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My Favorite New Manga and Graphic Novels I Read in 2024
I read 114 manga volumes and graphic novels last year! Here’s a link to my Goodreads year in books, which tallies one book from each manga series ( I've arranged it so the manga/gns at the beginning, the novels start with Red, White & Royal Blue) and my storygraph wrap up.
I have a post for my favorite books of 2024 you can read here! I also have a post on my top 12 anime for 2024 and you can read it here! (Also, since a lot of this is yuri, check out my broader yuri manga rec post here!)
Now let's get to all the new manga, with a little check in on ongoing titles at the bottom!
Love Bullet by inee
When someone who never had the chance to experience love meets an untimely death, they're given a chance to become a cupid. If they help enough people fall in love, they earn the chance to have another shot at life. Koharu meets her end after her best friend, Aki, confesses her love to her, and she becomes a cupid...
Love Bullet is a brand new yuri with fun characters and a cute art style that feels a little charmingly retro. The concept of modern day cupids using firearms and behaving like sharpshooters in an action movie is so fun, but there's also a beating heart behind it. The tragedy of Koharu's life being cut sort and the bittersweet arc where Koharu tries to help her living best friend deal with her lingering trauma over her sudden death...it's touching and well written. All the cupids already have a really great dynamic, and as befitting a yuri, the way the girls approach their jobs is casually queer, with the "targets" often shown to have both guy and girl options.
It's a story with great potential that seems like it could go a ton of interesting places. It's a little different than the rest of this list that it's not officially out in English yet. The reason it's here is because the author sent out an SOS that the first Japanese volume is struggling in sales, and the international yuri community, excited about the awesome story they've seen so far, rose to the challenge and bought out the first volume in Japanese! So far it's been successful! If you end up reading it (you'll have to rely on scanlation but they're easy to find) or even if you just simply want to support a cool story. I really encourage you to do the same. Here's a document on how to buy the Japanese version. Hopefully, the grassroots support will mean we get an official English release soon!
The Summer You Were There by Yuama
All you lovers of tragic lesbians, this is for you. The manga follows Shizuku, a deeply depressed girl who is so guilty about something in her past she's got some serious suicidal ideation going. But when Kaori, a girl in her class, reads her writing and guesses what's behind it, she challenges Shizuku to a bet where she has to write a novel about a romance between the two of them. Now they're suddenly spending a lot of time together, and Kaori is helping Shizuku unpack her guilt. However, Kaori is struggling too. She's actually very sick, and though she hides it, it's getting worse.
The manga is a heart wrenching meditation on grief and redemption. For very different reasons, both girls think they don't deserve love and both girls are shown they're very, very wrong by the other.
I like how Kaori tries to be the manic pixie dream girl who fixes all of Shizuku's problems, but then Shizuku very firmly says "what the hell. no. You need support too" and they're both allowed to be full characters who find solace in each other. Shizuku's backstory is also really interesting, and it hits hard. It's just a very touching, but very sad read.
Barefoot Gen by Keiji Nakazawa
Barefoot Gen is a semi-autobiographical manga by Hiroshima survivor Nakazawa Keiji. Nakazawa said the story is taken not just from his life, but those of fellow survivors he talked to and lived with.
The story follows a boy named Gen, depicting how most of his family were killed by the atomic bomb, and how he struggled to survive in a post-war Japan, while surrounded by the horrible effects of radiation poisoning, economic devastation, and American imperialism.
It sticks out from other animanga I've seen about WWII bombings in that it's very critical and angry at the Japanese government, to the point that Gen even calls the Emperor a war criminal. What stands out even more is how direct it is in denouncing of Japan's war crimes against Korea and China, as well as condemning Japanese racism against Koreans. It makes sure you know that Korean POWs and forced laborers also died and suffered because of the bomb, and that the Japanese doctors discriminated against them, forcing Koreans to wait on receiving medical treatment until every Japanese person was treated.
