#very excited for the next chapters!!! ❤️❤️❤️✨✨✨

[norrisainz33]

home for the holidays || ls18

☆ summary: lance and his partner start a new chapter now that the season is over and take their relationship to the next level

☆ pairing: lance stroll x nonfamous!reader

☆ fc & warnings: none

☆ requested: nope! just a short one bc i don’t see enough lance fics so wanted to write one!!

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ynuser: and just like that - the 2024 season has come to an end. this was a tough one but no matter what i am proud of the team and proud of lance. see all you beautiful people again in march 🤍

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astonmartinf1: see you soon y/n/n! we love you ❤️

ynuser: 🤍 you more admin

user1: you are so real for posting the vegas pics of lance

lance_stroll: i love you 😘

ynuser: and i love you 🥹

user4: mama y papa

user2: i’m going to miss this silly season and seeing you practically every weekend smh

francisca.cgomes: see you sooner than march please😭

ynuser: you know i can’t go more than a couple weeks without you 😔

user44: can lance fight?

scottyjames1: no

user44: SCREMING

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user1: most canadian thing i’ve ever seen

lance_stroll: missed this and missed you darling

ynuser: i missed you more lance. i’m overjoyed to be back 🤍

yourbff: i’m so glad you and lancey are finally home

ynuser: me too! this season was a long one 😩

yourbff: you both are stronger than i

ynuser: i’m not sure how we made it honestly! but it’s time for new beginnings and rest 🫶🏻

user2: time for some much deserved relaxation

user6: just saw the f1 secret santa and can’t stop thinking about how good of gift giver lance is and how he probably got you the best gifts ever

fernandoalo_official: happy holidays mi amiga

ynuser: gracias nando! i hope you have the best break with all of those you love most 🤍

user3: i hope you have the best break y/n

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yourbff: i can’t wait to visit you in your new home!!!

ynuser: i can’t wait for you to visit!! one of the spare bedrooms has your name on it bestie

user11: ahhh congrats y/n!!!

carmenmundt: congrats on your and lances new home!! looking forward to visiting 😘

ynuser: thank you carmen! i miss you sm already. please come visit soon 🤍

user14: so so happy for you and lance. end game fr

lance_stroll: remind me why i thought moving right after the season ended was a good idea

ynuser: you said, and i quote, “i want to be home for the holidays and host all the people i love in our home.”

lance_stroll: well when you put it like that….

cholestroll: yayyayayay!!!!! can’t wait to see it in a few days

ynuser: can’t wait to see you and scotty and the lovely little bug soon. it’s been too long

astonmartinf1: cheers to new beginnings ✨

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chloestroll: the tree is so cuteeeeee oh i love it

lance_stroll: it is ! y/n is very excited for the holidays

chloestroll: as she should be!! do you have everything set?

lance_stroll: everything should be set up according to plan! im beyond nervous though

chloestroll: don’t be!! it’s going to alllll be ok

user3: y/n is so cute

scottyjames31: glad she’s getting you into the holiday spirit

lance_stroll: between y/n and chloe there’s more than enough holiday spirit! we’ve got hanukah and christmas covered over here

user4: pookie christmas lets goooo

ynuser: i am having the most fun decorating our new house 🫶🏻

lance_stroll: me too my love. building this life with you is everything i could ask for and more ❤️

user5: i’m glad you’re getting the time to relax lancey. you deserve it after this season

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user2: holy crap this is beautiful?????? and she managed this right after you two moved in???? get this girl an award

fernandoalo_official: looks beautiful! can’t wait to hear about how your evening goes

lance_stroll: you’ll be one of the first to know ❤️

user6: this called me broke in about 800 different languages

pierregasly: WOW! can i hire y/n to decorate my house?

lance_stroll: for a hefty price 😉

user9: you better marry this girl i s2g

ynuser: thank you 🥹 🤍😘🎄

lance_stroll: no thank YOU gorgeous! i am so thankful to have you help me host the holidays ❤️

ynuser: 😭 i love being a part of your family lance

lance_stroll: we all love you so very much ❤️

ynuser: you’re going to make me cry 🥹

chloestroll: eeeeek!!!!!! today is THE day 🤍🤍🤍🤍

lance_stroll: she doesn’t suspect a thing 😍

user12: her outfit is everything ??? literal angel

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ynuser: tonight may have been the best night of my life. wishing you the happiest of holidays from the future mr and mrs stroll ❤️

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user18: this is so important to me you have no idea

chloestroll: welcome to the family sis 😘

ynuser: sis 😭 oh i love you chloe

georgerussell63: 🥹 congrats! you two make the perfect couple

ynuser: thank you georgie ❤️

fernandoalo_official: felicidades mis amigos

ynuser: gracias por todo nando 🫶🏻

user32: my mom and dad are getting married im overjoyed

lance_stroll: i can’t wait to make you my wife

ynuser: and i can’t wait for you to be my husband 😘

user23: you look so good in white

astonmartinf1: best news we’ve seen all day

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a/n: thanks for reading!! likes and reblogs appreciated.

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disclaimer: pictures are not mine and everything i write is fiction

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[roc-haze]

Thank You For The Music | WillNE

Quick Drabble Inspired by this ask!

I always think of ‘Thank You For The Music’ as a farewell song. A few of my fave YouTubers (like Natacha Oceane) have slowly been phasing their way out of the internet and I thought this may be a good prompt! I also had an ask relating to a pregnant reader and threw that in here - let me know your thoughts!

It was a decision Y/N had wrestled over.

She had been a part of the content creating world since 2013, sharing a large majority of her life with her viewers. They had seen her finish up at university, develop a business from the ground up, make friends with other content creators, and they’d been keen onlookers as she fell in love with Will.

But now she was ready to close the chapter.

Y/N sat in front of the camera, Will setting up the perfect shot.

He pressed record, stepping forward to press a kiss to her forehead. “You got this?”.

She nodded. “I got this.”

“Alright. I’ll be in the living room if you need me.” He left the room, closing the door behind him.

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@/YNsCorner uploaded a new video to her channel!

Farewell, My Friends

[Will can be seen leaving the frame]

Hello, my friends! Welcome back to our little corner of the internet.

As you can probably tell by the rather ominous title, I’ve got some news to share with you all. I’ve made the difficult decision to leave YouTube for an extended period of time.

Before I say anything else, I want to say thank you. Whether you’ve been here since the very beginning or just joined us last week, if you’ve been commenting forever or have been a silent watcher, thank you.

I’ve been on YouTube since 2013.

Over the years, I’ve shared every part of my life with you guys. You’ve watched me grow up, settle into the home that I’m in now with the person that I love, you’ve helped me start my business and opened so many doors for opportunities that I didn’t know existed. This community, in many ways, has been my safe haven. A soft place to land. A best friend to talk to when things feel a little lonely.

It’s because of this that I feel as though I owe you guys some honesty and clarity….

As most of you would know, Will and I recently got married. We’re heading into the next chapter of our life together and we are starting a family.

Which, by the way, what a head fuck. Imagine telling 2013 me she marries a YouTuber. Unreal.

This next chapter is one I’ve had my eye on for a while. It’s probably the most terrifying thing I’ve ever done, but I have a feeling it will be the most rewarding and I’m so looking forward to soaking it all up. I’ve put all of my time and effort into my first baby, aka you guys, for the last few years and I’m hoping to do the same for my next one.

I know that a large majority of my audience is a similar demographic to myself - so if you find yourself in a similar spot while I’m gone, whether that is starting a family or travelling or a new exciting opportunity - just know that I’m so thankful you were here. We got to be girls together. That goes for all of you, really. While I may not be on here for a while, I will forever be cheering all of you on.

Thank you for laughing with me, crying with me, supporting me through the dark and twisty bits as well as all of the fun shit this platform has manifested for me. It wouldn’t have been possible without you.

From the bottom of my heart, thank you.

It’s not goodbye forever, just a see you later.

Thanks guys. I love you.

[Will enters the room, Y/N stands up to reveal a bump]

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@/ynscorner:

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As ABBA would say, thank you for the music 🤍✨

willne: Proud of you ❤️ might have to up my content game while you’re on break

glambyflo: So happy for you guys! You have always been my favourite content creator (best believe I’ll be coming over for in person reviews and tutorials). Can’t wait to see what the next chapter looks like 🫶

taliamar: Don’t mind me SOBBING. I’m so happy for you both 😭

user876917: oh this has brought so many tears to my eyes 🥹 we are the same age and i’ve been with you since 2015. in many ways, it has felt like you’ve been my best friend throughout that time. thank you for being a safe space. love you! i’ve never been so bashfully cheerful for a person on the internet

tanyaburr: Oh I am so happy for you!! Wishing you all the best ❤️

user6123: tanyaburr where’s Martha??

callux: What a lucky kid to have parents as cool as the both of you. Congratulations 💙

lazarbeam: Fuck off!! Unreal!! Congrats guys!

tannar: A MILF is about to enter the chat… so happy for you both 🤍

tennesseethresh: 🥹🥹🩵🩵

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A/N: Unsure how I feel about this format!

[kathlare]

emails i can't send fwd:

Lando Norris x Amelie Dayman

previous chapter // next chapter

Warnings: smau

full masterlist // request over here!

March 14th, 2023 - Los Angeles, CA

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ameliedayman: emails i can’t send fwd: is out now 💌 I’m very excited about these new song and I hope u are too x

thank you to my sweet talented friends for being part of such a special album @alexwolffofficial @natandalex @thisisrozzi @amyallen

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rodrigoriquelme: Proud of you always, baby ❤️ Can’t wait to hear these new songs! I know they’ll be amazing. → ameliedayman: @rodrigoriquelme thank you, babe! You know how much this means to me 🥺💖

rodrigoriquelme: Can’t wait to celebrate this with you 😏💖 → ameliedayman: @rodrigoriquelme let’s go, baby! 🎉💌

loversforames: THE DELUXE VERSION??? Amelie, you’re officially feeding us! 🤩💌 Can’t wait to hear the new tracks!!! → dayman_4life: @loversforames Yesss, I’m expecting some serious bops! 😭🔥

elysiadayman: My girl out here blessing us with more music 😭💖 So proud of you!! Keep shining 🌟 → ameliedayman: @elysiadayman love you always! Thanks for being my #1 fan!! 💌💖

landosbiggestfan: Wait, so is there a secret Lando song in there or...?? 👀💭 → landosfuturequeen: @landosbiggestfan I’m just here for ANYTHING that sounds like they’re talking about him 💖

notloversjustfriends: The way we’re ALL losing it over these new songs... Amelie, you’ve done it again! 😩🔥

gracieabrams: YOU DID IT!!! 💖💖 I can’t wait to hear all these new bangers. You’re gonna make us cry and dance all night long! → ameliedayman: @gracieabrams haha, you know me too well!! 😘💃

singerxqueen: Ugh, I know I’m about to stream this for hours. Amelie, you better have delivered. 💯✨ → amelieforever: @singerxqueen same! Can’t wait to vibe to this whole album. It’s about to hit different 💥

imnotokay_: This deluxe version is gonna have me crying, laughing, and everything in between. Amelie, what did you do to us??? 😭

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THE FIRE WITHIN

chapter 4 (series masterlist)

Pairing: firefighter Noah x female reader

reader has a name (Theresa Monroe, but the story is written in 'your' POV)

Warnings: 18+ MDNI! / sexual content (oral m receiving, protected sex) / description of tragical call - death, explosion, burns / hospital / I think that's it, if there' anything else let me know!

