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Multiverse Madness Chapter Five

Nightmare watched as Bill started waking up hours later, Nightmare watching him sleep the whole time. Bill wasn't meditating; Nightmare didn't think he had the attention span for that, and Bill was not this good of an actor. Besides, Nightmare could sense him sleeping, which disproved any excuses Bill might make. Nightmare had seated himself in the black swivel chair in the room, watching him sleep with curious interest as the hours ticked by. Nightmare watched his eye sockets slowly blink open, the demon stretching a bit with his back to Nightmare, not yet seeing him.

"sleep well, cipher?" Nightmare asked, causing Bill to flinch slightly, looking over his shoulder at him before turning fully to face him.

"How... How long were you watching me... meditate?" Bill questioned.

"i wasn't. i was watching you sleep, which is curious, i didn't think you were capable of sleeping, much less needed to.... so why, pray tell, were you sleeping soundly for hours?" Nightmare smirked, leaning closer to him.

"I- I don't need sleep, Nightmare! I just go into the mindscape and leave this body here sleepi-" Bill tried to deny.

"i sensed your mind there the whole time, cipher. you didn't go anywhere but la la land." Nightmare interrupted.

Bill glared at him, crossing his arms as his eyelights flashed a burning red, "I don't see how it's your business."'

"my castle, my roof, you live here. besides, are we not allies in our little plans against my idiot brother and that paint freak? i want to know if it's a weakness they can exploit." Nightmare told him.

"More like one you can exploit." Bill said with a glare, eyelights flickering yellow again.

Nightmare morphed his expression into a hurt one, saying dramatically, "i would never..."

"Cut the crap. That might work on them but it won't on me." Bill glared at Nightmare, and the guardian of negativity let his expression morph into a dangerous grin.

"i still want to know." Nightmare said, "what's the harm in telling me anyways? i won't use it against you, we have a deal that prevents me of doing so, so what's the real harm? besides, if you tell me, i'll leave you alone about it." 

". . . No. I'm not stupid enough to give you an exploitable weakness. The deal doesn't prevent you from using it and you know that. If you're so smart, figure it out yourself." Bill replied before teleporting out of the room.

Nightmare chuckled after Bill left, rolling his eyelight as he smirked, "so dramatic.."

Nightmare teleported out of the room, heading to Dust's to see how he was doing, and if Killer was doing a good job handling him. Nightmare peeked inside the room, seeing Killer sitting against the bed's headboard, Dust tucked into his side almost protectively as he scrolled through his phone. Most Something New Sanses aren't exactly close to anyone, but Nightmare could tell the glitched timeline this one came from, when combined with the brainwashing process Chara used on him, was quite the interesting pair. Killer would probably grow to be very protective over Dust and anyone he cared for, though Nightmare doubted his close circle would be very large.

Nightmare had been keeping an eye on a certain AU that had caught his interest, as well as Ink's from what he could see, and it truly was a sight to behold. However, Nightmare had to wait. It wasn't time to make his move yet, and he still had to recruit the other skeleton Bill had mentioned. Nightmare would get the XTale Sans on his side later. 

Killer looked up at Nightmare, seeing him looking through the doorway and giving him a small nod in greeting. Nightmare returned it, silently slinking inside and closing the door behind him, moving to sit at the edge of the bed.

"how's he doing?" Nightmare whispered, forcing himself to look and sound concerned, his eyelight becoming soft and 'caring'.

"better. he hasn't woken up yet; he's out cold." Killer replied.

"i see." Nightmare said, and he watched Killer for a moment, seeing how tense he was, and how he tightened his grip on Dust's shoulder, fear trickling into his soul. Why was he.... Oh. "why are you scared, killer?"

"i can care about him, right?... he's... he's able to defend himself. he's strong enough to defend himself. he's not vulnerable or a weakness or-" Killer rambled, soul spasming as his emotions surged.

"sshhhhhhhhhhh..." Nightmare soothed, his shushing a rattling hiss as he spoke, tone soft, "you don't have to worry about that, killer. dust can take care of himself, just as much as you can. he's fine."

Nightmare wrapped a tentacle around Killer's soul, suppressing his emotions again, and he saw Killer calming down. Killer slowly relaxed, looking at him with a much more indifferent expression, but he still held Dust close to himself.

"i won't hurt him." Killer told him.

"i don't want you to. what happened with the cat was.... excessive, but it was necessary. your teammates aren't in danger of that, killer, just don't bring another animal home, ok?" Nightmare requested, but it was more of an order. 

"ok..." Killer nodded quietly, and Nightmare released his soul.

"good. i'm going to be sending you and dust out for supplies or anything either of you want for your rooms. i'll be working on something today, so you and dust can do whatever you want, just call bill and tell him if you need to go anywhere." Nightmare told him.

Killer nodded, looking back down at Dust before saying, "ok. he needs to decorate in here, anyways." 

Nightmare nodded, getting off of the bed and exiting the room, going to his throne room before calling Bill on one of those phones he had made, this one a dark teal color in contrast to Killer's red and Dust's dark purple. Bill teleported to Nightmare's throne room instead of answering the phone, pushing 'decline call', and they both pocketed the devices.

"What do you want?" Bill asked. 

"killer and dust will be going out today, and i want you to take them where they need to go. i want to start on that third skeleton in the mean time." Nightmare informed.

"Why so soon?" Bill questioned, "Dust hasn't even been in combat yet, much less been manipulated much."

"i plan to make this one suffer a bit before recruiting him. you said he was a horrortale variation, right?" Nightmare asked. 

"Riiiiiiiight?..." Bill replied.

"take me there. i want to know which timeline it's in." Nightmare ordered, "if you do, i won't inquire further about your 'meditating' for now." 

". . . Fine." Bill sighed, teleporting the two of them to the AU.

Nightmare looked around, already feeling the negativity in the universe as soon as he arrived. The fear, the sadness... the anger and burning hunger that tore through the AU.... Nightmare had always enjoyed these timelines, and for good reason. Filled with miserable souls, able to be tormented if they didn't do it to each other first. It was pure entertainment.

"This is the timeline. What do you need to do here if you're not recruiting the third one, anyways?" Bill asked.

"ensuring that i eliminate any problems that could get in my way. dust and killer will be getting supplies and decorating dust's room, you can get whatever you want wherever you teleport them, i don't care. just try keeping them out of trouble." Nightmare said.

"You got it! I'm probably gonna turn some humans inside out and use their skin as curtains, so see you around!" Bill announced, teleporting out of the timeline.

"damn lunatic..." Nightmare muttered, disappearing into a black puddle before vanishing from sight, slinking into the shadows.

Nightmare made his way to the castle, seeing Undyne within it's walls, pacing back and forth while gripping one of her spears in frustration and grief. He could feel the negativity rolling off of her in waves, and he investigated the source deeper. The Alphys of this world was getting worse, and even with Mettaton's help, she wouldn't live much longer. Her brain had deteriorated too much overtime, her babbling stopping, and she was prone to seizures, screaming fits, and going completely unresponsive. Undyne was being forced to make a terrible call; put her to rest, or leave her to live out her days suffering until she turned to dust herself. Such a terrible situation... and Nightmare immediately capitalized on it.

He lingered in her mind, disguising his voice as Undyne's thoughts as he starting inserting ideas into her mind as she paced, muttering to herself.

This is Sans's fault. He did this.

He should pay like I have.

He should lose the one he loves most, so he knows the pain he's put me through.

He deserves it.

Sans needs to pay.

Papyrus needs to die.

Nightmare kept going, the thoughts spiraling through the queen's head endlessly in an insane cacophony, before she fell to her knees, clutching her head.

"No! No, I won't do it!" Undyne shouted to 'herself'.

But I need to...

Alphys was innocent, only trying to help me... 

Papyrus only tries helping Sans...

It's karma.

Sans's favorite thing......

Undyne was breathing heavily, shaking as she trembled within the castle, unknowingly fighting against Nightmare's influence over her. Nightmare had still planted the seeds for tragedy, though. Tragedy that would soon become reality. He left the timeline, going back to his throne room and sitting back down, plotting out exactly how this would go.

Over the next two weeks, while his nights were consumed with giving Dust nightmares and manipulating him into loyalty (Killer had actually beat Nightmare into the room a few times, and Nightmare was forced to let Killer help Dust while removing the negative emotions the dusty skeleton felt), Nightmare's days were dedicated to going to Horrortale multiple times a day for short lengths, continuing to convince Undyne into doing something that would ultimately end in her death. After two and a half weeks, Nightmare had decreased the nightmares he gave Dust, and he decided to take him out on another mission with Killer, having sent them on four already, but neither Dream nor his stupid allies had shown up, which was a surprise. Then again, they'd been on a rather small scale compared to this next one.

Nightmare had teleported the two of them to an Outertale AU this time, Killer looking around the universe in disdain. One thing Nightmare had learned, was that Killer did not like stars in the slightest, and it definitely showed. Killer withdrew his knife, the edge of it glowing red as he looked around the timeline, looking for a populated area to start with, and Dust was looking around the timeline for hiding places; good spots for attacks or to ambush unsuspecting victims.

"remember you two, if enemies show up, you two will be handling them. i want you both to know how to watch each other's backs and work together. i won't be stepping in unless necessary. understood?" Nightmare asked, and they both nodded. 

"killer, get me some cover above that town over there, i'll stay out of sight and do my thing while you do yours. if this is like the last times, no one will see me coming if they don't know you're not the only one working for nightmare anymore." Dust said.

"you got it, dusty. in the mean time?" Killer inquired, despite knowing the answer.

"do your thing." Dust replied, the two of them teleporting out of sight.

Dust had taken to a sniper approach Nightmare had personally grown quite fond of. He hid out of sight, creating attacks from the boss monsters he'd killed and hi-jacking others, making them attack each other. No one knew where he was or if he was even there, thinking it was accidentally done in the chaos, and it added confusion and panic to everyone not knowing where their assailant was. Nightmare had, of course, let Dust kill at least a few souls each mission to keep that hallucination around, and it allowed Dust to get more and more willing to kill and fight others when he didn't need to, and if he influenced Dust's mind to help with that, that was only beneficial. It was all part of a process Nightmare was having a very good time carrying out. 

Killer's Gaster Blaster could be seen exploding a massive asteroid above a populated area, the black beam exploding the massive chunk of floating rock into smaller meteoroids. Meteoroids which Dust capitalized on, teleporting up to them and hi-jacking bone attacks from this universe's Papyrus, making fleeing monsters get hit and causing immense guilt to form in the tall skeleton's soul. Killer's theme had started once again, consisting of orchestra music mixed with a rock guitar, and some of Dust's theme seemed to be mixed into it, just subtle enough to where you could assume it was a different version of Killer's theme. To Nightmare, it reflected on how you didn't know there was a second threat until too late.

