#v. mw

[mewklu]

!!!! and then she survived i can confirm this ’ becausw iam v's 29th strand of hair

[priceseyes]

what a day, hm?

detective!john price and humanoid robot rookie!athena 'birdie' kallis - interlinked au.

commission done by @entirepeepeeman

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yes, yes, that is a recreation of THAT scene from blade runner 2049 but with my COD!OC athena 'birdie' kallis and her partner, john price who come from my detective/cyberpunk cod au 'interlinked'.

I'd like to thank @entirepeepeeman for this WONDERFUL commission of the two because they did such an amazing job with it and the results are AMAZING.

cod-verse masterlist.

interlinked tag.

[poppy-metal]

thinking about the line in episode 3 where jordans dad was talking about the girl jordan used to be childhood friends with n how jordan would make a good 'husband' and jordan says "we were trying on prom dresses in high-school so maybe we'd be wives." and now im creating a whole backstory of being jordans childhood best friend who was probably jordans first love, the first person to accept both forms of them and still love them as a whole, and how they probably wanted to kiss her but never did, because they were too terrified back then to ever kiss another girl in their fem form.

and now im thinking of that girl, probably grown apart from jordan since they got accepted into GodU and estranged themselves from their family, thinking about her in her normal human college, with her shitty boyfriend, staring at the polaroid picture of her and jordan that'd been taken ages ago, junior year of high-school in a shitty mall photo booth, 3 of the pictures of her and jordan as a guy, and the last, of jordan as a girl, her smile big and dimpled. the edges of the photo are faded as the girl runs her fingers over that smile, and she wonders if jordan is happy. thinks about those small moments when they were growing up when she'd wanted jordan to kiss her, as a guy, as a girl, but it never happened.

she hoped at least, they found someone they can smile that big with again.

[iheartchv]

could i ask for a matchup? also i hope your having a nice day/night/afternoon!! also, please excuse any bad grammar, english is not my first language.

im Cuban Puerto Rican, i speak both my mother tongue and English. kinda trying to get myself to learn German though. im a bit of an ambivert, i mostly enjoy spending time with those i know well.

im 5’2, i have a huge scar in my left leg due to an accident i had when i was younger. i have brown, nearly black eyes and i use glasses. i have a mole near my collarbone and another one just above. my hair is brown and medium sized with some side-tails.

currently studying with a forensic sciences major, a bit of a nerd.. i enjoy drawing, reading Sci-Fi and spending time with my pet snakes. (their ball pythons, they are super adorable…) i absolutely love heavy metal bands like Rammstein, korn, Slipknot, i listen to Type O Negative, Slaughter to Prevail from time to time aswell alongside jazz. i dress in a bit of a grunge way, it varies since i enjoy fashion a lot.

i enjoy watching true crimes series (Forensic Files being an all time favorite), watching Caso Cerrado, and documentaries regarding military history. i love the rainy weather and from time to time going to the beach. truly calming, really.

anyways, i really hope you are having a pleasant time, again. also i absolutely love your writing style!!

🤔I'll match you with...

Simon "Ghost" Riley 💀

I think Ghost would be your match

For this scenario, lets just say that Ghost was to keep an eye on you for a mission

You had shown potential that anyone working for the law would want you to work with them

You have an internship working for the police in your area, getting some practice for the field

You weren't bad, quite good actually

And because you were so good, you would also become a threat to any criminal facing charges for murder, etc.

One of such being Makarov and the Konni group

TF 141 got word that Makarov killed their spy that was sending feedback and intel

You were unfortunately the one looking over the said body of 141's spy; the FBI and CIA wanted to know exactly who done it

As Ghost continued to have constant vigil over you in the shadows, he didn't like the idea of seeing you make your way home alone

He finally decided to start blending in with people, and sometimes walking your way

It's just for the mission, he'd tell himself

🖤

At first, seeing his appearance was a little scary, intimidating

But you didn't sense no ill will coming from him, at least not toward you

You initiated conversations with him, and little by little he was talking more than just a word or a sentence

Over time he got to know you pretty well, as much as you allowed

He noticed how open you were to him, letting him know that you trusted him

You were just full of surprises;

One thing after another he learned so much about you besides what was in your personal records

He started to see you as you, not just another nameless target to protect

🖤

Even after the mission is complete, he comes back to see you...

