#ummm idk . idk why im sharing this i just have a lot in my brain

[asterroses]

did i just come up w a da2 red hawke for my eventual third replay when i havent even finished my second inquisition replay . yeas <3

[calpalsworld]

Not "autistic anon," but also autistic, (being called maybe ableist made me want to put this out there before go to bed) i thought Zane was depicted that way purposefully by the writers. He has stereotypical traits like taking things literally, and has an actual humor switch. The writers have done things with Zane before like have him lose bodily autonomy (during that one Wu's teas short) and did something with his voice be it making him unable to be understood or talking too loud and the forced pirate voice by Jay. (what you're doing isn't too different from that, right?) I thought it was just a little iffy to distort his body and memory bc that could be interpreted as something not that I'm sure what exactly, it's some kind of disability. I dunno. I'm not good with putting this to words. I hope this makes sense.

Sorry I went to bed but now I’m awake 😭

Also I ended up totally spilling all my thoughts here rather than only specifically replying to you please forgive me context: my scary zane concept design, & my ninjago rewrite i refer to a lot 

Im a little confused but I think I get what you're saying? You're saying the Ninjago writers absolutely DON'T write Zane well (you listed examples of this) and you don't want me to fall into the same trap?

I had the opposite logic earlier. I thought: If Ninjago writers made Zane have stereotypical autisitic traits while also being a dehumanized robot, I may as well embrace it, say he is autistic blatantly, while also making him do funny/cool non-human robot things, so its clear as possible the two aspects of his character are literal and separate and not a metaphor for each other. But you're right! I do have a choice and I dont have to embrace things! :)

Like there were a couple ways I was gonna reject the original, for example, I never wanted Zane to have a funny switch, and I hated how other characters could fuck with Zane and he didn't even care 😬. I want to change that stuff. So youre right, if I am changing shit like that, it would be counterproductive for ME to GIVE him MORE traits along that theme. 😬😬😬 I should try to feel less obligated to portray Zane like he originally is. I still like the concept of "scary zane" (for reasons i explain below the cut) but I might tone it down a bit like with the claws and weird proportions and shit. I’d def make him look more skeletal and undead. That was my original intention, but i didnt execute it as good as I could have.... idk if anyone could tell thats what he was supposed to be like...my bad! But rn I dont wanna redesign him I wanna draw other stuff like normal alive Zane. Sorry LMAO 😳. Like I said in some earlier asks I think, I think Im gonna focus rn on how I should portray season 1 normal not dead Zane so thank you and feel free to share any other Zane thoughts ^_^ SOME OTHER THOUGHTS:

Also I Wanna Argue Some Stuff But I Understand its a Weak Argument Since All of This Context was Just In My Brain (so don't take this as an argument, just as me rambling): I don't want messed up things to happen to Zane and for it to just be ignored. I think if Zane is going to have fucked up things happen to him, as all characters must, its best for it to happen during a season where he actually addresses his feelings about being a robot (learning to accept that he will always be himself, regardless if hes "human" or the "original" or whatever. (thats how I always interpreted his emotions)). But I wouldn't have the other Ninja be very phased by Zane's looks because the whole point is they already love who he is (seasons 1-3 were about getting to know Zane) and now Zane himself just has to learn the physical, robot part of him is okay. Its about person-hood rather than humanity. Because the season focuses around Zane's soul, and because he lost his original body, I feel like I could mess around with his current, temporary body and have fun and make it scary. Because that body should be irrelevant. I understand it possibly being upsetting for an autistic character to be designed like this, but other people I talked to see it the opposite way. They find it comforting for him to look so different but still be himself and be so loved. SO IM ABSOLUTELY NOT saying its wrong to be bothered or to hate it or to feel any way. Just that I personally think it would be cool for Zane to be portrayed with a little spice lol, so thats why I like scary Zane for season 4.

Another Thing I Wannna Say But Is REALLY Hypocritical: (this isnt directed at anyone I just REALLY want to say this) I know I say "this is Zane but scary, he looks like fnaf" so he's obviously dehumanized, but I always felt like "scary" is more of an objective fact. Its an instinct. But what's "not human" is subjective. I think there is a problem with saying anything different from "average" human is dehumanized because that could extend to real people. Lol I know its bad for me to compare FNAF-ass Zane to real people, but I mean he could be real. People can have exposed teeth, and people can be shaped weird. And when someone first sees a person who looks like that they'll probably think "woah those features are scary" by instinct. And that surprise doesn't make someone ableist obviously. But bring that person’s humanity into question is NOT an instinct, and is fucked to shit. This is kinda a bad point for me to make since its about the fictional FNAF Zane I drew, and I am NOT implying ANYONE was thinking like this. [especially not the original asker anon who I am totally forgetting about at this point OOPS]. But I just thought it was an opinion of mine I couldn't go without mentioning when talking about dehumanization and disabilities.

