#update from my last one 5 years ago lmaoo

[zubneo]

new spider movie, new spider sona

[atopearth]

Shall we Date? Wizardess Heart Part 32 - Ted Route

It's been a while since the Buddy System was talked about, so I guess it might be interesting to see Ted and the heroine become buddies. I mean, she's not a dunce anymore so there should be nothing to complain about like with Elias loll. Hmm the new twins don't look very appealing for now, so let's see how this goes~ Ted is probably the most interesting one out of these new students lol. Anddd he's very prickly, but I guess it's understandable since he's a beastman and he probably wants to hide that from the heroine just in case she doesn't take to his race kindly. It was so cute how his ears and tail came out when he got drunk and fell asleep though lmao. Hahahaha I love how blunt the heroine was when she told him that she thought he was pretty handsome when his mouth was shut, and he said the same thing back to her lol.

WHAT? Lars (the older twin that looks like a little boy) publishes science articles?! I honestly thought he was just gonna be another silly guy lmaoo. Way to go against the stereotypical look I guess. It's sweet to know that Ted wanted to back out of being a part of the investigation team with the heroine and them because he didn't want them to be seen negatively as well (since everyone found out he was a beastman when he used magic and undid his transformation magic). It's nice that the others are seeing more of his considerate side since he's so harsh and cold most of the time lol. Aww I love how they manned the fruit shop at Hisoka's market together! I think it was really sweet of him to encourage her to keep at it a bit longer when she was really tired, he even praised her for being so good at customer service! Like, how rare is that?! Hahaha. Ooh, so Ted actually came to the academy because he needed to go to the forest to check up on the seal on the Nidhogg (monster with deadly venom that kills everything around it) that his people made a hundred years ago. Although it's kinda crazy that they sent him to check on the seal but don't have the means to actually seal it back up again if it were to break the seal; which it is slowly doing right now. It was really nice of Ted to tell her it doesn't matter that she was incapable in the past, because her past self is what made her today, and he even said she's a great Prefect now! Glad to see that Ted is acting more mature and kind towards the heroine now, he's warming up to her haha. HAHAHA, I loved how Ted hid behind the heroine when he saw Seth (wolf with Yukiya), it's so cute how he's scared of dogs and wolves🤣

Ted doesn't like to show his emotions much, but I found it really heartwarming when he told the heroine that he didn't want to see her get hurt on his watch haha. It's actually really cute how honest Ted is being with the heroine by asking to walk with her to class and even holding her hand!! Soo cuteee🥰 The confession really wasn't romantic at all, but I loved how straightforward Ted was about it, since I'm sure he knew her feelings as well. It's cute how they're going on their first date already though~ Lmao when everyone sacrificed Zeus to try and get Ted's Tiger Roar to work on the Nidhogg possessed Clive loll. Poor Zeus. It was obvious that the heroine needed to be the one in real danger for Ted to be able to use it properly. Aww, so the reason why Ted has been hesitating all this time about staying in the academy is because if he succeeds in this mission, he will be named clan chief and he's been aiming for that to prove himself his whole life since everyone used to view him as a weakling���� It was nice to see everyone combining their powers with a concrete plan on sealing the Nidhogg. It actually felt like they delegated their tasks properly this time instead of just the usual kinda fighting in the other routes imo haha.

Ted passing the trial was evident, and although considering how meaningful becoming the chief of his clan was supposed to be, he sure took losing the opportunity quite well lol, but I guess I can understand that staying with the heroine, becoming more mature and knowing more about the outside world would be better for him instead and I'm happy that he's kinda broken out of the idea that he needs to "succeed" their expectations and instead is living a bit more for himself. I don't know why they bothered making the heroine his buddy in this route though, because it changed nothing about the story, I'm sure she would have helped him regardless of whether he was her buddy or not. Otherwise, I liked this route. Mainly because it felt much better in terms of story compared to the other recent ones. Like, it's not as good as the first few seasons obviously, but at least I relatively enjoyed Ted and the heroine because of how cute he was, and also how capable he was. Clive and Lars don't appeal to me at all though so I'm hoping they'll surprise me in a good way but who knows. On another note, now that Wizardess Heart and my favourite Ninja Shadow are being dumped/discontinued by NTT Solmare, there won't be any more updates on these once I'm done with all the routes. I'm honestly so sad because I love Ninja Shadow, but it was pretty much expected once they ditched Wizardess Heart. I tried to play Obey Me but it's not my thing, and Story Jar is just annoying in terms of how money grubbing it is and just the way the whole app is done. So yeah, guess I can focus on my Switch and PC otome after I'm done with the last 5 routes! Well, I guess I still have the Ikemen games and Ayakashi Romance Reborn though hahaha!

