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soaps-mohawk · 9 months ago

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i hope this sends 😦 i'm at a horse show rn so my data is fucking up!

since you like masked and anonymous bands, i'd totally recommend insane clown posse and ghost to you!! ghost is anonymous, icp is not

i'm also literally giggling at the build-a-bear idea, with the recordings... maybe it's just because of how rabid i am for a scottish accent. what kinds of messages do you think the boys would record for reader?

anyways, hope you're alright pookie!! newest chapter was beautiful as always, you keep my johnny obsession well and truly fed 💞

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It sent!!! I did get it but I was half asleep when I saw it so I saved it for this morning. Still half asleep, but more awake than I was.

I love Ghost omg I just discovered them recently too but I am obsessed (hello religious trauma 🙃). I've never really been able to get into ICP, mostly because there's a juggalo gang where I live that is notoriously awful (which I know, not all juggalos are) but it just kind of gives me the ick. Which sucks because if there's one thing I love in this world, it's a clown.

I feel like all of them would leave some sweet messages, but I just know Johnny is slipping something lewd in there 😂 somehow, he'll make it happen. Price probably throws in reminders to take care of yourself too.

I'm alright. Dealing with landlord bullshit which is always fun 🙃 somehow it's my fault the neighbor purposefully left one of his puppies outside and it cried and barked and howled until 2 am and kept me awake.

#“at least you have the day off and can nap”#kindly go fuck yourself landlord #actually don't do it kindly #ugh I hate living here #answered

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squea · 2 years ago

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dear ea stop making all ur worlds so american like even the ones that are meant to be inspired by other parts of the world are so so american. bring us attached houses. cramped neighbourhoods. or just houses that dont have an entire football fields worth of space around it. awkward flats above shops and houses that are seperated by alleyways. no matter what my sims feel so fortunate to have such a huge plot of land even if their house is small like its so isolating

#here in england at least having a house thats seperated /detached is SUPER rare like ur either very fortunate or u live in the country #like a cute scottish cottage ugh i love those #but aside from those old buildings u will not find detached housing and thats what i hate abt the sims 4 worlds so much.i miss ts2 apartment

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walking-existential-crisis · 7 months ago

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Me realising I have to actually write my whole fic and not just little paragraphs in between with no context: Fuck

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ratscabies · 4 months ago

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I think I'm gonna try learning how to drive again, but I'm very anxious about it

#my dad is an excellent driver but he hates driving bc he thinks everyone else on the road is an idiot asshole #my mom is a very anxious driver and didnt learn until she was in her thirties #i want to try to get my license before i turn 30 #bc not having a license has been severely limiting my life #i had my learners permit three years ago and i was like. im gonna learn. but then i drove on the actual road before i felt ready #and never drove again after that lol #and idk i work a $14/hr job bc i dont have any other opportunities within walking distance of my home #and if i want to go down a different career path ill need to drive - both to expand job opportunities and as part of the job requirements #and. ugh i wish i lived somewhere with public transportation so i wouldnt have to drive #but i dont and i think im stuck here for the foreseeable future. so i just gotta start learning again and this time stick with it

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pardonmydelays · 11 months ago

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i'm going home tomorrow & i'm so excited to see my family, i really missed them

#also my mom told me some time ago that i'm really brave & i shouldn't give up #but i don't feel brave i feel tired #so basically i had three different jobs this year #first one i quit because i hated it & it was too chaotic #i got fired from the second one after over a month because apparently i was too nice #now the third one i know is just temporary because it's similar to the one i quit last year #and it's only because i need money so i can't stay jobless #my situation is kinda fucked up because i live here alone so i have to pay rent #and i really don't want to go back to my parents #i know i can but i wanna stay here #i've been working so hard to move to my favourite city and i want to start studies here this year i just can't give up #so i just took the job i didn't want #and i keep looking for something i might actually like #but god i'm tired #i feel like the biggest fucking failure #i just need a normal fucking job jesus why is it so hard #i don't want to work with customers anymore i hate people #and i also want to earn a little more money because trust me it's not that easy to live fucking alone #i mostly spend my money on food cause unfortunately i have to eat #but i'm not interested in just surviving i really want to start feeling alive again #ugh #talking shit for the hell of it*

