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ratcash-wasgud · 10 months ago

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Beach episode with loser!Mizu,,,, she's lurking under the shade while everyone else is out in the water having fun like the- well loser she is

i love beach episodes!!! wahhh!!!! (i know basically nothing about beach culture btw)

i think this will be the last loser!mizu for a while guys (a couple days, until i realize i can't write anythinng else, and crawl back to my pookie). I have so many unfinished drafts ugghh.

mdni :p

+audios !! okay enjoy.

You and Mizu have gone to a couple of "dates", which all were just hanging out at or around the aquarium. Oh, and you once came to watch one of her games, but that's it. It's a very confusing relationship in Mizu's eyes.

For a while she already thought you two were dating, but Akemi quickly educated her on the wonderful world of talking stages. That day, Mizu decided that talking stages were her worst enemies. How are you not her girlfriend yet? It's not fair.

Akemi and Taigen only seen you once, and they were both intoxicated, and Ringo hasn't even met you, only in passing, so it's obvious they'd want to meet the person their grumpy friend is spending most of her time with. So Akemi arranges a beach hangout, and starts bugging Mizu about bringing you along, with "Come onnn, don't you wanna see her in a bikini?" typa comments.

Mizu, even though the last time you hung out with Akemi and Taigen it turned out very much embarassing to her, gives in after a while.

After a brief text exchange which Mizu floods with horrible memes, just to ease her own anxiety, you say yes, and now here we are.

Mizu is setting up her little fortress of peace in the sand, which is a big, soft blanket with a parasol guarding her from the sun. Her usual shades sit on her nosebridge. Her choice of swimwear is made of a pair of dark blue swimming trunks with rubber ducks all over it, and a bikini top that looked eerily like her usual sports bra. You on the other hand were...running late.

Ringo sat down next to her and offered her a muffin from the big bag he packed full of food, while Akemi and Taigen started to splash eachother in the water.

"You're more quiet than usual." Ringo comments with a slight smile, munching on a muffin himself. Mizu sighs and takes a bite of hers.

"It's stressful." She says with a shrug. "We're close, very close...but somehow not close enough. Like...how do you ask someone to be your girlfriend?" Mizu says to her bestfriend, looking up at the big guy from under her shades.

Ringo purses his lips as she stares ahead, thinking about it. "Say..."Will you be my girlfriend?" I think that would work." Mizu facepalms.

"Well, yeah, obviously, dumbass." She says, throwing her head back with a groan. "But the other stuff. Like...atmospehere, timing, mood...and how do I know she likes me enough to make that step?" She rambles. "It's obvious I like her, I told her I loved her once! What if she thinks I'm desperate? I mean, yeah I am...but I don't want her to know."

Ringo looks back at her, like she just confused his little brain even more, which she did. "Then wait for her to ask?" He suggest, and before Mizu could answer and tell him that it would be a terrible idea, because what if you never ask, you arrive, almost on cue.

You are...indeed wearing a bikini. And Jesus Christ, Mizu's breathing almost stops alltogether. Yeah, she slept with you once, and saw more intimate parts of your body than your belly button and cleavage, but this is different. You have your heart shaped sunglasses covering your eyes. She remembers those glasses, and she can feel her stomach twist in a not-so-bad way. She gives you sublte little wave as you approach, but before you could get to her, Ringo raids you.

"Woah, hey! I'm Ringo! You must've heard a lot about me from Mizu, since I'm her number one friend! I'm sure we'll get along great!" He chirps excitedly. Mizu needs to hold back the urge to burry herself in the sand and never come out. But to her surprise, you just laugh.

"How charming! Hey to you too, Ringo." You shake his nub. Mizu noticed that you find a lot of things cute and charming that Mizu would find cringe or lame. Maybe because you're more easy going. You walked to Mizu's little fortress, and offered her a smile. "And hey to you, hermit." You chuckled, kneeling on her blanket. Miz could feel her heartbeat fasten, having you so close. She should've gotten used to it by now, but she was convinced she never will.

"Hey." She said with a small, almost unnoticalbe smile. "You look...good." She complimented you, her gaze falling to your breasts for half a second, but her shades were keeping her safe.

"Thanks. Got this one just a week ago." You say, slightly pulling at you bikini top's strap. "You don't look halfbad yourself." You say playfully, then grab a beachball from the mountain of bags placed next to the blanket. "You know how to play?" You look at Ringo, then back at her. Ringo nods enthuistacally, and Mizu shrugs. Of course she knows how to play. She is in the school's basketball team, she is very good at ball games, but she needs to stay humble. That's hot, right?

"We need one more player though to make it even." You say, and just like that, as if smelling a challenge, Taigen appears.

"Well, lucky for you," He starts, putting his fist on his chest. "The champion has arrived." Mizu rolls her eyes, and you just gasp dramatically. Akemi sits down on the blanket. "You go ahead, I'll be the judge I guess."

And with that, the match if the decade started. You were on a team with Taigen, and Mizu teamed up with Ringo. She wanted to be on the same team as you, but Taigen snatched you up first. That bastard.

"Don't think I'll go easy on you just because you're pretty." Mizu says, warming up her shoulders on the other side of the web.

"Complimenting me won't save your ass." You tease back with a wink.

"Wait, no, that's not what-" Mizu suddenly realized the meaning of her words, but before she could try and ramble herself out of it, the game started with Taigen serving. It went all well, since Mizu could block all of Taigen's hits, but when you were the one sending the ball her way? The woman froze.

Everyime you jumped up to hit the ball, your whole body bounced, especially that part that she couldn't take her eyes off of. The little victory punch you gave to the air after you scored, the way your hair stuck to your forehead because you started sweating, and the way you threw yourself at the ground to catch the ball last minute, making your soft body squish against the sand...it mesmerized Mizu.

It was obvious you took the game seriously, but sadly not as seriously as Taigen, who basically started beating his chest like a gorilla when he scored. The strategy was simple: Ringo would take your hits, and Mizu would block and eliminate Taigen's. It all went jolly for a good while of the game, until your bikini top slipped, revealing your underboob. You though nobody noticed, so you quickly pulled it back into place, But someone did notice. And that someone couldn't focus on anything else during the rest of the game.

The results came out with you and Taigen on top, but only by two points. It was infuriating as hell to watch Taigen give you a double high five, but you looked happy, and that made Mizu content. She was watching the scene, until Ringo nudged her.

"Now. Mood, and uh...vibe! All good. Do it now." He tried to whisper, but he was really excited. It took Mizu a moment to realize what he was talking about, and when she did, she gave him a determined nod. She marched to you, her cheeks burning, and a frown on her face that could be described as angry, but it was just a sign of her taking this seriously.

"You did good." She says, lifting her shades off her face, putting them up into her hair.

"Thanks. You two weren't bad either. You just decided to play against champions." You shrug playfully.

"So uh...I saw an ice cream booth over there. I could buy you one as a winning prize, or something." She offers, shoving one of her hands into the pocket of her swimming trunks. Her voice came out breathy, on one part from just finishing the game, and on the other...well...

"Free ice cream? Hell yeah!" You say enthusiastically, and get going. Mizu just follows you. Taigen stays there, looking confused for a second.

You stand there, staring at the different flavours of ice cream. "Mmm...I think I'll go with mint chocolate chip." You say, tilting your head, still considering it. "Or bubblegum!"

"You could get both." Mizu shrugs. You're very particular about your icecream, it seems. It's good to know. If she manages to score another date with you, she'll bring you to a pastry shop instead of an aquarium.

"Really? Awsome!" You celebrate to yourself. "What are you getting?" You ask, leaning closer to her. Mizu gulps.

"I'll just...have vanilla." She says, doing her damn best not to look at your lips that are so close. She whishes she could be on that level with you where casual kisses are a thing.

"Vanilla? Well that's a little...boring." You chuckle. "I think you'd like coconut." You say, pointing at the similar colored ice cream. The fact that you're comfortable enough to decide what could she like is so...so...

"Yeah, sure." Mizu shrugs again. She pays for the icecream, but doesn't start walking back to the others yet. "Here," She starts walking towards the part of the shore where big rocks could give some privacy. You follow her, kitty-licking your ice cream. That movement reminds her---fuck. Why is she acting like a hormone filled twelve year old?

As she stares at you while walking, you're staring at the water. She follows your gaze, and starts watching the water too. The waves and the foam splash against the sky, and the clouds hover above, now lightly pink and orange tinted from the sun almost setting.

Suddenly, you point at the sand: you spotted a jellyfish that got thrown out by the water. "Look!" You rush to it, and crouch down by it's side. "Do you think it's still alive. It's still wet."

"Yeah, like me when I'm near you." is what Mizu wants to say, but instead she just follows you. "I'dunno." You seem to worry about the jellyfish, which is...sweet. It's just a jellyfish to Mizu, but to you? It's already named Fred and has a twelve page backstory. Mizu, in an attemt to not let your mood get ruined, takes off her sunglasses, and places them on the jellyfish.

"Damn. I think he's still alive, he seems pretty fresh to me. Drippy, even." Mizu snorts, and you push her, making her land on her butt as you laugh with her.

"Oh my god...you're horrible." You say, your beautiful smile returning. Even if she landed on her ass, a win is a win. Mizu takes back her shades and throws the jellyfish back in the water.

Mizu then takes a deep breath. She looks at you, her blue eyes shining in the orange-ish light. She steps closer, and lightly takes your hand. She wants to make it seem like it's a casual thing, but her heart is drumming against her ribcage. She then pushes her already melting icecream close to your lips. "Wanna taste?" She ask.

You chuckle. She's adorable. You lean closer, and take a big lick off her treat. You notice that the white ice cream has already melted to her hand. You lightly take her wrist. "You're so messy." You say teasingly and start licking the ice cream off her fingers. Mizu's breath hitches as she watches your tongue work on her skin, licking her lips unconsciously.

"You're so fucking beautiful like that." She blurts out, her other hand coming up to gently cup your cheek.

You smile up at her, licking up the cone. That was the greenlight you needed. You move your head up, and push your lips against her. You taste like coconut, as she opens her lips, inviting in your tongue. Her hand lands on your hips, leading you more behind a bigger rock, away from the all the prying eyes. She lightly grips the soft tissue on your hips, her fingers cautiously wandering towards your ass as you devour her lips. She slowly pushes you against the rock. You already ate your ice cream, and her's is melted completely, it's soggy cone laying alone in the sand as her hands move up to cup your breasts.

"I wanted to do this ever since that stupid match..." She murmurs into the kiss, her finger's finding your nipples through your bikini top.

You grin against her lips, slowly exchanging positions until her back is against the rock. You run your finger's along her skin, feeling up the exposed muscles. Her abs basically guided your hand along to trace their shape, then guided your hand downwards. You undid her swimming trunks and got on your knees before her.

