#wanna cry I'm so dizzy i love women

[meowmeowxoxo]

No because you don't understand girls make my head dizzy like I- I JUST IDK!!

Like help😭😭😥when I like a girl my senses they are fucked like I can't think straight I just think wow I wanna kiss her so bad and I CAN'T MOVE ON FROM THAT LIKE UGH!!!

I think like wow we could be so cute together! We could be so in lovee I'd do so much for her! These thoughts are rampant and constant when I'm allowing myself to thinking about women for a long period of time and now my head hurts and it's 4am 😭 like HOWWW?! The guys I've had crushes on or even have been attracted to NEVER brought such a scary confusing mindset before.

Something is up. Something is gay and I'll figure it out!

[siriustaylorsversion]

lavender haze - louis partridge x reader

summary- reader being known as a psycho serial dater, like taylor and people asking louis about that but him not caring. the reader is a new charecter in enola holmes 2 and they made their relationship public recently. it's basically all of rep combined with the few lyrics of lavender haze that highlight a few moments that you share privately.

staring at the ceiling with you oh, you don't ever say too much and you don't really read into my melancholia

the light was blinding as i look a seat with my friends and the cast of one of the most popular movies on netflix... enola holmes 2! i remember being completely shocked when i got the call for my role, how i was so terrified to meet the cast, but now, i found my best friends and my love among them.

after finding out how paranoid i was one afternoon louis just blurted out his feelings for me. i had a hard time believing him but, they were true. his stuttering was the cutest thing ever. "have you seen yourself?!" he said. "they see you on the screen, they see the way you carry yourself, how you can make anyone cry by just acting that way and it only takes you three seconds to get in your role. they love you just like i do! well- i mean, damn that is not how i planned this would go."

I've been under scrutiny (yeah, oh yeah) You handle it beautifully (yeah, oh yeah) All this shit is new to me (yeah, oh yeah)

just his instagram post for my birthday makes my heart flutter every time.

louispartridge_

louispartridge_ happy birthday to the happiest soul in the universe. you make every morning worth waking up to and every day worth living. being with you has been like a roller coaster but one that only goes up and just gets more thrilling as time passes. i hope to wake up next to you every single day of my life and wish to spend every single second of my day with you. i love you so so much and i hope you'll let these wishes come true.

I feel a lavender haze creeping up on me So real, I'm damned if I do give a damn what people say No deal, the 1950s shit they want from me I just wanna stay in that lavender haze

my love language has always been physical touch and even though i've never discussed this... he just seemed to know it. be it three squeezes on my wrist before an interview or resting his hand on my thigh below the dinner table, he always knew. he used to share our playlists that we made for each other to his friends with pride and always got me lavenders after a successful...or stressful shoot because of the first movie we ever watched together... it said that lavender haze is a term for love, and flowers are my favorite things.

All they keep asking me (all they keep asking me) Is if I'm gonna be your bride The only kind of girl they see (the only kind of girl they see) Is a one night or a wife

i was never prepared for all the fans' recognition and they treated me with love for a newbie... they asked polite questions and about my experience. it was going well until a fan asked louis about my...well, past. "as everyone knows, y/n has been acquainted with many men in the past so, how did you as a friend since you guys were friends before you got into a relationship, fall in love with her? was it that this was only for publicity, maybe a one night stand... or is it getting serious, i mean, can we hear wedding bells ringing?"

I find it dizzying (yeah, oh yeah) They're bringing up my history (yeah, oh yeah) But you aren't even listening (yeah, oh yeah)

i can sense his muscles tensing. below the table, he squeezes my hand three times to make sure i don't panic, and with a deep breath and a smile, answers their question. "well first of all, i don't know how how many men a women has dated in the past impacts your feelings towards her. like you said... we were friends first and i always found her attractive but just her little attention to details you say like when she once made a playlist for one of our friends which consisted of a song that reminded him of his mother... on his mother's death anniversary she promptly skipped that song when asked to play the playlist. or how she would give her 100% to everything she does, like once she learnt how to perfectly play a song on the guitar in 32 hours just because it was my dream to form my own band with my friends and sing something for my sisters wedding."

he looks at me for a second and notices tears in my eyes, " she's so caring towards everyone even if they may have hurt her and cannot stand animal cruelty at all. one of my favorite things about her... her sarcasm, of course. it's, as per her, one of her main qualities. she'll make you laugh in any situation and bring your mood up." i squeeze his hand tightly. "she's telling me to shut up now and so i will, it's things like this that made me fall in love with her and not her reputation. even for you, it never should be."

Talk your talk and go viral I just need this love spiral Get it off your chest Get it off my desk (get it off my desk) Talk your talk and go viral I just need this love spiral Get it off your chest Get it off my desk

the next day his beautiful speech was trending all over social media. we went back home from there and had a dinner in our apartment muttering sweet nothings in each other's ears and not caring about what anyone may or may not think about us.

I feel (I feel) a lavender haze creeping up on me So real, I'm damned if I do give a damn what people say No deal (no deal), the 1950s shit they want from me I just wanna stay in that lavender haze

it is reasons like this i am so completely and utterly smitten for this guy. i mean, who wouldn't be?! the lavender haze has taken over my whole body and i cannot wait for a future with him by my side. that's all i need forever and always.

talk to loved ones or youself... do something to make the day memorable <3

[jessybarnes]

Unexpected But Always Wanted

Fandom - Metallica

Chapter One: Unbelievable News

Ship - James Hetfield x Lars Ulrich

Rating - 18+ Only

Tags - MPREG!, angst, fluff, vomiting, crying, explicit language, and I think that's it.

Word Count -  1k

Fic Aesthetic - Yours truly

A/N - This story will feature male pregnancy, or mpreg, if that's not your thing, then I will kindly ask that you keep scrolling :)

“Everyone has inside of them a piece of good news. The good news is that you don't know how great you can be, how much you can love, what you can accomplish, and what your potential is!” --Anne Frank

There was one thing James and Lars had wanted since they got together other than each other, and that was a child. That subject came up frequently, but neither of them knew when the right time was. Let alone the fact that both were male and couldn't conceive.

At least that's what they thought.

Before today they never dreamed they would be able to be parents without a surrogate or adoption, but with Metallica releasing a new album they didn't have time for all the paperwork and interviews. They agreed that they would wait until the time was right, but that wasn't right now. Fate had other plans for them though.

