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So I'm a massive fan of demon aus and stuff so i ummm made my own demon au 👉👈
I'm not 100% sure if I'm going to write a fic or not for this,, I plan on maybe writing a few chapters, see if I vibe with it, and then post it or leave it in the abyss depending on how I feel when I'm done.
You are a freelance demon hunter with an odd relationship in regards to the demons you hunt. You allow those who kill criminals or the scum of the Earth to go free but hunt and kill those who harm the innocent. You never thought that your work would follow you home, and you certainly never thought that your work would wake you up every morning with pancakes and waffles. Who taught these demons to work a stove?
Some fun facts about the characters and stuff below the read more :)
-Y/n was raised by a demon, hence why they have such an odd relationship with demons. Y/n views them more as people who can make mistakes and less like evil creatures from hell. Y/n allows demons that kill horrible people to live because their Mother was one of those demons, often targeting abusive spouses and partners.
-Sun and Moon used to be one entity but had split decades ago due to a disagreement. They hadn't seen each other since the split until they both broke into Y'n's house.
-Y/n has lost several limbs during their hunts; but since they're on good terms with multiple demons they are always patched back up and made "whole" again. Y/n's mother is constantly on the verge of tearing their face off from stress.
-Since Sun is a plasma demon his body runs extremely hot. He has to maintain constant control of his body temperature or he risks burning everything around him. He also has to control the brightness of his body as if he gets too excited he WILL blind people. Sun smells like ozone before a lightening strike.
-Moon is a demon made entirely of frigid cold water, so just like Sun he has to work to control his body temperature. His natural temperature is extremely cold but if he gets too upset the water that makes up his body could solidify turning to ice. He can freeze the water in the air around him easily. He smells like the ocean during winter.
-Y/n is one of the only demon hunters capable of locking demons into objects. If they cannot kill a demon they will imprison them into an object and keep them in a locked room inside their house. They often put Sun and Moon inside a plasma ball and a snow globe when the two start fighting. Gay demon jail.
-Y/n is capable of using their mother's demonic magic, which is how they are so proficient during hunts. Mother's magic is plant based and helps Y/n control roots, vines, and other flora in their surroundings. The bracelet they wear signifies the bond the two have and Y/n can communicate with their mother through that bond. The bracelet can only be removed if the bond is severed, either through one party dying, both parties agreeing to sever said bond, or a strong enough desire to break free of the bond in some cases.
-Bonds between a demon and a human can come in a few flavors, romantic bonds are symbolized through the demon's solidified magic turning into a ring, familial or friendly bonds are symbolized with a bracelet, and forced bonds are symbolized via a collar around the victims throat.
-Vanessa is Y/n's protegee, after Y/n helped save Vanessa from a forced bond from a demon Vanessa decided she wanted to become a demon hunter to get revenge on the demon who enslaved her. Vanessa doesn't fully believe that demons aren't just evil creatures from hell, but does trust Y/n's judgement.
-The other animatronics are also demons! Y/n is friends with most of them :) Roxanne is a demon that specifically hunts human traffickers, Chica is a demon who hunts people that dump waste into the environment illegally (and then proceeds to consume the dump to ensure the environment isn't too badly effected), Freddy and Bonnie hunt down child abusers and often work as a team to do it, and Monty hunts poachers and exotic animal traffickers.
-Moon falls for Y/n first and falls fast. The minute y/n kicked his ass the first time he was down bad. He makes himself a nuisance to Y/n because he isn't entirely sure how to process these feelings and decides to makes it everybody else's problem. Sun originally just wanted to be friends but as time went on he realized he was falling for Y/n too. While Moon fell in love with you for your ferocity during hunts, Sun falls for your kindness and understanding towards those affected by other demons. Sun absolutely adores your passion and need for justice and it literally makes him swoon.