Words: 10k

Author's note: And the main storyline of Tess and Noah is done❤️‍🩹 I'm gonna keep writing one shots for them, I already have a few ideas! Feel free to send me your thoughts and headcannons about them. I love this little universe a lot, so thank you for reading it❤️

Be aware you're reading this at your own decision, it contains sensitive topics, so please think twice before reading as I wouldn't want to cause anyone any discomfort while reading my work!

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You got back to work after one week of laying in your or Noah’s bed, pretty excited to be around people again.

You and Noah enjoyed the time you got to spend together, but it also started your first argument.

This morning your neighbour knocked on your door to tell you that she has a wet spot on her ceiling, right under your washing machine. You apologized and promised to call someone to look at it as soon as possible. But Mr. Know it all told you he can fix it. Not that you didn’t trust him, but you were in a rush to get to work on time, but he still insisted on looking at it before you leave.

You left him in the bathroom and went to pack your things. You were finishing your morning coffee when you heard loud noise and “Fuck!” followed by shits and fucking hell’s.

You found Noah covered in water and a broken pipe in his hands. He quickly covered the holes so the water wouldn’t run out, changed his clothes and finally left your apartment. The drive to the station was silent, you were mad at him and he was mad himself too.

You managed to be only half an hour late and when Nick asked you where the hell have you been you just pointed to Noah and said “Ask him.”

His hair was still wet and with a dramatic roll of his eyes he went to change in the locker room.

It wasn’t a big argument, but it was your first and you didn’t know how to act now, so you avoided Noah as much as you could.

There was a call where you had to join the crew. In the end it wasn’t anything big. Older man in his late 70s locked himself in a bedroom and didn’t come out for hours, his wife got scared and called 911. Because she was scared and panicking, they also sent you in case the man was in danger. He wasn’t, he wanted to change their door lock and when he sat down on the bed to read the manual he fell asleep.

He was telling you the story as you stood next to Noah and Jason who were repairing the broken door.

“How smart of you to read the manual first.” you said loud enough for Noah to hear.

“Hold this Jason.” Noah instructed the probie ( = a firefighter who has recently joined a department).

“Are you sure you don’t want Jason to do it? Maybe he’s not as clumsy as you are today.”

Jason looked very uncomfortable, feeling like a third wheel between you.

“You know what, why don’t you go check on Ms. Black and have tea with her?” Noah bit back.

Before you could protest, Mr. Black grabbed your shoulders and led you to their kitchen “He’s right sweetheart, let us treat you.”

The ride back was silent and back at the station you hid in your office again.

When you were packing your things you were contemplating your options, you either leave without saying bye or swallow your pride and apologize.

Before you could choose one option the door to your office opened and you saw Noah standing there. You kept staring at each other for a minute, both obviously thinking about the same thing.

He was the first one to say “I’m sorry for this morning. And for the call.”

“I’m sorry too. I know you just wanted to help and I should’ve kept my mouth shut on the call.”

“I should’ve read the manual first.” Noah said and his mouth twitched with a smile.

“You really should have.” you laughed, the picture of Noah kneeling in front of the washing machine with wet t-shirt was suddenly more funny then it was in the morning.

You took your bag and made your way to him, still between your doors.

“I’ll see you in the morning?” you whispered and put your arms around his shoulders.

“Yeah.” he brushed his nose along your cheekbone before giving you the sweetest kiss on your lips.

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Nights without Noah were always cold and lonely, but you still waltzed with a smile into the station. You met some of the guys from A shift already leaving, so you made your way to their lockers to make sure you don’t miss Noah on his way out.

“Good morning.” you smiled at him when he came out of the room.

“Morning.” he didn’t smile back.

“What��s up?” you were scared that he was still mad from yesterday.

“Cap wants to talk to us again.”

“Oh no.”

You walked together to the captain’s office like two school kids that got in trouble. He spared you the “I knock you talk.” argument when he opened the door as if he was expecting you.

“Thanks for coming, sit down.” you couldn’t read his emotions, but the atmosphere in the room spoke for itself. “I have good and bad news for you. Good news, your complaint came back, captain Wilson’s pay will be reduced for the next six months.”

You heard Noah scoff next to you, he was furious. That man risked your life and he only gets his pay cut.

“I’m gonna go straight to the point. Bad news, one of you will have to change stations.”

“What?” Noah was now sitting straight after hearing that.

“There were complaints from someone that they don’t feel safe with you working together on a call, saying you get easily distracted. You’ve been seen sneaking around the station and also having arguments on calls. That person told me they want me to do something about it and I don’t want to risk them taking it higher.”

“That’s bullshit! We don’t interact on calls and we had one argument on yesterday's call.” Noah protested. Then it hit you, Jason. He was new here and he was with you yesterday.

“I’m sorry Noah, I can’t risk my career for you. I don’t want to be the one that makes the decision, so please, let me know who’s going to leave 25 as soon as possible. You can go now.”

“But-”

“Noah.” you told him, seeing no point in arguing.

Noah followed you to your office and even by the way he walked you knew he was angry.

“He can’t do that.”

“You know he can.” you led him to your couch and when he sat down you straddled his lap.

“I like working with you.” he pouted and made puppy eyes at you.

“I like working with you too, but we knew from the beginning that this was a risky idea.” you ran your fingers through his hair in an attempt to calm him down. He rested his hands on your hips and made putty lips. You laughed at his childish behaviour, but leaned down to kiss his lips.

“I don’t want to decide who’s gonna leave.” he rested his forehead on yours and said between taking breaths.

“It’s gonna be me, I thought that’s obvious.” you furrowed your eyebrows in confusion. Of course it’s going to be you.

“What do you mean?” “Noah, this is your station. Your crew, your friends. You’ve been here for years, I’m not gonna let you even think about leaving.” you stated the obvious.

“But they like you too.”

“Nuh uh, there is no room for discussion. I’m gonna ask John to switch stations with me. That way I know you’ll be in good hands. Also, he’s at 19 so I know the guys there too. And it’s still close to your place.”

“Tessa.” he felt bad, but he knew you were right. It made more sense for you to leave.

“I can still go out with you and the guys, it’s not like I’ll never see them again. Don’t make this harder than it is.” you silenced another one of his attempts to argue with kissing him again.

You rocked your hips against his and felt his grip on your waist tighten.

“What are you doing?” he had a smirk on his face when he leaned his head against the back of the couch, looking up at you.

“Using our last chance to sneak around for one more time.” you said and rolled your hips again, already feeling the bulge in Noah’s pants.

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You told your captain the decision on the same day and the guys insisted on taking you out as a member of station 25 for the last time on Friday, because you were starting at 19 on Monday.

Noah was very touchy and clingy even before you left his apartment, but he couldn’t keep his hands off of you at the bar.

His hand was either on your thigh, around your shoulders or interlocked with yours on the table. He was making heart eyes at you every time you were speaking to someone and he earned a few comments from the boys. But he didn’t mind, he wanted everyone to know he loves you.

“I think we should leave.” he whispered in your ear when you leaned into his side.

“Why so soon, lieutenant?” you teased him with his rank and your hand on his thigh.

“I think we’ll have more fun in my bed than here playing darts, hm? Let’s go.” he nudged your shoulder with his.

“Is that an order lieutenant?” he just growled in your ear and took your hand in his. He barely said bye to the guys and threw some cash on the table for your drinks. He threw the cash also at the driver of uber when he stopped in front of the building where Noah’s apartment was.

Together you moved messily through Noah’s place, clothes flying everywhere until you were both left in your underwear and in his bedroom.

“Couldn’t keep my eyes off of you, so pretty.” Noah gave you compliments when he positioned himself above you. “So pretty and all mine.” he nudged your clothed breasts with his nose, teasing you with his tongue around the hem of your bra.

“Take it off lieutenant.” you whispered into his hair and when he looked up at you his eyes were dark and full of hunger. He has a rank kink, confirmed. “Do you like it when I call you that, lieutenant Sebastian?”

He took both of your hands in his and pinned them over your head. His dick was begging to be released and you desperately wanted to touch him. But his grip on your hands remained strong and he used his other to slide your panties to the side and wet his fingers in your juices.

“So wet, all for me.” he tortured you with his fingers sliding between your folds, carefully avoiding your clit. He was looking at you squirming under him and he was enjoying himself.

“Noah, I need you.” as much as you loved his fingers and mouth on your pussy, tonight his possessiveness made you eager for his dick.

“You have to wait baby.” he continued teasing your pussy, finally applying pressure to your swollen clit. “You like that huh?”

“Yes.” you moaned in response.

He saw the way you were squirming under him and knew you’re not going to last long. He rolled your bodies over so you were on top of him. You regained your dominance and used your nails to slide down his chest, even over his sensitive nipples.

You leaned down to kiss him while he slid his underwear to the middle of his thighs.

“Ride my dick pretty girl.” pretty girl, if he was already inside you he would feel the squeezing of your walls at the nickname. You quickly pulled out a condom from the first drawer and rolled it down on Noah’s hard dick.

Your hand reached down to pull your panties more to the side and then line his cock to your entrance. You sank down and took him fully in, moaning at the feeling of stretch and fullness it gave you.

“Noah fuck.” he let you get used to it, kissed your forehead and rubbed soothing circles on your thighs. After a while he used his strong hands to start guiding your hips, moving you up and down his shaft.

