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As an anime only fan, I am very much looking forward to the WTF arc
YOU ARE NOW ENTERING THE 'WHAT' ZONE
happy episode 11!
#want to read the manga so bad#but the anime is giving me something to look forward to every thursdsy#which has improved my mental health like you wouldn't believe#so i have to teke it week by week and CAN'T spoil the story#so no manga#yet
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31 year old soggy loser touya that can't drive or stay out after curfew and that was released from prison 7 months ago and has to keep his job at ace hardware and has to go to his meetings and is figuring out how to both apologize and forgive and is so far behind socially among his peers because of all he had to endure during his child/teenagehood my beloved
#he knows how to break open an atm machine but doesnt know how to make anything other than eggs and a grilled cheese#he wants independence so bad but wouldn't know what to do with it if he had it#he cant relate to hardly any other guys his age because he had to grow up too fast and yet is somehow so far behind them#this is basically ptmy btw LMAO maybe i just need to make it a modern no-quirks au and then i'll be able to finish it LOL#āæ thoughts: dabi/touya#now he's mostly stuck at home and just plays video games with his brothers and reads manga and maybe draws or something#all the things he didnt get to do as a kid#and he feels like he's so much better than that and yet he still sits in the living room with natsuo and plays another round
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you know what? fuck you *dungeon meshis your attorneys*
#ace attorney#apollo justice#klavier gavin#trucy wright#aa4#sunnysidedraws#sunnysidedoodles#i am no longer sick! still sick in the head however pftt#i still have a really bad cough so there's that#anywasy klavier is an elf apollo is a half human and half half foot (is there a better way to say that) and trucy is a tallman!#im so in love with the art from this manga i wanted to try and emulate it#i didnt quite knew what to do with trucy though bc there arent really a lot of references for tallmen teens from how far I've read agfsg#aa dunmeshi au#sunnysideattorney#sunnysidemeshi
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Dungeon lord Chilchuck
What would his wish as a dungeon lord be? What would he be like? Headcanons & speculation post for fun. But Iāll start with analytic lead up because thatās always fun for me, though feel free to skip and skim.
When it comes to what Chilchuckās dungeon lord desires could/would be like we have mainly 3 hints: His nightmare, his succubus and what the winged lion says to him.
Why: ā From what we see nightmares are based on the personās worst fears and insecurities, both Laiosā and Marcilleās nightmare were closely tied to their dungeon lord wishes (Laiosā dream monster being summoned to crush the ghosts of relationships that represented the pressure to fit in and belong, Marcille seeking control over death and aging through magic to avoid loss), the fuel behind their desire/goal if you will. Fear and deep-seated desires are seemingly closely tied, something also supported by Thistle and Mithrunās reigns as dungeon lords (Thistle proving his worth through fulfilling his given duty + protecting his loved ones, being listened to instead of having to listen, Mithrun escaping rigid two-faced elven society and living in a wonderland where he has no enemies and heās loved, free from everyone he knew yet propped up by the person symbolizing his brother being chosen over him, the bastard child).
ā Iāve talked about the significance I assign to the succubi often by now, but rundown: What we see of each character is all very telling if you care to listen, it shows not only someoneās "ideal form" but what they want from it. Izutsumiās is familial, offering a hug and comfort, Marcilleās is romantic with a character she knows and loves, offering a kiss on a hand and a connection regardless of how distant it actually is, and Laiosā is platonic, arguable at first but then Laiosā fear of judgement is placated and he is offered the picture perfect friend group that accepts his interest (if you want my full look at Laiosā succubus go here). They take on the most alluring form, most ideal person of their victim, even uncovering deep subconscious desires, so precisely and effectively to the point it leaves victims physically frozen before the object of their desire. Succubi and the demon are themselves tied in lore and itās easy to see how similar their core skill are. Succubi donāt give a good idea of what a character would wish for on their own but they certainly give hints on what they crave, regardless of how you want to read it.
