#uchihamylove26 my favorite baby!!!

[jordyn-degas]

The one that got away

Series: Part 2 Part 3

characters: Naruto Uzumaki x fem! reader additional: Shikamaru Nara; Hinata Uzumaki; mentions of: Gaara, Boruto Uzumaki and Himawari Uzumaki

warnings: characters are 21+; fluff; smut; vaginal sex; oral (f receiving); a bit of chocking because why the hell not?

💀 NSFW! Minors DNI! 💀

notes: YES! I have been MIA because writer's block 😒 4 am - apparently it's my hour for brain rots LOL 😅

I didn't even read it again after writing it so I have no idea what came out of it to be honest 🤣 I simply needed to get this out of my head.

special note: some light reading for my love, my smut partner and my Naruto soulmate @uchihamylove26 💕💕 enjoy! 😎

Mood 🎧 JNR CHOI & SAM TOMPKINS - To the moon

"Come set the mood, yeah You come like sunshine, yeah Call me the moon"

There was this simple assignment that led you to walk the hallway that led to the Hokage's office. It was your quiet, unexpected return to the Hidden Leaf after 13 years in the service of Gaara, the Kazekage of the Sand Village. Reuniting with old friends and memories began as an exciting prospect of your life, the person you were going to see now being one you missed greatly. You have never expected for the next words to cross your mind as you stood into his office, bright blue ripping through your soul:

You were fucked.

"What is he like now?" you asked holding a stack of folders filled with paperwork sent by Gaara.

"Taller. Calmer." Shikamaru Nara scrunched his nose while walking next to you helping you with another stack of papers. "The same idiot nonetheless."

"Shikamaru!" you laughed. "We're talking about Lord Seventh here."

"Yes, we do." he replied with a shrug and a smile. "We're also talking about Naruto Uzumaki. Remember him?"

"Oh, I do." you said nodding slowly. "I do .."

"Hm." Shikamaru hummed eyeing you with the corner of his eyes and a raised eyebrow. "What about you? You seem different."

"I think we are all different since the war." you replied as you both stopped in front of the Hokage's office. "Is there anything of significance I should know before going in there?"

"Congratulate him." Shikamaru replied opening a folder and placing it on top of the others you were holding. "His son started the Academy today."

For a split second, you could feel your heart and breath stopping abruptly as the photograph of a blonde boy with bright blue eyes and a wide grin stared back: Boruto Uzumaki. Fingers brushed softly over the summary of his life up until now, followed by the next page that contained a photo of a younger girl, the same baby blue in her innocent eyes and a dark-blue hair which immediately prompted you to recognize who the mother was. It did not come as a surprise to see the name listed there, staring right back at you: Hinata Uzumaki. The searing pain shocking your body felt as if thousands of knives were embedded into your skin, almost touching vital organs, memories of the past swirling into the present reality. It was hurting more than you would ever care to admit.

After all, he was the one that got away.

"Thank you for the info." you replied in what sounded as a whisper, an unfamiliar dryness coating the insides of your mouth.

"You really had no idea .." Shikamaru said quite surprised to see you staring at the folder as if in a trance. "You might be one of the few."

"I chose to not have information provided on certain people." you said closing the folder and tucking it under the rest. "It was easier to accept the path I've chosen away from all of you."

"Certain people .." Shikamaru said with a small smirk.

"Don't." you rolled your eyes. "Shall we?"

"Y/N, I hope these 13 years washed it all away because .." Shikamaru said while grabbing the doorknob. " .. you might be in for a surprise."

With that, your old friend opened the door to the Hokage's office and walked inside as you followed suit. He stepped to the side while you found yourself in the middle of the room, staring at the back of a tall man with short, yellow hair, a creamy-white cloak draped over the body on which you could clearly read the words painted red that spelled Seventh Hokage. Your fingers immediately gripped the stack of folders tightly, swallowing the knot formed into your throat as you worked on maintaining the professional posture.

"Thirteen years, ha?" Naruto's voice broke the silence, appreciating the deepness that rooted into it as he was now grown, dancing into your eardrums with every single note. "Y/N, you impressed me by being able to stay away from your home for so long."

"Lord Seventh, it had to be done." you replied with such respect in your voice it even had Shikamaru raise his eyebrows. "Tough experiences shape the heart and soul of a person. We tend to grow because of them more than from the simple comfort and happiness of our own home."

Naruto suddenly tensed hearing your words as you could see his shoulders straightening briefly before a deep breath was taken. He took a step back from the window and turned around to face you, to finally put a face to the voice he had missed terribly. Heart skipping more beats than he could count, Naruto took in your appearance, completely taken back as you looked as if you have not aged a single day in these past thirteen years. It was absolutely astonishing how he could feel 18 again just by looking into your eyes. For a brief moment, he stepped back in time. After all, you were the one that got away. Lips parted slightly, heart beating powerfully into your ears, you stifled a sigh that has been building into you since the moment the door opened before your eyes. The impact of his presence had more than a simple effect on you, hands trembling as Naruto's bright, baby blue eyes spilled into yours instantly, sucking all the air your lungs thought they possessed. He looked so mature, imposing and somehow intimidating from behind the desk, knowing he was the Seventh Hokage of the Hidden Leaf, achieving the biggest dream he ever had. You felt like a child in comparison to him, shrinking slightly under his deep gaze. Your eyes shifted quickly, tracing how his lips curved into a melancholic smile that transformed into a wide one, head tilted a bit to the side, eyebrows curved up. Naruto was over the moon that you were standing before him and it showed. On the sidelines, Shikamaru held back a laugh, pleasing himself with only a raised eyebrow and a smirk. Oh, this was going to be interesting!

"That wisdom of yours .." Naruto chuckled stepping from behind the desk, walking right in front of you. " .. could've helped me out along these years."

"I think you've handled it quite well without it .." you chuckled. " .. Lord Seventh."

"Can we skip the pleasantries?" he asked rising an eyebrow and taking the stack of folders out of your hands, placing them on the desk quickly.

"It's only fit." you shrugged. "Respect and all that."

Before you could even react, Naruto's arms wrapped around your neck, body landing against his as you immediately got drunk on the scents attacking your nostrils and mind mercilessly, both of your hearts beating powerfully and in sync, listening to them after all this time. Warmth was radiating off his body, absorbing it yourself, out of instinct pushing yourself more into the embrace, your own arms wrapping around him tightly. Yes, you missed him, oh, so damn much! Shikamaru held back another laugh. As he presumed: 13 years did not mean shit.

"So .." Naruto pulled back from the embrace without actually taking a step back away from your, the closeness intoxicating. "Gaara finally allowed me to borrow you?"

"Finally?" you asked confused.

"I've been trying since I became Hokage." Naruto confessed quite surprised that you did not know.

"Probably he considered I was not ready yet." you replied displaying the well deserved respect you held for Gaara. "I trust his judgement."

"You will have plenty of time to catch up." Shikamaru sighed walking up to us as you and Naruto both took a step back, creating a wider than necessary gap in between the two of you. "Matters at hand."

"Oh, by the way .." you said as Shikamaru pulled the chair for you with Naruto sitting at his desk. "Congratulations!"

"Huh?" Naruto frowned in confusion.

"Boruto." you cracked a smile that threatened to break your face. "His first day at the Academy?"

Naruto did not reply immediately, studying your face a bit too deeply as if looking for something specific. The almost too perfect smile you were displaying had his features soften quickly, despite the fact that you mentioned one of his children. He was never able to escape the effects of your intoxicating smile or laugh, the notes of your voice and deep eyes, beauty and presence. After all, you were the one that got away. Watching how Naruto's gaze was fixated on your face, you have never expected for the next words to cross your mind as you stood into his office, bright blue ripping through your soul: You were fucked. *6 months later*

"No, it wasn't me!" you laughed almost knocking off the glass of wine on the living room table. "It was Kiba, I swear!"

"I've been looking for this for years!" Naruto sighed holding a photograph of the two of you, one Kakashi took before you left for the Sand Village.

"Damn Kiba stole it to annoy you and forgot to give it back." you replied peaking over the table at the photograph. "Instead of giving it to you, he sent it to me."

"We were young .." Naruto said with melancholy. " .. so full of dreams and desires."

"Yeah .." you trailed off switching your gaze to his face, a sad smile gracing his lips.

"Can I keep it?" he asked looking at you with hope.

"Of course." you smiled. "That's why I showed it to you. If you want it, you can have it."

The past six months have been nothing but a delight as you were one of the few people that considered working with Naruto to be easy. Maybe it was because you knew him so well, able to mold yourself on his personality, capable of understanding how he thinks as if it was your own mind. The only downside of having such a close position to Naruto was the pain, the yearning. He was a happily married man as far as you knew with two amazing children you had the honor to meet, Boruto being as much of a menace as his father used to be at his age. That did not stop you from suddenly daydreaming of what it could have possibly been if you wouldn't have left, if you would've had the courage to confess your feelings. With each day, each stolen smile and subtle jokes, Naruto slowly reeled you in again, having your heart beating every single morning knowing you were going to see him, having your mind spinning whenever too close to you than actually needed, having your soul tremble with every innocent touch. You realized in time that the feelings Shikamaru hoped were washed away were still there, powerful and deep. The shame of feeling all of that for someone that was not, nor will ever be, yours was slowly disappearing seeing Naruto consciously getting close to you than normal, than allowed.

"I should go." Naruto said standing up. "Early morning."

"For the both of us." you sighed drinking the last drop of wine from the glass before guiding him to the door.

"I always feel better in your presence." Naruto said out of nowhere as he stood in front of the door. "Thank you."

"Anytime." you said with a small smile and a short nod.

Both standing there, eyes fixated deeply on each other, Naruto's Adam's apple moving up and down constantly from all the excessive swallowing while you played with the hem of your shirt not understanding what was happening. He was looking at you with such happiness, sadness peaking here and there, melancholy dancing into his eyes as you smiled back. You both knew that, right now, your eyes were doing the talking and nothing else. That is how well you knew each other. Naruto's fingers intertwined with yours, pulling them away from the hem of your shirt and you let out a deep breath that nestled into your lungs since he walked into your home for dinner. Only when he took the other hand into his you truly realized how much you ached for him, the deep longing buried for 13 years resurfacing, bound to be seen by him, bound to unravel you before him.

"Y/N .." Naruto whispered taking a step closer.

"Naruto, don't." you said in a weak tone, somehow pleading, yet somehow asking for more. "It's a dangerous road."

"Are you saying no?" he asked pulling you closer, only a coin capable to fit in between your bodies.

"I'm saying that it is dangerous." you replied swallowing hard.

"Why?" Naruto asked, one of his hands letting yours go, his thumb brushing along your lower lip as you could not look away from the eyes that haunted you. "I'm not happy."

"I would be a simple escape." you spoke slowly not wanting to stop his thumb from tracing your lip. "An easy one."

"What if you're not that?" Naruto followed tilting his head slightly, the thumb pushing softly on your lip, rolling it down slightly and you blocked a deep pleasured sigh. "You could never be just that."

"You have a wife." you replied as the word hurt your heart. "Children."

"You left." he said almost accusing you, his tone of such calmness it was impossible to feel attacked. "I had no idea you will return until it was too late."

"I needed to leave." you swallowed hard as his nose brushed against yours, warm breath fanning over your lips and a shiver ran down your spine. "As much as it hurt."

"And now you're back in my life." Naruto said, his eyes never leaving yours for a split second as you slowly but surely got drunk on him. "I can't lose you for another 13 years."

"Naruto, p-please .." you whispered against his lips, closing your eyes feeling the pain you constantly tried to hide. "I-I can't handle it .. I-I'm so weak when it comes to .."

Forcing yourself to swallow the last word, knowing how much you were giving yourself away as your body reacted on its own, walking backwards with Naruto holding your hand, the other cupping your cheek until you hit the wall of the hallway. Keeping your eyes completely shut, you felt a bit of control, a bit of steadiness even if you could feel him incredibly close, shutting down your brain bit by bit.

"Say it." Naruto said, fingers moving to hold your chin. "Please."

"P-please .. please!" you begged him knowing that once you utter the last word you are as good as gone, you would be trapped into him, you would fail to not be the factor tearing apart his family. "Family, Naruto. You have a family."

"Say it." he pushed, tone deepening, lips brushing against your once again as your knees almost caved.

"You have a wife." you tried reinforcing yourself, tears gathering under the closed eyelids. "You have a fucking wife."

"YOU make me happy." Naruto said as if in the same pain as yours. "Only YOU."

"No, no, no." you replied breathless, the tears escaping past your closed eyes and rolling down your blushing cheeks. "No, Naruto. Please, stop!"

"I've missed you for 13 years, every single day of my life." he pushed again letting your chin go, taking your hands and placing them on his chest, right on top of his heart. "Feel it because you know I would never lie to you."

The heartbeats were so powerful you could feel his heart into your palm, his words punching the pressure in your chest, releasing it into the entire body, goosebumps filling up the skin as his hands cupped your face.

"Open your eyes, please." Naruto pleaded. "Don't be afraid of me."

Trembling body, heartbeats threatening to carve a whole into your chest, hands gripping Naruto's shirt tightly, you opened your eyes as more tears spilled only to find a match for them. Naruto had his own staining his beautiful face, one now engulfed in pain and love, eyes of such a clear blue as never seen before. You could see and feel that he had the exact same feelings as you did, the love you had for him was even greater than the pain, wanting for once to feel as if he belongs to you and you belong to him.

"You're beautiful." Naruto said shaking his head slightly as if he could not believe what he was seeing. "You're the perfection I have been looking for my entire life."

"You." you said softly, hands pulling him closer.

"Me?" he asked with a small frown.

"You asked me to say it." your voice shaky, afraid of the outcome. "I'm weak when it comes to YOU."

