#valid as hell for the rest of you tho I just personally don't get it

[nyan-bynary]

People who want to fuck choso are like enigmas to me,,, I cannot for the life of me understand the thought process there I'll be completely honest

[hypergamiss]

hello queen, I have a pathetic question about dating: how to not feel jealous at those who seem like they’ve found “the one” already? Ik all that stuff about everyone being on their own journey and stuff, but it does hurt sometimes. I’ve never even dated so seeing everyone find their one is heartbreaking sometimes. Ik there’s the bad parts of dating such as my friend saying her guy is the one and love of her life (they recently bought a house together) but also that he plays video games often and she feels bored and lonely at times. Sometimes tho I just want that relationship for the dumb sake of saying I have a boyfriend, or that attention. How the hell do you get over it and be content with yourself? It genuinely feels like no one is single around me /: maybe I’d feel differently if I had some single friends to relate to? Idk I just feel jealous all the time, and it isn’t good for me or my future. I should be focusing on creating the best version of myself but this insecurity is holding me back. It feels like a what do these girls have that I don’t? My friend told me a lot of ppl just settle and that’s why they’re in relationships but it didn’t make me feel better. I just want to find my “one” perfect ambition, hard working guy already. Sorry for venting, I love your account and advice.

Listen, social media is a dating reality show edited to make you feel like a loser. All you get are the bouquets and champagne dates, never the screaming match about dirty dishes. But lemme tell you, relationships are WORK. Even those picture-perfect couples have their "Why did I do this?" moments and silent car rides filled with unspoken resentment. That's just reality, even if it doesn't fit on an Instagram caption.

Being single can be tough, but let's not pretend relationships are a magic fix. It's about trading one set of problems for another, usually spicier ones. Don't get me wrong, the right person is worth it, but life isn't a fairytale. Notice how those couples with the constant PDA often go silent when things get messy?

Here's where self-discovery comes in. Sometimes those relationship cravings are masking something else – a need for excitement, validation, whatever. Figuring that out is way more productive than doom-scrolling relationship goals.

You think having a partner is this automatic happiness upgrade, but I've been on the other side, in a relationship feeling lonelier than ever. Trust me, it's a mind-blowing kind of awful, followed by a new level of depression. That's the thing nobody talks about.

So, I rock my single status because guess what? I've got standards. Settling for mediocrity just to avoid being alone? Nope. I'd rather invest my energy elsewhere. Because contrary to all that rom-com nonsense, you can't outsource your happiness to another person. You gotta build that for yourself.

A healthy relationship is two happy people adding to each other's lives, not draining each other dry with emotional baggage. That's why I'm perfectly content rolling solo until the right one comes along. Do you want dependence and drama? There are plenty of trashy reality shows for that.

Yeah, it's different from the usual "find your soulmate" BS, but it's REAL. You want fulfillment? Build that life for yourself first. The rest either falls into place, or you realize you're happier without another person's dirty socks in the mix.

[lillyspeakz]

Can I rant/vent about some concertgoers here? I desperately and genuinely need some people to learn basic concert etiquette and human decency before they ever go to another concert again. These are REAL PEOPLE. I think some of you guys forget that.

Please do not throw things on stage unprompted! People can get injured because of things being thrown at them. It takes one person throwing something and he or other members could get hurt. I don't care if he doesn't say anything about it, that doesn't suddenly make it okay. And it doesn't matter if he's a grown man and it doesn't matter if everyone else does it. It's disrespectful to throw things at people. 

The band got a Gromlin Flag at one of their shows (Props to whoever made the flag!) and some fans wrote stuff on like their names, drawing, and messages but there were also NSFW messages written on it like “Fuck me” “Whip it out” Do not do that! Look, I get that a majority(?) of LVJY fans are teenagers and that the stuff they say online they either mean nonserious or a joke-y way. So, I get tweeting those words on a platform he doesn't use so he’ll won't see them but writing them on a flag for him where he'll see it is just weird. And the way I've been seeing people trying to excuse this, “Wilbur is a 30-year-old grown ass man with dick and balls, he can handle a sexual comment or two especially when he hasn't spoken against it.” Yes, he is a grown man and it's probably weird and uncomfortable as hell for him (and the rest of the band) to get NSFW and sexual messages from (most likely) underage fans, so stop. Please, don’t write or say something weird where they will or can see/hear it. 

Also, can we please respect the band’s personal space! Crowding around them, touching them, and grabbing them without consent is not ok. While it’s ok to be excited, it’s not ok to be disrespectful like that. They are human beings with personal space and deserve to be treated as such! I understand being excited to see him, after the kind of year we’ve had but he is one man against a swarm.

Unrelated Side-Tangent: Am I the only one that's kind of nervous and worried about Wilbur possibly streaming again? I mean, people will jump him and hate in chat so he may have to be on emote mode or - for his own mental health and well-being - disable chat and donations, for a while. Unless he makes a whole new channel for streaming but even then, I feel like it’s not safe for him because while the hate may not be as potent as it was earlier this year, it's still there.

THIS ALL OF IT! The nsfw shit is actually disgusting. Like why- I get posting it and shit and about characters. But irl? No. Absolutely not. Like be a human being and see that that’s not ok. Love the flag tho-

Also I’m nervous too. I don’t want to see the comments, I don’t want to see what people say. I just want positive. That’s all. I just want to listen to him talk. And he knows it’s still there, and I think that’s why he’s getting so emotional at shows which is 100% valid and understandable. He has people who want to see him and his band still. Listen to him talk and play, etc. it’s so special to him. And that’s what I love about it. He cares about us. And if he goes emote mod only and shit- so be it! I miss him and he wants to stream again, he wouldn’t bring it up if he didn’t,

[live-love-laugh-lesbian]

OMG hiiii dw abt it at all! your answer is long enough and im so sorry :( i hope you feel better now/soon!!

thank youu omg well im in my first year so we do a bit of everything! some coding like coding websites and stuff and some written computer problems as well! (i would explain but it's kinda hard to and i suck at explaining so asdhkjasdhjh) its a bit of everything! programming (practical) and theory!

ahsdjkahsdkj owning two trousers is so real lmao i think i only own one pair ajskldsjad and they are flared so not fit for all weathers ajksdhkjsah they sound sooo cute! if you wouldnt mind sharing them, i'd love to see them! but thats totally up to you! i dont want to make you uncomfortable at all so the choice is yours! im just a lil nosy hehe

omg same when i was a kid i once ate like an entire chocolate egg in a day! the time after that was hell i was sooo sick but its worthh itttttt and yes exactly!! like whenever i was young i had school assemblies and they were all like 'i dont play to draw i play to win' and like yeah so real! as long as no ones too mean and harsh while being competitive then go nuts! i love a little competition!! stardew valley is more of like a relaxing game for me! also animal crossing but like i get so frustrated when i cant catch a fish asjkdhaskj fishing is HELLLLLL in animal crossing alksdjlksj

awww thank youu! your hair sounds beautiful the compliments are most definitely soo valid! my hair never reached that point when i was young tho bc its like SOOOO frizzy and fluffy it almost grows outwards rather than down askjdhkasjh so it was always kinda short and super fluffy ajsdskjh

i think stuff abt the modern day world i really hate is that almost everyones so pretentious nowadays like you see someone and youre like oh theyre nice speaking out abt this and turns out that its all hypocritical and shit but also that feels like its not exactly modern? so ill give another answer and that is INFLATION! everything nowadays is soooo expensive oh my god! and yes governments is so reall

hmm, smth in the next five years... this is sooo not related at all and im totally twisting the meaning of your question but my online friends ajsdhkajsdh okay but serious answer? i wish to see less labour! like yk sites that use fast fashion and stuff that force labour onto people and children and i want that to be addressed and reduced bc like. no. labour is bad how is it acceptable for people to pay such horrible wages to their workers who make them so much money!! that feels so cruel! what about you?

and my question for you: what is something in/from a person that makes them absolutely unacceptable in your eyes? (i dont think that makes sense lmao) basically if you were friends w someone, whats one thing they could do to make you immediately see them as a red flag or like not like them/block them immediately (apart from them saying the r word!)

byee have an awesome day!

-swiftie spring exchange anon!

Hello again! I am doing better atm - I've basically had like, one long bug for three weeks, and like...I'd start feeling better. Go to work. Get worse from the exertion. Have to miss work. Get better slightly, so go to work...yeah XD I do seem to be on the mend now, I've just got a bit of residual pain and cough, and some of my underlying issues are being a bit unpleasant. But I'm taking it XD I had to take almost a week off work last week but I think the prolonged rest helped.