ā Last bit is self-explanatory. To placate Chilchuck and win his compliance over, the monster that reads your soul like an open book offers to give him something specific. But! Itās also important to remember that the lion isnāt offering to fulfill Chilchuckās dream world wish here, itās a second prize, because his goal with what he promised Laios is that theyād stay in this world, away from everyone and everything else. Chilchuck wants to get away but is kept back, and itās here the lion placates him with "hey itās okay! You canāt do that but I can still give you this! This is enough right? Itāll make everything easier on you".
What each bit says: ā Long version in another post. Tldlr: His daughters and family are obviously important to him, and this reinforces that he takes on the role of protector a lot, heās constantly worried for his party membersā lives and implicitly his familyās. Safety and stability, both economical and otherwise, are his core values and goals, and he berates both others and himself if someone fails on those fronts. Here, thereās the fear of not being enough, of not having been able to protect, and of course of loss.
ā Chilās succubi are obviously sexual, and not only that but agressively and straightforwardly so. Itās not like Marcilleās where thereās personality involved, all they do is give him sultry looks and pretty smiles before jumping on him. His succubi arenāt like Izutsumiās, always the same exact person and appearance, so itās not someone but an appealing general idea. The idea of a sexual being he can regard as simply a gorgeous piece of meat and a good time no strings attached. In my interpretation, especially with my reading of Laiosā succubus where even with deep-seated desires negative emotions can be too intense to effectively freeze a victim, I think this doesnāt contradict his character. Relationships have been painful to him in the past, in the succubus scene when his wife gets mentioned his immediate reaction is to yell "Donāt bring her up now!", like with his habit of drinking and as a tallman liking his senses feeling dulled, itās about not having to feel emotions with how difficult they are to deal with sometimes and just feeling good, or at least not having to think, for a while. If a succubus showcases someoneās ideal connection with an ideal person, then Chilchuckās is with a pretty person that doesnāt stir any negative memory or drama, someone low stakes and low maintenance that doesnāt require him to manage or talk out feelings because thereās none involved in the first place.
ā Once more, wife and family are important! He does long for his family, not only his wife but his daughters, and vice versa. This suggests not only that he wants good relationships with them but that he wants them to be with him, a family life. Far from the cut communication they all more of less have during canon, and perhaps far from their life pre-canon when he worked away from home a significant amount of time. Weāve seen recreations of people by the winged lion before with doppelgangers and monsters (naga), and though he claims he can make satisfying imitations, what weāve seen is that they base themselves on the best memories of that person, like with Marcilleās dad, or twist behavior to be more pleasant, like Mithrunās lover (and possibly twist appearances depending on the personās view of them, but thatās Mithrun analysis). The line does suggest Chilchuck would want his family members as they are in reality and not idealized versions, but the circumstances are chaotic and urgent enough in the scene (and again the lion isnāt fulfilling Chilchuckās wish but trying to make him content for Laiosā) that it could just be the winged lion saying what he needs to to convince him the fastest possible, and like we see with Laios that can crumble to give way to deeper or more complex desires.
On top of that we just have general info on Chil. How does Chilchuck deal w his issues? What does he like to do? He likes alcohol and ignoring his problems. We have to remember there is a split between what someone would consciously wish for and what their soul uncontrollably irrationally craves. As always with Dunmeshi, thereās a narrative of irrational deep-seated desires vs active wants, what you crave vs what you strive for, what you dream of vs whatās actually good for you, the animal vs the human inside you, heart vs mind. Chilchuck craving a harem of hot babes in his fantasies but wanting his family life & wife back again is not mutually exclusive. You may crave becoming a monster and tasting what humans are like a little but still want to save the world & your friends more.
Btw can we adress the irony of him terrified of being the last one alive, of being left by his daughters and wife, of having left and coming back home one day to see everything gone or rampaged, yet not caring about dying of liver failure himself, knowing every time that he enters a dungeon thereās a real risk he may not come out. Die somewhere I canāt see you. I prefer leaving you than being left behind. Heās selfish and shortsighted like thatā¦ Chilchuck is selfless in many ways of course, but perhaps also due to his own relationship with his parents, he often undermines the effects he has on others in his relationships, both the good and the bad (he talks himself down about being cowardly and greedy yes, but never hints at his bad health habits, alcoholism and starving himself, may have affected his loved ones, doesnāt question his wife falling into a bad mood the night before she left, and talks about the possibility of dying here and there very casually, though obviously he tries his best to stay alive when it doesnāt concern his health).
