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soaps-mohawk · 1 year ago

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i hope this sends 😦 i'm at a horse show rn so my data is fucking up!

since you like masked and anonymous bands, i'd totally recommend insane clown posse and ghost to you!! ghost is anonymous, icp is not

i'm also literally giggling at the build-a-bear idea, with the recordings... maybe it's just because of how rabid i am for a scottish accent. what kinds of messages do you think the boys would record for reader?

anyways, hope you're alright pookie!! newest chapter was beautiful as always, you keep my johnny obsession well and truly fed 💞

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It sent!!! I did get it but I was half asleep when I saw it so I saved it for this morning. Still half asleep, but more awake than I was.

I love Ghost omg I just discovered them recently too but I am obsessed (hello religious trauma 🙃). I've never really been able to get into ICP, mostly because there's a juggalo gang where I live that is notoriously awful (which I know, not all juggalos are) but it just kind of gives me the ick. Which sucks because if there's one thing I love in this world, it's a clown.

I feel like all of them would leave some sweet messages, but I just know Johnny is slipping something lewd in there 😂 somehow, he'll make it happen. Price probably throws in reminders to take care of yourself too.

I'm alright. Dealing with landlord bullshit which is always fun 🙃 somehow it's my fault the neighbor purposefully left one of his puppies outside and it cried and barked and howled until 2 am and kept me awake.

#“at least you have the day off and can nap”#kindly go fuck yourself landlord #actually don't do it kindly #ugh I hate living here #answered

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squea · 2 years ago

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dear ea stop making all ur worlds so american like even the ones that are meant to be inspired by other parts of the world are so so american. bring us attached houses. cramped neighbourhoods. or just houses that dont have an entire football fields worth of space around it. awkward flats above shops and houses that are seperated by alleyways. no matter what my sims feel so fortunate to have such a huge plot of land even if their house is small like its so isolating

#here in england at least having a house thats seperated /detached is SUPER rare like ur either very fortunate or u live in the country #like a cute scottish cottage ugh i love those #but aside from those old buildings u will not find detached housing and thats what i hate abt the sims 4 worlds so much.i miss ts2 apartment

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ulteri0rm0tives · 24 days ago

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It's every iteration.

It's every iteration of V that will always find Johnny. Every iteration of V that Johnny grows to care about. It's every iteration of each other, in every universe, that will always find each other. They'll always become inseparable, tied together in unfathomable ways. Ways they could never truly unravel from each other in the end, no matter the end.

They'll always be destined for one another. No matter what face is worn. No matter what universe. No matter what, they're always meant to be. No matter what, the stars will always align for them, just to come crashing down from the sky.

#am i taking the simple fundamental process of the game's character creation and giving it a thematic metaphor? LOL yeah. yeah.#they are soulmates that traverse time and space and the laws of the fucking universe and they will always find each other #they are written in the fucking STARS man UGH I CANT #i bring forth my case to the tribunal court that they are destined to be literal fucking soulmates for the rest of ever and beyond #(and my case is just a manilla folder with a green sticky note slapped inside with 'Diagnosis: Sick In The Head #'Treatment: Should Probably Take A Nap or Something IDK'#scribbled in red)#((i haven't slept and i cant get them off my mind rn 😭#need to actually be brought out back bc HOW TF else am i meant to get sleep like this😭😭))#JUST THINK ABOUT IT THO #it doesn't matter what v looks like. their background or their history. fuck even their gender.#it doesnt matter what brand of asshole johnny what hes done or said in the memories weve seen #they are always going to find each other in whatever variation of their lives they find themselves in #its. sweet. (and doomed and heartbreaking bc the story will always end the same too it means they'll also always lose one or the other #AND NOW IM MAKING MYSELF INCONSOLABLE 😭😭)#(***whatever special brand of asshole Johnny is*** i HATE mobile plz just let me edit tags here too 😭)#this doesnt even have to be romantic either. they're destined to be each others literal soulmate no matter the label we put on them #silverv #cyberpunk 2077 #johnny silverhand #v cyberpunk #masc v #fem v #nonbinary v #female v #male v #(clearing this from my drafts <3)#ult speaking #writing 💚💚#(bc why not)