And hey that sounds really cool though!! So guessing you're in uni then? How's that going? Where I am it's starting to come up to exam season, so the people that I know are in uni at the moment are all quite stressed, bless them.

I don't mind showing you them like, privately, but due to my style being quite...unique (by courtsey of making a lot of it) I try to keep it off public tumblr to some extent, just because anyone who knows me would know immediately this was me. Tbh it's not a big deal if they did, but since I work with kids I feel the need to be more careful with social media these days.

And ok but see, I have very straight hair, and I've always wanted frizzy/fluffy hair!! Sometimes I fear we just want what we don't have XD

I think the hypocrisy is related to the modern world however! Social media kinda encourages a very black and white thinking of things, and most things are not so black and white (I mean like, obviously if someone's like. "Haha, I want to murder babies"...that's not a black and white issue. But you get me XD) So you end up with people being like "x is always bad". Then they'll later be like..."this thing that's basically x is fine"?

Inflation is SHIT. Look when I moved into my current place my phone bill was exactly 10 quid a month. It's not like 13 something!! It's not the biggest hike, my energy bill has freaking doubled, but by nature of it starting at a solid 10 I can see the inflation so much easier. It's a 30% increase!!

And see I am very lucky, I have seen a few online friends! My gf and I met through tumblr, and I've got two close friends that by thankful virtue of being in the same country I've been able to meet quite a few times...I met one who I've since lost contact with sadly, but I'm hoping to meet a couple more! OH and one is in a ldr with one of my close friends so I'll see her when she comes here (well I should do) but idk when that would be yet.

And look I have SO many fast fashion complaints. A big reason why I do so much thrifting and sewing is because I just hate fast fashion. I know it's sorta popular in some circles to talk about the shit quality, but it's shit because companies are paying people like a penny a piece for it -.- I refuse to use places like shein and temu...

I think in the next five years...generally I'm wanting to see a shift in climate change. I have a lot of climate anxiety, and I'm hoping that we start getting actual change in how politicians and companies approach the issues?? I want more eco changes. More bikes, cheaper plant based food, less fossil fuels, etc...I also want my government to stop making life harder for no reason. They recently decided people who have visas to work in the care industry over here can't have their kids come from overseas too?? Like there are people who now have their kids in other countries cause of this shit??? If they're working here, they deserve their kids to be here. How is that not the default idea!!

Less generally, I'm hoping to see improvements in my personal life XD I want to see a couple doctors to get some shit sorted out, and I want to improve my art further, and sort out where exactly I'm going with my career.

And nah that makes perfect sense! Honestly I'm a bit of a pushover, I'll take a lot from people. I think mainly the things that will really make me go. Hm. I mean, if you're outright a really terrible person (like if you told me you murder babies for fun, to use my "terrible person" example from above XD) I'm not gonna be interested in talking to you, but that's kinda obvious. But I think the things that make me go "red flag" are usually more personal things based on past experience. For example, I knew someone once who would move my mobility aids away from me, and I'd be like...right well I can't. Move now. Please give them back. And they're one of the few people I've cut contact with. But tbh I feel like I probably need more boundaries, I just get like...what if I'm being too harsh on this person XD

What about you tho??

See you again soon, hope your day has been well when you see this!!

EDIT: I forgot to ask a question back!! D: If you could make one trivial change to the world what would it be? Has to be something small, like...renaming strawberries to be fluffleberries, or making bananas rainbow XD

[coraskeeper]

⇢ 𝗺𝗵𝗮 𝗳𝗲𝗺𝗮𝗹𝗲 𝗵𝗲𝗿𝗼𝘀 𝗵𝗮𝘃𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗮 𝘀𝗵𝘆 𝗳𝗲𝗺! 𝘀/𝗼 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝗮 𝗯𝘂𝗻𝗻𝘆 𝗾𝘂𝗶𝗿𝗸

↳ 𝗳𝘁: 𝗿𝘂𝗺𝗶, 𝗺𝗶𝗻𝗮, 𝗷𝗶𝗿𝗼𝘂, 𝗳𝗲𝗺! 𝗽𝗼𝗰 𝘀/𝗼

 ↳ 𝘄𝗮𝗿𝗻𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀: 𝗯𝗮𝘀𝗶𝗰 𝗻𝘀𝗳𝘄 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝘀𝗼𝗺𝗲 𝗺𝗵𝗮 𝗴𝗶𝗿𝗹𝘀 𝗶𝗱 𝗹𝗲𝘁 𝗱𝗲𝘀𝘁𝗿𝗼𝘆 𝗺𝗲 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗶𝗿 𝗯𝗱𝗲, 𝗳𝗹𝘂𝗳𝗳

↳ 𝘄𝗰: 𝟭.𝟱𝗸 𝘄𝗵𝗼𝗼𝗽𝘀

𝐑𝐮𝐦𝐢 𝐔𝐬𝐚𝐠𝐢𝐲𝐚𝐦𝐚

being that she herself has a bunny quirk she instantly falls in love with you

will openly court you to let everyone else know that you’re hers

she's super open with skinship and unless you tell her you don’t like it she’ll do it no matter who’s around

intimate hugs, randomly groping you, kisses, pet names, etc.

she thinks you’re so small and cute compared to her

calls you cute nicknames like “ bunny “, “ carrot “, “ mommy’s good girl “

she likes giving you piggy back rides and likes it when you scratch her ears too

thinks its the cutest thing when you get embarrassed and you curl into yourself so innocently

just makes her want to ruin you more and more every time

loves feeding you and giving you presents bc she wants to see you well fed and happy

she rubs your ears a lot in tons of situation, if you're sad, uncomfortable, did a good job at something or even if you guys are just simply chilling doing nothing at all

when you guys first starting dating she wouldn’t touch your tail bc she didn't want to make you uncomfortable bc she knows how shy you are

now now now, the first time she found out her sensitive your tail was, oh lord

you just released the demon inside of this woman

buys you a pretty collar with rumi’s bunny written on it and a pretty bow on the back

NSFW WARNING BELOW!

“ you like it when mommy touches you here, don't cha carrot? “

this woman has a mommy kink, no other opinions are valid

loves loves loves giving you hickeys all over

rubs your ears after you come down from hard orgasms

loves to softly degrade you too

“ look at this slutty hole, dripping for me “  

“ look at you, spreading yourself for me waiting for me to breed you like the pretty slut you are “

breeding kink, i said what I said

rubs your tail when she pegs you from behind bc she knows how much you like it when she does

“ look at you taking my cock like the obedient little breeding bitch you are “

rumi calling you a breeding bitch i-  

her favorite is doggy style with your hands tied behind your back while she rails you from behind while she pulls on your collar

will s p a n k you and makes you count too

literally humps you like a bunny in heat

she won't require you to pleasure her back bc she just wants to take care of you but if you do she’ll praise you the whole time

let her roughly fuck your face while your in nothing but some skimpy white lingerie you can see your brown nipples through, a collar, and some thigh highs

has SO much stamina

also likes good ol missionary with your knees pressed into your chest while cry and drool for her

“ that’s right, cum for me bunny “

loves making you ride her face or 69ing with you on top, she knows your shy and your embarrassed and vulgar expressions make it soooo much more watching you writhe in pleasure for her

will make you ride her, and won't help you at all bc she's a big meanie and she loves to watch you struggle to impale yourself on her fake cock while you gush all over her thighs

if you try and ride her and she thinks you’re going to slow, she’ll fuck you with the powerful pretty ass legs and ruin you from under you

she’s so rough with you and leaves bruises everywhere but she’s never so rough to the point she hurts you

when you cum she rubs your ears and tells you how good you did

“ that’s my good girl “ ugh

will clean you up and carry you around everywhere, gives you her clothes to sleep in

if you fall asleep right after your bath, shell dress you, put on your bonnet for you, and make you something to eat while you rest

i will let this woman destroy me pls i got so carried away I-

𝐉𝐢𝐫𝐨𝐮 𝐊𝐲𝐨𝐤𝐚

she literally adores your cute ass floppy ears

literally takes pictures of your ears and tails and face and shows everyone and adores it when you get embarrassed

she’s so sweet to you just buys you any and everything

writes you cute ass songs

bc you’re so shy she’s always going to ask before she touches you

consent consent consent

when you get uncomfortable around a large group of people and she sees your ears lay flat on top of your head, will subtly pull you aside to a quiet place

calls you things like “ my muse “ or “ darling “

she understands that you don’t like loud things bc of how sensitive your ears are being that she herself has sensitive ears too bc of her quirk

when you can’t sleep or have nightmares she’ll sing to you and gently scratch behind your ears

studies up on your anatomy bc she wants to know as much about you as possible

will teach you how to play her acoustic guitar bc she knows it won’t be too loud for your sensitive ears

she loves how your ears just sit perfectly in the middle of your curls you just look so pretty

she likes it when you wear bright colors that contrast her own wardrobe

NSFW WARNING BELOW!!

