#trauma dumb

[kinkshame-puncher-666]

Does anyone even listen to bad religion in their most emotional state??

[jdeko]

I hate that I was right why Pippa has barely streamed all week, and why during the Mahjong stream she wondered aloud about self-harm dressed up in comedic terms. I like I want to make another “senpai noticed me, uwu” joke but my heart breaks for her. Listening to old collab streams with Lumi talking about how happy Yuri was coming to Phase, how she exploded into the discord and made friends with everyone and was way happier than at hers and Lumi’s previous company. Or from the few of Yuri’s streams I’ve listened to now, as if just to torture myself, she was always talking about improving her model, working on company projects, and speaking well of Sakana. Us plebes will probably never know what “repeated breaches of contract” Yuri did, nor what the back-and-forth of negotiations were before they reached the impasse that led to Yuri’s termination. I really don’t like that it’s almost certain that “Yuri” will cease to exist if Sakana really is nuking all her social media I doubt she will get to keep even the model she joined Phase with. So I wonder what terms could’ve been so bad that Yuri gave everything up instead of accepting them. I think back to a Phase Weekly where Yuri was showing off all her assets and toggles, and how watching an old stream of Pippa’s how she said she never really buys assets because she doesn’t own “Pippa” so she can’t justify spending money on an IP she doesn’t actually control and how in the end she was kinda proven right, though I doubt she feels any vindication in that. And I honestly can’t decide if I think any of the other Phase members even know the answers either. In one of those old streams with Lumi Pippa said she puts her gen mates and the Invaders before Phase, but with just Yuri being fired you have to imagine that puts her in a terrible situation. I realize I’m going full parasocial, both in binging Yuri’s content as if I’m spending time with a dying pet cat in order to savor memories, or in putting so much thought into the mental state of a pink anime rabbit girl and how her blue snow leopard friend getting fired makes her want to pour hot sauce in her eyes. It’s probably because Pippa is reacting the exact way I do, and am, to these sorts of things so it really hits home to me. And seeing comments on her videos I see a lot of people going “I hope you feel better, maybe you should see a doctor.” as if she has the flu, even after someone super-chatted asking if she is going to watch Yuri’s farewell video tonight and her voice went from “under the weather” to “dead inside” as she said she probably can’t bear to watch it for a long time. I’m probably a massive moron for sharing all this, but it’s my blog so I’ll trauma dump if I feel like it. This is a microcosm of my life right now seeming like I’m trying to carve out a little section of the world to try to live in only to have giants beyond any hope of me ever being able to sway one way or the other just crushing it all. So be it a slimy fish or a greasy witch shit just sucks right now.

[sharkomania]

I think I'm ugly whenever I leave my house.

I think my walking is weird.

I think my posture is wrong.

I think my zipper is down, my bag is open, my pants are ripped or stained, my makeup is off, my hair is messy.

I think I look as sad and lonely and pathetic as I feel.

So I try not to leave the house.

It doesn't help.

People I love tell me I'm pretty, but if that were true someone would have taken even a brief interest in me, before getting to know me and running away.

Life moves mysteriously, maybe I was put on this earth to be tortured and make art that lasts, like so many others before me.

Or maybe I'm just a dumb girl who got ridiculed and bullied all her life and now can never feel secure.

[nonbinarywh0r3]

Rape a baby into my womb, sir? I want a stranger to find me in a bar, and for him to drag me outside. He would try to fuck me, and id try to stop him because im not on birth control and ovulating. That would set him off and he would rape me in the alley, pumping his cum as deep into me as possible.

[noxcheshire]

I think I’d be really funny, if Bruce was a reincarnated Vlad.

This is going to be based off of a prompt I saw (I will find you) where Bruce suddenly remembered his past life as Vlad.

HOWEVER, my take on that is the de-aged Ellie and Dan because the amount of ANGST and self hate that Bruce will go through thinking his past self was not only a villain, but also that sort of person?

It will eat him alive.

It will eat that man alive every time he goes to sleep and another burst of memories pass underneath his eyelids.

It burns him when he wakes up with the phantom touch of a body underneath his hands, of a boy just as young as Damian and thinner too, struggling to escape a grip of a man whose hold was too possessive, and too cruel.

It feels like acid swishing down his throat when he wakes with the taste of oily words filled with threat and something more whispered over the form of a boy. A young boy whose blue eyes blazed furiously back and yet tried to hide the quiet bursts of fear underneath.

It feels like Bruce cannot scrub the man he had been right out of him, even when his skin blisters red until it bleeds. Vladimir Masters had woken spitting and screaming, burrowed like a cold sore underneath everything that is Bruce.

Bruce hates it.

Hates the monster he had once been and still is — because despite the fact Vlad is now Bruce, living and breathing and existing here in Gotham — Vladimir Masters still exists.