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guinevereslancelot · 7 months ago

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not to be ungrateful but i don't get paid enough at my job lol

#the problem with jobs that people do bc they love the work is that it doesn't pay well and you will be overworked to death #genuinely couldn't quit bc i love the kids too much already but 15 an hour is....not ideal tbh....#how am i supposed to make future plans in these conditions #i cant ask for a raise ive only worked here 3 months but ugh #the only reason i got hired is i finally broke my rule abt the minimum hourly rate i was willing to accept #i applied to the two 14-16 an hour jobs and used the one i already accepted to get this one to gove me 15 instead of 14 #but that's still not a lot tbh #need to buy an oven since we havent had a working one since january #and i keep gping ok next time i get paid i will buy an oven #and it hasnt happened yet #and i need.....17k to invest in starting my own business and i will not see a return on that for a very long time 😭#and i have no idea where that money will be coming from lol #fortunately its not that time sensitive except it kind of needs to happen in the next year or two probably but idk #if i dont do what i need to do idk what will happen but i think the issue will become more expensive but also maybe less expensive #but also uglier and make my neighbors mad #but i have no choice but to wait bc i have no money for that lol #anyway #17k is my immediate expense but i also need to come up with the money to eventually buy my parents house somehow #and i dont even make enough to pay the mortgage 😭#fortunately i dont need to do that for a long time but...eventually #anywayssss #how am i supposed to live laugh love in these conditions #i do love working with kids but jts hard work and all my coworkers are petty and hate eachother so its a lot #and i dont make enough money to live fr #im so lucky i live w my parents bc nobody at my job makes enough to live on their own lol #also the sheep that are supposed to be clearing brush got sick and went back to their farm and they're not coming back this year at all #so we need to brush hog it #or contract another farm #im not sure if its even safe w their poop all over the place snd im not getting any communication from the farmers #but it lowkey might be better to get our own sheep but thats so much work i dont want to think abt doing livestock

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opens-up-4-nobody · 10 months ago

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#hm. some choices to make tomorrow #bc i could ask my advisor if thr lab needs a tech this summer so i could get paid to make media and do transfers #but then im at risk of getting sucked back into school stuff #but if i dont then i have to find a different job which is scary. i mean im sure i could find something but ya kno #but i would be getting a job i could just not think abt it when i leave. which ive never had before #and im feeling a bit better now so im like fuck u give me challanges. ya kno?#my counselor thinks i should just go back to ohio for the summer and i could but i dunno #i feel like it would b harder to live with my dad all summer. i dunno. maybe i should. maybe not. i feel like i could do more here #im just sorta lacking purpose rn. ugh.#i mean here i can just walk more places so i could potentially get out more than i could in rural ohio #but that assumes i would actually go out. bleh. i hate this. gotta make annoying choices #but whatever. im just lucky that ive got enough saved up that im not gonna b in trouble not getting paid much over yhe summer #so. could be worse. just wish it was better #unrelated

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blondedingdong · 27 days ago

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Living in a big city for almost 10 years now almost made me forget how beautiful the night sky can be - no light pollution and you can actually see the stars. Gosh and this lovely cool and clear air. One day I'll move back to the countryside. *hums*

#visiting my family in bavaria over the weekend so I'm back to my home village or whatever you call it #I took it for way too granted to look up and be able to see the stars #in the city it's rare to even make them out #I love the city cuz everything is in walking distance usually and you can easily do something like cinema museum cafe and so on #Always wanted to live in a big city when I was younger cuz I hated being reliant to go on a bus (which drove rarely back then)#and even tho I had my drivers liscence since 19 years old I did not have a car like I do now #so it sucked doing anything around here back then (especially when you really didn't want to be home for as long as possible ugh)#but now I kinda miss the quiet of a village #no sirens going off almost all around the clock #stars in the sky #clear air #... am I homesick????#like not homesick for my actual childhood home (sorry hojo I won't move back in - things got better but the trauma sits deep)#but I'm homesick for how I feel when I'm not in the city #one day... one day...#only thing I miss a lot right now is my roomie :c #blondieblabla

