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ravenstargames · 2 years ago

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✦ Lost in Limbo 2022 wrap up

As the end of the year approaches, we wanted to look back at these past months to let everything really sink in. We people sometimes forget how hard we have worked to get to where we are and tend to focus instead on what's still left to do, on what is missing—so I think the best way to remind us of how far we've come is to write down some achieved milestones and some goals for next year!

We wanted to first and foremost thank you all again for the overwhelming support we have received in the short time we have been active on socials. We weren't expecting it whatsoever, and the huge welcome you all gave us is everything we could ever dream of! 💜

This is another long post of what has been done and what's to come, so feel free to skip it if you want to! We hope you finish this year surrounded by love and that your start of 2023 is full of energy and good vibes!

✦ One of the most important milestones of the year was our social media release.

As we worked on the game this past year, there were times where we thought it would never happen. It was never the right time for one reason or another, and the world seemed to throw a punch at us whenever we were about to take the plunge. To be here writing this post doesn't feel real yet!

The week prior and the first week of our social media release on Twitter was frantic for the team; designing the many posts, planning them and the objects game, writing everything down...Plus the anxiety of what would the response be. I'm sure a lot of fellow devs reading this (specially those like us who are working on their first project) can relate to that feeling.

And then the response came, and in almost two months we have exceeded all expectations we had. We tried to be realistic with them, so waking up each day to comments, likes, asks on tumblr, even DM's from professionals wanting to work with us was just...ah. There's something indescribable about putting something you love out there and have people be interested in being part of that love. I could cry. So let's just jump to the next milestone before I keep writing :').

✦ We had our visual identity established! Our GUI is on the way and it's looking amazing so far! We have Re.Alice to thank for that 💜

✦The script for the demo is done!

The first draft was oficially finished September 2021, and I have been editing it since. There were major changes done as Lost in Limbo's story and characters kept evolving, and to this day I'm still doing some changes to perfection it as much as possible. I write a lot and I'm trying not to do that, so I found myself deleting as many "useless" scenes as possible. Right now the demo sits at 33.168 words!

✦All the sprites for the LIs were finished!

We finished Pride, our last one, back in April. As a fun fact (which was absolutely not fun for all of us), we wrote down some fixes to be done to the sprites one week before the social media release. It was little things like a piece of clothing, move this to the left...and then the sprites were basically revamped in the spawn of a week. Specially the faces. We had grown so much as artists since the day we finished them, so Rachel started doing some edits and one thing led to another...And all LIs got plastic surgery! We'll show you the before and after someday, haha.

The sprites are all full bodies so as we saw ourselves overworked, we decided to just edit them from the waist up for the social media posts. Thankfully not all of them needed their lower body fixed—except for Envy, who had no legs. There were no legs under his clothing layer. Now there are. They were our first character designed and the first sprite to be done, so obviously the poor thing had the most flaws.

✦All routes were outlined!

Every LI has a more or less established route, and the main story of the game is slowly blooming into something really strong.

If any, Ara is the one I'm most unsure about as the writer, because I have so many ideas for her that could work! I'm sure a lot of things will change, even for the most solid routes, as we progress and specially as I keep writing, but it will always be for the better!

✦We started coding!

This past month I have been toying with Ren'py and so far everything is coming along great. Right now there's around 4k words coded with the respective music, sound effects, transitions...I have been learning along the way and there's still a lot of things for me to learn and investigate, so it's taking a while. My goal is to have the demo fully coded with placeholders so when all the assets are done, it'll be just swapping files!

We initially settled on Unity but then questions arised, so we decided to work with Ren'py at least for the demo, and then move to Unity if the game needs it.

✦We made a teaser trailer!

Yep! There's a teaser trailer for LiL! We were ahead of the curve with this one because initially we were going to post the teaser as soon as the game was announced, but then we decided it would be best to save it for the demo release. It's an animated teaser of the events of the demo (among other stuff)! As the demo release approaches we will surely edit it some more (I almost descended to madness thanks to After Effects, but here I am) but we are very happy with it right now.

✦And some extras!

We finished our two first supporting/secondary characters and are working on the third! In the demo, there's a total amount of six secondary characters you'll meet!

We worked on some backgrounds! It may sound silly, but this has been an uphill battle for us most of the year. We have four backgrounds ready to be painted, and we'll have one last concept done before the 31st!

We met amazing people. Personally, if I could tell the Seyl from a year ago that she'd be talking to a lot of devs she admires, she would laugh at my face. What do you have to say now, huh?! But on a serious note; it takes me the world to just find the courage to even leave a comment to someone I admire, and managing Lost in Limbo's accounts has given me the push I needed to just stop thinking about the many what-ifs that are never going to happen and just make the possitive thoughts and emotions I feel inside something real. Daily reminder to let the people you love and admire know!!

You thought the post was over? No! YOU ARE TRAPPED HERE FOREVER!

Ahem. Here are some of the goals we'd like to meet in 2023!

✦Finish all the assets for the demo!

The most obvious one! We have a calendar planned for the entire lenght of 2023, but life gets in the middle, three of us are studying a master degree that is testing our sanity, and there will be, of course, unexpected problems along the way. So we'll deal with them as they come!

There's still expression charts to finish, secondary character's sprites to make, backgrounds to paint and animate, CGs, key and promotional art...But we'll get there! And hopefully you all will be here with us to see the process!

✦Open a ko-fi page!

As you may know, Lost in Limbo is a passion project made by four friends who have no money and no future prospects. Rachel and I have been working as freelance artists for a long while now, but it's hard to work on LiL, work on our commissions to support it financially (and getting work is getting harder), and focus on our master degree, which also asks a lot from us.

So far, everything Lost in Limbo has needed that we couldn't provide ourselves with the quality we wanted has been paid out of our dusty pockets, so one of our goals next year is to open a ko-fi page so everyone who may be interested in supporting the project until the Kickstarter drops can do so! 💜

✦The demo? The demo.

This point is dependent on the first one, because if we do not manage to finish all the assets, we will not be able to release the demo by the end of 2023. If everything goes smoothly and as planned, we'll have all the assets done before the last three months of 2023, and we'll use those three remaining months to sort out everything else. This is the most possitive prospect we could think of, so there's a chance we won't make it.

We are adamant not to rush the demo release no matter what, but we will work as hard as we can to make it happen as soon as possible. There's a lot to be done; I'd like the demo script to be proofreaded, we would love the demo to be at least partially voiced, we will have to get the demo tested for bugs...

We know reading this is kind of sad, but we want to be honest with you all. We are the first ones who want to see the demo out there and who want you all to experience the world we have created, but we don't want to sacrifice quality because of it. What we can promise is that you'll get regular updates and that you are all welcome to ask us anything, anytime, about the game, the process, or about us.

✦Be more active in the community!

To end on a positive note, something we'd like to do next year is be more active in the indiedev community. There's a lot of places and ways for indiedevs to interact, but we haven't felt ready to join them yet. We have been following and silently admiring so many projects for so long that the thought of being in the same space as them sometimes feels overwhelming (blame it on social anxiety), but the brief time we have been managing these accounts, we have been given a lot of love and support from other devs, and we want to give it back. We know we will be welcomed when we decide to take the step! Thank you all so much, from the Ravenstar team, for giving us and our project a chance! 💜

✦Stop confusing 'in' with 'on' and viceversa.

Because in is like inside and on is like on top, but sometimes that's not it, and for non-native speakers is confusing as hell and I want to stop googling every two seconds

What a year has been! From starting the project around July 2021 to being here doing a wrap up of 2022, it doesn't feel real yet. And there's so much more to come! Thank you all so much for believing in us and in Lost in Limbo, for taking your time to write a comment or an ask, leave a like, or even just reading our posts.

This final toast goes to my team; to Rachel, Astro and Kayden for being amazing people full of love and creativity. Thank you for a year of passion, hard work and laughter every step of the way. Lost in Limbo could have never been what it is today without the three of you.

Let's all make 2023 something great! 💜🥂 See you all next year!

#lost in limbo #visual novel #amare #otome #indiedev #i almost accidentally deleted the whole post and my soul left my body for a minute

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rosesvioletshardy · 2 years ago

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TELL ME ABOUT A FEW OF YOUR FAVORITE HOCKEY TEAMS. IDK ANYTHING ABOUT HOCKEY BUT WANNA GET TO KNOW YOU BETTER. SO I'LL START WITH THIS

okay! (this is weird because no one that i know and are firends with have ever asked me about this so this is amazing)

so to start off, i have 5 teams (which a lot of people hate (mainly dude hockey bros) and they are the colorado avalanche (avs), new york islanders (isles), carolina hurricanes (canes), philadelphia flyers (flyers), and calgary flames (flames)

i'll just tell you a little about each team since i don't want to make this like a whole ass fic

(putting a cut because i accidently wrote a lot)

the avs are the recent 2022 stanley cup champions for the first time since 2001 after a long season and finally making it passed the second round after 3 years of losing in the second round. they have an amazing group of guys and are all brothers to each other, it's lead by gabe landeskog who was named the youngest captain in nhl history but is currently on ltir. we have amazing players and were lucky enough to get cale makar in the 2017 draft with the 4th pick and acquire artturi lehkonen during the trade deadline in march and he was a big help with the playoffs as well as cale

the isles were pretty much the first team i started to like when i first watched the nhl draft in 2015 and thought their now star player, Mathew (Mat) Barzal was cute. the team is pretty much filled with a bunch of veteran players and everyone on isles tumblr loves the 4th line which people in general call "the identity line" but we all call it "the dilf line" because dilfs pretty much

the flyers, they're a lot. last season they fired their head coach and we had a replacement but with him they kept going on losing streaks, not doing so good, etc. so this off season, they hired a coach who not everyone is a fan of, i think he's eh because he's actually making them be good but at the same time he hates it when younger players in the league try to do something cool. the only player that a lot of people hate is tony deangelo because he's a racist so whenever he scores we call it a ghost and don't acknowledge him at all. the only thing that sucks with this team sometimes is the injuries since we've lost a lot of core guys due to them

the flames are the only canadian team i like and they're doing decent this season but also not good which sucks because our goaltender last season had nine shutouts and you think acquiring jonathan huberdeau and mackenzie weeger from florida while losing matthew tkachuk and johnny gadreau to columbus would make up for it but it's been a battle, especially losing johnny and matthew, but we have nazem kadri who was on the avs and won the stanley cup with them so that's also a plus

and lastly the canes. i was happy we got rid of the racist but upset when he went to the flyers but we ended up getting brent burns from the san jose sharks so that makes up for it. a lot of friendships on this team like all my other teams, andrei svechnikov and pytor kochetkov, who have a little brother / older brother relationship especially because andrei helps pytor a lot with translating since he knows little english. there's also sebastian aho and teuvo teravainen (who's currently on ir which sucks), and so many more they have a great twitter admin that's truly amazing. at the end of home games if they win, they have something called a "storm surge" where they gather at center ice around the logo forming a circle, clapping their hands slowly then quickly before they do something like skate and hit the boards etc. here's a video from 3 years ago of all the storm surges if you want to see

#sorry this took a while #and for how long it is #but tysm i've never had anyone tell me this before #mothdruid #rosesvioletshardy answers

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warlordgab · 3 years ago

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Going back to the usual MO

Some of you probably know about the blog I made for gathering analyses on LuNa and NaLu. Some time ago I decided to focus less on tumblr, and more on that blog to give people an esier access to information and breakdowns on their favorite potent pairing

But, after giving the matter some thought, and hearing some of my friends’ advice, I decided that instead of merely sharing links to those new post, I’m going back to publishing those analysis in tumblr. Starting with the ones I made in my other blog.

Now, for the reason why I’ve been taking so long into making a new NaLu post, it is because I’ve been flipping between subjects, starting drafts for analyses and then scratching them, over and over... I’m trying to avoid repeating what I already posted here. It doesn’t help that I’ve been busy with RL stuff; I even had to respond to some detractors (thankgod I got help from my pals), and what shallow shippers lack in moments and substance they make up for quite effective mind games. And let’s be honest, the gatcha game Genshin Impact is both addictive and time-consuming, specially for a F2P

But, enough excuses! For now, I’ll be publishing the analyses from the other blog little by little. I’ll try to have a new NaLu analysis finished by the time I’m done there...

Another little detail, I’ll upload post to the other blog firts, and some time later I’ll share the full analysis here too.

Also, thanks a lot to all the people who followed me while I was having this pseudo-brake from tumblr. Can’t believe people became more supportive of my work when I was away. Thanks to all of you! Stay tuned because I’ll be uploading more stuff, as soon as I finished my RL responsibilities first of course

I’ll probably be more active on Twitter, so feel free to check out what I post there if you want to... I’m not hard to find

Well, see you around

#one piece #fairy tail #nalu #luna #luffy x nami #natsu x lucy #another announcement

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mikanyuzu-26 · 4 years ago

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Is Chapter 139 of Attack on Titan being messed up deliberately?

