#was originally gonna just have siffrin and loop on it but then

[meamiiikiii]

happy siffrin day / loop plush drop day / loop day!!! :D

[moonstandardtime]

i want to put link in isat. im sure hed do fine. the heros spirit endures

[basilpaste]

post-game loop!!

for... me, mostly, i think. do they look enough like themself? or even sif really? im not sure. but i like them well enough that im not too worried about it.

(design notes and an alt under the cut!)

okay. so. first off? they were originally gonna have a mouth. but i just... couldnt. i couldnt reckon with it. so they get no mouth. sorry, loop.

while they dont have a scar on their eye anymore, they have... something? there are 'freckles' that radiate out from their eye. unlike the rest of their person, these dark spots dont seem to radiate light.

the hat theyre wearing is sifs! this worlds sifs. siffrin doesnt need it anymore, after all. and theirs is... long gone.

speaking of the hat: its adorned with orchids. orchids are funeral flowers. they represent everlasting love and sympathy for the deceased. their friends no longer exist. they cannot, not in the way they once did. its a way to hold on to those people, but to let them go, too. the only way through is forward now, after all.

the core of their design was asymmetry. siffrin is actually very symmetrical as far as his design goes, so i wanted loop to throw all caution to the wind. a long white glove paired with a short black one, a cloak that drapes over one side, hair not sticking to an even length.

theyre actually wearing white tights. not that you can really tell unless you colour pick and see the very mild difference between their skin tone and the white of their clothes.

wears platform boots almost exclusively to be taller than sif. lmao.

[iknowicanbutwhy]

by the time one of these sifs FINALLY manages to break the loops these guys are gonna be so exhausted they won't even have the energy to be mad. maybe they'll just form a suicide pact and kill themselves together instead of beating sif up about it idk

Au contraire they start a fighting arena amongst themselves except all of them have been sitting around for so long they're all really bad at it. And when they realize this - having hung around each other for so long they've formed SOME kind of connection - they all collectively decide to chase Sif around Dormont and then it's a game of Manhunt.

...Okay but if i were to take this seriously, it was already really sad to see just one Loop disappear, but a whole lot of them? Suddenly this silly gaggle (nebula? constellation? murder) of stars that kept you company because they wouldn't shut up sometimes and were all too quiet other times disappears entirely? Leaving you all alone to brave the new future?

I love Loop so much because they didn't just feel like another, worse Siffrin. They felt like their own person, worthy of their own happy..ish ever after! It was so, so sad seeing them disappear. The thing about this silly AU is that all the Loops end up feeling like one singular entity in different bodies. And they'll probably stay like that, from the point of view I'm drawing. Because it's a funny AU and I'm drawing it for the funnies.

But to each other, they... Well? They actually feel the same way. Like copies. Like failed copies. Like the same person. Like it's easy to mistake each other and difficult to differentiate each other, even from themselves. Makes it easier to be mean to each other. I'm telling you, even the original Loop isn't entirely sure anymore if they're the original, and it hurts them the most. Pretending to be different people is a massive relief to all of them, because now they feel like individuals (even if they still feel like worse versions of another person). Little Loop is lucky to have always had a physically distinguishing figure, it really changes their perspective and everyone else's perspective on them.

So it's really easy to think they'd just kill each other, these other failed copies, or have gotten so used to the feeling of being "the failed ones" that they simply give up, but you know what I think? I think that, once you take an outside look at yourself and start treating yourself as a fellow human, you can be surprisingly empathetic. Towards yourself, I know! And they have the chance to start doing that.

When I write a story, it's like I'm letting little pieces of myself interact in ways that I can remain both distant from and very connected to. I feel like, when the Loops start playing these characters (these people, but they're ignoring that) they love, being silly and disconnecting from their own grief for a bit, they can have fun together. Like writing a story and smiling to yourself. Like laughing at your own thoughts.

I think maybe they'd get to have a talk, eventually. About how they want this story to end. About how they hope it's not already the end for them, that the worlds or timelines or whatever they came from aren't dead and gone.

Maybe... maybe they'd be really scared. But they wouldn't be "Loop who failed and Siffrin who succeeded," divided firmly by that line. Isolated by that line. I don't know what they would be? But it might feel less. lonely. to know that this Siffrin could just as easily been one of them. And was, many times. The physical evidence is right there, fading away one by one. And for the ones that remain for now, wouldn't you hope they're going home?

