#used to be too embarrassed to even try but now im rlly trying to get the hang of it
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#persona 4#yosuke hanamura#kanji tatsumi#yosukan#yoskan#tedpost#tedart#girl help i cant stop drawing kissies.#used to be too embarrassed to even try but now im rlly trying to get the hang of it#also the hands in this are kinda poopie but i couldnt find refs for what i wanted. ah well.#this is unrelated to the animation i was making btw. i took a lil break. to draw more kissies.#btw i just have this. giant file where all my yskn drawings go now. might not be that smart cause if that file is lost its joever.
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re: "good girl" i think they say it once randomly as a joke and its just one of those things that gets him wayyy more than they expected it would. so now its their secret weapon and they use it very sparingly and every single time he gets super embarrassed about it but it works ill tell you what.
#HES MY PRINCESS IDEK.#i dont think it happens naturally all that much because theyre usually in the business of calling each other names and being mean#so i think this would just be a random night where theyre on top and just think it would be really funny. to yank on his leash and call him#a good girl after bullying him into doing something. and well i just think it would get him is all i dont knowwwwwwwwwwwwww#i havr a lot of thoughts on the matter but i will stop for now#but the tldr is that with each other they tend to switch frequently and are always fighting#so i think itd take someone else being in the picture for hog to even realize how much he likes being a good boy :3#and i also dont think fish would be good at straightforward domming in the way he would want and they both know that#so its something he keeps between him and rat mostly. please dont ask me questions abt jrs sex life i have too many opinions on it#anyways. i think even tho fish knows theyd be bad at that they still feel left out so sometimes they go watch. they dont get anything out of#doing that theyre just sort of taking mental notes#all of this circles back to i think fish has always been the more sexually experienced of the two. and romantically.#i dont rlly think hog is a guy who dates i dont think hes ever been that and i dont think he made much time for hookups#(i think its cute if hes a virgin when they meet but 🤷 im not solid on it)#but i think for him hes just only ever fucked this one person and they do a LOT of stuff and it gets the job done so hes just never really#tried anything else. but. and again i have too many opinions on this but i think rat wouldnt be into their usual shteeze#i think hes a bit of a freak in his own way but the blood and weird anger issues is just not doing it for him most of the time#but i do think if given the opportunity he would LOVE to be The Boss for a little bit so i think he and hog can explore that together and it#will work out beautifully for them. this is great because i am not into strict d/s dynamics like that but i know in my heart that hoggy#would be. and i cant do that for him#again i think fish would be butthurt about this. mostly in a 'why didnt u tell me so we could try this :(' and he would go#'because you would suck at it and wouldnt like it' and they go oh. right. well im still mad#ANYWAYS. circling back. i think the good girl thing would be something fish knows that rat doesnt. and idk if theyd tell him or not#because i do think if they tell him he is using that for evil hog is going to be a good girl forever and ever. rat doesnt have the patience#to space it out the way fish does. which idk maybe thatd be good for hog he could work through some stuff...#but on the other hand i think its fun if they DONT tell him and just bust it out sometime when all 3 of them are doing the deed. or whatever#because again they mostly like how embarrassed he gets about it and i think he would be reallyyyy flustered by it#^ this is essentially part of my fantasy about spitroasting my beautiful wife until he cries just so everyone knows#idk i just think when he lets go of himself hed be a very cute and kind of needy subby bottom and i think hed be really easy to fluster#about it and i want it so bad
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once ir reached 3am im gna plsay ml
#everybody is half asleep every time i play matches on ml at that time and its fuking hilaruosu#even me too cuz the enemy cld be right in front of me and ill miss all of my skills like What (rlyl happened and i was embarrassed cuz that#was quite litrly a free kill)#uehm ill try playing tank ig (very Ew unless its esme my queen<3)#i have tigreals special skin but ugghugurhg i wanna play pretty girls!!!!#only dude im allowing myself to play is nolan n cyclops and THATS IT#my nolan skills have degraded terribly tho i used to be so good at him when he first realessed#but he started getting banned every match and overtime i just forgot how to use him</3#+ i prefer to play more sustain junglers now like esme cuz id rather last long in a clash than die w just 1 wrong move#thats why im esme's Biggest Fangirl Ever (real)<3333#but i fucking hate playig as the jungler so thats that ig#I MISS MY MARKSMAN ROOTS but at the same time playing mid is saur fun#i need to sharpen up my luo yi skills cuz i wan buy oracle of sol skin w the promo dias#actually idk how promo dias work#like can u buy any skin or will there be like options to choose from idk#but either way i want to buy oracle of sol soooo bad just bc it looks so pretty#halloween lylia is alr but..... oracle of sol fx...... :(#oh help im looking thru my heores rn and i literally forgot that i have novaria#why did i even buy her bro im so shit at aiming my skills (see: first few tags)#same way i want to play selena but i know that aiming my skills i sjust . not it for me HWKJFGH#ermmemrm for marksman i doubt ill be going back to being a mm main any time soon#and if i hav to play mm in a match ill pick ixia anyway butttt i rlly rlly wanna learn how to play karrie#cuz the pro karrie players i get matched w are literally so scary liek i Cannot farm properly . they alwys zone me out!!!!#and its scary cuz once i get out of my tower she'll fucking punish me for that and i die !!!#one day one day#oooh also beatrix i wanna learn but just looking at her plethora of guns has my eyes confused#so sadge but uhhh i also rlly kinda wanna play melissa but it just seems that shes rlly rlly squishy#like she just has that kill them before they kill u kind of strat and most of the time it works but#i literally get like 20 heart attacks when i see my hp drop below 50% and i usually fumble my skills after that hhaaha#uhm anwyay i think i rambled elong enough her
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baby fever anon again. god u cooked so hard i am. a little insane help,,, also full semi public sex fic PLS i will kiss u
here r some more bcs i can’t help myself except some of them r fluffy cus actually i think cuddling w him would fix me.
woozi finding out his partner has a rlly intense oral fixation. this one’s super self indulgent. but i feel like he’d always see u with some kind of candy in ur mouth or chewing gum n one day he asks abt it. and the conversation ends with his fingers in your mouth as he splits u open in missionary.
going back to the camping thing,,, i feel like you’d both wake up in the morning n go out to join everyone for breakfast and someone would side eye the fuck out of y’all bcs they had to go to the bathroom n heard noises coming from your room last night even though you tried sooo hard to be quiet. later i feel like that member would be like “don’t worry, i won’t tell anyone” n he’d get so embarrassed n red that others would think he’s Still drunk or something.
also taking care of him with a hang over :((( he’d be so clingy and i can see him being kinda snappy at other ppl but not u. if it’s rlly bad he’d probably explicitly ask u to rub his back,, or hold his hair back bcs he feels like he’s abt to throw up. woozi sick fics make me feral. i would take such good care of him UGH.
ohh god. convincing him to go on a little two day vacation when he has a little break n he’s just so,,, happy to spend time with you away from the city. something abt being in nature with you is so much more healing than it normally is. swimming w u,,, he’d pick u up n make u wrap ur legs around his waist as carries u around the pool. he’d fuck you by the pool too. n then he’d ask u to help cook dinner n he’d back hug u as u cut up the vegetables GODDDD. i feel like something would change in ur relationship after a weekend like that,,, like he’d be more comfortable with affection. you’d be sitting outside watching the sunset n he’d just have a moment of realization n then after that he’d try to shower u w more affection, even around other ppl.
another kinda drunk woozi head cannon i have rn cus im,, tipsy rn. if u both have the energy to be around svt but not enough energy to participate,,, he’d make u rest ur head on his thighs n he’d definitely play w ur hair, rub the back of your neck,, n maybe use his free hand to hold one of yours. you’d start playing w his fingers n he’d pull his hand out of your grip to brush your hair out of your face. i feel like he’s rlly only okay w kissing his partner in front of the other people when he’s drunk or tipsy cus the alcohol makes him not gaf. so you’d look up at him w a pout cus u wanted to hold hands n he’d lean down n kiss u so softly n sweetly, holding the side of your face. GOD.
ok that’s all i have for now,,, i have so many thoughts i do not stop thinking abt him ever.