^^^ I think you (anon) understand what I mean and might’ve said the exact same thing as me if you were writing a long ass response? I think this because you started to bring physical disabilities up and you said it was "a little iffy." ^_^ So we agree, but I don't see Zane's relation to real life disabilities as "a little iffy" I see it more like "complicated"? IF THAT DIFFERENCE EVEN MAKES ANY SENSE?????? I feel like a lot of things about Zane are really just complicated and need the right context, rather than the concepts necessarily being wrong -- NOW THAT I THINK ABOUT IT! THATS THE WHOLE REASON I DO THIS STUPID REWRITE! XD thats why a lot of my rewrite SO FAR has been the same concepts and plot beats, but different dialogue n specifics and such. I like a lot of concepts in Ninjago but I dont think they were presented correctly.....! :( So I guess all we can do is wait and see if I make Zane offensive or not....???

Also something about the memory part - yeah i agree i was surprised no one thought that was weird to make jokes out of his memory issues..... BUT I am like 100% firm on making his memory take longer to come back because I think its stupid how quick Zane was able to recover from literally dying. Like its just dumb to me. Hate it. (also bc memory & soul mechanics is ummm kinda important in my rewrite.... for reasons). Another memory thing btw, I was going to make his original amnesia come from hitting his head in an attack against the Skulkin when they stole his dads corpse, rather than his dad fucking choosing to make him forget. (its a sweet & iconic scene, but Um, WHY?!!!?!?!?!?) He has to follow data recovery instructions he finds in his dads diary. I think in that context it makes moments of memory loss somewhat different for Zane's character? Instead of loss of autonomy associated with disability, its a literal violent loss of autonomy associated with being traumatized by physical force. Idk how to phrase it exactly but I think that makes some vibes different?

Sorry, I think I got really distracted, and I don't know if I responded well to your points. Because uhhhh I think I agree with your stance actually? If I understand correctly? Fuck Ninjago writers for making the robot lose autonomy (a stereotypical robot theme) while also making him seem clearly autistic (NOT A HAPPY THEME FOR AUTISTIC PEOPLE) and not addressing it. And also auuugh Zane with a weird body is a difficult topic - kinda sussy pretty iffy.

Lol anyway idk if this made any sense and I REALLY rambled on you. but this was nice 👉👈 more Zane criticism pls love you and i love zane. i hope u dont feel mad at me because then it would be weird that im saying that lol. if you do feel mad at me tho you can send another ask (ILL TRY TO JUST LISTEN NOT RAMBLE NEXT TIME) but assuming ur chill rn, love you thnx

Take this page, don’t mind cole’s ass.

[yehetingxing]

tagged by @holyxingsdick <33333

rules: answer 20 questions and tag 20 followers

- Nicknames: Pandi, .... thats kind of it... 

- Zodiac sign: aries

- Height: 166cm/5′4

- Orientation: straight

- Nationality: french

- Favorite fruit: mmmmh.... pears?? i guess??? idk... i like most fruits....

- Favorite season: WINTERRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!! AND AUTUMN!!!!!

- Favorite book: once again i dont rlly read so like :((( but i guess yixings book

- Favorite flower: ummm... all flowers r beautiful i dont discriminate 😂

- Favorite scent: coffee!!!! (high five blossomie) and umm... any...perfumes...that i like....

- Favorite animal: .... pandas... i dont think this rlly comes as a surprise since my nickname is pandi. i also love cats :))) i have 3 and theyre my children, dont touch them

- Favorite colour: greeeeeeeeeeeeeeen but every colour is fine tbh 

- Coffee, tea, or hot cocoa?: HOT CHOCOLATE ALLLLLL THE WAYYYY

- Average sleep hours: ~4-5h on school days (i got muuuchhh better c:) and like 1328748h on weekends

- Cat or dog: cats obv :) but i still love dogs :)))) esp vivi

- Favorite fictional character: LUFFYYYYY, chopper, every manga character :(

- # of blankets: 2 and 3 during winter

- Dream trip: GO BACK TO CHINA, korea (obv), japan, hk+macau+singapore, malaysia, thailand and visit more of canada BUT THATS WAY TOO MUCH ISNT IT

- Blog created: wow... umm i have no clue... like a year and a half ago??