[openphrase123]

i just finished this fic! it's good!

and because it's all done i want to like... be a LITTLE self indulgent and talk under the cut about some miscellaneous things that i ran into while writing it. don't click the readmore if you're interested in the fic and haven't read it yet i'm about to spoil the Whole thing.

also there is an epilogue to this fic now - go read that before this post if you're getting to this before the update!!

so!! i haven't written fanfiction in like FIVE YEARS. it's been a while! part of that is because i was doing original stuff and part of it was i was in a creative slump. so isat kind of dug me out of that and i owe it my thanks. i've been able to do a crazy amount of original work since starting this fic, it's brought back my creative discipline. in like seven years when my video game comes out you can thank isat for that probably

i originally set out thinking this was the only fic for isat i was going to write. and then as i was writing this i fell deeper into it. i kind of got out of isat a little disappointed in how it ended?? but now that i'm here i'm like ah it's fine. just cause i would have done something different in dev's position doesn't mean it's bad. it does mean i can write a bunch of fanfiction exploring things i wish had been tackled more in the game though LOL

i said this in one of the chapter authors notes but i DID start out curtain call hating loop with every fiber of my being. (as in i liked them as a character UNTIL the act 6 reveal which i thought was lame) and then i played through the game a second time knowing the loop twist and went "oh nvm this makes sense" so a lot of the loop stuff in this fic was actually written twice. originally i was just gonna have them soulmerge with siffrin and not be present at all but then i was like. no. i do want to keep this lighthearted and that's too depressing of an end for loop. i do have a loop postcanon doc so i'll go repay them for their slapdashed involvement in curtain call someday

i'm in a weird position with curtain call in that i wrote the themes and major conflicts Directly After playing through isat the first time. before i could really marinate and analyze the characters fully. so there are a lot of scenes and points where i think i wouldn't characterize certain people like that if i were to rewrite this from scratch? however i don't disagree with what i've written either - it's just an interpretation that i don't necessarily think is my favorite anymore.

neither is any of the worldbuilding i did for any of this - it works for curtain call and i think it was nice but i don't necessarily think it's my current interpretation of what the culture and people were like? i like the wishes being permanent thing, i like the language stuff, but i'd probably go in a different direction if i went through this again

i do actually still think "the forgotten island was destroyed by a volcano" is my solid headcanon explanation of what happened to it. in my heart. i think like - with siffrin as a character especially it's very important that he's always missing something, that it's not idyllically happy for them at the end of everything. so even if he can remember more from their own past, it's - you know - there's no way to go back. only forward.

in the vein of this i probably could have killed siffrin/loop's entire childhood family but i did not. mostly because i did think it was fun for him to have to explain all of those cultural taboos they broke to survive. which, of course, was not a big deal - any good parent would rather their kid be alive than lawful - but what is isat other than a vehicle to make siffrin work through every moral compulsion and spiral they experience

i had a thought halfway through writing the fic that i was stepping on the very good and beautiful odile friendquest by making the island real and having a lot of siffrin's personality dictate how it went. but i ultimately decided on keeping siffrin very close to their country, more than odile is to vaugarde, because siffrin actually DID live on the island when he was a kid and that i think is a Different type of "longing for your country" trauma than odile's. i think they can still drink over the feelings together though

writing bonnie is very fun but very emotional for me. the bonnie&siffrin age gap (preteen to late-20s) is the exact age gap between me and my niece so every time i need to sit down and write something for them i think about her and how much she's a little baby growing up. this has nothing to do with bonnie it just makes writing bonnie really hard for me

if the entire history of my ao3 account was not an indicator, i'm a very big fan of writing romance, but i did not want it to take over curtain call at all. i also could have left out sloopis entirely and almost did, but thought "you know. with the way loop functions in this fic. i should at least let that be open ended" cause sharing a body with a version of you who is dating some other guy is gonna get messy no matter what. it's just not necessarily something i had time to or the urge to explore here. think of it as a fun spiritual nod to the fact that isafrin is technically open ended in isat (<- cop out answer)

i think i'm pretty vocal in how much i am absolutely insane for the flashback "happiest i can remember being" conversation. who let them do that. i think a lot of how i worked with mirabelle and siffrin's relationship in this fic kind of revolved around that. important to me that it ends with mira checking in on him and getting the answer she was looking for all along <3

overall i'm happy with curtain call. glad i am done with it though. there's so much that's running in with it at once. i'll probably wait a month and reread the whole thing to myself front to back before i start having fond memories of this. i mean it's always gonna be the fic my nephew was born during and i'll always remember having a panic attack in the airport right after posting chapter 7 but it's gonna be weird letting this one sail off into the ocean of the internet. however feel free to ask anything about the fic, i wrote this in a lil hurry on a bad day and probably didn't cover everything

goodbye, curtain call!! i love you!!!!! i'll miss you!!!!