Killer sent sharp bones out at fleeing monsters, purposely narrowly missing them or just barely grazing them, causing their fear and panic to increase drastically. Nightmare was watching on a meteoroid in the distance when suddenly he sensed it. Dream was finally showing up. Nightmare smirked, watching Killer's terrorism as he waited for the fight to start. 

Dream, Ink, and Blue appeared at the outskirts of the town, looking around and likely trying to form a plan. Nightmare could sense the moment Dust saw Dream, because the amount of negativity that coursed through the dusty skeleton... it was better than Nightmare had anticipated. Dream seemed to sense it too, because his skull shot up, looking around in confusion and trying to find the source.

"dream? what is it?" Ink asked, Nightmare faintly able to hear him.

"someone just got really angry when we arrived. stay on your toes." Dream replied.

"ANGRY? WHY?" Blue asked, and Nightmare could definitely hear him.

Dream shrugged, but he quickly had to dodge a civilian getting thrown into him; the Greater Dog of Outertale. Ink and Blue had managed to get out of the way, Blue using blue magic to catch the monster before it could get hurt, and Ink helped Dream up. 

"are you ok? what's happening here?" Dream asked, and before the monster could reply, a sharp bone stabbed through it's armor and into it's soul.

Nightmare could sense it was from Dust, based on the shiver of pleasure that went through the dusty skeleton as his LV increased again, but it was nearly masked by the hatred filling his soul. Blue and Dream gasped in horror and surprise, the dog monster turning to dust in front of them, and Nightmare drew closer to the area, hidden on a rooftop as he heard a low chuckle on the other side of the street from the Star Sanses.

"damn, and i thought i killed to make a point..." Killer muttered, leaning against a building around twenty feet away, a light coating of asteroid and a bit of monster dust on his clothes.

"killer! you're going to pay for that!" Dream told him, voice firm.

"did you not just hear me? i didn't do that." Killer sighed, and if he had eyelights, he would definitely be rolling them.

"THEN WHO DID?!" Blue asked, and Nightmare saw Killer smirk.

"blue, he's right. someone else is here..." Dream said, "i can sense him. he's... angry."

"that's a first for him. he's usually pretty damn calm." Killer muttered, and the three heroes started looking around, trying to find someone who wouldn't let himself be found. 

"DREAM, WATCH OUT!" Blue yelled, tackling his teammate out of the way as spears stabbed out from under where the yellow clothed skeleton had stood.

Blue helped Dream up, Ink running over to form a defensive circle, Killer vanishing from sight as he teleported away, only to appear on a rooftop not far from Nightmare, slashing his knife, a glowing red slash forming and rocketing towards them, Ink pulling them out of the way. They were flung forward a bit, landing on their chests as sharp bones appeared above them, what had to be two hundred in the sky, all aimed at the three of them. Dream saw them first, forming a forcefield as they shot down; the bones shooting into and shattering against the dome, only for one to get through a crack, cutting through Blue's leg.

"OW!" Blue yelped, clutching at the wound.

"ink, help blue!" Dream called out, only for Ink to get tackled by Killer, Killer's knife stabbing into his ribcage. 

Ink didn't seem to be phased, kicking him off and looking down at the black liquid leaking from the tear in his clothes.

"damn it, that was my favorite outfit!" Ink complained with a sigh, slamming his oversized paintbrush into Killer, throwing him into the sky, his theme starting up and mixing with Dust's and Killer's. 

Blue magic seized Killer's soul, turning the target blue as it stopped his motion, holding him there and giving him a perfect spot of attack, which Killer capitalized on. Killer summoned his Gaster Blaster, firing it at the group as Ink finished treating Blue's injury, Dream having to teleport them out of range and Nightmare having to move his viewpoint as the block got obliterated. Nightmare was a bit further away now, but he still had a good viewpoint for the fight, and he was enjoying it immensely. Dream got hit by purple fireballs, the magic burning his left arm.

"ow!" Dream yelped.

"this guy has fire?! seriously?! where was he when we were camping?!" Ink asked.

"not the time, ink!" Dream sighed, summoning his bow as his theme mixed into Ink's, Dust's, and Killer's.

Dream fired an arrow at Killer, but the blue magic released his soul, Killer teleporting before the arrow could hit him. Sharp bones rained down on the group again, the bones igniting in purple fire as Ink brought up a black paint shield, the shield bursting into flames. Blue teleported them out of harm's way, only for Killer to send waves of sharp bones at them, which Ink blocked with a wall of black paint, it vanishing to reveal a black Gaster Blaster that shot Killer into a wall, blasting the sleeve off of his left arm and singeing the bone underneath.

"damnit!" Killer cursed, using blue magic to fling Dream into Ink while the guardian of positivity tried figuring out where Dust was.

Blue used blue magic on Killer, throwing Killer into a building, before a wall of bones stopped his motion. Killer jumped off of it and slashed his knife at the heroes, forcing them to leap out of the way. They recovered quickly, though, but Killer had teleported out of the way before they did.

"damn, we need to catch the guy working with him!" Ink cursed.

"any ideas on who he could be, ink? which aus could he be from?" Dream asked.

"no, not really.... i mean the purple attacks narrows it down, but... no, that couldn't be it, those universes never get along, so it couldn't be that one..." Ink muttered.

"WHICH ONES?" Blue asked.

"not important, considering it's not likely. it's gotta be someone else." Ink replied, and Dream sighed.

"ink, who? even if it's unlikely, who could it be? it's our best chance." Dream asked.

"i'm thinking a dusttale, but i don't know..." Ink answered.

"if it's a dusttale, this probably won't end very well, considering this seems to be one of the stronger variants." Dream sighed.

"WHAT'S A DUSTTALE?" Blue asked.

"it's... complicated, blue. ink, what strategies do they use?" Dream questioned.

"this one." Ink sighed, tackling Dream out of the way as fire shot at his skull.

"HOW CAN WE COUNTER HIM?" Blue asked.

"look for anywhere he could be using to hide and spawn his attacks. dusttales are really good at that." Ink instructed, and the other two nodded.

Dust and Killer didn't give them time to look around, switching to spamming attacks to keep them on their toes. The three heroes had to repeatedly dodge, counter, and block rapidly incoming attacks that wouldn't let up.

"INK! THE METEOROIDS ABOVE US!" Blue called out suddenly, dodging sharp bones that stabbed into the building behind him.

"damn." Killer muttered, using blue magic to send Blue flying towards a wall, Dream catching him before he hit it.

"blue! you're a genius!" Dream praised, "ink!-"

"already on it!" Ink replied, cutting him off and forming black sharp bones and firing them at the meteoroids.

Somehow, the bones destroyed almost all of the meteoroids and yet they still missed the one Dust was hiding behind. Nightmare couldn't help but wonder if anyone else heard Dust's facepalm. Probably not. The heroes went more offensive after that, not giving Killer a break or an opening to attack, and they started getting the upper hand. Killer got pinned against a building, multiple Gaster Blasters from Ink and Blue firing at him, causing a large cloud of smoke to appear. 

When the smoke cleared, Killer was surrounded by a wall of purple bones, the bones vanishing to reveal Dust next to Killer, eye sockets narrowed as he looked at the three.

"i hate being right..." Ink muttered, gripping his paintbrush tighter. 

"thanks, dusty." Killer thanked him, Dust looking over his shoulder and nodding, vanishing from sight again.

This would be interesting...

Dust's Gaster Blasters surrounded the heroes, firing at them and forcing them to jump up and avoid it, only for Killer to summon his Gaster Blaster and fire it at them, making them teleport out of the way. Purple sharp bones and fireballs rained down at them, Dream making a forcefield and blocking the attacks, only for Killer to summon sharp bones out of the ground inside the forcefield, making them teleport away. Killer and Dust were complimenting each others attacks quite well; Nightmare was actually impressed with what they could do when attacking an enemy. Nightmare felt the hatred Dust was feeling for Dream reach it's boiling point, blue magic seizing Dream's soul as he was shot to the side, Dust focusing on attacking him specifically.

Killer held off Ink and Blue on his own, shooting a glance Dust's way to see how he was holding up. Dust was just fine, it was actually Dream who wasn't holding up well as Dust went all out with his attacks.

"why are you working with killer?! for nightmare?! any normal version of you wouldn't!" Dream asked, dodging purple spears that shot at him.

"i'm not normal, and it's not really your damn business!" Dust replied with a glare.

"will you at least tell me why you're so upset?! why do you feel such hatred towards me?!" Dream questioned in genuine confusion, and Dust scoffed.

"like you don't know! don't play stupid, dream!" Dust glared, summoning a purple trident in his hand, slashing it at Dream.

"what do you mean 'like i don't know'?!" Dream asked as he dodged, and Dust grit his teeth, flinging Dream through a wall before teleporting after him. 

The fight continued a while longer, Killer getting thrown through a building and in retaliation, throwing Blue into Ink. Ink took an opening a few minutes later as Blue started going all out, Ink leaving to help Dream with Dust. Dust hadn't anticipated Ink's appearance, so he took a powerful hit from Ink's paintbrush, getting thrown through a wall and rendered unconscious, his theme ending. Killer saw this occur, and he immediately teleported into the rubble, emerging carrying Dust's limp form quite protectively, summoning his Gaster Blaster and firing it at Ink as he teleported out of sight. Killer appeared next to Nightmare, gripping Dust tightly and bits of anger sparking in his soul.

Nightmare teleported the three of them back to the castle, Killer's theme ending as they exited the AU. Killer sat Dust down on one of the couches in the living room before heading to the fridge, grabbing a healing potion Nightmare had found in an AU a few days ago before closing the fridge and and teleporting back to Dust. Killer tilted Dust up a bit, pulling his mouth open and slowly trickling the liquid down his throat, putting the bottle in his pocket before picking Dust up into his arms again.

"he'll be fine, killer. ink got a lucky hit in. dust won't allow it to happen again." Nightmare told him, and Killer nodded.

"i know, i just..." Killer trailed off, looking down at the skeleton in his arms.

"i know." Nightmare told him, and Killer took Dust to his room. 

That's when Nightmare felt the negativity surge up in Horrortale. It was finally happening... 

Nightmare teleported to the AU, in the shadows as he observed everything happening. There was a lot of yelling and shouting, especially from the Sans of the timeline.