In the early hours of the morning on October 14th, James woke up feeling nauseous and dizzy. He stumbled to the bathroom feeling along the wall for support. Barely making it, he got sick until he had nothing left but dry heaves. Lars heard him and made his way into the bathroom rubbing his eyes sleepily. 

"James, what's wrong? Are you okay?" 

Lars looked concerned at James' appearance. He looked pale, clammy, and downright miserable. He wondered if it was something he ate, but upon recalling what they had eaten he realized that it couldn't have been the food. Lars ate the same things and he wasn't sick.

"Lars, I don't know... I don't know what's wrong with me. I feel terrible, but at the same time, I'm starving. Like I have never been this hungry. It's like I haven't eaten in a month. That's not the weirdest part...I want a BLT but with ketchup instead of mayo..." 

Lars scrunched his nose in disgust before offering James a glass of water from the sink. 

"James, don't be ridiculous. It's three in the morning and you want a BLT with ketchup? What are you pregnant or something?" 

James took small sips from the glass using what little strength he had to flip Lars the bird. 

"Fuck off man, don't joke about that shit. You know how bad I want us to have a baby. If I had a test to piss on I would take it just to see if they really work, ya know. I have always kinda wondered how those things can determine if women are pregnant or not." 

Lars rolled his eyes and turned to reach into the closet that was next to the shower. He began digging and moving stuff around while James watched in confusion. 

"Lars what the hell are you doing?" 

After practically climbing inside the closet he held something out to James. 

"Here, you wanna see if they work? Now's your chance." 

He stared wondrously at the little plastic package before looking back at his Dane. 

"Lars where did you... why do you... how...?" 

Lars chewed on his bottom lip considering his thought. 

"Well, before you and I got together, Connie and I were trying to have kids, and she kinda bought tests in bulk. That is left over from what she bought. Now, will you pee on the damn thing so we can get back to bed? I'm cold and wanna cuddle you." 

James smirked at Lars before tearing open the package with his teeth. He wouldn't admit it outside their home, but Lars loved cuddles, and he especially loved to be the little spoon. 

"Okay, but don't get your hopes up. Last time I checked I was a man, which was yesterday." 

Lars crossed his arms over his chest and narrowed his eyes. 

"Very funny Hetfield, now will you pee already? It's like Antarctica in here." 

James loved when he got cranky. He always thought it was so cute. His little Danish spitfire. 

"Alright alright! Don't get your panties in a bunch." 

James removed the protective cap from the end and carefully aimed until he covered the end thoroughly. He placed the cap back on and set it on the counter before taking a seat on the toilet lid. 

"So how long do we have to wait to find out that I'm not pregnant?" 

Lars smoothed out the wrapper and mumbled to himself while looking for the directions. 

"Says here we wait about three minutes for the results to take place." 

The clock on the wall was the only thing making noise as they waited. James with his head in his hands to try and stifle his sudden case of vertigo, and Lars leaning against the door frame chewing on his nail. 

"That's it I can't take it anymore... It's been long enough!" 

James snatched the test and turned it over. 

"Well, what does it say? Tell me so we can go back to sleep." 

James furrowed his brows and handed it to Lars. 

"I don't know man, there are too many lines on this damn thing for me to tell. I'll never understand how women read these damn things." 

Lars was completely silent, staring wide-eyed at the test. He barely breathed, and his hands were shaking. 

"C'mon Lars, stop fuckin' with me. It may be early as fuck, but you still can't trick me. Even when I am dog ass tired." 

Lars looked at him with fear and shock before stumbling out a reply. 

"Jamie... I don't... it..."  

Lars' eyes filled with tears and James snapped his head up to his lover. He never called him Jamie unless something was wrong or he was scared. Not even when they were joking around. 

"Lars what does it say? Baby, c'mere what is it?" 

Lars pawed at the tears that escaped his eyes and collapsed to his knees in front of him. James engulfed his tiny figure into his arms, and his voice was even smaller as he whispered against his bare chest. 

"Jamie... it says you're pregnant..."

[tothemeadow]

I'm the pregnancy anon. I meant like while she was pregnant. Not necessarily the before, like she would already be nice and plump. That's why I considered it a hard ask. If it too much no worries. And I hope you feel better babe. ♥

yaaaay requests r open!! i adore your writing so so much !! maaam i have been missing your tanjirou content and would love breeding kink tanjiro but with a more subby tanjirou? not to say the other one wasnt good (it was FANTASTIC and i re read it all the time .///.) i would just really like to see ur take on subby tanjirou getting overwhelmed by the idea of his wife bearing his child 🥺🥺

Since these two requests are similar, I’ve decided to pair them together!

‘lucent’ / Kamado T. x Reader

warnings: NSFW, pregnant sex

words: 1,426

(a/n): Tanjiro is 18+ in this!

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Sweet, sweet, sweet, such soft, supple skin…

You’re just so big, brilliantly so, and it’s all Tanjiro’s doing. His face flushes with the mere thought and a smile grows on his face. You’re going to have twins, aren’t you? That’s why your belly is so ripe, skin swollen and glistening.

Feet propped on his lap, you hum in contentment, your eyes scanning over the printed text of your book. It’s some raggedy old thing, leather bound with yellowing pages, but to you, it’s a treasure. Urokodaki was kind enough to give it to you, and Tanjiro can still envision the expression that played on your face when the older man gifted it to you. Tanjiro absentmindedly massages your feet, his eyes lingering on your tummy.

Gods, you’re breathtaking.

If he could stay in this moment forever, he would. Tanjiro’s so helplessly in love with you, nearly obsessed with all the finer details. You’re his, and he’s yours in return. Even better, there’s a tiny human growing inside of you, a symbol of the love the two of you share. And to think, soon you’ll be cradling that little bundle of joy, singing soft tunes and looking utterly ethereal.

“Tanjiro?” you ask, voice gentle. Glancing up, Tanjiro notices your eyes are on him rather than your book. “Is everything alright?”

“Things couldn’t better,” he responds, his blush darkening. Reaching for your hand, he snatches it in his hold and brings it to his lips, placing a kiss to the backs of your knuckles. “I’m just excited for the future is going to bring,” he says, placing both of your hands on your belly.

