#ugh. I'm so frustrated

[boyapologist]

visited two apartments today and came back with absolutely zero will to live

[amourningcrow]

My artbook just arrived and what do you mean they could have looked like this?? Who looked at these designs and thought: No wait, I have a better idea :)

WHO WAS IT?? COME HERE I JUST WANNA TALK

[riddlerosehearts]

and the universe said, i love you because you are love

[splickedylit]

Can't believe I thought I was almost ready to start posting this GamKar winter soldier pastiche like two years ago on halloween it's grown by several hundred pages and 100,000+ words since then. Current count is 325 pages, 167,000 words, 15 chapters. fukkin UNIT of a fic

EDIT for my own personal satisfaction:

10/25: 167,000

10/29: 174,700

10/31: 180,460

11/7: 185,775

11/18: 189,500

[hotwaterandmilk]

So my new medication and in fact all medications that can halt the symptoms of an attack of this condition are not subsidised in Australia by the PBS. Most have actually been discontinued in the Australian market due to low sales (my condition is rare so... yeah).

If I had a similar (but medically distinct and considerably less debilitating) condition these two injector pens would have cost me $14.99 thanks to the PBS. That's because these drugs are approved for this similar condition and not the one I actually have (which, as I noted above, has basically sweet FA drugs approved here let alone subsidised).

Outrageous medication prices are nothing new to my followers from the USA, where things are a hell of a lot worse than this but regardless of our locations, medication costs like this are fucking criminal.

Two injectors stops... two attacks. You can have 8+ attacks a day. 🙃

Chronic illness, huh?

I guess it's time to become a streamer or sell feet pics or something.

[piratecaptainscaptainpirates]

Heyyy, I'm gonna be turning off anon asks for a bit. I think one of my posts where I talk about how refreshing OFMD is for me as a poc got screenshotted or something and I'm just getting a lot of nasty asks about it and I just don't have time for that.

And I've just had a lot of people come into my askbox demanding to know what my race is since I just identify myself as "not White" or as a poc most of the time, and I thought this could maybe be a teachable moment. Some people have been using the fact that I speak Hebrew/Yiddish as my first languages to insist that I must ""really"" be White and dear lord if you think that I just want you to examine why you're so insistent that Jews have to be white.

I usually just identify myself as "not White" online because I'm mixed, several non-White races. My family is mostly Ethiopian Jewish. Most Ethiopian Jewish families like mine moved to Israel in the twentieth century, my family did in the 1950s and mostly later moved to the US but we still speak Hebrew. It is not fucking weird to be a Black guy who speaks Hebrew as a first language and the fact that some people think that is a big part of why I choose not to elaborate on my race in the first place.

Anyway. Just, like, if you feel the need to harrass some random poc on the Internet until they tell you their exact racial makeup you need to do some self-reflection about that because it is, first, none of your business, and also just a wildly racist thing to do to someone because they said they found a TV show to have great representation.

[familyagrestefanblog]

Sorry, I just need to get this off my chest.

You know what's shit?

That I always come back to work on my explanation posts on why Alya, Plagg, and Emonette being treated unfairly and being disregarded by Maribug's writing is by now pissing me off to similar degrees as her bad treatment of Chat Noir

But that always ends in a domino effect of me putting together more of the overall narrative that ticks me off so much cause my ADD brain can't NOT look for the continuous string of the writing pattern I follow once I'm at it.

You probably can imagine that this isn't very good for my mental health and the only reason why I'm still doing it is because I have a strong suspicion on what the new story arc will do with Cerise after this agonizing hiatus, and only once the actual new story arc proves me wrong can my ADD brain let this emotional investment of 7+ years in my "comfort show" since I was a 16 rest in peace.

Being neurodivergent is exhausting of FUCK...

So I always stop writing any of the posts about the other topics and come back to my Adrichat corner because that's the "safe space" my brain is the most familiar and comfortable with by now since season 4 to make a post AT ALL that isn't running the risk of leading me down 7 new rabbit holes I can't unsee anymore afterwards...

I MISS looking into several narrative threads in this show and voicing my opinions on them. In hindsight, I regret not having done it more when it was still possible, but I feel like it should have been alright in any other normally written show to have a fan blog dedicated to a specific part of the story. I feel like I shouldn't be the one in the WRONG for having done that.

