#ur all valid!!

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

ORV is about enduring the horrors in real time.

(for @everyonesfavoritebastard)

[pepperpixel]

Initial drawings of that old man… I literally, I haven’t finished reading the book of bill yet!!! I had to stop and take a break for a week to feverishly draw fanart of myself petting fords floofy hair and giving him attention and shit…!!!! The urge was too great….!! I’ve literally. I had a crush on this guy the instant he was first REVEALED in the show, but I did not have the artistic prowess to draw good looking old men back then… but I do now… thank god… thank fucking god

[bucephaly]

It's kinda shocking to me how few people seem to know how prevalent the 'my great grandmother was cherokee' myth is and how it's almost never actually true, especially when it comes with things like 'never signed up' or 'fell off the trail' or 'courthouse burned down destorying the documentation' etc etc.

People just don't even seem to know the history like.. when the Trail happened. My great great great grandfather was 2 years old during Removal in 1838, so peoples 'my great grandmother hid in the mountains!' is so clearly wrong. And we have rolls. From before and after removal, rolls done by cherokee nation and others by the government, rolls that were not stored in one random flammable courthouse. It's not difficult to find the actual evidence of ancestry.

And just.. there are lots of ways those family stories get started. It was a practice during the confederacy to claim cherokee ancestry to show one's family had 'deep roots in the south' that they were there before the cherokee were removed. Many people pretended to be cherokee and applied for the Guion-Miller payout just to try to steal money meant for cherokees - 2/3rds of the applicants were denied for having 0 proof of actual cherokee ancestry. [We even see lawyers advertising signing up for the Miller roll just to try to get free money.] And the myth even started in some families in the cherokee land lotteries, where the land stolen from us was raffled off, including the house and everything that was left behind when the cherokees were removed. We have seen people whose families just take these things stolen from the cherokee family and adopt them into their own family story, saying that they were cherokee themselves.

If you had some family story about being cherokee and you wanna have proof one way or the other, check out this Facebook group run by expert cherokee genealogists that do research for free. Just please read the rules fully and respect the researchers. They run thousands of people's ancestries a year and their average is only around 0.7% of lines they run actually end up having true cherokee ancestry.

[dukeofthomas]

why does every reconciliation fic go like this

[babsaros]

they talk about testosterone gel like it’s the fentanyl of hrt

[lotus-pear]

honestly shoutout to the ppl that still follow my acc after discovering that i’m merely a hormonal teenage girl that latches onto sad pathetic fictional men like a motherless duckling. and not. yk. an aloof and mature responsible young adult who maintains decorum online and doesn’t taint their digital footprint with toe curling sheet gripping down horrendous statements about a century dead poet.

[rollercoasterwords]

yeah u can put "i hate jkr" and "fuck terfs" in ur tumblr bio but. can u listen + reflect when a trans woman criticizes hp fandom without immediately getting defensive.....

[lordacne]

every time u reblog my posts my pussy gets a lil wetter

[sunlit-mess]

Hello, I hope it's not rude but I'm REALLY REALLY fond of your art!!!!! I was scrolling through your blog from new to old and found that you have Bpd,,,. I only heard about this condition, what is it like? If it's ok to know,,,!

hello, thank u! uhm it's something? HAHAHAHA idk how to explain it 😭🏳 lemme try to be as direct as possible

I'm high-functioning, but there are points I seriously just start showing symptoms.

Emotions: INTENSE as it can get while FEELING 99 PERCENT EMPTY. Something just- keeps you so.. hungry (not literally). Sensory is also another factor, and honestly I burn out a lot, tend to get overwhelmed n meltdown like shit

Identity: I either have BEEF WITH it, feel GODLY, or be so LOW, really low. I live with both passion and hate. I'm very confused. But I can say I'm just tired!

Attachments: Relationships are so hard to maintain bc of how much I fear abandonment, like bro I can't even leave my family as much as I want to. I'm more scared of getting disowned or losing my name. Love is a concept I long to grasp at the same time scared of it, I don't understand jackshit about " love ".

> I tend to self-Isolate with or without reason

> ...I used to test other people whether they can handle me or not, whether they'd leave or not. Not anymore though, but the thought lingers.

> Very- paranoid- about.. perception, neglect and invalidity HAHA.