Mizu looks at you, almost hypnotized by how good you look on your knees. Before she could react, you pull her trunks down, and teasingly lick her folds. Mizu pushes her palm against her lips to silence the loud groan that wanted to escape her lips. You chuckled against her flesh, closing your eyes as you started to do your work. Mizu's long, slender finger's got lost in your hair, keeping your head in place as she chewed on the inside of her cheek to hold back her noise.

She mumbles you name over and over, her hips lightly bucking into your mouth. "F-Fuck...fuck, I love you..." She blurts out in a half moan, half whine. Is it the best time to say it? Not really. But is that stopping her? No. She is too filled with passion and her feelings are bubbling over the edge. "I have loved you...f-for so long...p-please..." She whines silently. "I...I-I want you t'be mine..so damn bad...oh God..."

You look up at her, her juices dripping down your chin. You then suddenly stick out your tongue, pushing it inside her walls. Mizu bites into her palm to keep quiet.

"You're so fucking cute..." You mumble into her, repeatedly pulling and pushing your tongue in and out. Your nose rubs against her clit, making it hard to keep standing.

"M'gonna cum...f-fuck, keep going..." Mizu groans, bucking her hips even more into your mouth.

You can feel her walls clench around your tongue as she reaches her climax, holding your mouth open so her juices basically slip down your throat withouth swallowing. After she comes down from her high, you pull away, wiping your lips with the back of her hand, pulling her swimming trunks back into place. You get up from your kneeling position and give her a sloppy kiss.

"D'ya mean it?" You murmur into the kiss, your arms wrapping around her neck.

Mizu's lost in the kiss. She doesn't even think about the fact that she should be freaking out right now. "Meant every fucking word...I want to be your girlfriend." She says, her hands hugging your waist.

And with that...Mizu returned home that day a taken woman. She listened to the playlists she made you (psst!), and somehow heard every song in a new light.

#loser mizu #blue eye samurai #bes x reader #blue eye samurai mizu #blue eye samurai x reader #mizu x reader #mizu fanfic #fanfiction #bes smut #smut #bes mizu #ai audio #bes audio #blue eye samurai audio #lesbian

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lambment · 4 months ago

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Hello! I love your art so much! Your cult of the lamb stuff has really inspired me and has pumped me up and I’m trying to basically re learn how to draw again! Do you have any advice for a fellow artist and how to approach story telling? :D

anon its been like a good while since this message has been sent (I think? based off all the homophobic crown asks this was wedged btwn) and WAHHH im so happy for you, I hope youre enjoying your reentry into art C:

first and foremost, try to enjoy the process rather than the end result. a much wordier explanation in this post (X)

theres also the discipline aspect of it, you need to be pretty concious of balancing learning with enjoyment (and you can absolutley have that balance without thinking about it). but I find a lot of new/learning artists get easily discouraged when a piece doesnt pop out exactly how they imagined it. I have a secret, lets be realistic, none of my pieces do lol. expectation is the killer of art imo, just go with the flow of enjoyment and learn what you can to become better at it. get used to adapting often.

even if you arent always studying (dont make it boring for yourself now), just you constantly drawing will improve your art, but dont expect to notice an improvment with every piece, its an incremental process and youll have bad days. just focus on the journey not the destination is what im getting at.

REFERENCE!!! its a beautiful, beautiful thing, anyone telling you its cheating is a silly billy who needs to learn. look up artists you admire, try to figure out how they tackle a piece, examine photos that you think are beautiful. just collect different pieces of reference, and try making a piece based off of them, a fun excercise. it'll improve your art.

as for the story aspect of this, im ngl, Im still learning myself. my main rule of thumb is "if i want to see this, someone else out there will too." so dont get discouraged by thinking no one will want to see your story idea.

I'm constantly adding story ideas to my notes to save for later, idk bout you, but I WILL forget the idea if I dont write it down immediatley (built worse), and if you have a mental image of it make sure to add very vague stage direction to supplement it, dont get too detailed tho, youll be changing alot. if youre anything like me -pepaw brained- try to keep in the habit of that. some storyboarding tips for staging tips and reference (X)

from there, I'll take a key moment -money shot or emotional moment- of the story, and base the rest of the comic around that image -> how I tackle formatting and making a comic (X).

the best way to learn is by doing, and failing and learning from that. so dont sike yourself out when you get there and it doesnt turn out as expected, it might be something so much better, thats the fun of it (:

I hope this helped, sorry im a yapper!

#my talent isnt brevity ill tell ya that lmao #speaketh #art advice #art tips #story advice #story tips

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twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat · 10 months ago

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OH MY GODDD okokok so first off. That gojo post. fucking DELICIOUS !! Ughhhh gojo comforting u with cuddles n him being all soft and sweet and ohhh I’m weak <333 that was so good I’m literally twirling around in circles giggling kicking my feet screaming BUT ALSO !! The post u reblogged about lipstick kisses jesus what are you DOING TO MEEEEE !! You’ve put domestic poly!stsg thoughts in my brain. Sitting on suguru’s lap with his arms wrapped around ur waist and his head buried into ur neck from behind + satorus head on your lap while u do ur makeup… Satoru being cheeky n leaning up to kiss u all over ur face even if you’re busy putting on ur makeup because he just thinks ur so gorgeous :)) or suguru being the housewife he is and washing dishes/cooking while u latch onto him from behind <333 going grocery shopping with them and satoru whining about wanting sweets the whole time (n sugu pretends to be annoyed but folds and lets the both of you get as many snacks or diff ice cream flavours to try as u want) or doing ur nighttime routines together. One of u in the shower one of u brushing ur teeth/doing skincare and one of u just sitting on the bathroom floor talking away about ur day…. going clothes shopping together while u put on a fashion show for both of them except you don’t get any real help with what looks good and what doesn’t because they think you look amazing in anything and everything. Sitting outside together in your backgarden with a picnic blanket and homemade snacks looking at the stars just holding eachother n talking about whatever comes to mind AUGHHHHHH 😭😭😭 I LOVE THEMMM SO BAD IT HURTSSSS. Alsoalso I almost forgot to say this but if u r busy with writing or don’t have time to answer pls don’t feel bad about responding later !! There’s no rush at all dw shdjsjdj <33 — stsg anon !!!

STSG ANON STSG ANONNN <333333333

OHHHH U R KILLING ME W UR LOVELY THOUGHTS ALWAYS ……. any variation of stsg/lipstick drives me a lil crazy tbh ALL OF THESE ARE SO GOOODDDD i cherish ur takes on them sooo dearly u dont even know!!!

first of all SITTING ON SUGU’S LAP >>>>>>> LITERALLY ANYTHING ELSE uve found my weakness stsg anon…. AND GOJO IN UR LAPPPP WAHHH they’re so clingy and precious 😭😭😭 kissing u!! bc he just can’t help himself!!! i love them soo much :<

ANDANDAND HOUSEWIFE SUGU ….. my greatest weakness AGAIN u get me HE’S SOOO……. hugging him from behind while he chuckles and pats ur arm 🥺🥺🥺 he’s a softie a little cutie pie etc etc i need him in my kitchen rn !!!!!

GROCERY SHOPPING & CLOTHES SHOPPING ohhh it’d be sooo chaotic and fun…… ur so right stsg anon it’d literally just be u and gojo whining for sweets while sugu (ur budgeting king <33) tries to be responsible but ofc he could never resist the combined power of u and gojo’s puppydog eyes…. also them not being any help w picking out clothes bc they think u look perfect in Literally Anything is SOO canon to me they’re just swooning while u want actual advice LMAOO

AAA and the quiet moments….. stsg anon u are making me feel soso soft. doing ur nighttime routines + having a midnight picnic im melting wahhhh they’re just sooo…….. so soft and pretty 😔😔😔 i can imagine the comfortable silence so vividly!!! owowowowww theyre perfect

OKOK BUT IMAGINE …. while we’re on the topic of makeup ….. the boys wearing it too 😵‍💫😵‍💫 i think sugu would look so effortlessly good w any kind of beauty products he just has that androgyny abt him yk… maybe u would have to coax him into letting u put makeup on him but he always ends up indulging u <333 he’s just too smitten to say no!!!

meanwhile gojo will put on ridiculous amounts of lipstick JUST to kiss u all over … he looks very good in it tho. like imagine gojo w his plump red lips hhhh he’s just so gorgeous…..

#AAAAA tysm for the meal <333333 domestic stsg!!! my angels!!!!! they mean the world to meeee #stsg anon ily !!!! i hope u have a super lovely day or night 🥺🥺🥺#ALSO im not sure if by “gojo post” ur referring to my fic or smth else that i rbed!! BUT IF U MEAN THE FIC tysm 🥺🥺🥺#if not pls ignore hehe i wanted to say it just in case !!#ask tag ✩#stsg anon !! ✩

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starjxsung · 3 months ago

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HAI STAR I AM BACK FROM EUROPE !!! I got home like two hours ago :3 feels SO good to be back in my own room in my own bed - showered, have laundry going, AND I UNBOXED MY LIMITED EDITION ATE ALBUM I BOUGHT IN COPENHAGEN (posted a pic on tumblr if ya wanna check it out hehe) ... work and school emails can wait until tmrw... RAHHH it's been so long lemme go through your last few responses to my messages since last time I responded Summer if FLYINGGG wahhh I can't believe I start school in a month! I've seen bits and pieces of what you've said about ATEEZ and Lolla and they both sound RAHHHHH I'm so glad you had fun and meet up with your older sister (for ATEEZ) (though the sunburn does NOT sound fun) and I'm glad you were able to stay safe (?) and be responsible and help that girl out (at Lolla) As for South Africa guy... So basically once I went on the trip we didn't talk cause he was on his trip and I was on mine but I did send him a long ass message about what was going on in my brain (after confirming that he would be okay and welcoming to that sort of messages since we couldn't talk it out at the time) and explaining to him how hurt I really was? but like in a respectful and calm manner. Idk it was longggggg mostly cause I over(?)think or like have many thoughts because while I did want to explain that I was hurt, I also wanted to make it clear that I saw where he was coming from and wasn't telling him to hurt him or make him feel bad if that makes sense. Anyways, seeing as I JUST got back and he just got back a few days ago (with covid nonetheless), we have yet to talk about it and he has yet to respond to my long ass message. (also for background info in case I forgot to tell you, yes we did end up talking about where our relationship is a little bit ago before this whole ghosting thing happened and bascially we ended up with "committed relationship w/o lables" because apparently I have baggage (anxiety) attached to the term "girlfriend" from my last relationship LOL hahaha but yeah so basically agreeing to be "committed" and then this happening kinda just made it feel a lot worse aslkjdf) anyways what im left with now is feelings of residual hurt, uncertainty, and genuninely questioning how comfy I am in this relationship now... but I shall wait until we actually properly talk about it hahaha... also... did you actually raw dog your flights... how do you do that omg I will like do that for periods of time but usually I have music going for most of it... (today during my flight from Amsterdam (layover) to where I live I watched one of my fav comfort movies three times in a row (it's Zootopia LMAO)) Europe Trip stuff: my fave part was def the guided, all inclusive tour we did of Norway country side form Voss to Bergen - it was hiking, biking, and kayaking! I died physically (i mean like one of the days was 61 km of biking... and we were doing stuff for 6 days) BUT EVERYTHING WAS SO PRETTY AND THE WEATHER WORKED OUT AMAZINGLY usually its rainy and dreary and cloudy (like where I live - honestly norway looks like exactly where I live) but it was SUNNY the WHOLE time!! I got to swim in the fjords and go fishing (I LOVE fishing...) and just take in all the nature as I hiked and biked etc... and my younger brothers and I made some friends with another family on the tour (there were four other families in total) - this family had three boys - two 17 y/o twins and a 14 y/o - they were so much fun tbh LOL the 14 y/o was very mature tho (maybe more than his brothers tbh) I thought he was like 17 when I first met him and thought his brothers were like 20 LMAO they're all tall- anyways, the 14 y/o, he thought I was like 15 when we first met (I think he developed a crush on me ngl by the end of the tour lol) anyways ya it was fun !!! sorry for the LONGGG life update... HOW ARE YOU DOING STARRR

