#tw hospitlization

[surprisinglydomestickakashi]

Researched some of the scenes and he doesn't take the stance but it's because Gai is holding him up. So he's near chakra exhaustion and having a panic attack.

kakashi has what appears to be multiple panic attacks throughout the show, and he takes the same stance every single time, and i only recently noticed this, so i wanted to point it out bc idk if anyone else has noticed this. you can visbily see his shoulders quickly rising and falling, meaning he is breathing quite heavily.

1st screenshot: After Gai uses the 8th gate, and Kakashi presumes he did not survive the action

2nd screenshot: Kakashi choking up while using Chidori soon after the incident with Rin

3rd screenshot: Obito takes Kaguya's rod to the stomach and begins to fall apart

4th screenshot: Soon after Kakashi exited the 72 hour genjutsu from Itachi

(in the second screenshot, that was a canon panic attack, as we see his eyesight get blurry and stuff, but the other three are me simply implying with context clues such as his heavy breathing.)

[ace-of-pups]

tw dwugs :3 not weebd but it tis also involved

11:40p

this miiight be the highest dose jve ever taken )dw dw its litcherally dr advised luv) and its only been 10 min and im already feelin pretty fuckin good holy shit

this is my last dose tho ): ubdeedtandably so bc again i do Not want to live off this shit and uhhhh i am very aware of the fact that doing so woldnt end well for someone like me bUT i am allowing myself some pleasure i n my miserable falling apert life to enjoy things while i have them so here we goooooo

12:00a

i laid down on my right side cus i heard that helps it go faster n i went heh whoaa and i stayed for a sec n i didn even rralize like 10mn had passrd i just spaced ans i think droooled cus my pillow was wet so was my coxk and just ✨tingled✨ and it felt really nice. god dam man; i xant wait to peak lmao

1220a this ahits kickin my ass /pos im like -.* rn irs awesome im gonna lisgen to a cozy hospitl asmr vid where she clogs ur ears chs i rlly enjoy how that feels n then im gonna let the drug binaurals rip ts gonna b grwat

1240 keep goin on lil brain journwys n immediately forgetting when i snap back but ist elly nice actually also i love how otoscope feels in my clogged ear

1250 i tjink i just keep fantasizing abt a soft busty mommy who lays me bak n gsts me rlly high on whtvr i like and bathes me in stimulation untiln i just become a puddle of tje stonedst slowest giggles n moans n pleasufe uve ever heard likw pls pet my hair n scritch my hed n rub my ears n massage my cock whilr the drhgs consume me n the asmr/binaural beats wash over my brain n maybe mix in some loops of her sweet voice cooing thr gentlest praises abt how im such a good puppy n this must feel soooooooo good

106a this carfenny binaurals takin me on a mf ride goddam

fck thjs hars to.ttpe no morw updages no moew thoufhts just pleasjre i love drhge i love beinf high i love pkeashre i love druuuuuuuuuuuuuuuggs

m b rain is norjinf but happy fluff .y brain is notjing but happy fluff my beaib is huthing bjt happy fluff my beaib isssss

[maxmcyfield]

 i’ve been having such a bad week and now my best friend told me she’s going inpatient on wednesday and now it just got worse. like i’m glad she’s getting help but i wish i could do more. i’m so worried for her so so worried that i can’t help but cry. she won’t be contactable for a week and i can’t visit bc we don’t fucking live in the same country and i just. i just want her to be okay. i just want that for her i wish i could give it to her.

[peridotsalien]

I’m at the ER now. I’m gonna be evaluated for psychiatric and this is hands down the scariest thing I’ve ever done in my life. I know I need to be drastic to get better

Thank you to everyone who made me realize how bad I am and how much I need help

[clefclefairy]

13 14

13: no and thank god, ive managed to be lucky on that front. the closest ive ever come is one time once upon a dream i used to copy/paste fic excerpts i particularly liked into word documents to basically have "fanfic's greatest hits" on my computer, and the printer fucked it up so it just spat  out all these documents and my granddad found them

but idk if he ever read them

also one time my teacher confiscated a notebook id written hardcore lesbian smut in (admittedly i was in 8th grade so it was a 14 y.o.'s idea of smut) and apparently gave the notebook to my teachers but idk if she read it

and if she did she cant fuckin talk i know she got like a stack of pornos

14: disown me i assume

mind u i honestly dont put up a lot of porn

so i guess commit me to a psych ward for all my sad yammering