Maybe stay for a while...

I can totally see you and Ghost going to the beach during times when there's no one around

Just you two

And rainy days?

He'd be all for it

A hot cup of tea and being with you is one of those perfect moments he feels at peace

[eiraeths]

thinking about soap with subdermal implants on the hips. like think of those women in the late 90s early 00s who got tattoos right above where low waisted pants sit. he could have tattoos too. or dermal piercings

[over-dvse]

*insert rlly bad kissing sounds*

[silveredsticks]

when the sun shines we'll shine together

[castleofshit]

Have you ever desired a sad looking creature that vaguely resembles Ghost to guard over your favorite deserts or stare unblinkingly into the abyss while you rest?

Great news! I created one to many creatures to prevent myself from having 1/4 of a yard of fabric lying around. He's spent the last few months sitting menacingly around my house and im currently in the process of moving and realized there was no real point in having two of these things around. And so this post is being made.

Photos below cut

He's a bit on the wonky side but he does sit very politely. He's made out of fleece and all of his joints (arms and legs) are visible buttons to allow for movement. He's on the heavier side as i filled him using scrap fabrics cut small rather than traditional stuffing.

If you reside in the US and are interested in him residing in your domicile I'm asking $25 for him, a good chunk of which is going to likely go to shipping. Feel free to dm me for more details.

[drainbangle]

sketches of some team regulars

[silly-in-my-room]

INTRO POST WEEEEEEEEE :DDDD

Hello! My name’s Malewife/Mw, whichever you prefer, and my old blog is @mitta-likes-moths for those who might recognize me

Keep in mind, I’m 16, putting this here for everyone’s comfort <3

Although I may not post as often as I like, I do create and engage with darker content sometimes, such as yandere content or other things, so if that sort of thing makes you uncomfortable be sure to keep that in mind when perusing my blog, I don’t want anyone getting uncomfortable, unsettled or possibly worse due to lack of warning or tagging on my end

I write sometimes, so my requests are open!!

My general rules writing wise is:

No smut, although it can be suggestive depending on the character/version of said character and the scenario

I only write x reader stuff, no character x character or oc x canon,

Get as specific as you want! Having more to work with is always good to have, and I always get scared I’m too rambly in sidings inbox, so I feel the need to clarify lol

If I don’t want to do a request, that is that, I have my own boundaries and things I’m willing to do, please do not be an asshole about it, you will be blocked

I absolutely do yandere content! I’m pretty involved in reading and writing the stuff, and even drawing it a few times, so I’m very open to writing or discussing it!

Clarify whether it’s platonic or romantic or the secret third option, if left unclear, I will assume based on the character, usually that assumption will be romantic

Fandoms I will write for:

Splatoon/Coroika, Yugioh (Arc V and GX), and Project Sekai

Masterlist

More may be added in the future!

[tinybitofhope]

vent!!

so like im at skl right? and i like to rest my boot leg when I get tired so ya 👍 but these stupid ass boys r lie 'just walk lmao' or like 'bro race me' and 'hey I think ur foot is broken' AND ITS THE SAME THING. EVERY. DAM. TIME. and ofc my best friend has the main bitch in her top five on snap and ofc she also calls me 'crippled' even when i told her to stop and every time i hit the boys to shut them up teyre like 'oh i think i need ur crutches, that hurt so bad' like NO. the first thing that comes to your mind when someone is in a BOOT and CRUTCHES and says their FOOT is fractured and broken is to make fun of them????? no sympathy whatsoever. and when i thought they were going to help me, they js make shit harder. and the worst part is that i forgive them over and over again, bc what r u supposed to do when you all grew up with each other and u spent the day w one of them laughing and having fun with your friends and your stuck in this small ass school with no escape and every step your being criticized for no reason?? and what if your closest friend, the one who's been on a family vacation with you, the one who's been your go-to since kindergarten, the one who has meet and befriended your cousins, the one who has been to your house and slept in the same room as you, what if she can't even be a support system? fuck, she won't even tell the main bitch to fuck off, or stop calling me crippled herself.

