ᯓ★ 𝐂𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐤𝐬 𝐢𝐧 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐭 ― 𝐇𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐠 𝐇𝐲𝐮𝐧𝐣𝐢𝐧
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𝙋𝙖𝙞𝙧𝙞𝙣𝙜: idol!Hyunjin x fem!reader
𝙒𝙤𝙧𝙙𝙘𝙤𝙪𝙣𝙩: 3,2k (got a little carried away lol) — 𝟮𝟮 𝙢𝙞𝙣 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙙
𝙂𝙚𝙣𝙧𝙚: angst, comfort
𝙏𝙒/𝘾𝙒: hurt/comfort, reader's insecure and hyunjin is being oblivious most of the time
𝘼/𝙉: This is also a request. I normally don't really like reading angst but writing it is so much fun lol. Hope you'll enjoy this one!
⤷ 𝘏𝘺𝘶𝘯𝘫𝘪𝘯 𝘤𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘴 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘤𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘺.
⋮ 𝗠𝗮𝘀𝘁𝗲𝗿𝗹𝗶𝘀𝘁
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You were heading to the studio with lunch for Hyunjin and the others. He didn’t reply to your texts all morning so you thought you’d surprise him and the others with lunch. You know how they can be when they are busy, so they probably appreciate it if you bring them something to eat.
You entered the building and down the hall to the studio they’d probably be at. Stopping in front of the door, you see it was not fully closed. Raising your hand to knock before entering, your hand comes to a halt when you hear your boyfriend’s voice.
You didn’t mean to eavesdrop, really. It was just that his voice was a little louder than usual, and you happened to stop by at the wrong time.
“Man, it’s so annoying. My phone keeps blowing up and she won’t leave me alone,” you could hear him let out a frustrating groan. “Sometimes she’s just… too clingy, you know? As if she can’t do anything by herself. ‘S driving me crazy.”
Murmurs followed your boyfriend's confession, but your heart was pounding so loud to hear their responses. Hyunjin said it so casually, but his words hit you like a punch to the gut.
Clingy? He thought you were being too clingy?
You thought you were just showing how much you cared for him — it hadn’t felt like too much. But now it felt like you overstayed your welcome like everything you did and every touch had been one too many.
Fighting back the sudden tightness in your chest, you swallowed hard. You stood by the door for a minute gathering your thoughts, before silently turning around to walk away. Your heart now aching with a newfound distance you weren’t sure how to close.
Apparently, your lingering by the door hadn’t gone unnoticed by one of the members. Felix saw something from the corner of his eye and before he could say something, he saw you turn around and walk away from the studio.
He frowned at the words of his friend and the thought of you possibly overhearing him. “She just cares about you,” Felix spoke up before getting out his phone to text you. He didn’t get a response from the older boy, at least not a verbal one.
You arrived back home when you heard your phone going off. Could it be Hyunjin? Did he text you a lie about how he was just busy and didn’t see your texts coming through?
You hated this. You hated this feeling of being lied to. If he thought it was too much, he should have just said so instead of going to his members behind your back.
Sure, he can vent to his friends. It’s not like you don’t do this with your girlfriends. But complaining about your partner and being actually hurtful? You wouldn’t do that.
You set down the bags that contained the lunch boxes before getting your phone out of your purse. It was Felix, asking if you just stopped by. He had seen you turn around and walk away instead of coming in.
You quickly typed a reply, saying you did want to stop by but forgot something at home. It wasn’t really a lie that he would believe, but at this point, you didn’t want to talk about it.
Your heart felt heavy and when you finally sat down on your couch, you felt the pressure behind your eyes building up.
Maybe you were overreacting? No, this was a valid reaction to something that felt so hurtful. This started a spiral of overthinking.
Were you really that clingy? And was it so bad that he might consider breaking up with you? He knew your last boyfriend said one of the reasons he broke up with you was because you were so overbearing towards him. But it was just because you love to show people you care about them.