Baby fever anon.. you are killing me
i didnt write more for a few but the oral fixation will have a full fic definitely cuz i relate!! And I will try to write that semi-public fic
MDNI!!
~drunk woozi~
drunk! woozi being cuddly with you in front of his members, the thought of him getting teased not even crossing his mind in that moment
drunk! woozi kissing all over your face to the disgust of the boys, yelling at you two to ‘get a room’ just to be flipped off by the man
drunk! woozi always having at least one hand on you at all times. rubbing your back or playing with your hair
drunk! woozi who settles down with you and the boys to watch a movie, your head resting in his lap, hand holding his
as the movie goes on, you play with his hand, kissing each finger repeatedly
drunk! woozi feeling shy, pulls his hand away much to your dismay, letting it rest on top of your head, petting you gently. you look up at him with a pout
drunk! woozi who will stare at your face with so much love in his eyes and when you look at him with a quizzical look on your face he just whispers ‘i love you’ before leaning down to kiss your lips
~going on a trip with woozi~
finally getting time off from work, jihoon books a trip with you
nothing crazy but he just wanted to relax with you with no responsibilities
the moment you get on the plane with you to your destination he’s already on clingy jihoon mode
he barely sees you because of his hectic schedule so he wants to have you all to himself now
he’s all on you when you finally land and get to your destination.
by the time the sunsets, you two spent so much time together: going out to do touristy things and eating at expensive restaurants
you decide to relax at the pool near where you were staying since it was late and no one could disturb you two
he looked amazing as he dipped into the cold pool, calling for you to join him
“pretty, the water is so nice. come in for a bit” he says to you before plunging his head underneath
you decide to dip in for a bit, the brisk water hits your skin as jihoon holds you by the waist, pulling you in slowly
the two of you linger in the pool, playing around like you were little kids. its definitely very late now but you wanted to soak in all the time you could with him before he had to get back to his routine of long work days
you gaze at him, smiling before saying ‘ thank you,, for this’
“there’s nothing you need to thank me for, pretty” he pulls you closer to his chest, speaking again, “wanted to spend time with you because i missed you.”
“missed you too” you let him peck your smiling lips “my fingers are getting pruney though, jiji. time for me to get out.” he nods, agreeing with you, before taking your legs and wrapping them around his waist, picking you up and walking towards the edge of the pool. he sits you down, your legs still around him and kisses you again. “go inside. i’ll be inside in a bit”
when jihoon comes back you’re cooking a midnight snack as you said. it was just simple ramyeon you found in a random store earlier but when he saw the three wrappers his heart swelled. obviously, you would’ve made some for him but just the little acts that make him love you more.
when you’re snack is finally done, you sit down with him to eat
as you eat, jihoon admires you. you were like an angel to him, glowing its you sit there.
“i love you” he mutters softly to you
“i love you too, hoonie” you reply in the same tone
“i’ve been thinking” he says, shuffling inside his sweatpants pocket “i know this is a bit rushed and i didn’t really plan anything. i was going to ask you while we were out but.. ugh i couldn’t do it. would you want to get married- to me?” he places a velvet box in front of you, letting you open it to see a ring- the ring you’ve dreamed of always having
“hoonie…” tears well in your eyes
“its okay if you dont want to but i thought i’d ask cuz i just want to spend the rest of my life with you and i know i’m always busy but-“
“yes.” you cut him off, “i want to marry you, jihoon” he sighs in relief, taking your hand in his, grabbing the ring out of the box and slipping it on your hand.
“i’m glad” he kisses you, “i love you so much, pretty”
~hungover woozi~
“ugh so bright…” his eyes close as fast as they open, the lights causing the headache he woke up with to get worse.
You wake up hearing his groans, turning to him with concern “are you alright?”
“Just a hangover.. I’ll be fine.”
you rub his chest slowly, “you need anything? water?”
“no, im fine… just need to rest” you nod, leaning down to kiss his forehead
“ill get you some anyways hoonie” you grab him some water and lay down next to him again, “let me know if you need something, okay”
“mmmh just need you” he says, his arms wrapping around you, your warmth slipping him back to sleep.
a/n: anon i didnt not give these justice im sorry😭😭😭 but i hope you like cuz the jihoon drought rn is killing us woozidans
#woozi#seventeen#woozi x reader#woozi thots#lee jihoon#seventeen x reader#svt x reader#woozi smut#woozi drabble#woozi scenarios
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Lovers' Entanglement
Pairings: Dom!Rayne Ames X Reader
A/N: This is my first smut fic, im not sure what Im doing but my brain produced and here I present. I also published this in ao3 but i didnt rlly get any interactions hence why im here pls dont flop :< Tags: mentions of cunnilingus, nipple play, p in v, afab reader, hickeys
It’s an ordinary day for Rayne and Y/N.
Well, not so much since Y/N has been practically bawling her eyes out because he was going to graduate.
In the morning, during the ceremony, and after the ceremony.
She clung onto him at every chance. More so than ever. Her tears staining on the taller boy’s graduation gown. It was quite a sight to see.
“Y/N…” He mumbled, patting her back as she hugged him tight. Rayne did indeed love her, he was sad to part with her but it’s not like their love would disappear with the lower frequency of their visits.
The most embarrassing part was when Principal Wahlberg came over to tease the two.
“My, my if it isn’t the power couple of our school. Congratulations on becoming a full fledged Divine Visionary at the Magic Bureau, Rayne. As for your devastated girlfriend…” He trailed off, cheekily looking at the two.
“I-I’m sorry I can’t greet you properly, it’s just that I’m not ready to not see him everyday anymore Principal Wahlberg…” the younger girl said through tears.
“It’s quite alright… Hahaha, the sweetness of first love in the air... Oh to feel it again at my age. Take care of each other, you two. And congratulations on graduating Max Land, I hope to see your achievements in the future here on out.”
Rayne nodded in approvement.
“Thank you, Principal Wahlberg, I am honored.” Max politely replied, with a small bow.
“This is it. I probably won’t see them again until summer break or whatever.” Y/N sadly thought, her tears still uncontrollably flowing down.
As the principal left, the first years joined the trio to congratulate them. Finn was the first one to suggest a commemorative group photo.
Rayne pulled away from her and pinched her cheeks to try and get some sense into her .“Y/n, we’re going to take pictures now so stop crying okay? For me?” He pleaded, wiping her tears away with his sleeve.
