#tumblr comments fuel me yall have no idea

[brownfrogs]

The way you drew my headcanon... I feel so honoured! It made my day, no, my week! I would absolutely just dramatically scream but I don't want to be too obnoxious. But thank you sooooo much.

And please take care of your hands and health before anything else, wouldn't want anything bad happening to you :)

- ❄️ anon (fashionably late)

Ahh!! I'm glad you liked it so :> It helps my creative juices going when I recieve such wonderful concepts and lovely comments from ya! So, keep em coming or whenever you're in the mood. And don't worry, I've made sure to take more breaks and take it easy on myself. <3

[isa-ghost]

JSE Renaissance Week Days 2 & 3

Day 2 (June 26th):

Favorite memories day. Bring back memories of your favorite times in the community, whether they were with other community members here or with Seán himsel. Even if it’s something small or obvious!

MOTHER. FUCKING. OVERNIGHT WATCH.

I have NEVER been so focused, so enthralled, so unshakably invested in something so quickly. And it was something ARGUABLY SO STUPID. GREYSCALE LOOPING FOOTAGE. ALL NIGHT. I STAYED UP ALL NIGHT. 8 HOURS OR SOME SHIT. JUST STARING. LIKE THE OBEDIENT PUPPET WHORE I APPARENTLY AM. AND I HAD A GODDAMN BLAST.

I’d do it again in a heartbeat, and it was my first experience seeing the community band together. Screaming info, dots we connected, theories we made, updates on glitches, SLEEPING IN SHIFTS AND COVERING DIFFERENT TIMEZONES, clipping & giffing moments, screenshots, art, THE WAY WE IMAGINED OURSELVES LIKE SOME SORT OF LEGIT TEAM/ORGANIZATION WHOSE JOB WAS/IS TO MONITOR ANTI ACTIVITY LIKE SOME KINDA SCP SHIT.

For me, it made Mayhem 2018 10x more fun. It felt like slipping into an old favorite outfit that still fit perfectly comfortable like it used to. And if shit ever kicked off that hard and frequent again? Same thing. I love dutifully waiting in the wings for the slightest legit sign of REAL, not overanalyzed activity. Even if we never get anything.

Overnight Watch was AMAZING, it was my spark to become genuinely, regularly active here, and Mayhem 2018- My FAVORITE JSE memory, intensified that even more. I owe those two events for having the “platform” I do on this blog. It gave me the friends I have here and the ones I talk to every single day. Those two things will live in my heart rent free forever. <3

Day 3 (June 27th):

Theorist’s day. I know there hasn’t been much by way of canon ego content lately or for a while, but if you’ve got a favorite theory or theorist in the community, give ‘em some love today. Don’t be afraid to bounce ideas off each other, too; even just musing can lead to some incredible things!

DO YALL FUCKING REMEMBER THIS CHASE THEORY I MADE? AND SEAN RARELY INTERACTED WITH THEORY CONTENT BUT REBLOGGED THIS FOR SOME REASON?? WITHOUT CONFIRMING IT LIKE A LITTLE SHIT OF COURSE??

To this day, I think that is my best theory.

AND LEST WE NOT FORGET THIS FUCKING MOMENT. WHICH STILL HAUNTS ME.

Or this simple detail I picked up on that also ended up getting Sean-approved!

Some more theories & such of mine I really really like!

I actually forgot this one existed and just blew my own mind when I reread

This “What is Anti?” theory I made

My Corrupted Chase Rambling

The timeline of Chase possibly becoming corrupted

The chronological timeline of Chase’s appearances so far

THIS THEORY THAT TOOK ME 6 HOURS TO WRITE OUT

This big brain realization of numbers (8/3/17) that turned out to be nothing but were one hell of a coincidence I noticed

And honestly? Every time I’ve ever taken timestamped notes. Those are so helpful to people and that means everything to me. I’m very proud of them. :’)

If yall want to, send me asks about my theories & such you guys remember! Favorite ones, comments on any of them, etc. You can look at all my theory stuff neatly organized on @isas-theory-wall, and here’s a list of tags to browse it easily! My main content here has been theories, so I’d love to have a nice beefy proper discussion about them through asks :D

When it comes to other theories from fellow theorists, I can’t actually instantly recall very many. :P BUT, anything I agee with or found amazing was reblogged to my theory wall blog, so anything there that isn’t mine counts as a favorite, I guess. xD

Specific theorists I love? Well- There’s a lot. But I think I’m obligated to shout out @fear-is-nameless, @huffletrax and @rogue-of-broken-time especially, because those three (and someone no longer on Tumblr) are who ignited my interest in theorizing in the first place and are my personal go-to resources for whatever stuff I don’t catch or connect. <3 Thanks to them and their amazing brains and dedication, I myself became other people’s go-to resource, and that means so much to me.

Whether our interest, passion, ideas, or fuel has gone down or fizzled out, they still- and will always -hold a special place in my heart. Not only as fellow theorists, but as friends. <3

[linddzz]

hey!! it is ME AGAIN AND I PROMISE TO STOP BOTHERING YOU AFTER THIS; i really do fdhdkjfsdh i just wanted to ask a brief question about one of your fics! (answer at your leisure or not at all lol i dont mind) but i was wondering if you had any thoughts about obscurials in general in relation to your fb fic :0 As in how they work, exactly why credence DID live so long ect bc i was wondering if that impacted your characterization of him at all. Hope you are well today, ty~

HI YOU AGAIN!!! And no buddy never apologize for tons of long rambly messages they are the fuel to any creator’s soul. We live for the shrieking paragraphs trust me this is basically true of every artist and writer in any fandom. And I loved your comment on the Studies fic it like made my entire day when I got that! (sadly i got it while i was on mobile and then adhd happened by the time i got home and...yeh. it was awesome though!) I was also planning to respond saying if you had questions about the obscurials, then tumblr is the place to ask them, but you beat me to it!Rambly ideas on obscurials are under the cut to save yalls dash.

