#update: ok im omw!!!!!!!!!
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sorry for this ugly weather @twentyonepilots seems to happen every time they're in town 😭 it was sunny all week 😭😭
anyway... sometimes it pays off to wait till the last minute to get tickets 🥲
see you soon boys ❤️
#yes it was risky but tickets are at least half priced now (also not that risky actually bc damn.. they are NOT selling)#this will be my third time seeing them (& hopefully not the last pls keep coming here 😭)#tøp x mtl is always special#also i don't recommend doing this cause i've been frantic all day lol it's def not for the weak#the things i do to save.. uh... hundreds of dollars actually 😭#i wouldn't have done it if it was my first time seeing them like if i didn't get tickets it wouldn't have been the end of the world#but honestly they're the only artist i'd willingly see multiple times cause they're always worth it#most everyone else i see them once and it's enough ya know lmao#also i'm taking my mom with me this time cause i know she's gonna enjoy it and it will make for a fun girls' night out#there's no one else i'd rather go with anyway 🥰#AND i'm trying a diff route to get downtown i'm 95% sure it'll be better there's too much construction & traffic currently#update: ok im omw!!!!!!!!!#twenty one pilots#music
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literally searched neco on twitter as soon as i woke up this morning gkfjg im like my boy. how is my boy.
#anyway good morrow im omw to work#no updates for those wondering. like yes a broken jaw is horrible dgmw but im more worried about his concussion i hope his head is ok :(
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Imagine everyone in genshin could physically see when you lag. Collecting some sunsettia then my ping sky rockets to 999 and im frozen for a good minute in the middle of doing an attack 😭
SOB bro ive gotten caught in some DOWNRIGHT SILLY lags before- i would pass away if they saw that
Esp since i get them stuck then just start laughing my ass off 💀
This gif took me out this is so funny 😭 i had to put it here LMAO
I accidentally made Venti jump on top of a Aranara house when I was first exploring Sumeru and did that "flying in the air/jumpin down pose" but just. Through a palm leaf, he's just fluttering in the wind it was painfully ironic 😭
BRO
BRO
Bro.
What if u were isekaied to Genshin but it still has game rules, and so now ur like a character too,
SO U CAN ALSO LAGGGG STOPPP 😭😭😭
I would constantly be omw to the Backrooms 💀
Glitching thru magic shit bc im inpatient and wanna hurry (lagged myself thru some domain steps once)
OH MY GOD-
IF THEYRE AWARE
OF EVEN JUST YOU LAGGING THEIR BODIES
DUDE 😭
So this is unrelated to lag shit, but Ive just done so much silly ass things in game that they would find just as funny or dumb 💀
♤
So, When i first started Genshin I was on some Shit.
I had only rlly played one or two open world games before, and even then not for a long time, so I just like did the stupidest things
I was fighting in those early domains in Mondstadt right, and I had just gotten to the cutscene with Lisa and Traveler, I think thats all who were there
And I had just finished the last battle in the chamber, so I had just deployed Baron Bunny from Amber but killed the monsters before it could go off-
SO IN THE MIDDLE OF LISA TALKING- JUST AN EXPLOSION HAPPENS STAGE LEFT OFF SCREEN AND INTERUPTS HER LMFAO
I LITERALLY APOLOGIZED TO LISA I WAS CRYING LAUGHING SO HARD
(no pls dont make her aware of that for me she would bully me forever)
I FELT LIKE I WAS JUST CAUSING THESE CHARACTERS PROBLEMS RIGHT OFF THE BAT LMAO
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And I also didnt know about boss monsters yet (i didnt watch anyone play genshin/know where or what they were lol goin in blindfolded essentially)
So im running around Mond. and I start fighting a Cryo whopperflower for a little while, im not high level yet, and deadass MID SWORD SWING-
I GLITCH THRU A TINY CRACK IN THE ROCKS BC ITS OPEN ON THE TOP RIGHT??!! SO IT WAS JUST SOLID GROUND TO ME AND IM JUST FALLING-??!!
AND THEN I LAND MY ASS THE GIANT CRYO FLOWER REGISVINE AND I STG IT LAGGED AND WAITED FOR A MINUTE BEFORE IT STARTED MOVING LIKE IT WAS CONFUSED TOO-
AND ITS LEVEL IS LIKE IN THE RED
AND THE FALL KILLED AETHER (which I also didnt know could happen 😭TRAUMA) SO I JUST SUDDENLY HAVE AMBER OUT- !!??
BRO THAT WHOLE SITUATION MADE ME THINK I HAD ANGERED THE TINY FLOWER SO BAD IT JUST BECAME HUGE-
I WAS LITERALLY SCREAMING AT MY SCREEN "AMBER FUCK RUNNNN OH GOD AETHER'S DEAD???!! "
BC I WAS LIKE LEVEL 14 VS. ITS LEVEL 36
Talk about an all-knowing creator god 😭😭
Thatd be so embarassing if they remembered that 💀 aether would literally bring it up all the time to get to me
AMBER WOULD PITY ME AND HAVE SYMPATHEY NOO
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Then later on in Liyue, theres a chest underneath these guard statues hidden by a bush right? And one of those Geoculus star things too, and i have my compass out trying to find all the Geoculuses(?)
And Im like, " ok towards the statue??"
THEN I JUST PLUMMET- AND I IMMEDIATELY INSTINCTIVELY LIKE, SO HEARTBROKEN AND DISTRESSED SOUNDING "nOPLEASENOTAGAIN- oh, ohhh my godd" my heart was racinggg i literally sighed and I sat there for a minute breathin heavy 😭😭
My team wouldve had a heart attack and field day with me doin shit like that, theyd be like
"This our god? This you?"
Aether has so much blackmail on me 🥲
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If I had a mora for everytime I fell on a boss monster in Genshin Impact, I would have 3 mora.
Which isn't a lot of mora, but it's weird that it happened three times.
Cheers,
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(we updated the logo bc im stupid and didnt realize i couldve been typing that the whole time)
♡the beloveds♡
Srry figure it was close enough id tag yall anyway
@karmawonders / @0rah-s / @randomnatics / @glxssynarvi / @nexylaza / @genshin-impacts-me / @wholesomey-artist
#i was an absolute ignorant MENACE when i started genshin#so confused#but charged in anyway#i think the other two bosses I fell on was#somehow?? the geovishap TERRIFYING 0/10 EXPERIENCE#and one of cubes maybe#like I fell from above#off a cliff 💀#thank fuck Andrius and the Oceanid are activated ones bc i deadass#walked into their areas and was like#Ooo pretty#nice light eyes in wolvendom ya got here :)#and just swam around Oceanids area like#yay water 💀#genshin impact#genshin sagau#my replies#zombie aquarius#genshin imagines#genshin isekai#genshin sagau ideas
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Hello! Im a newcomer from Minazuki. So a lil something, I thought it weird that I just saw that story in ao3 when it has 100k words and published since 2021. From a glimpse at your blog here in tumblr (thank you btw for having this 🥹 I thought I wouldn't be able to follow any of your updates beside ao3) it seems like you left? Then came back? Coz pretty sure I should've seen that story coz I'm OBSESSED with Gojo hahahaha like, it feels so ooc of me to not have seen that??!!! Ok just wanna satisfy my own curiosity.