"are ya kiddin' me, undyne?! what the hell're ya doin'?!" Sans shouted in anger, Nightmare following the noise to the scene playing out, listening in the shadows. 

Undyne was inside their house in the AU, along with a few guards who had Papyrus pinned to the wall, spears through his ribcage.

"ALPHYS IS DEAD, SANS! SHE'S DEAD AND IT'S YOUR FAULT!" Undyne screamed at him, sounding distraught.

"BROTHER, WHAT IS SHE TALKING ABOUT?" Papyrus asked, but Sans ignored him.

"she's brain-dead, not dead, ya stupid sardine!" Sans snapped, "besides, she knew what she did! she had it coming!"

"SHE WAS TRYING TO SAVE EVERYONE, WHICH IS MORE THAN YOU WERE DOING!" Undyne yelled.

"killin' me wasn't the only solution! i told ya how it could've been fixed, but instead of losin' her voice, she decided i had to lose my life!" 

"And I told you that even if that had happened, Alphys is too important to have lost her voice!" Undyne hissed.

"important for what?! bein' your girlfriend?!" Sans snapped, "ya pissy that she wouldn't've been able to moan for ya?!"

"HOW DARE YOU?! SHE DID MORE FOR THE UNDERGROUND THAN YOU COULD EVER KNOW!" Undyne yelled.

"yeah, her drool's probably pretty useful for ya to mop the floors with!" Sans scoffed.

"BOTH OF YOU, STOP IT!" Papyrus shouted, and the house went quiet, "STOP FIGHTING! PLEASE! UNDYNE, WHAT DOES HE MEAN YOU TRIED TO KILL HIM?.... AND WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT WITH ALPHYS? NO ONE HAS HEARD ANYTHING ABOUT HER FOR MONTHS, IF NOT LONGER!"

"He didn't tell you? Well I'll tell you what happened! I took his eye to save everyone-!" Undyne started.

"and put a hole in my damn skull.." Sans muttered.

"-and Sans freaked out and he went on a rampage!" Undyne finished.

"RAMPAGE?..." Papyrus asked.

"YES! He killed some of my best guards and turned Alphys's brain into mush!" Undyne yelled. 

"i told ya i wasn't thinking straight! almost gettin' murdered kinda does that to ya! you on the other hand, haven't had that excuse for years and you've still been batshi-!"

"SHUT UP, SANS!" Undyne snapped. 

"if ya let my brother go, i will! he's got nothin' to do with this, and you know it!" Sans shot back.

"No! You need to learn what it feels like to lose someone you love! You need to pay for what you did to her!" Undyne snapped.

"undyne i swear to god, if you kill him, i will shatter every damn bone in your body like glass!" Sans snarled.

"If you wanted to you would have done so already!" Undyne hissed. 

"i didn't because the underground needed a leader, and papyrus needed some stability in this dump! you kill him, you won't have that protection!" Sans snapped, and he was pinned against a wall.

"Guards, knock him out." Undyne ordered.

"BROTHER, WATCH OUT!" Papyrus yelled out his warning.

Nightmare heard a loud wack as a guard started to scream, the screaming settling down to a crying whimper.

"SANS!" Papyrus cried.

"I'm sorry, Papyrus, but Sans needs to learn his lesson." Undyne apologized.

"UNDYNE! Y-YOUR MAJESTY! PLEASE, DON'T DO THIS! THIS DOESN'T HAVE TO HAPPEN! YOU DON'T HAVE TO DO THIS!" Papyrus pleaded, and Undyne sighed.

". . . I'm sorry, Paps. At least you'll be freed from this hell." Undyne said somberly, and Nightmare heard Papyrus let out a pained gasp.

Nightmare peeked in the window to see Sans unconscious on the floor, one of the guards arms having shattered while the other tried helping them, and most importantly, the scene he'd been waiting two weeks for. Undyne had sent a spear through his soul, the tall skeleton having tears in his eye sockets as his body turned to dust, his remains falling onto the floor.

". . . Let's go before Sans wakes up. He'll have learned after this." Undyne ordered, Nightmare hiding once again as Undyne and the guards left the house.

Undyne didn't know that Sans wouldn't be crying, he'd be furious. Papyrus was the one reason he'd had to not obliterate her, but now that he was gone... Things were about to get interesting...

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[diodellet]

Hello, I saw your valentines post and thought I might join in

I'd really like prompt 3, the one with the dream if them , and Azul from twst

He's my fav of the twst cast and a comfort character (❁´◡`❁)

my pronouns are they/them/he/him, so do whatever you like with that info

maybe it's just me, but in a dream someone would have to do something cute and/or sweet in it to get me flustered and avoiding them (lol I'm weak to fluff but not really spice)

Anyways, I hope you have a lovely day or night and I wish the best of luck to you!

💌Azul Ashengrotto + Prompt #3 (Seeing them in your dreams, being too flustered to face them in real life.)

Dreams end at the most climactic moment. That is to say, right when the zombies catch you or as soon as you hit the ground. The same holds true for good dreams especially.

Which brings you to your current predicament. 

The details were fading away, all that remained burned into your mind were those final moments—a wistful piano instrumental filling the air, the feeling of your hand in his as he led you in a slow dance, a lightness taking over your body as if you were floating, the steady heat of his palm against yours lingering even after you’ve woken up.

Of course, to be further spited by fate, the both of you are paired for a short research paper, carefully looking through the reference section of the library. Together.

“—if we could find more literature on—Hm? Is something the matter?” Azul looks up from the book he was skimming through.

“Oh, it’s nothing. I’ve just got a few things on my mind.” You play it off with a wave of your hand.

He levels a concerned look at you. “Is our class representative overworking himself again?”

“N-no, not this time. It’s nothing, just some personal business.”

“If you say so, then. But if you need a listening ear, just know that I can make room in my schedule to assist you. It would be terrible if I let a dear colleague of mine carry such a burden, wouldn’t it?” There’s something about those words, or maybe his voice, that makes your stomach uneasy. 

There are some things you know about Azul Ashengrotto definitively. Anyone can spot his flair for showmanship. He’s busy, but also approachable. Maybe distant at times, but always polite.

(Not at all like the Azul in your dream. Not like the Azul of now.)

Scratch that point about distance, you didn’t get the memo that the both of you were close enough to be dear colleagues.

But here you are, on the receiving end of his complete and utter attention. It occurs to you now how little you truly know about Azul.

The ring of the bell cuts your conversation short, and you blurt out a flimsy excuse before rushing out and leaving him alone in the library.

a/n: hiiii!! thanks for sending in a request and happy valentines day💕💕 i had a bit of challenge trying to pin down azul's chara because i kept thinking any sweet or tender gesture from him would first of all be off-putting to the target of his affection,,, and that kinda carried through in the writing,,, oops,,, these drabbles weren't meant to contain slowburn tension🤧🤧Either way this prompt was fun to write, i hope u enjoyed reading this💕💕

[obsoleteozymandias]

Hi! not sure if u write for content that isn't a character x reader, if not, feel free to ignore this req!

but I'd like to req some timeskip hcs for the twst charas.. like what would they be (aka. Their careers be) after graduation? I could totally see Riddle being a lawyer or sth high profile but I'm not entirely sure for the rest of the twst cast 🤔Thank you in advance! Take all the time u need !

I do write stuff aside from xreader, hehe. That’s what I’m most known for though, I reckon. Also, I didn’t include Ortho, since I haven’t the foggiest idea what he would do. Send suggestions my way if you have ideas tho. 

== Twisted Wonderland Headcanons ==>

+After Graduation!

Riddle Rosehearts

I imagine a job that involves logic and reasoning would be up his alley, so yes, being a lawyer wouldn’t be a stretch. I also think he may end up a doctor like his parents, but of his own violation, and not because of their insistence. I could also see him being a teacher. 

Ace Trappola: 

NBA SUPERSTAR BABY. Genuinely. I think he’s got the personality and talent for that kind of stuff. Otherwise, I could see him being a snarky mathmetician or a beloathed gym teacher. This guy’s got some range. 

Deuce Spade: 

I could see him working as a physical trainer. I think he’d do well in a job that lets him help others, especially when they’re in desperate need of it. 

Cater Diamond: 

Social media influencer (read: niche internet microcelebrity), but he also works as a model or actor in his freetime. I like to imagine Vil and him working together in the industry a lot, and becoming good friends when they get older. 

Trey Clover: 

A baker, dentist, or chemist, as those are his passions. I think realistically he’d work as a dentist, and maybe even intern with Sebek’s parents, hehe. 

Leona Kingscholar: 

Diplomat, given his nobility. I think he’s initially a bit resentful of the role, but he’d make a good advocate for his country, and he comes to be widely respected for his intelligence and wit. 

Ruggie Bucchi: 

Leona’s assistant or advisor, given what we know about he and Leon’a relationship from the game. I could also see him working as a diplomat though, and advocating for those in poverty. I think he and Leona stick by one another for a long time after graduation. 

Jack Howl:

Another professional athlete. I think he’d make it to the TWST olympics, honestly. Not that it’s a job, but I could also see him being a wonderful father. 

Azul Ashengrotto: 

Entrepreneur and restaurant owner. He expands the Monstro Loungue brand and gets insanely wealthy, much to everyone’s chagrin. 

Jade Leech: 

An agriculturalist, specifically focusing on cultivating mushrooms and researcching them. He’s absolutely in love with his job. 

Floyd Leech: 

Fashion designer and absolute menace to the fashion world. He makes some truly stunning stuff, but showcasing his work means putting up with him, which many are reluctant to do. Thankfully, he has both his family and Azul’s backing.

Kalim Al’Asim: 

He’d take over his family business, while also making a few ventures of his own with the money he has. I imagine him donating a lot to charity, and investing in systems to improve his country. 

Jamil Viper: 

I think he would break away from Kalim and pursue being a musician and/or dancer. He still helps Kalim, but not as an advisor or forced companion, and rather as a begruding but willing friend. 

Vil Schoenheit: 

I think it goes without saying that he’s continuing his already stellar career as an actor/model/musician/probably a million other things. 

Rook Hunt: 

An art critic who rises to notoriety for his beautifully worded yet no less honest and critical reviews. I could also see him being a private eye, for less than savory reasons. Maybe he does it in his free time? Also, archeologist. 

Epel Felmier: 

Professional Spelldrive player! He’s not the best of the best, but his determination and will to succeed makes him a force to be reckoned with. 

Idia Shroud: 

Software developer and a game designer! I think he’d love being in charge of creating the games he adores so much. I could also see him running a tech company as the reclusive CEO.