Anyway, I honestly MISS the time where I knew that Maribug's benefit and comfort weren't the only things accepted as "valid" readings of the story. From both sides. Supporters and critics/salters.

Where saying anything that isn't immediately connected to Marinette's benefit and comfort didn't need a full-blown 20 page essay post going into any detail possible to fight for the right to even be taken seriously as a realistic reading of the story at all.

I know I'm not the only one upset at this, but I wonder how many people really realized by now how batshit insane this is right now. That only the most vanilla and vague-ass posts that do their best to not in anyway say something that would be "mean" and "non-validating" to Marinette can be posted now without it automatically being categorized as at least "critical" or running the risk of getting perceived as salt or wishful-thinking.

You can't point ANYTHING out anymore without at least one person running in and either saying "You just HATE Marinette and want to see her punished! You people never care about HERRRRRRRRRR (regarding a topic that isn't about her or is her fucking JOB as a narrative tool to DO)" or "Yeah, nah, the show would never let that happen because of the Marinette bias lol"

You can't even say anything anymore about Adrien's abuse without it being either undermined to all hell because of Marinette having been bullied and needing to be a girlboss who does to others what she's declared "tortured" for, or Félix "hypocrite and victim-blamer" Fathom. Gabriel being abusive was once the most basic ass thing to talk about, what the fuck happened?? (don't answer that, I know the answer...)

The whole analysis' side of this fandom that isn't catering to Marinette was either killed or basically exiled into the "critical" or outright "salt" tag because you can't even be interested in world-building anymore without having to fight for the post's right to be taken seriously under the crushing weight of Marinette's narrative benefits and comfort.

Because mademoiselle ain't fucking interested in ANYTHING lore wise beyond what's convenient for her (not to mention the retcons), so talking about the Guardian and Kwami lore for example counts as SALT now because it automatically implies for people that Marinette isn't all that matters and her flaws of not being interest in ANYTHING might actually COUNT as flaws she should work on. I know, the fucking HORROR! 😱

I MISS writing theories, analysis posts, and speculating about this shows future plots in even the most basic "set up and pay off" manner but I know I can't because my default approach is always complementary to the main character - meaning what challenges them and the narrative the most to grow, expand, and develop. This isn't a Marinette specific thing, I ALWAYS do this.

And contrary to popular belief in this fandom, I get by perfectly fine doing that for the majority of other pieces of media I consume. It is MIRACULOUS and this damn Fandom that now genuinely did it's best to convince themselves that this level of main character centric morality and revenge porn level writing is NORMAL when it's seriously NOT.

There is a REASON why this show hardly ever gets recommended on social media the way one would think despite its success. Or why the Fan backlash is so enormous despite a solid part of the Fandom already having left long ago and the young target demographic not uniformly having a voice in the social media discourse.

Or why people actively advise others AGAINST watching the show, AGAINST forming an emotional investment, and AGAINST going anywhere near the Fandom.

Cause no fucking shit, this isn't normal.

[queenofmalkier]

I just have to say, there's constructive discussion about what the show isn't getting right and then there's attacking people who are still enjoying it for what it is, more or less labeling them as bad fans or not "true" fans.

(And then getting mad when people call out what you're doing.)

[tiredofsatansbullshit]

today was election day in my country, and after spending three and a half hours in a line waiting to vote, i walked back to my apartment complex just for some guy (who claims to also live in my apartment complex) ask for my number and if he could take me out. i repeatedly rejected him, even lied and said i have a boyfriend. and after trying to just leave the conversation, he threatened to follow me back to my apartment. so that's how my days going :/

[bandsandwristbands]

Vent post

[tomboyfriends]

also i think i prefer "desisted" to "desister". desisting is more or less a one and done deal. "desister" sounds like i'm constantly struggling with it and am having some weird on and off fling with acting like someone i'm not. also not a fan of detrans/desisted people saying they're "presenting" as "female" or "ftmtf" when the former isn't a matter of presentation and the latter isn't a thing. for me desisting was giving up on the crazy notion that i have to play along with gender at all. when it's all a made up fantasy to prop up males above women and girls.

