND NOW HES REMEMBERING IT. MAYBE HE WROTE DOWN THE LESSONS WHEN HE WAS IN ENDERWALK AND NOW THAT HES BEEN EXPERIMENTING ITS BEEN EASIER FOR HIM TO REMEMBER THOSE ENDERWALK MEMORIES

-okokok the experiments are that he's been e x p e r i m e n t i n g on how to purposefully induce the enderwalk state. and we know now that it wasn't from the pain of the water because on the stream afterwords he said that it's caused by the intense fear of something happening. and so the "side effects" of the experiments is that since he's in enderwalk more often(?) he starts remembering more things from it

-OH MY GOD WAIT "there is a reason sam, there's so many reasons, theres ninety three of them" (44:47) WHAT IF EVERY LESSON IS TIED TO A QUOTE UNQUOTE "reason" THAT RANBOO THINKS HES A BAD PERSON/NEEDS TO BE LOCKED UP BUT HE SAYS NINETY THREE INSTEAD OF NINETY FOUR BECAUSE THE NINETY FOURTH LESSON DOESNT HAVE A REASON YET/HE DOESNT REMEMBER IT HAVING A REASON

-dude honestly the whole sam part hurts so much this man is scarily good at acting

-46:46 "i cant put you in the prison you wouldn't be able to see michael anymore" bestie that's the point he doesn't want to accidentally hurt michael or tubbo in the enderwalk state—

-okay but there's no way that sam couldn't tell that ranboo was at least TRYING to confess to something- i feel like he definitely knows more than he's letting on because usually like when people do bad shit or admit to doing bad shit he's like in Prison Guard Mode™️ (he literally cut off ponk's arm because he stole some keycards or something) and whatever and idk what he knows but he definitely knows something and is trying to protect ranboo. or he's trying to manipulate him or smth either one works—

-50:38 "you are a good person" "i am?" you can hear my heart shatter. "yes you are" "i don't think so sam" "i do, even if you don't" "i really don't think so" and there it goes again

-51:25 hello badboyhalo i see you to the left of ranboo

-52:44 "but then my curiosity got the best of me" curiosity killed the cat, bitch

-52:54 "there's ninety three, ninety four, ninety- theres so many reasons!" SEE!! NOT ONLY ARE THERE THAT MANY LESSONS THERE ARE REASONS THAT CORRESPOND IM S O SMART—

-52:56 "i don't want to remember anymore!" *quietly brings forth my theory that when ranboo loses a canon life his memory gets wiped*

-53:13 "ive opened pandora's box" isn't the prison?? literally called pandora's VAULT??? so this m a y be a stretch but i'm thinking that maybe this could be taken in the literal sense that he "opened" the prison and let dream out (the sirens at the end of quackity's stream confirm that dream is indeed out)

-53:42 mans just straight up walked through a ghost i—

-55:37 so are we just gonna ignore the eleventh page of the book? "he's alive, but hopefully soon dream won't be"??? alright nevermind it's most likely bc when tommy came back he recruited ranboo in his plan to kill dream

-55:47 notice how he writes "what am i?" as opposed to "who am i?" no elaboration here idk what it could be

-56:08 just so it's clear for anyone who doesn't know- he's wearing armor at this point, and i'm like 90% sure that when he wears his armor water can't hurt him. and i saw someone say somewhere that like with splash potions when thrown it turns into a gas-like thing? so again, it didn't hurt him, he didn't get hurt. he said in the chill stream that he wasn't comfortable making it where his character had to hurt himself to do that. the thing that causes the enderwalk isn't pain, it's intense and sudden emotions like fear and stress. thank you for coming to my tedtalk.

[stevengrantshubby]

okay, okay okay, okay. so here i go, idk if there will be a point in this but im gonna write it up anyways. so follow me down this weird half thought thur path or whatever

okay, so we know that tfatws takes place 6 months after endgame, long enough for things to no longer be new and the problems with what the avengers did (or undid if you prefer) are really setting in, not even a full year. the people who came back from the blip have only had 6 months to figure out whats going on, where their families were if they still had them, ect, ect and only 6 months for the people who were left behind to “adjust” to having everything ripped away from them. i do wonder about a lot of things from this time, but i doubt that we’ll get a ton of concrete answers about it.

anyways.

when we see sam in the opening action scene hes very confident and self-assured. hes in his element so to speak. hes strong, smart on his feet, and we see sam use his new wings as a shield multiple times which to me feels like either a kind of statement that sam doesnt need the shield or to show that he would be really good with the shield, it feels important somehow considering who important the shield becomes in the show.

also, the military guy tells sam that once the LAF get across the tunisia boarder its supposed to be a no-fly zone so to speak which is why it was important for sam to get him before which hints that not everywhere got rid of boarders. like, tunisia is in northern africa and when we meet the flag smashers later theyre mostly in eastern eurpoe and also torres makes a comment about things not being better during the blip and his american (im pretty sure) so again where these things are happening in relation to boarders and the like it still makes me think about how the world worked through the blip, but again probably wont get concrete answers.

also in this episode we see the first instance of sam being recognized for who he is by a man from tunisia (who im going to consider a character of color tho im not sure if this is considered accurate in the real world) and not recognized by white american men, this happens in episode two as well.

while the shield sort of becomes the super important symbol, we are also shown in this episode that steve has been kind put on a pseudo god-like position. yes, its a joke to ask if hes the moon of all places, but the whole “looking down on us”/”watching over us” feels a lot like the christian capital-G God. he has been put on this kind of pedestal by the people who really didnt know anything about him and also bucky (but hes been hanging by a thread for a while it seems so its a little different) in contrast to sam.

sam has a lot of respect for steve. he calls him courageous, righteous, and hopeful. the best in us because these emotions are supposed to inspire “good works” as it were. sam then states that the world needs new heroes for the current times and that symbols only have meaning because of the people who give them meaning. and upon my rewatch this feels sam want to preserve the meaning that steve, his friend, imbued into the shield but also wants to move forward. i do think that the fact that sam is a black man who is not treated very well by america plays into his decision as well, i also think the fact that we hear the lines from endgame:

- it feels like it belongs to someone else.

-it doesnt.

is important. right now im thinking that the shield is essentially meaningless because steve is gone for all intents and purposes and he dropped it without a second thought. like i get it, in terms of what the show is doing and like i said, how people who dont know steve would probably react but even so many weeks later it sits weird. even the dora milige left the shield behind even though its made of stolen vibranium, cause its just a thing. anyways...

rhodey, after the speech, parrots back at sam that they do live in a different time, but he thinks that this different time does require someone to carry the shield.

then we meet sams sister and his nephews. sam and his sisters relationship does hold a lot of tension between them but theres still so much love there as well. its very normal, reminds me of tension that i feel between myself and some of my family members and that i see between different family members as well.

sarah wilson is a black woman who, like many black women I know, have been holding things together the best she can with (seemingly) not much help. we know that sam left after their father died (i dont remember if their mother is also dead), he couldnt handle it as stated, so he went off and fought. but in being gone he sarah ran the business the best she could. shes also a widow, not sure when that happened but y'know thats there too.

but ii think that how sam feels about his familys home and boat in contrast with how he treated the shield kind of. sam references the boat as their familys legacy (sarah also calls their dad a 'giant' and that not mattering to the bank and probably others) and he doesnt want to let that go no matter what. however both of these are acts of preservation on sams part, just in different ways. he tried to let one go while desperately trying to hold on to the other, one to be put in stasis and one to move forward, grow, passed down ect, ect.

now sam really only tries to get involved with the flag smashers because he theyre super soldiers. and i guess youd call this the inciting incident part of act one.

now the next three episodes are very intertwinded in the plot and what kind of world sam would be becoming captain america in. sam makes an off handed comment that sharon, zemo, and bucky are more worldly than him but thats true. and he does have to...learn, is the best word i have. i mean, the most he can do right now is “make a call” as he puts it which really isnt a lot considering whats been going on.

and to backtrack (sorry if this is all over the place) we do see sam constantly empathizing with the flag smashers and more specifically karli consistently throughout the show. if they werent super soldiers hed not have crossed their path the way that he did. throughout the show, well before episode 4, sam is really focused on like where exactly the super soldiers are coming from, the fact that the flag smashers are stealing money, and food, and medicine he doesnt really care.

when he has his heart to heart with karli the main problem that he has honestly, is the murders (and i do wish that there was distinction made cause that is important, but i know that in show sam probably doesnt know that karli blew up a building with people tied up in it like we do but its important that we know that), when he says that the killings wouldnt make the world better just different along with karli saying “theyre roadblocks on my journey and id kill them again if i had to” (which is 1. very dehumanizing, 2. she says 'my' and not 'our', and 3. she didnt have to kill these low level workers) is more  a restructuring of power instead of dismantling it.

like theres a lot here but my minds not connecting fully.

i know the show isnt over so ii dont really have a conclusion (i honestly havent even said half of what I took notes about) but its like 4 am here and I gotta go to bed. And I dont want this ti be multiple parts right now I just needed to get this outta my system lol.

part 2 whenever

[missjackil]

14x12 & 14x13

During my re-watch of S14 and sobbing once again through the Brofest Trifecta, I no longer think the decision to end the show next season was made spur of the moment. Im convinced the decision was made a while ago, possibly at the same time they decided to do shorter seasons. Maybe even as far back as before S13, and that's why there was so much push for a spin-off, that ended up being very poorly written. Im not entirely sure, but at least Im confident that there was no drastic recent event that made them want to close up shop. I think they wanted to get to the 300 milestone, and why not take it through the 15 season milestone too, then hang up the flannels. 

They had a lot to celebrate over the past couple seasons, the spin-off (yuck) Scoobynatural, the honor of being given The Supernatural Studios, the 300th Episode, JDM coming back and early sign on for S15, I'm sure no one wanted to bum anyone out with announcing an ending, and take the spotlight from the other things, but now as I rewatched this season, (and even some of last) I can see a set up, most specifically in the episodes Prophet and Loss, and Lebanon.

In s13, they decided to bring back Michael. That doesn't necessarily mean they’d already scheduled an end, but I think they pulled that arc off the shelf for when an end was in sight. Because seriously, as much as I may hear you all moan and groan about how the Michael Lucifer thing is so old and boring, its THE biggest storyline in the whole series, and never should have been shelved. I mean Sam and Dean being the literal vessels of the 2 biggest Archangels is HUGE. It doesnt have to be the main story all the time, but they should never let the viewers forget, and that arc should get a proper closure, which it hasnt yet. 

Now this season has been setting us up for where we are now. (as any season would) but early on, there were hints to an end in sight. Small ones though, just enough to send a little chill up my spine, that yes, the show will eventually end. like in Mint Condition, Dean suggesting next Halloween they dress like Thelma and Louise and get in the car and just go. We all flash back to how Thelma and Louise drove off a cliff. Meanwhile throughout the season, we see Sam slowly unravelling. Dean began unravelling last season, and now the brothers are coming undone. Which brings me to the two episodes that I believe were setting us up for the later anouncement. 