[badgalyadi]

random survery. / 474 + 560.

How’s your mood? Do you feel any different than you did earlier today? def better than it was earlier

What do you look for in a friend? Is it important that your friends have similar hobbies and interests to you? Or is it more important that you just enjoy their company? i think as long as i enjoy your company, we’re good.

Has anyone ever spread a malicious rumour about you? people have been doing this since middle school lmaooo

Are you comfortable with talking to the opposite sex, about sex? yeah, sex isn’t that deep of a topic lol.

What are your views on people who claim to have had spiritual or paranormal experiences? damn that’s crazy.

Have you ever had a friend that you were really close with, but you ended up drifting apart? Why do you think this happened? lol, life.

How much of an issue would you say peer pressure is for you? FAKE. no way ur gonna get me to do something i don’t wanna do, idc.

Would you be able to give up eating your favourite food(s), if your doctor said you had to? nope.

If you’re single, do you ever feel jealous of people who are in relationships? And if you’re in a relationship, do you ever feel jealous of people who are single? no.

What’s in your pencil case? pens, unsharpened pencils, mechanical pencils, erasers both big & small, a sharpener, a stapler, extra staples, and highlighters.

Is there anything in your room that you wouldn’t want your parents to find? maybe so.

Are you wearing anything fragranced atm? i’m wearing the fragrance i brought back from cuba. it was only $3 and it smells so good, deadass makes me it :(

Was your last illness something contagious? i had a cold, so i guess yeah.

When did you last update your Facebook profile photo? it’s been a year.

Have you ever felt confused about your sexuality? in middle school. terrible time to wanna figure that shit out but 💀

If you found out your friend was sleeping around, what would you say to him/her? nothing b/c i don’t care lmao do you.

How should someone of the opposite sex go about starting a conversation with you? it’s not that deep, just say hi.

Tell me about someone you dislike. Why do you dislike them? Do they know that you dislike them? obsessive and shady asf, can’t mind her business.

Have you ever felt so strongly for someone that you believed them to be totally irreplaceable, as if you could never be happy with anyone else? yeah, and i don’t think i’ll ever feel that way about somebody again b/c i learned u really can live without anybody whether u like it or not.

Out of all the horror films you’ve ever seen, which one scared you the most? uhhhhhh sinister or insidious idk

Who was the last person to tell you that they were disappointed in you? not airing out names. she didn’t directly say it, anyway.

If you’re an only child, do you ever wish you had some siblings? And if you have siblings, would you like any more? i always wish i had other siblings lmao i see people w theirs and be feeling sad as hell :(

Are you friends with the last person you texted? yeah.

Your last Facebook friend request - was it from someone of the opposite sex? no.

What does the eleventh text message in your inbox say? issa meme.

Has anyone ever called you easy? yeah LOL

Would you consider having a child with the last person you kissed? whommm... can’t be having a baby rn when i’m still the baby myself

Is there a cover version of any song that you like more than the original? soooo many.

Have you ever liked someone who was a player? yea lol

Do you own anything that has sequins on it? also yes.

Have you ever done anything to embarrass your parents? not on purpose but they def do shit that embarrasses me too so we’re even 

Do you own a teddy bear? yethhhh

What’s the worst relationship advice anyone has ever given you? all of it. nobody ever knows what they’re talking about LMAO.

On a scale of 1 to 10, how happy are you with yourself as a person? a 6.5 lmao.

