#we all know it shouldve happend

[theosconfessions]

For the emoji OC ask game and character of your choice: 🍼, 🍄, 🍉, 🥭, 🍕, 🍯, 🧀, 🥑, 🌸, 🍆, 🥔

Dustin Stephens

🍼 [BABY BOTTLE] What's your OC's first memory?

Dustin: i think my moms face..just carrying me somewhere. [smirks] feeling all protected and shit. that wasnt the case as i got older. but i hope that my babies have a safe memory to look back on too as their first memory. im curious now ill have to ask them

🍄 [MUSHROOM] How likely is your OC to eat random berries/mushrooms they find?

Dustin: no no 0/10.. my husband though....would and has done..so i guess i dont need to [laughs]

🍉 [WATERMELON] What will your OC take to the grave?

Dustin: well something that theo doesnt know is that i did have someone i was seeing in the time that we were apart. i just never brought it up because it was just like some fling you know.. to try and get over him which absolutely failed because all i could do was think of him

🍍 [PINEAPPLE] Pineapple on pizza or not?

Dustin: im sorry but OKAY IM DOWN.

🍕 [PIZZA SLICE] How good is your OC at sharing? How do they share something if there's not enough supply?

Dustin: well with my husband im apparently so good at sharing and i never knew it [shakes head ] that being said if i have control over something im not sharing it. i think maybe thats why. it all stemmed from theo [laughs] jesus christ.

🍯 [HONEY] At what point does someone seem sickly sweet to your OC?

Dustin: i think when the compliments are just like over the top then im suspicious you know ?? like maybe im reading the question wrong and i obviously have some trust issues but im like okay thats suspicious.

🧀 [CHEESE WEDGE] How often does your OC get into situations that rely on pure luck/miracles happening?

Dustin: oh my god. ME when i was younger. nowadays not so much because i have two young twins that i have to be like on my shit for but when i was younger? FUCK ALL OF THE TIME.

🥑 [AVACADO] What will they never back down about, even if it makes them seem bad?

Dustin: i think over the years i had to defend myself and why exactly i stayed married to theo for so long. and we werent together the whole time i did leave him but the fact that we came back together and we had the twins looked OFF to a lot of my family. i get that. i do . theo didnt want a commitment and we stayed married long past we probably shouldve.. but i think one of things i will never back down about is that when he came back into our lives... he made himself WORTHY of having me . i didnt make it easy on him and i know it seems like im just being stepped on by him at leats to my friends it does but its not the case. and i kinda hope to explain that as time goes on.what happend. why were' back together and why we have the twins.

🌸 [CHERRY BLOSSOM] Does your OC believe in legends/myths?

Dustin: oh my god fuck yeah. you will not catch me in the appalachian mountains.byeeeee

🍆 [EGGPLANT] How are they used by others? How easily are they tricked into this?

Dustin : [smirks]

🥔 [POTATO] What do they have that others see as a flaw, but they don't care about?

Dustin: my trust. i think people think i give too many chances but i only do that if i think you deserve it you know.that being said i warn my kids now.. do not do as i do .

thank you for the questions love! i really loved doing this with dusty! after scarletts bc im going to expand on dustins sides of things some more. where the twins came from all that .

[groovyobservationanchor]

“SwanQueen should have been cannon.” I say into the mic.

The crowd boos. I begin to walk off in shame, when a voice speaks and commands silence from the room.

“She’s right,” they say. I look for the owner of the voice. There in the 5th row stands; Lana Parrilla herself.

[reidsconverse]

lunch break • spencer reid

Spencer x Reader (tried to make this GN)

Warnings: none!

Based off of this request: Can I request a spencer Reid x reader blurb where they goof around on their lunch break?? Somethin real light-hearted! (sorry this took so long anon!)

“Hey Spence, I’m gonna make lunch you wanna join?” You asked your boyfriend. You both had been working from home due to pandemic and had decided to quarantine together rather than be apart for weeks on end.

“Sure,” He said, closing his laptop and walking over to where you were sat on the kitchen counter.

“Great, whats on the menu today chef.” You joked, pulling him closer by his tie. Even when he was just at home he had to dress smart, not that you were complaining, he looked incredible in a suit.