#my art#fnaf au#dca au#sun fnaf#moon fnaf#dca x reader#I've been putting off uploading these because i was gonna make a doodle page to go along with it but i realized i could make and post that#anytime so umm yeah#if u want to ask me questions about my au pls fucking do because it gives me a reason to actually think about it#designs aren't entirely final i love changing shit as i go <3#didn't mean to write so much for the fun facts but i got distracted sorry
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I saw the tv glow
#i saw the tv glow#trans#i saw the tv glow movie#i saw the tv glow film#isttvg#omfg this movie#watch it with no research trust me#i saw the tv glow fanart#i saw the tv glow art#isttvg fanart#transgender#gender queer#I've been crying so much from that movie#two whole days later#that was fairly quick only two hours drawing because I'm getting kinda sick of drawing backgrounds 😭 and somehow so much things require one#and yet i don't think i posted anything with the ones i made yet LOL suffer in silence#umm back to the subject#omg guys (gender neutral) WATCH THIS#when i stay to listen to the entire credits you know I've been traumatized#one of them said Corona for some reason#i drew this at 1 am i have no sleep hours today#I'll post the one i like less in a min
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another one +uncolored ver (can u tell i skipped school today
#i feel like it kind of looks better uncolored idk i think it's the eyes#laurmau#aphmau#mcd#minecraft diaries#i b on that danny gonzalez grind im CONSTANTLY rewatching his stuff im so serioud#i had this phase back in like december january i forgot where i literally binge watched like at least 12 of his vids a day Idk what i was d#ing like girl STUDY FOR YOUR SATS#hashtag Laurmau forever Idgaf (i've been avoiding continuing my mcd rewatchbc the next episode has aaron in the thumbnail(im really scared😭#I WILL FINISH YOU#Garroth soon contrary to popular belief i am a big Garroth fan too hes just kind of been irrelevant in mcd lately like come back......#I LIKE HIM KN THE SIDE STORIES THOUGH idk how i feel about my street but i Just started so we will see#o dont likr what jess is doing to him and laurance why are they crazy creeps☹️my daughters....#ummm what else omg i want to animate the nicole audio video thing that post is SO FUNNY literally live changing imma do that tmrw maybe umm#big emphasis on the Maybe😅😅😅i am a junior in high school#Hopefully ugghhhhh GET ME OUT!!!!#laurance zvahl#aphmau mcd#laurance mcd#awesome#also omg#thank u all for being nice tome on that laurance design it made me so happy like samn people rlly still care abt mcd😭😭(Positive
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#i've been thinking about this quite a lot on and off for a while#but to try to process it more i just wanna try to vent:#my sexuality is very messy. even inside my head. so scary. so complicated...?? so just thoughts of it are scary#and like there has only ever been one person who like just thinking about sex with has felt like good#not scary or terrifying. not with all of my avpd symptoms woven in (like one is that idk if i could ever have sex w someone#like actually be with them and be able to look them in the eyes and then also keep talking to them afterwards and not just run away and#never see them again. that's just one thing and this isnt abt that so anyway#like yeah just thinking about sex w him feel ok. safe and comfortable. and enjoyable and like i can and want it#which is smth like... with my other crushes before i've fantasized abt having sex w them but it felt bad and scary ://#and like i didnt actually want sex w them...#and with this person that isnt there. it's scary in a way since like im not experienced at all and idk how it feels irl 💀#but not in the way i usually feel abt it!!!!#so this just in my head#plus the fact that like talking and expressing some of my thoughts TO him ... felt good and safe and comfortable#is actually such a gift from him.... and i'll always treasure this (one of many things haha ^^)#bc he made me experience this and that i can feel good and ok and safe about it#i do feel sad that when this was current i was so cautious and shy bc it was so new to me#i was feeling smth real and genuine emotionally w him and i wasnt just saying stuff ... if that makes sense lmao#hmmm... yeah i've never felt good abt it before that w him. so it was so so new. and i couldnt quite get used to it fast#now im getting messy in my thoughts again sksksk#i just feel like this meant so much to me to just have had it#and idk im just so happy to know that these feelings are possible for me .. and i feel thankful for him that he gave me this not so little#thing/feeling/experience#now... the thing is... he is the only one i've felt all of the things with. like attraction/safe/comfortable/taken seriously etc etc.... so#umm what do i do now? 💀#ig either way im glad i know that this exists for me and that im not incapable of it. even if my avpd makes me feel that way#ok.. skurr skurr?#but yeah sexuality is so fkn scary for me idk it just gets too much i wanna cry T-T
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OKAAAYYY so i have admittedly fallen quite behind on my chiptobers, due to a sudden influx in homework last week X__X so i've kind of been jumping around with prompts but hopefully i'll get to them all at some point?
