#trying to think positive dreamcore

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no idea what dreamcore/weirdcore is but flying by YUKEE and antonin reminds me of jing yuan and its lowkey ruined the song for me bc now every time i listen to it i remember how fucking depressed and tied down by his position that man is. had it playing in the bg while i read an amazing jy angst fic by coincidence and it was a blursed occasion. also now that i'm here Just Wait Til Next Year reminds me of boothill but mostly just cause i'm obsessed with him and that song encapsulates me more than it does him

HI ANON!! Weirdcore/dreamcore is, from what i get abt it, is like the aesthetic for things that r nostalgic but have a hint of uneasiness but also comfort at the same time? I often associate being in liminal space to these 2 aesthetics, an example of songs from these cores r 7 weeks and 3 days, and six forty seven!!

ALSO i listened to flying n i. Can. Agree. This song reminds me of how jing yuan wouldve felt esp while he was younger when the gang went downhill, oh how he wished to escape the never ending feel of drowning, seeing his friends go one by one, drifting apart and becoming exiled/fallen/etc

Jing yuan def feels hopeless whenever he's in thought of them, occasionally indulge in wishful thinking of what he couldve done back then to prevent all of this and to get his friends back. The ache never leaves his chest, you know? I just wanna give him all the love and affection he needs to help him bear the pain 🥹🥹

And anon i agree with just wait til next year for boothill because the whole vibe of the song is just filled with boothill for me. But what im imagining is kinda sad sobs cuz its like images of him getting shot at by other cowboys or cowboy cyborgs, him riding his horse back home, or him adventuring through the windy desert, just... trying to get home. To get back to the safety and comfort of his home, he might be rowdy and loud and brash but not everyone can withstand chaos ALL the time.

He just needs to be away from all these chaos.

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which hsr characters and what weirdcore/dreamcore/any songs do u pair them together with?

[tamago-silly-thesis]

Tamago's thoughts about feel like new Eve song 🕺(+Happy birthday Eve drawing at the bottom)

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The mv is pretty cool, I didn't watched it a lot yet because of school and I don't think there are so much things to analyse : its easy to undertand that the young peoples are friends during school period. They spend time together, going out in streets, parks, coming back/going to school together and doing usual daily things with joy. At end of school days, when they have to go to adult life they say Goodbye and wish, as the lyrics says, that these sweet times together will stays in their mind even if they don't meet again.

About the lyrics, I absolutely love them, even if yes, its is AGAIN, a song about nostalgia, life, time, people changing, highschool finished etc. etc. etc.

BUT this time it feel more personnal from Eve. Especially with the littles videos he shared from the places of his childhood he returned too. The fact he went back to these places after so much time and the videos he shared makes the song more emotionnal. Its like if there was something important in it, filled with memories and nostalgia, and I like this feeling.

I love the part of the song that talks about Muta and specific memories he talked about with the videos. Its the part I relate the most through my own childhood memory with the sound behind the part of this song. It is the same instrumental used in the first memory video Eve shared on instagram. It somehow sound like old video game music with some dreamcore cool positive liminal nostalgia core dunno how to call it I just like it.

About the songs itself regardless of the lyrics and mv I give it a 5/10 for my first day of listening it. I like it but I have some mixed feelings about some details: the song kinda taste chemicals (don't know how to explain), every thing is made by machines : the beat, the bass, etc... like there is no real guitare, no real bass sound so yeah different taste. I don't like the beat so much and some arrange and effect are kinda eehh dunno like basic or too much or just not my taste. The song reminds me of those silly collored candy necklaces and bracelet full of chemicals from my childhood (ig its in the theme lol). Also the color is different (why am I so silly when I try to explain things). I think its because of the unkown guy (don't remember their name) that helped and co-arranged the song with Numa.

BUT I DON'T DISLIKE THE SONG!!!

Eve tried a lot of new things wich is really cool. I also like the way Eve is singing. He sings calmly and don't sing as loud as usually. Thats great because sometimes I listen to him yelling in the mic for 2h and I'm like "Eve why are you putting yourself in such pain".

Coming back to the mv Kuro and their team did a really good jobs, the mv is really cute and you can spot some Eve references such as kumataro the orange bear plush, Mariyasu's characters etc... also Wakusei loop in the end and many other stuff I may have missed (tell me if you found other cool stuff)

The Jacket cover is also great I feel an vintage nostalgia vibe even if I'm born way later lol

The tiny memories video on instagram made me really happy and I'm glad I can relate it to my own memories.

