#was just shocked by a really awful post reblogged by someone I was mutuals with for years so 😬

[robotwrangler]

I don’t usually make posts about politics or current events because that’s just not what I come here for, but - and I really didn’t think I would have to say this - please unfollow and/or block me if you support Israel’s crimes against Palestine. I don’t care if we’re longtime mutuals, I don’t want anything to do with you. I also have zero interest in debating this topic with anyone so if I get a single shitty ask as a result of making this post I am deleting it without replying.

[cleverclove]

Dear Bela,

I’ve been taking a hard look at myself and the way I’ve been acting lately. This is not to demand forgiveness, but rather to express how ashamed and awful I feel about what I’ve said.

The saying, “The road to hell is paved with good intentions” is very true. Regardless of how well I meant, my actions still caused harm, and I feel awful about that. What I did was insensitive, self centered, hurtful, inexcusable, and there’s nothing more to say about it.

I never want this to happen again, so I have come up with ways to fix myself, and from now on, I promise to do the following:

• Think before I speak, especially when what I say could hurt someone’s feelings (and when in doubt, I won’t say anything).

• Not comment on serious discussions about POC unless specifically asked.

• Listen when people criticize me, and to immediately apologize and do better. No excuses, no exceptions.

• Be more sensitive, thoughtful and compassionate in the way I treat other people, both online and off, and both in my works and in reality.

• Recognize that some of my intentions, however kind or helpful I may think them to be, can actually harm other people, and to think deeper about what I am actually doing, so that I don’t hurt others.

• Do deeper, more nuanced thinking and research about how some of my words and behaviors could be seen as white guilt, white saviorism, etc. and actively work to avoid said mentalities.

If there’s anything else I can do to become a better person, ally and friend, please let me know and I’ll do it. If you’re not ready to forgive me yet, I completely understand. Thanks for giving me your time, and I’m once again, incredibly sorry for how I acted.

Your friend,

Tal

You know what, Tal? I’ve been trying to be kind and calm about this because you’re my friend, heck! My first tumblr friend on here. And honestly? That’s what makes it hurt. So let me say what I have to say here. Do with it what you will.

You just love putting yourself in the spotlight because “oh look at me I’m all for diversity” when really? You just want more attention placed on yourself and your OCs because you think that alone makes you a good person. (Spoiler alert! It doesn’t.)

This isn’t even the only time you’ve done this! Every single time you’ve had to apologize for something you go back to the way you were. And don’t even try to deny that because @snarvs can verify that for me. Sure you act like you’re going to change for a while but that’s a performance, just a way to restore image. Don’t think I don’t see you reblogging post after post about white guilt and saviorism just so you can give yourself the ease of reblogging posts, as if that makes up for anything.

Your OCs are a big part of your blog and I’m happy for you! I’m happy that you’re privileged enough to think that your OCs, LGBTQ+ or POC, are somehow indicative of how good of a person you are. You even take posts that weren’t meant for you and twist it to be about yourself and your OCs.

Then, when ACTUAL POC call you out on it (again! Francis can back me up on this), you turn around and victimize yourself. “The road to hell is paved with good intentions” yeah you know what hun? Intentions don’t matter when your actions are the one that caused harm.

And that! That’s saying nothing of our DMs. It’s just asking and asking for advice on how to fix this. I won’t share them out of respect for your privacy but those just felt like excuses for yourself. That was the final straw for me. “Culture shock” yeah whatever Tal. You’ve been on tumblr for a year, and even then? It’s not that difficult to respect us as people and not just your dumb OC material.

So you know what, Tal? I’m done making excuses for you. I’ve justified it, I’ve defended you against our other mutuals, I’ve made myself think i was delusional. But no. I’m sorry if this comes off as heated. It’s not. At the end of the day, I don’t know who you really are so I’m not here to make a judge on your character. Just,,, please. Respect the block, move on. Whether I unblock you is my choice.

Thanks 💕 Bela

[rpbetter]

Raven used to be my friend but I had to cut ties recently due to feeling like walking on eggshells everytime we spoke and they never apologized to me for when I brought up something that they did upset me. I really miss them but I don't want to deal with the if it's not about me I don't care attitude.

Pt 2 of Ravens old friend. They reblogged anti fandom posts on their resource blog and I happened to be in that fandom and it hurt. A resource blog shouldn't be doing that.

Hey, Anon! I wanted to post this before I released one of my drafts, as that draft happens to be something I do not want you to misconstrue being about you. Thought about it after the fact and honestly, felt a bit ill over potentially making you think any such thing! The post is about how pushy people can be about what they like (usually as regards fandom) that you don't, and how that can be a contributing factor toward people saying hateful things about fandom topics. It was the quickest of the finished drafts sitting around to edit, so it was being queued, that's all! I do not think you were being pushy about your likes to "deserve" this, and frankly, even if you had? One's meme/resource/help blog is not the venue for shitting on your friends.