"Y/N, I have been weak when it comes to you since I can remember." he chuckled lightly pulling your face as your lips were close to touching. "You're my chance at true happiness and love. Don't take it away from me again, please!"

"I won't." you caved as you wanted the exact same thing, him always being your only chance, the only you ever desired. "But promise me you'll be here when I wake up."

After all, he was the one that got away. Naruto pulled back slightly, hands quickly working their way under your armpits and pushing you upwards, instinct kicking in as you wrapped your legs around him, both staring at each other with parted lips, lust and love dangerously dancing together.

"I promise to be here in the morning." Naruto whispered with a soft smile. "And every morning after."

Diving into the endless void, your arms wrapped around his neck tightly as you pulled the man you have always loved into a deep kiss. Lips began working each other slowly and timidly as if you were both afraid it was a dream before the intensity grew as seconds passed by. Tongue flicking along Naruto's lower lip, his mouth gave you access along with a breathless moan before taking over completely. He followed almost instantly, not giving you a single chance to dominate the delicious intertwining of your tongues, exploring each other's mouth with fervor, body entangled fully as he carried you into the bedroom. Senses activating completely, the hairs on your body raised realizing what was about to happen and who was the person that was going to fulfill a desire you harbored since your 19th birthday. Placing you on the bed with ease, Naruto hovered over you, half-lidded eyes as he stared at you for a bit, a bright blush coloring your cheeks abruptly.

"Do you want me?" he asked wanting to convince him that this was indeed happening.

"Yes." you breathed, hands grabbing the hem of his shirt and raising it up slightly to see the well toned abs you have always imagined. "I want you."

Without wasting a single second, Naruto pulled the shirt of your body, braless breasts escaping their confinement, teeth biting on his lower lip as he did nothing but to stare at you. Out of pure instinct, arms shot up to cover yourself, the intensity of his gaze throwing you off.

"Please, love." Naruto said wrapping his fingers around your wrists, pulling your arms away and placing them above your head, eyes darting from yours to your breasts and back up. "You're perfect."

The shiver that shocked your body had him chuckle softly, fingers trailing down from your neck, down the collarbone, slowly going in between your breasts, pinching playfully the skin of your belly before reaching the hem of your shorts. Holding your breath, Naruto pulled them off, throwing them on the floor, before making the panties disappear as well, leaving you exposed in your entirety. Once he spend enough time taking in the nakedness of your form, a satisfied smile gracing his lips, tongue wetting them with hunger, Naruto took a step in front of the bed and you placed your foot on his lower abdomen.

"Off." you said biting your inner cheek. "All of it."

He let out a colorful laugh that pulled yours out as well, completely drunk on how powerful you felt seeing him so mesmerized by your body. It was easily noticeable that you took over his mind fully, nothing else occupying his brain but your nakedness and willingness to be his. A gasp left your lungs seeing him bare right before your eyes for the first time in your life, eyes moving away from his face, a lustful smirk tugging at his lips, and down his chest, mesmerized by every single muscle this man's body revealed before you, licking your lips as your gaze danced down the abs and going straight for what you have always been curious about. Eyebrows shooting up slightly in obvious surprise, you swallowed hard realizing the size of his cock, staring at it as it was throbbing in all its might right before your eyes. A deep sigh rolled off your lips that was muffled by his lips, Naruto quick as always in his movements, hovering over you and kissing the life out of you, teeth pulling at your lower lip slightly earning him the first moan of the night. One of his hands went in between your breasts, fingers softly trailing their outline before moving to cup one of them, digging into its flesh and you gasped into his mouth. The kiss intensified, arms resting on his back, nails grazing the skin so softly it had him arch slightly much to your surprise. Pulling away from your lips and leaving your gasping for air, Naruto trailed hot, wet kisses along the jaw, working his way down your neck while his hands cupped both of your breasts, squeezing and playing with them, pulling shivers out of you with a deep satisfaction. A high pitched moan bounced off the walls of the bedroom the moment his lips locked on one of your hardened buds, sucking and flicking it with his tongue while paying equal attention to the other as well. As he worked both of your sensitive breasts, saliva smeared all over them as you gasped for air, his other hand traveled right in between your legs and you jumped slightly with Naruto smiling against your skin. Two of his fingers spread your pussy lips open, middle finger exploring the hotness of the area, wetness dripping all over his hand. A violent spasm rocked your body as he trapped your clit in between his index and middle finger, pressing it in between them and your back arched, hips moving instinctively.

"You're so wet for me, baby." Naruto purred moving away from your chest, swollen nipples glistening into the faint moonlight, as he kneeled in front of the bed looking directly into your exposed pussy and licking his lips. "You really wanted me."

"Yes!" you moaned as with one hand he spread your lips while the other explored everything it had to offer. "God, yes!"

Pinching softly the bundle of nerves that held your sanity, Naruto smirked seeing your inviting pussy clenching around nothing, knowing how much you wanted him to ravage your body, to truly make you his. Muttering a 'fuck', he kept you open as he laid his tongue flat against your wetness, a relieved sigh leaving you, before dragging it up along the opening, tip of the tongue flicking your clit and you jumped upwards slightly from the pressure. Naruto realized you weren't one to stay in one place when the pleasure consumed you, he wrapped his arms around your thighs locking you in place completely, your hands gripping the sheets the moment his lips sucked on your sweet bundle of nerves, a loud moan slipping away. Tongue moved expertly in between your wet folds, drinking in any bit of sweetness you offered him, daring to push it into your pussy, the tip of his nose applying that delicious pressure on the clitoris that had you roll your eyes into the back of your head. Picking up the speed, adjusting to your body's movements, the first finger went in, squeezing him enough for a low growl to vibrate against your pussy. Your hips started moving without even thinking, pushing yourself into his face, hands reaching to grip his hair and provide you with leverage to grind against him. Naruto watched every single one of your reactions, completely drunk on the sweetness of your pussy, wanting to have you come first before having his way with you. Another finger went in, both curving up and bumping against the spot that was going to have you spill into his open mouth. Pumping them in and out of you, tongue swirling around, flicking your clit, working its way around your folds before sucking on the bundle of nerves with fervor. Body spasms multiplying by the second as he felt the swollen spot, fingers dragging in and out, the clenching of your pussy suffocating them, he smirked knowing how close your were.

"Cum for me, baby." Naruto spoke against your pussy, the vibrations shooting right into your core. "Let me taste you."

Hips rolling against his fingers, gasps and whimpers rolling off your pretty, pouty lips as Naruto brought you to the edge by biting softly on your swollen clit. Tightening the grip on his hair, your mouth opened widely, a scream erupted, eyes rolling into the back of your head as you spilled your orgasm all over him, the sounds of Naruto's mouth collecting his reward having your body trembling violently, toes curled in exquisite pleasure. Fingers worked slowly, allowing you to ride the release before pulling them out with a pop.

"As I thought." Naruto smiled with satisfaction as you watched him sucking yourself off his fingers, pussy clenching again at the sight. "Absolutely delicious."

Climbing into the bed, Naruto pulled you after him easily, you were still coming off of your high as you were placed on his lap, legs straddling his waist. The image before you had your mind and heart racing. Naruto's blue eyes darkened, lust flashing in them for you to see, a faint blush pinching his cheeks while his puffy lips were smeared with your cum. Wrapping your arms around his neck, Naruto pulled you into a deep kiss while squeezing the fat of your thighs, the sweet taste of your release now spread all over your lips, him feeding you with your own cum. Moaning into his mouth, you could feel his cock twitching under you, touching your clit patiently. Your hand traveled along his abdomen before wrapping your fingers around his hard cock, squeezing it a bit and Naruto groaned into your mouth. Thumb spreading the pre-cum along the tip, you lifted your hips and glided the cockhead in between your folds to lubricate it with your own wetness.

"Fuck." Naruto gasped, teeth clenching around your lower lip. "Impatient, aren't we?"

"I want you." you replied with a playful smile. "This is me wanting you. As deep as possible."

Naruto eyed you slightly taken back at your boldness as he knew you did not used to be so straightforward. He found himself incredibly pleasured by the sight of your hand around his cock, teasing both with it as you kept it placed at the entrance of your sweetness. His hands moved up on your waist, gripping it tightly as he loved the way your curves were especially obvious in that area, flowing perfectly into the thickness of your hips and ass.

"Take me, baby." Naruto purred against your before stealing a kiss. "I'm yours."

You pulled yourself backwards a bit, hands gripping his broad shoulders, muscles flexing under your touch as you let your body sink slowly on the cock that was sure to stretch you out exactly the way you always wished for. Sinking on it, ever so slowly, as he watched your lips sucking him in, beads of sweat already forming on your back from the hot sting. You allowed yourself to tease the both of you, keeping the cockhead tightly wrapped right past the muscle ring, clenching on it willingly as Naruto's head fell backwards, gasps filling the air. It felt so good with only the tip, you wondered how it will be with all of it inside of you, to the hilt. Pushing yourself up, his cock escaped the warmth of your pussy and he whimpered. The Seventh Hokage whimpered like a baby for your pussy and such a deep satisfaction overcame you that you rewarded him by sinking yourself back again. This time you pushed past the stinging and the painful stretch it caused, an immense pleasure ripping throughout your body as you pushed yourself down. And down. And down. And down. Naruto's flushed face had you smile playfully, sitting on him completely, cock twitching inside and you moaned at the sensation.

"T-too good!" you gasped as the simple feeling of him being inside of you pushing you to the edge.

Naruto pushed you up by the waist, squeezing harder than before and your eyes melted into each other's, immediately reading his intentions, nails digging into the skin of his shoulders as you braced. Before you could even take a breath, he slammed you roughly on his dick, a scream rupturing from your lungs as it hit so deep you almost came on the spot. Mind dizzy, lips parted slightly, drunk completely with him, with his cock, his scent and the scents of sex filling the bedroom, you lifted your hips again and thrusted him inside of you. Slowly, still adjusting his size, you bounced yourself up and down as you could see his eyes trying to take in the entire image: saliva gathered into the corners of your mouth from the pleasure, tits bouncing on the rhythm of the movements, pussy sucking him in deliciously, perfectly, beyond anything he had fantasized before. Picking up the pace, you started shivering from the pleasure and his ability to reach places no one could before.

"GOD!" you moaned as you dropped hard on him, cock hitting the deepest spot in your pussy.

"Not God, baby." Naruto chuckled wrapping one of his hands around your neck and pulling you forward, back arching by instinct. "Just me."

Sinking down against the headboard of the bed, Naruto pulled you forward, lips brushing against each other as he held tightly on your neck, nipples brushing his chest enough to arouse you even more, your knees digging into the mattress while he bent his upwards creating the perfect angle to pound into you.

"Your pussy was made for my cock." Naruto whispered stealing short kisses while applying the necessary pressure on your neck that had you clenching around him constantly. "You wanted me? You're mine."

The other hand grabbed your hip, cock sliding out of you up to the tip before Naruto pushed himself into you with such force you let out a chocked out scream. It was the moment where you truly gave up control, his cock fucking itself into you with fast and rough repeated thrusts that had you completely weak for this man. Letting go of your neck, arms wrapped around him, nails scratching his back with the purpose of sending him home with a gift, the possessiveness overcoming you, lips latching on the skin of his neck, in the most exposed spot as you started sucking on it which had him moaning loudly, pussy mercilessly devouring his cock, a heavy palm landing on your ass cheek.

"You want to get me in trouble?" Naruto laughed dangerously.

"F-Fuck!" you moaned, his hips slamming against your ass furiously. "Yes!"

"Then do it, baby." Naruto's deep, husky voice whispered into your ear. "Fill me up with your mark."

His words traveled at the speed of light throughout your body, lips founding another spot on which you could inflict the purple mark enough to be visible for every single person to see. You were not thinking straight anymore, letting out only moans and dirty words spill out of your mouth as his cock abused your pussy, hitting the cervix with such precision it was astonishing. Naruto's arms wrapped around your waist tightly to keep you in place, in the perfect angle that could split you open, ramming his throbbing cock into you, fucking you completely dumb, the squelching sounds of your pussy spilling all over him driving you both insane. He absolutely adored the sounds he could pull out of you, the sounds of your pussy sucking his cock in, the sounds he was making because of you. All of it was because of you.

"N-Naruto!" you moaned loudly, turning almost into a scream. "S-so g-goo-good .. so .. so .. R-right th-AH-there!"

"My God, baby!" Naruto groaned as your pussy started tightening, his lips finding your neck to offer you the same treatment. "Such a fucking perfect pussy!"

"O-only f-for youuuu!" you moaned again and again and again, desperate from the pleasure.

You were so incredibly wet, Naruto could feel the sheets completely drenched under him as all the arousal kept spilling out of your pussy, coating his cock with the most delicious taste he has ever experienced. His lips were caught by yours into a feral kiss that had his knees trembling, moaning into his mouth, skins slapping against each other and you clenched. Harder than before, tighter than before which meant that you were close. Naruto brought one of his hands in between your legs, palm circling on your clit, increasing the pace of his cock so much he knew he was close to straining the muscles of his thighs, fingers keeping open your folds. You were the most perfect woman he has ever had in his bed.

"B-baby .. b-ba-AHH-by!" you kept moaning, tonality turning high pitched as seconds went by.

"Yes, yes." Naruto felt you closing on him, suffocating his cock with your delicious pussy. "Cum on my cock, baby."

Tightening your arms around his neck, cheek pressing against his, mouth spilling moans directly into his ear, you clenched with such force he let out the loudest moan you have ever heard. This time you came even more violently than before, entire body going through spasms and shivers, hips rolling to meet his thrusts half way. Your release spilled with a deep pressure all over Naruto's hard cock, slipping right past it and drenching his thighs even more than before. Body going limp into his arms, he placed kisses all over your face, capturing your lips into a deep kiss, tongues massaging each other.

