#ughhhhh why i am like this??

[meeep-morp]

Average Project Sekai crystal farming experience (inspired by real events):

Skip through 3 area convos. Tap 4th one. Crash.

Restart app.

Tap first area convo. Crash.

Restart app.

Get through all area convos, but skip one too fast. That one convo is now bugged and won't pay out.

Go to event stories. Skip through 6 episodes without issue. 7th loads for a split sec-- crash.

Restart app.

Back to event stories. This time for a World Link event. Episode one is fine. Episode two-- crash.

Restart app.

Back to world link. Skip episode three. Episode f-- crash.

Restart app, back to World Link.

Episode 5. Ok. Epi-- GOD FUCKING DAMNIT PLEASE SEGA!!!

*Sighhhhh* Restartttttt

Finished World Link, miraculously without crashing. Go back, do the area convos. This is going suspiciously well.

Ok, time to burn nats and get some fcs with a solo sh--... There it is.

Resta--

[comfortableinthesilence]

So I applied for a promotion a few months ago and I've made it through the tests, then the first stage interviews and tomorrow I have the second stage interview and my anxiety is fuckkkeddd! I don't see myself sleeping much tonight...😅😑🙃

[smile-files]

i think the main issue in arguing with zionists is that, well, they believe in zionism! if israel did deserve to exist, then the genocide and injustice in palestine could be argued for (not like it should be, but it certainly could) -- and zionists believe israel deserves to exist.

i, unfortunately, have a large amount of experience interacting (personally) with zionism and zionists. most of those i've talked to feel for the palestinians, and the violence they are facing, but they fail to realize (or they staunchly deny) the very, very active part israel and the IDF have had in that -- and how it's representative of what the nation has always done.

at the same time, they focus more on israeli hostages than palestinian ones -- and i know, of course, that these zionist jews i've interacted with are either israeli or have loved ones in israel, and so have a very personal stake in the safety of israeli hostages (which may very well be friends or family members), but i find it strange how much emphasis they put on hamas' cruelty in taking hostages while the IDF is doing the same thing (in essence; the exact details of who's doing it worse are important to note, but not relevant right now, because folks should realize that their side is being at least as cruel as the enemy's).

recently i was drawn into an argument with an israeli zionist (who, unfortunately, is very close to the action and tragedy by being israeli), and she was incredibly offended by my anti-zionism and my opposition to israel's abject cruelty to palestinian citizens, as it seemed (to her) like i was bypassing the cruelty hamas has enacted on israeli citizens -- which is very telling. i've noticed that we as jews have the tendency, whatever the situation may be, of focusing more on our pain than the pain of others, even if we are the ones hurting them. that person has every reason to be scared and hurt, and i'd be lying if i said her response wasn't at least somewhat sympathetic, but her pain in this horrible, violent conflict does not invalidate the pain on the other side. jews, throughout this recent crisis, have consistently not talked in depth about the constant losses in palestine -- am i suddenly being callous by focusing on those losses, and not our own? (YOUR PAIN AND THEIRS AREN'T MUTUALLY EXCLUSIVE, YOU DOLT! sorry...)

because it all comes down to believing in israel! my mom has always told me about how beautiful it is there, about her time living on a kibbutz... and sure, it might be nice. i can't argue with that. but why is it that our nationalism for israel is so strong, so virulent? i have not seen patriots as loyal for any other country. and when you criticize israel, israelis feel like you're criticizing their entire existence -- and many non-israeli jews do, as well. because zionism has been built so deep into the modern religion! it's made to be a necessary piece! belief in it is the default!

and, from the inside looking in, i can't be surprised that many jews take anti-zionism as being antisemitic -- because, to them, israel and zionism stand as the pinnacle of safety and support for the jewish people. it is impossible to argue with them about anything above that base layer, as the base layer itself serves as a foundation: so long as a jew thinks that israel is right, deserved, and necessary, no proof will sway them into hating israel. it's just impossible, and that's very frustrating.

for me in particular, i find it very frustrating, as this single idea has turned so many people i know to support a genocidal entity. they believe in and support israel, so they stand with it now -- even if they condemn its current actions, they neglect how those actions are just an extension of its inherent existence -- whether they think israel's doing the right thing or wrong thing right now, they don't really care at the end of the day, because israel, to them, is necessary in keeping the jewish people alive. they stand with it, thinking that jews can only stand at all if they do.

but a genocidal crutch is no crutch at all: it only breaks us more. zionist jews make me so mad, and the worst part is that i could never express that to them in a way they'll understand.

[nomairuins]

i love low contrast color palettes but they do not love me back

[starbuck]

Real Emotional Labor Hours

[im-still-watching-anime]

one piece is crazy fr like what do you mean you’re following up Everyone’s Dead™️ with Objectifying Women: The Arc™️

[skitskatdacat63]

Looking at the Austrian crown: 🥰😁😊😚😍

Drawing the Austrian crown: 😟☹️😥😢😰

Please someone save me, why did I do this to myself, look at this thing

[callsignfoxy]

Y'all I've been working on my line art for my OC, and like I wanna post it when it's done, but I'm literally more scared to do that than I was for my graduate interview and thesis for my master's lmaooooooo

[loviely]

maybe if i didnt overanalyze every word, scenario, and conversation i ever had in my life every night before bed then maybe i could relax a little

[infizero]

i just realized my professor has given us an assignment due the 29th that requires us to draw in a coffee shop/cafe...... fuck

[cat-ears-no-fears]

Yeah if I could STOP accidentally saying horribly insensitive shit without thinking. That'd be great

[feartheoldblog]

shoutout to sekiro for being the only game in recent memory to make my want to bite my controller

[cherrychapati]

and today we are in the brainrot cycle of oh my god no one has ever had a crush on me but i cannot vent about this to irls bc (bless them) they go NO UR HOT but honestly if no one has ever confessed to me that means no one has ever been into me

[daenerys-targaryen]

have any of you ever tried online therapy and did it work? 👀

[thecryptidbard]

Accidentally took an extra dose of my adhd meds instead of my bedtime meds we are. We are really in it now lads.

[kitsunabi]

Ah yes. I call BS.