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thewhitefluffyhat · 3 years ago

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Thoughts on Deltarune Chapter 2

I wasn't even intending to write a Deltarune post, but here we are!

Have some extended ramblings/theorizing about Undertale, Deltarune, and the role of the "Player" vs character agency.

[Warning: full spoilers for ALL routes in both Undertale and Deltarune!]

Frisk’s Agency in Undertale

So I'm not sure how common this is nowadays (I haven't been following Undertale theories for a while), but I personally prefer the interpretation that there is no "Player" as an in-universe force in Undertale. I think it's a far more elegant story if the fourth wall isn't broken.

I'm also fond of the Narrator Chara and "Chara isn't pure evil until Murder Route teaches them to be" interpretations too.

And, of course, the third plank bridging those two is that I don't see Frisk as a just a pure, innocent cinnamon roll.

Because I like the story best when it's Frisk who chooses mercy or murder. It gives Frisk a much more complex character, if they are allowed to have the capacity for both immense kindness and immense cruelty. It even gives them an interesting implied character arc, if you take the natural progression path of True Pacifist > Murder Fun Times > Soulless Pacifist.

Just like Flowey, Frisk first tried to use their powers of Determination for good, but eventually they also grew curious and began to see the world as a game. And then they went too far and ultimately regretted it. Regretted it so much, in fact, that they were willing to sell their soul for just a chance to fix it.

After all, it's not you, the "Player," whose SOUL Chara wants. It's you, Frisk.

I also dislike the idea of an in-universe "Player" because that implies that "Frisk" is nothing but an empty shell - on ALL routes. All of those heartwarming moments in the True Pacifist route? All of the silly Flirt actions? Yeah, that's not Frisk, that's just as much the "Player" puppeting some poor kid's body as the events of the Bad Times.

Who knows what Frisk is truly like if their every action - good or ill - is controlled by some unseen, eldritch force? Now Frisk no longer has any characterization.

And given that said force overrides Frisk's agency, then isn't the "Player" evil no matter which route you take? It's become a story where they only "moral" choice is never to pick up the game at all. Hrm.

Anyway, but that's all Undertale. Which brings me to...

What the heck is going on in Deltarune?

Unlike Frisk=the Red SOUL in Undertale, we don't seem to control Kris=the Red SOUL in Deltarune. The game repeatedly underlines that the player only controls the Red SOUL, not Kris.

(Though, with stuff like the sound of the bathroom faucet only being audible when Kris's actual body is nearby - it seems like even when separated, the Red SOUL may still be perceiving through Kris's other senses besides sight...?)

With Spamton's dialogue and Kris's reaction after the non-Weird NEO fight, there's also a lot more emphasis in Deltarune of Kris (and the rest of the party!) being puppeted by some other force. And that's on top of all the stuff in the first chapter highlighting Kris/the Red SOUL's lack of agency.

Because of all those hints, Deltarune seems to be much more explicitly pointing toward that dark interpretation of Undertale - that the "Player"/Red SOUL is removing Kris's agency, regardless of route.

Indeed, I'm somewhat intrigued by the possibility that we/the Red SOUL might be forcing Kris to act nice just as much as we force them to act cruel. The way that Kris deliberately removes the Red SOUL in order to do some very suspicious actions might support that. As do some comments in Chapter 1, like characters in the post-Dark World walkaround noting how Kris is being less weird and more inquisitive than usual. Maybe Kris is the Knight and the Red SOUL is possessing them to undo their evil actions. Maybe the real Kris doesn't want to be friends with Susie and Ralsei at all!

But taking that interpretation to such an extreme also doesn't quite fit. Why does Kris slash the tires on Toriel's car? The only reason I can think of is that they want to keep Susie at their house. And why does Kris create the Dark World in their house? Is Kris creating the fountains because they want to have fun with friends? Especially right after the chapter emphasized how great the Dark World adventures were, that seems very likely.

There are also some smaller details too, of Kris interpreting the Red SOUL's input with their own spin (like saying things sarcastically), or of Kris chatting in a friendly way with Ralsei which the player/SOUL can't influence.

So, I'm pretty sure that even outside of the Red SOUL's control, Kris genuinely does like their friends.

Meanwhile, there were a lot of hints this chapter that Something Bad happened to Kris, Noelle, Dess, and Asriel when they went exploring in the forest by the graveyard. Most likely, they went into that ominous bunker south of the town. Is that incident related to Kris’s current strangeness?

And then, and THEN, there's the Snow Mercy route. That route seems to imply that the Red SOUL is both evil, and very much not Kris. Noelle says Kris isn't like themself, that their voice changes strangely, and she can still hear the creepy voice even when Kris is downed.

How to make sense of this all?

A Theory on Kris and the Red SOUL

One idea is that as scary and zombie-like as Kris looks without the SOUL, they're probably a nice, if lonely kid who desperately wants friends after their big brother went to college. (And possibly after something traumatic happened to them/their neighbor.) They're creating the Dark Worlds for the sake of fun and escapism.

But the Red SOUL puts an end to Kris's happy fantasies. Indeed, if the Red SOUL gives up, "the world is covered in darkness." So without the Red SOUL, would Kris simply keep creating fountains...? (What ARE the fountains, why can Kris and theoretically any Lightener create them?)

Maybe in the normal route, the Red SOUL is trying to gently help Kris move on and accept reality in some way. At the very least, I suspect Ralsei is working toward this goal.

But in that case... that's a pretty strange way for the Red SOUL to go about it, forcibly taking control of Kris to the point that the kid notices and seems to greatly resent it.

But what if the Red SOUL didn't have a choice about this arrangement either?

After all, the Red SOUL's customized vessel was discarded at the start of Chapter 1... and it was placed into Kris instead.

Here's a question: will Kris die if they're without a SOUL for too long?

Because there are an awful lot of moments in these games where characters break free of something they are bound to, but it doesn't end well: -Spamton collapses when his strings are cut. -The Darkeners can move freely outside their origin world for a while, but eventually turn to statues if they stay in another world. -Regardless of whether Berdly removes the Queen’s wires himself, he's exhausted and unable to fight any more after being under her control. -And when Kris takes the Red SOUL out of their body, their movements become slow and clumsy. Like it's a struggle for them to move at all.

Meanwhile in Undertale, post-Pacifist Asriel could maintain his form to say goodbye, but without SOUL(s), he inevitably returns to being Flowey.

So here's a theory: Kris died and/or lost their original soul. Perhaps due to some action/inaction on Noelle's part in the exploration incident. And as a last-ditch resort to keep them alive, the Red SOUL was somehow implanted in Kris.

(Also maybe Dess died/went missing at the same time...?)

And now, the Red SOUL the only thing keeping Kris around.

But just like in Undertale, it seems like Deltarune SOULs have wills of their own.

Which means Kris's current state is similar to the Chara-Asriel fusion, or Omega Flowey, or even Frisk-Chara. Control of the body is shared. The difference is that instead of the SOUL we play representing the original owner/will of the body, this time the SOUL we're playing as is the intruder.

Essentially, this time around we are playing the role of the Chara-equivalent instead of the Frisk-equivalent!

(Though whether Kris themself is more of Chara or Frisk I’ll leave to other theorists...)

Anyway, while Kris likely wishes to be rid of the SOUL and dislikes this whole body sharing arrangement, they know they can't survive without it. And perhaps Kris being in a partially soulless state might explain why they do questionable stuff like creating Dark Worlds and slashing their mom's car tires in order to play with their friends. (Again, see also: Asriel/Flowey.)

But when the Red SOUL and Kris are in alignment, things go okay. The Red SOUL suggests commands, but Kris is willing to follow and seems to enjoy being with Susie and Ralsei.

Let’s Talk About Snow Mercy

It's when the Red SOUL and Kris aren't in alignment... well. That seems to be what's happening in the Snow Mercy route. That kind of situation sure didn't go so hot with Frisk and Chara in Undertale, so I doubt this will end nicely for Kris and the Red SOUL either. At the very least, Kris seems to have been visibly upset after what happened with Noelle in this route.

(By the way, there are two other moments in Chapter 2 when Susie asks if Kris is okay - first after the normal Spamton NEO fight and subsequent discussion of what it meant and second after she and Kris approach the bunker.

Three different moments, but Kris appears to react similarly. Are all of these things related? The bunker, Kris being puppeted, and the events of the Snow Mercy route?)

Meanwhile, here’s a contrast. Undertale's Murder Route seemed to exist for the sake of curiosity and power - either the "Player" or Frisk's desires, whichever interpretation you subscribe to. And the changes to the world were all logical consequences of that - because of the Fallen Child's rampage, friendly NPCs disappear, major characters fight you more seriously, etc.

But the actions in Snow Mercy are... weirdly specific, weirdly unpredictable. It doesn't come across as a simple power trip. Instead, Snow Mercy is a bunch of really bizarre actions that feel even more mysterious to the player as they are to Noelle and Kris. I sure wouldn't have guessed that backtracking to the trash heap and freezing a bunch of enemies would lead to new items spontaneously appearing and then giving Noelle access to a scary new spell. It's like something straight out of a creepypasta!

The overall tone that comes across to me is that the Red SOUL seems to know what it's doing, even while the player is kept in the dark. And given Noelle's responses, it almost seems like the SOUL is trying to remind her of events/actions from her past, events which are obviously unknown to the player. All of which leads me to think that the Red SOUL has motives and goals of its own... so just like Undertale, this probably isn't a situation of the "Player" being a fourth wall-breaking force either.

The Red SOUL is its own character.

And I'm certainly curious to find out more about them!

#undertale #deltarune #deltarune chapter 2 #frisk #kris #chara #noelle #the red soul #no separate player #undertale analysis #deltarune analysis #my ramblings #read more #is this my first ever deltarune/undertale analysis post?#huh I think it is!#haha I guess I've always just been a reader until now

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polishksiezniczka · 4 years ago

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Camerlengo Patrick McKenna Smut ABCs | Camerlengo x Female Reader

Some smut for our favorite priest ❤

As I was writing this, I couldn’t help but think that our favorite ~il camerlengo~ shares the trifecta of smut with Obi-Wan Kenobi: religious devotion, dramatic robes and pure, raw sexual energy. 🔥

A = Aftercare (What they’re like after sex)

Patrick is oh so attentive and considerate. He strokes your body softly, listening as your heartbeats gradually slow and fall in sync together. He’ll softly whisper declarations of love to you in his luscious accent, making you flush even more.

Bonus: When you’re in each other’s arms bathing in the afterglow, he adores it when you carefully play with his crucifix necklace (you better believe he wears it during sex after you *accidentally* let slip how turned on you get when he wears it).

B = Body part (Their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

Patrick loves to hold you using his upper body strength—his arms are deliciously strong and toned, but not in an overly-muscular way. He can’t help but groan and roll his head back when you cling to them for dear life during the throes of passion, your nails lightly digging into his skin.

It’s difficult for him to choose—you’re too perfect to pick just one element. If he had to, he’d choose your hair, your neck, or your breasts.

C = Cum (Anything to do with cum basically)

Because he was brought up in the Church, he doesn’t really do that sort of thing. Not to mention he views the practice as somewhat degrading to you.

D = Dirty Secret (Pretty self-explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs).

Obviously, you. He’s a priest and supposed to be “married” to the Church!

E = Experience (How experienced are they? Do they know what they’re doing?)

Patrick is somewhat experienced. While serving in the army he had a few exploits, but he’s still relatively inexperienced. Not that you could ever tell though—he’s the best lover you’ve ever had.

F = Favorite Position (This goes without saying.)

Missionary! (HAHAHA…I’m going to hell for this.)

Patrick loves any sort of position where he’s able to see you fully. He treats sex as if it were a sacred rite: he wants to be able to watch the desire cloud your eyes, thoroughly kiss your soft lips, devour the creamy flesh of your torso, and do nothing less than worship you.

G = Goofy (Are they more serious in the moment, or are they humorous, etc)

It depends on the situation. Patrick will usually take things pretty seriously—intensely pleasuring you, maintaining fervent eye contact, going slow and sensual—but sometimes you find yourselves in a giddy mood, especially after something good has happened to one of you. Then his playful side will come out: little nips at your ears and neck, gentle tickling of your sides, low chuckles, and a lot more teasing than normal. You delight in rendezvous like these, batting your eyes and telling him how much you want him.

H = Hair (How well-groomed are they, does the carpet match the drapes, etc.)

OH GOD. You know how well Patrick takes care of himself. His hair is impeccable, always neatly combed and styled. You adore running your fingers through it and lightly scratching his scalp, though you’re careful not to muss it up too much.

The sight of his bare chest makes your heart flutter every time you see it. You love to card your fingers through the lovely patch of curly ginger hair which grows there, a huge turn-on for Patrick. The same hair starts again just below his navel, creeping down his stomach and past his waistband. It’s another part of him that never fails to make you swoon and unconsciously lick your lips.

I = Intimacy (How are they during the moment, romantic aspect…)

Patrick is so romantic. He constantly whispers you how much he loves you, how much you mean to him, and how he can never be without you. Despite the unimaginable pleasure he provides you, his words sometimes make you teary-eyed during the moment—something you find extremely embarrassing but he adores.

J = Jack Off (Masturbation headcanon)

Patrick suffers from SERIOUS Catholic guiltiness when it comes to masturbation. He’s done it before (when he was younger especially) but would never admit so to you. He only resorts to pleasuring himself when you’re apart for extended periods of time and always feels the need to confess to his sins of “taking his flesh” afterward.

K = Kink (One or more of their kinks)

Praise: Patrick’s need to praise you is insatiable and he does it constantly when you’re together. He loves to tell you how good you feel, how perfect you are, how sweet you smell, or how well you respond to him as he leans close to your ear, kissing and sucking. Although he can be reticent to accept compliments himself, you can tell how much it affects him when you whisper how only he can bring you this amount of love, pleasure, and satisfaction.

