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Texts from the Lost Tomb part 6.1
š¶ Back on the bullshit I never got offš¶
Is this another unnecessary story arc?? With three sections??
Yes.
Wushanju Crew Chat
Wang Meng: You know, Iām someone who appreciates consistency in my day. My life is pleasant, very few issues indeed if you ignore the big ones. And yet. Yet here we are. With unresolved messes at the end of a day.
Wang Pangzi: SOMETHIN YOU NEED TO SAY MARY POPPINS
Wang Meng: We need to talk about Huo Daofu and the glittery bead curtain.
Wang Pangzi: MY FAVE TEEN WIZARD SERIES
Wu Xie: did you turn on that suggested word thingy lol
What glittery bead curtain
Wang Meng: I closed the shop at 6:00pm this evening on the dot. I locked all of the doors in and out of the shop very carefully, especially in light of recent events. The hall leading to the back office was empty. I filed the dayās paperwork, updated and sent emails, and then spent an extra hour organizing receipts and dusting. When I came back out, there were glittery iridescent bead curtains over the front entrance to the shop.
What could this mean?
Wu Xie: uh that you need to spend less time at work?
Wang Pangzi: LOOKS LIKE WE GOT ONE FOR THE DETECTIVES. THE MYSTERY OF THE BEDAZZLED THRESHOLD COMMENCES
Wu Xie: I think we can be relatively secure in thinking a glittery bead curtain isnāt a hostile threat
Wang Pangzi: SAYS YOU
I REMEMBER YE OLDE EXPLORATION TIMES HOW FAST THINGS GOT FURIOUS
BEANBAG CHAIRS SET AFLAME AND LEFT ON DOORSTEPS AS A WARNING
GLITTERBOMBS FOR DAYS
PANIC AT THE DISCO
Wang Meng: Ugh, forget it. I should have just taken them down, regardless of who they belong to.
Zhang Qiling: They are not mine.
Wang Pangzi: A BOLD STATEMENT COMING FROM OUR PRIME SUSPECT
SOMEONE QUICK GO DRAW CHALK AROUND THE DOORWAY TO MARK THE SCENE OF THE CRIME
Wang Meng: Do we know anyone who *would* sneak in and put those up? For whatever reason, legal or not? Even as a joke?
Wang Pangzi: ARE YOU SERIOUSLY ASKING WHETHER WE KNOW ANYONE WHO IS CHAOTIC, AN OUTLAW, A PRANKSTER AND/OR SNEAKS INTO PLACES
BECAUSE THAT WOULD MEAN OUR SUSPECT LIST IS LITERALLY EVERYONE WE KNOW EXCEPT FOR YOU.
Wu Xie: okay letās think about this; for starters, I didnāt break into my own shop
Wang Meng: You would be in danger of doing some work in the process, thatās true.
Wang Pangzi: LOL
Wu Xie: ANYWAY letās keep going. For example, Xiao Ge would only break in somewhere for a good reason. Xiao Ge, did you do this?
Zhang Qiling: No.
Wu Xie: okay whoās next
Wang Pangzi: YOU REALLY MISSED YOUR CALLING IN INTERROGATION TIANZHEN
REALLY PUT THE SCREWS TO HIM
IN MORE WAYS THAN ONE;)
Zhang Qiling: How can we be certain *you* didnāt do it?
Wang Meng: Admittedly that was my guess, too.
Wang Pangzi: WOW I SEE HOW IT IS
BLAME PANGZI AS USUAL
ANYWAY HOW DOES HUO DAOFU FIT INTO THIS
Wu Xie: Oh yeah him! Oops I got distracted
Wang Pangzi: UR ENTIRE HISTORY IN A NUTSHELL
Wu Xie: Ugh fuck off
Wang Meng what abt Huo Daofu??
Zhang Qiling: ?
Wu Xie: oh sorry xiaoge I didnāt realize you wouldnāt have spent much time around him last year
He and I go way back
Zhang Qiling: Way back where?
Babysitters Club Chat
Wang Pangzi: I CANNOT BELIEVE HE IS BUYING YOUR INNOCENT ACT
IF YOU EVER TURN TO EVIL WE ARE FUCKED
Zhang Qiling: ?
Wang Pangzi: YOU KNOW EXACTLY WHO HUO DAOFU IS
YOU WERE EXTREMELY POLITE AND BORDERLINE FRIENDLY TOWARDS HIM
Zhang Qiling: I wanted him to feel welcome. I wanted to be sure he understands he has a place here. A specific place.
Wang Pangzi: FOR A SILENT GUY YOU ARE A MASTER AT SUBTLE POWER PLAYS IM ALL TINGLY
LMAO THE IDEA OF WU XIE LEAVING YOU FOR HUO DAOFU IS HILARIOUS AND ALSO NOPE
Zhang Qiling: Rationally, I understand that.
Main Chat
Wang Meng: Huo Daofu is coming for the weekendādidnāt Wu Xie tell you? Wu Xie asked me to check in a week ahead so we could start getting ready for his arrival
Wu Xie: oh yeah I did do that
Wang Meng: Fortunately I know you and so I already went ahead and took care of everything.
Re: the trip
He made a deal with Wu Xieās doctor that he would do periodic checkups on him here at Wushanju
Bc Wu Xie hates being in the hospital
And frankly the hospital hates him too
Wang Pangzi: FAMILIARITY BREEDS CONTEMPT LOL
I FORGOT HUO DAOFU WAS DOING THAT
A VERY CHIVALROUS GESTURE
WOULDNT YOU SAY
XIOAGE
Zhang Qiling: Is it safe for him to be here with a criminal loose on the premises?
Wu Xie: Right, back to the curtain! Letās focus on the curtain, hmm?
Wang Pangzi: I AM SO LOOKING FORWARD TO THIS WEEKEND.
ALSO WE CAN RULE OUT XIAO BAI FOR THE CURTAIN SHE JUST SENT A SELFIE FROM NORWAY COVERED IN GREEN SLIME WITH ZERO CONTEXT, UR PROTEGE INDEED
Wu Xie: okay but who else would do something so oddly charming yet illegal andāwait.
Snake Eyes Chat
Wu Xie: hey, Glasses hasnāt been in touch lately right?
Li Cu: uh nope
Unless u count the outdated memes
Why, is money or Xie Yuchen missing
Or is this curtain related, I saw Wang Mengās tweet
Wu Xie: haha no nothing to worry about really
(I mean maybe? but who knows)
Wang Meng is probably just getting a little paranoid in his old age
Li Cu: better than getting reckless and stupid as hell in ur old age
Wu Xie: ā¦hey:(
Unknown Number: Li Cu, we discussed this.
Wu Xie: ????????
Li Cu: *sigh* fine, reckless and stupid as heck
Unknown Number: ā¦close enough.
Wu Xie: EXCUSE who is that
Madame, Sir, Non-Binary Tree Spirit, etcāwhomst the fuck
Are you
Li Cu is underage FYI
So Im staying on this chat
Li Cu: okay first of all, itās not like that
Second of all Iām literally not underage I s2g
u threw the embarrassing surprise bday party, okay so u should remember
And C, thatās my counselor and I invited her. She wanted to meet u and I knew u wouldnāt agree to a visit so I added her to our chat
we have been discussing u
Wu Xie: Oh wow!!!!!!!
What a surprise:)
hi so nice to meet you:)
Main Chat:
Wu Xie: RED FUCKING ALERT
FUCK THE CURTAIN FUCK THE VISIT
IVE BEEN TRICKED INTO FAMILY THERAPY BY A SMUG TEENAGER WHO TEXTS UNKNOWN NUMBERS
Wang Meng: I assume that means something to someone here?
Not my problem? Good.
Wang Pangzi: AHAHAHA GOD I LOVE LI CU
HES LIKE ADORABLE KARMA FOR ALL THE SHIT YOUVE PUT ME THROUGH
IM RAISING HIS ALLOWANCE
Wu Xie: wait i give him an allowance
has he been collecting on two allowances??
Zhang Qiling: Three. I knew about both of yours.
Snake Eyes Chat
Wu Xie: so uh may I ask your name?
Unknown Number: you can call me Ms. Lee.
Now, if youāre comfortable talking in this format, why donāt you tell me how things have been going?
Wu Xie: oh everything is normal and fine and safe as usual, why do you ask:)
Li Cu: I heard about ur necklace thing. nice of you to NOT mention it.
another dangerous adventure. again. prick.
Ur lucky your cool boyfriend cares about you so much or youād have already died like ten years ago
Wu Xie: lol try twenty years ago
Li Cu: That isnāt funny.
Unknown Number: ā¦What?
Wu Xie: shit ur right, okay that was a bit glib, my apologies.
ā¦I use humor as a coping mechanism?
Unknown Number: and Li Cu, how do you feel about that?
Li Cu: he doesnāt even know what that phrase means
He doesnāt cope, like ever
In fact
Itās kind of why we met
Which is a funny story in retrospect tbh
Wu Xie: haha what are you talking about sweetie hahaha need I remind you of certain anecdotes that could idk send me to jail maybe lmao
Unknown Number: ā¦You know, perhaps an in-person meeting might be more effective?
Wu Xie: haha such a nice idea but why
Main Chat
Wu Xie: If I go to jail, Iāll have to create alliances for protection, right, thatās how it works on tv
Who do we know who spends time in jail
Other than Hei Yangjing, heās only ever there for like 12 hours and i suspect he just gets himself arrested bc he enjoys the breaking out process
Also howās the curtain case coming along
Zhang Qiling: Has someone threatened you?
Wu Xie: well not yet but soon Iām sure
Wang Pangzi: WHERE WAS THIS PARANOIA WHEN WE GOT TAKEN TO THE TEA HOUSE HUH
Snake Eyes Minus Your Fucking Therapist Chat
Li Cu: okay how tf did u pull off spy and undercover shit
u are sus as hell
Wu Xie: damn son is it pick on Wu Xie night
I missed the flyers or I wouldāve invited my uncles
Also re: the curtain itās been mostly solved
Li Cu: Iām not your son, idiot.
Wu Xie: ā¦oh. Sorry, sorry, youāre right, bad choice of words, haha
Forget i said anything
Delete this chat even
Li Cu: shit I meant
Legally, biologically, I meantā
shit
ā¦I turn into an asshole as a coping mechanism?
Wu Xie: oh thatās all okay! I have to go do something else now let me know if you need anything okay kid thanks!
Li Cu: goddamn it calm down whoās the kid here
lemme organize my thoughts so I can articulate my emotions fuckin healthily or w/e
Ugh maybe for like one afternoon we could go to Ms. Lee together? She knows how to word stuff
Wu Xie: uhā¦okay.
Li Cu: Anyway you donāt need to worry abt jail
As if you would survive prison for one day youād piss off half the place in like an hour or less
I gave Ms. Lee the heavily edited version of the desert highway to hell roadtrip and i discussed it more in terms of like ānightmarish but still wouldnāt take any of it backā
Well maybe the sand
that shit was everywhere
Wu Xie: oh kiddo. Itās fine, reallyā¦You donāt have to explain yourself to me.
Li Cu: no, no itās just
I do technically have a dad
who is an asshole. Being a son doesnāt really mean shit to me bc it sucked.
So you need to stop backing down just cuz ur guilty abt stuff. Iām really really glad ur not my dad in a good way. Do u get what I mean there
Whereās the mafia widower I followed into hell, huh
Wu Xie: Ur a good kid, despite my influence. Iām really glad you have someone to talk to after everything Iā¦after everything. Wow this talking through feelings thing is kind of weird but nice ur right
Jfc no wonder it took me and xiaoge so long toāyou know what, we wonāt get into that
Li Cu: ew tmi
Also re: this weekās recent necklace fuckery
I moved my stuff here, I live here now
So you canāt die anymore
Or elseā¦Idk I donāt have a threat planned
anyways abt the curtain
Wu Xie: oh my god, kidā¦kid you have no idea
I am in tears.