Would you ever kiss someone with facial hair? yeah. Have you ever drooled in public? nah. Do you agree that facebook is taking over the entire teenage population? ???????????? what 80 year old wrote this Have you ever met a mainstream band? no. Have you ever yelled at an electronic as if it could hear you? i get mad sometimes & be fighting random shit LMAOOOO so yes Have you ever been bitten by a dog? yeah LMAO

Would you ever shave your head? if i didn’t have to? no. Have you ever spelt your name in Alphabet Soup? no. What do you think would happen if the Earth suddenly stopped spinning? my stupid ass has no idea & i’m not boutta guess so i can be made fun of What did you want to be when you were little? probably some generic shit like a princess idk Have you ever drawn a picture with sidewalk chalk? yeah. What is the worst possible way to die? slow, painfully. Have you ever burnt yourself with a lighter? sooooooooooooooo many times. Would you ever meet someone you met online? mayhaps. What’s your favorite online game? cricket noises.. What do you think of gay/bisexual people? A1. Have you ever kissed the TV? no. Have you ever thrown your cell phone across the room? yeah, then regretted it LMAOOOOO Have you ever been hit with a ball in gym class? not often but once in hs i got sockedddddddd in the face during volleyball & thought it was on purpose so i hit her w the ball even harder and ended up getting suspended cuz i wasn’t discreet about it lmao Will you be single over winter? [brain muscles overworking themselves] what season is this Where do you wanna live when you grow up? out of miami mayhaps. Are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants, or pajama pants? pajama pants. Would you get married if you could right now? nope. Do you consider yourself spoiled? maybe so. Do you get annoyed when you see someone you don’t like? i usually just focus on other shit. Could you see yourself dropping out of high school? surprised i didn’t. Is there anyone you want to see right now? santi?! What were you doing 12 a.m. last night? fixing my living room. Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now? :] Are you a mean person? no, i really try not to be. What woke you up today? yesterday*, alarm clock. Have you kissed anyone whose name started with a T? probably lmaoo

Did you date anyone last summer? nah, i was minding my business, enjoying my life. Where will you be twelve hours from now? class. Do you remember the first time you kissed the last person you kissed? yeth Have you ever slept on a couch with that person? also yeth Have you written a letter to a soldier? no. Ever been in a perfect relationship? lmao “perfect” How do you feel about the person who texted you last? loveeee me some them. What are you looking forward to? cricket noises.. Do you think you are an argumentative person? hhhh.. maybe..  How did you feel when you woke up today? tireddddddd asf. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex? mhmmm What time did you go to sleep last night? i always go to bed late asf. i’m boutta go to bed now just to be up in two hours. What color are your eyes? brown. The last song you listened to? a veces, it’s literally on repeat. When you shut off your alarm clock, do you tend to fall back asleep? if i don’t get up, yeah. Do you believe change is always good? sometimes.

How long was your longest relationship in highschool? 3 years. Do you know who Philip DeFranco is? nah. What’s the most illegal thing you’ve EVER done? 💀 the OP responded to this with weed, i’m really screaming rn.. Where did/do you want to get married? all these questions about marriage, whew. What’s the highest level of education you’ve reached? i’m in college rn Is your last name extremely common, like Gonzalez? no, but i don’t think it’s rare either. Ever notice how most flags are red white and blue? no. Have you ever had a crush on a family member? what the fuck How old is your YOUNGEST friend? bitch.. i don’t know How old is your OLDEST friend? i don’t. know. How long should people be together before they propose? these questions are starting to make me uncomfortable lmaoo Have you had your first touch screen phone yet? that’s how you know this survey is old. Don’t you hate when parents divorce but then still argue regularly? can’t relate, hope i never do. Would you ever join the military? sike. If you could have any dog, what dog would you have? a shihpoo. Would you ever kill a bunny and make soup out of it? what the fuck x2 Do any of your friends own a ferret? no. Do you believe that Christians are better than non-Christians? no? Do boys really rock pink more than girls do? ????????????????????? Do you own a pair of skinny jeans? yerrr What’s your view on the Islam culture? hard to have an opinion on something you know nothing about. Do you know what, “C'est la vie” means? i know i’ve seen this but idk what it means Do balloons make you have a better birthday? nah; they’re loud asf too when they pop, so. Krispy kreme donuts aren’t as good as Dunkin Donuts, are they? DELETE THIS. What is your favorite song from, “Aventura?” THE SPANISH GROUP?! WAYMENT...... i don’t even know. prob something generic. yesterday i was listening to por un segundo lmao :( If you could legally assassinate any celebrity, who would it be? bro.. Do you use Twitter or Formspring? twitter. rip formspring babie love you. Why did you last cry? a few hours ago, real crybaby bad bitch hours. If you had to lose 5 lbs, how would you do it? lower my calorie intake. Is there anyone who seems to think that you are a pillow? ???????? Tell me about your BEST New Year’s Eve ever. wasn’t this one. If you HAD to change your name, what would you change it to? alejandra, idk why that name sticks with me. i just feel like i look like someone named alee & idk how that makes sense but it does to me LMAO. Lunapic editor is amazing, no? whommmm... How do YOU write, “Okay?” depends on my mood, who i’m talking to, what we’re talking about.