He smirked up at you and kissed you softly, “I have something in mind.” His lips moving to kiss your jaw teasingly making you laugh.

“As much as I would love that, we only have an hour and I’m actually starving, so we have to make real food.” You said jumping down to open the fridge and inspect the basically non-existent contents.

“Oh wow, we really need to go grocery shopping.” Spencer spoke from behind you, his chin coming to rest on top of your head.

“Yeah, it has been a wh-ooo pancakes?” You said, spying the bottle of batter and reaching for it. “And its not out of date, yes!”

“Pancakes sound great, I’ll grab a pan.” He said, pulling off of you to grab whatever was needed, as you continued to scavange the fridge for anything else that might be edible.

“Ok,” you put the ingrediants down next to the soon to be filled plate of pancakes, “We have blueberries, maple syrup AND I found a can of whipped cream.” You smiled up at him and he returned it with a grin of his own.

“Sounds great babe, these will be done in a couple of minutes, wait watch me flip it.” He moved the pan away from the stove to face you and lifted it up causing the pancake to fly up and fall back down, only it ended up on the floor rather than in the pan.

You tried to hold back your giggles as his face fell into a small pout, “Nice try Spence, leave the flipping to the experts.” You reached to grab the pan from him and poured some more batter.

“No way, that was a fluke let me try again.” He said, but you used one finger to keep him away, before turning to face him with the pan.

“Watch this,” You said, more confidently than you shouldve, because the next thing you know the handle fell off the pan causing it to clatter on to the floor.

You and Spencer both stood there for a few seconds, jaws dropping in shock as you stared at the broken pan, contemplating how on earth that couldve happend. Finally, Spencer let out a loud laugh, causing you to look up at him and giggle uncontrollably.

“Oh my god, how-why- what just happened?” You tried to ask, failing to get through your sentence without bursting into another fit of laughter.

“Well, there goes our plan for pancakes. I suppose we could just have these blueberries... or we could order chinese.” He said pulling himself together before reaching into the drawer to grab a menu.

“Fine, but only if you get those spring rolls I love.” You said pointing the broke handle at him and beginning to clean up the mess from the broken pan.

“Of course, how could I forget....” He said, grinning cheekily at you as you rolled your eyes in amusement.

“Ok Mr. Eidetic Memory, you order and i’ll finish cleaning this up since I, unintentionally, made this mess.” You said. He nodded in agreement and left the room to grab his phone to place the order.

He came back a few moments later, and you were now sat back atop of the counter scrolling through your phone. You placed it down next to you as he approached you, once again settling in his place between your legs as you wrapped your arms around his neck.

“All done, they said it should be about 30 minutes so we’ll have to eat and zoom at the same time.” He said, placing a small kiss on your forehead.

“30 minutes huh? I guess we have time to go back to your previous plan...” You said, looking at him with a smirk.

“Yeah?” He asked as you nodded eagarly, squealing as he picked you up by your thighs, ready to move you to the couch.

“Wait!” You practically yelled, causing him to stop in a panic, checking to see if you were hurt. But all you did was look up at him with a devilish grin. “Don’t forget the whipped cream.”

And if you had to tip the delivery guy extra because you made him wait as you cleaned the stickiness off, well, it was worth it.

a/n feedback is appreciated :)

[hitoshisbabygirl]

Author's Notes ♡: Hello hello! Here’s my POCuties collab piece for Valentine’s Day. Even though today sometimes makes me feel unloved please know everyone is deserving of love and even if you don’t have someone this year, you can have me! I love you and so do your favs okay? (✿◠‿◠) ~ bunny ❥

Warnings : none! Just very sweet (a bit of the reader feeling like a burden to tamaki so a touch of sadness here and there)

Word count : 2.1k

Paring(s) : Tamaki Amajiki x F! Reader (fem pronouns)

Enjoy ♡

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Forever // T. Amajiki

Being with Tamaki for a few years taught his lover a lot. She saw more sides of him than most, and it made her heart swell to see the usually quiet boy happy and determined when he accomplished something he was trying for or when he was down she knew just how to cheer him up.