- Favorite song at the moment: .... bOI, THE WHOLE OF BTS’S HER, power -exo, what u need +lose control - king of china (yes im getting back into these song), company -  tinashe, just u - jeong sewoo, vixx lr - whisper, vvip - jo wuchan ft sikk & gaeko, we are - woo wonjae and moar but once again that will be too much :(

- Number of followers: like 5

- Favorite bands: this is quite obvious but EXOOOOO & BTSSSS those r my main but as u noticed i listen to a variety of artists and groups (and im multi fandom af but theres so many that i cant be bothered to write it down eventho theres like 5 more groups only but anywhoo)

- Favorite solo artists: ....help... welllll theres the whole china line of exo :)))))), i also rlly like offonoff, zico, zion ttttt!!!!!, dean!!!!!!, crush, sik k, heize, amber hehe,  and last but not leastttttttt JUNG HOSEOK WHENEVER HE’LL RELEASE HIS GOD DAMN FUCKING HIXTAPE!!!!!!!!!! (theres actually more but.... ye)

- Song stuck in my head: rn its what you like - lee gikwang (but it changes every 10 mins so)

- Last movie i watched: valerian... WU FCKNG YIFAN!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH SDJKASKJFBKDJFBKBKWRUFBSHABF I DIDNT KNOW HE WAS IN THERE AND I CHOKED ON MY POPCORN AND ENDED UP SOBBING IN MY FRIEND’S ARMS AT THE END OF THE MOVIE (thank u @bakinglover73 for handling the emotional mess that i am :( )

- Last tv show i watched: cheese in the trap (i already read the webtoon so its not that interesting for me tbh... i already know everything thats going to happen)

- What stuff do you post: bts & exo mostly, ull see some cats passing by and some aesthetic skies, a lot of different kpop groups and eventually some shitpost of me crying over sehun and hobi :))

- When did your blog reach its peak: lol it still hasnt and probs never will :)))

- Do you have any other blogs: ..ha..haha... ha.. yeah.... not gonna share them cos one is just a blog made for a friend and i post shit abt her haha (she also has one for me :(( ), one is just where i reblog random recipes i should try one day if i ever wanna do smth with my life which will never happen, and one is where i reblog language stuff (mostly mandarin bc yes, i learn mandarin)

- do you get asks regularly: nooooo ahaha i wish :(( if u wanna ask random shit, hello :) im here :)

- why did you choose your url: cos yehet is sehun and hes my ub, xing is yixing and hes my other exo bias (along with bbh and pcy), i thought abt adding hobi since hes my scnd ub but idk.. my love wasnt as strong as it is now. also xing can mean star in madarin so i thought itd be funny to make yehet a verb describing a star... anyway my brain goes to weird places just go with it (also thanks to @holyxingsdick  for helping me choose that url)

- following: too many :( 573...

- posts: 7, 516 (less than expected tbh)

- hogwarts house: no fckng clue lemme go take a test. welp it says im mostly  gryffindor but i honestly have no clue :(

- pokemon team: IDKKKKKKKKK

- favourite colours: wasnt this q already asked?????

- lucky numbers: 94, 4, 9, 12, 7, 21, 88, 10, 6 (thats a lot IK!)

- what are you wearing rn: oversized black nintendo shirt and black sweatpants

- dream job: noooo clueeee, i guess u could say dancer but idk... maybe web designer if i continue liking it as much as i do rn :) but i keep my options open since i rlly dk.

i tag @bakinglover73 @jongin-trash @haneuuls @yerkezhanberkembayeva (r u even alive on tumblr? 😂) @ijustwantjongintobehappy @bias-yixing @anyone who reads this idk who to tag anymore :(

[zenyattasperceptrons]

F, S, T, U for the fanfic ask thing!

F: Share a snippet from one of your favorite dialogue scenes you’ve written and explain why you’re proud of it.

digs another one up. honestly this is an interesting exercise for me cause i dont... usually ...... feel proud abt my writing necessarily... like i do enjoy reading it myself but mostly im just proud i finished it i dont. put a lot of pride in individual parts ldjkfgdf

“So what I’m hearing is, ‘cause you’re half-Vulcan, you’re not Human enough for Jim to be happy.”

“Simply put, yes.”

“But ‘cause you’re half-Human, you’re not Vulcan enough for him to be happy.”

Spock frowned at the encroaching feeling that his logic was not as sound as he had suspected. However, despite the dread that usually accompanied it, he found himself anticipating the doctor’s counterpoint. “More or less,” he said, carefully.

“Alright. So you lost a few things in the trade off. But what’d you gain from it?”