Li Cu: see this is why I canāt be nice to you I can sense the hallmark channel from here
Ugh donāt be sad in ur room thatās dumb
Go hug Pangzi or something
Maybe delete this chat
Or the curtain thing
Focus on the curtain thing
Just stfu and go away
Wu Xie: <3 screenshotting this <3
Li Cu: I take back everything I said. This is why Xiao Ge sleeps on the roof. I hope the ghosts of the Wangs put up that curtain to strangle you somehow. Go die in a stupid way, itāll suit you.
Wu Xie: lol donāt worry Iām not gonna embarrass you with it or anything
Main Chat
Wu Xie: omg guys look how cute my kid is *sending screenshot*
Wang Pangzi: I MEAN
HE IS WISHING YOU DEATH
BUT SURE
CUTE I GUESS
Wu Xie: no but read the whole thing:):):)
Zhang Qiling: It is indeed very hard to remain angry with you. And you are welcome to join me on the roof.
Wang Pangzi: UH NOPE
NOT WHENI HAD TO BLEACH THE COUNTER IN THE KITCHEN
DONT TRAUMATIZE THE EARLY BIRDS THEYRE ALREADY FREAKED OUT BY U YA HOODIE CRYPTID
Wu Xie: ok true but babe ur like a sexy cryptid
Wang Meng: so, are we just accepting that there is a glittery curtain of unknown origin, and Huo Daofu is going to have to see it while heās waiting for you at Wushanju bc youāre going to family therapy?
Wu Xie: right
Wang Pangzi: SHOULDA TAKEN EARLY RETIREMENT HUH
Wang Meng: Iām going to go dust something.
Unnamed Chat:
Unknown number: so the curtainā¦
Unknown number 2: yep, not my best work but I kinda panicked last minute u know
Unknown number: what is in the water at Wushanju that makes everyone dumb and attractive
Unknown number 2: relax theyāll figure it out
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Fic Writer Review
Tagged by @fontainebleau22, thanks for the tag, sorry for the delay!
1. How many works do you have on AO3?
26 at the moment.
2. Whatās your total AO3 wordcount?
722 309. Iād have thought it would be more considering how long some of mine seem to get, although looking at other peopleās answers to this meme, I guess 26 isnāt really a huge number!
3. How many fandoms have you written for and what are they?
My first fic ever was a little Lord of the Rings experiment for an exchange thing. But my first proper dip into writing for a fandom would have been Breaking Bad, where I wrote for a couple of years before it felt like my ideas had run their course. Then there was a Kingsman fic, and then Mag7 where - similarly to BrBa - wrote feverishly for a couple years until it felt like the well had been plumbed. Oh yeah and then jumped into the Marvel fandom to drop one Marvel fic before immediately jumping back out lol.
4. What are your top five fics by kudos?
So the Marvel fic has officially just become my most kudoed fic, which is kind of hilarious considering it was a SUEZ! CANAL! FIC! But in my opinion, a good one lol. So yeah, it would be 1. The SamBucky Suez Canal fic, 2. The Kingsman soccer AU, 3. Desert Sand, 4. Chisolmās 7, and 5. Blue Devils. That last one surprises me, but I guess it was an early one for the fandom, so I think it became an automatic read.
5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not
I do! Itās possible Iāve missed some here and there, but generally I try to get them all.
6. Whatās the fic youāve written with the angstiest ending?
I donāt think any of them! While my fics definitely include angst, ideally itās still in a fun way, or at minimum, bittersweet? I donāt generally want the last taste in a readerās mouth to be angst. ALTHOUGH. I really really wanted to include an epilogue to the selkie fic thatās kind of angsty. Basically the story would end, but then many years later weād see an old man get off a bus on the coastal road, carrying a suitcase. Heād be wearing a suit, clearly back from many years travelling. Heād walk to the coast, back over a hill where thereād once been a little fishing cottage, long since torn down. Heād walk down to the beach and into a little cove where heād kneel by the water he knew better than anyone. Opening the suitcase heād take out a box which heād then empty into the ocean, ashes spreading across the water. Heād take out a folded bundle of cloth and wrap it around his shoulders. Then heād dive into the water, disappearing into the waves, leaving nothing but an empty suitcase behind him, and a folded pile of clothes.
I loved that ending but Iām still not 100% sure if it was keeping in tone with the actual ending, so I left it out. Maybe one day Iāll go and add it as en extra chapter snippet.
7. Do you write crossovers? If so whatās the craziest one youāve written?
I donāt know if Iād call themĀ ācrossoversā exactly, although I did stick Goody and Billy into a Some Like it Hot ājazz band on a trainā situation, and I also did a Breaking Bad one that used some elements of Butch Cassidy and the Sundance Kid. Those feel more likeĀ āAUsā though. I like situational crossovers, but Iāve never been super into fics where characters from different fandoms actually interact.
8. Have you ever received hate on a fic?
Thankfully not. The most off-putting comment Iāve gotten was someone who - despite being very complimentary - decided to make a full-on laundry list all the anachronisms in a chapter lmao, like what.Ā Stuff like "interesting that this character used this expression when XYZ would only been invented 10 years later!ā etc. Iām positive they didnāt realize how it came off, but still, that was kind of hilarious in its.....obliviousness lol. It was special.
9. Do you write smut? If so what kind?
I do. And I guess Iāve done the full spectrum ofĀ āfade to blackā toĀ ādescribe every bead of sweat in pearlescent detailā. It really depends on what the fic calls for! Iāve done some Iām quite proud of tbh, but there are others Iād like to go back and have another stab at, just because they felt kinda cookie-cutter.
10. Have you ever had a fic stolen?
Not that I know of!
11. Have you ever had a fic translated?
Thereāve been a couple! I canāt remember which ones specially, but I had some people asking to translate some Breaking Bad ones, and I think a Mag7 one too. I remember someone messaging to ask permission likeĀ āWe love your fics in Russia!ā and that was a very sweet and wild thing to hear.
12. Have you ever co-written a fic before?
Yes, I wrote one with @yoporkchopsandwiches! Our Victorian opium dens Breaking Bad AU lol. I was just thinking of that recently actually and remembering how fun it was to read what the other wrote! We plotted out most of it together, and then took turns writing chapters or scenes. But of course while writing you come up with other details or ideas, so weād then present the new chapter to the other with all the new bits added. And it was so fun to read what the other came up with likeĀ āomg no way didnāt see that coming/good idea!ā and then picking up their idea from there. In that sense it was almost like improv but for writers.
13. Whatās your all-time favourite ship?
That Iāve written? I think Iāve had the most fun with Goodnight/Billy, partly for the time period, partly for the dynamic, but mostly for the plausibility. While I really enjoyed writing BrBa, it felt more like it came from enthusiasm for the show, not the central ship lol. Donāt get me wrong, the chemistry and its potential was extremely fun to write in a fic setting, but I donāt find I actually shipped it while watching the show itself. Whereas itās been nice with Mag7 to write for a ship thatās actually....more believable lol.Ā
14. Whatās a wip that you want to finish but donāt think you ever will?
Ugh I canāt beLIEVE I have an unfinished fic up on ao3 lol it haunts me. I was sure I was done with Goodnight/Billy, and then early quarantine last year I had a train robbers AU idea, so I posted a couple chapters. But I donāt think my heart was super in it, I was more just messing around with the idea. I donāt want to delete it, but Iām also not super motivated to finish it haha, but weāll see what happens. But tbh I like the poem summary better than the fic itself:P
15. What are your writing strengths?
Plotting, keeping things moving, and making stories feel visual maybe? Theyāre almost all movies in my head anyways, so I think I have good instincts forĀ ācinematic momentsā.
16. What are your writing weaknesses?
I think Iām a little lazy, and alsoĀ āend-product orientedā. In some ways itās helpful to picture the whole fic before you write it, but sometimes it results in some scenes feeling slightly slapdash because Iām just trying to get them out to move onto the next. LikeĀ āeveryone did everything I wanted to in this scene? Great, next.ā I could stand toĀ āstop and smell the rosesā more while I write, and actually see what else I can do to improve a scene.
(also if I use a word once it sticks in my head I end up using it like 5 other times in a scene and donāt notice lol, I need to stop that)
17. What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?
All for it! Depends how itās done though. I personally find long scenes of dialogue where you have to constantly jump down to the authorās notes for the translations to be distracting. I like when itās integrated more naturally where actual translations arenāt super important. Like in River Grit, Billy overhears this little exchange between Goodnight and his childhood nanny:
āAh cāest vrai, mon petit Bonsoir! Jāen peux pas le croire!ā she cried out and laughed as she embraced Goody. Billy realized with a start that he actually recognized one of the words: āBonsoirā. Goodnight. (insert brief flashback of Goody teaching him the nickname) /Ā āMa Serafine,ā Goodnight said with a laugh. āCāest vrai que tu ne vieillis pas. Tu vas me rendre jaloux, heh?ā /Ā Billy had no idea what Goodnight was saying, but he sure as hell recognized Goodnightās tone for flattery, and it was confirmed when the old woman laughed and smacked his arm.
What theyāre actually saying is:Ā āOh itās true, my little Goodnight! I canāt believe it!ā /Ā āMy Serafine, itās true you never age. Youāre going to make me jealousā. But it doesnāt matter because this fic is from Billyās POV so itās about how he experiences the language around him, which is why I wouldnāt have included a translation for the reader. If you understand it then itās a bonus, but the words themselves arenāt really the point!Ā
18. What was the first fandom you wrote for?
That lil Lord of the Rings fic.
19. Whatās your favorite fic youāve written?
Hmm for Mag7 Iāve always liked River Grit and love how it turned out. I also think Ashes feels very complete as a fic and I liked the flashback format. And while itās not my favourite fic, in hindsight Iām impressed with the Kingsman football fic and how I had to write about 5 different soccer games and make them all feel different and exciting, and not just some variation ofĀ āHe kicked the ball!ā Iām really pleased with how those sequences all turned out.
La fin! Not tagging anyone this time, but please feel free to do this if you see it! I love when people just take initiative to do these things without waiting for a tag (also please tag me in it if you do,Ā ācause I love reading these things lol)
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Questions Meme!
Hello, yes, this HAS in fact been sitting in my drafts for ages and ages. Thank you to bothĀ @crazy-fruitĀ and @ruby-red-inky-blue for tagging me and for waiting forever for me to answer (oops)! Iām sorry I took so long, but yāall ask really good questions and I had to think about some of them!
Question Set 1
1. How are you?
Oh, Iām doing alright! Thank you for asking. The earlier part of this year was rather rough, but therapy has been helping. Iāve been rather busy these past few weeks with traveling, and my schedule going forward is rather busy, too, so while Iām excited for those things, Iām also excited for the eventual moment I can just relax.
2. What would you say are your talents?
Writing. Making fancy color-coded spreadsheets. Iāve been told that my super power is getting random (annoying) songs stuck in other peopleās heads. Does that count as a talent?Ā
3. If you had the chance to start your life again, would you take it?
NOPE. No thanks. I like where I am at right now, and I would not want to relive my awkward years. Er, at least, my more awkward, younger years. Cuz Iām totally still awkward. Just less awkward. I hope?