As the day drew on she realised just how much she loved him and how much she wished for him to be home, to give him a big kiss as he came through the door, knowing that his day was long, plagued with paperwork and patrols. Hearing the door open she saw her tall boyfriend enter, hood over his eyes as he let out a sigh, stretching as he felt his body being encased by his girlfriend “Hello butterfly how was your day” His low voice spoke out as she gave him a bright smile “It was nice heaving the day off but i missed you Tama” she pouted as he gave her a chuckle, kissing her forehead “I missed you too, the office was a bore without my adorable secretary” Moving into their shared apartment Tamaki saw food already laid out in front of him “I ran you some bath water too” [ ] called out as she rounded the wall separating the kitchen and living room “Y-you didn't have to do that love im-” A finger silenced his pleas “Let me take care of you okay? You need your rest and i didnt want you to worry about anything coming home except relaxing and cuddling with me okay?” [ ] said as she stood on her tippy toes, kissing the top of his cheek “Tamaki Amajiki we have been doing this for years, won't you please let me love you without trying to outdo me ; you deserve it, you're a wonderful hero, you're my hero and eventually...you'll be our family hero..once we have one..” She trailed off as he stared at her, watching a sadden face appear over her features. Shaking it off as soon as it had appeared she gave him another smile “Its alright. There's no rush, i'm here for the long haul , me and you okay?” she said as she let his face go , heading to the couch “Now go go, hurry up before the food gets cold.” She teased as he gave her a soft look, coming over to kiss her cheek “Okay i wont argue butterfly”

These little things stuck with him, her caring ways, cooking for him, cleaning his office while hed be gone, even doing some of his paperwork while he was on parole. He loved her so much and enjoyed all of the little things here and there she did for him. He ddi the same, and each time made her cry, not out of being upset but for how caring he was to her. Bringing her roses, making sure she didnt have to cook if he could help it, spa days and doing more crafts and bonding with her whenever they could. But he realized while she helped him with so much he felt like he struggled. She struggled with her own issues too, similar to his. Sometimes she felt like she wasnt enough, she had her own anxieties and could get in a sup when she felt inadequate, unlovable and unwanted. But to him, to tamaki he loved everything about her, and she was one of the strongest people he knew. He felt motivated and glad to have her as the one he wished to marry , to have kids with, to start a family. But that also broke his heart when the topic came up she did usually didnt talk much about it, happily making plans but going back on them by saying ‘if i was a good mother’ She didnt want to dissapoint their future kids, didnt want to be a lacking mother or wife. As usual Tamaki came home, but htis time he went past the wonderful smelling food in the kitchen and to their bedroom, his cute girlfriend wrapped up in a blanket “How are you feeling butterfly?” He asked as she gave him a smile, reaching over to hug him “Im oaky! Just a bit overwhelmed is all, im sorry i passed out during the meeting..” She said as she gave him a hurt look before continuing “I shouldve tried harder to stay and present with you i-” Before she could finish he gave her a kiss, stopping her words “You needed rest. Im still surprised you got up to cook, did you at least take a nap love?” He asked as she shook her head , causing him to smile “Good. i love you butterfly and i woudnt change that for the world” he said as she smiled, giving him a hug “I’d hope so” She giggled as he pouted “Never doubt my love for you [ ], no matter what im gonna be here, i promise okay?” he said as she nuzzled the boy, kissing his nose “ And i for you Tamaki”

February came in , the happy couple had started up to take more time off to do more things and enjoy eachothers presence in the month of love. As the days went by Tamaki noticed [ ] was having odd days. From sleeping long hours of the day to just crying randomly, he knee something was wrong. Coming from the store he heard sobbing from their bathroom. Terrified , he tried to enter only feeling the door being locked “[ ] baby whats wrong? Can i come in?” with no response he nervously knocked again. “[ ] please...whats wrong” He pleaded as the door unclicked, showing his still beautiful but tear stained cheeked girl. “T-tama..” She cried as she just jumped into his arms, scaring the indigo haired boy “Baby are you okay?” he asked as she took in a breath before smiling sadly “Y-yeah i am..” She said as he picked her up, taking them into the living room. “I love you..and whatever is making you feel like this..if i can help let me okay?” Tamaki said as [ ] shook her head, placing it into his shoulder as they fell asleep.

