#uhhhh maybe i'll have more to say about this one day idk

[infinitystation]

it's been a LONG time since i've made any sort of personal post but i wanna ramble a bit! i've never felt more relief than finally deciding to use the term aro for myself after fighting with it on and off for at least 5 years. i'm not sure WHY it's so relieving but it is!

(under the cut bc it's long, i genuinely havent spoken here in like. years. even stopped talking on my sideblog bc i feel a bit safer on a private twitter for personal posts...)

the way i found out was a little hilarious but i am Not going into all that here that's for my private twitter, long story short someone made a post along the lines of "romance is something you FEEL not something you DO" and i was like. wait what the hell you guys Feel a crush you don't just Make one?? OH THAT'S MAKES WAY MORE FUCKING SENSE- *(&$@#)*&%^* quickly realized i had spent my whole life trying to Make crushes oops. there's more to it but that's the extremely simplified version

i had a big relief when realizing my sexuality and gender too but this one was a lot different for some reason. maybe because i'm older now? i'm not really sure. could have also been because i've been fighting with it for so long. i did the same with gender stuff too but it never felt like this big revelation, it was a lot slower and easier to come to terms with. this one made me reevaluate my entire life and go "ohhhhh that's what i was doing wrong all those years" lmao

i dont think i've ever loved myself so much since realizing this. fuck the loveless aro thing (shoutout to you guys tho, just couldnt be me), i am SO full of love. now i realize what was wrong the whole time! trying to put people above other people and put them in the Special Love category was fucking me up, love doesnt need to fall into special categories with certain terms and conditions, it can just be whatever i want it to be and as strong as it wants to be without it ever leaving the "platonic" stage and i love that. realizing that my friends are the closest people in my life and that doesn't have to change has been so nice. no more "you'll find someone Even More Special" these are just my favorite people! i love them! we dont have to get into a relationship to make it The Specialest Relationship, what we have is enough

i am also having way more fun headcanoning characters tbh, that's a silly point but it's a fun one. i never fully understood the "giving your faves your identity" thing bc i just did whatever i saw fit regardless of whether it was MY identity or not, but making random characters aro is awesome. not all of them, i'm a big fan of fictional relationships (relationships are super fun from a distance i love smacking my guys together like barbie dolls). but taking my old inkling oc and making him aro? that has made me so fucking happy. rip to his boyfriend FKJHG

[prentissluvr]

i dont have all of my sam thots and dean thoughts just yet but I had to send in this bc I completely forgot about meg! sam

and its a damn shame that we didn't see more of that bc it solidified my stance on being a sam girlie

we got at least 3 episodes of demon dean (i have not seen him yet i've only heard about it) but we got like less than half an hour with meg! sam and honestly we deserved more with him

meg! sam made me feel lots of things LOLL

(i wanted to be jo SO BAD in that episode LMAO)

now i need your thots on him please :p

KJDFSJL NO BECAUSE... NOOO I CANT thinking about the amount of meg!sam edits i've seen in the past few days. thinking about the one saved in my camera roll. thinking about throwing up pissing my pants projectile vomiting and passing the fuck out. i reiterate tho, i'm normal!! i'm so so so normal and i don't feel things about it!!!!!!!

i'm honestly still like borderline unsure about how nsfw i want to get on this blog, but uhhh i'm just gonna start typing and see where my dirty fucking mind takes me!

cw : highly suggestive!! no smut, but still absolutely no minors!! MDNI!! contains condescending/mean/possessed sam, but also sweet sam too <33. use of gendered terms, but it is gender inclusive to fem, masc, and gn as much as i could make it! horrible writing it's genuinely just me going feral :))

sooo basically for me the worst (best) part of meg!sam was his voice! it's so bad (never have i ever heard anything hotter in my life). IDK I DONT EVEN THINK I CAN FORM A COHERENT THOUGHT OVER THIS NOT GONNA LIE. uhm uhhh ummmm uhhhh uhmmmm.

so basically so basically, essentially, wwowowowowowowowifjhshf alright lets focus on one thing at a time.

we'll start with that goddamn voice of his. the way it goes from teasing, condescending to deeper, more gravelly and matter-of-fact and then back to condescending LIKE WHOO IM GONNA NEED TO TAKE A LAP. idk just thinking about his large hand on the back of your head, maybe tangled in your hair if the way you wear it allows for that, and his veiny forearm visible through your peripheral vision as he says "open up.. that's a girl" like he did to jo😭😭😭 (or he's says "thaaat's it" to keep things gender neutral, dragging out the "that's" for an extra second, that extra gravel in his condescending tone).

and while this is in possessed!sam context, he'd definitely say things like that normally, i do personally envision him to be less condescending and more sincere. either way, hot as fuck if you ask me. also this isn't meg!sam, but in season seven he says "good girl" and i do listen to that clip several times a day, i am so serious when i say that and i have no shame about it!! i have daddy issues so i do not care!!! so yeah he also says good girl/boy/whatever variation you enjoy best <3 uhmmm yeah but the main point is his hot as fuck voice, right next to your ear with his breath tickling you sensitive skin. especially with that whisper. oh god the whisper😭 and along with "that's a girl," there's atta girl and he'd use that one too so i'll go die in a hole :))) but yeah he genuinely thinks you're so good for him so expect that praise, whether you want it sweet or mean.

then we also have his facial expressions!! the smirk he uses to rile you up or that he flashes you, all mean and haughty because he knows he's getting to you. the fake pity too!! lord help me, once again the utterly fake pity just falls under that condescending persona that was so hot about meg!sam. i'm just gonna use photo evidence and you can imagine him looking at you like that!! enjoy!

last thing i have to say about meg!sam is manhandling!! ahahaahahahaahahah i'm normal and okay!! (this is a cry for help i need him so bad). um yeah while i hate the context of the manhandling of jo in the episode because it's crossing so many boundaries, i will still enjoy the fact that he is hot. so yeah! have fun thinking about sam whirling you around and pinning you between his chest and nearest surface, hand on your forehead to tilt your chin up and give him full access to the skin of your neck. his other hand is pinning your wrist to whatever surface is behind you, and your own free hand is tangled in his hair and he lays wet, desperate kisses all over your neck and collarbone. that's all hahahahaha :)))) feeling so sane right now!!

[beanghostprincess]

What are you most controversial/unpopular OP opinions??? Sorry if it was answered before

You want me to get canceled so bad-- If I speak-- But idk, I guess I'll say the controversial opinions I can say publicly without a bunch of people coming at me!

Zo$an is a bit... Overrated? And by overrated I mean extremely/annoyingly overrated. I like the ship and its canon dynamic but I think at least 80% of the fandom portrays them in a very mischaracterized way. Not to say that... The ship is literally everywhere and the shippers always look for every little thing to prove they're canon, even if the "proof" has literally nothing to do with them. It's not that I don't enjoy the ship (although I must admit I prefer other dynamics a lot more) I just can't stand shippers that go to extremes. It's funny because I think Zo$an's dynamic is way more interesting and romantic in canon than it will ever be in the fandom. It's a bit sad, ngl. I liked them a lot at first but it got so tiring and now I am pretty exhausted from seeing it everywhere. The people force it to be more than it is when the canon is already pretty fucking great.

Adding to the Zo$san thing. I think that relationship would only work if Luffy is there somehow but it wouldn't last a day without him in the relationship. Unless there's like, a ton of character development most of these people don't make them go through.