*Views are my own. I barely post anything on social media but I feel the need to express my thoughts as a long-term AOT fan.

You need to be a genius in getting everything wrong. As a reader who has been following the series for 8 years, the frustration and disappointment the recent chapters brought me are beyond words. The series Attack on Titan has long been known for its well written plotline, with pieces of hints eventually leading to the reveal of mysteries, ranging from the identity of enemies to the origin of titan. Isayama the author is more than capable in building a story, as evidenced by the carefully arranged setups and successful characterization in 130+ chapters. Probably echoed by other readers, the story surprisingly went downhill since Chapter 124 (aka the alliance arc) when pacing becomes slow with no major progress in overall plot. Eren who is the supposedly main protagonist is nowhere to be found in most of the chapters, let alone his inner thought. The conclusion in Chapter 139 is even more confusing, showing clear disconnection with previous chapters and major characters being OOC. There are fans who are kind enough to summarize the inconsistencies.

Chinese netizens’ comment on the story quality

I would interpret the bad writing in Chapter 139 as intentional, with two possible reasons, or both: 1). To betray and hurt the readers as expressed in his interview. He is free! 2). To passively protest against a plot change by his editorial team

“I was a big fan of Game of Thrones, so I can relate to the feelings of those fans who were disappointed with how the series ended. But when I’m drawing, I’m expressing my own feelings, and I think as long as I’m doing that, my fans will be able to accept whatever ending I come up with for them”. The question is – was Isayama hinting at a GOT-like ending that expressed his true feeling? Looking at his response at this point of time, was he foreshadowing a disappointment?

Personally I am a believer of (2) – the plot was hijacked. I see the pacing issue starting from Chapter 124 as Isayama and the editorial team trying to buy time in reconstructing the plot. This is the period when multiple minor subplots (e.g. Connie’s mom, Aruani, conflicts with Yeagerists like Daz, formation of Alliance, Reiner’s mom & Annie’s dad) are introduced and closed off shortly after, while Eren is nowhere to be found.

Also note that Isayama did not even show up in the interview/live stream after the end of the manga in on Apr 10 and Apr 14, 2021. The editor represented him instead. It was also revealed in the most recent live stream that the editorial team had quite a lot of influence over the plot, in which they changed the last few pages of Chapter 139.

As many of you have already raised, early chapters already mentioned the “only way to put a final end to the cycle of revenge” is to do a full rumbling. I believe this is the first draft of the ending of the story as this idea has been expressed more than once directly out of the mouth of Eren.

The other possible change is the way of how Ymir is being freed. In earlier chapter, Eren clearly understands what Ymir has been waiting for 2000 years in Chapter 122, and this is also the reason why Eren is able to start the rumbling in the first place. The possibility of Mikasa freeing Ymir is not being introduced until Chapter 138 (or 139), and certainly comes out of nowhere as the only people outside of path who have seen Ymir are Armin and Ramzi.

How is Chapter 139 being intentionally messed up? The inconsistencies above suggest that at least two plot twists are only being decided at the very late stage of the story. • Eren’s true intention (Eren Requiem vs. full rumbling) and the reasons behind • What Ymir wants

Throughout Chapter 139, there are definitely better choice of words which even average Reddit/Twitter/Tumblr users were able to re-write in the past few days. However Isayama just somehow chose the worst way in presenting the story as if it is a shoutout to readers. The presentation also makes Chapter 139 memorable, though not in a way most have expected.

“Why Mikasa?” “Well…only Ymir knows that one…” When I reread Chapter 139, it seems to me that Isayama is not trying to shy away from admitting the plot change. The disbelief from Armin’s way of saying “Huh? Did you just say Mikasa?” is an analogy to the readers’ reaction due to the lack of interaction between Ymir and Mikasa before the last panel of Chapter 138. Eren is also drawn with a resigned expression. If this is an over interpretation of the frame, Eren’s next response “Well…only Ymir knows that one…” directly points out how the statement lacks a clear and sound reasoning. You can translate it into “Well…only [the company/my editor] knows that one…” or “Nothing I just want to throw this in”. Isayama clearly knows what he is writing and indeed “only Ymir knows that one” becomes a meme.

Also to add that prior to Chapter 139, Ymir has always been a parallel of Historia/Krista, not Mikasa, even as early as Chapter 51, but this plot was just somehow nowhere to be found eventually.

Why Rumbling? The most disastrous consequence of a plot change, from wiping all history and civilization (that has been repeated in his conversation with Historia in Chapter 130 and his internal monologue in Chapter 131) to an Eren Requiem, is that it takes away all the justification and rationale for Eren to eliminate 80% of the population in the first place. Whether or not Eren executes the rumbling and dies willingly, the world will still be in conflict and future generation will remain in the forest. If the plan is to free Ymir, a better way is probably just asking Mikasa to chop his head off. That saves humanity (Ymir likes drama, after all!).

Isayama could have easily used phrases like “I just want to move forward” but he put “I don’t know why, but…I wanted to do that…I had to”. This is also Isayama speaking from the Eren – he does not know why Eren is doing rumbling just to achieve the 80% plan. He just “had to” draw it.

“10 Years, At least!” This is probably the most debatable and dramatic part of the chapter. Eren expresses his love to Mikasa but the scene is presented in a way as if it is a kid throwing a tantrum. In addition to that there is Armin’s comment “Oh ok…I didn’t expect something that pathetic..” as if it is again, the readers’ comment. The scene is portrayed in an unbelievably comedic way, especially when you compare it with Eren’s conversation with Ramzi in Chapter 131, which is supposed to serve the same purpose in showing Eren’s human/soft side. Most importantly, freedom has always been Eren’s core value throughout the series. The outright contradiction this line shows only makes the whole idea of this panel questionable.

Character Regression Needless to say, characters’ behaviours surprisingly regress back to the first arc, wiping out all developments throughout the series. The worst thing is it even kills the hype of re-reading the manga as you know the characters never grow, after all the sufferings and hearts sacrificed. Examples include: • Eren is still a crybaby • Mikasa remains trapped by her relationship with Eren and the scarf • Historia is not living proudly for herself after the Uprising arc • Reiner sniffs Historia’s letter after going through depression and wars (there is even a petition online asking Isayama to change this! You see how problematic this is.) • Jean and the horse joke

Almost everything that could possibly go wrong is wrong in 1 chapter These are written by the man who have been writing good chapters in the past 10 years. Can you believe it is just a lack of sense?

• “Thank you. You became a mass murderer for our sake.” • The “poop” that Armin gives Eren (Isayama likes using meme right? :P) • Eren’s face when he is punched

Is this the High School AU style?

Compared to Chapter 112...You can tell the difference.

The way how the fandom views Chapter 139 is certainly very divided, but even amongst those who like it, most still think “things could have done better” (source: SNK Chapter 139 Poll), showing how awkward the style is compared to previous chapters. The inconsistencies in character portrayal and plot are too hard to ignore. It pains me to see a well-constructed and reputable series, one step away from legend even just with an average ending, closed with a chapter that almost defeats the purpose of the rest. Trust in Isayama – while he can build a legend in 10 years, he can also take it down with 1 chapter.

By the way, Levi is one of the few characters who isn’t ruined. Probably also a conscious choice.

#snk 139 #aot 139 #aot spoilers #aot analysis #attack on titan #isayama #shingeki no kyojin #eren #snk spoilers #hajime isayama #snk analysis

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amphtaminedreams · 3 years ago

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If 2022 Festival Season is Unrealistic, Let the Outfits Fit the Brief: Lookbook no.18

Hiii to anyone reading,

Wowwww, have I put this shit off!

Even though I’ve been typing up lecture content and essay drafts non-stop (let it be known this effort was for nothing because judging by my coursework feedback, it seems this is my academic flop era). to open up word and just blurt out the first thing that comes to mind is strangely unnerving. I have to say, to know I can open a sentence with the words “I think” and not be met with a little red box saying “non-academic phrasing, please reconsider” like it does on the Turnitin Feedback Theatre has me on a bit of a power trip. The thrill of knowing I don’t need to add a footnote and a reference every time I state something…this may well be my villain origin story, I think. Just try and mark me down Tumblr, I dare you.

Welcome to my first written post in foreverrr, if you are one of the, I’m sure very very few, fabulous, amazing, incredible people who reads this bullshit I write along with the pictures!:-) It’s been far too long since I last posted. Studying an undergraduate course that is very set on making sure it’s taken seriously as a very science-y science honestly kind of drains your creative juices a bit; when I did my year of history undergrad, professors were all like “have an opinion!” when we were set essays but...I didn’t...and now when it comes to psychology and I actually HAVE a point of view, the feedback is like...don’t do that, idiot. The course plus the job plus, eurgh I feel nauseated saying it but, adult duties (who knew toilet roll was so fucking expensive), means I’m very late on the uptake with this post. With precisely 10 days left of my Christmas break, however, I started a mission to get this lookbook done. It’s now the 27th January, so in a completely unsurprising turn of events I got distracted, again. The thing is, I do have a tonne of photo only posts drafted and saved and ready to go but I thought I needed a nice big, old, wall of text to break that up a bit before I upload the next S/S22 set or photo dump or any other mood board-y kind of post, plus couldn’t we all do with a bit of delusional looking towards summer 2022? As with many things, a festival season untouched by COVID is pretty hard to imagine BUT if the booster roll out continues and we follow the instructions of the experts, maybe this summer can be the first in a while to resemble anything truly pre-2020. This lookbook can be my contribution to the make festival fashion great again movement, because if the pyramid stage is coming back, so is the chance to hold two fingers up to the arseholes on legs whose sense of self-importance is upheld by routinely throwing hissy fits about fake fans because he can’t believe a girl looking approximately 174% more attractive than he’ll ever be is possibly enjoying the same band. Is it obvious I’ve encountered a particularly high number of patronising men lately? I had the security guard insist he could open a pack of peanut butter to put on the shelf for me. TWICE. PEANUT. FUCKING. BUTTER. It really blew his mind that my delicate little lady hands were doing something other than daintily holding up a teacup and writing in my diary about how I long for the touch of a man.

ANYWAYYY! Assignment: Outfits for Download festival.

Headliners include Iron Maiden, Megadeath & Black Veil Brides, faves of the how do you do, m’lady/now you’ve rejected me I’ll call you an ugly bitch over the internet type. Okay, maybe categorising all metal fans as incels is a little harsh but being a Lana Del Rey fan gets you stereotyped as a pretentious teenage brat who spends all their time trying to fight Barbs on Twitter and loves to indulge in a bit of white supremacy on the DL so...it could be worse, you know?

I’m not gonna lie, I have 0 intention of ever attending Download. It would be truly wasted on me to the point where if you do see me there, I deserve the roasting-my presence would be for outfit pics only. The Vaccines or Cage the Elephant are probably the “rock”-iest my music taste gets and the latter’s songs haven’t really hit the same anyway since I saw them at Ally Pally and can be almost certain that at least half the concert was taken up by what I strongly suspect were coke-fuelled rambles on the part of the frontman in between every. single. song. No judgement on my part, god knows I can’t get through a party sober let alone a concert, but given this is my second try at this whole uni business, I’ve had my fill of pretentious men with a god complex getting a semi over being able to talk at length uninterrupted.

That being said, given that Kiss are top billing at Download 2022 and 70s rock band groupie is a rather iconic starting point for a style moodboard, I was inspired to use it as the basis for the first 4 looks. Though it’s debatable whether any of these outfits are actually truly wearable if you’re not staying in the closest Premiere Inn to the Venue which we all know will decide to price match the Savoy for the few days coinciding with the festival every year (Lenny Henry would not stand for this), I’ve tried to do 2 slightly more practical outfits for each festival along with the 2 I just went balls to the wall with. But let’s start with the extra because that’s a lot more fun to look at.

-credit, clockwise from first to right of centre: instagram account @theambertrafficlight, @helenanderz, @lady_with_the_octopus_tattoo, @kllysm, @genevfewter, @amyvalentinex, borders by Alycia Rainaud, background image my own (17th October 2021, Brick Lane, Tower Hamlets)-

I know I cited 70s rock groupie as the starting point for Download festival inspired outfits, but I took way more inspiration from the style icons of my teenage days, back when Youtube lookbooks and Primark hauls were at the height of their popularity. I’m not going to pretend there wasn’t a time when I didn’t live for a good Zoella favourites video, but I always wanted to have the wardrobes of Helen Anderson, and Zoe London, Amy Valentine, Kayla Hadlington, Lily Mel Rose, Leanne Woodful, all of those v cool girls who were into that music and had mastered treading the fine line between walking Topshop double spread ad and genuine mosh pit regular, which I have firmly accepted I’ll never be. The 4 seconds of fun is not worth the hours of fearing for one’s life, or the beer scented hair mask, and I can’t pretend otherwise. I think Taylor Momsen is a bit of a goddess and I am ecstatic that the Pretty Reckless are performing at Download too this year because it gives me a chance to channel her as inspo too but I wouldn’t get near the front circle, not even for her.