Every day from her breakdown Tamaki came to her office with a rose, ate lunch with her and made sure she was hydrated and well. Once the week of valentines day came up, he had his plan set in motion. He had their schedules fixed, the week off for themselves as they did different things. A spa day the first day, a picnic the next, shopping at an expensive store for clothes. Then an art day where they drew (or tried to ) eachother and made art fro and about the other. Once the day of Valentines came however, it was different. It started with them taking a shower together, Tamaki cooking breakfast in bead for [ ] as they talked through the morning. Tamaki told her the outfits they ha gotten the days prior was for tonight which gave [ ] the jitters. She was excited for what her pro hero boyfriend had instore for them. Once they got to the restaurant all eys were on them. [ ]’s long black dress falttereed tamakis white suit and black bow tie. The two of them sat and started to eat, coversating with some fans who so happend to be around thwm. One was a small girl with wide hopeful eyes. She came to the couple with her mom in toe “Im so sorry to interrupt you two, my daughter wouldnt let mt husband and me rest until she came over to you guys” the wmoan laughed, causing bothe members to smile “Hello there how are you?” Tamaki asked the girl as she stepped from behind her mother “ H-hi my name is Shiemi a-and i really like you suneater!” The small girl said , causing [ ] , Tamaki and her mom to smile “Why thank you Shiemi, i hope im a good hero for you” Tamaki responded as the little girl shook her head “The best! Youre so cool. A-and your wife is pretty like mama! I like you dress miss suneater” The girl said , causing [ ] to stutter as she sipped her water “O-oh why thank you Shiemi but Im-” before she could continue she saw her boyfriend give the woman and her daughter a wide smile “She is, inst she?” He said as he turned to [ ] , moving from his chair “Tama what are you-” [ ] asked again as he leaned to the little girls ear , then to the mothers as they both gave him a smile, the woman happily shaking her head as her daughter followed the hero. Confused, [ ] watched as he picked the little girl up, putting her atop of the bar table “Hey everyone! Suneater has an announcement!” she yelled as most people turned around or to the table in the middle of the room, watching and smiling at the energetic child and pro hero “In fact I do, [ ] would you mind standing?” Tamaki asked as she gave him a wide eyed look, standing as he gave her a smile, extending and hand to her as she joined his side

“H-hey guys , as you know um..this si my lovely girlfriend and partner [ ]” He started as she gave everyone in the room a wary smile, her face feeling hot as he continued “ Ive known her for years, and weve been dating for some of those, she's seen me through thick and thin, helped me out in a pinch and made me feel like the strongest man alive, well next to almight…” he whispered as some of the people laughed, more paying them attention “And through all of this….i could think of a more beautiful and right person to spend the rest of my life with” And with the the young child handed the now kneeling man a ring as some whooped and hollered, others recording as both [ ] and the girls mother had tears in their eyes “[ ] [ ], the love of my life, my butterfly, i couldnt think of a more beautiful person inside and out to be with, will you give me the honor and make me the happiest man on this earth to be my wife?” He asked as the ring was revealed, diamond glistening as his own tear filled eyes looked to hers. Thinking her voice would fail her she shook her head yes, causing the room to yell as she had her ring put on her finger , jumping to hug her standing fiance as they hugged and cried, video of the engagement spreading as he thought to himself ‘I can now have my family, my endless love with you my dear butterfly’

As their wedding came , all of their friends and family came, including the new found friends of the young Shiemi and her parents. The ceremony went though flawlessly, Shiemi being their flower girl as the newlyweds ran down the easel , heading for their limo as they herded for the reception. The family spoke on how happy they were from their marriage, friends giving their comments on how they knew the couple would get married as the couple laughed at some stories and comments about their relationship. The night ended with so much love and joy for the new couple, startint their life together\

Two years went by before valentines day came again, three years to the day he had proposed arrived. Happily and ready to celebrate Tamaki woke up to his wife missing, hearing her fumble in the bathroom. Heading to the room he was shocked to she her in a disarray , eyes foggy as she met his “Tama...i have a surprised” She said as her teras fell down her face. Confused and still a bit tired , he gave her a look as she handed him a blue and while stick. The word pregnant snapped him awake as more tears started to fall, handing him two and three more all with the same small but powerful word “Im..gonna be a dad?” He asked as she smiled, shaking her head as she hugged the trembling girl “T-tama i'm gonna be a mom..what if i'm not good enough…” She sobbed as he cooed her, kissing her lips as his tears fell with hers “You're gonna be great Butterfly, i promise, you're gonna be so so great” He said as his heart swelled feeling her lips against his ‘This...This is forever , a love i wished for...and i couldn't have asked for more of a way to live my life...i love you butterfly’

