#we dont fucking hole punch your victim cards here sorry

[langst-wins]

@galaxyostars

hi quick question, why are you writing actual essays in reply to this?? you're acting like i called you out by name and you had to defend yourself. i didn't "play victim." i'm allowed to post my own thoughts and feelings on my own fucking blog. and nobody would have known this had ANYTHING to do with you if you hadn't actually spent all that time writing an actual goddamn essay in reply.

but if you want to exchange childish butthurt essays, fine, let's exchange childish butthurt essays.

literally NOBODY insulted you. nobody called you "entitled." that came straight from your head. you typed that out. you're calling yourself entitled, broski.

not that it matters all that much, because i wouldnt really care if it was shared and it would make no difference to this conversation - but no, actually, your concern was NOT shared. there was one vaguely similar comment, and it was not a complaint masked as a concern, it was an observation, which i happily replied to. but no, nobody else left a comment sharing your concern. what fucking comment section are you reading???? (the only reason i bring that up is because it's a blatant lie and i don't let lies slip by unchecked, thx. lying in your essays? tsk, tsk. ruler to the wrist. no recess for u.)

"Free entertainment (at the obligation of loving it totally)"

who? the ACTUAL fuck??? said that????

you. you said that. i never said that nor implied it. you literally came up with this "oh so i HAVE to love it and you ONLY want endless praise" shit all on your own. you're saying this shit and passing it off as if its something I said to you when I've never even THOUGHT these things, not once. i took offense to your comment and, admittedly, overreacted to it. i have certainly learned my lesson, and will avoid emotional responses and let myself ruminate on a comment before I reply from now on. but your reply to someone overreacting a little to your comment and coming off as kinda rude...is to go throwing shit around that I never said with my name slapped on it like a flower girl throwin fuckin daisies. that's a tid bit melodramatic there, fam. maybe take a chill pill? your life isnt actually a soap opera.

i dont think or feel this way about you or anyone else, ever. you took offense to my (again, admittedly overdramatic) reply and assumed the most random shit about me. you assumed that because i made a mistake in posting a very reactive reply and offended you, i must be some fool who just wants endless praise and thinks people are obligated to enjoy her fic if they read it. you pulled that shit straight out of your own ass. nice attribution of motive, cathy 'so what you're saying is' newman.

this post was, in fact, NOT only aimed at you! i had at least 30 different comments, each from different readers, most of them from hlp but maybe like 3-4 from requiem including yours, in mind when i typed this post!

something not being all about you?! imagine that!!!! people can accumulate negative feelings over time toward a general class of people and things and then vent about that wide classification of things...and it's not all about you!!!! wow!!! what a shocker!!!!!

you are a very, very tiny piece of a very, very vague, short, and ultimately insignificant vent post. you were not at the front and center of my mind. not nearly enough to warrant an essay in reply. so, please: stop acting like this post was solely about you, because it wasn't. i would not write a little vent post about one (1) single stranger on the internet. literally nobody on the internet cares that much about other random people on the internet.

you think your comment is on par with disgusted comments about how horrible and gross my story is, or anon asks telling me to kill myself because my writing is just THAT unbearable? you...you seriously think your dinky little marginally offensive comment, which in hindsight I am adult enough to admit really wasn't all that offensive, is on par with all this shit? are you serious right now?? like goddamn. don't flatter yourself.

"you hold me personally responsible for even daring to breathe near your fic"

wow!!! look at that!!! more dumbass bullshit i never said or even remotely implied!!!!

who the fuck said this, or even thought it? I repeat: YOU.

this shit all came from YOUR mind. I never even fucking thought any dumb arrogant bullshit like this, let alone said it. you pulled that out of your ass and slapped my name on it. nice try though!!

i dont hold you personally responsible for anything. i have no personal thoughts or feelings toward you. do you...do you seriously think random tumblr/ao3 people have personal thoughts and feelings toward you? what the actual fuck???

"no one owes you for writing what you want to write"

i never said anyone did. i never THOUGHT anyone did. for the last time: YOU, nobody else, Y O U made this flaming dumpster fire all up and projected your own offended thoughts onto me as if i was the one who thought them.