I never know whether it’s at all relevant to include the Depop shops I bought my stuff from in the posts because once you filter it down to the people who read them and then filter from there to the people who are actually going to seek out that specific shop, I’m not sure I have anyone left with me at this point. So, what I thought may be more helpful is to specify where the piece is originally from and the sizing since that may be more helpful in searching for something similar. Starting with the outfit on the left, ignoring the jeans which were a new 2021 purchase from the Ragged Priest, the corset top is the Urban Outfitters Ayla bustier in size XS from @arianne_tan, and then the body chain is a handmade piece from the Depop shop _chain_mail. For the outfit on the right, the trousers are Oh Polly wide leg snakeskin trousers in a faux leather material, size UK 6, from @jesskvedyte, and then the top in hindsight appears to be from one of those drop shipping accounts which I try to avoid now as they kind of defeat the point of Depop so I won’t mention it here. The star harness was from @meganbywater and is one size fits all, and the rest I’m almost certain I’ve included in a few other lookbooks, so take a look there. Is that shameless self-promotion? Yes.

-credit, clockwise from first to right of centre: instagram account @helenanderz, “, @emily_rxse, @alexjaye29, @hpxw, @genevfewtr, borders by Alycia Rainaud, background image my own (17th October 2021, Brick Lane, Tower Hamlets)-

Above are the casual looks, which are more Download festival appropriate than they are inspired. I do have, however, a bone to pick here; talking about the Pretty Reckless got me thinking about how disappointing it is that, once again, the line up is COMPLETELY male dominated, especially when it comes to those who get top billing. I guess I am part of the problem because when I thought of rock bands I consider myself a fan of, The Vaccines and Cage the Elephant were the first bands that came to mind, but there are so many sick girl bands and performers out there right now with a vibe that wouldn’t be out of place at Download, and who just don’t get asked to perform at many big festivals in general. I appreciate that some of the bands and women I’m thinking of aren’t “heavy metal” by any means and maybe wouldn’t even be considered rock, but Big Piig, Pale Waves, Honeyblood, Hayley Williams, Sky Ferreira, Cherry Glazerr, Daughter, they would at least be as in keeping with the Download vibe as, like, Post Malone is with Reading and Leeds, no? This isn’t me raging over Post Malone performing at R&L, it’s just an observation that a little genre expansion, the same kind we see afforded in favour of male performers, isn’t going to totally besmirch the name or respectability of a festival or kill the demand for tickets so like…maybe organisers could give women in rock, or “rock adjacent” genres should I say, a tinnnnyyyy little bit of representation? Just a crumb? I say rock adjacent btw in lest I invite the misfortune of the “do you even know any songs by Guns ‘n Roses or do you just think it’s a cool t-shirt?” crowd in my messages because of course it would be just my luck to have one come across this post and actually read it, and to answer the question-no I haven’t a clue about anything Guns ‘n Roses but my 13 year old self was pleased with her £5 H&M Divided top so just let her live!

As for the clothes, before I get too into that rant, I’ll just get straight into the list: the trousers on the left I’ve also mentioned before and are from a -they who must not be named- shop but you can probably find them in an old post if you wanted to have a look about on Depop. The top I bought new last year from Motel Rocks and is in a size S in black satin-it’s a halter neck and the fabric has a fair bit of give so it’s quite flexible in terms of size. On the right is the white top I’ve worn to absolute death in my lookbooks from a vintage shop in Camden and this black tennis skirt also from Depop that I’ve definitely mentioned before (it’s an AA dupe and honestly, if you’re looking for an AA one specifically on Depop you’re wasting your time because you really can’t tell the difference) and am probably conditioned to be way too attached to thanks to my days on 2013/2014 Tumblr. The camo jacket is vintage from @marinamacleesex on Depop, which very much supports this conditioned by old school “grunge” Tumblr hypothesis.

Now let’s talk Glasto, an event I tend to think of as the muddy, English Coachella of the 2000s.

-image description, clockwise from top left corner: Florence Welch photographed at Glastonbury in 2013, Daisy Lowe photographed at Glastonbury in 2015, Florence photographed at Glastonbury in 2013, Lana Del Rey photographed performing on the Pyramid Stage in 2014, Lottie Moss photographed at Glastonbury in 2019, instagram account @alicetemperley, background image my own-

Before there was paparazzi lurking around to catch Kendall and Kylie (whilst I do not consider myself a fan of that family by ANY means, it would be disrespectful to ignore the IMPACT of those 2014 outfits because they were out here giving Missguided top tier material for at least a couple of years and it’s really all been downhill from there), it was Kate Moss, Daisy Lowe, Liam Gallagher, Peaches and Pixie Geldof, Lily Allen, Alex Turner and of course, Alexa Chung, that were on the front pages and whose style everybody was trying to replicate. What an era. I can only imagine the chaos of what went down when Kate and Pete Doherty cohabitated in less than 3 square meters of synthetic mountain warehouse tentage. Do you reckon they put it up themselves? On a shit tonne of coke or a little ecstasy at the very least? And followed a paper manual? The 2000s were a wild time for some, even if my only encounter of such debauchery back then was my vicarious knowledge of what a keg stand entailed through the hours I spent on Sims 2 University. I joke-not about the Sims addiction, that’s serious stuff. I’m saying there’s no way Kate and Pete were staying in anything less than a double king size suite at that nearby Premiere Inn, probably being tucked in by Lenny Henry himself.

The true icon of Glasto though, that really captures the original bohemian spirit of the festival and the colour bombs and giant waving flags you still see when it’s televised in August, is Florence. fucking. Welch. Nobody can channel demented forest fairy and embody rock and roll Queen of the Druids like she can. See when I talk about the peak of Coachella fashion, I’m talking about a slick Hollywood version of the Florence at Glastonbury (along with people like Alexa and Sienna Miller, and later, Poppy Delevingne) aesthetic, tassels, and velvet and dark romanticism topped off with hair that has all the messy appeal of a mop that needs washing without the grease. Where did that go? Don’t get me wrong, Revolve has some gorgeous stuff but it was all so much more exciting before it became all influencers wearing their gifted pieces, when we were waiting on pictures of Vanessa Hudgens holding sunflowers and eating “sugar” from a baggie to surface online, right? Anyway, I’m getting very off topic here-Glastonbury at its core was/is a festival built for the British free spirit that embraces the dirt and the edge as part of its genetic makeup. And I took that vibe and ran with it in a way that even Florence Welch would probs judge the fuck out of me for like “in this weather? fr?”.

For the outfits here, the acid wash corset top was a Depop purchase (shop @isabelhodgson) originally from PLT in size 6, and the shorts are the vintage Levis I got from Ebay that I whip out at any given opportunity-most versatile £13 I ever spent, probs.The shaggy cardigan is from Primark a few years ago and the velvet baker boy cap I bought when they were the accessory of the moment from the Oxford Circus Topshop (RIP); I may have to cut off the oxygen supply to my big ass head to pull it on but I’ve come to think of it like a treasured heirloom passed down by a family member, a relic of the past, left behind by a victim of the death of the high street-watch me hold onto it til the end of days crying “WHY DO THE GOOD DIE YOUNG?!”.

For the outfit on the right, I wore an Elsie & Fred (I absolute adore everything they’re selling atm and my self-control is being TESTED to its very limits every time they send me a discount code email) crochet co-ord in size S from the Depop shop @paigemurphy99, the good old tassel belt from Boohoo circa 2017, and then an old Zara leather jacket which has lasted surprisingly well. Boots are from the wonderful Koi Vegan Footwear<3 ily<3

-image description, clockwise from top left corner to right of centre: Kate Moss photographed at Glastonbury in 2003, instagram account @cro_cho_, instagram account @sacredhawkclothing, Joe Wiley photographed at Glastonbury in 2016, instagram account @dinafromtheblock, Kate Moss photographed at Glastonbury in 2008, background image my own-

The casual Glastonbury outfits I put together I feel are much more suited to the modern iteration of the festival, which is far less about its celebrities attendees and more about a lineup that justifies people having to book tickets a YEAR IN ADVANCE. I mean, it’s probably a good thing, a music festival being about the MUSIC. What a concept. And correct me if I’m wrong but I also think of Glastonbury as something that’s become a lot more family friendly in recent years. Maybe I’m totally off here but I think parents would be a lot less willing to bring the kids along back in the day when it was Kate and Pete dominating the headlines. But I love that-providing they’re not shoving their kids into a mosh pit, which would pretty much be sentencing them to death by drunk 16 year olds, I think parents who take the children to concerts and expose them to the magic of a live music at a young age are v cool; the coat on the left, from Out of the Ordinary clothing, I can definitely see donned by a Glasto mum and that’s a score imo. For the rest of the clothes here, I just took an (most likely foolishly) optimistic approach and used as much of my summer wardrobe as possible, wearing the Motel Rocks Laras mini dress on the left, and then on the right, my Levis again and Ebay sandals, as well as the wide brim straw hat that I know has made an appearance in at least one of these posts before; since it may have been a while ago and idk which one, it’s an old Topshop purchase for reference, and no! IDC whether they’re something that is still considered in trend or not because they make me feel a little like Audrey Hepburn and which girl doesn’t want that!?

-I had to add this little collection of pics I got from the 60s Counterculture exhibition at the Bermondsey Fashion and Textile Museum, there was a whole section dedicated to archival Glasto fits! When I talk about the original Bohemian spirit of Glastonbury Festival, it lived in this little display for a good few months and I am very happy I got to see it!-

Finally, moving away from anything Audrey Hepburn might touch with a ten foot pole, the tassel jacket is a high street Topshop piece (olddd I’m guessing since before Topshop moved to ASOS and became painfully tempting to me again, all their irl stores ever seemed to stock was jeans and basics) in size 10 from the Depop store @millscunningham, which I know anyone who reads these things must be bored of seeing. I KNOW THE WESTERN THING IS OVERDONE but retailers put out new lines so often now that we seem to complete a trend cycle in about half the time it used to take-I guarantee tasselled leather will have done the rounds along with the cowgirl boots again by the end of the year. It’s giving Hell’s Angels vibes anyway in my eyes so I don’t think I’ll ever tire of it. The bodysuit on the right is also old Topshop from @lunalust1 on Depop in size 8 and the backstory of this one is a tale of true love and longing and destiny; I saw Sammi Maria show it in a Topshop haul in, like, 2013 and I couldn’t afford it at the time, but I never stopped thinking about it, and finally all these years later the otherworldly powers of Depop (and the fact that I would still search Topshop crochet rainbow bodysuit every now and again) has brought us together. I found that one velvet UO maxi skirt I’ve trawled out ad nauseam the same way and I wear it with pride. If that doesn’t bring a tear to your eye, I don’t know what will. A shining example of persistence and obsession to inspire the masses and usher out Capricorn season. May I actually have worked out how to put these qualities to good use by the time cap szn comes around again in 2023, because at the moment all the combo really seems to correlate with is the amount of time I spend compulsively picking at my skin or eyelash extensions or hyper fixating on my weight and food, tehe. Love that for me, girlies!

Onto something more positive: the great British festival bender. And although we’ve said au revoir to the era of tabloid messes trudging round Worthy Farm still rolling at 11am in the morning being front page news, getting absolutely fucked for multiple days straight whilst barely paying any attention to the acts you’ve paid a fortune to see is as much of a tradition as ever. It’s just evolved a little. The festival bender in 2022? 2019? Whichever year it was before COVID took over? is no longer dominated by the sex (well, this part is probs inaccurate), (hard) drugs, and rock and roll antics of the 2000s Glastonbury lot, but is a more...not peace and love as such, but...spiritual? Whilst I am almost positive the actual proportion of the crowd who are dangerously high on MDMA hasn’t changed, in this era, the wildest festival sights can now also be observed at any festival branding itself as trance/techno/D&B meets Woodstock doubling as an epicentre of “togetherness” and “authenticity” and “community”, antics kindly sponsored by a mixed bag of psychedelics and dissociatives. That’s my hard sell and I know, it’s pretty marmite but girlsss, if you’re a “I’m not religious I’m just in touch with the universe” or “the energy here tonight is everythingggg” kinda person (I’ve def said the second one I can’t lie) and you have the stamina to spend a few days dodging an obliviously upper middle class, self-professed marxist man child from Oxfordshire who wants to talk to you about how much he respects women whilst bumming your coke and trying desperately to cheat on their girlfriend back home all weekend, Meadows in the Mountains festival is the one for you. I get the appeal-aside from the odd bit of pretentiousness, the energy (heh) does seem amazing, even if I’m just being won over by the vision; Meadows takes place in a mountain range near the Greek border in Bulgaria rather than a flat, muddy field in the middle of the English countryside and it is STUNNNing. Add to that, though, that everyone’s frolicking around dressed like the most glamorous cast of a midsummer night’s dream you’ve ever seen and you can see why it must be magic to some. Energy alone a good time does not make, but if you’re into that music and aren’t gonna judge people for putting a 2000s video hoe worthy spin on some mythical being (a vibe), I’m sure you’d have an incredible time. I can’t pretend I’m likely to know who anyone on this year’s line up is, and maybe you won’t either, but as much as I advise against it, we are of a generation-prepare yourself, a very “we live in a society” statement is coming up-where everyone is so scared of FOMO that they will get absolutely white girl wasted or off their tits in order to enjoy an event they have no theoretical interest in so, yeah, I’m sure there will be plenty of people to bond with that haven’t a clue who anyone is either. Go for it! Buy that ticket!