It does a stomach churning, effective job depicting the horror of radiation poisoning and war, and its message is extremely firm: Its the common people who suffer in the wars while those in power exploit them, that war and violence are an endless vicious cycle we must break free from, and nuclear bombing must never happen again.
Though it puts a lot of blame on the Japanese government for entering the war and on citizens for supporting it, the story is also critical of America's cruelty and imperialism, depicting lot of things America did to Japanese citizens post-war we don't get taught-- like soldiers sexually assaulting Japanese women, like getting Japanese labor activists and protestors removed from their jobs, like literally torturing Japanese leftists, like luring Japanese citizens to treatment centers with promises of medical aid for radiation sickness, only to collect the data and send them off with no help...
Though the manga is brutal, there are moments of comradery and kindness (and a lot of silly humor). Gen helps a lot of people along the way, and his resilience and his message not to give up is the heart of the manga. It's educational and very direct about subjects that both sides don't want to acknowledge-- both Japanese nationalists and American nationalists do not like it (you can learn more about that here). Despite extremely gruesome content, it's aimed at kids, so it's very blunt and direct in its messages and dialogue. But that can be kind of refreshing.
It can get a little repetitive on occasion and storylines and characters tend to be introduced very abruptly, but it does keep you rooting for and feeling for the characters all the way through. I think it's an essential, highly informative and unforgettable read, and everyone should read at least a little bit. Or at the very least, read this interview with Nakazawa. If you can't handle the gruesome imagery of the comic, he describes his experience pretty in depth here, and there's a lot of other insight.
This Monster wants to Eat Me by Sai Naekawa
Hinako is a depressed girl who survived a terrible trauma and has been searching for death ever since. One day she gets approached by, Shiori, a mermaid who wants to eat her…but the thing is, this monster mermaid is a gourmet who wants her to be as delicious as possible, which means she’s going to make Hinako happy first before she eats her (as apparently that enhances her flavor). In the meantime Shiori has to fight off all the other monsters who want to snack on Hinako.
This is TOP TIER yuri horror and a must read for any lover of monster girls. It was custom made for a freak like me, who thinks a monster girl covered in the blood of her enemies seductively telling the protagonist she wants to devour her is the stuff that dreams are made of.
Shiori, the woman-eating mermaid in question, is a fascinating character right off the bat, always having a hint of menace and inhuman mystery, but showing some potential for genuinely caring for Hinako someday. There's an ongoing mystery of why monsters are so attracted to Hinako that's a good hook, as is the irony of Hinako starting to come alive thanks to a girl who wants to kill her. It's good stuff! And it'll get an anime soon, which I'm praying is worthy of such a cool story.

The Guy She Was Interested Wasn’t a Guy at All by Sumiko Arai
The green yuri! This web manga finally gotten a physical release this year! It tells the story of Mitsuki, a girl who works at a record shop. Her classmate Aya wanders in. Aya doesn't recognize Mitsuki with a face mask and hair hidden by a cap and immediately assumes Mitsuki's a guy. They bond over their mutual love of rock music and slowly start to get closer…and Aya finds her heart is fluttering not only over this mysterious boy, but her female classmate that seems a lot like him...
Despite it's clunky title, this manga makes a premise that could have been painfully cliche and, in the worst case, extremely uncomfortable and makes it work. It never swings into homophobic or transphobic territory imo. It helps that Aya is clearly catching feelings for "girl" Mitsuki along with "guy" Mitsuki from the beginning, subconsciously knowing they're the same person.
The focus of the story is the way their relationship develops through a shared love of Western rock music and it really captures the joy of finding someone who can share your interests and the affection that can spring up for that. The characters are very likeable and cute, the art is absolutely gorgeous, and the story as a whole has this laid back, naturalistic feeling while still developing at a good pace. I just really enjoy kicking back with my green yuri, and it's good reputation is well earned!
Maus by Art Spiegelman
This comic about Spiegelman interviewing his father, a Holocaust survivor, and learning his story (with Nazis being represented as cats and Jewish people as mice) is, of course, incredibly well known to the point it feels almost redundant to talk about it. But I did read it cover to cover for the first time last year, and unsurprisingly it's a great piece of art and an important story for anyone to look into.