Okay, just wanted to clarify, everyone is stressed and feeling judged enough, I don't want to inadvertently contribute to that with any drafted posts!

I'm really sorry this happened, Anon. I don't mean that in a passing, flippant way that looks good on my blog. Not that I mean anything that way lol but I frequently have had "friends" in the past who felt like it was totally fine to reblog, even make original posts, like what you're talking about. Anti-fandom, anti my part of the fandom, my muses, my takes, and so on. Really hurtful things when we'd spoken in DMs about how upsetting it was, then they go and throw full support behind it in front of me.

It would be irritating with a grain of betrayal if it was a friend of a shorter time, or a mutual one doesn't really interact with OOC, but with a closer or longtime friend, it's actively hurtful. It feels like they looked you right in the face, said they do not give a single shit about either what is important to you or sparing your feelings, and went on. Yeah, it's just fiction, but the way we treat each other over fiction is real.

Given the behaviors displayed openly, it's not a shock you received no apology. Whether you got an apology or not, though, good on you for trying to bring it up to them! It's hard to do that with friends, even ones you're more certain won't blow up at you for it. I think if we could all be a little more (calmly, nicely, reasonably) open with each other like this, we could avoid problems that result from things festering and piling up, but it's hard to take that step...and I'm sorry this was your reward for it.

Just as blogs that are not one's RP or personal blogs shouldn't be openly judging and hating fandoms like that, friends shouldn't leave you feeling like you're walking on eggshells.

And, I'm going to say something unpopular here - sometimes, we all are capable of doing that to people we care about. Bad moments in lives combine, there are misunderstandings, sensitive topics, and things we can't entirely control otherwise. I don't like this idea tumblr has that anything other than a perfect, sweet, forever-cheery relationship is the actual height of abuse, so I want to be clear on that because it's just trivializing and blinding people to the possibility of toxic and abusive interactions. When you think "toxic" means "they don't like x, I love x, we don't talk about it," you're not aware of legitimate signs like being too worried to be yourself around them.

It's when this is the typical, established behavior that it's a problem. It's when there's never any meaningful acknowledgment, apology, or attempt at changing that it's a problem. If you constantly feel like you have to be worried about what a friend is going to say or do, it's not a friendship you need to be in, and I'm glad you recognized that and got out of it!

But there's also the idea that this is easy because it's the right and logical choice. It is not, and it's often made even harder because admitting to other friends that you miss the good times with the former one is all but impossible. They're often only reacting out of concern for you, the fear that if you miss this person they watched hurt you, you'll go back to that friendship, but it effectively shuts down a more healthy way of dealing with your feelings by sharing them with better friends who could support you.

So, Anon, it's also fully alright and normal to miss Raven! They were a longtime friend, and the thing about these kinds of friendships, these kinds of relationships in general, is that we seem to fail to realize that if things were straight awful from day one, we'd not have been friends. Of course, there are memories! Of course, you have the impulse to send them a link or that meme you know is their humor! It doesn't stop for a long time, either. That doesn't mean you're fucked up for it, it's something to be ashamed of, or that you're going to drop your better judgment and go send Raven a message immediately and rekindle that friendship. It's okay!

This right here: "I don't want to deal with the if it's not about me I don't care attitude." This is the place you should be in, and I congratulate you on being there because it takes a lot of shit heaped on someone by a friend to get there. Just keep remembering the good things you experienced with them, but always with this in mind, that their end of the friendship appears to have been predicated upon what they were getting out of it only.

Case in point, like everything they displayed to the whole damn RPC that encountered them these last few months, their personal interest and viewpoint was of greater importance to them with that anti-fandom post than a friend was.

I will say, it can be a delicate thing having this blog. I have opinions and takes that most of my friends share, what's important to me tends to run in the same lines as what is important to them, that's the basis of a lot of our friendship. We still disagree! We still have different interests, fandoms, favorite characters, songs, and experiences. Sometimes, I have to address a problem that they could misconstrue, in a totally normal and reasonable way, because while they're not doing whatever in a bad way, others are. I've made a point, more than once, to contact them and talk about it a little preemptively, and that's not just to keep up friendships, it also allows for extra insight from them and better phrasing from me so that other people I don't know won't take it the wrong way either.

Yes, I have some immutable, incredibly hard lines lol I think we all know what most of them are now, but expressing my purely personal opinion on something like fandom is not more important on this blog than anything else. I may genuinely feel like there is diseased connective tissue of disappointing behavior stemming from an origin point in a popular fandom, I'm not going to go off about it on this blog. It's inappropriate as hell, going to make people feel isolated and targeted whether they're my friends or not. Being passionately displeased about that does not have place here, and that's the kind of thing you have to consider, reconsider, force yourself to shut up about when you've got a blog that isn't for RP or a personal, you know?