Prophet and Loss was not only the most emotional scene we’ve seen from Sam since S8, and probably even more emotional than that, and Jared has to deliver his most emotional scene to date. As most of us know, Jared had an emotional reaction to the scene that made him not be able to say the words and fit them with the actions. It affected him so strongly that Jensen thought he may be having a stroke, because as long as he’s known Jared, and everything he’s been through, he’s never seen him unable to do the job, and at that moment, he couldnt do it. Jared said its the only time in his whole career he ever went home and cried, feeling like he disappointed everyone. That made me so sad when I heard it, and wanted him to know he didnt disapooint anyone, he did an AMAZING job!

Now, after the annoucement of the end, that scene takes on a whole new meaning. I think (and I stress that its a thought, and Im not assuming I know how Jared thinks)  that if Jared knew the show was ending, saying those lines would be hard as hell. Saying them and knowing we didnt know yet, could be very upsetting. Perhaps he wondered in his own heart that they made the wrong decision (as anyone put in their position would wonder at least 1000 times) and yelling at Dean about quitting, felt too much like yelling at Jensen? “We’re the guys that save the world, we dont just check out of it!”  Go watch that scene again, and try to imagine Jared saying it with what we know now. 

Maybe he even thought of it from the POV of the fans? That maybe thats how many of us would feel once we heard? Could it be even that maybe when he got home, he cried worried he would disappoint us all with their pending news, and the lines in that scene were just too close to home?

Even after the, now iconic, punch/hug “Why dont you believe in us too” Dean’s response was ironic too, almost like they dont need to tell us at all, but respectfully they will, and when the time comes, we do then what we cant do now, put them in the box and let them go.  (watch where you step... my heart is laying around here somewhere)

This brings us to Lebanon. Such a tearfest in itself. My favorite episode yet! But if they all knew the end was in the cards, this episode also takes on new meaning. I dont think it was any accident that they chose to not show a live episode the weerk after the announcement, but to re-air Lebanon instead. It was as though they re-aired it so we could collectively see it in another way, and mourn together a little. 

It’s no secret that JDM loves J2 and vise versa, J2 have said a million times theyd love to have him back, and he has said he’d love that too and how proud he is of them, and will always consider them “his boy. Him coming back was alone a sign the end was coming. How badly we, as well as Jared wanted so bad for Sam to have closure with his father. and we were given a heart wrenching and tearful scene between Sam and John.  Both confronted each other with their issues, chose not to dwell on it, acknowledge they each hurt the other, and theyre sorry. 

Sam said the argument they had was a lifetime ago, it may have taken half that lifetime for Sam to believe and understand, even though he did some messed up things, that yes, Dad loved him. And now, theres closure. 

We soon go then to, what I now believe was a message to us, that the time to part is coming soon. Everyone sad and speechless at the table, and John says “Now as I see it, we have 2 choices, we can either dwell on whats coming, or be grateful for this time we have together. And me, I choose graqteful. So to whatever power brought us together....we owe you one” then each give an individual “amen” That killed me then, and now it kills me in a new way, and its always going to stick in my head now as a message to us fans. 

We move on now to John’s farewell. J2 have said they didnt need to fake any emotions, the emotions where all really there. I now see not just John, but JDM telling J2 “I am so proud of you boys” hugging them both “I love you both so much” Jared so emotional he cant talk, and Jensen mustering enough strength for the both of them to say “I love you too” (I think I heard my heart shattering in a corner somewhere) I will never get over that episode in this lifetime... ever.

After these episodes, we got a break (mercifully) then we got 3 episodes before we got the announcement. In those episodes, we have Cas explaining to Jack that even though Sam and Dean are wonderful, amazing, and special human beings, they are humans and humans shine for just a short time. Someday Sam and Dean will die, and it will hurt, but that pain will remind us of how much we love them. And Jack  thinks like me... “That sounds.... awful”... those words are not a comfort Cas.... nice try though 💔😭

We also have Sam still unravelling, he got a dose of phony happiness, (as did Dean in Nihlism ... as neither place of happiness included each other) yet, it was each other who pulled them out. Sam pulled Dean out of his dream world, the mention of Dean pulled Sam out. Sam knows he wont be happy without Dean, so he presses on.  We still have 4 episodes left of this season. Lucifer is on his way back. AU Michael might be dead, but cage Michael has been mentioned a lot the past few seasons so I think we’re gonna get some kind of real showdown to put that arc to rest.

So now I will always see Prophet and Loss and Lebanon in a new way... a painful way, but Ill throw in an honorary mention of some irony in  Damaged Goods.... regarding the from behind, sneak attack hug, “If it feels like something is up, it probably is” and regarding Sam’s anger when Dean told him his plan, it would have really been messed up and wrong if they didnt tell us, they knew this, so they did.... they didnt have to. 

[maternalcube]

i did an art summary so now im doing a fic summary. i was tagged by @jamthedingus also!! ive never done one of these before!! lets go!!!

Rest (13106)

Keith & Lance's Island Adventure (20631)

Atlantis (10014 words)

The Way to a Man’s Heart (6858 words)

nobody's business (2096 words)

leave, and take (557 words)

dead girl walking (1661 words)

the course of fate (1039 words)

who ya gonna call (465 words)

come here often? (806 words)

til kingdom come (1950 words)

stars in the sky (pt 2) (5404 words)

a song of falling (630 words)

Eyes to the Sky (3683 words)

Feet on the Ground (4050 words)

Divergence (6669 words)

homecoming (1426 words)

Window of Opportunity (11144 words)

along that wilderness of glass (3801 words)

string theory (2327 words)

Katt Week (1062 words)

The Pining-Plant (3860 words)

at the end of many worlds (21684 words)

you're my home (19646 words)

Believe Me (3177 words)

Starchild (3568 words)

Summer Heat (2285 words)

third time's the charm (5349 words)

Blackbird (59546 words)

The Sixth Planet (9444 words)

all the infinite realities (1197 words)

Total Fics: 31! (plus one i posted anonymously lmao) Total Words: 229999! (except parts of string theory and the sixth planet were actually posted last year... but still, what a number)

more under the cut!

Ship/character breakdown: i didnt filter out my prompt collection or abandoned wips here so /shrug Ship breakdown:

klance - 6 sheith - 5 shance - 5 katt - 4 heith - 3 pallura - 2 and one each of plance, kallura, allurance, shatt, shkatt, kidge, kidgance, and shunk. and keiths parents lol. let it never be said i am not a multishipper.

and i know gen isnt a ship but it tied with klance at 6 (plus whatevers in the prompt collection) which was a surprise

Character breakdown: man if theres a way to get ao3 to show me ALL the stats, i dont know it. but.

keith - 25 (shocker) shiro - 23 lance - 21 pidge - 17 hunk - 16 allura - 12 matt - 12 and then coran and sam are at 4, and zarkon ats 3 and presumably many others are at 3 or less

Characters that had the main focus: well ~9 were from keiths pov, and ~5 each from shiro and lances povs. i think i also had ~5 from multiple points of view. its safe to say that keith has my heart tho lol

Specifics:

Best/worst title? Best title: i still like “at the end of many worlds.” i weirdly still like “Blackbird” too even if it has nothing to do with anything... Worst title: “Rest.” :/ also like all of the abandoned wips bc i didnt care. and “Keith & Lance's Island Adventure.″ some of my zine fic titles were also... bad. im bad at titles.

Best/worst first line?

Best: Keith & Lance's Island Adventure. ok the title is bad but this line? this really sets the tone for whole fic. you know what youre getting yourself into here.

When Pidge invited Keith to a fully-funded graduation party aboard the Holt family boat (“the smaller one, anyway,” she’d said), this is not exactly what he'd pictured: three of them standing on a wobbly dock, packed bags at their feet, sky cloudy and gray, while the Holt siblings stand on a little ledge off the back of the boat and deny entry.

Worst: ive got two for this lol

at the end of many worlds: even i have to read this a couple times to figure out what i was trying to say. at least you know youre in for pain...

Keith’s mother shows up to interrupt movie night often enough that, this time, Keith almost doesn’t realize anything’s wrong. Almost, because she’s silhouetted by the movie, but she’s clutching her arm and panting for breath, and in the thin edge of light around her he sees a wet and vibrant red.

Divergence: because all your friends being dead is EXACTLY like losing at dodgeball. yeah, theres a reason i abandoned this one.

Hunk always hated playing dodgeball. Not because he was bad at it--though he was--but because he always ended up the last one standing, and therefore the only target for the entire other team. It was due to a tendency to hang unnoticed in the back, he knew, but that didn't change the sickening, empty feeling of looking around and realizing there's no one left but him, and there's no way he can win. Only wait for the inevitable.

This, Hunk decides, is a lot like that, only, like, a billion times worse.

Best/worst last line?

Best: The Pining-Plant. there are a few others that were cute too but this one is also good out of context so

And then the pod swishes open and he's scrambling to catch Pidge as she stumbles out. She clings to his arms to steady herself and his heart swells.

"Falling for me again, huh?" he asks, and she groans loudly.

"Let me go, I'm getting back in the pod," she says, and he laughs. He doesn't let go, and neither does she.

Worst: if im bad at titles, im worse at endings. most are bad. i suspect the ending to “Rest” is terrible but i cant bring myself to even open that shit again so: Believe Me. if weather were a recurring theme in this fic, itd be fine, but as is its just... a weird note to end the fic on lmao

Hunk rocks back on his heels. "We aren't counting this as our official first date, right?"

"I dunno," Keith says, and now he smiles at the rain instead of frowning. It shows no sign of easing up, but whatever—they're soaked anyway. "This seems pretty good to me."

“...All right.” If nothing else, it’ll make a good story. And, Hunk had to admit—he’s pretty happy with how it’s turned out, rain and all.

But next time, he's double-checking the forecast, just in case.

General questions:

Looking back, did you write more fics than you thought you would this year, less than you thought, or about what you predicted?

more than i expected! considering ive been in grad school all year!! i wrote about the same amount wordcount-wise in 2017 which i spent only half in school so. idk how i managed it.

What pairing/genre/fandom did you write that you would never have predicted last year?

the anonymous fic was a surprise but im not gonna talk about that lol. otherwise... nah, its all been my usual stuff.

What’s your favorite story this year? Not the most popular, but the one that makes you the happiest.

blackbird, probably. i like working on that one. summer heat was also fun, id sort of forgotten about it bc it was a zine fic but coming back to it, i really liked it. likewise with third time’s the charm. and i like t6p a lot even if i kinda hate drawing for it :’)

Okay, NOW your most popular story.

depends on your metric. window of opportunity has the most kudos, keith and lance’s island adventure has the most hits, and t6p has the most comments and subscriptions. 

Story most underappreciated by the universe?

AT THE END OF MANY WORLDS. oh man i killed myself over that fic. it was important to me. but i think the mcd scared everyone off :’)

Story that could have been better?

i realize “all of them” is kind of a cop out answer but like

Sexiest story?

i have written nothing sexy, ever, in my whole life

Saddest story?

i mean, ateomw. considering all the death. blackbird def has its moments too.