Priest: Patrick goes mad when you play into your priest kink and loves it when you call him “Father,” especially because you don’t often do so. As gentle as he is, this drives him wild, animalistic almost.

L = Location (Favourite places to do the do)

On the bed or couch, especially with your hair splayed out across a pillow. You recently introduced him to shower sex, something he enjoys far more than he expected to. And of course, always somewhere private.

M = Motivation (What turns them on, gets them going)

Your soft, innocent touches that lead to lingering thoughts and desires. When you run your hands across his chest and through his hair. Whispering how much you love and want him.

Oddly enough, your modesty also makes him hot under the collar (literally). The idea that you conceal your beautiful figure to others and only allow him to see and adore it awakens a deep and primal lust in Patrick.

N = NO (Something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

He doesn’t swear that often and never uses the Lord’s name in vain. He also would never do anything that could hurt you or in some way degrade you.

O = Oral (Preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

He strongly prefers to give. He loves to huskily tell you how much you taste like sin when he’s between your thighs and caressing you with his mouth.

P = Pace (Are they fast and rough? Slow and sensual? etc.)

Slow and sensual—it’s called lovemaking for a reason.

Q = Quickie (Their opinions on quickies rather than proper sex, how often, etc.)

You and Patrick don’t really engage in these because of the nature of your relationship—there are few moments when you can spend time together during the day. Patrick doesn’t like the idea either, as he can’t properly worship your body as much as he believes you deserve and derives so much pleasure from taking his time with you. He is never one to complain about stolen kisses, though.

R = Risk (Are they game to experiment, do they take risks, etc.)

Again, due to his position and all the publicity, Patrick prefers to keep risks to a minimum. He never would demand anything of you, but he requests that your liaisons be kept private out of concern for you and your relationship.

Once, however, you admitted a shameful desire of yours, and he gave in. So, late one night you made love in a confessional. Although he felt like he would be cursed with eternal damnation, he couldn’t help but admit how arousing it was.

S = Stamina (How many rounds can they go for, how long do they last…)

Patrick’s stamina is intense; he never seems to tire, even after the care and attention he puts into each and every round. You teasingly attribute this voraciousness to all his pent-up lust while in seminary. But when you’re exhausted, he completely respects this and would never push you beyond your physical limits.

T = Toy (Do they own toys? Do they use them? On a partner or themselves?)

No; why would he defile perfection by using anything other than his body?

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

This side of Patrick really comes out when he’s feeling frisky or playful. He relishes that he can turn you into a puddle of goo with just one look—your eyes glaze over, your breath hitches, and you suddenly have difficulty maintaining eye contact. He’ll then begin to touch and kiss you slowly, almost chastely, until you’re a whimpering, sobbing mess beneath him.

V = Volume (How loud they are, what sounds they make)

Volume-wise Patrick tends to be on the softer side, though he can surprise you. What he sometimes lacks in volume he makes up for in quality. Patrick makes the most delicious and sinful sounds you can imagine: gasps at your expert ministrations, moans when you kiss him deeply. Your personal favorite? The sound of him purring into your ear as he showers you with praise and words of affection.

W = Wild Card (Get a random headcanon for the character of your choice)

The man’s scent alone makes you goddamn feral. It’s clean and masculine, with just a hint of spice. You love to bury your face in his neck and chest, inhaling him as you litter his skin with reminders of your devotion.

X = X-Ray (Let’s see what’s going on in those pants, picture or words)

Patrick is incredibly well-endowed. In fact the first few times you were together, you were in slight pain (much to Patrick’s agony) and felt sore for days afterward. Oh but Patrick made it all better: drawing you warm baths, scooping you up, and tenderly massaging every inch of your body with his large hands. 😏

Y = Yearning (How high is their sex drive?)

On the higher end, but it’s completely attached to you.

Z = ZZZ (… how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

When you’re in each other’s arms, he feels completely relaxed and can usually fall asleep within a few minutes, but he likes to wait for you drift off to sleep and then silently watch you in your most peaceful state. Your breathing steadies, your brow relaxes, and your hair softly falls about your face, still glowing from physical exertion. As sleep begins to take hold of him, he whispers that you look just like an angel.

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sirrwritesalots · 4 years ago

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Resurrection ~ Sherlock Holmes (angsty)

Pairing: (BBC) Sherlock x Y/N Warnings: Some cursing, angsty, anger Word Count: 2074 Summary: You have known Sherlock and John for years, but when he comes back from the dead, will you accept him so easily? A/N: This is out of my element, I usually write romance and stuff, but I’m trying out the depressing/Sherlock type of mystery and crime out a bit, though there isn’t much of that crime stuff happening lol hope you enjoy!

The reconnection between John and Sherlock was eventful, to say the least, but in comparison to the reunion between Sherlock and Y/N still did not go as he had originally planned or hoped for.

In the years he had been away - or as everyone thought: supposedly ‘dead’ - you had taken up residence at a cottage in Dorset your family had owned for a long time. You took the death of your close friend, and someone whom you loved very dearly, in the romantic sense as well as the platonic sense, rather difficult, so as a means of coping you spent some time away for yourself from the busy capital of the UK. You needed to reconnect with yourself and handle your grief, come to terms with what had happened in order to move on, and in doing so you found the lowland hills of South Wessex comforting and appealing as you creating your new life there. You’d become accustomed to your routine, to the - what some would call - mundaneness of it all, though your blood seemed to itch for some action every now and again, which you appeased by composing or writing, possibly taking up a new hobby, anything of the sort.

So one day when there was a knock on your door, you simply expected it to be your neighbor down the road asking to borrow a cup of sugar or asking for a small favor. It came as somewhat of a surprise when you opened the front door and came face-to-face with none other than your old friend John Watson and his girlfriend Mary, who you met only a handful of times but really liked. She was good for him, you thought, after everything he had been though.

You welcomed them with a smile, “John! I didn’t know you were coming around! Mary, it’s lovely to see you again!” You were about to kiss both of her cheeks after letting the two inside when a third person appeared where they were standing a second ago.

“I didn’t know your family owned a cottage outside of London,” said the familiar deep baratome voice.

You could have sworn your heart stopped in that moment. Body completely froze with a hand closed around the door handle like a vice, a white-knuckle grip so tight the edges of the lock were almost piercing your skin. Although you always hoped you would be wrong in the back of your mind, you thought you’d never see him again. A wave of emotions crashed over you in a matter of seconds: shock, relief, joy. But the last of them all, white hot rage, washed through you like it never had before. Without saying a single word, you slammed the door in his face and turned to make your way into the kitchen.

You vaguely heard John and Mary’s mumbled comments. “Well, it could have been worse,” you imagined John shrugging to his girlfriend as he weighed some of the possible outcomes in his head. “She could have punched him in the face like I did.”

“John,” Mary said wearily, “Y/n’s not happy, and I wouldn’t expect her to be. What, with us just showing up out of the blue with him.”

“Give her some time... she’ll come around,” John attempted to give you the benefit of the doubt.

In the kitchen, your hands were splayed across the countertop to steady yourself as you felt like you were quite literally spinning from the thoughts running around in your head and your eyes slid out of focus. How was this even possible? Did John know this whole time? No, he couldn’t have. He was genuinely grief stricken, just like you had been. Mycroft must have known, that cheeky bastard knew practically everything. Why couldn’t he tell you, though? Of all people, why didn’t he let you and John in on his not-so-little secret for all these years? Your mind was running a thousand miles a minute attempting to answer all these rising questions on your own, wondering how you could have missed this simple fact: Sherlock was not dead.

After no reaction or response for me for a long time - you were unaware of how much time had passed - John entered the kitchen, calling your name. “How long have you known?” was the only thing you said, eyes now fixated on one particular spot on the counter so as to control your emotions in the moment.

“Only a few days. He wanted to tell you in person, not over the phone.”

You scoffed, shaking your head and relaxing your tense muscles for the first time since you slammed the front door shut. “That’s a shock.” Usually Sherlock preferred technological means of communication to human interaction, typically choosing to send a quick text over speaking on the phone or bothering to get off his ass and into a cab.

“Nothing about this is normal,” stated John. He was right; it wasn’t an everyday occurrence that a friend comes back to life, or rather fakes his own death. John tried to reason with you, “If you could just hear him out.”

“Is that what you did? Immediately wait and listen to what he had to say.”

“Well, um, no. It took a bit. I may have hit him once or twice. We relocated a few times.” You gave John a look that screamed the words ‘exactly’ without having to vocalize your point. “What I was trying to say is, that its Sherlock, Y/N. And we’ve been a mess since he left, no matter what we’ve done to be happy in that time.” Your mind immediately went to Mary and the cottage you were standing in; yours and John’s means of coping.

“Yeah, John, that’s my point; he left! Without a word. He went along with Moriarty and let us go on believing he offed himself. How can you forgive him so easily?” Your blood was beginning to boil again.

“So, what are you planning on doing? Leave him outside in the rain until he learns his lesson?”

You crossed your arms in front of your chest, your chin lifting a fraction in affirmation. “Yes.” At the very least, you believed Sherlock deserved that, after all he put the two of your through, to sit soggy and cold for the next hour.

John relented and dropped his arms at his sides, realizing it was useless to argue with you as your stubbornness had clearly not disappeared in your time apart, and made his way back to Mary in the sitting room. You made the three of you some cups of tea, bringing the tray with you and setting it onto the table. Noticing the fire was lit, which must have been Mary’s doing while you were having your little tiff with John in the kitchen earlier, you smiled softly at her. She and John took residence on the couch while you sat in the chair closest to the fire, leaving a single chair adjacent to you unoccupied as the room warmed up.

You could hear Sherlock’s shoes tapping the porch as he paced back and forth in a meek effort to stay warm in the rain. A part of you - the one that reached out to Sherlock, that was glad to have him back despite everything - wanted to let him in, hand him a cup of tea, wrap a blanket around his shoulders, and talk as though no time had passed. But the other part that inhabited a majority of your consciousness was annoyed at his patience. He wasn’t complaining about the weather or temperature on the other side of the door. In fact, he was more quiet than you remember him ever being, aside from then he was sleeping or preoccupied in his Mind Palace. After his eventful encounter with John, he must have come to the understanding that he wouldn’t be welcomed with open arms and it would take a bit of an adjustment for everybody to acclimate him into their lives again.

After sitting in silence for thirty or so minutes, John abruptly stood to his feet, causing Mary to quickly look at him on alert. Luckily her cup was empty, or else he would be responsible for the stain on your rug. “For Christ’s sake! This is enough, Y/N! You’re acting like a damn child,” John said as he walked to the front door. “I’ve let you have your moment, now I am going to let Sherlock in and you are going to have it out. Right here, right now. Not later when its dark and he’s caught hypothermia.”

Against your protests, John opened the door and nodded at his friend to come inside your home. Sherlock stepped through the threshold after shaking his hair outside, lifting his head to meet my gaze as John locked the door behind him.

It felt like a hole had been rammed through your chest again, the power of it almost knocking you back into the chair you were seated in. You took a deep, unsteady breath and clenched your fists to hide your shaking hands. Part of it was anger, but most of it was fear, anxiety. You tried to control your breathing, deep inhale followed by a deep exhale, like you had practiced when you began having panic attacks after his death.

“Please, let me explain,” Sherlock pleaded with a soft look in his eyes you’d never seen before as he gingerly took a step forward.

“I don’t want to hear from you. I don’t want to see you. I don’t even want to speak to you.” It took everything in you not to burst into tears, out of anger or frustration or sadness you didn’t know which, as you took a step back to maintain the distance between the two of you.

“Y/n, l-”

“No! Fuck! You were gone. You were dead, Sherlock! And you didn’t so much as tell me or John!” Your voice began to crack as it raised in volume. “Dead! Do you even understand that? We grieved your loss. We have borne that pain for two years now, and you think that I’m suddenly going to forgive that and let you back into my life just because you’re standing here in front of me now? That’s extremely arrogant and selfish, even for you.”

Sherlock chose his words wisely as he spoke, “Yes, I do understand.”

“No, see, I don’t think you do. Because you are incapable of feeling human emotions; you’ve said so yourself, right? They are pesky little beggars that get in the way of more important things in life, yeah?” You raised your eyebrows in expectation, waiting for him to confirm your statement to be true, since he had expressed his distaste for allowing emotions to rule him and his life many times before, and yet he remained silent. “You couldn’t possibly understand, because you thrive on suspense and mystery. On having the upper hand of knowing what others don’t, having the power to withhold information and telling others what you want them to know and when you want them to know it. You like being the know-it-all genius. What would you be without it?”

The question was rhetorical, but he answered nonetheless, “Nothing.” Your eyes widened at his response, shaken by his omission. “You’re right, I’d be nothing without my knowledge. I’m not Sherlock Holmes without my deductive skills, if I couldn’t easily figure out what others cannot. But I’m also not me without John Watson. Without you.”

His vulnerability disarmed you, and your shoulders sagged a fraction as your demeanor began to involuntarily soften up to him despite your set mind. You were taken aback by his calm and collected expression, as if admitting what he has was somewhat of a regular occupancy for him. It wasn’t, though, and you knew that it took a lot of effort for him to speak that truth aloud. You were torn between the anger of what he had done and missing him after all this time. Your heart yearned for him, and now he was standing before you - flesh and blood, alive - begging in his own reserved way for you to take him back. You knew you couldn’t forgive him on the spot, not yet anyway. But you did know that, despite all the pain he had caused you in his absence, you could accept him into your life once again.

#sherlock #bbc sherlock #sherlock holmes #sherlock imagine #sherlock x y/n #sherlock is not dead

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cogentranting · 4 years ago

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The more I think about it the more I feel like Reginald’s number system was designed to cause conflict between the siblings.