Just wanna tell you that you broke my heart in tiny little pieces with that last chapter, dude. Give my man peace 😭 why is he being a delulu in the worst way possible in his own dreams (lol jk Ik it's the PR but sTILL) Haibara, you an angel, but get out of the way????!!!!!!
Anyways, I know this ain't even the half of what I wanna say to you but I suck at words, so just!!! Thank you for sharing your crafts! Now, I'm omw to read your other Gojo fics because I just can't get over him, I miss him like I know him 😭😭
yaS i took a small break because people were a bit off but im fine now hejaksjshs, i was kinda sad because it burned me out but im slowly and surely going back to writing these days yays!
Also im glad you enjoyed minazuki! Its a pretty slow story compared to others but thank u for sticking around ehhee
NAUR HAIBARA PLEASE😭😭😮💨😮💨 my MAN REALLY WAS DRAMATIC APPEARING LIKE THAT IN THE PR
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Introductions🩷
Hi there! I'm Ria/Calypso (They/She/Him)!! Im a genderfluid panromantic demisexual and im an artist both ways (Perf + visual) with a crippling obsession w fictional chars
My twitter: @ Tatsucentric
Note: (dont mind the colours here i tried making a heart in phone format)
I used to be active on tumblr but i finally came back after some time Im a bit rusty with this app.. this is my main and personal blog I like to ramble a lot and I need friends quite lonely here 😭😭😐 so please dont hesitate to dm or send me anything Im a good conversationalist(?)
Also this is a secondary blog of mine so pls dont mind my primary one LOL i am on hiatus on there bc of the pressure so im here to just be myself
Extra info about me!
Minor 😂😐 legal adult🤢🤢
Basic Typology: INFJ, 4w3/sx
Currently obsession: Enstars, Twisted wonderland, I also tend to talk about other things,, sending hate and love mail
DNI: Basic Criteria most esp proship!!!, Genuine Tatsumi/Rinne haters, Ableism, xeno, bigotry, those who hate Yume/selfship/selfinserts (Im a yumejoshi sorry)
Other stuff:
Eng/Fil ok! Makes it obvie im asian
I draw :3c (Dont do comms or ATs atm sorry.., send reqs i might just do em if im bored or having artblock)
My artstyle is the epitome of inconsistency
I like theatre performing and musicals, currently I am a performing arts student
Psych nd crime
I like pink ..
Warning: Shu itsuki kinnie
Im a simp and i like shipping my faves
I hate on my faves sometimes(alot) so if ur sensitive to that I want you to know its all satire
Current faves (no order):
Enstars: AlkaKurei, Valkyrie, Knights, Natsume, Eichi, omw to becoming a ShinobuP, Mamadara
Twst: Cater, Jade, Epel, Lilia, Riddle, Grim!! insane for Malleus
[Last updated 5/19/23]
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#HAJDJAJJAHDHDHJ#omw to the cinema. to watch jjk. wish me luck. wish me LUCK i wont tear up. im not gonna CRY.#wearing my worst (actually best) gojou shirt to celebrate this. im normal#shyss rambles#update: i forgot my watch. thats finr. im ok
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Hi Ai! SN asks are one of the things I love reading here on tumblr everyone having their own theories so creative. At this point I really think MC knowing what Gojo did to Sera and might got her damn pregnant will be the last blow on her😭
on god it will be 😭 and speaking of theories, i shall compile them all under here <33 i hope u don’t mind
@fusheeguro said
Ok ik i said i wanted gojo and y/n to be endgame, and strangely i was happy reading this bc gojo finally got his ass denied?? and despite knowing that home girl has a life threatening disease and could die??? I SWEAR I AM NOT A WEIRDO!! this chapter just made sense!! i was soooo satisfied with the way things were handled. also, the way i see our home girl becoming a noble fashion designer? like yes y/n, chase yo dreams!! make them clothes for all the zen’in teens. get your paper. don’t let that booty ass crusty ass hoe hold you down!! (p.s. i sent that y/n gojo endgame ask b4 i read chap 8 and by the time i was done writing and ready to send it YOU UPDATED LANSJWBSHS I AM NOT A GOJO APOLOGIST NOR SIMP)
also can i just take a second to say SLAYYY SLAYYYYYY AI. YOUR WRITING JUST BUILT DIFF. YOU KNOW SHE’S A GOOD WRITER WHEN SHE MAKES YOUR FEEL SUMN! THIS SHIT IS SOME GOOD BIRD FOOD FOR MY PIGEON ASS!! but dw i am a delivery pigeon who knows how to drop off mail and i am omw to tell my notes how satisfied i am with chapter 9 🚪✨
Anonymous said
first off would like to tell u that this fic is so captivating and i lit binge read the first five and could not wait for the other chapters to release
like although all the main characters (sera gojo and yn) have something to hate abt them they’re really well developed and idk how u keep up with writing this without being slightly biased or annoyed 😭
and honestly the chap 8 ended in such a cliffhanger and i couldn’t wait for this next chapter
chap 9 was honestly so good but the only thing that made me meh was yn getting a heart condition (b/c i really don’t want this to be the cliche im abt to die and u j confessed ur love type thing if that makes sense)
but other than that thank u so much for everything and i am looking forward to the rest of the series!!!