"So good, love." Naruto purred into your ear, erratic breathing appearing as a sign that he was about to cum as well. "So perfect for me."

"Fill me up, baby." you whispered into his ear, the last of your force being used to pull at his earlobe, tongue flicking it.

Sliding his cock along the insides of your oversensitive pussy at an aggressive speed, he used your body as he saw fit, bullying himself into you again and again, sloppy thrusts pushing your cum back inside, splashing it all over the bed, and Naruto gritted his teeth, pulling back to kiss you. With another deep thrust that hit far back, your teeth clenching around his lower lip and he hissed, cock twitching inside the warmth of your gummy walls before spilling his hot, sticky seed into you. Relaxing, Naruto rode out his high with slow thrusts, pushing his cum deep into you where it belonged, some spilling down his cock. Panting heavily, you both remained entangled while catching your breaths and you pulled back cupping his face.

"You're mine." you said as you shamelessly pushed the guilt back to wherever it came from.

"I am yours." Naruto smiled kissing you. "Forever, baby."

After slow kisses were planted on your puffy lips, Naruto slid out of you and picked you up, carrying your tired body into the bathroom. He wanted to bathe with you before stuffing you full again and again until the sun would creep through the curtains and fall asleep into each other's arms. For the rest of your lives.

After all, you were the one that got away.

❈❈

"Dear Naruto,

Oh, who am I lying with such introduction? My love .. By the time you wake up, I will be on my way towards the Sand Village. I watched you peacefully sleep into my bed and that is when I truly realized how unhappy your were in your own home. You came to me for salvation, for that love we always wondered when young if it truly exists. I can say from the bottom of my heart that it does.

How do I know? Because I can feel my love for you. Because I can feel your love for me.

However, I do not want to be the reason for which your family breaks. I want to be the reason for your love and happiness forever. That can mean only one thing.

Naruto, leave her because you truly feel unhappy in your marriage and not because I appeared again into your life. Such decision takes serious thinking which I know you do not always have. But now? Now is the time to truly and deeply think: If I hadn't come back, would you have stayed in the marriage? If the answer is yes, it means that I was the reason for breaking you up. If the answer is no, it means that it is time for you to choose yourself, to be happy.

Come find me once you are completely sure of your resolve and feelings, no matter what the answer is. A family is more important than anything. Your happiness is my happiness no matter the choice. I will wait for your for a lifetime if needed. After all, you were the one that got away. Love, Y/N"

Naruto held the letter he found on the nightstand three days ago after he woke up and you were not there. Opening the door of his home, he read once again the words he already memorized, and walked inside.

"Hinata?" Naruto called losing the shoes.

"You're home." his wife smiled greeting him.

"We need to talk." Naruto said expressionless while folding the letter and placing it into the back pocket of his pants. "It's time."

After all, you were the one that got away.

[jordyn-degas]

The one that got away [2]

Series: Part 1 Part 3

characters: Naruto Uzumaki x fem! reader additional: Shikamaru Nara, Hinata Uzumaki, Boruto Uzumaki, Himawari Uzumaki, Ino Yamanaka(mentioned), Sakura Haruno;

warnings: characters are 21+; fluff; angst; smut; vaginal sex; mutual masturbation; some choking; rough; baby mention but not breeding kink;

notes: a month has passed since the first part - the story will unfold along a period of time - by the time it ends there would be a year in which Naruto and Reader have been together; yes, I wrote a lot, AGAIN, because I most likely have a documented problem in which I cannot keep a story short - forgive me 🤯;

special note: as per always, my extra special love and dedication goes to the best tumblr soulmate there is @uchihamylove26 😍! her inputs and ideas make my days and life better 😳

💀 NSFW! Minors DNI! 💀

Mood 🎧 ALESSIA CARA - Scars to your beautiful

"She don't see her perfect She don't understand she's worth it Or that beauty goes deeper than the surface"

Naruto leaned against the door of his office, mug in one hand while the other held a folder, his eyes encapsulating the scene unraveling before him. You were sitting in his seat, arms casually resting around Himawari, one hand holding a pen while the other was pointing at various sentences in a book. His daughter sat on your lap, big and curious eyes following your explanations with such attention it was impossible to not smile. Her tiny hands were playing with the heavy material of your blouse around your arm, lips moving without sound as she memorized whatever subject you were working on today. It became quite an often occurrence, Himawari absolutely adoring your presence in her life, capable of guiding her while in his care. Much to Naruto's pleasure, seeing you in the Hokage's chair was something he deeply enjoyed as you emanated a power he had never witnessed before, as if the role fitted you better. You laughed and snapped him out of his daze, lips colliding with Himawari's cheek as she also laughed. After you left that night, the two of you were apart for an entire, excruciating month in which you stayed in the Sand Village while Naruto sorted out his life. When that came to a close, you returned and hoped.

"You're brilliant!" you cheered wrapping your arms around her and hugging the child tightly.

"Thank you." Himawari smiled widely.

"Are you hungry?" you asked starting to gather her stuff and she nodded. "Come on then."

"Dad!" Himawari cheered as her feet touched the ground, running into his arms, wrapping hers around his waist.

"Hey, baby." Naruto cooed while crouching to place a kiss on her forehead. "Did you manage?"

"Yes!" Himawari nodded with excitement. "Y/N is great!"

"She is, isn't she?" Naruto asked with a soft smile as a blush pinched your cheeks.

“Want to come with us?” you asked placing his daughter’s things in your bag.

“I have to sign some .. papers.” Naruto said giving you a knowing look.

“They’re here?” you asked with a bit too much excitement than intended.

“Yes.” he grinned knowing that the biggest step has been taken in order to be able to make you his for life.

Giving him a small nod, you took Himawari’s hand and left the office for lunch before dropping her off to Shizune while you finish your work. Naruto’s gaze trailed off after the two of you thinking how this could have been your lives from the beginning. Sitting at his desk, he opened the folder in which the divorce papers stared back at him and a smile tugged at his lips. Without even blinking, he grabbed a pen and signed them immediately before leaning into the chair, a deep breath leaving his body while a memory flashed before his eyes.

“It’s Y/N.” Hinata said quietly as they both sat at the table with tea in front of them, her fingers gripping tightly the mug. “I had a feeling.”

“Hinata, it’s not about her.” Naruto sighed knowing he could not convince her. “It’s about us.”

“How come?” she asked raising an eyebrow. “All of a sudden is about us.”

“We haven’t slept in the same bed for years.” Naruto began with a sympathetic smile while tilting his head slightly. “We barely even speak to each other, except about things that concern the house or the kids. We both know I haven’t been the husband you deserve for a while now, not coming home because of my position, not being here for dinner, not taking you into consideration enough. Not as you deserve.”

“Naruto ..” Hinata smiled with sadness. “All I hear are excuses. You might be right but be honest at least. This started when Y/N returned.”

Naruto swallowed hard because his wife, soon to be ex-wife, was right in a way. He had thoughts about divorce for about a year but she was so good with him, with the children and knowing how much Hinata has always loved him made Naruto back off on the idea. Only when he saw Y/N again he selfishly realized that she was his sweet escape, his second chance.

“I always knew that you two had feelings for each other since the war, maybe even before.” Hinata spoke as her eyes never left his. “It might sound selfish but when she left the village I was so relieved, not having someone else to compete with. Well .. it was not going to be a competition since you would’ve picked her in a heartbeat.”

“Hinata ..” Naruto whispered surprised with her words that mirrored the truth. “I married you and had children with you.“

“Because she was not here, Naruto.” Hinata replied shaking her head. “Tell me otherwise. Tell me that if she would’ve stayed .. you would’ve still married me.”

Naruto fell silent in an instant, lips parted as if he wanted to reply, sadness overcoming him looking at the woman that did absolutely nothing wrong, her peaceful expression catching him completely off guard. He could not lie, incapable of speaking only to comfort the anxiety Hinata has lived with. Tears started gathering in the woman’s eyes as she quickly realized the answer on her own based on how her husband was trapped in his own mind. Hinata knew very well how kind Naruto could be, how thoughtful and the thought of him saying all the right words to spare her of the heartache was unbearable.

"Should I hope for a way to try and make things work?" she asked trying to hold herself together in front of the man she has loved since being a child.

"I-I'm sorry .." Naruto replied taking a deep breath. "But .. no."

Silence trapped the both of them, eyes not leaving each other's as one was looking for forgiveness while the other was looking for even a slight feeling of lost love.

“How is this going to work?” Hinata asked, tears finally flowing down her cheeks.

Naruto sighed, opening his eyes, pushing back the conversation as you returned into the office. You were always like a breath of fresh air, lighting up every room in which you would walk into. Naruto’s arms grabbed your waist and pulled your body into his lap, a laugh escaping you as he smiled.

“Are you alright?” you asked cupping his face, eyes studying his.

“Yes, I am.” Naruto replied stealing a quick kiss from you. “Why are you worrying?”

“Because it cannot be easy.” you replied averting his gaze and focusing on the papers on the desk. “She was your partner in life for many years, there was love and there are children involved.”

“You are right, I’m not going to lie.” Naruto said grabbing your chin and pulling you to look into your eyes. “She did not do anything wrong to deserve this but .. I finally feel truly happy, calm and at peace after all this time.”

“Good.” you said running your fingers through his hair and placing a quick kiss on his lips. “I’m happy then.”

“Before I get home, I have to stop by and give Hinata the papers to sign as well.” he said tightening his arms around you, pulling you even closer while kissing your forehead. “She also wanted to talk to me.”

“Alright.” you replied simply, not wanting to give away the fact that you felt slightly insecure even if you were the one his arms right now, you were the one that fell asleep and woke up next to him.

“I can sense your fear.” Naruto sighed placing his lips on your temple. “Can you trust me, please?”

“I do trust you.” you replied shifting into his lap as your arms went around his neck, face resting into the crook of his neck. “I just don’t want you to regret your decision.”

“What?” Naruto asked surprised pushing you back to look at you. “I love you, Y/N. Get it through your head that I am not going anywhere and neither are you. We are together for life.”

“Hinata thought that as well.” you replied shaking your head and closing your eyes.

“Are you really doing this?” Naruto asked completely bewildered.

“Yes, I am.” you said annoyed. “Naruto, you divorced the mother of your children for me, for a woman that has been in your life again for a year. Even if you said that you did this for your well-being and happiness, let’s face it: you did this to be with me.”

“Love, please, stop.” Naruto whispered wanting to touch your face but you moved. “I am not going to change my mind for nothing in the world. You have no idea what this means for us.”

“Naruto, I love you so much that it scares me.” you said tugging at his shirt. “The idea of you going back and leaving me is crippling. I cannot compete with a wife and children.”

“There is no competition.” Naruto replied wanting nothing more than to offer your security, to make you feel safe with him. “Because the way I love you I have never loved before and never will.”

“Naruto ..” you whispered pulling back to look at him again.

His hand went up to cup your cheek, thumb slowly caressing your skin, a beautiful, loving smile adorning his lips. You knew you could trust Naruto with your life, his love for you shown countless times since returning from the Sand Village again a month ago. There was simply this fear nested into your heart, one that crippled you due to how much you could love this man. His lips captured yours in one of the softest, heart melting kisses you have ever experienced.

“Sorry to interrupt.” Shikamaru coughed slightly as you remembered leaving the door open.

“Shit.” you muttered jumping out of Naruto’s lap as if it was burning.

“You should close the door.” Shikamaru chuckled to which Naruto followed.

“I-I’ll keep in mind.” you replied blushing profusely. “I have to pick up Hima from Shizune. She is with us for the night, yes?”

“Yes.” Naruto nodded with a smile. “Boruto will come for dinner next week.”

“What?” you asked shocked. “He accepted?”

“He did.” Naruto replied proudly.

“That is amazing!” you said with such a vibrant smile it had the men swoon. “I’ll see you at home.”

Grabbing a couple of documents to deliver them to Sai on your way home, the men greeted you before returning to their important matters.

“You’re happy.” Shikamaru remarked while placing documents in front of Naruto.

“You have no idea.” Naruto sighed relieved.

“How did Boruto agreed to the dinner?” his closest friend asked surprised.

“Hinata had a conversation with him.” Naruto said leaning into his chair. “She appreciates how much Y/N cares for Hima and wants for Boruto to experience it as well since she will be in my life forever.”

“I’ll be honest.” Shikamaru said sitting into a chair in front of the desk as Naruto raised an eyebrow. “At first I really thought it was a simple fling, an occasional fuck to get it out if your system. Then time passed and I could not stop watching you two. You are really in love with each other.”

“The moment she walked into this office ..” Naruto said closing his eyes briefly. “ .. I knew it. Those feelings I thought were a simple crush on a girl that left the village turned out to be everything I have missed in my life.”

“Simple crush?” Shikamaru laughed. “Man, you had no idea what you were feeling. You were ready to give up your life in the war when Madara captured her. That was love but you did not know it yet.”

"Things happened before she left." Naruto said, jaw tightened, while eyeing the ceiling with the memory rushing before his eyes. "Those, I think, bonded us for life."

"What do you mean?" Shikamaru asked with a frown.

“I wish she wouldn’t have left.” Naruto replied with a sad smile while refusing to reply to his friend and advisor. “We could’ve been happily married and have a family.”

“Who said you can’t anymore?” Shikamaru asked tilting his head slightly to catch his friend off guard, Naruto eyeing him surprised.

❈ a week later ❈

"Breathe." Naruto said taking the plates from your hands and placing a quick kiss on your lips. "It's going to be fine."

"You do realize we are talking about Boruto, right?" you asked leaning against the kitchen counter and taking a deep breath. "He used to like me. That until he found out about us."

"Why don't you take your own advice?" Naruto asked as he set the table. "You bonded with him the first time because you never allowed him to give you crap. Boruto appreciated your boldness and that you didn't treat him like a child. Do it again."