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doomednarrative · 1 month ago

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Aughhhh

#ugh ignore me i just need to yell a second #but i love when i can tell im being a hormonal bastard on my cycle cause i start getting the whole #'you are being Needy and Annoying and its embarassing and unbearable to watch' mental bs going on #when im not even doing anything but just sitting here in my thoughts. its wondeful #truly having this happen monthly is so great to live with #<- said with the most vile disgust for a natural part of my biology possible i hate it here #vent

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ourceliumnetwork · 1 month ago

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me, the symptoms experiencer, experiencing symptoms: wow gee i wonder what the fuck is happening right now i have no context for why i could possibly feel bad, surely i'm not experiencing symptoms. me, when i figure out it's the symptoms:

#gif warning #medical stuff #man getting labled as a hypochondriac at a formative age (any) was a hell of a kick to the balls #i don't even have those #and yet #me when i've been told all my symptoms can't be real and that i was makign it up for attention so i started just not talking about them #even though in private without anyone around i was still experiencing the symptoms i decided i just Wasn't #because why would my parents be wrong about that - they loved me right?#so if something was concerning they'd be worried if it was a real thing - i wasn't making it up but maybe i was #no one should have taught my father the term psychosomatic #he's the reason it's had to go up on the shelf #mom flat out telling me it was impossible that [redacted] because i was quote ''too young'' for it to be happening #so now i'm old and it's a Real Big Fucking Deal I guess #i'm experiencing the flare/crash i was anticipating and - thank fuck - my brain isn't going down the tubes with it #which is a fucking miracle because this is the lead up to my period and *normally* that's when the PMDD hits real fucking bad #but in a stroke of luck (???) my body decided it was just going to smash itself into the ground Krillin-style #and as i lay here in the crater of my own body's making i'm just like. well at least i don't want to die #which is truly the most throwing thing of everything actually #anyway....#got hEDS put on my medical file for reals though so like #that's in there #that exists #also the look of HORROR on the nurse tech's face when i showed how much distance my hips spread *every month* for my period #i'm LITERALLY going into labor monthly and i've been doing that since i was 11 #no fucking WONDER my body has collapsed out from under me if we even just go by that fucking metric like godDAMN #ugh anyway.... i'm. this was NOT the stuff i wanted to focus on this year for personal growth and healing but we're doing it now i guess!#fuck! goddamn! piss in a cup #i have also... failed to do the task i was meant to today and technically there's still time but it's uh. i. i'm gonna need to ask for help #and i HATE asking for help especiallywhen i need it most #another thing my parents have to answer for when they greet whatever judge they find at the end of their lives

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girlivealwaysbean · 1 month ago

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#bro why is everyone growing up and away and trying to figure out their lives and careers and loves #and im just sitting here missing them?#like sure im trying to figure out mine too we're all that age so I don't resent them for it #but why don't they miss me? why don't they feel empty when they haven't talked to me in a long time?#like. didn't they feel very light and happy after talking to me like i did with them don't they have a bad day and think that oh ill #talk to me and it will all feel okay even if it isn't just for a minute?#oh ny god i feel so pathetic asking this but like why am i suddenly crying now???#like my bestf. she's so busy in her new internship in mumbai that she can't be bothered to text me back #a simple yes no question for days. like i understand you have cool new office and work and friends and your stupid fucking ex #that you couldn't stop crying about to me living in that city with you but what about me? what about us?? what about you saying #that you're my first bestfriend i haven't told this to anyone else this is forever everyone else judges me but you're the best #like i just feel like if you're going to leave me then don't fucking say shit like that to me??#okay oh my god this is so irrational but i literally can't stop crying and it's definitely pms like i checked #she's not even leaving she's just suddenly busy and adjusting it's only been like a month #but i hate this stupid fucking knife like fear that as soon as someone is a little busy or seems like they're pulling away a little my #brain is like okay they hate me they're going to leave me so pack your bags we're leaving first #like i know a better solution would be to just tell her that hey dude i fucking miss you and i saw this show and remember how you used to #love peter kavinsky because he was adorable and i want to sit and watch it with you and just why aren't we back in school #where we are basically forced to hang out for like 7 hours because im so sick of only seeing you like once in 2 months for a few hours #like i know it's not your fault and we're just growing up and in different directions but just please like five more minutes can you stay #i don't even have the confidence to say anything to her lol she's my only friend like if even she gets mad and leaves #but i know that's not how healthy relationships work. and ugh my sister is so fucking far away i can feel it everyday #in the 5 and a half hour time difference. i hate this i hate everyone everyone has to go so far away #i hate living in this empty fucking house and being responsible for my own emotions fuck this isse accha toh living with dad hi hai #atleast when im there there are only 2 emotions anxiety and boredom. now i have a whole house to myself to cry whenever I need #for however long i need in a locked room. really looking forward to adulting haha i can see just see myself succeeding so well🙄#man this is crazy im gonna go do jumping jacks or something so this comes and goes faster #umm #dni