One Piece Film Z is my worst enemy. It's such a boring movie. The only good thing is the soundtrack and maybe the suits but God watching that was torture.

Boa hate is uhhhh weird. I mean, I get why the joke about her being in love with Luffy might be annoying, but I think most of you need to learn to understand that Oda's sense of humor is sometimes a bit too exaggerated (and not funny) and it has basically nothing to do with the actual canon dynamics between characters. Boa likes Luffy because he's one of the first men who has ever treated her right, so of course she confuses that feeling with love. And of course, yeah, it isn't canon. Whatever. Just read between the lines, maybe? And also, stop using words like "pedo" to describe her because using that term so lightly about 1) a fictional character and 2) somebody who's clearly not a pedo is fucked up. Lmao. Do you even know what that word means???

Once again complaining about Pudding hate and saying that it's stupid. I won't overanalyze because I always do it with her, but the only reason people hate her is for misogynistic reasons and because they're babying Sanji. Evil male characters are okay and hot and very traumatized but the second it's a woman she's the most evilest person ever! Because God forbid they make mistakes! Suddenly their character development isn't valid because they hurt their babygirl!

Now that we're talking about my dearest Pudding. Not tagging anybody of course, but I saw this post with so many interactions of people agreeing about Sanji considering violence as a sign of love which??? Doesn't make sense at all?? OP said it was because he couldn't tell the difference between love/abuse because of his family, but that's just... Not accurate. That could only happen if they had manipulated him into thinking abuse is a type of love, but he had healthy love growing up. Even when he was with the Vinsmokes (Sora and Reiju, I love you). And yet OP said Sanji considered Pudding's behavior flirting (wrong) and that's why he let her attack him (nope) and that it was proof of Zo$an. And okay, it's not a hugely popular theory, but a lot of people agreed with it and it bothered me a lot because it's both out of character and also using Pudding (complex female character) once again to try and prove the canon of a ship (that doesn't have anything to do with WCI either???). It just bothers me. People can perceive the story however they want but... Y'know.

OPLA isn't that good. Or good at all? I only like it because I like the cast and it's funny seeing my blorbos irl. But the script is simple and dull and just stupid most of the time. The characters are either simplified, mischaracterized, or forgotten. And tbh most of the shots are very awful and could be a lot better. The directing is also nonexistent. It's 6/10 and 3 of those points are because both the Zolu and the cast.

Apparently this is a very common theory about Nami's origins, but, uh, I don't think we need to know? What else do you need to know about her? People say she's a lost princess or something like that as if we didn't have a lost princess already (Sanji ily). Repeating the same plot would be boring and underwhelming, but also? It'd be extremely useless for the plot and it'd go against everything about Nami's story and the way Luffy reacts to it.

Luffy isn't canon aroace. In fact, the reasoning people use for him being "coded" is the same Oda uses for Zoro too and Zoro is almost never portrayed as the "idiot who doesn't know what sex is" the way Luffy often is. If you're calling Luffy canon aroace for what Oda said about him being focused on adventures, the same goes for Zoro being focused on his dream. They could be coded arospec but there's nothing confirmed and the constant discourse about it is stupid. Attacking others because of their ships just because you don't agree with them and saying it's wrong using our identity to do it is very fucked up. Especially since most of the time people complaining aren't even aroace. The only reason people do it (attacking others saying they can't ship Luffy and that it's "weird" and "wrong") is that they infantilize Luffy/Don't want him getting in between their ships (<- aroace person writing this) (also, it's very ableist since people agree on Luffy also being neurodivergent coded and treating him like a kid bc of that but this isn't about that now).

Somehow this is very common. Some fucking how. I can't believe I have to say this. I'm tired of people blaming Usopp for what happened in Water 7. Or in general hating Usopp. Actually, he's one of the best-written characters in the whole show and he's so underappreciated it's so frustrating.

Sanji's perv jokes are annoying af and we all know that, but people who hate the character and consider him a red flag for that are missing the point completely. The point being "Oda exaggerates jokes to an annoying extent and most of the time they don't even reflect the character". I understand they can make you uncomfortable (same here tbh) but reducing Sanji to only those jokes is a waste of his character. You need to take jokes less seriously.

If I see one of these "red flag OP boys" TikToks adding Law/Ace/Zoro/Sanji next to fucking Doffy I will riot. Also, stop adding Crocodile there. He's a mafioso, there's NO way he won't be a sweetheart to his lover.

Baron Omatsuri's artstyle and animation is amazing and it fits the plot and aesthetic of the movie perfectly and people saying it's ugly will forever bother me.

"Usopp is suddenly hot after timeskip!" He has always been hot what the fuck are you talking about.

People reduce Nami to her "mean"/"sarcastic" personality a lot when she's quite literally one of the most kind-hearted characters of all. That being said, morally speaking she's probably one of the worst. I could explain how that works but I don't want to do it now, the point is-- Let the girl be sweet instead of making her mean all the time. And also, let her be mean and selfish without making it her entire personality. There's something called "balance".

Film Red was kind of bad. Like, the songs are amazing (thanks, Ado) but the ending is awful and the plot is very meh. I'm only here for Uta and Shanks but the rest of the characters are just useless. I do appreciate Sanji's hair in the movie, though.

[yuebings]

fic writer meme

thank u @fruitdaze @uhuraisgay @cairoscene @englishsub for tagging me!

How many works do you have on Ao3?

44 currently! double 4s? during MY lunar new year? i gotta change that up quick

2. What's your total Ao3 word count?

315,042 words

3. What fandoms do you write for?

my most written-for fandom is mdzs, but i don't really write for it anymore...if you look at my ao3 profile u can kinda tell i'm a sporadic one-and-done type when it comes to fic hehe no one can predict where i'll go next. my latest fandom is jujutsu kaisen!

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

so you've been robbed by a musuem

the stone-filled sea

the family-dodging bathroom-dwellers association

and his wanting grows teeth

diving blind

it's like a wangxian sweep except for the last sambucky lol

5. Do you respond to comments?

i am trying to get better at that! sometimes i don't have the energy to go through and respond to every single one but trust me when i say that seeing the wonderful comments people leave truly makes my day

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

tbh i don't think i've ever written straight-up angsty endings (or at least the way i see straight up angst). every 'bad' ending has a ray of hope in it, or at least an acceptance that like...yes, this is the way it was meant to be, and to reject the outcome would be to reject everything that came before it. sometimes things were meant to go to shit. there was no other way to go. we were doomed but at least we loved each other. i will suffer but at least i can remember you. so on so forth.

with all that said, it's a toss up between the longest journey (di feijing & lei chun), or all things in pain (wen ning character study). 'angsty' endings, if only in the way i described above

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

a lot of my happy endings aren't super-sweet happy endings per se, but rather a promise or hope that things will get better. idk what that says about me lol like maybe i have more interest in the "how to become happy" part than the actual happiness itself...? but ANYWAY i'd say the sappiest ending is i have is uhhhh feel like a brand new person (msr take edibles together) because 1) their mutual attraction is finally acknowledged 2) they're making out 3) they're high as balls. what's better than this

8. Do you get hate on fics?

not any time recently! i've rarely had negative comments before and all of them have been of such a ridiculous nature that my only response was like "lmfao ok"

9. Do you write smut?

nope! not yet, at least. maybe some time in the future i'll feel like it

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you have written?

haven't written any, don't really read them either! i keep my blorbos locked up in their separate cages. siloed.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

yes! kind of. if this counts, a couple years ago someone on wattpad stole over 100 wangxian fics (including mine) from ao3 and reposted them onto their own account without credit. we got their account taken down tho so all is well...but this is why i say in my ao3 profile that i do not allow reposts. please tell me if u ever see my work reposted anywhere........

i've also come across a fic in a diff fandom that was VERY clearly "inspired" by one of mine (lifting certain scenes and lines beat for beat) and gave no credit. so there's that as well.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

yes! it's always an honor when someone wants to translate my work :)

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

nope! my creative process is so erratic that i feel like i'd be a nightmare to co-write with, so this is probably for the better

14. What's your all time favorite ship?

this is a hard question to answer. i don't have an ultimate favorite that always stays at the top of the pile, cuz my interests change all the time! right now i'm really enjoying platonic yuuji & megumi & nobara & gojo. in terms of what i go to most often when i want a comfort re-read...finnpoe.

