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Hello fable fandom, have memes

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How nice of him to sit on the heating pad while it’s on me instead of just stealing it

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I went from working on my cousin’s Christmas gift to getting on the ps4 to play with said cousin to looking at Pinterest/tumbler because the game needs to update

I could be almost finished with the gift with how long this is taking

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The highlights of my live-blogging of the virwood lore to my gc with Puffin, Connor, and Jamie

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I miss c!haley so I decided to make her birb

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Just me screaming about Virwood really quick:

"Don't run away from me right now." "Okay." Elwood abandonment issues in the phrasing there. Also just the immediate okay changed my brain chemistry.

"I thought that I could fix it and if I could fix it then I wouldn't have to keep it a secret for longer. I didn't want to ruin things." Virgil! Noooo! Also yeah that tracks with Pietro saying that Virgil would know what to do.

"Yes I would take that on! I would take in any weight to make things easier for you." Love confession number 1

"No! It's not happening. I'm not letting it happen. This shit happens to good people. It happens to good people and kind people and I'm tired of it happening to the people I actually care about." Love confession number 2

"I'm not going to accept a world that you are not in." Love confession number 3

"I don't have the words for this, but I care about you so much. In a way that I don't have the words for for the first time in my life." Love confession number 4

"Don't apologize to me. I'm glad you told me. If you hadn't told me I doubt I would have any amount of courage in saying anything." Love confession number 5

"Like I said people care about you, in more ways then words can say." Still part of love confession number 5 but HELLO?

The hug was more dramatically satisfying than any kiss could have been.

All the "Kite and Prejudice" jokes are funny because it's giving Jane Austin mixed with dark Romantisism(the literary movement not dark romance novels)

"Don't try to play hero." GOD IT'S SO DRAMATIC AND TRAGIC.

"Normally you're warmer than me." SHUT UP. Virgil is managing being gay very well by not dying on the spot.

Accurate depiction of confronting your own mortality.

Okay. Okay. Actual analysis time.

It's 1 am whoop whoop.

I like that they haven't said love yet! I like that love wasn't a word, they didn't need to say it. Especially since they said 5 separate love confessions as I have listed. I LOVE that they didn't kiss, they didn't need to (though I won't ever mind if they do.) Also I'm ripping apart the tragedy of it with my teeth. It tastes like grapes.

Also Virgil wanting to bear the people he cares about burdens along with his anxiety makes me think this void sickness thing is going to be a bad time for him. A REALLY BAD TIME.

And poor Elwood's previous belief that he is the common factor for why people leave him WHILE he has a partner who is dying means that this is also going to be a really bad time for him.

Anyway, bad times and demiromantic feelings all around! Love is an action. They are birds of words. I can't wait to see where this goes.

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Okay friends. Romans. Countrymen. I wish to yell about my bird and the most recent lore, so. Spoilers below the cut.

WE FINALLY GOT THERE! VIRWOOD NATION, HOW ARE WE FEELING?

God, I am so excited to finally have gotten there. Connor and I pretty much decided after the very first time we did lore together that we wanted Virwood to be a thing and it's finally here!

One thing that was very very important to me [actually obviously it was important to us both but I don't wanna talk for Connor, so I'll focus on my end of things for the time being] was to portray these birds' aro-ace-spec identity truthfully.

Elwood is demiromantic and that, mixed with the fact he is just not really used to the idea of being loved or even wanted, really was gonna impact any relationship they were gonna have. Before he got to Brightstep he didn’t ever really consider having friends or family a possibility, let alone having a partner, so when he figured out he liked Virgil that was really terrifying for them. His experience with love, love of any kind, was limited to reading about it, and he didn’t even plan on telling Virgil. I think his plan probably was to just bury it for the time being - and then Virgil was presumed dead for a week. Not that Elwood nessecarily believed that, but they also didn’t not believe it. He simply clung onto inaccceptance - if he didn’t accept the option of Virgil being gone, then maybe it wasn’t real.

And then Virgil showed back up in the library, and confided in Elwood about the void sickness, and suddenly a mess of feelings - love and fear and worry - bubbled over and even though Elwood didn’t mean to confess, he indirectly did by blurting out the one solid truth he came to realize over the previous week sitting in Virgil's office, not talking to anybody, just alone with their own thoughts. He would not accept a world that Virgil was not in.

I didn’t want Elwood confessing to be like... him just saying "I love you" or "I'm in love with you" or "I like you" - those are things he feels, but he doesn't know how to articulate how he feels a lot of the time. This is heavily based on how my experience with the combination of being autistic and demiromantic impacts how I process and experience emotions. Sometimes I know the word for an emotion, but it's not enough. One word does not even get close to describing how emotions feel. And I wanted to express that with Elwood. He does love Virgil, but to them I don't think the word has the same weight as saying that Virgil is kind and a good person that they refuse to live without. Describing how an emotion feels, what he thinks, how he experiences being around Virgil is more impactful to him than just saying one small four-letter-word.