He blinked.

“You are asking what benefits there are specifically relating to my hybrid status.”

“E-yup.”

[snip]

It was not something he had ever considered.

“That’s what I thought,” Dr. McCoy responded to his silence, voice taking on a softer tone. “You’ve spent a whole lot of time thinking about what it means to be Vulcan, or what it means to be Human. Not so much about what it means to be you.”

ok i just like this entire fic tbqh spock’s voice is THE MOST FUN TO WRITE OF ALL TIME!!! AND BY THAT I MEAN IMMENSELY FRUSTRATING BUT WHAT CAN YOU DO!!! 

anyways i liked my reference/s to beyond here and writing bones’ voice next to spock’s was just. jesus christ. what an interesting pair.

S: Any fandom tropes you can’t resist?

i guess i mentioned this. pining. fake relationships. uhhhh. what other tropes are there. are the gays a trope. i quite enjoy the gays.

just. fluff. give all of it to me. and i guess a certain level of miscommunication but ... (trails into next question)

T: Any fandom tropes you can’t stand?

MISCOMMUNICATION AUUUUGHHH like idk i think it can be really useful in some stories like, if it Happens Once and then its kind of fine then like, yeah okay, but there’s definitely a few stories where it was just. event after event after event where i was just sitting there like. this fic would have been half as long if you had just talked to each other. please. p l e a s e.

& then i guess in a more general sense there’s this certain Fandom Couple that emerges when people let their characterizations slip too far and sometimes ill still read a fic when it goes to that place cause idk its cute but its like. Sarcastic Overly Forward Guy hits on Stammering Blushing Possibly-In-The-Closet Guy and im like. theres soooooome ships that fit that i guess? but when it slips into liike. idk ppl making Steve Rogers be like “oh swoon a man is flirting with me my 100yr old brain is oh so confused” or jim kirk feeling all flustered over his big strong vulcan. ok jim kirk can sometimes be all flustered over his big strong vulcan but like. more writing where people flirt right back pls. esp if first flirter doesnt expect them to. it is so good

wow this one got way longer than the last one oops

U: Share three of your favorite fic writers and why you like them so much.

s w e a t s nervously .... i dont......... follow a whole lot of particular authors ergh. i think there are a few tho but theyre probably from some older fandoms of mine

SKHDFG WOW OK THAT JUST HAPPENED a certain author who i knew writes a lot of dragon age fic came to mind and i was like “ok ill mention them” but then looking thru my overwatch bookmarks i was like “wait that username seems familiar” and i clicked on them and SURP{RISE ITS THE FUCKING DRAGON AGE PERSON OK GREAT so Byacolate is all around pretty cool then

http://archiveofourown.org/users/Byacolate

writes the Absolute Sweetest Things(TM)

ohhhh and Philosophizes is a complete joy

http://archiveofourown.org/users/Philosophizes

and ummm i like a lot of Jacquzys stuff

http://archiveofourown.org/users/Jacquzy

woops my fandoms are showing

pbbbbbbbt id suggest a few more overwatch authors but all the ones whose writing i particularly liked dont seem to have much more than the one fic!! oops

[i-amusemyself]

All Emoji Asks.