15. What is a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

omg. you want a DEEP CUT? i have a wip for a rarepair in an already sparse fandom...yeongshin/seobi from kingdom on netflix (the historical korean zombie drama). i LOOOOVE that show i comfort re-watch it all the time. i love their bonded-thru-trauma-frenemies healer/warrior dynamic and i have this wip going for yeongshin getting bitten and seobi developing a zombification-reversal cure through sheer willpower and spite alone........there's maybe 2k written and i was relying on a season renewal announcement to motivate me enough to get the rest of it out but uh. fellow kingdom warriors if you're out there. i think we may be losing this battle............kingdom season 3 announcement save me..............

16. What are your writing strengths?

as a haver-of-siblings, i think i do general family dynamics pretty well! someone has told me in the past that i am good at packing meaning into very few words. i also think i'm good at angsty emotional beats (i sure like writing them, at least)

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

bro if there is any action scene in my work, writing it is like pulling teeth. what do you mean he's getting hit. what do you mean i have to think of an interesting way to describe punch #1 and punch #2 and punch #3. STOPPPPPPPP I CANT DO THIS.

in terms of technique i used to struggle with this thing where i NEED to perfect the writing i'm working on before i can move on. like i'd waste huge amounts of time rewriting a three sentence paragraph over and over and over again until it was perfect before i could move onto the next scene. i'm getting a lot better with that tho!

18. Thoughts of writing dialogue in another language in fics?

i've never done it myself, like, full on written-in-a-diff-lang dialogue, but i think it's cool as long as context clues/some form of translation is provided. and if proper research is done if the writer isn't a native speaker

19. First fandom you wrote for?

the man from uncle (2015). lol. napollya could have won in an alternate universe where armie h@mmer wasn't a piece of shit

20. Favorite fic you have written?

HOO. i gotta say it's my sambucky ghost fic the boy who cried ghost. it's by far my longest fic (even tho it isn't actually very long compared to others ive seen LOLLLL) and it took me AGES to write and ended up being quite personal!! part of the reason it took me so long to finish was bc i couldn't bear to write about sam struggling with grief/guilt when i was also going through something similar, so when i finally got around to writing the moment of catharsis i kinda felt like i was helping myself, too! which was a very interesting experience, and definitely served to lodge this fic in my heart forever and ever. it's not exactly popular but i'm proud of it :)

tagging @tantai-jin @bluecrystalrainingdaggers @vinelark and anyone else who wants to participate!

[andromedadoesntwrite]

Twenty Questions: Fic Author Edition

Thank you @bodyelectric77 for tagging me! I always love participating in these fun things. I am quite new to fanfic though (two months more or less) so I'll do my best to answer as much as I can <3

1-How many works do you have on ao3?

2

2-What's your total AO3 word count?

23,538 words

3-What fandoms do you write for?

The Hunger Games. But I'm not closed to maybe writing for others.

4-What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Cold Coffee

Fated From The Start

I've only published two atm :)

5-Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

yesyesyesyes

I absolutely love comments. No matter how long they are I appreciate them so much. To know that people read my stuff AND that they like it AND wanna let me know, it completely makes my day. So I try to answer all of them, even if its just to say thank you. I especially love when the commenter references a specific part of the fic that they liked or made them laugh. It hits a spot.

6-What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

uhhhh.

at the moment I don't have any out. None of my fics have ended lmao. But something may or may not be in the works. Idk, not sure yet.

7-What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

once again, none of my fics have ended but I think Fated From The Start's will be the happiest.

8-Do you get hate on fics?

No at the moment, no. But if I keep writing its possible I will. But we'll cross that bridge when it comes to it.

9-Do you write smut? If so what kind?

Nope. Not really my strong suit or focus when writing. I've written a few suggestive scenes but nothing too intense or graphic. It's very difficult to write good smut so kudos to all writers who do.

10-Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

No

11-Have you ever had a fic stolen?

No and hoping it stays that way lmao

12-Have you ever had a fic translated?

No

13-Have you ever cowritten a fic before?

No

14-What's your all-time favorite ship?

Honestly Everlark. I really like both characters individually and think they're ship is pretty fitting. But if you had asked 12 year old me, she would've said Marshal lee from Adventure Time and me.

15-What's a WIP you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?

There's a piece about Katniss not liking Peeta back till they were much older and both married sitting in my drafts buuuut I don't think I'll ever get to finishing it.

16-What are your writing strengths?

I actually don't know lmao. At least I'm not sure when it comes to fics. But I've been told I'm good at evoking emotion when it comes to sadness in other pieces I've written. I guess I still have to develop them.

17-What are your writing weaknesses?

I can get impatient quickly, leading me to sometimes not expand on something at first and just quickly writing it out. It sucks. And in the end slows me down even more. Since I have to come back and write things over. So a lot of times my descriptions fall short. It cringes me out when I read something back that I wrote in a hurry.

18-Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

I would love to. I'm actually trilingual but Spanish is my first language so I'd love to write a fic in it. I think some things are just better written in Spanish, at least for me. Maybe one day I'll include it in one of the fics.

19-First fandom you wrote for?

The Hunger Games

20-Favorite fic you've ever written?

Fated From The Start! It's the one I spend more time in.

This was super fun and I'm tagging @thelettersfromnoone should they choose to do it, and anyone else who sees this since the rest of my mutuals have been tagged <3

[yoursummerfrost]

what do you think xander and spike think of each other? idk why it's not even like i ship it, there just seems to be something so sad about xander to me and i think spike has a way of seeing these things. maybe i've just been having too many feelings about final season xander lately...

Hmm, if we're talking strictly canon, I don't think Spike gives Xander much consideration other than finding him annoying and an obstacle towards being accepted by the rest of the Scoobies. Xander is the most hostile towards Spike out of all the gang and my vamp's already fighting for his life to be taken seriously by anyone. I think Spike generally considers any kind of relationship with Xander to be a lost cause and less important than, say, winning over Joyce and Dawn, who are much kinder/more receptive to him. Spike generally lives up (or down) to expectations and Xander doesn't give him much benefit of the doubt.

Conversely, Xander's opinion of Spike is textually complicated and fraught. Which makes sense given his status as Buffy's metaphorical heart. It's definitely my head canon (and frankly subtextual) that Xander has repressed attraction towards Spike that fuels a lot of his animosity (me thinks the lady doth protest too much, etc; the same argument can be made for Buffy herself). Of course, Xander is also one of the most staunchly anti-vampire characters, tracing all the way back to the pilot.