How old was the last person who kissed you? 28. Do you have any plans for the day after tomorrow? not that i know of. Do you have a good relationship with your parents? yeah. What time did you wake up today? 7. Name something you can’t wait to do: idk. If you had to choose, would you rather be an alcoholic or a pothead? pothead. What has pissed you off today, if anything at all? cricket noises. Can you honestly say that at this point and time you’re happy with the way life is going? no lmao. Can you easily tell if someone’s fake? mmmmmmmmmmm.. depends. Is there someone you don’t ever want to be out your life? yeah. Did you kiss or hug anyone in the last 48 hours? yeah. Looking back in time did you ever waste your time on a certain boy or girl? feel like most ppl have been thru this. Has anyone ever sang to you? yeah bfsjklj Can a boy and girl be friends without having feelings for each other? LMAO yeah. Coffee or alcohol? oof.. both. together. Have you ever kissed anyone whose name started with C or J? yeth and yeth. Do you ever cry during movies? hell yeah w my crybaby ass Do you have any piercings? ears. Have you ever found someone you really like? my BOO. 🗣 Did you go outside for more than 30 minutes today? yeah LMAO Do you remember who you liked three months ago? was that november... idk how to do math LMAO pretty sure i liked ques by then.

[glassdollreviews-blog]

Admin Cade is baaack. Still kind of odd to refer to myself like that, but eh that’s neither here nor there. Anyway, I ordered five books from Thriftbooks.com, and four of the five are here (they send the books separately, based on where they have them). Since the tracking info for the last one hasn’t really updated, I decided to go ahead and to a review on the conditions of the books I do have.

I placed an order through the website on July 16th, and received an email the next day saying that my order has shipped. Tbh my slow self didn’t quiiite understand how mail works but hey I got that cleared up. The website says shipping takes 4-8 business days, and I recieved 4 of 5 books five days after placing my order (the fifth says it’s been received by the shipping partner, but still not much of an update.) Also, I got this random hardcover book I definitely didn’t order?? Yeah, I’ll be sending them an email within the next few days.

Anyway, let’s get into the books!

The Iron King by Julie Kagawa

This book has been on my TBR list since sometime last year, and I’m so fucking excited that it’s here.

Back cover synopsis:

Meghan Chase has  secret destiny she could never have imagined…

Something has always felt slightly off in Meghan’s life, ever since her father disappeared before her eyes when she was six. She has never quite fit in at school...or at home.

When a dark stranger begins watching her from afar, and her prankster best friend becomes strangely protective of her, Meghan senses that everything she’s known is about to change.

But she could never have guessed the truth- that she is the daughter of a mythical faery king and is a pawn in a deadly war. Now Meghan will learn just how far she’ll go to save someone she cares about, to stop a mysterious evil no faery creature dare face...and to find love with a young prince who might rather see her dead than let her touch his icy heart.

Y’all I can’t even say how hyped I am for this book, I love fae and faeries sooo much.

The book is bent in the middle, as I hope you can see from the last image. There’s also a bit of dirt here and there, but all in all nothing too bad. Plus, no strange odors so that’s great. There’s a couple of stickers on the spine but they seem easy enough to get off. I can also tell where there was adhesive left over from a sticker on the cover- there’s a bit of dirt stuck to it that doesn’t seem like it’ll be coming off as easy as the stickers.

Daughter of Smoke and Bone by Laini Taylor

Back cover synopsis:

Around the world, black handprints are appearing on doorways, scorched there by winged strangers who have crept through a slit in the sky.

In a dark and dusty shop, a devil’s supply of human teeth grows dangerously low.

And in the tangled lanes of Prague, a young art student is about to be caught up in a brutal otherworldly war.

Out of all the books, I think Daughter of Smoke and Bone is in the best shape. There are a couple of stickers, as well as a small bit of wear on the inside cover (third photo). A couple of the pages have been dog-eared, but they’re not starting to wear thin or anything like that.

The Cure for Dreaming by Cat Winters

Back cover synopsis (well, inside cover):

Olivia Mead’s father wants to eliminate her rebellious thoughts. But the hypnotist he hires to stamp out her independence ends up giving her a gift: the ability to see people as they really are.