(btw j wanna shout out ur chapter five cause i genuinely think it’s a masterpiece… it really hyped 😭)
@t2iara said
HOLY SHIT WHAT THE FUCK
so we were the one who said 'u qanna make it up to me, u hv to do it for the rest of your life ' OMGDJJG AND GOJOU WAS THE ONE WHO SAID 'you're not valuable wnough to ruin my life' TO SERA AHHAHA CHILLS, sera is so inconsiderate.. shawty its ok to imagine what you would look like with a baby bump😢 just dont regret it when i take you to court��😠 obviously you have some brain problems if you think you're still the victim here. mc is literally bound to die but its ok you didnt know😀 i hope u still don't think im faking my heart problems for attention!!1!!1!1 FSCKING BITAKDH i will let you know your place next time hahahah yk you cant be in the sidelines forever because one day satoru is gonna wake up and decide that oh im gonna end things w my mistress today because i need to make things right😯 then you'll experience more struggles in your life and maybe MAYBE thatll change your mindset and i hope you change for the better and realize that you just need to "let things be" 🤰🏌 lol
pointing fingers at us wont do you any good💔💔 affsdsd sera probably thinks that if she gets pregnant by gojous baby then he has to divorce us and marry her instead because mostly in shows thats how it works.. as if satoru will divorce us lol he doesnt have the balls to do it💓 toji toji i love you thx for the small talk😭 looking forward for our meetings w the zen'ins !!!! <3 HAHA MIWA HEY HEYYY👋👋👋 i rlly hope she wont be a problem here (like being a second mistress SORRY) because doesnt she like gojou in the anime and shes gojous type when utahime asked him😳😳 and omg i didnt even notice that gjou didnt ask us if we want a baby bc i was focused on the smut ajsjjsjs, the ring🤩 first step if we're gonna ignore satoru bc last chapter our ring was the reason why y/n considered going after his ring in the ocean. thanks for the sera going home pov💗💗 i rem you included asking us if we want to see her pov going home in my last ask💗💗
@honouredsatoru said
i am still on a hiatus but i come back every friday just to catch up with your series. its so beautifully, painfully, frustratingl written and it gets my soul all riled up whenever y/n is being mistreated bcs she doesnt deserve this. but as a fellow writer, i know you have it planned and only the best for her.
sincerely, not started out as a typical series for me but i think i can confidently say that i am emotionall, mentally and spiritually attached to this series. thank you so much for working so damn hard. do take good care of yourself and please dont mind the negative messages, we all love you <3
also something for cuntjo 😌 may your coffee taste absolutely bitter with loads of coffee grounds still in it, maybe your socks get ripped out. may your presentation slides suddenly stopped whilst attending a crucial meeting, may your airpods break by the 2nd night you bought them. to y/n, you're doing great sweetheart! i love youuu.
Anonymous said
hi!!! amazing chapter once more!!!! i love this fic w all my heart it's beyond amazing. also i have a thought??? lol but idk if you've ever mentioned it bc i have poor memory but did gojo and sera get together before or after sera got the job at gojo's company??? bc like i feel like to a certain extent, being at the company and having strong ties w a person in power is kinda feeding into sera's little fantasy about having a rich life. granted, i do empathize w her on her family life because no one ever deserves to have to struggle so much just to have a barely livable lifestyle. however, the more she's involved in the business and family things, the more she's submerged into this little delusion that all rich people are blessed w no problems (again not always 100% true and has a lot of nuance but at least rich ppl don't rlly have to work EXTREMELY extremely hard to live a comfortable lifestyle). like the fact that sera believes that y/n can't have any problems and issues bc everything has been handed to her on a silver platter and disregards everything y/n went through. and she's been always disregarding gojo's past and trauma. it's like she doesn't want that "rich image and lifestyle" to be tainted. idk if i'm making sense since english is not my first language. i'm not rlly good w words and theories. but hopefully u understood what i said. that again, i thoroughly enjoyed this chapter and all other chapters!!! will be continuously reading it until the next one comes heheheeh <33333
Anonymous said
Hello Ai! This is my first time asking something through here so I'm a bit nervous😭but feel free to ignore this since i know that you have 300+ more ask and your probably busy! :)
Anyways, before I carry on I'd like to say how much I love your writing, its ✨MUaH✨ chefs kiss😩✋
Your story's with angst are all always top tier💕 so keep at it! You're doing great
Anyways to stop my heart from hurting through all the angst I've been reading on your Sn story(especially chapter 8/9). I had this silly headcanon that came into mind when I read someone's ask about y/n and satoru's kid 'sachiro' (or sum like that I can't remember) and I'd like to know what your interpretation would be like(as the writer/author) if y/n ended re-marrying toji(in the whole co-parenting thing), and how he would be as a step-dad towards sachiro.
[So yes step daddy toji in the house yall😩]
I personally think Satoru's pettiness levels would be extremely high since y/n married his rival company and be low-key jealous of how close he is to sachiro///
(again this is totally dumb thing that came into my mind when the whole 'co-parenting' ask appeared and I totally need something to ease the pain rn 😭lookey cryin with the homies rn and sera you better be sleeping with an eye open cuz theses anons are ready to throw hands///me included)
Anonymous said
Wow just wow 😳 Did not expect that ?? But like I’m glad ?!!?? It took a heart condition for mc to cut hoejo out of her life ?? Also I desperately want mc’s dad and sis to know everything and I mean everything sera and slutoru did too her( hope they destroy his company )
Why do so many want mc and hoejo to get together in the end ? That makes no sense to me ? Like how do you get past that, the pain and trauma and cheating? How can you trust ? Also I don’t believe he’s in love with her. Love is a actions , not words. If he loved her he’d give the divorce papers with a generous gift or something. He’s still so selfish plus I think he only really likes her coz of how much she does for him ? He likes how she keeps the house tidy, how she comforts him,how she takes care of his nightmares, how she’s so sweet and submissive for him? How she helps with his image and status? They’re all so superficial. Like what is 10yrs down the line he likes his sweet secretary who’s had similar trauma (to him) who just seems to understand him yadda yadda. He knows nothing about mc, he doesn’t know her quirks doesn’t care about her sketches or passions ?, her grief with her moms death,her friends etc? Those things could have been done on the side abs subtly. I just don’t believe he loves her at all, it’s basically him losing his second mommy. I don’t know why anyone hasn’t said this yet but mc needs to settle down with firefighter best boy yuuji itadori. The only one who’d treat her well. Ik people are rooting for Toji but he loves his wife still, don’t want to stomp on that, it feels more mentor/ mentee relationship anyway
Ending this by fangirling over how goood of a writer you are. I am in awe. Plus the suspense , I randomly think about what’s going happen next Friday or I’ll just get a bout of anger thinking about hoejo while furiously eating yougurt.