(The single's cover jacket)

I relate to this song but right now I'm feeling a lil wierd because I am really tired. It is my last year in highschool. I feel a lot of stuff I don't clearly understand, the last I spoted is anger and frustration two days ago while listening to "The blade" by Aurora, the part where she screams "I feel rage, I feel rage" on repeat I related to it and discovered my soul was screaming the same. I feel like I just wants the final exams to be finished and get out of here as soon as possible and at the same time I want to spend cool time with my friends in here before it ends, I have conflicted feelings and feel really silly and tired.

So when I listen to that song with happy nostalgic vibe it don't match my frustrated mood but a little at the same time don't know I have headaches since yesterday and It makes me brain explosion Tamago I guess yeah I'm just going to rest and I'll be better lol.

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Hope you enjoyed the song and hope you liked this useless thesis :D

Sorry I talked too much about me in the end 🥲

Tamago☆

PS: Here are some drawing I did this morning in maths lesson :]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EVE :DDD

[alleywaycitizen]

Words cannot explain how much I love my characters, ESPECIALLY Kaden. He is my baby, I love him so so so much. I always project at least one aspect of myself onto the characters I create, even if I don’t use them as much, they have at the least, one characteristic from myself.

My original characters have led me forward for so many years,I don’t see Kaden as a representation of Myself necessarily, but he is genuinely the character of mine I am most emotionally attached to. Although he came from not so good origins, that doesn’t mean I won’t love him. He is everything to me. There is a reason why I draw him so much.

I have psychosis. I like to draw colourful things and drape my artwork in rainbows and bright colours because it is what I see [as positive] in my mind. I literally don’t know how to explain it but here is how it goes for me. In my mind, Black and white represents depression, trauma, and stress in my mind. These shades are often represented by scribbles, torn pictures and darker patterns. However, rainbows and bright colours, usually accompanied by themes of candy/love/comfort, are seen as happy, carefree, and strangely blissful. These images sometimes contain uncanny scribbling as well, but not as severe. I guess the closest visual I could offer is an odd mix of weirdcore and dreamcore [?] But not as.. gloomyyy?

My style of art has been heavily influenced by Kittycorn/Kneeby, the creator of Sparklecare Hospital. Although I really don’t know what she is doing now, nor do I like… care.. I’m still grateful for her work regardless because I have been a fan of sparklecare for 5 years [yes, 5 years, i know, concerning if you know my chrono age right now but whatever] and it has been a huge comfort comic for me ever since [my fav characters are uni and caroline] If I remember correctly, I had found that comic from watching furry animation memes, I think it was the pork soda meme??, and I have never forgotten SCH ever since I began reading it in 2020.

I had, uh, well a very disturbing childhood growing up to say the least. Not the best if you ask me. Lots of trauma that fucked me up along the way, but this isn’t a trauma dump. What i’m saying is that I’m very, very grateful that I found SCH since it has made me learn a lot of new art techniques and skills. The comic was also made by somebody who is on the schizo-spec, which is probably why I relate to it SO much.

My original characters are everything and all to me. I daydream about them all the time and sometimes I hallucinate them while i’m in real life places. The real world is so boring to me, which is why I love the fictional realm. Fiction is yours to do whatever with, and that’s why I love it so much. Because, fiction is not real, I still am able to draw the line between fiction and reality despite being so mentally ill.

Yes, I project my trauma that I had to endure - onto my own original characters in a way that may be perceived as romanticization or glorification by other people. But what other people think does not matter to me because they are my own characters and I can do whatever I want with them. Sometimes I draw these things in a humorous light because I use humour to cope, and when I’m not doing that. I draw them in a “better” light because.. you know? i wish that these things weren’t as brutal as they were. I didn’t have control over those past situations at all, which is why I try to draw them as lighter things with the characters I love so dearly.

I am probably categorized as.. “pro-fic” or whatever people call it. But I really, really do not care. I don’t have the energy to care.. It’s just that this has been normalized in my mind for so long, I don’t think I can ever see “taboo” fiction as immoral or wrong because I simply can’t understand why. Trust me, i’ve tried to recover from this mindset. it’s never really worked.

I only use “taboo” fiction in my original creations, I don’t go into fandoms, I don’t interact with fandom communities. I don’t do any of that. My usage of this kind of fiction is only with my little characters that I made.

