#very mentally well sounding post dw abt it

[gemharvest]

"I should go to bed by 12 I have work in the morning" vs. the nefarious. I just started feeling again. And wanna do things.

[liberty-barnes]

maybe people would post pictures of me

saying how much they miss me

or maybe i would show up on the paper

and they'd talk about me on tv

do you think my teachers would mention it in class?

maybe then my school would be more involved in stuff about mental health

would my therapist be affected?

maybe this is pretty common for her

would my friends and family blame themselves?

would they hate me?

i'm just so tired

i'm tired of the shaking

i'm tired of my chest always feeling like an elephant's sitting on it

i'm tired of not being able to eat

i'm tired of throwing up

i'm tired of getting triggered

i'm tired of not being able to live like a normal person

i'm tired of sleepless nights

i'm tired of bad days

i'm tired of worrying people

it'd just be easier

i'd be resting

everyone else could know that i'm happy

it'd be cool

but i also don't want people to blame themselves

i don't wanna create trauma for anyone else

don't wanna be more of a burden than i already am

and i know this sounds dark, and "untrue" and very ooc of me

but this is something i've been thinking non-stop, day and night, sometimes even in my dreams, for the last three months

and i can't get it out anyway else

so you know

it was too good not too

anyhow, depression is very real

suicidal thoughts are very real

anxiety is very real

and i have all three

and they're a bitch to deal with

cause any little thing can trigger me

and even though i found some great helps

AKA tv shows, writing, interracting with you guys, going to therapy (jury's still out on that one)

it's still a bitch

and i hate that people here are either 100% dark or 100% little ray of sunshine, so here is me, being both

this is something that goes through my head very often

so in my mid-panic-attack.... well... panic, i decided to write and post this

try to get a bit of my energy out

(also i'm trying to fix any typos but my body's shaking like crazy so sorry if i missed some)

so anyway, dw, i won't do anything reckless

i know better, still doesn't hurt to think abt it

well it does, but it's better to think than do

baby steps, kay?

just wanted to get this out so y'all know i'm not perfect

nobody is

and mental health is not a joke

mental illnesses are very real

and we should talk abt them more often

and they should be better taken care of

cause spending the last nine months having abt ten panic attacks/month is not fun

so yeah

have a nice day/night/morning/whatever

i'm not okay, but i will be

once the panic subsides, and i no longer have food in my stomach lmao

i love you all and thank you for being there for me

-Forever Yours, Libby

[norwa-y-blog]

i want to make a webcomic type thing w/ sorta personifications of mental illnesses (in a mostly positive light, enough to get the point across that ppl w/ mental illnesses aren’t monsters(coughs @ s//plit) not positive enough to make people wish they had mental illnesses / try to fake them or like. so positive it downplays the fact that As Mentally Ill People we sorta suffer.) the thing is that im lowkey scared i’ll do one Very Wrong and also another reason i had this idea was bc it feels like the only mental illnesses a majority of people (based on what i know) actually know are stuff like ptsd, bipolar, depression, bpd, and then adhd + autism / basically the ones commonly made into jokes. it might actually show people.......... these jokes r harmful............  and also other mental illnesses exist

and despite what it sounds like i would not be reducing people to their mental illnesses or making it entirely centred around their mental illnesses, everyone would be a genuinely good person w/ actual personalities, (well, technically everyone can still b an asshole at different po itns but nobody is gonna be like, murder or whatever.)

and also it probably will never happen bc it would probably suck since 90% of the time everyone would probably be dissociating

td;lr i want to do something that could either be helpful and good or extremely ablest and i dont want to seem ablest at all SO can people tell me what they think abt the idea / if it was a thing if it would be a Good Idea to consult actual ppl w/ x mental illness when developing characters (actually i know thats probably a good idea but volunteers,)

if a majority of people think its ablest i’ll scrap the idea all together dw unlike the creators of split im not gonna go on w/ an idea that would overall b harmful 

also please send asks to @coqycat feedback instead of reblogging this post

u can reblog if you wanna boost it tho i just dont want to have a conversation in reblogs it’ll become Very Long