Thank you for this amazing series
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@dora-the-grownup said
HEHEHEHEHE YALL HEAR THAT?? TOJIS VOICE THRU YNS PHONE SPARKED ELECTRICITYYYYYYYYYY 😆⚡️🦋💘💖✨ #mrszenin #tojicalledusmrszenin #zeninclan #WEREMEETINGMEGUMI shejkskmdmdmdnfm sir i am in love w u
for the baby’s sake, i hope sera isn’t pregnant. i rlly dont vibe with sera like,, she’s kinda immature,, and she’s lowkey materialistic?? idealistic?? that’s her downfall rlly. plus she’s so self centered like bae </3 the world doesn’t revolve around u 😭 if she had a kid, i’m scared she’d be one of those moms who blame all their troubles in life on the child. i feel like she’d be the type to have high expectations of her kid and if they don’t fulfill it, she’d get so disappointed and antagonize them and go into another whirl of “here we go again with why my life isn’t perfect”. i definitely am scared that sera would look at a child as a way to start over her own life and project her own shit onto them
sera’s mom seemed so nice thooo :( she didn’t deserve sera’s angry words i felt so bad for her :( it must have been so awkward for her fam to eat at the table after her outburst too lol it’s giving very childhood trauma vibes for her siblings rip
okok so toji fushiguro 💓💗💕💖💘💕💘💞 but idk gojo this chapter is making me feel a lil smthsmth 🤨❤️🩹(?)… i’ve said before that he needed time alone for self reflection because he’s just been dragged around by sera and his pride that he can’t rlly think for himself anymore, and i’m honestly so glad he’s had a week to think (and suffer alone but whatever he had it coming). i love that he’s rlly trying now and that he’s realizing the weight of his past actions AND I LOVE YN GIRLBOSSING HER WAY THRU IT OH YES THAT LAST LINE 🙌👏 YEA BESTIE 💪💅
i’m rlly looking forward to finally seeing yn in action with her passion when she goes to the zenin estate 🙈 i jus know that shits gonna make me so giddy HAHAHAHA anywayyy thank u so much for this chapter! no lie, sn makes my saturday mornings so exciting and it’s what i look forward to all week 😩
Anonymous said
this chapter was so heartbreaking for me to read /lh /pos(??)
like, just the part of mc's heart disease made me cry like idk??? like a baby? because when i was 5, i was diagnosed with one (and thank god is cured bc i had surgery when i was 8) but i stopped to think if i hadn't gone to the hospital that day, maybe i wouldn't have discovered this and i wouldn't have had the surgery annnd like, this made me cry a lot,,,,, your work is amazing, it makes me think about a lot of things in my life i didn't really paid attention, i guess
@katsulovee said
hii!! I don’t really have much to say but I’m glad that yn is starting to take care of herself now and focus on herself worth!! I really hope she does so after her dream on running her own little company one day with help from mr toji.
I also love yn and toji’s relationship!! I love how she can really open up to him, even about her condition and kinda treats her like family too!! I really wish yn the best in future happiness because she really deserves it from all the pain and suffering she’s been put through.
thatminniechick said
YESSSS Y/N MAKE YOUR OWN HAPPINESS LETS GO!!! Design them clothes line! Also there's no real way for Goji to start making it up to her until he breaks it off with Sera and minimizes contact, and that'd just be the beginning. It's upsetting to read that Sera blames Y/N for her misfortunes that Y/N isnt even aware off. She's so clouded in bitterness that she doesnt realize that she is as toxic as her parents are to her. It's tragic. Beautifully written chapter! Cant wait for the next one.
@m3gumiis said
Hiiii i know you have a shit ton of asks but I truthfully could not hold back on sending this.
First and foremost, you did it again!! This chapter was done beautifully as well as the others, I’m looking forward for the future angst and satoru redemption arc.
Second, “To know that you might end up six feet under and be forgotten in this world like your mom did was an experience that left blisters on your heart.”
Jesus. this was so heartbreaking. I didn’t realize this was a fear of mine until I read that line i’m just wow. Hypothetically speaking, if MC does end up dying, I honestly hope she is not forgotten easily.
also this line, “M-My heart’s already suffering,” WAS GENUIS!! the way MC is being so literal about it is scary because satoru doesn’t even realize it. like GOOSEBUMPS FR.
and I have a question, so you mentioned that sera’s family was given money by Gojo’s so does that mean they are aware she is in a secret relationship with him? and i’m glad you included her POV, as a first gen here i understand having to be the breadwinner in the family. although it might be the pisces in me, i do sympathize with her and understand why she views the world the way she does.
Thank you for taking the time to not only answer asks but update on such a tight schedule. You deserve all the love to come!!! :D
Anonymous said
Only you can make a 9k chapter feel so short 😭😭 I always want to know more everytime I finish a chapter
Gojo is finally getting what was coming for him and he deserves it. He's in denial about it, but he absolutely was just as abusive as his dad, even if he would never get physically violent. It makes me have so many encountered feelings, bc I'm a gojo simp and kinda want mc and him to have their happy ever after, but realistically that kind of emotional abuse is extremely hard to look past and move on from, and in real life I would absolutely beg mc to get away from him as fast as possible.
I also find it so hard to empathize with sera lol girl I'm poor too but i've never gone after a married man. We really saw also how she loves the idealized version of gojo, and doesn't like when her picture perfect boyfriend is anything but. I can see how she desperately wants something perfect after dealing with her family but still #SeraGetTherapyChallenge
Love how we all camp waiting for your asks to open! Keep taking care of yourself first though, we love you ❤️
@dol-house said
i usually don't go after the other women when it comes to cheating after all she didn't swear to be loyal,but this bitch sera makes it so hard not to, like she seen the mc being extremely lenient with her and still have the nerve to play the victim. If it was me i would have walked out on Gojo the moment he and his dumb bitch tried to villainize me. idk maybe im speaking from the fact that its incredibly hard for me to make meaningful emotional relationships or its probably because i have no tolerance for toxic relationships.( mostly because almost all the women in my family had been in one and i have been a witness to my parents own abusiveness) but all in all im glad that the mc is getting her shit together and walking away from the stress. But the sadist in me is fucking giggling i truly hope that gojo beg on his knees for the mc to come back i just wish the worst for him right now i hope that sera bady traps him i hope that the mc divorces his ass and (she) get with someone that truly cares for her and makes her happy the poor girl needs a happy ending.
Anonymous said
Why am i a whore? First of all i was crying the whole time while reading this chapter and that’s really strange because of all chapters this one hurt me the least but it’s the one i cried about the most because it was just too emotional😭
ok back to the topic why am i a whore? I literally made a whole speech about how i am so disgusted about gojo and that i could never forgive him no matter what and how he must suffer but now i feel a little bad for him🧍🏻♀️ but i shouldn’t let my whore emotions take the best of me he must suffer like how his wife suffered or even more because i might feel a little bad of him but it's nothing compared to how much i feel bad for y/n especially after i found that she has heart condition 😭💔
@peachiekookie said
Hello Hello 💜 I just got done reading Chapter Nine of SN and tears were falling already! There’s a few things I’ve had in mind while reading this chapter.