Chilchuck king of "Let me just avoid and ignore my problems surely theyāll go away, things might work out and if they donāt well tough luck Iāll survive and I probably deserve it anyways". If I donāt look at it it will dissapear <3 Why care when you can simply not think about it.
You might not understand Mister "my love will stay strong through months of work travel and also 4 years of separation" and Mister "well idk my siblings and me are kinda strangers and my dad is dead but thatās kinda whatever", but typically relationships need some form of maintenance and emotional availabilityā¦
The actual headcanons finally
I kinda have 2 routes in mind for dunlord Chil and both of them are centered on "I care too much, i wish things were easy", so first is a lot like his succubi, itās full on indulging in his guilty pleasures like alcohol and bodies and itās to keep him in a constant state of thrill and euphoria and distracted, unfeeling about stuff that really matters. "Nothing matters except that Iām enjoying the moment!" vibe. He gets to live a life worthy of Dionysus, with alcohol and women and debauchery and likeā never having to think again, never having to feel anything but pleasure again, never have to feel guilty or shitty or angry or sad. He has a harem and gets everything on a silver platter.
Breaking news demon magic-induced rush of euphoria and power still not enough to cure this man of his self-hatred nor his capacity for thought!! But in his case a state of euphoria is what he seeks I think, to kinda mask or replace the Everything Else.
The other is what I think closer to what canon suggests, with what WL implied too with "Iāll make you a new wife and kids like the originals!!Ā š", itās a (spoilers) Wandavision type thing where itās a slice of life where heās never at work and always at home and the family eats lunches at the dinner table together and everything and everyone at any moment is just. Happy. No issues. It was all a dream, this is real and everything is fine and your family is perfect and happy. I like to think the timeline would be wonky, his daughters would fluctuate in age, but heād want to be there for what he missed, would want them to still rely on him and look up to him like when they were young, would like to forget that theyāre now independent adults and the distance that grew between Chilchuck and his siblings is happening between them as well. Chil would want doppelgangers of his family imo, at its core just a general wish for a peaceful happy family life with no drama, no need to compromise, a little paradise of unconditional love and no consequences. Itās for sure straightforward, but Chilchuck is a man with straightforward desiresā¦
But see Chilchuck is a greedy man, and he wants it both ways without having to sacrifice anything or expanding any efforts himself. He wants to have his cake and eat it too. I think playing with these two opposite directions and mixing and matching is most fun. Him leading a life where he indulges in all his worst habits while still having everything he wantsā¦ Him getting to have BOTH his wife and any woman he can imagine up, his life like two sides of a coin he can flip at any moment where heās partying then heās at home enjoying the quiet and his toddler daughters playing with toys on the carpet. Christ when you remember itās all an illusion thatās terrifying, the doppelgangers and succubi from the winged lion playing chilchuck ping pong.
