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sorry i do so much nickposting i am just not sure where else to put my thoughts and feelings. anyways yeah last post was a little about him like mostly i just wish he stated his intentions more clearly like does he actually want to hang out with me or does he just feel bad for me and did those kisses mean anything would he do it again? could we please do it again?
#txt#op#im yearning its been like 3 weeks and it gets WORSE#i just. i don't know if i can just straight up ask him what his interest in me is. or if i would trust his(or anyone's) answer#my self worth has been not great for the last 2 years#it does not feel good to be flirted with and kissed and then flaked on twice EVEN THOUGH he had valid reasons for both times#just my gay little autism brain i am so used to people taking the easy way out in unfriending me (like ghosting etc)#my rational mature brain KNOWS he's busy and tired and stressed and sick lately but my traumatized little sensitive brain thinks maybe the#problem is me#ughhhhhh sorry ok i'm done now
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#watching the stream of some random choir just cos i miss *#but like kakendnjjsnfjdjfndjjf i just i miss her i loveeeee qatching her play馃槶馃槶馃槶馃槶#dec 7 2024#dec 9 2024#i miss her soooooo bad like so bad rn#ok uhhhhh if i really m*ve kn 2026 um it's just hitting me how soon that freaking is like that's only three semesters of harp left like not#even including anything else idk it's just hitting me really hard and emo tonight only three left ?????????????????? three years is actually#so short now that i'm looking at it from the middle it's so short and i'm kinda panicking it's so soon i can't#summer me is a different creature than winter me i fear oh my god like i can't fathom#and i Know there's texting and facetime etc and i will keep in touch with everyone here as i've done w hometown friends but my god it's so#SOON#and i miss her. so there's that#dec 10 2024#ughhhhhh i miss her so much#oh god girl who is ** pages deep into google..........#terrible news i found her m*l's blog...................... i'm screaming it's so cute i'm dying#this is very very very very very very very very very very very very bad#parasocial relationship........#dec 11 2024#oh god this is truly. the worst i've ever been#......#dec 12 2024#planning to go to nutcracker anyways keeping my expectations low and not reaching out馃挴馃挴#like sorry i can't stop thinking abt her two cats i'm going to kill myself#dec 13 2024#girl who is concerningly delusional and way too deep in it...........#i have to talk to her again to remind myself she's a normal human the parasocial relationship has got to STOP oh my god#OKAYOK Maybe it's bc her email is the most in character voice vs shes usually professional but that one email is soooooo 馃馃馃馃馃 and i still c#cannot get over her signing off first name#oh my god and the way she accidentally introduced herself as anastasia during rehearsal and the smile she gave me i'm gonna kms
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Zuko: So how did you come up with my name?
Ozai and ursa: ........................
Ursa: long story....
13 years earlier~
Ozai, half dead: Ursa... there are millions of names in front of you, just pick one...
Ursa: DON'T YELL AT ME!
Ozai: I DIDN'T YELL!
Ursa: WHAT ARE YOU DOING RIGHT NOW?!
Ozai: You know what, I'm leaving!
Ursa: FINE!
Ozai: FINE!
Ozai and ursa: FINE!
12 minutes later~
Ursa, sniffing: I'm not being emotional. He's being emotional
Iroh walking in: Oh. Sorry, I didn't know you were in here.... Ursa, what's wrong?
Ursa looked away and stayed quiet
Iroh: You and my brother had a fight? Why?
Ursa: He said I was being emotional.... but I'm 6 months pregnant.
Iroh: I'll talk to him.
Ursa: Thank you
15 minutes later, iroh found ozai training
Ozai: Ha! That's what she told you?!
Iroh, already getting tired: yes...
Ozai: Well, I bet she didn't tell you she cursed me out!
(OK, I'm going to save me the pain of typing all of the he said and she said, and you the time of reading them, just know this went on for like ten minutes with iroh walking back and forth)
Iroh (with ozai): You know what I'm done!
