#try out ukmppd

[lulusukom]

Try Out UKOM Gratis

[nelyastudies]

plans for my 2 week summer break 🌙💐

relearning faith

read designing ur life book

making all lessons i have learned ppt for presentation to high schoolers

making high school bio olympiad teching materials + teaching

wardrobe cleanse

selling unused stuff

read novels: babel, carmilla & laura, hangsaman

discover music: deep dive on kelela, amythyst kiah

try making clay

start mini bookshop

drawing carmilla arts

pop up medical check up + profit for donations

trying out outfit styles

making question sheet based on kapita selekta

doing amboss questions daily

reviewing anki daily

start UKMPPD countdown

strengthening my physical examination skills

making atla illustrations

try making gifs

set up shopee shop

this is all i want to do, but lets's how much i end up doing👍

[shytiff]

Jan 2021 Wins

ive “journaled” for 6 months now. it started as small ___ wins because when you feel rly empty, even doing the bare minimum feels like a win. written down some of the wins. i think until now i’d like to keep the “win” part. a win against my shadow sometimes. a win in life. some things to be grateful for. a win for remembering it later in the future. i know some days im just basically doing nothing.  there are a lot of wars not won by me. but im still tryna ✨manifest✨

1 - woke up. watched bts’ 2021 seasons greetings. read trap city. afternoon nap. pupuy’s mbah passed away. i got DOMS in my body even though i did the barest of exercise yesterday (frail, i know). shower, matcha latte.

2 - the x banner atikah and i sent for racil post thesis defense has arrived lmaoo. mom made delicious (and sweet) fried banana. did some studying (more than usual, bcs the bar is on the floor)

3 - ate muesli, 3 risols. Kopsus coklat at flavola. Stayed there from 12-ish to 17:30 lmaooo. weekly bahas soal w/ fi. Rapat nemo

4 - first day of collab module. Barely cicil ukmppd. My mood is normal-ish but i hardly have the will to study. Dinner is fried fish with mentai sauce, potato wedges, and saladdd by mom

5 - collab module, qa presentation for rsui reps. finished reviewing tryout 2 solid. did padi pretest (got 66,5). ate chicken porridge, a bit of muesli and vsoy, tan ek tjoan bread, matcha latte, fish and chicken and potato wedges and salad, fried banana. i ate well today lol.

6 - slept during collab webinar, went to clara’s place to study osce and attended padi together. i ate well at clara’s placeee lol. ate nastar, kusuka, white kwetiaw with soup (?), and lele goreng. went back home @ 9 pm. i feel refreshed. even though we’ve half studied half mukbang all day. human interaction rly does heal me. i need human interaction more than i think. at night i dreamed about going to bali, to waterparks, seeing sea creatures, watching a movie displayed on a concert-like stage and screen at the front row. 

7 - woke up at 07:55, finished my part for collab group work. felt a bit tired today. the rest of fam went to DM, and when they were on the way back i HURRIED my way out, not even taking a shower lmaoo. got pistachio matcha latte at starbucks dm. now im more skilled in searching the best spot in a cafe to distance myself from people lmao. the matcha latte is served with some sort of pistachio cream and sprinkled with nuts on top. its like when sbux had taro matcha latte and it had purple cream on top. the pistachio taste is quite strong. reviewed TO 1 padi, sent proposals for nemo sponsorship.

8 - did syndrome try out and padi 2 web try out. studied for osce and padi @ clara’s place. wanted to order pizza since clara bought me food before, but she insisted in ordering lmaoo. so dinner is pizza hut

9 - woke up at 11.00 lmao. havent had breakfast. lunch is muesli with the brand new delishhh chocolate granola and cimory banana milk. did one shot try out, got 71. had a google meet with Prof Agus (that ethics book ghostwriting job from a year ago is not finished until now huaaa) that went from 20.00ish and finished at 22.30,,,,, reviewed syndrome try out along the way. havent made my collab self reflection hhhh. i also need to study for osce. also havent edited article for bukang solid. and there goes my saturday nooo

10 - i swear i keep waking up late lmao. Flavola w atikah, racheel later came with wawa. Kopsus coklat and ukmppd class w dr yudo. After class i just talked at flavola (and ended not studying osce at all for sunday). Went to racheel's to pray and talk some more. Hurriedly went back for booty call with fi, watched konser dies natalis first. Tryout and sum study with fi and clar that went from 20:30 to 00:10. Powered by left over kopsus and 2 snackit pia. Rip my sleeping schedule

11 - woke up at 10:30 ish, the lack of meal and horrible sleep pattern (for my standard) produced stuffy nose during the day and a bit of headache that went away for a bit after i ate. Late bfast is muesli, drank protein, ate tan ek tjoan, plus 2 brownies in the evening. Tht coaching w dr niken. Did self reflection for collab. Had dinner without rice, as usual. Ukmppd class w dr ayu. Finished reflection at 21:30 lmao (deadline is 23:55). Tryna sleep and my nose is still itchy and i sneeze a more often. i hope it goes away 2mrw

12 - DV coaching, scele tryout, took a nap before padi cause my head kind of hurts. Les padi while drinking matcha with vsoy less sugar and no added sugar. I can withstand the horrible sugarless cy matcha taste bcs theres a taste of soy. Didnt do anything else. Havent studied osce on my own until now. Astagfirullah

13 - my head still kind of aches. Its goes away when im eating. im eating so well during the weekdays that i gained 2kgs lmao. lazed around the first half of the day. padi. finally tried saint matcha and damnn its an amazing upgrade from Cy matcha. the green color is super different yall. Cy’s green looks sick and tired compared to saint matcha. the taste? immaculate (although coco deli is more fragrant). caffeine? hits. awake and feel normal? yes. messaged an ao3 author and got replied and turns out she’s making a sequel for my fav fic of hers. yay

14 - osce practice w ara ren ness. bedah and anak osce coaching. had 3 of mom’s cinnamon rolls and matcha latte for the afternoon. cicil osce DV. edited some pld articles. did nothing else basically

15 - wasted my day, didnt have the courage to study osce (i feel like i procrastinate on it bcs it feels overwhelming to me), TO FKUI 2, hurriedly reviewed to 1 before, les padi. i feel like this is the least focused im being in a les. maybe its the too few matcha powder.

16 - woke up at 9 am. breakfast is muesli. reviewed to 2 fkui w apa salahku (finished at 12 pm, there goes half of my saturday). tried fried chicken master. its good and tender but i still prefer moon chicken. 

17 - breakfast is muesli, banana and 2 martabak tahu. snack is keripik pisang aduuu wenak (and picking bits of meat cooked by mom). went to devi’s place w/ racheel silvi. brought RJ to be wrapped. we watched okay madam and its super fun, hilarious and full of twists anddd a bit of cutesy romance. just the right balance to enjoy and let the stress out. late lunch is moon chicken yay!! went home after maghrib, did to padi 6 w/ fi and matcha latte. talked about a senior’s wedding and eating healthier til 22:30

18 - To fkui 3, wasted my afternoon playing my phone, finally mustered some will to study after ashar. My progress is rly slow today. Watched hilarious jessi interview with eric, heechul. Im telling u, i thought tiktok is the funniest internet content but i was wronggg. Seeing heechul flustered is hilarious. Tried to study again at night but only learned 1 disease hiks

19 - had no idea what i did before dzuhur lmao. went to racheel’s to surprise atikah. actually napped at her place lmaoo why do i feel so sleepy. gifted rj to atikah. we ate fried chicken master and pempek on a small green table and talked. its like korean movie lmao. we talked while im simultaneously listening to padi lol.

20 - woke up at 8, chicken porridge + muesli and low sugar vsoy for breakfast. arrived at clara’s @10am. to fkui 4. reviewed it. reviewed general physical exam. finished up to padi 7. tried bombo donut. studied osce. i felt sooo dumb in osce (and clara is already super smart). superrr motivated to learn after going back home (arrived at 7) but i ended up opening youtube and drinking protein lmaooo and its suddenly 9 pm

21 - matcha latte at starbucks dm. Studied osce. Obgyn coaching w the super kind dr ilham. Les padi. Read angel buddy and played with my phone til 12 pm

22 - to fkui. padi as usual. had low motivation, so i did the tryout that day close to the actual course.

23 - left home at 06:30 to study together in capitol. had breakfast in mcd first. thank god i ate rice + chicken and breakfast wrap cuzzzz. studied osce together w ara, ical, kelvyn, dio and kak ilonka til about 2 pm. WALKED to bk bcs my parents are there. apparently simply driving to capitol is too much for them. immediately ate muesli at 4 pm cause i didnt eat anything in capitol. did nothing else after that. did not pray maghrib together lmao somehow mom had mercy on me and let me sleep som more. mom bought sate padang but i didnt eat it. i cried in bed because as yoongi said, “this is the real you and this is the real me”. did not shower/wash my face at night bcs i felt like shit lmao rip my face (its a week before bukang photoshoot)

24 - i feel tired, lazy, and just wanted some sleep. like all that’s in me is drained. ate muesli with strawberry milk. tried fitmee beef. its better than i thought. because the noodle is chewy you spend more time to chew. also ate fried chicken and daun singkong. usually i cant wait to go to flavola but even at 12 pm i just feel like laying down. finally mustered the will to shower and go out. its raining a bit on the way. colddd. 