[priceseyes]

I'll crawl home to her.

sgt. athena 'birdie' kallis and capt. john price - commission done by @irlplasticlamb

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THEMMMM, OMG! THEY LOOK SOOOO BEAUTIFUL IM IN LOVE 😍😍😍. I'd like to thank the AMAZING @irlplasticlamb for this BEAUTIFUL commission of my cod!oc athena 'birdie' kallis and her partner, captain john price because THEY LOOK SO CUTEEEEE AHHHHH. seriously, I'm absolutely in love with the final result, it's amazing!

cod-verse masterlist.

[aggravateddurian]

Vega's Halloween Outfit, for when you need to tactically trick or treat at Konpeki Plaza, or if you're becoming the newest Warzone 2077 operator.

She comes in a pack!

For the low, low pricce of 149.99 eurodollars, you too can battle royale as V and Songbird!

[iheartchv]

Hi the matchup concept is sooo cute! If you’re still accepting I’d love one (all good if not!)

5’4, 24, Australian and a sort of a weird mix of muscular and curvy. I ’ve been told I have ‘golden retriever energy’- with the MBTI type of ENFP. I love people and speak multiple languages (eng/jap/norsk). I’m athletically and creatively inclined, my biggest hobbies being drawing, writing and running but the only thing I love more than those things and other people is animals (I have a pet dog I love).

I have military experience myself and consider myself pretty adaptable, but have been told I do overthink things at times and sometimes need to be grounded/need to stand up for myself more. I try to always deescalate a bad situation with jokes or kindness, but know when to be serious.

🤔 I match you with...

Simon "Ghost" Riley 💀

I think you'd be a perfect match for Ghost

//im a sucker for opposites attract x3

Ghost helps keep you grounded, not letting your emotions make the decisions for you

While you help him learn that some decisions can't be logically solved

You're the sun;

He's the moon

One can't exist without the other

Ghost never thought about anything like that till he met you

Scenario time~♡:

He met you while he was deployed to Australia

Or rather you met him first

Ghost was the best when it came to tech and being a sniper

He was teaching new recruits how be stealthy, etc.

Word had got around that Ghost was at your base

You had to see him for yourself

You caught him in the mess hall

You introduced yourself, in which he just gave a small nod

Just like everyone said, he was the broody type of guy

He didn't much attention to you till he saw you showing a recruit how to hit a target

He didn't think you were bad at all

Over time he got to know you

And you had suspicions that he liked you

Many times you caught him looking at you

You sent him a small smile when your eyes met his, then he looked away

And.... you'd be lying if you didn't find him the least bit attractive

🖤

I can totally see you and Ghost exchanging jokes

One you told made him let out a soft chuckle

"Not bad."

Hearing him laugh like that made your heart flutter

In turn, there was one that he told that made you laugh

He felt like his heart would've stopped hearing you laugh

Its a good thing he was wearing his mask because he couldn't help but smile

He felt... happy in that moment

And moments like those are what he used to bond with you

[whentherewerebicycles]

okay. i promised myself i would do some long reflective journaling to sort through some Big Feelings and I keep kicking the can down the road because idk sometimes you don't want to sort through the Big Feelings in case you don't like what you find there. but I have a morning of uninterrupted time and I am in a good headspace and I think I will just write through some stuff under the cut.

it sure looks like i might be having a baby next summer, which means that things are moving out of the hypothetical realm and into the realm of being Very Real. so i am experiencing the expected levels of "oh shit oh shit oh shit i am about to be responsible for a living being???" that i imagine all prospective parents experience. more than that, though, i think i am having to confront the reality of single parenthood in a more emotional way than i was expecting! and this is partly because it might be about to become real for me, but also because some people i love very much who are very close to me are pregnant now too, and i am watching them live an experience of pregnancy that is very different from the one i've had thus far and much closer to the socially "normal" path. and i think that is surfacing some unexamined and semi-unexpected feelings of grief/loss for me as well as a complicated mix of horrible bridge troll jealousy feelings. i want to write through some of that so i can get a better handle on what i'm feeling instead of letting the big emotions unexpectedly avalanche over me at random times.

let me think first about my own experience of getting pregnant.