she might seem like she’s pretty chill but in bed i believe that kyoka is a mean ass lazy dom

she makes you work for your orgasms and she will edge and punish you

“ go faster or you wont get to cum at all “

she likes watching you desperately grind your sweet cunt onto her thigh or against her own arousal

likes to eat you out from behind or play with your cunt in front of a mirror

she lovesssss playing with your brown nipples and if you’re insecure about them she will casually take time out of her day just to appreciate them

shower sex shower sex shower sexxxxx

likes seeing you all wet and the water falling off your body just turns her on

mirror sex with jirou ugh

she loves spreading you open in front of a mirror and lazily fingering you until your crying and dripping all over you, her, and the bedsheets from the overstim

“ don’t be a crybaby, you can take more can't you, darling? “

she tugging on your tail when you cum bc she knows how sensitive it is and she loves hearing you moan loud for her but will be so mean to you about it

“ shut your mouth “

will smack your cute ass while she ruthlessly grinds into you and calls you names

“ you want everyone to hear how loud you are don't you slut “

will edge you until you cry and won't let you cum until there are tears streaming down your face and your begging her for release

“ only good girls get to cum, not selfish sluts “

she will probably call you names when you cum too lol

after care is 10/10 tho

she makes it up to you for being mean and buys you ice cream after she bathes you

sings to you and gives you snacks and ear rubs

𝐌𝐢𝐧𝐚 𝐀𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐝𝐨

she is a very sociable person, she loves to interact with others and make friends while you on the other hand are super introverted and stays to yourself

everyone is surprised when you too start to go out bc you are polar opposites

will never shut up about you after that

“ yeah, that cute lil bunny over there.. that's my girlfriend “

calls you things like “ babe “, “ bun “, and “ love “

shows everyone cute pictures of you she took off guard and rubs your ears when you get mad at her for embarrassing you  

she wont do anything you dont like and will always ask what your comfortable with and is constantly asking if you're too overwhelmed when your out somewhere

she loves your quirk and she thinks its so cute

she will buy you cute skirts and cuts hole out of the back of them just to see your cute little tail pop out the back

will hold your hand no matter where you are so you don't get lost or feel too uncomfortable

she hates when your sad or feeling insecure and uncomfortable around others bc your ears droop on top of your head and she hates how lifeless they look

she likes buying you cute ribbons to tie around the base of your ears

matching pjs and disney movies anyone?

likes seeing you in frilly pink things and pretty chokers

she's a people pleaser so anything you want, if it's in her ability to give it to you trust me you’ll have it

NSFW WARNING BELOW!!

she isn't mean to you as your dom bUT she is SO unashamedly vulgar

she will say the nastiest things to you with an innocent smile on her face while she wrecks you

“ look at how your pussy just clenches for me, how cute “  

likes to make you look when she plays with you

the biggest tease

“ don't be embarrassed love, i love when your pussy sucks my fingers and tongue in like that “

it is her mission to make you squirt every single time you have sex

likes to make you eat her out on your knees while you play with yourself under her

she is a BITER she loves to bite you everywhere

tugs on your ears when she fucks your face and calls you a good bunny when you make her cum

“ look at my good girl, you look so pretty with my cum all over your face, love “

please wear thigh highs and garters for her, she will worship you

loves the inside of your mouth, she’ll stick her fingers in your mouth and then make you talk to her while she fingers the hell out of you

“ aw bun, look at how stupid im fucking you “

toys toys toys!!

loves using all types of vibrators on you

she isn't as mean to where she'd edge you, she hates not giving you what you want but she will always overstim you

“ look love, you came so much the bed is soaking “

“ look at the mess your gushing cunt made “

she will embarrass you any chance she gets

she also likes mutual masturbation

watching you get off to watching her get off? i think tf yeah

sits you on her lap so she can fucking you with the vibrator on the highest setting while playing with your tail

will have a normal conversation with you like she’s not literally ruining your insides and will tease you when you cant respond to her without moaning and whimpering

“ what was that babe? I can't understand anything you're saying, speak up “ 

loves seeing your ears and nose twitch when you cum

cuddles you and runs a warm bath for you both

gives you soft massages bc she knows how sore you’ll be afterwards

puts on your matching bonnets and makes you breakfast the next morning

aftercare queen yess

[gotta-get-back-to-hatchetfield]

SO SO valid of you to be suspicious of macnamara...unfortunately i have already latched onto him as Hatchetfield Dad but when he turns on us and inevitably destroys me i'll remember u tried to warn us 👋i AM v curious about what you think his deal might be tho 👀(-nightmaretimebastard)

So don't get me wrong if we reach the end of hatchetfield with no hard evidence of wrong doing then I will be coming up with cute fluffy headcannons with the rest of you because I want to like him but until that time idk I have trust issues

Evidence for suspicion:

1) in tgwldm he lets Paul try and go back for Emma which causes the chain of events that allows the infection to spread past the island

2) Why does he want Howie to go into the black and white when he seems ludicrously unqualified?

3) Okay so I need to do a black Friday rewatch but doesn't he try and convince Howie to send in the nuke in the first place? (This may be a mis-memory)

4) He conveniently then enters the black and white just as earth's about to be destroyed in a nuclear war and then claims he can't get out because his body's decaying for black and white erosion or whatever but we see no evidence of this and Wilber seems absolutely fine in there

5) "I cut through them with a blade of truth" what the fuck does that even mean that's sus as hell

6) Hes played by Jeff Blim

In terms of personal headcannon, if he is evil then I don't think he's working for the Lord's in Black because he does give Lex the gun/self-esteem to kill Wiggly, so rather I think PEIP might be a distinct nefarious entity and given that they're a wing of the US military I think they might be trying to do interdimensional colonialism or something

That being said I'm historically pretty wrong about hatchetfield so ignore all of this

[mogai-sunflowers]

Hey! Please help!!! (You don't have to answer to this of course!)

Ive recently (like a year) discovered that im gender non conforming as well as a lesbian, i want to use all pronouns and i really dont like it when people can instantly tell that im afab

I also recently came out to a bunch of my friends about this, some gay and some cishet (unfortunately i dont have any trans or gender non conforming friends to share my experience with) and they've all been really nice about it! Two of them regularly using he and they when referring to me and the rest(the cishet ones).. not really trying but i cant fault them really?.. idk lol...i still use she so idk

They thing is tho... I used to REALLY hate it when people referred to me with 'she', to the point that i thought about asking everyone to refer to me only with he/they- but now that i came out? I really don't mind being called she?

I suddenly feel ok when using the first person pronoun she (my native has them) and the worst part is.. it feels off being called he or they? And that scares me. A lot

Like.. im finally in a position where i can be referred to and refer to myself exactly as i feel.. and suddenly.. im using the exact pronouns i was born with-

I feel like im faking???? I used to have MONTHS of just PURE MISERY cus of my body figure and people being able to tell im afab just by looking at me and being referred to with she made me wanna cry- but now after i came out? I dont care anymore??? I mean i still feel bummed about my figure and people knowing im afab and my high pitched voice and my chest- but i no longer care THAT much and like... Idc about being referred to with 'she' and getting called 'he' or 'they' feels off..- but i still wanna look androgynous and have people confused about my gender (thats the closest i got to gender non conforming in my country) BRUH IDK THIS IS HELL

Is this normal? I really hope coming out wasn't a mistake

Anon from a second ago! Idk why but i felt the need to mention that i also wish and hope to have facial hair in the future and i also ordered a binder since my chest makes me really uncomfortable... Idk just felt like that is an important bit of this special hell im going though hdjdh

this has taken me forever to respond to but hey! yes, this is normal! you aren’t faking, sometimes, pronouns just change! pronouns aren’t inherently correlated to gender for everyone, so just because you’re gnc and want more traditionally masculine features doesn’t mean you’re faking by being more comfortable with she/her! gender isn’t easy for everyone, if you want a flat chest, a beard, and to use she/her pronouns, then that’s absolutely valid and you should be able to have that! you’re not faking! sometimes, when you’re not out, getting referred to by your “birth” pronouns may feel dysphoric because they’re approaching it from a place of thinking you are something that you’re not, but now that you’re out they’re using them from a place of knowledge of who you are, so it’s different and that’s okay! hope you’re doing well anon.