25 - to fkui 6, osce briefing, covid lecture (that was actually for ppds), padi

26 - spaghetti for brekkie, coaching neuro and ophthalmology, cicil osce

27 - cicil osce, the second to the last padi omg. the fastest padi ever

28 - obgyn osce practice at kak ilonka’s place (that nice kosan at forkabi) with ara, ren ness, kelvyn, dio with mannequins from og dept, tried meokja salemba that serves bulgogi rice. quite good. after arriving at home, studied neuro together with menno til about 20:45 an and i just dont have the energy lmaooo so i gave up and slept

29 - today is bukang photoshoot at bintaro. put base make up on the way. even put glue on my eyebrow. got eyebrow, eyeshadow and blush done by renata. took lots of photos. nebeng om coro afterwards to bxc to meet mom. we ate at genki sushi (renata ara kris mendel oca regan geordie eka). i missss road trips hua. did tryout fkui on the way back home. after shower and prayer proceeded to review TO with apa salahku. Last padi (havent done the questions beforehand so i sprinted it out while on the actual course). Muhasabah osce with kak widia afterwards lmao. Studied osce with clara

30 - studied osce with ara ren ness @ merra. I ate eatlah, moms muffin, kemplang, tango. I ate so welll. Its a productive sesh, neuro and infectious disease. At home i studied osce w clara til abt 22:15 ish. I feel like i miss my me time lmao its been 3 days. I can still go on w clara but i dont wanna get myself sick

31 - simul osce in the morning. Osce study with clara almira. Cicil osce alone. Played my phone at 10 pm even though i still have mental clarity post matcha latte -___-

[blognyasoleh]

Pengertian Uji Kompetensi Mahasiswa Program Profesi Dokter Indonesia (UKMPPD)

Uji Kompetensi Mahasiswa Program Profesi Dokter Indonesia dinyatakan sebagai suatu perangkat uji kompetensi yang merupakan bentuk dari upaya aktualisasi berbagai peraturan praktik kedokteran tersebut dalam rangka peningkatan dan standarisasi kualitas dokter indonesia, dengan tujuan memberikan informasi tentang kompetensi pengetahuan, keterampilan dan sikap dari para lulusan dokter umum secara komperehensif kepada pemegang kewenangan dalam pemberian sertifikat kompetensi sebagai bagaian dari persyaratan registrasi, untuk seorang dokter dapat mengurus pengajuan surat izin praktik atau Medical license. Sebelum mengikutri uji kompetensi yang sebenarnya mahasiswa calon dokter di sarankan untuk mengikutri try out ukom terlebih dahulu agar mahasiswa terbiasa dengan soal soal ukom dan dapat lulus uji kompetensi dengan mudah.

Jejaring National Competence Examination for Indonesia Health Professional (NACE) disebutkan peserta yang dapat mengikuti Uji Kompetensi Dokter adalah dokter lulusan FK/PSPD yang akan memerlukan sertifikat kompetensi dokter. Oleh karena itu, dapat disimpulkan bahwa UKMPPD adalah perangkat untuk memberikan informasi tentang kompetensi pengetahuan, keterampilan dan sikap dokter umum lulusan FK/PSPD yang memerlukan sertifikat kompetensi sebagai syarat registrasi untuk mengurus surat izin praktik dokter atau Medical License di Indonesia dalam rangka peningkatan dan standarisasi kualitas dokter.

Uji Kompetensi untuk mendapatkan medical license semacam ini telah dilakukan di berbagai negara dengan cara yang berbeda. Sebagai contoh, di Inggris menyelenggarakan PLAB (professional and Linguistic Assessment Board) dan di Kanada mengadakan LMCC keduanya memiliki dua tahap pengujian yaitu, uji kognitif pada tahap pertama dan OSCE pada tahap kedua, selain itu di Amerika dengan USMLE yang terbagai menjadi tiga tahap pengujian yang mencakup tiga ranah pengetahuan dasar, kemampuan klinis (diagnosis maupun keterampilan) dan aplikasinya terhadap aktivitas kepaniteraan, sedangkan di Indonesia UKMPPD dilaksanakan hanya sekali dan meranah pada uji kognitif.

Bentuk Soal dan Pelaksanaan UKMPPD

UKMPPD terbagi menjadi dua tahap ujian yaitu, tahap uji Computer Based Test (CBT) dalam bentuk pilihan ganda (Multiple Choice Question atau CBT) dengan menggunakan prinsip key feature approach. MCQ adalah metode uji yang paling banyak digunakan dalam menguji pemahaman tentang suatu konsep ilmu (know atau knows how). Fokus pada MCQ adalah menanyakan tentang penerapan konsep pada penanganan pasien dibidang kesehatan yang penting untuk praktik sehari-hari.

MCQ ini terdiri dari cerita atau kasus klinik yang diikuti dengan pertanyaan dengan 5 jawaban dan 1 jawaban yang benar. Jawaban salah (distractor) tidak 100% salah, hanya kurang tepat jika dibandingkan dengan kunci jawaban.9 Penggunaan ujian dengan CBT bisa memberikan tampilan yang lebih baik sehingga gambaran atau pencitraan pasien bisa lebih baik ditampilkan. Hal ini bertujuan untuk memperbaiki mutu 9 ujian sehingga hasil ujian bisa diproses lebih cepat dan efisien.

Ujian MCQ terdiri dari 200 butir soal dengan waktu 200 menit dan tahap OSCE adalah suatu metode untuk menguji kompetensi kinik secara obyektif dan terstruktur dalam bentuk putaran station dengan waktu tertentu. Dikatakan obyektif karena semua mahasiswa diuji dengan ujian yang sama dan terstruktur, ujian yang diberikan dalam bentuk ujian ketermpilan klinik tertentu dan dinilai dengan lembar penilaian tertentu.

Selama ujian peserta berkeliling melalui beberapa station yang berurutan, pada masing-masing station ada tugas atau soal yang harus dilakukan atau mendemostrasikan atau menjawab pertanyaan, peserta yang mengikuti UKMPPD akan diobservasi oleh penguji. Hal ini juga biasa dilakukan pada saat try out ukom di laksanakan. Pada beberapa station peserta juga dapat diuji mengenai kemampuan menginterpretasi data atau materi klinik serta menjawab pertanyaan lisan. Dalam penilaian OSCE berdasarkan pada putusan yang sifatnya menyeluruh dari berbagi komponen kompetensi.

[aboutita]

Tentang menunda-nunda

Halo, Dunia.

Aku ingin cerita tentang perasaanku beberapa waktu terakhir. Seperti yang biasa kulakukan dengan tumblr ini sedari SMA.

Aku orang yang malas. Aku selalu tahu itu. Tapi baru akhir-akhir ini aku menyadari betapa parah kemalasanku ini.

Selama 28 tahun aku hidup, aku tidak pernah merasakan ujian yang benar-benar berat untukku, ujian untuk mendapatkan hal yang benar-benar aku inginkan. Urusan sekolah dan pekerjaan, aku cukup beruntung karena aku tidak perlu melewati ujian yang berat untukku bisa mencapainya. Aku sangat beruntung.

Tetapi, untuk hal-hal besar yang di dalam hatiku aku inginkan (lolos olimpiade sains nasional, lolos beasiswa ke luar negeri, lolos perguruan tinggi paling top) aku tidak pernah cukup tekun untuk berusaha menggapainya. Di sekolah aku merasa aku cukup mampu untuk “get a hold of things, of the subjects”. Aku suka sebagian besar mata pelajaran sekolah, terutama Matematika, IPA, dan Bahasa Inggris. Aku bisa paham dengan cepat materi sekolah, aku suka berlatih menjawab soal, memahami konsep, lalu problem solving. Dengan percaya diri aku bisa mengatakan bahwa aku menguasai 99% materi MIPA dan Bahasa Inggris. Semuanya berubah ketika aku masuk kuliah. Aku yang masuk kuliah dengan cukup mudah, bermodal rapot, kelabakan di awal karena menyepelekan apa yang aku dapatkan. Merasa kuliah akan sama mudahnya dengan saatku masuk universitas tersebut. Oh if only I had known better... But will it be any different though?

Saat kuliah, pelajaran utama adalah biologi. Pemahaman. Menghapalkan. Not really my strongest trait. I've always been the kind of logical/mathematical kind of student. Aku tidak pernah bisa benar-benar menghapal sesuatu. Aku harus memahami dulu, baru bisa mengingat/berusaha menghapalkan sesuatu (beberapa orang biasa menghapalkan dulu, baru bisa memahami kemudian). Yang tidak bisa aku pahami, tidak akan pernah bisa aku hapalkan. Dan aku tidak cukup tekun untuk mengulang, knowing that I have that kind of limited brain capacity!