“Eep… Not fair… you… you’re gonna make me cry more,” she sobbed trying her best to keep her emotions in check as she looked up at Rayne pitifully.
Suddenly, he kissed her wet lips to hopefully stop her from crying. And it worked like a charm. Even after the kiss, y/n continued to stare at Rayne with flushed cheeks and swollen lips, the aftertaste of their sweet kiss lingering on her lips. The group went silent after witnessing their blatant display of affection.
“Nooooo! Why?! Why do all the good looking guys snag all the girls?!?!” Dot cried out as usual with murderous intent.
“Please refrain from making love in the eyes of an innocent child,” Lance commented as he clutched his necklace.
“Omg!! Y/n!! Ahhhh~~ Mash, did you see that? That could be us!!” Lemon fangirled while aggressively hitting Mash’s back to make her point.
“Uhm…” the muscle head said with disbelief.
“N-Nii–chan?!” Finn screeched as he hid his eyes behind his hands. He had most definitely never seen such a side of his older brother.
“Rayne you daring man!!” Max exclaimed, going in between the couple and hitting their backs to dissipate the tension, finally putting some distance between the two. “Well, what are you waiting for? Let’s take a picture!”
The students huddled together, performing various poses as they took many pictures.
One heart in the middle formed by Rayne and Y/N while Lemon, Mash and Lance formed one on the left and Dot, Finn and Max formed another on the right.
Then, freestyle poses.
They all put up a thumbs up for one.
And a peace sign for another.
And a heart sign for the last.
“Wow! These came out good!” the brunette said, scanning the photos happily. “Can’t forget to take a trio one too!”
So Rayne, Max and Y/N took another photo.
Then another photo with just Rayne and Max.
“And now, to commemorate the cringiest but slayest power couple of our school, Rayne and Y/N!” Lemon cheered happily for the two, holding out her wand. “3…2…1… Smile!”
Another utter shock.
The photo captured Rayne kissing Y/N on the cheek
“Oi! She said smile, not kiss!” Dot complained, about to jump out into action to stop them from further PDA but Lance kept him in check with his graviole.
“Well, you probably don’t know the feeling of having the love of your life desperately cling onto you just because you guys won’t be seeing each other everyday since you don’t have a girlfriend huh?” Rayne retorted the first year with a fierce look, as he held a blushing Y/N by her waist.
There were just one too many surprises from him. The first years were in absolute disbelief at their senior’s soft attitude towards his girlfriend. The ones who found it hardest to take this in were Finn and Dot.
After the ceremony, the group disbanded, each going back their own way. By tomorrow, most of the graduates would be gone, including Rayne which the Y/N couldn’t handle.
She returned to Rayne’s dorm, helping him pack up. The once minimalist room becomes an empty Adler room. Even his rabbit bedsheet was cleared with the rest of his rabbit related merch.
“Rayne…” Y/N started, her thoughts unclear of this whole situation. Only her fervent emotions screamed, telling her not to let go of her boyfriend at all costs.
“Yes?” He calmly replied, sitting down beside her on the bed.
“I will really really really miss you a lot.”
“I know dear,” he said, sliding his hand on top of hers as he sincerely looked at her with soft eyes.
“Ray-ayneeee” she said, plunging her body on top of Rayne’s onto the bed. “I might start crying again… sorry,” she mumbled as she lifted her head up from his chest.
“Bad girl,” he whispered into her ear while he brushed back the strand of hair. Those two words make her whole body feel all tingly in a weird way. “I don’t want our last memory in a long while to be you waving at me with tears during our send off, like as if you’re sending your husband off to war.” he honestly said, still keeping his hand on her head.
Y/N’s cheeks flushed red from his comment. Rayne had always been the type of boyfriend that cared for his girlfriend by actions, not words. When she had her period, he would always bring chocolates and a heat pack to her dorm and throughout the day, he would check on her wellbeing multiple times. Even on normal days, when they talked during recess and lunch or after school hours, he was thoughtful to bring her something that reminded him of her from time to time. He did what he felt was suitable and even let out his true self. True self as in saying whatever he wanted. Even if it meant the lines he was saying sounded like some confession from a third rate romance novel.
“I guess I won’t cry anymore…” she pouted, her gaze averting away from his as she went back to nuzzling his chest.
There it was again.
That warm fluttery feeling that arises in their hearts at times like these.
But other than wanting to hold each other tight and never letting go, Rayne found himself having a new profound desire. If he were to possibly switch their positions, holding Y/N down on his bed while he whispered sweet nothings into her ears, would she like it? If he were to maybe pull down her collar and mark her neck for everyone to see would it be unfair of him? If only he could say for sure to continue to act on his instincts. After all, it was hard to stay calm with his lover’s breasts pressed up against his chest, her whole body looking as if she was being served on a golden platter ready to be ravished him. He really wanted to devour her right there and then.
“Rayne?” Y/N shyly questioned. She had long noticed his body’s reaction, unsure of what would be the best next course of action for the two.
...
“Sorry, I’ll- I’ll go to the bathroom for a bit.” Rayne enunciated, gently pushing Y/N off to the side and getting up so as not to worsen the awkwardness of the conversation.
But when her soft hand stopped him in his tracks, something inside of him just snapped.
“Y/N, there’s no saying what could happen if you don’t let go of your hand right now.” Rayne spoke as he turned around, his manner of speech getting a little shaky.
“I-I-I know! Well ummm I just thought that since we won’t be seeing each other in a long while… I… I want to help you since you're always by my side…”
He turned, his amber eyes meeting her e/c ones. He hugged her, bringing her face to his chest as he wrapped his arms around her neck.
“Y/N, you know how much I love you right? I promise nothing will change between us. You don’t owe me anything, love. I can wait until you’re ready.”
His words were always so reassuring, always laced with layers of honey, always warm and gentle. But she’s not doing it just to make Rayne happy, if it was with him, Y/N would gladly give her everything, in this case was her body.
“Rayne… I love you too, which is why I want to do it with you, if it’s with you I-”
Before Y/N could even finish her sentence, Rayne was already pinning her down on his bed. He impatiently pushed his lips against hers, their tongues entwining, leaving each other breathless as he pulled away.
“Sorry, I guess I got carried away there.”
He panted, their breaths shaky from the intense kiss. Still, his lips came close to her ear, letting out a husky voice.
“Hey, if you feel uncomfortable at any time, just say my full name. Otherwise, you best believe I’m not stopping until I leave tomorrow. I’m going to make it known to the whole world that you are my woman, no one can take you away from me. You’re mine, only mine. Got that? ”
Her whole face immediately turned into a tomato without any spell. He really was serious about her. He sat up on the bed, unbuttoning his shirt and loosening up his tie to reveal his toned body. Sure, Rayne was a magic user but he still kept fit to increase his stamina, which explained his six pack.
“You like it that much? C’mon, feel it– the only one stopping you is yourself.”
He smirked, enjoying that flustered look on his partner who was inevitably his to be taken. He leaned into Y/N, looking up to meet her longing eyes, that anticipation and excitement. It made Rayne so unbelievably happy that she wanted him as much as he wanted her. He unbuttoned Y/N’s blouse, pulling her bra up in one swift motion as his large hands got to work; cupping her delicate mounds, licking and sucking on her perky nipples, even twisting and pulling, doing whatever he pleased as an Y/N suffered under his control, her moans spilling throughout the empty room.