Iroh grabbed ozai wrist and dragged him through the palace
Ozai: Where are you taking me!
Iroh: To your wife!
Ozai: Nooooo, I don't want to see her!
Iroh, having to drag ozai like they were kids again, finally made it and opened the door thrown ozai in, yelled talk, and closed the door
Ozai, on the floor where iroh had thrown him: Ow.
Ursa, getting up: Are you ok?!
Ozai, sitting up: Yeah, I'm fine...
Ursa, standing by him: Ok
They stayed silence
Ozai, getting up and facing Ursa: I'm sorry for being a jerk
Ursa: I'm also sorry for being a jerk
More awkward silence
Ozai: You look beautiful today
Ursa: Thanks, I thought this dress made me look fatter than I am....
Ozai: You're not fat. You are carrying the next generation of fire nation royal.
Ursa: That's a fancy way of saying I'm pregnant
Ursa laughing
Ozai: i am really sorry, though. I shouldn't have walked out during our fight... I should have stayed and solved it....
Ursa: I shouldn't have prayed that all of your hair would fall out...
Ozai: You did what?!
Ursa: Im sorry, I know hair is off-limits no matter what....
Ozai: Take it back!
Ursa: I thought you didn't believe in that stuff ?
Ozai: I don鈥檛 but this is my hair!
Ursa, laughing: I won't
Ozai: Ursa, this isn't funny! MY HAIR IS MY GLORY!
Ursa: That's it!
Ozai: What?
Ursa: For the baby's name!
Ozai: We are not naming a baby hair. That's just cruel
Ursa: No, glory.
Ozai: Glory?
Ursa: Well, a name that means that...
Ursa walks over to the book with baby names
Ursa: Glory.... well, don't just look help me!
Ozai: Right!
20 minutes later~
Ozai: Zuko.
Ursa, walking over to him: That's perfect!
Ozai: And now we need a girl name
Ursa; Ughhhhhh
Back to the present~
Ozai: We found it in a book of names
Ursa: Effortlessly....
Zuko: I feel like they're not telling the truth
Azula: They're not
#avatar the last airbender#atla#azula#fire family#fire lord ozai#zuko#ursa#soft urzai#urzai#urzai au#cute#sweet#funny#atla fanfic
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CRASHING OUT hopefully you guys will read all this cause I think it's WILD
So the last couple days have been wild ppl have been calling me ugly and calling my outfit was ugly (it was definitely more emo ISH) but like why they judging they aren't wearing it
And anyways this girl let's call her tia she been saying Things to my face and talking loudly about me and shit
So I confronted her yesterday and called her a big back and said no one likes you and shit idk i cant rember she also said nasty shit and i was side eyeing her (she was too) CAUSE IM SICK OF HER DOING THIS!!!
Also she is really popular so all the popular kids hate me now
AND THEN TODAY IN FIRST PERIOD she be side eyeing me like girl you aren't slick and she was looking at me and talking loudly about me and my PARTNER that was when I got pissed and anyways I ignored it and changed topics...AND THEN one of my friends glanced at her AND SHE STARTS YELLING and gets up and calls me a meat rider and I'm like WOAH calm down I know ypu think everything is about you BUT IT ISNT you might think that your the center of the world BUT YOUR NOT and we weren't talking at ypu so don't get all pressed
Anyways she got pissed and grabbed the hall pass to leave and I went "YEAH keep walkin" she was pissed she called me a bunch of slurs and my response was "you done? Now use that hall pass to go Poo poo pee pee cause you look like you need to" 馃拃 I DONT KNOW WHUY I SAID THAY IT WAS MY INNER DEMONS OK!!!