[practicalmagicintuitions]

"Argyll is already announced as a new James Bond franchise with many movies. I mean… Shouldn’t they make one movie first?" Girl they shouldve wait until THE FIRST BOOK GOT PUBLISHED 😂🤣😅 and we still don't know for sure who is the lead. As for Highlander didnt all the movie in this franchise flop🥴? And rosie he won't even put this on his ig because he knows people will come at him because either he doesnt fit the bill of "akward teacher" or he's not someone on the sprectrum/neurodivergent. But i believe theses 3 projects will be made but people need to stop this non-sense of he's coming back has superman. That's THE PROJECT that will never happend.

I guess they have a good contact at the publisher. I don't know. Or do they want to boost the book with the movie? So strange.

I shrugged my shoulder to the Highlander because it's a muscle role again, but the Rosie one... He is so not fit for the character. I think he will be a fanfic type of teacher everyone drooling over than someone with serious issues. I don't think he is a good actor enough, especially that he is playing the same since MoS and he hasn't developed his acting skilles meantime.

[munsooon]

for once the ice cream machine isnt broken

someone asked for a part two to McAngst with a side of Fries and so i ran with it since the event happend like two years ago and ive gone through some character development 

its amazing the things distance can do. It had been approximately 3 months since you’d last seen the Doctor. the first month was hard however, getting settled in Earth was already a struggle in itself but the constant nagging thoughts of the Doctor at the back of your head didn't help. you cried yourself to sleep most times, you mostly stayed indoors, curled up in a ball on your couch, old show reruns playing on your television. you indulged in the sadness, knowing if you bottled it all up you’d be a ticking bomb of despair. so thats how you stayed for the first month. sad and miserable. you’re sure you’d cried more in that month than you ever will in your lifetime.

after the sadness came indifference. what happened happened, and as unfortunate and messy the whole ordeal was, you had to move on. there were days were you did great! you went out, hung out with friends, went to your favorite shops and treated yourself to some cute shoes. other days were a little harder, you’d lie if you said that second month your feelings for the Doctor had completely gone. you saw him in everything you did, everywhere you went, the constant though of him was with you. if you saw a squirrel or a cat, you thought about him and the things he’d say. he’d more than likely start communicating with them and then translate the conversation to you. or when you passed by a bakery, you knew if he was there the smell would intrigue him and he’d pull you towards the scent and demand you buy him one. sometimes when you sat at the roof of your apartment, and gazed at the moon and stars, you wondered if he looked at those same stars, and missed you as much as you did him. getting over someone as amazing as the Doctor seemed almost impossible.

almost. 

by the third month, the thought of him barely crossed your mind. you were able to really focus on yourself, no nagging at the back of your head. you could really go out an enjoy yourself 100%. it was only then, your heart no longer heavy, mind cleared, that you start missing the universe. you missed the thrill, the chaos, the beauty of it, but you werent going to call and ask if you could go back, your pride wouldnt let you. if it happened it happened, if it didnt you’d just have to find adventure yourself.

but after all that bad shit that has happened to you, you deserved to have some good karma. and so it happened.

it was the holiday season, and the Ponds decided to spend said holidays here on Earth, with you. You were happy of course! they were you best friends and you missed them just as much as the universe. Seeing the Doctor felt surreal, having him flash that smile at you was nice. but thats all it was. nice, there was no flutter of your heart, no butterflies, no shortness of breath, just, nice,

but you shouldve known better, because having the gang altogether called for trouble, and thats exactly what you got. and so off you were, another adventure at your feet. you missed this, them, him. River wasnt here, your dinner didnt last long enough for you to be able to catch up on everything that had happed the last three months. so when the group split, it was just you and Him. if you hadnt taken the time to heal, this- being alone with him- would've been a lot harder. for now you were just trying to catch your breath, gather your thoughts, come up with a plan to save the day. 

as you gathered yourself, you could feel his eyes on you, and so you looked up at him. when your eyes met, he gave you a smile, let out a chuckle. “I missed this,” he said, and you raised a brow.”What do you mean, you're constantly running from shit, how could you miss it?” you asked, confused. 