A safe little haven both security-stability wise and emotionally. Gets to have both the relaxing and the thrilling in any dose he wants, mixed or separatedly. What Iād argue he had pre-canon too: Can live it up in taverns away from home, stays away from home for long periods of time, and can come back to home aka the symbol of relaxation and safety whenever he decides to. Something he can leave and come back to at will, an anchor he can trust in (until itās taken from him and his wife leaves. Or in his worse nightmare people rush in and kill his daughters). The ideal of a house and family to a working man, perhapsā¦
I think itās fun to think on wether or not these desires would be interesting at all to the winged lionā¦ In canon he seeks out "rare/complex desires", common simple things like I imagine riches, sex, substances and pleasure would be are boring to him, heās eaten those so many times already. So perhaps he wouldnāt last long as a dunlord, the WL would want to eat him fully quick, canāt keep him interested or waiting long for a meager meal, too much effort raising the cattle and too low quality meat. By making it more twisted or layered Chilās desire would become more desirable to the demon, itās part of whatās fun with the third option to me. But whatever. Has he ever eaten a guy with this much repression and self-sabotage... Like trying to get the meat out of a walnut, enrichmentā¦
Other dunlord Chil takes Iāve seen that are fun and good:
@feelo-fick and @pluvio-floret have a dunlord Chilchuck AU project dubbed "tragedy AU" where Chilchuck is said to be "on vacation", in a weird delirious state, only half-there half of the timeā¦ From which he doesnāt want to wake up </3 Quoting Feelo, this is why the vacation thing is only a half-joke cause he is 1) letting all his responsibilities go 2) indulging in himself and 3) "spending time with his family" <- lie but you get what i mean. Additional comments that have me vigorously nodding: because changing is hard why cant things just be okay right now without the effort !!! Life is hard heās so so tired he just wants to feel goodā¦ he just wants life to feel nice and easy for a sec while he can learn to breathe again and lose the stress and trauma heās accumulatedā¦ā¦.. spoiler alert yes !!! in fact a depressed person can suck themselves into their job and lock out the world who wouldve thought !!!
And then Cabinette I know posted about his dunlord take once but I donāt have the link, in which Chil has a lot of nosebleeds because of mana overload which is fun and interesting to think about imo~
In dunmeshi, where characters get underground pockets of the world as their playground disconnected from everything outside and the rest of the world, itās important to remember to face reality even if it has conflict and people with different views and stances from you, itās something Chilchuck and Marcille and everyone needed to learn, and the thing with a dungeon lord AU is that you imagine a timeline where he fails to <3
A timeline where his dungeon lord wish is to desire nothing bc hope and want has only ever hurt him would also go so hard. Very universal thing though I suppose.
ā¦ And this is why a Chilchuck-centric Coraline AU is really really interesting and fitting and topicalā Ok thatāll go in a separate reblog/post at @Fumiku I need to let this end
#Dungeon meshi#chilchuck tims#Analysis#dungeon lord chilchuck#Spoilers#dungeon meshi manga spoilers#Wish we could put just parts of a post under a āclick to read moreā box that scrolls open and closes neatly#Bc 3/4th of the post is just extra explanation for ppl who donāt See The Vision already but like thatās not what i wanted most of the post#to be really gdbdg#Headcanons#You could say the family also represents something heās built up with how own hands. If he has self-worth issues and thinks heās a screw-up#in the virtue/honor and likability department especiallyā his family destroyed/killed also represents the one biggest good thing#heās done/created crumbling also. Like his wife leaving without a word while he trusted their relationship this can hugely impact#oneās sense of identity and self-worth and what youāre living life for. In his case itās not too surprising he turned to simple#physical pleasures for comfort and enjoyment. Like with tasting good food having moments feeling good keeps you going#He always focuses on the bad relationships bring and never the good aghhhh#The reverse of Marcille who often idealizes. They both ignore problems in their relationships in opposite ways.#What do you mean why do i bring up marcille. Okay yes thisāll get a marchil Fumiku short brainstorm reblog as well#Chilchuck is soā¦ curse of having feelings and not realizing the extent of them. Underestimating how much you care#Itās either āiām fine who caresā or falling into the pits of despair and blaming himself n spilling his whole bag no inbetween#Dunmeshi succubus#Fumi rambles#boy thatās what this boils down to i suppose#Family angst āHey I came back home from work and iām tired so donāt talk to me about problems or anything k? Iām here to relax smh damnā#< unwilling to admit he has issues he should be working on or that some things are affecting others negatively#Chil you are so enneagram 6w7 <3
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Oh hey look I drew fanart! A chalkboard drawing for a large bookstore in my city, they're going to sell the manga soon so they wanted to promote it.
#dungeon meshi#delicious in dungeon#I want to read the manga so bad. I like the anime a lot#I'm not experienced in drawing manga-type faces so I'm quite happy with how the characters turned out#chalkboard art#Fanart
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Fanfiction is so goated actually
No monetary incentive, just writing in one's free time. Some incentive for like kudos and comments, because who doesn't want to hear that someone else enjoyed what they wrote. Just writing a story that is good and/or enjoyable, no real-life pressure to keep it going because god forbid you and other people are depending on it financially.