So most of my idea on obscurials is from Newt’s one off comment about it being a parasitic magical force. Emphasis on parasitic. It isn’t any sort of self aware creature per se but it’s literally what happens when magic is impacted on itself. Usually magic can grow stronger along with the maturation and development of the magic user, and it’s canon that young witches and wizards manifest by little outbursts of magic that do things like lift books (or in Harry’s case, himself away from bullies, growing his hair back to how he liked it and such).  This can be seen as the magic kind of developing and pushing out along with the kid and bursting out as it grows.A child pushed into forming an obscurus literally tries to stop that and repress it. The magic can’t bust out and manifest, it can’t grow with the child or develop and it never gets harnessed like it should. So it turns in on itself and after growing in a stunted twisted way from it being contained, starts lashing out in ways that still react to the hosts emotions but are far less controlled. It’s violent bursts of magic outside of the host and the magic, instead of becoming part of the human, turns into something cannibalistic that begins consuming it’s own host from inside out, taking energy instead of giving it.I think Credence was a combination of very, very powerful and very, very controlled. It wasn’t just that he was powerful magically but his sheer willpower was immense enough to KEEP holding it in. Most obscurials die before they’re ten, which means the magic is bursting out way before that. But in the movie it looks like the incidents with the obscurus are pretty recent, like within the past couple of months.(I kinda headcanon that it may coincide with the adoption of Modesty and then Credence’s growing relationship with her. It wasn’t really said when she was adopted, just that she remembered her old family and missed them and remembered how to get to her old home. It may have just been a few years ago, and the obscurus started manifesting in reaction to Credence growing more protective of her and putting himself between her and the attention of Mary Lou more)So Credence not only was living with a ridiculous amount of power locked inside of him, he had it on such a tight lockdown that it failed to get out until he was (most likely) in his twenties. And even then, before things escalated with Shaw and then Mary Lou, it was attacking abandoned buildings or just causing strange occurrences in subways, which meant Credence had some control over it still consciously or not.Credence’s entire existence was probably such a tight mix of repression and carefully contained self control that he honestly was probably disassociating nearly 100% of the time??? He definitely shows signs of it in all the standing and staring very blankly. You even see him pretty much go disassociation when Grindlegraves hits him. Credence went from sobbing and terrified to his usual blank face in a half second and that wasn’t calming down that was just. Nope. Noping out of this mentally. Shut down now.The obscurus reacts to emotions and Credence never let himself have emotions. The outbursts happen more and more as he meets Grindlegraves and starts thinking of freedom, of getting away, of actually LIVING. It could have started with his protective feelings over Modesty as a little sister and then just went haywire when he started thinking about what he wanted and how much he wanted it.I also headcanon that he was so damn used to living closing himself off from things that he actually isn’t really aware of him being the obscurus. It bursts outside of him, acts on all the emotions and rage he’s been repressing or churns on itself somewhere and then vanishes, like Tina described. Like I think he knew that something was wrong, that something was happening. Maybe he read about the weird instances in the subways and just felt this twinge of guilt that he couldn’t place, and then very strongly tried to ignore it. And every time Graves would talk about the obscurial he would just have this feeling. But then would ignore that too.I pretty hard headcanon for my characterization that it wasnt until that moment when he tore down the walls from his hurt and rage that he knew it was him. Like he KNEW, but he was so good at denying it that he also basically didn’t know, ya get me? After Mary Lou’s death he felt wrong and confused and dark and the “help me” was such a deep cry that he felt from his soul, and he couldn’t tell why he needed help he just knew he needed HELP.And then it finally snapped when the person he saw as a hero, who promised him freedom and told him he was different and made him feel like he could BE someone and something tossed him aside and called him useless. And that was just the breaking point for nearly everything he tried to contain.And I also headcanon in that moment that he fuckin EMBRACED that wrong twisted feeling he always felt churning away somewhere in him. He let it go, he stopped controlling it. He didn’t want to control it or anything anymore.So, with some slight but not really spoilers, in the Studies fic he has actually like, melded with the obscurus. He’s become something totally new where his magic is the now harnessed wild dark magic of an obscurus that sometimes still bursts out destructively beyond his control.And Newt is also getting a feeling that may be what happened. From his theory, by the time an obscurus has formed it has become something separate from the host instead of melded with the person like magic usually is. And Credence now feels like someone with magic. With some serious balls ass POWERFUL magic. Credence as I write him in that fic is in a transition stage. He’s reached his breaking point and he now has to put himself back together and figure out what sort of shape that will be in. He’s let go of a lot of what he held back on, has decided he isn’t going to go back to what he was, but old habits die hard. There are emotions and some freedom but now that he has it he doesn’t know how to take it or ask questions or really have agency. But he’s also stopped holding back on all that anger and is letting himself FEEL that bitterness and power, and he’s taking comfort in that power.