🐰 what is one secret youve never told anyone?I don't really have that many secrets. I guess theres a side of my personality that I spend a lot of energy supressing like hell that I hate with a passion.💗 if you could hug anyone, who would it be?Right now? My best friend right next to me or my friend back home.🐹 what are some of your favourite pokemons and why?I mean, I only ever played pokemon go, but from that I loved the squirtles and the evees just bc theyre cute af🌠 if you were in charge of the world what would it be like?A lot more chilled out. Chill pills would be mandatory.👀 what was the most recent vivid dream you had?Okay I had two freaking weird ones the other night?In one I was a 10 y/o muslim girl going to a new primary school and while I was there I started raising money for a cancer charity.In the other I was taking a really hard A level maths exam and getting stressed and mad bc everyone kept talking and I couldnt finish it in time.☀ what do you like most about your best friend?EVERYTHING?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! Idk, I guess how forgiving and layed back she is. She always tries to understand and see things from your point of view.😘 talk about your crush or partnerLmao I'm alone 😂 I do have a crush but its a million miles from mutual so like, shes amazing but boi it hurts 😂💁 if someone was rude to you would you be rude back?Depends on how well I know them and what they're like tbh. I'll banter, but I avoid confrontation.🌟 what do you like about yourself? (3 things)😂😂😂 wow erm...1. I always try and put in all the energy I have if someone/something needs it2. I make loads of terrible puns its gr93. I really dont have any other qualities idk🐾 what are you scared of most? How will you overcome it?👏 I'm terrified of abandonment 👏 aaaand as of yet I have no idea how to deal with it ngl🎁 what never fails to make you happy?Really good stand up commedy or my favourite music💙 what annoys you about some people?Their complete lack of self-awareness. Idk, maybe I'm low key jealous too but srsly some people????😤 do you get angry easily?Yeah. I keep pretty good tabs on it so you probs wouldnt know it, but if something upsets me, chances are I'm hella pissed too.🐇 what do you always daydream about?Dramatic and upsetting situations or drunk situations 😂🌻 if you could change 3 things about the world what would you change?1. Sort out equality and all that jazz2. Divide up the land more equally, bc it pisses me off that some people are living in tiny cramped shacks and others have 100 mile square farms.3. End capitalism and with that make all necessary services free.🍓 send me 4 names: kiss, befriend, kill or marry?Anon?✈ what is your dream city and why?I mean Ive always wanted to go to copenhagen but theres no guarantee its gonna be my fave. My fave so far is Amsterdam bc its so peaceful and the architecture is to die for.☕ talk about your ideal day?Spend it with my best friend/crush. Lay in bed late and be lazy and watch good TV/movies. Maybe go out in the afternoon to not go stir crazy and entertain ourselves. Stay up kinda late talking about deep shit, lying underneath the stars.🌸 are you an introvert, ambivert or extrovert?Ambivert!💧 when was the last time you cried?Yesterday lmao 😂 i havent gone more than 2 days without crying in the past week 😧 I just got myself into a nice Depression Episode.🎵 name 5 songs you like atm?Argh I havent listened to music in so long (7 days...) umm so things i wanna listen to- youth by daughter- voices by Motionless in white- living dead girl by rob zombie- corpse roads by keaton hensen- lost boy by troye sivan⚡ if you had any superpower what would it be and why?Mind reading bc my anxiety would be halved.💛 if you could talk to your younger self, what would you say?I'd tell myself to stop trying to fit in and be like everybody else because the people I know are just a tiny portion of the population and really aren't much to aspire to. I'd tell myself to drop all my shitty friends because it would stop me from dealing with a lot of crap later on. I'd point myself in the right direction of the better people 😂I'd teach myself how to stand up for myself and how to not take any crap.And I'd give myself a hug and tell myself it's okay not to be cishet, because maybe if I could turn back time and start to deal with it earlier I'd be okay with it now.💚 who are you jealous of and why?A lot of people really, with qualities I don't have.I suppose one kid in particular is like, everything i want to be. Kind, hillarious, confident, close to people I love. 💎 what would you rather have more of: intelligence, beauty, kindness, wealth or bravery? Why?Bravery or kindness?? Its hard to have one without the other. Also beauty ngl bc im fugly.🙊 what are you ashamed of?My gender and sexuality 👏🌺 which languages do you know? Which do you want to learn?I know english and spanish and I'm learning Danish. Hopefully once I'm okay at danish I can learn arabic. Ill be satisfied after that 😂☘ if you could be any fictional characters friend/lover who would it be and why?I mean, theres plenty of fictional lesbians where im like 😏👀 but honestly if I had to pick only one person I'd choose Kieren Walker from in the flesh bc he needs a friend and I relate to him so strongly.☁ talk about your dream universe.Mental and physical illness doesnt exist. People arent dicks. Everything is free. No one feels unloveable.💜 which acts of kindness are you going to do today?Idk I'm p much done for the day 😂 I've been helping out around the house all day tho🐬 if you could transform into any animal what would it be and why?I mean i might be biased but either a dog or a sloth bc they get to sleep all the time 😂🍄 talk about someone/something you really dislike.Someone I was best friends with for 4 years suddenly turned around and stabbed me in the back, made up shit about me, arranged that all my friends not talk to me for a fortnight, sent group emails stuffed with emotional manipulation and blamed me for her suicidal thoughts. I nearly ended it. Now I get to watch my friends still loving her like she isn't the world's most heartless person. It makes my blood boil.😣 talk about something that has been making you depressed/angry/anxious.I'm staying with my best friend rn and I can't stand the thought of going home.🍪 what did you want to be as a kid and what do you want to be now?I wanted to be a nurse and now I wanna be a doctor 👏 variety 👏🍰 what are some of your favourite sugary foods?I cant really eat sugar 😂 so fuck knows? Chocolate?🍑 what are you obsessed with?Brains, thought processes, psychopaths, graveyards and more 😂💘 what happens to you when youre stressed?I just get really emotional and start agressively making lists everywhere in an attempt to sort my life out.😪 what are you sick of?Humanity.🙀 are you an adrenaline seeker?Yeah its terrible 😂 i hate anxiety but I also kinda love it when my heart races.💥 what are some unpopular opinions you have?I....dont? I cba with discourse lifes too short.☔ would you consider yourself a good person?I think anyone with good intentions is usually a good person so yeah😊 what do you do as hobbies?Sleep, binge watch netflix and blog 😂🎤 whats the last song you hummed or sang by yourself?👏👏👏 Mr Brightside 👏👏👏 what a jam 👏👏👏🐝 whats your worst trait?Being waaayyy too clingy.🌷 whats your mbti personality type and why do you think it suits you?ISFJ and yeah defo, its the defender and I feel that tbh🐶 send me 3 fictional people and ill choose my favourite.Anon?👑 who are your favourite celebrities and why?Kaitlyn Alexander is my bae.Besides that I dont really....obsess over any celebrities? Eliza taylor is doing p good 😂 ummm also some youtubers? Do they count?🐴 opinion on __?Its a great bit of punctuation.🍋 do you consider yourself to be an emotional person?Lmfaoooooo YES📚 share 3 books you love and your favourite quotes from them.M8. Thats not gonna happen 😂 I love any book that makes me cry but I cannot quote a single word.😔 what do you always do when you feel sad? Does it work?Find a quiet corner, shut my eyes and listen to my Depression Playlist. It doesn't always make me feel better but it helps me ride it out.🙂 what thoughts keep you going when you're sad?The thoughts of uni and that I'll hopefully meet some great new people. Also my best friend. Just in general 😂🌎 which country do you live in?England.🐧 describe yourself in 3 words?Awkward, tall and shy.🙉 what quotes changed you?"Pick your fights" bc as much as its a meme it helps me chill outAlso "everything is temporary" and "the sun will rise and we will try again".💭 do you keep a diary?I have a personal blog which acts as a diary yeah💫 who inspires you?Kaitlyn Alexander!! (Listen theyre like the first nb representation I ever knew and I relate so much to everything they say and theyre so cute and talented)👻 do you believe in ghosts and why?I mean, my initial response is no. Because we're just bags of flesh made up of cells and when we die those cells die so theres nothing to live on.But tbh we know so little about the universe I'm open to the possibility of anything at this point.🎀 whats your fashion sense like?Dior. I know what clothes I like and think look good but I never like them on me.🎬 what are some of your favourite films?Deadpool, My sisters keeper, pitch perfect 2 ermm🍦 what is one treasured childhood memory?UmmmmmmmmmmmmWhen I first got my bunny, that was an amazing day!!🐼 if you could meet anyone, who would it be and why?Um my soulmate? Where are they at?