The parts recounting the Holocaust were heartbreaking and horrifying as expected, and I'd expected that. But the things I hadn't heard as much about was how much the book explored Spiegelman's complicated relationship with his father, and his anxieties as an artist and whether he was the right one to tell this story. It was fascinating to see him struggle with those things, and it added a lot of layers.
The Moon on a Rainy Night by Kuzushiro
One rainy night, Saki runs into Kanon and is immediately infatuated with the other girl. When she sees Kanon at school, she discovers Kanon is hard of hearing. Kanon is understandably frustrated at the ableism she tends to endure. But as Saki reaches out and gets to know her, Kanon starts to open up. And Saki, having gone through struggles related to her sexuality in the past, starts getting anxious about her feelings for Kanon...
The Moon on a Rainy Night is just... REALLY good. Kanon is just a great character, and as a lover of stubborn, prickly girls I just find her so charming. She has a lot going on with her, like her interest in music and relationship with her family and various quirks.
One thing I really like is how narrative allows her to be frustrated about the stuff she goes through, allows her to have complex feelings about being disabled, and pays attention the little details. She has to clear up misconceptions she can't hear anything, she points out that only 20 percent of deaf people use sign language (but starts using it when she really relates to a movie and the way the cute actor uses it, which is such a teenager thing to do), the lip reading isn't treated as some magic thing, Kanon has to remind people to look at her or she can't hear them, and she misreads things a fair amount.
I'm not hard of hearing, so I'm far from the authority, but most examples of deaf and/or hard-of-hearing female characters I can think of in anime (okay so there's only two I can think of, can't say that qualifies as a pattern) are depicted as shy, super sweet and socially naive, so it's refreshing to have a character who brings some variety.
Saki is also super compelling as she wrestles with her insecurities.I really related when she was learning sign language and got bummed out by the heteronormativity of one sign (using "man" and "woman" for marriage). I also like that Saki finds an adult lesbian who gently supports her and mentors her, it's all very sweet. It's just a fantastic romance and character study, and I hope the upcoming anime does it justice.

Wash Day Diaries by Jamila Rowser and Robyn Smith
Wash Day Diaries follows four best friends and their daily lives through interconnected short stories. As the official summary states: "The book takes its title from the wash day experience shared by Black women everywhere of setting aside all plans and responsibilities for a full day of washing, conditioning, and nourishing their hair".
The comic makes a great use of color to reflect the characters' moods, and the girls are drawn vibrantly and distinctively. The peek into the characters' daily lives feels like getting to know some good friends, and there's a great attention to detail, especially with the comic's beautiful step-by-step depiction of how each woman does her hair and what it says about her.
The comic touches on topics like depression, dementia, and homophobia. Just like real life, these things aren't neatly resolved, but the story does offer some hope and catharsis. It's a pretty quick read, but it's packed with good stuff.
Magilumiere Magical Girls Inc. by Yu Aoki
I'm going to give myself a little break and just reuse my entry for the anime. (The only difference between them is that the manga flows a bit better than the anime, moving at a faster pace with huge panels suiting the art style and the action!)
Being a magical girl is no longer the domain of teenagers, and has evolved into an actual career dominated by adult women. Kana becomes a magical girl for a scrappy start up company, and tries her best to navigate working life.
It’s the magical girl story about adult women I’ve been craving for years! Magical girl media often explores the struggles of adolescence and growing up, and this show takes us to the next step by using magical girls to explore what it’s like to be a young woman entering the working world. The focus is one Kana struggling to grow her confidence and accept support from her workplace, but it also has a lot to say about companies exploiting their workers, prizing efficiency and growth over actually taking care of their customers, and it shows how the world could be better than what it is right now. Check out my review here for more detail!
I Married My Female Friend by Shio Usui
A pair of best friends enter a platonic marriage they both agreed to with the promise they’ll divorce if one of them falls in love. But one woman has decidedly not platonic feelings for her wife, and is trying to repress them...
