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Jan 14 2019

Hey Ummm im here to update my celibacy journal lmfaoooo guess what ladies the celibacy has ended. ‼️‼️

I met a new boy, his name is Anthony, goes by Tony lol....did I rlly have to find another dude named tony lol

We matched on tinder he super liked me lol, which recently I’ve been using tinder to sell nudes to men so....there’s that but anyways he’s sooooo my type I had to message him lol and we just connected tbh

It’s not like profound or anything but we just vibe well together and conversation flows. We moved from tinder into Instagram DM’s at first, kept talking for a few days like 3/4

And the other day he asked me to exchange numbers which we did obviously

Exchanging nudes duh-

Anyways we planned on meeting a week from now..but this weekend he was in Columbus and it is a hour drive to get from Columbus to wright state and he didn’t mind at all. He was happy to do it- and he drove here to see me.

He got into my room and that’s a little awkward just bc I live in a tiny ass dorm room lol but he didn’t seem to care. He sat down on my bed and i stood in between his legs and we just started kissing- I couldn’t wait lol

And his hands obviously were all over me pulling me closer. Earlier he asked me if he could shower when he got here, I said I didn’t mind obvi and he asked me to get in with him which I was like big YES

So anyways, I’m in the shower w this tall ass man, making out he’s turning me all around and feeling me everywhere wow he asked me to give him head I was like yup so I’m on my knees in the shower sucking his dick which I haven’t obviously done in a long time so I’m like gagging a lot LOL whoopsies

Eventually we got out of the shower, he dried me off like my legs and my hair it was so sweet he’s like o here lay down on the bed and he went down on me!!!! Like legs fully spread hunny he asked me if I had any toys and I was like teehee yes so he fucked me w my dildo that was hot as hell

He asked me to 69 and I’m like ofc so my ass is onnnnn his face LOL I’m bout to make him nut giving him head but he’s fucking me w my dildo and giving me head so I’m cumming LOL and get distracted

So we change positions and I’m bout to suck his dick to help him finish and he asked me to suck on his balls and he basically jerked off and he asked me where I should come and I said in my mouth obviously so he came all over my face it was very spicy

So once we both came we laid down in bed and we’re sooo wrapped up in each other. Fucking cuddled hunny. Watching dumb shit on YouTube and Instagram kept scratching his arms and his hair and he had his hands wandering over my body, his hands are sooo big and he was idly playing w my fingers and hold my hand it was so sweet

We did that for probably an hour or so

And then he looks at me and says do you wanna bone again

I was like...are you gonna fuck me this time

He said oh yeah

So we’re bout to fuck finally but he asked me to give him head first

So I lay my head back over the edge and let him just fuck my face essentially it was hot he took pictures of me like that

But I just wanted to get dick essentially

So I’m like pls he gets in bed w me and I’m like face down ass up which is my favvv and he put it in me and I’m like shook....he’s fucking me from behind for a while and I asked him to hit me lol which he did and called me a slut I said umm wow and then asks me to flip over, and we fuck in missionary w my legs up by his face which he rlly likes

Idk how but we ended up on the floor and he’s like pounding the shit out of me from behind

And he asks to take the condom off and I’m like....sir

But also feeling risky and so I said yes and he put it back in me raw and I thought I was gonna black out

Condoms rlly do suck so bad wtf

Anyways

He pulls out to finish and I can’t even get up honestly

I’m like stuck on the floor

And he sits in my chair and when I finally get up I’m like time to sit on ur lap pls and we sit like that for a while

He’s gotta drive 3 hours home so he leaves around 8 pm I was sad to see him go

But he kissed me goodbye like 50 times hahah

And I fell the fuck asleep

I’m fucking smitten lol

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Rlly growing tired of only fucking myself

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I’m high right now..on the come down & I’m just saying I would kill someone to get fucked really hard right now

Like crazy shit I’m tryna gag so hard on a dick that tears stream down my face. Life doesn’t want me to have good things tho....

But honestly I believe that something good will come my way eventually and I’m really excited even tho still in this moment I just wanna get my titty sucked

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Got nowhere to post nudes these days....

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X

The best sex I’ve ever had was with a dude who fucking hurt my feelings lmfao what if I don’t ever get anything better

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Approaching 9 months without any physical contact and really feeling it today. While it’s like obvious I would want to have sex if I could the feeling is more longing/aching for someone to just like lay in bed with? That seems so fucking corny but like I just wanna lay in bed w a boy lol it doesn’t help that I keep having dreams about being like laid up w a man lol. And I keep listening to post Malone LOL and his music is like sad sexual and it’s putting me in a mood. I’m just tryna kiss someone’s neck FUK Sometimes I’m lucky enough to be wrapped up in whatever life is at the moment enough to not have this on my mind but idk I think bc I dreamt about being in a relationship last night I just woke up with these moods. I’ve never been lucky I hope I can be

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A teenager’s bedroom.

How to Solve Your Interior Design Problems, Jill Blake, 1986.

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2/22/18

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Let’s be real sisters

It’s been since August that I’ve had good sex, and also since August since I’ve had really bad sex....it’s February.