Malleus Draconia: 

King of Briar Valley after his grandmother passes the title to him. If not that, then I think he’d like to be a historian, given his lifespan and appreciation for older things. 

Lilia Vanrougue: 

He’s already an old man, but if he had to pick a more mundane job, I could see him touring with a metal band, or teaching younger kids in Briar Valley. 

Silver & Sebek Zigvolt:

As the prophecy hath foretold, they’ll probably end up being Malleus’s guards for a long time, then perhaps becoming generals or leaders in the valley’s military.

[kalpalatas]

xilonen is so easily my favourite natlan chara. can't keep plants alive but obsessed with finding out how to. always sleepy. she didn't notice she got a vision because she was too busy thinking about lunch. says chocolate comes from a fruit so bonbons are technically fruit flavoured. hates drinking plain water so SO much. somebody hook her up to a monthly fonta subscription plan. has threatened to steal the bride from a wedding if she's getting married off against her will. truly one of morax's most unhinged soldiers

[snailshipping]

lots of new luna (undertale insert) lore i came up with on my 2 hour drive homeeee:

- the snowdin shopkeeper is her mom! so the innkeeper is her aunt and the little rabbit is her nephew/niece! so she has a lot of connections in the town and most residents know her well!

(them if you haven’t played ut!! and if not….go play rn….)

-the dreemurs babysat her a few times when she was very young whenever her own mother was very busy. before their separation the dreemurs were often involved with the community, visiting shops and interacting with the residents of the different areas

-she would play with asriel too! asriel was kind of like an older sibling to her (which is funny bc later on flowey is like her little sibling) i generally believe undertale takes place 20-ish years post chara so luna meets the dreemurs during that time when she’s about 5-7 years old! she also meets chara who she ends up liking a lot which makes asriel slightly jealous. so they kinda compete to be the better older sibling to her lol. in a lighthearted way though, they’re all friends and their death takes a toll on luna even though she was very young when it happens

- she’s known sans since she was a kid as well! they met when he and papyrus moved in to snowdin and she’s always been super friendly towards them. she gets along well with a younger papyrus and he’s been quite attached to her ever since (it may not be practical to canon but my hc is he’s 8 years old when they move with sans and luna being around 14-16)

- sans is really shy around her when they first meet. for a while he does try to avoid her bc he thinks she’s cute and also annoying (hehe). but she never really stops trying to become the two skeletons friend (maybe because of the void left by chara and asriel who knows….) well eventually they become very good friends and basically grow up together. but they still hide things from each other and it isn’t until frisk comes along do they truly learn to open up and realize their feelings (maybe frisk and papyrus play matchmaker idk but that would be super cute..)

[sukifoof]

Can you elaborate on your interpretation of Flowey's ability to SAVE as a metaphor for trauma?

hi meant to answer this when u first sent it But things were busy and i also have So Many Thoughts SO prepare for my flowey rambling!! i might go a little more into depth about grief and the specific kind of grief flowey has so just be cautious if thats triggering at all

anyway the thing that stands out about saving to me most is that it's linked to control. the person saving has the choice to go back, or repeat everything however many times they like, or just move on and let things play out. flowey himself mentions he knows that power, that was the power we were trying to stop-- when given that sense of control people are bound to uhhh Not Have A Great Time! and it really reminds me of what ptsd and survivors guilt is like to deal with; the idea that somehow you could have stopped it or that only if you did this certain thing you could have saved someone or yourself so much trouble. flowey's ability to sa ve is grown from this belief that if only he made the right choice everything would have been fine, and a need for control for when he might have to make such a decision again in the future

he even says himself that he could have stopped whenever! just let everything go on. but he can't, at least he can't emotionally take something like that. flowey can't move on because of his need for control and stability in a world where he's trapped himself. it's like... a lot of times people who are in a bad state of mind subconsciously don't want to get better, because they're used to feeling the way they are. it's scary to move on and change because sometimes feeling so sad all the time feels like it Must be You, and then who are you if you're happy? there's also flowey's guilt, where he's probably questioning if he even has the right to be happy if chara is gone. especially when he clearly blames himself for what happened to chara. so he'd rather sit here in a world where he's in control and bored because at least he knows what's coming. people are predictable, but it offers him some weird stability

the other thing that really gets me about his ability to save is that he can only go back to waking up as a flower. at this point, chara is already gone, and he can't go back to being "asriel". it feels like... no matter how much he thinks about chara, who they were and their death and his inability to keep them from dying and how they filled their water to the top of the glass, he can't go back. he can reset everything all he wants, but he can't go back to before chara died. and adding onto that, wanting to return ends up idolizing chara in his brain. who knows if he even still thinks of them as they actually were. it's part of the reason why no one feels real to him. he has this distinct disconnect with himself and others because he needs to be in control and know everything, while with chara he felt they were "special". that they're the only one that could possibly understand.

and it makes sense that he feels that way! the only person who experienced his trauma was chara. he has an emotional wall up because the underground can't truly understand what he's feeling. no one feels real to him both because of this emotional wall but also because he's convinced himself that he's in control, that he knows exactly how things are going to go. he has this superiority and inferiority to others and a terrible savior complex because of his trauma, and it shows itself in his ability to save. it's like... he feels so trapped and out of control that he's desperately trying to hold onto any sense of control he can get but he doesn't realize how much his refusal to let go and heal is hurting him.

gonna talk about grief when it comes to suicide specifically here so WATCH OUT!!!! okay i have warned u all i am going to talk about it now. feel free to leave if it may be triggering i am begging u to not put urself through triggering bullshit <3

anyway i think the fact that chara took themself out and asriel felt like he couldn't tell anyone because this was for the sake of freeing everyone is really. that's the nail in the coffin. the heart of his control issues. i feel it might be a bit difficult to understand if someone hasn't gone through that grief themselves, but when someone you've known and loved has told you of a plan to get rid of themselves for the sake of everyone else, it leaves you feeling helpless. after all, if someone plans to do it, they will do it. you can't control that no matter how much you might want to. the fact that he lived through that-- that he couldn't stop chara, that he couldn't save anyone not even himself, that he might have made the wrong choice-- that's the thing that's eating at him. he constantly talks about how If Only Someone Made The Right Choice Everything Could Have Been Prevented. he's taken up chara's death unto himself. if only he did the right thing, then maybe chara would be here. but that's not how it works. chara was their own person, but asriel doesn't know how to be his own person.

that's why him saying he doesn't regret his choice anymore after so much time is so important!! it's him finally accepting that he needs to let go of chara and start living for himself. so his ability to save and finally letting go of his ability to save is so important to his trauma and cycle of self hatred. that's why he begs us to let frisk go. he knows what it's like to live through that cycle. the ability to save can be a metaphor for plenty of things but i think with flowey specifically it's an incredibly well written way of establishing what trauma feels like and the need to be in control after feeling so out of control of everything during the event. i hope that my deranged rambling makes any amount of sense cuz i think about this so very much

flowey is such an important character to me cuz he's really helped me analyze my own process of thinking while dealing with that kind of grief and it's kinda helped me come to terms with what happened. i love flowey sooo very much i really hope we get to see him more in the newsletter stuff cuz i neeeeed to see him being happy and living his life after his trauma i love the fact that he has a ribbon from papyrus cuz hes finally living for himself and his friendships and i am GOING to CRY !!!!

[kris-and-the-pnictogens]

Studying Generalism

It's taken us altogether too long to realize that if we had a proper place or station in life, a profession or occupation, it's to be a generalist. Every time we thought that we'd found a career in the usual specific sense that's assumed by U.S. society, we got bounced out of it. As you might imagine that wasn't pleasant to experience. It's meant decades of frustration and anger and self-loathing, racking up a string of failed careers. But even a failed career means experience and it has been of great long-term advantage to us, it seems, to have acquired such a wide variety of experiences, even if they were short and shambolic ones.

But how does one become a generalist? Pursuing a specific career is far more straightforward and well-documented, but there's no discipline or body of wisdom corresponding to generalism, is there? Actually...there is, but the difficulty is that almost all of it is likely to be bogus. For there's one sort of human being most likely to assert that they're generalists, and that's the man of business, the "entrepreneur" or the "founder" or the "investor". Because they're merely interested in success in the conventional capitalist sense, the would-be "founders" of the world are aimless and capricious in their interests, but they're easily persuaded to think that this means they're universal geniuses, good at everything they dabble with. Thus I don't doubt that if I looked for books purporting to describe how to be a generalist, I'd find thousands—and they'd all be terrible.

If there's any truly helpful and salutary approach to generalism, I suspect, it's through spirituality and mysticism. I have encountered the idea that magic or "the occult" can be regarded as the art of arts, the human discipline that really and truly does touch upon everything else. I'm reminded of my one taste of the work of Heinrich Cornelius Agrippa, the famous polymath of the German Renaissance, and was struck to learn that it was very much like an outline of all known human knowledge. If you were a polymath in those days, like Agrippa or Avicebron or Paracelsus, very likely you gained a reputation as an occultist and practitioner of magic. The "Enlightenment" and the severities of the Christian Reformation and Counter-Reformation rather put an end to such notions, and studying the occult became very disreputable and unsafe. But I would like to reverse that trend! =D

We are having a very difficult time figuring out how to get started. It has been an uphill battle of years simply to impose even the most basic of disciplines upon ourselves and internalize them. To put it bluntly, authoritarian U.S. society does everything possible to prevent the establishment of personal disciplines: we're supposed to jump around when we're told and that means we're discouraged as much as possible from having any strongly developed personality or sense of values. Frauds and charlatans have captured this field, each selling their own canned (and poisonous) variation on how to have an identity or purpose, always pitched in commercial terms: this is how to be successful, how to make friends and influence people, and so forth. Another difficulty is that we were never properly taught how to study! U.S. schools give this practically no attention. It's a sink-or-swim thing: the child is expected to figure out how to study on their own. Hence we learned nothing but bad habits and terrible coping mechanisms for our various cognitive and neurological issues...we never learned how to do it correctly.

It really does feel like...Back to Zero, if I may say so (q.v. Fate/Zero.)

~Chara of Pnictogen

[unma]

@notwowee requested: Mettaton

There is so much to say about this robot but let me start off with my initial thoughts on him.

For like, a good good while I wasn't sure what Mettaton's gender was? In all fairness I was raised in a hella conservative country and Undertale was the first piece of media I'd ever interacted with that even depicted queer people, so for a bit I assumed the pink meant he was probably female. That wasn't helped when I discovered that Mettaton was Blooky's cousin with the locked pink house.