“Rayne, that's… that’s embarrassing, why are you o-only focusing there…?”
“Hmm I can’t? It’s just that they look so beautiful, baby”
“Nghh that’s not fair”
“Sounds like you’re asking me to pay attention to some other parts too, huh?”
His hand slowly glided down her bare stomach, making his touch even more tingly on her body. Rayne undid her skirt and tossed it aside. Without sparing any time, he touched her wet clit that was practically soaking through her underwear.
“Amazing, you’re already this soaking wet for me when all I did was play with your nipples” He commented, pulling her panties aside and sliding his hand up and down on her swollen pussy.
Unbeknownst to Y/N, he pressed his lips up against her opening, licking her juices, even sucking her clit from time to time before inserting his tongue inside.
“Rayne why–! That place… It’s dirty…” Y/N could only say, before her voice was quickly transformed into pleasure again, the heat of both teens rising. “Hnngh.. Rayne I-I feel weird! A-ah! I think… I think I’m coming…! Mhmmm!” She said, pressing her mouth against her hand to hide her humiliating noises.
The older male pulled back, licking the liquid on his lips clean when he suddenly inserted his two fingers, pressing up against here and there until-
“A-aah!”
Y/n moaned loudly, unable to hide the fact that he had found her soft spot.
“So that’s where you’re weak? Duly noted.” He said, pressing his fingers up against it even more, receiving another moan from y/n. “I want to put it in so bad… y/n please I-” He huffed, his hot breath landing right on the crook of her neck.
“W-wait what about protection?!”
…
None of them had anticipated this moment so they had nothing on them.
“I think Max has some... ” he paused, "I'll be back in a jiffy, love" he muttered, leaving behind a small kiss on her cheek. Before he left, covered Y/N with a blanket and took his robe and left.
Y/n stayed huddled up in the blanket, trying to process what was actually happening. Was it too fast? I mean, they've been dating for like a year and a half so it should be fine right? Plus, it's Rayne. Yes, Rayne Ames. Sudden images of Rayne smiling ever so slightly whenever he met her appeared. That's right, he's the man she fell in love with. They both wanted this, it felt just right with him.
A few minutes later, Rayne had returned with the item in hand. He took off his robe once more and looked at her hungrily. "Are you ready darling?" he smirked, lifting the covers, trailing his rough hands along her leg up to her thighs as he got on top.
It’s not fair how he looks at Y/N with those eyes. How could she possibly push him away in this heat of the moment? She bit her lips in both fear and excitement, her eyes carefully following his every move.
He unbuckled his belt, pulling down his zip to reveal a huge bulge under his boxers. Scary. What was even scarier was when he took off all his undergarments, revealing a monster- no, a huge veiny cock. Y/N immediately yelped in shock, in awe of seeing something so… sinful. Yet, the excitement and pleasure that came along with it was as anticipated.
“Will it even fit…” she nervously questioned, finding it hard to believe that it’s her beloved boyfriend’s dick.
“We’ll make it work. I swear to be gentle, my love. I want us to enjoy this together.”
As soon as he slid on the condom, without any sense of hesitation, all Y/N felt was the warmth lining up her entrance before going all the way inside. That sense of fulfilment shared between the two was unfathomable. Like finally being one complete being, Rayne’s hot member filled her up.
“Your insides are wrapping around me so tightly bunny, how am I supposed to move like this huh? You tell me”
Unable to handle the dirty talk and sudden pet name, she averted her gaze from his in embarrassment. But that wasn’t going to stop him from teasing her further. He cupped her cheeks and made her face his way.
“Tell me how much you want it bunny, because no way we’re going to stop now. Not when I’ve got you right under my thumb.”
“P-please, Rayne, I need you, I need you t-thrusting inside of me… You… Only you can make me feel so incredibly happy and-”
“Well said dear, obedient bunnies get their reward don’t they? Now take it like a good girl for me, Y/N.”
Oh boy, she was in for a ride. The moment Rayne held her hands tenderly while leaning in, she should’ve braced herself. The moment he started moving– those shallow thrusts quickly turned into deep ones.
“Rayne…! Rayne…! Rayne…!”
“Say how good I feel inside you. How am I supposed to know if my baby girl likes it otherwise?”
“Yes…! Mmm! I love it! I love you! R-Rayne… ahhh… kiss please…”
“So needy for daddy hmm~ Don’t worry I’ll spoil you lots”
Those intense thrusts followed by breathless kisses.
Y/N was definitely not going to last until tomorrow.
Night has definitely fallen, but what time was it exactly? Who knows? All the two love birds know is that they’ve fulfilled their wildest desires; and that they’re right where they want to be in life. That feeling of content, reinforced by the way Rayne continues to wrap his arm around Y/N’s bare waist under the bed sheets.
“Was I… too rough?” the concerned male inquired.
“Kind of, my back is sore! Hmph!” she pouted, turning her head away for dramatic effect.
Rayne rubbed her cheeks playfully, trying to console the girl as he entertained her childish behaviour.
“C’mon bunny, don’t be like that~”
…
“Well, do you want to get washed up together? I think we’re both feeling pretty sticky after that endeavour, hmm?”
“Yeah, that does sound like a plan”
Without any warning, Rayne got up and picked Y/N up in one fell swoop, putting her over his shoulder.
“W-wait whaaa?! Put me down!” she demanded, hitting his back with her fists while her legs kicked the air.
“I’m taking responsibility for my actions so stay still my love”
He had forcefully picked her up to the bathroom and turned on the shower.
“We already went all the way, there’s no need to be shy showering-”
“It’s not that, it’s just that I still can’t wrap my head around what had just happened.”
“Well, we made love. It’s as simple as that, my beloved y/n,” he said in a matter of fact tone, leaning down to kiss her forehead gently.
Although they were done for the most part, Rayne couldn’t help but stare in awe at his lover. He had the love of his life, y/n, wrapped around his finger. She was right in front of him, ever so vulnerable as the marks he had left on her were clear as day. Her red, puffy nipples were so adorable, he just wanted to do it all over again.
Like as if Y/N read his mind, she panickedly declared, “You can’t anymore, I forbid!”
“Hmph fine fine” he gave in, not wanting to push her too hard.
The warmth of the water seemed to reflect the content of the two. It was as if they were already living together, in their own little humble abode, where the two did as they wished. Y/N drew soap bubble art on his chest, silly, cute doodles. Rayne, as promised, helped clean her up and they both had a nice, long, much needed shower.
“All done,” Rayne said, as he finally finished drying her hair with the towel.
“Thanks, babe,” she smiled cheerily, feeling very satisfied with the extra amount of attention she was getting.
“I’m merely giving you all the love you deserve, bunny” he simply said, taking the ends of her soft hair, kissing it tenderly, receiving another blush from Y/N.
“It’s illegal to be this smooth,” she mumbled, turning her head away from Rayne.
Her comment resulted in Rayne's soft laughter. That's right, this was the special dynamic they had. They were right where they wanted to be.
