#until i lost the ability to walk further than 20 metres without collapsing and suddenly it was all oh whats wrong

[ethaninthewilde]

I've had hip issues since I was born, hip dysplasia and perthes disease and interior hip anteversion (my femur's rotated inwards 50°, then my foot's rotated outwards about the same) and my femur on one leg is 4-5cm shorter than the other, developed arthritis at 15 and then recurrent bursitis. I was on the waitlist for surgery as a kid and it got scheduled and cancelled three times, then never ended up happening. Financial issues meant I couldn't get it privately, then when I moved to NSW I had to get on the waitlist over here and went straight back to the bottom of the list.

I got offered a cancellation spot three weeks from now. I know it's not going to fix everything wrong with it, it's the first of three surgeries I need, but once I have this first one the next two are guaranteed to be only months apart, and I'm so happy about it I'm trying not to cry on the train. My physio says these surgeries should fix about 95% of the pain I experience, which has gotten so bad over the last year that I regularly can't sleep without codeine, it wakes me up in the middle of the night, and sometimes I just can't sleep at all.

I'll be spending christmas alone in the hospital most likely, but I literally don't care!!! i'm so happy. i'm so relieved. this doesn't feel real. this feels life saving. god.