I have literally 0 prospects of any sexual encounters and 0 prospects of anything romantic lol it’s like gotten to the point where I’m not even upset about it I just reminisce on the past when I had sex even once a month LOL......I just think longingly for when anyone thought of me as a desirable being what a concept

What’s a girl to do...I guess I’ll accept the fact that I will never have sex again despite my sex drive meanwhile the worst ppl somehow have reliable sex and it’s like no big deal?? Huh

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idk i really like being called cute but i also really like hearing that you masturbate to the thought of me idk

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august 3rd 2017 ok everyone as seen above is me right after gettin my brains fucked out of my head and putting my clothes back on please see the red finger like marks on my neck bc bitch i got CHOKED!!!! anyways lemme start from the beginning this is like a week long story in one post so sorry. so last week made plans like twice to see bae and he flaked but didn't explain why and just never showed up and never texted me, i was SO pissed and when he didn't talk to me for 2 days i was like ok well this is done bye and then he texts me today and says hey don't be mad w this emoji 😔 and i'm like??? boy what the fuck where have u been and he explains he's like having extreme anxiety issues and struggling thru that and had a couple days where he needed to be alone and needed to just like stay in the house and i was like ok yeah i get that but please tell me next time? so he's like so you wanna hang out and i'm like yes pls so he gives me his address and i like zoom on over and he meets me outside n we kiss and it was like so cute the highlight on my upper lip like was on his lip 😩 and we go inside and talk and he's like i'm gonna go grab food you can just stay here and i'm like ok and he's like omg you aren't even wearing a bra are you trying to seduce me and i'm like haha never ;-) u feel me and he's like already touching my legs and as soon as he leaves the house is like i almost couldn't leave and says we're fucking as soon as i get back and i was like OMG shook and so turned on lol so he comes back and honestly wastes no time like gets in bed with me and kisses me and like pants come off and i'm in this body suit and he's like going nuts for this shit i wasn't expecting the reaction tbh but were like rolling around making out he's grabbing my ass super hard and kissing me and my neck and playing with my nipples bc like top was cut soooo low he eventually like is rubbing my clit and my hands on his dick which is big lol and he's like ok how do we get this off and like pulls if off over my whole body and he shoves my legs apart and is like inside me in 1 second and it was so good omg he was literally just pounding me and kissing my neck at this point it's missionary and i'm in my head like omg why isn't he choking me and i just say out loud "choke me" and he went in on me like choked me so hard i really couldn't breathe like was struggling hard and my eyes were like fluttering i feel like i was being choked hard enough to cut off air flow to my brain and it was so hot omg so i'm literally dying and he's slamming into me and wow it's so good and after a while he like slid out on accident and rolls me over and is fuckinf me from like the side?? and had his one arm under my head like my neck was in the crook of his elbow like straight up choke hold and his other hand was on my waist like digging into me and i'm loosing my shit at this point he whispers in my ear he's gonna cum and slams into me like 1 last time and pulls out and cums on me and i was like so physically weak i couldn't open my eyes he got up and showered and i got dressed like half way just put my body suit on and laid in bed til he came back and he was like let's go get coffee and i'm like no don't wanna get up and he's like come on pls and i'm like fuckinf with him like nope not getting up and he leans over me and is like let's go and kisses me and like to my surprise spanked me sooooo hard it shocked me and i looked at him and he was looking at me like do you want another and i like half nodded and he hit me again and it was like so loud and stung kinda but wasn't hurting and he looked at me and was like let's go babe and i said no and he was like this ones not gonna feel nice and hit me soooooo hard on the same ass cheek lol it hurt honestly but this was my first time being like spanked for not listening or as a "punishment" which he's super into it was hot as hell i could have fucked again at this point so i get up and we get dressed and go to starbucks and then go to a park and walk around the woods n a train track for hours and just talk about everything it was really nice and his mom called and was like kinda freaked like where are u and he told her he was with me and she was like IS SHE A USER IS SHE CLEAN and it was lowkey awk but kinda funny and then i went home and texted bae and was like hey and he asked me if i had fun i said yes of course and he said he had a good time and specifically was like it was so hot when you told me to choke you i was like ohhhhh ok boy 👀👀 so yeah that as my afternoon w bae it was nice and the sex was great can't wait to see him again bye ladies

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i hope the rest of july treats you well, august leaves you happy, september fills you with warmth, october gives you closure, november gives you new beginnings, december gives you A love of your life, and 2018 is fruitful and you love and are loved

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additional thoughts: having sex with tony in march and then not again until recently didn't make me upset like sure i was horny but like whatever - i had sex with G 1 week ago and i swear it's like a fire ignited inside me like i've never had sex before he makes me feel so sexy like he desires me and that feeling is something i can't shake i'm struggling so hard i don't want to want him i wish i didn't care i wish he didn't have this effect on me i wish i didn't want him so much this is such a terrible feeling being stuck between fucking and not fucking like please just tell me what is going on

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help i'm so horny that it hurts i want 2 die fuck