"It's different now." you sighed pinching the bridge of your nose. "His father left his beloved mother for another woman."

"Just trust me on it." Naruto replied coming up to you and wrapping his arms around you before the doorbell rang. "He is here."

"I would rather fight Madara again." you muttered as he laughed leaving the room.

"Dad." you could hear Boruto say in his usual flat tone, steps aggressively hitting the floor in your direction.

When the boy entered the room you were holding a bottle of red wine, dead gaze set on him as he looked at you in the exact same way. Naruto took a deep breath while waiting for the staring contest to end. You took a big gulp from the bottle without breaking eye contact and Boruto shrunk slightly. He was used with you avoiding his gaze since starting the relationship with his father, shy even in his presence whereas now you looked quite frightening. What was with you and his mother scaring him so easily?

"Boruto." you said simply placing the bottle back on the counter.

"Y/N." he replied swallowing hard.

"Wash your hands." you followed walking right past him and at the dinner table.

Naruto was trying really hard to hold the laugh in, his son standing there with his mouth open and he knew. He knew that when seeing Y/N in this state he had no chance of putting her down. That did not mean Boruto will not attempt to.

"This smells .." Boruto said surprised as he sat at the table in front of you. " .. amazing."

"Don't sound so surprised." you said handing him the rice. "I lived on my own for 13 years and had to feed myself in one way or the other."

"On your own?" Boruto asked realizing that he did not know much about you.

"Working for the Kazekage doesn't grant you your personal chef." Naruto chimed in as he poured you a glass of wine. "Or fulfills your loneliness."

"And you returned thinking my dad can probably cure that?" Boruto asked as he made it sound as a joke that masked mockery.

"I wasn't the one that needed a cure for it." you fired back with a smirk. "Your father was."

Boruto chocked on the food as his eyes went wide at your reply knowing it was the truth. He was not blind to his family's situation, never was. However, Boruto never expected of you to be so direct about it. Naruto was tensed, eyes darting from one to the other as he remembered the advice he gave you earlier. You took it quite literally.

"Alright." you chuckled placing the chopsticks on the plate while holding the boy's intense stare. "Want me to treat you like an adult?"

"Yes." Boruto replied frowning with suspicion.

"Lay it on me then." you raised an eyebrow. "I'm hungry."

"You broke our family." Boruto followed building courage.

"Boruto!" Naruto hissed through his teeth.

"Stay out of it!" you both said at the same time which had Naruto raise his eyebrows in surprise before shaking his head.

"I did." you nodded at Boruto to continue. "What else?"

"You took him away from us." the boy followed slightly annoyed at how unaffected you seemed to be by him.

"Didn't being Hokage already did?" you mercilessly tore into the boy knowing exactly what his limit was.

"I-ah-I .." Boruto stuttered. "You left mom alone."

"Boruto, wasn't she alone already?" you followed feeling closer to breaking his sadness and anger. "Wipe me from your memory. Think back to your lives before I came back."

Naruto was absolutely speechless at how you were handling Boruto, not a single expression on your face, seeing the boy melting under your gaze. Memories flashing before his eyes, the reality hitting him from all directions.

"I was the catalyst." you admitted. "For that? Yes, I am truly sorry. I protested against Naruto's decision only because of you and Hima."

"Why .. why didn't you choose someone else?" Boruto asked calmly, tonality settling down, shoulders dropping as he finally caved.

"Because I chose your father since I was 16." you replied feeling your heart tightening in your chest, Naruto's gaze quickly switching to your direction as you refused to meet it out of fear of tears spilling out. "I also chose to leave and lose him. You cannot truly comprehend it now. Hope you never will."

"That was 17 years ago." Boruto said shocked. "H-how did you .."

"Listen here." you said leaning into your chair as both of them straightened their backs not knowing what you were about to say. "I am not going to hold a big speech about life and love, trying to tell you how it works. That is your duty, to find out on your own and navigate through it. Was I the person that tore your family apart? Probably. Am I the person that you have to stare at right now and it isn't your mother? Yes, I am. Am I the person that will be at peace if you decide to not be a part of my life? Be sure. I will care for you and Himawari regardless. What I am going to say with certainty is that I love your father more than words can describe and, clearly, more than you can possibly comprehend. I am not here to replace Hinata. I am not here to be your mother because I will never be, nor do I wish to be. You have only one and I will respect that until the day I close my eyes. You are Boruto Uzumaki, Hinata and Naruto's son and no one else's, especially mine."

In a deep silence, the phone rang and Naruto excused himself from the table as you and Boruto kept looking at each other, features softening by the second, your words having a deeper than expected effect on the boy.

"There is an emergency." Naruto sighed. "I have to go."

"Alright." you smiled softly as you stood up and walked up to him. "Take care of you."

"You too." Naruto replied stealing a short kiss before turning to his son. "Are you coming?"

"Can I .." Boruto scratched the back of his neck while eyeing the plate. "Can I stay?"

"Only if you eat dessert." you replied raising an eyebrow at him.

"Pleaseeee!" Boruto groaned in pleasure knowing how skilled you were with making desserts. "Bye, dad."

"See you tomorrow." Naruto replied to the both of you as he disappeared from the room.

"Y/N?" Boruto asked while you filled his glass with water. "Can you tell me more?"

"What do you mean?" you asked placing the dessert on the table.

"About you and dad?" he followed shyly. "From when you were younger and what it was like."

"Sure." you nodded offering him a warm smile to which he blushed slightly.

❈❈

"Y/N." you answered the phone as Boruto ran down the stairs followed by Himawari while laughing. "EASY ON THE STAIRS!"

"The kids are with you?" Shikamaru chuckled on the other side of the phone.

"Were. Hinata is picking them up." you replied catching in between the middle and index finger a pen Boruto tried to throw at you. "What's going on?"

"Naruto will not come home tonight." he informed you. "There is a situation."

"No problem." you said handing Boruto and Himawari two freshly made set of keys from your house. "Thank you for telling me."

"Anytime." Shikamaru said before ending the call.

"These are for you to come over whenever." you said pulling Himawari into a hug and placing a kiss on her forehead.

"Thank you!" the two replied at the same time.

"Off you go! Your mom is waiting." you said opening the door to see Hinata waiting patiently. "Hi!"

"Hi!" Hinata replied with a small smile as the kids rushed up to her. "Thank you for taking care of them."

"Don't mention it." you said with a short nod. "See you next week."

As Boruto and Himawari waved at you, you walked back inside and closed the door taking in the silence. It was absolutely astonishing how much you became used to have them here, running down the stairs, laughing, Naruto and Boruto fighting from time to time, the dinner table filled. A knot in your stomach formed as the word family brushed gently into your mind, heartbeats intensifying at the thought. Shaking off the feeling and idea, you started cleaning around the house as, with one free day every two weeks, this was the only opportunity. Three months have passed since you and Boruto solved your issues, since everything took a turn for the better as life seemed to have a newfound balance. To top it all of, even the village was at peace with their Hokage's divorce and choice for a partner. That is how the thoughts started to flow in, life seemingly way too settled at this point. Not even a month ago, you and Naruto bought a house in which you could have enough space for an office that you both used, for two bedrooms for Himawari and Boruto, leaving you with an empty room. One day, you found yourself standing in the middle of it staring at the freshly painted walls when a sudden urge came over you. Hand slowly made its way on your belly, gripping the material of the shirt tightly, tears building into your eyes, past and present flashing before your eyes. What if .. in that single moment that changed everything you would've chosen to stay? What if .. instead of running away in a surge of pain and anger you would've chosen to let yourself be mended by the man you always loved? The familiar image of Naruto at the table reading through documents while having his breakfast, Himawari coloring away in her new sketch book, Boruto aggresively shouting at the TV for God knows what reason while you enjoyed your morning coffee, flashed before your eyes, the attention focused on an empty chair at the table. You wanted your own family. With him. What .. What if? Leaving the shower, you quickly pulled on a simple dress, hair pulled up in a high ponytail as you darted down the stairs. It was close to midnight, unable to sleep as the multitude of thoughts from the previous month and days rushed at an alarming speed throughout your mind. If a year ago someone would've told you that the Hokage of the Hidden Leaf would divorce for you, that you are the love of his life, you would've died of excessive laughter.

Walking into his office you noticed the lights were off, Naruto nowhere to be found and you could only assume it was in regards to the situation Shikamaru mentioned, one you were going to be briefed about in the morning. Noticing the house keys were on his desk, you knew he will return for them and you made yourself comfortable by sitting on the desk, looking through various documents.

"Good night, Sai!" you heard Naruto's voice booming in the hallway.

Naruto not saying a word meant that he was alone and an interesting thought crossed your mind. When he reached the office, he pushed the door open as his hand searched for the light switch.

"Leave it." you said as the moonlight unveiled a bit of your smirk.

"I thought you'll be long asleep." Naruto said surprised walking up to you.

"I couldn't." you replied grabbing him by the shirt. "I thought it would be better to surprise you."

"Surprised indeed." Naruto chuckled as his hands grabbed from under your knees to spread your legs open, placing himself in between them.

"We never used this office properly." you said taking off the Hokage cloak, placing kisses along his jaw.

"You're right." Naruto replied, hands slowly traveling along your thighs and up the arms, brushing ever so softly your goosebumps filled skin until reaching the bare shoulders. “I always imagined having you naked on my desk.”

Pulling his shirt off, a sigh left you, moonlight glistening over every single muscle on his body, broad shoulders diminishing your figure, blue eyes darkening seeing the lust pooling into yours instantly. His fingers went under the straps, pulling them slowly off your shoulders, going past the elbows as the dress rolled off your body, breasts spilling out of their confinement. Your arms fell backward, palms flat on the wooden desk and you leaned back biting on the lower lip. Naruto’s hands gripped the material of your dress, taking it off completely and leaving you bare before his hungry eyes. Heartbeats quickened feeling his fingers releasing your hair from its restraint as it fell in waves down your back and chest. Naruto took a step back, took a deep breath and did nothing but to look at you, taking in your nakedness into the moonlight with the blush of a 16 year old gracing his cheeks.

“You’re absolutely perfect.” his husky voice sending waves of pleasure throughout your body.

As if he said the magic words, you pulled up your legs on the edge of the desk, knees bent as you spread yourself even more. His breath hitched at the gesture, unknowingly palming his hardened cock driven by complete and utter desire. One of your hands started traveling slowly in between your breasts, down the stomach until it reached right in between your legs. It was as if you were getting high with how Naruto was looking at you, lips parted with uneven breaths, hooded eyes with arousal and desire flashing into them as if you were his prey. Index and middle fingers spread open your pussy, feeling such a pool of wetness it was surely already dripping down on the desk.

“Fuck.” Naruto whispered, swallowing hard all of the saliva pooled into his mouth. “I fucking love you.”

“Baby?” you asked noticing him palming furiously his cock every so often. “Can you do something for me?”

“Anything.” he replied with a slight desperation in his voice.

“Show me that beautiful cock.” you purred as your fingers swirled around in your wetness.

Naruto moved with such speed, for a second you thought his pants and underwear magically disappeared. He stood completely bare before you, cock throbbing and twitching slightly at the sight. You swallowed a moan seeing your gorgeous, strong man wrapping his hand around it, almost drooling as his eyes were focused on your wet core. The moment Naruto took a step towards you, a finger slipped into your pussy and lips parted to let out a quiet moan. He stopped, watching your every single movement, muscle tensing from the pleasure you were providing yourself with. Thumb acting quickly, he smeared all the pre-cum over the tip of his dick as you pumped the finger in and out of you.

“Stop.” you said as he took the last step, now right at the edge of the desk, close to your entrance.

“Baby?” Naruto asked with a shaky voice.

“Cum for me.” you said playfully slipping the second finger into your pussy while your thumb moved in circular motions on your clit.

Head falling backwards in pleasure as you felt your swollen spot, Naruto almost chocked on his own saliva watching you. Where was all of this was coming from? He had absolutely no idea but he adored it, adored you and your boldness, capable of surrendering himself to you, completely drunk with your pussy. Naruto could admit that when you spread your legs, he was under your control every single time even if he was not always showing it. You knew.

“You’re killing me.” Naruto growled as his breathing quickened.

Supporting yourself with one arm, muscles tensing under the pressure, the other was resting in between your legs, fingers working you tirelessly, a slight frustration building as you were not capable of pleasuring yourself to the level Naruto was capable of doing. You watched through half-lidded eyes how your man could not look away from how you were pleasuring yourself, his hand working up and down his cock with delicious strokes. The arousal that overcame you from watching him was so powerful it almost brought you over the edge. Moans filled the office, his free hand gripping your thigh to be closer to you, to feel your skin burn under his touch as Naruto fucked into his hand with the frustration of not being allowed to be inside of you. He loved nothing more than to bury himself so deep into your pussy until he had you screaming his name. You were loud, lacked inhibitions and Naruto loved you for it. The scene unfolding before him had him feel as if he was a teenage boy seeing a naked woman for the first time as his release was closing in a lot sooner than expected. He was incapable of resisting you, spread on his desk, provocative and in command.

“I-I’m cumming, baby ..” you said between labored breaths, the squelching of your wetness as you fucked yourself with your fingers shamelessly filling the entire room.

“Me too.” Naruto grunted, cock being pumped at a never seen before speed. “Cum with me, baby.”

Muscles tightening all over your body, the coil in your stomach threatening to break as your curved up fingers attacked the swollen spot. The moment it snapped, your moan boomed, legs shaking uncontrollably, arm almost caving under you while watching Naruto tighten his jaw until teeth could be heard cracking under the dangerous pressure, white, hot cum pooling into his palm.

As you were about to give in, Naruto wrapped one of his arms around you and your hands fell on his shoulders in a deep relaxation. The box of tissues on the desk suffered a swift attack, Naruto quickly wiping his hand off before grabbing your hip and cleaning you up as well. His lips found yours in a hot and passionate kiss, tongues not hesitating to meet each other.