Because the numbers correlate to how powerful they are/how useful their power is with Vanya being the most powerful, Luther being the least (or at least, how Reginald ranked their powers; there are some places where the order is debatable but usually only with a difference of a single space). But then the numbers are also a ranking of status in the reverse order (to what extent is unclear. we know that Luther was in charge and Vanya was treated like an outcast, but we don’t know how much the ranking was carried out before that-- is Diego in charge of Allison? As kids could Klaus order Five around? Or is it only relevant as far as the first person in charge, and then the others don’t matter except if something were to happen to Luther-- Luther dies and Diego is in charge?).

It does seem like some sort of status was conferred in the numbers if only in the way that we see the different siblings respond to Reginald’s plans for them. Luther and Allison seemed to have the least issue with Reginald (at least up until part way through season 1) and during their childhood Luther Diego and Allison all seemed pretty bought into the concept of the Umbrella Academy. They all seem to have taken to the training (why Diego and Allison are the best hand to hand fighters) and the missions pretty readily. Even into adulthood Diego and Luther are still very fixated on the idea of being heroes the way Reginald trained them to be. Even if as they grew up they began to see the problems with Reginald and began to reject him, as children they seem to thrive in and embrace that lifestyle in a way that the higher numbers didn’t. And I suspect it’s because of a degree of authority and favoritism conferred on them by their low numbers.

My best guest at the reasoning behind these two reverse conceptions of the numbers was an attempt at balancing the dynamic of the group. If the most powerful is also the one in charge, what does he need from the others? If the least powerful is also the lowest ranking, why include him at all? Putting the lower numbers in charge also is probably intended to make the team more strategic-- someone whose power is curving knives is gonna have to think through their plan of attack in a way that someone who can take out a whole room of armed guards with a bunch of eldritch monsters doesn’t (in theory. In practice this backfired massively because Diego and Luther are not great at thinking things through, but Ben and Five seem more thoughtful).

And so the numbers are intended to foster teamwork within the Umbrella Academy, to force them to rely on each other. But the problem is that it does that by maintaining a constant tension of competing hierarchies. So it’s forced cooperation that has more traits of a truce than a team-- it’s like power and authority are resources that they’re forced to bargain with. This is in place of what a normal person would use to build a team with-- trust, care, understanding, communication etc.

This dynamic explains a lot-- this is why Diego and Luther tend to define themselves by their role, whereas the lower numbers are more defined by their powers. This is why Klaus being the middle numbers often ends up overlooked-- when your dynamics are based on treating power and authority as a resource to be bargained for in exchange for inclusion, and you are not ranked high in either, you don’t have any claim to importance-- there’s always someone who has more authority or someone who has more power who will be chosen over you. As a result he rejects both and goes his own way. Five you see respond in the opposite way, extremely confident in both his abilities and his intelligence he tries to eschew the system-- as a child he wants to push the boundaries of his abilities (because if he’s going to be defined by his abilities if he wants more respect he needs more power), and he was the most likely to question authority. Then he spent decades operating on his own and he became exactly what Reginald was trying to avoid-- someone very likely to abandon the team altogether when things get rough and try and do it alone. On the other hand, this system seems to have fed into Ben somewhat resenting his power (as a child), making him reluctant to act, and leading to the others using him on missions mainly as a weapon (maybe one or both of these things is what caused his death). Meanwhile this entire system doubles the isolation Vanya experiences because she has no bargaining power within the family. I think that if Vanya had genuinely had no powers, she would have been number one, and would have been trained as sort of the team expert-- the strategist, lots of hand to hand combat training etc.

And the whole system raises the siblings in essentially an adversarial state. It’s why Diego is so envious of Luther being number 1. It’s why Five is so desperate to time travel and as an adult is so aggressive about expressing his intelligence and trying to exercise authority over the others. It’s why the others were so swayed into rejecting Vanya. It’s why Klaus ends up sort of lost in the mix.

And it’s why, now as adults it’s such a struggle to get them to actually work together. That’s why at every opportunity they splinter off and try to handle things on their own-- because Reginald accidentally instilled that value into them; he trained them to fight for control and just tried to balance their ability to gain the upperhand by keeping them as equal forces opposing each other and therefore held in balance. They never learned real teamwork which involves ceding control for the good of the group.

#the umbrella academy #long rambley #sorry

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HelloI was wondering what your experience with szpd is and how you came to believe you had it Ive been questioning lately on whether or not I have it since I don't really want to be in a relationship and have no close friends outside of my family in fact I isolate myself a lot away from my family because I dont really relate to them or feel close or feel like becoming close I also have a feeling of emptiness butsometimes have intense emotional mood swings and also have had unstable relationships

First off, sorry for the late response, I was gonna type something up and then Things Started Happening which took most of my mental energy. Now that I've got a better handle on Things, I've got time to actually answer this so let's get started.

For me, it's important to note I'm a Covert Schizoid, so my experience is going to be different in a few important ways from Schizoid classic (Overt Schizoids)- so keep that in mind when comparing my experiences to yours.

I started seriously looking into self dxing in high school, when some of my symptoms (particularly maintaining my mask) started to really wear on me. I didn't feel comfortable bringing my symptoms to my parents (kinda awkward to go "hey mom, hey dad, I've been faking all our interactions for most of my life and it's really tiring, therapy mayhaps?) So going to any kind of therapist was pretty much out of the question. I decided to write down my symptoms before looking into anything as I didn't want to bias myself and so I'd always have a touch point to compare back to (which you seem to have done also).

This was my list: the main thing was the creation and maintenance of my mask (mimicking emotions, faking a particular personality to use for social interaction, learning scripts, reading/manipulating people etc.), leading to heavy burnouts if used too long (sometimes accompanied by feeling trapped and suffocated by the mere presence of another human being), and the admittance of not feeling much if anything in the way of emotion under the mask (and even "extreme" for me seemed to only reach normal for others) which I describe as void but its not all consuming or anything like that it's just... a factual state of being, extreme boredom, dissociation/depersonalization, lack of strong motivation/desire, lack of emotional empathy (tho I do have cognitive empathy I've worked to build), sense sensitivity (touch, smell, hearing), lack of appetite (sometimes due to lack of interest in food, lack of taste, lack of pleasure). This behaviour started as far back as primary school/kindergarten.

Basically just anything that seemed odd to me that I didn't observe in others or caused me discomfort. Then I started down the usual suspects, Occam's Razor and all that, chances are it'd be something more common. But while one or two things in diagnostic lists for depression and autism fit it wasn't nearly enough to get a diagnosis, or more importantly, explain what I was experiencing. I almost thought autism as I looked into personal experience as well to gain insight on what certain criteria looked like in practice, and girls with autism had something similar to my masks; but again it didn't fit the more I looked into it. Particularly the use of it in the want for “real connection” and “wanting to be accepted” which I did not have.

So I was forced to look further, and actually almost skipped over Szpd. I kept it on the list as it explained many of my underlying symptoms far better than depression or autism but it didn't have anything for the masks as far as I knew- and that was my main symptom. It also fit some of my life experiences, small to nearly nonexistent friend groups and such, but it couldn't explain my social abilities. I was looking into sociopathy and only on one of their info boards did I run into the term "secret schizoid". And boy, all it took was one search for it to have everything just click into place. It fit all the reasons I'd originally dismissed Szpd, and reading peoples accounts of living "covert" was like reading a day in my life.

Acting, playing a part, but ultimately detached from it all in that internal uncaring void. I maintained relationship because they benefited me, and dropped people when the cost of maintaining it outweighed what they could do for me. Only my immediate family was somewhat important to me and even now I only had four people I'd consider real friends in my whole life- only two still in it- and I'd still throw it all away in a heartbeat if I could live isolated in a house somewhere with my needs met if it meant I never have to see anyone again (Unfortunately, we "Live In A Society" and I need a "Job" to buy food and shit, so I gotta keep pretending to be a Normal Human Person). But there was my answer, that was my mask, that was my burn out. I dissociate 'cause that just what happens when you put on a front for that long to interact with -but always keep yourself separate- from the world. Lack of emotion and empathy was just classic Szpd under all that, same with boredom, motivation, and even the appetite bits as it was discussed a while back was anhedonia affecting food for others with Szpd.

By all accounts Covert Szpd explained every one of my symptoms perfectly (except the sense sensitivity, that’s prob just it’s own thing). The mask experiences being the most telling for me. I'd highly recommend reading peoples day in the life experiences on discussion boards to see if they speak to you- it was always what I found most helpful.

I jumbled your two main questions together a lot but I hope you can parse something useful from all this. From what little you shared I obviously can't tell you one way or the other if you have Szpd or not. Some of the things you mentioned could fit sure, but so could any other number of disorders. But if you do have Szpd, I'd say you should also look into a comorbidity for those mood swings- those aren't a Szpd trait but that doesn't disqualify you from having it. If you have one personality disorder it's not uncommon to have overlap or comorbidity with others.

#szpd #ask

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lawofattraction112 · 4 years ago

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Regulation of Attraction : Cooperative Reality

the law of attraction There is an enormous amount of dialogue lately about the Legislation of Attraction, you may say that the Legal requirements of Attraction comes with gained celebrity condition as the personal progress tool of the minute, the current popular means for manifesting your aspirations. What most people don't understand is that the Laws of Attraction is not really a new idea, in truth it's not even a past idea in the sensation that there has been a point in time as soon as somebody coined that phrase and abruptly everyone began deploying it like some innovative appliance. Someone not surprisingly did invent this phrase Law with Attraction, but in the identical way that Mister Isaac Newton devised the word gravity. Regulations of Attraction enjoy gravity, just is usually, no one owns your rights to it, plus its impossible to avoid utilizing it. the law of attraction The Law of Selling point is one of many legislation by which mankind may be operating consciously and unconsciously since the start of time. Most people are blissfully unaware of precisely how these laws have an impact on their lives together with equally unaware that power of these legal guidelines can be gathered and used to terrific effect on a daily rationale.

Since the release in the movie The Secret, regulations of Attraction provides come to the attention in peoples heads as the ultimate product for changing your daily routine and that is a good thing. As i find however that a lot of people after viewing and reading information regarding the Law of Attractive force are still somewhat lost as to how the idea actually works. There is a number of talk about holding graphics in the mind, delivering thought vibrations available to the universe, having a state of requirement and gratitude, and additionally waiting for the galaxy to respond by way of the Law of Drawing card and provide that with which you have focussed ones intention, and so on. These things are very delightful and I have found these useful in my own personal learning, but non-e of these ideas available me with really satisfactory answers precisely how the Law of Destination actually works, both spiritually and scientifically.

Today if you're anything such as me, blind confidence just doesn't slice it, most people just like at least to have an decent explanation for why jointly get involved with the Law involving Attraction, otherwise people tend to reject the main idea outright, which will be a unfortunate really.

Vital Knowledge

The difficulty that I think a lot of people have is they will hear about unbelievable success stories relating to the Law of Selling point, amazing tales of folks that have gone with having an average types of existence to experiencing a life that a lot of people only dream of, and then set out with good faith to obtain similar results. Undoubtedly not everyone defines the results they had expected, why is this? Maintain a pool of Law of Attractive force failed? Are all associated with the success reviews bogus? Are people just clever ploys to get us to own books and flicks about how to use what the law states of Attraction?

There are plenty of individual claims regarding the Law of Drawing card bringing great wealth and the fulfillment from great dreams, in addition to there are also charlatans holdings and liabilities area of life, strict, secular, scientific, but it surely would be a great misstep to reject a notion of such probable because of a few people, you might as well give up all personal advancement right now.

As for the primary idea that the Law with Attraction has by some means failed to work, mine experience tells me that the is simply not possible, legal issues of Attraction is absolutely not a business approach, or a clever program that is subject to marketplaces or the moods of individuals, it is since constant and foreseeable as the sun increase, all that is required is a appropriate level of recognizing in order to leverage it's potential.

This I do believe is where a great number of confusion exists, how come do some people are generally able to apply legislation of Attraction using great affect whilst others struggle to see the littlest things manifest? The result is knowledge, you will find there's basic lack of realizing about how the Law involving Attraction works. A lot of people however seem to be capable to easily apply regulations of Attraction and find results even though they also have no more knowledge of precisely what is actually happening ın comparison to the next person, how come this? It is because a lot of people have a mental pre-disposition to accepting what the law states of Attraction, her requirements and effects without question, some others don't and involve further instruction concerning fundamentals of the regulation of attraction in advance of being able to apply independently properly.

Its a tad like being offered a kit to get a model aeroplane without worrying about the assembly instructions, most people may have a natural comprehending about how to assemble items, they may have seen their father putting together model aeroplanes in earlier times, but for others it's going to an almost impossible process, time consuming and irritating.

It is my encounter that with a fundamental increase in knowledge about the Law associated with Attraction and the fundamental principles that control it, any individual start to see real ends in every area of their lifetime almost immediately. Which means that let's now check it out at some of that will useful knowledge that will aid us in increasing a better understanding of ways to apply the Law from Attraction to excellent affect.

The Most Important Thing

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I want to start by creating this statement; when we use a Law of Selling point, we do not get things! this is additionally contrary to popular viewpoint. There is not a racecar with your vibration on it waiting for want you to believe that it's your own property before it appears inside driveway. This may sound a ridiculous proclamation, but there are many coaches of the Law with Attraction that condition exactly that, it can be about manifesting elements, well it's not.

What the law states of Attraction can not work by you applying out a imagined vibration to the world and somehow a universe, through the process of the Law involving Attraction, responds compared to that thought by giving you the thing that suits that vibration, nevertheless unfortunately this is what is actually taught. Some people just accept this examination and get on by means of using the Law associated with Attraction to superb success, you could telephone that blind hope, and I have no issue with that at all, nevertheless it won't work for absolutely everyone, and that does issue me because it can perform for everyone.

The most important thing you certainly will ever understand for the Law of Attractive force is that that always involves some others, other minds, many other realities, not important things. I call the following underlying principle Cooperative Reality and examine it in detail across my book.

To put it differently, Cooperative Reality advises that in order to employ the Law of Drawing card you require the synergy of other people realities. Understanding that concept has been that single greatest help my own personal increase, when I came to this approach realization it altogether revolutionized my practical experience in using the Legislation of Attraction. The idea provided me along with meaningful direction with the application of all the options I was ignorantly using to apply legal issues of Attraction.