ily always 💕🫶💖 🌱

RAHHHHHH MY ANGELLLLL I’VE MISSED YOU SOOOOO MUCH IM SO SORRY FOR NOT BEING ON HERE IN A MILLION YEARS I swear time has just moved so weird ever since lolla I still feel like I came back yesterday????? WTAF…… ANYWAYS!!! EUROPE!!!!! AND SCHOOL!!!!! HOW WAS EUROPE and how is school going (I’m assuming you started again???) I hope it’s going so well!!!!! I’ve been crazy busy at work it’s insane, I swear the work is just nonnnnnstop it’s making me want to die 😭 what’s crazy is that I started this blog bc I always had so much free time and now I can barely stay online bc I always have some shit going on at work it’s so frustrating RAHHHH

Ugh. I can’t believe all the confusion??? With South Africa guy????? First of all I totally understand your hesitation for an “official title” bc shitty relationships will definitely do that to you 🧍‍♀️but his communication fr seems so spotty 😭 anyways I’m assuming he responded to the message by now (I’d be scared if he didn’t????) but I hope there’s some form of resolution there? I mean he sounds like a catch and I’m so glad you guys get along well and seem to have mutual feelings for each other but it really sucks when that’s the case and then it just quickly turns into a guy completely wasting your time 😕 waiting for more updates but I just don’t want you to end up getting hurt by all of this!! I’ll beat his ass frfr

AHHHH THAT SOUNDS LIKE SO MUCH FUN I would’ve been dying from all the physical activity too I don’t blame you LMAO 😭 I’m so glad you met so many cool people (and even had someone develop a lil crushy crush on you HAHAHA) but that sounds amazing!!! Also how was the kpop store there??? I hope it was everything you dreamt of AAAAA it’s so much fun to find kpop stuff in places away from home 😭 I haven’t been to a kpop store in months now but I’m aiming to go this Thursday for a FAT shopping trip. Will keep u posted 😋🤞

ANYWAYS I AM GOOD I’ve just been crazy busy and I feel really bad that I’ve been so bad about being on here ???!,!.!.!.! Also working thru Kinktober and my eyes are burning out of my skull from all my screen time but. WORTH IT……

I love you so so so much I need a million more updates so I know all’s still well with you! Sending all my love as USUALLLLL 💓💓💓💓🫶👼

#🌱 anon #ask

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rrxnjun · 1 year ago

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IM SORRY BUT THE YUTA FIC MADE MY BLOOD BOIL!!!! WHAT IS WRING WITH HIM THIS MADE MY HEART HURT LIKE Y/N MY BELOVED U ARE SO DUMB MY HEART HURT FOR HER LIKE PLS IM PISSED i just didn't expect the end like i did. but not in that way i'm sjsjjdmfnsmc and i did. tear up i was heart broken

this part broke me a bit IM JUST SO AKSBMDBFMS like i feel so bad for her☹️☹️ doyoung was such a foreshadower!! and jaechan making an appearance AND MANAGER SANGYEON love that!! dude i'm so pissed i wont be over this for like a couple of days the ending like fuck fic!yuta and like poor girly traveling and putting her heart out for him and this is how it ends AND HE RELEASES THE SONG crazy dude crazyyyy like this fic made me so emotional wahhh

my reply to the previous ask: i think i will just stop talking about ice cream lmao

THANK U I WILL NEED IT I HAVE MANY CLASSES AT THE SAME TIME😃 i will be gaslighting myself so uni is going to be okay!!

I STAYED UP!! AGAIN!! AND IT WAS WORTTH IT!! BUT IM ALSO REALLY PISSED!!! AND TOMORROW I WILL WAKE UP!! AND I WILL STILL BE PISSED FOR POOR MAIN CHARACTER!! LIKE I AM PASSIONATELY PISSED RN

glad to hear the tbz brainrot🫶 intrigued in what the username will be:o loved the sangyeon sneak i almost laughed out loud

VERY MUCH A SLAY HAIR STILL!! PINK HAIR FOR 5SOS IS A WIN!!! i will never stop mentioning ur bf eric🫶 AND THOSE SUNWOO PICS... and his other pics since then... dont even i hate him don't understand why i defend him (i will continue defending him cuz i love him and i'm crazy)

Y/N BELOVED YOU ARE SO DUMB AHHAAHAH there is NO WAY you teared up at this fic im actually- STOPP. i did try to write the fic from y/ns pov and how blinded by love and how young and naive she was so i am glad you found her a little dumb <3

doyoung was actually the only one with a brain in that band. like i did intend for him to come off as a bit of a dick but in my head, he wanted the best for poor y/n but couldn't tell her to run because of his friendship with yuta. AHAHA SEE I INTRODUCED YOU TO JAECHAN BEFORE YOU READ THE FIC SO U WOULD KNOW WHO IM MENTIONING <3 sangyeon deffo has manager vibes prove me wrong. i love casting idols in my fics its so fun to create those weird universes where they meet. also yes he did release the song like the punk fuck he is

still cant believe how your classes can clash and overlap I HOPE THEY FIX THAT BC WHAT ARE U EVEN SUPPOSED TO DO. TEAR YOURSELF IN TWO??

I STAY MAKING MY READERS PASSIONATELY PISSED <3 love my brand. but also never stay up for my fic ever again you need your sleep

pink hair for 5sos will be such a statement i am living all my 15 year old dreams. all of sunwoo's pics since then have been majorly crazy he needs to stop posting for a while or something bc i cant

#💌ask #feedback !!#fic: i felt younger when we met

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ecuwe · 6 years ago

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just caught myself missing my high school days but specifically the very depressed ones where I wanted to run away and felt miserable all the time wtf

#whats so good abt never seeing friends or being convinced my friends dont care abt me??? nostalgia EXPLAIN #the only good thing i can think of was one day when i was feeling bad my mom was waiting for me at the door and my rats were on her shoulder #*shoulders. and she had put some banana slices and nutella on a plate wahhh #my brain: werent those days when u would go into ur closet and cry in the dark fun? dont u wanna do that again idiot?#sacsen

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actuallyunreal · 2 years ago

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i wanted to write this down while ive got eddsworld brain!! im posting this cause its easier than just writing a whole fanfic (rolling eyes emoji)

here was my plans for missing your mayhem:

-(edd wants to be chaos red army with tord. tord doesnt know what he wants, but everyone seems to know what they want him to do. might want to quit)

-edd wishes tord had just been honest about all the weird evil genius shit. he figures it would have been easier if tord had just talked through shit instead of assuming hed hate him.

always had a weird pseudo crush on tord. pulled pigtails. misses the good old days. wants to be chaotic with tord.

tord thinks hes a super genius and everything but is just kind of a spoiled child lashing out because he thinks he doesnt deserve love.

edd just thinks tord is the coolest, dorkiest, cutest loser. wants his friends to chill out.

theyre both super chaotic neutral and have morals that make No Sense to other people but perfect sense to each other

“i just - i cant figure out what you want” “what i want doesnt matter its what the world needs. what i’ve committed to” “but what do YOU need??”

the largest pharmaceuticals company is the source of the repeated zombie apocalypses; they regularly expose the public to the disease in order to promote medication sales. theres lots of other shady shit they do but this is what gets them on red army’s map.

matt takes meds made by the company that subdues the vampire thing. its kind of like a seasonal allergy or lactose intolerance.

tom has a job opportunity as a personal investigator finding missing people from pharmaceuticals company. lots of cash. needs extra hands though. asks edd and matt to help so they come along.

edd been hanging around uselessly waiting by phone for chats with tord. theyre telling stories over the phone when tom is like “hey edd i found this cool job opportunity but i need three of us. it pays well pwomise” and edd hasnt gotten any work done because hes been hanging out with Tord so hes like well ok!

and they basically go to like. test a new med at a lab to try to personal investigate the situation? and they get seperated from matt on the way out and he gets captured. the laws regarding stuff about undead people are really iffy especially in the pharmaceutical industry and legal areas in general and thats the kind of Wide World Plot that they get caught in.

they go and somehow get caught up in vampire conspiracy while edd is being all cutesy about his bf. tom calls him out that theres plenty adventure but hes just not taking it and hes kind of a bad friend (never takes things seriously, self-saboutages)

tord meanwhile has been plotting and working on a solo mission to dismantle a pharmaceutical monopoly / threaten the boss a bunch / whatever; he goes back and forth about how to do what hes doing. and even explaining what it is that he wants. he eventually admits to paul that he doesnt know what hes doing and pauls like hey. you have friends. let us help dickbag. so they help him plan and he gets all the way inside the fucking place and then edd calls him on the phone like "wahhh wahhh we got matt vampire-napped"

so tord ruins his well crafted plan to dismantle the weird anti-vampire cult in a way that keeps his politics clean and safe and the red army future possible by saving matt for edd and they chaos their way out of the building. tom is fucking pissed that tords here. edds like “my good pal tom cant complain now im literally putting my friends first :3c”

anyway now the world is pissed at the red army for interfering and doing Blantant Terrorist Shit and edd is like FINALLY WE GET TO BE CHAOS TOGETHER <33333 but at the same time tord is saying FINALLY I CAN LEAVE MY POSITION AS RED LEADER TO BE A NORMAL BOY WITH EDD AND MY FRIENDS <33333 and edds like "what" and tords like "what" and then they get in a big fight and storm off and rethink their priorities

>tord is a huge baby romantic and has been doing everything to be the main character edgy hero but in reality hes a nervous wreck from so much responsibility and he misses just going on fun adventures that have no political implications

>edd misses fun and passion in his life but is kind of a dick about it

>tom is here and a responsible adult (which is just him coping because he really wants everyone to be friends again because he is literally a huge blubbering cartoon character and he sleeps with a fucking stuffed animal) and hes doing his best with picking up jobs and stuff

>matt is here and the system is against him but him and tom have a weirdly functional relationship in this story for some reason. like they support each other and watch shitty girly films together. and go on little adventures of their own without edd because hes been a pile of depression and sad. but yeah he has a terrible time because of anti-undead stuff and he is like 2x undead.

the possibility of this all ending in green leader is very high because im autistic :)

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artificialqueens · 4 years ago

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Tree House Kisses, Chapter 38 (Adorney) - Scorpio and Veronica

A/N: Click here for previous chapters. And thank you so much to @saiphl for the beta help!! XO!