This is a sweet, laid-back story from the creator of Doughnuts Under the Crescent Moon. It has a very slice-of-life feel, with the characters feelings and conflicts developing subtlety. There's a focus on domestic life and the compromises and struggles one makes along the way. It's set in a world where gay marriage is legal in Japan, which is cool to see. If you liked Doughnuts, or are just looking for a chill yuri, I'd check this out!

Himawari House by Harmony Becker
Himawari House follows the story of Nao, a half-Japanese woman who immigrated to America when she was young. She's now returning to Japan and feels a feels a deep sadness from how disconnected she's gotten from Japan's language and culture. While in Japan, she lives with two other girls, Hyejung and Tina, who are from South Korea and Singapore respectively. They form a friendship as all of them struggle to get used to Japan and deal with language barriers.
We get the interconnected stories of all three girls, and all of them are really interesting in their own way. This story does a lot of cool things with language, for example, showing words fading out when someone can't understand them, giving the reader the same experience the character is having trying to understand the language. It was a fascinating experience. The book does an effective job exploring Nao's feelings of alienation from both America and Japan, while having a lot of other interesting plotlines that made all the characters feel rounded and developed, such as struggles with independence and expectations from parents, trying to navigate romances, and dealing with homesickness. The art is beautiful as well. This is a well crafted and insightful story, that you might find especially great if you're interested in languages, cultures, stories about identity, and stories about Japan.
Kiss and White Lily for My Dearest Girl by Canno
Kiss and White Lily follows multiple lesbian relationships, with its main storyline being about two academic rivals, where one is determined to rank first in class, and the other is an effortless genius who becomes intrigued at the possibility of someone beating her.
The main couple have the kind of messy combative sexual tension I wish we’d see more often in yuri because it’s so good. I just love the drama and mixture of rage and attraction. The manga follows other couples too and while some stories are stronger than others, they're all usually entertaining in some way and its fun to watch the characters grow. The art's also very cute and the characters are vibrant. The ending is really strong too, putting a perfect cap on the story of the main couple especially.
However, big warning for some nonconsensual kisses in early volumes, with Kurosawa being especially pushy. There's also a storyline with...well it does leave you a little wiggle room on whether it's actually incest between a minor and an adult portrayed romantically??? but um. the implication is strong. Fortunately, that's mainly contained to the seventh volume--you can just skip any stories about the sisters.
When the manga is good, it's really good, and that makes up for some of the questionable elements for me, even if I wish they weren't there. You might agree or disagree!
Ongoing and ended titles:

Here's a look at some of the ongoing titles I've been following! You can look at this post for breakdowns of what they're all about and why I recommend them.
I Think My Son is Gay and I Want to Be a Wall both wrapped up with fairly open endings but remained good reads over all. I finally got around to finishing After Hours, a yuri about a girl who gets ditched by her friend at the club, only to meet a cool punk girl who introduces her to the world of DJ-ing. It's a very charming three volume tale, and I love the playful vibe and more natural-sounding dialogue, especially for the cool party-girl love interest.
There are several manga that just stay the course as far as being excellent go: Otherside Picnic (which is finally at some of the best parts of the light novels! It's getting real!), Monthly Girls Nozaki-kun, Witch Hat Atelier, A Man and his Cat, How Do We Relationship, March Come in Like a Lion, The Summer Hikaru Died and She Loves to Cook and She Loves to Eat.
For Yuri is my Job, I have to warn for a intense predatory sexual assault scene between an adult antagonist and one of the underage main characters. It's even ambiguous whether the underage character in question got raped for a few pages (but she wasn't). It's completely framed as a an evil, bad act by the antagonist, but how it was handled was SO intense and kind of weird I'm not sure how I feel about it. Yona of the Dawn has gotten incredibly intense lately and continues extremely slowly but surely approaching the finale. Maybe we'll get it in four years or something.
And that it! I'm going to happily keep reading all these manga, as well as continue checking out some new ones, like Akane-banashi! I hope you enjoyed these recs.