this post has: 21 (retro/arcade) 22 (alternate outfits) 23 (meme redraw) & 26 (backstory/past)
honestly kind of hate the second one. his face looks nice but the anatomy is so off :^P
this is the big one :^) i think about this lore very often O__o
click 4 quality pls Q__Q
#chipspeech#cider draws#cidertalk'84#bert gotrax#pedro chipspeech#chipspeech sam#dandy 704#cidandy#the sam/cider dynamic is oh so so so important to me for. probably obvious reasons#i would draw them together more often but it reminds me of the fact that i struggle to. imagine parental affection#but that's UMM NOT IMPROTANT !#i've been thinking about sam a lot :^( /pos
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11% more effective than placebo and this groundbreaking combination of two very common cheap and well established drugs costs $1200 for 60 tabs with the goodrx coupon. antidepressants are so silly (<- trying not to shoot myself)
#there's a manufacturers coupon that makes it $10 but idk if you can reuse that?#to be clear this is still covered by my insurance and if i lose it and still want to be on it i will just buy the ingredients separately#also i just learned this can increase your blood pressure which is cool because i explicitly just went off cymbalta because my bp went#through the roof and yet i don't think my shrink mentioned this at all#it's not quite as high as it was when i was on it but it's still very high#i'm still having withdrawals though so idk i was on it for some years maybe it is just taking a while for these side effects to go away....#to be fully honest though i'm not totally sure there is a direct correlation between the bp and cymbalta that's just the most optimistic#possibility because otherwise its just idiopathic as far as i can tell and that fucking sucks ass so i've really been hoping it was the snri#😀 unrelated but still thinking about how i was just told i have to get abdominal surgery. what the fuck#idk obviously i was already trying to get surgery and hopefully they will just take it all out at once but umm mostly how am i going to take#two weeks or whatever off work like. i have rent to pay. besides the insurance thing#whatever maybe i'll just have to take my chances with getting a torsion and going into septic shock hashtag land of the free#me
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Hey Cam! Do you like to play sports? If not, what's your favorite video game?
"In more detail, I played a shit ton of basketball back in my high school days, and I was one of the best players on my team! It's just a small hobby of mine nowadays, though."
#I can't look at Cam with glasses without thinking of 🤓#I mean it's PARTLY TRUE-#umm asckually#yeeah he'd definitely correct you on game facts n shit#also Cam has one of those like#mini basketball hoops in his room that you hang up above your door with a mini basketball#he plays around with that when bored#and YES COOL HAT REAL? There will in fact be a full design for that later#just some different clothes for him to wear when he's not at work in the military#and yes it's an N64 themed hat I literally have that hat and went “he'd wear that hat”#that's an official Luigi remote he has there btw#his favorite Mario character is Luigi he LOVES him#he's forced to play as Funky Kong in speedruns because it's the meta but he always uses Luigi outside of his runs#he will FIGHT YOU to play as Luigi#and yeah I know an official Luigi themed nunchuck doesn't exist so#I've decided Cam didn't like that and deadass got one custom made to match#he jokingly has a bunch of Toad wii remotes and uses them when he knows he'll get pissy at a game so he doesn't break his beloved Luigi one#because my ass couldn't help but make a Poofesure reference#he's been in a rivalry with 2 other speedrunners for years on end btw they constantly toss around the world record#I dunno what category he runs yet I'll think about that one#anyhoo HOLY HELL THAT IS ENOUGH RANTING NOW ENJOY THE LORE-#I just love him so much your honor#/#cameron calvin#oc#henry stickmin#thsc#the henry stickmin collection#asks#GODAWFUL shitart
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What "monster fish" are you?
Bichir (genus Polypterus)
You're a tenacious person who somehow continually manages to survive circumstances that would drive anyone else insane. You're the type to not confide in others and shoulder the burden of everything life throws at you all by yourself. Your stubbornness can be both a strength and a weakness; it allows you to stand strong in truly bleak circumstances, but can also cause you to stagnate. You're prone to digging your heels in and resisting change, even if you should logically know that change would be good for you.
Tagging: @arkhmlcst, @awolxsiblings, @babydxhl, @byanyan, @gnarledbite, @goldenmedic, @grasshopperqueen, @paleobird, @the-rorschach-mask and anybody else who'd like to do this??
#🌈 || dashboard games#🌈 || memes#Just a smol for the moment!#I see fish and have to do it#Because of Khare and her fucked up mutation haha#This is.. scarily accurate though#Khare is so fucking resilient and it's sad because she doesn't realize how traumatized she is#She's so focused on surviving and basically getting through another day that what she's been through hasn't really impacted her yet#Best not to think about it too much#Not when there's bills to pay and eyes to squeeze#She's very much the type to keep shit bottled up too#Just pretend nothing's wrong and pretend she's normal thank you very much#Just trying to live a normal life#:')#Fun quiz though#Right gotta write now I've got a day off#Kirk Roman and Khare are all chomping at the bit today umm let's see who wins#Bichir more like bitchir amirite
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🙄 got around to going thru the tumblr API and u can't even do a general search of ur blog.. pls just let me look for text i know exists.. it takes so long to do an export but the way that's literally the fastest most straightforward way to search for an old post 😩
#it would at least be cool if u could choose to archive just the new posts. when i think about how long the export takes#both to finish and download... it's ok#ever since the first time I've always been like umm im not that pressed actually 😶🌫️ anyways i have that gif vividly saved in my brain 🧠
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oh, I see. it's one of those nights.