He is out there right now in a little place called Amity Park, pulling weight and blood just to get what he wants.

A man who has used and abused for far too long…

Perhaps it was time to see to it, that however and whatever way that Bruce came to be, that it began with Vlad’s unfortunate circumstances back into the Ghost Zone.

[thegoldenappleofdiscord]

"solangelo break up arc!" no actually what we really need is expansion on will's plague powers

[tinkishhell]

I hate December and Christmas more each year and I genuinely don’t think I’m ever going to enjoy them again. Both are just filled with constant reminders of trauma and I don’t know how much more I can take. I want to scream. I want to cry. I want to rip my hair out. I just don’t wanna do this anymore.

[cynicallyneutral]

「coward」

[doll-for-you-11]

Sometimes I wish I had been raised religious. Because the fantasies about being molested or raped by a pastor or priest are so hot.

This older man you trust completely. That your parents and family trust completely. Asks to be alone with you. He takes to to a room says you've been bad and theres only one way to get back into Gods good graces.

You have to let go of the evil. The entire time he's groping your tits and ass. Rubbing a hand under your skirt over your pussy. He tells you he knows youve been bad because he can feel how wet you are. But its okay because he can fix it. But you have to help him be ready and you have to keep it a secret because youre his favorite and he can't help everyone this way.

You get him ready by getting his cock hard. You have to suck it and get it nice and hard and sticky or it wont work and when youve done that he has to use it to remove the devil from your pussy.

He says itll hurt but he has to remove it as he pushes his cock into your tiny pussy. He tells you you'll know its leaving when you start to feel it in your stomach. He thrusts hard. It hurts but then you feel it.

It builds and he rubs your clit and tells you itll help it hurt less. Your body shakes and you yell out as you feel it leaving your body and he tells you you have to taste God's milk to keep the devil away as you pulls you up and cums down your throat.

He tells you you have to swallow every drop or we have to start over.

When you're done he tells you its not permanent. The devil could come back. You'll know if he does because youll want to put something inside you and your pussy will get wet.

When that happens you have to come back to him and have this done again. And it has to stay secret or people may think you're evil but he knows you're not. He just has to help you. But he'll have a meeting with you every sunday to check. And if you get wet when he touches you he'll know its the devil and he'll have to fix you again.

[grossillygirl]

thinking about a mean guy groping me in public. he doesnt softly fondle my tits or just place his hand on my ass. he pinches and pulls my nipples, telling me not to make a sound or else. he gropes my ass hard, makes me feel his hard cock on my ass, telling me that as soon as he saw me he knew i had to be hurt a little bit so i could be punished for dressing like such a slut, teasing men thinking that im invincible and no one would do anything. but hes different, he just had to have me. he comments on how tight my leggings are, how obvious it is that im wearing a thong and that im such a little perv, im just as bad as him. making me admit it, in a whisper in his ear, that im an attention whore and im glad that he's using my body for his own pleasure. it doesn't matter if im lying to myself that i dont like it, he can feel my wetness through my clothes. he tells me hes gonna cum on my ass so that i have to walk around with the reminder of the consequences of being such a slutty tease. my nipples sore and aching for someone to use me some more, maybe rubbing their cock on my nipples. i dont even picture a specific person anymore because ive become so needy just be used, by anyone. maybe he hopes that his little "lesson" will make me approach the men who undress me with their eyes and offer to let them use me, cus then im not being just a tease, im being useful too :).

[depravedsafehaven]

The idea of a Man forcing me to talk about my rape trauma while I stroke him off. Telling him every little detail until I'm a sobbing mess. So he can later re-enact it with me. Always been a big fantasy of mine.

But lately have been fantasising how he could also force me to tell my trauma to his friends or strangers online.

[adorabledrugl0rd]

Imagine having your dead uncle’s spirit following you around and the weight of what your life is hits you all at once while you’re breaking into a high security building

couldn’t be me

I don’t know why but I can’t stop drawing @somerandomdudelmao Casey

he’s so cute and fun to draw even in my sloppy art style

[artieseni]

treyarch!!! make eddie a pathetic little meow meow like primis ricky and my life! is yours!! also give us the homoerotic subtext

reference! dempsey finally snaps and beats up richtofen but then ricky pulls out his goofy smile and dempsey's annoyed he can't control his fluttering heart ok ty bye

[tinkishhell]

December sucks ass, wake me up when it’s January 1st cause I do not have the mental capability of coping with another ‘festive period’ where all I do is relive trauma from my childhood 🙃😴

[samble-movedd]

everyone should like madoka kaname. everyone on this website. everyone on this planet.

[jellyfishfem]

grooming is when *checks notes* we talk about the dangers of the sex industry