Similarly to how I argue that Buffy must refuse to see Spike as capable of loving her without a soul lest she face an uncomfortable truth about Angel (if Spike doesn't need a soul to love her, why didn't Angel love her anymore when he lost his?)*, Xander needs to maintain a staunch anti-vampire stance to avoid facing the possibility that vampire!Jesse could have been saved in some way.

If we're veering a little more into fanon territory, I definitely think there's the potential for Spike to see that woundedness in Xander and change his perception a little bit. I actually have like 2k of a spander fic set in s4 written that expands their basement roomies arc and explores how their relationship might develop if 1) Xander were forced to have more potentially humanizing conversations with Spike and 2) Spike saw what Xander's home life with an abusive family was like. The fic would also explore Xander's repressed bisexuality and relationship to masculinity, and how Spike threatens both of those things. Maybe I'll actually write it one day!

Edit: literally forgot to add my *footnote lmao. Basically it's my interpretation that Angel did still feel love for Buffy without his soul, but he was so disgusted by and ashamed of that feeling--because being capable of love is antithetical to everything he wanted to be, which was the Perfect Monster--that he does everything in his power to sublimate that love into hatred. We see this culminate in I Only Have Eyes for You, where he's so disgusted by his lingering feelings for Buffy that he scrubs himself "clean" and decides the only solution is to uhhhh burn down the entire world!

[carmenized-onions]

and i’m back with another yap session🤭okay okay, there were some parts that i forgot to mention last time so hopefully i can hit them this time and feel less insane😀

1. SYD AND TONY!!! i’ve been wanting to touch on them for a while but i never know how to do in a way that makes sense?? BUT THE FRIENDSHIP IS SO PRECIOUS, I CAN’T. they remind of the tiktok sound that’s like “we were girls together” and i literally can’t get that outta my head with them🥺 i think i just love reading about tony and the rest of the gang?? like i love seeing how they fit into the chaotic puzzle that was the beef– ESPECIALLY with all the new changes happening!! plus carmy’s reactions to tony’s dynamic with everyone is actually hilarious😭 like when he was so pressed that ppl have their own nicknames for her. like carmy, please remember to breathe LMAOOO

2. also the current chapters are still making me wanna run up my WALLS😭i don’t think i ever know peace anymore… WHAT DO MEAN THE WORSE DAY IF THEIR LIVES IS COMING?? SAVE ME?? IM SCARED??

3. and carmy’s so sick and twisted but like me too so it’s cool😎 but in all seriousness, it reminds me of that feeling of being in a 3 person friend group but knowing there’s a duo and you’re not apart of it (am i articulating this properly?? idk??) it’s such an odd feeling to be jealous of something that you know you probably shouldn’t be. like just because they’re besties, doesn’t mean that they care for you any less. but i also get his desire to wanting to be her person and not just the little brother full in but then again, you can’t even blame him for feeling like that cause WHO WOULDN’T??

AHHH THERES SO MUCH MORE I WANNA SAY but this is getting kinda long so i will hold off‼️again, just wanna reiterate how much your writing makes me wanna ascend into the divine plane; it literally so amazingggg😫 tysm for reading this certified long ass yap session🫶🏾

Cannot define enough how much I love these yap sessions, literally always feel free to send me any and all fleeting thoughts in the brain box.

aside: new chapter uhhhh Sunday probably? Maybe tomorrow possibly? Pending how fast I am. I'm trying to get the next two chapters drafts done together so I can refine the first one with the knowledge of what's gonna happen in the second. Cause n Effect, All That.

ANYWAYS, you can be incoherent-- Just so you know-- It's my job to make sense of what's in my inbox, u don't have to work on that. BUT YES I LOVE WRITIN EM, I am slowly more and more just writing bits and pieces of my own friendships and isms into them. So, they're a delight of memories, to write about. AND VERY MUCH SO WE WERE GIRLS TOGETHER. I think that's literally a line, in delivery fees, something like 'you become girls, together' cause it's just ! regress! in a good way hehe.

I love writing Tony with the idea of a season 3 Bear-- Because it's this weird thing where she is simultaneously new and old-- And everything to her is also new and old. It's this weird fucking neo-nostalgia that's really fun to chew on. AND YES HE'S SO CREASED.

I try to put myself in the perspective of the perspective I'm writing for, with whatever, and when I was writing Carmen's chapter I was like this stupid motherfucker Richie got to do all this shit and hae all these stupid nicknames why the FUCK DO YOU WANT TO SAY HI TO HIM?? RICHIE!!!!?!?!??!?! And then reading it back now, a week or so later, I was like Wow. Kind of a lot, bro. Lets both take a step back.

2. Your fears are valid. Well. Is that what I'm supposed to say here? Hm. Here's what I'll say, I haven't gotten to the bad bad part, yet. So like, it could end up being not that bad, to you guys. To me it's bad. It's really bad. But like, maybe you're fine. ALSO 3RD OR 4TH WORST DAY I SAID-- JUST THE WORST FRIDAY. Because I had to give them Top something, I just needed to get specific.

3. As the littlest sibling, 100%. I can't see myself being friends with any of my older brothers' friends, so the idea of becoming one of their friends and posthumously finding out they were best friends with my brother? WHAT? WHAT? WHAT? DID THEY TELL YOU ABOUT ME? DO YOU THINK I'M LITTLE BABY LITTLE STUPID? And it's also like, just being friends with All of The Beef is like ohhhhh, I remember it took me a long time to warm up and make my way with them, but for you it was probably so easy cause you're just like that, which is why I like you so why do I feel angry about that !!!

AND ONCE AGAIN, THANK YOU THANK YOU, FEEL FREE TO YELL IN MY INBOX WHENEVER. P.s if anyone made it this far, u got me. I'm makin' a taglist. Reply/DM/Ask to be added!

But if you wanna be added,,,, you gotta send an essay in with it baby, or I simply won't it's the RULES!

p.s i really do love u so dearly for sending in your thoughts thank u thank u angel <3

[hypnotickale]

Here I was hoping my return post would be one of positivity and grandeur but instead I'm sitting here at 3am crying. If you missed incoherent rambles I got you.

A few days from now will be my birthday. I know it's not unique to feel especially down as another year passes by but the last few months almost daily I've been thinking about killing myself. The closer it comes, the more I don't know what to do. I can't spend another year like this. I can't keep on rotting away in this room with nobody to hold. It's too much. Too many thoughts. Too many nightmares. Not enough rest. I just can't.

What do I even say that hasn't been said? What is there to do? I am looking for the words to write but nothing will come out. Have I ever posted about picking out funeral songs? Are the songs you choose for the living or the dead? Should the dying get to pick? How much say should one have over how they are mourned? I've thought about it, personally I can't decide. There has always been a part of me that thinks it would be funny to meme the funeral. Try to make people laugh one more time before I'm gone. Maybe that's the part of me who wants them to take my death less seriously.

The first time I ever thought of killing myself, the only thing that stopped me was the pain I would cause family and friends. Not wanting to hurt the ones I love more than I already have. By being myself. Even now, if I do ever go through with it I made a chat bot that would hopefully keep people in the dark. Let them believe that I'm alive and well. If I could just erase myself that would be so much easier. Someway to know everyone will be 110% okay without me. No hurt feelings. No loose ends. Just a nooses end 🥁

Just so y'all don't worry. Something something BMO always gets back up. Something something brighter tomorrow. I'll probably wake up feeling better. Drinking water. Uhhhh idk what else.