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softnonsensesoftmind · 18 days ago

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i’m just gonna drop this and then scurry away like a rat

#anyway. hi i’m not dead and i’m cute #not being on the internet has (unfortunately) been good for my mental health so.#and shit keeps happening. like. okay. yesterday my hot water heater went out #and like. in theory i could’ve fixed it (with help) but. there isn’t a drain plug on it or anything of the like which is Very Bad #cause i can’t drain it without water getting everywhere. and i can’t replace the heating element if i can’t drain it.#so woooooooo #i mean. if i wanted to get under the house i could do it maybe. like technically there’s A Way #but i am so not fucking doing that i’m sorry that’s Scary #so uh yeah. plumber dude is maybe coming today. maybe not. it’s fucked cause it’s harder to find someone out here yknow #but like. whatever. we’re making it work.#and yeah okay i thought i had ants in my bedroom so i sat and watched and i totally have ants #it’s not a food or mess thing though it’s just a There’s A Way Inside thing u know.#so i sealed the entry points right. and put out that kinda ant bait where they take it home and it kills everyone </3 #tbh i hate it but. i’m sorry buddies u can live outside not in my bedroom #ugh and like the seal is temporary cause it’s just a fuckton of painters tape. i was a) super high when i did it and b) had nothing else #the worst part. is now i have to fucking take down this trim WHICH IS TOTALLY HIDING HOW THE ANTS ARE GETTING IN RIGHT #so now i have to take it down and then run along the wall seams with caulk and then repaint #WHICH i wanted to do eventually. just not now. i wanted to finish the kitchen first but whatever.#another fucked thing is that means i need to take down the trim in the living room and do the same thing #AND IVE ALREADY PAINTED THE LIVING ROOM. I THOUGHT I WAS DONE WITH IT FOR NOW.#so. basically. i have actually done very little in terms of renovating but. she’s still cute so we’re getting there #not me dumping in the tags sorry chat i’ve been isolating and trying to rebalance my dumbass feelings. it's working i think so. idk. but #now i’ll shut up. ily have a good day bestie forehead smooches byeeeeeeee #mine

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sleepyjuniper · 1 month ago

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Tmw you haven't eaten all afternoon but you know damn well there's nothing in the house you want to eat

#how am I gonna survive this weekend bro #i keep getting fast food because I'm sick of the stuff we have at home. have to force myself to eat a sandwich i hate and it doesn't make me #feel satisfied #meanwhile fast food actually feels like it sustains me? and i enjoy eating it? and there's so many options out there?#i wish that i could be living like my mom rn #she's never hungry anymore because of the new medication she's on and that alone sounds like such a dream.#barely being hungry and never needing to eat much to feel full #but i don't know how to cook shit on my own and she doesn't cook as often anymore so it's like. what is there for me here #fuck this brain and it's stupid pickiness #why can't you derive pleasure from simple things. ugh #i fucking hate having ADHD it's literally ruining my life

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walking-existential-crisis · 10 months ago

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Me realising I have to actually write my whole fic and not just little paragraphs in between with no context: Fuck

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vaguehotels · 5 days ago

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#lolaa.txt #every time i remember i saw the tv glow i get a little sick about it #i spent a year out as nonbinary. a whole year.#i felt like sunshine; most of the time #then i grew up and my mother got more critical and the world got smaller and i realized i couldn’t live like that anymore #and now i think about them when i look in the mirror #chex. the version of me that got buried when i stepped outside again.#i wish they were here. there was something intangibly RIGHT about them.#and every day i see myself now and think ‘she’s pretty’ and i feel so sad for the person who hated being called pretty #‘there is still time’ but what if there’s not? what if i can never ever be that again?#augh. augh #SORRYYYYY weird mid day vent???#i just. i tried to explain the film to my mom and she just said ‘oh that’s strange’ and moved on #i can’t tell anyone who’s seen it my experience feeling exactly like owen. you guys don’t know.#ugh. anyway

