#tw Gallifreyan Tradition

[blueboxofsnark]

A Small Explanation of My Past

It has been over five years, but the shadow of a former group I helped create seems to like following me.

I started the group with the leader after being emotionally harassed by a co-founder of Gallifreyan Tradition. I have no idea what was said about me to him, no one ever really told me and he kept changing his mind regarding boundaries *without* telling me about these changes. I didn't appreciate the hours upon hours of either of them yelling at me and swearing at me, but this isn't really a problem anymore.

Slander campaigns rarely do anything but give abusive people the ability to harass people and band together their groups out of fear and hate.

What little I've seen of the accusations, as I try to keep my mental health up by avoiding the abuse, I know is false. They are extremely serious accusations and they are designed to make people react with a knee jerk to protect themselves and vulnerable members of the community. The horribly done editing, I have heard, doesn't stand up under inspection.

I didn't defend myself in the moment because I had to focus on making sure my family, my children, where safe and focus on making sure that we had a home and I had a job. I didn't have time to fight what would have been a kangaroo court as suddenly single parent with no home. My family deserved my entire attention and not some one who was fighting for respect from people who didn't care and outranked me. A single parent with almost no external help isn't some one who has a lot of good options. A job requires some one who can watch the children and children require a full time job, especially when they are still too young to go to daycare (which doesn't run on weekends anyway).

The people attacking me in this cult outranked me and had all of the influence that I couldn't achieve while also working full time and being primary caregiver to two children. I was on as much as I could, but absent because of an eight our job and a three hour a day trip to work.

To anyone who felt I ignored them or helped bully them, I do greatly apologize. I don't know how I could have helped then or how I could help now, but I will do what I can.

Just because the other people in this cult apologized to you, doesn't mean they apologized to everyone they hurt. The other founders took years from my life and attention from my children as I was in a very vulnerable position with very little help from family this life.

I was not perfect, I was not evil, I was just a person. I am still just a person.

[threadboundgold]

You know what’s really weird? Finding out that one of your more niche traumas now has a whole book written about it. Cultiples #3 by LB Lee, focusing on Panopticon? Yeah.

We were in Gallifreyan Tradition. Sort of a fringe member, but like… of course we were, at the age of thirteen. It’s fucking weird as hell, thinking about the “really weird doctor who kin server who wanted to bring back gallifrey’s beliefs and customs” as the “really weird doctor who CULT who was semi-successfully pushing their beliefs”. Like… gods. big and little gods.

It’s been… what. Seven? Eight? Years since then? And I’m just… finally sort of unpacking the influence it had on not only who I am today, but who my System is as a whole. Sure, it was… it was a footnote in my history, really, but. It’s a fucked up footnote.

I can remember the CAH nights that sort of helped shape Our humor, and the voicecalls and the weird little radio station. I can remember that one person who liked the pictures of flowers we sent. I remember the friend we brought into GT, when we didn’t know it was a cult (Caboose if you’re out there, we are so deeply sorry). We thought it was all… normal. Hell, I can remember our previous host wanting so badly to join in on the “lessons” being run in their weird little timelord cult school but never having the time to join due to our actual academic commitments. (We got fucking lucky there. I’ll admit it.)

We weren’t able to ever drink much of that kool-aid. But god, did we want to. Because GT gave us what we thought we needed at the time- a purpose to focus ourselves toward; in this case the reconstruction of Gallifrey. In other cases, it’d be “being the perfect partner” (At a detriment to our true selves, rip) or “being a member of our union and keeping everything together”. GT was the unfortunate Start to our need to be part of something Bigger Than Ourselves. We’re Still working on undoing that.

We were never a part of any of the… harassment campaigns. Honestly, they were a part of why we left. That and the complete inability to keep track of who was even in charge of the damn server. If leadership is consistently changing, it’s the number one sign to hit the fucking bricks! We vaguely remember the schism of GT and NG, in the sort of way of someone who was observing from a distance while a building imploded on itself. We remember someone who came into our DMs talking about how so-and-so was an awful person and that they’d created a whole new group, that it was a massive betrayal. We ignored their message for like a week because at that point we’d stopped caring about GT due to the childish ability to just. Completely Switch Interests. Or maybe that was the completely unmedicated severe ADHD. Who knows!

(In retrospect it’s weird as fuck that they came to the literal child about this so-called Massive Betrayal and tried to drag Him into this ‘schism drama’. Go to an adult if you’re going to start talking about weird shit like that, no?)

I just… man. I’m looking back on this all as someone who is finally old enough to drink and… gods, if anything should give me an excuse to do it then it should be Gallifreyan fucking Tradition.

[unboundwanderers]

I rolled out of bed to write a post about The Final Years of The Time War and Gallifrey's Many, many, many, many, many, many horrible not good very mischievous and not fun War Crimes™ that were arguably a lot worse then what The Daleks were doing- but most of the time, The Daleks & The Timelords were doing just about the same. Ultimately, these war crimes would only frustrate The War Doctor- not push him far enough to destroy Gallifrey. It would be THE ARK, that would ultimately do this.