Luckily for me he was discussed enough that I eventually realized my mistake before I ever had to admit it. That would have been emabrassing.

Anyway I absolutely adored this robot and his style, his quizzes were cool and he had the most charming attitude that made me smile whenever he was there (not to mention the quizzes were funny, too). Don't get me started on the musical. Or when he hits you with the puzzle you've almost certainly forgotten the rules for. Hotland is very well done, even if some people dislike having to deal with Alphys's messages there (personally I thought those were neat).

Despite all this I have to admit that I initially thought he was a lot more shallow than expected. I didn't realize he was the type of person to actually care about his love ones, and I probably would've believed anyone who told me he treated Alphys like shit (okay maybe I'd have been a little skeptical, but you get the point).

Nowadays, I'm honestly pretty fond of his relationship with Alphys, as he's probably the one person she relied on the most during her various fuck ups. Also, his... his worries about Alphys in the ending where he becomes king... ah, that still makes me tear up a little. You can tell he cares and regrets not being a better friend to her.

This is only partly related but I dislike Papyton. For no reason, really, I just don't like it, and I disliked having to see it so often (until I learnt filters existed, anyway). I couldn't tell you why; the ship's perfectly fine. Yet if I see a fic with it I click out. Oh well, maybe I'll get over it one day.

I could totally see a world in which I become as attached to Mettaton as I am to Cagliostro from GBF. I'm not trans by any stretch (perhaps I'm non-binary, given I don't actually care much about my own gender in the slightest, but for now I'll stick with cis+ until I actually feel like I should consider it more) but I do have admiration for characters like them who strive to be their best selves in terms of appearance and are absolutely confident in it. I suppose if I was born a girl, I'd be more attached to Mettaton than Cagliostro, but eh. Who knows.

Mettaton's importance (or rather, lack of) in the genocide run is saddening, though I have come to terms with it because in terms of the game's writing it's a pretty damn good decision. I do love that he got fangames giving him an actual battle though, it's lovely to see him actually get that chance to fight back.

I feel the need to restate once more that I adore his relationship with Alphys, and seeing works explore that relationship is always great. I think Mettaton is one of the least fan-explored of the game's main cast, so it'd be wonderful to see more works. It's a shame I'm too busy thinking about Sans, Frisk and Chara to do that myself, though.

One more thing: Until I wrote this post, I always wondered why Mettaton didn't just fight the human in his indestructible body instead, especially in the genocide route. I mean, it's obviously because his other forms are the ones actually designed for human eradication, of course, but I also like to think it's because he likes those forms a lot more than his box form, as he sees them as a proper expression of who he truly is. I just think that's neat. Sure, he's indestructible when stuck in the closet, hiding who he truly is, but it's restricting, and wouldn't you prefer to simply be you? Even if it could mean you could get hurt? I think that question is somewhat inseparable from Mettaton's character as a whole, as his overly confident and theatrical personality could perhaps be one answer to that. It's fine if you get hurt a little, because in the end you'll be much happier for it.

[toniko]

side stories spoilers

there was only a little bit of LHH in these new chapters? I mean more of him next chapter but I miss him so bad…

oh but seriously hyunwoo is so gilyoung coded it’s crazy, the image of them lying side by side… LHH’s sentiment about them looking like brothers is such a sweet sentiment

otherwise i feel it’s finally time to settle my opinions on the readers

1: Lee Hakhyun (my serious favorite chara of all orv)

He refuses to let ANY reader die, it really reminds me of that Dokja selfishness for his companions but it somehow expresses so much kinder out of LHH idk, i just be saying shit now

thank goodness that he’s slightly better emotionally regulated, i love how everyone loves him as well n he so loves them back (especially that 41!YJH guy…) (damn this kind of rehashes my reasons for loving Dokja but that guy is severely more emotionally constipated so i like LHH better)

he feels like such a reliable guy, he really makes sure everyone will be okay n it truly feels like orvss will have a good ending bc he’s there to see it through

yk that feeling of pride u get when Kim Dokja gets hyped up on ORV, yeah i get that for LHH so hard he’s like my guy ever if i were a constellation, half my savings would be gone bc im busy gassing up LHH. he’ll do anything n ill be like “damn RIGHT he did, my goat”

2: Cha Yerin

theater dungeon cube room convo my beloved, literally a top 5 scene for me and all they did was talk

seriously tied w her brother but i think i like her slightly more because she’s the first reader 🥺 i mean LHH’s biggest number one fan literaturegirl64, likes his original works more.

the story of her n her brother is such a, idk gets my heart… orphanage, siblings? she’s blind and her brother has info dumped orv in audio over 6 complete times to her? amazing (this one of applies to why i like both characters, duh)

also just one of the most skilled fighters, ik orv women go crazy but orvss has so many new top tier female fighters, rlly said “no constellation” just a martial arts goat, she n her bro stood out immediately as the badass readers. her design makes me rlly happy too, i keep thinking abt it please make her real blackbox or webtoon ( in aprox. 6 years…)

the 1 on 1 convos she has w LHH are always so special to me, more than ever LHH is an author to her and she is his reader

she’s living my dream btw (got to read LHH’s old novels)

3: KillerKing (Cha Sunwoo???)

i think maybe, if LHH didn’t STILL call you KillerKing (regardless it’s what you go by damn) then I’d remember ur real name

idk I genuinely have to revisit the chapters to check again bc no one is updating any wikis… no should i do it? anyway

he is easily the funniest new character of the side stories bar none, god damn YJH kinnie, chuuni ass

recent recycling center arc (the animal masks one) sold me so hard on him, how can he consistently be like “no, go on without me!” flips black coat n still be cool… coolest lamest guy ever

jophiel is also such a cool constellation sponsor, some of the other readers have yet to have constellations so im excited to see what they end up with

his idea of surviving also being not to be like kim dokja but to do what you’re good at? it’s so good, makes so much damn sense. amazing.

the duo video game skill is awesome, I just can’t believe YJH beats the really cool co-op siblings bc he’s a fucking pro gamer, like get a JOB

4: Ye Hyunwoo

is that right? you want to be kim dokja but you can’t. this mf sets off 20 red flags every damn chapter but there’s that sense that he will always remain an ally cause he’s a smart kid and very self-aware so it’s also tragic in that sense

oddly enough he feels like an outsider to the group but he’s around really often n i think he really sets that distance himself

i think he’s really gotta embrace that he’s okay with being taken care of and hiding behind someone but is also capable himself. gong pildu literally your dad little man. I think we’re really at the trickling last bits of his general character arc

5: Lee Dansu (Noh Kyunghwan) (made me cry like 20 times)

favorite dilf in the apocalypse. im joking. maybe

inevitable insane tragedy of staying alive beyond his family

his entire like arc got me bawling my eyes out ong i just wish for him to be happy, kindly middle aged man who only read orv to understand his daughter? like what if i end it all omg it’s so… 😭😭😭

my wish is for him and hyunwoo to talk deadass. they should mourn together. hyunwoo knows what happened to his daughter and they both share a really close connection w her

there’s a real time to shoe him in these chapters bc that’s his daughter’s best friend n then his constellation came down too? deadass

6: Kyung Sein (does this count as trans girl)

she’s goofy silly cute… him? i mean it’s the only time we’ve seen a different gendered reader to character deadass did they run out of incarnation bodies for transmigration?

but anyway, i think it’s fun that she just stans heewon so hard she worked out n then is like bros with hyunsung. 41!YJH legitimately values her and the rest of the companions in combat. this round is so interesting bc like there’s the usual incarnations + the readers who got crazy good powerful so the balance is wrecked

honestly she and Lee Dansu were like, the first companions so there’s a sense of fondness that just comes from knowing them for so long

7: Ji Enyu

victim of less screen time bc she’s being badass on her own, seriously. initially she’s all like “haha what if we get put in the orv world there’s no way I’d survive” n she’s surviving the hardest, the balls on this woman. i think my jaw drops everytime she appears bc she’s got new awesome abilities n powers n connections. don’t even need that YJH carry

+ Yoo Sangah constellation, + LHH’s equivalent of Yoo Sangah, + the editor of ORV (its editor…. 🥹)

she and LHH literally got that best friend feel on, just looking at each other n understanding each other

also possessing King of Beauty is unironically crazy, but so so funny. someone who found her own way but still remains a reliable ally all the way through

seems to be getting more screen time this arc PLEASE more of her

that’s the companion readers i deadass can not write anymore in this tumblr post i mean i can. oh wow the readers are so fucking awesome man…

[spacexseven]

i do enjoy darlings winning, but i feel with yanderes (especially with bsd yan), it’s always going to be a momentarily win. always running, always looking over the shoulder, never having a break — just watching and waiting as paranoia sets in and fear strangles mind, heart, and soul. it’s a miserable life that might end with darling doing something drastic, or even mindbreaking stockholm syndrome setting end and going back to the yan. the preferred choice is darling always fighting to the end but it is a sad sight for many because they’re never going to truly win. also lots of thoughts spilling in and out of my hanster brain because of the last ango piece and im looking. I love normal darlings who get yandere attention by doing the most mundane things in life. I’m also sorry about my q&a (i didn’t realize how long it was 😔) post crashing your laptop. The Lore thinking was really fun! i forgot to add the consort selection input (ex-consort candidate ayatsuji & consort tsujimura) because they were way too long for the initial post. I’ll probably edit and send to you later. I didn’t realize just how long some of the concepts built of this got. I will also fight tumblr if it’s being mean to you Tuna!!- 🦄

don't apologize!! my lame laptop should be asking for your forgiveness rn...i too adore the idea of darling just minding their own business and a yandere suddenly starting to like them. it's so...scary because there's no alternative yk? and yes, i think you've put it a lot better about why it's difficult for darling to escape a yandere. especially you know bsd charas and their powers...makes it all more difficult..

[tenfaceandthree]

Are there any relationships among your own muses? If so, tell us more!

There are quite a bit of relationships among my muses!

一 - The triplets are just that! Siblings! However, their relationship is much different from that of a normal sibling relationship, even that of multiples, and identical multiples. Their blood is considered "tainted" because it deviates from that of the full-blooded Kendricks by introducing a new creature to the bloodline. Historically, the only other species that were allowed were humans or other vampires, for them to have draconic blood in their DNA is considered a huge taboo. Thus, they've grown up to have a sexual relationship between them normalized in preparation for them to have children together or with other Kendricks to try and dilate the draconic bloodline. They also have a hard time differentiating themselves from each other due to all of them being prepared to take each other's places at a moment's notice. Each of them can play the part of the other two and that, as well as their strict upbringing, meshes with any sense of self that they may have tried to have.