I don't think everyone is cut out for doing that, and no one is cut out for doing it without ever making a mistake in judgment. Some people really should simply realize that there is nothing wrong with not being in the place in their lives or mental health to put that much effort into being fair or being quiet and concentrating only on memes. If you're one of those people, random reader? I'm serious, it's okay if you can't do it! It's not shameful, I'm also a deeply flawed human being, the quietest, politest, helpful meme blog out there is also run by a flawed human, they're just at a different place with themselves than you are. And. That's. Okay. Just don't hurt other people (and yourself, ultimately) by forcing it, please.

I suppose, knowing that it wasn't important enough to chill and reevaluate for the sake of a friend is some consolation lol what one won't do for friends definitely won't be done for random muns deemed problematic. So, maybe that'll make some other people out there feel a little better, and I thank you for sharing...as much as I wish you had nothing of this experience to share. I know it's an unpleasant one to have had, and I hope you have much better friends!

I promise you that I'll never post anything here that is viciously against any particular fandom or any such thing, and that if you feel like I've been unfair about anything at all, I welcome polite messages as a way of discussing it so we can all be clear and/or learn from each other. I know, I openly admit, it's kind of a draw of the blog, that I have a...um, tone of salt about things lol and sometimes, I don't phrase things the way they deserved. So, it's always okay to drop in for clarification or counterpoint, so long as it isn't being done with a shitty attitude that incites hostilities. Let's do have a legitimate conversation about it instead of hurt feelings!

Thanks again, Anon!

[rayonfrozenwings]

Hey mutuals, followers and p0rn bots, 

Its my blogs 3rd birthday! 

I’ve been lurking, posting, ranting in the SJM fandom on tumblr for three years and that’s kinda Crazy to me. 

So here are some fun Facts that kinda evolve into an appreciation post… and then an anecdotal history of this fandom I’ve been a part of. So thanks for hanging round and talking shit with me. :D

if ur tagged it’s just like a thanks or when I met you - lol you don’t have to read the whole thing... 

and the rest is under the cut.... 

I only liked posts for the First month, I never reblogged. It was my first time on tumblr.

I’ve had the same URL since the start

The first post I reblogged and commented on was @miladyaelin ‘s post about a Volcano in the Frozen Wastes - such a wasted opportunity for World destruction that was not used to full potential at all in KoA hahaha - maybe a spin off series? joke.

The first person to reply to one of my asks was abookandacoffee or @bookofmirth 3 months after I joined tumblr and that’s kinda scary because that means we have been speaking longer than we realised. 

@propshophannah​ thanks for letting me go nuts about theory with you!

The Big blogs in the SJM fandom change, and it's cool that being in the fandom for so long means that I get to talk with all these people and make some real friends.

I made read friends from reading books and talking about them - How Cool Is That!

I had fun making shit posts about Dorian’s couch, Rowan’s relationship status after EoS and seeing my friends come up with some pretty clever memes too. 

The Art is amazing, and actually getting to talk to artists about their art is something I didn't think would happen ever. So I’m so grateful to tumblr for that.

I want to tag a lot of people but - having been here so long means that urls change and I lose touch - plus I think I would go over the “50 tag limit” easily. 

The first kiwi blog who I talked to was @verifiefangirl and we bonded over the Old El Paso advert of “why not both”. 

I want to thank those who encouraged me to write my theories, and I did that for the first year on here. 

I want to say thank you to the people who told me “You know, you can write your theories as fic and people don't get as angry.” Because you were right! And so that started my writing of fan fic, and thank you to those people who wanted to be tagged and let me know what was up - sorry I haven’t written in a while. 

Thank You to @faenet and my Faenet Fam. I joined to share theories, switched it up to write fic, and then evolved into Edits. I was able to learn how discord works and be a part of a team and learn new photo editing skills - I knew nothing before I joined and it's so cool to have become a part of that community.

Thanks to my BookClub brotp - It’s been the best getting to know you all over the last year, discuss books and life. And just have fun. I honestly wouldn't have connected with you guys if we just relied on tumblr because it often requires me to say something first, and i'm not good at that. @theyretheirthere​ sorry I had to tag you twinnie. :P 

Some Fandom History for those who have been here a while ... (well for as long as I have been in the fandom, I know there was a time before this).

Phase One - POST EOS Theory and Beach Scene Debate, Elorcan exists now even tho People still HATE Lorcan (not me but lots of people did). ACOMAF love, nickname of Tam the tampon takes off. 

Phase Two - PRE ACOWAR, Moreil Hype, Fandom super excited, Acomaf love, Rhysand love.

Phase Three - ACOWAR IS AWFUL - Dumpsters on Fire, lots of fandom people left. The ones who stayed had discourse about Moriel, Mor’s sexuality, Nessian, the ending and how it was rushed, Azriel is a smol cinnamon roll who deserved better - lots of Az fics and the birth of Elriel started here. 

Phase Four - TOG FANDOM ARE MAD because Chaol’s novella turned into a Novel. Cyber bullying of Chaol lovers in fandom led to a lot of blogs leaving - just be kind to one another, you can talk about stuff without personal attacks.   