“You’re driving me crazy.” Naruto whispered against your lips.

“I can see.” you chuckled looking down to see his cock harder than ever, as if he didn’t just came.

“I want to fuck you on this desk until it breaks.” a low growl erupted from the back of his throat, shivers running down your spine. “And for what you did, you are going to take it without as much as a whimper for as long as I want.”

“Yes, baby.” you complied brushing your lips against his teasingly.

“No begging to stop.” Naruto warned knowing you very well by now. “And if you cry because you cannot take it anymore, you’ll do it happily on my cock.”

“Yes, baby.” you stole a quick kiss. “Fuck me as you wish and as much as you want. I’m yours.”

“Good girl.” Naruto’s dangerously husky voice entrapped your senses, him using the tonality that could have you cumming just by hearing it.

His hands went under your knees, pulling you towards him and over the edge of the desk more than you had expected. At first you thought your legs will find their way on his deliciously broad shoulders. However, he had a completely different plan for you, hands pushing into the back of your knees until they gently brushed your hard nipples. Eyes widened seeing the vicious smirk gracing his lip and you knew that Naruto will go so deep in this angle you will scream the life out of you. That did not mean that you weren’t completely aroused, his height giving him the advantage in using you in all kinds of positions. Your fingers wrapped around his wrists, swallowing hard watching his cock resting on your pussy, drenching itself in your desperate wetness for more lubrication.

When Naruto pushed himself into you, your mouth opened widely, ragged moans leaving you as he gave you time to adjust. The position was so delicious, you could feel every single ridge of his cock, every bit of its skin kissing your gummy walls. He seemed bigger than ever before, harder, wider and you clenched your jaw.

“Easy, baby.” Naruto purred completely drunk on how you looked and felt, noticing the struggle in which he proudly put you in. “You can take it.”

“S-so big.” you breathed unevenly.

“I’m so proud of you, my love.” he praised going past the half of his length. “You were made for me.”

Naruto was completely mesmerized of how your pussy was sucking him in, inch by inch, labored breath coming from you in quick waves, nails digging into the skin of his wrists. When he finally bottomed out into you, a scream escaped your lips feeling his cock burning through you. Naruto started moving in and out slowly, letting you adjust and enjoy every bit of pleasure he was capable of offering, a weak smile curving your lips as he stretched you out. Wetness was pooling out of you as his pace increased into such a delicious one your head fell backwards with loud moans escaping from the both of you, Naruto mercilessly pounding into you to the hilt, not giving you any chance of sucking in breath, pussy squelching with vulgarity every time his cock fucked you shamelessly.

“Such a pretty, tight pussy.” Naruto moaned watching his dick disappearing in between your wet folds, at his words pussy clenching around him.

He leaned into you, letting your legs go to rest on his forearms as his hands grabbed onto your upper arms for a better grip. You felt being pulled on his cock at the same time as him slamming into you. Naruto was using your body to fuck himself with it, moaning even louder than you did, a deep sense of satisfaction and proudness overcoming you knowing you were the one that made him feel like this.

“F-faster!” you moaned feeling as if you were about to jump over the edge, slowly breaking away from any sense of reality. “D-deeper, baby! P-Ple-AH!-please!”

Naruto grunted, letting go of your arms to grab your shoulders, pushing your body into him even more and a furious pace took over him. One of his hands shot up and went to softly pinch your nipples causing you to squirm and moan before latching his fingers around your neck, pressing into the skin as you gasped in pleasure while chasing the air. You caught an amusing, yet vicious gaze from Naruto, drunk and accomplished with your present state, the fast and rough pace with which his cock devoured your pussy tearing into you, the desk moving slightly with each thrust, its legs thumping against the wooden floor.

“FUCK!” you moaned as each thrust met your cervix roughly and deliciously. “s so much! s-so, so go-good!”

“You’re taking it well.” Naruto smirked catching your fucked out gaze, barely able to moan anymore as he ravaged your pussy and body.

Through a muttered “fuck”, Naruto felt your release hanging by a thread, pussy clenching constantly around his cock, strangling it with such force and pleasure his knees almost gave out. Both of your moans intertwined in the air, your back arching, hands wrapping around the one Naruto was holding your neck with, nails digging into the skin mercilessly and he knew.

“Come on, baby.” Naruto said pulling out completely before slamming back into you, repeating the movement as you unraveled. “Cum on my cock.”

The tip of his cock was playing inside with your swollen spot, teasing its deep nerves that were shooting up throughout your body. You started shivering and that is when he roughly pushed into you to the hilt, toes curling and muscles tensing, a high-pitched moan erupting as the coil in your stomach broke, unraveling yourself before his eyes. Naruto slowed down his movements, letting you ride out your high as he let go of your neck and shoulder. He wrapped your legs around his waist while his arms went around your waist, feeling the need to have you closer in such fragile state. Spilling all over him and his desk, Naruto resumed the chase of his own release, dragging his cock in and out of your over sensitive pussy, not tearing his eyes off your pretty and fucked out face, his lips stealing hungry kisses from yours. Eyes completely unfocused, lips parted slightly with a bit of drool pooling out of your mouth and your breathing trying to return to normal. Sloppy thrusts brought you back to your senses, arms sneaking around his hips, hands grabbing his ass cheeks as you pushed him into you with the last bit of force you had. Naruto choked out a moan as he came into you, filling your pussy up, the warmth of his seed sending shivers down your spine. He leaned in, your foreheads colliding in a pool of sweat mixed with the scent of sex and both laughed shortly before meeting in a deep, passionate kiss.

“I love you.” Naruto whispered against your lips, both wrapped around each other on the desk.

“I love you more.” you replied with a sudden urge to cry that you held back, having no idea where it came from.

“Does a certain someone ..” Naruto smiled pulling back to see his cum trickling out of your pussy and down your thighs. “ .. want a baby?”

“Maybe.” you replied avoiding his gaze as you plucked out a couple of napkins from the box to wipe it all off.

Naruto froze in his spot, bright blue studying your beautiful face, the moonlight revealing a soft, filled with love smile he hasn’t seen before. He never thought you would want a baby even if he wanted to have a conversation about it multiple times. Naruto didn’t wanted to come off weird giving the fact that he already had two children from a previous marriage. But .. after what happened the first time, he lost you the moment you left the village, the possibility of you having his child one day being just a distant dream, one he never thought he would be able to make it a reality. Now there you were: the woman he loved as never before, the love of his life, the most mind blowing sex he has ever experienced, completely naked, in all your beauty, on his Hokage desk with eyes engulfed in a blur that seemed to send you into a deep thought and with a smile that could have men march out for war.

“Y/N ..” Naruto whispered pulling you up into his arms as he made way for his chair, sitting on it with you on his lap.

“Don’t say anything.” you smiled softly, fingers caressing his blushing cheeks. “I was simply messing with you.”

“Do you?” Naruto asked trapping your eyes into his.

“I-I ..” you stuttered noticing the hope flashing into those beautiful eyes. “I thought about it.”

“Y/N.” Naruto repeated. “Do YOU?”

“Yes.” you swallowed harder than ever.

As if thousands of fires were lit inside Naruto, he spun you around in his lap completely and pushed your body flat on the desk, bent over various documents. He lost it in a split second, that confident, serious “yes” resetting his brain completely. It was completely pointless that you two just fucked because he wanted to fuck you again and again. You gasped loudly feeling his cock poking at your entrance.

“Naruto?” you asked shivering, wetness dripping out of you yet again, the hunger you had for this man never completely satisfied.

“Let’s make a baby, love.” Naruto’s raspy voice tickled your senses, hands tightly grabbing your hips while his knee spread out your legs. “Our beautiful baby.”

❈❈

“Y/N?” Sakura’s voice pulled you back to reality. “Are you alright?”

“Hey, Sakura.” you smiled while waiting for your ramen at Ichiraku’s. “Y-yes. Why?”

“I’ve called you multiple times.” Sakura chuckled taking a seat next to you and ordering. “What’s wrong?”

“Nothing.” you shrugged avoiding her gaze.

She frowned but didn’t pushed, always knowing you needed space before opening up fully. Something was clearly off, dark circles under your eyes, pale skin as if you were sick. A knot formed into Sakura's stomach, a weird feeling catching up to her.

“I think I fucked up.” you sighed. “I somehow gave away the fact that I want a baby.”

“Oh?!” Sakura grinned. “And?”

“Naruto seemed over the moon.” you shrugged. “But since then it’s been a month and he is acting extremely strange.”

“How so?” Sakura asked confused.

“He barely comes home.” you replied feeling tears building up. “I spent more time with his children than with him. We barely sleep together anymore, he never answers when I call and if I do? He shuts me down completely. Gaara sent me back home to work directly with him but suddenly I am working solely with Shikamaru and ..”

“And?” she asked extremely concerned as she did not expected this seeing how in love the man was with you.

“Naruto slept at Hinata’s for at least 4 times in the past month.” you added the nail to the coffin.

“Excuse me?” Sakura growled, her temple vein almost bursting from the anger. “Is this a joke?”

“No.” you replied with the tears mercilessly attacking your cheeks. “I drove him away and I knew it will happen one way or the other. Naruto is going back, Sakura.”

“Over my dead body.” Sakura scoffed handing you chopsticks. “Did he tell you that?”

“No.” you shook your head while contemplating if you should stab yourself in the eyes with one of the sticks and be done with it. “But what would be the other explanation?”

“I can’t believe it for a second.” Sakura said more enraged than expected. “Naruto acted like an idiot in love since you returned. He got divorced, had both of his kids meet you, bought a house with you, was thrilled that you want a baby and .. now what?”

“I can’t ..” you said breathing unevenly. “ .. I don’t ..”

Knocking over the ramen bowl, Sakura jumped and wrapped her arms around you protectively. Eyes widened, breath uneven and ragged, heartbeats booming, she quickly realized you were having a panic attack. Throwing money for the food, she pulled you out of Ichiraku’s only to bump right into Naruto and Shikamaru.

“Y/N?!” Naruto panicked along with Shikamaru and darted towards you.

“No!” Sakura thundered placing her palm on his chest to keep the distance. “Leave her alone, idiot!”

“W-what?!” Naruto asked shocked.

“She is having a panic attack.” Shikamaru said looking into your eyes. “Can you breathe for me?”

“I-I ..” you tried finding a rhythm into your breathing that seemed to not be there. “It’s too much.”

“Sakura, I know what it’s like.” Shikamaru said pulling you into his arms. “Leave her with me.”

“You stay here.” Sakura almost bit Naruto’s head off as Shikamaru disappeared with you in his arms.

“What happened?” Naruto asked completely broken which caught her off guard.

“Not coming home, sleeping at Hinata’s happened to her.” Sakura did not waste a single second. “Divorcing and buying a house happened to her.”

“I-I did that?” Naruto followed feeling as if he was about to throw up. “It’s not what you think.”

“Are you going back to Hinata?” Sakura asked pulling him from the middle of the road.

“What?!” Naruto jumped completely bewildered with the question. “NO!”

“Then what?” Sakura raised an eyebrow.

“I am .. Well ..” Naruto replied with a sad smile. “Let me buy you some Ichiraku's.”

Sakura frowned while debating if she should simply punch Naruto in the throat or let the man be. The problem was that 6 days later after the incident, with Ino in a mission that seemed to be endless, Sakura received a phone call in the evening from you sounding too calm to be real despite what you were telling her. The night before, you saw Naruto leaving the house with a bag, having no idea what it was inside of it but could only assume there were clothes. You spoke with such calmness and peace that Sakura could only deduct that a decision was made on your part, one you did not shared in the call. However, by now, Sakura knew exactly what Naruto was doing and how everything led up to this point. Calling on Sarada for dinner, Sakura picked up the phone and made another call.

"Time's up." Sakura said with sadness, hoping it was not too late. "I think she is leaving."

❈❈

Kneeling in the middle of the living room, your fingers ran across the zipper dragging it along the bag to close it. A photo of you and Naruto caught your eyes, one you took the first day you came back to the Hidden Leaf and started working with him. That was one of the most happiest you have ever been since leaving, not even the sheer possibility of today crossing your mind at that time. A chuckle escaped, not being able to believe how life changed in a simple year, how you managed to squeeze in it what others did in a lifetime. Gaze moved to the photo of you with Boruto and Himawari and that is when the first tears settled in, knowing you will miss the tiny bundle of joy that Hima was along with that explosive and stubborn brother of hers. On the coffee table there were 5 letters: one for your friends, one for Hinata, one for Himawari, one for Boruto and one for Naruto. They deserved an explanation, one you have not provided anyone with the last time you left. Was it cowardice? For sure. You had this toxic trait of not handling things head on, running at the first sign of heartbreak. Could anyone blame you, really? You single handedly kept loving a man that should've stayed lost to you, crossed one of the boundaries and slept with him, broke up an entire family, stole the man afterwards, created the life you dreamed of with him when he already had that with another woman, paraded through the village with him as you were never in the wrong to begin with expecting for everything to be perfect, to end up growing old with him without any repercussions? Hm. How naive!

"What are you doing?" Naruto's voice snapped you back to reality.

"Reminiscing." you replied standing up with your back turned on him.

"What's with the bag?" he asked, panic could be distinguished in his voice.

"We really had fun." you chuckled looking at all of the pictures scattered on the walls of the living room. "Good, amazing fun."

"Y/N .." Naruto sighed taking a step forward to which you turned with a smile on your face. "What's with the bag?"

"After such hard work I decided I need a vacation." you replied tilting your head slightly before bending to pick up the bag and swing it on your shoulder. "Such a year can have a person yearning for one."

"You're leaving?" Naruto asked bewildered. "Why?"

"Since you are here, I can only assume that Sakura called." you said with a shrug and a raised eyebrow. "Should I really dignify your question with an answer?"