Chapter Summary: The girls spend a summer apart, but then start their senior year, closer than ever.

Chapter 38: Feelings

Courtney’s dad had moved with his girlfriend to Berkeley earlier in the year, and both of her parents unilaterally decided that she should spend the summer with him for some “quality time.” She’d argued, she’d protested, she’d pleaded with Karen, she’d even cried; but in the end she had no choice but to go along with the plan, sullenly packing her things and boarding the train, defeated. Her only solace was that Roy was doing a summer program in Stanford for a month, which meant that at least they could still see each other on the weekends for part of the time she was there.

COURTNEY: JFC I’m gonna be sleeping on a goddamn fold out couch all summer. This is shit.

ADORE: Awww, so sorry, princess. Xx

COURTNEY: Lol, fuck you. You have no idea what this is like

ADORE: That’s true. I haven’t seen my dad for like ten years

COURTNEY: WAH WAH WAHHH YOU ALWAYS HAVE TO WIN

COURTNEY: ;)

ADORE: lol

The truth was, Courtney hadn’t really spent much time with her dad since the divorce. Sometimes it made her sad, thinking about how close they used to be. She tried to keep an open mind, but a big part of her was still angry about him having an affair, turning their lives upside-down, leaving her mom...leaving her.

Adore was right, though. As far as absentee fathers went, things could be much worse. One night, while he sat on the sofa (the one that doubled as the least comfortable bed she ever had) watching TV, Courtney wandered over and sat down next to him.

He looked up from the TV, surprised, a smile spreading across his face.

“Hey, kiddo.”

“Hi.” Courtney shifted slightly, tried to shake the horrible feeling that she was sitting next to a grown man that she barely knew. “Whatcha watching?”

“Just the news...if things go well this year, we can take both the house and the senate,” Peter told her. “And in 2008, that fucking shit-for-brains will finally be done and we can get the White House, too.”

“That would be awesome,” Courtney agreed, letting her head rest on her father’s shoulder. He wasn’t perfect, that was for damn sure...but when it came down to it, she supposed she was lucky to have him.

Meanwhile, Adore had gotten a summer job as a counselor at an arts day camp, and soon began spending her days surrounded by loud, attention-seeking child star wannabes. Every day, she came home and collapsed in exhaustion, vowing to never, under any circumstances, ever have children.

COURTNEY: How’s camp?

ADORE: The worst

COURTNEY: I’m sorry

ADORE: It’s all good. How’s the homewrecker?

COURTNEY: Weird

ADORE: Is she teaching you any good stripper moves?

COURTNEY: No, she just like, chain smokes and talks to her birds

ADORE: She has BIRDS?

COURTNEY: Yeah man, I told you. WEIRD

ADORE: What are the birds’ names?

COURTNEY: Something in Russian, I dunno. I just call them Boris and Natasha

ADORE: Lol you’re so corny

COURTNEY: I did meet some pretty cool anarchist guys down the block

ADORE: What’s their band called?

COURTNEY: Who said they have a band?

ADORE: What’s their band called, Courtney?

COURTNEY: Pussy Whisper

ADORE: LOLOLOLOL

COURTNEY: Okay, so...this is going to shock you…

ADORE: ???

COURTNEY: The Pussy Whisper dudes?

ADORE: Oh jeez, what?

COURTNEY: They’re gross

ADORE: Yeah, no shit

COURTNEY: i just really liked what Tristan had to say about late stage capitalism

ADORE: Right

COURTNEY: And Grant said I was smart

ADORE: Well, that was your first clue

COURTNEY: HEY!!!

ADORE: Lol, not because you’re not. Because dudes in a band called “Pussy Whisper” that call you smart are up to some no-good shit

COURTNEY: Right. Ugh

ADORE: Bird lady still a fucking weirdo?

COURTNEY: Yeah. Although she did take me to a yoga class this morning, so that was nice. She’s actually maybe not the most vile person on the planet

ADORE: Awww, look at you, falling in love

COURTNEY: Shut up

Once Courtney got over her initial resistance, she had to admit that Berkely was somewhat cool. Certainly more her speed than the bland suburban wasteland she was used to. She spent most of her days wandering around used book stores, head shops, or combing through racks of cute vintage dresses. One afternoon, sunbathing in the backyard of her dad’s apartment building (which was a converted Victorian house that she also had to regretfully admit was pretty charming), she made friends with a very affectionate marmalade-colored kitten. Turned out, the cat belonged to their downstairs neighbor, and soon Courtney found herself fully enchanted with the older woman.

COURTNEY: Okay I found a much better new friend than the PW boys. She’s our downstairs neighbor and she’s like 70 and so cool. She has pink hair and all her clothes are made of hemp. She’s gonna take me to an Iraq War protest on Saturday.

ADORE: Oh jeez. You’re gonna come back with white person dreads, aren’t you?

COURTNEY: lol it’s a nice look

ADORE: IT IS NOT

ADORE: Abortion should be legal until the kids are like...12 years old, at least

COURTNEY: Campers getting on your nerves?

ADORE: If I snap, will you visit me in prison?

COURTNEY: Of course! I’ll bake a nail file into a cake for you and everything. XOXO

ADORE: Good cake or some bay area bullshit?

COURTNEY: Gluten free agave-sweetened carob cake, courtesy of Patsy

ADORE: Fuck off

COURTNEY: Don’t insult Patsy. She’s been protesting since Vietnam, she’s awesome.

ADORE: HEY CHEERLEADER THIS IS WILLAM! YOU’RE A SLUT AND WE MISS YOU!

ADORE: AND I’M VERY DISAPPOINTED THAT YOU DIDN’T FUCK THE PUSSY WHISPERERS

COURTNEY: Sorry bunny

ADORE: He’s high

COURTNEY: And you?

ADORE: Meeee? Whaaaaaat?

ADORE: Yes lol

COURTNEY: Lol, have fun

COURTNEY: Would it be really bad if I liked Katya?

ADORE: Omg are you gonna start calling her Mommy?

COURTNEY: Shut up!

COURTNEY: But seriously...it would be like, disloyal to my mom if I liked her, right?

ADORE: Are you gonna start adopting birds?

COURTNEY: No, I just think she’s kind of funny sometimes. I’m a terrible daughter

ADORE: Well, your mom IS the one who sent you up there for the summer. So…

COURTNEY: True

ADORE: So. Something happened last night that was...uh…

ADORE: Very

ADORE: ...

COURTNEY: ???

ADORE: Give me a minute...I’m processing...

COURTNEY: Tell me!

ADORE: Well, we started in Violet’s basement, drinking, and I’m not sure how but somehow it ended up being like 10 people

COURTNEY: Aww, was Violet sad I wasn’t there? Did she cry?

ADORE: lol, totally

COURTNEY: So what happened???

ADORE: Yeah, so...I went out to the backyard to smoke and Trin came and like...I’m not sure exactly how it happened, but I think I made out with her

COURTNEY: WHOA

ADORE: Yeah

COURTNEY: Is she gay???

ADORE: No, definitely not. We were just like, drunk and high

COURTNEY: Is everything cool between you??

ADORE: Yeah, I think so. We were laughing about it this morning. But like, I still feel a little bad.

COURTNEY: Why do you feel bad?

ADORE: I mean, I dunno. I don’t want people to think that I’m like, some predatory asshole, you know?

COURTNEY: No one would think that

ADORE: My track record might disagree

COURTNEY: The only thing your track record shows is you’re a ho

ADORE: WOW

COURTNEY: I WAS KIDDING!!!!

ADORE: lol, I know

COURTNEY: XOXOXOXO

As much as Courtney tried, and as much as she made her peace with her summer surroundings, by the time August rolled around, she began to get increasingly homesick. Missing her mom, her bedroom, even Grandma Muriel. But especially, missing Adore.

COURTNEY: I really miss you

COURTNEY: Like so much

ADORE: Me too

COURTNEY: No like SO much

ADORE: Are you high?

COURTNEY: No, are you?

ADORE: A little lol

COURTNEY: I’m not high. I just love you.

ADORE: Aww, thanks babe

“DORY!!” Courtney squealed, practically leaping from her car the second she pulled into the driveway. She’d texted Adore from her last stop for gas, but she was thrilled to see her best friend actually waiting for her.

She wrapped Adore into a tight hug, her excitement causing her to pepper Adore’s entire face with wet kisses.

“Hi, okay, stop it,” Adore giggled. “Nice car, by the way.”

“Oh yeah, I know, it’s pretty great. Peter gets a gold star for that one.” Courtney glanced back at the car, her dad’s old Honda Accord, shaking her new bangs out of her face. He’d surprised her with the keys just last week, and it had almost made her forgive him for leaving in the first place...almost. “It was kind of scary to do that whole drive alone, though. I’m very thankful to have made it in one piece.”

“Me too,” Adore said, with a grin that told Courtney she was home. “Now that you’re back, it’s gonna be a fuckin’ party.”

Courtney laid a head on her shoulder, sighing happily.

“You’re going to Darienne’s goodbye party on Wednesday, right?”

“Yeah, of course. Omigod! Dory! I wanted to make those peanut butter cupcakes that she loves, but you know I’m just absolute shit at decorating, can you help?”

“What on earth makes you think I’d be good at cupcake decorating?” Adore laughed.

“I dunno, you’re better at art than me,” Courtney said. “Plus, it’ll just be more fun with you.”

Adore pressed a kiss to her forehead. “Count me in.”

School was going to be starting back up soon, and as Adore looked around the party at her friends, she couldn’t help but feel a little ambivalent. Summer had just been so nice, and having that small taste of freedom made her long to be done with school altogether.