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hiiii! i saw you wanted some request so i got you! can i request a jack champion x reader where the two of them are on the avatar set just goofing off and being totally oblivious to their feelings for each other while everyone just ships them so hard thank youuuu i love your blog!!!!!!!
take one !
pairing ! - jack champion x reader
word count ! - 0.6k
a/n ! - BRO ANON ILYSM MY REQUESTS WERE LITERALLY A DRIED UP WELL BEFORE ( except for that rlly good smut request but idk how to write smut 😭 ) i also don't think i did this request justice since ive been writing it this whole week and im sick, stressed, and dealing with a lot of issues about friends and grades [ i'll add photos later ]
you basically grew up on the set of avatar the way of water with all the other younger cast members, who practically were family to you at this point
most people try not to play favorites with their friends but you did and tried your best not to reveal to everyone that your favorite was jack. everyone found out anyway even though you thought you were sneaky
but anyways that's not the point
you and jack were "the duo" on set and loved goofing off with each other even though some scenes took longer to film because of this, no one really minded since they all shipped you two
like c'mon you two were so oblivious to the "flirty" side if your friendship that you guys were basically a lost cause
so one day britain, trinity, and jamie decided something needed to happen like cmon the tension was becoming too unbearable
today you guys needed to film a scene where your character, spider, and the rest of the Sully kids were running around the forest before you guys find the recoms
this scene wouldn't have taken that long if it weren’t for you and Jack
you two were not taking anything seriously, stopping every five seconds because jack would trip you or you would push him into the set structure
and then when james would tell you guys what you needed to improve on the scene, you and jack would be playing roblox or scrolling through memes instead of listening
james had decided you two needed a break because you guys had filmed a lot already and you and jack were not helping get anymore done
so now you and jack were hunched over your phone where you kept making jack try on all these filters and you kept taking pictures for later
jamie came up behind you two and tapped you and jack on the shoulders that were closest to each other and since you guys were hunched over, you ended up kissing while trying to see who tapped you two
you both froze and quickly moved away from each other, embarrassed
you guys heard cheering behind you and looked to see the rest of the cast even the adults, clapping and cheering, while jamie stood laughing his head off
"im going to fucking kill you!" you yelled at jamie, getting up to chase him
"y/n! i need a dollar for the swear jar since you cursed!" trinity yelled, also laughing while you and jack were chasing jamie around
eventually jack tackled him since there was no way you would actually be able to tackle jamie because of the unfair height advantage
after jamie was on the ground, jack kept punching him, enough to slightly hurt but not enough to bruise while you held his legs down so he wouldn't kick jack
then you got the idea to steal jamie's phone and quickly took it from his pocket, tugging on jack's arm to tell him "let's go"
you guys ran into one of the storage closets no one uses and sat down, unlocking jamie's phone easily
"so you wanna talk about what happened there?" jack said, playing with your hair as you leaned your head on his chest, scrolling on jamie's phone
"mmmm no i rather not" you said, looking up and kissing him again
jack pulls you into his arms and you guys end up staying like that for the rest of the day, messing around on yours, jack's, or jamie's phone
and of course everyone knows damn well where yall are put who would want to ruin this sweet moment that they had been working on to push on you two?
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Sorry for the lack of sally face vomit last night guys I was eepy </3 I'm waking up in less than 8 hrs so let's go
THE FUCK YOU MEAN 60%
HOW DID I MISS SHIT I TRY SO HARD TO NOT
-oof not meds being shitty
-"is anyone really happy?" Mood
-hoooly fuck bro I am notnin a good enough mental state for this rn "I mean, were all just going to die anyway. So what's the point" pookie can we donting
-guysss whay the flip this games writing is rlly good
-"it feels like nothing puts me at ease. It's this constant feeling of discomfort like my soul isn't aligned with my body" okay I know this is prolly some ghosty supernatural shit but I feel this so hard ??
-HELP THE SCRAMIMG JUMPSCARED ME SO BAD mood tho
-hey what.
Whats this.
Larry if this means what I think it means
"ITS TIME FOR ME TO GO WHAY NO
Fuck
FUCK
FUCK
FUCK
NO
I KNEW HE DIED BUT HE CANT DIE LIKE THOS
MY HEART IS RACIN
NO
Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
"Don't do anything stupid" the amount of times I've had this told to me and had to tell me loved ones bro
Fuck
No
Guys this isn't even fucking funny this isn't like me getting spooked easy it's like I legitimately am crying so fucking hard right now like mt face is red and all nasty
Shit Larry please
I think this is the most I've ever cried over a game.
Shit
Fuck
No..
Please.
I knew he died.
It can't happen like this I'd rather anything else god damnit why.
Im shaking
okay in texting one of my friends and he's kinda helping a Lil 👍
He was supposed to move in with us.
He's in the treehouse.
Fuck.
Fuck.
Shit.
I'm sorry I know this isn't entertaining to read but
Fuck..
Larry why.
Larry face.
No ghat was really well done. And that's what makes it hurt sk much more. Fuck. Why.
[Tw suicide] this Honestly is making me really glad I never went through with it. Seeing those messages from a fucking fictional character is able to break my heart so much I can't imagine how my loved ones would've felt receiving this
sorry this is getting a Lil venty and dark but just like.. jeez. This is well written and that fucks it up so hard
ash what the fuck. You shitty traitor.
Ash I hate you.
Why.
Ash you fucking suck
Wait did Larry die with alcohol
Uck that makes it so much worse too
Im lowkey having to take breaks cuz this is hitting HARD
Larry's note. Oh my god.
phrophecy??
Oh right the cult
Fuck I'm sk glad ghosts exsist but I wish he was really here larry why
"You asshole! How could you do this?! Why did you leave me? Why?!" Fuck. Dude. Shit.
guys I'm stuck this is embarrassing
A times thing r u fr
Nvm easy as shot
oh great! guys that's great why is there black leak that's not good
what's happening with 501 what the florp
"The shapeless man walks in awkward strides"
Is everyone like possed or on the verge of possession or smth ?? Because like it's the red eyed demon right- based on the cutscene with Todd we saw during the bologna incident and the black stops righr before their eyes so..
The guitar sections are so stressful ngl
Oh wow mr Sanderson blew his brains out hub!
"yoy look like shit dude" Larry fucking wild thing to say to someone who shot themslelves
HEY GUYS ROOM 404 IS SLIGHTLY SUSPICIOUS
"These ghosts. So full of life. Strong, healthy blood. Tender meat. Oh how we crave their flesh. Yet, they deny us.. soon." what the fuck.
Wait guys in the vhs tape screen TV reflection it's younger sal he has pigtails
Larrys dead. I can't accept thst wth..
yall. Why us everyone being all deep n shit
"I'm sort of in the middle of something" honestly props to sal for not just giving up. I would be strong enough for that.
Yea these fuckers r possessed how do we unposses them
am I is have stupid
Im dumb
Gwyss who's quitting for the night cuz I couldn't figure out the guitar thing !!