“That’s it, ride my cock. Just like that.” he couldn’t keep his eyes off you. You were sitting on top of him, looking like a goddess. Your eyes were closed and mouth open, the sexiest of moans leaving your lips when he hit the sensitive spot inside you. He reached behind your back and unclasped your bra, throwing it on the floor.

He guided your hands until you were touching your boobs, squeezing them and teasing your nipples.

“Feels good huh?” Noah asked you when he noticed your fingers playing with your nipples. He liked this position, fully inside you with the best view.

“Noah I’m close.” you dropped your hands on his chest to stabilize yourself before quickening your pace. Noah’s hips met you halfway, lifting himself from the bed so he could see you fall apart on his dick.

“Let go, I got you pretty girl.” he encouraged you and you felt his fingers on your clit. It didn’t take more than five strokes and you were spasming around him. Your legs were shaking from the intense orgasm and Noah was still fucking into you.

He grabbed you by your neck and pulled you down to kiss you. As he gave you messy kisses you felt him cum. You continued moving your hips slowly to ride your orgasms out until he stopped you from being too sensitive.

“You’re so fucking pretty.” he whispered to your ear when you collapsed next to him.

He carried you to the shower and made sure to wash every inch of your body. You had those three words on the tip of your tongue when you saw his focused face on washing your hair, his fingers softly massaging your scalp, careful not to hurt you.

“I’m so tired.” you said instead, leaning your head against his chest.

“Almost done here.” he rinsed the shampoo out of your hair and then wrapped you in a big black towel.

In silence you both did your night routine by the sink, enjoying the domestic side of your relationship.

You felt like you wouldn’t fall asleep if you finally didn’t tell him your feelings. You took his phone out of his hands and laid it next to him. You weren’t scared, you didn’t need him to say it back immediately, you just wanted him to know.

“Noah I want you to know that you make me really happy, I feel like the happiest girl on earth when I’m with you.” you leaned your forehead against his and his lips turned into the cutest smile. He knew what was about to happen.

“Noah I,” you couldn’t keep eye contact and your breath was shaky.

“Say it.” he encouraged you with a smile. “I wanna hear it.”

You playfully smacked his chest for ruining the moment, except he didn’t, it was perfect.

“Noah, I love you.” the weight lifted from your shoulders and you could breathe again.

“Again.” he begged you.

“I love you.”

“Again.”

“I love you Noah.” you laughed at his happy face, squeezing his cheeks and giving him kisses. He let you kiss him until he was ready to say it back.

“I love you too, pretty girl.” you felt butterflies in your stomach. You were giggling so much that your cheeks started to hurt and you hid your face in the skin of his chest.

“And,” he lifted your head so he could see your face, “I have one more thing to say. I don’t want you to feel any pressure and if you say no I’ll understand.” now he looked very nervous. “Wouldn’t you like to move in with me? I was thinking and it��s closer to your station and we wouldn’t have to keep moving things between our places and-”

“Yes.” you answered.

“Yes?”

“Yes.” 

“This is the best night ever.” you laughed at him when he threw his fist in the air, a gesture of happiness of a little kid.

After making plans for the next few days, when you’re going to move your things to his place and saying I love you a few more times, you fell asleep in the arms of a man who loves you.

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Living with Noah was a dream. He let you rearrange some stuff saying that it’s your home now too. You had to do grocery shopping together, cooking, cleaning and anything else that comes with living with your partner.

Your favorite moments were cosy nights in. Just like today. Noah had a day off so he picked you up at work and you went to grab some groceries.

At home you started cooking dinner while Noah prepared the living room for a game and movie night. He put blankets and pillows on the sofa, making it snuggly and comfy. You both had your own “places” at the sofa, Noah’s corner was usually the place where you both ended up cuddling together.

After finishing dinner you played Mario kart together, something that Noah taught you.

“I wanna win too!” you sighed when your character finished right behind Noah’s.

“You can still win, it was just the first race.”

“But it’s not fair, you’re too good at this.” you never played games like these before, so you admitted you were bad at it. Noah didn’t care, he was just happy to have someone to play with him.

“Don’t give up.”

At the start of the next race you noticed Noah didn’t move his character and waited.

“Why are you giving me time, you’re still gonna win.” you shrugged your shoulders stating the obvious.

“You never know.”

“I don’t wanna win this way.” you focused on moving your character as fast as possible, but when Noah’s character passed by you you threw your arms in the air dramatically.

You finished second, right after Noah.

“But you’re second baby!” Noah laughed at your pout.

“I don’t like being second.” you tried to hold your laugh in, but failed when Noah looked at you over his shoulder.

“Let’s watch the movie.”

“We’re never gonna watch a movie I want, because you’re gonna win every time.”

“I’m gonna teach you how to win, don't worry.” he kissed your forehead and pulled you into his side.

It was Friday so you didn’t have to worry about setting an alarm for the next day. You fell asleep on the couch, bodies tangled together in a way you’re both gonna end up with hurting backs, but you wouldn’t have it any other way.

—

“Attention station 19! Multi-vehicle accident on Highway 25. Hazardous materials involved, possible fire, multiple victims. All units respond. Hazmat team is on the way.”

Your pager started screaming at you, telling you you’re going on the call too.

After almost a month at 19 you felt like part of the team and your cooperation on calls was smooth. John told them about you, only good things, so they gave you a warm welcome. You went out with them a few times, which were the times you missed 25 the most, but you were always welcomed to join them too.

“Tessa in the engine.” you followed your captains orders and climbed inside the big truck. You left the station in less than 5 minutes after receiving the call and you were already making a plan with your partner on how you’re going to assess the scene.

“If we’re first on the scene we take the lead and you’ll be the commander.” Travis, your partner for the day, told you. “If other stations are there first we’ll just follow their orders.”

“Agreed.” you nodded and zipped up the big jacket with your name on it.

You felt the adrenaline in your body. You felt weird, like if something was wrong. You never had a good feeling when it came to hazardous materials on scene, especially when there were wrecked cars that could explode any minute.

Reaching the scene you saw chaos. There were already a few trucks from different stations, you managed to catch one of the trucks that had 25 on it. Blue and red lights lightened up the scene, at least two dozens of firefighters running around and around 6 cars crashed within each other. Then you saw the big lorry laying on its side in a pool of fluid leaking from its back.

Your stomach twisted at the sight, you were worried for those who were still trapped in the cars.

After you opened the door, you could hear the chaos. There were people crying, screaming, begging to be saved. Orders were being shouted and the loud sirens didn’t help to ease the situation.

Noah is at work today, he must be somewhere here too, running around or getting someone from the crashed vehicle with the jaws of life. You wanted to find him and tell him to be safe, but you knew you couldn't do that. Your priority now was to help those who needed it and after you saw bodies in black plastic bags you knew it won’t be easy.

“Tess? You hear me?” Travises voice took you out of your safe bubble.

“Yeah sorry.”

“There were few casualties, there are still some people trapped in those cars. We were sent to the medical tent to treat those who were saved.”

“Sure, let’s go.” you shook off the bad feeling of your shoulders and ran in the direction of the medical tent.

Your heart hurt for the crying and bleeding people you saw. Every single person was injured, even if it was just a small scratch. There were kids who were crying for their parents. It was a heartbreaking sight.

“Hi, I’m Tessa and I’m gonna help you now, okay?” you dropped on your knees in front of a woman who couldn’t be more than 30. “Are you hurt? Do you need medical attention?” she was holding a blanket over her shoulders and her eyes couldn’t stop staring at the disaster happening in front of her.

“No.” she said and you could barely hear her.

“Were you alone in your car?” you had to find out how she was affected to know how to treat her.

“No.” another one word answer, but it was okay. She was in shock so even one word was a success.

“Who was with you?” you rubbed your hands up and down her arms, trying to calm her down, but it seemed like she didn’t even notice the gesture.

“My husband.” she said in a voice full of pain. “He’s dead.” she kept staring somewhere behind you.

“Was he transferred to hospital?” you needed to be sure of her husband’s condition before you talked about him as a dead person. She could see him injured and thought he was dead, when in fact he could have already been on a hospital table.

“He’s dead.” she repeated.

“What’s his name?”

“Derek.”

“And yours?”

“Shannon.”

“Okay Shannon, I’m gonna find out if Derek was in one of the ambulances for you.” you were about to stand up when she grabbed your hand.

“He’s dead. He’s in the black bag. I saw him.” and for the first time since you approached her she started crying. Tears were running down her cheeks and she started hyperventilating. She couldn’t take a breath in and when her eyes rolled to the back of her head you called a doctor over. She lost consciousness and had to be transferred to the hospital.

You had to do your job, you couldn’t be shaken up by something like this, you trained for this. But you couldn’t stop from turning around and watching the scene. More bodies were covered by the black plastic now. Tragic, this was just tragic.

In the sea of moving bodies you saw “SEBASTIAN” and you felt relief. He was okay. He was working on getting other people out of those cars.

You turned back and made your way to another woman, this time an older one.

“I’m okay sweetheart. My husband is okay too, he’s over there.” she pointed to the left where you saw an older man getting his hand treated for some minor cuts.

“Do you need anything? Blanket? Water?”

“No, there are others that need your help.” after you made sure one more time she was okay, you went to talk to a teenage boy sitting next to her.

“Hey, what's your name?” you smiled at him.

But before he could tell you that information there was a loud explosion. Everyone started to panic and a new wave of screams filled the tight space.

You turned around and saw that one of the cars exploded and the liquid caught on fire.

Your eyes scanned all of the firefighters who were running around trying to extinguish the fire, desperately searching Noah’s name. Last time you saw him he was standing next to the black car, which was now on fire.

“No. No, no, no, no.” you repeated. You felt your breath quicken and before you could think you started walking in the direction of the fire.

Karlsson. Ruffilo. Hughes. Bennett. Meyers. Carter. Those and more you could see, but the name you wanted to find the most was still nowhere to be found.

“Where are you going?” your captain caught you by your arm before you were too close to the fire.

“Noah.” you couldn’t get anything else out of your mouth.

“Monroe stand back. Get back to your job.” but you couldn’t move. Your eyes still searched for any signs of Noah and you couldn’t move.

“Monroe! You have a job to do!” he yelled in your ear. He knew you and Noah were in a relationship, but he didn’t care. You were here to do your job which you currently failed to do.

“I need to know if he’s okay.” you managed to say a full sentence.

“The only thing you need to do is your job.”

“He was standing next to the car. Just tell me he’s okay.” you begged him and tried hard not to cry.

“I will when I find out. Go back to do your job.” he repeated his orders again, but then you saw it. You saw Noah’s jacket laying next to the car and his unconscious body carried by two other men.