Monsters. Victims. Madmen. Friends.

Terrifying and enlightening , Olivia’s visions tell her who is trustworthy and who is dangerous. But only she can find a way to make her mind her own again.

This was another one I was excited for- I read In the Shadow of Blackbirds a few years ago and I absolutely loved it. If I’m being honest it made me cry a little, but I’m a crier anyway.

The dust jacket for this book looks like it’s been cut (along with a few of the pages inside, but nothing of importance as far as I can tell). The jacket doesn’t bother me all that much because the spine and lettering of the hardcover are absolutely beautiful. However, in the process of removing the dust jacket, my dumb  self also managed to tear the parts of the inside it was attached to. Totally crying on the inside, not going to lie.

Cleopatra’s Daughter by Michelle Moran

Back cover synopsis:

The marriage of Marc Antony and Cleopatra is one of the greatest love stories of all time. Feared and hunted by the powers in Rome, the lovers choose to die by their own hands as the triumphant armies of Antony’s rival, Octavian, sweep into Rome. When their orphaned children are taken in chains to Rome, only two- the ten-year-old twins Selene and Alexander- survive the journey. As they come of age, they are buffeted by the personal ambitions of Octavian’s family and court, by the ever-present threat of slave rebellion, and by the longings deep within their own hearts.

Y’all. I fucking loved her work The Heretic Queen. I swear this woman is a Goddess when describing shit.

I’m not sure how well you’ll be able to see it, but on more than a few pages it looks like something’s been spilt? Or rubbed onto the pages, I have absolutely no clue. Aside from that and a few dog eared pages though, everything looks good.

The Brothers Karamazov by Fyodor Dostoevsky

I was so confused?? This is definitely not one of the books I ordered. I don’t even know wtf this is other than a translation of a Russian book.

I think I’ll be using Thriftbooks more in the future. For how cheap most of the books are, I don’t really mind stains and things. Whatever it takes to read and not be broke lmaoo.

I’ll post either a small update or include the missing book in a future Thriftbooks haul, depending on when I plan on buying from them again.

Thanks for reading!

~Admin Cade

[the-storm-winds]

Found this thing in my drafts and decided to fill it...

MOST RECENT: 1. Drink: Water, probably 2. Phone call: The last one I answered was back in March, some wrong number while I was in Hong Kong 3. Text: One of my sisters 4. Song you listened to: Don't Leave Me (Ne Me Quitte Pas) by Regina Spektor 5. Time you cried: Several days ago, and I was actually crying from laughter. I've been somewhat less depressed lately

HAVE YOU EVER: 6. Dated someone twice: No 7. Been cheated on: No: 8. Kissed someone and regretted it: No 9. Lost someone special: Lost as in they died? If yes, my cat, Gandiva. Otherwise, there's my twitter friend who deleted her account... T_T 10. Been depressed: Yea 11. Been drunk and thrown up: No

list 3 favorite colors:

12. Deep blue 13. Colors that are close to blue, like blue-violet and blue-green 14. (VALUE) CONTRAST (I'm a nasty cheating artist hahahaha. Good combinations >>> any single color)

IN THE LAST YEAR, HAVE YOU: 15. Made a new friend: Online, yes 16. Fallen out of love: No 17. Laughed until you cried: Yes

18. Met someone who changed you: Hm I guess so

19. Found out who your true friends are: No

20. Found out someone was talking about you: No

21. Kissed anyone on your fb list: No

Extras:

22. How many ppl from your fb list do you know irl: ...66, apparently. I'm surprised it's so many. I don't *really* know them all though... as in I doubt I'd remember their names if I saw them 23. Do you have any pets: Well my family has a bunch of cats but none of them are "mine" exactly 24. Do you want to change your name: I wish my last name was cooler. I want my mom's maiden name lol 25. What did you do for your last birthday: Finals lol. It was my first birthday away from home. My mom had a cake delivered to my dorm.