People tell me that I need to handle these topics more harshly or whatever, but whenever I do that it triggers the fuck out of my PTSD which is whyyyy I dooont like tthatatt… I don’t know how to explain how softened versions of these things make me feel more comfortable, it’s like reverse psychology or something. because like I said I literally wish it wasn’t as brutal as it was… so . i make fictional, happier scenarios of the trauma i went through with nicer endings to make myself feel better [about it]. Because like, i wish that happened.

Yknow. I just don’t want people to freak out, thinking that i consume “taboo fiction” for gross fetish purposes when in reality i’m just trying to cope with my tragedies by turning them into more joyful things with fiction. I don’t engage in ship discourse, I don’t go out of my way to do anybody to people. I stay in my own corner and do my own thing with my dolls. I really love it here, it’s super cozy. :]

[mp721]

The LGBTA Wiki is Backsliding

This is going to be a fun one. I know I’ve been gone for a few months and this is definitely a hell of a come back, but there’s a reason for it. 

I was really hoping that with the changing mod team and maybe the platform move, things would get better. And for a while, they did. There were still some pages that had some incorrect definitions listed and multiple pages with deleted, un-archived resources, but that was just residual from old problems. Then it seemed like something changed.

In the past month or so, there’s been an uptick in redefinitions and ones that are not getting fixed. This issue has gotten so bad that two Wiki users who, as far as I can tell, have not coined a single term both have list pages on Genderpedia for terms they’ve redefined. 

These users (Xinaphoria and Xeno Bemo) have collectively redefined over twenty terms. The redefintions range from relatively minor, though still notable things - like changing the “happy aspects of dreamcore” in the Kidreamcoric definition to read “joyful aspects of dreamcore” - to far more egregious issues, like what was done to Creepcakic and every term that Xeno Bemo has touched. These changes are actively going unchanged by both mods and other users.

This whole thing can, in part, be put down to a lack of moderation. Regardless of how much change it seems that the new mods are trying to make, I doubt that there are enough to mod a Wiki of this size. Many users of this Wiki have made it clear that they have to be watched at all times to keep the Wiki reliable and the team of five running this Wiki is not a big enough number to do that.

I really think this Wiki needs stronger moderation. It’s clear that they are, to an extent, capable of positive change, seeing as they kept it up for months, but that small of a mod team can’t moderate a Wiki that’s as big as they are and that gets as much traffic as they do.

I’m not really sure what the major point of this post is, other than that I would advise anyone who’s started being more trusting of the LGBTA Wiki should start checking sources and be wary of everything said there.

Thank you for reading. Let’s hope things look back up.

[imagiguard]

Dreamcrush: the coining post of the word and the aesthetic

WARNING: Mentions of dereality

If you've been on my blog for a while, you'll notice that I use a peculiar word: "dreamcrush". But in my one-and-a-half months of using tumblr, I've never defined what it is.

Dreamcrush: A crush that you know can't be reciprocated, due to being fictional, a celebrity, etc.

Though anyone who's fictosexual, fictoromantic etc. can use the term as it encompasses f/os, this term is more broad in mind. Case in point, my current dreamcrush: Jimmy Page. Not only is he a celebrity, but I'm also exclusively crushing on his young self (between the '60s and 1975). Of course, most of my dreamcrushes have been fictional.

The real point of the term comes from my MaDD experience. Most if not all of my dreamcrushes have been paras in my daydreams, in one way or another. I had the term in my mind before I even knew what a "para" was. As such, it came from "a crush, but they only exist in your (day)dreams".

This term isn't exclusive to romantic or sexual attraction, however! Aspec people can use "dreamsquish" or other equivalent terms based off their type of attraction. They can also use the original term if they're comfortable with it.

Recently, I've also thought of an aesthetic for it:

The Aesthetic

I use two tags for this word rn: #dreamcrush for posting about my dreamcrush(es, if there's a shift) and having a dreamcrush, and #dreamcrush-aes for the aesthetic in my mind. I may change it to #dreamcrushcore if it gets more popular, but it'll have the aes tag for now.

Now you'll be wondering: why don't the posts under the #dreamcrush-aes tag match that much with each other? There are hearts and it's romantic, but also weirdcore and unsettling glitches? What do they have to with each other?