But I managed to survived. Even though I barely get hold of things. Aku hanya remidi blok 1x. Aku cukup percaya diri untuk tidak ikut kursus untuk menghadapi UKMPPD. Nilaiku pada saat try out pernah cukup bagus, meskipun UKMPPD akhir kurang memuaskan, tapi kan yang paling penting adalah lulus. Intinya adalah, aku terbiasa dengan habitku yang tidak tekun, berusaha seadanya saja, karena toh I’ll always make it at the end

.. which is a very bad habit

Karena hidup semakin hari, semakin susah. Pendidikan tinggi semakin hari semakin susah. Dengan kemampuan otak yang semakin berkurang dan dengan ketekunan yang segitu-segitu saja, aku sedang dalam masalah besar. Storm is coming, I guess. I barely managed to make it in the 1st semester due to the kindness of my lecturer (saat itu aku sambil kerja, sambil kampung sehat, sambil latsar juga). Aku bisa bertahan sejauh ini, namun aku tidak akan pernah lepas dari karmaku. Suara kecil dalam hatiku yang merasa aku banyak kekurangan,  kurang pantas, kurang berjuang di masa lalu, dan aku tidak akan pernah menjadi cukup baik.

Setelah kuliah, aku menemukan MBTI (and later find out that it's pseudoscience). Aku tipe sensing, ekstrovert. Masih galau antara thinking atau feeling. But in conclusion, I love to try many many things. After college, my life pretty much is waiting for things to happen to me. Aku suka semua pengalaman yang menghampiriku selama aku bekerja di tempatku sekarang. But now I feel stuck. Tentang pendidikan lanjutan yang sedang aku jalani ini

Oh mungkin aku hanya bosan...

Bagaimana akhirnya, akupun tidak tahu

Aku membeli, membaca, menonton puluhan hal tentang self deveopment, mengubah diri, dll tapi belum ada yang berefek

Aku ingin mati saja, meskipun sungguh cemen mati karena hal beginian.. but I hate it, totally.

Kesimpulanku, setiap hari adalah perjuangan untuk melawan diri sendiri... oh, betapa sungguh menyedihkan orang dengan tipe sepertiku.

[scratchlight]

Be happy by myself

Since i deactivated my instagram and twitter account, i spent my free time (actually not truly free, but yeah you know what i mean? yes, procastinating) by watching netflix, some videos in youtube, or telegram. I am at the point where i really hate my self because i was such a big potato, laying on my bed all day long and why don’t i just study for my exit exam (UKMPPD/OSCE). HAHAHAHA. And then, i woke up at 00.30 in the morning, and doing what i should do the days before. And here i am, now is 4.00 p.m. I realized my energy is going low so i wrote this here. 

My friends are busy with their interna exam, and here i am. Good luck guys, for tomorrow. I’m trying to be happy by myself tho. I want to meet my friend so much, but i try not to. I want to see my self, can be happy with my self too. I want to study but i keep distracted, and this is one of them.. I keep feeling hungry too, so sad :( i can see my stomach get buncit:( 

One of my friend want to send a bevarage to my other friend (in this term is xoxo). Because he is got too stress out. (uhuy, kan saya mau ugha sis). How sweet right. I just realized that i have this kinda friend. I love to see how she care about him. 

What can i do next? PNPK stroke is waiting for you, beib.....

3 march 2021 - 04.00 p.m

[ayhusnar]

Kepada 2020.

Kepada 2020, aku berterima kasih atas segala pelajarannya. Aku mendapatkan banyak hal di 2020, dari kebahagiaan sampai tangisan.

Rasanya baru kemarin aku nulis what to do in 2020, semua rencana-rencana yang aku bikin, semua trip impian yang udah aku siapkan untuk 2020, semua target yang aku rasa bisa dicapai di 2020. Memang nggak semuanya terwujudkan, bahkan hanya beberapa, tapi setidaknya aku survive.

Kepada 2020, terima kasih atas semua momen yang ada. Dari 2020 kita disadarkan bahwa apapun yang terjadi, asal tuhan berkehendak lain, silahkan terima saja nasibnya.

Aku selalu berdoa diberikan yang terbaik untuk diriku sendiri. Maka tuhan kabulkan.

Rasanya baru kemarin aku berpikir “apa boleh se-excited ini menyambut 2020?”

Rasanya baru kemarin aku nangis untuk pertama kalinya karena koas.

Rasanya baru kemarin aku patah hati sedalam-dalamnya kepada seseorang.

Rasanya baru kemarin tuhan membolak-balikkan hatiku.

Rasanya baru kemarin aku koas pakai snelli, sekarang pakai gown, masker, face shield.

Rasanya baru kemarin aku melupakan hal-hal lain demi ujian.

Rasanya baru kemarin aku nangis sejadi-jadinya begitu mama hilang kesadaran tepat di depan mataku, perlahan-lahan.

Rasanya baru kemarin aku duduk di cvcu, dengan buku bahan ajar ukmppd, mengumpulkan semua niat dan konsentrasi yang tersisa cuma untuk belajar dan try out.

Rasanya baru kemarin aku nangis karena ternyata kepasrahanku menghasilkan buah yang manis.

Rasanya baru kemarin.

Ternyata sudah besok.

[hardinanana]

How I prepare my UKMPPD

Halo lagi tumblr-er!

Saya punya cerita baru nih, kemarin saya dikasih “kesenangan” sama Allah SWT, dengan dikasih sebuah achievement yg saya bener-bener nggak nyangka dan melebihi mimpi saya. Mungkin ini sebuah cobaan untuk saya supaya nggak sombong dan mau berbagi lebih banyak lagi ke orang lagi.

Jadi awalnya…

Semua dimulai dari obrolan di bulan Ramadhan di mobil tomi. “Kalau kita ambil (UKMPPD) November dengan persiapan sebulan dan banyak yg gagal, taruhannya akreditasi kampus… Kalau kita ambil Februari, kayanya kita juga harus bayar UKT lagi, uang kos lagi, makan….” dan waktu itu saya masih keukeuh mau ambil Februari.

Setelah dipikir lagi, apa yg saya lakukan selama nganggur dari Oktober-Januari? Mau liburan juga gak tenang. Mau ngapa-ngapain juga nanggung. Kalau mau nunggu ujian Februari, uang yg ‘dibuang’ bisa belasan juta sendiri. Dan akhirnya, datanglah sebuah chat dari maya di tengah stase bedah, stase terakhir saya. “Din, mau gabung kelompok belajar nggak?”

Waktu itu, bedah merupakan stase terakhir yg merupakan klimaks di akhir perjalanan koas saya. Eh, tapi saya belum ceritain ttg bedah saya ya? Yaudahlah nanti disusulin di post berikutnya aja. Intinya, bedah itu berangkat subuh, pulang jam 2 (bisa siang bisa pagi). Atau malah pulang cuma numpang mandi dan ganti baju. Fisik dan otak udah setengah-setengah ngikutin keseharian koas. But, surgery was fun!

Di 4 minggu terakhir bedah, saya ikut tuh intensif belajar tiap hari ngulang materi sama temen-temen. Terus saya bolos di minggu ujian dan minggu integrasi. After that, the journey began!

Banyak banget orang-orang yang nanyain, tips and tricknya apa, belajarnya gimana, rahasianya apa. Sebenernya kemarin tujuan saya cuma one shoot aja gaes, nggak ada rahasianya. But, here’s the things I did to prepare my UKMPPD:

1. Set your goals

Saya nggak tau sih ini ngaruh apa enggak buat semua orang. But it worked for me! Tulis goals yg pengen kamu capai di kertas atau dimanapun yang bisa sering kebaca sama kamu. Tulis. Jangan cuma dipengenin, diucapkan dalam hati, dan diingat di kepala. Tulis. It motivated me whenever I saw that. Psst (my goal is just become the best-10-rank at the national UKMPPD)

2. Know your study style

Kenapa sih penting? Yaa itulah cara efektif buat kita untuk belajar berulang kali untuk menghafal materi. Punten kata-katanya menghafal, karena saya dasarnya memang perlu hafalan yg kuat selain logika yg perlu diasah juga (for some cases). Buat saya yg stylenya kinestetik, saya harus nulis biar bisa lebih nempel. Some people said this is the best way to study karena kita ngulang 3 kali, baca-tulis-baca lagi. Tapi style ini membutuhkan waktu yg nggak sedikit. I need to sleep shorter and write more than usual. Kalo stylenya visual yaa harus tau cara biar nggak ngantuk pas baca catetan atau lecture. And auditory people should have partners to tell the lecture.

3. Belajar kelompok intensif tiap hari

Ini ngebantu banget-banget-banget. Kenapa sih belajar kelompok? Biar ada yg ngingetin kalau kita ngantuk. Biar ada yg nemenin belajar dan menjadi semangat. Penghibur saat bosan melanda. Dan kamu akan tahu kelakuan teman-temanmu yang tersembunyi (HAHA). Dan tanamlah sifat kompetitif dalam hal yg positif. Buat saya yg memang kompetitif, kalau ada temen yg bisa suatu materi dan saya enggak, I will try to learn more dan materinya bisa nempel. Belajar sama temen juga bisa nambah informasi materi, bisa share jawaban. Dan yang paling penting menurut saya dari belajar kelompok adalah saya bisa stay belajar dengan tingkat konsentrasi more than 70% selama lebih dari 9 jam non stop (Break sholat gak dihitung ya).