26. What time did you wake up today: 11 something 27. What were you doing last night at midnight: Reading Akira/Ryuji fanfiction like the trash I am 28. Name something you can’t wait for: More Akira/Ryuji fanfictions (and any other good content) 29. Last time you saw your mom: Maybe an hour ago? 30. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: 31. What are you listening to rn: Guinea keets (chicks) peeping 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: I have no idea lol 33. What’s getting on your nerve rn: Eh nothing really 34. Blood type: No idea 35. Nickname: Silver, Storm, 阿银, Ra-ra 36. Relationship status: I've always been single loooollll 37. Zodiac sign: Sagittarius 38. Pronouns: She/her 39. Favorite tv shows: Puella Magi Madoka Magica, Mushi-shi... and some others I guess. I haven't been too into watching stuff lately. 40. High school: I was homeschooled haha 41. College: Savannah College of Art and Design

43. Long or short: ???????????? Oh wait my hair? Long 44. Height: 5'4" 45. Do you have a crush on someone: No 46. What do you like about yourself: I'm ok I guess?? 47. Right or left handed: Right handed 48. First surgery: Uhm do root canals count? I got four of them as soon as my molars came in 49. Piercings: Ears

50. First best friend: THAT TWITTER FRIEND I MENTIONED

51. First sport you joined: Gymnastics

52. First vacation: ...idk? What constitutes a vacation?

RIGHT NOW: 53. Eating: Well I'm gonna be eating s'mores in a few minutes 54. Drinking: Water

55. I’m about to: Go outside to roast marshmallows (see above)

56. Listening to: I can kinda hear crickets I think

57. Waiting for: FANFICS TO UPDATE

WANT: 58. Kids: No 59. Get married: Erm... I guess it depends... 60. Career: Artist... I'm not 100% sure *exactly* what direction though

WHICH IS BETTER: 61. Lips or eyes: eyes 62. Hugs or kisses: Uh 63. Taller or shorter: Idk 64. Older or younger: Idc

65. Romantic or spontaneous: Uhh 66. Nose, stomach, or nice arms: Uh

67. Sensitive or loud: Idk??? Both?? 68. Hookup or relationship: Relationship 69. Troublemaker or hesitant: ...Niether? But more outgoing than me so I guess more towards troublemaker... but not making actual trouble

HAVE YOU EVER:

70. Kissed a stranger: No 71. Drank liquor: I had like a fingernail sized sip of wine (because my mom told me to try it lmao) on New Years when I was 18 or 19 and it was gross af 72. Lost glasses/contacts: A few contacts probably 73. Had sex on the first date: Never even had a date lmaoo 74. Broke someone’s heart: I doubt it 75. Turned someone down: Yes... there was this weirdo selling bootleg DVDs at a Chinese restaurant (though he wasn’t Chinese or anything) and he asked for my number... I gave it to him because I wasn’t prepared for the situation and didn’t know how to say no, but then he kept texting and calling me and... I never went to that restaurant again  76. Cried when someone died: Yes 77. Fallen for a friend: Erm. I kinda had a crush on the twitter friend I mentioned for awhile

DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 78. Yourself: Depends 79. Miracles: I guess... idk 80. Love at first sight: Eh... no

81. Heaven: Well... not how it's generally portrayed. I do believe in other dimensions though.

82. Santa Claus: No 83. Kissing on a first date: *internal screaming*

aaand I’m gonna tag @personal-burrito, and @jewelfaerie. It’s been so long since I’ve talked to anyone on here... I’m not sure who else still considers me a friend lol. Feel free to do it, and you can say I’ve tagged you if you want

[thegracegatsby]