In the beginning, Hyunjin assured you multiple times that you weren’t overbearing. He said he loved it when all your attention was on him and that you made him feel so loved and special with every little thing you did for him.
So what has changed?
You had hoped your afternoon would be filled with spending some time with your boyfriend, his friends and good food. Instead, it was filled with overthinking and tears.
In the days that followed you tried to act as if nothing was wrong. You tried to continue on, but his words echoed in your head and it made it impossible for you to be as relaxed as before.
Hyunjin could feel you were pulling back slowly, creating distance between the two of you.
The thing that stood out the most was how your frequent texting went from constant texting him things to a few texts a day to almost radio silence during the day.
Normally, you’d always ask him how his day was going, if he needed something to eat, if you could stop by to see what they were working on and even random things you’ve seen during the day that reminded you of him.
Now it felt like you only texted him out of necessity and not because you wanted to talk to your boyfriend.
The week continued, and it seems like the rift between you and Hyunjin has grown even wider. The tension kept knotting in your stomach and your hands kept fidgeting when you were alone together.
You were asleep, or pretended to be, when Hyunjin left for work and the dinners you had together were being eaten in an uncomfortable silence.
You cancelled a date night with the excuse of not feeling great and went straight to the bedroom. You didn’t come out for the rest of the night, leaving Hyunjin alone with his thoughts.
He felt like you were on edge, but he couldn’t figure out why or what had happened for you to be acting this way towards him. The sudden coldness and distance.
He had to admit, he missed your blabbing during dinner, or when you’re watching a movie and you tell him random fun facts about it. He just could not dwell long on your behaviour, because work still demanded a lot of his time and energy.
This resulted in the members deciding to go out to dinner together when they finished the last remaining details for the comeback. Felix suggested asking you along too; he got the feeling from his friend that something was going on between you.
Hyunjin hasn't talked much about you and what you guys have been up to lately, but he hasn't seen you in the studio during lunch lately either. You would normally come to surprise your boyfriend and the members while they were working hard on their comeback.
This also raised suspicions that you might have overheard Hyunjin's harsh words.
That brings you to here right now, at a table in a fancy restaurant, sitting next to Felix and Hyunjin. Your hands started fidgeting again, a habit you picked up the past few days.
Hyunjin sitting next to you, oblivious to your fidgeting, laughing and chatting with his friends - like hadn’t shattered your confidence with one careless comment.
“Hey, are you alright?” Felix’s voice was soft as he leaned closer, his concern clear. You gave him a small, forced smile.
“Yeah, just tired,” you mumbled. The lie felt heavy, but the ache in your chest felt even heavier.
Hyunjin’s laughter pulled your attention back to him. He looked so carefree and completely unaware of the hurt he’d caused. That’s what stung the most—how easy it was for him to say something that lingered with you, while he didn’t seem bothered at all.
Did he really not notice? Or does he not care enough to do something about it. Then again, you didn’t know if you should bring it up to him.
Felix spoke up again, “I haven’t seen you at our studio during lunchtime lately. What’s up with that?”
His attention was fully on you, trying to figure out what was going on in that head of yours. The question seems to caught you off guard. He observed you telling a forced lie to him about your absence. Suspicion confirmed.
Your eyes strayed quickly to Hyunjin but it seemed you didn't want to focus your attention on your boyfriend. His attention went to your hands, which were still fidgeting. He knew now that you indeed heard your boyfriend tell his members that he thought you were clingy and it was eating away at you.
This needs to be resolved quickly, he thought, but he didn’t want to intervene right now. It seems like you need a friend in this moment and he wanted to help you not have the troubling thoughts in your head for a moment.
He switched up the conversation with a different question to ease your mind, and you seemed to be eager to change the topic.
And this did work for a while, you were having good food and good conversations with the rest of the group. Except for Hyunijn, and it didn’t go unnoticed by him.