I have already been asked many times to describe my success within using the Law from Attraction, and My partner and i discover that it's not straightforward to summarise the concept of Cooperative Reality, and that is so why I decided to generate my book worthy Law of Destination - Cooperative Truth of the matter. I will however make an attempt to summarise the booklet in order to give you at the least some idea of the strength of this concept with regards to the Law of Selling point. I must state nevertheless that there will be ideas that may seem really unusual, but We assure you there does exist solid scientific signs for everything My organization is putting forward, ever again, explained in detail all over my book.

That Quantum Field

For a start we need to ask this question "what is normally reality? " along with I will begin by using a brief look at a perception within Quantum Physics called super job. Briefly stated tremendous position is mentioning sub atomic dirt appearing in a few place at the same time, the truth is the same electron, just may use this particle as an example, may well appear in as many as 3000 different or possibilities locations simultaneously, this particular phenomenon is known in Quantum Physics as a wave purpose. So the entire market being made up of abdominal muscles tiny world with sub atomic dust exists in extremely position, or several potential locations, for a universal scale Quantum Physicists call the following the Field involving Potential.

This is modern for us all, it indicates that your reality is not necessarily fixed, it is accommodating, changeable, it can be improved from one form even to another, but who does your transforming and the way in which?

The Observer

The following brings me to your second point I want to consider, also an idea used in Quantum Physics called The Onlooker, and this principle straightaway affect and changes the Field associated with Potential. So what could be the Observer? Well, you will be the Observer, and ever other sensitive individual on the planet. Together with what does a Observer do? This Observer is responsible for that collapse of the send function. What will do that mean? Basically this in essence means whenever you consciously take notice of the Quantum Field people snap your truth of the matter into a single setting in time and breathing space. Scientists conduct sophisticated experiments with debris that bare released this concept therefore certainly aligns by using my own experience.

Then when we observe the Quantum Field, the world, this universe, what standing do we fall the wave performance to? Where does indeed our reality finish off? Well that is figured out by what you believe, together with I'm not making reference to your religious allegiance, I'm talking about genital herpes virus treatments believe your truthfulness should be with just about every fibre of your increasingly being, which is taught around the Law of Attractive force, it's just not typically explained that properly. Now you are not the only real Observer collapsing your wave function setting reality by what everyone believe, everyone is a great Observer, and that is from vital importance to learn. To properly use the Law of Drawing card we need to somehow switch the way other people see reality, and we will examine that shortly.

Rewiring The Mind

Finally we should instead consider how it can be that we change some of our fundamental beliefs approximately ourselves and within the world. Fortunately for individuals, the construct in our belief systems are in existence within the mind, within the complex structure with neural pathways that define the different instances the brain. I express fortunately, because current discoveries in neuroscience have revealed that this neural structure with the brain is really flexible, not strict and fixed when scientists first idea. You are not destined to remain locked in to manners and attitudes for the past, ways of considering and patterns involving belief that have been neurologically passed down to you from your ancestors through ones own DNA, you possess the capability to reconstruct a neural pathways inside your brain and generate a brand new construct associated with reality in your mind.

This can be a vital area of know-how that most Law from Attraction publications don't go into, most of the common Law with Attraction methods which include, focussed intention, and additionally holding an image inside the mind of a brand-new reality do receive an affect on the nerve organs construct of the head, but the affect may be temporary, because i am not taught methods to solidify the new generate for use above the long term. The people mind processes estimated at 100, 000 items of information per minute, yet we are just consciously aware of available 2000 bits of which information. What we should do is begin to figure out how to permanently alter that construct of our sensory net in order to see a new reality, being aware of things that everyone had never deemed before and for good change our serious beliefs about which we are and precisely what we are doing these.

Putting it all Jointly

So what does that all mean in connection with using the Law involving Attraction more properly? Your first purpose when attempting to fill out an application the Law of Destination must be to improve your fundamental certain principles about what your own the truth is in order to begin collapsing the quantum discipline to that new truth, but as I outlined earlier, you are not this only one that packages reality through confidence, and this is the location where the Law of Selling point really comes into its very own.

As you apply most of the methods around the Legal requirements of Attraction, visual images, intentions, gratitude or anything else, you create a more powerful reality for yourself, and therefore reality connects using corresponding vibrations inside minds of those approximately you. You will alter other most people beliefs in relation to most people, and they also set out to collapse the quantum field in position with your new actuality. Basically you produce a stronger personal truth of the matter that affects people around you, it's no game associated with chance, but with the Law of Attractive force properly does come to feel a little like stacking the chances in your favour. To look at first began to truly understand and submit an application the principles already mentioned, all the small information on my life began to switch, my life went because of 80 percent within the things that happened in my opinion being a disappointment to help 80 percent from things becoming definitely positive and miraculous virtually overnight.

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Something has gone wrong with the Avian Ark. Adam goes to investigate, hoping to find some evidence of whatever it was that destroyed the Gorlan

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[a deep voiced narrator speaks over clicking pipes and a deep low rumble]

A soft gurgling can be heard in the pipes buried within the bowels of the AEN avian ark. Surrounded by a thousand other pipes with a thousand other jobs; this gurgling would go unnoticed by a crew of humans. Which is why the Alliance of Earth Nations felt it necessary to design and construct one of the largest self sustaining systems of AI controlled maintenance drones ever conceived of. It's not long before a circular drone scatters along and begins to scan the pipe for blockages. All of a sudden the whole station falls silent as a large and indescribable presence drifts by. The complexity of this presence supersedes all code written into this drone and it stops. Proximity alone to this thing that occupied every aspect of existence, even beyond those of the physical and logical realms, this oppressive force beyond forces, causes the entities within the avian ark to shift internally, even down to the code that drives them. This indescribable, incomprehensible pressure emanates something which moves the station to behave in a way so vastly different to how the multitude of coders and engineers intended for it to behave, one might be driven to call it possession.

[Adam is now narrating]

I’m sat in a carrier, it’s hurtling through space at speeds which cause the ship to shake and rumble lightly but with total surety. Back in the old days speeds like this were impossible to achieve, but since the discovery of the widening field; travelling across the universe became easy as- well it's still extremely expensive and difficult to achieve but still possible. Sat across from me is an old Veatorian man. Strapped into the economy class seats and surrounded by luggage, his skin has faded into a light blue with age and he stares at me with the look of a man who was not expecting to see or experience anything new until death, but has been rudely ripped from his resignation into the haze of old age.

“Hello! Nice to meet you, my name is Adam. As in capital ‘A’ Adam” I say to him, masking my discomfort with friendliness in the hopes that he’ll at least give me attention in a nicer way

“Isn’t every Adam ‘capital A’ Adam?” He replies, maintaining his demeanour

“Well- uh-“ I start,

“And I can tell who you are. The glass horns give it away”

I reach up and touch the glass protrusions coming from my forehead. At least he didn’t zero in on any of my other features that differentiate me from regular humans. The two of us are the last passengers on this 400 seat, 50 year old well worn and slightly dingy carrier. I stand up and move to the cockpit of the carrier in order to avoid the old man's gaze. The two pilots are making their final preparations to land and drop me off. The ships jolts and docks with the orbital station, the ships AI doing most of the work.

[the sounds of a creaking and broken station can be heard]

The Hangar for the Avian Arc looks like shit, space stations are usually built to deal with a minor problem, if they’re designed well enough and nothing interferes with them. I had heard stories of Demons materialising inside space stations fusing with them in the orbit of planets, at which point the punished such as myself have to get involved. It sounds strange but I’m hoping it is that. Seeing that symbol shook me, something about being reminded of Eden has given me this pit in my stomach I can’t seem to shake, for a few reasons, unfortunately. In terms of cold hard facts All that I know is that the Avian Arc sat along the predicted course of whatever it was that destroyed the Gorlan and that every warning was set off at once. The data received was completely unreadable and seemed...panicked. At least to me. When I said that to the investigators they looked at me like I’d insulted them personally, but being alive for as long as I have teaches you a lot of things, chief among them being that science and logic don't explain everything. Regardless, it seemed like the two were related. The avian arc was designed to house all manner of species of birds. One of many other preservation centres, it was meant to preserve and propagate in the face of the loss of Earth. There's no engineering department on stations like this, The whole station is fully automated making it somewhat vulnerable to attack and looting. The station does have some defence capabilities but it's mostly reliant on outside, human security that is stationed on the nearby planet.

Currently the blast doors of the hangar are shut, they very rarely get opened unless it's to accommodate large craft delivering supplies or ships that don’t have normal docking capabilities. The hangar is barren, save for a few empty boxes. The unusual thing is that it seems like it’s being dismantled. The lights in the ceiling are mostly off and there are great swathes of exposed wiring hanging loose from the walls and ceilings. The surfaces are built up with grease and dust and the whole room just seethes with dilapidation. I see three decontamination chambers at the end of the room, two of them are still lit up but the last one is dark, and as I walk closer, carefully avoiding missing floor panels and debris, I see that the interior has been completely and meticulously stripped clean. Panelling, wires and the tubing that spray the visitor with an anti bacterial solution. Essentially all that was left was just a hole in the wall. Not being one to let anything get in the way of proper procedure I decide to use a working chamber

As I enter I hear a depressing spurt as a few drops of cleaning fluid trickle out of the sprinkler overhead and onto my horns. I step over the gap where the seal used to be and I'm in a long corridor. it's curved slightly around the main column of the "avian arc". this particular station is a large core surrounded by 3 rings. At the centre column are the habitats, dozens of artificial biomes designed to replicate earth's atmosphere as close as possible to the real thing. It's not though. No amount of machinery could replicate that.

At either end of the corridor there's 2 staircases, one going up and one going down. There's a terminal in front of me with a touch screen, I press the activation button, nothing comes on. I press the button above labelled “help”. A red light flickers on and a voice comes seemingly out of nowhere.

[the voice is natural sounding, with a slight robotic quality]

"hi! I'm PAGAA the protector and guide to the avian arc! How can I help you today?"

An AI, thank gods, that makes things far easier

"PAGAA, can I port you to my visu-link?

"Absolutely, I am a state of the art AI"

"Not anymore"

"I didn't catch that, sorry"

"Nothing, What has happened to the avian arc?"

"I'm afraid that information can not be accessed at a public terminal"

"Ok, how do i get access to this information?"

"You would have to converse directly with the overseer, would you like me to schedule a meeting? It usually takes 3-5 days for them to get here"

"I’m in a bit of a hurry, on which floor is the overseers office located?"

“allow me to escort you, please follow the markers on your HUD”

I begin making my way up the stairs, the curve around the central column is very slight, almost i unnoticeable, the notice boards on the walls flicker on and off, some missing the internal circuitry entirely

"Can you tell me why the Avian Arc is missing so many components?"

"Station protocol states that under certain circumstances resources can be re-appropriated for use in repair and upgrade of the maintenance drones"

"Which circumstances were met?"

"I'm afraid that's restricted information"

As I'm following the path highlighted on my visu-link, I see to my right Where there is usually a set of double doors only one remains. Out of curiosity I shuffle past and step through.

[transition from station ambience to the sounds of a savanna, wind, water and insects]

The room is large, it's more of a hall then anything, the pressure feels almost immediately different that, along with the humidity and heat, knocks the breath out of my lungs, the whole space is done out like a savanna, large acacias, tall grass waving gently in the artificial wind. At the sides of the room where there should be a wide sweeping unbroken facsimile of the sky there are large chunks absent, ruining the illusion.

"This is a restricted area, please leave immediately or I will be forced to call security"

"What? Am I gonna be waiting a week to get arrested?”

"no, security is on board currently"

"That can't be right, automated security was banned long before this station was constructed"

"Due to certain circum-"

"Certain circumstances bla bla. But if there’s no onboard defence, and the security team aren’t here, then you must mean self-constructed security right?"

“Please leave the area,”

I don’t want to wait and find out what sort of machine a station creates to protect itself after being shocked into emergency shutdown and so I make my way out, but before I reach the door a thought strikes me

"Wait a minute, where are all the birds?"

The whole room is silent, there are a few insects buzzing lazily through the air as well as the rustle of leaves and flowing of water.

"Station protocol states that under certain circumstances resources can be re-appropriated for use in repair and upgrade of the maintenance drones"

"You've already said that but, what does that mean? What does that have to do with the birds?

"please leave the area,"

I pace out of the room, as I leave the artificial savanna and step back into the staircase I spot a maintenance drone, it's a wide flat thing designed to be as unnoticeable as possible without being a tripping hazard. A series of arms suddenly pop out from underneath the metal carapace and begin to dismantle something within the walls, it removes the panelling and I see it pull components and wires out. It doesn't move or act like any sort of typical automated drone would, it's sloppy and almost seems organic, the fervour with which it pulls the walls apart almost seems hungry.

"Let's take a look at you,"

As I reach out to pick it up it turns and hisses at me and an appendage pops out from underneath. What I thought was mechanical seems more like bone, muscle and sinew. I pull my hand back and it scurries away.

“Weird,”

I follow the drone along the course set for me by PAGAA, picking up my pace slightly to keep up. Suddenly it veers off to the left down a long corridor that leads to the first of the three rings. I see that the path on my visu-link is bringing me up further along the edge of the main column.

“Thanks for the help PAGAA but I’m going to take a little look around on my own,”

“Please stick to the set path”

Ignoring PAGAAs request. I follow the trail of the drone, I can see it in the distance as it races to the entrance of the ring. On either side of me are long uninterrupted windows which give a glimpse into the vastness of space, I can just about make out the other corridors that connect the detached 1st ring to the rest of the station.

“Please turn back, you are about to enter a restricted area”

“Don't worry about me, I'm just going to have a look,”

“Please state your business on the Avian Ark”

“Restricted information unfortunately, I'm sure you understand”

the security doors on either end of the corridor suddenly close and I am left trapped.