Will do tmmrw
Aorry for this one being kinda depressing </3 I'm waking up in 5 hrs save .e
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um long irl tickle story because i’m tweaking out rn 😀
so i’ve got this friend who is also not Just A Friend and it’s complicated LMFAO anyways, we’ve done kink play stuff before so we know everything each other is into. obviously this means they know i’m real big into tickling fjskjf (which no, is not purely sexual for me lol. neither of us are very sexual people, kink isn’t always abt sex and i think more people in this community need that to register in their brains LOL)
ANYWAYYS so i dont think they know Just how into it i am, like they dont even know abt this blog but im slowly working up the courage to tell them abt it bc i know they wouldnt be weirded out (im just shy LOL). so bc they dont rlly know how big of a thing this is for me, they’ve never Really tickled me before.
now, i’ve tickled them. plenty actually lol. it’s super fun and i love tickling them sosososo much bc they’re reactions are so cute and they’re really good at holding still lol. but anytime they’ve tickled me, it’s mainly just like a poke here or a squeeze there, nothing for real yknow.
which is like. it’s fine. but every time they do it i get skyrocketed into the biggest lee mood for like days on end and usually i get too embarrassed to tell them dhsjndjsg
but the other day i actually decided to tell them how much it affected me. we had both spent the night at a friends house, and at every sleepover when its time for bed, our other friend goes to her room and then its just the two of us alone in the living room. we were high the other night and cuddling, and they kept teasing me by making claw hands and wiggling their fingers at me (i’ve told them before it flusters me So Bad when they do it and now they’re just relentless with it 😭😭), they poked me a few times like usual but also kept quickly skittering their fingers on my foot which they’ve never done before and dhsjjdjdf i was too high i was losing my mind
so that was it, but the next day when i got home i texted them telling them they were so evil for that bc now im feeling crazy. they found that hilarious and teased me abt it for a minute 😭 so i thought that was the end of it bc they rarely tease me too much (im mainly the dom in our relationship so i can understand why lol)
but then. but then.
my friend group went hiking all day today, so when we got back to my friends house we were pretty beat. me and my friend were cuddling on the couch watching tv, but they just kept. poking. me. i felt crazy LMFAO
so ofc bc im me, i was tickling back! i’m more deliberate with my tickles, so i kept squeezing their side and poking places i know they’re ticklish at. they ofc kept making wiggly hands at me, but atp im like so lee and it’s not enough 😭
so. i called them a coward! (teasingly, ofc). i didn’t get specific cause our other friends were right there and id rather they not know abt it LMAO but this main friend knew what i was talking about. they were playing all offended, trying to defend themselves, but they kept not actually tickling me so ofc i kept calling them a coward hehehe
so later tonight once we were at our own houses, we text each other almost immediately. ofc because i was feeling super lee after all that i told them i was (playfully) mad at them for teasing me earlier
they started defending themself again saying they aren’t a coward, so i texted back with “always threatening but never actually does anything about it 🥱 coward behavior to me”
they texted back with “when i come over tmrrw its over. im gonna get you”
😨 WHAAAATRTSJS
AAAAHHHHHH
i was. freaking out LMFAOOO
they kept teasing me back and forth about it and i am STILL losing my mind and that was hours ago 😭😭
we’re hanging out tmrrw night and yall. yall idk if i can HANDLE ITFNFKD we’re spending the night like we always do so once we’re alone and ALSO HIGH AGAIN………bitch i can’t my stomach just turned a flip thinking about it omfg
anyways yeah sorry i know this was long but this little back and forth on “will they ever actually tickle me” has been going on for almost a YEAR now so im justifiably freaking out abt it LMFAOO
i’m also taking my driving test for my license tmrrw before we hang out so let’s hope i don’t start thinking abt tickles and crash the car 👍
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HEY!! so I saw that you wanted more requests as well and also I saw the latest one and I gotta say wow… that was rlly fun to read! your really good at writing ^^ so anyways, I shall get started….
so…. may I request Brett Hand with a Male! or GN! reader who has a Leon Kennedy Personality from Resident Evil??
thanks! :D
a/n : im glad you enjoy my writing :D!! and also sorry if i don’t get leon’s personality to the fullest extent because i haven’t seen any of the resident evil games so i had to do some research, and also please tell me if i got any part of his personality wrong 😭/gen.
extra info ; the reader is male, but it can be also read as gn since there’s only one mention of masculine terms, so read ahead :D!!
> when he first met you he was a bit worried he may not like you at all, and was a bit stressed about it.
> soon he sorta connects yours and reagan personalities as one of the same which makes him more comfortable to be talk and be around you.
> as he begins to warm up to you and the both of you become good friends, brett soon realizes that soon you’re starting to stuck on him more.
> things like going out of his way to defend you more then usual, maybe because of the perks of your personality towards others, yet it feels like there’s more than just defending a friend.
> you might’ve caught on sooner on this but you didn’t want to mention to save his embarrassment (maybe also because you may have caught a bit of feelings so you’re sorta saving yourself the embarrassment as well even if you’re the brave type LOL)
> after maybe a little while a couple months you’ve decided that maybe this is finally the time to tell him to maybe save the guilt of keep it from him.
> you’re very much not confident in this plan, yet there’s no going around it but just getting straight to the point.
> so you take him out somewhere privately to try to save your dignity if you even would have any left after this
> “brett… i took you out here to confess something” “is it something that i did :(?” “no, no! there’s nothing you really did… wrong, it’s just that i like you, that’s all”
> brett is in a bit shock, soon that’s been overrun by this happy squeal he always tends to make, he soon has you in the air with this huge goofy smile on his face.
> “i like you too (Y/N)!! does that make us boyfriends :D!??” “sure, boyfriends it is” “yea >:D!”
> the embarrassment was now thrown out the window, something good in the end did come true, now there’s nothing else to worry about >:)
i hope you enjoyed this!! and again tell me if i get something wrong in his personality!! besides that have a good day, noon, or night :D!!!
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phil is the type of evil man to have you on your knees in between his legs while hes man spreading on the couch, bent over towards you w his elbows on his knees and using his hand to push tgth your cheeks n pucker up your lips as far as they can go. n he makes you say the most Depraved shit you want him to do to u☹️ knows how embarrassing it is. but hes all “c’mon baby, you have to tell daddy what you want or he cant help you. y’know i hate it when my princess doesnt get what she wants.” and you whimper with tears in your eyes. you finally concede, getting out the closest thing to an ‘okay, daddy’ that you can. he almost feels bad. but he has the nerve. the gall. to smile. to take that hand squeezing your cheeks tgth in that adorable way (thats also making him so hard he can see god) and nod your head for you, speaking in a devastatingly hot mocking and cocky way— “yeah, i knew my little girl could use that brain of hers for once.”
im always on my phil shit i hope u dont mind
Im also on my Phil shit rn and you're the plug so ily I'd never mind <3
i think I've said it before but the one thing this man has is the fucking audacity right, he knows making you paint the picture of what you want him to do to you out loud is cripplingly humiliating but the way that pretty blush spreads across your cheeks down to your chest is worth every second to him. He knows you can say it, you just don't wanna. Sometimes we have to do things that are difficult to get what we really want though, right?
“yeah, i knew my little girl could use that brain of hers for once.”
Him finally giving your face a break by letting go after saying it but just lightly tapping your cheek to keep your attention on him. It'd be hard for it to be anywhere else in the first place but you're so malleable when you're in this fuzzy headspace that it's entertaining to play with you.
speaking of, as much as he wants to fuck your throat right then and there or have you split on his cock, he can hold himself back to draw it out for as long as he needs to. He has the worst oral fixation in the world and not even for himself, he gets so fucking hard when your mouth is on him that he rlly cant help himself. Phil brushes his thumb over your bottom lip and has you open your mouth so he can press it against your tongue. He'll never get sick of the feeling, or the view, watching your lips wrapped around his fingers like you're sucking his cock (although they're nowhere near as thick)
Just the one finger isn't enough ofc it takes bo time until he's fucking his two middle fingers into your throat and sighing at how you tighten around them when you're trying your best to fight off your gag reflex. You're still working on that, luckily he's abundantly patient with you. At least that's what he disguises himself as, really he loves how messy you get when you're struggling to take his fingers or his cock down your throat and watching the mess of spit drip down your face makes his dick twitch.