Most fun?

i feel like i answered this in the favorite story q lmao. you’re my home also gets a shoutout, that thing was,, super self-indulgent lmao. and id be lying if i said i didnt have fun with parts of ateomw, even if its mostly sad.

Story with single sweetest moment?

man i write a lot of fluff but so much of you’re my home is just tooth-rotting. heres part of the proposal scene lmao

"Lance!" Keith yelps, barely rescuing the ring from falling into the sand with them. Lance pushes himself up on his arms, silhouetted by the sun and glowing with it.

"Really?" he asks breathlessly.

"Yeah," Keith says, and maybe he should've prepared something to say, that's a thing people do, right? Hell, he's winging it. "I know we can't stay here on Earth forever, 'cause we're paladins, and there's still stuff out there we gotta do. And I know you probably want to stay because this is your home—but you're my home, and if we gotta go, at least you'll have me, good or bad." He grins crookedly. "Or rocket science. Whatever happens, I'll be there."

Hardest story to write?

well t6p gets a shoutout, but its not the writing thats the hard part for that. uhhh ive struggled with parts of blackbird. i remember k&l’s island adventure giving me a LOT of trouble, i think i posted late lol

Easiest/most fun story to write?

anything short uhhh for all the infinite realities, i kind of just sat down the other day (actually i was in bed but) and was like “im gonna write this” and then in the morning i just sat down and wrote it in one go. i dunno if id call it fun, but it was easy. t6p is super fun to write but, as mentioned, drawing it sucks.

Did any stories shift your perceptions of the characters?

no... my perceptions probably have shifted but not due to anything i wrote in particular. i did talk myself into liking allurance with a prompt fill, though, but im not sure that was 2018...

Most overdue story?

all the infinite realities lmao. at the end of many worlds needed that happy ending. and another shoutout to t6p, because thats been going on over a year and im still nowhere.

Did you take any writing risks this year? What did you learn from them?

does posting my abandoned wips count? ive still got some of those hanging around... blackbird was a bit of a risk bc my last longfic was written while i was unemployed and out of school, so like i had the time for it, and now i kinda dont. still chugging tho. ateomw b/c of all the death but it turns out i really like writing whump woops. and writing any sort of kissing always feels like a risk bc i suck at it but im getting better lol... i hope...

What are your fic writing goals for next year?

write more! finish things! do more sheith! i really want to work on this sheith longfic i came up with the other day... but i want to get blackbird over with first.

Tagging: eh! do it if you want to!

[kawaiianimeredhead]

Oh right I wanted to rant. Im still on my phone so there might be typos but oh well

Edit: this got way longer and rambly than I expected oops. I hope this read more works, i never actually checked yesterday when I used it to see if it still worked on mobile so if it doesnt oops and sorry

Anyways. In september a new company took over our contract and thats a whole rant on its own. The previous lead (my dad but not important) left before the new company came and he left Sam in charge. Sam has been there for like four or five years and he's a pretty good guy. When the new cobtract started he was very quickly overwhelmed with the bs and also with the paper abd computer stuff he had to do so he stepped down. Hes still there and actually was still in charge for a bit after he stepped down because we didnt have a new lead.

And now we do have a new lead. This was apparently a Process from what ive heard. Nobody really wanted the job and im not sure how the Boss from the company even went about hiring but i heard that a couple people he considered weren't interested and then I was told that someone was hired or was going to be hired and quick before she even started. I heard these from two differenr people because one told me she qas being walked around and woukd start soon and another said she wasnt coming a day or so later. Someone was hired though and the first night he was there so was the Boss showing him around kinda. I spoke with him a bit and he seemed nice. Def better than the Boss who I cant stand beinf around for long hes got weird and annoying vibes around him.

None of this is actually particularly relevant or necessary for this rant but it came out anyways.

So this new lead has tried all thr different shifts/jobs out and and has been with us for like a month or so now maybe? The first schedule he was properly scheduled on was such a SHIT week/schedule because I went from working 5-4 days a week to 3 and instead of doing bathrooms which is 3 hours or 4 depending on if I'm also doing trash to working 2 hours one day, 2 or 3 the next, and 3 or 4 the last. And it sucks. Then, the first schedule to come out that he made (with the help of the Boss) had ALL of us on less days and hours and HE now working every day but one and working both in the morning AND at night. Now I'm not convinced this was soley his decision because I know he made this schedule with the Boss and i have a suspicion that the Boss encouraged him or persuaded him or some other kind of bull shit to do the schedule like this. And then the week after was the same schedule copied again and this week coming up is the same minus a few small changes.

Now all this is annoying and bull shit on its own but not even the main fuel to this rambling rant. With this schedule, hes scheduled to clean the bathrooms and trash every day except Sunday, which is when I am scheduled on them. Last week was the first week of this and besides the day I'm specificed to do bathrooms im not given a specific job. Imbonly told to do "extras" so ive asked Sam and hes told me to do offices one day and some windows the other. I come in Saturday ready to do the windows which ive been dying to do because they look awful and they used to be my Thing so I get really annoyed about them often but then I notice the trash hadnt been done. So I start doing that thinking maybe that was what I was supposed to be doing. Then while doing this I notice the main breakroom doesnt look particularly clean, breakrooms are a part of the bathroom persons job. This was annoying but because it wasnt Bad I left it. I then go to the next break room which is smaller and always messier because more people stay in it for longer, this one also looked dirtier than it should be. In addition, the bathroom's trash hadnt beeb taken out which is a part of the bathroom job. Bathroom trash is separate from trash trash as far as jobs go, theyre usually done together but if someone is doinf "extras" and someone else bathrooms, bathrooms normally gets bathroom trash abd extras the rest. Something felt really off about the bathroom as well and combined with the breakdowns I had a suspicion that bathrooms hadnt been done. So I decided to check the costumer bathrooms for their trash and their cleanliness. When I got there they absolutely had not been done. Which ! I hadn't planned for. I was taking my time on trash and now I had to do bathroom s.

Nobody had been called or texted about the lead not being at work. And he absolutely has our numbers. We used to sign in on a time sheet and that would have helped us noticed but we recently got a finger print time clock which, as far as I know, we cant check other peoples hours on. So we had no fucking clue he just hadnt been in the previous night.

Then this week comes along. Friday talking with Sam he mentioned something along the lines of not checking the bathrooms. Mentioning that its not really our fault if we dont abd they havent been done because since were not scheduled for them, we have no reason to assume they wouldnt be done. So I hadnt looked in the bathrooms but I did notice the break room looked a bit messy and which had me a bit concerned about a repeat of the previous week. But I didnt wanna do them and I knew Sam didnt either so I left it be but texted nick to ask if hed seen the lead the previous night. Nick confirmed hed been in and was seen cleaning the bathrooms. Yesterday, I briefly looked into the main break room and it looked not great, and then later I went to the bathroom in the smaller breakroom's bathroom (they have really nice soap they buy themselves thats not really importantto this tho) and noticed that one looked AWFUL. It absolutly hadnt been swept and I felt bad but it wasnt what I was scheduled for so I just kinda left it... Their bathroom also had 1ply toilet paper in it, which is what we had when the company first took over it its AWFUL everyone complained so we switched but the unused rolls are still in our closet. Nobody told our new lead this so he had put some of this in the bathrooms. Then later on in the morning, I noticed several trash cans had stuff in it. Not trash but like residue from trash? Like sticky spots of soda oe coffee, some gum, things like that. Basically things that pointed to him only dumping out the trash and not changing the bag. The bags dont always get changed everyday, thats not really an issue, but if theres something still kinda in them they normally are changed because thats gross and why would it just be left like that... I also noticed that up front by the entrance door none of the trash had been got. The busiest area for trash (from customers) and it was still ! There! And I had actually heard Friday or last Friday that this wasnt the first time. Again I left it because I had other things to do.

Now this morning. I worked bathrooms and trash. Trash went ok, I changed a lot of the bags becsuse I prefer to do it regardless and it was just normal overall. Then bathrooms. The bathroom cart is a mess. Which started my mood. The top is all unorganized and theres dirty water in the mop bucket. When I went go get new water, I had set the mop off to the side assuming it had already veen run out and dried because it had been in the part of the bucket where you ring it out and it had been there since yesterday morning. I finished filling the bucket and then look over and notice the puddle forming under the mop because my assumption had been wrong and worse, it smelled like pee. ! Carring on The first two bathrooms were ok, not great but fine. Then I got to the main breakroom and noticed itd clearly been cleaned, Sam worked the day shift Saturday so I assume he swept and mopped. I also swept and mopped. Then, the small break room. Sam didnt clean this one. Which is fair on his part because I think throughout the whole day at least one or more people are sitting in it with no time for someone to clean. So I start and its just the whole thing, even the bathroom floor, was so bad. Aside from the floor the bathroom part was ok, but the floor really didnt seem to have been swept. And the main floor absolutely hadnt been swept. This was obvious from the start but it kept making me madder and madder as I swept and saw how much trash was on the floor. It absolutely put me behind because I wanted to get as much as I could. The cutomer bathrooms also looked pretty bad which is had to tell who thats on, but wheb I got to them it was apparent somethibg else I hadnt fully thought of as a problem until then. Behind all the toilets, like on then but behidb the seat part, there was so much DUST. I had noticed before in the other bathrooms but didnt really think about it because of things plus i see the dust more often collect in the orher bathrooms than that one for some reason and I didnt even realize this but because it was something New in the costumer bathroom it was really noticeable now. Which made ne even madder. Its not hard to clean, were supposed to be cleaning the toilet seats anyways so getting just behind them isnt anything!

And its just so aggrivating. The longer at work i was this morning the more it pissed me off. Especially because in addition to what I was seeing, the things I had heard from others over the last couple of weeks started piling on.

With my own eyes i had seen how bad the cart had been and from sam I heard that the water in the bucket had been in there all week, he suspected that he wasnt changing it. He also commented on the rags all over the cart thinking that he wasnt using paper towels to clean and instead used the rags. I heard about how a couple of times now hed forgotten or ignore the front trash cans and some others. I heard from someone in the meat room that when he cleans it he doesnt do that grear a job and even broke a couple small things. Which is all very concerning to hear since thats a fucking sanitation issue!? And I heard from nick yesterday that he thinks that the lead isnt cleaning all thw bathrooms every day and is instead only cleaning them when they look dirty. Which I'm a bit inclinded to believe because the underside of some of the seats seemed much dirtier than id expected.

And its all infuriating! The Boss is the one who showed him all the jobs, none of us showed him any of what we do it was all the Boss. So like, did HE tell the lead not to do this or that? To do some of it to save time? I dont know but some of it is common sense regardless of what hes beeb told hes still fucking it up and hes our fucking boss. And the main one doing everything!

The store hasnt looked as clean from the start of this new contract and now it's even worse and its awful!

And I dont have a way to end this rant it got really long snd feels like it needs a good closer but I dont have one...

[disanddatmedia]

Story Time!