4. Try out

Sering-seringlah try out, atau menguji diri sendiri sendiri. Halah gimana sih bahasanya. Pokoknya sering-seringlah ngerjain 1 paket 200 soal, dikasih waktu, dicocokin sama kunci, dinilai, dan dibuat grafik. Then evaluasi. Nilainya naik apa enggak, kurang bisanya dimana.

5. (This is optional) Join a 'bimbel’ for triggering your study

Sebenernya ikut bimbel nggak harus sih, kalau aku dulu hanya sebagai 'penenang’ dan trigger buat belajar lebih. Kadang di bimbel dikasih ilmu baru yg nggak diajarin di preklinik atau di koas yg pake ilmu praktis, tapi pernah keluar di UKMPPD. Nilai plusnya itu aja sih sebenernya. Selain itu, buat saya pribadi, tutor bimbel itu semacam panutan, 'pegangan’, acuan atau apalah sebutannya ketika kita dapet soal yg susah atau saat temen-temen kita beda pendapat. Well, it works too for me.

6. Minta izin orang tua

Saya awalnya nggak pernah minta doa restu ke bapak buat ujian blok atau ujian stase karena banyak banget dan malah jadi panjang karena ngejelasin dulu hehe. Namun, ketika mau CBT dan OSCE itu, paginya saya telpon bapak ibu dulu buat minta doa restu. Lupain juga semua masalah yg ada di rumah dan di hati. Optimalkan kapasitas otak untuk 200 menit yg bersejarah itu.

7. Pray.

Gak ada yg bisa ngalahin kekuatan doa. Kita nggak tau doa siapa yg dikabulin Allah SWT. Makanya, kita perlu minta maaf dan memafkan orang. Kita perlu juga menahan omongan kita supaya tidak menyakiti siapapun. Bantu orang yg membutuhkan walau kita sesibuk apapun.

And the quote that highly motivates me is:

Work hard, until you no longer have to introduce yourself.

Thank you to Allah

- for giving me something I never ask

- for giving me opportunity to give sambutan at my Hippocratic Oath

- for giving me opportunity to be written in Unsoed’s website and Suara Merdeka’s website

- for giving me opportunity to make my parents happy

Good luck for your UKMPPD gaes! I’m waiting for your good news!

[acasandra]

H-21

Sebentar lagi UKMPPD akan tiba. Perasaan takut, deg-degan, pasti menyelimuti seluruh peserta, termasuk saya. Ini adalah ujian akhir sebagai mahasiswa kedokteran agar menjadi seorang dokter. Bila tidak lulus, ya belum dokter. Belum berhak untuk berpraktek.

Saya adalah tipe orang yang takut akan kegagalan. Walaupun pepatah mengatakan kegagalan awal keberhasilan atau habiskanlah jatah gagalmu di usia muda. Yang jelas, kegagalan seorang anak dapat membuat orang tua kecewa, bukan? Saya lebih khawatir orang tua saya kecewa dibanding kegagalan itu sendiri. Hal tersebut semakin menekan pikiran saya akhir-akhir ini. Rasanya saya tidak bisa bernafas lega dan tidur nyenyak hingga pengumuman kelulusan.

Akhir-akhir ini setiap malam, saya suka membuka galeri di handphone, melihat foto-foto kedua orang tua saya. Terkadang saya menangis hanya karena memikirkan takut mengecewakan mereka. Harus keluar berapa rupiah lagi ayah saya bila saya belum lulus? Uang berkas, pendaftaran, try out dan bimbingan belajar menuju ujian tidaklah murah. Maka, seluruh peserta sangat ingin ujian satu kali langsung lulus.

Selain banyak berusaha dan belajar, tidak lupa kita harus berdoa. Apapun hasilnya, Allah yang menentukan. Banyak minta didoakan oleh orang tua juga. Buat para pembaca, doakan saya ya? Supaya gak stres, lulus dan jadi dokter yang baik. Semoga Allah membalas kebaikan untuk kalian juga. Aamiin Allahumma Aamiin :)

[tulisanuntukharitua]

2017, Sebuah Kotak Cokelat (1).

2017 telah berlalu. Setidaknya kini kalender di rumah telah menunjukkan angka 2018. Meski 2 hari ini aku masih selalu salah menulis keterangan waktu saat menulis di jurnalku. Masih selalu kububuhkan angka 2017. Untukku, 2017 begitu baik untuk dikenang. Meski ada beberapa kejadian kehilangan yang sangat tidak terduga, tapi Allah sangat berbaik hati membayar luka dengan begitu banyak bahagia.

Ada begitu banyak rencana yang berjalan dengan cukup baik di 2017. Banyak perjalanan yang terlaksana dan memberi kenangan serta pelajaran. Usaha-usaha yang membuahkan hasil yang memuaskan, rindu yang berujung temu, hobi-hobi yang kembali dan persahabatan yang semakin erat.

Di awal tahun 2017, Medan memberi cerita. Sebulan menjalani stase Jiwa disana, tepatnya di RSJ Moh Ildrem. Aku yang gemar mengamati tingkah manusia, dibuat terkesan dengan cerita pasien-pasien disana. Cahaya pada diri manusia ada di dalam jiwanya. Jiwa adalah apa yang membuat manusia bercahaya. Setidaknya itu yang kulihat dari mereka, pasien-pasien disana. Mereka berjalan seperti biasa, duduk, makan, kadang ngobrol meski lebih banyak diamnya, fisik mereka sehat, tapi mata mereka redup tak bercahaya. Jiwa mereka seperti tertinggal entah pada kejadian mana yang akhirnya membuat mereka tersesat. Lupa untuk kembali membawa jiwanya.

Medan pun mempertemukan aku dengan beberapa kawan yang sudah lama tidak bertemu. Temu adalah permulaan untuk hari-hari yang akan lebih banyak rindu. Bertemu - berinteraksi - berpisah - lalu rindu. Seperti itu siklus pertemuan menurutku. Lalu kenapa kita masih mau melakukan pertemuan-pertemuan jika hanya akan berpisah lalu tersiksa dengan rindu?. Agar berinteraksi. Disana kita belajar tentang banyak hal dari orang-orang baru yang kita temui.

Setelah dari Medan, hari-hariku kembali sibuk menjadi dokter muda. Menghabiskan wakru di rumah sakit, melupakan sejenak apa itu senang-senang hanya agar aku bisa segera menjadi dokter umum. Sampai akhirnya, menjelang pertengahan tahun 2017, tepatnya di Bulan April akhir, aku selesai menjalani kepaniteraan klinik, meski sebenarnya perjuangan masih belum berakhir karena aku masih harus mempersiapkan diri untuk menghadapi UKMPPD (Uji Kompetensi Mahasiswa Program Pendidikan Dokter). Lagi-lagi, Allah berbaik hati membuatku bahagia. Nilai-nilaiku selama koass sangat memuaskan. Setidaknya, menurutku sangat sepadan dengan usaha yang selama ini aku lakukan.

Tidak lama setelah itu, di bulan Mei, aku mendapat kabar yang tidak menyenangkan. Sebuah kehilangan yang membingungkan. Kehilangan seseorang yang sebenarnya tidak pernah aku miliki. Kehilangan seseorang yang tanpa ia sadari ia telah mempengaruhi hidupku. Kehilangan yang membuatku belajar memahami apa itu ikhlas. Cinta pertamaku yabg bertepuk sebelah tangan.Semoga ia tenang dan bahagia disana. Semoga segala kebaikannya diterima Allah S. W. T.

Di Bulan yang sama, Allah mengganti sedihku dengan bahagia. Aku akhirnya bisa mendaki gunung Ciremai. Sebuah ironi, gunung Ciremai bisa dikatakan sebagai cinta pertamaku juga. Gunung pertama, yang telah kuimpikan dari sejak SMA, yang membuatku terus bertekad untuk bisa mendaki puncaknya tapi terus terhalang izin orang tua. Sampai kemudian, di 2017 Allah memberiku jalan untuk bisa kesana. Saat cinta pertamaku yang lainnya bertepuk sebelah tangan bahkan tidak akan pernah mungkin bisa bersama, cinta pertamaku yang lainnya bisa terwujud. Cara kerja Allah mengatur skenario hambaNya memang luar biasa. Ia selalu tahu apa yang terbaik untuk hambaNya.

Setelah mendaki Ciremai, saatnya aku nertempur kembali mempersiapkan diri menghadapi UKMPPD. Selama 3 bulan aku fokus belajar, latihan soal, try out, bimbingan, belajar kelompok, dan kegiatan lain yang sa gat menyita waktu. Waktu itu, bisa dikatakan waktu tidurku kadang hanya 5 jam bahkan kurang dalam sehari. Meski telah menyita waktu tidur, rasanya waktu 24 jam masih kurang agar bisa merasa siap. Aku bahkan 'puasa' baca buku-buku diluar materi. Itu artinya, tidak ada belanja buku baru. Selama 3 bulan itu, hidupku terasa berat dan membosankan. Tapi, semua itu membuahkan hasil yang sangat luar biasa. Aku lulus UKMPPD one shot. Aku resmi menjadi dr. Sabrina Silvi Ainun Nissa.