#going insane going insane going insane#too many men in my head and they're all the same guy but not but#uhgghh I need to stop looking at him but I can't and he's so beautiful and I'm so unbelievably stupid#no thoughts in my head just him#and him and him#the three of them#stupid idiot guys with their same stupid pretty face and uggh I hate them#and by hate I mean want oh my god I want them so bad I'm losing my mind#other people are beautiful too! why can't I be normal about this?? why does this need to happen#just. be like. oh hey he's hot I'd fuck him. and move on. like a normal person#nooo it's got to be literal months of me getting increasingly stupid until there's nothing left of my brain because it's all been replaced#by tiny versions of him#it's literally FINE.#people are attracted to people literally all the fukcing time why can't I be normal about this oh my god this is so humiliating#BUT I can't keep it in my mind or my head will explode and for some reason that would be bad. apparently.#AND why can't I just think he's hot??? WHY does it have to become my entire personality?? what do I like? oh him of course. no like what are#my hobbies? oh looking at him and painting him and thinking about him. NO besides that - umm there IS nothing besides that actually?? I've#never had an interest in my life and I don't even know what you mean 🙄 I sit here and think about a man (now it's three of them but#whatever)#what else would there be 🙄🙄🙄🙄 ridiculous.#ugh why can't I just be really fully completely ace? this is so unnecessary I don't want it it's horrible 😫#except it's not its the best it's fucking incredible because I think about his face and it's like I'm seeing everything and it all makes#sense finally and why would anything else ever matter again#oh my GOD dude if I could hear myself right now. I'd be so embarrassed. but I can't because there's just a billion tiny eliots and alexes#and jacobs in my head and that's all there is#man maybe I should start doing drugs or start drinking again#okay whatever *goes back to watching the librarians and giggling like a maniac every time I see him*#ugh he's wearing a cute jacket and I need to hug him so bad oh my god it's killing meee. soft soft soft. must touch. ugggh
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#idk i just feel sad today. extra sad#i want love and affection and connection and intimacy#thats just want i want in life#idc abt jobs or money or concerts or trips or whatever. i just want love.....#and im sad bc i think i have potential to be such a loving and good gf#(but only to someone who is equally good to me. it cant be unlocked by force or emotional abuse)#idc abt all the other parts of life that to me are lame (jobs .. money.. houses cars.. trips idc...#i just wanna spend my time being loved and making someone feel loved#and maybe bc i am a so called lover girl at heart#i feel the emptiness of it everyday and it hurts#so much....#and like im now 26 and i have never even been asked on a date 💀#tho i dont really wanna date.. i just wanna devote myself to someone worthy (thats unrealistic tho i kno u gotta date to find someone)#like that makes it all harder too. i've never had even a peck on the mouth. amd i gonna be 30 and be like umm yeah i like u but i've never#kissed.. and then they gotta help me learn? at that big age? fucking humiliating i just wanna cry#so whatever. even if i manage to get a job and live on my own i'll always be miserable#bc i want LOVE!! and i want that love#to be the most important and focus almost all my energy on them#unrealistic i know.... :( but thats all i want and i feel like im slowly dying without it
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speak-no-evil, megaphone, pencil for all of them?
O: these are super interesting!! Thank you so much!
🙈 SEE-NO-EVIL - whats a side of your oc that they don't want to show other people?
Elanor
That she can be so demanding when things just aren't served to her on a silver platter. Can be the smallest things like favors, or severe stuff like feelings. One tell that indicates she's restraining herself is her lips being so tight they form a straight line.
Hawke
He perceives himself as weak and pathetic, but he never shows publicly the sadness he feels because of it. He trained himself to just fake it to the point not even his family can tell he's upset.
Ankh
Her rage. More like raw frustration, which is something she needs to suppress or else she'd set fire to everything without a single remorse. It gets better after Corypheus is defeated but sometimes she just needs to take a deep breath and keep her hands busy.
