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homophyte · 10 months ago

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sorry i cant stop thinking about it. i genuinely hate that the response lately to ppls worries about hrt--not talking about 'eveyone needs extensive therapy first' or 'you need to be [some unreasoble entry barrier %] certain cause itll change u forever' or othersuch scaremongering but people literally going 'im worried im gonna lose my job/housing/close relationships that are important to me'--is like. 'well too bad. couldnt be me. i would simply not worry about those things. skill issue. why would anything stop u from going on hrt. if literally anything might make you slightly hesitate or god forbid dissuade you this is a sign youre actually The Enemy.' what is fucking with that

#myposts #re: transgender cowardice #unhappy with how ive phrased this but not able to come up with anything better. read my poorly disguised run on sentence boy #anyway. idk. its extremelty alienating being prehrt rn #or it is for me personally idk about anyone else #want a thing so bad. working on it. finding friction w transphobia in my family n a hostile medical system #n worries about my career in a field that is unkind to queer people and and and #none of that is going to stop me. dont get me wrong im at a point where i know im gonna do it bc i cant really #uh live without it.anymore. i know i need it #but its also like. i find setbacks and moments of frustration in all of these things #and instead of finding encouragement from other trans people who have passed through the gauntlet and proved it possible #i find like. shame and hostility that im not doing it effortlessly and cant write it off like it doesnt affect me #trans people seem to pop into the world fully formed 4 years on hormones #the trans people that arent there yet that are embarrassing in their experimentation or their GNC or not passing or not hvaing #a developed sense of style or just. arent white and sufficiently behaving like white members of their gender. i see it trust #are all targets of ridicule and speculation about the veracity of their transness or their commitment to the cause of trans liberation #sigh

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