The Ark is a feature of my canon, exclusively, and is the sole reason there is no Day of The Doctor Retcon in my AU. It will get a longer headcanon in due time, but honestly?? I'll probably end up writing a fic about the end of the war more then I'll end up writing a headcanon about it. Listed under the 'READ MORE' is a list of war crimes committed during The War. Most of what I'm listing out happened in my canon, but I'll go over some things that might cause minor inconsistencies.

All the TW/CW associated with any stories that are War-Time Centric applied here. So... TW// War and Death and whatnot.

HORRIFIC WAR CRIMES COMMITTED BY THE DALEKS & THE TIMELORDS

The Timelords regularly Destroyed Innocent Worlds to prove their strength To The Daleks in an act of intimidation. (Destroying- for a timelord- means ERASING it from EXISTENCE- It never was, would be, or could be.) An act of intimidation that would be, ultimately futile.

During a crucial point of The War- The Dalek Empire was ultimately defeated and their crumbling armies were locked in a time bubble, effectively- The Daleks had been erased from history at one point in the war. The Dalek Time Strategist SURVIVED this ordeal however, by FLEEING to a parallel universe. There, in that parallel universe he sought out DAVROS- Creator of The Daleks, in a universe where he had never been exposed to a war on their homeworld Skaro, so he was ultimately living a peaceful life before the Strategist showed up and FORCED HIM TO COMBINE WITH DOPPLEGANGERS, Effectively turning him into what we (the audience) knew as the Traditional Davros. He then HARVESTED DNA from Davros while he was STILL ALIVE AND USED IT TO REBUILD THE DALEK ARMIES TO CONTINUE THE WAR.

During the early years of The War, The Timelords, frustrated by The Doctor's refusal to fight, restored The Master from death and forced him to fight in the war by effectively giving him a new set of Regenerations. (Whether or not The War Master is canon in my timeline is dependent on whether or not a fellow Mun wants to write and pair up a War Master with my War Doctor.)

Dalek Prison Camps would regularly block out the memories of it's captives, causing so much distress and confusion that it effectively turned all the prisoners against each other- so when they weren't being tortured by Daleks (during which time, their memories would be restored)- they'd be inside the walls of the Labor camp, becoming violently hysterical and murdering each other.

Timelords regularly employed Child Labor in Factories in order too help create weaponry and battle tardises for the Fights against The Daleks. At one point, Daleks attempted to go back in time and destroy these factories, as well as exterminate children who would later grow up to become members of The Gallifreyan War Council.

In The War, a device known as a 'Neverwhen Flux' was deployed over a strategic planet being fought over by The Timelords & The Daleks. When deployed, The Neverwhen moved a timezone into a pocket universe, keeping it in constant flux. Within this pocket universe, Timelords and Daleks were constantly unwound, rewound, fast-forwarded and rewritten constantly, to the point of becoming CONTAIMINATED with Instability- if they ever LEFT the pocket universe? They would spread instability across the universe... causing it to EAT ITSELF ALIVE, so they had to be put out of their misery.

Timelords would regularly test Time-Erasing Equipment on labor camp planets and civilian worlds to test it's effectiveness, before launching surprise attacks on Daleks at the cost of the Civilians living on the world.

Daleks would often Harvest the cores of Planets and turn slave labor planets into in-hospitable battle ships they could fling at The Timelords and their capital world.

This is only a short list of War Crimes committed by Both Daleks and Timelords, but some that I argue to be some of the worst, if not the most brutal. All of these events, in some moment of time- The War Doctor witnessed or tried to prevent, and often times he WOULD FAIL, eventually building up enough trauma within him to know the only solution to The War was to destroy both sides.

Thanks for reading!!

[blueboxofsnark]

Do you still have any affiliations to the Gallifreyan Tradition Society, New Gallifrey, or Cassandra/Panopticon? What happened?

I no longer am affiliated with the Gallifreyan Tradition Society or New Gallifrey. I left the Gallifreyan Tradition Society, or GT for short after one of my then partners continuously harrassed Cassandra and I was accused of disloyalty to the group (namely calling it a cult and possibly also spying). I left to help form New Gallifrey due to continuous harrassment from high ranking members and invited a prominent member of New Gallifrey to live with me because of his descriptions of his family and how they abused him. I did also need help with my children at the time so I could try to get a job. He had also asked me out and I took him up in a platonic app manner (no romance).

Apparently he decided it would be more convenient for him to return to his family and mislead me into thinking that our plans to move north had not changed. I was accused of a variety of abuse and the stress of being homeless (I was looking for a new place and between jobs because I was under the impression I was moving to Ohio with him) I was under too much stress due to this and flashbacks from harrassment in GT to properly defend myself so I left.

I am also not affiliated with Cassandra or the Panopticon collective as last I heard, Cassandra hates me. I will not speak for the Panopticon though, as I have not heard from any of them.

I tagged the TW I am aware of, please let me know if this needs more.