#was feeling mostly ambivalent about food but I have to take my bro to his appointment so eating was an actual must

[lovingempress]

Feelin’ real proud of myself for putting my pack of ramen back and going through the effort of unearthing the toaster oven and making myself “poached” eggs and English muffin & guava jelly for (midnight) dinner 😊

[whats-going-on-beauredelle]

My Oc, Jay Nates, ( from a story I tried to put on paper ). Takes some references to draw it, but em... not a masterpiece of anatomy. But I wanted a basic character sheet to work his design ^^” - Photoshop / Intuos Pro M.

He was one of the first Oc that I create, and I really love him.

I’m so glad I pass a comissions with @docwendigo , his painting was completely mind blowing ! CHECK IT OUT PLEASE :

 http://docwendigo.tumblr.com/post/177200042196/commission-for-mark-c-myles-of-his-oc-jay-thanks

( This moment of your life when your so happy that you could die criyng on the floor while saying random thing that doesn’t making sense ).

Anyway, meet my oc, Jay Nates. 

When he is adult he’s 1.82 cm / 83 kg, he’s a little bit muscular. He’s got grey eyes, black long hairs. He lives in USA West coast and travels a lot during his whole life.

He was a singer from a blues band, than a guitarist from a punk band he slipt just few weeks after ( lol ), and for his own and last band, he was at the same time the main rhythm guitarist and after, the second singer and then, second lead guitarist, and after the death of the leader he became the singer and the lead guitarist. But it was too much pressure on his young shoulders, so the group kinda brokes apart, but he continues collaborations with others artists like his cousin Jeremy who’s pianist and singer ( he does jazz, jazz-rock, blues. ) His main styles are : folk, acoustic, blues/rock, progressive rock. But he enjoys playing too hard rock, progressive metal, heavy metal, guitar solos, psychedelic rock, and instrumental rock. He’s very versatile and loves to discover a new genre and experiment a lot.

Jay is a person who lost many friends and family in this life, death takes them apart violently and he finds new families in music bands he works. He’s gentle, naive, shy, worried, haven’t a high rated self-confidence, curious, really emotional, candid, patient, loyal, passionate. He can’t stand injustice and violence, his emotions become out of control. Jay has a lot of problems to handle his emotions having regards to all traumatic moments he had undergone. Sometimes he cries cause he’s extremely happy, or he’s angry or he’s really sad. Jay is also a guy who is nostalgic about people he loved, or the places he had good memories, but everything is leaving him now and he has to face it. He has bad times with alcohol in his youth, a morbid dependence, the kind of alcoholism who kill you little by little. Now he enjoys beer and especially wine, but keep his distance from the excess, even if temptation can be felt sometimes :/ However he never does drugs. He suffers from depression but still able to overcome it, still rots his life a lot :/ He’s trapped in sort of ambivalence between hope and despair, light and darkness and it make him lost in life in general. That’s the reason he needs to be around people he trusts, it’s like his compass, and his obsession for music - the stream of his life. It’s very difficult to describe but he feels well when he blends to the crowd, but also he feels super good when he’s on the stage. He’s got a phenomenal presence on stage, but at the contrary, he’s really invisible on everyday-life because of his shyness.

What he likes the most : His bros in the band, his musician friends, his cousin, his precious daughter, his man ( Jay is mostly heterosexual but flexible, his significant other is bisexual.��) He loved his mother and he will never recover from her death ( she dies in front of her dies, on an electric chair, in public ). He likes listen to others people stories, in fact he listens more than he speaks. He likes good wine, mushrooms, chocolate croissant, spiced food, cold beer. He enjoys a lot takin’ a ride with his vintage triumph, and leaving in road-trip. And, for sure, he enjoys playin’ guitar and his job, especially in live concert. Black is it’s favorite color ( Payne's gray too ). He likes running early in the morning and he does also sports like kickboxing to work self-defense and self-confidence. ( enjoy also rock-climbing, kayak, bungee-jumping, but practicing only occasionally, or rarely ). He loves beatnik novels, psychedelics novels, stuffs like National Geographic, fantastic novels, comics a lot ( but not superheroes one ). In music, his first loves were and still be The Doors. He sure loves blues, rock, hard rock, folk, stuffs like that, he ‘s got an impressive cd/vinyl collection. He loves also nice conversations in bars with people he gets along. Not a fan of small talks. He loves girls but he’s too nice with, and he gets fooled often ( he had two relationship with girls ( one fabulous, the others toxic ), and many crushes and unrequited loves ).

What he hates the most : everything related to justice like policemen, lawyers, prosecutors,... Racism ( from his first band, all members were blacks, he lived with them in a black district. At first, they were suspicious but after a time everybody gets along very well with him. White people made him so mad when they misbehaved to them because of their skin colors or origins ). He hates violence and assholes who prefer annoying people rather than helping them. Also, he hates to overlook at people when they’re in trouble. He dislikes seeing homeless people starving on the pavement while people ignore them. Jay has to help people, he’s this kind of man. He hates the smell of tobacco/cigarettes. He’s not very comfortable with rich people, or worldly people even if is a well-known guitarist ( that’s a paradox ). Sometimes he hates himself for not being strong enough. He can’t stand to be closed by force or stuck in situations he didn’t want, he takes this as a punishment. He can’t bear being alone at night, cause bad memories come right away in his mind and the loneliness is killing him. He doesn’t like when his man being irresponsible and put him in dangerous situations.

And that’s all I think x) Thanks to showing interest and read the description. Tell me if you want to meet more of my oc’s ! : D