this post is all over the place but here’s a super long update if you care lmao 

So it’s officially been one month since i’ve been on this marketing internship in Prague which is basically working a full time marketing job without the pay (duh, Grace) lol I really thought I was going to be filing papers and going on coffee runs, but nope this is the real deal. I didn’t even get a day to fix my jetlag nor was I eased into the job. The day after I arrived I had 15 minutes to learn about all the projects everyone was working on, got acquainted with the office and the other interns, then started on all my tasks. To give you an idea of what I’ve been up to, my first week here I had to think of several marketing ideas for a local company and had to present them to the owner. The Stress and nerves had me on bed rest that weekend ngl lol. The owner loved the presentation, but I couldn’t help but be so hard on myself. I felt so underprepared I didn’t expect to be thrown into the field at full speed. I literally felt like the Mr. Krabs meme. I was shookington. I thought college and a regular part time job was hectic, but wow I was not prepared for job that required 110% of my time and mind. What I mean by that is I was/am technically working on four different projects and each of them need to be unique aka I can’t repeat ideas. I learned to trust myself and just trust that if I did my best…. it would just had to be enough. I can only learn from my mistakes and find a way to improve myself every day. Those “do one thing to be better than yesterday” quotes were always cute, but they have been extremely relevant this summer. That’s been such an important lesson and habit. Some other things I was up to is sometimes the company gets invited to special private events so so far I’ve attended two events. The first one being some networking event with a panel so different CEO’s discussed the future of tech & marketing and answered questions, then another event where the communications director of Manolo (shoe goals) spoke on the brand. Even got to meet her she was so sweet! Last week I got sent on my first official business trip to Poland to meet with different Korean companies at an expo! I had to basically see and negotiate potential products to market in the US and Latin America. Crazy. I loved every second of it. I’ve been meaning to write for a few weeks now so my thoughts are probably a little all over the place, but now is when I feel like I finally have the time and energy to sit down and catch up on a blog even if no one reads this lmaoo. It’s wild how a month and a half ago I left my job at the bank with a heavy heart and had my summer classes get cancelled/wasn’t able to register for any new one’s since they were all full. I was so close to doing nothing all summer except go job hunting again so this trip was such a blessing. It’s super challenging I’m not gonna lie. I feel like I’ve grown so much from being here. I’ve had to get out of my comfort zone in every single sense of the word. I’ve had to depend on myself mentally and emotionally in different ways than I’ve had to back home. I know this sounds super dramatic lol, but honestly this is the first time I’ve been away from my home, family, friends, city, for more than two weeks. Taking such a huge step without my family around has been difficult. It’s how I imagine it would have been like if I moved away for college. I’m going through “real life with training wheels” because I’m staying with family here so I’m not 100% on my own, but that’s the farthest thing from perfect. Like.. my extended family is going through some hell shit and I feel like I’m in the middle of it so I can’t escape it. I guess that’s where my desperate homesickness comes from. I was SO ready to go home I even asked if I could book a flight after TWO weeks of being here. That’s how desperate I was to go back home. I never talk about my personal life, but I will say that my actual home life, thankfully, is healthy. No relationship/family is perfect don’t get it twisted, but my parents learned from the mistakes of their families/friends and tried very hard to raise my sibling and I in a peaceful home. Don’t take this as the “I’m the best because my parents don’t hate each other can’t relate sweetie (: just be happy and drink tea” way because that’s not what I’m saying at all lol. Sadly, toxic families are everywhere, but reading/hearing about a household that is going through a nasty divorce with unhealthy drama happening every single day is completely different than actually experiencing/witnessing it with my own two naked eye balls. Especially from my own relative. I know this makes me sound immature or naive or whatever, but I mean… I’ve never lived anywhere else so I never knew anything other than my own family dynamic ya know? My empathy for children and teenagers who have to go through what I’ve been seeing on a daily basis has grown so much. Again, this isn’t a show off way of me saying “my life is semi-perfect” (no one’s is) I’m literally saying the change has helped me understand and appreciate the importance of a healthy home so much which… isn’t a bad thing. I’d rather learn this now seeing it from afar than with regret later on in my life. I’m genuinely so heartbroken and empathetic for every single person going through this much toxicity especially my own cousin who will have to grow up with the issues her parents are making alone. The biggest takeaway is I know what the fuck NOT to tolerate in relationships. If I thought my tolerance was low, now it’s even lower I’m not putting up with any bullshit ever wow. Now none of this would matter if I only got to work then go home and mind my business, but nah it’s not like that. An argument happened? Guess who gets some insults and bad attitude. Me. Since why did my extended family think it’s okay to disrespect and insult me for everything??? Don’t even get me started on the side comments about my weight :)) All I do is try to stay hydrated and mind my business! lmaofdnsfds. I