#manga#yuri#year in comics#love bullet#the summer you were there#the moon on a rainy night#maus#barefoot gen#the guy she was interested in wasn't a guy at all#magilumiere magical girls inc.#magilumiere co. ltd.#this monster wants to eat me#wash day diaries#himawari house#kiss and white lily for my dearest girl#my reviews#yona of the dawn#akatsuki no yona#after hours#yuri is my job#graphic novels#comics#2024 manga#queer manga#manga recs#long post
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This could be us, but none of you live near me 😭
#Wash Day Diaries#comic books#graphic novel#Nesha Reads#Nesha Reads 2024#Nesha Reads Wash Day Diaries#comic book art#this could be us#bonnets#friends#sisterhood
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Finished Wash Day Diaries and I loved it so much. This particular part made me laugh cause that is exactly how I get my friends to show up on time too and it doesn't always work.
My favourite stories were La Bendición and Bright Side. Bright Side made me tear up a little cause when I'm at my most depressed, I don't want to deal with my hair at all. Cookie braiding Davene's hair and then giving her the citrine when she talks about going to therapy. Felt really seen. Favourite read of 2023 so far.
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My favorites from 2024
1. Favorite Albums


-Kid Cudi: Insano
-Dave East & Scram Jones: For the Love
2. Favorite Movie: Deadpool & Wolverine
3. Favorite new tv show: Emily in Paris (new to me 😅)

4. Favorite new Podcast (new to me 😅): Balanced Black Girl

5. Favorite Books:
Fiction- The Partner Plot…. Honorable mentions: “A novel Christmas” and “Christmas in spite of you”

Nonfiction- The Catch Me If you can

Graphic novel- Wash Day Diaries (not for kids)

6. Things that I learned: Diving back into learning French, Spanish, and now Haitian Creole with the help of Duolingo
7. Moment: Being hired to teach 5th grade 🤓❤️
#mario barrett#J. Cole#Kid Cudi#Dave East#deadpool and wolverine#Emily in Paris#The Partner plot#Balanced Black Girl#balancedles#Kristina Forest#The Catch Me If You Can#Jessica Nabongo#Wash Day Diaries#Jamila Rowser#Robyn Smith#DuoLingo#5th grade teacher
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Another random comic diary. I have a really tiresome job I should be doing(commission comic about washing machines. really. x_x) so I am drawing a lot of other things to avoid working on it :3
#diary comic#train#I have no money from diary comic but drawing those...#feels so much better :D#I would leave washing machine comic to AI any day...#...but I would not have any reall income this month#like I am trying to draw take those commissions as challenge#but this on is too much#comic
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Graphic novel
Slice-of-life story following four friends living in the Bronx through five interconnected short comics
Black main characters, including a sapphic main character and a main character with depression
#the art in this is GORGEOUS#probably one of the prettiest looking graphic novels i've read in a while#i do feel like davene's short comic felt unfinished in a kind of unsatisfying way but otherwise a great read#wash day diaries#jamila rowser#robyn smith#2023 reads#lulu speaks#lulu reads#books#lulu reads wash day diaries
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Jamila Rowser, Robyn Smith, Alex Segura win L.A. Times Book Prizes
Rowser and Smith’s ‘Wash Day Diaries’ wins in the graphic novel category, while Segura’s novel about the 1970s comics industry wins in the mystery category.
#jamila rowser#robyn smith#alex segura#secret identity#wash day diaries#comics#comic books#graphic novels#novels#l.a. times book prize
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i love when people point out the 'family is hell' theme in spn and then go like 'do not romanticise this!!! this post is not for you' as if spn itself didn’t end up with the family is hell brothers being soulmates happily meeting up in heaven after 15 seasons of dark romance tropes thrown upon them.
no one romanticizes 'family is hell' more than supernatural itself.