Back in 2010, I became best friends with this girl we'll call "Sam". Sam and I became fast best friends and even our moms were good friends, I did develop feelings for this girl HOWEVER, I never crossed a line with her and eventually lost those feelings but still remanded best friends (grade 9 btw). Over the years, we had many great times and helped each other out however we could, it was an balanced friendship, there was one summer where we hung out almost everyday because it was always fun, I helped her out when she was sad and she helped me when I was sad, made each other laughed etc., probably my best friend during highschool. She moved right before graduation but came back, one in a while talked (it was understood we had our own lives), I went to visit her 6 years ago, this was a 15 hour drive one way, my first real solo road trip, it was great getting to see an old friend. So this friend sam was someone where we would tell each other and others that we were best friends forever.

This summer however was different, at the start of the year I left an over 3 year long relationship heart broken, lonely, and at this point been dealing with depression for about 9 years which I was at one of my worst points, I fortunately had froends I could turn too, eventually started to get better not only from that situation, but also my battle eith depression in general, finally I talked to Sam again after a while of not talking (which is fine, life happens), talked about what has happen since we last talked, and also planned for me to come visit while on my road trip I planned that summer. While we caught up I talked about that I was excited about this trip, seeing my old best friend after 4 years, it was going to be great.

I get there its great, we hang out, get drunk/stoned together, talked about anything including her future wedding, going as far as me agreeing to be the photographer as a wedding gift, I meet her BF which we got along and all that good stuff.

Something to note here: after my relationship ended, I changed, in my opinion for the better, but I changed. I started smoking weed as a treatment for depression (which helped a great), grew out a mohawk I started to dyed (never did anything like that), started wanting to experience life more then I did ever, picking up guitar alittle, my attitude changed so I was still nice but didn't let people walk over me, being my true self and not worrying about others opinion etc., basically what needed to happen for me personally.

Now, before getting to her town I realized that I was doing better then Ive ever did in 9 years, super happy, a little quieter, but just me, happy.

On the last night, her seeing me happy and seeing that I'm more comfortable with myself, more at peace with myself, she turns to me and says "I can't do this anymore"

me: "do what?"

her: "this, i just can't"

me: *confused* "explain?"

her: "well you changed so much since highschool, and you been depressed since after highschool and I can't do it anymore"

me: "Ive been depressed basically the entire time Ive known you, ive changed for the better, and ive have been doing better now then i have in 9 years, so I dont know what you're talking about"

her: "okay but i still can't do it anymore, you're leaving here tomorrow morning anyways, when you get to Xcity, let me know and then were done, no more friendship"

me: "okay i can do that but i do agree with this since your reasoning makes no sense, but okay if thats what you want ill repect that"

so a best friendship of 9 1/2 years throw away, and the reasoning for it? ive changed since highschool and been depressed since highschool. But ive been depressed for way longer, was doing the best in mental health in years at that point, changed to be me more (expressing myself the way i want to), and didnt really talked about the problems ive been dealing with but instead how excited i was for my road trip and good times, so whats the point of this story?

1: I needed off my chest

2: if you're going to end a friendship, at least have it make sense, dont lie, just sit down with them and talk about it all

3: if its a toxic friendship then yeah, drop them like bricks, but a healthy friendship, sit down and talk about it. Make it so that both parties are in an understanding and theres no unleft questions

basically, don't hype someone to come visit you, talk about being apart of your wedding, having a grand time and all that jazz and then drop them as a friend fir no good reason, it can really fuck them up.

ive dropped people as friends yes, but any friend ive dropped was cause of toxic/shitting behavior that I cant look pass. The only other way ive stopped being friends with someone is by drifting away, life getting to us. we out grow friends yes, but don't hype and make plans and say "youre one of my best friends" and pretend to care to listen to there problems then drop suddenly with an awnser that leaves more questions than awnsers.

Even though this has bother me, I am glad that it happen, it seemed that i was always the one to reach out to say hey, and she never visited me, the thing that never changed with me was 1: being a nice person, 2: i will put effort in a friendship i have with someone, eben if its little, but some sort of effort.

I guess she dropped me as a friend, but i didnt realize until it happen that, i outgrew her.

I guess the main point of this is, I just needed this off my chest, Im doing okay just regardless, needed to type this out

[anti-boy-club]

Lmfao i know its 4 am lol so im probably just spiraling down a depression hole, but honestly i feel so fucking lonely, i literally have no friends at uni apart from 2 who are near and dear to my heart, however they are always occupied with stuff, which is not their fault, so they are not included in this rant. However ive not hung out with people properly for over a month now, and its getting so lonely and boring theres only so much i can by my self, but i dont have a boyfriend who i can just hang out with cause all gay men are sex crazed maniacs who just want a perfect muscle guy or twink, over someone like me and all the 'friends' i did have, have been absolute dickheads, and even when we were 'friends' i never felt like a proper part of the group i always felt like "oh its sam, the best friend of our friends, girlfriend" like?? No one ever messaged me exclusively just to hang out, i was always a second or a third thought now im not one at all lmfao. And i dont know how to make new friends cause at uni the first 3 months are were you make your friends, and yeah i have course friends and they are lovely but i dont see them outside of a uni context cause they all have theyre own friends, and theres only 9 of is on my course even less i think. All ive been doing is just sleeping as a coping mechanism for my loneliness, also non of my friends seem to care about my art or hobbies or even me to begin with like when i post art, no one shares it or complements it which makes me so shit about it but when its THEIR turn they all ask and expect me too share and complement them, even their friends from home who i dont even know i support lmfao god it sounds so petty but its true. All my life ive felt like a side kick, a second thought to people, im like a little puppy that gets attention when people have no one else to give it too and then im just tossed aside when someone new or i guess better comes along but im always still there still waiting for people. The emotional shit ive put into people, the care the effort and i get non NON of it back at most people in my life. Like eugh makes me feel like i dont want exist anymore, the only thing keeping me alive is my family... and thats the sadest part that i put all my self worth on others but its whats been taught to me by society as a fat gay guy im always the funny friend never the main lead even in my own life...

[lamarcanon-blog]

15 facts about San Antonio that will surprise you

1. San Antonio is big. Like, really big. Photo: Nan Palmero In fact, its the second-biggest city in Texas. By area, its twice the size of Chicago. With a population of over 1.4 million, its the seventh-largest city-proper in the country and is gaining on all six above it. This isnt some second-tier cowboy outpost its a major metropolitan hub. 2. Were home to the first modern art museum in the Southwest. The McNay Art Museum brought modern art to Texas in 1954, when Marion Koogler McNay, an art teacher and heiress to an oil fortune, donated her San Antonio mansion to the art cause. These days, its home to works from some of the best artists of all time, like Picasso and Georgia OKeeffe. Then theres the awesome local art which you probably wont find at MoMA like the contemporary Latino prints and Southwest art collections. All in all, there are now some 20,000 works at the McNay. 3. We really know how to keep it cool. Photo: Joe Diaz San Antonians know a thing or two about heatwhich prompted us to learn about cold. In 1928, the 21-story Milam Building in downtown San Antonio became the first air-conditioned high-rise in the US. The AC system kept temperatures to 80 degrees, a welcome relief for all those workers doingwhatever people did in offices decades before the first desktop computers. But we didnt stop with office buildings San Antonio is home to countrys first air-conditioned bank, hotel, and Catholic Church. And did we mention the creator of Gatorade was from San Antonio? 4. San Antonio holds a world record for tamale making. If youve been to South Texas, youre probably familiar with our thing for tamales. Yes, theyre a staple Mexican food, and yes, were totally obsessed with them. So obsessed, in fact, that a local high school made 17,106 tamales thats 2,420 pounds in 10 hours during a tamalada. This put the Alamo City in the pages of the Guinness World Records,though the officials did have to create a new category: Most Tamales Made in a 12-hour Period. 5. We turned a brewery into an art museum. Photo: San Antonio Museum of Art The San Antonio Museum of Art, which opened in 1981 in the old Lone Star Brewery complex, may not serve up local brews, but its collection of 30,000+ objects spanning 5,000 years will probably quench a different kind of thirst. Even the building itself is impressive, dating to 1884. 6. You can thank us for Shaq. Shaquille ONeal, star of Kazaam (oh right, and also 15-time NBA All-Star), went to Robert G. Cole High School in San Antonio. There, the skinny, nearly 7-foot-tall teenager led his team to a 36-0 state championship record in 1989 (they had a 68-1 record over two years). He also still holds the state record for number of rebounds in a season, with 791. In 2014, Shaq came back to the Texas state basketball tournament for a reunion with his former high school teammates, still towering over them like he did 25 years ago. 7. San Antonio hosts a parade with floatsthat actually float. Photo: U.S. Army Old Guard Fife and Drum Corps Every year the Texas Cavaliers River Parade takes the term parade float and interprets it literally. More than 40 barges packed with musicians and sparkling decorations float down the San Antonio River with hundreds of thousands of people watching from the footpaths of the River Walk. The event is just one of many extravaganzas that occur every April during Fiesta, the biggest party youve never heard of. 8. Were home to one of the top-ranked theaters in the world. The Tobin Center for the Performing Arts and its state-of-the art sound system and design attract the big names think Paul McCartney and Meghan Trainor. With its main 1,738-seat performance hall, an intimate studio theater, and an awesome outdoor performance plaza, the Tobin has been ranked as one of the top 100 theaters in the world of its size. 9. The San Antonio Missions are the only UNESCO World Heritage Site in Texas. Photo: Kim Carpenter San Antonio Missions National Historical Park is home to four of the citys five Spanish missions outposts that date back to the 17th century. Along with the iconic Alamo, they were selected for UNESCO designation in 2015 after a successful campaign by city and state officials. The Missions were chosen for their interweaving of Spanish and Coahuiltecan cultures. Today, theyre pretty much at the top of any San Antonio visitors to-do list the Alamo alone attracts over 2.5 millions visitors every year. 10. San Antonio is known as Military City USA. Long before soldiers were shouting Remember the Alamo, Spanish soldiers had set up fort in San Antonio to protect their lands in the New World. Flash forward and its easy to see why the city has kept this bold nickname: With 133,000 people hitting town each year to attend the graduation of students from military training, the USAF Airman Heritage Museum being right here, Fort Sam Houston being one of the Armys oldest posts, and over 300 years of military history, this is one city you really dont want to mess with. 11. We gave our Worlds Fair its own nickname. Photo: Joe Diaz San Antonio was founded in 1718, and back in 1968, we needed a way to celebrate our 250th birthday. This city knows how to throw a party, and we decided to invite 30 countries to come celebrate with us during HemisFair 68. To prep for the bash, San Antonio built the 750-foot Tower of the Americas, which, at the time, was the tallest observation tower in the country (its taller than the Space Needle). 12. The very first Churchs Chicken opened across the street from the Alamo. Before the famous fried chicken chain was located on every other corner, there was one small walkup location across the street from the Alamo. Turns out we really love our fried chicken-to-go, and the joint quickly expanded throughout San Antonio, and now has over 1,600 locations in some 30 countries around the world. Of course, these days when youre in town, the most exciting food experiences are those taking place in the hottest Tex-Mex restaurants as well as those helping to define whats Tex-Next. 13. Were home to the first historic district in Texas. Photo: Mobilus In Mobili Originally built up by German immigrants in the 1860s, the King William Historic District is 25 blocks of style clearly influenced by its European founders. Its seen its ups and downs, but after being designated the first historic district in the state, its been rebuilt and reborn. Now you can spend an evening here exploring local art, gawking at opulent mansions, and sipping a cold one at Blue Star Brewing on South Alamo. 14. The Alamo City has the nations first all-digital library. Accessible 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, the Bexar County BiblioTech was the first library in the US to offer an exclusively digital collection and is still the only one to do so. The golden age of the paperback has ended, so why not borrow e-readers from the library and attend book club meetings streamed online? Bonus: Its computer lab comes with iPads and Xboxes. Way to up the bar, San Antonio. 15. The Witte Museum raised money for its first collection by selling flowers. Photo: Rain0975 In 1923, local high school teacher Ellen Schultz wanted to start a museum in San Antonio, but was short on cash. Schultz and her students sold flowers (bluebonnets, to be specific), baked cakes, and put on small plays to raise enough money to get started. Today, the Witte Museum is super legit as well as super popular, with exhibits ranging from Texas art, to dinosaur bones, to one of the worlds largest collections of circus artifacts and memorabilia.