"Just relax baby I know you can take it, you're okay. Doin' so good for daddy"
His voice sounds sweet but is always laced with that condescending undertone. You don't have the brain power right now to overthink it though, too focused on taking a deep breath after he pulls his fingers out of your throat and pulls you in for a messy kiss as reward for doing a good job. His fingers tangle in your hair to press your face against his thigh, your cheek rubbing against his achingly hard cock through his pants. You just follow his lead, looking up at him with pretty puppy eyes waiting for him to give you what you really want.
"What? Gotta use your words baby girl, tell daddy what you want and he'll give it to you."
#Ask#Phil#Phil bozeman smut#I went overboard and i wanna write more bc I need him so bad I'm physically unwell
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Oh! I have a question! (A cluster of questions?) so as an additional hypothetical scenario to the "What if Friend's sisters survived but MC died,"
What if only his parents passed away in the car crash, and Friend had both his sisters and MC in his life?
Would he still be the ceo of the business?
What would his personality be like if he had his family (minus his jerkwad parents), but MC was either not in his life or dating someone else like Keagan, (if the prank never happened)?
I wonder if his sisters would've tried to like, trick Friend into downloading a dating app or set up a meet cute with random office workers, all for Friend to casually thwart their attempts with a poker face 🤔
Oh the 'random person trips and spills coffee on Friend's shirt' scenario they orchestrated? Too bad he easily catches the cup and side steps the poor employee.
"Hey bro my phone broke can I borrow yours for a sec?"
(He somehow managed to block every dating app known to man, using the Company's IT department, and one of them shattered their precious phone for nothing!!)
Triplets Flabbergasted and Defeates at their 548th attempt to get their brother a date.
Wonder how all 4 would react if he somehow met MC again after all this time?
(wait, why is that adorable to think about)
Im sorry this was so long! Thank u for ur awesome game i rlly like these characters!! You dont have to answer all of this if u dont want to! Lmao i was just rlly excited about this blog, a little embarrassing asking off anon tho but i tried to be brave !
Oh my god them trying to set him up is so funny I could totally see that happening—
If Friends parents died and MC wasn’t in his life anymore, he’d probably still take up the company, because he doesn’t know what else he’d do. He is now fully responsible (even more so than he was) for three girls.
He has to take care of his sisters and keep the money going in.
Would he enjoy it? No, but seeing his sisters happy was more than enough.
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im the chappell roan anon and i rlly appreciate u sharing your thoughts!! thank you!! but sorry wouldnt you say taylor also has such a level of musical theatricality? and sincerity and corniness well she has that in packs and crates lol. so what makes her different for you?
for me, i don't think taylor is anywhere near as musical theatery, not even close. if chappell was mainly musical theatery on stage and made music more in a direction i enjoy, i probably would be into her. but it's the musical theatricality within the very music, all the noises and the shock value language and her delivery, that does not charm me to say the least. comparatively, taylor's music is very subdued or moody or more centrist pop. which isn't definitively better qualitatively, just speaks more to my taste when comparing the two of them. her performances every now and then contain musical theater corniness (like the ICDIWABH bit) but most of the time, her corniness broadly comes more from being awkward and extremely literal with her dancing/performance, or just being a bit swagless (affectionate!!). almost miming the lyrics most of the time, which is charming and cute to me, disarming and relatable too. chappell is very confident and very swagful in what she does, but i'm just not into the product she's selling. it's as simple as that, not that it's bad or anything. in the same way i detest going to broadway shows or drag shows or anything of that ilk because i get second hand embarrassment from how over dramatically showy they are, that kind of thing just isn't for me. i don't think there is a right or wrong way to be a pop star! i'm just not cut out for the kind with a more cartoonish schtick. i'd say there is very little schtick at a taylor show or in taylor's music, and i think you might be conflating her awkward, earnest corniness and jazz hands "musical theatricality" corniness, which are very different to me.
but i think the main barrier for me to chappell, which i think is what you're trying to figure out here, lies within the almost hypocritical fact that i love and adore gaga, have from day one, and balk at chappell. and that's simply because i used to be charmed and entertained by the very schtick chappell employs, but i just grew out of it, or grew tired of it, or just don't like it anymore. however you prefer to phrase it, and i don't mean that condescendingly to say it's childish. lady gaga caught me at a particular time when i was charmed by it, and now i'm not. nostalgia fuels my love for gaga, and i continue to be charmed by her as a character and the music she creates as this character. had gaga come onto the scene today, idk if i would be as open to receive her as i was as a teenager. probably not. that's just how it is!
#this is just one of those cases where its like idk i just dont like it. i dont think i have a more eloquent answer other than the above#sometimes I just dont like it#theres no hatred or underlying bigotry or anything like that its just idk man i dont like pineapple on my pizza#maybe i enjoyed it before but now i dont like it#just the way people change over time and tastes change over time#you just gotta catch me at the right time! and this is not that time#like i did a full 180 on olivia rodrigo last year with her second album#didn't care for her after her first album at all but the second one idk! it got me! idk why but it just did#also ty ray for swagful. i DID say i would steal it#i enjoy having these discussions though!
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a lot happened today, good and bad, and im still processing it. but i'll try to retell it all below. warning: this will be long and graphic
major tw for self-harm
so i had class with M and everything was fine, I even got to talk with her a few times which i was really happy about. but later when we were doing our own thing, she got really fascinated with this one student which made me want to cry because i was jealous she was so intrigued and spent so much time with them. this student is also so much cooler than me so i understand why. i got super upset at myself for feeling this way, so with very little thought i left the room to go to the bathrooms and consequently slash my arm up
i had new blades and i was in such a state where i wasn't thinking so i wasn't careful with how i cut, i just wanted to do some damage, and i ended up bleeding much more than i usually would. once i saw how much blood there was on me and on the floor, i realised i had to stop the bleeding and used a bunch of paper towels to make it stop. eventually, unluckily for me, i ran out and spent a long time just rinsing my arm under the water (which in hindsight definitely prolonged the bleeding), but i couldn't go to the next stall for paper since there were people outside and it seemed to keep being taken.
had i not gone in the stall with barely any paper left i probably would've avoided this, but this led to me having to ask the people outside for paper and since i was kind of panicked i was saying i had a medical emergency, so this led to them getting a teacher down to check on me and basically the whole process of first aid coming down to bandage my arm n setting a welfare meeting for another day since this was at the end of the day.
what i didn't expect however was M to come down as well. i felt super embarrassed and ashamed once i saw her face, i didn't know how to react. but once she heard I was harming myself she came in to comfort me, even calling me her 'baby' when coming down and hugging me. i hugged her back tightly and sobbed into her shoulder, it was so comforting.. she has such a motherly charm its crazy. she soon revealed she also used to self-harm, even at work, which made me feel so much more at ease since i felt extremely bad about myself as i feel like i should've grown out of these feelings by now, but i clearly hadn't.