Phase Five - WE ARE ALL GOING STIR CRAZY, Someone released a TOD mock cover and there was a lot of ableist stuff going on. Bad time in fandom. 

Phase six - TOD Came out - Lots of people refused to read, other people felt vindicated about theories, other people were shocked about Maeve. Praise and Hate towards the book and for how SJM handled race and disability. Was she being sensitive or appropriating? Mixed Reviews, again fandom got a little smaller. Acotar Fandom was taking off in terms of fics. 

Phase Seven - Acotar Fandom PRE ACOFAS Fan Fic Mania. Most of us re-read acotar, acomaf, acowar and Fix-it fics, Nessian Fics, Feysand Fics, Lots of Fics. Lots of Art. I noticed the ACOTAR fandom kinda took off while the TOG one floundered.

Phase Eight - A New Novella for ACOTAR, ACOFAS - lots of hype. Lots of mixed reviews - “it had no plot” or “I love it” or “I don't like how the first pov changed depending on the character” or “Yay christmas!!!” or “boo wall scene” or “yay Wall scene!!” Again - more fics and art came from it. Snowball fight was a highlight, art was gorgeous, Amren as a snowball was also good. Fandom was flourishing again, yes we lost some people but we also had a resurgence in creative content.

Weird non-phase - Catwoman: Soul Stealer, was released but wasn't a “must read” for many people.

Phase Nine - Pre KoA, Fandom was Hyped! We were all doing our re-reads, theories came out again, discussions about favourite quotes of things we had forgotten were shared. Again - Some good ToG fic came out because people had it fresh in their minds again  - we were preparing. Edits were great, lots of Edits, Lots of Art. 

Phase Ten - KoA Came out and destroyed us. Fandom was relatively quiet while people abandoned tumblr to read it. Anti’s came out in force, they had more to say about it that the fans did. Fans didn't see this immediately because they weren't on tumblr. About a month after release, We got Meta and discourse on KoA and what it means and what Aelin’s story has meant to us personally. Edits started taking off again. This Phase is still ongoing even a year later. Personally I am in Awe of that book and what it managed to achieve, I wanted to re-read it straight away but it still has so many parts that HURT to read. 

New people slowly trickle into fandom, or pick up the books, its sweet, but as a veteran sometimes seeing the same arguments gets tiring and so I dont comment as much as I used to. I’m still here reading, but I don't really want to write another essay like the ones I've previously written to defend a point so i’m quiet. 

Where I think it will go next? 

Most of the people who remain in the fandom are good at looking at things with a critical eye but saying “I can still enjoy a book”, which I like. 

We will get hyped as a fandom for Crescent City which was pushed back to March 2020, even if we are unsure it’s what we want, I don't think we can help ourselves. 

ACOTAR 4 is in the works with no confirmed release date, just vague mention that it was being pushed back - twas supposed to be 2020 but I'm doubtful, especially if other titles are pushed back first like CC:HOEAB - it was by three months from Jan to March. 

WOTOG was also pushed back, first from release with EoS, then from release with ToD and now from release with KoA (those are all goodreads dates as I was waiting for it and keeping an eye out, but we also had novels added and other books like acofas - goodreads also isn't the best at staying on top of release dates)…. we have had mention of it that it will include art and is co-authored by Lynette Noni, so It is still being made at least - I mean I don't have to cry about it being cancelled just yet. And So I have to stay around for those. I became invested in the World building of TOG to not wait for WOTOG. 

So yeah, it’s been a wild 3 years. <3

[heartsmithed-moved]

Alright, well i’ve been meaning to get this up for awhile but!! it’s finally here!!!

So first off I just want to say MOM HOLY F*CK I didn’t think I would get this many followers?? I normally don’t pay that much attention to the follower count but considering my blogs barely ever get this high, let alone an OC blog, it’s really special to me. I’m constantly just in awe of how much people seem to like Atlas. I’m still reeling a bit tbh!!

Second, for the giveaway: I’ll be offering a sketch head/bust shot of your muse or a character of your choosing to two lucky followers! I would do more but I’ll be honest and say I don’t think I can handle it right now. Here’s an example of what I’m talking about (colors might or might not happen, we’ll see!). To enter the give away all you have to do is LIKE this post! Reblogs will not count! Mostly because I don’t want people to spam this post to their blogs. I’m only gonna reblog it occasionally myself.

Three, reblogs aren’t counting cause i want people to also be able to reblog this at their leisure because i’m gonna put a bit of a follow forever in here. These are mostly just gonna be mutuals that have had a huge impact on me - please don’t be offended if you’re not listed!  I’m sick and likely forgetting people but trust me when I say I love each and every one of you!