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tomurakii · 10 months ago

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Just caught up to bnha. What the FUCK

#so deku being optimistic and believing all people are redeemable. his one good trait. lead to shigaraki's soul being fully lost #and taken over by afo. who katsuki just died to supress.#so in being sympathetic to villains he not only a) failed to redeem the villain and b) killed the villain #but also c) revived a worse guy and d) made his best friend's sacrifice pointless #but also instead of fixing any of those things with rewind he gets his arms back or whatever. cool. nice #what is the message here I wonder #UGH I HATE IT HERE. BNHA IN REALITY WILL NEVER LIVE UP TO ITS POTENTIAL #BECAUSE WHAT GENUINELY READS AS A STRUCTURE FOR A CRITIQUE ON POLICE VIOLENCE IS TO HORIKOSHI JUST AN EXCUSE FOR COOL FIGHTS #COOL. C O O L #WHAT SHOULD HAVE BEEN A COMMENTARY ON THE GLORIFICATION OF STATE VIOLENCE AND ITS CONSEQUENCES. IS INSTEAD #JUST A SHOW WHERE SOME KID GETS SCHOOLED ON THE FACT THAT SOME PEOPLE ARE JUST EVIL I GUESS. AND ITS UP TO THE STATE™️ TO KILL THEM FOR IT #ALRIGHT. OKAY #bnha #tomura shigaraki #whatever. whatever #bnha spoilers

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starrytect · 2 years ago

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these guys aren't even paying rent to live in my head rn. rude ‼️

#i know i'm not drawing them 24/7 but i'm THINKING about them 24/7. that's what matters #ugh i hate them they're everything to me #limbus company #emil sinclair #emil sinclair lcb #yi sang #yi sang lcb #sangclair #lcb1101 #idk if that tag lives on here. whatever #ship art #art tag

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itsalwaysdark · 3 months ago

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i think itis funny in the past when i would list my interests as if i post abt them i donot post abt the shit im into rly Mainly bc im not rly Into Into anything anymore i occasionally watch or read or play something but i dont do fandom stuff rly much.... just sometimes i get brainworms