[let-the-love-tear-us-apart]

ask tag Game Rules: share 11 facts about you, answer 11 questions, tag 11 people, ask them 11 questions

LOLOLOL YEP IM DOING ONE OF THESE BC ITS STILL 2013 OK LET ME LIVE also i can feel my brain coming out of my ears and i physically can no longer study so  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 

was tagged by maisie @becausebarakat !! ty cutie <3 (btw im still hyped 4 whenevr that blue hair thing happens)

11 things abt me!! woohoo i lov self indulgent tag games

1. my favorite color is pink !! lets hear it for the femme dykes

2. i steal flowers from strangers gardens on the daily 

3. i wear sunscreen every day AND SO SHOULD U ZOMG like there are many things in the world that arent entirely good or entirely bad but like,,,, skin cancer is dEFINITELY a villain ok it is Bad and Evil wear SPF 30 or abov epls

4. ill knit you socks for christmas 

5. im actually a fake emo bc i only like the aesthetic and the music im actually a p happy dude

6. im also a fake emo bc i like country (pst danny schmidt and sam hunt are fab)

7. i either die on mars or i dont die at all

8. i love persephone more than you do

9. reason im a fake emo 3: i like the suburbs more than the city im sr y it isnt a choice i just like small towns i hold no resentment

10. ive been to 2 wtnv live shows i luv them ?? so much ??? the audiences have the highest concentration of ppl with dyed hair ive evr seen

11. i read tarot and am overly invested in astrology

11 questions 4 me:

1. if you could fuck any past president, who would it be?