Mindset: They call it Black and White, or generally just two categories to label my perception of things. However, I try to understand AS MUCH AS I CAN about a situation, etc. See what's in-between before I decide. that's really hard for me to do LOL.

> I always do my best to think and be nice

> I can be so fucking bad at the same time, only to regret it the next second or so

> My mind is scattered all over the place, It's exhausting

Trauma: I have memory problems and a lot to connect with that. Hate and fear is what I'm accustomed to. I live with a fuck ton of active predicaments like hell. Old wounds keeps reopening, and new ones never closes.

Impulse: shows in speech more than in action (THANK GOD LMAO I'D DIE IF I LET MY INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS WIN)

Habits: uhm. Ranging from sunshine and rainbows to SELF-DESTRUCTIVE. I get obsessive, like.. really obsessive.

Coping mechanisms: Usually I have mood stabilizers and anti-depressants n shit, but I don't rely on them anymore (bc I can't keep buying). I don't have good coping mechanisms even for physical needs. It's so bad bro. So I just end up drawing. that's the only good one I can list.

Living with it: Exhausting and an internal war 24/7. Does it affect me physically? Yes. Does it come with other mental factors and conditions? Also yes! But as one of God's most tired soldiers, nothing I can do but keep walking.

What I'm confused about: dawg last time, i kept searching about how conditions co exists like— Thats normal?? N the last diagnosis I was in confirms it does and nothing to worry about. BLUD I AM DEF WORRYING. Autism n bpd? u mean my behavior and shit isnt meant to be invalid as most people perceive — u mean these fckass experiences built that bpd? ☠️ WHAT AM I THEN—

(I'm having a hard time believing it bc as an adult, it's harder to process information like these)

[botlabyrinth]

the percy jackson tv show is actually great when there isn’t a little shit in your ear telling you it’s not “book accurate”

[anadrenalineslut]

i am so fucking tired of certain pansexuals trying to redefine what bisexual meant and has always meant just to so they can virture signal about their gender affirming sexuality. if you dont think bisexual works as a label, fine whatever but can yall PLEASE STOP FUCKING LYING about what bisexuality has always meant to the bisexuals. if your only reason for identifying as pansexual is because "bisexual isnt inclusive enough" for you, that is bisexual erasure!! you are erasing what the words has historically meant to bisexuals just to feel better about yourself and that's not fucking cool.

[stuckinapril]

Absolutely nothing beats getting complimented by drunk girls at a club.

[francarieq]

WHERE MY TRANS BABBIZ AT?!! HAPPY DAY 2 U GUYS ILY ꩜.ᐟ .ᐟ .ᐟ

[yinyuedijun]

btw thanks everyone for not judging me for my jealous hatred of intj hoyoverse men. I remember in some poll a while back there were respondents saying that people who get jealous of canon ships are insane and terminally online and honestly that is true of me so thank you for supporting your resident insane, terminally online writer

[fnafs-ex-boyfriend]

Told my irls this today but if I catch fuckers saying that demisexuals don’t count as ace or aroflux is not valid I will be throwing hands

[positive-omens]

I'm back on my All For the Game shit and I gotta say;

even having read the series before, even when I find myself constantly critiquing the writing, even with the audiobook narrator's stilted delivery of impossible dialogue, I cannot pull myself away.

I think a huge part of my enjoyment is my imagined voyeur to Neil. His life, his scars, his insane response to any situation are all so ridiculously badass but from Neil's perspective he is barely hanging on at all times. I love the contrast between the two and how the story is also so interested in it, with the team constantly showing the reader how they see him even as while it bumps right off Neil's thick head.

I think it speaks to a feeling that was overwhelming in my teen years; the need to dramatize my hidden suffering. I was depressed and trapped in a school system and I was suffering. Although the themes of this series are as dark as they come, the extremes they are pushed to are almost wish fulfilment, in that they give teen angst a narrative that 1. Deepens the stakes in a way that forces you to take it seriously and 2. transforms the sufferer into someone strong and dangerous.

Even as an adult i find the books compelling, but as a teen, the world is apathetic to the depths of your frustration, your despair, your powerful angst. There is a strange allure to imagining an "if they only knew..." narrative even when there's nothing to know. I get so much satisfaction from Neil's identity and situation slowly being revealed to the team because of their recognition of how much he has been through and how strong he has been to endure it in silence.

tldr

Scratches that teen angst itch so good I'm still feeling it in my 20s