Read full article here :https://matadornetwork.com/trips/15-facts-san-antonio-will-surprise/ Related article :https://theculturetrip.com/north-america/usa/texas/articles/10-unique-facts-about-san-antonio-you-didnt-know/

[alisonangeles]

ArchiNEXT 2017

Apparently, ArchiNEXT is one of the best things happened in my life. I joined the competition because we were required by our professor and was considered as a plate. Without me knowing that I would get a runner - up place out of 472 entries nationwide. I really didn’t expect anything. It’s just me exerting effort on something I love. And that’s what I did. And with that, I got a privilege to learn a lot from my ArchiNEXT experience.

I dont really post my works on the internet to prevent others from duplicating. But here’s an overview of my entry.

I still have pictures of some LBC documents when I sent my entry to HCG Philippines. We had it for free cause it was sponsored by HCG.

I can still remember, I visited the church after sending my design entry. God really is good. He is good!

So let me just share you a story about how I knew the results.

One afternoon in CAFA, I was on a meeting with my design 08 groupmates. We were so busy that we didn’t knew the ArchiNEXT Magic 67 is out. We just knew when our classmate came to us to told us that a lot of it came from TSU. So we checked it out. They knew it by a FB Live video. Until we saw our entries on the video being included in the preliminary screening. We were so happy that we cant focus anymore on our meeting! I thanked the Lord right away. Ofcourse He is the main reason why my entry got included. 

And so the voting for ArchiNEXT 2017 starts. Many of my family members and friends really exerted a big effort on this. It was like a month-long voting. It wasnt easy for me for I have numerous plates back then. I am really happy I got the award. Its not the prize that I wanted. Its the success of hardwork. I gained a total of 10,987 votes. A little trivia: I let it end with number 7. Cause I personally considered it as God’s number.

Here’s an ArchiNEXT article about the award: http://archinext.ph/2017/archinext2017s-most-popular-is-angeles/

After the voting, we felt that the list of winners was about to release. This time, I really wasnt expecting anything. Really. Thats why when we heard that 3 higher year students of TSU was included in the top 10, I didnt felt bad I wasnt included. But on that night, my classmate said that I was actually one of the top 10. He said it was told by Kuya Montemayor, the other student who also got included and was called by ArchiNEXT team. Ofcourse I was happy but I still waited for a confirmation. Until one day I was in class. Someone texted me “Aliii” and then I said why, she said “Wala lang. Hawakan mo lang lagi phone mo ah”. At first, I cant figure out why she texted me that. But after few minutes, I felt that it was it. I hope I am right about what I am feeling. The confirmation. So while my professor is discussing, my phone rang. I usually do not answer calls while im on class. But this time, I really stepped out of the classroom to get the call. And I was right! It was ArchiNEXT! She congratulated me and asked about some personal details for some documents. She also said that their team cant contact me cause it seemed like I miswrote my phone number on the file I sent. After, I went back to our classroom wearing a full-smile. And I cant even hide it. My classmates were also happy for me at that time. Again, I thanked the Lord for His continuous blessings.

ArchiNEXT article about 2017 set of winners: http://archinext.ph/2017/the-best-among-the-best-archinext-2017s-new-set-of-winners/

We, winners, were receiving numerous calls from Mocca of ArchiNEXT/HCG about our awarding. It was a 4-day tour. Uber gaming for 4 days as well haha! Here’s the proposed itinerary for the event:

And so the 26th came. Honestly, I feel that there were going to be a lot of awkward moments. Cause ofcourse, we came from different provinces. So I make myself ready for it. 

Surprisingly, our first day went fine! We met Ma’am Mocca, Edward, Marchie, Jeffrey and Jemuel at Satinka Restaurant and went home at Z-hostel, Makati right away.

The place was nice. It was really for foreigners. There was even a night when we had a foreigner roommate. But everything went okay. They have a Z-deck or bar there. Z was our home for 4 days. (I miss it already huhu).

Second day, we spent most of our time on our ArchiNEXT booth at SMX. Its also the time that we all got the chance to know each other. We had a good time that day! We had our lunch at Okonomiyaki in S Maison with some of the ArchiNEXT judges.. The place was pretty fabulous. Big budget meals for us!!

We also toured around Fort Santiago and Manila Cathedral that day. And had our dinner at Tomahawk with the President. Hello unli ribs and chicken! Sorry Mr. President haha!

Third day is awarding day! We went to SMX  on our formal attires.

We went to our booth and by 6pm, we went upstairs to the hall. And we were in shock! The hall was so huge! It has more than 4000 architects inside! And what surprised me more, is Karla Aguas. She is our awarding’s host!

Out of all tables that night, only 2 of it are VIP tables. Fortunately, we were in the VIP table! Cause HCG is one of the major sponsors of CONEX. 

Awarding proper. The HCG Scholars were the first one to step on stage. After are the runners up. And then the special awardees. That is the reason why im gasping during the event! I ran immediately after I received my first award. When in fact the stage was so long! But I did it anyway (without poise).

Receiving the runner up award

Runners up group picture

With the HCG President, Sam Chen. We call him Papa Chen though.

Receiving the Most Popular Award

Special Awardees group picture

Too bad we didnt have a complete group picture during the awarding.

ArchiNEXT article about the awarding: http://archinext.ph/2017/archinext-2017-grand-winner-is-borja-of-national-university/

We also got featured on a magazine!

The picture below tells how long or how often I stayed at CONEX lol

Right after the event, we went back to Z-hostel just to have a quick change. We planned to have an after party at Cerveseria Greenbelt. We had so much fun that night! Also, I discovered a dirty thing about Greenbelt. All thanks to Marchie lol. We went home at around 3 in the morning already. We were so tired that we wanted to sleep a little longer but we cant cause we have a 7:30am calltime that day for our HCG Plant Tour in Cavite and Tagaytay. So to sum it up, I just had 2 hours of sleep by that time. Well hello arki thing.

Fourth day! Our last day! We all felt bitter sweet during our last day so we tried to bond with each other whenever we can. We started off by having our breakfast in Alabang. Too bad we’re not with Marchie, Edward and Jadz by that day. 

Sorry Jeff! 

Cavite Plant Tour

Had the opportunity to know the process on how bathroom fixtures were made. 

Right after, we headed to Tagaytay to have our lunch. HCG never fails to make our tummies happy. We had it by the view.

We really had fun on our 4-day trip! It was really sad going home. We even wanted to extend our trip but we cant. We still dont want to go back that day. Honestly, I never thought of having new found friends through a design competition. Its my first time joining one and I can conclude that it is really one for the books! I got home at around 12mn and right after I already suffered from separation anxiety. And still suffering now. Its just sad that theres a very small possibility that we get to bond with each other again and be reunited. Im so glad I was part of this batch. You guys are really awesome and i’m missing you guys already! Sepanx is real! I really hope that one day we still can create moments like nothing changed. Thank You for Your blessing Lord! Thank you HCG for giving us this opportunity! We will all treasure this for sure! My April was even brighter because of ArchiNEXT. It was really nice meeting you Ate Rut, Kuya Monts, Kuya Felix, Jadz, Edward, Jemuel, Jeff, Marchie, Ron Ron and ofcourse Ma’am Mocca, you the real champ!

Thank you for the experience, ArchiNEXT 2017!

Official Awards Night video presentation by HCG: https://www.facebook.com/archinextph/videos/1906581739604157/?pnref=story

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Ep. #3 - “I Will NOT Be Dick Blinded” - Tommy

Returning to camp after voting Maranda out unanimously, the Fans tribe was determined to change their losing ways.  The Immunity Challenge was announced and it was an Endurance challenge called Sharp Shooter.  Both tribes came up with their unique strategic plans and both had early success taking out members of the other tribe.  As the challenge progressed into the night it was pretty much a stand still with no one being taken out from either tribe.  Linus and Keegan battled hard for the Fans throughout the night slowly taking out all of the Favs as they fell asleep until around the 12 hour mark of the challenge when they finally took out Christian who was the last Fav standing.  Heading to Tribal Council for the first time, the Favorites tribe majority alliance of “The Golden Girls” were trying to decide whether to take out Richie or Gaston while telling the others the fake plan of voting out Ashley.  They ended up deciding that Richie was the best choice to vote out as he is the bigger threat later on in the game.  The vote was 8-1-1 with Richie throwing his vote at Steffen for making him suffer through Gilmore Girls and Gaston voting for Ashley to make it look like he didnt know what was going on.

This immunity challenge is still in and we are in hour 4 and I’m fucking out. Endurance comps like this are made for me and the fact I couldn’t spell Steffen’s name right pisses me off. I am paying attention very well to the faves who are still in this game. Those are threats I need to target as soon as I can. Obviously when I get on a tribe with them I won’t do it so fast but more so Natalie Anderson style. Got my kill list ready and when time aim that AK 47 and boom send their asses out. Steffen’s at the top cause i’m a petty bitch.

It’s 4am …we’ve been doing this challenge since 11pm…i have to be up in like 4 hours…im gonna DIE http://68.media.tumblr.com/392dc0d4e441985657d1572b6ca2abc7/tumblr_ohjn57cUZu1vaedr6o5_400.gif

Me right now in this challenge: https://68.media.tumblr.com/115b4df19a6863f5ec4f42b4b3eb84e1/tumblr_nrxeqavSoh1uafkuoo1_500.gif http://67.media.tumblr.com/1c93afbff2e88c104cd62d06726d9024/tumblr_inline_obxjdkpKfA1rirbae_500.png

I am up watching this immunity competition still go at 5 fucking am crying my eyes out becaue I’m out. Of course I’m gonna be talking game. I told Brett and Keegan tonight i want Linus out over Leah. I know hands down if we loose immunity Carlos is going but if we loose another they may turn against Leah and I need Leah. I trust Leah. So I’m trying to get them to turn against Linus but Brett was being a stuck up bitch and wouldn’t agree to it as he said him and Adrian have Linus under their fingers. Which is why I want him out!!! Like I want my 5 to be having side alliances. Only I am the one to have side alliances. While I’m talking to Linus as well but more so just trying to bond with him so he likes me.