After the dinner ended, and everyone went their separate ways home, you fell back into an uncomfortable silence again. The car ride home seemed to last hours when it was in fact only a 20-minute drive.
Hyunjin tried to place his hand on your leg, but you just slightly turned your body the other way and faced the window the entire ride home.
When you stepped foot into your apartment, you immediately headed to your bedroom to change into your pyjamas. Hyunjin still was a little confused and watched you disappear into the bedroom.
Deciding to confront you about the distance he felt, he went after you. You were already in the bathroom, removing your make-up.
“Hey,” Hyunjin’s voice was cautious, a little hesitant. “Is something wrong?”
You didn’t answer him straight away. Your eyes found his and you looked at him through the mirror, before settling back to your own reflection to continue removing your make-up.
Should you admit that you’d heard everything? The hurt twisted inside you, mingling with the fear of pushing him away even more.
Finally, you turned to face him, your voice barely audible. “Do you really think I’m clingy?”
The question clearly caught him off guard, he just stood there and blinked at you. It seemed like he wanted to say something, but the words didn’t leave his lips.
The silence followed by your question was suffocating and it made you second — no, triple—guess all the thoughts and emotions you’ve felt for the past days. The reaction he gave you made your mind wonder if you might be overreacting to five simple words.
‘Sometimes she’s just too clingy’.
You felt so vulnerable, but you couldn’t hide your unspoken thoughts anymore. Your eyes stayed focused on Hyunjin. He swallowed thickly before parting his lips to speak. “You’ve heard?”
He had no idea you were at the studio, or near the studio when he was venting to his members.
A sad and tired sigh left your lips and you turned your attention back to your reflection, continuing your skincare. It felt weird, acting as if it was just a normal question, meanwhile the words chipped away at your confidence.
“It’s just... sometimes...” His voice finally broke the tension, but it didn’t sound as sure as you’d hoped. Running a hand through his hair, frustration flickering across his features.
You could see him trying to find the right words, but every second he hesitated only making your chest tighten more.
“What? Sometimes what?” you pressed on. “I’m sometimes too much? Am I too close all the time? Overbearing? I can’t do anything by myself?” Though your voice was quieter now, he could hear the hurt and uncertainty bleeding through.
He winced slightly at your words and pressed his lips together. He let out another sigh, “No, it’s not like that. I- I didn’t mean it like that. It’s just…” He trailed off, trying to find the right words.
You didn’t respond to his words, just waiting for an explanation as to why he said you were ‘too clingy’ and ‘couldn’t do anything by yourself’. But the explanation never seemed to come, the words stuck in his throat.
Though, you weren’t sure what you wanted to hear. His silence felt louder than any explanation he could have given.
“I was venting, and I just… I didn’t know you heard that... I’m sorry.” Frustration was seeping into his features. “It doesn’t mean I don’t care about you or- or what you do!” His voice softened and his eyes searched yours.
He didn’t know whether to take a step towards you and reach out or keep his distance, though the latter option is something you already succeeded in the past few days.
It didn’t feel good enough for you. The words fell flat between you, without meaning. You felt your chest tighten again and the suffocating feeling in your throat came back. The burning sensation of fresh tears behind your eyes was building up, ready to be released down your cheeks.
Turning away from him and nodded, “I get it, Hyunjin.” The man winced at the sound of your voice and hearing his name coming from your lips. “It’s fine. My ex said the same things, I’m used to it by now.”
It wasn’t fine. You weren’t used to it, not by a long shot. But you didn’t know if you could handle hearing more, or even if you wanted to.
Pushing past him, you went back into your bedroom. Turning on the lamp on your bedside table, you pulled back the covers and got into bed. Hyunjin lingered in the bathroom, trying to gather his thoughts on how he could explain to you he didn’t mean it like that.
He didn’t mean to hurt you, it was just in the heat of the moment and being stressed out because of work didn’t help either. Not that it should be an excuse.