-credit, clockwise from top left corner: instagram account @valandiaa, “ @lilimaysparrow, “ @chenaijayxo, “ @twinksburnett, “ @valandiaa, “ @tashajaynewills, borders “Falling Skies” by Emily de Molly, background image my own (Our Potent Revolution by Jade Fadojutimi @ Mixing It Up: Painting Today Exhibition at the Hayward Gallery, Southbank, October 2021)-

The extra outfits I put together for Meadows may be the only ones that are actually LESS extra than the kind of looks you see people arriving in. These people go all out, stick on gem stones as underwear (werk), feathers for hair, throwback psychedelia inspired prints, rhinestone cowboy hats, it’s all going on. The dress code is basically dress like a bunch of wood nymphs on a hen do. Very that. Where Glastonbury sits on the rugged, Acne dupe end of the bohemian fashion continuum, the dress code for Meadows is Zimmerman and Etro on acid with a bit of Charlotte Knowles and Mugler (it’s just been reported as I’m putting the finishing touches to this post that Thierry Mugler has passed away and it’s so fucking sad, this man has done SO much for fashion and established the blueprint for an innumerable amount of designers-there will be a tribute post to his work in the next few days) sex appeal thrown in. So! I took those forest fairy vibes, added in a little too much jewellery for that lack of practicality, and this is what I ended up with. No pasties for me, soz. You can’t tell me those babies wouldn’t go slipping RIGHT off. They’ll throw you under the bus quicker than Cady Heron allegedly did Regina George and within a split second you’ll be nips to the wind. I already have enough of a sense of impending doom in my life without the constant threat of forcing my unsolicited nudity on everyone. For the much safer clothes here, my go to Depop searches were the brands of the ultimate Meadows outfit inspiration, girls I get far too excited to see festival outfit posts from, the likes of Mika Francis and @lulutrixabelle and @ttigerlilly on Instagram who I’d be perfectly happy to dress like all day everyday if I had the funds and the bravery. I couldn’t find anything on Depop from the ShopFluffy or EasyTiger collections to add to my wardrobe unfortunately, though given that they’re independent businesses let’s just call it the universe’s way of reminding me to support women creatives! Woo! Apart from the satin orange top which was from the Olivia Neill Motel Rocks collaboration in size S and the white satin off the shoulder top from a brand we no longer support in this house (I mean, I’m sure you can find it referenced in an old post if you wanna look on Depop), lol, the rest is Depop including MY LONG LOST LOVE, the Urban Outfitters skirt I was just going on about. I know I’ve worn it many a time before but I still feel like I dug up a chest of gold with this one<3 in a post-pandemic world that’s crumbling due to a self-imposed climate catastrophe and which causes nothing but existential dread on the daily, it’s the small wins! I won’t end on doom and gloom, don’t worry! The shorts are Elsie & Fred from @cathy6965 on Depop! They’re cute as fuck, right! And sparkly! Moving on!

-credit, clockwise from top left corner: instagram account @tashajaynewills, “ @bby__yan, “ @lilimaysparrow, “ @souljunk_, “ @ezbeezoe, “ @ivaylo_gerasimov, borders “Violet Days” by Emily de Molly, background image my own (work by Samara Scott @ Mixing It Up: Painting Today Exhibition at the Hayward Gallery, Southbank, October 2021)-

Now, the casual Meadows looks! Let’s just ignore that stream of consciousness at the end of the last paragraph unless you feel the same in which case how TF do you cope, pls message me for tips and tricks!xoxo

Let’s shift gears in a way that couldn’t be more jarring if I tried, and talk about clothes! I based these comparatively low-key looks on some of the more mellow, hippy dippy throwback style outfit posts from the Instagram Meadows in the Mountains tag of past years, which again draw on the colour palettes, prints, and flower child aesthetic of the late 60s and 70. What a time to be alive, honestly. Minus the social acceptability of the racism, the sexism, all the -isms and likes of Charles Manson, Ted Bundy, Richard Ramirez because you know…the serial killer boom of the period was a great era for true crime content, not so great for general anxiety levels of the time. On that note if anyone has a change.org petition to get Netflix to bring back mindhinter, hmu. I’m still v pissed off at them for that. Another morally abhorrent move. Like Jesus, wasn’t renewing Riverdale for a 197th season enough?

I really need to stop going off topic, lmao, so ignore the slight narrative detour there. Back to the clothes-the top here was a foolish purchase from a Depop shop holding one of these inexplicable Urban Outfitters product monopolies, and whilst I resent the proliferation of shops on the platform adopting the Ticketmaster for second hand clothes business model recently, it is a cute top, no? I don’t deny that I am, as my friend reminded me when I told her, a mug, but irritation with the seller, and more so myself for my silly, silly ways, is offset by these very reasonably priced vintage shorts from @wornandwonderful, and the checkered trousers on the right I managed to find on Depop too, originally from Motel, shop @nelliashfield1. The crochet cardigan is vintage from @milliejobson on Depop, the black satin headscarf is from @luxeaccessories and the red ruched bustier top on the right was a treat yoself UO purchase for my 22nd last year (size XS) and I will NOT be reselling it on Depop for twice the original price, thank you very much. I’m silly but I’m not a dick. I didn’t intend for this post to be my declaration of war on Depop resellers but here we are.

So that’s everything! I can’t wait to get back to posting photo sets again; in terms of content turnaround and reception, they understandably do a lot better. For one, they make me feel like increasing my screen time by browsing vogue runway is productive, and kills 2 birds with one stone when I get to spend my time obsessively organising collections into folders because that is the sad reality of my favourite hobbies. That being said, it might look lary af and be a complete distraction but I’ve got to grips with Adobe Photoshop and had so much fun editing the images. I probably didn’t need to state that, did I? My daughter let loose in her mum’s wardrobe style approach to editing, I’m sure, says it all for me. Unsupervised Photoshop seshes have really filled the scrapbooking shaped hole in my life and for the resulting strain of your eyes, you can blame the service industry using COVID as an excuse to cut the costs of printing physical tickets for things because this is just cause and effect. I’m not sorry. Like, bring back the days of those orange tickets Odeon used to give you!! I beg!! Even the shitty paper ones at this point! It really took away the joy of irl scrapbooking when all I have to show for a £10 cinema ticket is a QR code. Is virtual collaging gonna be my lazy girl alternative? We shall see. I feel a little guilty that it would involve spending yet more time on my computer lmao.

Let’s hope that things continue to improve and that summer 2022 sees the proper return of a festival season that I can actually get in on without that internal debate of whether or not it’s the responsible thing to do (atm I’m still gonna go with…no?). Even better if they give out actual wristbands to keep for after! It’s like the 4th year of wanting to go to Truck or Reading festival, and I am DETERMINED to make that happen this summer if the circumstances are right. Can’t even blame COVID for past failures. It’s either me being broke or non-committal friends (not to throw anyone under the bus but where is the lie?). I ALMOST went to Reading fest a few years ago and then my one friend who actually does commit to stuff got called for fucking jury duty. The universe really said “haha bitch, you thought l?!” But this is the year!! I feel it!!

Thanks so much for reading and I hope everyone is safe and well! The rest of my SS22 will be up within the week. If you read to the end or read any of this post in general, thanks for your patience! I am so grateful:D And inbox me if you have any questions<3 even insults are entertaining so just shoot, lmao.

Stay safe! Lauren x

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laynemorgan · 3 years ago

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I'm sure you've already provided it, but I'd be curious to hear your road to becoming a staffed writer. What first got you interested in it? Does it go back to school days?

Man it goes back far. I mean, I guess in some ways it doesn't. Since you asked more about what got me interested in where it goes back to, I'll give you the lest technical and more biographicl explanatin. My first goal was just to become a writer. I've been writing since I was a really little kid. I actually recently found journals from like the elementary and middle school days just filled with them. And it was never small scale, I'd always be planning out the whole fucking setting, how all the characters were connected, full universes. I made a fake fantasy. land in my backyard because my parents live on a lot of land. I called it Teleterania. I remember very little about it besides that that was the name hahah but I did do it!!! Everything I read only made me want to write. Everything I watched made me want to write.

Sometime around late middle school and early high school, I started watching more TV. I found soap operas and was OBSESSSED with their flare for drama. I found BTVS, Charmed, Smallville, Veronica Mars, OTH, etc. And all of those shows really got me actually looking at TV in a way I had never before. I got obsessed with their worlds and into their fandoms. I became the liek TV guy in my high school. There was even a group of girls I never got to really hang out with that would always call me over to their table to ask about what I knew about OTH stuff hahaha and 17 year old me thought that was awesome. Before my sister passed away, she and I took a road trip down to North Carolina to tour the One Tree Hill set. OTH was like the one thing that she and I agreed on. And it was so awesome. For me it was a first look at what the industry actually looked like, to see the sets and what went into it and all of that.

But I don't think my eyes really opened to actually WORKING in tv until college. I went to school for English Lit and Creative Writing in New Hampshire. My school had a great writing program and I was right at home there. i still credit my first writing professor who was only a grad student for really teaching me what I know about writing and editing and reading my own work for error and she passed me on to her favorite professor which was a hugely flattering moment for me. AND THEN -- I fell in love with PLL. And for me, that was really where shit started. I didn't realize it at the time and it wasn't even the show that did it it was what the show showed me. Through my tumblr at the time which had very little to do with fandom, I actually wound up running into Patrick Adams and Troian Bellisario. We all were always sharing each other's posts and at the time I was working for a journalist covering random TV out of a shitty free magazine in Boston doing work for peanuts. But I was going out to LA to meet up with a friend and we all decided to meet for lunch and they let me interview them for my magazine and stayed really rad people. They also helped boost my PLL photo recaps which I was doing at the time and those got the attention of the Director, Normal Buckley who asked me out to coffee and talked to me about my goals and what I was doing. He was the person who first really helped me understand that there's an approachability to the TV world that to me had always been this like magical hollywood bubble I didn't understand.

I went home THRILLED about LA, dropped out of college and set out to go to film school. From there, I hated film school because it was too technical adjacent, dropped out again, spent all the money I had on that move twice, and went home to boston broke and lost. I spent two years after that maybe more saving money, working in fandom, and waitressing while I went back to college online. That era wasn't super writing focused but it's where I found myself. I realized I was queer, I came out, I got into tumblr rpg, I met my fandom friends, I found tumblr fandom in a way I hadn't before. And then a couple years later I found tl100.

From there, the rest is kind of wonky. I had a big fan blog for the show and talked a lot about it on my twitter which lead me to many interactions with the writers who then invited me to dinner at comic con one year. I had a long talk with Shumway abut my goals and what I wanted to do with my life. I knew I wanted to be in TV somehow. I knew I wanted to be in writing somehow but I couldn't figure out how those two things aligned. I was doing a lot of journalism and critic stuff because that felt like the clsoest way to be both a fan and workin in the world I loved but it was really Kim and Shawna that opened my eyes to the ability to just .... be a TV writer. Film school had made me terrified of the wrtiing side but I think it was because film school was so much more about writing for film which I learned isn't my thing. But TV is a writers' medium, unlike film which is more fo a directors medium and suddenly I was like -- MIND BLOWN. It was everything I wanted in a career and married all of the things I loved. It was something that had previously felt like unattainable but they made it seem human and approachable.

They helped me get my first WPA job, I saved up 3 grand working and with the help of some friends and moved to LA to start that. And suddenly I was in a whirlwind of catching up on everything I felt like I had missed. I was reading scripts, learning what the process looked like, doing everything I coudl to figure out what being a TV writer looked like. After that job, I got another WPA job at Millar Gough on Into the Badlands and later Shannara.

THEN I got hired on Daybreak which I can fully credit with being a huge stepping stone for me and changing my life in a lot of ways. Aron was the best showrunner. He was educational and he taught us shit, he let us in the room, he let us write stuff, he let us pitch and try and fall on our faces and never judged us for it. My second season there he moved me up to writers assitant and patiently walked me through all the stuff I didn't know yet because he had faith in me and my voice and my ideas. He let me writ e afreelance episode that year and pitch it in the room and do all the things that real w riters get to do.