'free' implies the thing given is a gift and no reciprocation is owed, expected, or in some cases not even desired. i know for a fact, just from looking at the story stats, that like 95% of people reading this series have never left a comment and probably never will.

i am 110% okay with that. of fucking course they don't "owe me." who in their right fucking mind would think they were owed something for writing a goddamn fanfic? for you to accuse me of thinking people owe me something in return for this fic is so out of touch with reality it is actually from another fucking dimension. you would have to be batshit insane to think you were "owed" something for writing fanfic (with the exception of private commissions, of course, because in that case somebody has promised currency in exchange for fanfic). other than that? batshit wack.

the only one who's said anything along the line of anyone "owing" me shit is - yep, you guessed it!

you!

why are you so fucking determined to believe i'm only in search of, in your own words, "endless praise"? i'm not the lord and savior jesus fucking christ himself. of course i don't expect fucking endless praise. i am...actually, genuinely SHOCKED by how out of touch with reality your assumptions about me are. i dont know about endless praise, but your insistence on blowing this up into a patent-pending Big Thing sure does provide me a fucking endless fountain of bewildered amusement.

why are so stubbornly insisting on attributing bad motives to me? that's exactly what you're doing right now. you're pulling random shit from your ass that i've never thought, let alone said, slapping my name on it, and acting like it should just be a commonly accepted fact that those are my thoughts. your entire little essay is written on the foundational idea that i actually think, believe, and feel these things. that is so obnoxious and presumptuous its actually laughable.

"...makes you out to be a victim of a huge crime."

excuse me? no. nobody in this situation is a "victim." i know a lot of people regard victimhood as a beautiful and heroic thing nowadays. those people are fucking dumbasses. who fucking wants to be seen as a victim? why would i go out of my way to be seen as a helpless damsel in distress? who wants that?

let's break this lil tumblr fiasco down, hm?

i:

made a vague, short vent post on tumblr.

made said post on MY OWN tumblr, where I am, shockingly enough, actually allowed to post whatever the fuck i want so long as it doesnt violate the site's established rules.

had a general classification of comments/commentors in mind. you were only one of them. you were not special or important to this post. you are one of a small handful.

didn't mention you or anyone else in this post

never intended for this post to be applied to anyone specific, or to be taken too seriously. its called a vent post for a reason.

had, until you wrote your long ass essay in reply, actually moved on from our petty, insignificant little conflict. adults do that, you know. they have spiffs...and they quickly forget about them, because who the fuck actually cares enough to hold onto this dumb shit long enough to go and purposely navigate to a social media page of the person who made them mad, find a post to take offense to, and spend like an hour or more spewing some dumb shit from their ass? oh...well...i know ONE person who would that do that....

am, in fact, an adult. if you hadn't dragged me back into this sideways shitshow circus, I never would have said a word to you about it ever again. i would have forgotten it even happened within a week. its seriously NOT that big of a fucking deal.

on the other hand, after we stopped talking on ao3, you:

intentionally navigated to my blog. most likely looking for drama because why the fuck else would you immediately look up my blog.

found a vague, short little vent post.

IMMEDIATELY assumed that post MUST be all about you. i mean, why else do people create posts, right????

took immediate, intense, personal offense to said post because after all it must!!! be all!!! about you!!! what else would i post about?!

wrote an entire fucking essay that literally n o b o d y asked for or wanted.

spewed a whole barrel of absolute bullshit within your essay and tried to attribute it to me.

think you're a mind reader, apparently.

this may come as a shock to you so please...hold onto something....

you actually don't get to decide what other people are thinking and feeling just because they made you angry!!! you actually don't get to go around slapping somebody else's name on thoughts and feelings as if they're theirs!!! oh golly gee whiz, who would have thought that these aren't normal things human beings do on a regular basis?! it's just you!!! how wild!!!

mmm...i think that about covers it!

do me a favor? don't fucking drag me into this overdramatic bullshit again. i don't want to read your little essays attributing me with random motives, thoughts, and feelings that arent my own. literally nobody wants to read that. you're wasting your own damn time. i highly suggest you leave me the hell alone, because if you invite me to pay ball? this bitch knows how to play fucking hardball.

do me an even BIGGER favor? stop reading my fic.

mmmkay thx byeeeee.

it’s a strange world where you can spend months working continuously and lose sleep to produce free entertainment for strangers on the internet and still be accused by the people consuming said free entertainment of selfishness and arrogance.