Anyways after that no drama but I get a snap from someone THAY ASKED IF I WAS THE GIRL THAY JUMPED TIA HUHHHH?!!!! And she was like didn't you guys fight you won right
THERE IS A RUMOR THAY I JUMPED A POPULAR GIRL AND THAT I WON AND THE WHOLE SCHOOL THINKS I DID
Anyway I told her no and that I'm done with the drama and to tell tia (sh is friends with tia) Thay I don't want any more drama and like if I said smth offensively my bad sorry but she also said mean things I did not appreciate so yeah and tias friend said that tia wants to stop the drama too
SO WE WILL SEE IF THATS TRUE TMR
Ughhhhhh too much drama
Also 10 other popular girls hate me and my style so they talk shit about me to but she's the first I confronted
TOOOOO MUCH FUCKING DRAMA
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OMFFFFG the dnd roleplay!!!
ok, serious, THAT is what spicy byler fandom needs. not just because its hot, but because its literally so in character, and it's .... like that IS real. and yeah you could say its the most explicit kind of sexualisation of their childhood selves so far because of the dnd associations in the show, but you could also say the show itself is a horrorification (and sexualisation if you read the metaphor a certain way) of their childhood gameplay. so...
and yes its so cringe but the best freaking kind, the kind the show gives you! i was only cringing on their behalf rather than out of my own guilt which i do still get a bit of when i enjoy anything spicy byler lol. and weirdly its even hotter BECAUSE its not just for us. because its for them, so in character, it becomes hotter? yessssss youve done it
and theres no WAY that will, who draws real-person fanart about their party lol, has never fantasised about this. i mean, his very painting is a fantasy put to canvas. and mike with that paladin sword.... oh, you knowwwww that there's gonna be some dirty talk about swords somewhere... * shudder * who knows, maybe them creating these characters was even will's sexual awakening about mike? imagining him in these courageous contexts etc
the use of will's magic in their dirty talk hehehe im imagining them actually writing a whole mini scenario to play out, not even just getting lost in the moment but properly planning it sometimes cos they couldnt believe how hot it was first time it happened 馃檴馃檴 (ok now i need to know who instigated the first time. pre-party meet up too! these boys are wild). and also - they way they bounce off each other at suzie's in the show? theyre TELLING us that these two can roleplay! so why not sexy too when theyre older? yessssssss correct
i cringed with joy at the way you wrote this. perfection. sometimes i bad-cringe at the impersonal-ness of byler smut with pet names anyone in the world could use, cos its so easy for them to stop being mike and will and start being random bodies having sex, but this specificity feels like its so them and it could only be them.
using their dnd names??? ACCENTS????? 馃槶 i'm imaginging their idea of king arthur british medieval ahhhhhhh
+ partially dressed in costume????? the wizard hat falling off immediately when will bounces?? his floopy flowing robes just hiked up over his thighs?????????? that's period drama-level sex right there, even better than totally naked. mike just having a bit of armour over his shoulders, nothing else? ughhhhhh
honestly i have never been in nerd culture like this irl, but i can totally see how fantasy would develop from childhood to adulthood like this... its natural for everyone because imagination and pretend play in childhood is often lost as we grow (unless someone is a creative/artist/imagination-forward adult) and the only place that playfulness remains for many folk is through sexual expression. sex is where adults play. so why the heck not this for byler? its so on track i literally am so excited to see what you do with this, not least because perhaps for these boys, this is one of the only ways they can reclaim their love of this game after all the trauma they went through. beautiful 馃槶馃槶馃槶
This ask was sent back in early June after this post and a bunch of chatter about potentially writing a fic expanding on the idea. I draft and forget so many asks (oops, sorry 馃) and thought I might have had s relevant one stashed away. I hope you're still around, maybe you're someone who's made a blog between then and now! This was all before I even planned an official outline and I thought... would it be crazy if I expanded on the idea? Hilarious. I have so many other wips in the works but I don't think I want to fully leave our little role-playing nerds behind. I'll drop random drabbles about that whole vibe over time when inspiration strikes. Love everything about these two boys.
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