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lilioopdf · 6 months ago

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this week (this is my attempt at journali-fying my blog)

- ive been complimented the most since this new school started

- met an old close friend i don’t talk to anymore because he transferred to a boys school notorious for raising rich and arrogant assholes when we were 14 and changed drastically after that (i u-turned instantly when i saw him but pretended not to recognise him even when made eye contact like ten times but he still waved at me at the end so it’s okay)

- got a dm from my old classmate to catch up (actually ive spoken to so many old friends recently my heart is so warm and full ❤️❤️)

- but have also realised this clique leader doesn’t like me and she’s influenced one of her members to be afraid of speaking to me too even though we we chatted in a shared class the week before

- realised that im not the only one who noticed the clique leader being hostile ish towards me 😍😍 (anyway my friends and i all agree that it is much better to be the bullied than the bully so i don’t care and i’m grateful she doesn’t like me because i don’t want to interact with her anyway)

- omg but also the girl that was scared to talk to me in front of the clique leader was so nice to me in our shared class like… the first time i tried speaking to her when the leader was there she was so dismissive and kept backing up when i was trying to help her with her project but the next day we clicked so well again and she kinda waited for me after class but idk i told her i needed to stay and ask the teacher if my submission went through and then we accidentally met each other in the lift again and she complimented my hair colour but we just awkwardly stood away from each other after that because we were texting our own friends ro meet for lunch

- actually half of them are nice and i can talk to i just think Thing One is the common… idk fear (??) here because lots of people even those from other classes have pointed this out

- oh and i managed to compliment this girl who’s style ive wanted to compliment for WEEKS because i love casually dropping compliments but she was so pretty and intimidating with good style so it took me time but i did it

#i was so mad on the way to school on thursday #was actually about to skip class too #because i was exhausted and mad from how the clique girl dismissed me the day before #and i was reminding myself of all the negative things that has happened since school started #and i was like wtf if she doesn’t want to speak to me in public because she’s ashamed or whatever then i don’t want to speak to her AT ALL #but it turned out okay #but idk left a bad taste in my mouth when i realised Thing One was the common denominator #but tbh idrc because i just want to get through school #but omg i got my overdue period the next day and had the worst cramps ever #suffered through our coldest (24 degrees celsius) class #with CRAMPS #horrible horrible cramps #wait but let me promote menstruheat rq theyre like 24h heat packs you can stick to the inside of your pants #and they work so well i promise #and then i had an econs project after where one of my friends pointed out an incident where Thing One was hostile towards me #and i was like omg i didn’t wanna talk shit about her but you noticed too??#because i was actually really humiliated by that incident tbh #also this is so petty but Thing One took a pic with a plaque or whatever that had my country’s name on it (i’m a minority ethnicity here)#and i got so mad #or like disgusted idk #that’s MY country step away from it rn #anyway its past midnight rn and im like doing my econs work 😞😞#and studying the different types of theatre stages or whatever so #life is silly #personal

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