DEFINITELY tippecanoe ahahhaha hholy shit i know it should be hamilton or something but

2. why ? hahahhaa im so sorry im bad at stuff like this

his name is actually president harrison he was famous for a battle at tippecanoe but he was old and weak and did his inauguration in the rain bc he wanted to prove he wasnt old and weak and died a month later from pneumonia lol poor kid

3. what are your other social medias?? promo yaself kids n i wanna follow you my dudes

sc: pandavibes

insta is private and has 0 followers bc its literally just a moodboard and full of selfies lol

ummm my depop ?? is ironicpink? ?????? uh i dont think i have much other social media wow am i truly a millennial ??????? does gmail count as social media? ???

4.  fave netflix series atm?

ive been watching a lot of vampire diaries recently bc i fall hard for cw trash shows (i.e. gossip girl, supernatural ha ah aha i have no quality control)

5. alex gaskarth or jack barakat? haha lol hav fun

gonna go with jack bc hes a crude 9yo and i relate and also hes lebanese and my dad grew up in lebanon !! us hairy middle easterners gotta stick together

6. if you were a disney // pixar character who you think you’d be n why??

tinker bell !! petty n short n vindictive n spoiled and i spent a lot of my childhood researching fairies 

7. which member in all time low do you think ur most like n why??

lol idk maybe jack ??? bc of aforementioned crude 9yo behavior and we have a shared affection for tight pants (and alex gaskarth) and also dont actually know the lyrics to anything

8. fave thing about ur face <3333

i luv my lips theyre not only practical but aesthetically pleasing and i appreciate that part of my dna

9. fuck marry kill : tyra banks, dr phil, paris hilton

who i s????? dr phil ????? a relvant human ??? i doubt it, kill him

marry tyra banks bc i have a strange sense of nostalgia whenever i watch antm

fuck paris hilton woop

10. what spooks you out the most?

idk christian fundamentalist are some spooky bitches

11. if you had a reality show made about you what would it be called??

America’s Next Top Disaster Boy

i tag : @buckaaayyyy​ @witchy-k1tten @elusive-lamb @gayplantnerd @wlfgangmozart @crimsonstory lol sry to drag u guys into this but its nearing finals season and we all have different ways of coping

11 questions for u:

1. favorite pastel color?

2. favorite author? 

3. tell me abt a longterm goal of urs

4. favorite flower? 

5. favorite artist? of any medium

6. which finger do you prefer to wear rings on?

7. where are you on the femme/butch spectrum?

8. which character would you give both kidneys and ur hippocampus for their happiness?

9. if you were in charge of the execution of trump and could do it ANY WAY YOU WANTED what would you do?

10. whats ur favorite scent?

11. whatre u looking forward to most in the summer?

WOOP HAV FUN

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who still does ask memes

lol i do

Spotify, SoundCloud, or Pandora? spotify til im die

is your room messy or clean? rn it's as clean as its been in like 3 weeks cause i finally had time to do laundy bless

what color are your eyes? brn

do you like your name? why? i used to dislike it a lot cause my sister said it was really ugly but it's rad and gives me my strongest sense of personal identity gg

what is your relationship status? dying

describe your personality in 3 words or less *whomst *this *fraud

what color hair do you have? brn

what kind of car do you drive? color? white mazda 3 sedan i luv her :^)

where do you shop? idk for what

how would you describe your style? delicious thot ft frumpy skater

favorite social media account i like the hell site

what size bed do you have? kween

any siblings? older brother older sister

if you can live anywhere in the world where would it be? why? toronto heart eyes

favorite snapchat filter? i just like that blue-y one that makes ur eyes bigger

favorite makeup brand(s) i buy drugstore lipstick and like... nothing else gg

how many times a week do you shower? at least 5 or i die

favorite tv show? i'm only watching the walking dead rn so that i guess the get down was .... so good tho

shoe size? 10 bruh

how tall are you? 5'10 or sth

sandals or sneakers? im a birks man now that theres no snow

do you go to the gym? not rn boo

describe your dream date My dream date? I break into Tiffany's at midnight. Do I go for the vault? No, I go for the chandelier. It's priceless. As I'm taking it down, a woman catches me. She tells me to stop. It's her father's business. She's Tiffany. I say no. We make love all night. In the morning, the cops come and I escape in one of their uniforms. I tell her to meet me in Mexico, but I go to Canada. I don't trust her. Besides, I like the cold. Thirty years later, I get a postcard. I have a son and he's the chief of police. This is where the story gets interesting. I tell Tiffany to meet me in Paris by the Trocadero. She's been waiting for me all these years. She's never taken another lover. I don't care. I don't show up. I go to Berlin. That's where I stashed the chandelier.