when i'm barefaced and braless i'm not "not presenting female" and i'm not "masculine" either. i am female. that will be a part of me. forever. and i'm happy with that. and even if i like being called a boyfriend (usually hot goth tomboyfriend/tomboy girlfriend) or being called a guy in a funsy way, it's nothing more than that. because i'm literally just some woman. playing pretend. trying to have a little fun in life. i really wish everyone female would stop bowing to gender in some way. whether it's the one woman caked in makeup, or another shorthaired woman wearing a snapback and listing wacky pronouns in her dating bio. or the detransitioned/ing woman saying she's "presenting female" and forcing herself into femininity when it doesn't have anything to do with being female in the first place.

gender is nothing. it is a message to women to shut up and eliminate our female individuality. why are we pretending it's fun to "explore gender" and "play with gender". it's literally just misogyny/sex-based oppression. sidenote: and why is this all on the HER app. why am i seeing all this shit there when it's supposed to be the damn female hookup app. i mean i haven't been on there in years but i remember what it was like on there. and then a man got the account banned on twitter because he couldn't stop being a rape-advocating TIM, so that's lovely.

[bd-wlf]

something about Maurice(1987) and how it made me realize i do not want to spend my life alone and that i do in fact crave deeper more emotional bonds with those around me, the type of bond that blurs the lines of platonic and romantic like i want to know who I'm spending time with. some homoeroticism bullshit yknow?

and something about Sherlock Holmes(specifically Elementary) that made me realize I'm actually aro-ace and that I've been repressing those feelings. and more so that i really really want a QPR, someone to go crazy for in a platonic way yknow? someone who just gets me yeah?

[leqclerc]

carlos absolutely made a huge song and dance about 'oh i'll have to be careful during each practice session but i'm gonna muster all the strength i can to do this race'

alex literally had respiratory failure requiring intubation after his appendectomy and he didn't make that big of a deal of coming back to drive...to singapore nonetheless

Oh absolutely 🫱🏻‍🫲🏻 And I feel like the comms/pundits only furthered that narrative? I get it, it was a shock, he had to miss the race in Saudi and I'm sure it wasn't a pleasant experience to go through appendicitis and surgery and recovery but yeah, I feel like Alex wasn't given half this fanfare of a triumphant comeback. It's like people want him to be the unlikely hero, the underdog story against Max or even Charles, it's A Lot.

He has an infuriating ability to be in the right place exactly at the right time and have the team rally around him as a result. Some people were worried about how his departure from the team would impact team dynamics this year, guess nothing has changed though🤷🏻‍♀️

[pushing500]

I didn't know that the anxiety trait gave colonists panic attacks. Aw, poor Vu. At least Candlelight was there to help calm her down.

Irwin wants everyone in the colony to have a good time, which is all good and well, except that the food we're binging on is only edible by about three colonists. Everyone else is gonna be living off tea and coffee for two days.

We all headed down to the riverside for the feast, which was very eventful and lovely (well, lovely for some people- Candlelight couldn't walk for a few days, but that's what she gets for getting into a fight with someone who is actually capable of melee combat).

Why does nobody want to take the only colonist I actively dislike?? I don't want to deliberately accidentally get him killed, but it's getting to the point where I think it might be my only option...

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[fr-thecollectors]

it's one thing to not like a dragon's design

it's one thing to be triggered or squicked by aspects of a design

it's one thing to redesign a dragon or adjust things so you do like it

it's uh. Very Much Another to "rework" one of the few fat dragons we've got to make it super skinny. 😑

(and before anyone tries to shove the "well you're not in light blah blah blah" bullshit down my throat i've been seeing in the forums and even on here. i don't like my own flight's ancient. i was disappointed when auras were released, but i shrugged, moved on, and hoped the next release would be more my taste)

[sotc]

It's Friday and some things to note:

1) I sent out a comm update early to enjoy an early start to my weekend yayy!!!

2) received an HOA violation email with a pic of my front door of my empty cat bowls!!!!! EMPTY CAT BOWLS. NOTHING ELSE IN MY YARD. I am taking care of a stray cat you fucking petty heartless bastards. I'm killing you with my mind. You are stepping on Legos for the rest of your life. I wish they knocked on my door instead of being cowards I'd give them a piece of my minddddd mannnnn

to calm down I'm just. Gonna draw some Lucinda and Heinrix being cute. I am so ughhhh