I can't really find that many crossover pictures (or i'm not searching hard enough, idk). But I'm trying to cobble together something that resembles the explanation below:

This aesthetic is an offshoot of lovecore, with a focus on unrequited love, fantasy and escapism. The usual aspects of lovecore are still here: hearts, yearning, dates, gestures of love...

There's a heavy influence of MaDD, and its symptoms and effects, be they negative or positive.

The "dream" aspect could be interpreted in any way! I personally use dreamcore as a near synonym for weirdcore (because dreams get really weird at night). However, the "ethereal/dreamy" aesthetic and the more coherent parts of "surreal" dreamcore are the other main influences on the dreamcrush aesthetic.

Hazy filters and low quality/compressed images may feature at times to enhance the "daydream" aspect.

Despite the alluring fantasy, there's still a looming feeling that none of this will ever be real. As such, glitches are common to this aesthetic. They represent the reality calling from afar, how disruptive it may be to a maladaptive daydreamer, and the impossibility of the relationship.

There are usually two types of glitches in this aesthetic: datamoshes to represent repeating or changing daydream scenes, and the more usual neon glitches for the blurring between reality and the paracosm.

The glitches are usually less in-your-face than in glitchcore (and some other weirdcore-adjacent aesthetics) due to the nature of MaDD. This is my interpretation, though.

Music-wise, I think one of the songs that best exemplify this aesthetic is the Sewerslvt remix of Hi High by LOONA. The original song is all about innocent love, with cheesy metaphors. While it had dreamy elements, Jvnko took it up to eleven and into the realm of surreality. It'll definitely be in the dreamcrush themed playlist I'm curating.

Sorry if this got rambly at parts: it's probably me not knowing how to articulate some things (adhd+esl). Regardless, feel free to ask me anything about this aesthetic!

[grayfilmsandstuff]

I'm sorry this is going to be kind of long, didn't know what was worth being included for a matchup and what wasn't, i hope it's ok

I'm 5'3, i have short wavy red hair with an undercut, i'm chubby. I'm nonbinary with any pronouns and an artist. I am neurodivergent, have bpd and social anxiety. I currently have obsession with candles, Monster and animated shows (either for children or for adults). I'm a huge sucker for horror movies. I'm still figuring out my aestethic and my music taste, but my aestethic varies between dreamcore, goth, cottagecore and my music taste varies between loud and chaotic, pop, or indie. I'm an introvert, i can get obnoxiously loud when i'm comfortable but i get completely silent when i'm outside or with new people. I'm the proud parent of two beautiful cats.

i already wrote this but tumblr CRASHED and i had to rewrite it aggrhssguahd anyways here you go

i match you wiiiiiiith...

Hank!

- you used to work at the A.A.H.W. but hated your job. the only thing you liked was your position, aka helping with the mag agents

- Hank met you when he was fighting one of the mags and saw you out of the corner of his eye, and something about the look in your eyes told him not to kill the mag, so he didn't, instead motioning for you to follow him out

- when you first got back to the base you were very very quiet, but Hank understood and made sure to let you know that there was no rush in opening up

- they really really liked you. they liked watching you change and experiment around with your style, they thought your natural look was gorgeous, and they really just thought you were cute overall

- any time you find a new show that you like, Hank will ask you about it and he'll sit there and listen to you talk about it however long you want. he loves the sound of your voice

- sometimes you'll binge a show together just so you can have something to talk and laugh about

- Hank doesn't scare. like, at all.

- whenever you choose to watch a horror movie for date night, you'll snuggle up on the couch and every time you get jumpscared you'll flinch or jump and grab onto their arm. often times they'll hold you close but they don't even flinch. not once.

- every time you want to try something new for your aesthetic you have to go to Deimos because Hank isn't ever gonna help sway your decision

- "hey Hank? does this look good on me or is it too much? too little, maybe?"

- <anything looks good when you're the one wearing it. you're real pretty, you know that?> :}

- "...i love you so much but you're not helping"

- Hank doesn't have much of a music taste so he'll listen to whatever you're listening to. whenever you choose to play indie music, he'll stand up and invite you to dance with him, swaying to the beat of the music

- you'll stand on his feet and wrap your arms around him, palms resting on his shoulder blades, and he'll just hold you close

- you decided one day to bring your cats into the bunker and Hank fell in LOVE with them. you start to think they love the cats more than you

- obviously they love you more but. . .... . .cats

i loved this so much it was very sweet thank you for the request anon !!

jo if you read this. .. . this is top tier simp material