#uyecaq

[soultiio]

oh wow

day 1: denial

[okusiii]

a birthday gift for lovely @uyecaq

[notelectrictigerart]

A gift for @uyecaq (also thanks for the dialogue, I had to do a comic for that, the visual was strong when I read it)!

Thanks for all the fun this year and for cursing my brain with these two idiots. Looking forward for more trolling next year!

[ciaran]

when you make a new blog do you ever revisit your previous blogs?

all the time! i have so much stuff on those old blogs that i often search up and reblog from. i love having a digital trail to follow

[just-like-playing-tag]

Transcription by @uyecaq on Twitter!

Dear Emma

Here's the plan

It's most likely going to happen the night before Ray's birthday. I've been thinking about what Ray said. He said "It's all for the two of you". He didn't include himself. And he has saved up oil as well. I think he's going to start a fire and kill himself. We need to use Ray's plan to fool Mama and escape with everyone.

Mama and the headquarters will think "they will try to escape from the bridge, not the cliff." So we need to use that knowledge to our advantage. Looking at the landscape and distance, I found a place where it might be possible to get across but it will be dangerous. Once you are there, climb the rope to the other side and escape.

Sister Krone gave me something quite unexpected. It's a W.Minerva's pen. I don't really know how she got it but once you have escaped, go to "South" B06-32, where the pen indicates. Show your transmitter to Ray. He will understand. Everything will be fine. Emma, you can do this! Please take care of Ray and our brothers and sisters.

P.S. Ray can be stubborn. If he is, tell him "You don't have to die here today. Just be quiet and follow. I'll show you something great".

Norman

This is Normans letter from the live action film. His handwriting is so pretty!🤧

[ciaran]

This is a little out of nowhere but perhaps it'd be amusing to know that I've passively wondered about this whenever you tag auralysis, is that the name of one of your OCs or like, some combination of their name and analysis like you're tagging analysis type stuff for them? Also uh, what do they kind of look like because I assume they're some sort of robot or something but that could range from anything

i was holding this ask hostage until i finished my work but now that it's done i'm sitting down to answer :D

all my oc-related tags are for characters i share with @checkers-dance (except #engraved, which i have yet to formulate a pitch for and which probably won't be a thing for months if not years yet, we have a whole Process™ for creating characters and fleshing them out). some of the tags are fic related as well, and those are my own reference.

okay! onto auralysis. the name, firstly, comes from aura (the android's name) + hydrolysis, which lavender told me is a chemistry/biology term meaning "to split with water" = so to split with aura, or to split aura; implications of prisms & migraines as well

(all our oc verses are named by some combination of my brain free-associating concepts like this: citycomet, winterknights)

auralysis features 4 characters at the moment: aura itself, an android with a mysterious (and as yet unrevealed to the other characters) past; morgan, a werewolf and enforcer (think the blade runners from blade runner 2049, same concept in a different font); camille, an erstwhile artist who is now the full-time model & muse of his abusive husband; charles, said husband, artist and photographer.

aura itself is a fascinating little creature. its story starts when morgan finds it in a high-rise hotel building after a party during which every single human inhabitant of the building was brutally murdered. his team encounters it sitting in a pool of blood, drawing spirals, and examines it for evidence of what happened by going through its memory storage, only to find that its been completely wiped clean. in the process of poking in its memory, the android shuts down, and morgan decides to take it home to see if he can fix it.

the android is a beautiful piece of work, fancy and delicate, made of painted porcelain but damaged and cracking. it's very impractical, so morgan focuses at first on fixing up the obvious issues (frayed wiring, broken pieces) before trying to poke around in its software. but the android refuses to start up at all, so he gives up eventually and puts it in a corner of his workshop and forgets it.

he forgets it for 6 whole months, and then aura wakes up again. it's spent all that time quietly sorting through its memories, discarding some and keeping others, attempting to make sense of its own actions and terrified that those actions will be revealed and it will be discarded again, as it has been by countless prior owners. because aura was the one who killed all those people

and nobody knows why it did that, including us :)

i can't wait to find out

[ciaran]

Who's the shortest fave you've ever had lol (canonically or in your soul whatever works)

xiao!!!!!