So after Daybreak season 2 got cancelled I was pretty ready to spend my next year or two just writing, finding an agent and moving forawrd. And then I got an email to go and work for Moira Walley Beckett. She was looking for an assistant with serious room experience to help develop something in a small room and stay on with her later. I took the job becuase she's MOIRA and I was stoked to learn from her and work for a woman for once. I ernded up very fortunate becuase a month later we were all surprised by the covid mess and I was fully employed that whole year while many people weren't which was a huge help. Moira was a STELLAR boss. I had thought I was ready and what she taught me was that ther's always so much more to learn. She walked me through the process of applying notes and taking notes and changing draft after draft of your story. SHe walked me through breaking a whole season of television. We had a great partnership for the year and I'm so grateful. And then that project didn't end up seeing hte light of day and we our separate ways as well.

Cut to a few months ago, I was still at home in Boston, post-covid, having been sick for most of january. My friend Rachel dared me to write a spec in a weekend for the Warner Bros fellowship deadline. So I did. It was a Legacies Spec. Given that we didn't have access to the WGA library because of the pandemic, Legacies was an easy and obvious choice. I had already seen it inside and out and didn't need as much access to learning a show from scratch. So I wrote what I loved, wrote a season 2 legacies spec that embraced my favorite things about legacies: the high school soap of one tree hill, Lizzie doing wild dialogue, buffy-esque monsters, and themes of grief and humanity.

AND THE REST you know.

Here we are. I'm still lost as fuck. I'm still running full speed through a world I don't always feel like I"m ready for. I'm still a perfectionist and an obsessive overworker. I still take notes I don't need to take and do work at 10pm and come in early and stare at the story boards. There's a whole journey in all of this about representation and coming to find myself and queer media and wanting to make more of it but that's one I don't feel like I can fully get into until I'm decades out of it and the world is truly made better. But I'm here. And it feels like the end of a journey and liek I'm standing at the edge of a brand new clif because I've only just started.

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dreamescapeswriting · 4 years ago

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Delivery Boy ~ PJM [Request]

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↬↬↬Genre: Fluffy, crack?

↬↬↬Pairing: Park Jimin x Actress!Reader

↬↬↬A/N: I’m sorry it’s so short hun!! but I hope this is to your liking! sorry it’s late, tumblr is deleting everything in my drafts for some weird reason

It had been so long since you'd had a day to yourself you'd almost forgotten what it was like, you were so rushed off your feet there was never any time to yourself.

"You have a meeting with Dispatch at 10, then at 12 we'll all go for lunch before heading down to a press conference and from there it's-"

"Straight on a plane to London, I know." You didn't mean for your words to come out stressed and annoyed but it was how you felt. Your personal assistant had gone over the schedule with you four times already and you'd only been awake for twenty minutes.

"Can you get me some water?" She left the room and you dove towards your phone to call your boyfriend - Jimin - you'd missed your regular skype date the night before. Shit. He wasn't answering which meant he'd already left on his flight to Paris and you'd missed him once again.

"I'm coming in!" You heard a stylist yell from outside your hotel room door, instead of waiting for her, you headed into the bathroom to have a long hot shower. The thought of missing Jimin was getting to you, you'd missed each other all week if it wasn't you that was busy it was him. His voice sounded through his voicemail and you smiled as you heard it for the first time in days, you missed him.

"It's Y/n, sorry about last night. I know I promised I'd be there but I got in from promotions and passed out in bed. Call me when you land, I love you." You hung up the phone and turned towards the shower. The water was steaming so you stripped out of your clothes and got under the showerhead, closing your eyes and just letting it all relax you. Letting the water melt away all your worries and stress that you had with your new movie promotions, once all of it was over you and Jimin could go back to how things were. Sneaking around but actually being able to see one another without being so busy you didn't have a second to breathe.

I'll be watching the press conference...wear something blue for me? xx You giggled down at your phone screen and told the stylist you wanted to wear something blue instead of the red dress she had selected. It had always been this way whenever you were away from Jimin, he'd ask you to wear a specific item of clothing or colour so he would know it was just for him. While you would ask him to do silly things on stage or in interviews to make you laugh, it was cute.

"Any reason we're wearing blue today?" Your manager teased looking up from her phone, it was filled to the brim with all of your schedules and it was practically glued to her hand.

"No reason." She knew you were lying, she was the only one out of your time that knew of your relationship with Jimin and that was only because she'd caught you both once. Jimin had snuck by to come and see you on set and you were in your changing room together, nothing was happening you were just making out on the sofa when she decided to walk in on you.

"Blue always looks amazing on you, it compliments your skin tone amazingly." You smiled at the newest makeup artist, she was a trainee that you had picked out of a list of twenty. She was inexperienced but no one was going to get anywhere in life if someone didn't give them a chance, someone took a chance on you and now you were a huge movie star.

The press conference had dragged on so long you thought you'd gotten stuck in some alternate universe where for some reason time moved slower.

"I'm ready for a week-long nap and then a week-long of eating nothing but junk food." You grumbled as you walked through the airport, you were walking with the newest makeup artist - Claire - who was laughing along with you. You were dressed in a big fluffy coat, with a mask and sunglasses to help hide your face from cameras. You looked drained and your manager didn't want people to see that since you were her number one star and 'always had to look your best.'

"I'm serious, I'm so tired I think I might sleep for a month instead," She agreed with you as you linked arms and walked towards the terminal together. Over the last week of her being with you, she'd been nothing but kind towards you and you had grown close, so close in fact that you were roommates at your next destination but, it was your manager's idea and you knew it was to keep you from constantly calling Jimin.

"All passengers boarding to flight 166, this is the final call for flight 166." You sighed as you turned off your phone, there was still nothing from Jimin, he was supposed to call before your flight but the only notifications you had was your twitter going off with notifications about your arrival at Seoul Airport and how you were flying to your new destination now. Sometimes you wished your plans would work alongside Jimin's and you would end up together somehow but it was never meant to happen.

Your manager's squealing voice was what woke you up when the plan was due to land, you buckled up and stared at her from across the aisle,

"What did I miss?" You yawned at Claire who had been watching your manager the entire time,

"Not sure, she was yelling down her phone for most of the flight, but we're here." You looked out of the window to see not Heathrow Airport but Paris-Charles de Gaulle airport in Paris.

"Did we catch the wrong plane, is that her problem?" You asked pulling down the blinds when the stewardess gave you a funny look, Claire shrugged her shoulder and you both watched you, manager until you landed.

"We're in Paris..." You said to her once you were standing outside the airport, cameras were flashing everywhere and you smiled at them while waving and trying to look like you had expected this.

"Well spotted," Your manager was starting to seem too happy for someone who had just spent a nine-hour flight complaining the entire time.

"We have to go to your hotel, smile and wave." You did as you were told and got into the black sports range rover that was waiting for you and you decided not to press her for answers. You didn't want to spoil her unusually good mood by playing 20 questions with her.

"Ah Miss Y/l/n," Your name was like magic to Jimin's ears, he looked up from his phone as soon as he heard it. He was walking through the hotel lobby to go to the dining room with the boys when he heard your name. His eyes locked onto the side of your head and took in your features, even after a nine-hour flight you still looked amazing to him, dressed in grey sweatpants with your hair tied back you still looked irresistible to him.

"Oh my god, is that?" You followed Claire's gaze to see Jimin staring at you and every bone in your body wanted to drop your bag and sprint over to him bringing him into a hug never to let go again but you knew you were being watched. A small smile filled your face as you made eye contact with him across the room, he waved his hand and you waved back until your manager started pulling you in the direction of the elevator. Now you knew why she'd given you a roommate, it was to stop you and Jimin from being together at night, she wasn't trying to be nasty about it but if it ever got out that you and he were dating it would ruin everything in yours and his job.

"You know him?!" Your stylist asked once the doors shut, you were alone with her, your manager and your suitcases.

"They're friends, really close in fact. I'll call up manager Sejin and arrange a meal for you both." Your eyes widened and your heart began to beat faster, was this her way of giving you her blessing?

"That's so exciting, you guys would make the cutest power couple though." You laughed it off with Claire and both walked out onto your floor to find your bedroom for the next couple of days. Paris was supposed to be packed full of things for you to do, starting and ending with promotions with little to no free time to explore.

Knock, Knock, Knock.

"Please be the food I'm starving." You groaned looking at Claire who was in the bathroom applying a clay mask to her face, you'd decided on having a pamper night together while watching some cheesy French romance movies that you'd found on the TV.

"Me too." She whined, you jumped up from the bed and walked over to the door expecting it to be a pizza man but when you opened the door you were met by Jimin he threw one arm around your waist and held his other hand at the back of your head bringing you into a passionate kiss in the doorway. Everything around you melted away as yo started making out with him, your hands tangled into his blonde locks and you whimpered as he pushed your back into the wall beside the door, he kicked the door shut and began kissing down your neck.

"Was it the food- Oh my god!" You both jumped apart and stared at Claire who was no looking anywhere but at you and Jimin.

"Shit! Sorry! I forgot- I was just I erm...Jimin this is Claire, Claire this is Jimin." You looked at Jimin who was a bright red colour, his usual calm persona was faded away and he was a stuttering mess around you and her.

"Good morning," You stared at him as he started repeating good morning over and over again as if it was the only English he knew which wasn't true since you'd been dating for a year now and he was fluent in it.

"Jimin baby," You giggled pointing over at the window to point out that it was night time and he groaned hiding his head in your shoulder as you and Claire started to laugh softly at him.

"I think I better leave you alone for the night, I'll go find one of the hairstylists." She winked at you, promising you before she left that she wouldn't say a word to anyone.

"Good morning?" He groaned as you reminded him and he walked you over to the bed laying you down and resuming the passionate makeout session that had started this mess in the first place.

"Good morning." You started laughing but he pinned your wrists down to the bed and you knew he meant business then. He began kiss you once more and you kissed him back, eyes fluttering shut and arms wrapping around his neck when the doorbell to your hotel room rang.

"That'll be food." You whispered telling him to go and hide in the bathroom until the delivery boy had left.

"He wasn't as nice as my last delivery boy," You whined feeding Jimin a slice of pizza as you sat across from him,

"My last delivery boy gave me this huge kiss, nothing can ever compare to...Maybe if I try a new hotel-" You were cut off by another kiss from Jimin and you giggled happily. You were content with this night, this perfectly chill night in together as you watched movies and ate pizza while cuddling, nothing would ever beat this.

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weakeninghope · 4 years ago

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Clean freak

Pairing: Joseph Joestar/Caesar Anthonio Zeppeli

Rating: Explicit

AO3 link here

Summary:

So Joseph starts working on his plan. If his room was out of the question, even if they shared the bathroom, he’d lock himself on there and jerk off in the shower. He’s sure that no matter the excuse he makes up Caesar is going to butt into it and ask him about it, but he’s too stressed to preoccupy himself further with this issue. He’ll just say that he is tired and needs some stress relief.

Fuck, no, forget about that. “Stress relief” can easily give out that he’s talking about jerking off, and he definitely doesn’t want Caesar to know, or even think that he’s planning on jerking off (even if the thought of the blonde getting the hint is a little bit arousing).

Maybe he could say that he’s thought about his personal hygiene and that Caesar has always been right when he’s told him that he should take better care of his body? That’s it. If he says that, even if Caesar tells him “I told you so” and pesters him about it, he’ll have a magnificent excuse.

Joseph has always been an excellent strategist, after all.

Notes:

Hello! long time no see, right?

This has been sitting in my drafts for months... but I have a job now and I've been really stressed, plus fighting against depression and anxiety, which has proven to be really complicated. Anyway, hope you enjoyed the first chapter! I'm going to upload the next (and last) one as soon as I can hehe

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Thank you for reading! As always, kudos and comments are much appreciated <3

Excuse me for the OOC and grammar mistakes, I’m a poor Spanish person doing their best ;_;

fic under the cut!

After a really long day of training, Joseph collapses against his bed, not even bothering to take a shower first. He’s sweaty, and he’s one hundred per cent sure that if Caesar were to find him in this state, he would call him gross and tell him to take a shower already.

But it wasn’t that easy. Even if they had separate rooms, they still had to share the bathroom, and Caesar was always the one to shower first, and he took his sweet time. Joseph doesn’t understand why, because his hair is short, so he doesn’t have to take long washing it, and, theoretically, Caesar’s clothes are covered in something soapy that always smells good, so he shouldn’t be that sweaty, or at least, he didn’t feel sweaty. But he knows Caesar is a clean freak, and he probably has an obsession with smelling nice all the time, probably to charm a lady or something like that. If his stomach churns at that thought, Joseph pretends not to notice it.