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ratscabies · 6 months ago

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I think I'm gonna try learning how to drive again, but I'm very anxious about it

#my dad is an excellent driver but he hates driving bc he thinks everyone else on the road is an idiot asshole #my mom is a very anxious driver and didnt learn until she was in her thirties #i want to try to get my license before i turn 30 #bc not having a license has been severely limiting my life #i had my learners permit three years ago and i was like. im gonna learn. but then i drove on the actual road before i felt ready #and never drove again after that lol #and idk i work a $14/hr job bc i dont have any other opportunities within walking distance of my home #and if i want to go down a different career path ill need to drive - both to expand job opportunities and as part of the job requirements #and. ugh i wish i lived somewhere with public transportation so i wouldnt have to drive #but i dont and i think im stuck here for the foreseeable future. so i just gotta start learning again and this time stick with it

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ariseur · 21 days ago

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EXAMS ARE IN A FEW WEEEEEEKS IM GONNA GO BANANAS

#ugh i hate testing #get me out of here #i should be playing video games and pulling gachas and listening to music and playing guitar #i am unfortunately very loser older brother core .#if u couldn’t tell already #i think i am everything and nothing all at once #a living oxymoron #SIGH..#tests….#screw u…#i say as i write my name in the top right hand corner #˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ thoughts of odette #kiss kiss

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bonbonly · 6 days ago

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10:30 in the morning girl where do u live ???

in the heart of the devil and the bane of my existence: florida

#bon answers #GET ME OUT OF HERE UGH I HATE IT HEREEEE #FUCK FLORIDAAAA #AND FUCK THE MIAMI GP LMFAO #still so mad that i couldnt see carlos in home depot in miami #bc miamis 6 hours away from where i live #bsfr #lemme see my husband

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heartbreakfeelsogood-moved · 2 months ago

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anxiety will have me wishing i could google search things like “how to ask my manager if i can put her as a reference on my resume while i try to find a second job so i don’t have to move back halfway across the country to live with my mom and feel like i’m starting over again”

#op #logically i’m like it’s fine. to ask her. but i’m scared and don’t know how and i should probably ask in person but it’s so anxiety inducing #and i Know she’ll ask questions #which isn’t even a huge deal because atp i really am just looking for a second part time #because i don’t think i’ll find a full time #but. ugh. keep convincing myself it will be Bad #i’m also so stressed because i kinda just realized i could do this??? like i kinda settled for the fact i’d have to move back #and now i’m realizing like well no. you could find a second job. but obviously it’s like not that easy #i feel like everyone on here understands how fucking hard it is to get a job lol #and then i need to find one soon so i know if i’m staying so i can hopefully find a better place to live #just somewhere that’s a little more permanent i guess is what i mean. my living arrangement is not much better than ‘ok’#another reason i wasn’t looking sooner is because rn i’m also a full time student so i already feel like there’s so much on my plate #i’m definitely planning on doing part time after this semester so that’s when i realized like oh. i could just Work More #there’s a library in the town over with an opening and i wanna apply to see if the hours work with my current job #and if they’re enough to like. live off of with my current job #but i’m sure i’ll need a reference and so i’m just like shhdjskakdkkaksk #i also need to write a cover letter which i hate and suck at #i’ve been grinding my teeth over this and i’m so anxious and ready to cry because i can’t stop thinking about it #aaaaaaaaaaaaa #sigh. anyway if u read this vent ily and i’m sorry

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cruorcrave · 2 months ago

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"You feel sick? Why?" I just spent $20 on the cheapest earphones I could find. I could've spent that money on food and now I'm having a big sook about it