“Noah!” you screamed and your feet started moving on their own.

“Move! Move! Move!” the firefighter who was holding Noah’s shoulders yelled for everyone who got in their way. The paramedics were running to meet them in the safe zone with stretcher where his big body barely fit. You saw more firefighters in the same state as Noah being pulled out of the fire.

“Tessa don’t.” you heard a familiar voice behind you. You knew it was Nick without even turning around, but you couldn’t tear your eyes off Noah's body.

His eyes were closed, but his chest was going up and down, that was a good sign. Your eyes slid down to his arms and you saw burns on his skin. Some were small, but one was big, red and bleeding.

“Oh my god.” once again you couldn’t move as if you coming closer to him would hurt him even more. “Oh my god.” you cried out again.

“He needs to go to the hospital Tessa. Let them work.” Nick’s hand took yours and he tried to take you somewhere else.

“I wanna go with him.” you tried to walk towards Noah, but Nick pulled you back.

“You know you can’t.” he told you and you just stood there, watching Noah being loaded in an ambulance. Once the sirens were on and the vehicle started moving, you broke down.

“Monroe, get your ass in the truck. You’re done here.” your captain who was obviously angry yelled at you. Nick helped you to stand up, but his hands were needed with the fire.

You ran off to your truck and closed yourself inside, blocking off the sounds of tragedy. You could see Noah’s body in front of you even if you closed your eyes. You cried and cried until there were no more tears.

You failed. You failed your job, your captain, your team, you failed Noah. You knew what happened today was not going to be overlooked. That was unprofessional and if you just ruined your career, then so be it. You wanted nothing more than to know if Noah was okay. Nothing else mattered in that moment.

—

8 hours later you were finally back at the station. Everyone was silent after witnessing that kind of call. It was way past your work time and you just wanted to leave and go to the hospital.

“Monroe, my office, now.” you followed your captain, knowing that whatever was coming was unavoidable.

He closed the door behind you and started walking back and forth, meanwhile you just stood there.

“What the hell was that? Explain to me what was that supposed to mean? You were sent to a different station because of your relationship and now you do this? What do you think is gonna happen?”

You remained silent with your eyes fixed on the floor of his office.

“Can you say something?” he pushed again.

“I’m sorry sir.” was all you could say. You were sorry for your performance on the scene, you knew you did everything wrong, but you couldn’t take anything back now.

“You’re on suspension from now on until I call you to come back.”

“Yes sir.” and with that you left his office. You took off your gear and left the station still in your uniform. You didn’t say goodbye to anyone and went straight for your car.

Inside you finally felt like you could finally breathe and process what happened. Another wave of crying hit you and your head hit the steering wheel. You felt exhausted, physically and emotionally.

You probably just ruined your career and you still didn’t know if Noah was okay.

The thought of Noah made you pull yourself together and start the car, leaving the station and speeding to the closest hospital.

—

You always hated hospitals since you were a kid. Being in hospital never meant any good. You moved like a ghost in the direction the receptionist told you until you saw Nick sitting in the waiting room.

When he noticed you he stood up and opened his arms. You needed a hug and it seemed like he needed one too. You let his strong arms hold your tired body, keeping you from collapsing right there on the floor.

“He’s okay Tess. He’s okay.” he kept repeating.

“Is his hand okay?”

“That burn was deep and it will take time to heal, but once it does he should be okay. He has a few smaller burns and bruises from the pressure of the explosion. He woke up in the ambulance and other than the burns he seemed okay. He was lucky.”

“When can we see him?”

“When they’re finished treating the burn they’ll let us know.”

After that Nick sat you down next to him and you waited together for the doctor to let you in Noah’s room.

—

“Are you here for Mr. Sebastian?” after more than an hour a doctor finally came for you. He took you to Noah’s room and told you that he needs to rest so you should make it quick.

You were preparing yourself for the worst, being in this situation for the first time ever. You never imagined what it would feel like visiting your firefighter boyfriend in hospital, even if you knew the nature of the job.

Nick opened the door and stepped in first, you followed in complete silence.

Noah was laying on the white hospital bed with eyes closed, but when he heard someone come in his eyes shot open. You didn’t see any dirt and ashes on his body, they probably wiped all of it from his skin when they treated his injuries. He was shirtless, probably only in his underwear. His body was covered with a blanket up to his chest so you could see the bandages around his arms.

“Man, you scared the shit out of me.” Nick let out a breath he didn’t know he was holding and stood on one side of the bed, you took the other one.

Noah let out a small laugh, but his eyes remained on you. His gaze softened when he saw your red eyes and wet cheeks.

“Come here.” he patted the bed next to him and you sat down.

“Oh Noah.” another wave of tears spilled from your eyes when you saw the blood leaking through the bandage at one particular place where his biggest wound was.

“I’m fine, okay? I’m fine.” he reassured you and tried to lift his hand to touch you, but it was hard and painful.

“Can you give us a moment?” Noah asked Nick who just nodded and left the room.

“Come here pretty girl.” Noah lifted his right hand and motioned for you to lay on his chest.

“You’re hurt Noah.” you protested.

“Cuddles will heal me.” it made you laugh, a good sign that his sense of humor didn’t leave him.

You slowly and carefully maneuvered your body to lay down, his bandaged arm around you pulling you closer to him.

“I’m sorry for scaring you.” he whispered.

“It wasn’t your fault.”

“No, but I know how it feels to see you hurt on call. So I’m sorry you had to see it.”

“Are you in a lot of pain?” 

“I’m doped with pain killers, so not now. I saw the burns and it's not that bad. The one on my left hand is deep, but not big. Doctor told me I’ll be out for a month, that sucks. The other ones are small and I'll probably have a few bruises from the fall. I’ll be okay.” he kissed the top of your head.

You lifted yourself so you could look at his face. He was tired and you could still see some dirt around his eyes, but he was still beautiful. His warm brown eyes looked at you with affection and love.

“But I’ll need you to bring me some clothes.”

“Oh yeah sure. Whatever you need.” you smiled at him and cupped his cheek. Your fingers traced his cheekbone and then his lips. You wanted to kiss him so bad, but you were scared you’re gonna hurt him.

“Can I kiss you?” you asked.

“Of course you can kiss me.” he laughed, finding your question ridiculous and pulled you down so he could capture your lips with his.

It was a sweet slow kiss, filled with all of the unspoken words that you both held inside.

Just as you pulled away to get some air the door to his door opened and the doctor came in. You quickly stood up from the bed and shook his hand.

“So Mr. Sebastian has burns on both of his arms. His body suffered a hard fall so we expect bruises mainly on his torso to show in the next few days. We’re gonna keep him here for two days and then he’ll be able to come home. He should be able to do almost everything by himself, but he’ll need help with changing the bandages on his wounds.” the doctor gave you instructions and you nodded your head, taking everything in. “I’m gonna ask you two to leave as soon as you can today. You can come see Mr. Sebastian tomorrow during visiting hours. If you’re gonna bring him some personal items and clothes, leave it with the nurses. Do you have any questions?” after you all nodded no the doctor left.

“Well I’m gonna give you two a minute before he kicks you out.” you pointed to Nick, “What do you want me to bring from home?”

“Just some clothes, a toothbrush and my phone.”

“Okay. I’ll see you tomorrow, yeah?”

“Yeah.” you leaned down to give him one last kiss before you left the room.

—

“I’m bored.”

Your phone buzzed on the kitchen table. After you dropped Noah’s things off back at the hospital he hasn't stopped texting you and telling you that he’s bored.

“I should’ve brought you a book.”

“Have you ever seen me read a book?”

“There's a first time for everything.”

“I’ll pass.”

You rolled your eyes and cuddled more into the sheets that were already covering your body. You were tired, exhausted. Your body and heart hurt and you felt alone in your big bed without Noah.

You kept thinking about what your captain told you and how you’re going to tell Noah.

“Are you asleep?”

Another message from him.

“Almost.”

“Nooo, don’t leave me.”

“I’m tired Noah, you should get some sleep too.”

“You sound like the nurses.”

“They’re right.”

“Okay… good night then pretty girl.”

“Good night Noah, I love you.”

“I love you more.”

You put your phone on the nightstand and fell asleep the second you closed your eyes.

—

After two days of visiting Noah at the hospital you finally got to take him home. So far you avoided any questions about work, but you knew you couldn’t do that forever.

You picked up all the supplies from the pharmacy and left to go home.

“Can we order some food please? That shit was disgusting.” you felt like you picked up a child, he was bouncing with joy when he got to leave the hospital bed, telling you about how he can’t wait to play Mario Kart with you, because he was so bored and he sent you pictures of every meal with disgusted emoji.

“Sure, what do you want?” but how could you say no to him?

The first week was great, you enjoyed the time spent together with cooking and playing games or going on walks. Noah’s burns got better and you helped him clean them every night. The bruises on his body were finally fading and he wasn’t in so much pain anymore. Everything was great, except it wasn’t. You told him you took some time off so you could take care of him. You lied to him and you hated yourself for it, but you didn’t want him to worry about that.

It all took a turn when day nine came around. You were together 24/7, it was only a matter of time until you had an argument.

“Let me do it Noah.” you saw him cooking a dinner, but you heard him hiss in pain when he reached for something that was high and he had to lift his arm.

“I can do it.”

“You’re hurt.”

“Let me do it.” you stood in silence and watched him stir the pot. He went to put the box back on the shelf, but while doing it he groaned and the box fell on the ground.

“I told you you shouldn’t do it.” you muttered under your breath and went to pick the box up.

“I’ll put it back.” he reached his hand for the box, but you pulled away.

“No you won’t.”

“Give me the damn box.” you could see the frustration building inside of him. After a week of being taken care of he wanted to do something himself.

“Noah it hurts you to lift your arm this high, I’ll put it back.” he threw the spoon in the sink and turned around to walk away, but then you noticed a red spot on the bandage. “You’re bleeding, let me-”

He pushed your hands away and told you “I can do it.” before he locked himself in the bathroom.

You tried not to cry, he didn’t mean it. You two were just getting in each other’s hair after the time spent together. You occupied your mind with cleaning the kitchen and finishing the food.

When you heard “Fucks sake.” for the fifth time you gathered your courage and went to knock on the bathroom door.

“Can I help you?” there was a silence, you almost turned around and left the door, but you heard the lock and then the door opened.

Noah stood in front of you, shirtless and with glassy eyes. Neither of you said anything, you moved in sync like every night when you were cleaning his burns.