What is hard not to notice though, are all the small details in Caesar. He spends most of the time wrestling with him and in really close contact with the blond, so of course he’s noticed small details about his body.

The first thing he noticed were his pink birthmarks, he had been wondering what exactly they were ever since they first met, but their first meeting wasn’t exactly casual, so he wasn’t going to say “hey, asshole I’ve just met, what are those things in your cheeks?”. He’s never asked Caesar about them, and he’s never brought up the subject on purpose either. Still, he wonders how they would feel against his hands.

The second thing he noticed about Caesar was how expressive he was, overall, but mostly how everything he was feeling was reflected in his eyes. Joseph hated to admit that, but Caesar was a guy with charisma, and his eyes sparkled with an enigmatic sheen that honestly, he understood how they could make any woman crazy. It made him crazy as well. It really wasn’t funny at all, how often he’d fall on his butt or on his face while they were wrestling just because he looked at Caesar in the eyes and he’d found the blond staring right back at him, conveying all the right emotions, conveying all the raw honesty and fire in their encounter. But looking anywhere but Caesar’s eyes wasn’t an easy task either, probably because Joseph had always been really observant, and Caesar Zeppeli had plenty of… quality material to offer. Quality material. Joseph cringes at his own thoughts as he squeezes his pillow, trying to keep his thoughts from wandering to dangerous and uncharted territory.

But he fails miserably, obviously.

The third thing he noticed about Caesar was his… clothing choices. It isn’t as if they were bad. Just… weird. But not a bad kind of weird. Just a kind of weird Joseph hadn’t felt before. Because the bastard insisted on wearing those incredibly short and tight tops that Joseph himself also used to wear, but that was a completely different story, seeing them on someone else, seeing them on Caesar, was a completely different story. The first few outfits he’d seen on the other boy were completely horrendous, but as a few days passed, he seemed to find them less ugly. That, or he was just enjoying himself too much.

Which brings up the fourth thing he noticed about Caesar. How fucking ripped he was. And considering Joseph was almost 6’5 feet tall and built like a goddam wrestler, that was a compliment, but he wasn’t going to tell that to Caesar, that might boost the bastard’s ego further. In all honesty though, Joseph started to let himself be pinned down by Caesar more often than not, to see how it feels, and it took every ounce of his mental control not to sport a boner right then and there, because if he got hard thinking about Caesar that meant that he had to get off, and the walls of his room were ridiculously thin, and he didn’t want to risk the blond hearing him moan. In other circumstances (if he weren’t dangerously close to death and with two deadly rings inside his organs) he’d think about his sexuality. But honestly, he couldn’t care less right now. The person he lusted after right now was Caesar, and what if Caesar was a man?

And maybe… maybe he didn’t only lust after Caesar. Maybe he felt… something more.

But his feelings were really hard to approach when he had to spend every single one of his days in close contact with Caesar. To tell the truth, he was kind of proud of himself that he has managed to control his desires until now, it would have been really unfortunate if he hadn’t succeeded and a boner had appeared between his legs during training. Caesar would certainly never let him live it down, even if Joseph never told him that it was because of him; but since Caesar was the self-centered bastard he was we would start questioning him about his dirty thoughts, and this kind of conversation was not on the list of topics he wanted to discuss with Caesar.

That’s it. He had to get off. At least once, because if he kept going this pent-up he would be even more unfocused in his training sessions and he could not risk it because his life, Caesar’s life, hell, humanity was in danger.

Joseph has always been an excellent strategist, after all.

So that’s it. Tomorrow he will tell Caesar that he wants to shower first because he can’t stand to be his sweaty and dirty self anymore. And there, in the private space of the shower he will be able to think about Caesar as much as he wants, having the knowledge that Caesar has showered there some time prior.

Anyway, he doesn’t want to think about it that much now because it wouldn’t be the first time a boner appears between his legs at the thought of Caesar in the shower, because every time training is over and they retire to their rooms, Joseph lays down on his bed trying to stop himself from getting more turned on than he should, and Caesar, always, at the same time, knocks on the door and tells him that he’s going to the shower.

And today is no exception. In fact, in five minutes approximately, Caesar is going to come to knock on his door and tell him that the bathroom is going to be occupied for at least an hour. Why does Caesar need that much time, Joseph doesn’t know, but it’s always been like this. The good thing is that when Caesar leaves and Joseph goes there to take a shower himself or to just take a piss. He wonders if Caesar washes his hair more than twice and spends the rest of the time carefully impregnating his body with his body gel that smells like wild berries. He can easily imagine it, Caesar locking the door of the bathroom, putting his towel and a fresh set of clothes on top of the bathroom cabinet, not quite close to the shower but not far either. Then he would remove his headband, leaving his hair sticking out in different directions and tousled as if he had just woken up. Joseph wonders how Caesar would look with unkempt hair, or even how would Caesar look outside of his usually calm and composed demeanor. But since he knows that Caesar can’t stand a single second like that, he wouldn’t linger more than the necessary time in taking his clothes off, which is, in reality, such a pity, because Joseph knew for sure that it would be really enjoyable to watch. It would put on a great show to say the least. And that would only be the starting point. Because one thing that Joseph knows and doesn’t need to see to confirm his suspicions (even if he would very much like to) is that Caesar would take his time to put his dirty clothes on the basket for Suzie Q to take when he left, instead of leaving them scattered on the floor like Joseph always does. Which means that there is a time lapse in which Caesar is naked and not in the shower.

God. This is really not helping Joseph’s determination to wait until tomorrow to jerk off in the shower.

And once Caesar stepped into the shower, he would have to wait a while for the heater to kick in, so that’s more time of naked Caesar without the shower. But when the heater kicked in and Caesar stepped into the warm water maybe he would release a hum of satisfaction once it hit his exhausted body. The warm droplets would slide down his skin, his dampened hair would stick to his nape and his wet hands would caress his body to release the stress and tension from his muscles. Then he would grab the shampoo and carefully thread his fingers in to his hair and massage his scalp to make sure his hair is thoroughly taken care of soaking up every fiber and enjoying the fact that, after an arduous day of training, he can wash the sweat and the dirt of his hair. Joseph is sure that, considering the amount of effort Caesar must put into selfcare (not only his hair, but his skin too) he must be really soft, in all places possible. If he closes his eyes he can vividly picture it, His hand finding its way to Caesar’s hair, threading his fingers into golden locks, and the other hand caressing his face, soft, pleading skin as the result oh skincare and expensive shower gel and shampoo. After his hair is washed up, he would start with his body, bubbly soap in his arms, his face, his long, muscular legs, his abs, everything this perfect body has to offer, standing naked under the water as the stream washes the soap off and Caesar relaxes… exposed skin under warm droplets…

Every possible bit of skin, even those that Joseph hasn’t seen yet…

How would it feel if Joseph were to…?

… Stop it before it’s too late, Joseph thinks.

But maybe it is too late because in these five minutes Joseph’s head has been full of thoughts of Caesar practically rubbing himself in the shower and, as it was destined to happen, Joseph has now a growing tent between his pants, and thinking of Caesar stepping into the shower again this afternoon to repeat the process that Joseph has pictured in his head only spurred him on even further.

Maybe it wouldn’t hurt to… just a little…

So Joseph carefully brings his right hand to his crotch, and even through the barrier of his clothes he just groans at the contact, and abandoning himself to his instincts, he begins rubbing himself through his trousers, pleasure making its way to his brain and transporting himself to another reality where he can fantasize about Caesar as much as he wants.

Wait.

Caesar? Was that his voice?

“Jojo!” Comes Caesar’s voice through his door. He’s demanding, which means that he’s probably knocked before and Joseph didn’t realize, too busy pleasuring himself. “Since you’re not answering, I’m going to come in to make sure you’re here and that you didn’t remove your mask or do anything funny.”

Shit.

Joseph has literally a few seconds to flip his position and lay face down the bed (as uncomfortable as that is) to hide his raging erection. He grabs a comic book from his nightstand and picks a random page to pretend he’s reading, and then Caesar steps into his room, probably to make sure that he’s wearing his mask.

“Oh, so you’re reading one of those lame comics of yours” Caesar chastises, trying to make Joseph to turn around to look at him, plus stepping closer to him so now he’s standing close to Joseph’s face, if the former tilts his head just a bed he will be able to see him. But that won’t happen. Caesar mustn’t see what Joseph is hiding. In no way whatsoever. So he pretends not to hear him and flips through his comic.

“Jojo, are going to keep ignoring me? Are you angry because you lost again today? Oh, come on, I didn’t take you for such a baby” Caesar taunts. He’s definitely trying to pick up a fight. And Joseph has enough of that. So he turns his face slightly.

And that’s when he sees it.

Caesar is half naked. He’s only wearing a towel, covering his nether region. His torso is full on display, his chiseled abs at plain sight. His pale skin shining with sweat. The sight is so breathtaking that Joseph even ignores that he reeks of sweat. From this angle he can’t even see his face, which he doesn’t know if it’s for better or for worse.

“So, you can’t bother to even look at me?” Caesar inquiries, still trying to taunt Joseph. The brunet doesn’t even know which game Caesar is trying to play, coming to his room half naked like that and pretending Joseph to stare at his face ignoring that, were the towel to full, everything about the blonde would be full on display.

“I have already had my fill of your ugly face, thank you.” Joseph retorts, returning his attention to his comic. Stay calm. Caesar will eventually leave, and this will be over.

Then Caesar crouches besides the bed, and Joseph turns upon hearing his knees crack.

Their eyes crash. Joseph can’t stand the enigmatic sheen of those green eyes for more than two seconds, and averts his eyes. In other circumstances, he would have no problem to participate in a battle of stares, being confident in his victory, but with a tremendous boner between his legs and the object of his desires a few centimeters away from him, he would rather this to end.

“Your next words will be ‘I’m going to use the shower, make sure to wash your dirty body when I come out’” Joseph lets go, staring at his comic. He knows that now Caesar will leave, and fortunately, he will have some alone time to enjoy himself. Fuck his plan to do it tomorrow. An emergency is an emergency.

“I’m going to use the shower, make sure to wash your dirty body when I come out” Caesar spits, even though there’s no malice in his voice, he’s just tired of Joseph’s antics. With no further ado, he gets up, leaves Josephs room and heads to the bathroom.

Joseph rolls into his bed and now, face up again, looks down at his crotch.

The boner is still there, and knowing what Caesar is going to do now…

Usually, when Caesar goes to the shower, Joseph hears him lock the bathroom door, he’s usually very quick doing this, because he knows Caesar enjoys his privacy more than anyone else, but today, Joseph still hasn’t heard the lock.

So that’s when he has an idea.

It’s a very dangerous idea, but it’s worse to fail than not to try at all. And just a peek won’t hurt.

Yeah, that’s it. He’s too horny to function though, in other circumstances he’s sure that this wouldn’t happen, but it’s too late to be a rational human being right now.

That’s it, he’s made up his mind. Joseph carefully stands up and, boner still standing proudly between his legs, removes his shoes from his feet and carefully walks to the bathroom, which is between Caesar’s room and his.

As he suspected, the door isn’t locked. In fact, it’s slightly open. Not half open or something like that, but it’s enough to see something if you try hard enough.

And, indeed, he does see something.

He catches a glimpse of Caesar’s ass when he removes his pants. It looks so plump, so inviting. And he can hear Caesar humming a song in Italian, an unknown song he has heard him hum before, and, as he had imagined many times prior, when he steps into the shower, even if he disappears from Joseph’s sight, Caesar hums in satisfaction. And that’s when Joseph loses it. He makes a mad dash to his room, and, T-shirt still on and all brings his pants and underwear to his knees.

Ready to start pleasuring himself, Joseph brings his hand to his cock, ready to start pumping.

He almost releases a moan at the long desired contact, but someone beats him to it. He hears a voice which is not his own release a sweeet, pent-up moan.

Joseph stops dead in his tracks because the only person who could do this is Caesar. How loud must he be moaning for Joseph to hear him through the sound of the water running down his skin? But still, the walls of these rooms are ridiculously thin, and the bathroom door isn’t locked so…

Well, hearing Caesar moan isn’t what he was expecting but it’s a sign that he has to jerk off now, that he can’t wait anymo-

“Jojo…”

What? Maybe he’s hearing things…

“J-Jojo…”

Fuck.

Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.

Caesar is a room away, jerking off to him?

Joseph’s cook is already flushed red, precum falling onto his stomach, and he has only touched it.

So this is what Caesar Zeppeli is doing to him.

Screw self-control, Joseph has had enough of that. How is he supposed to control himself when this is happening.