You reminded him of the words your ex had said to you tugging at his heartstrings. That hurt. He knew it was a bad and rough break-up for you.
Even though it was so significantly small for him, something said in passing when he was stressed, holds an entirely different meaning and feeling for you.
You lay in bed staring at the window, silently letting the salty tears run down your face, and onto your pillowcase. From your position in bed, you reached out to turn off your light. The darkness engulfed you.
Hyunjin came into the bedroom after a minute. You felt the bed dip behind you, and he softly reached out to you. He rested his hand on your shoulder, trying to be comforting to you.
He could hear your breathing, uneven and heavy. Without seeing your face, he knew tears were rolling down.
The moonlight is peeking through the see-through curtains in front of the window., and it lit up your face. Right now, that was the only light in the room. You stayed quiet, not trusting your voice to say anything to your boyfriend.
“It’s not fine,” he murmured, almost like he was talking more to himself than to you. “I didn’t mean to make you feel like that.” When he didn’t hear anything from you, he continued.
“I just…” He exhaled slowly, clearly struggling. “I didn’t know how to explain it. Sometimes, when I’m stressed or overwhelmed, I don’t know how to handle things. But it’s not about you. It’s never about you.”
His words hovered between you. The sting of what you’d overheard lingered, reminding you of how easy it was for him to call you clingy in front of the others.
You wondered if he even realized how much that had hurt, or if he was just trying to smooth things over now that he knew you’d overheard.
“Then why say it at all?” you whispered, barely able to keep your voice steady. “If it wasn’t about me, why say it like that? Why make me feel like… like I’m too much?”
Hyunjin looked pained, his eyes flickering with regret as he gently pulled you to him in the dark. “You’re not too much. You never are.” At his words, you turned to face him.
Carefully he reaches for your hair to brush the loose strands from your face. “I know it's not an excuse to say I was stressed, but I really didn't mean it. The past few days I felt the distance between us and it ate away at me. I didn't know what was going on and what I had done to make you distance yourself from me.”
Your silence urges him to continue, “I didn't know how to bring this up, but I understand why you've been so distant these past few days. I was just venting to my friends without realizing this could hurt you. Especially after your break-up with your ex, I'm so sorry...”
His fingertips traced the side of your face before wiping away the tears that ran free. You swallowed hard, you wanted to believe him. You really did, because it is normal for people to vent about their feelings, good and bad.
But another part, the part that heard him so casually say you were clingy, kept you guarded.
Your hand reached out for his that was still lightly tracing your face, “I don’t want to feel like I’m smothering you, Hyunjin. I just… I don’t know what to do now.”
“You know, I missed your random texts. The one you always send if you see something that reminds you of me. And when you ask me how my day is going. The boys also have been asking about you, y’know.”
The sincerity in his voice made you look up at him. “They miss you at lunch too, just like I do.” For the first time since this conversation started, you saw the cracks in his usual confidence.
“It really hurt, the way you said it so casually too. And it felt like a punch in the gut after you know what my ex said to me. But it is my insecurity, not yours. I just need to figure out how to deal with it.”
He gently shook his head. “If you feel hurt about what I said, that is completely valid. I know it is an insecurity of yours, and I shouldn’t have been so casual about it.”
You let out a sigh and initiated intertwining your fingers with his. The small act brought a soft smile to his face. Watching your features, being lit up by the moonlight, he felt his racing heartbeat calm down.
“We’ll figure it out together baby. If I feel like I don’t need a distraction during work, I’ll put on my do-not-disturb mode on my phone, okay?” His words made you nod in agreement.
“And I will try to communicate my feelings more, especially when it comes to something like this. I realize now that I just have to talk about this when it bothers me.”
In response to your words, he nodded. “I love you, baby, so much.” Before you could respond he drew you closer, his lips brushing yours in a lingering kiss. “I love you too Jinnie.” You tugged him closer, kissing him with tender, quiet softness. You finally felt the tightness in your chest melt away.