“I am too.” You beam at him and close your book. “You’ll be a wonderful father, Tanjiro. I couldn’t ask for any else to do a better job.” 

Tanjiro’s heart flutters at the word “father.” It still feels like a dream, one that he could only hope to grasp, yet here it is, the very proof sitting underneath his hand. Subconsciously, he begins to rub his hand back and forth, warmth blooming is his chest and spreading across his entire being. This is what pure joy feels like. Tanjiro must be the luckiest man on Earth to have you as his wife, and now that you’re pregnant…

“I can’t wait to have a family with you,” he confesses. “Imagining all these little children crowding around you makes me excited.”

“I think that just means you want to take me to bed every night,” you tease.

Tanjiro bites back a smile. It’s not you’re wrong, not in the very least, but you don’t have to outright expose him like that. “I’m not arguing against that,” he murmurs.

“Ever the charmer,” you tell him. Placing a hand at his nape, you softly scratch his scalp. “That’s what you want, huh? To pump me full of kids until I can’t walk anymore?” At that, Tanjiro gulps, the pleasant warmth in his body shooting southwards. “You know what? If you play your cards right, I just might let you,” you purr, leaning forward.

Slanting your mouth over his, you kiss him slowly, deeply. Tanjiro’s hands shake lightly as you run your fingers through his hair, scraping his scalp. Your touch is too enticing, the flick of your tongue over his bottom lip nearly sending his eyes rolling towards the back of his head. Oh gods, you taste so sweet, and the flowery scent sticking to your glowing skin sets Tanjiro’s heart ablaze. But wait – no, that’s not it. He can smell the dampness collecting between your thighs. If he wasn’t already half hard before, this surely does the trick.

“Tanjiro,” you purr, tugging him closer. “Be a good boy and fuck me, won’t you?”

He can’t deny you when you’re like this. Your voice drips with honey, the saccharine sweetness making him dizzy. Oh, but the thought of him leaning over your swollen body and fucking you slowly nearly hurts.

“I… I might lose control,” Tanjiro admits, his eyelashes fluttering.

“I’m not made of glass, Tanjiro,” you say, caressing his cheek. “I’ve noticed you staring at me more so than usual. Honey, do you have a thing for pregnant women?”

“Only if it’s you involved,” he says, voice dry.

Leaning back, you pull him with you. Now flat on your back, your hands roam his body, tracing the hard lines of muscle through his yukata and gripping his ass. Tanjiro sighs as he kisses you, a large, rough hand kneading your thigh.

“Ah-ah-ah,” you breathe, pulling away from the kiss. “I don’t think I gave you permission to touch me like this.”

“Please, baby,” Tanjiro nearly whines, his tone borderline desperate. “You’re just so sweet and soft and fuck I want to make you feel good.”

“You always babble when things get to be too much…” A hint of a smile plays on your features. “You wanna fuck me, right? Stuff me with that fat cock until I’m crying out your name?”

Tanjiro’s cock twitches at your filthy words. Of course he wants to fuck you silly, to have you cream around his cock. You’d look so beautiful coming undone, swollen body covered in sweat and cum-

“Ah, shit,” Tanjiro gasps as you grasp his cock. “When did you-“

“You think too much,” you tease, slipping your hand over his exposed chest. Your hands are surely deft, having undone his yukata without him even noticing. Oh, but your touch is magical, brushing over his abs, the swell of his pectorals. His breath hitches as you pinch a hardened nipple; licking your lips, you guide his hands to your own yukata. Tanjiro wastes not another moment, tugging your yukata open and nearly drooling over the sight of your smooth flesh.

Somehow, exposed like this, you look even bigger. He’s the one who got you all pretty and large like this, and he’d be lying if his heart didn’t pick up its pace at the thought. You’re having his baby, you’re having his baby, holy shit-

“Can I fuck you?” Tanjiro nearly pants. “Please? You’re so gorgeous, all swollen like this; I really, really want to fuck you,” he babbles. “Please, baby, please.”

Dropping his hips, he grinds his cock against your sopping pussy, a breathy moan slipping from his throat. Fuck he needs this so, so bad. Don’t tease him, please, he needs to fuck you until you’re feeling as dizzy as he is-

“Show me what you got, honey,” you purr, bringing his head to rest on your shoulder.

A throaty grunt fills your ear as Tanjiro pushes in, your velvety walls clamping down around his cock and sucking him in greedily. He doesn’t know how, but you feel even tighter than before. The smell of your slick has him panting wildly, your warmth and silky skin beckoning him to fuck you. Mouthing at your neck, he sets a steady pace, cock driving in deep. You have to become as desperate as he feels, beg him for another child, for a whole fucking family. He’ll answer to your every beck and call if it means you’ll humor him, shower him with love in and outside of the bedroom.

“Baby,” he murmurs, a pleading lilt to his tone, “you’re gonna make me cum so hard. Mmph – yeah, move your hips just like that. Keep squeezing…”

“Don’t tell me what to do,” you murmur, clenching even harder around his thick cock.

Tanjiro whimpers, his hair tickling your cheek and neck as he nods his head. “Please let me cum,” he says, thrusts quickening, becoming more desperate. Dropping his head, he mouths at your swollen breasts, tongue flicking over a nipple. A hand slips between your legs, fingers expertly locating your clit and rubbing furiously at it, eager to have you cum alongside him.

“Please,” Tanjiro cries, “lemme cum, lemme cum, cream around my cock, baby, ohhh-“

Choking on a gasp, his movements turn frantic as he bucks into you. Before long, his orgasm rips through his body, leaving him moaning your name as his cum fills you to the brim. Still, his fingers continue on; you are going to cum, whether you want to it or not. Your nails sink into the meat of his shoulders as you convulse around him, a breathless noise erupting from your chest as you arch into him.

“Tanjiro…”

“I got you, baby,” Tanjiro coos, hands trembling lightly as he clutches your face. With a small smile, he kisses you, the flush on his cheeks unbearably warm. “I’ll be here, always. I’m not going anywhere.”

[donutloverxo]

Auntie flow

Warnings- smut, period talk, period sex, shower sex.

Please do not steal or repost my content. Reblogs are welcome.

Wtf am I doing posting this.