@dawntides\ @mythicheart \ @valiantear | Aurene!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!! Honestly you are one of the best friends I’ve made in the khrp community and in tumblr rpc stuff as a whole. Your writing and characterizations inspire me. You put up with my bullshit rambles over canon and original characters alike. You go along with stupid ideas and ships. You’re funny, so so kind, and I couldn’t ask for anyone better. Just, thanks.

@rxcusant \ @bemoremuse| SAMMIIIIIIIIII!!! You are still one of the reasons I loved the khrp community way back when. Even if it did go downhill and we both left for a hot sec, I was so happy when I saw you were still around! It’s like a dream come true to be talking to you as friends, and I hope that doesn’t sound creepy lol. I just always meant to approach you more when I was rping my kh max and data riku for the first time but I never did...I’m glad I finally got around to talking to you tho cause you’re still one of my biggest inspirations - both with writing and art- and now a really good friend!! ILU!!!

@verumking | FALLACY I WILL NEVER NOT BE FLOORED BY YOUR CREATIVENESS AND JUST-- EVERYTHING? gonna say that off the bat in all caps because it’s what you deserve. I have played characters with little to no lore before, but you blow anything I have done out of the water my dude. You’re so creative, so inspiring. And I know you’ve had your low points but after coming up with all of vaguely gestures THAT I don’t blame you. Just remember to take care of yourself and remember that ilu so much

@kcystotheheart | APPLEEEEE!! There’s a reason I call you the apple of my eye. You were one of my big motivations to move Atlas to his own mainblog. The fact that someone took such an interest in my oc was?? shocking???humbling?? idk what it was but you helped me unknowingly figure out a lot of stuff for atlas and I want to thank you for that. I know our thread count has gone down cause I have been a mess and can’t keep up but know that I still enjoy every interaction we have and you had a hand in my creative process so just - thanks a bunch.

@futsugyo | THYME!!! THYME THYME OH THYME OF MINE- coughs anyways. You have been a writing inspiration for me for A WHILE AND YOU KNOW THIS. I’m so happy we get to talk more and that I’ve drug you down into KH OC hell with me. Everything you’ve thought of for ventus and nova just shows me that I have so much more I could do and it really pushes me to do my best and!! I’m so happy to know you and write with you!!!

anddd this thing would go on FOREVER if i wrote a paragraph for literally everyone I know on here that has inspired me in some way honestly alskdfj just know if you’re on here, i likely have something to (nicely) say about you. maybe i’ll send out a bunch of positivity one day!! who knows!!! I’m sick and i’m losing steam so here’s the rest of my list

 @midnightpapllion / @keytosolidarity / @heartspliit / @keytosolitude / @toycrowns / @ursaced / @sextilleon / @serendimpetus / @martyrcrowned / @blazingtides / @dawnled / @hamadaxfighter / @galaxycrxss / @shibuyacrossed / @wayweaver / @enigmatias / @hyliancourage / @stvrslight / @illusionstm / @literariian / @ctherprcmise / @enlighth / @riftshot / guys i can’t tag every mutual pls know i love you all....

[friendlyneighborhoodborg]

Top Ten OP Posts of the Year!!!

(Courtesy of Jet Black Code)

1. Answer 21, Tag 21 (19 May 2019, 146 notes)

Technically does not deserve the honor.  @findmeinthevoid tagged me in this challenge, and I ended up breaking the post off.  So really, this should be hers.  (Except I think she also reblogged it from somewhere else)

2. Tony Awards 2019 BMC Gripe (30 April 2019, 92 notes)

I kinda regretted making this text post after the fact, but I stand by my point that Be More Chill should have been more overtly recognized by the Tony Committee besides the parody they did during the ceremony.

3. My Cursed AU Contribution to the ML Fandom (15 March 2019, 50 notes)

I’m genuinely proud people saw this.  It was honestly just a random thought that came into my head.  I mean, cut out enough of the murder-y bits of Phantom, keep the kids’ ages, and don’t ever ever bring “L*ve N*ver D*es” into it, and you got yourself a mix-and-match of all kinds of neat relationships.

4. My First (And Only) Original Icon (18 March 2019, 38 notes)

(I might have to alter it, The Spine no longer has his dorsal heatsink protrusions...)

But really, I’m shocked I was able to do this so quickly, and I’m really happy how it turned out.

5. Superhero Alix Concept (11 February 2019, 30 notes)

It was kinda messily-done, not well-thought-out, and Bunnyx kinda rendered it obsolete.  It was fun to work on, though, even if it did help me discover I have no eye for human proportions.  And I saw someone like it just a couple days ago, so the fact this is still being circulated is... something, I’m not sure what.  It was originally supposed to be in this AU I planned (not very well), but I don’t know if I’ll ever actually finish any of that.  Never know, though.

6. Autism Month, featuring Nathaniel (1 May 2019, 25 Notes)

Aw sweet, this made it on!  I had a lot of fun with this, and I will defend my Autistic!Nath headcanon to the end.  I once again have difficulty with human shapes (is that an autism problem?  who knows?), but I still ended up really liking the look of it.