[ciaran]

Hello, I've been wondering about why you've set your asks to no anons. I have a fear of being perceived in contexts like these so if it weren't for that I would've sent all my asks through anon, but perhaps that's for the best 😅 No judgement or anything, I'm just curious to know what your reasoning for it might be.

i didn't know anon was off!! please continue sending yours off anon, i like knowing who people are (i get anxious sometimes). but i have turned it back on for anyone who wants to send anon asks sjbsjsbf

[ciaran]

How do you feel about comments or compliments on old fic you've written? Does it still touch you, and how different does it maybe feel to receive that on a fic like, years after you wrote or shared it, compared to something you wrote or shared recently or within the past month?

i don't mind comments on old fics, except for a marginal embarrassment that those things are still out there and I'm too stubborn to remove them from my name. i find it rather charming, actually? although in most cases, i have a preference for more recent things (my definition of recent is the past ~2 years though)

[ciaran]

Where's your current Tumblr pfp from? I really like the art!

it's by chappy6523 on ig! i love their art style, it's so funky. here's the link!

[ciaran]

Yoo ask writing meme? Hope you don't mind taking more, 13... 17? 18 if you're okay with that, 33, 35, 36? And 38, sorry if that's a lot. Btw seeing you update your layouts is fun, where do you find all the ethereal looking images you use for your icons? I too am a sun hater.

13. What is a subject matter that is incredibly difficult for you write about? What is easy?

i find writing kink really easy, but also really hard. it's always in my head, but there's so much of it that pulling it into a manageable size is really tough. i think most of the things i love writing are at least a little hard, but the stuff that should count as "hardest" is also the most satisfying. i love writing characters having breakdowns. i find it easy to write dialogue and atmosphere and emotion; i find it difficult to write action. i feel like i'm walking around the answer without hitting it.

the rest are under the cut for length!

17. Talk to me about the minutiae of your current WIP. Tell me about the lore, the history, the detail, the things that won’t make it in the text.

i don't know if i'm good at doing this but let me try. i generally keep all the details in my head so i feel excited about putting them down? but this WIP is set in a world where the land and king are intrinsically connected, and nick was adopted because he was recognized. the mechanism of recognition is irrelevant. there's a scene where vash says he was drowned by a rusalka; what happened was that the rusalka was hurt by a human man, and in retaliation kidnapped and drowned a couple of children. vash jumped in to save the kids, and the river froze over, so he was in there for a time that would have killed a human but he's not human, so... he managed to talk the rusalka down, then climbed out and dispersed a crowd of villagers with pitchforks and torches, made them all really mad at him, and ended up freezing to death between the water and the snow. there's another scene where vash says his cloak is made of phoenix feathers. his brother deals primarily with the supernatural creatures of the land, and does not truck with humans. vash himself brought this phoenix to knives, because she was dying and he was hoping his brother could save her, but his brother couldn't do anything by then. she died in knives's arms after vash left. when he came back, knives had made her feathers into a cloak for his brother. though phoenixes never fully die, they do fade out - their heat does not dissipate, but the consciousness leaves. since vash is a dragon with (story spoilers) no fire, he needs the warmth when he travels... and stuff like the thing with the rusalka happens anyway.

33. Do you practice any other art besides writing? Does that art ever tie into your writing, or is it entirely separate?

i paint and draw, but it's all very abstract and way less emotionally charged for me than writing. i also want to get back into singing. i don't think it ties into my writing, unless i want to talk about the process of Creation, one of my pet themes :)

35. What’s your favorite writing rule to smash into smithereens?

all of them. show me a rule and i'll show you a way to break it. but mostly i think i hate the idea that every scene needs to be relevant in an immediate way. pacing, you guys. let the emotions breathe!!!