#not even starting on how they washed john of his sins as well#im watching the vampire diaries s7/8 rn and i kinda forgot how dark and twisted the cw's idea of love is#this wasn’t only a spn thing it was the same romanticized dark tropes in all these series every day of the week#and it treated sam and dean the same way as it did delena. you would get the same tropes whether it was abt family or lovers or whatever#and never not once did they say: this is wrong irl and you should be disgusted :/#it was always presented as romantic#and why wouldn’t it be#it was the age of twilight and 50 shades romance and the morality police of today were still in pre school#no one except for extremely religious conservatives held this up to real life values bc it was just a tv show meant to entertain
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Melotober - Day 16 - Explore
It's... fascinating, to see everything from a layman perspective.
#Melotober#* Mt.Gigant music intensifies *#Rune Factory#RF#Rune Factory Lynette#RF Lynette#Nice day up in the mountains to take some scouting notes and eat lunch. With no pressure#'Margot did you have to draw that much detail in Mt.Gigant when you were just gonna wash it out--' Yes. I did. It's my favorite#Woman probably keeps the leather journal business going all on her own#star charts and observations and musings. No diary but the nature journal is probably close to seeing inside her head#with some sketches a la Arthur Morgan#but more scribbly and less polished like John's epilogue notes HEHE#I almost talked myself out of this yesterday because 3 sitting/kneeling poses in a row... but... who cares#also return of Thorn the Unico enjoying HIS best life in retirement#Margot's RF Art
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I LOVEE when my hair smells good🥺🥺😩✊🏽💗💖🎀💟 and feels refreshed!!💟🎀💗💖💜🙈😆😊

#self care sunday#self love sunday#my natural hair is actually pretty🥺#new hairstyle in the makinggg#hair wash day#curly hair#hair washing#girlblog ♡#confession#babygirl things#dollie#girlcore#girlhood#sfw blog#girlblogging#pinkcore#kawaiicore#cutecore#cute blog#cutie pie#minty fresh#teehee 🤭#dear diary ♡#girl diary#mine
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This post is just me venting I need to put my angry energy into something that isn't my brain
Today was a bad day for my bullshit tolerance to be low, because as I shut the door (gently) when I was taking out the trash, one of the mounted shelves on the same wall as the door fell down.
Then when I went to find better nails to hold it up, we didn't have the short ones I thought we did, so I used some slightly longer ones. As I'm nailing those into place, the mounted shelf above the one that fell falls too. And then the nails that I was using ended up being too long.
So I figure that I'll go to Walmart on my way to the gym. I go and get the right nails, go to the gym, get home, and start running a shower. No hot water.
I take the coldest shower of my life, because I can't not shower after being at the gym for an hour, then go to my breaker to see if I can reset the water heater that way. Whichever breaker goes to the water heater is unlabeled. Fuck you landlord. I start googling to see if it's safe to open (?) my water heater with the breaker still on. Google is giving me shitty irrelevant answers.
I go to the water heater anyway, to see if the pilot light is at least on. The heater is in my storm shelter basement thing outside. That's flooded. Not much water but enough that I'm not going to go into it without water-tight shoes. My boots that used to be water-tight have a massive hole in the right one.
My cats are screaming at me for food even though it's not dinner time yet and if I feed them now they'll be screaming for food when I go to bed. Fuck you daylight savings time for ending I hope my state makes it daylight savings time year round.
My academic advisor isn't emailing me back about important shit that I NEED DO TO
I'm overstimulated and probably gonna go to sleep at *checks clock* 8:49 pm. Good night everybody
#G's diary#the last five hours have been a fuckign doozy#all that after a whole work day too#also I think I put my portable pill container thing through the washing machine so that's fucking fun
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haul time
#k18 from few days ago (my mom tried it on yesterday and guys it’s not a drill it’s so good) (she put#it as olaplex 3 before wash as per ana’s instructions i can’t wait to go back from the beach and wash my hair)#second bag is my sisters well shared custody but she’s going to italy and taking it ofc#but i think the earrings are so cute i love them statement babiesss#and my second hand suede leather clutch she won 😁 yay#and now i am like ew i am not buying anything in my life ever.#diary
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aouuugh my uterus......