He let out a sigh, and let his head fall, his hair falling around his face, covering his eyes. “that’s not-” he took a big breath, “-thats not what i meant.” he still wasnt looking you in the eyes.

“Oh?”

“what i meant was this, running from trouble with you,”

oh fuck 

“Doctor..”

“These past months have felt like forever without you,” he finally looked up again, his expression... sad.

you have an idea of where this conversation might be headed, and you wanted him to stop. 

“River told me everything,” he said, voice solemn. 

you jaw locked, eyebrows furrowed, body tense. you dont care, about him or River or wherever this dumb conversation was going. you were doing good, youve healed, if he truly knew about the situation he should see how good youre doing despite the absolute heartbreak you went through a few months ago, you dont understand why hes saying this.

“Dont,” was all you could say, the fear of the dam breaking too overpowering to let you say anything more. 

“When i was with her i thought thats what i wanted, but after a while, without having you there, it just didnt feel right. i figured out it was you, who i wanted. and im an idiot because i’d already known that but i pushed those feelings away- i didnt think you’d like me back. and i felt lost and sad and then something was happening with River and i just let myself get swept away, and it was irrational and in the end i ended up hurting both of you..”

“Doctor, stop.”

“and i think the guilt of how everything happened and not giving you an explanation was too much for her so she told me everything and then everything made sense!” he was pacing, running his hands through his hair, eyes watery. 

“Doctor thats enough,” your voice was barely above a whisper, but with those satellite for ears he had you knew he’s heard you.

“we ended things, on good terms, doesnt matter anymore shes not- with us anymore... but we ended it befire that so dont think im only saying this casue im a widow but i just wanted you to kno-”

“well i dont care! okay? whatever happened is a thing of the past and these three months ive taken the time to heal and, and get over you-” your voice was cracking, your cheeks were wet, “and i dont care anymore. those feelings aren't a part of me anymore. and id rather they stay like that."

he was quiet, eyes glossy. you probably looked worse.

"look me in the eyes and tell me you don't feel anything for me anymore," he said, slowly stepping close to you. once he was in front of you he gently cupped your face in his hands.

his big, soft, warm hands. they felt so right holding you.

you didn't look him in the eyes, you couldn't, they were so sincere, and big enough to fit the whole universe in them.

tears silently spilled from your eyes, everytime he caught them and wiped them away.

you looked into his eyes, and before you could lie and tell him you felt nothing for him, he gently kissed you.

it felt so right, to be held and kissed by the Doctor. you fear nothing in your life will ever feel as right as this.

[soulhoodt]