📣 MEGAPHONE - how loud are they? what do they speak like? got a voice claim?
Y E S
I love this question! And I know italians in my followers list will have a good laugh at my choices 💛 or maybe they'd be just very concerned lol
Elanor
She has a decisive voice and you can tell she took lessons to refine it, I would say its tone is deep and a bit nasal but not too raspy. She's composed, most of the times, but when she gets loud she gets loud.
I do have the perfect voice claim for her but I can't find adequate vids or short clips << I'll elaborate on it another moment
Hawke
Oh he's loud and proud! He does have range of course, but when he has to draw the attention of someone on the other side of the street he just yells rather than walking there and tap their shoulder. Also he has a great singing voice o: I picture him as an effortless baritone.
His voice actor is just perfect so I won't go there, neither in eng nor in italian.
Ankh
Her
I like how the female inquisitor voice sounds in eng but like, how about the really annoyingly enthusiastical aspect of Lav's personality?? And what about the "I'm totally messing with you but there's a shade of melancholy behind it"? Where is it??
That's the perfect voice.
✏️ PENCIL - is there a particular quote / lyric that you associate with them?
uuuh I'm terrible at this and I know 80% of the time I will spend on this ask will be dedicated to this answer lol (I wasn't wrong)
Elanor: "It is a mistake to think you can solve any major problems just with potatoes" Douglas Adams
Hawke: "If you're really a mean person you're going to come back as a fly and eat poop" Kurt Cobain
Ankh: "I tend to think that emotions are for ugly people" Willam
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Emoji Ask Meme
#long post#oc emoji asks#ask meme#elanor cousland#kerry#ankh#the voice one is all over the place I'm sorry#I've been thinking of their ranges A LOT#but explaining myself is hard and explaining myself in another language IS HARDER lmao#maybe I can dedicate a post to it umm
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i feel like people with sick children are way too fine with letting their kids run around and get other people sick like. it is rude to knowingly spread diseases? if i'm sick i don't take it to gatherings of other people why is your kid exempt from this
#i realize this is probably a logistically difficult problem to solve like you can't really quarantine a 3 year old very well etc but almost#almost every time i've gotten sick in the last couple years it's been from kids and now my friend is saying she has a fever and sneezing and#thinks it's from someone's kids. someone who is coming over here for dinner which i was invited to but umm perhaps not#like again idk what the solution is but i fucking hate it when someone's kid is like actively slobbering on you and they're like oh haha#she's got a cold lol and don't seem to consider maybe you don't want the cold. do parents just resign themselves to being sick all the time#honestly i think that's literally what my brother has done which is insane to me but whatever#me
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wow...yeah. very bleak ending, but not without its sliver of hope. ennis clearly loves his daughters, and he's working to make time for them in the way he never felt able to with jack. it's a closed ending for sure, not really cathartic but neat and appropriate. I'm glad I finally saw this movie
#and I still have one night left!#maybe something a little lighter#rn its between southern comfort peafowl and tokyo godathers#leaning towards the latter as I'd like some animation#but I think peafowl would be more umm genuine? and closer to the other types of movies I've been watching this weekend'#bbmtn lb
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Okay so....I am actually starting to think that I may in fact be bipolar....
#for context..which I actually dont think I've ever shared on here...my grandpa who i never met had bpd#and a lot of mental illness in general runs in my family but bipolar specifically has sat at the back of my mind for a while now#like hmmm i wonder if i have that#but umm yeah im starting to think i do#this is my way of saying that im extremely manic rn and I'm actually a little worried for mysel#like I'll be fine#but im finally seeing a pattern that has been happening for a while#and im finally connecting the dots
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cw venting in tags
i love being so physically weak after any bout of illness that. i shake every time i get up and cannot support the weight of my own tab in my hands
#/s#though i suspect this antibiotic that my friends made me eat have made me weaker#i feel dizzier and weaker EVERYTIME after consuming O2 tablet#idk if it's just me though#just yesterday i told my sister that i wasn't well and she said#“um isn't that the usual case“#hate that i've been physically unwell so many times#that my family doesn't really worry about it anymore#they see it more of a bother than something to care about#like how back in december we were supposed to go out#and i threw up my breakfast in the morning#and my fam was more worried about me holding them up and making us late#than my well-being or even care as to why i threw up#granny literally said “you cause problems every time you're supposed to go out”#umm do you really think i choose to throw up or get sick on purpose???#anyway due to being sick i've missed too many classes so i need mpre attendance and so many pending assignments#god help me get through this sem#shashi vent
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