#I HATE IT HERE #cost of living crisis goes crazy #okay technically there were cheaper ones but they were completely out #the cheaper ones were $12.#fuck off #cruorother #UGH #mental illness #cost of living crisis #cw emetophobia #tw emetophobia

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pardonmydelays · 1 year ago

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i'm going home tomorrow & i'm so excited to see my family, i really missed them

#also my mom told me some time ago that i'm really brave & i shouldn't give up #but i don't feel brave i feel tired #so basically i had three different jobs this year #first one i quit because i hated it & it was too chaotic #i got fired from the second one after over a month because apparently i was too nice #now the third one i know is just temporary because it's similar to the one i quit last year #and it's only because i need money so i can't stay jobless #my situation is kinda fucked up because i live here alone so i have to pay rent #and i really don't want to go back to my parents #i know i can but i wanna stay here #i've been working so hard to move to my favourite city and i want to start studies here this year i just can't give up #so i just took the job i didn't want #and i keep looking for something i might actually like #but god i'm tired #i feel like the biggest fucking failure #i just need a normal fucking job jesus why is it so hard #i don't want to work with customers anymore i hate people #and i also want to earn a little more money because trust me it's not that easy to live fucking alone #i mostly spend my money on food cause unfortunately i have to eat #but i'm not interested in just surviving i really want to start feeling alive again #ugh #[i say whatever and whatever that i want]

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year ago

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#hm. some choices to make tomorrow #bc i could ask my advisor if thr lab needs a tech this summer so i could get paid to make media and do transfers #but then im at risk of getting sucked back into school stuff #but if i dont then i have to find a different job which is scary. i mean im sure i could find something but ya kno #but i would be getting a job i could just not think abt it when i leave. which ive never had before #and im feeling a bit better now so im like fuck u give me challanges. ya kno?#my counselor thinks i should just go back to ohio for the summer and i could but i dunno #i feel like it would b harder to live with my dad all summer. i dunno. maybe i should. maybe not. i feel like i could do more here #im just sorta lacking purpose rn. ugh.#i mean here i can just walk more places so i could potentially get out more than i could in rural ohio #but that assumes i would actually go out. bleh. i hate this. gotta make annoying choices #but whatever. im just lucky that ive got enough saved up that im not gonna b in trouble not getting paid much over yhe summer #so. could be worse. just wish it was better #unrelated

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blondedingdong · 3 months ago

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Living in a big city for almost 10 years now almost made me forget how beautiful the night sky can be - no light pollution and you can actually see the stars. Gosh and this lovely cool and clear air. One day I'll move back to the countryside. *hums*

#visiting my family in bavaria over the weekend so I'm back to my home village or whatever you call it #I took it for way too granted to look up and be able to see the stars #in the city it's rare to even make them out #I love the city cuz everything is in walking distance usually and you can easily do something like cinema museum cafe and so on #Always wanted to live in a big city when I was younger cuz I hated being reliant to go on a bus (which drove rarely back then)#and even tho I had my drivers liscence since 19 years old I did not have a car like I do now #so it sucked doing anything around here back then (especially when you really didn't want to be home for as long as possible ugh)#but now I kinda miss the quiet of a village #no sirens going off almost all around the clock #stars in the sky #clear air #... am I homesick????#like not homesick for my actual childhood home (sorry hojo I won't move back in - things got better but the trauma sits deep)#but I'm homesick for how I feel when I'm not in the city #one day... one day...#only thing I miss a lot right now is my roomie :c #blondieblabla

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doomednarrative · 4 months ago

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Aughhhh

#ugh ignore me i just need to yell a second #but i love when i can tell im being a hormonal bastard on my cycle cause i start getting the whole #'you are being Needy and Annoying and its embarassing and unbearable to watch' mental bs going on #when im not even doing anything but just sitting here in my thoughts. its wondeful #truly having this happen monthly is so great to live with #<- said with the most vile disgust for a natural part of my biology possible i hate it here #vent

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