I'm glad I am pregnant and I am extra, extra grateful that things are going well thus far after experiencing a pregnancy loss this summer that kind of turned me inside out for a while. I also know that despite how excruciatingly drawn-out this process has felt, I was able to get pregnant a lot faster/easier than many people are and I don't take that for granted. but man oh man I think getting pregnant via assisted reproduction can really fuck with your head and heart in ways I wasn't anticipating when I started this process a little over a year ago. everything is so intensely medicalized. my life has just been going to appointments and getting ultrasounds and having blood drawn and giving myself hormone shots and undergoing painful medical procedures and healing from an emergency surgery and reading medical journals and swallowing pills and recording symptoms in a tracking journal. I don't feel like I've spent this year preparing for and then actively trying to conceive a child; i feel like I've spent this year receiving intensive treatment for a medical condition (not being pregnant) that requires obsessive anxious monitoring and might be rooted in some deeper flaw or failing in my body. almost no part of this experience has felt private, intimate, precious, spontaneous, joyful, sacred, sexy, or fun in any way. it's all felt mediated by doctors and by an incredibly expensive industry that jacks up the prices knowing most people going this route don't have an alternative (because they're gay or they're single or they have medical conditions that impact their ability to conceive naturally). and the ectopic pregnancy just like intensified and heightened all of that, because all of a sudden i DID have a life-threatening medical condition and all that obsessive monitoring WAS justified and my body HAD fucked up, and everyone afterwards spent a lot of time warning me i'd need to subject myself to even closer monitoring next time because i was at increased risk of it happening again.

idk man it's just been a lot!!!!!! and i think that even though early on I was like "i'm going to try to carve out some part of this experience that can be just mine, separate from the medical aspects of assisted conception," i just kind of failed at doing that. i don't think it's my "fault" or whatever, because idk, there's a lot of cultural pressure to medicalize and pathologize and turn our bodies over to doctors or whatever, and it's hard to swim against the current, especially when you are stressed and spending a lot of money and willing to do whatever an expert tells you to do if it'll get you the thing you want so badly. so i don't blame myself but i also have to acknowledge that i haven't had a very positive experience of trying to get pregnant and i think that the single precious, sacred moment of this whole entire year was when that very kind very gruff tech let me watch the heartbeat on the ultrasound right before the surgery and then went to get warm blankets from the dryer to wrap me in. and maybe also the night that my mom and i had the little burial in the woods. that was it, those were the only sacred moments, and they were moments of deep and wrenching grief, not of joy. even finding out i was pregnant again only a few months after the loss wasn't really a moment of uncomplicated joy, because i was so immediately consumed by anxiety and so instantly sucked back into the vortex of endless medical monitoring. so idk i think i have some unresolved grief around the experience of trying to conceive/early pregnancy i got compared to the one i might've hoped for.