Senang sekali rasanya melihat kedua orangtua ku bahagia dan bangga anak sulungnya sudah menjadi dokter. Setelah kuliah terpisah jarak yang sangat jauh, aku pikir semua ini sangat sangat sepadan. Terima kasih Allah Maha Besar.

Sebenarnya, sebelum pengumuman UKMPPD aku diberi kebahagiaan lain. Aku diberi kesempatan untuk mendaki gunung lagi. Kali ini aku mendaki gunung Merbabu. Meski awalnya aku mendaki tanpa izin Mamah, tapi alhamdulilah semua berjalan lancar dan Mamah memberi izin & restu. Aku mendaki bersama sahabat-sahabatku. Rasanya menyenangkan sekali untuk mengingatnya. Kecuali, bagian dimana tanjakannya banyak sekali.

Masih ada beberapa cerita menyenangkan lainnya di part 2!

[anitapurnamasaribintiamir]

-Kamis, 19 juli 2018 . Hari itu hari pertama mama tau mama hamil kamu Nak. Duh, mama senang luar biasa, ayah juga. . Tapi ada satu hal yang mengganjal dipikaran mama waktu itu. Agustus nanti UKMPPD (ujian kompetensi dokter yg menentukan boleh tidak wisuda dokter). Semuanya juga tau kalau persiapan UKMPPD ga tanggung-tanggung lelahnya. Les di kampus siang hari, Les di tempat les siang hari, belajar kelompok malam hari, begitu terus yang akan kita jalani untuk beberapa bulan ke depan. Mama mulai berpikir gimana nanti kita menghadapi itu semua dengan anak mama yg masih di perut mama ditambah drama mual muntah lemas di trimester pertama. . Di minggu-minggu awal kehamilan mama sempat mual muntah hebat, lemas, tdk nafsu makan. Setiap ada makanan yg masuk mulut, ga sampe 5 menit langsung keluar semua. Ditambah kalau malam mama gbisa tidur Nak. Mama tau ini semua pengaruh hormon b-Hcg yang masih tinggi di trimester pertama. Ditambah stress karena mama lihat temannya mama persiapan dan belajar UKMPPD nya luar biasa :) . Akhirnya mama mengambil keputusan bahwa saat itu bukan lulus UKMPPD prioritas mama, prioritas mama kamu Nak. Jadi persiapan UKMPPD mama tidak maksimal, Les di kampus sering bolos, les di tempat les sering gak fokus, hampir tdk pernah ikut try out, belajar kelompok lebih banyak tidak hadirnya, di rumah juga gak belajar. . Mama tau yang menentukan hasil bukan hanya usaha, doa juga. Kita akan usaha sesuai kemampuan kita Nak, dan berdoa lebih giat supaya kita bisa lulus UKMPPD one shoot. . Nak, saat teman-teman mama persiapan ujiannya sendiri, kita berdua Nak. Jadi ga ada alasan kita sedih, stress. Kita harus happy dan alhamdulillah kita happy melalui itu semua. Oke, fix kita berdua akan berjuang Nak, tapi tetap bukan lulus UKMPPD prioritas kita, tapi kesehatan kita berdua jauhh lebih penting Nak. . Lanjut di komentar (di Banda Aceh, Indonesia) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bzo5O_sHNXe-fjNw8mPNvYg40WKenYP5G_Dsao0/?igshid=ds1t5tw6tnam

[shytiff]

Small Dec Wins

i cant believe its December already tf?!?!?!

1 - poli KIA today. saw a mother who cant feel the movement of their baby. the senior midwife tried to find the baby’s heart beat but not finding it. she said she hopes she were wrong. fell asleep at 3pm-ish, woke up super hungry. ate. i swear i feel like my weight when i measured it this morning was ~52, but after eating its close to 54 lol. eating banana and chocolate nextar is yummm. dalbang today is hella funny as always and suuper endearing. fell asleep after dalbang, didnt study hufttt

2 - today im at igd but joined azkia at vk for a bit to see partus. its not that im scared (maybe not consciously) but when the mom was being stitched i felt lightheaded, nausea, cold extremities, and i even had to squat multiple times because i couldnt stand. But i felt better after the partus so maybe seeing it was the cause. I did not feel scared at all honestly ._. and i’ve seen multiple partus before. i dont know why. i can literally feel my symphatetic tone giving out lmaoo. tried matcha latte with Cy matcha powder. it tasted more milky and grassy. mom thought it tasted like nori. i prever cocodeli alll the way (although Cy is cheaper). i think it also has a bit of caffeine that made me feel awake like a normal person should be. 

3 - today is vk but there’s no patient so thank god i saw sumn yesterday. did some cicil ukmppd in the morning accompanied by matcha latte. tried to order dufan tickets and i couldnt find my damn ktp...... fell asleep after worrying about said ktp

4 - matcha latte in the car, swab at lmk, went to dufan by tj with willy, had quite some funn with atikah nila willy amel pupuy. first time trying kereta misteri, quite fun. it rained after ashar so we didnt ride anything after that. turns out my ktp was at barel’s fotocopy lmaoo thankyou ara for picking it. went to solaria ancol afterwards, picked up by mom. i didnt tell her in the morning that i was going to dufan lmao. plenary @ zoom 19 pm. rapat nemo. fell asleep.

5 - went to lmk by tj to surprise clara. went back home and fell asleep. didnt rly do anything afterwards because this ragged body gets tired easily and i dont eat much recently. i can feel the difference before and after eating and there’s actual energy after eating. its not that im hungry though, but i feel less energized. felt annoyed terrible and just wanna lay in bed (this is unrelated with the less food in my system). even though i met up with friends

6 - after LOTS of sleeping i feel somehow better but not to a ‘normal’ amount. watched kimbab family videos. did power vinyasa by doogether with fianti. took a shower and ate indomie and i felt quite normal, except i slept again wtf. i thought i would have the second half of the day but nah. did self tryouts with fianti, 150 FDI questions. I got 96/150 right. huft. such a great reality check

7 - poli lansia with dokter isip, matcha latte in the afternoon rly helps me not sleeping the day away, packed up for depok

8 - poli umum with dr gita (helped doing phys exam), packed the rest of my stuff, ate some risol and matcha lattteee in the car, took swab results, picked up hazmats etc, zoom discussion with FT PKM Kalideres (dr gita) on the way, and i finally arrived at tamel. dinner is granola with vsoy. Taste like a slightly wet granola bar, nutty fiber-y vibe

9 - walked in ui with ara, managed to jog from the trees near st ui until kuburan bikun wow. i reached that point where my leg and heart were going in a steady unburdened pace and my willpower to keep going on was tested. tried the signature steak in Double U Steak by Chef Widi, while ara tried ribeye. the ribeye was more tender than the signature. but the seasoning in the signature is quite delish, salty and oily without being too much (like futago ya). read poppyland fast pass from ara’s phone omg season 1 is finally complete! went to coftof (omgggg i miss this place), it looks different now. ordered matcha latte and it tasted weirdly like a soy milk although ara doesnt feel that way. the matcha tasted weird. wont repurchase. read chainsaw man, its so entertaining, funny and deep at the same time. denji mess around and be too naive sometimes but hes lowkey hot lmaooo. aki is lovvvvve.

10 - first day at rsud budhi asih. had moesli combined with granola + vsoy for brekkie. went back to tamel at 3 pm. it rained when i got back. bought warteg lugina worth 32k. walked to sbux for tumbler day its been a while since i had their matcha latte. it tasted quite good, but not as good as i remembered (?) maybe bcs i asked for non fat milk. sbux closes at 8 pm for now hikss

11 - left tamel at about 7:10 and arrived on budhi asih at 08:54 yalll the traffic. Icu. Bought eatlah double and ate the salted egg part. Nap. ICU discussion with dr Dedi @8pm. I presented from my phone to save data hehe,,

12 - woke up at 8, eatlah brown butter for brekkie, symcard, saladstop's caesar salad for lunch (quite 'eneg' because i didnt eat the cheese evenly so the chicken and cheese were eaten last after the vegs are out. The vegetable's not that variative, and the non vegs make the salad taste delicious (albeit maybe not THAT healthy). Evening jog @UI and i realized i can get wifi sitting near the lake n library. Stared at the night sky from my room, i swear the sky seems super clear. Saw tiny fireworks in the distance

13 - ate muesli and saladstop’s banana walnut cake, symcard, bought moon chicken and saladpoint. lunch was egg salad and the wings. the original tasted so good like??? maybe i havent had msg for a while. also tried big bang, not too spicy which is nice. cicil ukmppd. put my laundry at buih barel lmaoo. try out with fianti. got 70/100

14 - breakfast was salad and leftover chicken. today was bangsal with angga armand. the geriatric patient has a loud murmur yall (and scoliosis, so much that the heart looks distorted). went to margo city to see sales, but when i think about it id rather just thrift stuff lmao. bought lugina. slept through kuliah guru besar. writing this in yellow truck coffee, that had 2 customers on the 1st floor including me. tried banana milk. yall after trying to drink less sugar the beverage tasted super sweet. my headache just goes away. sugar is magic but unhealthy whyyyyy.