Welp...thought Id post this on here. I highly doubt itll get read but anyway... My name is Torri, most just call me “Soul”. Im a 22year old photographer/chicken entrepreneur from Hampton, Virginia. My life has always felt like that shard feeling your skin gets from falling off your bike on cement. Alot of things that has happend in my past im struggling to get over in my adult life. It took me till I was 17 to realize I had been somewhat brainwashed about “life” and whats really important like saving money, planning for the future, etc. Ive been tryna unwind that for the past 4 years. I struggle with depression and ADHD sooo bad. Being in a great state of sadess with no focus is toxic. Ill drop into a depression like I missed the last stair. I didnt even realize why I was so sad, always in my pitch black room (it was a really dark purple), and always crying (for hoursss, nobody knew) till I went to a university therapist when I was bout 19! Ugh this is so much I dont even know where to begin. The woman who birthed me, I always felt she made sure I had what I needed physically but damn sure not mentally. I think all this negativity and unecessary heart ache has just taken a toll on me. Im crying out for help and im so lost at this point. Its like I try to forget my old life and move on the past just jumps back in front of me and I get unmotivated, sad, and stuck. How do I get out of this terrible mindset?....So let me back up a bit. I grew up in a very “square” part of the world. If you didnt look a certain way, dress a certain way or skinny enough, your ass got fried. and I could never take jokes on me well. I try so hard to be confident and not clinch on to people words and opinions but when youre told that youre a ugly fatass everyday and asked “what you got on?” And gettin shoved and pushed everyday after lunch (thanks Kirby) that shit stays with you. (I never thought I had a sloppy shape but I guess so) Even fat remarks from my own momma smh. Im a Different type chick, and that equals “freak” around here so ive always been ridiculed for that too. Different how? Ive always dressed in my own way, thought about things differently than most folks and downright goofy! (Yes, can make myself laugh and I think im the coolest person in the world 😎) Band was a disaster also at least in the beginning. The only place and time I could escape back then was when I had my drum on (bass drum, 28 & a 16) and we did our shows...Honestly that was a highlight of my life and thats the only thing that really used to keep a -real- smile on my face. Im definately that person that was the class clown and but crying behind closed doors. Dont let me get started with boys. Let me just say #rejection. Never had a boyfriend or anything positive in that department and ill leave it at that. Also im thinking the fact my dad has been incarcerated my entire life has affected me too. Maybe I wouldve had the right structure to lead me on this path..IT DEFINATELY kills me that he wasnt here physically and I have a whole side of family that I dont know in Chicago and Jackson, Mississippi. Also a older half sister Ive never met. Its scary she looks just like me if I was mixed....I feel like a lost puppy just tryna find my way through this crazy world. I graduated high school in 2013 and went to Norfolk state for a year, but didnt do well. Ive never been much of a scholar. My feelings were so deep and I didnt even realize I needed help. I shouldve talked to someone. Suicide has definately been a option for me twice, but I didnt do it. Literally im stuck between life or jumping off a fuckin bridge next smh. Now that ive come to a head about who I am (sort of) and where I wanna be, and what I wanna do with my life I just need to figure out a way how Im gonna get there. From this this shitty standpoint of my life. Ill do a part 2 soon this is getting pretty lengthy. If youve read this far, thank you. If you have any advice please leave me some ☹️ (oh yeah RB so others can read)

[cookiesalat]

📓 #001 - Breakups ~

You got your heartbroken huh? Well sucks to be you mate. Im here to sum up my experience and give some advice for idiots who dont know any better.

My experience: 

Heartbreaks suck but they also dont actually. I had a few relationships now and every single one of em broke apart. Its normal bruh not great by any means but definitly one of the most normal things everyone who isnt a fuckin special ed kid or social retard goes throu. My last relationship lasted about 2,5 yrs and it was a very toxic shitfest. The entire relationship shouldve ended at the 7 month mark but went on for 19 fuckin more months of lying, false hopes and promises cheating, violence, and more shit i dont even care to list here.

Was it all the fault of one partner? 

- fuck no man

No matter which relationship there are always 2 idiots at fault. ALWAYS. No one here is a perfect human being. My last girlfriend screwed me over big time after seven months and you know what this stupid motherfucker did? I forgave her because i believed that everything would change. Spoiler: It did not,

Advice for breakups:

Dont stalk their social media. This will only awake a whole bunch of emotions within you that you dont want to experience. To put it simple this will reset all your progress you’ve made in terms of getting over that person. 

Delete chats and unfriend them everywhere + delete their number. You dont want to wallow in the past by reading old chats. Be independent.

Get your stuff back and give back any leftover things as soon as possible. This way you won’t even have an excuse to text them for any reason.

Eat properly. Shove that shit down your throat i know you arent hungry.

Do any kind of sports. Jogging or swimming is best tho. Doing cardio has the great side effect of getting you out of your own head because you will be way too exhausted to think clearly.

Dont talk shit about them, No matter what they did. You dont want to look like bitch do you?

Its mandatory for you to cry as much as you need to. Supressing emotions has lots of negative side effects such as, in the particular case of you having your heart broken, you not being able to move on from what happend. You will never stop living in the past if you dont allow yourself to mourn the death of what was.

Dont go places where they could be just because you want to see them. Do you have any idea how creepy that actually is? I know youre in love but that is stalker shit right there.

Stop texting them and no let’s stay friends bs. Pretty selfexplanatory we want to get over the relationship and dont wanna ruin our pride with trying to make this relationship thats already dead work out, which it wont. Ex stands for EXPIRED.