when i found out my SIL was pregnant, in the immediate aftermath of my own loss and on the same timeline i would've been on, i just spent a long time feeling like the most horrible bridge troll version of myself i could possibly imagine. i was just eaten up inside with jealousy and it wasn't just that she was having a joyful, healthy, uncomplicated experience of pregnancy while i was healing from a very raw and painful loss. it was also this feeling that like, she was supposed to be pregnant, she was expected to be pregnant, and the whole world was smiling joyfully upon her pregnancy, and everything was unfolding smoothly for her in ways that it hadn't for me. they're young, they're married, they own a house, they have two good incomes and will easily be able to support a family, she's thin and blond and very pretty, and (while i don't know this for sure) it seemed like they got pregnant for free on almost the first attempt, on the exact schedule they'd decided they wanted to have their first baby. and idk just watching my parents excitedly prepare for their first grandkid and make all these plans for how they'd be involved and coming out to tour fancy daycares with them just sucked! you can be so happy and excited for someone you love and also you can feel like the bitterest, ugliest, most horrid little bridge troll inside. i just felt like, i'm going it alone, i'm older and i have fertility issues that might make it impossible for me to do this, i make less money, i'll never own a house, i don't have a partner, blah blah blah, and even though most of those things are choices i've made about the type of life i want to live, it just felt like... idk. i was just eaten up inside by jealousy!!!! like i know nothing about their experience of trying to conceive or what her experience of pregnancy has been like so far, but my ugly inner troll voice was like, why was it so easy for them and hard for me, why did i have to pour $15,000+ into this process, why did they get to have fun joyful let's-create-a-future-together sex while i had to go to a doctor every other week to get stuck with needles and prodded with ultrasound wands and have an insanely painful cramp-inducing dye injected into my fallopian tubes, and why, WHY did our babies conceived at almost exactly the same time have such different fates.

i mean the answer is just like, this is the world we live in! this is the reality of being a queer person and an unpartnered person who wants a family! these are the life choices we make! this is the randomness of conception outcomes and a healthy dose of plain bad luck! but it was hard (and is hard) to not internalize the differences as like, something is Wrong With Me and something is Right With Them. and i think on the most basic level i was just jealous of their shared joy, and was feeling the ache of, i'm in this by myself, i have to weather this loss by myself, i am the only person who cares about this as deeply as i do. and of course that wasn't wholly true, of course i had my mom and my sister and my closest friends who grieved with me and took such good care of me, but idk. i think it stirred up some feelings about being unpartnered for me that i hadn't really examined all that closely before.

and i think... like... i think that is probably the other big piece that i am going to have to spend time grappling with, maybe for a long time, maybe for the rest of my life! with my students, we often talk about the idea of animating questions, like the big preoccupations you find yourself wrestling with again and again, these questions that won't ever be resolved because they don't have a simple or straightforward answer. they are questions you don't ever answer once and for all, but wrestling with them over the years is what gives shape and meaning to your life as a person on a quest for purpose, for clarity, for deeper understanding. i am carving out a life path for myself that looks different from most of the people around me and i think that sometimes i really really wrestle with the question of, like, does this path represent a failure or a choice? and if i have chosen this path have i made that choice out of cowardice or from a place of strength?

i still have to untangle what i mean here or what i feel around this, but i think like... i don't know... i don't really crave partnership, i don't feel its absence in my adult life, i have cared deeply about past romantic partners as people but i have always felt immensely relieved when relationships end because i get my own space & life back, and i feel like almost all of my human emotional needs for connection are met through my friendships and my work. i like sex and i like the idea of a live-in best friend but i also feel pretty sure that modern dating on the apps is not the avenue through which i would find that person and i don't really know of other ways to go about building relationships like that at this stage in my life. but idk man the cultural PRESSURE you feel to do the expected life path thing is immense!!!! and i think that while most of the time i'm able to set that pressure aside and just live my life, the decision to have a child on my own suddenly reignites all of those uncertainties and some of that shame around like, why isn't this a thing i want, does it mean i am emotionally stunted in some way, will it impact my ability to parent well, blah blah blah.

i suspect i will spend a LOT of time in this next chapter of my life trying to untangle those feelings, so i am not going to put too much pressure on it now!! i just want to begin naming them so they aren't just like, swirling around in the back of my mind seeping into everything. i think what i can say definitively right now is this:

i have never felt a strong impulse towards or yearning for romantic partnership, and thinking about dating mostly just makes me feel tired and like i would be doing it for other people, not for myself. if i really think about it, i can imagine myself in a shared partnership with someone who shares my interests and values and sense of humor, but i truly can't imagine getting there through hinge or bumble or whatever. maybe that is where the sense of tiredness comes from when i think about dating, lol.