15 - igd siang with indah. This body sure is frail. Did cbd with dr afifah AND rescheduled pleno. Rip mobile data i have to use for hotspot.

16 - ok today. Inserted goedel and did bagging. I bagged the patient the wrong way at first (too much). Thankfully the nurses were kind and taught us a lot :) watched some bts content. I feel like after reading househusband my tiktok page is now immensely funnier. Dalbang is also hilarious as always. Put on ginseng sheet mask (smells quite strong)

17 - bangsal. snacked on fried chicken. matcha latte starbucks (turns out its quite full here) and liqo about keeping our tongues in check

18 - arrived at icu. And then opened line. Turns out hadin's swab is positive, so agung kak iman and me have to isolate and swab. So i went back. Ordered kanayam chicken and fish and tempe. Nasi liwet tasted goood damn. Sleptt in the afternoon. Pleno at 4 pm (entered the room 4:30). Had no motivation to do anything. Azkia is getting married! Spent 20 mins formulating words to congratulate her lmaoo

19 - osce simulation, kak nanu was so kind and encouraging. Did try out solid. Lunch is fish bite pasta with melted cheese (cause i had to reach the minimum amount for promo). It got cold so its not that good (pairing it with self made mentai sauce, mixing the mayo and chili, is way much better). Jogged in ui (and searched for wifi). Approached by someone selling haraus coffee (25k), saying that some earnings will be for charity. Its basically sweet. Can barely taste the coffee.

20 - had kanayam for lunch (brekkie is almost always muesli lately). The nasi liwet tasted much better the first time. Walked to yellow truck coffee in the pouring rain. Got banana milk. Saw webinar ksk (electrolyte correction and dr nadhira talkshow). What i got from it is that, dr nadhira is a different person from the first place. Shes visionary, knows what she want and not afraid to reach it. The mindset is different. Even if i try as hard as her, her propensity to growth is different. Cicil ukmppd. Try out with fianti (got 72/100). Talked for an hour about love and marriage and engagements (there are so much of it lately)

21 - leftover kanayam for brekkie, also ate roti salman in cikini st. swab today (met kris, nessa and others). muesli for lunch. i thought my body felt a bit warm, so i decided to find sumn to eat. tried kedai abu bakar’s spaghetti brulee. its okay. maybe because its not too cheesy or meaty, mainly bechamel sauce. the one pupuy made is much tastier. finished the whole 10x20 portion in 2 eating sesh. cicil ukmppd @ bed in the evening (somehow felt refreshed enough to be able to concentrate in bed)

22 - went early to icu to put dops form. lugina for early lunch. i feel like my metabolism is faster? or my body is not so much in calorie deficit mode anymore and it got greedier lmao i used to just ignore hunger but not now, for health. starbiiies tumbler day. ordered black tea latte with non fat milk and vanilla syrup (because raspberry syrup is no more). did cbd geri ppt. 

23 - finally knew the swab result bcs kak iman asked kak farras. thankfully negative. igd with jordi. quite a few chances to do iv line, but i failed 2 times. managed to do iv injection to insert 2 drugs. saw the worst cpr ive ever seen in my life. its too slow, with maximal interruption. fish bite for lunch. wasted the rest of my day

24 - originally intended to run but i cant bring myself out of bed. packed up my stuff. picked up by mom. got the paper result of swab, got ksk from kelvyn @ capitol. can finally drink self-made matcha latte again, but it tasted horrible. i know cy matcha doesnt have that much going on, but even this is low even for them. previously i was starting to get used to the grassy smell.

25 - my lil bro remarked “maybe shes depressed because she doesnt have her chair”. fuck yall. this “depression” that im in is caused by this very place and the people. and im supposed to still muster the strength to study for ukmppd AND get my face together for solid book photoshoot. that shit is too much. this is why the money that goes to cafe, and the bike ride there is worth it for my sanity. after showering, things felt a bit better. had absolutely no will to study today. ate muesli with a bit of matcha latte.

26 - muesli for breakfast. matcha latte is lyfff ive probably said this before but it ~somehow~ makes me feel normal and not in a slump. like im a regular person. with normal moods. and not wanting to sleep all the time. i try to do ukmppd exercises but the pace is so fucking slow, bcs im distracted by get rich haha,,,. the latest potn update (64) is omgggg the mixed feelings? love? hate? anger? everything and nothing? the ~tension and passion~? im obsessed. watched a ton of bts content today and yesterday lmao.

27 - nasi kebuli for brekkie. went to flavola, im the first customer lmao. tried kopi susu coklat, tasted quite close enough to janjiw’s kopi soklat. had the same ~improved mood and concentration~ effect. tried to read ksk. bought milky banana 1L from puyo to give dajen (its his bday yesterday) (i feel prompted (?) to gift people when theyve given a present to me) (because my love lang is not gift giving at all so i barely think abt gifts lmao). talked with sum 33 ipa guys @ dajens house. yay appropriate amount of social battery charging. tryout with fianti, padi this time. got 67/100. 

28 - ate muesli with matcha latte after breakfast. cicil ukmppd. Listened to yoongi's vlive until i fell asleep lol. 2 burger and salad for dinner. omggg hansol revealed his gf. 

29 - spent half of my day tidying up the mess that is my room. figured out what to wear for solid book photoshoot with fianti, ara. matcha latte terosss. phd for dinner. 

30 - breakfast is muesli with cimory choco hazelnut. mom made matcha chocolate brownies. tryna study. slow pace terosss. read some padi materials. dalbang.

31 - bought vsoy low sugar and multigrain. moved my body a bit to youtube videos. showered. felt better. it also rained (which i love). the pleasant mood only lasted til the evening. did nothing from 7pm even though im not sleepy. cant tell when did i start to sleep

and just like that, 2020 kkeut. its sad to say i dont rly remember much remarkable things this year. other than the trip and memories with minor rotation friends. i just remember wasting my life away in my house. i guess that’s the danger of living a monotone life. sometimes you gotta invest some time to have fun, to have motivation to live on and do things. not doing this makes it difficult to live day by day. and friends. meeting friends, seeing new stuff. that helps me live. 

[passionxpeople]

BOOKS TO SURVIVE MEDSCHOOL

Hi! so, uhm, I haven’t really introduce myself properly. But now I will, my name is Sarah and I’m a third year medical student in Indonesia. Personally, medschool was so daunting, but over the years i’ve figured out several books that helped me to jolt down I am currently learning. 

When I entered my second semester, I was overwhelmed by the amount of materials that I needed to understand and memorize in order to be a good doctor (solving case problems) and of course to pass my exam. I felt like studying from slides only does not help me understand the material as a whole. Yet, if I had to read books, it will be too much and I thought I would not have the time to do it. So at that particular semester, I survived by relying on my senior’s lecture notes and slides. I tried reading a chapter of Sherwood but I could not get it (lol). But over the time, I started to adapt myself for reading textbooks and BOY they help A LOT! So just remember to try and never give up in reading textbooks, and read them chunks by chunks. DO NOT try to finish a whole chapter in just one day, or else you’ll be stressed out and pissed at yourself for not being good enough. Chill guys, changes takes time :)

And actually, I’ve been wanting to post about this for quite a few time, but I haven’t had the guts to do so. SOOO HERE IT GOES:

Physiology. I can not stress how important it is to understand how your body works physiologically. Because by understanding the way it works, it will be easier for you to understand the pathophysiology behind a disease. Personally, I love Sherwood for physiology. I think it is well explained and there are always pictures that highlight the important parts of each headings. For review, I use Rapid Review Physiology. ITS SO GOOD GUYS!!!! If you have been slacking all these time and finals are near I suggest you skip Sherwood and read Rapid Review directly. But, other overachieving friends of mine also love Constanzo as it is famous for its A rating in USMLE. I have tried reading constanzo, but I’ve set my heart for Sherwood. <3 ps: I’m using the 9th edition. But if it is too expensive, just buy the previous editions, its all the same inside, they only re-design the book. For practice, BRS Physiology is a good to go. Very analytical, if you can’t do it, its okay, I can’t too most of the time HAHAHAHAHA.

Anatomy. Actually anatomy is always a daunting subject for me, I mean, I tried but its not what I’m good at I guess. For anatomy atlas, I use Netter and Yokochi. I prefer Netter to Sobotta because 1. its cheaper 2. It is less bulky (My sobotta was comprised of 3 different books and its just annoying how I need to switch book if I wanted to see other body parts) 3. it is more detailed (I feel like Sobotta was missing some names of a body part). So I would read the anatomical check list given by the faculty and I would read and try to remember each parts in Netter and practice on Yokochi. Yokochi Atlas gives a realistic picture on what would things appear in cadaver. Because what you see in atlas like Netter and Sobotta are too good to be true. No, your blood vessels are not color-coded blue and red darling like you see in atlas(es). But if you want to understand theoretically where things are located, I suggest Gray’s Anatomy for Students or Clinical Anatomy (Blackwell Publishing). They also explain about clinical abnormalities that may happen in a certain organ, so you would have a sense the purpose of learning anatomy. PS: Yokochi has their own flash card too!! Good for practice!