4. Which language would you like to speak instantly?Ā
HMM. ALL OF THEM. Itās really hard to choose!Ā
Language fascinates me, and in another life I feel like I would have devoted a lot more time to learning more of them. Unfortunately, I really hated German class in high school because of the teacherās tendency to put people on the spot -- I think that is sort of inherent in a language class, but I get anxiety speaking in public.Ā
Anyways, I suppose Iāll answer Turkish to this question, since spouse and I keep saying weāre going to try to learn Turkish via Duolingo. For the record, my HS offered six languages, which was the most Iāve ever heard of an American school offering, and I was always quite happy with my choice of German. (The others were Spanish, French, Italian, Chinese, and Latin.) I do wish I had maintained my German better, and I that I had more time to learn Spanish.Ā
5. Where would you like to be right now?
Honestly? Iām pretty happy when Iām at home. But if I had to answer where āelseā would I like to be right now, out of the whole world? Being back on safari in Botswana is a top contender, as are a variety of places in Turkey, and also Munich.Ā
6. What name would you give yourself?
Iāve always liked my actual name (Elizabeth). I know I go by Liz; one of my HS friends was quite stubborn and Iām a bit stuck with it now, but I donāt mind it. There are worse nicknames that come from Elizabeth.Ā I used to go by Fiona online; Iāve always been fond of that one.Ā
7. What is something youāre currently learning?
OOF, what a good question. I sorta blanked on this at first, and my first thought was uhhhh learning how to cope with my OCD??? Iām doing exposure therapy right now, ish. Emphasis on the ish. Also mindfulness. Does that really even count? I started a beginnerās knitting project several months ago that I never finished, does that count? (I just need to seam it, thatās what Iām putting off. I have knit plenty of scarves; however, this is my first hat.) Iām sort of teaching myself ukulele although I havenāt really learned any new chords or songs in awhile. I would very much likeĀ to take more photography classes with a focus on wildlife photography. That involves buying a new camera and... signing up for classes.Ā
Question Set 2
1. What is a detail in a piece of art/a text that you like that you really admire?
This was very difficult, at first because it was like looking at a bin full of loose things and just seeing an assortment of color and being overwhelmed by it all, and then because once I did start digging around, I kept finding different ideas and it was too hard too choose.
Character-building: In theĀ A Song of Ice and FireĀ series, when Arya starts working for the House of Black and White, Martin stops using theĀ nameĀ āAryaā as she dons different identities. For example, he usesĀ āCatā for a bit, among other names. It shows sheās trying to be someone else, but the caveat is that there are still little mannerisms and such that show she hasnāt really left Arya behind (I think maybe she bites her lip or something? I donāt remember specific examples because itās been over 5 years since I read these books, but I do remember really appreciating the general technique at the time).Ā
Music: In The BeatlesāĀ āI Want You (Sheās So Heavy)ā I love those repeated arpeggios, over and over, building, intensifying, as the white noise comes in and you can just feel the heaviness of desire, of want...Ā (and then I love how it just breaks so suddenly! And I know it wouldnāt have been intended this way because thatās the end of side one, but since I listen to the whole album on spotify, then those bright chords of āHere Comes the Sunā come in and god Abbey Road is the best Beatles album)
Writing: the poetry of Florence + The MachineāsĀ āAll This and Heaven Too,ā obviously, since literally the title of my blog comes from that. Iād quote that whole song honestly. Thereās something that speaks to me about the incapability of language to fully encompass just... everything. I mean, love in specific here, but also just everything. Words are just these little boats we put meaning on and we hope they make it to the other side but everyone takes āem a little differently.Ā
Like, look at this:Ā
And the words are all escaping, and coming back all damaged And I would put them back in poetry if I only knew howĀ
And this:Ā
Words were never so useful So I was screaming out a language that I never knew existed before
Anyways, thereās also something just incredibly soothing about the music, too, and how she sings the song. Thereās another line, from Sara BareillesāĀ āMiss Simoneā that goesĀ āHow does she know what a heart sounds like?ā which pretty much sums up how I feel aboutĀ āAll This and Heaven Tooā (and also many of Sara Bareillesā song, especially that particular album, but I digress).
Anyways I did have some art examples, but I think Iāve rambled long enough.
2. Is there an idea that you really liked but had to discard because you couldnāt get it to work?
If I really like an idea, I donāt reallyĀ ādiscardā it so much as put it on the shelf to attempt later. Out of recent fic ideas, Iāve really struggled withĀ āHow to Lose a Spy in 10 Days.ā I first thought of this in late spring 2017, and for awhile I couldnāt stop thinking about it, but I was working on Whatever I Do at the time, and wanted to wait before starting another WIP. By the time I got to writing this, the inspiration well had sort of dried up.Ā
I really like the idea of a fun cat-and-mouse rom-com idea where Jyn and Cassian keep outsmarting each other, with a whole lot of competency kink, someĀ āoh shit we actually work well together!ā and maybe some battle couple. And I was really looking forward to both the moment when they both finally let their guards down around each other and the big confrontation when they actually find out each otherās identities. But it involved more mission writing than I was prepared for, and I really struggled with it. I think I need to start over but that involves a lot of working, so itās unfortunately shelved for now, and Iām working on aĀ āYouāve Got Mailā concept instead.
3. Is there something fandom-related you would like to be able to do (i.e. Iād like to be able to make gif sets but canāt)?
Oh, yes, absolutely! Really anything thatās not writing related, lol. Gif sets, art, etc. But most of all, I have a music video idea for the songĀ āSo Closeā from Enchanted--like I have a whole story board plotted out in a google doc. But I donāt have any video editing software, donāt even know how you get the scenes for a music video, etc. I have made videos before, but not since high school, and I donāt even have the cheap, basic video editing program I used back then. Sometimes I think I should just attempt make a gif set instead, but there are so many lyrics! and scenes that go with the lyrics! that I donāt know how to consolidate it into that format anyways.Ā
4. What is a skill youāve acquired through fandom work?
Hmm, this was tough. Iām going to say HTML. Iām not up-to-date on webdesign at all, but back in my early fandom days, I ran a few fansites. I still sometimes use HTML while leaving comments or to edit posts on dreamwidth or w/e. Itās super basic, but it has helped me at work at a variety of jobs. I take it for granted that people my age should know basic HTML, but a lot of them donāt, and then a lot of people I work with now are older and definitely not tech savvy.Ā
5. Do you think anyone can learn to create great art, or does it take talent?
Well, Iām going to cheat a little. I do think think that anyone can learn to create great art, but I also think that everyone has a talent at something, and part of learning to create great art is recognizing your skill sets and honing those. If that makes sense? Iāve sort of seen both sides to this. Iāve seen naturally talented people create great things, but I also think that theyāre probably cheating themselves if theyāre not learning and honing their craft and trying to get better. But Iāve also seen people who started out making things that maybe you wouldnāt call great, but they worked hard over and over again, and looking at their work now, youād say they were talented without ever knowing the difference. Great art = talent + learning + passion. Did that even answer the question? ...moving on
6. Do you prefer AUs or in-universe? Why?
I prefer to write in-universe, for sure. I find modern AUs more challenging, mostly because--and I feel kinda bad saying this--itās very difficult for me to tap into Jyn and Cassianās characters without some kind of tragic background. Their experiences and how they coped with them shape their personalities, and itās really hard to separate them from those. My WWII was easier because, hey, itās war, not so different from in-verse. But I initially tried to write Learning Curve in a modern AU and I was just totally bored. Putting it in universe made it more interesting to me, especially having to finagle a happier plot inverse. IDK, it might even be that I generally struggle to make up any conflict in modern AUs that feels interesting.
THAT SAID, lol, I definitely read either. So itās probably strange for me to be hung up on it because Iāve read nice fluffy modern AUs and found them perfectly engaging.
Tagging:Ā @theputterer, @magalis, @allatariel, @mythologicalmango, @threadsketchierĀ MY USUAL DISCLAIMER APPLIES: no pressure if you just donāt wanna, AND if anyone sees this and was likeĀ āaw hey i wish sheād tagged MEā well guess what, I wish I did too! so go ahead and do it and let me know and then iāll know to tag you next time, too :-)Ā
Questions:
When you suffer a setback or a series of setbacks when creating (writing, drawing, knitting, any kind of crafty project thing you work on... even work), what are some strategies you use to cope with that stress and move forward?
Whatās the hardest thing youāve ever had to create/make and what did you learn from it?
What part of a bicycle would you be?
Whatās a helpful writing (art/crafting/work) technique youāve learned?
Whatās a piece of art that made you see things differently?
Youāre a new addition to the crayon box. What color would you be and why?
What was the last board game you played and what did you like or not like about it?
*sorry these came out rather writer heavy!
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8+2 writing questions meme
@vardasvapors tagged me and I used doing this as a reward for dealing with airport security....
1. What are your current writing goals? Ohhh boy, okay, letās see, Iāve got to get Å ehhinah book 3 fully edited by March 9th, when Iām planning on publishing it ā¦ finishing drafting Evocation 3&4 ā¦ editing Evocation 2 ā¦ then editing the other Evocation books, obviously, once theyāre drafted ā¦ outlining the series that takes place after Evocation ā¦ I think thatās as far as I have planned. Ā That should get me through some of the year! Ā Although letās be real I probably havenāt even done cursory outlining of whatever Iāll be writing in November or whatever yet.
2. When did you first discover your love of writing? HAHAHAHAHA when DIDNāT I discover it.
Uhh ok no really ā¦ I learned how to read like really early and was always super into books. Ā āBook! Ā Book!ā I apparently demanded of my mom like, all the time. Ā My physical ability to hold a pencil took longer to be a thing than my ability to read, and certainly longer than my ability to storytell, but thereās a whole collection of little stories I dictated to my mom as she wrote them down when I was three or four or so. Ā These include memorable lines such as āYes, dear, a fire hydrant is very importantā and āBuzzing! He couldnāt believe his eyes!ā and āAnd then they drank all day and died. Ā This was a long time ago, when people used to do that sort of thing.ā Ā There was also the story that ended in Pooh Bear and Piglet dying ā¦ and the one where Thomas the Tank Engine ātook his medicineā and ādidnāt do any bad things anymoreā ā¦
Not too long after those, there started being little things Iād write myself with pencil and paper. Ā For whatever reason the first that comes to mind is this song about winter (meant to be sung by Pooh Bear, obviously) which I think I wrote when I was six, that went āItās snowing / itās mowing / but I donāt mind // Iāve got furry furry fur to keep me warm and snuggly / because itās winter!ā Ā Gods, uh, I even still remember the tune for that actually. Ā Then again, I think I remember all the tunes of the bad songs I wrote as a kid.
Also by the way I still have basically all of this stuff. Ā I have like, a barely-even-started attempt at uh, a nonfiction book, bound by staples, about volcanoes ā¦ THE FREAKING FAIRY SLAVE STORY, involving a fairy enslaved by an evil witch at the age of six ā¦
This kept ramping up in complexity until I was nine and decided that a good way to spend a three-week road trip would be to write an entire movie script. Ā Which I did; it was about sixty pages long once later typed up by my mom (these were the waning days before I really learned how to type), which by typical page-to-minute conversions for scripts, means it would have been about an hour long as a movie. Ā I did try to film it, and got partway through, but oh my Gods, that is a story for another time and this is already an essay and Iām only on the second question.
Keep in mind that on that same road trip I also attempted to start drawing several mangaāmost not making it past the third pageāand did some Tokyo Mew Mew fanfic, and a number of other things besides ā¦
Uhh anyway this brings us to March 9th, 2006, which is the ācreated onā date of my very first writing document on my computer! Ā It was four paragraphs long and terrible and I was a bit of a weeb, so the main characterās name was Subeteno Kakusei ā¦ there was this whole thing where like, sheād fight for Life in the daylight but switch personalities and fight for Death in the nighttime, but I got stuck and stopped writing when she asked, āand why is life bad?ā and I couldnāt come up with the answer. Ā Uh. Ā Also this story itself was already a revamp of another story written on paper which had started out as a riff on Pokemonā¦
3. What motivates you to keep writing? UH WANTING TO REMAIN BREATHING, lmao.
No seriously though, thatās actually something Iāve said to people: āoh, yeah, I have to write every day, OR I WILL DIE.ā And I mean??? I probably would?? Wtf is a not writing every day? Ā I mean, okay, yeah, I only started the daily thing at the beginning of 2016, but stillā¦
Seriously though, writing makes me feel like myself, itās kind of what I amā¦
4. How important is worldbuilding for your writing? VERY??? EXTREMELY??? A WHOLE BUNCH???? I absolutely 100% have to get the cosmology of a setting down before I can write in it. Ā Itās the most essential thing in my entire process and also the hardest. Ā That essential-ness is why I write secondary world stuffāI want to decide the cosmology Gods heck it!! Ā I get to display something, a possibility of something, that is good, where the world works in a way that feels right, where the very formation of how the world works including its magic system is supportive of peopleās happiness.