Masterlist

Steve stepped into the elevator and pressed the button for his floor. He was so excited he was almost jumping. It had been a busy few days he hasn't had much time to spend with you. Luckily he managed to get his work done sooner so that he could go home and cuddle all night. Maybe you both can go out to eat, go to McDonald's drive through. He didn't consider that real food but anything to indulge you.

The elevator dinged and he stepped out pressing in the code for his apartment.

"Honey, I'm home", he called out for you, heloved saying that.

It was nice to come home to someone. You had only started living together a month ago but he still wasn't used to it. Usually you would come and jump into his arms. So to get no response from you was weird.

He stepped further in and saw you in front of the tv clutching your stomach. He ran to your side and started stroking your hair. "Hey, what's wrong?"

You looked up at him your lips quivering, "I'm dying."

"What? What happened?" He knew you tend to a tad bit overdramatic sometimes but he was worried nonetheless. The med bay was still open maybe he could take you there.

"Auntie flow is visiting and she is being extra bitchy this month," you whine. You did feel a little bad, he just got home from a long day and you were already venting.

"Oh no, sweetheart. Is there anything I can do?" he cooed.

"No. I just need to go lay down. I had to pick up my teams slack today so I'm just a bit frustrated."

"Alright. You go take a nap and I'll make us some pasta. I'll wake you up for dinner. Does that sound good?" You nodded and went to the bedroom to lay down.

He washed his hands and started on making dinner.

He hated this.

He hated feeling so helpless. There must be something he can do for you. He didn't have a lot of experience with periods. Except that one time you asked him to buy some tampons for you. He still found it weird that it just... sits in you all day.

While stirring the sauce he looked up periods on the internet. He read chocolates make women feel better. He could order some or go buy them real quick.

But then... he stumbled upon an article that said orgasms relieve cramp pain.

"Steve, can I help you?" He jerked when he heard your voice. He didn't hear you come in at all.

"Hey, you couldn't sleep?" he asked and put his phone aside for now.

"Well, I'm just uncomfortable," you whispered as you stepped in front of him and started toying with the buttons on his shirt. "It's been a week. I miss you."

Your relationship was still brand new, so you not being intimate for a week was making you so so horny. Maybe it was the hormones or seeing him be so caring or how fine his ass looked in those jeans.

Could be anything.

"It has been a busy week," he cradled your face and dipped down to kiss you.

"Let's go take a bath?" you whispered.

A bath would be very relaxing for you but it wasn't very practical. Steve's brain has always been very strategic he started thinking of places where he could please you the most, now that he knew his way around your body so well, if Bucky was alive he'd call him a 'stud'.

Which would be untrue. He was just a guy trying to take care of his girl.

"Hm... Let's go in the shower," he suggested.

You nodded and stepped out of the kitchen. He switched off the stove. He can make pasta later, he has to attend to his girl now.

He looked at you stripping your pajamas, in awe of you even though he'd seen everything so many times now

"What? You've seen me naked hundreds of times now," you said and rolled your eyes. You started setting the shower.

"Somehow you become more beautiful everytime." he kissed your shoulder as you felt heat creep up to your cheeks.

He wasn't a fan of living in the tower. There were so many buttons and settings everyday. It would be nice to have some simplicity. But now with his new family and his girl this was home and having a ridiculously huge shower helped in occasions such as these.

You both stepped into the shower and he started kissing down your neck to your chest. He sucked and left marks on your breasts and clavicles, making you gasp and moan.

The hot water and steam somehow making your skin even more sensitive and hot. You thread your hand through his hair. He looks up at you. You melt looking at the love and adoration in his eyes.

He dips down to capture your lips into a kiss. You close your eyes and lose yourself in it. You feel his fingers trail down your stomach and reach between your legs. You break the kiss to take deep breaths, biting his neck. He parts your intimate lips, rubbing your clit. You gasp, struggling to breathe, his expert fingers already making you dizzy.

He pushes a finger inside you and then another. He thinks about how your moans maybe the best sounds he has ever heard. How did he go so long without hearing them.

"Steve..." you moan "use two fingers."

"I am," he said.

"Then use three!" you whined.

Usually just two would be more than enough, on account of how thick they were, but your pussy was being especially needy tonight.

He added a third finger. It was a tight fit. He started pumping them as you grew more and more breathless. You were completely clinging to him. You screamed as you came and for a minute you felt as if you were weightless.

Forgot about how your activities had created a crime scene. How disgusting it should be or how you were made to believe it to be. But it didn't feel disgusting. It felt right because it was with the man you loved.

Steve didn't stop until you down from your high. He stood there for a minute holding you.

He abruptly picked you up with your legs wrapped around his waist and leaned you against the wall. You yelped, wrapping your arms around his neck.

He always enjoyed manhanding you and how you squeaked or yelped when he picked you up. It's in moments like these he is even more thankful to the serum. Old him would've never been able to make love to you for hours.

Hell, old him would've never been able to get a girl like you.

"You want more?" he asked between kisses.

"Yes. Yes, please. Get inside me. I wanna feel you," you pleaded.

He rubbed his cock against your drenched pussy and slowly slid in.

His breath hitched. He bit your shoulder. He slowly started rocking into you and then picked up his pace. He moaned when he felt you scratching down his back. It hurt and burned but in a way that left him wanting more.

He moved his head to look at you. Your eyes were closed, mouth wide open. It was a heavenly sight and with you wrapped around his cock it was a heavenly feeling as well.

He moved his hand from your hip between you and started stroking your clit. You gasped. "Oh my god I'm gonna cum," you come for the second time.

His thrusts became erratic and rough as he released inside you. He laid his head in your neck and you stroked his head.

You were still catching your breath. "I don't feel so terrible now," you said with a smile and made a mental note of never letting this man go.

***

After dinner Steve left saying he has some errands and wants to buy some groceries. It was strange because you already had groceries to last you for the rest of the month. When you asked if you could go with him he told you to stay home and rest.

The shower did help in relieving some pain and now you were watching some show waiting for Steve to get home.

He was back with huge bags in his hands.

"What's all this?" you asked him. It was a bit annoying how he picked now to go shopping. When you were in desperate need of sone cuddles and love.

"I got you some chocolates," he said handing you your favorite chocolates. You felt as if you were going to cry. Because chocolates... nothing would make you happier... "And... well, I saw these flowers in the store thought might as well get them for you," he continued handing you a bouquet of roses.