#do i still list my interests somewhere i dont knowwww #i just stopped rly being into fandom a few years ago combination depression antipathy + bad experiences in fandom spaces #but idk. me listing my interests didnt rly accomplish anything for anyone bc it was just like anddd just so you know i was crazy abt this #video game for a rly long time it probably wont ever come up again but it might maybe one day. yk. ig its just sharing info Which is one #supposes the point of all of this but idk #its not that im cagey abt my interests except that one which i cant talk abt publically bc its a triple a game and im embarassed abt it. no #anything bad im just embarrassed . its not anything any of my oomfies have ever posted abt either so its just for me. and lamp . and when #the third game comes out i might post very very very vaguely abt it ......... possibly.#but ya its like. idk i think you guys have to find out abt my plague tale obsession on your own through lived experience. aka just me seein #like the word king and randomly collapsing to the floor and going KING HUGO 😭😭😭😭😭 oh god hugo guys oh god . please play plague tale #i wish i had finished that tw thing i started making but then i got too focused on the color palette and making it look nice and i stopped.#umm tw child death animal death The plague some gorey stuff theres some cult things in the second game ummm. yeah ..... its rly special to #me tho i love those games PLAY PLAGUE TALE!!! and if u need more indepth tws ill give them to you even if i have to replay both games to #refresh my memory... lamp wont play plaguetale with me (not their speed) so im all alone </3 but i miss it i might replay soon... i wish i #was in like discord servers so i could play it on call w ppl or something <- is in discord servers but is shy and Also i feel like playing #game on call is like a level like 2 friendship thing and i cant even do level 1 friendship things like i feel i need to at least be talking #regularly in a server b4 i like try to do Calls in the server esp for plague tale bc its like a 1p game so wed need a rapport to like have #shit to talk abt and etc ..... i could just infodump abt the game but again i feel doing that to like strangers/oomfies would b weird. ik i #come on here and talk abt whatever i want but its like you guys dont Have to read this and its not like a server where Yeah im not talking #to one person but im still like Oh well ive sent a message and its in the channel and everybody just has to look at it and whatever.#but on here i post i nobody cares and it just gets pushed down and its Fine bc its not like anybody has to feel obliged to respond #which is fine. you know.. i just hate being like a nuisance i hate . idk how to phrase. imposing myself on others ig.. which is dumb bc the #i turn around and whine abt how i have no friends and its like Maybe that is bc you donot talk to anyone bc yr scared they will be annoyed #with you and you dont leave the house and have no interests to bond with ppl and etc. but basically the difference is ive written all this #and you guys can just not read it or you can just read it and ignore it and its different. even tho i am like addressing you and i do have #like. weird parasocial thing with My followers or whatever where i talk directly to you YES YOU! reading this. IDKK im rambling so much i #dont know what im talking abt anymore. i proooooobably need to go to sleep im hungry tho but im not but i am. but i think my sleep is getti #off schedule again i had trouble sleeping yesterday too... ugh

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cringengl · 4 months ago

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Nothing like arguing with a man over whether lesbian sex is real sex while drunk!!!!!!!!!!! (Help)

#apparently it's not penetrative and cant produce babies but gay men sex is real sex #i hate it here #and hes inescapable since he lives with some of my friends #ugh #lesbian #lgbtq

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lovepotionnumber5 · 1 year ago

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had myself an ugly time rereading some good ol' 80s comics, which feature imho some of the most devastating pages in dc comics history. tl;dr, its after '85 crisis, meaning kara has died (dick giorlando you live up to your name) and has also been pretty much wiped from existence in very comics fashion. she doesn't appear in continuity from '85 crisis until 2001, i dont think--with one exception. christmas with the super-heros #2 (1989). my babygirl.

its not super complicated--each hero gets their own little story on how they spend their holiday, helping others (superman), feeling sad about robin (batman), let some rich guy pretend to be santa (hal and barry), and deadman possess a repo man to make him give money to the people he's hurt. he also sends some wine and presents to his old friends.

and he's lonely. no one can see him. what's the point? is misery the reward for his acts of good?

and if they were going to do crisis.......

why the FUCK didnt they at least give us something like this.

#god im back in a comics kick rn #you can ignore this but like #fucking hell man #can you imagine?#a kara who agrees to be wiped from memory...if it means saving everyone #maybe it wont fix everything--maybe lex is still out there and a homicidal xenophone #maybe her friends lives are duller #maybe in essence she goes the way of her people #maybe kal only ever learns of their culture through holograms #but the world is saved. they might not know her but theyre safe #i also rewatched no way home not too long ago and that got me thinking general amnesia as well but like. oof #these two pages just make me FERAL like...two dead people talking to each other. was it fair? no. dying isn't usually fair #just...kara as a guardian angel. kara reminding people why theyre heroes when they cant remember (when they cant remember her)#something about it man....love it or hate it crisis 85 was ambitious and iconic and if youre going to toss around its name...#you better come to fucking play #as usual the cw showed up and shot a baby in face and then said my work here is done and vanished #ugh. back to your scheduled programming

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