The whole cosmology process requires heavy amounts of thinking and analyzing and even heavier amounts of believing in myself though, and I feel utterly exhausted after it every time.
For all the other parts of worldbuilding, I do better if I have it down ahead of time rather than expect myself to come up with stuff while draftingābecause, lol, I wonāt, Iāll make up a cool landscape if I give myself a minute to do it in outlining or worldbuilding but if I donāt have one when drafting, I will somehow just completely fail to come up with anything interesting at all. Ā But also, I like drafting way more than any other part of the writing process, so generally speaking I donāt worldbuild quite as much as I could or maybe should!
5. Pen on paper versus typing? Typing typing typing oh my Gods.
6. Favorite Author? OKAY UH ā¦ the obvious answer here is N.K Jemisin bc her most recent trilogy is perfect, and she has great subject matter AND a gorgeous writing style thatās just amazing, and, and. Ā But. Ā I donāt usually like to say someoneās my favorite unless Iām certain that the stuff theyāre doing next is also going to be something I like, so I might defer Official Favorite Status to such a time as her next book is published!
In that case, the backup favorite would be Brandon Sandersonā¦
7. Something you do to get the creative juices flowing to write? Coffee.
But more seriously ā¦ to get the creativity flowing to write, I write. Ā Itās a habit. Ā There is no muse. Ā Thereās no use in waiting for inspiration to strike. Ā You have to make it happen anyway. Ā You have to just keep going and believe, and believe.
(More generalizing than I would normally say, but I highkey feel this oneā¦)
8. Do you write better at night, or first thing in the morning? Morning! This past month is the first period of time for two years where Iāve not felt like Iām dying if writing isnāt the first thing I do in the morning ā¦ if only because I trust Iāll end up doing it for three hours in the afternoon anyway. Ā I can pretty much write any time of day now but Iām most attuned to doing it in the morning. Ā With coffeeā¦
9. How do you take your coffee/tea? Cappuccinos are very important to my lifestyle. Ā BY CAPPUCCINO, I specifically mean equal parts espresso, steamed milk, and foamābut the foam is mixed into the milk, it isnāt just spooned on top, so basically itās foamy milk. Ā The drink should be approximately 8oz. Ā It includes two shots of espresso. Ā The most preferred types of espresso tend to be Ethiopian, but anything with a bright flavor is great (which still is very most often African beans, with Ethiopian almost always as the best!).
ā¦So, ok, maybe Iām a little particularā¦
10. If you could only live with one season for the rest of your life, what would it be? Iād say summer except that in many ways nighttime is more important to me than the day and also I lived in Hawaii for the better part of 4 years and the constant heat was too much for me. Ā So uh. Ā Uhhh.
I do need a lot of sunlight though, and even more than that clear skies! Ā I need starlight! Ā And moonlight! Ā So any season where I can get those things, and where the temperatureās not too hot but not like horribly cold either. Ā (Of late, my cold tolerance has outpaced my heat tolerance, but it too has limits.)
Tagging @lcmawson, predictably.
#yeah ok I have two friends and one tagged me and I'm tagging the other#BUT A VERY GOOD TWO FRIENDS.#COULDN'T HAVE CHOSEN BETTER MYSELF ETC.#writing stuff#yeah that might have been more than u wanted to read but!!! JUST DEAL W IT!!!
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[ even numbers for the weird asks, pleaseeee ]
me: has to google what are even numbers lol
2. chocolate bars or lollipops? lollipops, cuz after that i can munch on the lil lollipop stick too which keeps me busy lol
4. how did your elementary school teachers describe you? i know it totally doesnāt look like that but i used to be the classā smart kid who participated in all kind of competitons and shit like that, was in the school choir, went to music school... so yeah, i was pretty much your average nerd, but then i grew up stewpid haha
6. pastel, boho, tomboy, preppy, goth, grunge, formal or sportswear? a weird mix of tomboy and grunge, depending on the day and actual mood, weather and whatever the hell i got clean lol
8. movies or tv shows? movies - i usually lose interest in every series after like... 2-3 episodes? i only finished like 3-4 deries in my whole life so i guess the number speaks for itself
10. game you were best at in p.e.? i used to be pretty good at volleyball back then, though i was always considered too short to be on the school team hahaĀ
12. name of your favorite playlist? am 4:44 with a little moon emoji, made by yours truly (aka me)
14. favorite non-chocolate candy? i donāt really eat sweets... but when i do i go for sour jellies but idk if that counts as candy haha
16. most comfortable position to sit in? have you ever saw one of thoseĀ ābisexuals canāt sit normallyā memes? pretty much all of those, i always sit in random poses until my back gives in, i donāt have a favorite position tho
18. ideal weather? the summer nightās warm weather with a little breeze, maybe with some clouds... but i usually enjoy rains and thunderstorms too unless i have to go out because then iām like bruh
20. preferred place to write (i.e., in a note book, on your laptop, sketchpad, post-it notes, etc.)? depends on what i have to write - for school notes i usually use a notebook and/or my laptop; for stories - my laptop or my phoneās notes if the inspiration gets me outside; everything else iāll just write on random scraps of paper or in random notebooks just to never find them again haha
22. role model? i donāt really.... have one? i rather have a motto to live by but i donāt really look up to anyone tbh
24. favorite crystal? donāt have one, i dunno shit about crystals lol
26. favorite activity to do in warm weather? go out for a nice walk or some drink with my friends, walk my cat outside or just chill on my balcony with a boo while terrorizing my neighbors with a randomly chosen edm playlist
28. five songs to describe you? human by sevdaliza badmind by kuzi scar by foxes throat full of glass by combichrist 5:3666 by machine gun kelly
30. places that you find sacred? uhhh..... i canāt really think of any that would fit here? but i never really step in weird plant formations in forests and shit like that, cuz better be safe than sorry
32. top five favorite vines? i literally only have one favorite vine and itās the two guys chillin in a hot tub, thats it
34. advertisements you have stuck in your head? every seasonal whiskas one because of the baby cats.... but other than that i havenāt seen an ad in ages, i donāt have tv and use adblock on pc haha
36. what is the first meme you remember ever seeing? i...c anāt remember, it was probably one of the rage comics or trollface comics? canāt really recall tbh it was ages ago
38. lemonade or tea? lemonade, with lots of ice cubes and mint, give it to me pls
40. weirdest thing to ever happen at your school? well in elementary some guy from the older classes took a sh*t then went to one of the classrooms to wipe his ass with the curtains there lol also some other time someone pissed out of the window on the first floorĀ in high school someone gassed the whole school with pepper spray, but like an insane amount, and everyone went immediately panic mode, police and firemen were called, the whole school evacuated..... and the one responsible for that had to pay like an insane amount of money for the police/fire dept. action haha
42. jacket pockets or pants pockets? pants pockets, i donāt trust jacket pockets cuz they usually dont have a lil zipper to close them up and iād totally lose my phone if i put it there, im stewpid like that
44. favorite scent for soap? orange-vanilla or some other citrus-y scent
46. most comfortable outfit to sleep in? anything oversized will do with some pants/underwear
48. if you were a fruit, what kind would you be? probably a grapefruit, fucking bitter about everything lmao
50. what made you laugh the hardest you ever have? once i laughed at a plastic bag being dragged around by the wind for like 10 minutes while being fucked up drunk... does that count?
52. favorite font? hands down times new roman
54. what did you learn from your first job? that the customer isnāt always right and that apparently i had a knack for putting down tiles
56. favorite tradition? does halloween count? i love halloween
58. four talents youāre proud of having? iām a really good driver.... and i think thatās it? i really canāt come up with anything else... does being loud and obnoxious sometimes count? and i think iām good enough with people too... and i think iām a good listener? idk, iām pretty useless tbh
60. if you were a character in an anime, what kind of anime would you want it to be? give me the good old horror and make me the obnoxious side character who rarely ever speaks cuz no one ever asks them anything, that would pretty much resemble my actual life
62. seven characters you relate to? bojack horseman, sal paradise, loki from mcu, wednesday addams, oba yozo from no longer human, richie tozier, holden caulfield
64. favorite website from your childhood? club penguin! i wasted sooooo much time on there, sheesh....
66. favorite flower(s)? i really like succulents and ferns! and cactuses... or anything thatās low maintenance tbh
68. worst flavor of any food or drink youāve ever tried? licorice... and also cucumber lemonade, gross
70. left or right handed? right
72. worst subject? iām really bad with history and physics, iām just way too dumb for those
74. at what pain level out of ten (1 through 10) do you have to be at before you take an advil or ibuprofen? around 9-10, iām pretty much used to all my chronic pains and tbh i donāt like taking pain meds cuz i always have to take double because once i was misdiagnosed and spent almost a year on painkillers so barely anything works for me now... thanks public healthcare
76. whatās your favorite potato food (i.e. tater tots, baked potatoes, fries, chips, etc.)? fries... iād love some now, iām actually hungryĀ
78. coffee from a gas station or sushi from a grocery store? coffee from gas station, now pretty much all of them have decent coffee machines and the prices are okay too and i definitely trust them more than any boxed sushi ever
80. earth tones or jewel tones? jewel
82. pc or console? i grew up as a pc kid and tbh never had the money for a console so i just got stuck with it haha
84. podcasts or talk radio? if i necessarily have to choose then podcasts
86. cookies or cupcakes? both as long as its witch choccie
88. your greatest wish? letās be realistic - iād like to have my own place and little car and cats and iād be all good
90. luckiest mistake? drunk kissing this one guy from my esports team after telling him i was a lesbian and he told me he had a girlfriend, it was stewpid tho, lets not get back to it
92. lamps, overhead lights, sunlight or fairy lights? sunlight and fairy lights, the latter necessarily in blue, itās just neat and doesnāt bring in all the mosquitos at summer when i leave the window open
94. favorite season? spring
96. desktop background? some assassinās creed logo fanart iāve found on alphacoders
98. favorite historical era? i.... really...... hate....... history...... blame it on my middle school teacher who made me hate it lol
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Finnās Rules & Verses:
I got a request from someone who canāt see my pages while on mobile, so for anyone else having trouble here they are! Note that while I donāt change my rules much (or basically ever lol) the VERSES information here is definitely not going to be up-to-date because I am forever making new aus...but hereās a start, at least, to give you something to explore until you get back to your computers!
Mun is named Nicky and is well over 21. Museās age will vary. Multi-ship and multi-verse.
RULES:
Following and Mututals:
This is a sideblog of nickyrp and as such cannot follow back.
We do not need to be mutuals to send memes or starters. Feel free to throw things like that at me at any time even if weāve never played or plotted before. If Iām not interested or just too busy etc I promise I will let you know politely and not just leave you hanging!
If you want to play please send me a message or toss me a starter; Iām bad at paying attention to my follower count and probably didnāt notice your subtle arrival! Or thought you wanted to lurk idk. Say hi!
If you are a multimuse with a lot of characters or a lot of fandoms all on one url, I may not follow you because that tends to be overwhelming for me. Itās nothing personal nor a comment on your writing style; itās just more than I can easily keep track of, myself. (Thatās why mine are all on their own sideblogs.)
If I canāt read your blog (small text, low-contrast colors, etc) I will not interact with your character. I donāt have the best eyes and straining to read sucks all the fun out of rp. If you need any of my formatting or color choices adjusted for your own ease of accessibility please let me know! I will do so happily.
You can reblog any of my shit (headcanons, graphics, verses, meta, whatever) even if youāre a personal blog, I donāt care; itās all one fandom imo. That said please donāt reblog my interaction threads with other people because most rp-ers do not like their things reblogged and I want to respect that. If I reblog anything of yours you do not want reblogged just let me know and I will delete it; I promise itās just because I thought the thing was cool and got excited!