You kissed his cheek and thanked him.

"I also got some snacks"

"Snacks?" That perked you up. Steve never gets any good snacks, which was why you never let him do groceries. "What did you get?"

"These healthy vegan chips. They're supposed to be good for you", he says.

"Mmhm. Well I'll try them. For you, because I love you,"

"I love you too," he smiled.

[darling-valentine]

Okay dearies i told you I'd tell you how my lil trip went but i forgot!!! But i remembered now!!! So I'll try to tell you what i remember ahaha ^^ I'll probably ask my boyfie if i forgot to tell you anything important but i like writing here cause that way i have a lil timeline about me and my beloved!

Okay so the first day his aunts took us to the camping, we went to a cool restaurant with cool old school rock and it had a fish tank and i saw a cool dog and the food was cool!! We also went to a very pretty beach where u could walk among some rock formations when the tide was low and i had a lot of fun cause i love the sea and i love being with my boyfriend! We held hands all the time and he was scared I'd step on a sharp rock but I'm tough and I'm very good at walking through nature so he shouldn't be so worried but he just doesn't want me to get hurt ahaha ywy

Also i love going to the beach dressed with a shirt and tie! I think i look very pretty ^^

Then we went to the camping again and watched tv and fell asleep together, the first day i went to the women's bathroom instead of the men's cause well, I'm pretty femenine and his neighbor thought I was a girl and it made me really sad! I spent the rest of the trip avoiding him cause i think he's scary and it makes me so so sad to talk to him and see him refer to me as my boyfriend's "girlfriend", it's not my fault I'm a cute boy okay??? leave me alone and go away qwq, I also hate going to the women's bathroom and it was dark and scary at night and i started crying and had to hide under the bed's pillows as soon as I could because i got really scared,,, but when my darling saw me he comforted me and everything was fine! We talked a lot until i calmed down, i love talking to him! It's so so fun ^^, and then we fell asleep, it took me a bit more than him, but i feel safe when I sleep with him and everything was soft and fine ywy. The next day i went to the men's bathroom with him because he said I'm a man no matter what i look like and so i could go to the men's bathroom and it was a lot better because i like going with him and i don't like being alone qwq

That being said, one of the times i went to the bathroom a guy that works there told me like "hey the women's bathroom is the other way around" but my boyfie was like "dude he's a guy" and i was like "i know i don't look like it but I'm a dude" and he was like "oh god uh sorry go on" and that would've normally made me nervous and sad but since i was with my darling it was funny!

The next day we slept a bunch and ate cookies and we sat on the grass and painted together and i had a lot of fun!!! Then we went to the beach and it was cloudy and nice and there weren't many people and it was so pretty!! He took me to his favorite beach and when we laid on the ground together it felt so nice,,, his heartbeat and the waves and the wind make a pretty melody, and when I opened my eyes and saw the nuclear white of the covered sun in the sky and then saw his smile next to me i had a hard time deciding which one to look at more, i think heaven feels like that, the sand was the color of my skin and he told me it's very pretty that way.

He also taught me how to fly his kite!!! I'm not very good but it was fun ahaha^^ i also told him to throw a stick so i could fetch it but he stopped cause i was getting sand on my mouth qwq, then we laid down a bit more and then we played together because he wanted to make me fall to the sand but i didn't wanna!! And then he carried me around a bit and it was very fun!!! He's very strong and I'm pretty light so he can use me to lift weights ^^^^^

Then we walked back home and showered and then ate together and watched cartoons and movies and fell asleep together, i felt very dizzy cause i was tired and drank a bit of alcohol which i never do but it was fine!! I really like sleeping with him, he's so warm and comfy!!! And i love hugging and kissing him and he loves doing it to me too!!!

Then the last day, we watched cartoons in the morning and then we went to eat out, and after that we went for a looong walk through the cliffs near the beach and got into the sea a bit, the we went to an ice cream shop we really like and i found some bootleg sonic and shadow plushies and it was fun! I wanted to get one but he told me I'd better wait to find better looking one's to really honor them, so i left them be. Then we walked back home and laid on the grass for a while, i almost fall asleep!!! Then we showered, and tidied everything up and waited for his parents to take up to the bus to go back to our city, we listened to a book we like on the way back, and it all went cool!!!

Overall it was very fun! My dysphoria made me feel bad a lot of the time but my beloved was always there to cheer me up and remind me that I'm pretty and that he loves me, and i love him back smsmsm!!! waaaaaAaa i wanna sleep with him more ꒰/ฅ//ฅ//꒱ ♡︎

[juminsmysticmc]

Hello~I'm so happy to request something again! So I wanted something about MC and Jumin in a date to a restaurant or a party and MC got poisoned? like someone tried to kill her and put something in her food or her drink ? and what would Jumin react to that if that's possible..Please feel free to ignore this if you don't like it! 💛

POISONED 

Woah! I love this kind of request! I hope you enjoy it! Please feel free to tell me your opinion! 

By the way! This OneShot wasn’t corrected by @brendascorner so excuse me for the mistakes...but please enjoy the writing!Pairings: Jumin x Mc

Ending: Fluffy, Happy End

,,My love...you look wonderful…“ Jumin gasped when he saw you wearing your blue dress, your makeup fitted you perfectly, it wasn’t too much, it was just the perfect amount.Jumin put your chin up, ready to make his lips kiss yours.,,Mhhhh…“ he moaned as he tasted your lips.,,You taste just like a sweet cherry…“ he moaned, smiling at you and making you blush in a dark red tone.,,But you really don’t have to come along if you don’t want to...are you sure that your fever went down?“ he asked you, trying to make sure that you weren’t overworking yourself.You shook your head and touched his hand.,,I‘m okay now, Jumin. You took great care of me…“ you tried to assure him.Jumin decided to believe you and waited for you to be ready.

A few minutes later you approached him, making him look up from his phone.He smiled at you as you looked down at your shoes.,,Do I look good?“ you asked him.He nodded and got up, kissing your warm hand.,,You look amazing...I will have to hold you by my side the whole time…“ he joked, kissing your cheek.The two of you finally headed out. Cold air hit your cheeks, making you shiver a bit.The evening felt surreal. You somehow felt as if something was going to happen.Perhaps it was because you lied to Jumin and you actually felt indeed a bit sick. But you couldn’t think about it anymore, since Driver Kim arrived shortly after you stepped out and Jumin already helped you to get into the car.