Writing a story because you want to write a good story, so you can write what they want the way you want, at a pace that is realistic for you, with exactly the plot pacing you want there to be.
#c*rny posts#thinking about this after the my h*ro academia leaks lmao#i have read barely a few chapters of the manga and then kept up with it through tumblr osmosis#i was interested in how its gonna end#and after reading the leaks i was like 'well its up to the fanfic writers to write a good ending now'#cause. it was kind of underwhelming. like some stuff made sense and some things were just done badly#which is realistic considering h*rikoshi is apparently burned out to hell#and i was thinking. man. if i had to write AND illustrate a story for like ten years straight. because its my bread and butter#and there are other people depending on the story doing well to make money#it would 100% get to me. i would rather end it all lmao#which is why i think fanfic is so great#just writing a story that you want. that makes sense to you. that has elements you want. that is exactly as long as you want.#and there isnt even a possibility of really monetizing it so there is no drive to make is 'succeed' or make it as long as possible#this could be applied to just writing a 'regular' story also that is not intended for publishing#also kinda makes me think about h*ikyuu#i kinda do feel the timeskip and the ending were a bit rushed#but like. if it was me. i would have rushed it too lmao#after so many years of working on one thing and one thing only i would have been so done. just so done#and h*ikyuu ending to me wasnt even bad. it was good with good resolution of everything. with characters evolving and achieving their dreams#not necessarily volleyball related (like tenma)#the progress made realistic sense#but it did feel a bit rushed#anyway#fanfic and writing for yourself is great#and manga authors face way too much pressure from people dependent on them. from fans. even from society in general
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I wanna kiss a boy so bad right now agh. Want to kiss a boy all over his face and then just touch his face and stare at him
#mlm#ftm mlm#gay#mlm yearning#i want a boyfriend so bad#also i finished banana fish recently and :(((( so sad i finished watching it. im going to read the manga next#im going to start that new anime thats got twilight in its name but i can't remember the full name of it#its got 2 eps so far though and 5 mangas i think#should also finish sk8#and Death Note#and sasaki to miyano#and jujutsu kaisen. i keep starting shows and not finishing them got to find a way to stop that
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What if the real reason senshi is so against ressurection magic is because if he had had it back when his mining group first found the dungeon then maybe he could have saved them from their fate.
If itās so easy to revive people in this place then how come his family is dead anyway?
#just thoughts#i feel like he probably spent so much time making peace with what happened#and trying to overcome that trauma#just to find this shit out#wild#dungeon meshi#senshi#senshi of izganda#i have not read the manga btw#i want to so bad but i wanna be at least a little unspoiled when season two comes out#anyway#senshi angst yippee
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so because we have only three chapters left, Iāve decided that Iām going to wait for the official release instead of going through the leaks as Iāve been doing forā¦ almost the past 2 years. I donāt want the leaks and the fandom discourse to ruin my last experience with jjk as a still ongoing mangaā¦ plus I thought it would be more fun and enjoyable this way... more special ig (Iām being so sappy ik) wish me luck guys!!