He wanted to do better for you. His hand in yours felt like a promise—one he wasn’t going to let slip away.
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When Soap ask you for personal hotspot, you click on your phone and open it, only for him to discard your phone away and hands go down to your clit “I’m talking about this, lassie.”
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Personal Hotspot
John’s an absolute dog, nothing new lol
CW: fem!reader, clit stimulation(fem receiving), public because Johnny has no shame
despite the base being military - high security, safety measures at every corner, there’s one thing that everyone’s come to accept. the connection in the mess hall is awful. it’s not uncommon to see rookies and seasoned soldiers alike waving their phones in the air, trying to get a bar or two, just a little signal
a lucky few soldiers have connection though, their phones not struggling to load videos and websites. you were one of those lucky people, and by proxy, someone that was constantly asked, “Hey… can we use your hotspot?”. maybe one day the connection in the mess hall would be better, but for now it was mostly people asking for passwords and, “What’s your phone called?”
it didn’t surprise you when Johnny sat down next to you, slinging his arm around your shoulders. it was slow today, a couple familiar faces grabbing food, others just shooting the breeze. Johnny had been a close friend for years, always roping you into fun little adventures - the smile on his face was a telltale sign he had something plotted. that lopsided, dopey smile, he’d probably ask you to help him prank Gaz, maybe mess with Price and steal a cigar
“Hey bonnie, can I use that hotspot of yours?”, he asked, arm slipped from your shoulders as his hand drifted down your back. it came to rest on the small of your back, just resting above the hem of your pants, “Just for a minute.”
“Oh— yeah, hold on.”, you hummed, fishing your phone out of your pocket. Johnny was always coming to you for this - he’d have a silly video to show someone, but his phone couldn’t get any signal. he’d always grab you a little extra food as thanks, ruffling your hair as he grinned. “Uh, just let me turn it on.”
it caught you off guard when he snatched your phone, a quick glance at the screen before he was turning it off and pocketing it himself, “Nah, dinnae need that.”. eyebrows knit, just as you were about to ask what he was doing, a surprised little gasp left you when his hand suddenly moved - shoved down the front of your pants
granted, you’re seated in the back of the mess hall, tucked away in a corner, but your eyes immediately went to the other soldiers in the room. “Eyes on me, lassie.”, accent thick as his free hand grabs your chin, gently turning your head - his smitten gaze glued to your face, “Pretty little thing, I was talking about this.”
middle finger resting above your panties, he works tight circles over your clit - that same lopsided smile still on his lips. you like Johnny, loved him even, but the combination of his charming smile and the pad of his finger against you has your heart hammering against your chest - you’re just thankful the table is blocking the view from prying eyes
”Don’t mind if I play with this, do ya?”, he asks, voice low as he dips his finger past the thin material
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New tk story everyone🚨
It’s kinda short and not as detailed as I’d like but I’m tired lol. ENJOY!
I knew the second I laid my eyes on you two years ago that you were the one for me. I’m usually not the outgoing type but I couldn’t stand the chance of passing you up that night. Maybe it was the liquid courage I had ten minutes prior, or maybe just a ginormous leap of faith. You swept me off of my feet, falling head over heels for you and for some reason, when I asked you to go out with me you said yes.
I went home that night high on adrenaline and sort of freaking out about planning the most amazing first date with you. God, you’re just so beautiful, sweet, funny, and charming. I’m so intimidated by you, I’m usually so confident when it comes to being cool and collected but when you look me up and down and the corner of your mouth starts to curl up, I absolutely melt.
The next weekend rolled around and as I pull up to your house, I’m trying so desperately to hype myself up. *you got this, just be yourself and they’re bound to like you* I say in the mirror, lightly slapping my face to get pumped up. I get out of the car and straighten my clothes to start walking up to your door. After I knock, I’m standing there, thoughts racing through my mind thinking this was a mistake because you could never genuinely like someone like me.