Well holy fuck I’ve been going for like 7 fucking hours at this comp. I feel like before an issue my tribe was having with me was the fact that they kept doing challenges when I wasn’t around so they didnt know if I was able to help the team in that way, so at least that perception has changed. I really don’t think theres any way Im the last person standing in this challenge, but god knows I dont want to drop at all now :(  . The most exciting thing about this whole ordeal is the cave. Advantages are like kryptonite to me, so I don’t even particularly want one, I just want to see whats there. Plus if I get whatever is there, that means someone else wont be which is a plus. Onto the news of tribal, yes!! Everything went just as was planned! I recieved a vote again, which meant no one was actively trying to protect me from Miranda, but whatevs, I live to see another day!! The huge irony in all this is how everyone is worried about Maranda flipping at a swap, yet the tribe has given nothing but reasons for a couple people to flip. Im starting to feel a little (Not a lot) more comfortable with my people. Carlos might be at the bottom now which would buy me one more round, and if we swapped I’m still thinking I stick with the Mata, but still. The tribe were grade A morons for allowing people to feel so on the outs at all. I understand Im playing with a bunch of amateurs here, buuuuut come on! Don’t give people a goddamn reason to be against you! Whatever though, if I can ride this out just a little longer I feel like Im in the spot where I can see where the numbers are. Im really about to die of exhaustion, but I can’t stop now so Ima put on some hard rock music, and Ill report back whenever it is I wake up tomorrow haha.  

So Im out earlier than I had hoped because of a bit of a sketchy ruling which sucks. I understand stand that Kait was trying to follow the rules to the best of her knowledge of what they were, so this isn’t meant to throw shade at her, and I get that the main hosts have to sleep, but I just have to get some therapeutic ranting off my chest (I might sound pretty angry, because I am, but Ill get over it haha, just ignore the rest of this confessional if you want  :P ). I was going hard for this, and this was supposed to be the comp that got the fans out of the fucking gutter, but now we are left with one completely demoralized player in Keegan when I should still be there fighting the good fight. Despite things I’ve said in the past I really do want a fan to win this game (No matter how stupid some of their gameplay is haha). Call me crazy old school or whatever you want to say, but I am for my allies and teammates first, and myself second. Sure, maybe my whole tribe isn’t my allies, but some of these people are, and even though we may not be aligned yet I see Keegan working her ass off for the tribe and now she has to go double time because of this!

Well, we lost, unsurprisingly. I pretty much went in with an “I’m gonna go to bed when I want and see how it goes” attitude so I woke up ready. I’m gonna try not to play too aggressively so early because I don’t want to be seen as a threat until later on in the game, but I also know I want to vote out Richie since he’s a huge long term threat and didn’t pull his weight in the challenge. I’ve got my core alliance and I know that I’ve got Steffen and Sam, so I think we’ll be alright.

ok i’m kinda sorry but also extremely not for falling asleep because i swam well today anyway i’m hoping that within the next 24 hours i get word of a plan. jay wants to vote either richie or gaston which is probably smart because maldives is powerful but i’m really hoping to hear more ability strategy than just with jay!! but i’m about to nap so i’m blessed

After Immunity: The fact that more than half the Mata tribe dropped within the first hour just irritates me to the core. Like seeing that Keegan and Linus, who lasted 12 hours and myself lasted a good 6 hours, it just sucks that people are making us to be the tribe strength and carrying this once failing tribe. I won’t be at all surprised if people start to revolt to get rid of the physical threats before we merge. I’m just over it.

I’m happy we won the challenge. I really couldn’t go to a third tribal countil in a row. Tribal council constipates me.

Day 4/5 Getting the squad to vote MARANDA off was not difficult at all. It required no explanation whatsoever. Unity is required in situations like a tribal swap and they happen as early as the third round. MARANDA would have been a major liability in that case. NEHE postured to get rid of CARLOS instead just because he’s an enigma to NEHE. I have a lot more control over CARLOS than MARANDA, so I was adamant that NEHE see reason, but didn’t want to push too much social capital. Fortunately, as KEEGAN and ADRIAN also spurned MARANDA, they pushed to stay the course as well. She will be a lovely bride. She is a lovely mother. She played this game pitifully. She claimed in her tribal answers that we were petty and gave her the silent treatment and that was extremely laughable. She didn’t try. At all. She called herself a fighter and then she laid down to die. Eight fans remaining with ten still on the opposition. The situation is dire, but not impossible to recover from. No swap this time and ADRIAN, KEEGAN, KRYSTEN, and I all see LINUS as a great potential #6 to our squad–an Edna Ma from Survivor: South Pacific, if you will. NEHE, however, fears ADRIAN is getting too close with LINUS and wants him out next. NEHE told me he hates predictability and that is a major red flag with me. Will NEHE throw a wrench into the works just to keep things entertaining? Will I respond to his cry for attention and pull LINUS in to vote him out for being a loose cannon? NEHE favors LEAH (and it looks like no one favors CARLOS–I did until he proclaimed I was the leader at our first tribal council, a major disappointment). I am very wary about LEAH. If it were up to me, she’d be the next to go because she knows more than she claims, transparently so. The live challenge comes on a Friday night and I, of course, have plans, but with the insane nature of the challenge and my level of competitive edge, I decided to attempt to balance both the challenge and my evening with my friend. That didn’t end up working–I think I was probably the 2nd of the fans to be eliminated. I was picking up cake ingredients at the grocery store and the Skype chat was updating too slow for me to react in time–I could only dodge two of the three shots fired at me. I felt bad about letting down the group, but I know I can come back from this. I enjoyed my evening with my friend, popping in here and there to check on the others. NEHE rashly fucked up even though he poured his soul into the challenge. KEEGAN proved to be a very worthy leader in the challenge and he and LINUS fortunately carried us to victory after 12 hours of fighting. I couldn’t believe how much of themselves they gave to the challenge. It’s incredible and I owe both of them a lot. LINUS far and away recovered from his poor challenge performance from the first two challenges and NEHE has no leg to stand on for wanting to eliminate him. Both LEAH and CARLOS haven’t contributed to any challenge success.

It’s always really funny to see someone who is on the outside still scramble to make bonds with people, despite winning immunity. Like, are you trying to make yourself a more distinct target? Please, take a chill pill or two cause you’re ruining this harmonious vibe.

Twelve and a half hours. That’s how long I sat at my computer during that challenge. It was worth every second. To push through that long without sleeping, without a lapse in focus and win immunity for my tribe is such an invigorating experience. Linus and I broke our losing streak through pure determination. Winning this challenge could be a double edged sword though. We won immunity, I’ve gotten massive respect from my tribe but I’ve also put a huge target on my back as a challenge threat. The only thing I can do is wait to see how this all plays out.

We made it boys! So after 12  hours the final favourite finally dropped, and oops, now Im way behind on my philosophy paper because  I had to sleep all day but it’s #worth! I finally did  something for my tribe, we got some moment changed and all seems pretty good :D . At the cave I found a flashlight down the right path, and I came across a body of water. Well what a lucky coincidence because Keegan just so happened to find some darkness and a snorkle :^) .  Honestly, do I reaaaally care whats at the end of this cave? Probably not, I likely wont be the  first to get there. However, I now have a secret Keegan and I share and we are both hunting for whatever is in this cave together, so that should definitely bring the two of us closer! On top of that we we’re the  two who stayed up so I think we both have some respect for each other. Nehe is also finally giving me the time of day which is good because I get the feeling he’s playing a strong social game with  those he’s close to, so thats another in. Also, if Brett is actually with me like he says, then now if people do push me he has something he can point at and say, no, Linus is with the team and worked hard for us so lets keep him for now! Im back off to my paper, but Ill keep yall posted :D

The bottom line is that we’re gonna try to blindside Richie at tribal tonight. I want to get him out because I see him as a huge long term threat, but he also flopped at the challenge, so he’s very easy to throw under the bus this round. We’ve got the votes. Now everyone just needs to keep their shit together.

Okay so its 1:30 and tribal is at 10. Current situation: Jay told me that Tommy and Sam came to her wanting to vote out Richie. Then I was talking to Steffen and she told him the same thing so I think the majority is probably voting Richie. But here’s MY current dilemma. Gaston just told me him and Richie were talking about voting out Ashley. I know the votes wont be there but I don’t know if I should tell Gaston or not. I REALLY dont want him to be in the dark because i’m totally genuine in wanting to work with him but i’m worried that he’ll tell Richie and then i’ll look like a snitch. Jay also made a comment lumping together the maldives people which worries me because i dont want to appear as unapproachable so while I love Richie and would love for him to stick around I feel like voting him out is the best thing to do right now to show that i’m my own person and not playing for my season you know? I just need to figure out what to do about Gaston cause i dont want him to lose trust in me.

[12:23:28 PM] Richie: Thanks Ting :) [12:23:40 PM] Richie: Hopefully we both survive and we get to know each other better [9:32:17 PM] Ting Ting Shi: yes i agree I waited 9 fucking hours for that shit THIS TRIBE IS FULL OF FUCKING LOSERS ALL TOO SCARED TO BRING UP A NAME! I’m throwing Ashley out there YOLO I was gonna throw out Steffen’s name simply for being forced to endure Gilmore Girls on skype last night. But that payback will have to come later.

So no one is talking about the vote. We were down to 7 hours until the vote was due and I needed to go to bed. So I had to do something which I really didn’t want to do because I don’t care enough about who goes to put myself out there like that. They could literally approach me with ANY name and I’d vote that person out. So now I have to be the douche bag who throws out names. MY PLEASURE. So I size up my fucking loser tribe mates: Gaston - We’ll work well together but if we stick together it will eventually get us targeted. For now though, we need each other. Tommy - He tries so hard to win challenges. Useful. Steffen - is one of the chatty ones in a tribe that’s socially dead. We need people with a heart beat so he’s safe. Sam - He’s a guy. He can’t be voted out pre-merge that would be feminist. Jay - Her days are numbered. NUMBERED!!! But for now she’s fine. Amanda - I get “sneaky chaotic neutral” vibes from her which I like so I want her around just to see what she will eventually do. Ting Ling - I feel bad cos she was first boot in her season so I want her to stay so she can play a bit. Christian - I haven’t talked to her yet and have no plans to do so. But she did amazing in the challenge. Useful. Ashley - Who? Guess I’m throwing Ashley’s name out there! HEEEEEY!