The conversation between Sera and Gojo - I felt mixed emotions. Anger? Remorse? Anxious? Too much happening since Gojo finally confronted Sera about what’s going on but Sera was pulling another trick up her sleeve. Will she use the pregnancy as a bridge to success or failure? She’s making me angry but also curious because sometimes the second female leads somehow manage to royally screw everything up anyways so I’m just waiting for that specific chapter to come up. And the relationship she has with her family made me feel so bad honestly. I can’t imagine yelling at my parents but in her case, since the dad is acting that way, Sera should just kick him out if he’s not providing financially. The mom I see her as a housewife watching the kids while Sera’s working so that’s okay. If anything, she didn’t have to yell at her siblings for caring about their older sister 🥺
Second concern was the conversation between MC and Gojo. That was a tear jerker (but it won’t top Ch.9) and I just wish for happy MC 💜 Gojo has abused her verbally and mentally (physically too bc of the ring situation), so I don’t think there will be a happy ending between them..? Maybe so maybe not but as far as the story goes, Gojo has a lot to make up for this marriage. MC won’t file for a divorce maybe because of the business relationship but if she had the power to, then she would’ve ended it without thinking twice. Now that we know MC has CAD, there’s no doubt in my mind the divorce will come with a happy ending like “Gojo, I’m sorry for the divorce but just know that regardless of what happens between us, I’ll still wish for happiness for you. It may not be with me but I don’t want you to suffer as much as I did,” type of divorce, ya know? Like pull the trigger with her own happiness and it makes him suffer in the end? Too much lol? However the story goes I will still love it anyways!
Last, Toji and MC. IN MY OPINION(!), I’m not wanting Toji and MC to become a couple. At first when he came up to MC at the bar my heart did backflips and I was like “oh yes she gonna get drunk and have a liquid courage hookup with him!” But as the story progressed and their relationship to, I see their relationship becoming a Brother-Sister type of bond . . I see Toji caring for his baby sister and wanting nothing but happiness for her while MC leans towards him as a escape zone for comfort. The way Toji makes her smile without much effort makes my heart melt but I don’t feel butterflies like that. I don’t think MC looks at him in that sense and is most likely using him (well not ‘using’ him) as an asset to begin her career. Like it’s a friend looking out for a friend :) I’m sorry to everyone who supports the Toji x MC trope but I support their relationship whatever if is our Author plans in the end!
This whole story got me going nuts and this is my first time sending in an Ask to you! Thank you again for making Friday’s interesting since all my family sees from me are tears and a runny nose 🥲💜
Anonymous said
After that emotional ending in chapter 8, I went to listened to the SN song playlist to comfort my heart and soul. The song that stood out was Harry Styles’ Falling and I decided to watch the music video as well. Someone in the comment section interpreted the music video, saying, “And after drowning himself, he realizes how he can try to start again, even when it’s really hard to recover from what he’s been through. That’s why the beginning is actually the end, with the water in the room going down, he playing the wet piano again and resting.”
It made me think, what if SN’s open ending is like that? Very simply, Gojo and y/n do separate, the merging wouldn’t happen, Gojo would lose y/n and his chance at being CEO, and Sera seems like she wouldn’t stick with him through all of this (seeing that she only likes the idea of his perfect self). Gojo will essentially hit rock bottom and wallow in regret as y/n moves on. In my mind, y/n wouldn’t necessarily move on to another relationship but move on with her career and loving/caring for herself. At some point, Gojo will find a way to forgive himself and move on from the past as well; he’ll find it in himself to let go of the agony that has tormented him (i.e. reconcile with his mom). And maybe years later, a mentally healthy Gojo and a heart healthy y/n would cross paths again, and it’ll be an open ending to whether or not they end up together again. But ultimately, they both are at peace and have forgiven each other. I also like to think that even during the time they were apart, they continued to have love for each other.
@sourpatchdweebs said
Sheeesh as someone who’s been through an emotionally and mentally abusive relationship. And had a snapping point JUST LIKE THIS… This is hitting home so so much wow. The way you’ve written the emotions of wanting that familiarity of a relationship but feeling like you’re not good enough is spot on scarily so. You’re an amazing author I hope you know. Just like y/n here I had a snapping point where I went OFF on my abuser; except I was at a safe position to leave since he was leaving for the navy. It’s just so interesting to see a toxic relationship being portrayed at extreme accurately like this. I’m hoping to see y/n live the life she deservesss !!
@bbykita said
can we talk abt seras stankin ass and her home life? i get that she is frustrated and upset abt her dads drinking which caused the dinner not to be good but she didnt have to be as rude abt it as she was. also with the 10 million yen thing didnt it all go to waste on her fathers debt? so how do they have a nicer place now? in conclusion i hate that fucking stanking dumb ass btich. also gojo, your to late with the apologies baby.( putting all this aside, how r u? i hope your keeping up with your mental health, getting enough sleep, and overall taking care of yourself! )
hey guys i’m sorry i can’t respond to u all but i just thought it’d be nice to publish these asks for anyone who’s interested to see <33 thank u for the support and for leaving all these messages !!
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I HAVE GASOLINE LAYING AROUND IN MY HOUSE AND IM OMW TO SET KANA ON FIRE :))))
ok im about to compile possibly like 10 chapters worth of kana hate KJHLDSDJS
so. sorry i wasnt able to respond to so manyyyyyy of these on time and all, i get overwhelmed super easily but i truly, truly love all of you and appreciate each msg :DD these have all either made me think real hard LMFOAHJSKD or had me laughing so hard and gasping lmfao. but yeah, i appreciate all of these and everything i mightve never gotten bc tumblr asks is dumb as well as the ones ive still yet to come back to or answer. almost each and every single one of these have been a guidance with what i wanted to do with the smau, whenever i wanted to switch something up or make something better in the smau, your msgs helped a lot in improving it in some way and helping me figure out what i truly wanted to do with the smau and for that, thank u!!!
Anonymous asked:
FUCK KANA ALL MY HOMIES HATE HER HANA SPILLED HER DRINK ON HER? SHE DID THE RIGHT THING ALSO FUCK SUNA BC EVEN UF HE HAD SEX WITH YN AND SAID HE ADORES HER HIS ACTIONS/AFFECTION TOWARDS KANA GIVES MIXED SIGNALS AND ITS TIME HE GET ACCOUNTABLE OF SAID ACTIONS sorry for the rant 🥴
Anonymous asked:
the “tw kana” absolutely sent me into orbit i cackled 😭
Anonymous asked:
anons bonding over kana hate🤝🏻🤝🏻🤝🏻
Anonymous asked:
yeah its only you who doesn't dislike her FGHDJGKUJ IM KIDDING no but really more than hate her its hate the way shes in between like it pisses me off the cockblock she is 😭😭
Anonymous asked:
if i were kana,,,i would either tell him i still have feelings OR hurt in silence (step back) since technically he or should i say they decided to be JUST bestfriends not cockblocking the possibility for him to be in a relationship
Anonymous asked:
kana has to make a choice: she confess or shut the fuck up bc as far as we know they decided to be just bff (highkey think suna was more into being just friends and kana kinda lied) so IF he likes someone else why the fuck try to sabotage him (his happiness with someone else) when he find it out then what? would he still keep her as a friend? 🧐
Anonymous asked:
What if I just...shift or whatever you guys call it, into As Friends universe...and bonk Kana on the head...lol just kidding...ah ha ha ha No please she is starting to sound like the girl best friend that would make couples break up because she does not care about boundaries...honey, you're the best friend, yes, you're important, but that's his girlfriend...stay in your lane. Lol like "I don't want to confess" but "He's mine so I have to get rid of all competitions" lol fucking clown yeah no, I don't have to wait for you to write more about her to make me hate her sksksksksk I already do
Anonymous asked:
Ayo istg kana's been giving y/n the stinky eye... if she stares at y/n like that one more time LAWD HELP HER SOUL, im coming for her eyes!!! But fr,, Rin better treat y/n right and put kana in her place. Bc y/n got a best friend too (samu) u^u and he can cook and would treat her good.