7. The Arcana Project Masterpost (2 September 2019, 18 Notes)

Once again, I’m a cheater.  Literally all but one of the notes came from me reblogging and updating the links when @thebigpapilio and I updated the project.  But anyway, this was a fun project to do, if it was a bit hard to follow at times and I struggled with the deadlines.  It was great to throw caution to the wind for once and write up a storm of one-shots like that.

8. Marc Appreciation Week, Chapter 1 (13 January 2019, 16 Notes)

My first published fic.  And if I’m honest, the one I’m the most proud of, artistically.  It’s because of this I met the kind @findmeinthevoid and became mutuals with @kathisbeingdumb.  I was just a nervous fanboy, and to see the positive, affirming response something I wrote gave people... I still feel all fuzzy from it.

9. Marc Appreciation Week, Chapter 2 (14 January 2019, 15 Notes)

^^^

10. Julerose July 2k19, “First Kiss” (2 July 2019, 14 Notes)

I honestly planned to do more for that month, but I got sidetracked with other projects.  Anyway, I enjoyed working on it a lot, and doing a lot of sappy, flowy things with words (Yay, words!  Words is fun!)

BONUS: TFW you’re cleverer than Hawk Moth (29 December 2018, 19 Notes)

Since I joined late in November last year, I only have 8 original posts from 2018, and only two of them have notes.  One was my first post (liked by a bot), the other was this: I realized the ML Writers missed an opportunity for a pun.  Anyway, adding it onto here, since it was less than a year ago, and the note count would otherwise put it on the list.

[surrounded-by-superheroes]

Complete Masterlist

This is EVERYTHING I’ve posted my people. Description just under the links. Everything is x reader unless specifically said otherwise. Stars mean my personal favorites. :) Please enjoy and tell me you enjoy it! Comment, like, REBLOG!

Steve Rogers x Reader;

Queen Masterlist (Twenty-Four Parts) Steve Rogers x OC

“Your skill set is equal to the best that we have. You would be an invaluable part of the team." Fury explains, but he knows that isn't what I mean. We stare at each other for a moment before he sighs again. "Your history only makes you more of an impressive subject." He continues and I groan. "The point is that you would help put an end to what happened to you, on a global scale." He says. "Think about it, Shifter." Nick drops a folder on the concrete and starts to walk back to the exit of the roof.

I flip through the folder lazily, barely skimming the papers, but I know all of the names already. Once I've gone through most of it I stop and toss it in the dust behind me. Reading it was useless. I wasn't made to be any sort of hero.

Failed Movie Night (Oneshot)

You fall asleep on the couch after a full day with Steve Rogers. He helps you out and carries you to bed when you tell him it’s too cold to get out from under the blankets on the couch.

Good Old Days (Fluff) Oneshot

Steve has never been a fan of parties, so you come up with a little surprise for him. Turns out, he surprises you too.

Loki x Reader;

Blue Satin Masterlist (Seven Parts) 

     You've been assigned as Loki's handler and things have been going very well. Almost too well, actually...you find out that Loki has fallen for you and you have no clue how to respond. If those above you were to think anything romantic was going on, you both would be separated from one another forever. Plus, a jealous ex causes trouble whenever he can. Could you ever forget the rules and follow your heart? Or will you let your head lead and lose the chance of a lifetime?

The Poisonous Cure Masterlist (Seven Parts) Loki and Daughter

Loki runs into a young girl on his morning walk and is shocked to learn she’s more than just a minor selling herself on the streets. Her web is more tangled than perhaps even his, and she certainly holds as many secrets. He swears to find more about her, but does he really want to?

Not Your Anything Masterlist (Seven Parts) 

You and Loki have been arguing since first meeting one another, but despite seeming to hate each other, there’s an awful lot of sexual tension between you two. He never seems to leave you alone and despite your saying so, you’d never wish him away. Will you two ever work things out?

**It’s a Dull World Without Green (Angst) Oneshot**

Loki’s dead and his loss is wrecking your life. You go out on a reckless rampage only stopped by your best friend Bucky, who keeps an annoyingly close eye on you. You’re not sure how to be without Loki, but soon you know you have to face it. But is he really gone after all?

Mint (Smut) Oneshot

You’ve been ignoring Loki’s advances for a while now, but he’s getting harder and harder to resist. One day, after a little persuasion, you give in. And boy are you glad you did.

Nurses and Wounds (Oneshot)

You get injured after going on a secret mission with Thor. When Loki finds out he is, of course, dramatically furious. But, afterwards, he turns quite sweet as he becomes your own personal nurse.

Promises (Fluff) Oneshot

You and Loki have been banished to a secret cabin of Tony’s so the American people don’t storm the facility to murder Loki. Turns out, it’s fantastic. Loki and you have been in a relationship for a while now and it’s kind of like a little vacation. But something is about to change.