Tonight, there was a big group at Pearl’s house--her usual friends as well as a bunch of the neighborhood kids, enjoying the pool and the warm evening air. Violet, Fame and Trinity lounged in the hot tub with April, watching the sun set. Pearl was standing at the grill, living her butch fantasy as she cooked up food for her guests, swatting Bob away with as he peered over her shoulder, trying to “help.”

It was a little bittersweet--Darienne had already left for Pepperdine a few weeks earlier, and Jamin for Cal Poly. Even though they weren’t as close as they used to be, it still felt strange, somehow, for them to be missing. Hell, it was even weird for Alyssa to be gone, the loudmouth head cheerleader now torturing people at UC San Diego, probably already sorority president.

A handful of people were dancing, including Courtney and Willam, twirling until they were dizzy and laughing.

“Ugh, I don’t want school to start!” Willam suddenly whined, reflecting Adore’s feelings exactly.

“I know, but this year we’re coming back as seniors, and we’re gonna rule the school,” Courtney said, imitating the line from Grease perfectly.

“Oh really? You think you’re Rizzo?” Adore challenged her.

“Why can’t I be Rizzo?” she demanded.

“Bitch, you are Sandy and you know it,” Adore laughed, grabbing a beer and sitting down on the back steps.

“I can be Rizzo if I want! Fuck you!”

“Yeah, lesbian! How dare you put cheerleader in a box! She can be whatever she wants!” Willam cried.

“That's right,” Courtney added, “I mean, I did spend all summer hanging out with a prostitute. What did you do? Day Camp?”

“I was a counselor,” Adore replied, laughing. She reached into the cooler and pulled out a bottle. “Here, have another drink. And I thought Katya was a stripper, not a prostitute.”

“You don't know her. It's a very blurry line,” Courtney explained, taking the offered wine cooler.

Willam grabbed Courtney’s hand and pulled her away, spinning her around and around. “Less talking, more dancing!”

Adore shook her head, watching them with a smile, lighting up a joint. Roy sat down beside her--the last of his class, since UCLA didn’t start for a few more weeks.

“Hey, Delano. How ya doing, man?”

“Good...bro.”

Roy flashed some dimples at her, then just sat for a minute, unusually quiet, as they both watched their friends dancing like fools. Willam dipped Courtney low to the ground and she shrieked and giggled.

“God, she’s so fucking beautiful,” he said.

Adore wasn’t sure if he was talking to her or himself. She nodded, leaning against the banister and sighing slightly.

When Roy spoke again, it was quiet. “I know, you know. How lucky I am.”

Adore looked at him, considering her reply. Finally, she just nodded and said, “Good.”

Roy gave her another smile.

“Make sure she stays outta trouble while I’m away.”

“I think I’m probably the least qualified person for that job,” Adore laughed, then held out the joint.

“Thanks, I’m cool.”

“Debatable,” Adore retorted, taking another hit.

Roy shook his head, chuckling.

“I’m gonna miss you too, Delano.”

“Aww...shut up.”

On the first day of their senior year, Courtney and Adore walked out of their fourth period economics class together, giggling over Laganja’s unfortunate new haircut.

“I feel bad for saying so, but it’s just so...”

“Hideous?” Adore supplied, and Courtney giggled some more.

“Yeah. Poor thing. Although it’s hard to say whether her hair is more or less tragic than Mr. Sutton’s awkwardness. He’s like a baby deer.”

“I know! But like, imagine trying to get the respect of students who are pretty much your age,” Adore laughed.

“How old do you think he is, anyway?”

“Uh, I don’t know, but I’m pretty sure he graduated with Kim and Angie. I think I remember him from when Angie did show choir.”

Courtney grabbed onto Adore’s arm, eyes wide.

“Omigod, you’re right! I knew he looked familiar!” she exclaimed.

It wasn’t until they were halfway down the hill that Adore noticed Courtney still walking with her. She hadn’t split off to go sit with the neighborhood kids like past years, simply walked beside her towards the oak tree, where Trinity and Willam already sat, sword-fighting with breadsticks.

“Are you...planning to join us?” Adore asked curiously, and Courtney bit her lip.

“Is that okay? I mean...it’s just a little weird without Roy and Darienne, so I thought…you can say no if-”

“Of course it’s okay!” Adore pulled her in for a side hug. “Everyone loves you, you know that.”

“Everyone?” Courtney asked, one eyebrow nearly to her hairline.

“Almost everyone.” Adore smiled ruefully. “And anyway, I want you here, so she can just deal with it.”

As it turned out, Adore was right. Everyone welcomed Courtney enthusiastically with open arms. And even Violet was unusually cool about it, containing her disapproval to some muttered asides to Fame, who promptly thumped her on the shoulder every time, akin to bopping a puppy on the nose with a newspaper.

Courtney didn’t seem to mind either way, cheerfully trading barbs with Willam and letting Fame “fix” her eyebrows, which were deemed “just too pale.”

“Are your pubes blonde, too?” Willam asked curiously, and Trinity began choking on her sandwich from laughter.

“Gross,” Courtney said, wrinkling her nose.

“Actually, are they? I’m kind of curious,” Trinity said.

“Come on, cheerleader, just tell us!” Willam urged.

“You know, I quit cheerleading almost a year ago,” Courtney said.

“So?”

“He still calls me ‘New Girl,’” Pearl explained.

“Why are you stalling? Show! Me! Your! Pussy! Hairs!” Willam said, and Fame put her whole head in her hands, letting out a horrified groan before going back to Courtney’s eyebrows.

“Careful, Bill, or you might get what you wish for,” Courtney sang, staring him down. “You really wanna see my pussy?”

“Uhh...no. Well, maybe...but no. Or…” Willam’s brow furrowed.

“Shit, you broke his little gay brain,” Pearl said, laughing.

“Omigod, that’s so much better!” Fame sat back on her heels, holding up a compact so that Courtney could see her new defined eyebrows.

“Oh wow, that is better! Thank you!”

After snapping the compact shut and handing it back to Fame, Courtney caught Adore’s eye, both of their faces melting into a grin. As Adore buried her smile into her sandwich, she couldn’t help but think about what a change it was from last year.

Maybe a sign of good things to come...or maybe the calm before the storm.

#rpdr fanfiction #tree house kisses #scorpio #veronica #adorney #adore delano #courtney act #bianca del rio #bitney #willam belli #miss fame #lesbian au #high school au #angst #fluff

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catattemptsart · 6 years ago

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Training NALU Oneshot

A year after Fairytail's biggest battle yet, the fight with Zeref and Acnologia, Lucy decides to improve her hand to hand combat skills. And who else can help her but none other than Natsu Dragneel?

‘Tis a bit steamy, fluff, and definitely needs editing 😂

Also I actually wrote this a year ago and accidentally deleted it off Tumblr so I’m reposting! I’m planning to get into writing again so thought might as well post it ❤️

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“Gate of the Scorpion, I open thee! Scorpio!"

A blinding light arose before her as it shifts into the familiar shape of the arachnid celestial spirit. With a burst, the red cloth wrapped around the figure's waist flurried in the air and the man became visible. Instantly, he positioned himself for battle, the mechanical scorpion tail following after him.

"Star dress form, Scorpio!" Lucy yells after his summoning. A similar light binds around her curvy figure, as a red and black skin-tight suit replaces it. A chain coming from her backside ends with a curved, sharp point, replicating the stinger. With this suit her speed is enhanced and it also grants her the ability to blend and fly through the sandstorm freely.

She begins to run, then kicking off of the dry earth to fly through the sandy air. Her opponent is a Sand Elemental, able to control the grainy substance to its whim. And because of that it stopped the poor Smith family from growing their crops for the year.

Hovering through, she eyes the molded body, looking at its form. It was shaped as a woman with the texture of a sandcastle, but much more fearsome as it could recover with ease. Whenever Lucy attacked, the sand regained its form. It was as if she never touched it at all.

Lucy comes behind the entity as Scorpio distracts it, running around and never directly attacking. She whirls herself around with a foot extended, hitting the being in the head with her infamous Lucy Kick. The sand completely crumbles away but comes back just as fast. The gritty substance that dispersed swirled in the air before settling back to its original position, reforming the shape of the head.

The Sand Elemental begins to laugh distortedly as Lucy grunts to herself.

"You really think you can beat me?!" It whips around and the sandstorm begins to descend to the ground, instead coming together to pile around Lucy's feet. She tries to struggle her way out but does so to no avail.

"What? I should be able to move in Scorpio's form-" The sand reaches her neckline and begins to go beyond that. "Now, Scorpio!"

Scorpio points his stinger towards the Elemental. Instead of fighting fire with fire, he begins sucking in the sand towards the mechanical tail. It helped to disfigure the Elemental's form in order to find a weak point.

As the being became translucent, a glimmering, grey light was found at the knee. Lucy's eyes widen. She read in a book somewhere that the orb represents an Elemental's soul (alike their brain). The light is usually colourful, but when darkened, its spirit had become corrupted. It was the one mark of weakness in her opponent.

Realizing she had no way of making direct contact to the knee, she turns to Natsu as he sits on a rock with Happy. Lucy told him to stay out of her fight so she could get better in battle. But it seems like he was ready to blow up at any moment; his eyes are sharp while glaring at the Sand Elemental, a concentrated look masking his face.

"Natsu! Her knee!" She yelps as the sand begins to consume the edges of her lips.

"Got it!" A blur of pink and suddenly the temperature of the whole area begins to rapidly increase. "Fire dragons..." Lucy stares at Natsu as the red fire quickly builds, panic rising within herself. He was aiming directly at the Elemental, and her.

"Wait, wait! Natsu, you're going to hit me t-"

"-roar!" The flames burst out of his mouth and are centered towards the being's weak spot. Over the time Natsu left to train, he learnt to use his power in a less violent and explosive way. The fire seems to shoot out in a solid line and the Elemental freezes in fear. The attack hits the targeted orb with full force...but also goes beyond that.

"Wahhh!" Lucy screams as she is shot out of the sky. Happy, who had been happily watching the whole battle quietly, chuckles to himself.

"She looks like a flying fish."

Scorpio begins to chase after her, wanting to catch his contractor before she hits the ground.

"Why does this always happen to me?" Lucy asks with comical tears streaming out of her eyes, still flying in the air. Before Scorpio can reach her, Natsu seems to appear out of thin air and easily catches Lucy in his arms. She squeaks, noticing how gentle his hands are in holding her and how one was pretty close to her butt. Lucy flushes and squirms, jumping out of Natsu's hands.

"Thanks." She mutters, looking at Natsu from the corner of her eyes. He gives her his signature smile and throws an arm over her shoulder.

