#walkwithgiants

[recoveryjournals-vaughn]

JUST FOR TODAY

(May 29, 2022)

"CARRY ME"

"We believe that our Higher Power will take care of us.

Just for today, will rely on God's care through the painful times, knowing that my Higher Power will always be there."

There was a point in my life that I became contented of what I become. I was lost. I thought I had it in me the courage to carry life out. To fulfill the things I've got in my mind eventhough I'm using drugs. But I was continouosly living in a lie. Before drugs, I was a man who has full of dreams and plans in life. Although I'm not really that good in acheiving it, I never quit. I had so many ups and downs before but overcame all of it, one day at time. Like when I was rejected or dumped by a girl; got failing grades in college; didn't passed the Board Exams and US Visa application the first time;

Those things became fuel for my burning desire to move on and learn to work hard to get it the next time around. This was before when I was still not on drugs. In 2015, I've tried Meth in unconventional way. I never expected that day to be different. I was drunk and not feeling well at that time. But just two hits and drugs changed everything. I got hooked up. And in every occassions, using it became a regular thing to me. I never sought help from anybody nor had it in mind to stop. Until I die, I said to myself before, this will always be my thing.

I felt sad of what i have become. I lost my job due to pandemic, got no savings in the bank and have no luck on landing a decent job; I always argue with my wife even in small things and for some dumb reasons; got stucked with the problems with my parents and siblings;

I mismanaged my life already and began to believe that there's no more hope in all of these. But when I encounter the 12 Steps Program, life became more meaningful to me. It gives me serenity. It taught me humility. It open new doors for me. It offers me freedom and new way to live. I could never be more grateful and thankful for that.

Just as much as I want to quit life before. Just as much as I'm eager to pursue life in recovery now or maybe much more. Yes, I am still having bad thoughts of my situations I'm at. I still have those resentments and shortcomings kept bothering my mind. Many, in fact, are still on my way that I need to deal with. But good thing is, recovery revealed so many options for me to choose from. Recovery is a process. Life is a process. I will not be hasty and take things lightly, one day at a time. And when the time comes that I will be shaken or trembled upon, I will fear no more. For "If I have seen further it is by standing on the shoulders of Giants".

Vaughn,

[morningthoughtreflections]

Morning Thought 💭

We should never fear giants. Some are giants through appearances with little substance, others are made to be giants that intimidate while others are giants whose presence we should always seek. There are giants who became what they are through bullying others. Then there are giants who became who they are because they are for others, they uplift, they inspire, their stature may be small but their impact gigantic. These are the giants among whom we must never be afraid to walk, among whom we must never shy away from growing. These are the giants we need and many of whom live among us. They are rooted in love for others.

#WalkWithGiants

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[upsaraica]

Robert Carlyle - Walk With Giants Podcast

[walkwithgiants-blog]

Four more weeks,  One hundred Dollars, and Two designs,   And i'll have a clothing label. Literally the only thing stopping me now is the amount of university work that I have to do. Im getting really keen.   

[walkwithgiants-blog]

In a couple of weeks i might see about starting a clothing line

idn, probably start off with shirts and hoodies, move into caps/shoes/skateboards one day. Anybody buy a shirt if i start showing you some of my designs?