Anonymous asked: likE I KEEP SAYING eAT SHIT KANA
Anonymous asked: I am CRAVING IMMENSE VIOLENCE bring that girl kana here lemme knock her teeth down her throat. >:(
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kana (derogatory)
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istg if a bus doesn’t hit kana i’m gonna do it
Anonymous asked:
kana toxic best friend it’s time for suna to realise IT 😤😤
Anonymous asked:
kana has family problems only rin knows about? what in the ao haru ride manga 😐
Anonymous asked:
WHY KANA FUKC
Anonymous asked:
NAH MY GUT FEELING TELLING ME KANA WAS BAD NEWS SINCE THE BEGINNING also she wants suna all to herself (he sees her as a bff) but doesn’t say shit to him... if course he’s gonna find someone in the future whether in college or after (unless the bitch will still to his ass even when he goes pro)
Anonymous asked:
everyday i wake up with notifs from u i feel like im about to get subjected to pain and IM RIGHT THIS TIME TOO what the hell kana u will never be yn (me) 🙏🏼🧇
Anonymous asked:
bro part of me wants to punch suna so bad bc like hes so awkward but so smooth like who tf do u want stop being a smooth ass mf u know these two bitches like u
Anonymous asked: i might just obliterate everyone named kana cause of as friends THE WHOLE TIME MY EYE WAS TWITCHING CAUSE OF HER FUCK KDDSKDLSDK EVERYONE WHO WANTS TO OBLITERATE HER SAY "I" but like hi! i hope youre well
Anonymous asked:
even tho u always insist you'd never het mad at me girl HUHH i used to be genuinely good w kana now she's just a manipulative bitch :// kana babe sorry but ur best friend is allowed to spend time with other people 🙄
xmyshya asked:
I 👏 love 👏 Hana 👏 Also 👏 fuck 👏 Kana 👏 and Rin you idiot, what do you mean he's not gonna pursue dating T_T it's just a few chapters till the end T_T wut T_T
yourstarvic asked:
Kana needs to back up before she gets beat up 😤 me and my homies ain’t playing no more 😤
Anonymous asked:
omg that ur probably mad (even tho u said u’d never get mad at me!) broooo
Anonymous asked:
kana gonna get even more territorial in the next chapters im getting kinda scared to see how rin reacts 😒 shes gonna lowkey (highkey) manipulate rin like oh u said youll never leave me you said i come first and all that mhmmm girl dont make me break your neck 👎🏼👎🏼
Anonymous asked:
huh so is kana basically a pick me girl
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“you’d be selfish abt this” girl
Anonymous asked:
why tf kana gotta ask yn bro u don't know her just ask suna directly 🙄 putting her in an awkward ass position how's she supposed to say no i'm sorry kana's being annoying as hell rn
Anonymous asked:
it’s time for kana to realise: - yn aint just a fling bc suna is spending more time with her - suna clearly sees her just as his bff
Anonymous asked:
Kana saying "I was worried you'd be selfish about this haha" well bitch now I gotta be 😒
Anonymous asked:
“i was worried you’d be selfish about this hahaha” -the one who’s for the streets kana better watch herself…y/n was being kind, i will not be
Anonymous asked:
DID KANA REALLY HAVE THE NERVE TO ASK US?????? TO POSTPONE OUR PLANS WITH RIN???? pls that « you understand, right? » was just so manipulative oh my god-
Anonymous asked:
kana can go cry & write to her diary about it 😘😘
Anonymous asked:
“y/n right?” after literally meeting her plssss
Anonymous asked:
miss kana is just gonna have to miss him a little more bc i'm not canceling SHIT!!
Anonymous asked:
kana is playing chess while we’re playing checkers
Anonymous asked:
everytime you post and kana gets fucked over my day is made and it all I'm going to think about
Anonymous asked:
im catching up on as friends bc i havent read a few chapters and kana saying “arent you just with yn” made me extra angry go trip down some stairs kana
Anonymous asked:
u made my week with the update 😭🖤 i hate kana sfm lol
Anonymous asked:
kana suffering either way the story goes? I'm in -🦄
Anonymous asked:
kana n suna need to grow up lowkey it’s very highschool
Anonymous asked:
WHOEVER SENT THIS I AM CHOOSING VIOLENCE who's in, let's go beat kana-🦄
Anonymous asked:
hELL YEAAHH GET FUCKED KANA /neg
#wait im adding more i just#it noncon posted KLDHSKJDD#;bubble#smau ; as friends#tw kana#this is gonna be like the tw kana hall of fame post LKJDSHKDJS
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(2.1 leaks !)
OK SO APPARENTLY KOKOMI’S PLAYABLE NEXT UPDATE ???? YEA IM OMW
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Prelude to chaos
Alternative title: Twitter reacts to: Swynlake going feral
Dated: November 7, 2020
Note: This event takes place after Dressed to the nines and during Anthony’s cult of Compulsion event. This post doesn’t cover the full story, just the parts where LP had a part in and has been edited for brevity’s sake.
Tony Rydinger || @rydingtony [Attached is a photo of Phineas at the end of that fight in the Town Hall] @flynneas is a fucking menace! Broke my nose for no reason at the town hall mixer. Avoid this freak at all costs. @ssicofficial
The Spill || @swynlakespill Hey Swynlake! Let's check in, let our loved ones know you're alive and kicking it!
Launchpad MacNab || @DWNumber1fan @swynlakespill what even is happening!? I know people joke about looking away for five seconds and then finding Swynlake in flames but, seriously?!
The Spill || @swynlakespill @DWNumber1Fan no idea, my dear boy! If I had to guess, I would say we're in like, the beginning of 28 Days Later as a virus sweeps through Swynlake, turning ppl into extremely violent version of Karens! Any other theories? Another theory: Swynlake finally has not ENOUGH of the shitty snacks the Town Board put out. This is a coup! (Humour is my coping mechanism plz be nice)
Launchpad MacNab || @DWNumber1fan @swynlakespill wait, WHAT!? Please stay safe, Boba! And, eh, I'd appreciate if you could maybe update us (and by "us" I mean "me) about Dodger's, Greg's, Phineas', Eilowny and Kairi's well-being if someone, ANYONE damages a single hair of any of my babies I swear to all that is good and holy that I'll fight
Your New Royal || @queenbur @DWNumber1fan well Phineas totally broke my best friends nose so i wouldn't worry about HIM
The Spill || @swynlakespill UPDATES AS I KNOW THEM: Phineas brawling in streets. Kairi, Dodger MIA. Eilonwy seen running TOWARD the disaster after Aquata Triton helped her up. Greg MIA
Launchpad MacNab || @DWNumber1fan @queenbur excuse me WHAT!? He would never, he's a good boy!