Bucky x Reader;

The Soldier and the Assistant Masterlist (Eight Parts) 

You run into a mysterious stranger on the street while running late for work and spill coffee all over yourself in the process. Later, you find out the man was none other than James Buchanan Barnes and your company is about to write a story about him. The thing is, he’ll only talk to you. As you get to know one another, you both start realizing this relationship is a little more than work. Will both of you let the romance bloom? Or kill it before it starts?

I’m in Charge (Oneshot)

You and Bucky are fooling around outside when things get a little, *coughs* heated.

That Damn Promotion (Smut) 

That Damn Promotion Part Two (Smut)

Bucky and y/n return from a mission, arguing like usual. They’ve been stuck with one another since training when y/n beat him to a promotion. There’s been sexual tension ever since and that turns into a hate fuck.

Date’s a Dud (Smut) Oneshot

You get home early from a crap date and find Bucky waiting for you like always. It’s a pity you got all dressed up for nothing, or did you…?

Timeless Things (Fluff) Oneshot

You are woken up by Bucky when he gets up obscenely early in the morning. You follow him and find out he has a secret talent that melts your heart.

Dominate Me (Smut) Oneshot

I love making Bucky angry, then making up. It is the absolute best. If you want to be tagged in my stuff just ask, dears. Read, blush, and enjoy my lovelies.

Sleeping Arrangements (Fluff) Oneshot

Bucky and y/n have been dating for a while, but have been trying to do it quietly because of Fury’s rules. Bucky insists on sleeping in seperate rooms when not on missions, but you both can’t sleep without the other.

Amnesia (Fluffy Angst) Oneshot

You and Bucky parted ways a little while ago, you thought mutually, but Bucky actually has no clue why you left. Turning hard and numb to protect himself from the pain, he’s acting more and more like the winter soldier every day. Steve calls you up to see if you can help. But will Bucky even allow you to?

Close the Window (Fluff) Oneshot

Apparently, someone doesn’t like to close the fucking window even when it’s freezing and the person he loves is still in bed. Still…Bucky Barnes isn’t the worst thing to wake up to on a beautiful Fall morning.

Crave Masterlist

You and Bucky have a...complicated history. So, when Natasha calls you in on a mission with the team, some emotions pop up again just to complicate things all over again. Especially since you never said why you left him in the first place.

Tony Stark;

Gold with a Red Jewel (Smut) Oneshot

You and Tony have been in a relationship for a while now and he’s really opened your mind to a lot of things, but one thing you have yet to try with him is anal. You decide tonight is the night, but you’re going to tease the hell out of him first. Or is it going to be the other way around?

Charity (Fluff) Oneshot

You work for Tony Stark and to be quite honest, you love it. He’s a pain in the ass, but he’s a funny pain in the ass and makes it fun to come to work every day. He’s been doing his best to get you to go out with him, but all attempts have failed. Until now…

High School (Fluff) Oneshot

You are a teacher at Peter Parker’s school and Tony sees how well you work with Peter. He starts crushing on you and does his best to win your heart, even though parents and teachers shouldn’t date. While Tony points out he isn’t technically Peter’s parent, you’re still on the fence about the handsome man.

**Three Dates Masterlist (Three Parts)**

You’re working as an escort at a fancy ball, but your date just happens to be the fucking douchebag of all douchebags. Luckily enough, you eventually find relief in the company of the surprising Tony Stark. You spend an evening together and realize neither of you want it to end, so what are you going to do about it?

Baking Lesson (Fluff) Oneshot

What better way is there to usher in the new season than with a batch of pies? Unfortunately, Tony is feeling playful and wants to learn a couple things. Hopefully, the kitchen doesn’t catch on fire…

Natasha x Reader;

**Care to Prove Me Wrong? Masterlist (Four Parts)**

Bucky doesn’t believe that you could’ve been a stripper before joining the team and Tony and Steve agree. He dares you to prove him wrong and you aren’t one to shirk from a challenge. One by one you take each man aside and prove your skills.

Fall at the Beach (Fluff) Oneshot

You and Natasha have been keeping things quiet between the two of you if only to prevent shitty jokes from the rest of the team. There’s a beach house the two of you escape to every once and a while, but this time it seems there’s a surprise on the way.

Sam Wilson;

Leaf Piles (Fluff) Oneshot

The Avengers have been sent on a Fall retreat and while everyone splits up to do their own thing, you run into Sam doing something…interesting. Despite weak objections, you get roped into messing with Sam’s favorite bestie, Bucky Barnes.