[looks both ways, waiting for most people to leave]

also. if you've read this far. i hope it's not too gauche of me to link my personal project. if you've read over 100k words of this you might enjoy the game i'm developing? i've been working on it for almost a year but i just started the devlog last month. it's still in early baby stages as far as a full video game goes but if you liked this you'll like the game when it comes out (similar nickname culture, timeloop trauma, petty interpersonal drama, very stupid jokes, natural disaster angst)

also there isn't a lot on the devblog yet, i've mostly been doing programming on it, i JUST started visdev i'm sorry if it's uglyyyyy (FOR NOW)

anyway i'm trusting you with that link. i'm going to use my professional name on that project when it airs don't cross the wires pretty please just pretend that's a butch-y cis woman's game <3 guard the closet door babeyyyyy

[smokin-salmon]

Got some drawings/doodles that have been lying around for several months.

I want to ramble about these for a moment, so if you don't care this is your chance to leave.

These are in chronological order.

1: This was the first time I drew the isat characters. It's pretty clear that I was struggling with how I wanted to draw them. Heck, I'm still doing that today, it's just more apparent with these older ones. It also didn't help that I was still very new to digital art at the time.

2: This was planned to be a joke piece. Have really detailed drawings of Mirabelle, Bonnie and Odile touching Siffrin in different ways, then have him and Isabeau making out sloppy style in a crudely drawn fashion. I never finished it, but I do have that Isafrin drawing on my Tumblr. It's even my banner.

3: Very quick designs of Siffrins' parents for a comic I'm never gonna finish. They weren't meant to be anything complicated, I just needed something basic for the comic. I do headcanon that most residents of the forgotten country wear clothes that drape around their bodies in some way. It's the reason Siffrin was given a cloak. I kept that in mind when designing their clothes.

4: Various Loop and Siffrin doodles. Nothing more. I will say, as funny as the headcanon is, I will not indulge in the Stussy. The star is solid to me.

5: Original sketch of Triumvirate for Big Big Run. I went with something different in the end, so this sketch has been stuck in limbo for a few months.

6: Chronologically speaking, this page is all over the place. It's just meant to be a place to doodle when I don't want to do anything complicated that night. As for the censor, it's just an OC that I don't want to publicize for the time being. I'm already iffy about posting original work of any kind without a watermark, but I'm especially nervous about posting OCs. Especially, especially if that OC is part of something bigger that I want to work on eventually.

7: Despite everything I just said, I am willing to post a little about my Splatoon OCs. I'm considering making a web comic about them. Maybe.

8: Just some dragon. It's a mindless doodle made to relieve stress that I ended up being proud of.

Hey, thanks for reading all the way through. It's not often that I get the courage to ramble about stuff like this. So it means a lot if you stuck around to read it all.

[dropespeon]

the thing about making an isat orv au. is that like obviously siffrin as yjh is the obvious choice. they're both stuck in the time loop and have to learn to ignore the urge to redo things when something goes wrong. siffrin can't remember his past, and yjh didn't exist before the scenarios; their lives both kind of just. started at a certain point. they will both put themselves through the same horrid events over and over again just for the people they care about, just for one chance to meet them again (yjh) or stay with them (siffrin). secretive plotter and loop are Right There

the problem with making an isat orv au is that literally no one else is emotionally stunted enough to be kdj. no one other than siffrin has the right brand of mental illness. they would not do the shit kdj does. like... i can see!! parts of it working!! mirabelle canonically finds catharsis in fiction and her imposter syndrome would be devastating if her favorite messed up novel came to life. isabeau struggles with believing that, were he to show the parts of himself that he's hidden away, people wouldn't love him. etc etc. but they would not pull the shit kdj does. and i can't see any of them Needing the wos equivalent if that makes sense. they could live without it. siffrin could probably make do but like they had Nothing pre meeting the party. i am now going to explain in excruciating detail the (very loose) roles i gave to everyone in my own orv au

some small context first: this au takes place in the in stars and time setting. everything that happened in isat up to the island disappearing is exactly the same, with the only change being that certain characters were well. characters in a novel. it's more of an orv fusion than a proper au. also it really really doesn't follow the plot of orv that loyally. what does happen in it? well you see [i am carried away by government agents]