He sat down on the edge of your bath and let you do the work. His head was hanging low and you wanted to pick it up and kiss his face until the sadness would go away.

“I’m sorry.” he apologized.

“I’m sorry too.”

“I just wanted to do something for you. You take care of me and I wanted to treat you back.”

“I know baby, it’s fine. I appreciate it and I’m sorry too, I should’ve let you.” you finished cleaning his arms and putting fresh clean bandages over it. After that you cupped his face in your hands and he opened his legs to give you a room to come closer.

You brushed your nose along his, enjoying the heat from his body and the feeling of his hands that sneaked under your t-shirt.

“I love you.” you whispered against his lips before kissing him.

He pulled you closer to him, his grip on you firm. You haven’t been intimate since he came back home, you were too scared you’re going to hurt him, but you missed his touch.

“I love you.” he said before deepening the kiss.

His hands slid down under your ass to pull you even closer and then reached under your shorts to caress the soft skin of your ass. When he squeezed his hands on your soft skin you opened your mouth and a silent moan left your lips.

“I missed you.” you confessed.

“Let’s take this to the bedroom.” he stood up from the bath that he was still sitting on. You left the medical supplies untouched, leaving the mess behind as you closed the door.

“Lay down.” you instructed Noah. You planned to let him enjoy tonight, maybe as an apology from the kitchen argument.

“I’m fine baby.” he was scared you’re going to treat him like he’s made of glass for the rest of your lives.

“Just lay down.”

So he did, his big shirtless body was displayed for you on your shared bed and you crawled up his body until you were sitting on his waist.

You leaned down and started planting kisses on his skin. You started with slow and open mouthed kisses on his neck, kissing his pulse point for a second longer than other places. Then you continued to his chest where you could hear his quickening heartbeat from your touch. His skin was soft and warm, feeling like home. You carefully took his arms in your hands and planted the softest kisses over his red scares, wishing you could take away all of his pain. Noah closed his eyes and enjoyed your touch.

You moved even lower to the waistband of his shorts and underwear. You left kisses along the line before you took both pieces of clothes off.

He was laying there, looking like a perfect sculpture. His brows were furrowed a bit and his mouth was open from the sensation of your touch.

You wrapped your hand around his semi hard dick and heard him take a sharp breath. Your thumb brushed over his tip a few times before you took him in your mouth. The warmth of your mouth got Noah lifting his hips and thrusting into your mouth and you let him. You wanted him to feel good and you were determined to do anything for him. He fucked your mouth for a while and then stayed still, letting you move your head and tease him with your tongue. Your saliva was dripping all over him, mixing with the precum that was leaking from his red tip.

Noah’s hand was in your hair and he was letting out silent grunts and moans, enjoying this intimity after not being touched for more than a week.

You quickened your pace when you felt his thigh muscles twitch under your touch, a sign that he was close. You let him fuck your mouth again, this time his grip in your hair was stronger and his thrusts were uneven.

“Fuck, I’m close.” he grunted, with his eyes still closed.

His legs started shaking and not long after you felt him cum in your mouth. You swallowed everything and continued moving your mouth up until he became oversensitive and grabbed you by your chin to bring you up.

When your faces were at the same level he kissed you, it was messy and dirty, but you both wanted nothing less.

You were quick to take off all of your clothes, feeling needy to feel his hands on your skin.

His right hand slid down between your bodies to your core, your head falling at Noah’s shoulder at the touch.

“So wet, I didn’t even touch you yet.” he chuckled in your ear, the warmth of his breath only adding to the sensation you were feeling.

“Noah.” you moaned, rocking your hips to ride his hand. “I need you.”

“Then take me, pretty girl.” you got off his lap to grab a condom from your nightstand, meanwhile Noah moved on the bed so his back was against the headboard. He wanted to take you hard, but he knew his burns were still sensitive and you being on top was a safer option.

You rolled the condom down Noah’s length and dragged it through your folds to get it wet. You sank down on him and felt the stretch from his size. Your foreheads were touching and you were both getting used to the feeling of him being inside you again. Noah was the first one to connect your lips, leaving no room for soft and cute kisses. You felt his teeth sink into the skin of your lips, silently begging you to start moving.

You lifted your hips and then sank back down, Noah’s moan was swallowed by your kiss and you started moving in steady movements.

“My pretty girl, so fucking pretty.” Noah worshiped you and your body, leaning back against the headboard so he could see you whole. Your eyes were watching him watching you, the passion he had in his eyes when he looked at your body had you squeeze your walls around him.

“Oh Noah.” you moaned his name when he started bucking his hips up to meet yours. He couldn’t take his eyes off of you, completely mesmerized by your facial expressions and the sounds that were leaving your mouth.

You were like his drug, he just couldn’t get enough, he wanted more and more.

He knew he was not going to last long, not after not feeling your warm and welcoming pussy around him for that long. He licked his own fingers and sneaked them down to your clit. He started rubbing small but quick circles on it and used his other hand to bring you down for a kiss.

You were moaning into each other's mouth, the pace of your hip movements became unsteady as you wanted to reach your highs together.

“Noah, fuck!” you grabbed his shoulder to stabilize yourself, feeling the burning pain in your legs, but not even that could stop you from fucking Noah quicker.

“Yeah baby, don’t stop, don’t fucking stop.” he begged you.

His fingers spread your wetness around your clit in skilled movements and suddenly you felt the heat take over your body. You fucked yourself through your orgasm, moaning Noah’s name over and over until he stopped your hips with a strong grip.

In your ecstasy you didn’t even notice Noah came too, until you felt his legs shaking under you.

“I missed this so much.” you admitted, still being full of Noah’s softening cock.

“Me too.” he kissed your forehead before tucking your head under his chin.

You laid like that for some more, in silence enjoying the moment.

—

When you were falling asleep in Noah’s arms you couldn’t stop thinking about your suspension. You still haven’t told Noah and felt bad.

He was laying behind you with his arms around your waist and you contemplated if you should ruin the moment or wait for the next day.

Like if he could read your mind he asked “What are you thinking about?” in a whisper.

You looked out of the window, looking at the moon that was lighting up your bedroom and thought about an answer.

“Noah, I have to tell you something.” you turned around in his arms so you were facing him. The darkness made it easier for you to tell him, but you still knew he was going to be mad that you kept it from him.

“Yeah?” his eyes were still closed, ready to fall asleep.

“I didn’t take days off from work, I’m on suspension.” now it was you who closed your eyes, not wanting to see the look in Noah’s eyes.

“What?”

“After that call I was called in the captain's office and he told me that after I failed to do my job even after I changed stations that I’m on suspension until he calls me back to work. I don’t know what he’s gonna do, but it’s my fault, so I’m ready for everything.”

“Why didn’t you tell me sooner?”

“I didn’t want to worry you with that when you were hurt.” you looked at him, his face neutral. “Are you angry?”

“I don’t know, you should have told me.”

“I know, I’m sorry.”

“We’re together in this, okay? It’s my fault too.”

“No, I’m not gonna let you do that. It’s only my fault. I should have been a professional and kept my emotions aside. I broke down and was sent to wait in the car. I wasn’t able to do my job. You did your job, it’s not your fault.” that’s what you were scared of, that Noah is going to blame himself for your mistake.

“Did you hear anything from him?”

“Not yet, but I was thinking about going to see him tomorrow.”

“And tell him what?” now that was the hardest part you tried to avoid.

You had time to think about everything now that you were home. You love your job, you really do, but you feel like you can’t have both, a great job and working relationship with another firefighter. You knew it was a bad idea from the beginning, but you never thought you’d fall for Noah this hard.

But it’s not just about him, you were scared that things like this are going to happen again and you knew that no matter how hard you’d try, you couldn’t keep being professional if you saw Noah hurt in front of your own eyes.

You thought about changing areas and starting working at a completely new station, but that would only complicate things like your living situation and time spent together.

“Promise me you’re gonna hear me out before saying something.”

“I promise.”

“And promise you won’t get angry.”

“I promise.”

“Noah, I, I was thinking about everything and us working for the FD and being in a relationship will never work. Even if we don’t work at the same station we’re still gonna see each other on calls and we both know that if the other one gets hurt it will end just like this last call.” you paused to take a breath and saw the look on Noah’s face.

“Are you breaking up with me?” he rushed the words out, scared that that’s exactly what you’re doing.

“What? Oh my god no.” you cupped his cheeks and softened your eyes at his worried look. “I’m not breaking up with you baby. Let me finish, okay?” he put his hand over yours and nodded for you to continue.

“I thought about changing areas, but you know better than anyone that that would complicate things for us. We would have to move to be close to both of our jobs and there would be less time that we could be spending together. So I started looking at other possibilities in my field and I found some really good job opportunities. I’m thinking about quitting fire therapy and finding a different job.”

“No, I don’t want you to quit your dream job because of me.”

“I’m not quitting because of you Noah, I want to.”

“What if I quit? So you could stay.”

“Hell no. What would you do? Do you have a plan B? Noah I have many options with my degree, I can change fields if I want to. You love the job, I actually don’t mind quitting that much. I promise.” you whispered the last part against his lips, hoping he won’t protest more.

“I’d understand if you wanted to break up and choose your career.”

“Oh yeah because seeing you on calls after break up would make any difference.” he finally laughed, seeing that if you were able to joke about it, it wasn’t as hurtful for you as he thought.

“You already made up your mind, didn’t you?” he rubbed his nose against yours.

“I did.” you kissed his lips and finally felt like you could fall asleep without holding any secrets from him.

—

The next day you did exactly what you told Noah. You walked into the captain's office with resignation papers in your hands. You two talked for an hour, he told you he was sorry for his reaction the day of the call, but that things like this can’t happen. He told you he understands why you reacted the way you did, but that’s exactly why they don’t prefer relationships within the FD. He also told you that he’s sorry to see you go, because you’re good at your job, but that everyone will respect your decision and that you’re always welcomed at the station any time.

Saying goodbye to the crew was harder, those guys became your friends and you’re going to miss them. They treated you as equal and you felt like you found a new group of friends.

You cried on your way back home and then some more to Noah when he opened the door for you. 

“Okay, time to stop crying and find me a new job.” you wiped your own tears and Noah laughed at the sudden change.

“Are you nervous from the interview tomorrow?”

“Not really. She told me that she’s heard only good things about me and that it’s more of a formal thing.”

There’s an open spot for a therapist at the centre where your best friend works. She already told her boss about you and she said she’d be more than happy to have you join their team.