As you open the door, all of the words overwhelming my brain automatically go quiet. You were still in your pj’s and had a disappointed expression plastered across your face. As my heart dropped, I thought to myself *I knew it, you’re going to bail on me. It’s okay though because it was truly an honor just to even meet you.
“I know what this looks like but that’s not the case. Tonight was supposed to be fun and adventurous but I’m feeling kind of sick, that doesn’t mean I want you to leave though. If it’s cool with you, I’d love for you to stay and we can watch a movie or play a game or something.. I know it’s not ideal but that would make me feel better I think!” You said trying to avoid eye contact and shrugging your shoulders.
I raise my hand up to cup your jaw out of instinct and reply, “That sounds lovely.” You take my other hand and lead me into the living room and sit on the couch. As the night grew, we didn’t get around to any movies or games, instead opted to talk about the most random things and really get to know each other.
Just as I think things couldn’t get any better, I offer to give you a massage because you keep rolling your shoulders in what I’m assuming is pain. You shyly accept my offer and turn your back towards me so I can start. As I place my hands on either shoulder you jump just a little bit. I was scared I scratched you too hard but you assured me it was nothing.
About ten minutes pass by and your starting to get sleepy and melt into my chest so I kick back, resting my head on the shoulder of the couch and bring you down with me so you’re laying on top of me now. As you drift off to sleep I start tracing your shoulders and neck. After a few seconds you start to squirm and giggle.
I’m mentally taking note of your reaction and start kneading/ scribbling into your neck to see if I could get a better reaction and sure enough I did. Your giggles grew stronger and I really admired how you weren’t fighting back, it’s very adorable to say the least. I manage to get my arms under yours and pull you further into me so now your head is laying on my shoulder and I have my arms wrapped around your torso.
I ask if you’re okay with this before I continue because crossing your boundaries is something I could never dream of. A quick little nod confirmed that it was, so I continue.
I started at your hips and waistline, just trailing along ever so lightly as I feel your belly start to dance up and down, drunk off of giggles. Then I trail up to your belly button and trace around for a few seconds before ever so slightly sticking my finger in and gently swirling it around. This received a quirky little yelp from you. “Oh, someone’s quiet ticklish I see. I think I’d like to explore a little more of this rather sensitive territory.” I say, trailing out to your sides and giving a few little scribbles.
You start to shake your head back and forth, pleading that it’s too much so I start to pepper kisses all over your neck as I move my hands up to your ribs. Spreading out my fingers so they sit nice and peacefully between each bone, I start to lightly dig in causing your once mellow giggles to turn into squeaky belly laughter. You try to bat my hands away but they are glued to your skin until you can admit to me that you’re enjoying this just as much as I am.
Several minutes pass and I’m satisfied with what just went down, you’re still laying on top of me, trying to catch your breath after the workout I just put you through. “Thank you for tonight, I’d love to do this again sometime.” I say, planting a kiss on your forehead. As I’m leaning back up you grab my head and pull me back down to exchange another kiss but this time on the lips.
“It’s getting really late, if you want to spend the night here you can.” You suggest knowing fully well that I wouldn’t pass up that offer. “Plus, I could use a chance to get you back for what you just did to me.” You add on, sitting up to look at me only to find that my face is bright red. Accepting my fate because fair is fair, i accept your offer and let you get your licks in.
After we’ve had our fun, we’re laying in each others arms too tired to move so we just look stare into one another’s eyes, casually exchanging tickles here and there until eventually we both fell asleep. That next morning after we hung out a bit longer, I head back to my place to shower and run some errands before work the next day, receiving a text from you that said
*Last night was one of the best nights I’ve had in so long, thank you for being spontaneous and asking me out last week, how about we go for round two again this weekend?*
*Oh, it’s on ;)* I reply back. The rest was history. Two years later and we’re going as strong as can be. Just two happy souls with endless love and tickle fights to provide. You can say you win the majority but we all know it’s me ;)
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