OKAY hi, me again. Its 2:43 now and SHITS HITTING THE FAN. Gaston messaged me with updates saying that JAY MADE A CHAT WITH HIM RICHIE TINGTING AND STEFFEN. Either Jay is a mastermind that I can’t figure out or she’s just cracked. She literally came to both me and Steffen earlier saying the vote was Richie but now SHES MAKING A GROUP CHAT WITH HIM AND PLAYING GASTON LIKE A FIDDLE. So obviously that being said i’m gonna be a loyal ass bitch and decided now was the time to fill Gaston in about the Richie situation and hes pisssssssed. But he agrees thats Richie leaving might be better for both of us in the long run. But he said he might still vote with Richie so i dont look like a snitch to Jay which is super nice of him. UPDATE WITHIN THE UPDATE ITS NOW 3:00 and JAY JUST MESSAGED ME TELLING ME THE GROUP AND THAT THEYRE USING IT TO MAKE RICHIE AND GASTON FEEL SAFE FJDJDKDKD She also was giving me a heads up that Richie might come talk to me about voting for Ashley and i said thanks and she was like “yeah of course i wanna keep the people i trust in the loop” SO SHE TRUSTS ME? AM I LIKE THE MALDIVES QUEEN OR SOMETHING? Why is she trying to mist Richie and Gaston but trusting me? Do i have fairy wings and sneeze trust glitter? I just hope im not actually a target and i’m the one getting misted. Also im curious to see if Steffen tells me about the group or if he decides to be a shady bitch lmfao okay i’ll be back later checking in again

Its 3:11 and Gaston now thinks they’re actually trying to blindside him and telling me Richie just incase i spilled to them. This tribal is gonna be the death of me

So now that we are going to tribal, alliances are finally forming. I am currentlt in two, one is “The Golden Girls” consisting of Ting Ting, Jay, Tommy and I. And then the other is “the hosts attack us” and that is everyone listed above plus Steffen. I really vibe well with Jay and Tommy, and I already know Steffen from a previous game. They are all people I trust, cant wait to see how it goes!! Vote tonight is supposed to be Richie, and from what we have all talked about it looks like it will be unanimous, but ya never know.

We lost immunity sadly, kinda bummed about that. Now we have to vote one of us out and I like everyone here. I like my place on the tribe but my instinct tells me not to trust anyone. My relationships have changed within the past few days, I feel like I’m less connecting with Ting Ting, she’s not so much a ride or die. I really don’t have anyone I can trust 100% on this tribe. So I’m just gonna have to deal with for now, I feel kinda lonely on this tribe just because I don’t feel anyone cares for me that much. I actually feel closer to Richie/Gaston more than most the people I’m in an alliance with but there’s really nothing I can do since Jay/Steffen have control of the numbers so I’m gonna sit back, relax, and try to get on their good side so they don’t feel compelled to target me anytime soon. Lastly hopefully we win next immunity (if I’m still in) because the fans are trying to stay “8 strong” and their tribals have been so boring, I want to see something fun happen to them.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=34q25IKADvo

okay ugh i made a messy mistake and it’s my first one like god richie asked if i anyone talked to me and i wasn’t thinking so like i said no STUPID!!!! I WAS SUPPOSED TO SAY ASHLEY I don’t think anything will come of it but it was a wake up call that i gotta stay woke and trust the process. but i definitely think he’s being shady now damn

I’m honestly so humiliated right now.

Figured I should do a confessional for this round!  The challenge was a good one - definitely more endurance than anything.  I am so glad we don’t have to go to tribal tonight and we owe that alllll to Keegan.  He killed it!  He stayed awake for 12 hours to play.  Nehe helped him stay up and Linus did well too.  I am hoping that we keep our alliance strong if we have to go to tribal again soon.  Bye to a fave tonight!   I also have to get into doing video confessionals again.  So much more fun.  I feel like I’m boring typing out my thoughts in the game.  But the beginning has been stress-free and predictable saying bye to Caroline and Maranda.  

That endurance challenge was something else. I can’t believe that I lasted that long. But that was kind of my plan to start with. Since day one I’ve felt on the outs I guess, so my plan was to not sit out this immunity and prove myself as an asset to the tribe in case we lost and had to go to tribal. Well, we did end up losing, but I was the last one standing. Woo hoo! So obviously my plan worked, because from what I’m hearing the majority is on Richie tonight. Which is great since he didn’t help out at all. Time zone difference or not, he’s never active to begin with and we need to keep our tribe strong so we don’t have to go to another tribal. I feel like a tribe swap is on the horizon, but I could be wrong. If one does happen, please rig me on the same tribe as Ashley, Steffen, and even Jay.

Update: it’s 9:03 as far as I know the vote is still going to be Richie, with Gaston and Richie voting for Ashley. If i’m getting misted and i’m fucked this week then there’s nothing i can do but that would really suck. As always I wont feel safe until tribal is over but we’ll see.

[survivorpanem]

EPISODE ELEVEN - “ONLY SO LONG BEFORE THE PET SNAKE TAKES A BITE “ - ANDREW

hieeeee. omg okay.. i feel like it's been a hot minute since i made an actual confessional and not just me vs kait and jenn in my host chat. ANYWAY. i won my second immunity basically just my luck sdhg. i just had one person in mind and went down the list each and every time and put there name with who i thought fit best and that really played out for me? NOW. i just won my third immunity and jake literally... went off one. saying fuck me and shit. like bro skldhg. im gonna be at work till 10pm tomorrow and im gonna miss tribal and the whole day. i couldn't risk anything because anything could happen so i had to ensure MY safety. like i love jake but i swear he has one more nasty mesage to send me before i ask him "who do you think ur talking to btw?" can i just say this real quick... allison- started the rally to try to get me out me- lets get allison out. allison- goes home. ryan- was partners with jordan pming everyone trying to get me out. me- lets get ryan out. ryan- goes home. jordan- same as above. was partners with ryan pming everyone trying to rally votes against me the allison week. me- lets get jordan out. jordan- goes home. everyone- lets get andrew out its time! me- lets get jaiden out. jaiden- goes home. https://68.media.tumblr.com/02aa5ec34518a894eef3408820de7bbd/tumblr_ohuo4d0OUh1uxnkpto1_1280.jpg NOW. im not getting jake out. he can have his hissy fit all he wants but i know theres loyalty still down there. but do i want isaac or andrew out now? hmm..

ME: TRIES TO SAVE ANDREW IS SUPER EXCITED WHEN JAIDEN FUCKS HIMSELF OVER SO ANDREW CAN SURVIVE THINKS WE'RE GOING TO WORK TOGETHER ANDREW: I'M GUNNA ELIMINATE SAM FROM THIS CHALLENGE ME: BOY WHAT ARE YOU DOING??? I'M OVER IT!! I'M READY TO KILL ANDREW I've decided I want me, Zack, JC, and Sam B to final 4 because fuck Jake and Andrew for killing me and fuck Isaac because he's guilty by association. Also in all of these receipts of Jaiden trying to try up the votes, ANDREW is the one who suggested me! Jaiden said me or JC and Andrew COULD HAVE SAID JC BUT HE DIDN'T SO BYE ANDREW. AND HE THREW HIS VOTE TO ME WHEN IT COULD HAVE GONE TO SOMEONE ELSE HONESTLY BYE

I'm honestly v upset to see Jaiden go :( I was definitely stressed in those last few confessionals but I really do luv Jaiden so much and actually did see us getting so much further in the game together :/ I don't know why he had to flip and not even tell me about it but idk hopefully I can make the best of this. Like I'm not the reason he got out necessarily and I feel like our relationship was good enough to have an ok chance of getting his vote if I ever make it to FTC, which is highly unlikely idek why I'm thinking about that when it's still like 5 votes away if it is going to be a f2 like I think it is. Then the immunity challenge seemed to go well even though I didn't win. It appears to have raised distrust towards Andrew from Sam which is veryyyy good because I'd love to get Andrew out! I'm not a fan of the comp slayers in the game, even miss Zack and Jakey who are my allies are worrisome because of their challenge abilities. Sky Ferreira is sex btw. Speaking of jakey too I'm not sure where his head is at? Idk I got weird vibes in the challenge, especially since he took me out before comp queen Zack which is...interesting, so it's caused a bit of untrust with jakey and I too. I'm just worried that he's actually going to start picking his game up and start slayin and when he does I wonder if he's going to stick with me or flip and go with other people. So I need to keep an eye out for his ass, and another on the finish line. I'm also going to try for the time being to just continue playing as if I don't have an idol. I feel like idols can impair your judgement abilities and actually be a kind of crux to your gameplay because you can get a bit too assured of yourself, and you can never feel safe in these games. It's worrying now too because I see like one of the main benefits that was around keeping Jaiden was that he was such a big threat, it was just like you could just be like oh yeah let's do Jaiden, and people would be like yeah tru and then of course you could flip it to who you really want later. Now jaidens gone and Isaac asked me who I wanted to vote and it's not like I could be like oh yea we should vote Jaiden hurr hurr. So idk I was just like what about jakey idk and he was like yeah I think jaidens high key annoying and I was just like ok 👀 mama calm down as he continued talking about how jakey a lil trifling hoe, but I mean jakey likes Make Me (Cry) by Noah Cyrus so could he really be that bad? Idk. I should ask what his zodiac sign is before I make any decisions for the vote or ideas of his character.

flkjfdsal I don't remember if I did a confessional but this could be my last one since it's 20 minutes before the vote and I've heard NOTHING from anyone except for JC! so like fuck Andrew and Isaac honestly I REALLY hope me Sam Zack and JC stick together but I don't see it happening. I'm pretty sure I'm getting voted out so like it's been real.

I'm so happy I've made Final 7 but more importantly, I made it passed Jaiden! This vote is messy btw I just woke up from a nap and I have no idea what I'm doing.

So I'm being voted by Sam G, JC, and Zack. I know that for sure. I'm hoping Myself, Isaac, and Sam B all vote together. And just get out JC. I guess Zack is playing a map on me. So he'll see I voted for JC. And they might play an idol on JC and I'll be fucked. I dunno if an idol is being played tonight but hopefully if it is then it's played on Sam G? I really don't wanna die. But id I am then Zack is a snake. Like I knew that asdfghj but. I was hoping maybe he would actually take the secret pair beware thing farther. I guess it was fun while it lasted. Only so long before the pet snake takes a bite. Anyway, I'm probs not surviving tonight. So I hope Isaac or Sam B or Jake wins. But like 98% hope Isaac wins because he fucking deserves it. This will likely be my last confessional so. It's been fun and I'm glad I was able to play a pretty awesome all-star season. Anyway DAN GHEESLING IS MY BROTHER BYE.