Interactions:
I am always up for trying new things so if you have a crazy idea, please hit me up! I promise I rarely disintegrate anyone.
I am happily open to interacting with Original Characters! I need to know who your character is though, so if you donāt have a bio or background I can find on your blog Iām not going to be interested.
I will not write smut with anyone under the age of eighteen.
If I ever do something that upsets or confuses or offends you, please let me know. It probably wasnāt intentional and I always want to be called out on problematic behavior because how else can I learn to do better? I promise to react apologetically, not defensively.
Formatting:
Iām a visual person so I like icons and gifs and will almost always incorporate them. If you donāt want to use images thatās cool with me, but I majored in comic book art so I enjoy the marriage of words with images. I should further admit that interactions with visuals do tend to keep me more excited than plain ones ā Iām shallow!
Iām not a big fan of fancy formatting. I donāt mind if you use it but I donāt. Feel free to adjust my formatting to suit your aesthetic if that makes you more comfortable, but Iāll likely keep mine simple.
If you need any triggers tagged message me and Iāll do so gladly.
I am extremely uncomfortable with reylo due to the fact that I interpreted Rey as being analogous to Jaina Solo within the opening minutes of TFA. If you play either Kylo Ren or Rey and enjoy that ship, I ask that you not reference it in any interactions with my Finn, and furthermore that you tag it so that I can blacklist. Thank you!
Canon & AUs:
I have as of yet read very little of the expanded universe materials for the New Canon (a few comics, the Thrawn novel, etc). As such, my portrayal of Finn may at times beĀ lacking in regards to supplemental canon information. Please never hesitate to inform me of any details relevant to your character or any ongoing/burgeoning threads. I appreciate that assistance!
As far as the Legends EU goes, I have read most of the old novels (excepting NJO period) and many of the Dark Horse comics but that is a lot of material and I do not promise to remember everything. Please let me know if I make a mistake or assumption you do not agree with; I promise I will not be offended!
I will generally default to putting Finn into the canon of the Sequel Trilogy because that is where he comes from, but I am happy to play him in Legends Canon too ā just let me know! If you donāt indicate verse/time on a meme or starter, I might pick another verse (or make a new one) so please indicate where you want to play if you have a preference!
I also love making AUs whether canon-divergence or totally off-the-wall so please donāt hesitate to throw new verses my way! I love both plotting and winging-it when building new worlds, so donāt be shy!
Characters Relationships & Shipping:
Platonic Ships: For my interpretation of Finn, friendship takes precedence as the most important thing in his life right now. He never had a chance for much of that in his life before leaving the First Order, and heās still getting used to the idea of caring about people and being loved in return. So please, bring me all the platonic ships ā pals, mentors, comrades, buddies, frenemies ā you can think of!
OTPs: My favorite ship would be Finn/Rey/Poe and I would be thrilled to play out some polyshipping. I also like the idea ofĀ Finn/PoeĀ and Finn/ReyĀ on their own, and while I donāt think TLJ gave us enough to build aĀ Finn/Rose ship from I would be thrilled to explore that option properly in rp as well. Likewise Finn/Jannah although to be frank I like the idea of Ex-Stormtrooper BFFS even more than Ex-Stormtrooper Lovers, but really anythingās good there! Honestly provided that there isĀ chemistry and a basis in friendship to build the ship from (whether that be formed via interaction or plotted ahead of time), Iām probably down. Interspecies ships with non-human characters are also welcome!
NOTPs: No teacher/student, adult/minor, or incestuous ships, please. Given Finnās history, I am very unlikely to ship him with any First Order muses in anything outside a massively different AU but Iām not listing them as strict notps because letās face it: I love AUs.
One-Way Ships: I will never force a ship on you. I expect the same courtesy in return. That said, you are more than welcome to have your character express unrequited romantic feelings toward mine. If it ends up crossing the edges of my comfort zone Iāll let you know!
Main Faceclaim: John Boyega
VERSES:
While I will readily play in canon verses, I am also a big fan of AUs and canon-divergent verses. If you donāt see something here that looks like your cup of caf know that I am always happy to plot out a new one! (Note that while I will always write Finn as being Force Sensitive, he will not always know he is and thus his connection with the Force will vary from verse to verse. Any questions, ask!)
SEQUEL TRILOGY VERSES:
Pulled the Trigger (alt-TFA): FN-2187 did not enjoy the battle ā the slaughter ā on Jakku, but he did what he was trained for. It didnāt matter that it made him sick. He obediently returned to Jakku to search for a droid and found more than heād bargained for: a girl who thrashed half his unit with nothing but a stick. 2187 eventually got the drop on her but Kylo Renās impatience sent an airstrike, and in the ensuing chaos 2187 had no option but to pretend the reason he hadnāt shot Rey was because he was a Resistance sympathizer. They fled together and returned to the Finalizer to rescue the droidās master. 2187 figured he would tag along and turn them in as soon as he got a chanceā¦but they succeeded in their mission, and the longer he spent with the Resistance, the more he began to think he didnāt want to leave. Too bad heās already reported their destination to the First Orderā¦
The Newest Hope (alt-TFA): Finnick Peckhum has always been able to hear the voice of the Force. For years, he tried to ignore it ā but eventually the call was too loud. Finn followed it Ahch-To, to Luke Skywalker. The self-exiled Jedi Master was reluctant to train a new student after Kylo Ren, but even he could not deny the will of the Force itself and gave-in, teaching Finn the Jedi arts ā but another call summoned him back. The young Jedi Knight arrived on Jakku just in time to help a scavenger escape a First Order patrol. Finn heard the Force in Rey too, and knew he had to train her in the ways of the Force ā and to find the Resistance led by Lukeās sister, Leia. With a Jedi Knight and his Padawan on their side, the Resistance finally stands a real chance. Together he and Rey will take the fight to Kylo Ren, intending to right the balance he upset with his turn to the Darkā¦one way or the other.
Another Kriffing Farmboy (alt-TFA): growing-up with a loving, hard-working family on a planet so far from galactic civilization it might as well not even be on the charts, Finn Peckhum never gave much thought to politics ā until the First Order bombed Ennth and destroyed everything he ever loved. Frightened of their overwhelming might, Finn gave no thought to revenge until yet another low-paying freighter job took him to Jakku where he crossed paths with a droid and a scavenger desperate for a ride off-world. Agreeing to smuggle them in the ship he worked on in exchange for a hefty reward seemed like a chance to safely tweak the First Orderās nose until they blew up that ship, too, leaving Finn and his new allies to flee in the first wreck they could get their hands on. As things got more and more dangerous, Finn kept meaning to leave ā but somehow, he never got around to it, and the next thing he knew General Organa was handing him a blaster and welcoming him to the fightā¦
There Is Another (alt post-TFA): while the lightsaber never called to him the way it did Rey, something helped him retain his humanity through the First Orderās brainwashing; something helped him hold his own against Kylo Ren with a weapon he barely understoodā¦and that something was the Force. While Rey was off seeking Master Skywalker, General Organa helped tutor Finn in his own Force skills while his body knitted itself back together under the tender ministrations of Resistance medtechs. He might never be able to able to best a true master of the Force, not without more thorough training anyway, but Kylo Ren was no Darth Vader. And with the new lightsaber heās just completed, Finn canāt wait for a rematch with the monster who almost severed his spine and broke his teacherās heartā¦
Trusted Leadership (alt-TLJ): most of the Resistanceās leadership was lost in the explosion that wounded General Organa, but General Antilles had always been a cockpit warrior himself and hadnāt been anywhere near the shipās bridge. When Poe took the plan he, Finn, and Rose had concocted to him, Wedge was happy to put his own resources behind the scheme and with a reliable slicer in tow, they infiltrated the Supremacy and shut down the tracking program, allowing the Resistance to escape. Holdo was furious with Antilles but he had the rank to whether her temper, and thanks to the timely arrival of Rey and Chewbacca in the Millennium Falcon, the infiltration crew made it back to the fleet only a little the worse for wear. The Resistance went to ground to lick its wounds and plan its next strike against the First Order, and Finn was officially inducted into the fight by a recovered Organa.
The First Pebble (alt post-TLJ): no one ever gave much thought to stormtroopers as people, not the First Order or the Resistance either. They were just there, anonymous and disposable shock troopersā¦but they werenāt. And Finn proved that both to the galaxy and to his former comrades. Within the stormtrooper ranks, his choice started a revolution. When word got around that he had even bested the mighty Phasma, not once but twice, wellā¦it made all but the most strident diehards take notice. Now Finn wasnāt just some ordinary defector; he was a rallying cry. The first time a stormtrooper unit got in touch with a request for help defecting, Finn thought it was a fluke ā but Poe Dameron knew better. He knew this was the start of an avalanche that might bring the First Order down from the insideā¦if Finn is brave enough to make himself the face of this new revolution.
Matched Lightsabers (alt TROS): in the wake of the Resistanceās near-obliteration on Crait, the survivors have to work harder than ever ā which in Finnās case means more than just running missions and pitching revolt to stormtroopers. It means training with Rey and Leia in the use of the Force. He was an uncertain, reluctant apprentice ā but Leia was adamant that he learn, and Finn could no more say no to the General than to the Force itself. Confidence was his biggest hurdle. What business did a former stormtrooper have learning to master the Jedi arts? It wasnāt until he and Rey walked onto Exogol that Finn finally admitted to himself that he was a Jedi ā a declaration that nearly killed him. Together, they managed to defeat the half-resurrected Palpatine and restore peace to the galaxy. Now Finn faces his biggest challenge: how to teach as well as learn.
The Next Jedi (post TROS): Finn never expected to become the first apprentice of the New Jedi Order ā never really wanted it, if heās honest. But the Force had been whispering in his ear for years and eventually, that whisper became a shout he could not ignore. Even with the First Order crushed to ash and dust, there is plenty to be done patching the galaxy back into shape and building a new government to keep people both safe and free; plenty of things for Finn to focus on instead of his training, working with Poe and Rose and Kaydel and Chewbaccaā¦but Rey is stubborn, and so is the Force. Even if it scares him as much as it entices him, Finn is going to have to learnā¦and alongside his friend and teacher, someday construct a lightsaber of hisĀ own.
Stormtrooper Advocate (post TROS): Finn knows that Rey wants him to focus on his Jedi training while Poe and Rose want his help with their diplomatic efforts ā but Finn knows who really needs him now: all the lost stormtroopers recruits who need to dig their way out of the First Orderās brainwashing and learn to be people. Itās a lot of trauma to recover from; a lot of indoctrination to unlearn. Alongside Jannah and her crew of defectors, Finn is spearheading the reclamation effort. Whether that means designing programs for prisoners, negotiating cease-fires with stranded units, taking whole bases down with stun-blasts for forceful deprogramming, or just giving broken kids someone toĀ talk to, Finn wonāt give up on these people. They'reĀ his people and itās his responsibility to save them. If he doesnāt, who else is going to care?
Running All His Life (alt post-TROS): as long as Finn could remember, heās been running away from somethingā¦but it wasnāt until facing Kylo Ren in battle that he realized that something was the Force ā and that realizationĀ terrified him. Watching Rey struggle to master Leiaās teachings and learning more about how Ben Solo had become the monster in his nightmares only cemented that fear, and Finn did everything he could to deny what heād long known was true: he could feel the Force, too. He knew he was being a coward, letting Rey face that burden alone; lashed-out at Poe for keeping secrets about his past out of guilt for his own silenceā¦but he couldnāt, darenāt, admit the truth to anyone. When Rey tried to tell him she could sense the Force in him, he denied it; when she started searching for Force Sensitives to train, he threw himself into his work rebuilding a galactic government alongside Poe, Rose, and Jannah instead. But every day the voice of the Force in his head is getting louder; how long can he keep running?