二 - The triplets have a business relationship with Momento. He's more or less just a partner in business but they adore his loyalty and reward him greatly. They do daggle his ultimate goal over his head but Momento feels that he is learning quite a bit by being around them so he will let them play with him a bit longer if it means that he accomplishes his goal at the end of the day.

三 - I suppose you can say Mirabelle and Tatlim have a mother-daughter relationship. The two have never met, but Mirabelle is symbolically housed in Tatlim's pregnant belly while she waits for their life to calm down enough that she can come out of dormancy and Tatlim eagerly awaits that moment.

四 - Lolita and Noble have a kind of friendship. It's hard with Noble to come to terms with the Lolita and what she represents but Lola adores him. Throughout her trauma, she knew he was one of the children in her mind that she was protecting and as a result she feels very maternal towards him. When she was 064538, she was amazed by the way that he existed as Old Noble. She had no feelings, she was robotic, and he was so vibrant and full of life. He fought, he bled, he pushed people away, and she thought that was amazing. She still admires him, she still thinks that he's so strong and interesting and he lets her observe him.

五 - Dallas and Justice are sisters, they identify as twins but they don't look anything alike nor are they the same age. They are merely twins because they split around the same time, and they have almost exactly opposite roles. Dallas loves his sister, he thinks she's super cool and powerful but he wishes that she was kinder to others. He dedicates all his cheers to her and he always wants to hang out but Justice often pushes him away. She doesn't want to be close, as she doesn't trust closeness but she protects him more than anyone else. Anyone who is mean to Dallas or gossips about him gets the full effect of her biting tongue. Like most siblings only she can be mean to him.

六 - Tatlim is the mother of almost all the littles in the system, as well as Noble. She loves so much, she wants to be the mother that they never had and they feel it's too late for them to ever have. Despite splitting from Lolita, she is also her emotional protector. Though unlikely, just as a mother would, she takes on blows directed at Lola, and she tries to take away the worst of her pain so she can continue to function. She truly loves all of her children in the system, and she only wants the best for them. She doubts there will ever be a time that they are fully fused but she wishes for it.

七 - Entropy has a strange relationship with the fragments in the system. It's almost akin a very authoritarian owner and their pets. They keep all of them on a tight leash, only allowing them out when necessary and the one that they keep the most eyes on is Chara. Chara is their least favorite alter in the system and the one that they know can cause the most damage. One would almost say they both despise each other but it is debatable if Chara has the capacity to feel that way for Entropy.

八 - Justice has a deep crush on Entropy. Entropy is ageless but much too old for her but she still loves it. She has no clue if Entropy knows, if they do, they haven't entertained the idea at all but she will watch them from afar and try to come closer to front without them noticing when they're fronting. She likes to observe them and even tries to mimic other alters to try and throw them off her track.

九 - Chara is the worst nightmare for Noble, Stellar, Monalisa, and anyone else who had to live with Patricia and Alexis. These alters live in fear when Chara escapes from Entropy's watch as it will come after them and terrorize them to try and keep them in line.

十 - Francoise works closely with Tatlim and has a great deal of respect for her. He is also a caregiver but in a much different way. Instead of taking care of other alters, he is incredibly fine tuned to what the body is feeling and its needs. Tatlim also respects him quite a bit. It's difficult for her to be in tune with the body, she often feels dysphoric or the pain is too much for her, so for Francoise to almost be aware is something she could never imagine. They often tell each other how much they are appreciated and how the system couldn't survive without the other.

十一 - Forrest thinks Noble is weak. Noble hasn't made a large effort to reach out to Forrest, mainly because he is always very preoccupied with himself but Forrest doesn't have very good opinions of him. He feels that he was forced to be in existence just so Noble could feel in control and he despises that he has to come in and handle pain seemingly too often whenever Noble can't do it. Though, he tries to keep it in perspective as much as he can.

十二 - Lolita considers Charli to be her son and Charli is happy to consider her one of his mothers. Lola has always wanted a son, she doesn't know why she would prefer one over a daughter but this definitely causes her to dote on Charli whenever she runs into him. She is fiercely protective of him, often hanging around in co-con when he's out. She is terrified of something bad happening to him and Tatlim often as to try and calm her down before she frightens herself too much.

十三 - Nothing feels a strong sense of kinship with Lolita. After all, it was split to protect Lola and the pain that they couldn't endure. It's one of the system's last line of defenses and though it knows nothing but pain, it thinks that she's beautiful and considers her it's sun. Lola feels very guilty for not being strong enough to handle it. She hates that Nothing was formed because of her and has to have such a difficult job and she wishes she could take it back but she does that Nothing feels that it is helping her when it does its job so she tries to praise and let it know that she loves it.

十四 - Lolita despises Shame and Shame revels in getting the best of her and making her life hellish. Shame was split off of Lola and is almost akin to the voice of her darkest thoughts. It represents not just her shame, but also the shame that Pearly had because she fused with 064538. Shame has a terrible laugh that seems to ring through the system everytime it gets the better of Lola and it only adds to her shame.

十五 - Anatasia, Noodle, and Unnamed all have a complicated relationship. Lola is unaware of them but they are aware of her and have done a lot to make sure that she stays up and running. They are often found snuggling together and they reminisce as much as they can on what have endured and vow that they'll do it again for Lola. As fragments, they are unable to know anything else.

十六 - All of the Zombies are rather close. They are split off from the rest of the system so they don't have much of a relationship with the lot of them anyhow. They rely on each other and literally pick each other back up. It's rare that any of them front more than once, so they are very welcoming to new splits. It is difficult to know that your only purpose is to mentally die over and over again, so at least they know that they have alters around them that quite literally understand the pain.

十七 - The triplets and Ancord also have a very owner and pet-like relationship. However, Ancord is a dutiful pet and does whatever the twins ask of her. The twins in turn, reward her handsomely. Damien especially, who has been crafting Ancord for lack of better word, for a long time is very fond of her creation and loves her deeply. Ancord seems to return the sentiment and will do as Damien asks with no hesitation.

[mochinon-yah]

no no it's alright, really! /gen. anyways same here! i think it just depends on me and what my mood is atm :/ like sometimes i'm not up for a conversation. anemo boi supremacy hehe, but i'm glad you were able to get him!! i wish you all the kazuha as well ^^ OKIE BUT LIKE his burst is kinda hot,,but relatable :"D TYY!! I WAS VV HAPPY TO GET XIAO ON THE LAST DAY (my big brother bought me welkin as an early bday gift hehe) manifesting u some of my luck for kaveh! hugs for bedo. also np! ~Lycoris

i think i should really say that i'm busy nowadays so i wouldn't make ppl suggest otherwise T.T

anyways same here! i think it just depends on me and what my mood is atm :/ like sometimes i'm not up for a conversation.

hmm, yeah! but sometimes me being me, if i don't respond too much to a person because my social battery is low/i just wanna be alone, i would feel so bad for them (._. ) kinda jealous to ppl who doesn't think too much of this kind of stuff

and truly anemo boi supremacy till the end 🛐 literally my 2 most fav charas are an anemo :) his burst looks like it was forced if i have to be honest, but like it's kinda cool ig?

TYY!! I WAS VV HAPPY TO GET XIAO ON THE LAST DAY (my big brother bought me welkin as an early bday gift hehe)

reaallyy wish i have luck like you T.T but tbh i think all my luck went into my practical exam cause i nailed it even tho i practiced like yesterday haha! and srsly that's so nice of your big bro! i thought siblings usually won't give birthday present to each other (cause mine doesn't lol)

manifesting u some of my luck for kaveh!

awhh, thank you!! i have now achieved the lowest confidence that i would get kaveh cause before there was none- like like my primo is now 3 and my fates 0 so like there's just no hope left, except if i get him in just one pull but that probably would never happen lol

[catlovetts-blog]

hey there demons, it’s ya boi. or jaz, either way the sentence is valid. for those of u that don’t know me i play charlie, elias & anastasia already and here i am bringing another bb into the mix ! this is catherine lovett, aka cat, and is probs just under elias in the ‘how decent are jaz’s characters’ scale ( charlie is last, obviously ). for more about her read underneath the cut, & as per usual feel free to like this if u want to plot ! if we haven’t plotted already & u wanna plot w my other charas too, just lmk and we can work some Magic™.

TRIGGER WARNINGS: abuse, divorce.

CATHERINE LOVETT. DANCE VP. LEAD SINGER & GUITARIST.

cat was born in new york city, new york but her and her parents moved to blossom hill when she was about five, her dad being kinda concerned about how the pollution would affect his kid. #ecofriendly. her family is old money but she’s never paid much mind to how rich they are, kinda just going with the flow. you can still tell to this day she’s a city girl, being an absolute wizard with public transport and having slight issues with the rurality of blossom hill. pls never put her in a field.

ever since she was a kid, cat’s had some issues with her anger. she was taken to a therapist, but 80% of the time it never manifested into physical violence ( she still hit a lot of people, but it was always after a verbal argument, she never fought without warning ), so the therapy didn’t help. everyone just came to understand cat was fairly tightly wound and liked being in control, something you don’t have a lot of when you’re a kid, and so her irritation manifested itself as sudden outbursts of anger. because of her issues, cat tended to not speak very much, feeling that the less she said, the less others had to reply to, lessening the chance of her getting annoyed and possibly causing upset. both of these behaviours have stayed with her her entire life, causing her to become known at school as a bit of a lit fuse.

her entire life cat’s mom has always had her on a tight leash. she pushed her into dance at a young age, being a retired ballerina herself, desperate to live out her glory days via her only child. cat, in a desperate attempt to atone for her anger issues, chose to give up her childhood and the things she wanted to do in hopes of making her mom happy. she thought by making her mom happy, she would make her dad happy, and maybe the hushed fights and tense glares at breakfast would stop.

despite the grueling practice schedule, cat found time to secretly develop her own hobbies. she didn’t go searching them out, they found her in twists of fate, calling to her as if by chance. she became good at practical subjects, things like woodwork and metalwork, and moved on to learn about car mechanics from her father in the small amount of spare time she had. it was their secret, of course, but that didn’t lessen her enjoyment. she picked up the guitar at a thrift store when she was ten, another gift from her dad for doing well in a silly, inconsequential test, yet that gift was the best thing to ever happen to cat. she discovered her true passion, music, and began to write songs.