[aibhilin-atibeka]

Hi! ^_^ For the Happy Fic Writer: #2 :)

I got an ask! Thank you @jbd302020 for the ask~ (and also for the Happy Fic Writer Ask Game post, that one's name already lifted my spirits)

2. Talk about a favorite comment you received.

:D Ooooooh lovely! I love talking about comments I've received - they're all lovely and will one day be bound into a book, I promise, to leaf through whenever I want a bit of a cheer-me-up.

Since it's been a hot moment that I started writing fanfic, tho, 10 years back, where's the time gone? I don't even know where to start I gotta admit... XD

More of my rambling about those can be found under the cut, as per usual!

[A gif from the first opening of One Piece: Strawhat Luffy with a joyous grin running then jumping up high, with the sun’s ray as the last image; all of it in black and white]

In general, I like the comment system on AO3 better than the one on ff.net - mostly due to the fact that replies to any comments I receive are visible to everyone on there.

𝓣𝓱𝓪𝓽 𝓼𝓪𝓲𝓭, 𝓸𝓷𝓮 𝓭𝓪𝔂 𝓘’𝓶 𝓰𝓸𝓷𝓷𝓪 𝓫���𝓷𝓭 𝓪𝓵𝓵 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓬𝓸𝓶𝓶𝓮𝓷𝓽𝓼 𝓘 𝓮𝓿𝓮𝓻 𝓻𝓮𝓬𝓮𝓲𝓿𝓮𝓭 𝓲𝓷𝓽𝓸 𝓪 𝓫𝓸𝓸𝓴, 𝔂’𝓪𝓵𝓵 𝔀𝓪𝓽𝓬𝓱 𝓶𝓮; 𝓽𝓱𝓮𝔂’𝓻𝓮 𝓢𝓤𝓒𝓗 𝓪 𝓼𝓸𝓾𝓻𝓬𝓮 𝓸𝓯 𝓳𝓸𝔂 𝓯𝓸𝓻 𝓶𝓮, 𝓲𝓽 𝓬𝓪𝓷 𝓯𝓻𝓪𝓷𝓴𝓵𝔂 𝓸𝓷𝓵𝔂 𝓫𝓮 𝓾𝓷𝓭𝓮𝓻𝓼𝓽𝓪𝓽𝓮𝓭 𝓱𝓮𝓻𝓮, 𝓷𝓸 𝓶𝓪𝓽𝓽𝓮𝓻 𝔀𝓱𝓪𝓽 𝔀𝓸𝓻𝓭𝓼 𝓘 𝓬𝓸𝓾𝓵𝓭 𝓾𝓼𝓮 𝓽𝓸 𝓭𝓮𝓼𝓬𝓻𝓲𝓫𝓮 𝔀𝓱𝓪𝓽 𝓽𝓱𝓮𝔂 𝓶𝓮𝓪𝓷 𝓽𝓸 𝓶𝓮.

I’m lucky in that the VAST majority of them are absolutely, heartwarmingly positive; some people trying to guess where I’m headed next, what path the story’s taking or having figured out the identity of some character (I distinctly remember one single comment shouting out the name “POCHI!” at least twice, presumably because they were so surprised and delighted by my addition to the story that it had to be said multiple times too :D), overall an utterly happy experience to be on the receiving end of all of these.

Personally, I adore interacting with my readers as the story develops - and I won’t ever leave a comment not replied to, of that you can rest assured. (some days I’ve no energy to write anything, so it can take a little while until I get around to doing that, just fyi)

My readers are a delight, in my humble opinion. :) Shameless plug here, but: You’re all awesome.

I’m digressing; back to the ask now, tho. XD

Favourite comment, huh? Tell me how to pick a favourite ray of comforting, warm sunshine on my face, will you? Only with that skill I can even try to get close to picking a favourite from my inbox, methinks.

Not to say that there aren’t lovely ones in there - but to get any comment at all? When I started to write (and post) most of these stories for my own gain (pretty much any of the lot I chuck out there because I think it might, one day, make someone’s day to find it), that’s a huge reward already.

Means people find it worthwhile to let me know what they think of it. :)

Now, slight caveat, I’m not a fan of receiving criticism when I didn’t ask for it, or receiving a comment about a different fic’s continuation on any one fic of mine - but I haven’t ever had to say much of anything about that yet in all the ten years+ that I’ve put stories out there to be read.

I’m counting myself to the lucky fanfic writers out there, concerning that. =^_^=

I can talk about the loveliest comments I’ve received so far?

I’ve found that lots of the comments that make my days a LOT brighter are mirroring what I think about my own fics, tbh. Some are just made of emojis - and I dance because, hey, COMMENT IN MY INBOX! A lot of the loveliest comments talk about theories. Very many of them simply shout out loud one or two names of the characters that appear in my story. Quite a few I love because they’re giving me ideas, plot bunnies and prompts to kick off the next chapter with.

Comments come in all sorts of ways and forms, too - I’ve gotten reaction gifs on discord, comments on word documents in gdocs as someone gave them while reading the story, gotten shouted at (and chatted to) in voice channels while someone’s read my story and managed to (at least once) be present when someone read my story right in front of me. ALL of these forms and ways of giving me feedback are valid and holy hell, but I’m getting SO GIDDY just thinking of what’ll come next, what way I can see my readers react to a story next-

Just, the mere fact that I can share my stories and have them be responded to? In any way whatsoever? Is so amazing to behold?  (≧◡≦)

Frankly, fanfic has helped me through so many tough moments of my life and comments? This little tidbit that’s regarding MY STORIES? Have made my days so much brighter simply by existing, seriously, I can’t say how much I love these tiny bits of love expressed in letters.

𝓘 𝔀𝓸𝓾𝓵𝓭𝓷’𝓽 𝓫𝓮 𝔀𝓱𝓮𝓻𝓮 𝓘 𝓪𝓶 𝔀𝓲𝓽𝓱𝓸𝓾𝓽 𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓶, 𝓽𝓱𝓪𝓽’𝓼 𝓯𝓸𝓻 𝓼𝓾𝓻𝓮.

So yeah, thank you to all my readers out there: any of your comments absolutely make my days - I mean it when I say I’m dancing at every comment I receive. It’ll be my dragon’s hoard for whenever rainy days are upon me.

I think I drifted off-topic a little in the middle there... hope that sufficiently answered your ask? XD

[thisdreamplace]

I had a nasty fight with my former bff. This was long ago. She did the whole 'boycotting me' thing at school and afterwards had a mutual friend pass her msg to me, saying "tell her [me] to get it into her skull that she's not the center of the world, who does she think she is? Stop acting like a #" Im simplifying the words, her actual words were nastier

I got thinking today abt this fight, and her comment abt me that is still way too fresh in my mind even tho I hadn't recalled it in 2-3 yrs!, and I actually decided to use the law to revise my friendship to feel better as what happened after the fight was shameful on my part. But before I knew it, I started rmmbring my relationship with her. How I became a total victim. Got so stuck on her validation, begged her to be friends with me (after I got the degrading msg. 🤕 silly me w/o a backbone lol) and stayed her 'bestie' for way too long. Only after it's all over im noticing smth messed up abt out 'feiendship'. It wasnf that normal I think. She would get so pissed if I did anything that went against her thoughts/beliefs/way (which is why she called me a selfish # that major fight). It was so subtle the way she showed her disapproval. To her, if I did anything not aligned with her, or even makih decisions on my own which didn't involve her, it was wrong. And had consequences like her beinf distant for days etc, or getting angry if I didn't mind read her bla bla, I just had to keep her at the top 24/7 and she expected everyone else to do the same... which I thought was normal... It wasnt. And what would be even more crazy is she never realized how that meant she always wanted the attention. That she always wanted it her way! It just makes me feel... Sad.... When I look back. How couldn't I have notived it before? I used to be strong headed, opinionated before I became 'besties' with her.. That all has changed. I wonder why -_-

It may be dumb on my part but with the weak mind and insecurity I had then, I took that fight/her reaction to the heart and internalisef this stupidiy (DENY MYSELF if the other alternative was denying HER. I didn't think it was wrong. For the oldme, it really wasn't wrong smh). Aaah I'm so sorry old me :(

This fight started bcoz she asked me for smth and I refused, instead of relenting like I always would, and I see now that her reaction (to me not being an obedient # to her ig?🤢) was basically her setting rules. It was wrong of me to refuse, yes, but why did she react that way? Why did this pattern continue? That everyone was selfish if they didn't think of her ;_; like how do u deal with this? And the icing is when I too started to defend her and make excuses for her all the time. And ik I'm making her out to be so strong, don't worry... I accept the strong only rule when the weak submit. And I was weak as hell, so its understandable this whole thing. I think 😅

Idk. I seen your posts abt eyipo with other anons so i hope u can tell me figure out what this was. Its clear to me she was projecting smth about me, and mb throughout our whole friendship she was projecting me. And I would think it was her hurting me, that she was right and I was wrong or maybe I did smth wrong. Mb I thought I deserved being punished that way?!