how much money do you have in your wallet at the moment? my wallets downstairs but i have like $10 in change and $2 american

what color socks are you wearing? >socks

how many pillows do you sleep with? 4 but that's........not enough give me like 10

do you have a job? what do you do? i'm an artist also i work at a grocery store oh no

how many friends do you have? idk a bunch i love my friends

whats the worst thing you have ever done? :um:

whats your favorite candle scent? coffee bean

3 favorite boy names -aaron -teddy -adam

3 favorite girl names -betty -roxanne -sidney

favorite actor? shrug

favorite actress? suhrrg

who is your celebrity crush? id smash john cusack

favorite movie? man i love rent

do you read a lot? whats your favorite book? my favourite book is always the last one i read so the raven cycle is fun

money or brains? #whynotboth

do you have a nickname? what is it? brn

how many times have you been to the hospital? uhh like maybe 6

top 10 favorite songs man, idk here are the last 10 i listened to -kokopelli face tattoo - ajj -dancing in the moonlight - toploader -feel it still - portuagal. the man -cadillac - miguel -stella - all time low -last night - motion city soundtrack -we do it different on the west coast - the mountain goats -love stuck - mother mother -she - green day -let's run away - matt and kim

do you take any medications daily? nah

what is your skin type? (oily, dry, etc) combo

what is your biggest fear? a mix of never having any sort of independence and being all alone! fuk

how many kids do you want? i don't tbh

whats your go to hair style? lesbian soul rebel who needs a haircut

what type of house do you live in? (big, small, etc) it's lorge but outdated

who is your role model? i have idols not necessarily role models idk

what was the last compliment you received? someone at work said i make their entire life bearable and i was like tf thanks

what was the last text you sent? i don't work there but thx

how old were you when you found out santa wasn’t real? when i was ..6 i lost a tooth and my mum didnt have change so she left me a $20 with a note saying to "share it with your mom so she can get coffee in the morning" from the tooth fairy and it #allcametogether

what is your dream car? camaros are sexy 69 camaros are so sexy

opinion on smoking? it's 2017 are we not past this yet u lit smell so bad smoke weed like an adult

do you go to college? lol

what is your dream job? i wanna fuckin make sports graphics lol

would you rather live in rural areas or the suburbs? urban papi

do you take shampoo and conditioner bottles from hotels? ya

do you have freckles? only when its real sunny out

do you smile for pictures? lol sometimes i goof too much

how many pictures do you have on your phone? idk like 10 this phone is so new

have you ever peed in the woods? uhhhh technically

do you still watch cartoons? not rly nostalgia is fun sometimes tho

do you prefer chicken nuggets from Wendy’s or McDonalds? ive never had wendys nugs

Favorite dipping sauce? sweet and sour

what do you wear to bed? shorts and a hoodie or like nothing idk sometimes ur naked sometimes ur not..depends

have you ever won a spelling bee? one time i lost cause i couldnt spell chocolate gg

what are your hobbies? are u attempting to know me

can you draw? yea boi

do you play an instrument? i can still sorta drom i know how to sorta play a bunch of instruments shrug

what was the last concert you saw? ummm live music fest w little bands idk

tea or coffee? i'm a tea boy now i'm not rugged anymore

Starbucks or Dunkin Donuts? i've never had dunkin donuts

do you want to get married? yea :^)

what is your crush’s first and last initial? br

are you going to change your last name when you get married? idk maybe but hoo know

what color looks best on you? i look good in light blu

do you miss anyone right now? not particularly

do you sleep with your door open or closed? that shits closed

do you believe in ghosts? no lol

what is your biggest pet peeve? the sound of people.. picking at their nails... makes me want to die

last person you called? papito

favorite ice cream flavor? chocolateeee

regular oreos or golden oreos? if you like golden oreos i don't like you

chocolate or rainbow sprinkles? depenz on what theyre on boi

what shirt are you wearing? a fall out boy hoodie lol

what is your phone background? it's still the default bg it's like a wave or sth but #artistic

are you outgoing or shy? shoutgoing

do you like it when people play with your hair? i can't stand when people play with my hair

do you like your neighbors? i don't know my neighbours tbh whomst

do you wash your face? at night? in the morning? both usually baby wipe that bihhh

have you ever been high? nah

have you ever been drunk? yah

last thing you ate? chickpeas like right from a can

favorite lyrics right now i'm really fixated on the lyric all somersaults through so-called art 'cause if that aint me #what is

summer or winter? sumber

day or night? day man

dark, milk, or white chocolate? dark choccy

favorite month? juillet

what is your zodiac sign leoooo

who was the last person you cried in front of? i don't remember the last time i cried probaby my old therapist lol