The whole drive both of you spend sitting next to each other, your hand in his.,,This dinner party will probably have a weird atmosphere since a lot of business partner will feel as if their chance of finding new investors is in danger,“ Jumin began.,,But I think nothing will go wrong,“ he ended his speech, not knowing about a very important fact.The brother of a young man, which business failed because of Jumin, was the owner of the noble restaurant.He planned everything, the end of your evening was already set.

A few minutes later both of you arrived at the beautiful location.A red carpet led you the way to the entrance, which was beautifully decorated with a lot of plants and flowers.Two rather handsome men opened the gate, smiling friendly at you.Of course your husband didn’t oversee their eyes for you, his beautiful wife, and so he pressed your shoulder against his chest, making it clear that you belonged to him.You laughed at his jealousy, making him chuckle too.

Like always a lot of impressions were left on you. The different smells of the women’s perfume and the odor of the food. The dark lights which made the atmosphere and the classic music in the background.A lot of people came to greet Jumin and you. So many people that at some point your mind went blank.But with Jumin by your side you knew that everything would be alright.,,So, for now the ones we work with came to greet me,“ Jumin whispered, making you nod.,,We will first go to eat. Usually people sit next to other who are unknown by them, so that way they can tie new contacts and new business partners,“ he ended his speech.Suddenly you looked up to Jaehee, who was always perfectly prepared and knew what to do. Because you just felt helpless.Jumin made you sit down and then sat next to you.On your left Jumin and on your right a woman which smiled at you.

,,Is it your first time?“ she quickly asked you, making you feel caught.You nodded slowly and watched her chuckle.,,I can understand you. Don’t worry, you will get used to it,“ she kindly told you, making you feel at ease because of her kindness.,,Was it that obviously?“ you then asked her and began to talk with her.Jumin on your left smiled happily, at least you didn’t feel uncomfortable.

,,Women always tend to get along quickly,“ the man laughed.Jumin turned around, ready to respond when the man already held up his hand. ,,I‘m that woman’s husband, Dr. Kim Tae Heo, nice to meet you,“Jumin smiled, this was a nice tactic and you and Jumin felt perfectly into their scheme to begin a new business relationship.,,Jumin Han, nice to meet you too,“

The food arrived and Jumin forwardly asked the doctor what he really wanted and how he came to be invited.,,I got invited by my business partner who unfortunately closed down his business and so to find someone new he invited me. He himself however couldn’t make it,“ he explained.Jumin nodded and decided to listen to him and ask him what kind of business relationship he wished for.

,,Oh, this soup smells so good…!“ you whispered, making the woman nodd strongly.,,But yours looks somehow different…“ she added and suspicious looked at your soup.

,,I want to keep a close eye to poison,“ the doctor parallel confessed and began to slip at his soup.You happily began to eat your soup but tried to never get distracted and always look at woman which was named Chan Sook.She was a beautiful woman with long black hair and a wide smile.She looked noble but she didn’t look as if she thought better of herself.However you couldn’t help yourself but suddenly feel sleepy.,,Are you okay?“ she asked you.,,You look pale…“ she added.The waiter took the empty bowls from the table.,,I‘m okay, I was sick the last days…“ you mumbled, feeling somehow weird. It wasn’t your health that was still weak.Something was seriously wrong with your body but you wanted to ignore it.Your heart began to beat oddly quickly and you couldn’t help yourself but to breath hastier.,,Let’s go to the toilet…“ she whispered, trying to help you up.But as soon as you stood up, dizziness overcame you and you collapsed.Cold sweat dripped down your front as you slowly began to lose consciousness.The only word you could hear lastly was your name, which was called panicky by your husband.

,,So, why exactly do you want to keep an close eye to poison?’’ Jumin asked the man next to him.He clearly told Jumin what he wanted and why he was doing that. Jumin liked to listen to him, he had clear imaginations and knew where his place was. However Jumin didn’t believe that getting poisoned happened often. However the black haired man still didn’t know what was about to happen to you.,,This world is so bad minded. A lot of people die because they get poisoned and whether you believe it or no, some can slowly kill you if you’re weak. But with the right antidote you can stay alive,’’ he stated.Jumin and the man kept talking about that until their bowl was taken away.Suddenly Jumin heard your trembling voice and quickly turned to you.You were pale and you were trembling a bit.He wanted to say something to you but then you got up.Not long after you finally stood you then collapsed in front of his eyes.Jumin Han, the wealthiest man in South Korea saw his wife collapse in front of him and he couldn’t even help her.In that moment he was just like every other man and husband.

,,MC!’’ he yelled when you hit the floor.Everyone looked up and got up in fear. Jumin quickly kneeled down to you and tried to wake you up.,,My love! Tell me, what’s wrong?!’’ he asked you. Jumin never exposed any kind of feelings but right now he couldn’t stop himself to cry and worry for you.You looked at him, your lips were turning violet as you mumbled a ,,I feel sick…’’Dr. Kim Tae Heo quickly came down to you and looked at you.Without hesitating he put his ear on your chest to listen to your heart beat.Jumin looked at the man he just met how he tried to figure out what was happening with you.While Dr. Kim Tae Heo tried to help you, his wife ordered someone to call the paramedics.,,She...I can’t believe it…!’’ the doctor said.Jumin looked at him, he was anxious and also somehow annoyed that he didn’t tell him what was wrong with you.The man’s eyes looked at you with panic and then he starred at Jumin. At that point Jumin knew that something was going terribly wrong…,,Someone poisoned her…’’ Dr. Kim Tae Heo confessed and looked back to you.

Jumin observed the doctor for a few seconds. This couldn’t be true.The both of them just talked about that topic and now you were on the verge of death.,,Did you do that to show me your skills?’’ Jumin asked him angrily, believing the worst immediately.,,No, it wasn’t Tae Heo! Someone must have put anything in her food!’’  Chan Sook exclaimed.The young doctor told the paramedics how they had to go on, since this was a really dangerous moment.If they would move you too much, the poison could end up in your body quicker, and that would kill you immediately.,,I believe in was in her food. The poison she got is so strong that she would have tasted the deathly poison…’’ he mumbled, looking to the kitchen.Upon hearing these shocking words Jumin made everyone come out of the kitchen.