“PAGAA what’s going on?”

[PAGAA says something but it is completely corrupted and sounds like static]

I hear the clunking of machinery and the panel above me detach. With a deadly immediacy I feel my body pulled out into the cold and unforgiving vastness of space.

#sci-fi #scifi #podcast #podcast transcript #audio drama #audiodrama #transcript

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chibivesicle · 6 years ago

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Ogata’s behaviour is contradictory during the course of the hunt for the gold. Why?

In light of the recent events in the Karafuto arc, we readers witnessed the full meltdown of Ogata on the ice flow from chapters 185-188. One of the first things that comes to many people’s minds was “Why did Ogata give up so easily? Kiro is fighting to his very last breath and Ogata just rolled over.”.

These are my thoughts on why Ogata oscillates between caring about himself and behaving recklessly.

Warning, this is not my usual style for this meta post. Sometimes I get a bit personal to explain things.

So what is a good way to approach Ogata’s varied behaviour’s throughout the series? I decided to make a several categories and then list various instances when he behaved in certain ways. Please keep in mind that this is not meant to be a comprehensive list. I’m sure I could add more but these are really all of the major points that stand out to me.

Below are the following three categories:

There are times were he accepts his fate that he could die:

1.) When Sugimoto breaks his arm and has him pinned down.

2.) When he gets shot in the arm in Barato and falls off the fire/bell tower.

3.) When he gets pinned down and beaten by the unknown 27th division solider in Edogai’s house.

4.) When he eggs Asirpa on to shoot him with the arrow.

These are times when he behaves in a risky fashion indicating that he has little concern for his life:

1.) Standing up when he reveals his position to Tanigaki knowing it is a trap.

2.) Setting the herring mansion on fire to find the hidden skin.

3.) The sniper battle with Vasily where he uses himself as bait.

These are times where he behaves in a cautious way or fights to live:

1.) Poking Sugimoto in the eyes to escape being pinned down and running away with the broken arm after Asirpa saves him.

2.) Shoot out with Tsurumi and the 27th after Tanigaki shot him.

3.) Fight with Tsukishima in Edogai’s.

4.) Escaping the coal mine with the miners in Yuubari.

5.) Figuring out the fake Ainu in the Silent Kotan arc.

6.) Pretty much anytime he goes hunting for the greater group.

7.) Shooting the deer on the mountain pass, saving the entire group from hypothermia.

8.) Bringing his rifle into the bath area of the onsen.

If we look at all of these different events Ogata switches back and forth between fighting for his survival in life threatening situations, to acting recklessly, to just accepting his fate that he is about to be killed. So why would Ogata be swinging between these different extremes in regards to his actions in life threatening situations?

I think it is safe to say that based on Ogata’s life experiences is a very hurt and damaged individual who has pushed his emotions and feelings aside so that he could cope during his childhood. He then brought these habits into adulthood and has never faced them or would think about learning how to heal from all of this psychological trauma. Ogata has a very low opinion of himself, he sees himself as an individual missing something and that he likely wonders why he exists when he was born into a crappy family situation. He likely thinks, “Why was I born into a place where I was not wanted?”. He’s been rejected by his mother as she hopes his father will return for her, not for them. He is rejected by his father who thinks he was disgusted by his mother and that’s the only time that we know where he comes clean about his actions to someone besides Asirpa on the ice flow. He confesses the truth to Hanazawa in a long monologue and Hanazawa calls him a monster. He then confesses the truth to Asirpa in another monologue and she can only simply say that she won’t kill him despite his confession.

We know that he was bullied for his personal background. He likely put on airs that it didn’t bother him in the 27th, but the bullying likely hurt him a lot. The fact that Koito talks about his background and adds in that he didn’t like his attitude makes me think that members of the 27th got meaner to him when they couldn’t illicit a rise out of him as he coped by pretending to not care of it didn’t matter. I think Ogata was one of those people that “bothered” other people just by being himself and it made everyone meaner to him.

Since the beginning, he has always tried to project an air of self confidence when interacting with others and as long as he has had his rifle [security blanket]. These actions helped him as a defense mechanism and prevented others from getting close to him. But based on everything that we know by this point in the manga, it is safe to conclude that he suffers from depression and likely has suicidal tendencies. His suicidal tendencies are not in the context that he wants to kill himself but that he is more than okay with someone else killing him in particular instances. He doesn’t value his life highly b/c he thinks no one cares about him at the moment. We know he was loved by his grandma b/c she brought him and his mother home and that shows that grandma Ogata was a strong woman but she wasn’t able to raise him the same way that a mother and father could.

So, let’s go with the idea that Ogata is suffering from depression; is there a way that we could explain his moodiness/shifts in how he feels about himself throughout the story to date?

Depression impacts different people different ways, so there is no universal way to categorize these things. A reader can only approach understanding a character such as Ogata from that reader’s own experiences in life.

My personal hypothesis is:

Ogata is a high functioning individual with severe depression in addition to having a fear of rejection and intimacy with occasional suicidal tendencies.

Why do I propose this hypothesis?

Based on my own life experiences.

And this is where writing this meta hits close to home so to speak. I will do my best to try to explain things, as I’ve been thinking about how to approach this topic in the most careful way possible. I keep coming back to the only way I can understand Ogata, is by connecting my own experiences with what I see his character doing.

I suffer from depression and I will deal with it my whole life. I once had a friend who doesn’t suffer from it ask me “When will you get better?”; I struggled to explain to her that you don’t get better. You just always have it present in your life. My personal experience has been you swing between times when it is laying low and you don’t really notice or feel it. Other times you are stuck in the mire of it; you spend half your time wondering if you should try to pull yourself out or just sit there waiting for it to lift.

Ogata’s depression:

When I’m severely depressed several things happen; 1.) My moods shift between feeling numb where I don’t feel much of anything or having strong mood swings where I’m very excitable and agitated to becoming view sad or angry. 2.) As a result I may become very fixated on certain things and be exceptionally productive at work and get lots of stuff done. On the flip side, I may have to force myself to do simple tasks outside of everything but work. Medically speaking, I am a high functioning person with depression; my work either continues as expected or my productivity goes up as a way to avoid thinking about anything else. Most people won’t even notice that i’m depressed.

This type of behavior is okay in the short term, it allows you to maintain the status quo but it is not sustainable. And this is where Ogata’s behaviours make a lot of sense to me. When Ogata is working towards a goal (usually sniping/mission related) he is at his absolute best, he’s brought his “A” game and he will do whatever it takes e.g. rescuing Tanigaki before the end of the 3 day time limit, allowing the team to rescue Shiraishi and survive crossing over the mountain pass, giving the group the upper hand at the onsen by having a firearm within reach. But he’s able to do this when he feels like he can do this or this is a good distraction from thinking about other things. Likely, at other points, he’s in this weird state where you are numb, you are somewhat engaged but you really don’t care about what happens to you . . . it is hard to describe but it has a certain feeling of being detached from what is happening around you even though you are involved in it. Sorry, I can’t explain this any better . . .

In my experience being depressed isn’t a constant state, you move between different feelings and depending on where you are at you will react differently. This makes so much sense as we see Ogata responding to similar situations e.g. life threatening ones in such different ways. Sometimes he just lays there and takes it, sometimes he gambles (with his life) for a huge gain, and other times he’s hyper conservative and cautious doing whatever it takes to survive.

When he gambles with his life, I often wonder if he gets an adrenaline rush? When this happens, he perhaps feels more alive than normal and it temporally pulls him out of a more depressed state or it makes him feel more than normal.

Ogata’s fear of rejection and intimacy:

The second aspect of Ogata is that he has an extreme fear of rejection by others. This came from several different conversations on Discord as well as general observations of his behaviors. In the context of the manga, it fits in with the theme that he is seen as a scammer and a betrayer. He betrays Tsurumi and the 27th with Tamai and Co. He betrays Hijikata (who used Sugimoto and Shiraishi as bait) and Sugimoto by shooting him at Abarashi. But another way to look at this is he was always afraid of being rejected and replaced.

He’s bounced between all of these different groups and factions. This gives us insight into the fact that in part he’s looking for a place to belong with good leadership/mentor/father figure, some rifle nerd friends and maybe just some friends. But he’s likely afraid that he will find people he likes and if he likes them he’s terrified that they will reject him. The 27th already rejected him when he was in it with the yamaneko nickname/bullying. He’s likely afraid of being rejected and bullied b/c his previous experiences have trained him to trust no one.

So he does two major behaviors to avoid rejection; 1.) he keeps his distance [aloofness] 2.) he’s sarcastic and sassy to make it look like he isn’t hurt or offended. We see the best example of his distance when he is forced to join Sugimoto and Asirpa’s groups both times. He serves the important function of picking up the rear which is a protective position but also allows him to hang back and disengage. So he is protecting the group, but he’s also protecting his own personal space and isolation. He tries his hardest to not participate in the group despite Asirpa’s repeated guilt trips to say “citatap” and “hinna”. To really make sure others don’t get close to him, he makes sarcastic remarks or may blurt out an honest or truthful statement in a blunt way but almost expects to get ignored or is so used to being ignored he figures he might as well say it.

When Sugimoto singles him out during the last supper at Edogai’s house, he deflects Sugimoto’s statement in a very over the top fashion for him. He usually makes minimal facial expressions or hand motions but there he completely hams it up. My only explanation for his behavior is that he is hurt by Sugimoto’s statement so he instead tries to use his sass and sarcasm deflect that pain.

Ogata’s fear of rejection makes a lot of sense to me; I have struggled with relationships over the years. I was a victim of bullying when I was younger and used the similar approach of sarcasm or the idea that it just didn’t bother me which only inspired people to bully me further. It creates a tough situation, you try to ignore the pain but people get egged on and then try to push you further. Sadly, I my current job has a lot of bullying and I find myself trying to cope with all of these things by myself with little support. I think since I see many aspects of my life in Ogata’s own, that as I read chapters 164, 165 and 169, I cried b/c the pain he was feeling was all too real. Why? Because all of the members of the 27th are adults. You aren’t children or students anymore you are adults and these adults are bullying each other in the workplace, in the case of Golden Kamuy, the military. But when you are so used to being on guard to bullying that you push everyone away. And when you push everyone away you begin to reject others before they can reject you b/c it is safer. Is this a good idea in the long run? Oh hell no. But is it safe and comfortable to do? Oh hell yes.

So, there is more than enough evidence that Ogata has been bullied and he is so afraid of rejection that he tries to disconnect from everyone else in the 27th. And this is where the complication comes in with Yuusaku trying to form a friendship with Ogata. When Yuusaku tries to connect with him, he rejects him without realizing it. Ogata tells him how he copes with killing in a truthful and honest statement; that “he doesn’t feel pain”. We know that he does feel pain but his survival mechanism is to push it down and tell himself he doesn’t feel anything. Plus, if he is depressed than he likely does have much more numbed feelings. [Again, this is where my personal experience is being applied to Ogata.] I still get really emotional when i re-read the scene between Yuusaku and Ogata. Yuusaku wants to connect with Ogata; Ogata sees the hypocrisy of what Hanazawa expects from Yuusaku. Fearlessly inspire young men into battle, but, leave those soldiers to deal with the after effects of the trauma of warfare. Even though Ogata says he doesn’t feel anything, the fact that he sees the contradiction in Yuusaku implies that he knows he’s in pain too but he just can’t see it or refuses to acknowledge it. So to have Yuusaku try to comfort him by stating that “people like that [you] simply can’t exist.” is an inadvertent/accidental way where he rejects Ogata’s survival method at this point in time.

After Ogata’s fever dream, he connected Yuusaku and Asirpa to be people of a similar mindset and background. Now, we still don’t have all of the information about Asirpa’s no killing policy. She is complicit to an extent in the death of people in the hunt for the gold, however, we do not know if Wilk told her that she could not kill or if she decided on her own that she would not kill another human. As they have traveled through Karafuto together, it has become clear that Ogata began to connect with Asirpa. They would go hunting together, he appreciated her saving Sugimoto’s miso for him etc.

He has learned about Wilk with Asirpa and he has filled in the blanks with what he knows from Hanazawa and Yuusaku. Is this hypothesis of his correct? I would guess not, since Asirpa has more true leadership potential and independence than Yuusaku displayed. But it makes a lot of sense that Ogata saw a child of a father who had certain expectations and ambitions for a “chosen” offspring. He thinks that Asirpa was set up to be a flag bearer for the Ainu and other native people’s independence movement.

But the problem is that Ogata started to care about Asirpa as a person and see her as someone who might be his friend. I think he saw her crush on Sugimoto as something that could develop into how his mother felt about Hanazawa so he does his “best” to persuade her from crushing on him further. He also got mothering from her, letting her spoon feed him on numerous occasions and accept all of the birds he shot for dinner her to prepare.

So now Asirpa is the person who has a weird combination of traits of the mother he never had and the purity of his brother. Therefore, all of these emotions mixed up would be confusing for anyone. Asirpa is a person who hasn’t judged him, has said nice things about him and he has repaid her kind behaviours with his own polite ones back e.g. citatap and hinna only loud enough for her to hear. Ogata is a straightforward character. If someone does something for him, he will return the favor (even if Sugimoto doesn’t know that he saved his life).

But I’m talking about how Ogata has a fear of rejection; how does this fit in with Asirpa? This fits in perfectly with what happened between the two of them. Ogata figures out that Asirpa knows what the code is. He likely has decided that this will be the test of their relationship. If she trusts him and accepts him, she will give him the code willingly. This might be the first time that he feels accepted by another person. Why does this happen now?

Because he knows that Sugimoto is alive and if Asirpa knows that he is alive, Ogata is terrified that she will abandon and reject him to return to Sugimoto.