Histology. Yay back to one of my fave subject. I use Junquiera for histology. Although my professor liked and used Gartner a lot, I prefer junquiera as it has pictures (ofc duh) with summaries just below the picture or in a box somewhere nearby, so you don’t have to read the whole thing, but you should. I mean it would take me two or three times reading to understand what the book is talking about and things started to make sense to me. But its all okay now.

Pathology. I use Robbin’s Basic Pathology and Rapid Review Pathology. Sometimes, there is just too much information in Robbin’s Basic Pathology and most of the time, I’m running out of time, hence I’ll retreat to Rapid Review Pathology. Its a concise version of Robbin’s Basic Pathology. Just keep in mind, in order to solve a pathology case problem, you need to understand how did it happen (the pathophysiology), the signs and symptoms of each disease, the risk factors and who is at a greater risk for that particular disease.

Biochemistry. Rapid Review Biochemistry is my go to book for biochemistry. I find Marks’ and Harper’s are a bit too overwhelming. 

Embryology. The Developing Human by Keith L. Moore and Langman’s Medical Embryology are the two books I used during embryology module. I switch between these two, but I guess I liked The Developing Human by Keith L. Moore more. There is also BRS Embryology for Qbank.

Immunology. I guess by finishing the whole Abbas Basic Immunology book will help to save you during Immunology? If you are interested in immunology, you can also read Abbas Cellular and Molecular Immunology.

Internal Medicine. Harrison is hands down best internal medicine books ever. I know, I know, there are too much information and it seems a little bit daring at first, but its okay, you’ll make it through. At first, I also had a hard time understanding, but when I put my efforts and continue reading, I began to see everything clearly and I don’t even have to write things down to remember the pathophysiology behind a disease. 

Pharmacology. The two most important books are Katzung and Goodman and Gillmann. But man, they’re a bit too much information so I use Katzung & Trevor's Pharmacology Examination and Board Review instead. Its a short version of the Basic and Clinical Pharmacology by Katzung, plus there are questions at the end of each chapter to make sure that you understand what you have read previously. Sometimes, I even found a couple of the questions here during my exams.

Microbiology. I use Murray’s and Jawets for microbiology. Go for Jawets for a more concise version. There is also BRS Microbiology and Immunology for practice.

Crash Course. Crash course are a great series of books! I was sent by Elsevier the Crash Course Pharmacology and I love it! Although, its a bit too concise for a module review tho’. I guess crash course is better for those who are prepping for USMLE or UKMPPD here in Indonesia. Not to mention the small size of the book makes it easier to carry anywhere around.

I guess that is it from me, I’ll updated when I find more books in the future.

Just remember, do not give up, beginning is always the hardest.

[inmed]

Immediate Goals for the Next Two Years

I’m in the last year of my clinical rotations of med-school now. This is the final stretch. To be honest, clinical rotations don’t feel like hurdles. Instead, they feel more like a book that you’re reading: it gets boring sometimes, it gets interesting sometimes, but as long as you keep turning the page, you’ll keep moving on. It isn’t hard, it’s just tedious at times.

I’ll be honest, I still have no idea where I will be or what I’ll be doing in about two years from now. I have some ideas on what I’d like to be doing and where I’d like to be. But life has a way of throwing curve balls and you don’t always get what you exactly wanted. You may not even want what you wanted, and you may actually like what you ended up with. Life is messy but we can make the best of it if we’re flexible enough, adaptable enough, and remain hopeful, optimistic, and smiling.

Okay, enough abstract talk. Let’s discuss where I’d actually like to be in two years from now. (Heh, I can’t wait to read this in 2019): Hopefully, in a residency program that I like in a country where specialists are paid well, in a city that isn’t too big or too small to be annoying. More specifically: let’s say Anesthesiology department anywhere in the USA that isn’t a city of over 2 million people.

So how will I get there? Phew... it isn’t going to be easy, but this is how: after I finish my clinical rotations, I have to write the Indonesian national medical competency exam (the UKMPPD). Once I clear that, I get scheduled to receive my degree - usually within a couple of months after the exam results come out in my favor. It takes four months to study for the UKMPPD exam and a month or so to wait for the result. If stars align in my favor and I pass on the first try, I’m still going to have to wait about 6 months from when I finish my clinical rotations (29 June 2018) before I can get my degree. Once I pass the UKMPPD, I need to immediately begin studying for licensing exams in the country where I wish to do my residency. In this scenario, that’s the USMLE exams for the USA. They say it takes 6 to 8 months to study for the first exam and then a month or so to study for the next two. So we’re looking at a whole year. Then, after writing the first exam, if I do well, I can enter the residency match. Stars align once again, and I’ll get a residency match in a program that I like, in a city that I like. To be honest, just getting a match (in any program, in any city) is already a huge blessing. So, if I reach that point, I’d already be very happy.

Stars don’t always align, specially for me. I’ve been pretty unlucky in my life, and I know this better than anyone. So, I can’t put all my hopes and dreams in one basket and then watch them all crumble. I need a plan-B. Hell, I need plans C through J too. Ok, so basically, any alternate plans simply involve me trying the exams for other countries in parallel to the USMLE. My criteria is simple: English speaking countries with residency programs that are open to international graduates, and where residents are paid (well). These boil down to: Canada, UK, Ireland, Australia, and New Zealand. I haven’t properly looked into them but from what I know so far, Australia and New Zealand will simply accept the exam results from UK. And Canada is in the process of revamping their exams, so I’ll probably wait until they’re ready with that (2019 I think). So, plan-B is looking to be the UK at this point. A job is better than no job, so even though the salary is lower in the UK, cost of living higher, and ... eww, British people :-D - I’d still accept just to put food on the table and to keep my career from stagnating immediately after med school.

Beyond these options is the painful prospect of having to repeat the failed exams the following year and trying to get a residency match. This is really tough, as you can imagine. I’m already almost 31 years old. I can’t be going too long without an income at this age.

So, what happens if I fail at all of that? Do I get the McDonald’s job application ready? Do I buy a shovel to find work as a gravedigger? Okay, seriously though, it’s a real possibility. Let’s say I did fail all the exams, now what? The other options are looking into a scholarship for a Masters program that can cover living expenses. That’d buy me time to try the exams yet again. So, maybe the smart thing to do is look for and apply to such Masters programs (and scholarships) when I’m nearing the end of my clinical rotations. It’d give me a plan-B waiting in case I fail the exams. I wouldn’t mind doing a Masters in Public Health or Hospital Management. Not my first choice, but it’s better than scraping greasy grime off pans in McD’s.  There’s also research, but I have no idea how to even get into that.

It’s already November. Just 8 months until I finish clinicals. Time’s a ticking. Hopefully in two years, I can look back the way a person looks back after successfully leaping across the Grand Canyon. (Do people do that? I don’t know. I’ve never been to the Grand Canyon.)

[robbanisti]

Ikan wahana -

Kadang suka kasian kalau liat maba (mahasiswa baru), terlebih lagi maba kedokteran. Karena masih beribu ribu degdegan Yang bakal mereka alamin. Dari mulai dimarahin forensik (kalau di susunan kepanitiaan sama aja kaya tatib alias divisi emosi wkwk), lalu dimarahin dosen pas kuliah, ujian sooca hampir tiap sistem, osce , ujian lab, sidang skripsi, lalu koas Yang cobaannya tiada terperi. 😵 eits, belom beres sampai disitu,Ukmppd (ujian dokter indonesia, alias UN-nya dokter) harus dilewatin dengan penuh perjuangan sampai beresnya pun sering masuk ke dalem mimpi sampai hari pengumuman tiba. Tapi ternyata, setelah resmi dan disumpahin jadi dokterpun masih ada degdegser Yang harus dihadapin (lagi), tidak lain tidak bukan adalah memilih “wahana” alias tempat para dokter internsip. Internsip kalau digambarin sih mirip mirip kaya cerita dokter di FTV Yang dateng ke desa terus pengabdian, tapi bedanya internsip masih dalam proses belajar juga dalam posisi sudah menjadi dokter, maksudnya supaya dokter dokter Yang udah punya kompetensi lebih punya pengalaman dan kualifikasi. Wkwkwk padahal mah biar dapet surat izin praktek say. 😂

Pemilihan wahana ini dilakukan secara online se indonesia. Dengan kuota Yang terbagi bagi untuk lokal, regional, dan nasional. Kalau kampus asal ada di provinsi Yang sama dengan wahana Yang diiginkan, berarti pilih di hari pemilihan lokal, kalau mau pulang kampung bisa pilih di regional ataupun nasional. Tapi kalau ngga dapet di lokal, masih bisa milih wahana Yang ada di lokal pas regional ataupun nasional. Hm pokonya semakin ke nasional kesempatan semakin kecil karena kuota pun semakin sedikit dan saingannya dokter2 se indonesia bangeud. 👻

Milih wahana tentunya tergantung prioritas masing-masing. Setiap wahana pasti punya kelebihan dan kekurangannya. Jadi tergantung, apakah Yang dicari yang dapet ilmunya banyak, ataukah Yang selow selow, atau Yang dapet uang tambaahan, atau Yang sekalian liburan, ataukah Yang deket rumah tanpa harus kos. Dan berbagai pertimbangan lagi, apalagi buat Yang bentar lagi lahiran, lagi hamil, atau ada rencana menikah dalam waktu dekat. 😭 hayang atuh 😭😭😭😂

— karena internsip itu setahun, jadi bakal sepenting itu buat dapetin wahana Yang sesuai planning ke depan. Lalu warnet dengan kecepatan maksimal pun full booked di h-bulanan. 😢

Hari pemilihan wahana pun tiba..