,,Run a background check on them all, I wanna see your results in three minutes!’’ he hissed and stroked your hair while the paramedics tried their best to save you with the doctors’ help.What will happen, if they fail? Will Jumin lose you? Will he have to live by himself? Without you and your cute laugh? Your wonderful smile and your heartwarming messages?Your good mood and bright attitude…Jumin began to sob your name, in his heart he begged for your well being.,,I will save her, Mr Han. And then we can talk about a business relationship…!’’ Tae Heo said, making Jumin look up for a short moment to feel the man’s decisive aura. He wanted to save you and gave his best.Indeed a few minutes later Jumin bodyguard came, revealing shocking news.

,,DID YOU POISON HER?!’’ he yelled at the man which was none than the owner…

,,I can’t remember…’’ you moaned a few days later. All your limbs were hurting right now and you were scared to even move a finger.Jumin smiled at you and kissed your hand all over again.,,You don’t need to...As soon as I found out who did this to you I made him vanish in the darkness of the cells. He probably wished to be never born. I will make him feel pain, you had to undergo a bad time because of him…’’ Jumin mumbled and kissed you.,,I actually wonder how you saved me…’’ you mumbled but closed your eyes, ready to fall once again asleep.,,Thanks to my new business partner…’’ Jumin still answered and thought about the man who saved your life....

[jisssooyah]

Hi you... if you were going to curate a little season of films for me, which ones would you choose and why? They don't need to be horror, I'm just curious what you would choose 🌸

I don’t know if you’ll like these movies, or if you’ve already watched them, but after i watched these films, i felt like they might need to belong to you now. i hope they make you smile, roll your eyes, and cry just as much as i did.

1. city of god (2002): this is one of the most immersive and gorgeously shot films i’ve ever seen. it’s set in rio de janeiro during the 60s and spans decades exploring the drug culture in the slums and how this can affect kids just as they are trying to figure their own selves out. the way this film is shot, feels like you were at the sea with them as the sand crunched underneath your feet. but the way that the director captures these individuals, makes you so fucking relieved that you don’t live through any of the circumstances that they go through. 

2. the dreamers (2004): set in 1968, this film follows three students in Paris who come of age and explore one another and their limits during the revolution. while these students prop themselves up as individuals obsessed with sex, running underneath themselves is a current of jealousy, obsession, and blurred familial relationships that made me increasingly uncomfortable. you find yourself feeling bad for the children, and ultimately upset at their upbringing because of their parents. 

3. if beale street could talk (2018): this movie is based off of james baldwin’s titular 1974 novel. in it, the director expertly and vigorously explores love: a love that feels so real that it hurts. the cast is what sold this film to me. the way they talk, laugh, cry, and smile at one another is achingly beautiful and terrifyingly sad. i wanted to transport myself back to their time period and watch the main characters fall in love because the film didn’t seem like enough. 

4. the neon demon (2016): this film follows an emerging model who sacrifices herself to the demands of the industry in order to be attractive and beautiful. there are so many stunning colors in this film that it makes you dizzy, like you’re in a trance and that’s what this world is for the main character: a trance. as she oscillates between reality and fantasy, her world and the characters in it, increasingly seek out to alter her personality. 

5. death becomes her (1992): a deliberately ultra-campy parody of trashy, pandering "women's pictures," soap operas and paperbacks from the '80s and '90s. The three leads all do some of their best work - it's hilarious watching Meryl Streep play a terrible actress, Goldie Hawn is particularly hilarious during her character's cat lady phase, and all around just a really fun and eccentric film. 

6. princess cyd (2017): i can’t think of anything to write for this but i just wanna say that this is literally one of the most pleasant movie experiences i’ve ever had. so much light and genuine interaction in warm sun rays radiating positive energy and an openness that is far too uncommon in movies nowadays. people talk, people connect, people grow bonds and are allowed to be sexual or intimate or personal without an air of shame or judgement. just pure kind and curious human association. 

7. spiderman: into the spiderverse (2018): the message of Spider-Verse is not "gentrify yourself! stop expressing your personality and just conform to what society wants you to be!" After all, what makes you different makes you Spider-Man, and Miles' final expression of himself as a superhero still retains much of his personality and individuality...they're just being used in more productive and fulfilling ways. It's the little things that drive the point home, like noticing that the title page for Miles' finished Great Expectations essay has been stylistically doodled and colored like street art. Rather than seeing his artistic gifts as an opposition to his schoolwork, Miles infuses them together to make the best of the hand he's been dealt.

8. my life as a zucchini (2016): initially heartbreaking and sad, but slowly becoming more joyful and heartwarming as the plot moves along. The film really feels like it captures the essence and child like wonder of these kids, all of them going through hardships but managing to find something to help each other out. It’s so refreshing to see the actual orphanage portrayed in a more positive light, not the usual horrid dump that a lot of lesser movies play them out as. The animation is stunning. One of the best uses of stop motion I’ve seen, everything is so colourful and detailed. There’s some moments set in snowy mountains and these look incredible. There’s clearly been so much love and care put into each and every scene here. The music too, sounds spectacular, it really works well with each scene. 

9. lovesong (2016): Mindy and Sarah have that type of relationship where they don't need words because they speak in a language made out of glances and touches. This movie is about the fear of ruining a meaningful friendship and losing an important person, about love that is so complicated that one might not even try because the outcome seems to be so obvious.

10. her (2013): Heartbreak is formative: it changes you heart side out, and leaves your muscles a little stronger, your skin a little thicker, your bones easier to repair. Before this film, I’d never seen anything constructive in having your insides pulled apart by the seams by another person, but this film taught me how. Being in love and then being forced out of it is an experience that changes you fundamentally, but Her taught me its purpose – you don’t need them to leave you so that you can find someone who’s a better fit, because perhaps you never will. You need it to participate in humanity. The common denominator is being hurt, and without it, you’re barely alive.

11. shoplifters (2018): bittersweet and richly transportive, Shoplifters is a film that nonchalantly eases you into its tragic beauty in a way that doesn't punch you hard until the end. It simultaneously made me want to be part of the film's world and also very glad that I'm not. The setting the characters live in is messy and cluttered and full of dysfunction and lies, but it's also got family, and laughter, and fist-bumps, and slurping warm noodles while rain pings on the tin rooftop. So nuanced, so many tiny moments of delicate beauty and unassuming heartbreak, so many people making terrible decisions with good intentions.