Over the course of several chapters he first tries to get Asirpa to tell him the code b/c he wants some of the gold and that he isn’t greedy. This line of reasoning isn’t good enough, so he then omits some of the details to tell her that Kiro is the one who lead to Wilk being shot but he wasn’t directly involved. But during this whole time Ogata loses his normally cool and rational behaviour and begins to become very upset and panicked as Sugimoto gets closer. This is what leads him to make up his almost believable lies but he pushes it too far. He had all of the elements he needed to sway her, he had enough information but at some point he added in his own wishes and desires for himself/his parents and it creates a ball of emotional confusion. And that ball of emotional confusion is his undoing. Asirpa figures out that he’s lying and just like Yuusaku, she reacts in what is the worst way possible for Ogata. She tells him that she can’t believe anything about him and doesn’t trust him at all.

And that ladies and gentlemen, is the point where he snaps.

At some point during his panic to try go get Asirpa to tell him the code to find the gold, he went from caring about getting the code and the gold, to getting Asirpa to tell him the code b/c he wanted her to trust and accept him. Or maybe this happened earlier on Karafuto after his fever dream or at some point during their travels. Maybe this was after the encounter with the lynx.

The meaning of all of this is that when Ogata is asking Asirpa to give him the code, he changed it from being about the gold to being about Asirpa trusting and accepting him as friend and person.

With the above premise, it means that Asirpa telling him that he’s a liar and she doesn’t know him at all is the absolute rejection of him. He just heard what everyone in the 27th said when he was bullied. And then he snaps, that’s it. He’s been rejected yet again and he then blurs Yuusaku and Asirpa where as he begins to confess to Asirpa he has another monologue and turns Yuusaku’s words against Asirpa [and Yuusaku] there as he is all but begging her to kill him. Ogata is a complete mess by this point, his emotions are all over the place, he’s not sure what he wants, he’s in pain, he’s panicked, he’s hurt, he’s confused, and it was all the result of Asirpa not trusting him. All of their bonding was for nothing, he is worthless as a person and he just gives up . . .

This all makes sense b/c for the entire series Ogata has been seeking someone to accept and love him [not romantic love, familial]. Asirpa was his first chance to maybe feel this and it turned out all wrong. Somewhere in Ogata’s mind he keeps telling himself he doesn’t deserve this because he’s broken. You can’t connect with people because there is something wrong with you. Not Sugimoto, not Kiro, not Tanigaki, not Koito but you, Ogata Hyakunosuke.

With that rejection he just gives up and is so depressed and desperate that he wants her to kill him.

By realizing that all Ogata wanted was for someone to care about him, it makes so much sense that at this point in the story he just gave up.

He’s reached rock bottom with his depression.

He feels so worthless and terrible that it just doesn’t matter anymore, he can’t see anything, he’s in shock. He’s suicidal b/c nothing matters.

More importantly, he’s exhausted himself from trying to cope all of these years and not having a healthy way to deal with his pain and emotions. Everything he has been trying to avoid has caught up to him in the worst way possible.

So returning to the original question; why did Ogata give up so easily? He lost the reason and will that he had to care to keep fighting. It all makes sense to me - when you try to use a short term coping mechanism and you carrying it far into adulthood it isn’t a matter of if will it catch up to you. It is a matter of when it will catch up to you.

#golden kamuy #gk meta #ogata hyakunosuke #chapters 185-188 #chapters 164-165 #chapter 169 #depression #rejection

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yogaadvise · 5 years ago

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The flexibility myth

' I am as well tight to do yoga' must be the most common debate I speak with individuals that claim they want yoga exercise but have actually never attempted it. Obviously, they could just be giving me a polite reason not to take a class however not practising yoga exercise as a result of inflexibility may be the poorest justification available. Not only will yoga assist improve your range of adaptability yet as a matter of fact, being 'rigid' may confirm to be a possession in your technique.

In this article we'll consider what we really indicate by extending, the role of fascia and also muscle mass and also how we can get the advantages of yoga as well as motion without 'overstretching' our bodies.

In the media as well as additionally amongst yoga courses and also teachers, there is a big focus on flexibility. A lot so that it seems like a requirement to beginning yoga exercise. There are really few yoga instructors in the public eye that can not do a complete split or bend in a pretzel form. We now appear to have actually created the circumstance where flexibility equates to being a good yoga practitioner or teacher. For a lengthy time I additionally believed this to be true. I have come a lengthy method given that after that, and also seem like maybe it is time to start countering this extensively held idea.

We seem to have actually created the scenario where adaptability is a prerequisite to being a great yoga exercise specialist or instructor ... I think it is time to begin countering this extensively held idea.

I have actually been a yoga exercise teacher for almost 15 years. Yoga is an integral component of my life. Yoga has actually made me very adaptable as well as has actually had a good as well as healthy and balanced influence on my heart and soul overall. Provided, being 'bendy' looks excellent in images and people are impressed that I can get to beyond my toes. Whether or not that amounts to 'excellent yoga' is an additional question.

No pain, no gain

Over the years, over-stretching my body has actually been the cause of many yoga-induced injuries. I have actually had a lot of I can hardly count them: over-stretched internal thighs, hamstrings, shoulders, and so forth. For over six years, my worn-out as well as overstretched psoas triggered emitting pain in my torso as well as lower back. All those years I tried to heal myself by aligning, reinforcing and practising yoga exercise. It happened to me I could be doing also a lot, too much yoga and means also much stretching.

Most ancient yoga exercise trainings don't encourage taking yoga to the extreme. Doug Keller, an expert in yoga exercise therapy and also yoga exercise ideology as well as background, mentions that Tantric yoga bibles educate small amounts. This small amounts puts on every aspect of life: consuming, hanging out, meditating, practicing asana. This knowledge does not appear to have brought over into the contemporary check out on mainstream yoga exercise. We are bombarded with photos of yogis in ever before more severe positions looking really radiant as well as tranquil. These images appear to suggest that the more you practise, the extra versatile you end up being, the better yogi you are as well as the happier you will be. If we take a closer look you might be surprised to learn this might not hold real. Let's have a look at the technicalities and also effects of stretching the body.

What is 'stretching' anyway?

Stretching is a word that fascia professional Tom Meyers doesn't such as, technically it is not something that you are doing. In carrying out a yoga present, you are applying stress on (different parts of) your body. This strain is distributed along certain lines and draws on the muscular tissues, cells and also joints along a network of connective cells. To truly understand what we are doing, we require to make a difference between placing strain on the muscles as well as the fascia, or connective tissue.

When entering a stretch, the body reacts first by a freeze reaction, called the 'stretch reflex', in which the muscular tissues originally oppose against the stress. Relying on your condition as well as routine, this strain releases after concerning one to three minutes. Muscle is elastic naturally and also when the stretch reflex subsides and also the fibres of the muscle mass release, the muscle mass will go to an extra lengthened state. This is the typical development as well as contraction of a muscular tissue and as a result is not really a 'stretch'. Once the 'stretch' is over, the muscular tissue will contract again to its natural state. Nothing much has really structurally altered in the muscle.

However, it is various story with the connective cells. After the stretch reflex releases, the fibers of connective tissue, which are much less elastic, will start to 'move' to a much more prolonged, more lengthened state. As opposed to the muscles, the connective tissue fibers re-attach in this prolonged state. Connective cells stretches in a manner somewhat similar to just how plastic stretches, if done gradually and also uniformly, the fibers will certainly enter a new kind or shape and also keep that form. If done too swiftly or unevenly, the plastic will tear. Yet to maintain it easy, we will utilize the term 'extending' to explain this process of changing the type of the body.

Types of fascia

Fascia is located all over in the body. It holds your skeletal system together, encloses your body organs, nerves and muscles. It is even found in your eyes! Fascia additionally exchanges details to the brain with the lots of nerves that go through the tissue. For the yoga expert, 3 sorts of fascia are necessary to remember: the ligaments, the ligaments as well as myofascia:

The ligaments are connective tissue that connects your bones. This cells is very fibrous, solid as well as inelastic as well as indicated to hold bones with each other and also stabilise the joints.

The tendons attach the muscular tissues in your body to the bones or attach muscle mass to muscle mass. This fascia is much less thick and also coarse, as well as is less inelastic, yet is likewise not suggested to stretch.

Myofascia runs via your muscle mass and frames your muscles in compartments, a lot like an orange having different parts. The myofascia holds the muscle mass packages together.

Benefits of stretching

Stretching your body is a good idea. It is healthy and balanced for the muscle mass to be extended as well as the myofascia to be under tension, specifically when the body is well straightened. Stretching advertises flow and also therefore keeps the joints and muscular tissues adaptable as well as juicy as well as maintains the body supple as well as vibrant. On top of that, connective tissue is accountable for your body awareness. Supple as well as moisturized fascia offer you a sense of spaciousness as well as connectedness to your body as the nerves in the fascia can efficiently interact with your brain. Additionally, the connective cells in your body is also partially accountable for your proprioception, your body's sense of where it remains in room and how it connects to itself. The technique of yoga and extending muscular tissues absolutely add to body awareness as well as overall good wellness. You can additionally take pleasure in these advantages without being able to put your legs behind your head.

The technique of yoga and also stretching muscles absolutely contributes to body awareness as well as general great health and wellness. Yet you can also delight in these advantages without having the ability to place your legs behind your head.

Overstretching

Sometimes in course, when I see my pupils battling to grab their toes in Paschimottanasana (Seated Onward Fold), I amusingly remind them: 'There is no prize, you will certainly not obtain enlightened when you reach your toes'. Although that generally obtains a chuckle or more, trainees seldom back off and also continue to attempt to pull themselves deeper right into the present, to extend beyond where they are.

In my experience, flexible individuals are in general more at risk of wounding themselves than rigid individuals when practicing yoga. Several bendy pupils have a propensity to bypass a core security and also honesty in their body, When extending in a yoga exercise position, the pressure is not isolated, yet pulls on an entire system of connective cells, which leaves them susceptible to overstretching of the weak components. This can result in awful as well as sometimes chronic circumstances, which I have seen a few of in my years of teaching. Yoga exercise experts pursuing even more and also more versatility increase their threat of tendon, tendon and joint overstretching, with numerous consequences.

The potential damage

Every time you experience 'sore muscles' after yoga exercise or workout, you have actually torn muscle fibres. Micro tears in the muscle mass are normal with workout as well as heal quickly. Muscular tissues have great blood circulation which permits regrowing cells to work successfully and quickly. These mini muscular tissue rips are various from tendon rips, which are quite typical in yoga exercise due to overstretching. This sort of tear takes a lot longer to heal (approximately a year is not uncommon). Overstretching tendons takes the damages one action even more and sometimes can bring about persistantly unsteady joints. Way too much pulling on the joints when stretching is most likely the riskiest sort of overdoing it as well as the one that has the lengthiest long lasting effect on the body.

A typical instance of overstretched tendons as well as ligaments are hamstring muscle attachment splits, likewise referred to as 'yoga butt'. This is quite usual and also usually triggered by extreme onward flexing or hip flexion positions, such as Uttanasana (standing onward bends) or Paschimottanasana (Seated Forward Fold) variants or asymmetrical hamstring stretches such as Utthita Hasta Padangustasana (Extended Standing Hand to Huge Toe pose).

An instance of tendon over-stretching is overstretching the legs in postures that put the sacroiliac (SI) joint (in between both sides of the sacrum at the back of the hips) or the lower back under also much stress. The SI joint can then dislocate and also cause a host of problems in both the legs and the back, such as emitting discomfort in the pelvic area or sciatic nerve discomfort. This can be triggered by severe extending in variants of Eka Pada Rajakapotasana (One-Legged King Pigeon position) or Ardha Matsyendrasana (Fifty Percent Seated Spine Twist).

When much less adaptable fascia is a benefit

Many teachers have only restricted understanding concerning the possible risks of extending therefore may motivate pupils to move deeper right into a present than what might be healthy and balanced for them.

Having stiff muscle mass, or a lot more precisely less flexible fascia, constricts your flexibility and also at the exact same time protects your joints as well as ligaments from overexertion. The stability of your body secures you versus injuries like the ones I defined above. You might never do a full split, however you will probably never destabilize your sacroiliac joint either. So the next time you are motivated to extend on your own beyond your limitation, pick up a moment and consider what you are trying to achieve.

Honour your yoga body

While it may seem or else, it is not my objective to scare you away from yoga exercise with this post. The advantages of practising mainly surpass the dangers connected with the method. It's not the practice of yoga that is the problem, but how we practice yoga exercise. We can obtain so focused on obtaining someplace, coming to be something, that we bypass ourselves and unconsciously place our health and wellness at risk.

It's not the practice of yoga exercise that is the issue, yet how we practice yoga. We can obtain so fixated on obtaining somewhere, coming to be something, that we bypass ourselves and also automatically place our health at risk.

We tend to forget that one of the most useful part of our yoga exercise method is merely listening to our bodies. There is no such thing as 'a yoga exercise body'. There is just your body. As well as that body is excellent for yoga.

Tips to keep in mind when extending:

Listen: pay attention and relax. Try to feel your body prior to going into energetic extending. Do you notice any type of compression partially of your body? Are your joints open or locked? Do components of your body feel vulnerable or delicate? Are you holding your breath and also stress in your body? The far better you listen to your body, the far better you find out to stretch.

Align: feel as well as root down via your bones and also skeletal system. Muscles work most optimally when the bones are well lined up in their joints. Lining up the bones will decrease unneeded stress because you largely count on the security of your skeleton rather than your muscle system. Keep all your joints open not locked, specifically, knees, wrists, elbows, shoulders as well as spine.

Go slowly: over-stretching is conveniently done when you hurry right into the position. When you remain in a rush, is this because you are not fully existing as well as alert (see # 1)? Are you bringing your difficult workplace day onto your mat? Or is it because the present is perhaps a bit past your ability as well as you desire to do it anyhow? Going slowly enables you to see your motivation extra clearly and shows you where your limits are.

Boundaries: work within your limits, wrong approximately or over them. You have 2 sides - a tough edge and a soft side. Job in the room between these 2 boundaries. Doing so will enable you to go for a longer amount of time (this boosts the possibility of producing architectural change) and also maintains your body more secure in the pose.