Scorpio looks smug before closing the gate on himself.

"No problem!" Natsu smiles. Lucy flushes in response, an irritating feeling burning somewhere deep inside her chest (as cheesy as that sounds). Both because of her changing feelings about her so called best friend, and the fight that she just battled.

She's not an idiot in realizing her feelings. Although admittedly, it did take a while for her to confirm what she felt towards Natsu. Ever since their final battle with Zeref and Acnologia, there had been so many close calls. Each time she thought Natsu might've died while not losing hope that he was still alive, a piece of her felt lost. She couldn't imagine a life without him and Happy. She could handle him leaving to train, but him leaving for good? That was a whole different story.

But of course, Natsu is as freaking dense as he is, so these feelings are going to be unrequited for quite awhile longer.

The other thing that bothered her was the fight. She told Natsu to stay out of it for the sake of improving her combat abilities, but she could never get by on brute force. Sure, she had brains that could help her out of any sticky situation, or the aid of her wonderful celestial spirits, but her strength alone left her vulnerable.

And that's what frustrates her the most.

Because she has come so far - years of training towards the final battle with Zeref and Acnologia. So letting her weakness stay as her weakness was not an option. Turning to Natsu, she contemplates asking him something she's been thinking of for a long time now. Lucy decides to just wing it. What's the worst that can happen anyway?

"Natsu?"

"Yah, Luce?" Even saying her name made her shiver, oddly enough. He only ever used that nickname every so often, but since the final battle with his brother and the dragon king, they both unconsciously grew closer. There hasn't been a day since then that he didn't call her Luce, or he hadn't slept in her bed. Now that she thinks about it, there hasn't been a day where they weren't by each other's side at all.

Levy started making fun of her, saying that their relationship was close to a married couple. Lucy spat back a couple remarks concerning Gajeel and that quickly shut the blue haired girl up.

"Could you teach me how to fight?" She asks straight up. Natsu looks at her blankly, before his signature smile spreads across his face.

"Sure! But why?”

Lucy shrugs, "I need to get better at hand to hand combat. At the moment it's my biggest weakness, and it always seems to get in the way of every fight I have." He frowns.

"But that's what I'm here for." Natsu mumbles quietly. His eyes suddenly widen, as if just realizing what he said. "I mean yeah, I'll help you get better."

Happy cackles quietly in a corner, chorusing to himself about how, 'he liiiikes her'.

"Great! Let's start tomorrow morning, okay Natsu?" He smiles again in confirmation and they begin their walk towards the old barn. After collecting their reward money, the three enter the neighbouring town to explore. Fast forward through multiple visits to a couple of bookstores and restaurants, the sky has darkened to a bluish, purple hue. The clouds were no longer distinguishable and Lucy yawns, petting Happy, being careful not to wake him up.

Natsu looks at his two partners, feel some sort of righteousness in the moment. His eyes hovered over Happy to Lucy's (squishy) face, before lowering to her exposed neck. Trailing down, his throat begins to grow dry as-

"Finally. There's an inn here." Lucy cuts into his thoughts, as she begins to jog lightly towards the blinking open-sign. Natsu shakes his head, feeling a little uncertain of his behaviour.

"Thank goodness, I'm tired from going to all of those bookstores."

"And I feel like I gained 10 pounds from all of the food you bought, but you didn’t hear me complaining."

They enter the wooden cabin, taking in the musky scent of the small area. An elderly man sits at the front desk, seemingly staring at the wall. A soft snore leaves him and he shakes slightly. Lucy creeps towards him, feeling bad to wake him up but really wanting a place to clean up and sleep.

"Uh, excuse me." He doesn't move. "Sir? Sir!" The man flinches and slams his hands on the table, making Lucy and Natsu jump with dumbfounded looks on their faces. Happy still stays asleep throughout all of this.

"Yes! How may I help you?!" The man unnecessarily screams and Lucy sweat drops.

"Room for one please." She murmurs, beginning to feel tired after the day's events.

"You-you mean with one bed?" The man then whispers, stuttering. He looks between Lucy and Natsu as if it was the most scandalous thing ever. They weren't even dating but either way it isn't that big of a deal. And the guy works at a freaking inn, of course couples were going to come by and do the diggity.

Natsu, getting grumpy with how long this is taking, leans really close to the elder. "Listen ya' old geezer, can we get a room or not?" He growls.

The guy nods, blushing, and Lucy can't help notice the resemblance between him and Erza.

"Up the stairs, the fourth door to the left." He puts the key down and gets out of his seat, shuffling away. The two mutter their thanks and follow his instructions, entering their room for the night.

The suite is very homy. Although small, it emphasizes the comfortable vibe the cabin initially gives off. It has wooden planks that creek with every step taken, and a basic, wood carved bed lying in the centre. An old TV sat in front of the bed and beside it lay a mini living room. Two small, beige coloured couches circle a wooden table and the balcony is blocked by a glass door, covered by thin, brown curtains.

"You can change first. I'm going to get Happy comfortable on the couch." Lucy says quietly, walking towards the two seats. Natsu makes a noise of confirmation and ruffles through his clothes. He enters the bathroom, changing into his red shorts and going topless. After freshing himself up he exits, only to find Lucy quietly dozing off.

He decides to wake her up, since she always complains about feeling disgusting in the morning if she doesn't clean up the night before.

"Lucy." Natsu whispers, leaning closer to her. His heart begins to speed up. The look of innocence on her face was...enticing? It made him feel powerful oddly enough. As if...

He shakes his head.

"Lucy!" This time he screams and she jumps up, screeching.

"Natsu! What the hell?" She groans, but drags herself out of the bed anyway. He smiles at her, patting her butt as she leaves. Lucy freezes, turning around to glare at the pink haired boy. He doesn't seem to notice his actions as he goes to crawl into bed. "N-Natsu?"

"Hm?"

Lucy sighs. "Nothing." It's Natsu of all people. He probably has no idea what that meant to an average person. As she enters the washroom, he catches the light, pink flush on her cheeks and smirks to himself.

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mimpixel-blog · 7 years ago

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NALU Training Oneshot

(No official title lol)

Involves: cute shit, romance shit, kind of fluffy so basically not all the way smut, fighting shit, uhhhh yeah

Summary: A year after Fairytail’s biggest battle yet, the fight involving Zeref and Acnologia, Lucy decides to improve her hand to hand combat skills. And who else can help her but none other than Natsu Dragneel?

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"Gate of the Scorpion, I open thee! Scorpio!"

The Sand Elemental begins to laugh distortedly as Lucy grunts to herself.

"What? I should be able to move in Scorpio's form-" The sand reaches her neckline and begins to go beyond that. "Now, Scorpio!"

"Natsu! Her knee!" She yelps as the sand begins to consume the edges of her lips.

"Wait, wait! Natsu, you're going to hit me t-"

"Wahhh!" Lucy screams as she is shot out of the sky. Happy, who had been happily watching the whole battle quietly, chuckles to himself.

"She looks like a flying fish."

Scorpio begins to chase after her, wanting to catch his contractor before she hits the ground.

"Why does this always happen to me?" Lucy asks with comical tears streaming out of her eyes, still flying in the air. Before Scorpio can reach her, Natsu seems to appear out of thin air and easily catches Lucy in his arms. She squeaks, noticing how gentle his hands are in holding her and how one was pretty close to her ass. Lucy flushes and squirms, jumping out of Natsu's hands.

"Thanks." She mutters, looking at Natsu from the corner of her eyes. He gives her his signature smile and throws an arm over her shoulder.

Scorpio looks smug before closing the gate on himself.

But of course, Natsu is as freaking dense as he is, so these feelings are going to be unrequited for quite awhile longer.

And that's what frustrates her the most.

Because she has come so far; years of training towards the final battle with Zeref and Acnologia. So letting her weakness stay as her weakness was not an option. Turning to Natsu, she contemplates asking him something she's been thinking of for a long time now. Lucy decides to just wing it. What's the worst that can happen anyway?

"Natsu?"

Levy started making fun of her, saying that their relationship was close to a married couple. Lucy spat back a couple remarks concerning Gajeel and that quickly shut the blue haired girl up.

"Could you teach me how to fight?" She asks straight up. Natsu looks at her blankly, before his signature smile spreads across his face.

"Sure! But why?"

Lucy shrugs, "I need to get better at hand to hand combat. At the moment it's my biggest weakness, and it always seems to get in the way of every fight I have." He frowns.

"But that's what I'm here for." Natsu mumbles quietly. His eyes suddenly widen, as if just realizing what he said. "I mean yeah, I'll help you get better."

Happy cackles quietly in a corner, chorusing to himself about how, 'he liiiikes her'.

"Finally. There's an inn here." Lucy cuts into his thoughts, as she begins to jog lightly towards the blinking open-sign. Natsu shakes his head, feeling a little uncertain of his behaviour.

"Thank goodness, I'm tired from going to all of those bookstores."

"And I feel like I gained 10 pounds from all of the food you bought, but you don't hear me complaining."

"Yes! How may I help you?!" The man unnecessarily screams and Lucy sweat drops.

"Room for one please." She murmurs, beginning to feel tired after the day's events.

Natsu, getting grumpy with how long this is taking, leans really close to the elder. "Listen ya' old geezer, can we get a room or not?" He says sounding both whiny and playful.

The guy nods, blushing, and Lucy can't help notice the resemblance between him and Erza.

He decides to wake her up, since she always complains about feeling disgusting in the morning if she doesn't clean up the night before.

"Lucy." Natsu whispers, leaning closer to her. His heart begins to speed up. The look of innocence on her face was...enticing? It made him feel powerful oddly enough. As if...

He shakes his head.

"Lucy!" This time he screams and she jumps up, screeching.

"Hm?"

Natsu has been confused all morning.

Now that he thinks about it, he's been confused ever since Fairy Tail overcame their biggest battle yet. And it all has to do with a certain blonde weirdo.

He began to realize that whenever she hugged him, he felt things that he had never felt before. It was a source of comfort to him as they held each other in bed. Now, he always gets distracted. Both physically and mentally.

She appears a lot more precious to him now; the thought of Natsu losing her wasn't something he could take again. When he found Lucy unconscious, blood layering her eyes as Dimaria stood over her, he automatically assumed the worst. It tore him apart, but due to the growing END tumour inside of him, it was quickly replaced with anger.

Natsu was never the type to look out for blood. A little violence is all right, but at that moment, he completely lost himself. He wanted revenge. Revenge for his Lucy.

And it made him hate himself a little more. Because after all that training, he could barely protect Lucy in time. It was even weirder the fact he didn't exactly feel the same way he does for everyone else. Yes, of course he wants to protect all of his friends, all of his family. But with her, the feeling was a little bit stronger.