"It is not what you think at all." he said with such sadness in his eyes you felt breaking down completely. "I am not going back and I am not leaving you."

"Naruto .." you shook your head. "I realize that I shouldn't have told you that I want a baby so quickly. It is understandable you would .. get scared."

"That's not .." Naruto frowned. "What? I told you that night to make a baby and, if I remember correctly, we did just that multiple times."

"You wouldn't be the first man to be over the moon about the prospect of a baby until reality hits." you said walking right past him and into the hallway. "I cannot even blame you because you already have two."

"Can you just drop that bag?" Naruto asked pinching the bridge of his nose. "What has gotten into you?"

"You used to have the attention span of a 2 year old 13 years ago." you said turning to face him after putting on your shoes. "I assumed that changed now being Hokage and all. If you cannot realize why is this happening .. I cannot help you."

Naruto simply stared at you with parted lips and wide eyes, seeing clearly that he wanted to say something but he could not. You laughed, shook your head and clicked your tongue.

"Yeah .." you said nodding slightly amused.

"It was a really busy period in the office." Naruto said swallowing hard.

"I know." you raised an eyebrow. "I was there and yet I somehow managed to keep the same attitude."

Tensed jaw, clenched teeth, you both stared at each other in a fight between the truth and secrets, all of it crashing slowly into the peak of the moment that would have to change your lives even more. Thirteen years rushed before your eyes up until the moment of you leaving the village. Oh, so broken and so young! Both crying like two newborns, unable to express all of the feelings that were brewing in between the two of you. Naruto could easily remember the moment you turned your back on him and he stretched his arm out to catch you without success. You could easily remember your arms twitching to hug the boy you love before leaving but without success. Two teenagers uncapable of handling the maturity of the situation.

"I slept over at Hinata's a few times because .." Naruto spoke trying to find the words of saying it. ".. we needed to have a conversation. I needed something from her and from the kids that required me to be there for a bit."

"What did you need?" you asked. "The divorce papers to be unsigned?"

"OH MY GOD!" Naruto roared out of nowhere rubbing his temples. "CAN YOU STOP FOR A SECOND?"

"Oh?" your eyebrows shot up in surprise.

"I did something." he swallowed hard, letting his bright blue pool into your eyes to vouch for his truthfulness. "Not being home the entire month relates to that as I needed to handle some things besides the Hokage responsibilities. Juggling with all of that usually caught me falling asleep in the office or on the couch at home. This thing I did included Hinata, the children and some of our friends. That is why I have been all over the place, believe me!"

"And what is that thing, Naruto?" you asked feeling your head exploding at how vague the explanation was. "At least .. tell me what you did. You know very well that I am understanding and we can fix it. No matter what, we will find a way. We always do."

"I-I can't." Naruto winced realizing the situation he was in.

"Well .. that's .." you choked out some tears. ".. unexpected."

Shaking your head, you cried and laughed at the same time looking at the love of your life struggling to be truthful. Oh God, you wanted nothing more than to jump into his arms and kiss the life out of him! You wanted to tear his clothes off and have him right there and then! But you felt pain. There was something going on and you could not shake the feeling that he was afraid of telling you that it was the end of the road.

"I love you." you smiled. "God, I do it so much is terrifying."

"Y/N, listen clearly to what I said, please." Naruto pleaded. "I love you and I need you to trust me."

Tilting your head a bit, you dropped the bag on the floor and walked up to Naruto that shivered when your hands cupped his face. Pushing up slightly on your toes, your lips captured his in a soft, long kiss to which tears spilled again out of your eyes. Both of you could hear hearts beating in sync, love wrapped around the two people that loved each other more than anything in the world.

"It's alright." you whispered pulling back with a smile, tears cutting into your red cheeks mercilessly. "Don't worry for a second."

Taking a few steps back, you grabbed the bag from the floor and swung it back on your shoulder, trembling with the thought of leaving the house that has been your home with him. Proudness filled you as you managed to bring to life a dream you had in your heart and mind for 13 years. Indeed, for a short period of time but it happened nonetheless. Taking a deep breath, you walked up to the door, fingers wrapping around the doorknob.

"Fuck!" Naruto said. "STOP!"

"Naruto, please don't make this .." you tried saying it with a composed tonality that wouldn't betray how broken you were inside.

"Marry me." Naruto cut you off instantly.

Completely freezing in your spot, blood rushing through your veins at an alarming speed that caused slight dizziness, heartbeats booming into your ears as you could not process properly his words.

"I missed this past month from our lives because I kept leaving the village to find the perfect spot." Naruto began explaining, the shakiness of his voice signaling you that he was crying, a rare sight while at that. "Shikamaru was left in charge and that is why you were always with him. I was cutting you off on the phone because, most of the times, I was surrounded by Ino, Shizune and, since your panic attack, Sakura that helped me with organizing everything. Sleeping at Hinata's was because I asked for her blessing as the mother of my children and their blessing as well since I always wanted nothing more than for you to feel as a part of my first family. Himawari and Boruto are as important to you as you are to them. They also wanted to be a part of the preparations which usually ended up with Himawari falling asleep on me and I chose to not wake her up. Sleeping at the office or on the couch was me trying to hide all of this from you because, somehow, you are the only person in my life I can never lie to."

Naruto's words rushed through your mind at the speed of light, bumping into every single ridge of your brain, completing the missing bits and pieces of everything he told you earlier. It was the exact same but you were unable to piece it together. Breathing picking up the pace, bag dropped to the floor and you quickly turned around to face him. You were right. Naruto had tears flowing out of his baby blue eyes, pain all over his face out of fear of losing you again while holding out his palm. In the middle of it there was a small, velvety box, opened for your eyes to see a bright ring shining into the lights of your home.

"Marry me, Y/N." he said again, voice broken and body trembling.

Eyes darting from the ring to him and back again, you swallowed harder than ever before, almost choking, tears matching Naruto's as you both looked at each other with nothing else but pure, undeniable love.

[jordyn-degas]

All my life

Characters: Naruto Uzumaki x fem! reader

Warnings: characters are aged up; blood; mentions of death; angst and fluff and smut and whatnot;

💀 NSFW! Minors DNI! 💀

Notes: i found myself writing away on this while taking a break from my main two WIP - just my brain being overloaded

Special note: this is a spur of the moment, emotions fueled story i wrote for my babe @uchihamylove26 that i appreciate so fucking terribly 🥰 nothing but love love so much love - yes, it's kind of a last moment surprise 😏

Mood 🎧 LABRINTH - Forever

"All my life, my heart has yearned for a thing I cannot name." - André Breton

There was a time when you would believe anything that anyone would tell you. Of course, no one can fight or oppose the innocence of a child even if they were born in a world where the powerful are either praised or hunted, in a world where being different does not count much in the eyes of others, in a world where you have to find a way to belong while forced into it, in a world when your only chance is to be the best there is. That is what the innocence of a child has to fight and endure before failing terribly, diminishing into nothing but the purest form of maturity when there should be none. Losing too much and too many, fighting too much and too many, feeling too much for too many, bleeding too much for too many, crying too much for too many. That is how your heart was on the brink of turning into ashes, scorched by the darkness of a world you no longer deemed necessary. Why should a child face the world without their beloved parents? Why should a teenager not be capable to love as they see others doing it? Why should they be subjected to pain when it's their time in life to run around and play aimlessly? Why should you become the person in need of saving? Why should you feel that it is alright to die?

Questions roamed your mind right on the brink of death, no longer caring that each individual had a unique life, you have deemed yours unnecessary for quite some time now and it was alright. Through all the pain, the suffering and the darkness, you have managed to find a purpose. That is what life is about, right? Roads that lead you to the final purpose, the final act.

"You." you hissed pointing your finger at the person in front of you that was caged painfully to the ground. "Remember when we first met? God, I was a menace."

Ignoring completely the danger your senses screamed about, you dragged your feet along the ground, dust clouds lifting with every step, blood trickling down the arms and pooling into your chest. The purpose had to be fulfilled.

"And somehow you managed to save me." a chuckle escaped before gradually turning into a hoarse laugh. "You were relentless. I contemplated cutting your head off at least once. You simply did not give up on me. You refused."

Whoever was watching from the sidelines could easily say that you had a massive death wish. Your body was angled forward, the limp in your left leg getting more painful by the second, a black rod embedded into your right shoulder as it became heavier with each step you took. The purpose had to be fulfilled.

"Why the hell did you come into my life?" you sighed rolling your eyes. "Why the hell did you cared?"

Grunting, leaving trails of blood behind you, your hand wrapped around a black rod that was embedded into the body of one, if not the only, person you loved so much you would die for them. Well .. you already chose to.

"Because of you I started to feel again." you snorted, amused terribly by the fact that you actually had a functioning heart. "You made me want to be the strongest, to be the greatest, to love and protect. You made me want to be ME again."

The other hand wrapped around the rod, under the other, pulling it out with all the force you had left. Wanting to grab another one, you were pulled backwards by the collar of your half-ripped blouse, bandages wrapped around your torso and half of your arm.

"Futile." Pain's voice boomed into your ear.

The only, rational thing you could think of was to laugh. A clear, happy laugh that had even him slightly surprised. It was, however, short-lived as another black rod slashed right through your stomach, blood exploding out of your mouth and flowing down your chin, neck and chest, Pain's fingers letting go of your collar, waiting for you to make your grand drop to the ground. How disappointing! You were still standing, barely, but it did not matter.

"Y/N .." the voice you, oh, loved so fucking much spoke as you could feel your spirit shattering piece by piece along with the last few breaths.

Your head moved slightly to the right, tilting it a bit as your eyes comprehended the body of a girl with the purest of hearts, one of you've always yearned to have. A dear friend that was mercilessly punished for acting on the same love you possessed. The smile of sadness graced your lips as you wished for her to see that the fight she put up with was not in vain. You were going to set free the person that your hearts gravitated towards even if it was the last thing you do in this poisoned world.

"P-please .. stop .." sad, angered tones pinched your eardrums and you tilted your head into the opposite direction.

Bright blue engulfed into a never seen before shock melted into your eyes, seeing on the face you could never get enough of a fear of such purity it had you shake your head slowly. Can you imagine? Standing before the person you love, accepting the trade of your life for theirs, knowing that this is the last scene. Memories and emotions exchanged through teary eyes, the curtain settling slowly as you approached the last minute of the final act.

"Your dream to become Hokage?" you asked before coughing a copious amount of blood. "Don't you dare disappoint me."

Eyes flickering with pain, you were watched and admired as you slammed your palms together, Chakra snapping powerfully in between them. With a laugh that could warm the coldest of hearts, the black rods you aimed for all this time broke in half, knees hitting the ground as freedom graced your presence. That was it.

"Y/N!" a heart shattering scream was the last thing you heard before your succumbed into an infinite darkness.

You fulfilled your most desired purpose, the one that fueled your will to live and do it purely: to love and protect Naruto Uzumaki.

→ 4 years later ←

"This was the last time." you said grabbing the bra and shirt from the floor. "I mean it!"

"You said that .." Naruto chuckled wrapping his arms around your waist. ".. the last three times as well."

His warm breath caressed your neck, lips trailing small kisses from behind the ear and along the shoulder before he softly bit on it. A deep sigh left your body, fingers intertwining with his on your belly.

"Naruto, don't be an idiot." you replied pulling away from him. "You're getting married in a month."

"It's not my fault you decided to return the exact same night I proposed to Hinata." he replied wrapping his fingers around your wrist and pulling you back, breasts colliding against his toned chest. "It was as if you sensed it, I swear."

"I had no idea but it also wasn't a surprise." you said averting your gaze.

"What do you mean?" he asked, index and middle fingers settling under your chin and pushing it up so his bright blue eyes could capture yours.

"I mean .." you coughed slightly. "Hinata always loved you and you were bound to notice it at some point. She never gave up and got what she wanted."

"You sound .. different." Naruto squinted a bit as if he was searching for that burning answer to the question he has asked himself since before the war. "Does this bother you?"

"W-what?" you asked swallowing hard. "No. Why would it?"

Trying to hide under Naruto's deep gaze, you turned around and covered your breasts with the bra, pointing at him to help you close it. The hot tips of his fingers danced around the skin on your back, each movement being met by goosebumps and you quickly put the shirt on. You could feel his gaze following you around the room with a suspicion that shouldn't have been there in the first place. That bloody organ inside your chest betrayed you once again, heartbeats intensifying while trying to get dressed and leave as soon as possible.

"This is not fair, Naruto." you sighed standing in the doorframe, back turned as you were unable to face him. "For her, for you and .. for me."

"For you?" he asked feeling a glimmer of hope bubbling.

"It's done." you cut him off quickly. "Go out there and be an amazing, loving husband."

"Alright." Naruto caved as much as he did not wanted to.

Squeezing your eyes shut as if you were in pain, biting the inside of your cheek, you left his bedroom, his hallway and his home. Stepping quickly into the middle of the busy street, head falling backwards to meet the dark sky and its stars, you felt doing something you haven't done since the war ended.

"You being here means only one thing." Shikmaru said as he sat at the edge of the Third Hokage's sculpted head.

Not replying, you walked up next to him and sat down, legs crossed, hand shaking as you pulled out a packet of cigarettes, unable to pull one out on your own. Tears streamed down your face as Shikamaru, your better half, placed a cigarette in between your trembling lips, the sound of a lighter filling up the air. Crackling slowly under the pressure of the flame, your cigarette started burning, lungs punched with the undeniable feeling of a vice.

"I-I can't think .." you whispered, smoke coming out of your mouth.

"Come here." Shikamaru said throwing his arm around your shoulders. "I'm here."

"Why didn't I come home earlier?" you asked overlooking the village. "Gaara didn't needed me anymore for quite some time."