Your New Royal || @queenbur @DWNumber1fan he broke Tony's nose so take that up with him!
The Spill || @swynlakespill @DWNumber1fan [links to Tony's tweet] Pictures are worth a thousand tweets
Launchpad MacNab || @DWNumber1fan @swynlakespill I'm legit speechless. Suddenly I'm glad to be at Besydus rn
The Spill || @swynlakespill is it uncouth to ask ppl to send bunker selfies??? probably right? Right? unless
Your New Royal || @queenbur
@DWNumber1fan should chaos uber drive everyone 2 safety
Launchpad MacNab || @DWNumber1fan @queenbur I would love to, but a recent incident with an angry magical being with metal claws trying to kill me has rendered me unable to drive for a hot sec. Like, I could TRY, but...
Your New Royal || @queenbur @DWNumber1fan not 2 despair or anything but we're all gonna DIE
The Coolest Mallard || @llcoolmallard may or may not have a moped to swing by and rescue some hapless ppl out there. 2 ppl per ride probably dudes
The Spill || @swynlakespill QRT @llcoolmallard Louie to the rescue! Boosting!
Phineas Flynn⚡ @flynneas @llcoolmallard im outsife twn hsll. idk whst hpprnd. hed rlly hirts. help
The Coolest Mallard || @llcoolmallard @flynneas omw dude
Launchpad MacNab || @DWNumber1fan @||coolmallard LOUIE, NO @queenbur ...ok, I'm on my way. But just because it's my moral obligation as a Robinson stan @flynneas YOU ARE SO GETTING A STERN TALKING TO, YOUNG MAN
Greg || @Gregory_Eeyore persl istn sfae
Launchpad MacNab || @DWNumber1fan @Gregory_Eeyore Greg!!! Where are you, buddy?!
Greg || @Gregory_Eeyore @DWNumber1fan rwn hsll my svreem si brkenn
The Spill || @swynlakespill @DWNumble1Fan @gregory_eeyore Ive taken it upon me to be the official Tweet translator-- 90% this says town hall. GO GET HIM LAUNCHPAD
Launchpad MacNab || @DWNumber1fan @swynlakespill Boba, first of all, I love you. Second: I KNOW, I'M TRYING
#I like talking this way cause it makes everything sound important (Writings)#S: Prelude to chaos#/This is a recap for the non-group friends so they can kind of understand the chaos
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march 16th 2017
gm gm blog i havent been here to update in a while but shits been dry lowkey for me since my last entry- there was like a lot of emotional turmoil regarding me and sean after we slept together idk it was kind of a mess and it really got to me just emotionally and tbh im kinda glad i went through that kind of experience bc it taught me a lot about myself- havent updated you on bae either in a while um im like 99.99% sure hes in jail again right now so i havent heard from him in a super long time sadly coming up on close to a month with no contact :-/ idk it sucks but i like him a lot so imma just sit around and wait for him to come back and see what he has to say for himself.
so why were really here is my sexual activity right so the other day i was in the art building and just sitting and i look down at my phone and i have a text message from tony and lowkey i was shocked like i think my jaw dropped lmfao it wasnt like a wild text or anything just havent heard from him in forever like since december is the last time we fucked and ive slept w G and sean since then both of which are kinda better in bed but tony is the most avail to me lmfao that sounds so shitty but imma just be honest anyways it was wild that he messaged me tbh bc i was gonna be in columbus the next night which was wednesday and because i had a dr apt this morning to get some birth control lol so i tell him im gona be home and tell him ill come see him if thats cool he said for sure so the night of i head over there looking crusty af like dead ass no brows on no makeup at all leggings and a gross ass white tee and same old shit we sit on the couch and catch up about work and stuff literally same shit we always talk about and eventually he asks me to give him a back rub which is fuckin code for were moving into the bed room and so im like omw boiiiiiii hahahaha and when i get back to his room hes shirtless laying in bed and i just jump up next to him and scratch and rub his back and eventually he flips over onto his back and i flop down on my stomach like basically like ok my turn lol and hes rubbing my back and my ass not like sexually yet literally just a nice booty/back rub lol and dead ass im like falling asleep and so is he and eventually he leans in to kiss me and were kissing and kissing and shits getting hot hands are wandering around my body...and eventually im like ok get these leggings OFF and were kissing more and more and he like literally just put his fingers inside me and he usually never does that so i was shooketh tbh and hes kissing me still and wow it was nice he stops after a while and were still kissing and im like ok where the dick at and im reaching for it and like urging him to take his pants off and when hes just like out i grabbed his dick and kinda jerked it a little before giving him head and i was goiiiiiiiiiing in on him and i could hear his breath catch when i would do something really good and he was whispering ‘shit’ and idk bout you but if a boy is cussing while ur mouth is on their dick thats just the sexiest it gets tbh and im going going going and he kinda pulls me back and is like you have to stop or were not gonna be able to do anything i was like ayyyyy look at me go giving good head he stands up and is like what do you want and im like lol i wanna have sex obvi and he grabs a condom and is like alright bitch and grabbed my left ankle and like throws it over his shoulder and is like over kind of hovering and then is inside me and wooow that first thrust that really fits in and is like complete?? like fuck me UP so were fucking and he pulls out and is like trying not to finish fast which i appreciate tbh and is like ok flip over i know how you like it so im like on the edge of the bed and hes standing and im like up on my knees ass all the way up in the air lol and getting dicked down from behind is just hot???? so were going going going and eventually im like ok you stop lemme do the work so i asked him to just stand like solid and let me like do the thrusting?? idk if that visual makes sense but anyways im backing it up HARD like realllllly going in on him and it felt so good like i was really working it and i was feeling those pre orgasm feels and i was like yesss hoe im bout to do this hahahah so im like going hard and hes got his hands just on my ass like gripping me and i hear him moaning behind me and he like grabs me hard and makes me stop like hes about to finish and im like ugh why boy and i sort of flip over and hes like are you good im like yes boy are you good? hes like yeah im fine do you want more and im like lol yes im sorry its really good today he kind of laughs and shoves me over and puts it back in and this is where it got juicy yall so hes still behind me ok and im like alright imma be the one thrusting so just chill for a sec and he grabs my anlkes which are on either side of his legs and ls like holding my ankles and using my own body weight to like pull himself into me even harder and shit was hitting me deep i was like WOOOOOW so im kinda loosing my mind and goin hard and moaning like a demon as always and he was just really feeling it he smacked my ass kinda hard and finished he had a condom on so no worries lol but i felt bad bc he loves to cum in my mouth to like finish so i wanted to do that for him but he just was shook by my movements i guess hahhahaaha he kind of laughed at me and playfully smacked my ass and went to the bathroom and i was SLUMPED in his bed like good night type mood and he was like babe theres pillows if you wanna stay tonight i was like AWWW WOW i would love a sleep over w a boy but i gotta get home so i walk back out and we just like lay on the couch together and were deadass falling asleep so i get up to go and get my coat n shoes n shit and we hug and he says be safe tomorrow and and as usual i say i will and leave it was really nice honestly it wasnt like mind blowing but it was really good and really comfortable i can be me around him hes seen everything you know i dont really care about how i look when i go over there bc hes always tryna smash regardless ahahah anyways thats it for me
talk soon hopefully having sex once a month is fucking mothers dude
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ok so to update my diary cus im so fkn bad at updating i only wrote when im sad or angry LMAO which sjcks bc looking back when im ”stabke” i look like a fkn edgelord and also its just negative shit ans i have so much to write bc i didnt write what happened when i was happy UGHHHHH
ANYWYSSSSSS idk i went to jo’s place, we fucked it was really cozy i felt SPOILT i met him on tues (131118) and then im gonna meet him on saturday (171118) if this doesnt fuck up and yeah i was actually HAPPY!!!!! kind??? yeah i was happy!!! he was emotional!!!! we cuddled!!!! even after sex!!!! yAY!!!!!