It shocks him more that now, he is actually teaching her how to fight.

"Okay Luce, come at me. Let's see what you got." He says while hopping on his feet, a rare time where he sounds serious. Happy (happily), munches on a fish while watching the two from afar.

Natsu wears the same outfit he always does, his long, black jacket flapping with every jump. Lucy has on a white, tight fitting shirt, flexible enough to accommodate her every movement. Her pants are impossibly short but it makes her more vulnerable, to further her training, she tells herself.

Not to impress Natsu at all.

Lucy jabs with her right fist, Natsu successfully blocking her attack. He notices that she did get a lot stronger compared to before he left. She then twists herself to do a sidekick to his ribs. His eyes flicker to her ankle, already anticipating her strike and grabs onto the limb, stopping it midway.

"Wah!" Lucy yelps and wobbles on her grounded leg. Looking at him sheepishly, he then drops her foot and scratches the back of his neck. Why does he feel so awkward?

"'Kay Luce, you need to move quicker. It looks like you hesitate every time you're about to hit me." Natsu says while nodding. He was never good with words but he wanted to try his best for Lucy. "And when you're not on offence, you need to put up more of a guard. As if you're looking for my next attack."

She huffs but nods.

"Okay, let's work on speed and strength. Hit me here with a jab." He points at his right hand with his left. Lucy does so lightly, not wanting to hurt him. "It's fine, hit me with all you have. Now do the other hand." She follows through. "And now a side jab here." He positions his right hand outwards his side.

"Good. Now faster." They do the sequence a few times before he tells her to start with her left hand first. After awhile they arrange a repetitive pattern, switching the primary hit every turn and repeating a couple of times.

"Don't be afraid, Natsu. You can go harder on me." She says, slightly out of breath. His eyebrows furrow together. It was weird. He never did it on purpose, but when Lucy pointed it out, he realized it was true.

But also, her words had a hidden, naughtier intent that he couldn't help noticing. Natsu decides to shake it off. Lucy wouldn't have done it on purpose.

"If you say so, then let's keep up what we just did for another half hour. Then we'll move on to other stuff later."

"Wait, hold up. On second thought-"

"Luce."

"Ah, fuck. I regret this already."

The two continue training the rest of the morning. After they finished arms they worked on legs, solidifying Lucy's front, round, and side kicks. Her speciality is the Lucy Kick after all.

Lucy's mind whirls as she trains. Natsu was always a touchy person, but it was so different when they fought. Rough but somehow gentle.

His eyes are pinched in deep thought and is queerly serious. She knows he is focusing on holding himself back, but this side of him is rarely ever seen. She cracks a small smile, feeling a little proud of herself at seeing Natsu so fixed on one task.

So fixed on her.

The two end the training with an all body workout. They work on a series of crunches, squats, push-ups, and anything of that sort, building up Lucy's strength and endurance. As they finish up, both are extremely sweaty and sticky. But it only occurs to Natsu when he really analyzes Lucy.

Her white shirt is soaked, sticking to her skin as the pale colour seems to seep through. The pink, lace bra slowly becomes more visible and Natsu gulps. Usually sweat isn't a bother to him, but as it trickles down Lucy's supple skin, down her neck and slickly below her thighs, Natsu gets more than just distracted.

He closes his eyes, forcing down his wild emotions while letting out a large breath of air.

"Are we done for today, Natsu?" She moans, clearly tired from the workout. He can't stop the shiver from the way she says his name. His pants are starting to feel a little uncomfortable.

"Yeah." He answers, his voice a little husky. Lucy notices this and he coughs, covering it up with a bad throat. He notices her rubbing her thighs together and his mouth begins to water.

Fuck, if he could shove her against a wall and-

Her voice cuts off his thoughts, "How do you do this everyday?".

"Uh, I don't know." Natsu replies weakly. He gets up and starts jogging towards the room they had rented for the night, leaving a confused Lucy behind. Happy goes to fly after him while grabbing another fish from his pack. "I'm going to shower first." Natsu calls back at the blonde.

And get rid of his little dragon, he thinks lamely.

It's been exactly two months since they began training. Every single day, Lucy suffered from Natsu's strict teachings. Finally, after a lot of begging (*cough* bribing), once today's workout is done, she finally gets a day to relax.

And boy is she looking forward to it.

The rest of the guild was interested in Lucy's training when the pair first mentioned it. Erza had offered to help in which Lucy denied profusely, not wanting to die. As Gray and a couple of other guys volunteered, Natsu was quick to turn them down. Mira always had an evil glint in her eyes as she noticed the quiet growl the pink haired boy emitted, a dangerous aura radiating from him whenever people noticed Lucy's 'training' clothes.

Mira starts whispering to Cana about it. "I bet you a hundred bucks they're going to get together within a week." The brunette alcoholic guffaws. She slams her booze on the table and leans in.

"I bet you two hundred they'll hook up today."

They look at each other dead in the eye as the said pair they bet on left the Guild. Happy stays behind and tries to offer Carla another fish, her response being to ignore him.

Lucy wasn't expecting Natsu's training to be so brutal. Then again she did ask him to not go easy on her, and her want to get better in combat quickly overruns any other thought. Still, a girl's allowed to complain, right?

This time Lucy wore a blue, skin fitting crop top, that stuck to her stomach like second skin. She matches it with a pair of blue tights.

Lucy ties her hair in a ponytail while eyeing Natsu carefully.

He wears the same clothes he always does, but just at that moment, Natsu shrugs off his jacket. He unwraps the scarf around his neck and Lucy bites her lip.

Stop looking, stop looking, stop looking.

She forces her eyes shut, but then opens them not so long after.

Oh gosh darn it.

By now all Natsu wore was his pants and his sandles. His clothes were a heap on the floor. He picks up his scarf, his muscles flexing in all the right places while folding the cloth. Lucy senses her face heating up while Natsu kicks the rest of his clothes away, then putting the folded scarf on top.

How hygienic...

"Ready to go?" Lucy snaps out of her trance and looks back into Natsu's eyes. It might've just been her but she could've sworn their was a glint of mischief in those two, dark orbs.

On the other hand, Natsu has definitely noticed her gawking and is internally smirking. His pride and ego increases.

"Yeah."

They similarly do what they always did but more advanced. By now Lucy is able to smoothly perform the basic fighting movements. She works on her elbow strikes and putting more memento into her attacks, while simultaneously defending her weakest areas. At this point, all because of her prior experience, Lucy was able to move with grace and few mistakes.

They finish up, both sweating buckets and her poor body is once again extremely sore. She is so ready to go home and sleep.

"Alright, Luce, let's fight again. I think you've had enough training." Natsu smiles, feeling pleased at Lucy's improvements. She groans.

And here she thought she could be lazy the rest of the day, Lucy thinks to herself.

"Prepare to get your ass kicked." The celestial mage sneers playfully. She then smiles back and his heart drops. He blinks, shaking away the odd feeling and getting into position.

It's been two months since they began training, but Natsu seems to want all of her attention. He craves her touch and closeness. It became quite a hindrance to him as he frequently got distracted by certain...assets.

Before, he was confused on why he felt that Lucy was so special to him. At this point he was sure of his feelings. He's just bewildered at everything that was happening. It was all so strange and new to him.

But he was always an instinctive kind of guy, and he knew Lucy long enough that she wouldn't allow something like this to get in the way of their relationship.

So Natsu did whatever he felt like doing to her, as long as it didn't cross her boundaries. He often got close so he could nuzzle Lucy's neck. His hands skim the handles of her waist, so perfectly shaped for him to hold onto, but he isn't really sure what for.

He's also grown a love for touching her ass. It was so big and squishy, and a good alternate to her boobs since she always got a lot more angry when he touched her there.

Lucy cocks her head and studies him, before copying his fighting stance. She can tell he is zoned out so she coughs. It successfully brings him out of his thoughts and he stares at her, dark eyed.

"Ready, Luce?" He hums.

"Ready."

And he strikes, deciding to take more of the offence side for their first fight. Of course he was going easy on her until she got increasingly better. Natsu swings, she blocks, and suddenly moves forward. Realizing that she's aiming for his stomach, he brings the other hand down to block.

Lucy suddenly spins while jumping, her other foot smacking him on the shoulder as he retaliates with a jab to her stomach. Instead of letting herself recover the hit, she grabs his right wrist and twists, then jutting out to punch his cheek.

Natsu bounces back, smirking with a bruising cheek.

That's my girl, he speculates.

They go on for a little while longer before Natsu is satisfied with Lucy's shown progress. He decides to end it here.

Lucy spins, removing her arm from his grasp to thrust her leg into his hip. He lets her hit him and he grunts, slightly wobbling on his feet. She goes for another punch and he easily catches her fist.

"You did great. I think we can stop for today." Natsu says deeply, breathing heavy as his chest rises and falls. Lucy's body which was tense from the fight completely relaxes against her partner. She pouts a little bit and Natsu stiffens, desire spreading through all of his being.

"Aw man, even after all this time you were still going easy on me."

But Natsu isn't listening. Some how the blonde girl before him became very vulnerable and lost to his eyes. His heightened smell picks up her rosy scent, mixed with sweat and hormones. The musky smell triggers a low rumble at the pit of his stomach. He has a growing urge to taste her, to make Lucy keen with pleasure and completely lose herself to him.

His eyes flicker to her lips.

Natsu's hand on her fist moves down to wrap around her wrist, pulling it behind his head. Lucy is yanked along with it, a quiet gasp leaving her mouth. He leans down and stares intently at Lucy's eyes. Hers begin to lid, looking dazed and somewhat shocked. Her lips part and he revels in how soft and pink the pair looks.

Natsu slithers a hand around her waist, feeling a little moisture after their recent activities. At this point he's running on impulse as he pulls her further to flush against him. Her breasts press onto his chest and he swallows, feeling himself react to her intimately.

Her free hand rests on his right bicep, gently gripping him to both physically and mentally steady herself. She uses it to maintain her balance as her knees start to shake. Their heads are close, Lucy's nose skimming the underline of his as their breaths mingle together.

Lucy feels herself become even more vulnerable by the look Natsu gives her. He was always expressive with his actions, and the look he gives her makes her swoon. His sharp eyes look completely feral, somehow darkening to an emptier pit of black as his eyes flicker from her mouth to her eyes.

She feels everything against her; all his crevices. From his abs to something stiff poking at her lower stomach. Her body responds without her conscious mind as she spontaneously grinds against him, a groan spluttering out of his mouth.

"Luce." He says it as a warning and she can't help but love it.

Lucy knew Natsu was innocent to these circumstances. But from the four years she's known him, eleven if they include the Tenrou Island incident, there were many things other things.