"Because you were afraid." Shikamaru replied, his lips touching your temple. "You have always been afraid to let yourself love and you cannot be blamed for it. The loss of your parents and sister, comrades and friends broke you."

"I died for him, Shika." you breathed, the hotness of the cigarette pinching your lips. "I loved in that moment so much that I was alright with me being gone, with him finding happiness, with him loving someone."

"You thought of yourself as being dead." he replied. "You are very much alive and everything you had wished for Naruto back then became a reality. Living in the Sand Village with Gaara, away from everything that ever broke you, was the decision that mended your heart, your soul. Do not regret it."

"That is the thing." you sighed as he wiped off a couple of tears. "I don't regret a single thing that I did. Including sleeping with him behind Hinata's back when they are about to get married. You know I trust you with my life and I cannot lie to you .."

"In those moments you felt that he is yours." Shikamaru stole the exact thought your were about to put into words. "Do you want to know what I think?"

"Hm?" you turned your head to face him, flicking the finished cigarette into the air.

"He will always be yours." Shikamaru shrugged. "And you .. his."

Lower lip trembling, hands tugging at his vest, tears rolling down your puffy cheeks once again, Shikamaru smiled softly and pulled you into his lap, body curling into him in hopes of disappearing. You never thanked him for being the best friend you have ever wished for, that better half capable of keeping you grounded but .. Shikamaru knew. He always does. All my life, my heart has yearned for a thing I cannot name.

➢➢➢

A week later you found yourself staring at multiple dresses while holding the invitation to Naruto and Hinata's wedding in your hand. It was one of those days when you contemplated between burning it and keeping it. Every single moment of your life seemed as if moving in slow motion, barely active in any conversation with your friends, unable to maintain a trail of thought, your mind completely filled with every single touch Naruto has ever inflicted upon you, every single kiss that blessed your lips or skin, every single sweet nothing whispered in your ear, every single morning with breakfast in bed. You were remembering a life that you could've had, one wrapped in a hidden lie known only by those you both trusted. The common occurrence of passing past by each other in the street, shoulders brushing, fingers slightly touching as a deep pain suffocated your heart, small smiles being stolen over a bowl of ramen at Ichiraku's with friends, innocent touches that would only fuel the fire in your heart.

"Y/N?" Sakura asked squeezing your shoulder. "Have you decided?"

"Can you come again with me tomorrow?" you asked eyeing the ground.

"Of course." she replied with a small smile. "It's no rush."

"Thank you." you smiled placing the invitation in your bag. "Are you coming tonight to Shikamaru's?"

"Yes!" Sakura grinned. "I need to get some drinks in your system."

"Please!" you groaned as you both left the shop.

"It'll be just us two and Ino." Sakura said with a sly smirk.

"What about Ten Ten? Hinata?" you asked surprised.

"Both in a mission." Sakura replied stopping to buy some medicinal herbs.

"Then come over and we can go from mine." you said relieving her of one of the bags.

Throwing your arms around each other's waists, holding one bag each, you made your way towards your home feeling a bit better, feeling as if tonight's going to be a great night. Right?

➢➢➢

And that is how you found yourself spread wide open on a desk somewhere in Shikamaru's house, friends laughing and drinking outside while you had the man you love ravage you in the darkness. Fingers playing with one of your nipples while a tongue swirled deliciously on your wetness, the other fingers exploring the inside of your pussy. Back arched against the wooden piece of furniture, arms thrown back in pleasure, moans softly cutting the silence. And all you had to do was to flirt with Kiba while sitting on his lap. The image of Naruto furiously dragging you inside the house and the way his tongue worked its magic had the building orgasm spill, legs shaking as his hands moved to hold your thighs, drinking in all of you and more.

"Not so tough now, eh?" Naruto asked with a smirk plastered on his face, the faint moonlight revealing his cum smeared lips, an image that could easily send you over the edge again.

"With those lips you kiss your soon-to-be wife?" you bit back viciously, a wave of deep satisfaction washing over you.

A shrill sound came out the moment his hands wrapped around your ankles and pulled them upwards, legs resting on his shoulders, a dark shade of blue taking over his usual eyes. Hands grasping your hips, pulled to the edge of the desk a bit more, Naruto let his body weight press on your legs until you were exposed under his lustful gaze more than ever before. The tip of his cock grazed your entrance and you jumped slightly from the contact much to his amusement. This man was so incredibly sexy it was almost bewildering to you. Hair hanging on his forehead as there was nothing to hold it in place, cum smeared lips slightly apart, biceps tensed as he held onto your body, a pale blush caressing his cheeks as he eyed your exposed pussy as if it was the first time seeing it. You could never understand the obsession of women with Sasuke when there was Naruto, at least in your eyes. Satisfaction could be read on his face as your eyes started to widen, inhaling sharp breaths as his cock slowly pushed past the muscle ring, slowly making its way inside of you. Your pussy welcomed him with excitement, having it stretched out being its favorite meal of the day. Mouth opening wider, uneven breaths coming out as you adjusted as much as possible, Naruto's tongue finding yours, lips melting into each other with him bottoming out in your hungry pussy.

"I'm sorry." Naruto whispered against your lips as he pulled out.

"For wh-.." words caught in your throat as he slammed into you in one go, a dragged out and loud moan erupting from your lungs.

You're mad at me. You thought as your arms fell backwards again, his delicious cock being sucked in by your wet pussy, every thrust being fully pumped into you, skins slapping against each other with vulgar noises. Hands finding their way on his back with nails scratching Naruto on purpose, a low growl resounding into your mouth, picking up the pace with every scratch, mercilessly bullying the gummy walls your pussy blessed him with. You were getting off on the high of Naruto trying to explain the claw marks on his back, the nastiness and viciousness of your own thoughts arousing you even more, clenching around the best cock you've ever had in your entire life, that earning yourself sweet moans from the man that could not stay away from you. Keeping your hips in place, Naruto pushed himself even more into you and you gasped from the sensation of your cervix being hit so perfectly, hot juices spilling out of your pussy, splashing all over his pelvis and thighs, dripping on the wooden floor. Your mind was filled only with him. Him and his throbbing, hard cock claiming you completely, ravaging your pussy to the point of not being able to walk properly after.

"So good for me." Naruto breathed into your mouth. "This perfect, tight pussy only for me."

"Only f-for you!" you moaned as the desk started moving along with the powerful thrusts he pumped into you.

The squelching sounds your pussy was making as his cock slammed deeply inside of you was messing with your mind terribly. Your want and arousal for Naruto combined with his hunger for your was driving you over the edge, the swollen spot being completely under his control, nerves electrified to the maximum, teeth clashing in the sloppy kisses you were exerting on each other.

"God, you were made for me!" Naruto moaned with every clench of your pussy. "Fuck!"

"You fill me up so good!" you started rambling from the pleasure, losing all sense of reality. "So, so big in my little pussy!"

Through all the thrusts, the moans and incredible pleasure, you didn't even realized how out of it you were before as next words rolled off your lips.

"I love you!" you moaned digging your nails into his back, wanting nothing more than to write your name on it. "Fuck! So fucking much!"

The words shot through Naruto's entire body and nervous system, gasping when hearing them, wanting nothing more than to consume you and absorb you into himself for life. Picking you up, he sat on the desk as he felt your were both close, your knees digging into the wood, not slowing down the pace, bouncing up and down his big cock with his head falling backwards. Sucking him in, clenching constantly around the throbbing shaft, Naruto placed one of his hands behind your neck and pulled you forward until your foreheads were flushed against each other.

"Say it again." Naruto growled eyes fixated on yours.

"I love you." you whispered feeling the coil in your stomach tightening.

"Again, baby." he followed capturing your lips in a deep kiss, his heart beating as never before.

"I love you so fucking much, Naruto." you said breathless, eyes rolling into the back of your head as he started meeting your thrusts halfway.

Tensing slightly, your pussy clenched around him like never before and the coil snapped, releasing you into a crashing orgasm, mouth wide open, moaning your release into Naruto's as he fucked his cock into you a bit longer, chasing his own while completely enthralled with the words he always wished he'd hear one day. With your lips wrapped around his, Naruto let himself go, spilling into you completely as you always loved the way it felt when filled up by him.

"Fuck!" you whispered pulling back a bit shocked, only now, realizing what you said not too long ago. "I'm sorry."

"I'm not marrying her." Naruto said still inside of you. "No one in their right mind would do such a thing when they love someone else."

"W-what?" you asked swallowing hard.

"I can't marry her when I'm in love with you." he said again not knowing how'd you react seeing the expression on your face.

"Say it again." you cupped his cheeks.

"I can't marry her when I'm in love with you." Naruto repeated seeing tears building into your eyes.

"A-are you?" your voice shaky and unsure. "R-really? R-really?"

"I love YOU." he smiled brushing off a couple of tears that escaped your eyes. "I always did."

"B-but .." you tried speaking but were too overwhelmed.

"Wrong timing." he whispered against your lips. "Do I have to say it again until you understand?"

"Yes." you nodded searching in his eyes for a second-guessing that was not there.

"I love you, Y/N." Naruto said stealing a kiss. "I love you!"

"Oi!" Shikamaru banged on the door and you both froze. "Are you two done fucking on my desk? The dinner is ready."

"Shit." you whispered pushing yourself off Naruto. "I have to clean myself."

"THIS IS NOT A SECRET FOR US!" Ino yelled from the other side of the door.

"Two minutes!" Naruto announced taking your hand into his. "Come on, baby. Let's get you all cleaned up."

Putting your clothes back on, arm wrapped around your shoulders as yours went around his waist, you both stepped into the bathroom next door with your friends grinning while gathered in the hallway. You were going to worry about Hinata and the fallout tomorrow. Tonight? You wanted to hear that 'I love you' being whispered once again into your ear at the dinner table.

All my life, my heart has yearned for a thing I cannot name.

And now I can.

Naruto Uzumaki.

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OHHH MY GOD, BABE!🥺❤️ this….. is…. A work of art lmao the way i audibly screamed. Omg tysm for this. I am LIVING😍 this was so hot and ugh my heart!!!

All my life

Characters: Naruto Uzumaki x fem! reader

Warnings: characters are aged up; blood; mentions of death; angst and fluff and smut and whatnot;

💀 NSFW! Minors DNI! 💀

Notes: i found myself writing away on this while taking a break from my main two WIP - just my brain being overloaded

Special note: this is a spur of the moment, emotions fueled story i wrote for my babe @uchihamylove26 that i appreciate so fucking terribly 🥰 nothing but love love so much love - yes, it's kind of a last moment surprise 😏

Mood 🎧 LABRINTH - Forever

"All my life, my heart has yearned for a thing I cannot name." - André Breton

There was a time when you would believe anything that anyone would tell you. Of course, no one can fight or oppose the innocence of a child even if they were born in a world where the powerful are either praised or hunted, in a world where being different does not count much in the eyes of others, in a world where you have to find a way to belong while forced into it, in a world when your only chance is to be the best there is. That is what the innocence of a child has to fight and endure before failing terribly, diminishing into nothing but the purest form of maturity when there should be none. Losing too much and too many, fighting too much and too many, feeling too much for too many, bleeding too much for too many, crying too much for too many. That is how your heart was on the brink of turning into ashes, scorched by the darkness of a world you no longer deemed necessary. Why should a child face the world without their beloved parents? Why should a teenager not be capable to love as they see others doing it? Why should they be subjected to pain when it's their time in life to run around and play aimlessly? Why should you become the person in need of saving? Why should you feel that it is alright to die?

Questions roamed your mind right on the brink of death, no longer caring that each individual had a unique life, you have deemed yours unnecessary for quite some time now and it was alright. Through all the pain, the suffering and the darkness, you have managed to find a purpose. That is what life is about, right? Roads that lead you to the final purpose, the final act.

"You." you hissed pointing your finger at the person in front of you that was caged painfully to the ground. "Remember when we first met? God, I was a menace."

Ignoring completely the danger your senses screamed about, you dragged your feet along the ground, dust clouds lifting with every step, blood trickling down the arms and pooling into your chest. The purpose had to be fulfilled.

"And somehow you managed to save me." a chuckle escaped before gradually turning into a hoarse laugh. "You were relentless. I contemplated cutting your head off at least once. You simply did not give up on me. You refused."

Whoever was watching from the sidelines could easily say that you had a massive death wish. Your body was angled forward, the limp in your left leg getting more painful by the second, a black rod embedded into your right shoulder as it became heavier with each step you took. The purpose had to be fulfilled.

"Why the hell did you come into my life?" you sighed rolling your eyes. "Why the hell did you cared?"

Grunting, leaving trails of blood behind you, your hand wrapped around a black rod that was embedded into the body of one, if not the only, person you loved so much you would die for them. Well .. you already chose to.

"Because of you I started to feel again." you snorted, amused terribly by the fact that you actually had a functioning heart. "You made me want to be the strongest, to be the greatest, to love and protect. You made me want to be ME again."

The other hand wrapped around the rod, under the other, pulling it out with all the force you had left. Wanting to grab another one, you were pulled backwards by the collar of your half-ripped blouse, bandages wrapped around your torso and half of your arm.

"Futile." Pain's voice boomed into your ear.

The only, rational thing you could think of was to laugh. A clear, happy laugh that had even him slightly surprised. It was, however, short-lived as another black rod slashed right through your stomach, blood exploding out of your mouth and flowing down your chin, neck and chest, Pain's fingers letting go of your collar, waiting for you to make your grand drop to the ground. How disappointing! You were still standing, barely, but it did not matter.

"Y/N .." the voice you, oh, loved so fucking much spoke as you could feel your spirit shattering piece by piece along with the last few breaths.

Your head moved slightly to the right, tilting it a bit as your eyes comprehended the body of a girl with the purest of hearts, one of you've always yearned to have. A dear friend that was mercilessly punished for acting on the same love you possessed. The smile of sadness graced your lips as you wished for her to see that the fight she put up with was not in vain. You were going to set free the person that your hearts gravitated towards even if it was the last thing you do in this poisoned world.

