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My current life

I feel like I should give an update on my life, why? For shits and giggles, I have nothing better to do anyways. 

So I am finaly in my last year of college, I graduate at the end of this year getting my, AA in ECE (Early childhood Education) and an AA in Social and Behavioral science. What can I do with this you may ask? Well with my ECE degree I can work as a TA (teachers assistant) or work in after school programs. However, I will need another 2-3 years to get my BA in order to become a teacher with my own class. With my Social and Behavioral science degree I can be a therapist or counselor. However, I’m not 100% sure on how much more schooling I would need for that, a BA most likely. The real question is, is do I want to spend 2-3 more years in college when I just spent the last 6 working on two freaking AA degrees. WHO KNOWS!?

Now my work life, I currently am not working, sadly. I had been care giving for over 3 years to a woman about my age. She decided to let me go, or I should say cut my hours drastically..... I worked 48 hour weeks and one day she decided that I should only work 8 a week, I immediately put my two weeks in. I was frustrated and mad, because for the last three years, I would cover every damn shift people would call out of and always arrive 30 minutes early with no pay just to hang out with her for a bit before my shift started. I really feel like she treated me like shit, for me being someone so caring and friendly to her for the last 3 years. I thought we were practically sisters with how close we got. So now I am currently looking for work, not fun at all. Especially when they call and ask to interview you and you have class at that time, and you explain to them that and they immediately hang up on you..... Good riddance didn’t want to work with a bitch anyways!! Home life has been stressful, I live at home with my parents, and pay all the bills! My mom helps when she can but just got fired from her job and my step dad is going blind so he cant work much of anywhere and has been trying to get disability for the last year and they keep turning him down. Its frustrating watching my family suffer to barely keep this family afloat! 

Now my relationships, Which is nonexistent. I have one good friend and her husband. They are great but I wish I had other people to talk to and hang out with. Oh and I’m SINGLE, that’s a fun topic! So March 15th of last year I ended a almost 4 year relationship (I was engaged to him), the reason why was because for those 4 years he didn’t work except during the firework season for a total or 2-4 month depending on what was needed to be done. I would beg him to look for work but instead he sat at home, smoked all my pot that I would buy. I also paid our rent, food and cellphones. So I took the stand and dumped him. I thought I had fallen in love with someone else come that July, a man who seemed to have his life together, he enjoyed doing things that I too loved doing, such as, Fishing, hunting, camping and going on random adventures. He also was a superintendent at his work and actually knew how to save money and was focusing on getting his own place! But he dumped me come that October because he decided to become Mormon and didn’t think I would support him in his decision..... He was soooo wrong, I’m probably the most understanding individual I know.   So now to current, I started talking to guys again and found two (that I had dates with at separate times) anyways both would have a few dates with me and then after we had sex they’d stop messaging and ignore me..... Fucking great! Just the story of my life, getting screwed over all the time. But now that I have become single, I am constantly getting hit on by guys who I went to high school with, as well as one of my teachers!!! 

So now, I am focusing on myself, I don’t need anyone, after all I never really have before. I pretty much raised myself. But on the positive note, I deactivated my Facebook to get anyways from all the bullshit drama and focus on myself. I am working on losing weight, being more involved with school and looking for a new job. I have also begun learning witchcraft, mainly tarot cards, stones and moon craft. But it is just the beginning to finding myself as an individual. ‘

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