after all the paperwork and talk was done, i went back to her class to get my stuff back and found she edited my work and added her own little charm to it while i was gone (we were just playing around with an editing program) 😭. since everyone was gone by then i asked to talk w her alone and ppl kept coming in the class, so M grabbed my wrist gently and led me out somewhere where only us two can talk
i basically thanked her for her hug and all her kind words, and was sorry that she had to witness me at such a state. following this we talked for a little bit about her own struggles with self-harm and having to be sectioned, and about her thoughts on me which, i wish i could remember all the details, but i was so messed up i only remember it partly. regardless, it was lovely to hear and definitely what i needed at the time.
one of the best parts of this whole aftermath conversation was when i not-so-jokingly said i have mommy issues and she laughed saying "I KNOW" 😭😭😭. i was rlly taken aback by that so i stuttered and asked what made her come to that conclusion, and she basically just talked about stuff like my conservative mother and catholic upbringing which i brought up to her. she later said that she had her own struggles w her daughter and how she kinda sees that in me, to which i hesitantly said "i kinda wish you were my mum" and SHE SAID "me too right now" ?!!??"! IDK HOW I DIDN'T IMPLODE RIGHT THEN..
during this whole conversation we hugged so many more times and it was kinda awkward at one point cuz her lanyard got stuck on my cardigan LMFAO but it was so healing and awesome to talk w her about all this, even if i wish she didn't have to witness any of it. there's so much more i could say but if i gave all the details then this post would be 10x longer. obviously i didn't mention why i cut in the first place, and i'm contemplating even doing so to anyone cuz i don't want her taken away from me.
with all that said despite all the horrible stuff, something good came out of it and i'm grateful for that, although i worry it deepened my attachment to M even further....which honestly was inevitable at this point anyway.
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u totally don't have to answer this BUT i know ur quite in touch with emotions so any advice for getting in touch with emtions when u aren't good at doing that/never taught how?
i mean like i know what happy is but like. i wasn't rlly allowed to express emotions that weren't happiness as a kid and now im older and like huh. thats Probably Not Okay. and i don't want my inability to feel emotions affect others y'know?
have a great day ur amazing
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Hi 👑-anon!
I'm sorry you didn't have the space to let emotions happen, but it doesn't mean you can't learn to feel them!
Start with trying to identify these baseline emotions:
Happiness, sadness, disgust, fear, surprise, anger, pride, shame, embarrassment & excitement
There are SO MANY different flavours of feelings, and for example, happy can be expressed in many ways. Some emotions can be cloaked up - sadness can manifest as yelling at someone & you might interpret it as anger...
Working with your feelings is NOT easy & it's okay to struggle - even I struggle with my own feelings! And I am known for being "Dr. Feelings"!
Some tips & advice from me:
Try to locate the feeling in your body. Don't push it away, even if the feeling seems bad to you or unpleasant. Feelings can't be drowned, they will come back with full force eventually.
There are no bad feelings - Feelings serve a purpose, they communicate something. Yes, anger & hate & sadness are interpreted as negative, but they have their use & it's valid to feel them too & to figure out why they are felt is important.
Don't get frustrated if you can't identify your feelings right away. It's normal & feelings often mix.
Find a way to express yourself: write, draw, paint, create - creativity often serves as a tool to process feelings.
Here are some good resources I found:
I hope I was able to help 🧡✨️
#dr feelings is at your service#mikeys world of feelings#turtle net#rottmnt#feelings#emotions#mental health#psychology
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i miss having friends... one thing i miss a lot is having photoshoots and taking selfies w friends. i havent done that in years. maybe 9yrs. i used to do that w my sisters too but not anymore. they just stopped wanting to take pics w me. idk i feel like nobody wants to rmbr my existence and therefore dont want pictures w me. photos are so precious to me. nd yes it does rlly hurt that im not important to anyone. i take many selfies which is conceited to most, but if i dont do that i'll have no pics of me. my sisters take photos w eo nd w mom but not w me. my mom hasnt taken a pic of me in years. everyone, incl friends nd family, always acted like i was bothersome when i wanted to take selfies or pictures :( it's gone as far as me daydreaming abt taking selfies w a friend lmao T-T but irl i'd never even dare suggest it to anyone. the last time i did, i literally almost had an anxiety attack trying to amp myself up nd wanted to cry just asking 'hey can we take a selfie??'. but that was yrs ago. i feel embarrassed nd stupid to even ask. not that i have anyone to ask now. anyway. just makes me very sad, im 25 nd only getting older nd im missing so many years to capture moments. it would just be so fun to have a photoshoot w someone... but idk if i'll ever get to do that again </3
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HWJJSJS totally 💖💖
ALSO YAYA NO PROBLEM !! i will explain it to the best of my abilities wahhdjdjd
so uhmuhm when placing overlays i think theres like 2ish types ( those being frames nd the other just random decorations nd stuff !! its all kind of vague idk wjdjjsj )
first off i find frames very helpful bc they can block out stuff on the edges to bring attention to the center of the photo or bring attention to one focal point ( same thing w arrows nd random lines nd the like !! ) like these two !!
where uu want ur focal point to be is very important tho !! as a general rule theres a grid on all photos ( IGNORE HOW BAD MY LINES R IM TRYIJG NY BEST I SWEAR JSJDJDJD ) nd i always like to put what i want to be noticed either approx where the grid lines meet or in the center ! thi concept is called the rule of thirds btw !! its used a lot in art nd photography nd stuff for aesthetics nd just the science facts that i forgot
like here i used the lines nd cirlce to bring lots of attention to the center / an ! this is all a matter of preference tho ofc !!!
as for random deco i kind of use the same rule of thirds thing but also it depends on whats in the picture for me !! i kind of try to stick w a few that work well together nd w the img / feelings (?) i want the edit to have !
for example in the an one here i actually added an extra whispy laser line underneath her head to give the edit some more Vibes nd fill up what i felt was a little empty / bring attention to her face once again
visual weight is also a super important thing regarding placement !! sometimes in photos theres a lot of empty space so its easy to get lost in it as a viewer, but on the other hand, there can be too much going on in the photo that uu get overwhelmed ! u can manipulate visual weight in a vast number of way, including adding overlays nd even coloring / lighting !! darker colors / shadows will almost always have more weight than light colors / highlights ( as seen in the middle img ! )
its ok to have an even distribution of weight depending on the edit but i find that having one side heavier than the other helps a lot ! k as seen in the len nd rin edits ) it helps a lot in zeroing in on one spot aesthetically rather than just kind of aimlessly glazing over it
theres also a math side that i cld kind of go into but this is insanely long now nd im lind of embarrassed thay ive been writing this for like 20mins or smth so yeah !! i think thay kind of explains it ??? IT SEEMS KIJD OF CONFUSING SO IM RLLY SORRY WJJSJSJ 😭😭<- if uu need me to clarify pls do ask i have shit explanations
WKWGAGAGGAGA TYIS IS ACTUALLY SO USEFUL??? DONT WORRY IT MAKES SENSE TO ME TYSMMMMM MWAH MWAH MWAH
#i will now give you the greatest honor you can have around here#YOU ARE GOING ON THE SAVE TAG HELL YEAH#save#WHAHAHAHAHAHAHA YOU ARE ON THE SAVE TAG NOW!!!!!
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