36. They say to Write What You Know. Setting aside for a moment the fact that this is terrible advice...what do you Know?

i know almost nothing... well, i know gender, and trauma, and mental illness. i know loneliness. everything else - well, who can say? i'm curious what people think i know, after reading my stuff.

as for the icons - pinterest >_< my guilty pleasure i never grew out of. i am sort of obsessed w maintaining a very specific aesthetic across my accounts. sun haters UNITE

[ciaran]

So I know you've played Genshin and Hollow Knight (and HSR) what other games have you played?

aiyaaa no i don't think so. I've tried playing Disco Elysium but I'm fundamentally a little kitty who needs shiny things to stay with a game and DE isn't sparkly enough. I've also played a very small bit of Library of Ruina but i did not find the base premise very exciting so 😔✌️ i gave up

[ciaran]

Oh do you wanna choose violence? (ask game) 1, 2, 6, 7, 8, 16, 19? 9 and 10 can be optional but this is already a lot so

01. honestly? alhaitham. people seem to think he's an asshole or unempathetic and unkind but really he's just very reserved and he has a tendency to be playful in his own way while being unwilling to truly explain himself to others. he's an autistic king and i love him.

02. hmm i'm gonna do this for diluc: i think diluc has a very intense need for control, especially when it comes to his interactions with kaeya. he can and does relax in most settings over time but i also believe that diluc had a nonzero number of unpleasant sexual interactions in his travels and it's made him averse to the loss of sexual control specifically. also, he's a bit of a masochist but he's much more of a sadist, and he finds kaeya's responses to pain enchanting. they're both very tangled by their history, by the fact that kaeya seeks often to punish himself through diluc and diluc has calcified into the role of protector/punisher over time and now needs a lot of handholding to step out of it and their sexual dynamic is in many ways a return to a rawer and more unfiltered state of being.

06. kaebedo fans have irritated me since forever. also chaeya fans. both ships are good by themselves but a lot of their shippers seem more interested in avoiding kaeluc/luckae than whatever they're actually shipping so they're also the annoying "siblings brothering fraternally" type of ragbros fans (this is how twt user @/cryovishap puts it afksdjf and i agree). i love chaeya by itself and i also enjoy albedo/kaeya but the twitter fans make me wanna put a pillow over my ears.

07. kaveh. im carefully extracting myself from every other opinion about him in order to preserve my tentative affection

08. would it be mean to say "most of them"? i dont even know what common fandom opinions on a lot of things are. i dont look at the fandom at large much if i can help it

16. oh. so many. many kinds of kidfic, revenge fantasy plots (elaborate constructions of "a character is wronged and they &or their lover Destroy Everyone about it"), shovel talks (i hate shovel talks), anything where diluc lacks his violent/sadistic/mildly crazy streak, overinvestment in monogamy or virginity (shipping that's desperate to preclude even the option of other meaningful romantic or romance-adjacent relationships, and things where characters desperately assure each other that they've saved themselves up for this like good christian kids). probably other things, but this is off the top of my head.

one thing i REALLY don't like in general is when top/dom characters aren't allowed to be shamelessly kinky in their own right. like, it's a particular thing if their character is such that they won't want to inflict pain or misery on their partner, but it's very often less a characterization thing and more. a subtle implication that this is how people think doms/tops should be in order for their sexual dealings to be Ethical, as though wanting to cause pain, or being interested in choking someone out, or having cnc fantasies about being the aggressor rather than the victim, are morally indicative desires. subs are always given leeway to want something in ways that doms aren't because victimhood is more morally pure than aggression even when that victimhood or aggression is within the space of kink (or maybe even especially so bc getting off on something makes it worse). but it's always super important to me personally that doms get to be wholeheartedly into whatever they're doing to their sub. they don't have to be shameless about it (shame and guilt are interesting!) but like. they should also be rock fuckin hard at the same time.

19. haikaveh. i know this is so vanilla but gughgjgh i would erase them from my brain if i could

i wouldn't mind doing 9 and 10 but i cant think of anything. thank you for the asks! if anyone read all of this but disagrees with me that's fine you're good i'm not judging anybody and people have complex reasons for liking things that i am not privy to.