- siffrin: kim dokja. a good while after waking up on the shore ala canon, some things (not elaborating) happen and siffrin reads a novel about a housemaiden of change stuck in a time loop at the end of the world. they grow deeply attached to this novel, reading it again and again (re-experiencing the same things over and over again!! i sure hope that doesn't become relevant!!). and then that novel comes to life. and siffrin is the only one who knows the ending to this story.

i chose siffrin for this role because well. man where do i even start. the guilt, the self hatred, the dependence they have on their family vs kdj's on wos, their inability to accept that they could not be loved if people knew what they were really like. the martyr complex. but where does loop come into this? well you see [i am carried away by governme]

(orv fans can definitely guess who loop is but. well. let's just say things happen pretty differently)

- mirabelle: yoo joonghyuk. put that fella through the horrors!! mira is the protagonist of the novel siffrin loves. she was a normal housemaiden of change until uhh. the world ended, and she was forced to repeat the same events over and over again. it uh. fucks up her relationship with change a whole lot. what if, no matter how many things you changed, it didn't matter, because it would all just get reset anyways. what if you changed. what if you didn't want to.

mirabelle was!! actually the main reason i made this au? i find her relationship with the change belief deeply interesting and i just really wanted to delve into that in a very mean way. yjh's story contains a lot of themes of determinism and what it means to be a Protagonist, and i feel like mirabelle's does too. they're both really interesting explorations of tropes. and they're both just guys!

- isabeau: han sooyoung. i will not elaborate.

isabeau... yes i know this is a weird choice. odile would be the obvious choice for hsy and i was originally gonna go with her but i thought about it a lot and. i feel like isabeau's character has a lot to explore in the ways of Being Seen and Understood and him being a writer is an interesting angle to explore that from. i do not think he could doom the world for one person in the way hsy did. what is his motive? well [i am carried away b] i have a lot of other reasons i chose him but they would be pretty huge spoilers for my Evil Plans. also this is at least partially because i wanted an isamirasif qpr and also because i had other ideas for odile

everyone else does not directly take the role of orv characters (because this is not intended to be a 1 to 1 story and i like playing with my touys) buttt. i can still give a rundown on who they are:

- odile: I'd most closely compare her to a combination of yoo sangah and jung heewon. she understands siffrin better than anyone. her story is pretty similar to canon, just that she was also a fictional character. she will do horrible things to protect her family!

- bonnie: closest to lee gilyoung. little kid who is achingly similar to the protagonist. little kid who is so dependent on the protagonist but also gets hurt by their acts of sacrifice more than anyone. still figuring out if them and nille are novel characters or not

- claude: yeah she's here also. i needed more novel characters and i like her!! still figuring out the specifics but she was one of the main characters of the WOS equivalent

- euphrasie: heh. well lets just say. namgung minyoung

- nille: see bonnie. joins the party a lot later than everyone else

- the king: heh. well lets just sa[i am carried awa]

- change god: [i am carrie]

- loop: [i am c]

[isatswap]

i realised that i havent made an explanation post for the au so

Introduction

The basic premise is swapping main characters with eachother:

Siffrin < - > Loop

Mirabelle < - > Isabeau

Odile < - > Bonnie

(spoilers for the game begin under the cut. All the spoilers are of various severity so ill just say full game and act 6 secret)

The King < - > Euphrasie

The characters stories and motivations are also changed

Loop: Their story is very close to the original Siffrin, except for one thing - they are a star person! One of a kind (at least as far as Loop knows)! This fact is very distressing for them, so they chose to hide their identity from everyone. No one needs to know they are not human, teehee~.

Mirabelle: A Housemaiden of the Dormont House of Change. Well, at least formally. She went on a long pilgrimage after realising that she doesn't want to change and can't live as a true Housemaiden anymore. Also is much less anxious than her original counterpart.

Isabeau: Like in the original, wanted to finally change into a person he always wanted to be, but alas, his journey of Change was interrupted by Euphrasie's conquest of Vaugarde and had to be replaced with the journey of a savior. Because of this, he is much more shy and anxious than his original counterpart.

Odile: Not very long after her mother abandoned her, Odile's father died. Being unable to deal with her grief of losing both of her parents, she went on an everlasting journey, wandering through Vaugarde, trying to find a place she could call home. And all that as a young teenager. Also carries around a comically large book, I wonder what that is about....