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Wowza !  I hit 1.3 k followers ! ♡♡

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**under the cut: my love for all the wonderful beings out here

@keep-me-inmind-kaspbrak ~ one of the first people i connected with when i made this blog, you are so funny and amazing! I know we don’t talk as much as we used to but i still hold u in high regards. I want to let you know that i care for you and you deserve the very best💕💕

@softboywolfhard ~ Vi ! YOU PRECIOUS BEAN, when my blog was still super new .... i was low key obsessed with your blog ... that’s when it had that dark theme goin on :)) i adore you💕‼️ You are so sweet and you are always on my mind when i listen to acid ghost or when i listen to the playlist you made me... those songs make me feel real and honestly soothe me like u wouldn’t believe... you are someone to be treasured always 

@reddieeddiespaghetti ~ a SUNSHINE FRIEND! you are one of the 1st blogs i followed when I had just joined the fandom... you are incredibly considerate and sweet hearted ❤️ i hope more people see how wonderful you are! 10/10 wonderful being

@rebel-eds ~ A TALENTED HOT TAMALE, i don’t even know where to begin with you?!? Allie, you are extremely talented, whether it’s in your writing or your art... everything you do is PHENOMENAL! And you are such a beautiful person inside and out. You treat everyone so kindly💕 we seriously need more people like yourself ! I adore you *throws love at you like confetti*

@sexyvase ~ your existence is everything❤️❣️🌹 we have so much in common, it’s a little scary. you’re face !! Arsjhgjhfjhghkhjhhgfh GORGEOUS! One day we’ll go on nightdriving adventures and make pies at 3 am. If that never happens than at least we have our haunted pie shop to look forward to. I’m so glad i made this blog... or I would have never met you, and that my friend would have been a HUGE ASS TRAGEDY. I could seriously go on and on about how amazing you are and how much i like you ... so I’ll keep this short. Ang you are a diamond in the rough!!!!!!! 

@that4amkick ~ Sam Sam you are loved💕 we talk so much, and im sorry i haven’t been keeping up with you as much as i used to.... i feel like im bothering you, I know you probably have more goin on now... But it hasn’t lessened my affection for you ... i adore you and i wish i could be there for you whenever you need someone... i treasure you

@jacksoveralls ~ my dude you are hilarious 😂 honestly i think people take you for granted... they dump so much drama on you and you deserve more than just that !! I live for your gif/photo reactions to asks lmao ... and your love for jack is pure and i can relate to that. 10/10 rad being you are!

@reddieaf ~ I know we only talked for a like while, but i still cherish you i hope you are well and i send happy vibes to you

@africareddie ~ a sweet being ! I don’t really talk to you but i enjoy everything you post ❤️ *throws flowers around your head* you are wonderful :D

@finnwolfhard ~ so much talent in one person ! honestly im still in awe you follow me.... i wish you all the happiest and peace ! You are adored by many and i hope it’s not too overwhelming... i genuinely hope you get where you wanna go stell💕 

@edwardtheloser ~ PRECIOUS broski, we haven’t talked much but i would already lay down my life for you Jude ! You are so cool 

@fucking-reddie-to-die ~ river i have a lot of pure, genuine affection for you, you deserve so much from this world *hugs u*

@tapwatermedicine ~ A LOVELY ANGEL... honestly you are full of so much kindness and support 💕❤️ when im feeling low, you make my days so much better... i know you struggle with your own things ... so i really admire your attitude towards others , i adore your soul

@fannypaccboii ~ another treasured mutual, we barely talked in the beginning.... i still think you’re amazing 

@eddie-clapsback ~ so much chaos in one body, you’re very unique and so talkative hhaaha, im never bored with you ily

@thunderstorm-symphony ~ we bonded over freaks and geeks, such a good show man... you have good taste and i have a feeling you have a good heart as well 

@lovingvincent ~ A GORGEOUS BEING! you always tag me in stuff, it warms my ❤️... i really should interact with you more... you have such good taste in movies too

@tozierbraks ~ a stunning goddess.... i think we’ve only had like one interaction .... all of your content is gold and your face WOWZA

@losver-kaspbrak ~ SO SWEET! YOU ARE THE HEART GAL.... you send so much love out to everyone ... it’s honestly so pure and wholesome... i send love out to yous * shoots love & hearts from a canon*

@starrystan ~ A GOLDEN SOUL, i still have that gif from that 70s Show, you sent me saved💓💓.... you are very cute and charming, i send u love

@reddieforlove ~ you won me over when you chose werewolf & wolf for the choose this or that asks...... also you are such a brilliant writer my friend... like i cannot stress enough how much your work means to me ... you are amazing ... and all-in-all you are kind and im kinda captivated by you ? i send my love to yous *shows up at your doorstep with 500 packages of hearts*💖💛💛💙💗💜💕❤️💞💕

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More wonderful people who i love & wish i talked to (they either said something sweet at one point or another or they have amazing fics that i absolutely treasure) : @speakslowtellmelove, @derrylossers, @richietoaster, @not-reddie, @belbys, @tozier-boy, @hufflepuffbill, @peachywise, @reddietrashmouth, @eddiesbadbreak, @stephenkingatone, @glowpatrol, @wynne-likes-floatin, @exmrys, @yellowflowernudes, and there's so many more but my head hurts so i stop there !!