A Knight Of Ren (alt Trilogy): the First Order tests all their stolen ārecruitsā for Force potential, and they found it in the one designated FN-2187. Trained alongside the next generation of the Knights of Ren ā mostly taken from the First Orderās youthful conscripts, some gathered along the way ā to wield the Dark Side and serve Snoke and Kylo Ren, Finn was loyal and devotedā¦and troubled. While he was a strong Force user, he could never fully commit to the power of the Dark Side; never completely embrace it. Knowing that his doubts made him weak, he did his best to push them awayā¦but then he met the girl from Jakku, and his whole world went sideways.
LEGENDS EU VERSES:
Rebel Defector: just because snubfighter jockeys and ranking officers made the splashiest exits when they left Imperial service didnāt mean they were the only ones. For stormtrooper conscript FN-2187, the Empire was the only option ā until stunts like theĀ Rand EclipticĀ and monstrosities like Alderaan changed his mind. Getting away from the Empire alive wasnāt easy, but when Finn was assigned guard duty for a Rebel prisoner he knew his chance had come. Talking half his unit into coming with him and dosing the other half in stun blasts, he marched the prisoner onto aĀ Lambda-shuttle for transfer to the Lusankyaā¦and then the rebellious stormtroopers overpowered the Imperial pilots, opened the Rebelās binders, and jumped to freedom. Adjusting to service in the Rebellionās infantry was difficult, but not as difficult as carrying-out Imperial orders. And maybe someday, heāll make up for what he did for the Empire and can go on to have a normal life at last. (for Rebellion and New Republic-era interactions)
More Coming Soon! like literally as soon as soon as someone asks for or suggests one, I love AUs. Donāt be shy!
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ā£ Have you ever rp'd with someone you knew for a fact was abusive but tried to give them a chance/to make up your own opinion on the roleplayer? Did they change or did you understand what people were talking about?
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Warning: This will get long and I will be very mad as I recount this story. Sorry for me getting really riled up about it, but ughhhhhhhhh I just can't. I have to tell the full story to really get the point across.
OKAY SO LET ME TELL YOU ABOUT A PERSON. This person literallybecame the bane of my existence even though I didn't actually interact withthem in the truest sense.
Even though I wish for nothing more than for them to trip over arock and land on a pointy rock, I am still a bit grateful towards them. I'llget on that a lil later down the line.
Let's start with how I know them. As we may probably know, I'vestarted Tumblr rp'ing as an indie, with Haru Miura as my muse. A lot of theissuesĀ I have with tumblr rp'ing came about on her blog mainly. Ahahahathere were some hard times, but I stuck with it. I love Haru too much to justditch her, in other words. I'm a stubborn mule, what can I say?
Anyways, she's from the series: Katekyoushi Hitman Reborn! andthere are a lot of attractive male charas in the series. This fandom is justnotorious for the yaoi shipping. Like it's very hardcore. There are sometimeshetero ships too but not a lot of it.
Let's put it this way: I've been turned away many times with the'but my muse is gay' excuse. Like---- okay? Did I ask to get in their pants?No. Canonically, Haru is die-hard in love with 'Tsuna-san' so what now? Don'tuse that against me. B[
Again, lots of very attractive male charas... and these musesattracted a certain muse from the DNangel series. (yes the same one I mentionedin a different ask if you read that one) Daisuke has forever been ruined and Irefuse to even try to read the series because the situation just gave me somuch stress.
So the muse was set to a very young age, most probably the canonage. I forget if that meant he was 16 or younger. I don't know the series so Idon't know the age. Let me tell you, I have so many issues with the person. SO.MANY.
Where to start? There is the fact that even without eveninteracting with the muses to start, they'd instantly try to form relationswith them. Sending some suggestive memes or asks. You cannot just go to aGokudera and have Daisuke glomp him. It doesn't work that way? If you knowGokudera, you should know that he does NOT take kindly to people who act toofamiliar.
The mun could NOT understand for the life of her that mun=/=muse. They kept sending anons about why are they so mean? Be nice to that'Daisuke kid'. Um... no? How about you calm down a bit and actually try tointeract rather than jumping the gun? It was in their rules they wantCHEMISTRY. They want to take things slow and not jump the gun. You broke so manyof their rules. You kept sending in anon asks and even if they tried to talk toyou on im, you'd try to play all the pity cards.
I will NEVER EVER live down the fact that you told someone: I'mtaking medication because of you. It's because of you that I'm depressed so I'mtaking pills.
EXCUSE MOI!?!?!?!?!??!?? What is wrong withyou??????????????????? SHE ACTUALLY LEFT TUMBLR RP BECAUSE OF YOU. I LOST AFRIEND BECAUSE OF YOU. Then you have the gall to say that you never said it?I've seen the screenshots, don't mess with me.
I do NOT condone underaged things at all. Your muse is 16 andthere is no indication as to whether or not you (the mun) were underaged aswell. Of course people will be nervous about the way you kept trying to force18+ content on them. If you are underaged, that's illegal and that can makethings very complicated. People kept telling you they were uncomfortable withit, but all you'd say is: "Age is only a number!~"
YEAH? WELL, JAIL ISĀ JAIL!
Now, I can think of at least 5 muses that I know were heavilyaffected by this person. I know for a FACT that at least 2 left because of themand their constant harassment. A very close friend of mine had to constantlytoggle between enabling and disabling anon asks because they'd send so many.
We don't understand how much anger and stress this caused me. Ireally detest seeing my friends bothered. Having two of them leave the rp sceneforever makes me so angry. They didn't really ever rp with any female muses.Only one that I saw and she was a space sheep alien... I'd show proof but theblogs have long since been deleted---.
Now, it isn't to say that they only targeted KHR muses. Therewere others too from DBZ, Jack Frost, Pitch, a final fantasy character (who Ican't remember), and many... many more.
If you didn't reply to them quickly enough, they would get madat you in im. They'd try to guilt trip you into answering quicker by sayingthings like they felt hated, why don't you like them? Are you avoiding them?Things of that nature. I've seen things of that nature from various people Italked to. I talked to a lot of people about their experiences with this mun.
You could see their ooc posts talking about how they felt and itsounded like this person just had a lot of self-confidence and perhaps trustissues. I know how that is. I felt maybe they were just misunderstood orsomething. IDK. I felt they could be given a chance to talk if someone tried toapproach them slowly. (more on this later)
Though I would look around and see all kinds of interactionswith other characters. Muns getting the same kind of harassments. It was evenWORSE when any of these muses interacted with a certain muse from the KHRfandom. Apparently the muses were dating? idk. Either way, Daisuke washorrendously jealous and territorial.
If you so much as interacted with that KHR muse or had anythingremotely flirty in thread, an anon was sure to tell you to back off. They'dgrill you with questions about 'how do you feel about them?' 'are you datingthem?' things like that. It's annoying. I saw those messages so much. That KHRmuse is sort of a main character so it's hard to NOT interact with them if youare in the KHR fandom?
Like what do you want? Chill out, boo.
I've seen many friends of mine just being harassed by anonsbecause they interacted with them. Hilariously enough that other mun didnothing about it. Even if people asked them to talk to that person. Make themstop harassing people. She apparently doesn't like drama and that's fine--- butif you are the REASON because a lot of the drama because your friend refuses tochill--- That is quite literally your problem.
I do not believe you are being a good friend if you allow suchbehavior to continue. Even if she had a reason to acting that horribly topeople, you could always try to explain to people so they understand. Whenpeople understand, they may be more willing to forgive. The fact that she didabsolutely nothing did absolutely nothing to help either of their case. In theend many people tried to avoid both muns.
IĀ played a female muse so it was fine for me to continueinteracting with them though. I never got hassled by them. I unfollowed thatKHR muse the moment I saw that she went along with doing 18+ stuff with thatunderage muse. I personally couldn't do it. It made me think of something in myown past and it made me feel horrible. I still interact with them, but I don'tfollow em.
So I saw their condescending attitude on many blogs. This onepitch in particular kept getting hounded over why they wouldn't be kind to Daisuke.(We realize this is PITCH, yes?) They were getting hounded by anons over whythey wouldn't give Daisuke (a kid) a chance. Like, it's illegal, that's why.
They weren't replying quickly enough to the threads they onlydid in ask format. The person was getting upset with how 'slow' they werebeing. They had time for 'other people' so why were you avoiding their threads?Why can't you reply already? Then it happened: "I'll give you one morechance to thread with me."
Yes, that is what was sent. I'm dead serious. I got sent thattoo so I mean, yeah.
Let's move away from other people and let's talk about ME. As Isaid, they don't interact with male muses. The only muse that I could possiblyplay as (and was super duper attractive) was Shugarl. I had a lot of caps in mycomputer because I like his face.
I sort of rp'ed as him 2 years prior to that but it didn'treally last as the only friend I interacted with left tumblr rp because ofdrama. So I shelved Shugarl and the Knights from the 'Legend of the Sun Knight'series. So I was like okay why not.
They do know of me from Haru's blog, so I had to make analterego mun. I named them Jay. This version acts like Neo when she's justtired and done with the world. I had to pretend to be a new person. Iinteracted with a close friend who was hassled by Daisuke a ton, and then Iinteracted with the KHR muse that Daisuke apparently is shipping with. That'show Daisuke took the bait and contacted me.
It didn't take long. I mean if you look at how attractiveShugarl is, wouldn't you also bite? lol
Anyways, I tried to talk to them, but unfortunately at the timeI was really sick. I was on a lot of medication because of my gastritis. It wasmost probably stress induced but also because of my diet? When I'm stressed, Icrave spicy food. If you know those super hot fire noodles... let's say I livedon that for a while lol. So yeah it got bad. Just drinking water had methrowing up everything in my stomach. I lost 15+ pounds in under a month.
It was bad. My one medication had a side effect of extremedrowsiness. Let me tell you, EXTREME was right. I was constantly just passingout. So I wasn't around much to talk or thread. Let's say that started gettingthem mad.
Why wasn't I responding? Did I hate them? Stop ignoring them. Ikept having to sorta apologize for being 'busy' aka I was super sick but Ididn't want to admit that. I'm stupid like that, okay?
So I kept asking them how they wanted to interact. I didn't knowa thing about their muse so I asked for their about page. Or even a rules page.They didn't have one. Too much work. Okay no, they had an about page but it wasliterally like their url, the name, age, and gender or something. A very simplebio.
They told me to read wiki to learn about the muse. Are youkidding me? No rules because why do they need one? Mistake number 1. They keptsaying they read rules of many blogs but we know they didn't. They keptbreaking them. It was in Jay's rules to not pester them too much about activitybecause he was a busy college student.
Did that stop them? Nope. //squint
Now let me tell you, even if I was sick, I still visited tumblrevery day. So making them wait for 3-5 hours was too long. I was going to begraduating and I had finals. YEAH, I'M BUSY. I was also super duper sick. Iwon't be online every waking moment, please. Did that stop them from getting somad at me about it? Nope.
I told them that I felt that they were guilt tripping me becausethey kept lamenting over how people don't want to interact with them. They keepgetting 'bullied' by people. I told them that I felt they were guilt trippingme at the moment. They kept saying that they weren't before they blocked me.Then a week passed and they talked to me like 'sorry I accidentally blockedyou!'
Sure. okay.
So I was like 'okay we can thread but I want to talk to youabout how I felt you were guilt tripping me.'
INSTA-BLOCKED.
I'm not kidding. I got blocked by just that. Do you understandhow much my animosity spiked because of that? My blood was curdling I was somad.
So another like half a week passed and they say something alongthe lines of:
"I'll give you another chance, do you want to thread with meor not?"
"I already told you that I want to thread with you. Youkeep asking me this. This is the 5th time you asked me. How many times do Ihave to tell you yes? Do you not understand that I'm busy? I'm a collegestudent. I'm not always online. I also told you saying things like that isreally guilt trippy."
Insta-blocked. I was mad, so I went off so I can understand theblock.
Still.
After being blocked for the THIRD time, I soft-blocked them.They tried to follow me again and sent a message: hi! :) This time Iinsta-blocked them. Not about that life.