12. god’s own country (2017): though it is a love story between two men, this aspect is only addressed briefly in a single scene. Rather, the film is about finding someone who makes you want to be a better person, someone who comes into your life just when you needed it most. Gheorghe helps Johnny open up and realize the beauty of the simple life. From this relationship, Johnny begins to feel comfortable with expressing himself, and his love and gratitude towards others. He also begins to appreciate life in the country, surrounded by stunning landscapes and the beauty of simplicity. Addressing the Yorkshire countryside, Gheorghe says "It is beautiful, but lonely." Johnny is presented with the notion that he doesn't have to be cold and miserable, slaving and drinking his days away. He is presented with the possibility of no longer being alone and finally finding happiness and contentment - and it is more than gratifying to see him accept it.

13. disobedience (2017): a tender star-crossed daydream. the three main character dynamics are special enough on their own, but the romance that blooms at the center is cathartically intimate and even magical: a reunion that feels so inevitable. catching glimpses of a past life, details we aren’t privy to. all the stolen kisses and whispers and promises. a bond so strong that they fall back in sync with each other like second nature, even if they try to fight against it. even if it won’t work. and yet they choose each other, even if for a few minutes.

14. raw (2016): this film is so gross and I like that. There is tons of blood and unique body horror and it all works perfectly for the tone the film is attempting to set. The use of color, specifically neons, creates a constant feeling that you are traveling through some sort of weird ghost world, which I really like. Overall, it's a very well put together film with flashes of brilliance.

15. the night is short, walk on girl (2017): what an absolutely magical adventure of a film. Essentially this is a heavily episodic look at a night in the lives of several people, centered on a woman and a man as she gleefully floats from event to event while he neurotically obsesses over how to "coincidentally" talk to her. The storytelling is incredible; while the overarching narrative is simple there are countless threads woven together to connect everyone in the story to each other. That in itself is a big theme: connections between people, how everything is interrelated, and what a large impact seemingly insignificant things people do can have an impact on everyone around them.

16. coraline (2009): Coraline is the best stop motion movie ever made in my opinion. Before the film released in 2009, I read the book and was completely blown away by its creativity and story. It’s a pretty dark tale featuring many scenes of fright that work well in both a horror setting and an animated kids setting. On surface value, this film is quite horrifying, which is something I’ve always loved about it. While it does make a few minor changes to the book, it improves upon a piece of art that was already jaw-droppingly good. Coraline feels like a real little girl with some real problems. She’s selfish but likable which is something most films cannot translate well. Of course, she has a pretty awesome arc as well which brings this movie to a perfect close for her character. The other-mother is also perfectly done. She is almost exactly how I imagined her in the book and the animation on her is spookily gorgeous. There is not one dull moment in this film. It is literally a perfect piece of cinema.

17. the third wife (2019): haven’t seen a film this visually delicate in a while. Ash Mayfair works with the looming mountain surroundings to make her characters —these women, these girls— as small as possible, as isolated as possible. Uneasiest of all is the protagonist May, so young and so weighed by responsibility, her position blurs between being one of the wives and being one of the daughters. It’s an extremely bleak tale of circumstance. An old tale, certainly, but so beautifully crafted it doesn’t matter. Mayfair holds a fearful tension throughout, and it only ever shatters in the cruelest of ways.The abundance of women and display of sisterhood begin as a comfort, but horror takes over as we realize how conditional and fragile that comfort is. Even the daughters are subconsciously aware, one of them praying to the gods to grow up and become a man, shearing her hair off in naive triumph. It’s a doomed cycle of girls performing roles which are unfortunately their best option, right up until the final scene of May with her daughter, still in their mourning clothes. She, like the older wives, finally realizes they’re the same as the cattle laying on their side for too many days.

[deathsdaisy]

Sorry this is long

I remember the first time I brought a friend along for Thanksgiving, his family was kinda shitty and they hadn't celebrated for years.

My family always does Thanksgiving the Saturday after, cuz people have jobs and things and we always do it in the countryside so it's just easier for the people who may need to spend the night there to make the trip worth it. That Saturday however there was an anime con, so I went with friends (one specifically we'll call B) we had fun and all that. By 6 stuff is closing up and my friends parent (who was working at the con mind you) left without B and told him to call his dad to take him home or stay with a friend. Knowing my family would love to meet one of my friends I invited him to our dinner. He reluctantly agreed, because he didn't wanna bother anyone. My mom LOVES B, so she shoved him in the car and off we went. After an hour and a half driving through beautiful country roads B had never seen we arrived at my uncles farm house. It's my moms side of the family and it's big so I'm not going to go into it, but you should know my granny's sister is a lesbian and is there with her wife, my second eldest aunt is bi, and I'm a lesbian. So when I loudly introduced my clearly feminine friend, still half dressed in cosplay, as he they all went with it. Including my two little cousins, who were 4 and 2 at the time.

B freaked out when I said it, but my family all said hi with the right name and pronouns and made a point to introduce him to anyone who hadn't heard me. This was a shock to B and although that wasn't the first time I could see B had never experienced what REAL family was it honestly shocked me that B was feeling ill and told no one, but that's what neglect does to a person.

B didn't eat a lot though I know he loves my families cooking (cuz he loves my food and I learned from them), when B started to look sick my aunt hurried him to the bathroom where he threw up. B kept apologizing as all the women went into protect mode, B had never known what this was and thought everyone was freaking out and 'how dare this thing do this' (Bs thoughts not mine)

Once my aunt was sure he was ok and we realised it was food poisoning from some cheap shit we had at the con B was put on THE comfy sofa, my mom wrapped him in blankets and granny made tea and my little cousins brought B some toys. And I sat by the piano with my sister and played a bit since B couldn't look at his phone without getting dizzy. That's when he started to cry, we talked about his life and how he'd never felt so loved, and by people who barely knew him.

Since then I have invited B to every and any event that I can (which is all of them), including making some up cuz my family is a mix of many religions and saying its customary to bring someone to pagan feasts is believable to people who dont know shit, just to get him out of bad situations.

Now that I've left the country my mom still expects B to attend everything my family does.

i spent christmas alone while my family got together and fought, and honestly i feel so good about this