“I got invited to another one on Friday, it’s for a therapist at primary school.”

“Oh really? Is that something you’d prefer?” Noah played with your hair as you laid in his lap.

“I think so. Kids are way more fun to work with than adults.” Noah laughed and remembered the open day and his minions. “But kids therapy is harder tho. But it would be a new challenge for me. I think I’d like that more.”

“I know you can do it. You’re the best.”

You laughed at his affection, but appreciated his support.

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*one month later*

“God I’m so tired.” you kicked the door closed behind you and then followed Noah in your shared kitchen.

“What did Jake do this time?” Noah laughed, knowing who was behind your headache.

You started working at the primary school very quickly after the interview. They were very excited to have you with your education and work experience. Your main tasks were to be available for private sessions with students, parents and teachers and also you had few lessons a week where you talked and teached about mental health.

Jake was a 8 year old kid who gave you a headache regularly, but Noah found the stories funny. Being in the middle of a class and having an 8 year old making fun of you was harder to handle than a bunch of adults. It was always playful, you joked with him back, but god was he tiring.

“He was calling me Theresa today and told me that I can call him Jacob so we’re even. And then he kept telling silly jokes so no one else was focused and they laughed at his jokes.”

“Tell me the jokes.”

“No.”

“Why not?”

“Because you’re gonna say they’re funny and tell me you love that kid, just like you always do.” you groaned and Noah laughed more. He always says that he can’t wait to meet him one day. He also said that you have to make sure to invite him for a career day, so he can become friends with Jake. He was overly confident that Jake wouldn’t make fun of him too.

“Come on, tell me.” he made a puppy eyes at you.

“Why don’t skeletons don’t fight each other?”

“I don’t know, why?”

“Because they don’t have the guts.” you finished with a serious face and saw the way Noah was holding a laugh.

“Listen baby, the joke is not funny, but if I imagine you standing in front of all the little devils that laugh at it and you make that cute little pout you always do when things don’t go the way you want, that is a little bit funny.” Noah closed the gap between you and put his arms around you.

“So now you’re just making fun of me?” you mumbled against his chest.

“How about you take a shower and then I’ll give you a head massage so you can forget Jake until Monday? Will you forgive me?”

“Yes please.” you nodded frantically against Noah’s chest before standing up and leaving him in the kitchen to also make you some dinner.

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“My mom asked about you yesterday.” Noah said casually when you two sat on your couch with plates in your hands.

“What did she ask about?”

“When I’m gonna introduce you to her.” you shot a look at Noah, scared one.

“I’m scared of meeting your parents!” “Why?”

“Because they’re your parents.” obviously, right?

“I'm not scared of meeting your parents.” he shrugged his shoulders.

“Of course you’re not, you’re a firefighter you know you’re gonna wrap them around your finger.”

“And you don’t think you’re not gonna wrap my mom around your finger when you tell her you work with kids? She’s not gonna stop talking about grandkids so be prepared.”

“Grandkids? You know you’re not exactly helping me to calm down.”

“I’m sure she wants like 10 of them.”

“10???”

“Relax, I’m just joking. You don’t have to meet them until you’re ready.” he put your empty plate on the table and pulled you into him.

Everything was going fine with you and Noah. He was finally back at work and you agreed to take the next step and move to a bigger place. You were currently searching for the right place that you two would love.

You enjoyed this new harmony between you after you quit FD. And you actually couldn’t wait to take Noah to your job for a career day.

“Do you want kids?” you lifted your head to look at Noah who’s eyes were fixed on the tv screen.

“Yeah. You?”

“Me too. How many do you want?” he looked down at you and smiled.

“How about enough to have a full shift for a station?”

“So you’re crazy just like your mom?”

He enjoyed making those harmless jokes on you, but then turned serious.

“I don’t know, I’m okay with the number you want.” he gave you a sweet kiss and then turned his attention back to the TV.

You tried to focus on the movie too, but all you could think about was how crazy you were in love with this man, that you’d probably give him enough kids so he could have his own A shift at work if he asked you to.

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MARCH COMMUNITY POST

This month on a very special Double Helix...

Abe thinks his clone is a closet case; Joan and Cleos clones have surprises of their own, Caesar is introduced to Tumblrs favourite holiday and Scudworth takes in a show.

Now let's take a look at some of the comments the blog received in the merry merry month of March:

General Feedback

What’s better than a callout post? A shoutout post 😎

You better start believin' in the Double Helix fandom, G-Spot- because YER IN ONE!

Kind words from my follower-in-law. Hope you continue to enjoy safely from outside the blast radius!

We are (still) so back.

Thank you! I wanted to find a way to incorporate Lincoln’s legendary cheekbones. I referenced popular skinny boys like Chalamet and Young Pattinson.

In animation, they have to draw the characters so many times over, it makes sense that Abe and JFk’s faces are basically blocks. Low pencil mileage!

Since I only have to draw the original characters once per panel, I was able to give them a little more detail though early on I abandoned too many accessories or patterned clothes. I'll take the easy road every time!

ABE AND GABE FEEDBACK

fun fact: Rainbow Abe was long-game foreshadowing for this comic. Lord and Miller told me so in a dream I had while painting my room with the windows shut.

Hahaha it’s cool that people get the new clones. Gabe reckons if body spray makes you smell good, using more must make you smell even betterer.

And thank you! Like all fans, I’m cherry-picking the parts I like and hopefully adding enough of my own ideas to make for something new-ish. Mmmm, taste the mild originality!

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I think she can secretly do this:

Thanks for showing love to Darcy! She didn't mean to trigger Joan...

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I'm glad people agree with me that Patty is adorable, in part because was the clone that took the longest to design (I find the original Cleo hard enough to draw). Yay Patty! ❤️️❤️️❤️️

I don't know if 'nice' is how I'd describe Cleos personality but I'm glad people enjoy me characterising her that way. Maintaining the tone of the original season is my whole mission statement.

Cleos vicious streak is very important to me. No joking, this is my favourite Cleo moment of all time:

That said, she could use a stern talking to:

APRIL FOOLS FEEDBACK

Oh yeah, they totally did! A vision in Obi-Wan blue.

I was really expecting hails of rotten tomatoes for even joking about killing off Gandhi, so I'm I'm relieved everyone liked my little prank!

*waves at Venture Bros fandom from across the hall*

AND MORE FEEDBACK STILL

We all tried to save him 😔Another victim of AirPods.

Just a proper gentlemen at the cinema

People are STARVING for more clones. Don't fill up on bread!

When I joke about hype for Sheepman but people actually are:

That’s good because there’s more Sheepman where that came from!

BUT if you want to commission a design through my Ko-Fi, I’ll be more than happy to learn!

And let’s hear it for the comics newest patron, Blazer! (Any relation to Jolly Gene Jumper?)

Thank you again for so much positive engagement (influencer speak, my beloathed 🤮)

The comments and replies continue to be generous and encouraging and I really enjoyed answering the questions in my inbox, even if I'm a little weisenheimer most of the time.

Oh and we were honoured with our very first fanart featuring Gabe!

These kids today, always looking at their phones smdh.

Thank you much @garbagefirelol! ✨

Next Month on a Very Special Double Helix...

Heading into April, I'll be posting what is probably my favourite chapter so far. I was so excited that I drew it immediately after the 'walking to school' intro. I don't think I've been too coy about which character it features, so I'm really stoked to see the responses.

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[changenameno]

Wild Ride PART 1

(Complete, link to the second part, ⬇️ down below)

Summary:
Having to share a car with your friends Sy and August, you and Walter make do. They won’t catch on, to what you’re doing in the backseat, right?

Pairing: Walter Marshall x Fem. Reader (Sy and August)

Warnings: 18+, cursing, unsafe driving, voyeurism, vaginal fingering, finger-fucking, dirty talk, MDNI (most of the Smut in the second part)

Word count: 1.2 K

A/N: Apparently I’m not able to fit a smutty fic in one chapter, so here we go with two parts, again. But at least it’s complete. Though it’s not proofread, any mistakes are my own. Please be kind, comments/reblogs are much appreciated…Thank you, hope you enjoy!❤️✨



! Neither Nomis, nor Walter Marshall, Syverson or August Walker are my creation!

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PART 1


You weren’t really excited about this wedding. Not that you weren’t happy for the couple. You were.


But you hadn’t had a free weekend alone with Walter in forever, and just missed being close to him. Also very importantly: not having had sex with him, in so, so long either. Ergo being a bit sulky at the fact that you didn’t even get alone-time in the car.

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Walter had surprised you yesterday with the news: “ So you know how August has bought that new car?”

Not liking where this was going, you slowly turned to your boyfriend, who was sitting next to you on the couch, “Yes, why?”

“Well we were talking earlier. And came to the conclusion that it would make more sense to car share, as we, him and Sy have to go to the wedding…,” drawing out the end as he caught on to your irritated facial expression. “Erm, that’s alright, is it not?” he added unsure.

You sighed deeply, technically speaking it was a perfect solution. But you really wanted to have some fun with Walter. Knowing it’d take some time getting there, you’d hoped for at least a quicky, in some abandoned parking lot or something. Seeing as you couldn’t do anything now, because Faye had a friend over for the weekend.

“Well yeah, of course that’s alright,” straining to keep your disappointment out of your voice and failing miserably. Walter knew you to well, raising his brow sceptically,” Mhhm yeah riiight, and I’m Cinderella waiting for her first kiss.”

Making your sour face, light up instantly at the mental imagery that statement had created. He smiled softly at you in return, patiently waiting for your explanation. Giggling you admitted,” Okay fine, I’d kinda hoped you and I could have a little time to ourselves….you know?”

It was his turn to sigh, cursing,” Damn. If I’d known you’d be up for that, I wouldn’t have agreed to car share.”

“Oooh, but Mister Marshall, by now you should know with you, I’m always …up…for…that,” you winked teasingly at him.

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August had picked up Sy first, because his house lay on the way to yours. When he drove up the driveway, your face fell, as you saw the car. More specifically the completely loaded up car. He rolled down the window greeting you both. ”Morning you two, jump right in.” Sy grinned at you from the passenger seat, waving briefly.

Still gaping at the car, you shook your head, “You’ve got to be kidding, what is that?!” Walter didn’t look too keen either, as August supplied you with; “Ah yeah a friend of mine moved and I hadn’t had time to remove all the boxes yet.”

Irritated, Walter remarked, “All the boxes? August, the whole damn car is packed to the roof! You do realise that there’s only one seat not occupied?”