I love how they always started and talked with cat emojis. Bylove, I MEAN I HATE IT WITH A DIE HARD PASSION. It was like they cared fornothing that other people felt. It was their way or the high way. They couldn'tbother to learn to do anything for other people.
Don't get me started on the fact that they didn't tag anythingand they NEVER EVER CUT THREADS. NEVER. Do you know how hard it was for me tofind anything on that blog? One thread was over 100 notes long and it wasn'tcut. Let that sink in.
It was long.
I had them followed on Shugarl's first blog. Do you know what mydash looked like? It was one-liner 100+ note uncut thread HELL.
So in other words, I wanted to talk to them and be a friend.Someone that they could talk to. I tried to talk to them many times but theykept saying 'I'm feeling uncomfortable so I don't want to talk about thisanymore'.
Dude, one time all I said was: "I think you should tryputting up a rules page. A lot of people like seeing one."
"I feel uncomfortable so I want to talk about somethingelse."
.... wut. Like, WHAT? I was just... giving you advice? It wasthe start of our interactions too. I just-- what?
I kept asking them if they wanted me to write the starter andthey kept holding back like 'I want to talk it out first' because they didn'tknow my muse. So I explained to them and they kept asking stupid questions.
"So he's an angry human?"Ā "I just told you he's a demon. Like, heās a real demon."Ā "Oh okay! :) So he's got special powers. He's got angelic powers?""No... I just told you he's a demon."Ā "What powers does he have?"Ā "He makes use of mathematical equations to summon blades and otherthings."Ā "Oh okay."
5 mins later."Can you tell me more about his fire powers?"Ā "... He doesn't have fire powers??? Are you even reading any of what I'msaying? You are the one who asked me to tell you about my muse. It's rude foryou to not be properly reading."Ā "I don't feel comfortable anymore, so I'm going to go to bed. Bye! =^.^="
I legit felt like I got cancer from this person.
I'm so serious. I forever laugh how they tried to make mepromise to be nice to Daisuke.
"I can't promise that. Shugarl is a demon. He's not nice,but he can be nice towards kids sometimes. You need to make Daisukebehave."
"I can make him glomp him and have marshmallows!"
"He will literally kick Daisuke if you do that. I told youhe's not nice."
"He's such a meanie!"
"He's a literal demon."
It was like talking to a 5 year old.
So in the end, I tried to interact with them but they drove meso insane we didn't even get that far before I finally blocked them forever.
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TLDR: I tried to give them a chance but I couldn't do it. Mypatience reached it's limit and I blocked them. This is the first and only rpblog I ever blocked to truly block them and not to softblock. All because ofthis person, the name 'Daisuke' makes me feel unjust rage, and I'll never everlook at DNangel the same way. I'll never even attempt to touch the serieseither.
#Anonymous ask#anonymous answered#Fatenet meme#Meme answered#answered ask#thanks for the ask!#Neo speaks
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About Valve OCs and the blog
This has been on my mind for a while.
This blog never got a satisfying end in my books, and Iām sure for other readers as well. Even though closure is a myth perpetuated by mainstream media, I will make this post to try to rectify past mistakes and general truancy of this blog. I have my own suspicions that most of my readers are dead (considering all of the porn bots are now starting to follow me), so I write this post in the darkness of the night into the void that is Tumblr. Read my cry if you care.
Firstly, this blog will never update again. There are multiple factors that have led to this blogās extinction and I think theyāre important to address
Motivation
This blog took up a large chunk of my life back when it was active. Donāt get me wrong, bad art still gets me to cringe and I find myself on occasion still pining over weird ocs and art styles on Deviantart. However, maintaining it as a blog with daily updates became a chore for me along with promising critiques of ocs and such. Iāve come to discover that I canāt do what I love as āāāworkāāā. While bad art still remains a passion for me, I donāt see myself continuing this in blog format.
OCs have changed
The OC market has changed. Base art has definitely taken a downturn in the past few years and youāre more likely to see people hand-drawing their ocs or writing them out. Thanks with the culture of memeing about bootleg fandom ocs (This is my own original character blonic, donut steels) , it seems that people are more drawn towards creating their own worlds and characters rather than shoving their mary sue into their current fan favorite content. These are good changes in terms of originality for artists and writers in my opinion.
However, a lot of the formats for OCs have changed as well. There tends to be an emphasis on their sexuality and race in OC culture now. I donāt consider that a bad thing but Iād rather not poke that hornetās nest of gender identity and race of fictional characters. What used to be the standard straight, bi, gay has expanded into other territories that I am unfamiliar with and now we have more ocs outside of the standard white chick but with Japanese last name because the creator really likes naruto. Again, this just seems to be the trend and I think my last few revival posts kinda show them.
Valve as a games publisher
LOL whenās half life 3???
Valve has definitely moved from being a game developer to a digital distributor.Ā Steam definitely seems to be their focus outside of Hat/Weapon Skin collecting and online gambling (and also their weird consoles/controllers???). Not that I would continue this blog if they released more content (They published another update to the TF2 comic, canāt wait for that to get updated in a year).
Along with this slump of their own original content, this has led to a slump in original characters for their franchises. There are not as many fan ocs and art isnāt being produced for their franchises (except maybe with comic updates for TF2 and nostalgia for old games).
This blog was created at the optimal time imo with L4D2 still being fresh, TF2 still having an active userbase, and Portal 2 giving some great content in terms of creative material.
Also Iām not interested in reviewing Dota 2 art and I donāt think there are enough Counterstrike ocs.
Negativity
I donāt know if this blog was a source of positive or negative energy. On one hand, I was ridiculing peopleās art without much hesitation and not acknowledging how much time and effort that might have been put in by the artist. But on the other hand, it provided laughs for people during its duration and gave me a creative outlet in terms of humor, arguments, and writing. I think I did my best to avoid any harassment for these artists by removing any watermarks that might lead any rude reader to them, but Iāll never know if they suffered any bullying. Obviously Iām not going to put this on my resume as work experience but I like to think that this blog help think critically about their content, regardless of what role you played on the blog be it me, a submitter, an observer, or the subject. Maybe if some supreme being questions why I started this blog in the afterlife, I can tell them I did it for the lolz.
In the end, I think I did more harm than any general good for the world and nobody will really understand that weird pain if I try to repent for it publicly. I donāt know of any key examples of this (or really remember because I havenāt done this shit in years), but I do apologize if I ruined anyoneās ambitions for writing/drawing.
Iām glad there is a stronger hugbox mentality for artists who arenāt very good and I embrace that style of encouragement. I guess my only concern is veering too far into that and just embracing everything as perfect and awesome and never improving. Criticism has its place in society.
Perhaps the real lesson is that who the hell gives a shit about what you post on the internet. Why should you give a stranger any control over how much your art is worth? However, this also gives the argument into determining if any of your art is worth anything based on your preconceived notions on your artās merits since you are only a stranger to me. Why should you tell me that your art is valid and equal to anything else produced when it looks like you drew it with your tablet pen stuck up your ass?
Maybe we all just need to learn to stop giving invisible voices the power to ruin our emotional states and work on our self satisfaction.
Growing up????
I wrote most of this blog like a million years ago. It was a stronger part of my identity and a part of a community in a way of similar blogs in the same style. But I donāt really relate to the content as much I used to. Valve games are still near and dear to me, but theyāre more nostalgic than my current flame and muse. I feel the same happened to other blogs in the same vein as mine. Perhaps also age and the changes of time led to our own focuses in our own lives than looking at the scribbles of some stranger on the internet. While itās still one of my internet past times, it is not my main focus in life to critique bad art (unless it starts paying serious dosh). I just donāt relate to the words and passions anymore. In a way, this is my own cringe that artists produce when theyāre young on Deviantart. Itās kind of funny in a weird way.
This blog will continue to remain up but Iāll probably move into another blog of some sort (I accidentally made this my primary blog and I canāt delete it). It sort of became my main lurking blog and I guess its time that I make a less weird not ghost blog (Iām probably confusing a lot of the people that I follow with my constant hearts and comments).
I guess I wanna say thanks for all of the people who followed this blog and its contents. I probably wouldnāt have continued for very long without followers so youāre all to blame for this negative impact Iāve made on the world (jkjk). I like to think weāre connected with our mutual spirit in improving how we create things and wanting to see improvement in others. I think this blog helped me see the dumbest of things and not be afraid to say it was dumb and I hope it did for you as well. I also hope it brought you laughs in the content that was displayed or the humor I attempted to convey. It did genuinely warm my heart whenever I got a heart, reply, reblog, or messages to keep up the work. It kind of makes me sad to think that I left rather abruptly, but better blogs have died quicker and quieter. Simple fact of life really. Thank god my ego keeps me in check to constantly remind people of my existence.
To any artists out there, bad art is a fact of life. You do not come out of the womb knowing how to do two point perspective and 3d shapes. You mess up doing 3d shapes each any every time until you get it and then move on to the next thing youāre not good at. Thereās a common TIL leddit post about how Michaelangelo burnt all of his old works so nobody would know how bad he was when he was starting out. I donāt know how true that is, but thatās not a great mentality to have for your art. Seeing that bridge between your former self and current self is important for seeing self growth in your skills. Plus you wonāt have those juicy likes and comments on instagram when you do the art redraw and show how far you come like how can you skimp on that you dingus.
All of the great content creators right now love showing off the shitty art they did as kids because it gives them a sense of progress in their work and their accomplishments and continues to drive them in their own works. (unless youāre rebecca sugar and drew ed edd and eddy shipping porn lol). Heck, some of them even take the stuff that was once cliche characters and expanded on them in their own Original Universe Donut Steel. And thanks to their own Original Universe Donut Steel, now tens of thousands of impressionable young artists can look at it and say āthatās awesome, but it would be way better if there was my own character...ā.
OCs are weirdly one of the ultimate ways of fan expression where you enjoy the content so much you wish you were part of it. Even though itās very disjointed and out of place, itās usually done in a place of love for the franchise or the characters. So for those of you that are doing that still, keep at it I guess.
Fan art is sorta in the same way where you enjoy something so much that you want to replicate the style/themes/characters in your own or the contentās style. While not as extreme, itās still in the same place of love and people generally like that more than original shit anyways so continue to make it so I can buy your posters at anime conventions without supporting the original creator lol.Ā
If you want to harass me further for my sins against budding artists, I guess Iāll link my personal blog if anyone actually asks me. I also wrote this at 3 am so it is extremely unedited and awful but itās the most āpureā for my usual diatribe. Consider it my first OC for the blog.
Good night, good life, and farewell.
#valve#terriblevalveartandocs#wow this dead blog finally got an obiturary#that's right grandma decided to haunt this blog and repeat this blog post to those who enter#came back from the dead to remind you i'm dead#but this is on my own terms death ahahahah#there go my dreams of being tumblr famous#i love all of my ...*looks at smuged handwriting* smefty hundred followers#NOW I CAN SLEEP#this was actually part of my repentance for church that my pastor assigned me#now i can get into heaven where i belong#also the real reason i stopped updating was because i was in prison for 3 years for cyberbullying#i hurt too many bronies feelings#thankfully i'm back and i ended up joining a brony prison gang#guess what my cutie mark is#why do i still think i'm funny
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Cupkayke Rewatches/Liveblogs Boueibu!
Season 1, Episode 4
I channeled En for about a week and was too lazy to quit playing Resident Evil and finish this liveblog buuuut better late than never, right?! I may only manage one of these a week but I just had a bunch of fanfic ideas (unrelated to watching the episode) so I figured Iād press onward and finish these. Mostly cuz Iām really interested in getting to season 2 because the Beppus are my favorite. But for now- ITāS THE EPISODE WHERE THEY GET BABYFIED! OMG CUTENESS ABOUND.