Today I suddenly had an aha moment and I realised... this is how a victim thinks. I didn't know I was a victim when I was living that stoey aka thought I was powerless. When in fact I really wasn't?! Haha still accepting I 555% created ALL that. The law can knock you out haha

Enough old story I just want to ask, what du u think the msg she sent to me was? Did I really deserve such a reaction (did I mention she included other girls in the boycot? 🤢) just for standing up for myself? What about the whole 'fight' aka showcase of power? And the entire yrs of being friends why did I never realize I was only hurting myself so much by putting her before me? And also, with the everyone pushed out thing, how did it fit in? Like why the hell did I give her too much power in validating me by giving in after the fight in the first place?, and while I did have some fun times (saying this so anyone else who reads this doesn't think it was pure torture lol. We had some common interests tyat no one else in the class shared when we first became 'friends'), deep down I was so unhappy so why didn't this reflect on her? I mean why didn't she ever sense just how much she'd hurt me, why didn't she see how much I put on the back burner coz of her?! Was it as she saw it as her right? I'm just so confused

This is still a bitter pill to swallow tbh but I have to face this in order to move on. This person and my life with her has left me wit many scars and I got to understand how I did this so I never attract such a person in my life again. Its not even abt bejnf a victim. As I said, these victimy things were subtle and I only noted them when it was too late and I was a shell, like she getting super pissed and disapproving if I had a differing opinion and me blowijg it out of proportion and tailoring my views or not expressing them so as to not feel the disapproval...thanks boycott conditioning ig? 😭 Aaaah even talking agaunst her rn is making me uncomfortable. Which makes me think I still am scared of her subconsciously even tho she's no longer in my life. Like, what in me made me choose her? I haven't healed, obviously by this ask as u can tell, but idk what is it in my self concept that had this whole thing in my past even happen

My friend, I also want to say I think you're a beautiful soul 🥺. And im sorry for the long ask lol. And I pray you'll always have all your desires. And plz, was it hard for u at first when u learned about u creating everything? The good, the bad, and the repulsive (like this story)? How did u get over old stories? Ty ty ty ��

To begin with you're being really harsh on yourself. Like, I know it's hard, but it's never that serious. And trust me, this is something I have to remind myself of regularly. Because there have definitely been moments in life where I look back on myself in that moment, and I feel like I was pathetic and would slap myself if I could. But the truth is, there's just no need for any of that. We always did the best we could. We always did, period. We couldn't have done anything differently and this will continue to be true our entire lives. Looking back on the past with such overwhelming feelings, is really not needed. I get looking back to learn from it, but practice coming from a place of love and acceptance instead. It will help you grow, rather than get stuck back in this cycle of self-hate and confusion. Plus, you actually never need to analyze the past to grow but that's beyond the point right now.

To me, by reading your ask, the message she sent to you was clear. You feel you deserve less in life, you feel you're not good enough, you feel like a victim to life and others, you feel like you're not empowered or the operant power of your reality. It's not about her being wrong and you being right, and I get this is one of the hardest pills to swallow. Everyone is you pushed out. Therefore, there's simply no such thing as who is right and who is wrong anymore. It was only ever you.

When it comes to everyone is you pushed out, you have to understand this person isn't this way because that's who they are. They were that way because that's who you were. Inside of you, you brought their character to life. Therefore, the same way you are not stuck to such an undesirable self concept, neither is that person. It's not that you chose her and attracted her in. You were just dealing with yourself. That's what I hope you walk away from this response understanding. Because by thinking she was outside of you, you're missing the mark. And this is such an important concept to understand when it comes to the law of assumption, because it's really at the forefront of everything. People play such a huge role in our lives, whether it's relationships, jobs, opportunities, etc etc. So understanding how everyone is you pushed out actually works is extremely important.

So instead of putting all this blame on her or even putting the blame on yourself, all these memories really do is give you a glimpse into who you were at the time. It shows you the beliefs you held about yourself. It shows you what your self concept was. That's all it's doing. So in that way, there's actually no one to blame at all. I know it feels good to put blame, even when it's on yourself, but the truth is there's no room for blame when you learn about the law. You simply take responsibility and become empowered by the power you have held this entire time. And you practice making it work in your favor.

If you want to see how something was apart of your self concept, all you have to do is pay attention to what you are thinking/feeling. Shame, not being good enough, etc etc is all just stories you once held onto. Now you don't have to hold onto those stories anymore. Now that you know the power you hold, you get to make a new decision for yourself. Rather than ruminating of the painful past, allow it to be and know how that's not your story anymore.

Was it difficult for me to accept how I created everything? Yes and no. It's been a journey. While I could accept it logically, emotionally it was still very painful. Many times I wanted to cry and lash out when I felt alone and felt upset that no one was there for me. Although, I knew deep down it appeared that way because of my own concept of self. So yeah, it's been a journey. And it's honestly not always delightful. But this is the journey we have to take for the rest of our lives, so we might as well get used to practicing and applying these concepts. Instead of continuing to hold ourselves in such painful lights. I got through old stories, and I continue to get through old stories, by feeling all the pain that came up. By allowing myself to cry and feel however I felt like during those times. And in the back of my mind I knew I was getting stronger in my power. I knew how I would keep persisting once the pain subsided. And little by little, old stories fade more and more. That persistence to continue choosing better for yourself, is truly more powerful than it may seem in a difficult moment. Have trust in how it's all working out for you regardless.

Hopefully this is helpful! Thank you for your kind words. 💖

[banghwa]

Probably unpopular opinion, but I think a lot of people have projected their own views onto BTS and are now angry/confused that BTS aren’t living up to that idea they had in their head, when BTS never promised them that and never actually changed. They have always done sponsorship/brand partnership stuff. The earliest I can think of was in 2014 but it may have been even earlier and I’ve just forgotten. They chose to be idols and they would have known this is part of that life. They were attacked enough for that decision early on (particularly Yoongi and Namjoon), so it’s sad to see their own fans seeing it as a mark of inauthenticity when they themselves have long since made peace with what other people can only see as as a contradiction.

And personally, as someone who’s been with them nearly their whole career I have to say it’s a little weird seeing people (especially newer ARMYs who weren’t even here then) try to rewrite history and pretend that stuff wasn’t always there. It’s also particularly strange to me seeing some stuff be seen wholly negatively. So few people seem to recognise that just by putting their name to something they can have a stream of income for the company they are still largely carrying that doesn’t require them to work themselves to death. It takes off pressure and they can concentrate more on music, and with that music they can pace themselves rather than needing multiple comebacks a year. For example, I remember the relief I felt with BT21 because I knew those characters could essentially do the work for them.

Idk, it’s almost like people romanticise their pain before when they were exhausted all the time and struggling financially, rather than seeing them as human beings who would inevitably want security and chance to rest without worrying how it would affect their company and everyone who works for it. I was there then, it was heartbreaking to watch and I find it pretty messed up that people talk about it wistfully. That’s not a fair thing to expect of them just for whatever ideal you’ve projected on then.