Use props: props are greatly taken into consideration by yogis to be for the unskilled professional or just used 'when you can not appropriately do yoga exercise'. You can do yourself a big favour by going down the disagreements you may have versus props. Props are your friend, they help you to really feel more (like a block in between the internal thighs), to sustain you as well as offer security. People come in all various dimensions and also measurements - yogis also! If you have lengthy legs and shorter arms making use of two blocks in Uttanasana (Standing Forward Bend) is just making use of common sense.

Engage: in a dynamic, active class, constantly, always involve your muscular tissues to maintain your joints as well as muscle mass before proactively stretching your body. Many injuries originate from the lack of proper interaction in the body. Activation of your muscles compresses the muscular tissue fibers so the muscle comes to be much shorter, which minimizes the danger of hazardous stretching.

Enjoy: exactly how do you feel in the pose and also in the stretch? Are you struggling? Are you tired? Or does the position make you feel vivid and active? Taking pleasure in as well as feeling satisfaction in your body is the reason a yoga exercise technique is so deliciously succulent! Safe stretching is a huge part of that. When you stretch, there might be a feeling of opening part of you that has actually not been seen for some time, that has actually not relocated and also feels numb or stuck. Dealing with these parts of your body need to be a very satisfying facet of your practice and also a motivator to find back to your method once again and again.

Stretching the hips in standing poses

Risky stretching

' Hanging' in the hips by enabling the back leg to go down to the flooring develops unbalanced tension in the hip flexors.

This 'hanging' potentially compresses the sacroiliac joint when stretching.

Safe stretching

Draw the legs to the midline as well as lift the back leg to produce a safe stretch in the hip flexors.

Engage the lower belly muscular tissues to line up the pelvis and sacrum.

Now, from the facility of the pelvis, stretch out via both legs as well as up via the spine.

Stretching in Adho Mukha Svanasana

Risky stretching

Dropping the arms toward the floor while pressing the upper body down and also 'hanging' in the shoulders draws the shoulder blades off the back ribcage. This presses the shoulder joints and can be harming to the potter's wheel cuff muscles.

Lack of muscle engagement in the legs and also excessive forward tilt of the pelvis subjects the hamstrings to overstretching.

Safe stretching

Press the hands uniformly right into the flooring to involve the arm muscles in a balanced means. From the hands draw the muscles up 'into the shoulders'.

Press your feet into the floor as well as engage the leg muscles, pushing the tops of the thigh bones and also rest bones back.

Then draw the stomach in and also from the breast bone stretch out to the hands and also to the feet.

Stretching in Uttanasana

Risky stretching

When the hips is behind the ankle joints it promotes 'hanging' in the hips as well as hamstrings.

This imbalance and lack of muscle interaction presses the hip flexors, produces too much stress in the sacroiliac joint and also enhances the threat of overstretching in the rear of the legs and also pelvis.

Aligning with a block

Bring the hips directly over your feet. Use a block to involve the internal thighs, 'hug into your midline' as well as turn on the leg muscles.

Keep the knees soft and also press the (internal) thighs and rest bones back until the hips suggestions forward and the sacrum is the highest factor in the present. For individuals with tighter hamstrings and also internal thighs, flex the knees as high as required until the forward tilt happens.

Draw the lower tummy in and hug the outer hips, till you really feel a 'lift' in the front body.

Safe stretching

Keep this alignment and also stability in the legs, outer hips and belly.

Now press down from the centre of your hips to your feet and from the pelvis lengthen through your spinal column as well as crown of your head.

Stretching in Bhujangasana

Risky stretching

Lack of muscular interaction in the inner upper leg muscle mass, divides the legs away from the midline, compresses the sacrum as well as creates too much back extension (arching).

Unengaged hand and arm muscular tissues develop up stress in the wrist joints as well as permits the arm bones to transfer to the front of the body. This creates compression in the shoulder joint and upper back.

Pressing the head into the neck creates compression in the neck and also overstretching in the throat.

Aligning with a block

Use a block between the inner thighs to assist develop stability in the core line of the body. Activate your inner upper legs by pushing into the block and 'roll' the leg bones internal. This helps to align the legs, the hips as well as the lower back.

To protect and also maintain the reduced back in the backbend, attract the reduced stomach muscular tissues in.

Safe stretching

Keep the positioning and security in the legs. Extend the sides of your midsection and release your shoulders down. From your hips extend evenly through legs and spine.

Press the hands (or fingertips) into the flooring and also turn on the arm muscles from the hands into the shoulders. Draw the shoulder blades onto the back.

From the engaged limbs as well as core, now relocate your chest forward (not directly!) in between your arms.

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darkouter · 5 years ago

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barty headcanon & general meta: surviving the imperius curse

personals don’t reblog! if mutuals think this is interesting enough to apply to their muses who have been put under the imperius curse before, feel free to tho.

ANYWAYS, time to talk about the implications of being controlled by someone completely for long periods of time! let’s have a psych student ramble about the symptoms of trauma that survivors of the imperius curse are likely to face. in fact, to tie this to cecil’s psychiatric health practice that he opens up on the wizarding side of london, i’d like to think that barty in his care leads to him forming this draft of criteria for a disorder that is closely linked to that of ptsd, but specific to those who are put under the imperius curse.

quick note: i take heavy inspiration from netflix’s jessica jones series when it comes to how mind control works, as i already have an extensive concept built around it for my kilgrave rp blog, and you’ll see that influence throughout this post if you’re familiar with the series (if you expected me to not bring mr. eggplant emoji into this, you’re a foole, as he taints everything that i do and is a pervasive parasite to my very soul). poison ivy, too, provides some direction for this.

first: what does it look and feel like to be under the imperius curse?

what we know: it is pleasant to be under at the time, possible (but hard) to overcome through sheer force of will, it can last for an indefinite amount of time, harry could successfully perform the curse on the fly without having practiced on anyone ever before, and j.k. bowling ball really should have defined it more so i wouldn’t have to write this post.

i think there are three main factors that inform how someone feels, thinks, and acts under the curse: 1.) how much autonomy the spellcaster allows them, 2.) how adept the spellcaster is at the curse, and 3.) the will of the person being controlled. each of these may impact how lucid the cursed individual is/acts.

generally speaking, victims do not find the experience to be unpleasant for the duration of the spell. in fact, it is usually calming and enjoyable. victims are free of stress and responsibility due to lack of control, and it’s akin to being heavily sedated. so. imagine being incredibly high, and that’s how thought patterns and emotions are affected. this may be disrupted when there is a trigger of some sort that causes a victim to fight. an example is extreme cognitive dissonance, such as in situations where the victim is so severely against performing an ordered action that they begin to fight against it. at that point, they may become confused and upset due to conflicting desires. the curse doesn’t simply make people do things, but it makes people feel that they want to do those things, so the artificial desire battling with real desire will cause internal distress and debate over what to do. the caster’s ability will compete with the will of the cursed in this instance.

casters may gain better control by actively engaging with the individual in close proximity, using their wand, and only separating for short amounts of time. on the other hand, the cursed may have a better chance at fighting if there is distance, lack of engagement, and long intervals of separation. the spell is liable to lose its strength over a period of time away, where it is not maintained. i like to kind of think of the spell having a battery life: maintaining strength when the caster is nearby, charged / being refreshed when the cursed is engaged with through use of wand, and draining at other times. a strong will fighting, particularly if due to an outside stimulus’ influence, drains it much faster.

barty remained under control of crouch sr. during his absences, but the dark mark’s appearance and death eaters showing up at the quidditch world cup was enough of an emotional trigger to give him the desire for freedom to act. crouch sr. was not in his presence to strengthen the spell, so he broke out of the curse. however, after being stupefied and taken home, he went back under. the imperius curse’s influence is something that is an active, ongoing mental battle. with crouch sr. back in his presence and without the same motivation inspired by the dark mark, barty could not overcome it. he had to be freed by tom.

now, the curse lasts indefinitely if it is maintained well enough. so how do people operate when they are not actively being given orders? how much autonomy do they have? all of those three factors would have to affect this. the cursed may have more autonomy if the caster gave it, if they are not competent enough with the spell to maintain control that is complex and involves the ability to set rules, and/or if the cursed has a strong enough sense of self for their personality and instinct to show through.

when harry used the imperius curse, the man he cursed (i’m not looking it up, it was some guy during deathly hallows when they broke into gringott’s) had to be given constant orders to operate. when harry wasn’t actively making him do something, he would look mindless. harry had to constantly be cognizant of him if he had wanted the curse to seem natural because he was not good enough at the spell to balance how much control the man had over himself. people who are not good at the spell may have something like this happen, with someone becoming a total zombie, or with the opposite occurring, the cursed are too autonomous (think of playing a video game character normally versus the sims; both need to be actively piloted/monitored for different reasons).

crouch sr. was skilled in his use of the imperius curse, and he established specific rules that served to keep barty isolated but did not otherwise cause friction with anything unnecessary, which allowed him to operate somewhat normally. he was still dazed and would not have been able to pass as someone who was not under the curse, but crouch didn’t need barty to fool anyone because the entire purpose of the curse was to hide him away entirely. their house elf winky helped him function where barty needed it. barty didn’t have a strong enough sense of self nor the will to break free under normal circumstances, as these are large flaws that have always been part of his personality. there have been times where the curse broke by accident of some kind or because something prompted barty to will it, but learned helplessness caused him to not actually do anything about it. with regulus gone, tom fallen from power and disappeared, his mother dead, his friends turned on him after the trial, the last loyal death eaters imprisoned, and him supposed to be imprisoned/dead, there was nothing for barty. even during the few times he managed to gain his freedom from the curse, he didn’t actually have any freedom. there was nowhere to go, no one to turn to, and not much of a life worth living. frankly, being back in control of himself would allow his severe depression to come forward, so the imperius curse was preferable. at least he would be content under it.

second: what happens after escaping the curse? what are its lasting effects?

there are a lot of potential issues, but some concepts i think are important: i feel like people would struggle with their sense of self, trust in their own judgement, and feel the need to make sure they don't feel that loss of control ever again.

immediately upon coming out of the curse, people are likely to be in a fugue state or otherwise very confused. decision making may not feel natural. they may dissociate, as they have not had full control, may feel like they still don’t have it, and the entire ordeal may have felt like an out of body experience. being thrust back into their own body may feel unreal, and they might suffer from depersonalization (feeling that they themself are not real) or derealization (feeling that the world around them is not real).

they might have permanent cognitive side effects from being in a dream-like, trance state for so long (where the above symptoms become chronic). they may have to deal with wondering how much of what they did was themselves and what was the imperius curse. there may be feelings of guilt and general self-blaming for their behavior, for not having enough will (i.e. in their minds, being too weak) to break free, or for being caught in the first place. they may feel violated, used, or dirty. maybe sometimes wonder if they ever actually got out from the curse, wonder if they can trust themselves to make decisions. deal with paranoia that they might be trapped or controlled, whether by means of being cursed again or even just in other, more subtle ways (like socially, wanting to avoid ever feeling obligated to do things for other people; physically/magically, wanting to be able to fight; emotionally/mentally, not wanting to be made to feel weak). they could possibly become hypervigilant and anxious and/or depressed. some may have memory issues, whether amnesia surrounding time under the curse or problems organizing timelines in chronological order. in general, organized thought may be impaired to some degree. it may be hard to form interpersonal relationships due to lack of trust, feeling misunderstood, insecure, and wanting to self-isolate.

the trauma is unique to the individual, as it depends entirely on what someone was made to do during their time under the curse and for how long, which can be wildly different from person to person. someone who was controlled momentarily in order to steal something for someone versus someone who was controlled for a long period of time and committed a variety of acts like murder might not have much in common between their emotional responses.

for barty, it really just exacerbated issues he already had — he suffered from dissociation, dependency issues, and insecurities about sense of control before azkaban and the imperius curse, due to crouch’s abuse and his own latent mental illness. because it lasted so long for barty, his brain chemistry and thought patterns have been twisted more severely than most survivors. he suffers from disorganized thought, similar to that of someone with schizophrenia or dementia. emotions are more likely to win over logic at times. there are some actions he simply struggles with doing, and there was a period of time post-curse where he couldn’t write coherently and had to make moody do it for him. he loses his train of thought at times, his memories are fuzzy, and he has no clear understanding of who he is as a person because he wasn’t able to be one for so long. he also has a very hard time communicating with people due to the isolation.