that said... i HAVE, for a very long time, felt a very strong impulse towards becoming a parent. i feel nervous about this (money! time! blowing up your life! being responsible for a small person!) but i feel no ambivalence towards it, you know? i want to be a parent and i think i'll be good at being a parent (i mean i am sure i will also feel like i am a Very Bad Parent for much of the time as that seems to be a feature of parenting, but on the whole i feel confident in my ability to provide the love and stability and structure necessary to raise a reasonably happy, well-adjusted kid). i have never been able to imagine a life where i do not become a parent by some route and i feel a deep, wrenching sadness when i imagine a life where i don't raise a family.

i think the sense of total clarity and joy i feel around the choice to parent vs. the profound ambivalence i feel around the idea of dating signals something important! but it is just challenging, you know, to carve out a life for yourself that goes a little or a lot against the grain of what other people's lives look like and what people think would make you happy. i know i am very VERY lucky that over the past five-ish years my parents have gone from being extremely skeptical or worried about my life path to 10000000% supportive and on board and ready to help me make it work. but i also just think i gotta wrestle with the cultural demons in my own head/heart you know!! i am going to have to work hard to get to the point where i feel really secure in my choices!! i know that the horrid bridge troll feelings about other people conceiving easily in the context of happy marriages are normal and okay to feel - it's just human to wish that your own journey was easier, simpler, cheaper, less painful. but i also think that, as liz says all the time, security (in yourself and in your choices) is a gift you give to yourself and everyone around you. i might not be there yet, but i want to work hard to get to a point where i am so secure in the choices i have made that i can experience other people's experiences and choices as simply theirs, not as a reflection or a shaming judgment on mine. i want to be able to say, i am so happy for you, and i am also so happy for me, because we have both worked hard to create the lives we needed and wanted for ourselves, and now we get to live in them. I want to know with total certainty that I, not other people, get to decide what my life means.

but also.... i want to think of this journey not just in terms of Struggling to Make Peace With My Choices but also in terms of like... sometimes taking a different path can produce unexpected joys that people on the regular path won't get to experience. for instance, i can already tell that my mom and my sister are going to be incredibly involved in raising my kid, and that my parents are going to feel an extra sense of responsibility to provide my child with a life that is incredibly rich and full of love. so i am going to have a life that is rich in family relationships, maybe richer than it would've been if i was part of a traditional nuclear family unit. i am going to have to learn to depend on and lean on other people in wholly new ways, which will challenge me (a person who tends towards insularity and independence) to really stretch and grow. i am also going to get to have a different experience of parenting in the home! i am going to have to learn to work things out with my kid without another adult there to help mediate conflicts. we are going to have to figure out how to be a good, functioning team because we are going to have to share responsibility differently than in a two-parent household. and i hope that through this experience i also get to meet and talk with other single parents (something tumblr has already allowed me to start doing!), and i get to develop a deeper, richer understanding of alternative family structures and life paths that don't look like other people's.

i want to be honest: there is some real grief there! i have chosen a life that is different than the one i hazily imagined for myself as a younger person... and already that has meant that i've had a very different experience of trying to conceive/being pregnant than the people closest to me, which has sometimes felt very painful and lonely. and i imagine that as i navigate parenting i will have to keep grappling with the grief of like, living in a culture where it's not "normal" to parent alone, where other people will judge the choices i make, and where i will be missing out on some of the joys of shared childraising i see other people around me experiencing. but i don't know i guess i just have faith in my ability to make meaning out of my life, and i think that the grief will be counterbalanced by joys i'm not able to anticipate from this vantage point because i haven't lived them yet.

and also if i stop for a second and think: would i rather not go down this path at all? the answer comes back to me so clearly and so immediately. of course not. i want you so badly, little seahorse. i'm so ready for you to come into my life. i'm ready to shed my old self, my old life, and become somebody wholly new, in a wholly new relationship with a wholly new human being. hey! i love you! come here and be my baby!

[ryesillustrates]

pepaw doesn’t know what a meemee is

(Context, Sparky is Irish)