PS- I love the discussion that happened from my previous liveblog! Thank you @nardaviel, @angry-jewish-magical-girl (whom I cannot tag for some reason), @magiccatprincess and everyone else who contributed :3 ( @thatlittledandere I absolutely loved your flailing in your tags lol <3) Reactions make this a whole lot more fun for me- especially because the screencapping and formatting is so tedious. But anyway! ONWARD! I doubt this episode Iāll get that deep but WHO KNOWS.
OH HERE WE GO FEELS AND BACKSTORY
LOOK AT THE BABIES
Although why are they unsupervised in a field all alone as like elementary schoolers WTF WHERE ARE THEIR PARENTS?
Cliche wish upon a star!
Srz tho their voices are SO CUTE- who did they get for the baby voices???Ā
Look at how cute blushy baby Atchan is!
BUT I AM A CHILD ATCHAN SO LOGICAL YET SO MUCH SHADE
CUTE BABY KINCHAN AND HISĀ āJUST IN CASEā WISH AND HIS BLUSHING
Seriously look at this smol child. I think when I first watched the series this was the scene where I was first likeĀ āAWWWā at any of the SC.
-aaaaaand cut off
āDonāt mind me Iām just being broody and emo in the office with the lights out looking at the stars while I reminisce about my first love childhood friend who ditched me to go eat fucking curry with a pleb NBD IāM FINEā
That Arima Sass(tm) I didnāt remember him being so... memorable with his lines until this rewatch lol (oops I feel bad for ignoring him the first time around heās so cute)
"Arima I s2g if you say one more word I will put snails on everything you ownā
I didnāt cap this but in hindsight of the end of the season, his wish going from friendship to world domination is a perfect place for the āwell that escalated quicklyā memeā¦
Tickling Wombat looks so fun lol
I think I had a point about theĀ āstinkā debate but I have since forgotten it so here have some silly screencaps of Wombat freaking out and Yumoto being adorable
QUICK SOMEONE WHOāS NEVER WATCHED BOUEIBU EXPLAIN WHATāS HAPPENING HERE.
I mostly just love their faces lololololol I laughed for like 5 minutes after taking this
Side note- Poor Wombat- heās a sentient creature that gets treated like a pet/plaything/child- no wonder he runs away from Yumoto every chance he gets
THE BIRTH OF WOM-SAN
More screencaps with no explanation other than I laughed harder than I should at them. THE EYES KIND OF REMIND ME OF HAYAO MIYAZAKI WHY?
Dads that are 12,000% done with this shit
Enās views on childishness/high school students in this scene is kind of telling- he seems overly image-conscious, yet he doesnāt want to be seen as old. Maybe Atsushiās worrying is rubbing off on him?
Yumoto did you forget that you fight monsters on a weekly basis??? What ELSE is the definition of Superhero???
I wonder how they feel looking at basically a NAKED DEAD BODY all the time. Itās probably not fu- WAIT.
THIS HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH ANYTHING
BUT WHEN I TOOK THIS SCREENCAP I CAME TO THE HORRIFYING REALIZATION THAT TAWARAYAMA-SENSI LOOKS JUST LIKE MY DAD
MY DAD USED TO BE A MIDDLE SCHOOL TEACHER AND HAS GRAY POOFY HAIR AND A MUSTACHE AND NOW I CANNOT UNSEE IT
Cupkayke.exe has stopped working
anyway
WHAT IS IT WITH THE SIDE CHARACTERS AND FREAKY EYES IN THIS SHOW
Io all about that money. Why do I find this exchange hilarious?
WAS THAT TEASING
OMG YUMOTO AND HIS SENPAIS THIS IS ADORABLE
SHOT THROUGH THE HEART
Also I JUST NOTICED that Ryuu and Ioās washing supplies are color codedĀ by their hair/battle lover outfits omg
Who was it who had that headcanon that their battle lover outfits were chosen because of their favorite colors?
Lololol well Ryuu is the youngest other than Yumoto, isnāt he?
En does have a point
But Ryuuās views on his looks here are interesting- he knows heās stereotypicallyĀ āyoungā looking, so he makes do with what he has and turns up the charm to 100
I mean... heās good at it, too. Look at that last screencap.
Also Yumoto in that screencap is splashing water through his hands LOL EVEN IN THE BACKGROUND HEāS ENFORCING THE CHILDISH NARRATIVE
ā¦what was the point of Yumoto interrupting there?
Did I miss a joke?
More on Enās view of age/maturity and Yumoto blowing bubbles like a child in the background
I can definitely see where Yumoto would rub some people the wrong way here- his childishness is being played too heavy-handedly to just be for laughs
But itās necessary Boueibu format foreshadowing
Ryuu looking so cool, so casual washing his feet
HOW CHILD HOW
Also I definitely noticed the pink bath supplies in this screencap
Senior must not be a common term for students in Japanese
Lololol Ryuu so cheeky
I feel like this line would get localized into something really cheesy or lame likeĀ āold manā when dubbed into English
There we have it.
ALSO BUTTS
Enās age crisis- again, he has a desire not to be seen as immature and is quick to call out childish behavior in others, but the moment his attention is brought to how he might be percieved asĀ āoldā, he obsesses on the negative aspects of it instead of the positive- which he was stressing as the better option only moments before.
This is really interesting but I donāt quite know what to make of it. If he doesnāt want to be seen as childish, but doesnāt want to be seen as old, what does he want to be seen as? Simply exactly his age? Boy, En, I have news for you... unless youāre a genetic miracle, no one looks exactly their age.
Seriously Iām twenty-fucking-five and I STILL get carded everywhere because I look 18 T_____T
YUMOTO YOU DONāT NEED TO BE BALD
GLAMOR SHOTS TIME
STARTING WITH RYUUāS ASS
I KNOW EVERYBODY AND THEIR BROTHER HAS TAKEN THIS SCREENCAP BUT DAMMIT JUST LET ME-
...bubble butt, bubble bubble bubble butt~
Yumoto your laugh is creepy
Again Io being sexy
En you arenāt fooling anyone, Atsushiās using his glamor shot to worry about you- even tho my screencap apparently missed the caption
And then they keep splashing like kids lol
What a nickname
Iāve noticed the SC almost always speaks in a certain order- Arima, Akoya, Kinshirou
Is this on purpose or just arbitrary?
ā¦morning cuddlesā¦
Gora:Ā ā...dafuq kind of club is this defense club???ā
AND DIRECTLY CONTRADICTING THE LAST EPISODE YUMOTO IS NOT INTERESTED IN PICKING UP GIRLS
This definitely supports theĀ ācumpulsory heterosexualityā theory, however; Yumoto last episode was talking about girls in a polite,Ā āthis is what Iām supposed to doā kind of way. This episode, he must feel freer with his feelings that he can admit that heās not interested to his senpais.
Or maybe cuddling Wombat is just WAY more fun than all of those things lol
EN STOP IT YOU ARE NOT OLD-
OH. Itās a vanity thing, is it?
Wow Atsushi talk about throwing shade
Srz is that any way to talk to your boyfriend???
I wish I knew what animes they were referencing - I took a bunch of caps here but theyāre not really relevant I guess unless someone wants to tell me what theyāre talking about
En basically called Atsushi an otaku ffft
WHY ARE YOU PETTING EN YUMOTO
HIS HAIR IS NOWHERE NEAR AS FLUFFY AS YOURS
Though En definitely looks cute when heās being tickled... ok Yumoto carry on
ā¦.Ryuu what are you talking about approximately no one is fooled by your indifference
TICKLE FIGHT
This scene is adorable - THE BLUSHES
So many laughs
YUMOTO NOTICING THAT AND NOT HAVING ANY REACTION
Aww theyāre all so smol
Also the rest of them, their eyes were kept proportionate to their bodies but LOOK AT EN
His eyes are like waaaaay bigger and innocent
Double AWWW
The nodding at Yumotoās stupidity lolol
Tho Yumoto still manages to be adorable wtf look at his happy face
Your hair is VERY pink like why
BABY TRANSFORMATIONS AWWW
But seriously theĀ ālove makingā thing sounds SOOOO inappropriate coming out of smol Yumoto
Like when Wombat said it I cringed
If it werenāt for the gutter my mind would be homeless
THE BAGGY CLOTHES
Hi there, fourth wall
Omg Ryuu why are you so cute
SMOL POWERS
Tripping on the clothes or perhaps because of little legs
NOW IO IS TOO ADORABLE FOR WORDS STAHHHHHHP
No seriously look at his face!
Though his pupils are two different sizes in this screencap lol
CHILD ENDANGERMENT DUDE
Atchan with more fourth wall breaking
And they figured out the enemy very quickly! They seem more observant as children than they are regularly
Okay, they say kindergarteners but they look like 3 year olds or babies
I CANNOT at Ryuuās hair spikes getting smaller and less detailed
Also his face reminds me that his voice in this scene is hysterical
THE MODESTY LEAVES
ATSUSHI WHY IS YOUR BUTT IN THE AIR STOP THAT
En and the fourth wall for the third time
RYUU WHY ARE YOU WORRYING ABOUT YOUR PENIS
And youād think image-conscious Atsushi would be the one most embarrassed about being naked babies in public but NO APPARENTLY IO IS SUPER SHY
Sad baby Io sounds so pathetic
And Ryuu hardly seems worried
Yumoto rolled a perception check and got a 20 like whoah
RYUU AND EN ARE SAVAGE AFĀ
SMOL NAKED BABIES ATTEMPTING TO LOOK BADASS- all except Io who just wants the fuck out of here lol
How are they even still able to fight?? Their powers were diminished earlier??? Is it because they realized it was an illusion?
CHUBBEH BABY BUTT
AAAAND NAKED IN PUBLIC
Did their clothes just vanish???
And Ioās STILL embarrassed.
Meanwhile Yumoto has his priorities straight I guess
Also WHY IS IT SUDDENLY NIGHTTIME WASNāT IT JUST MORNING CUDDLES TIME???
YOUāRE JUST WORRIED ABOUT THEM BEATING YOU I MEAN CāMON AT LEAST LAUGH AT THEIR NUDITY
OH ITāS NIGHT SO HE CAN LOOK AT THE STARS AND REMEMBER THINGS AGAIN THATāS WHY IT ALL HAS TO COME FULL CIRCLE BECAUSE PLOT
Ryuu you have no tact sheesh
Atsushi is STILL throwing shade like a pro. He must take lessons from Arima the sass master.
And we end on Atsushi reminiscing about Kinshirou and their stargazing adventures but THIS BOTHERS ME BECAUSE OF COURSE YOU FUCKING KNOW WHAT HE WISHED FOR YOU DIP. Context wise, itās obvious Kinshirou told him. I mean, he might be meaning heās since forgotten the wish (which would explain his falling out with Kinshirou in another dimension other than the curry thing) but showing that flashback in such detail and then having Atsushi remember it (or hinted that he remembers it) but without hinting that he knows what Kinshirou wished for is just kind of.... idk it bothers me. That line wasnāt 100% necessary, or perhaps it could have been something likeĀ āI donāt remember what he wished forā. Of course, for all I know he could have said that but crunchyroll could have translated it poorly idk.
Buuuut thatās the end! That was mostly just an enjoyableĀ āawwā episode with not a lot of substance other than we discover that Kinshirou is dramatic AF, En is self conscious (perhaps even moreso than Atsushi, or possibly just vain) and Io is definitely embarrassed by public nudity. Hm. Maybe you guys have some more intelligent commentary.
Iām gonna shoot to get Ep 5 done in the next couple days (maybe hours... but this shit takes forever) because I want to finish compiling all this stuff so I can get to writing these plot bunnies that just bit me in the ass... buuuut I need research. Man... En the lazy is definitely my spirit animal OTL
#cupkayke rewatches boueibu#cupkaykey rewatches boueibu#boueibu#binan koukou chikyuu bouei bu love!#binan kÅkÅ chikyÅ« bÅei bu love!#binan high school earth defense club love!#Binan Koukou Chikyuu Bouei-bu LOVE!#Cute High Earth Defense Club Love!#boueibu meta
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