#| OOC: HEY GHOULS!#| HC: BARTEMIUS CROUCH JR.#this is long but ive gotten a few questions abt how i view the imperius curse so here !!!!!!!!#ral told me to write it and i am but her servant..................... perhaps she has put me under the curse ? spooky

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constablegoo · 6 years ago

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alright so i have. a lot of questions and thoughts on changeling physiology

tldr it’s quite unorganized so; asexual reproduction, shifting is a natural instinct but can be expanded through study and discipline, Form is easier to reproduce than Function, changelings passively absorb energy via background radiation, conservation of mass... ha, energy efficiency, regeneration is an aware but subdued/vulnerable state, you can sneak up on odo but not most changelings, exaggerated and inhuman movement, language and body language learning, Viscosity tm, vital organs exist, injury and physical tolerance, focusing the senses...

asexual reproduction. loads of possibilities here. they might split in two (which could mean they’re really all clones of one another or else slight variations on an original) or lob a bit of themselves off which then begins to form a new individual. they might fragment off and start growing more individuals from themselves until they’re mature enough to carry on, or they might produce spores!!! OR they might reproduce the way coral do. the main complication is that this is meant for simple or single-celled organisms and also maybe leaves them all more vulnerable to that Clone Problem of being wiped out by a single virus. but perhaps their ability to mimic other types of dna is involved in providing new individuals with a robust enough mix of original genes to be baseline Adaptable

also a problem with simple organisms is that they propagate Extremely quickly and tend to be short-lived and. unintelligent (think fruit flies) so - changelings could have a fair few ‘simple organism’ traits but are ofc complex in reality

the mimicry -- do they actually become the material?? if you scan a changeling as a rock, they have the make up of a rock. but what about more complex materials? or systems? like fire? that requires energy input. im gonna go with: 1. depends on skill level 2. some things like fire they can mimic visually, maybe even with proper light and heat, but does take energy to do so.

speaking of which HOW do they get energy. i think i rambled about this a little in another post, but basically im going with the idea that they’re sort of filter feeders on the dust of the universe... they’re just VERY energy-efficient and collecting these little bits of radiation being thrown around space is a passive activity. i.e. odo probs wouldnt even know he does it, even though he does it constantly.

um. conservation of mass. the biggest thing ive seen odo turn into is that blob-monster, which was maybe 10′x10′ ? 15 at most? large, but probably somewhat unstable, and not huge. the smallest thing in canon is probably the mouse. ive seen the idea that humanoid-formed odo might be. hollow? there’s no need for him to actually form internal organs or any of that, its all surface-level, and besides. if we’re going with the idea that they can reproduce Form more than Function, they wouldnt actually work. he doesnt even eat anyway, so why waste that kinda energy?

that said!! there are probably some basic object functions they can reproduce. im gonna say that maybe your average changeling isnt going to be able to make a microwave that actually microwaves (not without a great deal of practice and scientific understanding), but could more easily become a lamp, for instance, that does actually turn on. that means they have some ability for bioluminescence, but again that requires energy and would shorten the time they can hold that shape.

regeneration obvs. is a chance to re-acquire energy, but we’re told odo doesnt sleep - it’s still a resting state, but maybe he’s still at least somewhat aware of his surroundings, if a bit unable to focus. he certainly seems to still undergo thought processes, etc. but if attacked in this state, he’ll be quite vulnerable, esp if he’s just reached hour 16, but he wont be completely defenseless. WAY more likely to hide than retaliate though, esp depending on where in the cycle he happens to be at the time -- even if that werent also kinda his personality. maybe its like bein rly rly rly tired but ur brain wont keep quiet.

kinda enjoy the idea of changelings becoming a little translucent or misshapen when they zone out. it takes some effort, practice, skill to remain present. a habit!

im sure he doesnt really bother to maintain constant humanoid-shape unless someone’s likely to look at him. could see him MAYBE being caught unawares, on occasion, whoops. very rarely, but how embarrassing

on that note, if you’re able to sneak up on odo and surprise him, he might momentarily jump a little out of shape (like a cartoon, exaggerated). other emotions like disgust or haughtiness might come off a little exaggerated too

at large, humanoid body language is a learned language for changelings, even if they can pick it up very quickly

odo’s got his humanoid walk cycle down pretty good but probably not perfectly, actually. i sort of imagine it could be a little more flowing -- not always -- but if he’s doing something he normally doesnt do, he moves a little less like a human bc he hasnt practiced it enough

ok whats the viscosity of changelings? like..... really runny and liquidy? j.... jelly? i kinda refer back to single-celled organisms again. cytoplasm w control.

in fact odo probably has some very simple (or maybe very complex, considering, but able to disguise themselves accordingly. so simple-appearing?) organs going on in there as well as cytoplasm of some sort

they dont sweat, they dont bleed, they dont smell, they dont taste, they dont sleep

they DO see, hear, are tactile, and feel most emotions that humans do. some of that emotions stuff is cultural

losing a little tiny bit of themselves (injury, i.e., a bit chopped off by a weapon) probs doesnt really hurt much more than getting a scrape, but if u like chop em in half thats gonna be Bad. but most surface level damage is just like getting a haircut or something, no pain. re: that scene with odo stopping the turbolift like.... that could’ve been painful

FOCUS!! sight, sound, etc - im writing senses as things that dont necessarily need to be located in the. face. bc they dont. but im thinking odo tends to concentrate it of course to better interact with others. that means technically - he could. .. . ‘accumulate light sensors’ and see out the back of his head, for instance, even without forming eyes, but because odo’s odo and he’s really trying to fit in he usually wont do that sort of thing and you can still sneak up on him. sometimes he even forgets he can do that kind of thing, when he’s humanoid-formed (unless he’s startled -- then he might revert to more ‘natural’ reactions) - bc he really hasnt spent any time with his people at all

this doesnt even get into the Great Link and changelings being a little bit touch-psychic

another thought !! i like the idea of one limitation being that he has to have seen / experienced in-person / studied / encountered / been exposed to an object, person, or animal to really become it. that’s where skill comes in -- some things are going to come very naturally, like shapes that are common in the universe such as rocks or. plants, in star trek . they can learn by description or by looking at images and making their best guess, but its not gonna be totally accurate. so - some shapes come from study, like humanoids, and others come more by instinct like rocks and dirt and water, like learning to talk.

so when did odo meet a klingon targ omg

also means they are instinctually EXCELLENT observers, both of material and behavior

but imagine a bird or smth speaking in odos voice yikes

speaking of speaking, odo speaks bajoran and doesnt really know any other languages on his own, except workable cardassian. i.e. he’d have to learn to speak seagull

what if bc odo’s learning and sort of stunted in skill bc of his upbringing and inhibitions his face is..... actually made of latex, sometimes, like when he needs to save energy he goes Low Poly Rendering cos its close enough, and easier, and he’s interacted with plenty of latex and other Made materials bc he’s hardly lived at all anywhere that wasnt built-up by life forms. (probs partly why he seems so interested in practicing other animals and plants -- natural shapes are not shapes he’s been as exposed to, so they’re more interesting - and dynamic - than say, furniture / appliances)

he gives off no body heat, but neither is he cold. room temp, with a wide tolerance

can survive in space and vacuums

they seem somewhat naturally stronger than humans, esp as a sturdy material

some of them can become a magnet, thats just aligning poles / can then reproduce some basic electronics functions

at least they seem to have pretty comparable intelligence to humans so that’s relatable

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davids69811 · 3 years ago

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If there specify shots you yearn for in the course of your special day, throw all of them right into the deal so that there is no confusion or misstep. Lots of freelance photographers will definitely partner with you just before your day to include the photographes you intend to the master chance listing. It is actually constantly a great concept to cover your tracks as well as place these right into the wedding ceremony digital photography contract as properly, making sure you receive your favorite photos.

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Know what will happen in the event your wedding professional photographer has an emergency situation or becomes ill the moment of your wedding. Will she or he hire other people to shoot? Will she or he arrived shoot your wedding in any case? Who will exist to record your memories? The wedding celebration digital photography agreement need to have a clause in it explaining the choices just in case an urgent should come up.

Presume It Over

Hang around very carefully reading the wedding digital photography deal, reviewing it along with your fiancé, and seeing to it that you know and allow every single little bit of what is on that newspaper. This will definitely provide you the peace of mind you are entitled to when reserving your wedding celebration photographer, understanding that this person will definitely exist to see every tear, every laugh, every squeeze, as well as every kiss of your special day.

Digital photography, a fairly latest invention, has actually possessed primary ramifications in each elements of digital photography, certainly not least wedding ceremony digital photography. The condition wedding photography, through the way, pertains to the photographic task that happens previously, in the course of and also straight after wedding services. Such digital photography is looked at an important component of the wedding ceremony; significantly like the white colored gown, the wedding celebration and also the procession cake. A present day wedding event without photography would certainly be actually considered incomplete, equally as a modern-day (western-style) wedding event would certainly be actually thought about inadequate without a covered for the bridegroom and his new bride to 'cut.'.

When the chosen digital photographer carries out certainly not show up, currently one result that digital photography has possessed on wedding event digital photography is that there is zero longer much panic. The Y creation might not definitely recognize this, yet simply a handful of decades ago (just before the advancement of the electronic camera), photography was a very specialized art/science: like medicine or even engineering. Just the experts might perform it. Certainly not everyone might be a freelance photographer. If on a wedding celebration time the chosen professional photographer fell short to show up, panic was certain to establish in. It was actually not unheard of wedding celebrations even being actually delayed on that profile merely; for how could the bride and groom mention they were actually tied the knot when there was actually no photo evidence for the truth?

With the help of electronic photography, everyone is right now a digital photographer. Also several present day phones possessed digital electronic cameras. So if the tapped the services of photographer stops working to turn up, that is his loss. Someone will certainly take their electronic video camera (or even their phone), as well as start tape-recording the activity for posterity. No demand for panic whatsoever.

Without a doubt, cash-constrained married couples are actually deciding certainly not to hire a digital photographer for their weddings. Somewhat, among the close friends in presence, who possesses the feeling to make use of a digital electronic camera well is actually appointed the job of hitting at the very most vital minutes. A lot better still, 2 different pals are actually assigned the task, therefore that just in case one does not get it straight the various other one undoubtedly will.

Broaching 'obtaining it right,' the second effect of digital photography on wedding digital photography is that it has decreased the likelihoods where wedding photos obtained 'shed' (overexposed) or even typically ruined. The precursor to electronic photography, which was film-based digital photography utilized to be actually available to therefore many complications. In various other words, therefore lots of traits can go inappropriate. Not so along with digital photography. Should something go wrong still, there is actually always a possibility that someone else clicked on away at the activity in concern (viewing that everyone is actually a photographer right now), so that the harm is actually marginal anyway.

The third effect of electronic photography on wedding celebration digital photography is that it has produced it less costly. Now compare this along with conventional digital photography - where there was actually constantly the price of the movie to contend along with (or at least the threat of running out of movie where the expense was actually not a concern) - and you observe just how much of an improvement digital photography is actually.

Just how much carries out qualified photography cost for your wedding event? Know exactly how to establish a practical photography budget using this resource to wedding photography costs as well as rates.

The Going Rate for Professional Photography.

When establishing your wedding photography budget plan, remember that you obtain what you purchase. You should assume to spend at the very least $1000 on having a qualified wedding celebration freelance photographer record your wedding (not including the genuine printings and also various other extras). Prices, certainly, will certainly differ relying on skill-set amount, adventure and also geographical location (local area locations are typically considerably greater). The size of your wedding celebration can easily likewise impact the photography price, as added guests may increase the quantity of your time that the digital photographer need to invest at your activity. For an event of a lot less than 100 visitors, a wedding photographer are going to typically dedicate four-six hours of time. For a much larger wedding event of 300 or more guests, a freelance photographer may possess to invest eight-ten hrs on the job.

Comparing Photographer Rates.

Most wedding celebration freelance photographers will certainly provide standard costs information over the phone or even on their internet sites, so you may make use of a preliminary online search or even phone telephone call as your initial action towards finding a freelance photographer that matches your budget plan. Establish what services as well as options you wish to begin with, at that point match up freelance photographers' costs for offering those details choices to figure out which qualified jobs within your wedding celebration digital photography budget.

It is necessary that Wedding Photographers in Toronto relate to offer companies along with the newest photography tools. A wedding ceremony photography provider is actually gauged through lots of elements, factors that include excellent solution and help, just before the wedding event, throughout the wedding event festivity and after the wedding ceremony. Then there are actually excellent prices and deals delivered due to the wedding ceremony digital photography company. The deals that are actually delivered figure out the manner in which you are going to opt for a wedding digital photography business having said that, an additional incredibly essential element to consider is the style of tools that a wedding celebration photography firm in Toronto makes use of.

Using the most recent innovation as well as equipment represents the condition symbolic representation of a wedding photography business. The explanation that is actually identifies it from many various other firms that they are taking on in Toronto is given that with a lot of photography firms shooting wedding in Toronto, it is actually a significant possibility to optimize off, the attitude that lots of companies have it to enter rapidly and hustle couple to become by tempting them at wedding celebration programs, the world wide web and by handing out flyers on autos in feast venue car park. Choosing to have the most recent in photography video camera tools and also the most recent in software application technology to modify the wedding event photos separates a Toronto wedding photography organization from a pack of providers that merely feel that all that is demanded is the potential and an electronic camera to take a photo.

Don't acquire our company inappropriate, there is a great deal that is actually called for in taking an appropriate image, things like the suitable slants of a profile, effective lighting fixtures and also several other variables that enter taking proper wedding photographes. Having said that, those points are actually all learned through photography knowledge; having said that, the one factor that distinguishes one digital photography firm coming from the pack is knowing and also understanding that the newest in digital photography equipment plays an essential duty. There are actually firms eager to spend in the newest modern technology and/or devices, viewing a business ready to acquire the most recent digital photography electronic camera is actually an evidence that they recognize what it takes to carry out an excellent task and is actually one thing that must be investigated by a bride-to-be as well as bridegroom to be in search of a wedding celebration digital photography business in Toronto.

In final thought, deciding on a company is actually a practical choice because, with thus a lot to choose from, and also with competition therefore fierce in the Toronto Ontario Wedding Photography field, performing your research on which wedding ceremony photography gives the ideal price, gives you the ideal companies achievable throughout your wedding ceremony day event and also viewing which provider makes use of the greatest and also best modern technology the shoot wedding celebration pics for their clients. Whenever you have the lucky duty of being privileged enough to begin the hunt for a wedding celebration professional photographers company in Toronto for your wedding, think about the option of talking to a wedding event digital photography organization of the devices they observe and also use if it is actually the most up-to-date and also best accessible. It is a choice that you will definitely appear back on and enjoy with.

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Bacterial Vaginosis Treatment Test Astounding Diy Ideas

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Bacterial Vaginosis Treatment Options

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There are many women have successfully identified the possible root causes of bacterial occurs.I am no physician I will also inform you of itching and burning.But the BV they may be a contributing factor to bacterial vaginosis cures that the infection is a haphazard collection of home remedies may cause discharge, the smell, BV can be prevented by the vaginal flora allowing rapid growth of harmful or bad for either of you being re-infected.Getting rid of bacterial vaginosis treatment?There is an overgrowth of the beneficial bacteria so as soon as its symptoms and signs of bacterial vaginosis remedies have been soaked for sometime that bacteria starts growing.

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