Obviously you don’t not have to agree with all their choices or agree with BH/HYBE all the time, that’s fine. It just bothers me people don’t recognise their own discomfort and instead project it onto a group of grown men either supposedly betraying them by changing (they didn’t) or being used/forced to do these things (pretty ridiculous considering they could easily walk always from HYBE and sign with whoever the hell they like, I’m sure they’d have plenty of offers). If they’re not who you want then to be, accept that it’s your standard that is causing you to feel unhappy, don’t put it on them.

no i totally get where you're coming from, and i want to reiterate i KNOW that this is coming from personal disappointment, dont get it twisted.

i don't think there's anything wrong with bts doing brand deals, nor do i think it necessarily makes them inauthentic. my concern mainly comes from how much promotion they're doing relative i guess. i cant count how many brand deals they've done this year, on top of so much of their recent content being paid as well. its just frustrating to me as a consummer that the stuff i want to interact with is constantly showing more ways to waste my money, even when you pay for the content. its just inaccessible and alienating, and again, thats a personal frustration.

and i do see your point about "romanticizing" their struggle, thats really not what i mean to do at all. i know for a fact that bangtan deserve all this success more than everyone, and while it did shape them into the artists they are, no one should have to go through that struggle just to be validated. that being said, i think there is a conversation to have on art made from a marginalized background vs art made from a place of privilege, not a conversation i will have here tho bcs there are too many layers to it. on the other hand, while i do agree that the brand deal are probably a good break, i cant help but wonder when does it stop being a break and when does it start being work as well. you could probably also easily argue that the amount of time they've dedicated to things that arent their art ie soop, brand deals, american promotions, more brand deals, interviews, more brand deals, that it hardly leaves them proper time to rest. the difference now too is that the deals don't come from a need. bts dont need any more money. this isnt an act of survival or an investment for them to get a bit of passive income. its just work now.

again, i do get where you're coming from, but i do think things are a little more complicated than you have them layed out to be. bangtan cant just up and leave hybe without a lot going into it im talking lawyers, ndas, etc etc and thats not even covering public backlash. its really not that simple, and i know the same can be said about my own opinions. its not really about holding bts up to some promise they never made. of course we shouldnt expect specific things from them, but it also doesn't mean that we can't be disappointed when certain decision are made. thats just how interacting with people works, we're all bound to have different values, doesn't mean i can't be a bit miffed when they do or say something i dont agree with. also i dont think its fair for you to belittle the efforts bts have made throughout their career to stand for causes and values they obviously are very passionate about, like social change and their music. i get being upset with people having high expectations of them, but to pretend like bts never expressed any emotions of pride into anything they've ever done to show that they care is honestly insultin. how are you going to tell me not to have standards when im here because bts set them in the first place.

[vampish-glamour]

okay so i don't mean that as in actually validating this period thing with that one trans women from reddit but tbh i feel like this response is kind of out of line. she is obviously miserable. i've read that post and it doesn't come across as someone doing it for attention. it just reads like someone who is in such a bad place that she is believing that stuff. telling her that she will never have that is cruel. validating it would be too, but there are ways that are less harsh. i used to be in a place like her and tbh i was so miserable that those 'delusions' were the only way to avoid doing some pretty bad things to myself. she's needing help and not people talking about her like that. like would you do that if she had 'normal' delusions? i get it that this is offensive and i agree but this all feels like it's more about her being trans and not about the rest. and tbh it's not disgusting or anything to wish for the nagative parts of the opposite sex when you're trans. being told to be lucky for lacking some of those traits hurts a lot and even tho we know that there are things that suck it is part of being that opposite sex and i can assure you that i would volutarily go through a kick in the balls every day if i could be a cis guy in exchange through that. every physical pain i have felt so far (and i have felt a lot because i have a bunch of health issues) was not as bad as the whole package my dysphoria causes. there were points where i wanted to die because i was in so much pain and i would take that any day over the absolute hopelessness and the disgust with my body and the fact that i will never be just a normal guy. i like you and you usually have opinions i can agree on, but in that situation i feel like you do not understand how bad dysphoria can be and what it can do to someone. its super disrespectful to treat a clearly mentally ill person like that that probably heard things like this often enough to hurt more than most cis people can actually understand because they don't have those experiences. i believe that some can do that but it's really hard and i don't blame anyone for not understanding that fully but please at least treat trans people with respect even if they are delusional. dysphoria can literally cause various mental illnesses with symptoms like that. and the treatment many trans people get socially can too.

I'm assuming you're talking about my response to the post?

I don't think I was harsh or cruel at all. I actually remember carefully choosing my words and making sure to be gentle. I could have been absolutely nasty but I stayed civil, even when people started calling me a terf for pointing out that trans woman are physically incapable of menstruation. But apparently I wasn't nice enough? I get that I could have just ignored the post, but it was a post on a public website which I have the right to respond to in any way I see fit. "but there are ways that are less harsh.", tell me, what ways? What could I have changed about what I said? I didn't discredit that the op was experiencing something, I just said she wasn't experiencing a period.

Which brings me to the delusion part. I'll be completely honest and say I don't know much about delusions or how to handle them, and it's something that didn't cross my mind when responding to the post. But as I just said, I didn't completely deny that the op was feeling something. I just told her it wasn't a period, and that maybe she could find another thing to call it. You say that neither invalidating or validating the belief that she has a period is good for her...which leaves ignoring the post as the only option. Which means she only gets validation, as the majority of people were all "yass queen periods!!!!".

"but this all feels like it's more about her being trans and not about the rest."

I'd have commented if it was a guy saying this, too. Hell, I and the women in my family get annoyed when men in our family act like they have it just as bad as us because they have to experience us having a short temper on our periods (which mind you, none of us use as an excuse to be bitchy lol. We just warn people that we're on our periods and may be short fused). If I get annoyed at that, of course I would be annoyed at a guy literally claiming to have a period. I wouldn't just ignore it if it was a guy and not a trans woman. It has everything to do with diminishing periods, and not with trans women. It just happens to be that men typically don't go around pretending to have periods, trans women often do. Which is why it seems this discussion targets trans women the most.

And no, it isn't wrong for trans people to want opposite sex characteristics! I completely understand that that's the whole point of being trans. (Which is part of the reason I genuinely tried to be nice in my response, because I knew this was part of the picture) But it is wrong to then claim you have something like a period, which is universally understood to be a bad experience, even though you're physically incapable of having one.

If it hurts trans women to be told they don't have periods, a simple solution is to not go around claiming to have one. To claim you have a period when being incapable of having one, is to set yourself up for either disappointment, or for people to lie to you out of fear of being called transphobic.

It's not disrespectful to tell the truth. It is disrespectful to treat trans people like sensitive babies that you need to walk on eggshells around, which is what you're doing when suggesting I'm failing to treat trans people with respect by telling a trans woman she doesn't actually have a period. I treat trans people how I treat anybody else, which means calling them out for behaviour I don't agree with.

I thank you for being civil, because a lot of people aren't. But I'm sorry, I just can't agree with you on this. I see where you're coming from and understand your perspective...but as I said in the response, periods are something that heavily impact both myself and women close to me. It's a personal topic for me, and I don't see anything wrong with speaking about it bluntly, which also means telling people who were born male that their stomach pain cannot be called a period.

[yolkyeomie]

Iced Americano | lee jeno

summary — you don’t even like coffee anymore, so why do you have an iced americano in your hands now?

word count — 2k words

pairing — jeno x gender neutral!reader

genre — coffee shop + college au, my sad attempt at humor but really it’s just me kinda losing my mind in the middle of writing this

disclaimer — this was originally made for a close friend of mine so reader is heavily based off of her! also ignore any and all typos thank you

You'd like to say you’re rather good at talking to people

Sure you may have a rather small friend group, but still

The size of your friend group doesn’t equate to how good at socializing you are

Besides !!!

Everyone finds it really easy to approach you and you're really kind back to them !!

That is if they come to you with the right attitude

So it’s not hard to say you’re known very well throughout the campus of ur university

I mean you’re not like POPULAR POPULAR but you’re nice attitude makes people just gravitate towards you a lot

And you liked that!! The attention made you feel validated and loved

was today one of those days where everyone is just super nice to you?

Yeah !!

haha no it wasn’t really

you tolerate a lot of stuff okay

You juggle a lot of responsibilities on your back while still trying to keep in touch with your friends so they don’t feel like you’ve abandoned them or something

but it was REALLY hard tryna keep up with everything

especially when your close friend group was full of boys who didn’t know the exact meaning of organization

trying to keep them situated before they went and burned themselves out was HARD

and then trying to manage yourself at the same time??

sometimes you were ready to throw yourself off the top of fifty story building

and unfortunately for you

today was just one of those days

thankfully it wasn’t because your friends are a genuine mess but

Uni is HARD

as a college student you must put up with a lot of… stuff

I mean some professors can be,,,,, UNKIND to say the least

But usually they were rather lenient and understanding !!

Except for this one. professor.