I HATE MAKING DECISIONS! I have 5 minutes to decide whether I want to work with Isaac and Andrew or Jc and zack. I'm super nervous because there will be drawbacks for each option I choose. Zack will probably yell at me a LOT if I flip and Isaac will probably be so hurt by me and not want to be friendship anymore. And I want to work with Andrew in PI Allstars so I don't want to betray him here. Ugh this is messy fuck

welp i have 5 minutes so zack fucked me over hard core in immunity this round and all trust i did have in him is lost. this round it would be ideal for JC to leave but idk if sam b. is smart enough to make that move... um!!! yeah im just trying to convince her but i dont rly see it happening. andrew will prob leave or me tbh. i honestly think its me lmao. oh well. fuck zack

WELL, It appears Andrew is voting me again! Vote me once, shame on you; vote me twice, bitch you gotta go! Ugh idk I'm heeeeella nervous that I might be going tonight so I'm definitely keeping my idol close, we might be seeing a play tonight. Maybe even two if Andrew has one. Hm. So, I approached Isaac, told him I wanted to vote Andrew. He claimed he was down to vote Andrew too, but told Sam that he wasn't going to vote me but would vote someone else. Sounds like an idol might be getting played on andrewwww so they're splitting the votes, huh?! How. Fucking. Cute!!! This is disgusting I'll probably have to play my vote negator on whoever Isaac votes and use my idol for everything to work out tonight. UGH! This is so worrisome, idk why Andrew had to vote me tho! Like girl couldn't you vote either Sam instead since everyone else is on your side and Zack is immune. Whyyyyy meeeeeee 😢😢 it's not like I was pushing to vote for Andrew this week and last week also! *sarcasm* but I mean still, come on! It's not like Sam G wasn't pushing for you too, ugh. I don't know this is tough, if anything I'm probably gonna at least reveal to someone that I have an idol tonight or something. I need to find out how this vote is gonna go down...this is gonna be a long bumpy rife

Later...

Oh my fucking God Samantha BUSSY voted me out I can't fucking believe this. I'm honestly shook like I messaged Sam G first asking if she flipped then when she said no I went to Zack when he said no I was like what the fuck, how could it be pure angel Sam Bussy??? I pressed her and eventually she admitted to it. So I went to her and she denied it at first but finally admitted to it later. Then I called her and I think I flipped her. Hopefulfuckingly! I'm trying to flip Isaac as well just in case anything goes wrong and hopefully I can. I really hope I stay my dumbass should've played my idol when my gut told me to, but I simply didn't listen, I'm so stupid! But if I /do/ survive, then this would really be a wild move and I'll definitely be playing shit next week, if not everything smh. I'm puhRAYING that my mist works, because if not I'm going down as a big idiot who went home with their idol, probably the first big idiot who went home with their idol in storybook history! THE BIGGEST IDIOT IN STORYBOOK HISTORY!!! Kms if I go out this game I'm screaming.

[missjackil]

My Season 13 Opinion

I loved it! It’s in my top 5 seasons, along with 4,5 11 and 12. S12 is my favorite, having the least amount of episodes I skip on rewatch, the rest all share about 4 or 5 episodes not worth more of my time.  The Season in Review I remember the teaser before the season started said “Season 13 is their Lucky Number” And Im thinking OK lets do this! Lets see some positives for The Winchesters!! Lets see if we got them :)

Character Arcs Sam- Sam has definite changes from season to season. This one was no different. We had Sam last season being heavy on the confident badassery, while pining for a relationship with his mother, to Sam jumping automatically into a fatherly/mentor role for Jack. Meanwhile he’s troubled. suffering great loss, worrying about Dean, the fate of their mother, and his own struggles with his time in Hell and Lucifer.  I read a lot about you nay sayers, who think Jared has had enough, is ready to hang it up, but I have to say Jared nailed every facet of Sam’s life. His relationship with Jack, has been the single most precious storyline the show has come up with, IMO. The chemistry was there immediately, and Sam knew right away that Jack was worth saving. In the episode Patience, we see this relationship take root. Not long after, Dean warms up to Jack, and then Cas comes back and tries to slip into Father mode because he promised Kelly, and then Jack goes missing into the AU. and comes out with Lucifer bent on taking Jack from Sam ... but Sam kept it together.  Through all this, Sam deals with Dean’s depression, fails at trying to cheer him up, nearly loses Dean for good, because nothing Sam can do for Dean, gives him what he needs... which is a win.  In the 2nd half of the season, Sam falls into his own depression. He lost Jack, his mother, Lucifer is back around and causing trouble. We finally learn what keeps messing with Sam since Hell, and what causes his sleeplessness, fear and helplessness, and it’s Lucifers true face, which he discovers he shares with Rowena. (more on that in S14 I hope) we discover also, late in the season, that Sam would like to have revenge on Lucifer, but hes also seeing that revenge doesnt fix anything. Sam ends his season being brutally killed by vampires, resurrected by Lucifer who doesnt waste time with the taunts and threats, being regected again by his mother, who he should have told to go pound sand up her ass, but tookthe high road to come up with a solution. He could have spent the last 3 episodes fighting and arguing with Lucifer but he didnt. He swallowed it all and then forcefully left him behind in the AU. Here, is probably where Sam thought he got revenge. He looked happy and wonderfully content back atthe bunker. It was short lived because Luci was out in no time, with Michael in tow and now determined to take Jack.  Sam didnt go on a rampage to destroy Lucifer, but he called Jack to come back, and then stepped into protector role. What this got him, was Lucifer kicking him around, ad threatening his life once more... but when Jack tried to take his own life for Sam’s and told Sam he loves him. We know Sam won, that was best revenge he could have gotten. So when Dean came around, with Michael wearing him, Lucifer could get whats coming to him... in typical winchester fashion, Sam tosses the blade up to Dean that Dean catches no problem, and finally kills the devil!  Sam’s arc, as I saw it from beginning to end, was a lessen in patience. Dont rush, dont act on impulse too much, dont take everything personal. Stay focused and keep your head. As Axle Rose told us “Take it slow, it will work itself out fine, all we need is just a little patience” Dean: Our Dean started this season out in the deepest pit of dispair. This didnt start at the end of S12 but in the beginning when Mary walked out. This started Dean on a spiral downward, that gained momentum in spots. Once he killed Hitler, Dean didnt get anymore big kills, too much of the time he was the one being rescued. At the end of S12, he was nearly killed by Ketch, and Mom saved him. He got a win by curing mom of the brainwashing, but it was very short lived by her being lost in the AU. Dean suffered the biggest handful of loss he ever had. He lost mom, cas, crowley, and rowena, he fortunately still had Sam but he was preoccupied with Jack, who Dean saw as the main reason everyone was lost.  Dean lost hope in everything, and though Im of the belief that he wasnt trying to kill himself forever in Advanced Thanatology, as he had full intentions of coming back when Billie said “it depends on you” he wasnt in the mindset to argue with her if she wasnt going to let him go. But Billie told him to live, because he and Sam are important. (my theory on that later) so Dean comes back, and soon after, Cas comes back.  Dean is immediately upbeat because now he knows there is hope. It wasnt because he loves Cas more than Sam as some may assume, but Sam couldnt give Dean the win he needed to regain his hope.  Deans good mood went south once he learned Mom was still alive and being tortured in the AU. He was now a man on a mission and he was going to save her no matter what. But then they lost Jack too, and Sam went into his own depression and Dean was there for hm too. He wanted Sam to come out of the dark place he was in, but he knew that darkness was justified. But they both pressed on and kept at it... risking life and limb on the daily, Dean felt extra need to protect Sam so he side lined him in hopes to keep him safe. Sam wasnt gonna have that, they’re gonna live, work, suffer and die together, and thats all there is to it.  However when the vampire killed Sam before Deans eyes, and there was nothing he could do to save him, I have never seen Dean in a deeper pit. He was literally a walking corpse. I can only imagine Dean having less hope at that time, because they were in the AU, where the laws of their world dont apply. Maybe Winchesters dont have a reset button in a world they were never born in. Im fully convinced Dean was going back to the cave to lay down and die next to Sam, when Sam came walking in. Dean was so grateful to see his brother walking, that he didnt care Lucifer came too....” no need to be sorry Sammy... now hug me you little shit!” (paraphrased ;))  Things look up now, Sam comes up with a good plan for the survivors in the Au, and most are now safe and sound in the bunker. Jack is a good little hunter, Dean gets hope that maybe someday the world will be safe enough that they can retire. But thats short lived as well when Lucifer comes back and brings good ole Michael and all Hell breaks loose. When Sam gets blasted away with Jack and Lucifer, Dean’s self destructive co dependence comes out and theres just no other choice but to let Michael use his vessel to take out Lucifer. The fight ensues, Lucifer is too strong, and is about to kill Dean, but Sam comes through by tossing the blade to him perfectly.... and he kills the SOB.  Dean’s arc this season was a lessen in Faith. Faith in God, faith in Sam, faith in love and faith in whats right. It can get better Dean.... every day can get better.  Now we can go on to more fun things -

Best episodes IMO Im going to give that to Scooby for being the most fun and most original. But there were so many really good episodes, Patience, (Sams side of that) Advanced Thanatology, Breakdown, The Scorpion and the Frog, Varuius and Sundary Villians, A Most Holy Man,Funerella, Beat The Devil, Exodus and Let the Good times Roll.  Worst Episodes : By far was Wayward Sisters. The only one I couldnt bring myself to watch a 2nd time. Other’s werent bad, but boring, such as Tombstone, A Devils Bargain, and Good Intentions.  Best Sam Lines - “I know what its like to feel likeyou dont fit, to be afraid of who you are, and what you can do... but my family helped me through that, and now Im gonna help you, You’re not evil Jack”  “We are going to go to this place together.... and if anything happens, we’ll deal with it it together.... and if we die? We’ll dothat together too”  Best Dean lines : “Its a lizard Sam, it tastes like Lizard” “They took my brother, now Im gonna get him back”  “Im never gonna appologize for protecting you. Do you remember the last time we had front row seats to the Lucifer Michael fight? Because I do. You died Sam, and went to Hell! Now I dont care much about what happens to me, never did... but I do care about what happens to my brother” Saddest moments: When Sam couldnt bring himself to tell Dean about why he’s hopeless.  Dean’s dead mans walk to the camp and his tears when Mary asked where Sam was.  Jack crying and punching himself wondering why he hurts people. Happiest Moments: The brohug and the tension melting from Sam’s face Sam and Dean getting a toast in their honor. Jack telling Sam he loves him Sams face when he realizes Lucifer is dead Worst moments: Dean popping a cork when he found outbthere was no more grace.  Sam’s death... all of it Worst Storylines: Wayward Sisters, Asmodeus, Sister Jo (not Danneel hate, it just wasnt a good story)  Best Storyline: Sam and Jack  Interesting things we learned. Sam hates strip clubs, Dean buys Sam a lap dance, Sam has extensive hair care products, and Dean likes tentical porn Stuff I want to see more of next season: Michael!Dean but not for too long... we need real Dean.  Why does Sam have to kill Rowena? What did seeing Lucifer’s face entail? The Man Cave Daddy Sam!!!!!!! Lowkey predictions fro S14 We get a frantic Sam looking for Dean, not unlike S10 but he has help this time . The Angels die and all souls come to earth as ghosts and wreak havok. This along with Lucifer being dead, open the door for the boys to work towards retirement. Get heaven reopened, and the souls back in, maybe by draining the empty of angels, wth Luci dead, no need for Hell, close it up, everyone goes to Heaven. Start eliminating all the bad monsters from the world, sending good ones to Heaven and sending the bad ones to Purgatory where they came from. This wouldnt need to be a quick thing, it could take years to do it, or clean it up in one season, but it provides an end goal. The boys find out theyre important because theyre the only ones who can accomplish this.  In the end, Season 13 was their lucky one. Lucifer is dead. Now they can work towards a future. :)