So he doesn’t waste any more time and starts pumping his length. He starts nice and slow, still hearing Caesar’s moans. Every time he hears his name Joseph can only close his eyes and imagine that it’s Caesar’s hand on his cock, driving him crazy. Or even Caesar’s clock sliding against his, the friction too much for Joseph to handle. He’s sure that were him to do this with Caesar (if sex was on the table) he wouldn’t last very long. His hand feels rough and calloused against his dick, but it feels amazing. He hasn’t felt like this in a long time, probably because since he’s here he hasn’t had the chance to jerk off properly, and now he’s dragging the moment as much as he can.

But this isn’t enough. He wants more.

So he slides a hand under his t-shirt to caress his nipples, long, circular motions at his buds, once again, imagining that it’s Caesar who is doing this. He also pictures how it would feel like, to have his moist tongue lapping there and sucking hard. He wants to feel Caesar eating him whole. He wants to feel Caesar on top of him, roughly grabbing his hands, putting them over his hands, tying him up so Joseph can’t move, wants Caesar to tell him that he’s being a good boy, wants to cum for Caesar.

Joseph’s hand starts speeding up his pace, and, apparently, Joseph has no control over his voice, even if he’s trying to muffle his moans through his hands, because when he reaches his climax and he’s teetering over the edge, a long, erotic “Caesar” escapes his mouth.

And that’s when he realizes that he’s left the door of his room open.

#jjba #JoJo's Bizarre Adventure #caejose #Joseph Joestar #Caesar Anthonio Zeppeli

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lilydalexf · 4 years ago

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Old School X is a project interviewing X-Files fanfic authors who were posting fic during the original run of the show. New interviews are posted every Tuesday.

Interview with Marasmus

Marasmus only has a handful of fics left at Gossamer, but you can find more X-Files fics at AO3 (as finisterre). Some of my favorites of her stories I've recced here before, including one of the most clever fics you could read, Cellphone (here at AO3), and the lovely, London-set A Candle for Katherine (here at AO3, bonus commentary at LJ). Big thanks to Marasmus for doing this interview.

Does it surprise you that people are still interested in reading your X-Files fanfics and others that were posted during the original run of the show (1993-2002)?

Mine, yes, older XF in general, no — some of that stuff is amazing. Though I wonder how well fandom operates now there is not a plethora of rec sites. I know of yours and one more Tumblr blog and that’s it. I find it really difficult to find good stories in any fandom unless someone whose taste maps to mine recommends something.

What do you think of when you think about your X-Files fandom experience? What did you take away from it?

I look back on it fondly, but it was one of the first things that really hammered it home to me that every grouping throughout life follows the pattern of school.

A lot of people are really talented and funny and kind. Then there are absolute ego-rampaging nightmares who act like lady bountiful in public but do cruel things in private, or chuck their toys out of the pram at the least provocation.

And like school, fandom brings together a disparate group of people who you’re friendly with, but once you leave, the ones you stay in touch with are your friends.

Social media didn't really exist during the show's original run. How were you most involved with the X-Files online (atxc, message board, email mailing list, etc.)?

Thank God.

I watched the show pre-widespread internet and mostly when I had almost no money. I didn’t have regular internet access until the third season, and that was only at my incredibly conservative workplace. I didn’t get home internet access until midway through season six. You couldn’t download episodes easily, you couldn’t stream, you just had to wait until it aired overseas. I decided I didn’t care if I was spoiled and that worked for me. In fact for some particularly annoying episodes, I was glad.

I was a newsgroup and mailing list sort of person. Never really did message boards unless a newsgroup counts, though I had a Haven account.

What did you take away from your experience with X-Files fic or with the fandom in general?

Mostly, how talented people are. I know some are now professional writers, but so many people who didn’t do it as anything but a hobby were also amazing.

What was it that got you hooked on the X-Files as a show?

I always liked science fiction, oddness and urban legends, so it was kind of made for me. But it was the relationship between Mulder and Scully that kept me around, and after season six, it was the fandom that kept me around. I loved Scully in particular, cos let’s be honest, Mulder can be kind of a twerp at times.

What got you involved with X-Files fanfic?

I hung out on alt.tv.xfiles.analysis (a newsgroup), which was one of the smartest boards I’ve ever been on. The threads were full of well-read, erudite people. That led to a site which collated reviews of XF episodes. They mentioned alt.tv.xfiles.creative, and I got there the summer after Gethsemane, which was pretty optimal timing.

I’d take floppy disks into conservative workplace and quietly download the most gloriously filthy fanfic onto them for reading at home on my ancient second-hand Mac.

After that I joined Scullyfic, a mailing list, which was a lovely place to hang out for a while, and got stories through a couple of other mailing lists.

What is your relationship like now to X-Files fandom?

Like my relationship to ice hockey: glad that activity exists and that some people enjoy it, but not watching and not involved myself.

Were you involved with any fandoms after the X-Files? If so, what was it like compared to X-Files?

Reading, yes, and writing the odd bit of feedback, but any other fandom involvement didn’t really take. I’ve never found a bunch of people I liked as well as I liked some of the people in XF.

Who are some of your favorite fictional characters? Why?

I am usually more interested in female characters than male ones (the Doctor, Mulder and Jack O’Neill notwithstanding), which is why I only read a bit of m/m slash. I usually develop a perverse dislike for any woobie the fandom loves.

Some favourites are: Samantha Carter and Jack O’Neill, Granny Weatherwax, Furiosa, everyone from The Good Place, Donna Noble, Sarah Jane Smith, Martha Jones and Yasmin Khan, Maia from The Goblin Emperor, Cordelia Naismith and Miles Vorkosigan, General Leia Organa, Rey and Finn, and lately all of The Old Guard, even Booker...

I like nerds, pining, best friends discovering feelings for each other, second chances, redemption narratives, people being sneaky for good ends and stoics who stay stoic through all kinds of misery, only to crack and start crying when they get a happy ending.

Basically, you know Eleanor at the end of the Emma Thompson Sense and Sensibility? That.

Do you ever still watch The X-Files or think about Mulder and Scully?

No. I had about four years there where I made up stories about Mulder and Scully on any commute where I’d forgotten a book, but that’s gone now. I watched two episodes of the revival, but it wasn’t for me.

Do you ever still read X-Files fic? Fic in another fandom?

I occasionally wander in and read a bit on AO3, but nothing that deals with anything past season seven. Not interested in William, not interested in domestic fiction, not even interested in post-col any more, which was 100% my crack during XF fandom days. I did read By the Dim and Flaring Lamps [Lilydale note: by @sunflowerseedsandscience] earlier this year. Love a bit of AU historical.

I read lots of different fandoms, though I am between intense enthusiasms at the moment, which always feels a bit odd.

Do you have any favorite X-Files fanfic stories or authors?

Yes, but they’re all about 20 years old. Is there such a thing as fandom classics any more? There used to be a litany of stories that ��everyone should read’. I wonder how well they hold up now.

I think there are waves of writers who come into a fandom and then leave again: I think I was part of a second wave, with the first wave being Mustang Sally, RivkaT, Karen Rasch, Lydia Bower, Nascent etc.

Then there must’ve been a third wave for the revival (and mini-waves in between). I don’t know that group of writers, so I am probably leaving out people who are really good.

One of my favourite Scully voices is Five Years and One Night [Lilydale note: by Shalimar], because of the contrast between her inner monologue as written and how little she actually says.

I really like quieter, thoughtful authors like Michelle Kiefer, Cecily Sasserbaum, Scullysfan, Cofax, Anjou, Maria Nicole, Kipler. Love everything Kel ever wrote.

At one point there were also about three authors called Rachel who were knockout. I like to think Rachel Howard is writing professionally because it’s a waste of talent if she’s not. Rachel Anton had a crazy gift for pacing and wrote a good Krycek.

I really liked Branwell’s strange AU novels, which riff off The Field Where I Died (a wretched episode but so much good writing came from it.) [Lilydale note: Condemned to Repeat It by Branwell is a really long story involving The Field Where I Died.]

Everyone who is reccing other people’s stuff here is also a good writer. (and their taste in recs is — mostly — excellent): http://www.thebasementoffice.com/museaxfnet/museans/TitlesAF.html

What is your favorite of your own fics, X-Files and/or otherwise?

I like The Flexible Concept of Tomorrow. I loved trying to work out the timelines. I like the one about airships and cross-dressing which only exists on my iPhone and in my imagination right now.

Do you think you'll ever write another X-Files story? Or dust off and post an oldie that for whatever reason never made it online?

Only an AU, if ever. I am completely at sea with canon.

Do you still write fic now? Or other creative work?

In my head. Mostly AUs. Everyone has daemons! It’s an airship! They’re exploring space! It’s mediaeval Slovenia!

Most of my creativity is sucked away by work. Which is good I suppose, as writing fanfic never paid my Netflix subscription.

Where do you get ideas for stories?

Reading long-form journalism and non-fiction books.

What's the story behind your pen name?

Well, I changed mine. The first one was picked out of a magazine article about Branwell Bronte, and I liked the shape of the word. Then I got to feel uncomfortable with it because it was a real illness that made people suffer. The current one comes from the shipping forecast when I was a kid.

Do your friends and family know about your fic and, if so, what have been their reactions?

No, and also absolutely not. Over my dead body. Over YOUR dead body.

Is there a place online (tumblr, twitter, AO3, etc.) where people can find you and/or your stories now?

I took my stories off Gossamer but I don’t remember why. They’re on AO3 now and there are probably stray copies on some archives out there.

Is there anything else you'd like to share with fans of X-Files fic?

I have made all of these mistakes. All of ‘em.

— On no account offer unsolicited concrit. In fact, do not provide concrit EVEN IF THE PERSON ASKS FOR IT, unless you know them reasonably well and it’s in private.

— Avoid the wank. If you have the perfect riposte to something awful, write it and file it to drafts for two days. If you still want to send it after that, godspeed.

— Write anything you want, and when you start keep going. You can edit later.

— Never put any story into the public sphere unless you’ve had a second pair of eyes on it, preferably the eyes of someone who is willing to say “are you SURE about that?”

Finally, just have fun. Being in the grip of love of story is a wonderful thing, and you never know how long it will last.

(Posted by Lilydale on September 29, 2020)

#new post #old school x #xfiles fanfic #xf fanfic #xf fanfic author interviews #marasmus #finisterre

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errata98 · 4 years ago

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Fanfiction I Read in 2020

I didn’t realize how long this post was going to be until I was about halfway through. And it still is not even close to exhaustive.

Soo, while 2020 has been such a tumultuous year one great thing about this time in my life is that I’ve had more time than ever to read. I am always so blown away by how much talent there is in fanfiction, so big, big thank you to all the writers that share their work and for whisking me away from real life into something far more pleasurable. It definitely makes my whole day when a fic I love has been updated, and I enjoy catching glimpses of rough drafts and the writing process via tumblr (I’m still trying to understand how their galaxy brains even work lolol).

It’s long, but I am not putting it under a cut! They’re too good!

Long Fics (>= 50k words)

Roses From Where Thorns Grow by @bdafic [incomplete]- I started this a while ago, must have lost track of it, and then found it again this summer. Feels weird to type because this is not really me irl lol but accidental pregnancy fics are one of my favorites kinds of fics. Papa Solas is amazing. Somewhere, I once tagged something with ‘solas dad best dad’ and I think that probably sums up my feelings on the matter. The last chapter I read has left me anxious for more, so I’m eagerly awaiting what will likely be the first chapter posted in 2021.

Ruins by @luzial [incomplete] - A real story of a couple who broke up, fought each other for twenty years, got sent back in time, and are now trying to make things work again ;) Lavellan here is older and wiser in all the ways that matter, and Solas is... well Solas in many ways is everything we wish he would (and could) be now. Had the most wonderful realization that I somehow missed the last chapter that apparently came out on my birthday, so I know what I’ll be doing later.

Fen’Harel’s Teeth by @5lazarus [incomplete] - the conversations in this fic are one of my favorite parts. They’re in character, but they’re also just interesting to read. The words just fly across the page -- it’s smooth, seamless, pithy. I love politics and I love a main character who has her wits about her -- both are in this fic. Also features fatherly!Solas, which I just adore.

By the Still Waters by [orphan account]. This is older, but I knew it was popular so I gave it a shot and... yes, I understand now. I loved reading something from Fenris’ perspective. I loved how he’s a foil for Solas. I love seeing Lavellan as this near mythical person because we see everything through Fenris’ eyes. I love Hawke and Fenris together. Merrill also featured more heavily than I anticipated and she had some of the best lines I’ve ever read.

Pressure Point by 17734 [incomplete] - this fic leaves me constantly unsettled (in the best, most addictive, under-your-skin kind of way). I’ve read the first 18 or so chapters twice, and it’s one of those stories that’s slightly different the second time you read it. I really like the author’s take on immortal beings, some of it is very reminiscent of some of the Greek mythology I read in school - characters are at turns both magnificent and terrifying. The language is also very beautiful, and I’m a sucker for anything close to prosaic.