when she was about fifteen, her parents got a divorce for reasons still unknown to her. cat and her dad were super close but because of her mom, the gold-digging demon, her dad was forced to move back to new york and her mom got the house in blossom hill, the parents both deciding it’d be best for cat to stay in the town considering she’d already begun to build a life. things had never been great between cat and her mom, the woman screaming obscenities at her one minute behind her dad’s back, and then stroking her hair and saying she needed to be perfect the next, yet somehow things got worse.

her secret: cat’s mom largely blamed her for the divorce and hit her for the first time after cat came home late one night after dance practice. a dance practice she had pushed cat into. it was a nasty, violent show of hatred, the older woman waking up the next morning as if nothing had ever happened, pulling her into the main bedroom to cover it with makeup. cat didn’t know what to do. despite what her mother had done she couldn’t bear to upset her, having seen her sobbing alone many a time after the divorce, the young girl feeling as if she had to take responsibility. she dealt with, and continues to deal with, physical, emotional, and verbal abuse from her mother, forgiving the woman each time, unable to wake herself up to the truth.

however, the abuse led to something else for cat. because of it, she was desperate to get out of the house more, hoping and praying for any opportunity to not be at the lovett residence. she’d been turning to her music more and more, secret notebooks now full to the brim with songs and snippets of tunes – it didn’t take her long to form a band, not too long after the abuse started, and now they’re one of the few things keeping her afloat. she’s the lead singer & guitarist, taking the whole thing very seriously, believing the group has what it takes to be big one day. she’s been sending demos off to every record label she can think of, hoping that if they catch a break, she can tell her mom and maybe she’ll be proud enough to stop hurting her. the band’s been together for two years now and they practice twice a week minimum.

cat’s also taken up muay thai in hopes of both helping her anger and, again, keeping her out of the house. she’s a v busy girl.

wanted connections:

THE BAND, obvs. a bassist and drummer are definitely needed, then maybe a keyboard/synth player. everyone in the band plays an instrument. they’ve been together two years, but it’s possible maybe one or two members have had to leave/have switched with someone else if ur chara is new to town. there should be at least one other core member besides cat tho that’s been there since the start.

HER BOYFRIEND. cat’s linked to isla’s secret, which is that isla has slept with cat’s boyfriend more than once. whether or not these two are more of an on/off thing, or whether they were on a break when it all happened is up to you, but they’re currently together now. they likely won’t stay together since cat isn’t gonna take that shit once she finds out, so if ur worried about being locked into a ship don’t be, or if it goes well and there’s chem maybe they sort shit out, who knows ! i’m happy to go w the flow on this, i just rlly want the damn connection for drama sodmsk.

CHILDHOOD FRIENDS. either family friends or neighbours or people she generally just grew up with? they’d be the best people at dealing with her anger since they’ve handled it for years and i think she’d really appreciate them, even if she doesn’t always show it.

GYM BUDDIES. ofc she does muay thai so like, anyone that either trains with her or just goes to the gym generally to do cardio, weights, etc. she’s probably least angry when doing these things just bc she has an outlet for all of that pent-up energy, so this person probably sees a slightly calmer side to her, the hardworking side not many people notice.

PEOPLE SHE WORKS WITH. jfc does this girl stop? the answer is no. anyway, she has a weekend job at a local car garage helping fix stuff up, so it’s simple, gimme people she works with pls!!!

[kumoriyami-xiuzhen]

Hakuoki SSL - 『Chibi Chara After School Life』

hope everyone is staying hydrated and cool... Anyway, this is the 『ちびキャラ After School Life』 content that was originally printed in the G杂志2013年8月号 magazine, and while it was later reprinted in the 薄桜鬼SSL ～sweet school life～公式ファンブック 特別授業篇 book, the “introductory guides” didn’t seem to make it?

Hakuoki SSL - 『Chibi Chara After School Life』  (I don’t have the title in CN so I wasn’t able to translate the title of this myself and I relied on google for that)

Translation by KumoriYami

Chizuru's Introductory Guide❤

I ran into Hijikata-sensei while he was resting in the cafeteria! Although he usually looks busy, he seemed to be relaxed today. I heard him ask me, "do you want to come and have a drink?" So I went and had tea with him. Despite how he is very strict, he is a gentle teacher who is always very considerate of us.

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『 Stealing a moment to have a quick cup of tea 』 

Hijikata: As soon as it becomes spring, it feels like another year has started. The new students have to handle a lot of formalities and prepare for the scheduled tests and son on... they don't even have the time to have a relaxed meal.

Chizuru:  You've been working hard, Hijikata-sensei. Please don't push yourself too hard... Right, if it's convenient, can I do something for you?

Hijikata: I appreciate your kindness, but regardless of the situation, I can't get a student involved.

Chizuru: I'm truly sorry...

Hijikata:....There's no helping it, don't show such an expression. If you really want to help, there is a task I can ask of you.

Chizuru: Ah...yes! Please just tell me!

Hijikata: Stay with me until I finish my tea. Because it's necessary to find the time to relax once in a while.

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Chizuru's Introductory Guide❤

Okita-senpai gave me a very cute doll! The doll comes from the now popular "MAKOTO Soldiers" series, which seems to have other versions aside from cats. He also said that he would take me to go play at the GAME CENTER, and that he was looking forward to it.

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『 For that child...? 』

Okita: Yep, here. This is for you.

Chizuru: So cute...! Where did you get this doll?

Okita: When I was going home yesterday, I went to the game center with Heisuke. This was obtained there.

This is apparently called a "MAKOTO Soldiers", which is one of the popular doll series nowadays... There's this indescribable sense of disgust that's very annoying. You see, its face really looks like Hijikata-sensei's, and I really want to beat it up.

Chizuru: I think most people will find it cute... Anyway, thank you. I will cherish it!

Okita: You're welcome. This series also has a rabbit, bear and so forth... if you want them, let's go together next time?

Chizuru: Yes, please be sure to bring/take me!

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Chizuru's Introductory Guide❤

Saito-senpai, who has been very busy with the affairs of the Disciplinary Committee, seems to be counting the points deducted after school today. In order to not cause his problems, you must be careful to not be late! As he is also very enthusiastic about the Kendo Club's activities, the Disciplinary Committee's actives, and coordinating between them, he is a senpai who I respect very much!!

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『 In Retrospect 』

Saito:  We of the Disciplinary Committee have to count the deductions data for the day like this after school.

Aside from the normal days... it is very exhausting when there surprise uniform inspections like today. Because the amount of statistics/counting work greatly expands.

Chizuru: Ex-Exhausting...

Saito: Having said that, thanks to Hijikata-sensei's and Principal Kondou's education, I feel that there are far fewer students at our school who violate the rules compared to other schools.

Chizuru: I think that's inextricably linked to the efforts of the Disciplinary Committee's members, including Saito-senpai. Ah, but Hakuo Gakuen's uniform rules were originally relatively loose.

Saito: To some extent, that recognition is based on [one's?] personal judgement. Having said that, those three people on the student council..

Chizuru: Kazama-senpai and Amagiri-senpai and Shiranui-senpai, ah... uh... they're quite unconventional.

Saito: It is completely incomprehensible that their uniforms were approved...

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Chizuru's Introductory Guide❤

It's been a while since I've seen Heisuke-kun, my childhood friend, who is active in his club activities. He's super focused when it comes to the things he loves. Maybe it's the same situation for the games he's addicted to [I think?]. It'd be great if he could make use of his focus for his studies... You can't always stay up late, can you?

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『 Spiritual Unity... before then 』

[honestly I have no confidence in that title translation. im assuming this is more among the lines of “Mental Preparations’... before then? JP is “精神統”]. 

Toudou: Let me ask you, what do you think is the most important thing in kendo?

Chizuru: Eh? It should be strength, and quick reflexes...?

Toudou: These factors are really important if you want to win a match. But Kondou-sensei said that mental strength is the easiest thing that everyone forgets while exercising. 

In the arena, once you get overwhelmed by your enemy's momentum, you will not be able to use your normal strength. While practising, once you lose to yourself, you will unconsciously goof off. That's what he said.

Chizuru: So Heisuke-kun's mind has always been very focused.

Toudou: That's how it is!..... Alright, I feel like my concentration has reached its max!

Chizuru: Ah, since that's the case, why don't we study hard for next week's test while you're full of concentration? If you make full use of this concentration, you'll certainly be able to pass the test!

Toudou;…………Uh, no, think about it, studying and sports are two different things...

Chizuru:…………

Heisuke: I, I'll work hard....

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Chizuru's Introductory Guide❤

This is Harada-sensei taking a break from class since it's over. When the weather gets hot, teaching physical education gets very difficult.... Harada-sensei is our 1st Year Class 1 professor, but despite how I meet him everyday, I have never seen the listless side of him, I can't lose to this sweltering heat!

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『 A teacher's job is not easy 』

Chizuru: The temperature has got up a lot... families will soon start taking out their fans.

Harada; The classroom's extremely stuffy. It's even harder to have physical education classes outside.

Chizuru: Yes... The sun is very intense, and you also need to prevent sunburns and heatstroke.

Harada: I also pay attention to the physical conditions of students, and if you feel unwell during class, tell me immediately [there are actually no pronouns in the latter half of the sentence so I'm just going with what I think makes sense here].

Chizuru: Yes, I often pay attention to the physical condition of my classmates.

...However, you're the one working the hardest, Harada-sensei. Even if there is a physical education class, there's only one class that occurs every two days for the students, while Harada-sensei teaches physical education every day....

Harada: Thank you for your concern. However, that's the job of a physical education teacher..... Alright, after a short break and then we'll start the next class.

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Chizuru's Introductory Guide❤

...Although I don't mind going to the Student Council room, I however heard Kazama-senpai call me his "wife" today. I clearly told him earlier that I wasn't... I was very concerned about why he was the only one wearing a different uniform from the other students, [though]  since he's the Student President of Hakuo Gakuen, he should be a very capable person as there are many students with personality.

[??? I hate the lack of periods in this. The last sentence is too long to not have other punctuation and that means getting creative to make things make sense -.-. ]

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『 Day of Conveying Feelings』

Kazama: My wife. You rarely come to the Student Council Room... Why did you show up today?

Chizuru: There's no reason, and there isn't a rule that you can't come unless there's an urgent matter...

Kazama: Speaking of urgent matters, "seeing me" is significant enough.

Yukimura: It's not that important!

Important matters refers to the submission of documents, and printouts!

Kazama: Ah... I see. So if there isn't such a reason, it will be difficult to you appear before me with your bashful expression.

...Amagiri! Starting from tomorrow, in order to have the 1st year classes [I cannot tell if this plural or not] submit information to the Student Council Room every day after school, help me prepare some random surveys. I'll handle the negotiations with the teachers.