She knew that after the battle with Acnologia, Natsu frequently gets nightmares and doesn't feel comfortable sleeping unless he's in Lucy's bed. She knew how although he's a complete goofball, he can be so loving and serious at times. And definitely how when he wants to be, he is a completely new, unknown, dominant individual.

But right now there are two things Lucy is sure of. Natsu goes off based on what he feels is right, and often knows when he is taking it too far. So if Natsu continues that expression he has towards her, as if she's prey to be absolutely devoured, then that means his actions are honest. All Lucy knows is that if he wants to, she's willing to entirely give herself up to him.

Little did she know that Natsu was thinking the exact same thing. His little, blonde weirdo wouldn't be in this position if she hadn't felt the slightest, same affection to him as he did her.

Lucy slides her tongue out of the confines of her lips, licking below sultrily. Natsu stares and his eyes glaze over. Something within him snaps altogether. He lunges forward, basically tackling her to the ground as he follows through on his dragon senses.

She exhales a lengthy moan as he to nips at her bottom lip and pulls, then slanting his mouth onto hers. They both melt, for them to finally connect with each other on a separate level. Lucy feels her heart warm and lifts her hands into his hair. She grips her new reins and tugs. Natsu groans against her, but a small smile splits across his mouth. He pulls away to pepper kisses all over her face and Lucy squirms, giggling nonstop.

Lucy grips onto his shoulders as he hovers above her, going back to ravaging her mouth and her doing the same. From the many stories that Lucy has read, she takes a hunch of what Natsu might like. She wants to please him, even though all of this is very new to her.

Lucy pulls away and shifts her head downwards, her lips skimming the side of his neck. Her mouth begins to quiver while forming little shapes. Her tongue then slips out to lick a small trail up his neck, deciding to equally express her fondness. She decides to take a risk and skims with her teeth, before biting the junction at his jawline.

Natsu growls, roughly grabbing Lucy's hands which began roaming his body, to pin above her head. He eyes her heatedly before smiling wide. Lucy doesn't know why but she begins to smile back, both of their hearts fluttering at the other's bliss.

"Well that was fun." She laughs quietly, completely out of breath. Again, Natsu follows his instincts in taking care of the girl in front -- er, under him. He shifts his one hand to Lucy's back, picking the girl up. He holds onto her thighs and positions her where she can easily wrap her legs around his waist, and easily wind her hands around his neck.

"We should include this in the training." Natsu mutters, mostly to himself but Lucy answers anyways.

"You know what? I don't want the break tomorrow. How about we train again, later today?" Lucy suggests, wiggling her eyebrows.

"Definitely." Natsu smirks and kisses Lucy's forehead. Her face turns into an all out beam as he begins walking them back to Lucy's apartment. They're silent, basking in each other's company and too lazy to discuss their newfound relationship. It just kind of works for them, how they both knew there was now something more between each other, but there was no need to say what it is out loud. Not yet, anyways.

Lucy snuggles against Natsu and rubs her nose against his neck. Her eyes flutter shut as she sighs, beginning to feel exhausted.

"So...are we married now?" Natsu questions thoughtfully.

"Idiot!"

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"TWO HUNDRED BUCKS, MIRA! TWO HUNDRED!"

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troglobite · 8 years ago

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i know that in general people taking meds are sometimes like ‘god i can’t do this simple brain function on my own’ or whatever. and that generally if the med is otc, that’s not an issue. blah blah blah stigma etc.

and i don’t mean to be like ~wahhh i’m specially in a shitty situation~

but i wanted to include that for context idk why i’m like thinking out loud atm idk

ANYWAY

i can’t eat food without a supplement.

like literally, i can’t even have the world’s smallest snack. i can’t snack anymore. because then the amount of supplement i take would be too much.

and i have to make sure the amount i eat and the amount of supplement i take are in proportion otherwise it’ll be Off and i won’t digest normally.

even DRINKING TEA without a supplement doesn’t work well, and i’m sure as hell not taking a supplement with TEA.

my point being, i can’t eat food. unless i take a capsule or two with the meal.

i also can’t eat food WITH THE CAPSULE(S) unless i take YET ANOTHER supplement like 4-5 times during the day

now i want to emphasize that this is partly because weird digestive issues are A Thing with autism, and i have IBS, but also?

just mainly my anxiety. bad anxiety = bad digestion which = bad anxiety which = worse digestion.

so in order to cut off that cycle, and also just eat food instead of continuing to lose weight without trying (cos oh boy, that’s been FUN.), i take these supplements.

to digest food.

because my body CAN’T.

and before anyone comes at me with ~well just change your diet~

1. i literally have selective eating disorder and sensory processing disorder. WHAT DIET? 2. it LITERALLY DOES NOT MATTER WHAT I EAT. i do NOT eat junk. i eat eggs, fruits, healthy oils, hummus, some vegetables, cheese, and a few carbs, sometimes with something a lil sugary thrown in. this is AN AVERAGE HUMAN DIET. I DON’T EAT TO EXCESS, AND I DO NOT EAT “GARBAGE.” (and i want to emphasize that it’s fine if other people do, and also plenty of ~healthy~ [thin] people eat nothing but “garbage” and you don’t go after them. clearly food is NOT the root of the issue, here.) 3. i have A SHITLOAD of food allergies and sensitivities that i have to eat around. 4. which means i already know that the foods i eat DO NOT upset my stomach more than other foods i COULD be eating. in fact, it’s the other way around. so fuck off.

anyway so i’ve got this current plan to help me not be nauseous 24/7 with my doctor/naturopath/whatever (shit’s working better than what most doctors do, so i mean), but part of that plan is to lesson my anxiety so i stop feeling this way altogether.

.....i’m sorry, what? what?

look, i want my anxiety diminished as much as the next person, but in WHAT WORLD is that going to ACTUALLY happen and just STAY THAT WAY so i don’t have to take a million supplements daily just to be a facsimile of a normal functioning human?

like her proposed solution has been to include certain things (within my limits) in my diet, and for the most part lately, i’ve been including them. been eating a lot of that life-extending-and-improving mediterranean diet, bitch. hell yeah.

and then also to take a b-vitamin complex. which like, sure, i’ll try that (haven’t gotten it yet). and that’s supposed to help curb my anxiety.

but like here’s the thing.

my AWARENESS of my anxiety...is not very good. why? because, like people with chronic pain, you hit a baseline and you’re like ‘i’m good to go!’ but any average person would be like ‘nOPE.’

and like, here’s the thing. i don’t notice my anxiety anymore. i must not! or i wouldn’t constantly need all these supplements because my stomach would CHILL THE FUCK OUT when i’m LITERALLY DOING NOTHING STRENUOUS STRESSFUL OR ANXIETY INDUCING FOR THREE FUCKING DAYS STRAIGHT.

so either that--either my anxiety has reached a point where i don’t notice that i’m literally anxious 24/7--or i have a weird issue where my body 1. produces too much acid bc Anxiety Constantly 2. does not produce enough digestive enzymes 3. overproduces bile from the liver

just like. all the fucking time. and i have to do everything in my power to keep it in check.

at this point, my OPTIMISTIC viewpoint is that maybe there’ll be days in my future where i don’t have to take as many supplements, and maybe i can eat a tiny bread roll without a supplement and then not burp and feel nauseous for 3 fucking hours straight.

but the naturopath is talking about weening me off of this liver supplement thing because she wants to just Fix the Nausea another way. like this is to keep it at bay, and then she wants me to Fix the Anxiety and then that should somehow fix the problem.

and idk how to tell her (or my mom) what my therapist and i were discussing.

remember that comic that was being reblogged a few times the other day? it was a two panel comic that said ‘me 10 years ago’ and ‘me today’ and it was their mental illness drawn as a many-armed monster. and in the 10 years ago panel, it was eating her alive, and in the today panel, she was sitting next to it eating cereal and saying ‘oh hey buddy what’s up’

and my therapist showed that to me and she was like ‘the goal isn’t necessarily to get rid of your anxiety or ocd, bc i think you know that’s a little unrealistic. the goal is to find ways to live with it and make it less scary and overwhelming.’

and like. yeah. exactly. which means my stomach/digestive system might improve a little, but it will, essentially, always be like this.

because let’s not forget, some of my issues might not even stem from anxiety-related stress! it could just be that i’m autistic and we’re notorious for having weird digestive issues and sensitivities (or maybe not notorious, but there’s some correlation there).

it could also just be that i have persistent ibs that’s like ‘fuck you, i’m here to stay’ y’know?

and the reason for that could be my sensory processing disorder--that i am acutely aware of my digestion at all times, and because of that, my body responds in overexaggerated ways because Autism and SPD. so i develop ibs because of that.

and like, there’s literally no possible way to get rid of that. i’m going to be that way forever.

i’m going to need these supplements and pills forever, basically.

and that’s really fucking annoying.

because this is not Bad Enough to be like ‘i cannot consume food without these things, so i would die’. it’s not chronic pain. it’s not something Super Medical that you can point to, diagnose, explain that it’s debilitating and life threatening, etc.

it’s “i can’t eat food without these things or else i’ll be horrifically nauseous and unpleasant to be around for several hours.”

and i mean. it’s not like people believe chronic pain disorders or other diagnoses that often, anyway. y’know? they always think they know best or that they’re suggesting something to you that you’ve somehow never tried before, and that’s bullshit. ableism is everywhere.

but like. uncomfortable nausea. is about. all i got. in terms of explaining the necessity of these things.

and explaining why it’s there and why it’ll stick around forever is also like. nonsense. ‘anxiety.’ ‘get rid of anxiety, then.’ ‘autism/spd.’ ‘get rid of autism/spd, then.’ ‘ibs.’ ‘change your diet, then.’

like, look, that’s not how this works, and the ~mildness~ of the symptoms it all causes isn’t enough to override that shitty response from even a handful of those annoying as shit people.

i’m not saying ~woe is me i have it worse~ or even ~i somehow wish i had worse symptoms~

i’m complaining specifically about my own situation with context and awareness. by which i mean, it’s not anywhere near the same as other disorders and the ableism y’all deal with, but it sure is annoying as hell and kind of similar in some basic ways, if not severity.

i mean, i currently take 4 separate things for digestion, not including the 2 pills i have on hand in case none of those 4 happen to work that day. like ???? okay.

idk. i’m just complaining. i’m complaining. my relationship to food is severely fucked up. my mental health is incredibly weird. my awareness of my anxiety is totally inexplicable and even nonexistent. so like. whatever.

and then i’ve got some people insisting that this won’t be forever.

lol, try again.

#long discussion of food digestion and medication below the cut #also references to various disorders including a kind of eating disorder #also a reference to weight loss or death by starvation and references to diets (but not weight loss diets just like someone's diet)#mostly this is all just excessive complaining bc i kind of got annoyed

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