Anyways. Sorry if you read all that. Not sure how much of it even makes sense. My head is spinning pretty bad. I'm gonna catch some zzz's and hope I don't wake up tomorrow morning. Have a good morning, good evening, and good afternoon

-🥬

[strifetxt]

i've been in ff7 lockdown mode for the past 3 days straight. currently on chapter 9 out of uhhhh idk how many actually. so far my impressions of it are largely positive! i feel like they cleaned up a lot of the gameplay from remake, the combat feels smoother and the optional content/exploration feel fairly natural and less of a chore. i have found it really interesting the way they've filled in a lot of the backdrop of the world, like all the history and worldbuilding that was there in tiny doses in the og get a lot more expansion. the character interactions have been GREAT, absolutely my favorite part of the game thus far. also queen's blood is actually so much fun, i love that cloud gets a yugioh arc it's so entertaining. and all in all, something i enjoyed about remake that's definitely been carried over to rebirth is that they're not at all afraid to make things a bit campy, a bit goofy! the og had a bunch of silly gags and cartoony dialogue, and i'm glad they didn't sand those down for the sake of realism because the humor is so very charming!

i've seen like one or two people who watched the cutscenes say that they didn't like it and i'm kinda wondering if i'll feel that way when i finish? or maybe this is a game that benefits from playing it and spending lots of time between the big story beats because so far, despite the fact that there have definitely been changes, there hasn't been anything i find especially objectionable. we'll see how that holds up i guess!

[daftdrac]

One day I'll organize this post better UHHHH it's probably time I make an intro post so ,,

First of all, DNI's (they're all pretty basic)

•homophobes, transphobes, proshippers, zoophiles, etc.

•Anyone who doesn't like polyamorous people, especially if you're a part of lgbtq+ yourself.

•Neo (PRONOUNS. NOT NAZIS WHAT THE FUCK. NAZI HATERS ARE WELCOME) haters.

My tags?

• daft rambles: just a ramble post, really. Me spitting my thoughts or problems into the void because. I can.

• daft reblogs: self explanatory :3

• daft asks: answering asks

• daft literature: my writings and lore drops and stuff :3

About

This blog is probably just gonna be pretty random most of the time, but I will be posting art! My asks should be open! Ask literally anything I'll probably answer. I am eternally bored. Maybe request art?? Idk? I don't mind what you call me, but my chosen name(s) are: Luke/Lukas + Dominic

More Abt me↓↓↓

I use pretty much any pronouns other than she/her, which includes any neos/xenos you could think of, but I mainly use They/He/It/Ze! (I like it when people mix it up so maybe don't just use he or they all the time?) I am Transmasc, Genderfluid, Demirose, and Polyamorous. I don't really have a label for my sexuality because it honestly confuses me but if you really want to know, I'd say it's closest to just being Gay.

/Fandoms/Things I like!!! ↓/

• Hermitcraft and everything else in that bigass fandom

•SCENARIO SMPPP

•The Quarry !!

•The Stanley Parable

•This one hurts. to admit. But. MCSM

•This one is even more painful to admit. Even though it's basic. COD. More specifically Modern Warfare (OG/Reboot, idc)

/stuff I'm kinda interested in↓/

•Lifesteal SMP

•FNAF

•WOF

•MLP, especially the Equestria Girls movies

•BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN.

• Invader Zim!!!

( I am autistic, in case you were wondering. Also ADHD. I'm willing to answer any questions anyone has, either related to any of my interests or anything else in this post! )

[grungeeuvu]

All of the questions for the ask game :)

Oh crikey, okay uhhh-

1. Chipotle order?

I've never been to Chipotle (idek if they're in the UK, I've never seen one before)

2. Thoughts on veganism?

I am impressed by those who have a vegan diet, I am not impressed with those who try to change my diet to fit with their views, and I am not strong enough to stick to that kind of diet :')

3. A specific colour that gives you an ick?

I don't really know? A sickly orange maybe? I've never really thought about it hmm

4. Mythical creature that you think/believe to be real?

D R A G O N S.

5. Favourite form of potatoes?

Hmmm. Maybe crisps. Salt and vinegar crisps 👍

More under the cut!! :))

6. Do you use a watch?

At the moment, I do not

7. What animal do you look forward to seeing when you go to an aquarium?

Stingrays and sharks!!

8. Do you change into specific clothes for the house when you get home?

Nah, not unless I've been caught in the rain

9. Do you have a skincare routine?

Nope :) I just use a face wash when I have a shower and that's it

10. When on a plane, do you ask for apple juice or orange juice?

Usually I get water, but I'll probably pick apple juice bc I don't know if the orange juice has bits in

11. Anything from your childhood that you've held onto?

Technically I'm still a child but I've got loads and loads of old toys and a blanket given to me at birth which was dubbed "Night Night" and he stays in my bed 💪

12. Brand of haircare/bodycare/skincare you trust 100%?

L'Occitane 👍👍👍 it's expensive but very good. For cheaper stuff, Tresemme

13. First thing you're doing in the purge?

Hiding. I ain't that stupid.

14. Do you think you're dehydrated?

Judging by the fact I've only had half a pint of water all day, probably 😎

15. Rank the methods of death: freezing, burning, drowning.

From worst to best, Drowning, Freezing, Burning.

16. Thoughts on mint chocolate chip?

Any kind of mint makes me feel really sick so I'm not a fan 😭😭 even the smell makes me ill

17. An anxious compulsion you do every day?

Pick at my split ends or the cracked skin on my lips.

18. Your boba/tea order?

Never had boba and not a fan of tea!

19. The veggie you dislike the most?

Mushrooms. I hate them.

20. Favourite Disney princess movie?

MULAN. HANDS DOWN. MULAN. I have memories of me in nursery singing 'Reflection' to a gathered group of younger toddlers. Very nice memory :))

21. A number that weirds you out?

I do not trust 46. It's evil.

22. Do you have an emotional support water bottle?

Um....... No?

23. Do you wear jewelry?

Yes, quite a lot! I mostly wear multiple rings and necklaces, and the occasional bracelet. No earrings tho, bc my ears aren't pierced yet lol

24. Do you find yourself using American or British English?

Definitely British, it's just superior. We don't say 'erb' for example.... 👀

25. Would you say you have good taste in music?

Absolutely! :) I've always got a song to recommend to people

26. How's your spice tolerance?

Not very good but, according to my dad, I have a heightened sense of taste so I'm not too surprised. Idm things a bit spicy but I'm not a big fan 😔

27. What's your favourite or go-to outfit?

Rose Docmartins, black tights, black skirt, the top I got from a Bon Jovi concert and my purple-patch jacket is my favourite but it's not my most fashionable choice, I'll be honest lol

28. Last meal on earth?

Toad in the hole with Heinz baked beans and some ketchup. Not healthy but my favourite. (And maybe cheesecake for pudding!!)

29. Preferred pasta noodle?

Uhhhh idk my types of pasta beyond the dishes ngl-

And 30 is ask me anything so I guess you get a free question? Lmao this took forever 😭

[mrhypnob]

Hi, it's the anon from before! Sorry, this is a long ask 😵‍💫

I heard Lick, and first off, I'd just like to reiterate that you sound so, SO very hot. Moreso in Lick. Second, oh my god. I didn't expect the file to go straight into it, so I hit play and immediately started squirming 😭

I don't think I've ever moved around so much and had such a strong full-body reaction to any file until now. I was panting and squirming and grabbing at my sheets and even whimpered a few times 😭

Then at some point the squirming stopped, I'd relax and stay still for a bit, then my legs would start trembling until I came. Rinse and repeat a few times, I don't even know how many times I came but I'm SO wet.. This file made an absolute mess out of me. </3

And I swear the file wasn't that long but this felt like forever 😭😭 In a good way! But I was wondering if I'd just be trapped, cumming forever to this file 😭 (Which would be nice, tbh.)