Hari pertama, pemilihan lokal. Dengan rencana, hari ini mau incer bandung. 🤓 karena di hari ini berfikir masih idealis dan masih betah tinggal di kota cilok ini. Yaaaaa, namanya robani. Caleuy tuh sampai dibawa ke hari milih wahana. Udah loginn, eh malah mencet web lain dan akhirnya eror ke logout lalu saat berhasil log in lagi wahana Yang tersisa hanya beberapa. 💩 😖 tapi di hari itu masih tenang, karena temen temenpun belom dapet wahana Yang dimau. Wkwkwk anaknya teh 😏

Let’s try di regional. Aku dan temenntemen coba pindah warnet. Berharap kecepatannya lebih dengan harga Yang 5x lipat lebih mihilita. 🤐

Di hari kedua, ada eror dari pusat. Tapi tetep aja entah kenapa disaat mayya Yang duduk di sebelah udah berhasil pilih wahana, aku masih eror. Ke log out terus dengan sendirinya. Tak terasa air mata menetes HAHAHA UNTUNG WARNETNA POEK 😦 jadi ga keliatan sama Yang lain. Ekekkkek. Tapi disaat ketegangan semua orang, sebenernya aku hitut. Dan gila, busuk banget sebenernya. 💩 Wqw tapi the power of jantungan milih wahana, tak ada satupun yg ngeuh, biasanya kan semesta mengutuk kalau w kentut 🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃

Singkat cerita, kehabisan wahana di regional 1,tinggal tersisa daerah jawa tengah ,jatim dan manokwari Papua 😶. Alhamdulillah ada regional 2,besoknya. Di lokal dan regional sejujurnya aku masih incer bandung, tapi di regional 2 pokoe sing penting jawa barat. Sampai dimalem sebelumnya bikin list wahana. Semua jawa barat aku bikin urutan prioritas, kecuali satu wahana, wahana maung ceunah. 😉 if you know what I mean. Sekeluarga ngeluarin pendapat sampai vooting, lalu buka YouTube bukain company profile rumah sakit, hingga akhirnya tau beberapa rumah sakit Yang angker. Haha apasih akutu suka penting~

Tidak ketinggalan, sholat istikhoroh. Jujur, baru pertama kali……. selama 24 tahun ini. Cupu yahhh 🙁

Diminta kemantapan hati. Karena banyak hal Yang bisa terjadi.

“Ngapain pusing-pusing, semuanya kan udah ada di lauhul mahfudz” kata bapak.

“Iya, Allah mah cuman mau kita. meminta” kata amel, adeku.

“Iya, lagian kan galak mah relatif.” Kata isti, adeku, mengingat aku gamau kalau digalakin. Wkwkwk baper baper club. 😐

“Sekarang mah dipasrahin aja, minta diikhlaskan apapun nanti dapetnya.. “Kata mamah.

Dan banyak percakapan lainnya Yang menenangkan dan bikin pasrah. Karena tentang rejeki, jodoh, dan kematian udah diatur. Diaturnya engga sembarangan. Sama aja kaya dulu gak suka akselerasi, masuk SMA 24, tapi sekarang jadi Salah satu hal Yang paling disyukuri. *karena eh karena 🤓

Besoknya, beneran pasrah sambil terus fokus sama satu titik, titik loading, kalau udah ga muter, harus sigap klik F5 buat refresh. Saking dedegannya, aku jadi minum terus dan alhasil jadi beser. Duh pipis gak ya… Gimana kalau pas ke wc wahananya keluar??? Yaudah gapapa deh ke wc aja bentar aja lagi eror ini. Dan… Pas balik dari wc wahana keluar dong aku langsung loncat balik ke korsi 🤕 alhamdulillah, walaupun sempet eror… Berhasil ngeklik wahana Yang ada di list, Yang nomer 1. Seketika wahana Yang lain langsung poek ngga keliatan. Hamdallah… Pakta integritas (surat keterangan keterima) keluar. Wahana Yang paling diinginkan, Yang “namanya” pun ga sempet aku liat di 2 hari sebelumnya karena kehabisan. Wahana Yang paling deket ke rumah tinggal ngesot, ngesotna rada jauh sih, 😬. Hamdallah, mungkin kalau wahana itu keluar dari 2 hari sebelumnya, dan aku sempet klik, lalu nggaa keterima, mungkin hari ke 3 aku ga akan penasaran dan nyoba klik lagi, padahal rejekinya di hari ke 3.

Dari milih wahana, banyak pelajaran Yang bisa diambil khususnya buat diri sendiri. Tentang kesabaran, tentang kepasrahan, tentang keikhlasan, dan tentang rezeki Yang tidak akan tertukar. 🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂

welcome to new word ,internsip. 🙃

*nb: pas klik web nya “mba nulisnya jangan pake “h ” wkwkwk baru tau aku cara nulis Yang benernya kirain internship 😰😰💩👽😹😘

-bandung (lagi lagi), 21 oktober 2018. 3:05 am. *insomnia time e. C hipersomnia di hari sebelumnya

JADI MAKSUT JUDULNYA IKAN WAHANA APA BAN?????

ikan arwana…. *krik krik, kan…

[aysanr]

September Ceria

September 2017, jadi bulan terbaik sepanjang tahun ini, atau bahkan terbaik seumur hidupku sampai saat ini. Jujur, di ujung tahun 2016 saya cemas memikirkan bagaimana akan menghadapi 2017. Tahun yang lain dari yang lain.

2017. Di tahun ini saya menyelesaikan pendidikan klinik a.k.a coass. Usai coass, saya harus melewati ujian komprehensif tingkat 2, yang mana saya harus lulus oneshoot jika ingin mengikuti UKMPPD batch Mei, karena itu adalah kesempatan ujian kompre terakhir sebelum batas akhir pendaftaran UKMPPD. Rentang waktu yang tersisa dari selesai coass ke ujian kompre HANYA 2 minggu. Awalnya saya sempat hopeless, tapi saya tetap harus berusaha. Belajar soal menjadi senjata saya, karena berdasarkan info dari pendahulu soal ujian biasanya oppo. Dan alhamdulillah saya bisa oneshoot lulus kompre.

Saya sudah bisa lega? Tidak. Setelah lulus kompre, saya sudah bisa mendaftar ukmppd. Namun, ada ujian lagi yang harus dilalui sebelum ukmppd. Saya harus ikut ujian Try Out AIPKI dan HARUS lulus ujian post test. Oh God! Rentang ujian kompre dan Aipki juga hanya sebentar, kalau tidak salah ingat hanya 2 atau 3 minggu. Padahal AIPKI ini sudah terkenal lebih berat dari ujian kompre bahkan dari ujian UKMPPD. Beruntung, unhas tidak menerapkan persyaratan harus lulus TO AIPKI untuk lanjut ke UKMPPD. Nilai Aipki saya pun sangat rendah, di bawah standar nilai malah. Kalau saya tidak salah ingat nilai saya hanya 61. Dan ini menjadi motivasi saya untuk terus belajar agar bisa oneshoot ukmppd. 2 hari setelah Aipki, saya harus mengikuti ujian post test yang diadakan oleh fakultas, dan harus lulus agar bisa lanjut ke Ukmppd. Dan alhamdulillah saya lulus.

Setelah serentetan ujian pengantar ke ukmppd tersebut, tersisa waktu hanya SEBULAN lagi untuk ukmppd. Belajar makin ditingkatkan, berdoa makin di tingkatkan. Hingga tiba hari H UKMPPD.

Setelah mengerjakan soal ukmppd, jujur saya sempat stress, takut tidak lulus. Saya menghitung jumlah soal yang saya beri tanda 'ragu', dan hasilnya cukup banyak. Saya sangat takut, tapi hanya bisa berdoa dan memasrahkan hasilnya pada yang Kuasa. Sebulan setelahnya, akhirnya pengumuman kelulusan. Dan, alhamdulillah saya oneshoot :')

Di tahun ini pula saya akhirnya Yudisium, Penyumpahan, dan Wisuda Profesi Dokter. Sungguh tahun yang cukup berat saya lalui. Namun, terbayar dengan kebahagiaan di akhir tahun.

September. Penyumpahan Dokter. Jadi, bagaimana rasanya saat akan mengucapkan sumpah? Saya takut. Mengucapkan sumpah dengan mengatasnamakan "Demi Allah" menjadi beban tersendiri. Semoga apa yang telah saya ucapkan dalam sumpah dapat saya lakukan dengan baik, sadar, dan ikhlas.

Terima kasih september.

#septemberceria