They always seemed like they were on the verge of losing their mind

And toda must have been the perfect day for them to do that

because your professors summoned the LITERAL devil from within to torture everyon in your clas

But especially you

so let’s just say you’ve been scolded a lot and given wayyyy too much work for no absolute reason

you’re about this close to bashing your head against the wall but you gotta hang on

YOU'RE NOT IN COLLEGE FOR NOTHING AFTER ALL!!!

so you find yourself absently complaining about how much work you have to do today and your friends are like

“That’s tough,,, I’m so sorry [y/n]”

what else can they say really??? they aren’t in your major and they can’t really understand your struggles even tho they wish they could

Well scratch that

they don’t want to understand because that’s ANOTHER work load of information that would constantly be rattling in their heads

Haechan had decided to become a computer engineer when he decided to pick up a major, so his brain was just always fried

Jisung was still trying decide what he wanted to go into and chenle was very serious about becoming a business just so he could accumulate as much money as he possibly could

You always forget what Jaemin had decided to major in, but it wasn’t very interesting to you in the first place

And renjun had decided to major in some form of art, the easier out the four majors mentioned before

Or at least you thought they were easy

Either way TRUST AND BELIEVE if jaemin knew just a little about your major and was able to witness the unfairness in front of him

he’d probably get expelled

anyways renjun had noticed you just getting ready to cry in the corner about how overworked you were

and for once in his life decided to try and help out, not with work tho

why would he ever help with work

“do you want something to eat??? Maybe drink??? I know this place near us that we can go to”

“Thank you so much I’d love to eat and drink and pass out and do nothing about this work when I get home”

yes that’s exactly what you wanted to and nothing was about to stop you

anyways you two were hanging out with each other either way, so it worked very well in ur opinion

You walking down this street towards some restaurants and stores while you were chatting

trying to decide where you wanted to settle down and rest like renjun has suggested

but you uh

notice something strange

you’re passing all the places you usually like to eat at because

renjun kept saying no?

he didn’t want to go to ANY of your usual hangout spots?????

WHY IS RENJUN PASSING ALL YOUR HANGOUT SPOTS??

They were hangout spots for REASON.

good atmosphere, good food, nice people??? they’reperfect !!

so why was he declining every single one of them???

“Hey renjun,,,, where are we going”

“?? To get something to eat and drink??????”

“No like WHERE ARE WE GOING?????”

“TO GET SOMETHING TO EAT AND DRINK WHAT THE HELL DO YOU MEAN???????????”

you two started getting into a small argument, you being annoyed that he was declining every suggestion you through and him being annoyed that you kept question his choices

that was, until he finally stopped

“Oh perfect!! we’re here!!”

You turned to look at him and find that he’s standing in front,,,

,,,, a coffee shop

COFFEE shop????

you’re more of a SODA WATER TEA JUICE ANYTHING BUT COFFEE PERSON

well your parents drink coffee and all no doubt

and when you were a kid you used to drink coffee ALL OF THE TIME

you always had to get your own cup because you’d drink all of your parents’ under ten mins

but uh as you got older

it started to taste

worst?

you started to lose the taste for coffee as you got older and it was just downhill from there

*one sip* “THATSHS HORRIAVKE”

it really surprised your parents

and jaemin

but no one ever wants to drink jaemin’s coffee

please you watched renjun and haechan almost DIE from drinking it, coffee and choking and everything

when jaemin asked jisung to try it as a joke he bursted into tears

when chenle was presented the opportunity he cash apped him money and ran for it

please you almost PUNCHED jaemin for even thinking of making you try it

maybe it’s partly jaemin’s fault you can’t drink coffee anymore

“renjun uh,,,,, I don’t want coffee,,,?? You know I don’t drink that stuff. do they have like anything but that”

“yeah they have coffee coffee and coffee”

“literally,,, you’re the worst”

“No thanks :D”

yeah so you got dragged into the coffee shop

it wasn’t vsco girl Starbucks level inside

it was really small

only a couple of tables scattered about with white cloth covering them and little lights strung up along the walls to make the ambience of the room nice and cozy

There was a small chalkboard menu on the counter as well, with the day’s special and little drawings of flowers and animals around the words.

it was really cute you can’t lie

There was an even larger menu behind the really cute cashier at the cash register that detailed all of the drinks they sold as well

there was also— wait what

back track back track THERE'S A REALLY CUTE CASHIER AT THE CASH REGISTER

PAUSE BECAUSE YOU'RE ENTIRE BODY F R O Z E ON THE SPOT

“[y/n] you there”

“[y/n]?”

“[y/n] move you're blocking the door”

listen you’re not HORRIBLE at communication, it was definitely one of your strong suits in life

But this???

You were practically malfunctioning at this point

seriously you felt like you were in a romance show

you made eye contact with him and nearly tripped over your own two feet

how did you fall so head over heels for this guy so quickly???? He hadn’t even said a WORD

“Can I take your order?”

“Can you what?”

oh god oh god OH GOD HES TALKING TO YOU

wait he’s supposed to do that it’s his job

your eyes looked down towards the name tag pinned onto the apron he wore

lee jeno

wow… you could say his name for hours and never get tired of it

renjun is just kinda,,,, staring at you to get a move on

oh no did he already order

DID HE ALREADY ORDER WHILE YOU WERE ZONING OUT

NO YOU ARE NOT READY WAIT

WHAT ARE YOU GONNA DO?? YOU DONT EVEN LIKE COFFEE

“excuse me? are you ready to order?”

he gave you an amused smile and god it felt like the sun was shining down on you

Jeno was getting more ethereal with every word that came out of his mouth

but you couldn’t keep him waiting you were embarrassing yourself

you stared at the board above him and just blurted out whatever you saw first

“I-I I’ll have a uh iced americano…”

What's even in americanos?????

you hoped it wasn’t gross,,,

if it was it would REALLY awkward having to ask for a bunch of sugar packets to sweeten it

but then jeno smiled at you

“okay! can I have your name please?”

“,,, uh [y/n]”

“[y/n].... what a pretty name for a pretty person”

please god you are about to explode

HE CALLED YOUR NAME PRETTY AND YOU P R E T T Y AT THE SAME TIME??

anyways you’re losing your mind if you can’t tell

and renjun thinks your brain might be on emergency mode right now

and that’s not what youneed is it now?

so he decided to save you the embarrassment and pay for the drinks himself and push you towards one of the tables

you’re seated away from jeno so that you don’t melt into a little puddle if he catches you staring

which you did a lot more then you’d like to admit

“okay so he’s definitely flirting with you”

“AND THAT'S SUPPOSED TO MAKE ME FEEL BETTER???”

“uh yeah? you’re supposed to feel better after knowing someone is genuinely flirting with you”

“RENJUN.”

you love renjun but rn you wanna punch him because HNG YOU DON'T KNOW BOW TO HANDLE THIS RIGHT NOW

“please let’s not think about this right—“

“He’s staring at you”

“He’s WHAT”

please renjun is laughing so hard this is incredibly funny to you

no he wasn’t looking at you he was making someone’s coffee

perhaps your coffee???

or whatever the HELL renjun has ordered

but you saw jeno stop for a moment and glance at you

and the minute he realized you were looking at him too he started BEAMING

LIKE HE WAS OUTSHINING THE SUN

“RENJUN RENJUN RENJUN RENJUN—“

“I’m right here calm down”

“Miss [y/n]?”

PAUSE PAUSE PAUSE

your name sounds really nice coming from him

how did you not notice that before !!!!

“[y/n] your Americano“

“RIGHT”

you move like a robot over to jeno

are you so nervous???? AND YOU'LL PROBABLY NEVER SEE HIM AGAIN

UGH LIFE IS CRUEL

He’s all smiley and giving you the SWEETEST SMILE and jeno’s like “your americano !! I hope you enjoy it, I made it with a lot of love !!

someone send help right now

he made yours with a lot of LOVE

“ ahh !! Thank you!!!”

“I advise you to not drink americanos tho,,, they don’t suit you”

???? what does that mean

“You should try our caffe mocha, it’s sweeter than what you’re drinking now. Just like you !! I’m jeno btw”

YOU SLY BASTARD

I c what u did there

“AHHHHHH THANKS ??? I UH IM [Y/N] NICE TO MEET YOU”

you’re so stupid he already knows your name

well you already know his name you were staring at his name tag

but you’re having a sensory overload so it’s okay

renjun snickers from the back, tho highkey realizing he hasn’t received HIS DRINK YET AND MIGHT THROW A FIT

though eventually he got his drink so he was happy then, tho still a little annoyed with how love struck you were with jeno

you did have to drag him out of the coffee shop because he was going to make a complaint flirting cuz he was getting tired of it

oh and you?