August smiled slyly then nodded; “Well yeah, but I thought you two love birds could share the seat.” And as if that ended the argument, he just rolled his window up again.

Annoyed you glared at your boyfriend; “I’m not getting into that car! We have to drive at least four hours!” Walter signed, shrugging his shoulders, “I know, but I believe we don’t have much of a choice here.”

Nearly growling you answered,” Oh, I’m so gonna kill him.” The detective simply opened the car door, getting in behind the driver’s seat, waiting for you. Seething you made your way over and into the car. Settling down between Walters thick thighs, as best as you could. If there was a moment to curse your boyfriend’s muscled physique, it was definitely now.

Quite literally feeling completely boxed in, you somehow managed to put a seatbelt on. August gleaming blue eyes landed on yours as he pulled out of the driveway. Looking you up and down, taking in your dark blue dress with small white flowers on it. “You look quite stunning, love.”

You on the other hand, were having none of that, “Oooh, don’t push it.”

Sy ever the gentle intermediary, “I have to agree though, you look stunnin’, sugar.”

You huffed in response, but had to admit that all three men looked dashing themselves in their dark blue tuxedos.

Walter snaked an arm around your waist and rested his other hand on his thigh. Not wanting to argue any further you remained silent, resigning yourself to your fate, being squeezed in for the next four hours.

By now you had sat in idle silence for at least half an hour, while the guys had talked about this and that.

Until Sy turned back, beaming at you,” And what’s that grumpy face all ‘bout? Can’t only be the seating.” Damn, you thought no one would notice, that you’d been grumpy since before they’d picked you up. But of course, Sy being your best friend for god knows how long, would notice.

Trying to lighten up, your lips curled into a soft smile, nonetheless lying through your teeth as you answered,” Nothing really. Just tired I guess.” He didn’t look convinced, but knew better than to push, simply turning back to the front.

Suddenly the arm around your midsection, pulled you even closer. Walter leaned down, lips touching your ear, whispering against it,” You know, you can be quite the brat, when you don’t get what you want.” Lightly shivering due to the lewdness of his comment. Heat spread through your body, breathing back just as softly,” Mmmh, well and whose fault is that?”

The resounding growl he let out, travelled all the way down to your panty-covered cunt, which immediately began quivering with want.

Felling his hot breath when he answered, “Looks like someone needs reminding, of who is in charge.” The hand that had been on his own thigh, slowly slid over to yours, inching up from your knee and under the hem of your dress. Already turned on but at the same time alarmed, you took hold of his hand, before it could travel up any further.

“Wait, wait, what if they see,” you gestured towards the front of the car, where Sy and August still chatted. At that Walter pulled back slightly, straitening up. Disappointment settled deep in your stomach. No, why would he stop?

But Walter had no intention of stopping, he just came up with a plan to distracted his two friends best he could. Mentioning the latest game. He knew that would have them quarrel for hours on end at times. And as always they started arguing right away.

Smiling up at your boyfriend you purred; “That worked like a charm.”

“Yeah. And now, where were we?”, his pupils blown wide, as he knew exactly what would follow.

 

 

PART 2

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WISHMAKER RE-ANNOUNCEMENT! It's been a while, and since WISHMAKER has changed engines I thought I'd make a new little thread about it! (As well as some fun news near the end so stay tuned!)✨ (Click to read more!)

WISHMAKER was originally planned to be developed in Unity. Luckily I was still very early-in when Unity announced their controversial update. Even though Unity went and changed their changes eventually, I decided in the end that I felt most comfortable changing engines.

WISHMAKER is now being developed in RPGMaker MZ. Despite this, the game is still set to be a third-person point-and-click adventure game, & I can say pretty confidently it looks the part too! Nothing like my past games developed in RPGM!(not that that look is bad!)

While RPGMaker comes with its own limitations, it's also an engine I'm more experienced in. And because of that there's now things I'm excited to do in it that I would have never been able to do in Unity due to my inexperience! Silver linings abound! Most of my time spent in Unity was just trying to learn it, which is not a challenge I have now. I have already been making faster progress with WISHMAKER recently since I don't have the learning curve I did with Unity!

While I'm still not 100% on how releasing chapters will go, it is likely that each chapter of WISHMAKER will be separated into its own RPGMaker game (but all kept in the same space). This would allow chapters to be updated individually in the case of bugs, and also allow me to create each chapter without worrying of things like conflicting plugins/affecting something in an earlier chapter, etc.

Just like my initial announcement, I am a bit nervous announcing it so early in its (re)development. However, you all have been so kind and patient with me and I know you will keep it up and it means the world to me! And because of that...

NEXT SATURDAY I am planning to share a screenshot of the game! Even though this version of the game is still really early in development like I said, it has also been at least 3 months since my initial announcement and I KNOW people are curious, so I wanna give everyone a quick look into what it'll be about! And I'm also SO excited to show you just how much different it looks from the games I've made in the past and while I don't want to be too presumptuous, I have a feeling you're really gonna be excited for it!

With all that said, thank you all SO much for all the support on all my work! Changing engines was scary but you guys still kept patient with me and supported me and it really does mean a lot to me. I'm so excited to show you all I have up my sleeve soon! THANK YOU!❤️

[duchessonfire]

Heyyyy Duchess! 🥰 Omg, I literally cannot with how much I’m obsessed with every single Cegan fic you’ve ever written. It’s like, no matter what AU they’re in, they always find each other and fall in love (in that slightly twisted, totally them way). And honestly? We’re all here for the toxic-but-make-it-hot vibes, lol. 😂

Anyway, no pressure or anything, but I gotta ask... Is Savior!Carl making a comeback soon? 👀 Like, for real, I’ve spent way too much time imagining what could possibly happen next. After that whole condom-gate mess (iconic, btw), our ship hit that sweet spot we were all dying for: Negan lowkey obsessed with controlling Carl and making him his everything, while Carl just wants to feel needed, owned, and finally free from all that fear of being discarded. Ugh, chef’s kiss. 👌✨

But like... That balance is hanging on by a thread, and even though I remember you saying in the comments that things would stabilize by the end of Part 3, my brain is straight-up incapable of imagining how they’d get there without your genius storytelling. I desperately need your words to make it all click. 🙏

That said, if you’re cooking up something new or just need more time to vibe and create, no worries at all—I’ll wait as long as it takes. You’re amazing, Duchess, and your writing has honestly made my life so much brighter. Love ya!! 💕 Keep being the literal queen of Cegan fic. 😘

Hiiiii!

Omg thank you so much for your sweet message, you're too kind 😭❤️

I can't even begin to tell you how much space Cegan takes up in my head, it's actually ridiculous. I spend what feels like every minute of every day *obsessed* with them. A lot of it, let's be honest, has to do with how smoking hot Jeffrey Dean Morgan is, but also I'm still riding the high of the few interactions Carl and Negan had in the series. (If I think too much about the fact we could have had so much more, I'll start throwing up ☠️). They are just THE PERFECT toxic but sweet relationship.

Thank you so much for telling me your thoughts on the Savior!AU, it really means a lot to me ❤️🥺 I will get back into it soon, but it's going to take a while because I want to do a full re-read of it starting with Part 1 + re-watch TWD from the line-up episode all the way to S8 before I start writing again. That way I can really immerse myself back into this universe and into Bad Wolf Negan (which is my affectionate title for Negan before the cell). I've spent the past 3 or 4 months working on my Dead City fic where Negan was very kind and soft and a gentleman so I need a good refresher on how dark and awful Negan can be before I get back into the Savior!AU 😅

First, though, I'm going to post the first chapter of a new fic I have been planning for *a while*, because the Cegan Bingo event ends on December 4th (the day before my birthday 🥰) and I just need to post one more square to hit a bingo!! I'm VERY excited about this new fic. It's going to be super long (as usual...), and it will be set in the real world, no zombie apocalypse. It's also going to be FILTHY 🔥🔥🔥🌶️🌶️🌶️ Like, literally the dirtiest, kinkiest fic I've ever written in my life, and I'm super excited for that. I'll do my very best to post the first chapter within the next two weeks so I can make it before the end of the bingo. 🤞

Thank you again for your sweet message and I hope you'll like all the Cegan that's coming 🤗❤️🥰💐✨

[galvanizedfriend]

very very excited for the next chapter of the wolf series. That last chapter was just fabulous! any chance for a snippet or an idea how long it’ll be until we get the next chapter! Wishing you all the best… from an anonymous lover of your works lol

Thank you, nonnie! ❤️ Very glad you enjoyed the last chapter. 🫰 I've been slowly working my way through the next chapter. I'm currently writing the last scene, but I will still need to edit and that usually takes me a while. Hopefully, it'll be done in the next couple of weeks, but it all depends on my muse, and it has been very fickle lately.

Please, send your thoughts, prayers, positive vibes and general well wishes ✨ Anything to get me in the mood to write 🥲🙏

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I just finished chap2 of addicting taste and WHY ARE YOU SO GOOD AT WRITING THIS???? Literally inlove with your writing 🫶🫶

hello new reader! i've been seeing the notifs of you reading through it haha. thank you so much for reading and enjoying it! you're too sweet 😭❤️

addicting taste is my first ever work of fiction (and writing) to ever exist, so she's very close to my heart. i think what you're reading is just my love for this world and its characters and how much it is a home to me that i can always run to.

the next chapters are coming too. a bit slower but they are and i'm excited for everything coming 🫶 thank you for coming around and hopefully you'll stick around for the next ones✨

[ashcroft-writes]

Hi!! I hope you are doing great! Now that Andor season 2 dropped i went back into my star wars era and I remembered how good your The Idiot's Array series is!! I don't know when you are going to publish your third work - take all the time you need, really! - but I just wanted to let you know there are still people thinking about it and loving it! 💕💕💕

Howdy there!!! This super makes my day, thank you so much for the very kind words! And welcome back to the Star Wars era! :D I haven't seen the new Andor yet, but I'm real excited. And it always makes my heart glad people are enjoying Gunslinger's Paean years down the line, especially because I have ABSOLUTELY been working on the next installment all this time; just had a couple turbulent years that's slowed it up! But I'm persistent. :D Just gotta be like the cowboy alien man himself... dramatically slow-walking to the destination lol. Heck, I just wrapped up one more of the chapters yesterday. So it'll get here eventually!