guess that’s where the mental and emotional challenge comes from. I’ve never been a super emotional person literally the last time I cried from emotion was the day of the musical in high school because I messed up on stage and was super embarrassed. That was literally 4 years ago in April. I’ve had like two mental breakdowns already not including the countless times I’ve had to calm myself down, do some breathing exercises, and mentally try to disconnect from the fuckery. The hardest times being when I’m in public. I NEVER talk back tho which is weird because I hardly ever bite my tongue I’m quick to defend myself, but deep down I know the aggression stems from all these problems.. plus I try to tell myself it’s not that deep and I’m leaving in less than a month. I know I won’t have to deal with this ever ever again. Also honestly staying quiet gets everyone on my side because people see the way I’m spoken to and are like “wtf ignore it you’re doing great”. Lol I wish I could go into more detail because there is SO much tea I can spill, but for privacy (and maybe legal idk?) reasons I’m going to stay quiet. Another intern who started seeing the verbal abuse asked me about everything so I confided in her about all the drama and she’s like “wooow everything makes sense things were worse when before you got here” kjndvdf we were super tight it was so great :’) but she left and everything changed when the fire nation attacked. Honestly, everyone I work/have worked with have been so great. I only got close with like two or three tho but still everyone is so nice lol. So yeah even though the work experience here is amazing and something I will value for the rest of my life, the home life aspect is fucked up. I’m even trying to convince my parents to sell this plot to Lifetime lmao it’s THAT dramatic. *sigh* Some other news is I was supposed to be in Spain right now. I literally Uber’ed myself and my grandmother all the way to the airport yesterday morning, show up to the check-in counter with a smile and bags in hand just so they could tell me “Sorry, you don’t show up on our system” to my face. I’ve never had an issue with my flight so the room was spinning a lil and was low key panicking because 1. English isn’t anyone’s first language here 2. I was abroad and had no idea what to do because I didn’t even make the reservation so I had to call two different airlines and try to resolve the MESS, but nothing was resolved they fucked up my booking from the beginning so only my return flight was paid for not the departure :) so after easily deciding I was NOT going to pay $580 for a one-way outbound ticket, I had to quickly figure out my next move. (PRO TIP: ALWAYS BOOK DIRECTLY WITH COMPANIES THEY’LL WORK WITH YOU AND REFUND YOU IF SOMETHING GOES WRONG. EVEN IF YOU SEE A CHEAPER PRICE ON ONE OF THOSE TRAVEL SITES SOMEONE TOLD ME THEY’LL PRICE MATCH YOU AND EVEN GIVE YOU DIFFERENT FLIGHT ACCOMMODATIONS LIKE CHANGING LAYOVER FLIGHTS IT’S MAGICAL). Everyone I’m living with went to Spain the day before, so after bending over backwards to try and get the house key from my grandmother who already passed through security (she couldn’t wait for me bc the guy at security had 5 min to wheelchair her to her gate), I found a way to contact her (a blessing bc if not I would have had to stay at a hotel or something) and had her hand me the keys back to our place. I didn’t have the patience to take a bus back to the city so I paid the extra fare to Uber back home. The weird part is I’m not even mad. After calling the airlines, contacting my parents, contacting my family already in Spain that I wouldn’t be going, I was just… chilling. Got some groceries and I’ve been living la vida loca just eating and watching netflix lol. Sure, I wanted to go see a new country and even try to see the town my great grandparents were from, but if there’s anything I learned this year is… everything happens for a reason. I think it would have been an amazing trip, but there’s a reason I didn’t get to travel this weekend. Theres a reason I had to leave my job at the bank. Theres a reason I’m here in Prague in the first place. There’s a reason I’m witnessing this entire Mess. I guess there’s some growth in that too you know what I mean? Younger me would have probably combusted in hatred and be extremely negative and complain that “my life sucks” when in reality it’s fine it’s just in general, shitty things happen…. but life won’t stop for anybody not even me. On the bright side, some good lessons came out of this experience. Forget 2016, this was the real year of realizing things™. I’m going back to Miami with a completely different drive and mindset. For example, I knew school is important and I get good grades, but my attitude towards my education is COMPLETELY different now. Being “good” just isn’t good enough for me anymore. With my grades now I could get into a “good” grad school, but now I don’t even want “good” I want something better. I want great I want the best I want to work my ass off to get into an AMAZING school. I still don’t know everything or even want I want 100%, but this trip has helped me change how I plan to approach/execute my future goals. That “oh I guess I’ll work someday idk that’s a long time from now so I don’t care I’ll worry about it another day” won’t cut it anymore. Now that I’m thinking about it, a lot of things need changing when I get back. Which speaking of getting back, I’m counting down the days I’m so excited I leave at the end of the month ayee!! Lol okay I feel like I’m just rambling at this point. There were a few more things I wanted to say buut………… I forgot it so I’ll just end it here and make a new post if I remember lol. Even if no one reads this, future me will and she’ll remember how the Ctrl album from SZA was playing in the background while writing this and probably cringe at how bittersweet this whole experience/year has been.

TLDR I learned a lot on this internship (good and bad) and I’m basically going back home a new person :-)