#transmasc! wreck's relationship with moon is so different than cis! wrecks

[cedarwrought]

im not done with transmasc! wreck actually

(cw for body dysmorphia /internalized transphobia/self harm via unhealthy binding practices)

transmasc! wreck who finds acceptance in a boy who shares his love for heroes. who makes him feel like a boy, and a loved one at that. who nudges his side when they're playing videogames, laughter bubbling in their chests until it bursts from them as "GAME OVER" casts the room red.

transmasc! wreck who binds his chest for too long he sees his vision swimming, breathing caught on a fishhook of his own hatred. who trains and trains and trains to get the right body- the right physique because it just doesn't look right. who whimpers when nice helps him soothe the reddened flesh later on, squeezing his eyes shut as his chest aches worse somehow.

transmasc! wreck who watches the boy he loves kiss a girl on national television. she's pretty. long blonde hair with wide eyes, outfit accented in pink to complement nice's blue. the aggressive heterosexual marketing makes him want to choke. nice looks at her with so much adoration wreck feels sick despite knowing that it's fake. later that night he wonders if it could've been him instead. if he endured the feeling of wrongness in his skin, he could be the one on that screen.