Chizuru: Please don't do that...!?

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The Hijikata/Saito/Harada images were my scans that I uploaded before while the others were not. 

...this probably felt longer to translate than it did. Also, I cannot tell if something is singular or plural if there isn’t enough context. 

[equal-shipping]

Why Kaishin Still Holds Up, Even Now.

I FINALLY watched the 23rd Detective Conan and let me tell you what...

Why are there not more episodes with these two working so closely together? Like please?! They got that solved so quickly and just shared information with one another and can I please just have them interact before the series ends pleaaaaaase.

Yet I'm not here for begging. I'm here to rant and cleverly disguise that rant as an essay.

I want to rant about trust in Detective Conan (specifically with a look at Kaishin) and the Enemies turned Rivals turned Friends turned Lovers trope.

[Mild Spoilers Ahead]

Trust as a Driving Force in Detective Conan

If someone asked me what is one of the many driving forces in the DC plot as well as the cornerstone of many of the relationships in DC it would be trust. Most of the characters in DC are living their lives with lies as the foundation of who they present themselves to be.

And here is something that I love about the relationship these two have with one another:

The trust that Shinichi has on Kid was earned and vice versa.

I don't think that Shinichi thinks that Kaito Kid is the most honest person in the world, but he does know that the magician works by a code and he trusts him to not put someone in any immediate danger despite the fact that Kaito Kid does not inherently talk too deep about his heists with him.

Ask yourself this. Where in canon did it say that in Kid's heist nobody gets hurt by Kid? I've read the manga and nowhere does he really say 'this is a safe show for everybody!' Let me tell you where it says it: Nowhere.

So why do we all assume it to be that way? Because even we have trust in our favourite thief that he won't do something to actively hurt someone. Since the story is being told in Shinichi's point of view, most of the times, we can rely on the trust that Shinichi has placed on Kid to not get anyone hurt.

One big example of this would be in the Detective Conan Movie: The Sunflowers of Inferno:

Leaving Ran in Kid's care is a conscious decision he is doing despite the fact that he doesn't know if Kid is even going to make it out. Shinichi loves Ran probably more than he loves himself and he wants her out of danger enough to place trust in someone that, situation wise, has no business whether Ran or Shinichi live or not. I honestly think that even Kid was surprised that Shinichi made that decision.

Now I'm not going to put my shipper goggles when I make this statement and go 'OH MY GOD THEY LOVE EACH OTHER SO MUCH IT SHOWS IT EVERYWHERE. LOOK AT THE SHOW, STUPID."

But these two have something that not many of the characters in DC have and that is a mutual trust without knowing all the details of their lives.

Kaito happened to guess that Conan was Shinichi and I doubt that Shinichi is going to meet Kuroba Kaito by the end of the series. These two barely know each other but through their interactions just happen to understand each other enough to work together amazingly when thrust into a situation where they have to help each other out.

Which brings me to the second thing I want to talk about.

My Enemy Went From Being My Rival to My Friend to my Lover, What Happens Now?

I want to break into Gosho's house and ask him to please let Kaito Kuroba meet Shinichi Kudou. Like this is such a might need that I'm almost scared of looking forward to the ending of DC because I just have a feeling it isn't going to happen.

I might also ask him why the hell every side character needs a romance subplot but that is neither here nor there.

But now that the ships have been decided and canon has sealed the final nail on everything, I just want to talk about the trope that makes Kaishin just so amazing for me.

If I am remembering my facts right, Magic Kaito came before Detective Conan. Kaito was a realized character, somewhat, and was clearly a very likable chara with a ridiculous high IQ and a secret he couldn't reveal to anybody.

I mean he's a goddamn beautiful man is what I'm trying to say.

When I first read the series I could immediately tell that Aoko was set to be the romantic interest, Gosho really ain't fooling nobody. She seemed cute, extroverted and a girl who seems to really care for Kaito. Of course there was the juicy tidbit of Kaito being the thief her father is hunting down that also kept the relationship interesting.

So I was more than okay with having these two together.

I was already a bit aware of Detective Conan so I was all for the ShinRan as well. The pining, the secrets, the care that Shinichi has for her that transcends the organizations doing!

Also fun fact: Kaito/Aoko was the basis for Shinichi/Ran! Which is why ShinRan is thematically better than Kaito/Aoko but I will not go into that.

So one sad day during quarantine, I decided to rewatch the series to see if I could get any writing inspiration.

Now I don't know if it was quarantine or a change of heart or just me growing up but Gosho's friend trope seemed boring to me the more the episodes continued on. I AM NOT THROWING THE FRIENDSHIP TROPE DOWN, IT IS BEAUTIFUL I STILL SHIP SHINRAN

But I was tired of picking vanilla and wanted to see what else was on the menu.

And as luck would have it, I had decided to watch episode 515: Kaito Kid's Teleportation Magic and fate decides to deliver me a wonderful hit to the heart:

What is it about characters pointing guns at each other that I love so much?

And Shinichi doesn't react like a normal fucking person he just goes:

He knows this man ain't gonna shoot. They have had five interactions before this (if we are going by anime episodes) and through all those interactions Shinichi managed to get to a level of banter with this guy that he hasn't had with any of his other enemies.

If he even considered Kaito Kid an enemy to begin with.

Both Kaito and Shinichi have a mutual respect for each other's skill.

They test each other out in several situations and are pleased when the other figures it out, kinda transitioning their little chases to more of a 'two really smart guys trying to outwit each other' and less of a detective trying to outsmart a thief.

Shinichi enjoys figuring out his magic and Kaito enjoys the challenge of making some of his magic tricks near impossible to figure out. Their friendship is something really special and if they can have it without even knowing the details of each other's life, imagine how strong it would be if they truly met each other face to face.

I don't really want to cross into headcanon territory that would turn them into lovers, lord knows we have more fanfiction to do so, but it is just wonderful to see these two men both living a lie respectively but finding some solace in each other that they can shut their brains off for one second and just...play.

Hell, Kid's heists might be Shinichi's safe place. In those heists he is known as the 'Kid Killer' and not just some brat who happens to figure shit out. His opinion matters in those heists.

And not just to the police, but to Kaito as well.

BUT IM GETTING OFF TOPIC!

I just wanted to show love to this wonderful ship q wq

[studioweus]

hi fun game if you want to play... describe the aesthetics you associate with members of your fave group & which of your mutuals you think fit said aesthetics

i’ve decided to go with both oneus and onewe for this!! (because i just couldn’t choose one)

also to those that i’ve tagged i apologize if these don’t fit your aesthetics at all, my perception of people are pretty far-off from who they truly are no lie

ONEUS:

ravn feels more of a staying-up-late-to-be-productive kind of person, whether to work on music or art, comfortably sitting on the couch in loose-fitting clothes to feel more comfortable, with neon signs as the only source of light in the room and lo-fi playing in the background. on sleepless days, 'the joy of painting' plays on the giant tv mounted on one of the walls as background noise instead @sandaigdigan (you are very diligent and you’re always working hard!!) 

seoho reminds me of a fairly sunny day, like the in-between of spring and summer. a soft breeze, uneven patches of clouds in the sky. not too hot, not too cold. and if you look hard enough somewhere in the distance, a kite is being flown! people pass by riding their bicycles down the cycling path, too! @honeyseoho and not just because of your url i swear!

i don’t know why but leedo reminds me of quiet walks on the beach, taking his time step by step, especially late in the afternoon when the sun is in the midst of setting and everything is red-orange. maybe it’s because he’s a little unreadable at first glance?  mysterious like the sea and its secrets, you know? but somewhat calming like the sound of crashing waves @nyangjo (roma this is basically me saying i want to go walk on the beach with you)

keonhee with spontaneous ideas and adventures. no set colour scheme - maybe any of the brighter colours! despite the bold colour choices, he sports simple attire. the type who would just come up to you one day and randomly say, “let’s go do karaoke today!” the kind of person who would sing his lungs out and laugh till his stomach is in knots @leed0neus (tattoo off the table, let’s just go for karaoke) 

maybe it was the k-campus video but hwanwoong reminds me of this bubble tea store near my area. pretty sure the interior was like a bubblegum pink the last time i went. everything is compact, people are busy chatting away with friends, but it's fairly quiet most days. save for the array of k-pop and j-pop that play in the background. the cheesy menu items that are like "99 problems but a peach ain't one" @iyfias (it’s the pun)

xion gives me like... randomly-deciding-to-bake-something-today at home vibes. opts for boxed cake mix (betty crocket's devil food a ha get it). the strong scent of something that smells like cocoa??? envelopes the room. chocolate powder stains on his apron, frosting somehow ending up on his face. sneaky raw batter tasting when the others aren't looking @quitehopeful (we’re somewhat recent mutuals but hello!!) 

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i associate yonghoon with anything that reminds me of fall for some reason. everything is a mix of brown, orange, yellow, and red. he would be wearing a very cozy-looking hand-knit sweater and give everyone he sees warm hugs, a coffee to-go in hand. going to the park with a pet dog who jumps towards a pile of leaves and the never ending sound of crunching ensues @huuanwoong hi cinn~ ngl i don’t know if you have autumn/fall where you’re from 😭)

i think of those old school scenes in movies where character A (that's harin) is outside character B's window late at night. character B looks out the window, catches a glimpse of a beautiful starry night sky, and harin leaning against the hood of his cream-coloured vintage car and blaring chara B's fave song from a radio - except... harin has his phone and a bluetooth speaker. very modernized ver. @geonhak self explanatory imo - though i don’t know if you’re a weve tho  👀

a little cliche but i think of going to bookstores and (mostly) window shopping when i think of kanghyun. the sound of music that softly blares across the store as you peruse the different sections. quietly humming or singing along to the songs that you recognize. the pit pat sounds of worn converse sneakers across the wooden-floored halls (hi @kimyovngjo~ kanghyun is an intellectual and so are you!)

dongmyeong feels like someone who likes gallery hopping. frequent contemporary art exhibit visits. his outfit choices are very reminiscent of art school students' - oversized jean jacket with the sleeves rolled up, a turtleneck sweater tucked in, culottes. taking photos of his favourite installations and pieces @highponyleedo you def. give me art student vibes tho!!

cya gives me cyberpunk city vibes. the hustle and bustle of a city that never sleeps as he skates past a crowd of people to head towards this obscure retro arcade/internet cafe place, a hidden gem of the city. meets up with friends there to play mmorpgs or fps games together. secret handshakes and convenience store slurpees (couldn’t think of anyone for this... can i tag myself? haha)