Oh, and the addition of sensitive nipples aAA IT MADE ME SQUIRM EVEN MORE, SOMETIMES EVEN ON PURPOSE JUST BECAUSE IT FELT SO GOOD 😭

Anyway yeah, just wanna say I really loved your files and I had a great time 🥺 And to answer your question, uhhhh 7-8/10?

Also I've wanted to dm you before but I'm kinda shy and awkward and already have a hypnodom (im kinda new here and idk if i should be chatting w multiple doms? at the same time..?) and uhh. it's really just that I'm shy and don't wanna lock you in an awk convo 👉👈 But tysm for the offer to dm! Maybe one day I'll have the courage ><

Until then, just know that I really really enjoy your files! <3

Before sending me a dm, definitely talk with your dom. I don't want to do anything that might harm your dynamic.

Don't worry about locking me into a conversation. I'm happy to chat. Also, even if we do talk, we don't have to actually do any hypnosis together.

[the-angel-ashe]

For the Valentines ask!!

(1). Your favourite non-canon ship?

(5). What is your most fluffy + happy ship?

(24). What is one scene you want to see happen for all your ships?

ohh I had to think about these, they're hard ones XD 1. I'm a sucker and I usually just go with canon ships, so I don't have many ^^;; I'm sure there's a bigger one I'll remember someday, buT specifically I remember in ---idk if you've ever seen the anime "koi to Yobu ni wa Kimochi Warui" (because I forget the English title, I watched it in like a day)--- there's the main love interest who's this blonde guy who's a salaryman and he gets saved by this high school girl and falls in love with her and so on, but her classmate is also in love with her, and I know the anime is set up for you to like the salaryman with her, but I have to pick the classmate personally. Not even because of the age difference, I just like him so much more, he's so nice, like what. why is she making that choice. what, why ??

Oh and I also love gladion/moon. It's not canon because it's a pokémon game and like. they're 10 in-game. but the dynamic? lovely. I love it. Cute girl who's bubbly and will barge into your room and the edgelord™ who says "get out" but doesn't actually mean it because he has a soft spot for her even though they're supposed to be enemies? when they team up later and get to work together?? when right before the elite 4 he stops her and says that he appreciates it and can only show his emotions through pokémon battling or whatever? please 5. uhhhh maybe hiccstrid?? That's one from my childhood though, so I don't really seek out content for it, keeping it sacred and what not (that said I do enjoy fanart and stuff of them when I see it ^^) but they're probably the ones that are the most chill and actually canonically in a happy/healthy relationship haha 24. I like a lot of the popular tropes -v- anything cute, especially if it has meaning to that specific pairing. That said, something more specific: I love anything and everything where they're speaking to each other and they mean something else. Like I think it's hard to do well and it's not very common, but I love the "we're talking about this thing in front of us, or the movie we're watching, or some characters in a book or something, but really we're being honest and open and vulnerable to each other from behind this very thin and poorly-concealed veil because we're both too shy to be straightforward but we still long with our entire beings to show ourselves honestly to the other anyway" like that gets me every time, everyone should do it anyway thanks for the ask!! I love thinking about these and trying to come up with good answers ^w^;;

[themainannoyance]

Okay, fuck it, new years resolution is I'm becoming a slut, I'm becoming a whore. Like seriously and for real, I just saw an image of an insanely beautiful woman and she was tan and beautiful and round I also saw an insanely beautiful man and he was tan and beautiful and not quite round, but I can work with it. No excuses, I think that if I'm not going to get fit for myself, I'm going to get fit for the chance to be the most fuckable twink in any given Walmart. or y'know what, even the most fuckable twink at the uhhhh at the um the fuckin uhhh.... idk the most fuckable twink on a hiking trail, I guess. I have to get sexy, I have to be a slut, this is seriously the only way. Here are the things I have to do, concretely, for real by the end of 2024 if I do not have these things in my possession I will LOSE IT. I will lose it.

Either lose weight or gain muscle. Ideally both

Bigger shoulders

boobs in my mouth

at least 4 slutty outfits that I feel good in, like actively I go "ooooh this makes me feel like me"

at least 3 girl outfits that I feel good in, like actively I go "ah, this is interesting, oo ahh hmmm"

at least 10 boy outfits that I feel good in, like actively I go "yesss >: ) YESS!!!!"

More pronounced jawline (?)

Understanding of how makeup works. Not that I want to do it, but I want an understanding of it

A diagnosis of anything at all regarding my mental health

A regular routine that makes me feel good

More friends, I need to learn how to make friends and I need more transgender gay faggot homo friends in particular

Awesome haircut

Job I feel good about, OR life outside of job I feel good about

Like seriously I think that I just need to shift my focus to something a little bit delusional. I need to work out and think to myself "I'm one day closer to a twink body," and while I think that there is a part of me that's like "hmm, maybe working out to be what you deem as more attractive might get something twisted in your brain," I also believe that my two goals of losing stomach fat and increasing muscle is probably just like... normal idk. Maybe I would have more reservations if I wanted to actually have a twink body, but it's more like I desperately want a more muscular build and just need to be healthier overall. I just think that trying to downplay my feelings towards my own body and the way I want it to look is probably a product of the strange sort of racism that comes from being the only SE Asian person in your school, so you just sort of say "okay I'm ugly and unattractive and there is nothing I can do about it. This is what I am resigning myself to" and ALSO being transgender so you say "aw I guess I'll wait until I go on T to really feel like myself, but even then I'm never going to pass so I might as well ignore my feelings towards my body" but then one day you're 22, you realize that no matter how much you want to suppress it, feeling bad when you see yourself is not a good or productive feeling, and moreover, you kind of just want to be a guy who's hot. And the thing about being hot is that it's mainly just confidence 90% of the time, and y'know I guess the way you develop that confidence is really up to you. I dunno, I think it's just about time that I actually start paying attention to what makes me feel good about myself. I'm sick of being in a position where my day can get ruined by looking in a mirror, especially when this wouldn't happen if I just... worked out. Whenever I've worked out, regardless of anything else, I would just feel good about myself because I was aware of the effort going into taking care of myself, and I just gotta go crazier with that. I just need to figure out what working out actually looks like for me. I think I'm going to work with a system in the early days where I promise myself that I'm either going to workout via walking, or actually working out. My problem with working out is that it's just embarrassing to be like "sorry dad, I need to take a break from this family vacation to go do pushups" but it's less embarrassing to like... walk or something idk. I also think I need to actually be 80 years old and start going on walks regularly with the explicit intention to just think. I love love loved the regular 1 hour commute I had to take between my apartment and my gf's apartment (and school) because I had time to just talk to absolutely nobody and think. And perhaps that's what I've been missing is just time to focus on nothing else except for the basics of not dying. Also I, with no doubt in my mind, have to go get diagnosed for something. Next time I see my GP I'll ask for where to go because as much as I am convinced that I'm lying to myself and everyone perpetually, I'm kind of in a place where I'd rather a psychologist just say "hey you've been faking all of these symptoms, you are just a neurotypical guy who is quirky" then having to keep second guessing everything. If I'm a neurotypical guy who's just quirky, I can at least take my feelings at face value and try to work with the constant mood swings instead of just turning evil about it. That being said, I really hope that I'm not neurotypical because if this is the neurotypical experience then I have no idea how anything gets done at all. Something about a joke where it's like... Rome wasn't built in a day, it was built in - wait I'm gonna tweet that old chestnut I think. But yeah so the stuff I have to just commit to hardcore is:

Do a routine OR walk a crazy amount

Drink more water

Treat my body better

Treat my brain better

Get diagnosed

And that's all very doable

[lovethisletters]

Poly MC! hc for the: Demon Brothers!