#Plus I want to know what it feels like to read a jjk chapter without the leakersā wonky translation and shitty panels quality#alsoā¦ Iām soooooo tired of the discourse Iām genuinely over it.#Iām trying really hard to avoid it and just enjoy the chapters#cause even if I had my own doubts (that expressed here) about certain things#they were more or less later addressed in the next couple of chapters#so at this point Iām like ok I still donāt know what to expect or how gege is going to tackle all of it.#I have more questions than answers regarding characters like sukuna yuuji or megumi.#yes I loved sukunaās conclusion and no idk how certain his ending it is as everything about it felt quite vague and unclear.#so yes Iām happy but Iām also open to whatever gege has planned for the last three chaptersā¦#and basically whatever. just you do you gege I really donāt know what to expect. AT ALL.#all I know is that I want to let gege finish his story so I could have a full picture in mind#Iām tired of reading and going through assumptions criticism about new released chapters#while knowing that there are still more (now just three) chapters left#this was basically my whole jjk fandom experience after EVERY new chapter āthis is bad and doesnāt make senseā likeā¦#the story is not even finished yet š#I just want gege to finish the manga and then we can talk about what went well or what went wrongā¦ and all#but in the meantime I just want to enjoy the story for as long as I can#thatās all#jjk#personal
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So guess who finally watched JJK
#I went from watching Dungeon Meshi earlier this month to watching JJK and I havenāt watched a shounen in literal years so#I can found dead in a ditch after being beaten bloody and raw holy shit#I like knew it would but dark but like Jesus fucking Christ on a cracker I was not expecting that#I still need to read the manga but like damn I need a moment after that#so far I can say JJK is in fact worth the hype and has consumed my soul#Yuuji Itadori my absolute beloved I love you so much I would die for you with zero hesitation#heās my favorite character and I only want good things for him so so badly and I also want to torture him#I have a deep love hate relationship with Sukuna that kinda haunts me#Megumi is so funky I like him a lot#an absolute madman pretending to be the straight man in bits and no I will not be taking criticism on this opinion#kugisaki my girl you deserve more screen time please let her shine#nanamin you will also haunt me#I didnāt want to like Gojo I was like I am above simping for him and then Iām putting on the clown make up and THEN#They put him in a box just as I went goddamn it I am down bad for Gojo Satoru like COME ON#Anyway Suguru and his eye bags and depression and deeply rooted issues compelled me#Satosugu brain rot is in fact and real and can hurt me#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#shibuya arc#itadori yuuji#megumi fushiguro#nobara kugisaki#gojo satoru#geto suguru#nanami kento#satosugu#ryomen sukuna
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hey guys remember that thing. with the stuff. the sillys
(ignore that this is a redraw i hated the other one so much i deleted the post. ah)
#off game#scotcharts#off the batter#off batter#batter off#the batter#puella magi madoka magica#pmmm#pmmm madoka#madoka kaname#madoka magica#madoka magica fanart#off mortis ghost#off fanart#off#i think were gonna have to kill this guy steven#art#digital art#finding things to tag this because i like it alot#i like my recent art alot actually#madoka has a lazy eye its true i made the show#and manga idk what came first#i want to read it so bad#hey tumblr why the hell do you want me to tag this horrible things#im trying to be silly here
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...I feel like Mihawk and Law would get along really well
#from ch 662#theyre both cryptic bastards lmaooo#one piece#trafalgar law#reading op#op manga#I did not know this arc is where he showed up again so i am VERY excited#wait hangon theyre both warlords rn they might have met??????#i want them sitting together in a room in DEAD SILENCE so bad ahahahaha
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Trigun Thoughts Vol. 1 Pt. 2
So now that I've finished with volume 1, I just wanted to write down a couple thoughts I've had and neat things to point out so far
When I was watching Stampede, I took note of a few kind of textbook avoidant behaviours Vash engages in, and lo and behold, here he is in the manga displaying even more of them. I'll list out a few here.
In order, we have:
Casually asking for a time limit on the interaction (ie. "How long do I have to keep this up before I can leave?")
Attempting to lose people in a crowd
Leaving without saying anything (and as a bonus, dreading being recognized in public)
Over-indulging or over-involving oneself in social events to create a viable excuse to leave suddenly (in this case, he uses alcohol as a reason to "pass out")
Sleeping to avoid unwanted conversation
Escaping to the bathroom to get away for a bit (and also to grumble about it haha)
Playing off sincere reactions by deliberately allowing them to be misinterpreted to avoid personal questions
It's really obvious, even this early in the manga, that Vash is intentionally avoiding prolonged interaction with people, and only involving himself in situations by necessity. He doesn't like attention on himself - the only reason he intentionally draws it is to divert it away from others.