But, before I ramble too much—thank you again for reaching out with the encouragement and love. It means a lot, and I hope you have a wonderful week! ❤️✨

[here2bbtstrash]

Miss you❤️

i miss you all so much, my goodness 🥹 shall we do a small life update?

partner moved in! my place was small to begin with so it's definitely a little cramped in here now 🥴 but we have our eyes on getting a bigger place when the lease is up. i'm super happy to have him around all the time, just sleeping in the same bed every night and sharing our meals together brings me so much comfort. it's been really wonderful!!

i turned thirty 😳 and honestly it... hasn't been a big deal at all lmao. i feel so excited to be entering this decade. i think i care a lot less about things that ultimately don't matter than i did in my twenties, and i feel a lot more sure about myself and what's important to me! plus i had a super-fun karaoke party with some of my favorite humans 🥰

i've seen so much kpop this summer, and it's not even over yet!!!! txt, itzy, ive, stray kids, ateez, and we have (g)i-dle, kard, and seventeen still to come before the year is through!! the shows have all been AMAZING, and ofc the best part is having friends come into town and getting to experience it together!! (and yes we did see lolla felix in person and no i have not recovered 😵‍💫)

and for the least-fun update..... health news 😔 after a whole bunch of concerning symptoms that were continuing to worsen over the last year, i sought out a specialist and got some tests run and have been diagnosed with ✨endometriosis✨ - and friends, this shit blows. i am on some new meds that we are hoping will help mitigate symptoms so that i don't have to have surgery (for now!), but the adjustment period has not been even a little bit fun, nor have the swirling unknowns about things like fertility or long-term quality of life. it's something i'm trying to give myself space to process and get adjusted to, bc even as someone with long-term mental health issues and adhd, adjusting to a chronic physical illness is a whole nother fucking ballpark. but i'm hopeful for an improvement with these new meds, and very lucky to have the best support system i could ever ask for - y'all know who you are 🫶

unfortunately, because of all these bullet points but particularly the last one, writing has continued to be at a full standstill. i am really hopeful that the inspiration will come back for me when it's ready, but for now i'm allowing myself to be in a different season of life and feel okay with that! i am still counting down the days til our boys come home (i quite literally am on the verge of tears every time i think about how SOON we will have hobi back MY LOOOOOOVE 😭😭😭) and i cannot wait to see what this next chapter brings, for them and for us!!

i hope you're all doing well, would love to hear your own life updates if you feel like sharing!! MWAH 🤍

[lavandulawrites]

I can't wait to read the next chapter 🤭✨, I really love your yandere!hsr man fanfic keep it up 👍🏻

Can't wait to see my other husband Blade,jingyuan, Sunday,phainon and anaxa (even though Sunday,phainon and anaxa is still far away, I'm still excited for their appearance in the future chapter 🤭✨)

Dan Heng is already yandere, imagine when he is in his IL form 🤭 he will be more and more possesive and I won't mind about that, I'm so wipped about this cool, handsome strong, dragon man❤️.

hoping there will be more of him 😳 in the future chapter.

Thank you!!🩷🩷

I also can’t wait to introduce them!🤭 I’m also very excited for Luocha as he is my favourite 🫶🏻

Hehhe I’m also such a simp for him🤭

I can say that you will see plenty of Dan Heng as he is a part of the crew😉

Astralis Desires

[e-rated-beardo]

✨ New fic ✨

(Just a little guy, climbing around where he shouldn't be)

I've embarked on something overambitious again! 😃 I'm 85k words and 20-ish chapters in on my gdrive - enough to dare to start posting before pride month is over. (trans angel trans angel trANS ANGEL—)

It's a supernatural murder mystery/ineffable husbands romance/love letter to the City of Aberdeen/project to besmirch every building of my alma mater. Crowley and Aziraphale are human (and subtly different from their "regular" selves—but that's for readers to wonder about and characters not to notice, yet) and meet as academics. Cue bickering and romantic tension. Then, someone is found murdered on a summoning circle.

Scorn and the Saint-Maker (rated E, no warnings)

Tags: Murder mystery, Temporarily human, Romance, Smut (some skippable), Demon summoning, Canon universe, Trans Aziraphale 🏳️‍⚧️, Cis Crowley, more tags on AO3

Summary, excerpt and art stuff™️ below the break⤵

Summary:

Doctor Crowley has turned truancy into an art form, lecturing only under sufferance. Doctor Fell has signed up for his undergraduate course and has no plans to let him slack off. When a faculty member is found dead, our heroes start forming uneasy suspicions. What was the occult symbol drawn next to the body? Why does it feel like they’ve known each other forever? How is Crowley supposed to tell police that he thinks the murderer is a demon he summoned 35 years ago? And what about that statue that’s the spitting image of the victim?

Read the first two chapters on AO3 ➡️

Excerpt from chapter 2:

The bloody man… was… cute. He was cute, and damn him to hell. Anthony Crowley didn’t like cute. He didn’t even like people. Crowley had barely looked twice at another man in a decade. He’d already given that part of himself up as a bad job at about the same time that he abandoned his last attempt at making friends. He just wasn’t a friendly sort—he had too many sharp edges, too little patience, and too much of a penchant for rubbing people the wrong way for sport. But then here came this waistcoated, tartan brolly, sarcastic eyebrow, bitten-back smirk, Doctor-of-Information-Sciences oddity, strolling right into his lecture theatre where he didn’t even want to be, and all of a sudden Anthony J. Crowley, doctor of mathematics and advanced bastardry, found himself improvising a class about the very core of mathematics and trying to sodding impress. It was embarrassing, really.

✨ Art stuff™️ ✨

I wanted to sketch the building whose epic clock tower appears about five sentences into the second chapter (the first is a prologue, so it barely counts), so I found the prettiest reference photo with the most exciting perspective situation I could find. (The second point was a consequence of the first.)

Just look at this bullshit:

Then, well.

Things went a comfortable amount of overboard about as soon as pencil touched paper

Isn't she gorgeous, this granite orgy in gothic overkill? 🖤

Bonus: This fic contains maths (CW?), and there's going to be some blackboard drawings here and there. Here's the first. Gold star (maths nerd star ⭐️) if you can tell me the problem we're discussing without reading first.

Start reading "Scorn and the Saint-Maker" on AO3 ➡️

ping @goodomensafterdark ❤️ @harlotofupdog, this is the fic where Crowley draws 🍆s on students' homework 😄

[starbeltconstellation]

Hello again! ✨💕

Here is some more WONDERFUL fanart of my SW OC, Melanie Bains, from my fic, Rewrite the Stars, by the great @fangirlteallie ! 😁❤️💕

The ‘tedikin’ one is my favorite. Hehe. ❤️😊

It is truly such a joy to have an artist so invested in bringing Mel to life. It’s so motivating as an author, and one of the highest compliments we can receive.

Thanks so much again! 💕

Still working on that next chapter. 😭 So sorry, my little reader ducklings. 💔 It’ll be SO worth it when I’m done though. Lots of new Melakin scenes to tide you all over. Hehe. 💓🥰❤️‍🔥

My writing has also just improved a lot as well in general! So I’m very proud of this chapter, and will be so excited to share it with you all when I’m done. 😊💕✨

Until next time! 😜

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[novemberthorne]

When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you've written, then pass on to at least five other writers. Let's spread the self-love 💞

Thank you so much for the ask! 💕 What a fun idea! I'd love to share some of my favorites! 🥰

Something Lost, Something Found (90k, rated E)

I've obviously gotta include this one, because wow, what an absolutely amazing experience it was to write and post this and to get to see everyone's thoughts and comments through the whole story!! ❤️

"I'm…" Steve starts, like he's actually about to tell him. Oh God. He's about to tell him. Eddie's staring, and Steve sees how his hand is searching the seat behind himself for the remote, probably to kill the movie, because Steve's being so weird it's making him worried. He sighs again, breath trembling from stress and he buries his face in his hands. Leg still bouncing in place. The TV gets turned off and the room fills with silence, and he hears Eddie shuffling around next to him. "Steve—" "I have a pussy now."

The Train Fic (23k, rated E)

This story was written as a birthday gift for my beloved partner ❤️ I worked on it for every single day for over two months. I was completely immersed in it, and despite the experience being very different than most my other fics, it's one of my favorite writing experiences ✨ever!✨

“Just… hang out together on the train?” Steve asks to clarify, because it was a strange idea. "Yeah. Let's indulge in a little escapism together, and I'll show you what the journey is all about. Okay?" Steve feels baffled. “Are you… high?” Eddie just laughs. “No, that’s not—” “Your thing?” “Exactly. Clever boy.” And Steve might just be the most naive guy on the planet, but he believes him. “It’s your choice, though. Trust your gut, alright?” “Right,” Steve says carefully, looking at Eddie with a careful look. At least he doesn’t look offended by Steve’s blatant hesitation. “It’s not a no, I’m just…” Eddie leans in a little, and he gives Steve’s arm a friendly nudge. “You don’t have to make excuses or explanations for being cautious, Steve. Think about it over the day, okay? You know where to find me.”

Who Embraces The Monsters (10k, rated M)

I love monster stories, and for some strange reason, this is the only one I've ever written! I need to change that...

"I'll never fucking forget you," Steve tells Eddie genuinely, letting himself feel all those vulnerable things he usually just swallows down. Eddie just looks. The black ink under his skin has spread into his face, and it's pulsing, shifting under the surface, moving like a living thing. It's seeped into his eyes, black bleeding into the white of them and starting to take over. Then Eddie smiles, and it's a monster's smile. "Go," he just says. And despite every cell in his body rioting against it, Steve leaves.

All I Do Is Want (11k, rated E)

The first fic I ever posted in the fandom 💕 and it got such a beautiful reception, it definitely sealed the deal for me to keep going!

"Eddie," he says quietly, because he doesn't trust his voice not to break right now. "Mhmm?" "Maybe we shouldn't. Tonight." He says carefully, and despite himself he shifts his hips back, depriving them both of the contact. It felt so nice, and he wants it so bad, but he thinks it would be a bad idea to have sex here. At least right now.

Secret Smile, Wistful Eyes (30k, rated M)

This fic was such an educational writing experience for me, and also such a personal, emotional journey. It was also my first chaptered fic I ever posted, very exciting!

"Seriously? You never even, like, suspected it?" "No?" Eddie says, feeling kind of like he's floating, maybe even dreaming. He's usually good at subtext, he can read between lines well enough to confidently put most things together. But this was something else entirely, another thing that would rock his entire understanding of the world, surreal to the point where he knows it's not actually going to sink in until Steve says it out loud.