Bonnie: A crabbing adult now! And a chef cooker! Had to abandon their home during the Curse, leaving their younger sister Nille behind. As the adult™ of the group, feels like they need to be very responsible and caring for their comrades, but also tries to be jovial about the situation, because who else would it be if not Bonnie!

Siffrin: Imagine having your family, your world, your story stolen from you. What does that mean? I dunno, read the posts and you might see :). Is almost constantly livid at Loop, though tries to not show it much.

The King and Euphrasie: The King (now just called King because its his name) is the Head Housemaiden and Euphrasie now wants to freeze the country in time. Thats all im gonna tell here. For now at least.

Navigation

Links to all the posts, in chronological order if possible

Not in-game stuff

S!Loop's design thing

Prologue

Be careful what you wish for

Unspecified time period

Lil Siffrin POV

Lil Siffrin POV 2

Act 2

Funny titbit

Act 2 ends here

Act 3

That one sadness again... (Memory of Sadnesses)

Odile's friend quest!

Bonnie's friend quest!

Isabeau's friend quest!

Mirabelle's friend quest!

Siffrin hangout

Scary Lady's "friend" quest.

Hehe just try to say it!

Seeing things.

Sharp objects involved

Act 3 ends here

Act 4

Bonnie is in fact perceptive (sus quest)

Bad touch but no one touched anyone

On the other side

Act 4 ends here

Act 5

The Universe leads.

Eavesdropping on your "friends"

It's the bathroom

Loop dies...

Loop doesn't die

Act 6

When the hats are two!

Something wrong. (0 hats)

[starkittnd93]

Hello hello, welcome! :D

You can call me Star! (she/he) I draw a lot of fanart here, as well as some occasional short animations! Doodle requests are also welcome! (But I can't guarantee I'll be able to get to every single one--)

The fandoms I usually draw for are:

Octopath Traveler

Octopath Traveler 2

In Stars And Time

Genshin Impact (very rarely though- like extremely rare I only drew like one thing)

yeah it's mostly octopath 2 here lmao

Ships I like to draw are:

Temehika - Temenos/Hikari

Partikari - Partitio/Hikari

Castthroné - Castti/Throné

Alfion - Alfyn/Therion

Isafrin - Isabeau/Siffrin

(Uhh this section is gonna update as I draw more lol)

And here are my art tags!

Starkitt Draws - Art tag

Starkitt Doodles - Doodle tag, along with some short funny skits

Starkitt Animates - Animation tag! :D

Work In Progress! - WIPs for longer projects, if you’re curious c:

misc:

That Looping Hikari AU

Playing p5

Starkitt Does Something Else - (for anything I create that isn’t a drawing/animation)

Finally, @endieninethree is my more organized art account! That's where I'll reblog just my finished art and animations, along with some non-fandom original art! (There's nothing there rn tho it's under construction-)

I don't do commissions yet, but that IS a thing that I'm working on setting up! (I'll open them up eventually… am trying my best :,D)

(Also sorry if I don’t immediately answer an ask- It’s probably not you, I just do not always have the spoons to respond :’D)

[blu-screen]

3. Are there any particular aus or plots that you’d really like to write?

((oops! missed this one originally.

Welp, it's a bit of an open secret I'd love to write my error!sans more but there's that whole little difficulty of him destroying other folks timelines and ya know... I'm not here to wreck peoples fun so.

Same problem with my oc Anarchy actually, very murder, much oh gosh I don't actually want to end someones character. >_<

Then there's startime which.. I have my own AU i want to work on but it's super spoilers. Post game/secret ending type spoilers. Also grim because I'm awful, obviously. :)

SO YEAH. I'm planning on writing a Loop who actually went through with it, killed Siffrin and took over in their place. They'll even get their own form back to make it easier, isn't that great?

Obviously this is.. Gonna lead to some suss as hell shenanigans and the only reason I waited was wanting to establish another, 'good' siff and loop to give people a bit of context. Both so muses can spot whats wrong and just.. To generally drive the point home.

That's coming. I have tentative plans to fanfic/drabble out the actual Initiating Event but that'll. Ya know. Major character death and blah blah so we'll see.

Hi remember how I made a post-geno run true pacifist survivor sans back in the day? Yeah. I didn't stop being an absolute bastard in the meantime. ^_^ ))