Out of Time by destinies - so, I don’t know how I found this beyond just “Twitter.” This isn’t Dragon Age related -- it’s from The Greisha Trilogy, which I had never heard of before -- something just told me I would really like this story. Forced/political marriages’, memory loss, enemies to lovers, the dichotomy between light and dark embodied by a single couple... yes, thank you. I had to kind of piece the world together as I read, which was admittedly a lot of fun, and um... wow, I really loved this! Another one of my ‘binged in a single night’ fics.

Message Sent by @aicosu [incomplete]- this is coincidentally how I got my former partner into Dragon Age lol. I had originally read it the first time as it was coming out. The second time I read it aloud to them over the course of a few days, feeling very much like Cassandra trying to do certain character’s voices. It reminded me of how much I loved it, and so I feel like it deserves a mention here. Definitely an unorthodox but memorable way of cursing someone with being emotionally invested in the Solavellan romance

Short Fics (< 50k words)

nothing on my tongue by @ellstersmash - the chapters here are short, and I loved seeing the fic updated put of order. This was my first time experiencing that, and I loved guessing where we were in the in-game timeline, and also, as more chapters were posted, which chapter numbers were still missing and therefore what the missing chapters might be about. I associate this fic with feeling kind of melancholy a lot. I think the word constraints really lent itself well to the Solavallen romance -- beautiful and poignant, but always leaving me wanting more.

In and Out of Time Again by @luzial - hoo boy did I have a fun time reading this one. I actually rarely go for AU’s this “AU”, but I trusted this author, and it paid off. In fact, I think I subconsciously had more doubts than I thought because what started a curious perusal ended in one of those “up until 3 am reading” kind of nights. It was such a fast-paced, interesting read, I couldn’t wait to see what happened next. Ink is one of my favorite Lavellans; she’s just too cool.

The Fourth Day by sass_bot (@knightava) [incomplete] - this was just such a perfect example of how to build tension and dread for the reader, that I still think about it frequently. Also, who wouldn’t love a Skyhold murder mystery?

Beyond the Veil by Pyreite [incomplete] - A 200 years post-Veil fic. Abelas is in it, which is how I knew it was gonna be good hehe. I really like the world-building, and I like explorations of the romance with a more hardened Lavellan.

I Come to You With Nothing by CommonEvilMasterMind. I’ll preface this by writing that this made me cry with a mixture of sorrow and happiness. The premise is an undercover mission in an alienage which involves Solas and Ellana masquerading as a married couple. It’s beautifully written, and just honestly kind of bittersweet. The writing is itself very touching but I also think it’s almost difficult to read because the Solavellan romance has an arc that looks like it’s just exponentially deviating from anything remotely happy lolol

That Girl Is Like A Sunburn by @yourstrulycommandershepard - I just discovered this person’s writing this year and I’m kind of obsessed? I went on a whole binge this past summer and *fans self*. I picked this one for my list because I haven’t read that many Solas/Trevelyan fics, and hers are by far some of my favorites. I also love that the titles of some of her fics are Taylor Swift lyrics. I get Solavellan vibes from so many of Taylor’s songs - glad it’s not just me!

Aravel by @playwithdinos - More Papa Solas. I can’t say anything more than it hit me right in the vhenan.

Wake Up by queenofkadara (@pikapeppa) - One of those fics I thought about for days afterward. The characterization was incredible, and it hurt me to read about Varric brining up Lavellan and seeing Solas’ reaction, and it hurt even more to be left wanting for more, just like Solas.

#2020 #dragon age fanfiction #mostly #solavellan fanfiction #2020 masterpost #maybe this time next year it wont take me 2 hours to make my 2021 masterpost #the power of tagging #bdafic #luzial #5lazarus #17734 #aicosu #ellstersmash #knightava #pyreite #commonevilmastermind #yourstrulycommandershephard #playwithdinos #pikapeppa

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tangerinefluff · 3 years ago

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before i can freely dive back in on tumblr after being gone for a long time, i just wanted to address some asks i got during my inactivity:

where do I start lmao. so i’m not sure if I understood the asks the way the anons intended to communicate them. could be because of a little language barrier? and im actually having trouble deciphering hate or disrespect because i have almost never in my life been hated or received serious hate in any form (i was THE good girl, on the outside that is, my entire life no one messed with bc i dont really do anything hateful like it’s just not in my nature to respond in that way 😅 anw very besides the point) so you may talk to me again if that’s not what you (anon) intended.

to the first one who said this:

hi! i get ur suggestion but maybe word it differently? bc that was kinda rude. first off, this one (garbage) writing is for you too. second, i appreciate the cute hearts at the end to go with the insult in the beginning 😅 (but also) third, you’re on MY blog. i mean,,, with the first words i agree? LMAO. i apologize i don’t have the best thoughts but no i won’t change things. this is literally my own space and im sharing a little of what’s on my mind and they don’t have to be useful and significant and a WOW moment kind of post to everyone lmao. fourth, you can locate the unfollow/mute button yourself. im not actually sure what writings you meant, if it’s the unrelated or personal posts/asks, or the blog-related shitty posts. and i’m not very tidy with my tags either so i’ll try harder on that! will tag unrelated texts as “garbage.text” and blog-related texts as “hq.text”. fifth, that’s what i keep my following tabs open for actually. i follow a lot of even betterrr blogs with content like mine and esppp amazing artists you should check out yk instead of sending people ask like that..haha. lastly, i hope you don’t go around sending blogs asks like this one and just filter out the stuff you want to consume yourself. let’s be careful with words bestie! (edit: also my blog now is 90% reblogged art so.... why the big issue).

candidate #2 who quoted a tag on my post and said:

aah what i meant there is that i am actually having a hard time remembering.. in general. (cue the victim card script) yes dramatic but i feel like my memory’s deteriorating. can’t remember names of people i just met or friends from a long time. things i just did or the phone i just put down 30 secs ago. conversations and with whom. read somewhere that it could be due to mental health problems. and i cant keep track of all the interactions here so i mess things up sometimes which is why i’m less active. and its not bc my friends here are insignificant!!! lmao. dw i remember, i have my close friends’ UNs and names listed on my notes too :D

yk i wanna bite harder than this bc im a real B on the inside and i wanted to make light of this (somehow funny to me because ik i shouldn’t respond bc it feels like twitter behavior) &&& i wanted to show off my clean record that i haven’t ever been hated before lmao until this moment that is. im just super shocked cause i’m 22 and JUST realizing, oh so this is the dangerous stuff on the internet! like i thought i could’ve avoided them because im.... literally... nice that i’m almost boring here and unproblematic and trying my best and just talking about stuff i like. bestie is not special over here.

to those who have been following me from the first (cringe) days, would know i post reallyyyy randomly. it was more original posts rather than reblogs. and i minimized on that when my following increased. there’s 4.4k amazing people following this blog in just a little over a year. so i toned down the personal stuff right away. honestly got conscious and i didn’t like it because the blog started to feel less like it’s mine. i can’t openly switch to a different content/media or just scream nonsense. i can’t answer personal asks freely. can’t interact with mutuals. then i just decided that i won’t mind anymore. as long as my post isn’t offensive and/or rude, i will post as i wish. i don’t normally engage in hateful posts because it bums me out. like a minute into reading these asks they really upset me then writing my response and letting this sit in the drafts made me think i won’t bother anymore because i could just let the asks get lost into the void and it’s not like i did anything wrong, but i guess i had a little energy today. and yes, will be turning off anon asks from here on out.

i hope this one won’t get dragged out and i’m not expecting any interactions from this because i just wanna talk about stuff i’ve been getting into lately, back to regular programming.. AAAAHHHHH!!! not sure if this will reach the anons (expected they unfollowed because that’s the smart thing to do) but I still wish them a good day/night and a peaceful tumblr experience! (^^)

#garbage.text #hate asks cw #hate (?)/ rude asks #anon asks #please please dont open if reading rude asks makes you uncomfy!

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taekooktimeline · 4 years ago

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Okay so, that's not exactly a question related to taekook, but, I was curious to know: how did both of you decided to make a timeline and to work together to do it? How did you two met? Sorry if it's too personal!

Sara: Hi ! You’re so cute. It’s not a very personal story :P Back in April I was writing under a tweet about some Taekook-related theories of mine. Kayla then popped up and we started a conversation. Here is the thread although I changed some of my opinions after further research (like the gcf topic): https://twitter.com/taeggukstime/status/1252218411771453441?s=21. It eventually led us into DM’s to discuss things further in a private setting. We talked a looot as we tried to figure out Taekook’s relationship evolution and it led us to some conclusions. Kayla then thought it was a good idea to immortalize it by creating a little Timeline so I agreed to do it because she was very sweet and articulated, a huge taekooker and I enjoyed talking with her, although I had doubts about it because I didn’t want to spend too much time on something that I thought nobody would read. I’ve always been happy being an observer that didn’t really engage with the fandom other than voting, going to concerts and such. My experience was more so between me & BTS and I felt iffy about fandom interaction because I saw all the drama and I’m not a social person (I used to have huge social anxiety and can take a month to reply to a real life friend’s text). Kayla told me she was in contact with a youtuber and would get us promo but for some reason I still didn’t think people would be interested. Anyhow, we initially made a 10 page long document on Word with no pictures that covered the entire 7 years 😂 That was the very first version of what it is today and it was simply a basic explanation of our take on their evolution with some important mentions instead of a compilation of moments. It turned out that we still had like a couple of months until Peach started making her video so we began including more “mentions” of moments that supported the theory and it basically got out of hand to the point that we were rushing to cover the maximum amount of moments before the day of promo. I was so stressed that I was basically eating once a day for a while. You know that finding a single tricky date in which something was filmed can take me 6 hours straight or a couple days? Just the date. Sometimes I have to resort to looking at their earrings as the last option because we had to know the exact order to some key events. Mind you, this was during total lockdown so I had stopped working and couldn’t leave my house even if I wanted to. Luckily we had greater success than I expected even if we aren’t huge influencers and I’m extremely happy that people take the time to read such a long document and furthermore helps them find comfort or they find it eye-opening. Thank you for your appreciation!! 💜

Kayla: hello! This isn’t personal at all! In fact, I’m touched you’d like to know more about us ☺️can you believe I’ve never met Sara in real life? We’re in different countries, an ocean away. I love our synergy so much and the power of technology amazes me. We make a great team. As Sara said, we met through Twitter. I was looking up info on various topics and she was so helpful and answered. We were talking publicly and I asked if I could DM her to discuss further. Within DMs we started organically brainstorming a timeline of TK’s relationship and then I thought we did such a good job we should immortalize it. Peachlesslyyy is an amazing TK YouTube account, who I consider a friend, and I’ve supported her account since before it really took off (and wow has her account grown! She deserves all the love and support). Before my anxiety got the best of me, I’d interact more freely in YT channels, especially in Peach’s YT account because she’s a great moderator whose followers are fantastic at brainstorming and debating respectfully. And at one point I mentioned Sara and I were drafting a timeline. People were interested in seeing it and Peach generously offered to share it on her community tab. She was planning to make a timeline video so it was perfect timing to share what we were seeing. Our little Word doc without pics suddenly evolved to host pics and links to moments, and transitioned to google docs where we could more easily edit. We quickly hurried to add as much as we could. Peach never rushed us but since people were eager we hurried to get it out, which meant the original doc didn’t cover nearly the amount it does now. As you can see in “recent additions”, so much has been added since we unlocked the doc for public viewing. And we hope to add more when we have time! We have quite a bit pending in our private brainstorm doc to review as we can. There’s definitely quite a bit to add ☺️anyway, we never expected the timeline to get the traffic it did and it just blossomed from there, with us adding more moments, updating as we can and creating a tumblr that's more user friendly, while still updating google docs (and it’s all thanks to Sara for finding tumblr and figuring out the nuances of it). Now that we don’t have time constraints, we can review moments at our own pace, around our personal lives, and we can use raw links vs analysts videos as much as possible (or raw + analyst -if we want a moment slowed down or zoomed in then an analyst channel helps greatly, even if we don’t endorse said channel being used). Nona Pocha is also another TK YouTube account who I consider a friend, and who helped promote the timeline when we got it transitioned to tumblr. She has been a great supporter who has cheered us on. I’m incredibly grateful to both for giving our timeline the promotion to grow and reach other taekookers. It helped so much. And I’m just beyond shocked and grateful for the love and support we get for this timeline. Hearing it’s logical and objective, full of love and respect to all members, and is a source of comfort / eye opening is amazing feedback that touches me. Hearing people are recommending it is heartwarming. This is our baby but it's a labor of love. It takes a lot of effort to keep it up and be as objective as possible (which requires a lot of reviewing of the footage then back checking each other). The support truly is the motivation to keep going, knowing people care to hear our thoughts. So thank you for being a supporter and reader💜

#discussions #taekooktimeline #asks

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