This is my first time writing anything about poly relationships! So I'm a bit nervous! I took the time to do a bit of research about the subject...however I still have a lot to learn; if you find anything that might be offensive please let me know! Just know I didn't do it with any ill intentions and I'll make sure to correct my mistakes!

Also I didn't knew if you refered to a poly MC who is in a relationship with all of the brothers or how each individual brother would react to MC coming out as poly to them and later starting a poly relationship and how they behave in said relationship...so I did the latter bc I found it to be a bit more easy to write and the first option would have been way too long and I was worried it might come off as boring because of it :c (but maybe I'll try to edit it and then upload it...some day...idk)

so...here it is!

Keys: MC = your main character name

Summary: MC comes out as poly to the Demon Brothers and how they behave in a poly relationship!

Additional notes: MC is gender neutral!

TW: small mentions or implications of jealous/possessive behavior (they're very minimal, but still...just in case)

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Lucifer

Lucifer is probably the one you're the most nervous to talk to.

But when you finally find the courage to do so it goes...to put it mildly, a bit... weird.

He stares blankly at you like you just said to him that water is a liquid or something, he's not very...responsive.

His reaction might come off as rude, considering you spend all this time trying to figure out the "best" way to come out and talk about the possibility of starting a poly relationship.

But the reason why he's not talking much is because he's trying to avoid saying anything he might regret later, you see... he's trying to process his own feelings towards the matter.

Lucifer is someone who has lived for a long, looooooong time, so it's more likely than not that he's already experienced being in a poly relationship.

thing is...such relationship was more experimentation rather than something serious.

And now he has you...someone for who he'll be willing to die for...

He won't say it but deep down he feels like his pride has been bruised.

He just doesn't want to "share" you, you're his and his alone!

But when he looks up at you, and see just how nervous you are, waiting patiently for any kind of reaction from him.

He realizes he's thinking of you as an object and not a person and mentally kicks himself in the face for it.

Lucifer reaches for your hand and offers you a small smile.

After a long conversation where you two express your own desires and worries, you two agree and decide to give it a try.

At first... I'm not gonna lie...it would be quite... difficult...

The man is possessive and struggles to see you giving any kind of affection to any of his brothers.

However I think he genuinely wants this to work, he wants to see you happy and knows that just because you also love his brothers doesn't mean you love him any less.

So he'll sit down and talk to you whenever he feels jealous, he knows communication is key and it honestly makes him feel a bit better.

With time Lucifer comes to accept it; He loves you and he loves his brothers and it makes him happy that they all can share such bond with you.

Mammon

I think he's the one who'll have a harder time adapting to a poly relationship.

I'll even go as far to say Lucifer's jealousy pales in comparison to Mammon's and I think this is due to his low self-esteem.

He won't accept it but he's jealous af when he sees you "getting cozy" with any of his brothers.

He'll even interrupt the moment by placing himself in the middle of whoever you were getting close to or think about some lame excuse to take you away.

This makes things more difficult and tense for everyone, so if Mammon continues his shenanigans expect a LOT more arguing from the brothers...(yes...more than normal...)

You'll have to sit him down and talk to him about his insecurities.

The first times he won't be very open with you, I think he might even get a bit angry if you even imply he's jealous and act all offended and walk out of the room.

Surprisingly the one who makes him understand how toxic he's being and how much this affects you is Asmo!

He'll have a serious talk with him, and just the fact of seeing his often bubbly and cheerful young bro being all serious is enough for Mammon to realize that what he's been doing and how he's been acting hurts you and his brothers.

He'll apologize...the Mammon way...

But ultimately he now makes an effort to respect whenever you're close to one of his brothers.

Just like Lucifer. Mammon will come to accept you love him and his brothers all the same.

He'll sometimes even suggest places you all can go together for a date.

Please, be patient with the avatar of greed with time he will come to accept that love exist in more than one way or form.

Leviathan

Surprisingly, unlike his older brothers, your favorite shut-in-otaku has an easier time adapting to a poly relationship.

Easier, however does not mean problems are inexistent...

He has a low self-esteem and sometimes might get the feeling that you're ""picking favorites""

However he won't tell you anything about it, and he'll just try to pretend like nothing is wrong.

Fortunately for you, Levi is quite easy to read so you immediately notice whenever he's feeling sad.

But all you have to do is have a little gaming session with him, and as the two of you "game" the night away he'll eventually open up to you about whatever is bothering him.

All it takes is a little reassurance and saying "I love you" to the avatar of envy from time to time and he'll be all good with you showing affection to the rest of his brothers.

Satan

Uhhhh...this is a tricky one...

You see...Satan is probably the second brother you came out to and perhaps you didn't even realized that you did because it just happened so natural.

The two of you were talking and it just slipped out of your mouth and he was like "hahaha, right?" And continued the conversation as normal.

He genuinely doesn't care, (don't get me wrong I don't mean that in a bad way) but all he knows is that he loves you and he wants you to be happy, and if expanding the love that the two of you have to his brothers makes you happy, then so be it!

However... remember I said this was tricky?

Satan has no issue with you being affectionate with his brothers...all of them except for Lucifer...

When he sees you getting close to Lucifer he won't say anything, he won't make a scene or a passive-agressive remark, he'll just excuse himself and exit the room. (Neither he will confront you about it later when the two of you are alone)He won't say anything at all; he'll just stay silent and pretend like nothing is wrong.

However you'll be able to notice Satan's true feelings whenever Lucifer has a small present or gesture with you.

Oh? Lucifer gifted you a $300,000 coat? Well, Satan will give you another coat but this one is $600,000.

Lucifer treated you to dinner at ristorante six? Well, darling... guess what? Satan will reserve the entire building just for you!

At some point he will notice how bad this makes you feel, since he's turning a relationship into a competition and that's no good...

He'll eventually take a step back and realize how childish he's being, how his behavior hurts your feelings and might have even made you feel guilty or responsible for his beef with his older brother.

Before you even decide to talk to him about it, he already knows what you're trying to say, so he'll be the one to sit you down and apologize for his wrongdoings.

You're someone who he values dearly and all that he wants is for you to be happy, so he'll be willing to make the effort to get along or at least be a little more tolerant of Lucifer.

There might be times where they still fight and stop talking to each other for long periods of time, but the two of them will take the time to let you know that this has nothing to do with you and that there's no reason for you tu feel guilty.

Because if there's something in wich both, the avatar of pride and wrath agree in... Is in how much they love you.

Asmodeus

Asmodeus (definitely) was the first one to know about you being polyamorous.

He probably knew before you even said anything, let's be honest here...

He's probably the one who you're more comfortable talking about it.

The brothers accept you, yes...but Asmo understands you!

He knows that the world can be quite cruel to people who love differently to what our society stablish as "normal".