"P-please .. stop .." sad, angered tones pinched your eardrums and you tilted your head into the opposite direction.

Bright blue engulfed into a never seen before shock melted into your eyes, seeing on the face you could never get enough of a fear of such purity it had you shake your head slowly. Can you imagine? Standing before the person you love, accepting the trade of your life for theirs, knowing that this is the last scene. Memories and emotions exchanged through teary eyes, the curtain settling slowly as you approached the last minute of the final act.

"Your dream to become Hokage?" you asked before coughing a copious amount of blood. "Don't you dare disappoint me."

Eyes flickering with pain, you were watched and admired as you slammed your palms together, Chakra snapping powerfully in between them. With a laugh that could warm the coldest of hearts, the black rods you aimed for all this time broke in half, knees hitting the ground as freedom graced your presence. That was it.

"Y/N!" a heart shattering scream was the last thing you heard before your succumbed into an infinite darkness.

You fulfilled your most desired purpose, the one that fueled your will to live and do it purely: to love and protect Naruto Uzumaki.

→ 4 years later ←

"This was the last time." you said grabbing the bra and shirt from the floor. "I mean it!"

"You said that .." Naruto chuckled wrapping his arms around your waist. ".. the last three times as well."

His warm breath caressed your neck, lips trailing small kisses from behind the ear and along the shoulder before he softly bit on it. A deep sigh left your body, fingers intertwining with his on your belly.

"Naruto, don't be an idiot." you replied pulling away from him. "You're getting married in a month."

"It's not my fault you decided to return the exact same night I proposed to Hinata." he replied wrapping his fingers around your wrist and pulling you back, breasts colliding against his toned chest. "It was as if you sensed it, I swear."

"I had no idea but it also wasn't a surprise." you said averting your gaze.

"What do you mean?" he asked, index and middle fingers settling under your chin and pushing it up so his bright blue eyes could capture yours.

"I mean .." you coughed slightly. "Hinata always loved you and you were bound to notice it at some point. She never gave up and got what she wanted."

"You sound .. different." Naruto squinted a bit as if he was searching for that burning answer to the question he has asked himself since before the war. "Does this bother you?"

"W-what?" you asked swallowing hard. "No. Why would it?"

Trying to hide under Naruto's deep gaze, you turned around and covered your breasts with the bra, pointing at him to help you close it. The hot tips of his fingers danced around the skin on your back, each movement being met by goosebumps and you quickly put the shirt on. You could feel his gaze following you around the room with a suspicion that shouldn't have been there in the first place. That bloody organ inside your chest betrayed you once again, heartbeats intensifying while trying to get dressed and leave as soon as possible.

"This is not fair, Naruto." you sighed standing in the doorframe, back turned as you were unable to face him. "For her, for you and .. for me."

"For you?" he asked feeling a glimmer of hope bubbling.

"It's done." you cut him off quickly. "Go out there and be an amazing, loving husband."

"Alright." Naruto caved as much as he did not wanted to.

Squeezing your eyes shut as if you were in pain, biting the inside of your cheek, you left his bedroom, his hallway and his home. Stepping quickly into the middle of the busy street, head falling backwards to meet the dark sky and its stars, you felt doing something you haven't done since the war ended.

"You being here means only one thing." Shikmaru said as he sat at the edge of the Third Hokage's sculpted head.

Not replying, you walked up next to him and sat down, legs crossed, hand shaking as you pulled out a packet of cigarettes, unable to pull one out on your own. Tears streamed down your face as Shikamaru, your better half, placed a cigarette in between your trembling lips, the sound of a lighter filling up the air. Crackling slowly under the pressure of the flame, your cigarette started burning, lungs punched with the undeniable feeling of a vice.

"I-I can't think .." you whispered, smoke coming out of your mouth.

"Come here." Shikamaru said throwing his arm around your shoulders. "I'm here."

"Why didn't I come home earlier?" you asked overlooking the village. "Gaara didn't needed me anymore for quite some time."

"Because you were afraid." Shikamaru replied, his lips touching your temple. "You have always been afraid to let yourself love and you cannot be blamed for it. The loss of your parents and sister, comrades and friends broke you."

"I died for him, Shika." you breathed, the hotness of the cigarette pinching your lips. "I loved in that moment so much that I was alright with me being gone, with him finding happiness, with him loving someone."

"You thought of yourself as being dead." he replied. "You are very much alive and everything you had wished for Naruto back then became a reality. Living in the Sand Village with Gaara, away from everything that ever broke you, was the decision that mended your heart, your soul. Do not regret it."

"That is the thing." you sighed as he wiped off a couple of tears. "I don't regret a single thing that I did. Including sleeping with him behind Hinata's back when they are about to get married. You know I trust you with my life and I cannot lie to you .."

"In those moments you felt that he is yours." Shikamaru stole the exact thought your were about to put into words. "Do you want to know what I think?"

"Hm?" you turned your head to face him, flicking the finished cigarette into the air.

"He will always be yours." Shikamaru shrugged. "And you .. his."

Lower lip trembling, hands tugging at his vest, tears rolling down your puffy cheeks once again, Shikamaru smiled softly and pulled you into his lap, body curling into him in hopes of disappearing. You never thanked him for being the best friend you have ever wished for, that better half capable of keeping you grounded but .. Shikamaru knew. He always does. All my life, my heart has yearned for a thing I cannot name.

➢➢➢

A week later you found yourself staring at multiple dresses while holding the invitation to Naruto and Hinata's wedding in your hand. It was one of those days when you contemplated between burning it and keeping it. Every single moment of your life seemed as if moving in slow motion, barely active in any conversation with your friends, unable to maintain a trail of thought, your mind completely filled with every single touch Naruto has ever inflicted upon you, every single kiss that blessed your lips or skin, every single sweet nothing whispered in your ear, every single morning with breakfast in bed. You were remembering a life that you could've had, one wrapped in a hidden lie known only by those you both trusted. The common occurrence of passing past by each other in the street, shoulders brushing, fingers slightly touching as a deep pain suffocated your heart, small smiles being stolen over a bowl of ramen at Ichiraku's with friends, innocent touches that would only fuel the fire in your heart.

"Y/N?" Sakura asked squeezing your shoulder. "Have you decided?"

"Can you come again with me tomorrow?" you asked eyeing the ground.

"Of course." she replied with a small smile. "It's no rush."

"Thank you." you smiled placing the invitation in your bag. "Are you coming tonight to Shikamaru's?"

"Yes!" Sakura grinned. "I need to get some drinks in your system."

"Please!" you groaned as you both left the shop.

"It'll be just us two and Ino." Sakura said with a sly smirk.

"What about Ten Ten? Hinata?" you asked surprised.

"Both in a mission." Sakura replied stopping to buy some medicinal herbs.

"Then come over and we can go from mine." you said relieving her of one of the bags.

Throwing your arms around each other's waists, holding one bag each, you made your way towards your home feeling a bit better, feeling as if tonight's going to be a great night. Right?

➢➢➢

And that is how you found yourself spread wide open on a desk somewhere in Shikamaru's house, friends laughing and drinking outside while you had the man you love ravage you in the darkness. Fingers playing with one of your nipples while a tongue swirled deliciously on your wetness, the other fingers exploring the inside of your pussy. Back arched against the wooden piece of furniture, arms thrown back in pleasure, moans softly cutting the silence. And all you had to do was to flirt with Kiba while sitting on his lap. The image of Naruto furiously dragging you inside the house and the way his tongue worked its magic had the building orgasm spill, legs shaking as his hands moved to hold your thighs, drinking in all of you and more.

"Not so tough now, eh?" Naruto asked with a smirk plastered on his face, the faint moonlight revealing his cum smeared lips, an image that could easily send you over the edge again.

"With those lips you kiss your soon-to-be wife?" you bit back viciously, a wave of deep satisfaction washing over you.

A shrill sound came out the moment his hands wrapped around your ankles and pulled them upwards, legs resting on his shoulders, a dark shade of blue taking over his usual eyes. Hands grasping your hips, pulled to the edge of the desk a bit more, Naruto let his body weight press on your legs until you were exposed under his lustful gaze more than ever before. The tip of his cock grazed your entrance and you jumped slightly from the contact much to his amusement. This man was so incredibly sexy it was almost bewildering to you. Hair hanging on his forehead as there was nothing to hold it in place, cum smeared lips slightly apart, biceps tensed as he held onto your body, a pale blush caressing his cheeks as he eyed your exposed pussy as if it was the first time seeing it. You could never understand the obsession of women with Sasuke when there was Naruto, at least in your eyes. Satisfaction could be read on his face as your eyes started to widen, inhaling sharp breaths as his cock slowly pushed past the muscle ring, slowly making its way inside of you. Your pussy welcomed him with excitement, having it stretched out being its favorite meal of the day. Mouth opening wider, uneven breaths coming out as you adjusted as much as possible, Naruto's tongue finding yours, lips melting into each other with him bottoming out in your hungry pussy.

"I'm sorry." Naruto whispered against your lips as he pulled out.

"For wh-.." words caught in your throat as he slammed into you in one go, a dragged out and loud moan erupting from your lungs.

You're mad at me. You thought as your arms fell backwards again, his delicious cock being sucked in by your wet pussy, every thrust being fully pumped into you, skins slapping against each other with vulgar noises. Hands finding their way on his back with nails scratching Naruto on purpose, a low growl resounding into your mouth, picking up the pace with every scratch, mercilessly bullying the gummy walls your pussy blessed him with. You were getting off on the high of Naruto trying to explain the claw marks on his back, the nastiness and viciousness of your own thoughts arousing you even more, clenching around the best cock you've ever had in your entire life, that earning yourself sweet moans from the man that could not stay away from you. Keeping your hips in place, Naruto pushed himself even more into you and you gasped from the sensation of your cervix being hit so perfectly, hot juices spilling out of your pussy, splashing all over his pelvis and thighs, dripping on the wooden floor. Your mind was filled only with him. Him and his throbbing, hard cock claiming you completely, ravaging your pussy to the point of not being able to walk properly after.

"So good for me." Naruto breathed into your mouth. "This perfect, tight pussy only for me."

"Only f-for you!" you moaned as the desk started moving along with the powerful thrusts he pumped into you.

The squelching sounds your pussy was making as his cock slammed deeply inside of you was messing with your mind terribly. Your want and arousal for Naruto combined with his hunger for your was driving you over the edge, the swollen spot being completely under his control, nerves electrified to the maximum, teeth clashing in the sloppy kisses you were exerting on each other.

"God, you were made for me!" Naruto moaned with every clench of your pussy. "Fuck!"

"You fill me up so good!" you started rambling from the pleasure, losing all sense of reality. "So, so big in my little pussy!"

Through all the thrusts, the moans and incredible pleasure, you didn't even realized how out of it you were before as next words rolled off your lips.

"I love you!" you moaned digging your nails into his back, wanting nothing more than to write your name on it. "Fuck! So fucking much!"

The words shot through Naruto's entire body and nervous system, gasping when hearing them, wanting nothing more than to consume you and absorb you into himself for life. Picking you up, he sat on the desk as he felt your were both close, your knees digging into the wood, not slowing down the pace, bouncing up and down his big cock with his head falling backwards. Sucking him in, clenching constantly around the throbbing shaft, Naruto placed one of his hands behind your neck and pulled you forward until your foreheads were flushed against each other.

"Say it again." Naruto growled eyes fixated on yours.

"I love you." you whispered feeling the coil in your stomach tightening.

"Again, baby." he followed capturing your lips in a deep kiss, his heart beating as never before.

"I love you so fucking much, Naruto." you said breathless, eyes rolling into the back of your head as he started meeting your thrusts halfway.

Tensing slightly, your pussy clenched around him like never before and the coil snapped, releasing you into a crashing orgasm, mouth wide open, moaning your release into Naruto's as he fucked his cock into you a bit longer, chasing his own while completely enthralled with the words he always wished he'd hear one day. With your lips wrapped around his, Naruto let himself go, spilling into you completely as you always loved the way it felt when filled up by him.

"Fuck!" you whispered pulling back a bit shocked, only now, realizing what you said not too long ago. "I'm sorry."

"I'm not marrying her." Naruto said still inside of you. "No one in their right mind would do such a thing when they love someone else."

"W-what?" you asked swallowing hard.

"I can't marry her when I'm in love with you." he said again not knowing how'd you react seeing the expression on your face.

"Say it again." you cupped his cheeks.

"I can't marry her when I'm in love with you." Naruto repeated seeing tears building into your eyes.

"A-are you?" your voice shaky and unsure. "R-really? R-really?"

"I love YOU." he smiled brushing off a couple of tears that escaped your eyes. "I always did."

"B-but .." you tried speaking but were too overwhelmed.

"Wrong timing." he whispered against your lips. "Do I have to say it again until you understand?"

"Yes." you nodded searching in his eyes for a second-guessing that was not there.

"I love you, Y/N." Naruto said stealing a kiss. "I love you!"

"Oi!" Shikamaru banged on the door and you both froze. "Are you two done fucking on my desk? The dinner is ready."

"Shit." you whispered pushing yourself off Naruto. "I have to clean myself."

"THIS IS NOT A SECRET FOR US!" Ino yelled from the other side of the door.

"Two minutes!" Naruto announced taking your hand into his. "Come on, baby. Let's get you all cleaned up."

Putting your clothes back on, arm wrapped around your shoulders as yours went around his waist, you both stepped into the bathroom next door with your friends grinning while gathered in the hallway. You were going to worry about Hinata and the fallout tomorrow. Tonight? You wanted to hear that 'I love you' being whispered once again into your ear at the dinner table.

All my life, my heart has yearned for a thing I cannot name.

And now I can.

Naruto Uzumaki.