#long long day at work codeine wasnt helping with cramps and my meds are less effective on my period :(#ive been doing okay most of the day tho just starting feeling kind of miserable omw home bc such a long wait at the bus stop in pain#and im kind of lonely at the moment but wont be able to climb tomorrow bc of cramps so thats my main social source gone :(#and it always feels worse at home bc if im having a hard time like in physical pain or feeling down my roommate cant rly handle it#like she cant rly be in the room with me the headphones go straight on. which is ok im realising its just how her type of autism works#so im trying not to get as upset at her abt it. with varying degrees of success but it just takes time#i mean i dont get upset AT her like ik its not her fault and i dont want her feeling like it is. I keep it internal + cry once im alone#just different social needs n boundaries innit. we're a bit incompatible is all#but its still hard. I'd like support from other ppl when I'm struggling i mean i think thats a fairly normal thing to want#but of the friends I would be comfortable talking to abt how i feel none of them have that kind of emotional availability#which again is ok like its not on them. and im very capable of dealing w my shit myself one way or another so its not a Need#but idk. it would just be nice. I feel like I've had to be so independent most of my teenage and adult life and I wish I could take a#break from that sometimes. even just a hug would be nice man#sorry i always come on here and talk abt the same problems... well youll see me do it again no doubt abt that 🫠#ughh and i feel so guilty for wanting things ppl cant give even though i know its not really my fault either and im allowed to want things#and i dont cross boundaries or make them feel bad abt it. i really hope i dont anyway. but still ahhh...#its so hard for me to feel connected to anyone if they cant rly engage w me emotionally at all like its a non negotiable#factor into closeness and trust for me and i get so frustrated bc i feel so distant and alienated from the ppl i care abt most#and ik i overreact bc of my rsd so maybe its just that its probably not even a real issue. but its real to me bc im the one who gets upset#man. anyway its okay just a really really long day. im gonna wash my dishes and then shower#and finish my book. maybe i should play some dead cells i miss it. i dont really want to think abt how i feel anymore#maybe ill see if anyones free to hang out tmr evening so i dont have to feel as lonely even if i cant leave the house after work#all good nice to have a plan anyway. done sniffling. my hot water bottle is helping thr cramps a littlr i think#.diaries#oh i dont think its helping actually ow. i took more codeine an hour ago why doesnt it do anything. not fairrr 😭
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me slicking my greasy hair back into a low pony hashtag clean girl aesthetic
#i washed it two days ago i swear to godddd 🤬#anyway i did also wash my face which always makes me feel like a hashtag clean girl but i also had to put a patch on a nasty zit#it's a lil star patch tho yayyg#diary
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i want him to love me like napoléon loved joséphine <3
#i just watched the movie with my dad lol don't mind me#her name was the last thing he said before he died <3#“ill be home in three days dont wash”#diary
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i have had the most beautiful day today 😌
#woke up at reasonable time day is bright sunnt beautiful and warm (rare) i wash my hair and blast music (immediate ego boost) i dress up#in fav fit do some makeup accesorise get my ass to campus bc whats the point of looking good if i don't see ppl ik AND WHO DO I SEE#but the girl i made out with at a party the other week and have been thinking about!! i was sadly sitting inside the hot stuffy full study#room bc all the outside tables wers taken & whaat did she do but appear after 5 minutes and invite me to sit at her table outside with her?#and whooo is now coming to my bday party in a couple weeks? and there was a puppy outside there the whole day i played with so much blessss#i miss having dogs. and i watched 3 and a half lectures which is the first time ive actually done schoolwork in ages lmao. & then i called#my long distance childhood bestie who's moving in w me in 3 weeks for then bumped into my other good friend at the supermarket#THEN my bestie whose also moving in next year told me her frjend would sell me some weed which is GREAT bc my plug fell of the face of the#earth 2 weeks ago :( so i got blazed w my OTHER bestie and played a literal perfect game of mario kart. win after win baby. bowser forever#jay rambles#drugs tw#i love using tumblr as a diary
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