Whenever he expressed his liking for more than one person he was shamed or labeled as someone promiscuous who'll never be deserving of "true" love.

It happened in the celestial realm, in the human realm, and even sometimes here in the devildom.

Angels where expected to only focus in the lord and nothing else, some humans are close minded and shame whoever is different from them, and demon's often confuse love with obsession and get easily tangled up in possessive behavior, often viewing their partners as objects rather than individuals with their own goals and desires. (his brothers are the perfect example of that)

So he just knows how difficult it might have been for you to find acceptance.

So he gives it to you; acceptance, reassurance, however many times you need to.

He'll be the one to encourage you to talk with his brothers, he'll be there to support you if you ever feel nervous, and he'll be the one to call his brothers out on their bs whenever they start to show any signs of toxic behavior.

He knows in all relationships communication and trust in your partners is key to a successful relationship, so he reminds this to everyone and even goes as far as to make plans where everyone feels included.

Overall the avatar of lust is the voice of reason in this relationship, because he knows better than anyone else that love is something that can't and should never be limited by what others believe or expect "true love" should look like.

Beelzebub

You weren't sure how Beel would react once you told him.

But still you were pleasantly surprised by Beel's reaction!

He was so accepting from the beginning and even thanked you for trusting him enough to share this with him.

He's happy that you want him to form part of this relationship.

He knows his brothers love you as much as he does and that you love them back, so he sees this as the perfect option for everyone.

He even thinks this relationship has brought everyone closer together.

Over all the avatar of gluttony is more than happy to be with you and share your affection with people he holds equally as dearly.

Belphegor

Belphie, much like Lucifer struggles to understand why would you want such a thing?

Is his love not enough for you?

It takes little more time for him to understand you, and learn that love doesn't just limits to one person.

He can be a bit insensitive some times, so he might accidentally say something hurtful to you about it.

And that's when Asmo has to intervene...

He'll have a talk with his younger brother and make him realize that there's more than one form of love and how his words might have hurt you.

He'll apologize...(much like Mammon) in his own way...

After thinking about it for a while, he realizes he's happy whenever you show affection to Beel, and wonders if it would be the same with the rest of his brothers.

Slowly but surely, Belphie it's more open to this new relationship.

There'll be times where he might try to monopolize your love, but he'll stop once you, Beel or Asmo call him out on it.

His favorite thing of this new relationship is whenever you spend time with him and Beel.

Please be patient with the avatar of sloth.

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If you find any grammatical errors let me know! I'm trying to improve my english and that would help me so so much!

I will forever thank you if you go check out my other profile: @aileysmirnov  where I post things about my OC: edits, one-shots, imagines, art, etc. If you like Greek mythology and the bat family maybe you would get to be as fond of her as much as I am!

Anyway, thank you for reading!

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hello hello (ha see what i did there) i would like R, O, M, A for "latest nostalgia, or happily ever after", T, E for "i hope i never lose the bruises that you left behind", S, aaaand I for the fanfic ask game! love youuu -megs 💙

hahahaha hello hello how clever of you you are the most intelligent person in this dorm room. omg i see what you did with the letters you really ARE the most intelligent person in this dorm room. maybe i'll put a read more on this it's kind of long

fanfic ask games

R: Are there any writers (fanfic or otherwise) you consider an influence? actually it's interesting i feel my answer for this has maybe changed a bit? obviously helen (miss @calumcest) was the Biggest Influence when i started writing and also was the reason i started writing and while i am sure in a subtle way she's had a lasting impact on how i write fic i think that i have diverged significantly from my days of being singularly helen-influenced.

i think @reveriesofawriter is an influence mostly in the sense that i think everything she writes is beautiful and fantastic and i strive to be that good with words. also meghna is really good at keeping a story lighthearted whereas i often get lost in the angsty realism weeds so to speak, and i would like more of her skill to focus in on the more entertaining parts of life. because you know. as some guy named Lee Ross once said: "The world can be a horrible, cruel place, and at the same time it can be wonderful and abundant. These are both truths. There is not a halfway point; there is only choosing which truth to put in your personal foreground.” i just spent so many minutes looking for that quote only to make the point that meghna is good at putting a lighter perspective in the foreground, though also packing a punch with a few words. if i want to pack a punch i usually spent many paragraphs doing it. sometimes i find myself describing a feeling or thought in great detail and then have to be like, am i using too many words to say something that can be said, perhaps more powerfully, in fewer words than this. and then i have to delete it and make it shorter. and meghna is good at putting a lot of meaning into a few words. the irony of me writing this long ass paragraph just to fuckin say that. can't help but be as bella as possible at all times. anyway.

O: How do you begin a story–with the plot, or the characters? uhhhh the plot i'm pretty sure. i'm pretty flexible about pairings and characters generally speaking so unless there's something character-specific that would force me to use one, like ashton with his younger siblings, i typically just go based on what i'm feelin.

M: Got any premises on the back burner that you’d care to share? well i mentioned one to team here but let me see if i have any others. hmm i had an idea for a 5+1 that's "five times alex makes tea for jack and one time the reverse" idk if or when i'll write it but it sounds cute. most of the other ones i can think of are ones i don't wanna give away.

A: How did you come up with the title to latest nostalgia, or happily ever after? well i will tell you! i kind of trapped myself with the spideyverse series by giving the first fic a title from heroes by all time low (basically) because i posted it kind of in a speedy rush and i didnt want to get stuck on it and i'm pretty sure i half intended to change it (in fact if you look at the notes of the lashton spideyverse fic it says:)

so then for the malum parallel installment i was like i should take another lyric from heroes. but heroes is kind of a fuck you song so it's actually not tonally appropriate at all for spideyverse so i had limited options. i kind of like the title of that one though because it has that very ambiguous "this is just artistic enough to sound meaningful but if you look too closely the whole thing falls apart" vibe and i'm always striving for that.

T: Any fandom tropes you can’t stand? i will once again refuse to attempt to re-answer this since i already failed to do so here

E: If you wrote a sequel to i hope i never lose the bruises that you left behind, what would it be about? INTERESTING YOU SHOULD ASK, because i actually have a prompt from @werewolfashton sitting in my inbox waiting for me to eventually write a follow-up fic to this one. so hopefully one day i actually WILL write a sequel of sorts, although it'll probably be more like a one-shot check-in just to see how the characters are getting along. it would probably involve luke meeting ashton's housemates. i don't know what it would be "about" though it wouldn't be "about" anything it would just be some bants and some laughs and some new friendships i guess. also this is completely unrelated but finding the links for the two fics you asked me about made me realize my fic notes on ao3 used to be soooo short. a time before the club. wild.

S: Any fandom tropes you can’t resist? i think i answered this one here. ooh wait i like texting in fics though that's one i didn't mention like when they have a text conversation or a group chat i really can't resist that shit i love funny texting i feel like it's the earmark of a strong relationship

I: Do you have a guilty pleasure in fic (reading or writing)? i said one already but let me see if i can come up with another. okay well in terms of writings i definitely have some guilty pleasures most of which involve giving characters my taste in music, snacks/foods/drinks (tea), tv shows, etc. also i like to overdescribe whenever a character plays guitar basically just to establish the fact that i know enough about guitar to talk about it with a moderate level of expertise, even though i know very well that literally no one gives a shit. and DEFINITELY talking about psych in fic. that jalex fic i wrote for peyton where jack is studying AP psych was the most self-indulgent bullshit ever. basically i try to make characters as much like me as possible <3