but then..........
but then..........
then we had yesterday.......
yesterday where i was sad over gj bc he was jealous and i called jo and he just made me feel like shit tbh and..... i wish gj was still my FP. he has every right to be jealous bc i treated him like shit while im giving jo lots of free-passes and let jim treat me like sjit. i shoulve stayed with gj but i also know i made him a favor by brekaing up. he deserves so much better. i still love him tho. not romantically pr sexually but like.... i just love him. he was my FP after all he was everything. our relationship was fucked up toxic but he was still so kind to be. he took responsibility for both of our feelings, MY feelings. when i was depressed and suicidal and anxious he hugged me until i felt calmer. he was everything and when he left i panicked. i was so fkn mean to him, made him feel like e wasnt enough but i appreciate him so much. even though i hurt him by just junping to this other weird guy gj is still kind to me. he called me disgusting and lots of stuff that really hurt and i panicked and wanted to DIEEEEEE but he’s the rational one. he apologised afterwards and made sure i was okay. even now when im sad bc i wanted jo’s attention and comfort bc he’s my new FP and i dont, gj asks me how i feel. i cant tell him that i want jo’s comfort and thats why im sad but i answers that im sas and really want to cuddle. hes so kind to me. i love him and wish him the best. i just wish he didnt leave me. i hate how i think its ok for him to leave me bc ”i have jo now” but as soon as jo and i fight i panic and NOO DONT LEAVE.
ugh idk what im writing im so fkn tired. im going on another date rn with a person idek like and i just want to sleep and revlog relatable bpd posts and be sad over jo and write shit here but udjsisbsksbskwldlsblsfs IDK
yeah anyways jo called me later yesterday asked if i was ok and i said is as and he hung up and i got sader lmao. then later i got a text that i should watch this amateur porn girl to practice on how to give bjs bc thats basically what im gonna practice on on saturday and im like ok. but then he starts talking abt this girl and idk i just get this weird disgusting feeling like..... im not a fkn porn star. i wanna make him feel good and be his slut bc i love him (kinda) and want his love in return. and then i get sad bc i realise thats not how he thinks and he misunderstands and is like ”i dont expect u to be a porn star but i want u to be my slut and i’ll be urs to keep the passion” and im like HELL YEAH I KNOW IM UR SLUT but i want LOVE in payment and that behind all sex is LOVE. and ofc sexual attraction but mostly love cus even ugly ppl can be sexually attractive. and then he said he had to cut me if i found him ugly and im like ”u dont have the right, ur the one who sees our relationship as a business contract” and he’s like ”yeah i do. life too” and im just ”thats disgusting” and he gets annoyed i can feel it but in already hurt and im starting to split again here we go again wohooooooo. i admit i felt disgusted and used and replcable first time we had sex bc we didnt cuddle or anything i basically just came to his place and performed like one of his porn stars and left and that was it for him. ”damn if u gotta be like that” ”we dont have to do stuff tho its cool” and i get even more sad bc he KNOWS i’ll fuck him anyways and bc i love him and its exactly THAT that makes me sad and i tell him that and hes like ”yeah cus who would be hype after hearing that. logic” (his fucking logic MY ASS GOD I JUST WANT TO KILL HIM), ”u hurt me first”, ”just cus we see things different doesnt mean u can act childish like when ur ex called u disgusting”.
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i cried myself to sleep
okay yes i GUESS i have myself to blame........ but why cant he just comfort me. i obviously just want comfort. i just want his love. here i am, a fuckibg object to him is it that weird to be upset over that??? i think anyone who likes someone would be upset to hear that theyre just a resource, a business contract to them. ”lOgIC”
ughhhhhh. anyways i had mad anxiety and im omw to this other date nd im just sad. will i wait for jo to text me or will i text him. i wanted to text him when i felt better after reading those funny bpd relatable posts i’ll reblog soon but now i sad again bc obviously my mood fluctates but ugh idkkkkk fuck mEEEEE
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hi, sweetie, how r u? i was having trouble sleeping, then 2days long migraine happened, ugh Anyw. Wanted to say that i rly appreciate all ur beautiful nice words. U motivated me to do some things, and im omw to be better. /m drinking tea. How is ur teadrinking? I kno, u wrote bout this state, when lil cozy thing can be too much, i kinda get it? i think. I made myself rly strong tea, which is not even nice, but its strong smell woke me up. U sleep well? I have horrible nightmares lately, Gore :')
The thing is i have internet connection only 3/7 these days, it sucks, but i have flower update for u. Those flowers, ah, they r really nice aspect of this world we live in, huh? Pls take care. Sending u hugs!
oh i’m so sorry, some of my 2 least favorite things are lack of sleep and migraines (well,, lack of sleep when i am actually trying to sleep,,,) i used to get really horrible gore in my stress dreams too, i don’t want you to experience that :( pls get better soon ..
i’m really stressed :’) like … rEALLY stressed :’’) it’s ok though. also!! i took a bunch of pictures of flowers for u!!! and u have to remind me, because i wanted to edit the pics so they say what all the flowers are called in English, but i keep forgetting. i forget everything these days, it’s been so bad hhh anyways remind me if i don’t post them/send them to u in the next couple days
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