#waitingtobefound

[lostdoctordd-blog]

Don´t know where to begin, when to put an end, what is there to follow anymore. Don´t even feel chaotic. Not even blank. Everything is blur. No one is there.

[freezinginaforest]

My 'Story'

I guess it all started when I went to elementary school for the first time. They needed someone to lay into, and I was the chosen target. Every day for 8 years, whether it was at the park, a store, or school itself, I was bullied mercilessly. I began cutting and stealing… There wasn’t really any light ahead. I moved to a new school in 7th grade, and stopped stealing. I kept cutting though. I was an outcast there too, but I had a few friends to help keep me going. In eighth grade there was a girl that i was really close to, and she said she liked me. I didn’t feel the same, and told her as such. She said she would wait, and I said it would be a waste of time. We remained friends, and I got a boyfriend. she got one as well, and everything was ok. Flash forward about a month into her new relationship. She started to come onto me and I turned her down again. Eventually I couldn’t take it anymore, and broke up with my boyfriend (because her advances made me feel unfaithrul, even if they were never reciprocated or acknowledged). As soon as I was ‘back on the market’ , she started to be absolutely vicious. I had trusted this girl and told her all my secrets, and she turned around and kicked me while I was down. Then, she had the audacity to blame me for all the things she did to me. Because apparently ‘beautiful people’ require all the touching and advances… It just makes me so mad, because I told her no repeatedly but she touched me anyway… I really just don’t understand why she would go after me , after all the times I talked her down and took care of her. She didn’t just bash me in private either. She told the stories to every single one of our friends (without naming me) and they thought it was funny…. At the end of eighth grade, I got a facebook. I was so happy, but then a man in Texas named aJ friended me. He was friends with some of my friends, so I thought it was safe. He wanted much more than friendship… I can’t look at a guy anymore without remembering and feeling nauseated. I am in High school now. This year has been a mess. My sister is physically and verbally abusive, my dad walks out on us almost constantly, and my dogs both died. I have bad social anxiety, as well as general anxiety and depression. On top of all aforementioned things, I have severe asthma and have been in the hospital 8 times in the past 4 months. I am completely numb and feel like I’m just going through the motions. I just want it all to be over. I know there is supposed to be good things ahead, but I can’t see them. The thought of growing up is absolutely terrifying to me, because I’ll be all alone. I know my issues are nothing compared to other people, but they are major things for me. My only friend is moving away in fall, and then I’ll be all alone again. I ðont know if I should continue on with this life if it’s just going to be loneliness.

[kistbythesunrf]

I even those that figured this out in less than 40 years. but give me time, I'm catching up to you #lovingmyselffirst #waitingtobefound

[theprophetscorner]

Intimacy on another level and it dosen't look like sex!

"Desire, Compatibility, husband, Lover, friend, partner, he gets me, words aren't always necessary... spontaneity... you seek to know Me as I Evolve deeper...we Evolve together differently but never apart... your evolution critiques me as I you. .your words stir me, drive me. . You add to me as I you... we are Purposed by Design.. separate but fitted for one another..."

#Tonya #PURPOSEBYDESIGN #IAMSHE #WaitingToBeFound

[mingxpanda-blog]

🎧I'm waiting. I'm waiting to be found by someone new! (But no one new is finding me) 🎵 *waiting to be found - by @alexgoot #silly #sillygirl #waiting #waitingtobefound #alexgootmusic #alexgootsong

[justbreathe993]

*Sigh*

I'm so lost. Will anyone EVER find me?

[nycarter]

Those days will come when Im a total mess but we all have our faults. I can deal with yours of you can deal with mine #waitingtobefound

[allstarsmokey1-blog]

Looks That Way 😂 #SingleLife #WaitingToBeFound 👌

[nycarter]

I cant wait for the day when someone does this for me #waitingtobefound