I loved seeing everybody's reactions to the lore and I am sending you all hearts and I am so excited to get to keep telling Elwood's story and to create some depiction of aroacespec relationships that I can confidently say feel truthful to how I experience those identities.

💕💕💕💕💕

Also obviously I am excited for the Angst. Void sickness makes brain go brrrrrr fr fr.

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…tumblr gets exclusive rights because I’ve been turning it around in my brain all week-

For the last few months I’ve been working on the development of a podcast: The Frankenstein Files, a modern analog horror podcast adaptation of Mary Shelly’s Frankenstein. And, after all that time, with the help of @jamphibiann and @thebeetlebard the pilot is officially recorded and in the works!!

While this is not the official trailer, rather a “concept trailer” using audio from the pilot, I was too excited about the project to keep it under wraps any longer.

So please enjoy the concept trailer for The Frankenstein Files pilot 🫶

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I want to show off my doll collection since I was recently able to put them on display

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He has stolen my heating pad

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FLASH AND GLITCH WARNING

Me when Mr Author!!!!

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depression tips™

shower. not a bath, a shower. use water as hot or cold as u like. u dont even need to wash. just get in under the water and let it run over you for a while. sit on the floor if you gotta.

moisturize everything. use whatever lotion u like. unscented? dollar store lotion? fancy ass 48 hour lotion that makes u smell like a field of wildflowers? use whatever you want, and use it all over. 

put on clean, comfortable clothes. 

put on ur favorite underwear. cute black lacy panties? those ridiculous boxers u bought last christmas with candy cane hearts on the butt? put em on.

drink cold water. use ice. if u want, add some mint or lemon for an extra boost.

clean something. doesn’t have to be anything big. organize one drawer of ur desk. wash five dirty dishes. do a load of laundry. scrub the bathroom sink. 

blast music. listen to something upbeat and dancey and loud, something that’s got lots of energy. sing to it, dance to it, even if you suck at both.

make food. don’t just grab a granola bar to munch. take the time and make food. even if it’s ramen. add something special to it, like a hard boiled egg or some veggies. prepare food, it tastes way better, and you’ll feel like you accomplished something. 

make something. write a short story or a poem, draw a picture, color a picture, fold origami, crochet or knit, sculpt something out of clay, anything artistic. even if you don’t think you’re good at it.

go outside. take a walk. sit in the grass. look at the clouds. smell flowers. put your hands in the dirt and feel the soil against your skin.

call someone. call a loved one, a friend, a family member, call a chat service if you have no one else to call. talk to a stranger on the street. have a conversation and listen to someone’s voice. if you can’t, text or email or whatever, just have some social interaction with another person. even if you don’t say much, listen to them.

cuddle your pets if you have them/can cuddle them. take pictures of them. talk to them. tell them how u feel, about your favorite movie, a new game coming out.

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I cosplayed Ivory

Hers a close up of the makeup

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This is how I’m choosing who I’m gonna attempt to cosplay tonight 

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Both twitch and WEBTOON have stopped sending me notifications and I’m so confused why they’re not

I’ve triple checked that notification are on on both the app and in my phone’s settings but it still won’t send me it

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I need to write and I want to write but I can’t figure out how to start any of the chapters I need to work on and I can’t figure out how to start the new fic that i Only have a vague idea for

I was also going to ask my cousin if they wanted to write together and bounce ideas off each other but at this point I don’t want to ask him anything since she’s probably going to say no because they have plans with someone else

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i have whitepine thoughts guys . spoilers for whitepine 4

so i don't think the detective is real, i think ivory is hallucinating or something because of stress or the like , the confrontation scene where the screen goes weird and there's a slight flicker?? or glitch-like sound when the detective comes out of the art room and then the ringing background noise as he asks questions

i think its ivory's own mind playing tricks on her, retelling how she felt when the detective talked to her in a heightened way because of anxiety . and then the detective not supposed to be there that day??? in a house with so many maids and butlers etc and a wealthy family who's at risk of thieves i can't imagine someone could sneak into the house like that and not be seen (and promptly shown the door)

however it's also likely that if he was seen by some of the workers they could've ignored him and just thought they just weren't told about him being there

also him just lurking in the background of some frames. thats suspicious and if he is really there then that's weird and i'm sus of him but just the scene with ivory makes me not convinced he's there.

and her not eating the whole day and then throwing up when she DOES eat, that could definitely be a stress response. whether her avoiding food is a habit stress response itself or if she genuinely just forgot and the hunger has only contributed to her stress and she hasn't been able to place it

i've seen people say that someone might've tampered with her food which is very possible and probably more likely for a murder mystery such as whitepine

kinda jumping around a bit here but the detective being a hallucination could also be a sign of guilt but personally i don't think ivory did it. i just think she's scared and doesn't know the right way to be a person which . real me too