Go talk to someone who you can trust about your problems. Having someone listening to your feelings deifinitly helps. 

Reflect on what happend. Its crazy how much you can actually learn about yourself and life during a breakup. 

[corpscommandantcrowley]

headcannon: gilan and jenny actually got married in book 12 (bc we all know it shouldve happend)

Do I have the power to make it canon that they had a beautiful wedding with all their friends AND ALYSS and Halt was proud of them and Crowley was there too because of course no one died

[whybotheranyway-blog]

“I could write an entire book about what I feel for you.”

11.41pm 24th of july,2017 Staring at the four corners of this room, its a gloomy night.i hate the smell and the feel of coldness.rainy season aint over yet.i despise this kind of weather.but the sun always peek every morning until 2 in the afternoon then the gloomy weather will start again,like it has his own alarm clock.Everybody loves when the rain pour down, me?i love watching the raindrops fall..rainy days hasnt always be a friend of mine, coz everytime the rain pours my system falls down..thats the perk of being a sickly human.i have no choice but to endure it. Staring blankly ahead just thinking about what happend late this afternoon..where did all the rants came from, i am like okay im fine to being a pissed off as hell real quick..thats the problem with me, my mood swings in a wink..and whatever pops out of my mind i naturally voice it out like theres no tomorrow..i have a difficulty in dealing with that kind of ways..the moment i started ranting to the moment im starting to realize that uh oh im crossing beyond the limit, i shouldve hold that..but its too late..the words already spilled out..so here i am again..blaming my stupid self because of what happened..i didnt get the chance to apologize..my bad i know..but what happened has already happened..the harm that has been done has been done..while staring blankly ahead i am beginning to realize everything..lemme count those realizations.. One I realized that i dont easily get jealous but what the eff is wrong with me now..maybe i just want some attention..or maybe i am just jealous, just the mere thought of it.im sorry i told you "malala akong magselos at minsanan lang yan." Two I just miss you, i know i miss you so bad.its been quite a while, we havent seen each other well, i was very happy last sunday, i am..but i think it just sinked in today, too many what ifs and why did i not do it.i still miss u terribly.i swear..im sorry for missing this much and im treating u like hell already..believe me, i just miss you. Three Im so hungry for you..im always hungry for you..i may not showing it literally but God knows how much i want to hug you tight to tightest, kiss you passionately and feel your warmth for a little more time.."sobrang bitin ata ako last sunday at bwesit bwesit ang sistema ko ngayun."im sorry for hurting you instead of letting you know how much i am wanting yo feel you more that day. Four Im so relax and you're too busy.but thank me please, i was almost on the peak of my anger but i did manage to control myself.Thanks to the list of books that ive been busy reading while you are doing your stuffs, until you are so done..hey dont you know that i miss every second,minute and hour that you are not around?in case you dont know you, i miss you during those times..it seems that i did not but the truth is im screaming inside..i am.. Five I love you with all my might..wheb i say with all my might, it means i will love you despite of all the petty quarrels,the misunderstanding, the deadma thingy,the rants and bad mouthing..i love you beyond words.i love you with all of your flaws..and i love you for who you whatever your attitude is..i am still and i am going to love you with all my might..whatever it takes.. Six Im sorry..redunduncy at its best but please wag ka mapagod.I repeat no relationship is always sunshine..we have to gi through this once in a while..its a part of the journey..for us to know how to handle things when it comes to its worst part..Parting is never a solution..Setting things out is..im sorry for always prolonging that argument.Mali na nman ang timing ko.nakalimutan ko na nman na your compre is fast approaching, im sorry it seems like i lost the track of time..you still have a lot of time in studying..i hope and i pray that everything will turn out right..i know you can do it..i am keeping my fingers crossed..Im sorry if icause you too much worry and inis..that would be the last, i will try my very best that that would be the last..the last argument that i will brought up.you mean so much to me,you know that..im sorry for everyhing that ive caused you..i just love you..kasi kng wala ka lang sa akin kahit pa anong gawin mo wala nman akong pakealam..kaso malaking parte ka ng buhay ko eh..kaya lahat ng ways mo ramdam ko..sana maintindihan mo..mahal kita higit kanino man..mahal na mahal kita.. Als