The reason for this is a bit muddy though. It does seem that Vash doesn't particularly enjoy being caught up in drama, and it is also very likely he wishes to get in and out of places as quickly as possible to avoid them getting caught up in his drama too. It may even be that he finds prolonged socializing kind of tiring; that he needs a certain amount of time to himself.
But then there's also this bit, shortly after the celebration, where he pretends to pass out.
This brings in a bit of a guilt aspect to it. It likely has to do with July, or maybe it's due to something else (at this point, we can't say), but I think it's notable that Vash cuts things off shortly before they become intimate. He can play along to make others happy and to share in their joy for a bit, but the second things get too personal or focused on him, he will quietly slip away. Now this is specifically an instance of physical intimacy, but I think it'd probably hold for emotional intimacy as well, given the continuous avoidance and misdirection he does to prevent too many questions.
I made some commentary on Stampede Vash's self-punishing behaviours - specifically, the way he denies himself food. I don't want to get too into it because I don't know if everyone reading this has seen Stampede, but food is framed as something to be shared in the show - so, denying himself food is denying himself the right to share with others, which is denying himself belonging, which is denying himself any semblance of intimacy. (It means other things too, as food-sharing is associated with Rem, but I don't want to get too into it here.)
Vash in the manga doesn't seem to have the same issues with eating, but this is a similar premise - he's denying himself intimacy out of a sense of not being deserving of it.
So, then, there are probably many interwoven reasons for Vash's avoidance - he's sick of the chaos that follows him around, he doesn't want others getting hurt, he gets tired from having to "play it up" all the time, and he seems to also feel that he doesn't deserve that closeness. I'm intrigued to see how Vash's avoidance will be tackled going forward (I'm assuming it will?), and I suspect, more than there being one right reason for it, that all these reasons are actually true to an extent.
On a completely different note, this panel here is the biggest mood. I feel it in my bones.
#me looking at vash's avoidant strategies: ha ha ha. i do that.#me: ...wait. no. that's bad.#meryl says 'vash stop getting into situations' and vash says 'i am trying to get OUT of the situations! i don't want to be here either!!!'#i do think there's a lot of... exhaustion to his character we don't see as much with stampede vash. manga vash looks TIRED man.#it makes sense. we know vash isn't... happy. to say the least.#playing it up all the time when you are not happy - i can tell you any social interaction becomes flat out exhausting#you're always acting. you feel like you have to be so careful with what you say. it's far less draining to just leave the room.#trigun#trigunbookclub#vash the stampede#trigun meta#storyrambles#if i'm just saying what is incredibly obvious or repeating what others have already said i'm sorry.#once i'm caught up i'll follow the book club tag and read what others have written!
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itās happening the ppl r already trying to hit me with spoilers of the mha manga chapters
#pray for me yall#esp bc i wanted to read the spoilers so bad when they warned me it was a spoiler#trembling over here#bnha#mha#boku no hero academia#my hero academia#mha manga leaks
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"The finale is bad."
Damn, we didn't even get it officially released out yet.
#not surprised though with this fandom#i said it before#no matter what the ending was going to be some of y'all will never be satisfied#this need for 'i want it to go how i want it to go' and 'perfection' bores me more than the actual story#i really do feel like some of you only read a manga just to critique it and not for entertainment#and it's so sad#'he left openings--' i warned y'all about that but i don't think it's a bad thing#makes me feel like that i as a reader can really open my eyes and find what may could be said here while also enjoying myself#but if you don't like the ending you don't#i don't care because it could be worse#just kiya's thoughts#bnha#mha#boku no hero academia#my hero academia#bnha 430#mha 430#bnha manga spoilers#mha manga spoilers#bnha spoilers#mha spoilers
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Watching an anime only for the producers to not fucking finish the story and forcing me to read the manga for the rest is truly an evil thing
āAt least you get the rest of the story-ā YEAH WELL I WANTED TO SEE THE STORY ANIMATED
#I just finished seraph of the end and mannnn I wanted more so bad#now I have to read the manga AJDBWKDNJS#<<truly a pain š#Iām not counting stories that are currently being animated like jjk or tristamp but like older animes that you know arenāt getting renewed
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