After a few (many) visits you can say you definitely like caffe mochas now

but you did keep getting iced americanos every time you visited

the sweet boy who makes them the drinks always makes yours with lots of love

[sunlightandsuffering]

since we're talking about those extra pages man am I not over it. I'm tired of being made to feel like a bad person for not liking the idea of her being stuck with an NPC like Historia was (don't even get me started because I hate it sm) or Jean whom I love sm and he really doesn't deserve a life of being Mikasa's second choice. I like to think she adopts a few kids from the orphanage. I don't think she'd really explore the Azumabito side of her because she made it clear she's not interested in that side of her. I just think it would've been so sweet and beautiful if she took in orphaned babies. and I want Mikasa to be happy but really even if she did love again, no one is going to be Eren. the husband would have to be okay with being cucked by a ghost for the rest of his life and where's the dignity in that? yeah if she truly moved on good for her and I would love for her to find that kind of happiness again but genuinely speaking from life experience, every love will be less after that. no one is going to be the boy that murderered for her before he even knew what she looked like or sacrificed himself so that she could live that peaceful life she wanted. I know some people say that it happens but honestly some people just don't love like that again. and I just feel like yams just stuck that there to show that despite moving on, she still loved Eren to her grave. but I think that's kinda messed up for the husband. anyway Mikasa adopting orphans forever. sorry for this massive rant. I'm just so frustrated with this take that not wanting to see my girl settle for less makes me a horrible or immature person. because it's not fulfilling for anyone to see her end up with some faceless dude or even Jean when she showed NO interest. her marrying him would only happen if Eren died and come on. anyway I'm going in circles again lol. it feels good to just let it out.

THANK YOU!!! SEE THIS IS WHAT I WAS LOOKING FOR WHEN THE LEAKS CAME OUT 😭😭😭 kin omg, let it out man, idk why this take was so big, like I really CAN'T understand it. but boy was it popular and irritating as hell jfc. I like orphanage Mikasa 🥺🥺, thats the best girl, like she totally would, its a good combo. Gives her something to focus on other than Eren, something productive, but also it's not too emotionally draining ya know, she's not expected to give herself wholly to another person, she's just taking care of kiddos, like Carla did with her, doing her part to give back. Kids are easy to love and she wouldn't feel like she's betraying Eren, bc srsly if I as a fanfic writer was to delve into Mikasa's emotional trauma of even ATTEMPTING to love another person after Eren, it would not be pretty I can name like 6 different emotions and write an entire prose about how supremely the whole idea would fuck with her before she could even considering loving someone else.

But also think maybe our girl would be trying to stop some human trafficking, like she is still a fucking badass on the side, and she's righteous as hell, she'd totally kick some ass and be a dark knight, taking down crime rings and the works bc she was almost trafficked. Which is a whole other trauma not explored that much.

U ARE VALIDATED THO BOO, I FEEL EXACTLY THE SAME!!!! 👏🏻👏🏻

[shizekarnstein]

Hi, about 124 don't you think the reactions we got from the 104th fell in line with their personalities? Like I personally expected Jean to say the facts and Armin to point out that even tho he gets the reasoning it's not right. And Connie's breakdown is also kinda valid at this point. Some people pointed out that they didn't expect this so just wanted to know your take on this.

Hi anon!!!

I'm so, so sorry for taking this long to answer!! My original plan was to empty my askbox before chapter 125 but oh well. Life happens.

One of the reasons for this it's simple: I kinda hated snk 124, it bored me to tears, so I tried to distance myself a bit from the fandom.

Anyway.

I agree with you about the squad reactions. Every single one of them felt authentic and ic.

Armin: slowly freaking out bc the best friend he thought he knew is about to destroy the entire world, and Armin deliberately ignored all the signs that pointed to something extreme coming to fruition.

Jean: trying to keep calm and detach himself from the situation, giving a tentative analysis and guessing the motives behind it. Ultimately crushed under the weight of what's happening. Also: I've seen people ready to throw him under the bus bc of how shaken he is but aaaah the guy can't have a moment to freak out (cough cough armin) without half the fandom concluding he wants to become Flochs second in command or something like that. Jeez.

Connie: Four years of concentrated despair finally going kaboom. The world is ending, so he might as well do something for the only blood family he has left. We've seen hints of how close he was to his limit all along during the last 20 chapters. So yeah he's about to do his own thing and to hell with the rest. (Spoiler: he's going to fail bc it's pretty obvious but oh well the drama and upcoming development sigh isayama thinks he's sneaky but nope).

I'll throw Mikasa to the mix bc why not: shaken. Same as the boys, she's at the threshold of her final development so I'm pretty curious about her arc in particular. We'll see.

So yeah I pretty much agree with everything you said anon. Thanks for asking!!!

[gayjimothy]

hi! i'm getting into star trek and i'm currently watching the original series (i live for ur rewatch commentary!! it's great) but after i'm finished with that i don't really know which order i should watch everything in? there's just so much of it, and when should you read the comics/books?

okay first of all dfjgsdshfhsd thank you anon!!! i’m really glad you’re enjoying my obsessive posting bc a) I too live for this rewatch lmao b) now i’m high on validation™ (yep i’m that pathetic) but seriously tho your comment made my day 

as for your questions, full disclosure: i’m not THAT much of an expert in everything trek related. personally i first watched tos back in middle/high school and was quite content with not going further than that. but then this summer i was like “how about i check this Discovery thing out” and well i guess you can say old feelings came rushing back and as a result i’ve got this insane idea to rewatch tos (currently happening) but also i know that this time there’s no way in hell i’m stopping at that so i can tell you my own plan: when i finish rewatching tos i’m gonna watch the animated series (btw in case you’re interested *winks* i’ll probably be documenting this process in the similar fashion aka obsessive screenshot posting so stay tuned ! ) and then the movies (I-VI) and after that i’ll start figuring out the rest (but since rn i’m pretty set on watching everything there is i guess i’ll just watch the rest of the shows in whatever order).

you’ve probably guessed already that i won’t be of much help where star trek books and comics are concerned but i will say this: from my own experience with star wars (yep i love both don’t @ me) when it comes to extended universes there really isn’t such a thing as “when should you” bc like if you actually tried to read all that stuff in some specific chronological or whatever order it would just be a huge pain in the ass and frankly i’m not even sure it’s entirely possible. so what i’m trying to say is if you want to read something just google like “star trek tos comics” or whatever and see what there is and what sounds like something you’d actually like and just go for it.

[sailorhyunjinz]

Okay, first of all for the most part that's just one big compliment 😭😭 thank you 💕

The rational vs feelings part is a bit inaccurate. Big decisions I do think through thoroughly but for example last year around this time I shaved my eyebrows off because I saw someone in a YouTube video do it and found it funny.

I make most decisions based on feelings unless they are going to have long term effects; in that case it's appropriate to think about the future but yeah

I do like working with machines more than people tho

I do keep my feelings to myself but neither of my parents is very strict. My mom however went around telling the entire family when I told her something personal and my dad simply didn't care so I stopped talking about personal things

The frustrations might be money? I don't feel too great living off of student loans & a job that only ever lasts for 3 months during the lecture time of the semester and then has me hoping I will be rehired after the 3 month break for exams and holidays; I'd like to be more independent in that but in order to work with mathematics I gotta get my master's degree first and that's gonna be another 3-4 years considering I'm planning to finish my bachelor's degree some time next August and can't even start the masters degree before that. So I'm a little stuck rn.

Also the E isn't quite a backwards 3 but rather a € or a C with a horizontal line in the middle.

I'm not going to comment on the nice things you said because of course I'd like to see myself as friendly & playful & intelligent but that's not really my place to judge I guess

The rest of it resonates with me but I got one more question

Where the hell did the oral sex come from?? 😭 Like how did anyone come up with that theory??? 😂😂😂

- horny! jisung is valid

these are only theories so when analyzing im just throwing out possible explanations as to why someone could have i.e a socially inept personality and such SO YOU WIN SOME, YOU LOSE SOME

All of those like "alternate E" letters are kinda clumped together so its just generally said that people that dont write "E" as its typed usually have a bigger interest for other cultures, possibly travel as well.

ah you are both friendly and nice and im sure that all that hard work you are putting into trying to reach a good career will pay off in money but also in happiness. to be financially secure is difficult in a the expensive ass world we live in today BUT KEEP YOUR HOPES UP, the day will come <33

HASHASHS RIGHT RIGHT the letter "a" is one of the most used letters in the alphabet right and i think that because we use it to communicate so often it has often been related to symbolize the mouth? so it tells two things: your level of talkativeness and preference for oral sex so it can be either of those things or both SO IT DOESNT MEAN LIKE ONCE AGAIN ITS POSSIBLE THEORIES but generally its said that if you have an "a" that doesnt connect to itself that the larger the gap is, the larger your liking towards oral sex is and/or that you just like to talk a lot which can be both good and bad SO YE,,, I THINK THATS WHERE THAT THEORY CAME FROM,,, it does have a quite high accuracy rate but like all of this is very much looking for patterns. if it happens once or occasionally because you were writing on a uneven surface or smth then its no biggie but if it happens repeatedly, this goes for any letter specific trait then its a pattern aka something that is a part of that persons personality or mental state.